#socially isolated

[moonshadow-thoughts]

Do you ever feel like you don't belong anywhere? Like there is no place and no people for you?

[fortunatelev]

I can't help but to feel a bit salty/jealous of people who have friends to talk to and hang out with. And I am also angry that I had to be dealt such a shit hand at social interaction. Cant wait to be done with this life. Tired of always being sad, depressed, and lonely. One day I won't have to anymore. I find nothing exciting or happy about my life anyway.

[rabbit-dance]

@whumpcember Prompt of the Day is "Isolation."

Before Cal moved in, a normal thing for DJ to do on nice days was stand at his window and watch everyone else enjoying themselves.

While this is not a specific moment per se, this is probably what DJ was doing before Dr. King's assistant Yang knocked on his door to let him know that he was getting a roommate.

Dangit, I realized that I forgot to color his shirt black. Oh, well.

You can see their first meeting here: Cal Arrives at Yersinia

[northernirelandengima]

When your anxious ass does something good and actually creates a bond with someone.

[huniegloom]

Knowing how socially awkward I was to the point it made others uncomfortable makes me hope to never interact with the people I have met in the past. I feel so bad looking back and I wish I could go back in time and explain myself but it feels like it’s too late now. Especially with my struggle with eye contact specifically staring, zoning out at like the worst times can be extremely embarrassing . It’s hard to work on it when people already assume the worst of you when that’s not the case at all. It just makes my anxiety worse.

[calmmyfears]

I absolutely love living on my own and having no one but myself to be responsible for. But I'm also still weirded out by not having anyone to talk to when waking up or saying goodnight to. I am pretty comfortable in this loneliness, always have been, but I also realize it shouldn't be this way and I wasn't born to live my life alone.

[eloise-at-the-marquee]

Anyone else out there dealing with severe agoraphobic symptoms and want to talk? I’m trying to figure out a way to leave my apartment on my own with no car or support system. It feels so impossible. I would love to talk to someone else familiar with agoraphobia (feel free to dm or send an ask). It has lead to me living this unconventional lifestyle that many people don’t understand; I don’t want to live completely isolated like this any more. I feel helpless and trapped and ashamed. Life feels like a burden. October used to be my favorite time of year but now it feels like it isn’t even happening for me.

Also, Idk if anyone will see this but just in case: I have tried years of meds and intensive therapy (what was available to me through my insurance).

[hauntedpearl]

9, 12, 14, 15!!!!

helloo <333

9. Something that makes you glad you are Desi?

funny answer is that the kind of pighead that i am, if i was white. hey ram. heyyyy raammmmm 🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾🙏🏾

seriously tho i don't really think about it that much? like. this is all I've known I'm not "glad" of my desiness specifically or anything. it's just a thing yk. idk idk agdgdjdj. like ig the mythology and culture are nice.

12. Favourite Indian singer and song?

oh this is so hard omg. i have sooooo many. okay. uhh. spins mental wheel. Mohammad Rafi and uh. Mere Saamne Wali Khidki mein?

14. A core desi memory?

there's many!!! i guess this question was more geared towards. like. NRIs.

one thing i remember fondly from my childhood is like. playing Holi every year and getting stained pink for the week after! SO FUN!!!

15. Favourite person from your extended family?

girl omg these questions are sooo hard 😭😭😭 my parents are like from different castes so I'm not really close to either sides of my family because *waves hand at the country* reasons. But i guess my mom's youngest sister is alright!

desi asks

[woah-buddy-thats-hot]

The DND button looking so sexy when I'm at my absolute lowest.

ADHD brain can't remember others that care about me exist when I delete the app they contact me on <3

[dickdownwizard77]

Isolation has been really getting to me, I don't go out unless I need to run errands, I have no reason to and I don't know HOW I can find a reason to.

Like I knew a sudden move back to my home country wouldn't be easy but I fucking hate it here, back at home everything made sense and I had just begun coming out of my shell. I could've had friends, I could've felt at home but It's too late for that.

In my entire teenage years I've felt like a teenager for a week, when I attended my new school for a little while back in the country I lived in prior. I've never had people genuinely like me for who I am and want to be around me before, and to just have everything stripped away as soon as I think things will get better feels like some cruel joke.

I just want to have a reason to wake up in the morning besides getting online and waiting for non existent text messages like a total fuckin loser.

[tvgirl-4-life]

you and me oliv oliv…

[moonshadow-thoughts]

I don't think people understand what it means to be lonely and misunderstood for an entire life.

When I was a lonely child I was always thinking to myself "It will be okay, I will have friends when I'm a teenager."

When I was a lonely teenager I always thought to myself "its okay, I will have friends and a relationship when I'm an adult."

But now that I'm an adult I realize, its much more likely that it will stay that way forever. I will never belong anywhere.

