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daydadahlias · 10 months
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did you end up getting it??
nope, still just a lump of unbaked unmarked dough
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dykeasc · 2 years
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the depp/heard trial and the way people so easily fell for a misogynistic smear campaign, reminded of me of my primal issue with twitter nd the reason why i decided to stay away from it before the presidential elections of my country, is that people are really fucking stupid there.
#during the presidential elections i found comfort of having other people as terrified of the prospect of being under a fascist regime again#after the elections being on twt would irk me here and there but i didnt count with the entire world unifying to be imbeciles together#i really wouldnt touch facebook or instagram not even with a stick bcs the idiocy is Big there#but twt people make fun of people that use those apps like theyre any better or less idiotic 😭😭😭 like!#i legit saw some woman say 'im so disappointed of journalists since most of them didn't side with depp! i won't trust journalism again!'#MMM its almost like journalists' work isn't to investigate and focus on finding and exposing the truth and standing by it!!#if most journalists are baffled by everyone siding with depp is bcs surely they all do a more meticulous work at investigating and - KNOW!!#BEING MAD AT JOURNALISTS EXPOSING FACTS ONLY MEAN YOU DON'T EVEN READ OR TRY TO BEFORE EMITTING AN OPINION...!#its - i'm genuinely stunned by how dumb nd misogynistic everyone are.#'did you watch the trial?' the new 'i dont read and don't inform myself and i'm super misogynistic btw!'#oh and its worse bcs people watched that goddamned trial and didn't fucking understand it.#bcs they're all running like fucking idiots spreading the lie that the trial concluded that depp is 'innocent' like???! no it didn't NXNCND#he's still an abuser. the trial concluded he did abuse heard but she can't talk about it. which is horrendous for DV victims.#so people don't even understand what they watch. and that's so dangerous about society. so so dangerous. i'm in shock.#its pathetic bcs these people don't read but dont understand what they watch either... horrendous truly.
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cloudcountry · 1 year
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if you have any fic recommendations with azul in his octoform i'd literally marry you rn
i love him too much and the fics where he's in his merform always hits the best but there's so little of them i'm starving
okay i went DIGGING for you. you made me realize that yes, merform azul content is practically non-existent. i am definitely going to write more in the future because omg. WHERE IS HE.
i tried finding some on ao3 but i literally couldnt (well, not sfw ones anyway) so i tried to find at least five on tumblr!!!
they're under the cut since i dont know how long this is going to be OOPS
THIS ONE IS AN ALL TIME FAV. i love love love love love LOVE this one, its so cute and fluffy and i find myself coming back to read it over and over again JHSGHJSDJG GAHHHHHH JUST TRUST ME ON THIS ITS SO GOOD (PLUS ruggie and jamil kissers!!! the author wrote similar things for them and both are them are super cute too!!!!)
hehe clingy azul C: fluffy!!! super fluffy!!! he holds you with his tentacles and just drifts around in the water whta more could you ask for. this is literally teh bare minimum i am down horrendous for him why didnt the universe give me azul wtf!!!!!!!!!!!
READER CALLS HIM SILLY AT THE END@@%$#@$!$#@!#$%!@#%$#%$!@#$%!@#$%!@%$#@ ITS SO FLUFFY AND CUTE I LOVE THAT hes so cute adn adorable and squishy and i LOB HIM SOBBING
THIS FUCKING FIC I WAS TRYING SO HARD TO FIND IT BECAUSE I LOOOOVE MARINE BIO AND I HAVE AN LIL OCTOPUS PLUSHIE I NAMED AZUL JR I CAN PROHECT SO HARD ONTO READER HERE WHICH I GUESS IS WHAT YOURE SUPPOSED TO BUT THIS IS DIFFERENT!!!!!!!!!
more fluff!!! this one is very hurt comfort vibes yk,,,, classical transactional azul shit as well smh HES SO GOOFY i love that guy aahwahwhwahawh very soft azul. lovely. chef's kiss. muah muah.