[fortunatelev]

I logged out and stopped playing early. Idk...I'm just bored...like I have no one to hang out with and talk to and sometimes it gets a bit depressing seeing other people hanging out and having fun together. Anytime I have tried to make friends and be kind to people I would always get treated like garbage. I have nothing but traumatic memories of people and how they all treated me like shit. Like wow...am I really that unlikeable? Why was I even born then? 😅

But seriously, though. While it is true that you dont need to have friends, life is more fun when you do have them. Right now...I'm just bored. Lonely and bored. Life feels so dull and pointless. Like?? What's the point to anything? Like you think you are living right and it's like "Okay God I cut off the toxic friends and the people who were bad influences so when am I going to have people to talk to or am I just going to be destined to talk to myself for the rest of my life?" And that is what I actually do. I have full conversations with myself because I have no one to actually talk to. I guess God wanted me to be isolated from everyone and not have any social skills. lol okay so that made me undeniably crazy. what was the point of that exactly? what is the point of me being here? to be a laughing stock to people? to be the butt of a joke? like why? what is the purpose of me being on this earth. I'm tired of everyday being the same thing over and over.

I feel like I dont really have much of a life nor much to offer. I can't work or drive because of my mental health and my inability to handle stress and my crippling anxiety. I have no social skills and lack the proper necessary skills to make connections and talk to people. Why the hell am I here? I'm just so bored with my damn life.

It must be nice for the people who do have friends and who do have relationships. You're fortunate. I'll probably never have that especially since it seems like God clearly doesn't want me to. I am wondering why I am even still serving Him. I know I shouldn't be envious of people or covet what they have and I dont want to but?? You arent exactly helping me not to now are you? I want friends...I want a relationship...I want human connection but I never get that. I just get treated like garbage like I am nothing and worthless. Its like each time I see people hanging out that is just the universe's way of telling me "yeah you will never have anyone or connect with them. you will never have that. they are fortunate and you arent". And where are you in this, God? Do you care about my suffering? You said in your word for us to delight ourselves in you and serve you and I have done that and even so with all of the time I have given you and all the times I have defended your name and honored you, I get nothing in the end but suffering. How is that fair?

I dont connect with anyone and any connection I do try to make always falls through the cracks and I have to do all the work while they lose interest and stop talking to me. Now I no longer trust anyone after all the betrayals and abandonment. My life just sucks and I'm tired of living it honestly. Like the people who treat me bad always have people to support them and help them but I get absolutely nothing but people telling me that "they dont enjoy being around me when I am sad". How is it that other people can get support and love and they dont even serve you and yet I get absolutely nothing when I am serving you.

I just dont understand this. God, I have served you and have made every effort to revere you but it just feels like you always want me to be lonely and suffering which is already horrifically bad for my terrible mental health. Do you even care? I know I am supposed to serve you and all but given the fact that I already suffer with my mental health, why do I need to have a lack of social skills, too? That just seems cruel of you. I am trying to trust you but I am beginning to lose my faith in you. I don't feel motivated to live this life anymore.

[starshipsys]

🛰️I just realized that I literally only talk to four people and being acknowledged by anyone outside my very small circle is enough overwhelming emotion to make me ???:$:):7/)/)/8/&-$/ feel things, idk what to do now, ack… I am not socially deprived at all.

[escapistcatontheinternet]

i love the extras of dungeon meshi in how it fleshes out the world because they make it so much more evident how race affects every part of the story while avoiding the zootopia racism problem. like obv a main theme of the story is like, humanity and desire, 'to eat is to live', etc, but since the majority of it takes place in the dungeon isolated from society and thru the lens of laios, the racial aspects play out more like shadows on a wall for most of the story.

then in the extras we get comics like this

which at a glance fleshes out the racial aspects via a character explaining the racial rules of universe - humans have x amount of bones, while orcs and kobolds have more. however, if u take it less straightforwardly, it points out how the concept of 'human' is a constructed concept in the world. the fact that there are different categories of human in different parts of the world based off of what types of humanoids occur there is already a demonstration of this. in response, the bones explanation seems to kabru and the characters as an objective way of measuring humans vs nonhumans.

but obv, when the culture was deciding what humanoids were humans and nonhumans, they weren't blindly analyzing skeletons and then deciding. just visually, one can glean that orcs and kobolds look less like the ingroup of tallmen, elves, dwarves, gnomes, etc. the bones explanation appears as a justification for that immediate prejudice under a scientific guise - I'm sure that one could come up with the same number of physical differences between a gnome and an elf that they would find between a tallman and an orc. it sounds a lot better to say 'well, an orc has 230 bones while a human has 206' then 'well, an orc looks ewwww yucky yucky to me while a human looks normal'.

and what i like abt the comic is that the characters take the explanation at face value for the most part. when a contradiction is brought up in the oni, kabru can neatly slot them into the predetermined number of bones framework. bc that's kinda how it works irl - there r cultural prejudices that we can posthumously justify, and if we find something outside of it, we can twist it to fit into our predetermined binary. however, since the reader does not live in a world where there are orcs and kobolds to be prejudiced against, we can see that flaw in the cultural logic. when the party encounters the orcs, the number of bones has no bearing on their humanity. They r shown to be cliquish and distrusting of outsiders, but not any more than the elves are later in the story.

tldr dungeon meshi worldbuilding is so good