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azumasoroshi · 1 year
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minidura chapter 4 react
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simon i SWEAR ill get you out of there and that horrendous art style
also though. TEENAGE SHIZAYA CHAPTER LETS GO???? idk if narita made the minidura or if it's a separate illustrator but they are giving the FOOD rn
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i was wondering where the official knowledge that simon forced izaya and shizuo to eat sushi together came from. i mean i guess this isnt official and it was probably stated in the anime somewhere but still, good to see it illustrated pff
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AAAAAAAAA ive seen this image around tumblr but i didnt realize it was from minidura 😭 i thought it was fanart or smth (<-dumbass)
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wait im actually going crazy over this akwjhkjdshs they're washing dishes together!!! now we just need them to do laundry and taxes and-
im going to go over the image limit this time on god
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wow cant believe they're bathing each other too (<-delusional)
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something about the first shizuo panel reminds me of aggretsuko. which is. actually. huh. arent they both like adults with anger issues. durarara aggretsuko au when
also deadass i forgot dennis existed until i read about him in a shizaya fanfiction and i was like "who's dennis" pfgfkhkd
so true though never throw kitchen knives kids
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LMFAO HE JUST GAVE THEM MORE WORK INSTEAD OF RESPONDING
they're gonna be here all day at this rate. actually shizaya as fast food/restaurant staff au when because they'd have the stupidest rivalry known to man and i need it
fucking imagine shinra walks in and sees shizuo and izaya working by the counter
i hope izaya gets to eat fatty tuna by the end of this though. god knows he's gonna look cute as hell
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made funnier by the fact that izaya at least definitely knows how to cook with how long he's been on his own and needed to feed his sisters
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damn ive actually never seen someone's vein burst in a way where blood sprays out in anime akshGKJHJKSD thats impressive actually
dont look now but this may or may not inspire me to make a mermaid/pirate au (<-obsessed)
who needs kaiju battles when you can have blue fin tuna vs crab
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they're literally never leaving this place bro they're gonna be stuck here for eternity. anyway here's a literary analysis of durarara pointing out why russia sushi is actually representative of dante's inferno /j
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i want to read those blurbs so baddddd screams sobs bangs table
rip dennis dude he doesnt get paid enough to deal with shizaya
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rippp time to listen to izaya pine hopelessly for the man he cant stop annoying for five seconds
simon had the right idea. too bad shizaya are shizaya
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what is that face izaya. i cant tell if he's irritated that simon's right or irritated that simon cant understand how instinctual their hatred is or amused that simon thinks he and shizuo could be friends or amused because he thinks meaningless fighting is hilarious
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oh......that kind of hurts actually
i can imagine izaya suggesting it as a joke and then lying in bed that night thinking about how it's never going to happen and it really sounds like a funny joke huh? (he is not crying)
i cant believe simon's been dealing with these bitches for like 7 years now like dude has the patience of a saint
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😭give him his 50,000 yen simon
we can see that the crack in the sign is actually fixed now too ahhh time really flies when you're stuck in a relationship of mutual hatred
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chibizaya is so cuteeeeeeeee
im sure he intended to paint himself that way in his recollection though pff
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THATS RIGHT SHIZAYA BE THE PORCUPINES. SNUGGLE. DO IT
step aside erika, simon is the face of the shizaya nation now. especially with that "you just have a shizuo complex dont you" quote that i found the other day which i still havent recovered from
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HAUDGHUSDH orihara izaya, pro unreliable narrator
hilarious how we never see tom's face. just his dreads lmfao
dennis and simon are so done with like izaya bro i think they can tell at this point that he's horrifically pining and has no healthy outlet for it. the bills go to him because they're bullying him
it'd be funny if they billed him 50,000 at the end actually pft
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I KNEW WE'D GET THEM EATING TOGETHER!!! I HAD FAITH
they're so cute oh my god can i make that my header or something
10/10 chapter im going to punt izaya into a wall and get simon flowers
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hmshermitcraft · 1 year
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[For tha theme]
xB can admit he was a bit of an idiot, it's obvious that a spellcasters book that says "secret plans" would be cursed. And now he's tied to a book. The wizard(?) told him exactly what the curse entailed, he'd be attached to the book, and he'll like that until the book is destroyed. But he can't talk to anyone like that, and no one can see him, so he will rest like a ghost, forced to watch the buildings fall around him to time.
Somewhere around his 200th year (he's lost track, really it could be anywhere between 200 to 400 years) when that book is found again, brushed off and cleaned, and put on the shelves of a bookshop that was ironically built right on top of where that wizard lived.
The bookstore is odd, with a name and an owner to match. The owner's (Keralis?) sales pitch is always "wanna buy a book?" But with those eyes it's always convincing. xB is there a while, and he's found out a few things, 1. He can move some things, small things like dust and grit, his aiming skills come in handy with shooting small pebbles at rude costumers faces. 2. The book's curse is a one time use kinda thing, seems like anyone else can read it without being tortured with eternal boredom. And three, Keralis has a boyfriend. Initially he was slightly jealous, which is stupid because he cannot even talk to someone and he's fallen for them already, but that boyfriend (Shashwam? Shashwamy?) is so gentle with his book, he keeps it in good condition too, if he wasnt basically a ghost he'd take them both to bed in an instant.
Further along xB's figured out some more things, both Keralis and Xisuma (he's pretty sure that's correct) are both immortal creatures, Xisuma being of the void and Keralis being, something. But that comes with complications, some people just dont like that they exist.
And so the bookstore is burnt down, and so is his book, he comes back to the loving world that night with searing flesh, everything's too bright and too loud and he can feel hands on him dragging him out and now he feels as if he's actually dead and everything hurts
-C
He finds it woefully ironic that Xisuma took such careful care of the book, when destroying it breaks the curse. He has plenty of time to complain about that as he's lying in a hospital bed (which, certainly changed a lot since he was last in one, gotta say.) Not that it's Xisuma's fault, no, the guy's an absolute sweetheart for looking after it so carefully. But it is ironic.
Xisuma and Keralis are both fretting over him, despite him being a total stranger. At first, they thought he might have been a customer hiding out, or somebody that broke in. Keralis gave him a very serious talk about whether he started the fire (xB had never considered if he could start fires. Given the right circumstances, he thinks it's possible. He doesn't mention that to Keralis.)
Once it's revealed that he's 'the bookshop ghost' (as some of the customers had taken to calling him), they're even more concerned. Neither are unfamiliar with magic, but they never even realised! Xisuma is more furious than xB's ever seen him before when he learns of the curse. He spends several minutes ranting about how horrendous it is to curse a book for simply looking in it, not even trying to steal it! He's firmly of the opinion the wizard was on a power trip. xB is glad to have somebody on his side!
Keralis buys xB several sets of clothes, and they offer him a place to stay since, well... Hundreds of years in a book. xB gratefully accepts, forgetting his crush on them both. It takes a while for it to hit him - between existential dread, trying to cope with all the world's changes, and helping Xisuma and Keralis move into a new house. But when it does it's... Hard. Seeing them in love and remembering he has no part of that.
He continues to help out, determined to prove his worth. He's getting steadier on his feet by the day and he knows he'll have to move out eventually. But, the longer he can be useful, the longer he hopes they'll let him stay. Sure, he might sometimes forget he can interact with physical objects or talk to people now. But that's part of his charm!
It doesn't stop him being surprised when they ask him to stay, though. Nor when they ask if he'd like to join their relationship, several months later. Maybe getting cursed has its benefits after all.
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the1weepinqguitar · 8 months
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tally hall sketches and other assorted doodles
Here ya go guys! I also have improvement pics from last year! Almost two years in the Tally Hall fandom! Woohoo! My Marvin's CD is gonna hate me even more after all of this
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A Ross sketch! I'm super proud of how it turned out! Below is a close-up!
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The aforementioned close-up, showing the shading on his face and the folds of his sleeve!
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Zubin! I love the side profile, and I used his picture in the MMMM booklet as a reference! Close up below, so you can see some of the more fine details/shading
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the close-up!
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Here's Andrew! His hair is kinda hard to not fluff-ify, but I dealt with it anyways and tried my best to keep it close to reality. Obligatory close(r)-up below.
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next will be some other random stuff, mostly tally hall, but some of it is oc art
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drew this drawing of Ross last September. Not amazing but very stylized, which I love/hate. the tag on the bottom left reads, "he's rather disheveled but this is the best I could do back then"
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wtf is he doing? He in an action movie or something? btw this was last-year's andrew. very stylized. i hate it.
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decided not to include the other last-year Rob cause i hate it deeply. this one's much better. very fluffy. i dont like the collar tho
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just me poking fun at my horrendous attempts at stylizing joe. im not gonna draw him as much as the others btw.
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This is from an au created by @bonkdd, but i did rob and andrew's designs bc i never saw his designs for them. i also added a lot of lore and plot stuff because i really liked the concept. in simple terms the tallies are robots that were abandoned by Marvin after he passed away so now they're falling apart n stuff without him to care for them (that's why rob hides his face). Anyways, huge thanks to Bonk for the original idea! They're a great artist, you should go check them out!
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Edith, drawn/sketched with a ballpoint pen.
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Another one. I like this one better, but I spent two days on this one versus a half on hour on the other so i guess it makes sense
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Adrian and Reuben (OCs), done in a college-ruled notebook bc i ran out of pages in my sketchbook. next is a close-up so you can see more shading.
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probably my favorite gay couple i've ever written ngl
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Ace again, but wearing Reuben's favorite sweater.
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Looking mighty fine!
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He's lookin' tough, he's got the stuff, he's got the spiffy shades... (/lyric)
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pose practice
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Boll weevil, why don't you get out of your home? (/lyric)
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old art jumpscare - i actually kinda like this one, might redraw it. Below is the full thing
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why is zubes staring like that??? its creepy
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here's another. i don't know why it's sideways. andrew is scared of joe btw, this isn't the entire drawing
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Did an embossing peice. It's the Mojo Chessmaster! I tried by best to make it as detailed as possible, and I think I did pretty alright. The neck was probably the worst part to do. Below are close-ups
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the head of the guitar was a pain in the ass.
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This part was also pretty tricky but it came out okay. the dials at the bottom are raised as much as I could get them to go, so I'm not worried about them. My issue here was the pickups.
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I also added Flansburgh's little signature guy but i drew his hair because why not? Anyways this piece took me a good hour or so to finish, I think it'll fetch a good grade (it was for my metal design class).
I'll add a sketch I just did as a bonus:
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it's from a tally hall fanfic/au i made back in may after my grandpa passed away. It was a great stress-reliever and I still really like how it turned out. It's about cryptids and monsters and shit. I'll post a summary on a different post because this one was mostly for the drawings. I might post a few installments of it on my ao3. It could be a weekly thing since i usually have time on fridays to write.
Once again, a close-up is available below.
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I put literal hours of research on cryptids and of the area (ann harbor, MI) while writing this fic. It was fun though, and it helped me a lot. Feel free to ask me anything about the plot or world-building !
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mwagneto · 8 months
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On the one hand, as a transmasc who very much enjoys piv sex and reading about it, I do like having access to fic that caters to that, but you're also absolutely right that Gomems fans almost exclusively writing piv (despite and especially when employing the "effort" fanon) is... hm. Sus at best. Like, yes, many of the authors of those fics are trans themselves, but not only is it not just them writing it, some of the dialogue is also... well. Not ideal. I've read more than one where a penis and vagina were described as like "matching" or "counterpart" to each other and I've also never, ever seen a Gomens fic (not counting "genderswapped" which I'm not even gonna discuss in detail rn but just wanna clarify doesn't inherently make you "problematic" esp if you're a lesbian but is still a can of worms) where both of them have a vagina and that's... well, noticeable for sure...
GODDD WHAT 💀💀💀 again i dont rly ever read fic and i avoid these like the plague so the weirdest i've seen is the vague mention of effort/C asking if A would prefer the other kind but i think if i saw some shit like you're describing I'd genuinely have to track down and kill op. i think the worst I've seen was C vaguely thinking he should've made the other effort instead coz that would make it simpler WHICH IS ALREADY SO??? OP HAVE YOU CONSIDERED DYING ♥ but anyway.
i didn't really have any problems with the lesbian aus where they're women the entire time but the idea that the canon characters as they are are women sometimes genuinely makes me ill especially when it's like. fanart of one of them as a man seeing the other as a woman and going all awooga googly eyed blushing like dude fuck holy shit they're literally gay . like they are gay it unironically makes me sick when ppl make art that's of them being soo super attracted to a woman like genuinely what the fuck why do you want that😭😭😭😭😭😭😭 they're gay men...... and that's to say nothing of the fucking...billions of AUs people make where only one of them is a woman 💀 like BRUH. my god. anyway.
but like all this just makes me feel really miserable which is why i always stay in my little bubble and don't interact with the fandom much at all because like. ofmd grew a fandom out of literally nothing (i remember when there were only 12 fics..........lol) sooo quickly and i saw so much horrendous shit i literally had to go full cold turkey and never look at the fandom again although that wasn't quite the same
but WOW this is a massive tangent to basically say i don't rly enjoy talking about this in depth coz it makes me feel really sad i prefer to just stick to my tiny corner and reblog gifsets and think about things that make me happy instead. yknow
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thedragonagelesbian · 5 months
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For the OTP asks: 5, 13, 22, and 26 for Cyrus and Wyll
yaaaaaaaaaaay
5. What activities do they enjoy together?
Cyrus socializes like a cat, so he's happiest just being nearby for whatever activity Wyll wants to do-- snuggling while Wyll reads or listening him play his flute (or his cello once they're moved in to their estate post-game). Wyll similarly insists that his greatest creative inspiration comes when he's with Cyrus and loves to compose in Cyrus' garden, drafting sonnets and serenades while Cyrus is tending to his plants.
As for things they really do together, they love planning outings into the woods around Baldur's Gate. Romantic picnics, hunting, foraging, birding, just getting away from the bustle of the city
13. Name something they would never do for the other person. 
Cyrus for Wyll: I think Cyrus outright refuses to do the Champion/Ansur/whoops bitter gay exes quest. Not even in a reluctant 'I'll tag along to make sure you stay safe' thing, drags his heels to the very edge of the chambers of trials and is straight up like 'we shouldn't do this. I don't care how helpful the dragon will be we should Not Fucking Do This please don't do this i don't want to lose you to some impossible bullshit test you're already enough please don't make me watch you do this'
Of course there's no vindication in being right.
Wyll for Cyrus: Hmmmm Wyll is so accommodating it's hard to think of what he'd refuse… Of course there is the classic "you don't have to be the Blade of Frontiers" for me early on. No matter how many times Cyrus tells him that he doesn't have to perform for him, it's so hard to let go of a technique that has allowed you to cope with & make the best of such horrendous circumstances
22. If their lives were what was originally intended at birth, would they have still fallen in love?
Oh boy the 'at birth' specification is interesting, I've never really thought about what this version of Malcolm and Leandra had planned for him… He grew up on the road because Malcom was being hunted by his archfey patron who ends up killing him when Cyrus is very young (tho I have some. Extremely vague ideas about a post-game adventure involving Malcolm actually still being alive & Cyrus & his LI needing to save him). Presuming Malcolm doesn't die and is thus still around when Leandra passes from her illness, I could see him raising Cyrus as a much more well-adjusted rangers, mayhaps even of the fey wanderer variety as they work to free Malcolm from his patron
(…..i dont know how i've gotten this far without realizing before that the first loss in cyrus' life was to a vengeful warlock patron but it sure. Uh. Adds some Something to this dynamic…)
Wyll more obviously grows into a young lordling, but even without Mizora, I think he goes through life about 5 terribly repressed seconds from a nervous breakdown having grown up knowing absolutely nothing but his father's rigid expectations
And while I can't think of any self-evident way for their paths to cross, the notion of Wyll meeting a more fey version of Cyrus who whisks him away from the pressures of noble life for a whirlwind adventure straight out of the fantasies and fairytales Wyll grew up reading and dreaming about but had given up experiencing himself… well i think it FUCKS immensely
26. What are their favorite parts about physical affection/sex?
For both of them, the best part about physical affection is feeling safe. It's so new for them, but being able to melt into each other's arms and let all of their past disappear into the sound of the other's breathing and pulse is just one of their favorite things about being together, period.
For Cyrus, his relationship to sex is different than other iterations of the character because of his history with Meredith. Generally, Cyrus has two somewhat contradictory things he wants out of sex: to please his partner as much as possible, and to know himself and his body in relation to them. Contradictory because that first desire always trumps the second one and can even foreclose it entirely, depending on the partner, or make him vulnerable to someone who wants to control his sense of self.
Whereas ranger!Cyrus is pretty adamant about not relying on anyone else for that external validation/appraisal/identification. That just leaves "trying to give Wyll a religious experience every time," and that is something Cyrus adores immensely. (And his favorite part of /that/ is any indication of incoherency-- babbling and whining and stammering. Any sign that Wyll is trying sooo hard to be the calm & collected Blade and failing miserably turns Cyrus on a Lot; he refers to it playfully as 'making Wyll sing')
And as hard as it is, Wyll enjoys being made to let go and get out of his head and into his body and being taken care of and treated with a level of slow, gentle tenderness that is almost too much to bear (but he does and Cyrus praises him throughout to tell him he's doing a very good job bearing it)
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nrc-broadcasting · 1 year
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i dont know if you're answering asks right now, but yeah haha, happy holidays and merry christmas if you celebrate it!
note: sorry for the horrendously long ask
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Good day, Prefect, I've been thinking of sending a message for a while now, and I've finally gathered up the courage to do so. I'm a second-year student from Heartslabyul, and I'd like some help with some things. You see, there are these two cat twins from Pomefiore; they're first-years, and they're known to stir up mischief and cause havoc everywhere they go, and most people aren't exactly fond of them because of that. The thing is, I'm in a polyamorous relationship with the mentioned twins, and when word of that started to spread, people started to discourage me from continuing my relationship with them, telling me that I shouldn't associate myself with such delinquents. But the thing is, despite being mischievous and chaotic, they're actually quite sweet and know when to stop with their antics; they're also very caring at times too. But most people aren't aware of this side of them since they only ever show it to me. Now, Prefect, if it doesn't bother you too much, may I ask, how do I convince people that they aren't all bad? And what should I do if they continue to tell me to end our relationship solely due to their reputation? I thank you in advance.
~ Harlan
Been Under Scrutiny
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Ah yes, I thought this would be perfect for February, so here we are. Is Harlan talking about the Pomefiore Siameses by any chance? I vaguely remember seeing a post about those OCs but I can’t seem to find it again so sorry if this took a while.
Here they are again, sitting on a comfortable leather chair(courtesy of Professor Crewel), a mic placed onto the studio’s mahogany table. A platter of snacks placed to their far right, beside a stack of canned tuna and a sleeping Grim.
Their school issued laptop with a tab already open to read messages from listeners and their simple phone case facing side up.
Stretching their arms and cracking their back to get their blood flowing, they finally turn on the mic with a muffled yawn.
“Once again,” Yuu fixes their tie even if they can’t be seen.
“Good morning Twisted Wonderland! We’re finally back after… sh-t I can’t remember—” They turn away and whisper in realization.
“—a long time!” They turn back, a strange look on their face.
“Today’s ask is… quite lengthy. But so are most of them these days.” They playfully roll their eyes.
“Hmm.” Tentative eyes skim the message, soaking up the information like a sponge.
“Pomefiore cat twins…” They give a thoughtful hum.
They strum the mahogany table with their nails for a few moments, racking their brain for memories of said twins.
“Cat twins in Pomefiore… might you mean Akanda and Akenya Siam?” They trace their bottom lip with their index finger in contemplation.
An…unfortunate encounter with another set of twins’ prank crosses their mind.
“Ah. Probably not.” They grimaced at the memory.
“Perhaps…Siddell and Amani? Sorry, I don’t know their last names.” Yuu smiled sheepishly.
“Yes, they might be who you’re referring to. I might not have the best first impression of them, but it’s good to see them treat you as you deserve.”
“Anyways, back to the topic at hand,” Yuu pulls their school issued laptop closer to them.
“Let me provide a little summary of your situation,” Their eyes travel back to the message.
“You, Harlan, are in a polymerous relationship with the Pomefiore cat twins. They are known delinquents, which makes people around you to discourage your relationship, and this led to the twins attempting to shield you from that scrutiny by asking you to leave them,” They twist the ring around their finger, eyes still on the message.
“Huh, they seem a fair amount protective.” They remark.
“So from what I’ve gathered, the main question here is how do you defend both your relationship and partner— sorry, partners, from people who want 1950’s sh-t from you.” They softly click their tongue.
“I understand the need to defend you from others, but why do they seem so willingly to give your relationship up? As delinquents, one would expect them to not give a damn about what other people think and fight for what they think is right.”
“So where did that come from?” They ask.
“Yes, it might be to protect you, but at the cost of your relationship?” Yuu raised an eyebrow.
“That hardly seems like a fair trade.” They narrow their eyes.
“I think you should deal with your partners’ pleads first. As for what to say when you do,” They breathe, sincerely hoping this doesn’t sound wrong or out-of-pocket.
“Just say no. You know they’re asking you because they feel bad and think they don’t deserve you, so tell them it’s just self sabotage and encourage them to fight for your relationship than giving up on it.”
“Taking the easy way out is never good, so fight for it, even if it makes your knuckles bruise like violets.” They shrug.
“Then, defending and/or proving your relationship to other people will be easier as you now have them help you to maintain the relationship rather than giving in to other people’s opinions and pushing your break-up.”
“As for proving the relationship, the only thing I can really suggest as someone who’s been single since birth:,) is crank up the PDA and encourage them to show their sweet side. Since you’re already together, I don’t see any reason for embarrassment.”
“If they make you feel comfortable, if they make you feel loved, if you want to stay with them, then stay! You’ll be damned if you give a damn what people.” They say.
“If you long for those melancholic moments, staring the at ceiling with them when they never say too much. When they don’t have to read into your melancholia…”
“Then stay in their lavender haze.”
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Our fairytale has come to an end.
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I'm re-reading the bigfoot series because I'm finally in a stable enough mental space to finish it.
(I have a horrendous habit of refusing to finish things I love. I've managed to rewatch every season of The Office ten+ times without watching the final three episodes. I know. I'm a crazy person. So, the fact that I haven't finished the bigfoot series is a compliment lol.)
I don't have a question. I just wanted to say the whole montage of the roadtrip is so dear to me.
Nothing really outright "romantic" happens, but it's still one of the most romantic sequences I've ever read.
I don't know how to pinpoint why it's so special?? Idk, it's the vibes, man. You are the true master of vibes.
Thank youuuuuu <3<3<3
Actually I appreciate this information and from now on I am just going to assume that anybody who is not reading my fics is only doing it because they are afraid they will love them too much lol.
Yeah that road trip, up until the end, they really just eat a lot of french fries and try not to stare at each other lol. They are both just like "what kind of gay mess have i gotten myself into this time???" and they dont even know the half of it. They're just babies, man.
I hope the ending is okay! There is also a secret epilogue that is not technically part of the series but I was still deep in the bigfootverse mindset when I wrote it so I consider it part of the universe.
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I've been reading webcomics daily since at least 2003 & I'm torn on how I feel about webtoons and other comics aggregators. On the one hand, the fact that they're so bad for artists, their websites are shit, & their apps are full of garbage ads/promos is frustrating as hell. On the other hand, the alternative for a lot of amateur artists seems to be twitter or insta and that's even worse as a reader, since it's impossible to actually read archives. Fuckin' hate web 2.0 bullshit some days
i still dont understand why everyone is completely adverse to the most obvious and least damaging option in every single capacity: buying your own website and directing people to it. build a following on social media websites, as is their intended purpose, and make your money via patreon/wordpress plug-ins that allow you to lock extra content behind a paywall.
they only conceivable and easily disputed downsides of this set up are:
it costs money. but to buy a domain name and website is pitifully cheap these days. shared hosting can be as little as 2.50 a month and domain names are like 10 dollars a year. put aside 10 bucks a month to cover all your expenses lol. if you can't manage that you have way bigger problems you should deal with first.
there's a drastic dip in audience. which, if you're playing for the numbers you need to get offline and re-calibrate your entire soul. but if you want a bigger audience for the pragmatic reasons, such as more people=bigger potential profit, then i think you are attempting to make comics literally the single most brain destroying way possible.
what i mean is this: taking webtoons as the example, the advantage of being on webtoons is, presumably, because there is an audience there actively seeking out comics to read. the audience is large, but the audience is also almost entirely children, preteens and teens, demographics that are not known for having money to spend. instead, you have to make money via advertisements loading when the child audience loads a page. this means the more pages you have the more ad revenue you (theoretically) get. HOWEVER, webtoons also has insane panel MINIMUMS for their creator programs, so if you want to be in the special big boys club you have to do 35-50 panel minimums per update.
imo, the purpose of the panel minimums is so that webtoons has an absurd audience retention time to point at for their advertisers. and to be clear i mean webtoons THE COMPANY not the comic format "webtoon", which are designed to be read on a phone. there is nothing objectionable about the format. thats not my beef!! my beef is with how the company line webtoon is so transparently stupidly evil and people keep lining up to get fucked by them.
even putting aside the damage that cranking out 1200000 panels would do to your body, mind, and spirit, this sincerely makes for some of the worst storytelling i've ever seen. the primary audience is dumb because they are children, but the people who have seen movies, read books, other comics, etc can easily see how artificially inflated and empty each "chapter" (? im old i dont know the terminology lol) is.
ive seen webtoons that tried to make the jump to book format with embarrassing results. ive seen webtoons who, because they have no control over their page sizes, have to resort to turning a splash page on it's side which unfortunately always looks horrendous lol. did you know webtoons artists have to chop up their own panels in that incredibly stupid way so that you can't share them with your friends themselves? webtoons makes them do that. people actually do that.
all this and 40k, a massive amount of audience interaction that you would somehow manage to gain despite annoying your audience with video ads, only gets you a pathetic 100 dollars a month lol.
so people are working themselves to the bone for an audience that has undeveloped brains and haven't fully understood the magnitude of what art creation entails for pennies. organ grinder monkeys have a better life. there is no fucking reason to do this to yourselves.
get your own space and direct your audience to your social media for updates. tell them you are leaving webtoons because it is not financially viable. set up a means to be paid directly by your audience and stop. just stop hitting yourself
STOP IT JUST STOP IT AAAH
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twst halloween
so ive been reading the events for twst all day. (like the dialogue for the stories)
SO. okay so i need to talk about halloween for a second--
so of course, spoilers for the event
deep breaths (i had started writing while reading. then i got very frustrated and it went on from there. haha. it gets long.)
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unique magic Tag. something like that
Where they can mark something, and it'll have a specific tag unique to that person (it'll stay in their memory until the tag is removed or fades away, in which the memory will fade normally instead of never). They could also tag items to that person (as in it'll have that person's unique signature that ties them together).
….honestly ive been like reading the twst halloween stuff. ( SPOILERS ) and for pomefiore they're in like the mirror hall and these mfs kept taking pictures INSIDE when its NOT ALLOWED (…bruh now people know what it looks like inside! what if theres like a flaw thats been caught on camera that'd help future criminal doers do something there!?)
anyway. so i was thinking of confiscating like phones. but so it doesnt get lost, or given to the wrong person.
this random pomefiore student being able to tag people with skin contact (example: passing the phone along, light touch on, say, the hand and the phone, and thus tagging and attaching them together through a line only they can see)
and it'd also help if say that same person did something malicious like 'hey, that's not your phone!' or 'i know that person!'
sorry im just kind of really ticked off at them. and all the other magicam monsters i swear--
im angry ranting now
oKAY for one that guy who was climbing the apple tree. you realize that if you do that people are just gonna want to do that to for the views so they'll climb it evne if they have no experience in it and will probably injure themselves or worse!?
ALSO THE FLOWERS. SCREAMS in heartslabyul OH MY GOD (i think id actually get so frustrated too though like bruh. idfk. WHAT IF THEYRE POISONOUS? i mean they probably wouldnt be out in the open but like. HELLO? YOU DONT KNOW THESE PLANTS. [they're for like potions] WTF ARE YOU DOING. THEY COULD BE HOME TO A VICIOUS SPECIES FOR ALL YOU KNOW YOU IDIOT)
pictures are horrendous. savanaclaw… 1. Why the fuck did someone make up some bs rumor that putting like treasure on your head (its fake tho) would like grant you a wish? WHY? WHAT DO YOU GAIN FROM THAT!?? HELLO???? also oh my god as a person who hates everything about being in pictures (i have to be tricked to get my picture taken ugh) THAT WAS HORRIBLE TO READ. im reading on the wiki by the way because i want the context. also oh my god (im sorry im saying that a lot.) as a person who was absolutely repulsed by touch for awhile (and still kind of squeamish about it but dont have the courage to shove ppl off half the time) i think id die inside. like. okay so they're like touching his ears and his tail (i only remember the ear but i was so pissed off i dont know if i imagined the tail bit or not) and kinda his everything right? WHY? thats. like. such an invasion of privacy. like. HELLO??? WHAT ARE YOU DOING. pleASE stop???? also oh my god WHYH ARE YOU MAKING A MESS OF IT WHAT tHE HECK (they should have like those ropes that signify 'you're not allowed past this part' to make it clear HEY youre not allowed to touch that. but also some people will ignore it and they could get overrun FAST. ughhh)
octavinelle
i wish i could say that people have the courtesy to be careful not to do anything to harm others but i cant really no words. just. oh my god. be CAREFUL WITH WHAT YOU'RE DOING . there are important sUBSTANCES HERE THAT ARE VERY FRAGILE. (they should've been made to pay for it ughhh. teach them.)
scarabia. honestly ive read a fic that went over this before. and honestly its very funny. so like yuu's just going to sam's shop where they are the teachers are nearby (stunned) and jamils just like 'I'LL BURN IT ALL TO THE GROUND' and its HILARIOUS. also bugs. shudder. i dont even know how youd get people to stop wasting the food tho. man. bruh.
(also where are there self preservation skills oh my god)
ignihyde. oh my god THEYVE DONE THE WORST CRIME OF THEM ALL. THE DESTRUCTION OF BOOKS. okay im being overdramatic but WHAT THE FUCK if anyone did that to my books id honestly be so done.
well anything else could be salvaged sort of (with the exception of the destruction of the plants, the destruction of one of the things in the lab, and this) but. this. destruction of property???????? FOR ALL YOU KNOW THAT COULD'VE BEEN SOME SUPER RARE VERY LIMITED BOOK WITH ONLY. LIKE. 10 COPIES MADE. OR LIKE. ITS ENTIRELY HANDWRITTEN BY SOME FAMOUS PERSON WHO DIED A LONG TIME AGO AND THIS IS ALL WE HAVE LEFT AND YOU DESTROY IT!
AGHHH. im so aggravated. (as a person who ADORES books. im so irritated. i mean dont get me wrong they arent that important to me. but the library is my favorite part in a school! i love reading! its practically sacred!) "Jail. Jail for one thousand years! Some of us LIKE being alone, y'know? Please, for the love of everything, just let us live our gremlin lives!" YES. (honestly. out of all the dorms. if not savanaclaw, then id probably be in ignihyde. like yes hide me away forever so i can play games and not have to interact with people)
"Y'know, for Malleus Draconia! The guy so zetta powerful that everybody trembles at his name! Getting a picture of yourself touching him is a legendary feat."
SCREAMS INTO PILLOW
WHY THE FUCK ARE PEOPLE BRNEAKING AND ENTERING WHY OD YOU IGNORE A SIGN
im so rrry im yttypingoifnhgfh there comes a point where im so frustrated i cant typer ight. heavy sigh
WHY WOULD YOU IGNORE A SIGN. THAT CLEARLY GIVES YOU A WARNING?! YOURE LITERALLY BREAKING AND ENTERING. THERE IS A REASON THAT SIGN IS THERE. WHY WOULD YOU JUST SHRUG IT OFF BASED ON APPEARANCES???! HAVE YOU NEVER HEARD OF DONT JUDGE A BOOK BY ITS COVER? I SWEAR. AGHH thats. such. a major. violation. i cant… AGHH
i wonder if a sort of barrier spell to prevent people from moving past (aka into the dorm) would be possible. but that might be a huge drain and whose to say they couldnt idfk take pictures through the windows? ew stalkery behavior, and not any better.
AND NOTHING CAN BE DONE BECAUSE YOU KNOW WAHT THE HEADLINES ARE GONNA SAY?
'NRC student attacks tourist!'. IT WONT EVEN MENTION ANY WRONGDOINGD THE TOURIST HAD DONE AND ITLL SPREAD FROM THERE AND AGHHHHHHH
THE STATUES? WHAT THE FUCK!? that. i. AGH (people are so dumb. why. would you. post a picture OF YOU COMMITTING A CRIME!?)
!!!! POP OFF (edit: this is like heartslabyul going against the magicam monsters. id probably adore octavinelle's if i hadn't already been spoiled about it lol)
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kind of off topic. but yknow what? i kind of feel like im really living up to my riddle pfp lmFAO
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i hope that youre not getting too much hate for expressing your opinions and im looking forward to getting to know more about your future projects! ive been a fan of wayhaven books for a couple of years out and whilst its one of my faves, but that doesnt mean that i dont have any criticisms about it. i honestly think you made a lot of valid points. whilst i understand that wayhaven can be a comfort series for some people, i dont think that media should be exempt from criticism for doing the bare minimum. i thought she had gotten sensitivity readers, yet as someone whos demi myself, the portrayal of A's demisexuality throughout the series has been horrendous and it feels like it was just tacked on for no reason. the whole plot point with sin, a deity that used to be worshipped by assyrians being enslaved by the trappers was honestly not necessary in my opinion, i felt like maybe sensitivity readers would have pointed that out or something? but at least they freed my boy in the end so idk.
Honestly I don't care if people like it or not, because as I've said before, I used to be a big enough stan of the first two games that I recommended it to two whole people who also bought both games. I've actively made the author more money. Which is why I think I'm perfectly within my right to dunk on this thing now, because I used to be a fan, I used to love it, and I still very much enjoy a lot of the fan content created for it. Hell, there were some moments and ideas in book 3 that I actually liked, despite everything. I still think a lot about the potential of these stories and characters. It's not all rotten to the core, there is plenty of good stuff to be enjoyed that can very much be salvaged.
So I honestly don't think that people who enjoy it are like, beneath me or stupid or anything. I don't think they're the problem, I think they're there for the exact same thing I was: a silly vampire romance simulator. And if some of them are happy with what they're getting, then more power to them! But I think they deserve better than they're getting. And judging by the amount of people who have come to me privately and said "Thank you for speaking about this, I would too but I'm too scared to hurt people's feelings/speak out against a popular IF", it's pretty obvious that the quality just isn't there anymore, and that's okay to point out, too.
And I'm not out here trying to cancel it or anything. It's pretty small potatoes in the grand scheme of things, being "big" in the IF world means you're an older kid in a half-empty sandbox. I don't think people who buy or create content for it are doing something bad, in fact it's probably better to support smaller indie creators than ... other stuff. So like ... I don't have issues with people enjoying it.
I just wanted it to be better. I wanted to like it, because I liked it before. And I feel that it could have easily been better if more care was put into it, and maybe there was, but I just don't see it on the page anymore. It used to feel like an actual book, actual interactive fiction that you played and that was worth reading and interacting with. Like there was a world to inhabit and characters to connect with. Now, it's a collection of tired drabbles and fanfic fodder loosely connected by time skips, where you have to headcanon it into mattering and being interesting. I dunno, man. What's there just isn't worth the hype anymore.
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moon knight fic idea that I had brewing in my head for 2 months but I can't push myself to write right now bc I'm having writer's block ofc
Might write them down as headcanons/bullet points to have them down before making this idea more concrete
fem!oc used for this fic idea btw! (can be read as a reader insert as well if you so choose as, but written this idea with an oc in mind), also lots of Japanese and other Asian mythology that I find would fit the story in mind, also I'm Asian so why tf not let me project a bit ok???
fic idea:
Imagine oc being able to see ghost and spirits (more specifically yokai and anything close to the sort) since childhood. Terrifying really.
Demon paralysis be damned when you open your eyes to see a literal shadow figure staring down at you. Panic attack ensue.
Oh yeah, did she mention the voice in her head guiding her on what to do with these spirits and how to handle them, yeah that's a thing too...
Apparently they're the goddess Izanami, overseer of the underworld Yomi. Fantastic.
She also mentions how more spirits are running amok and unchecked bc APPARENTLY THANOS' SNAP HAD FUCKED THE BALANCE OF LIFE AND DEATH. So I guess those that disappeared weren't actually dead but literally just ceased to exist and it threw Yomi is a disarray of chaos.
Basically the goddess was pissed. So now oc is their unwilling paranormal detective, being forced to faces these horrendous spirits so they can pass on. Fucking fantastic.
Also the Blip actually made it worse too. Great.
Apparently there's some consequences of being forced to help these spirits
They're not limited to out of body experience while taking the train home, usually with oc being in the place of the memory of the spirits that were either before or lead to their deaths. Awesome. More nightmare fuel for her ig.
While this happens to her mentally, physically her body will either be unconscious, spaced out, or even moving on its own unconsciously.
When she sleeps they become vivid nightmares she can't remember usually, only the terror she felt. Sometimes she'll find bruises and scratches on her and remember only bits of what happened. Night terrors. Check. Bodily harm. Check.
Works in the museum both Dane and Sersi works at too bc I can and pls Jeremy add some Dane/Steven/Marc interactions for season 2 pls I'm on my knees
Dane was said to make an appearance in Moon Knight originally but they didnt know how to add him so Dane is now in this fic bc idk what to do with this info now.
Dane and her are friends and friends only. He helped her get a job bc she's out of one bc she was Snapped.
Oh right she was snapped, forgot to mention that lol.
Yes she knows Sersi is an alien wizard. No she doesn't want to turn into a giraffe Dane.
If Dane is doing his Black Knight activities, 9 times out of 10 she doesn't know. She thinks he's distance himself bc of what happened to Sersi, and decided not to push.
Takes place a bit before the start of the series. She's Steven's neighbor but they dont talk much, only wave and greet each other on the lift and when they head to the same bus stop before she left to step onto the subway.
Goodness does Steven thinks she's adorable. A little better at social cues than he is but still as awkward. She a goober really.
She thinks he's cute too. Like a puppy.
Somehow they go on a date (personal headcanon that it was Jake that set Steven with a date bc he has the most social out all of them, which will make things real awkward for them when everyone finds out yikes). Well they try too. You know what happens on Steven's end but surpise suprise. She actually arrived late to the restaurant bc she had another out of body experience bc of some spirits she had encountered (thankfully it was in her home) by the time she arrived Steven wasn't there. It was hours later, she assumed that he thought she stood him up and left.
She ate the steak anyways. She was hungry.
She didn't dare to call or text him, afraid of what he'll say, so color her surprise when he called her instead.
What??? They have a date??? But it's Sunday. Confused, she decide to tell him that she thought he thought she stood him up. Both are confused. They decided to reschedule the date then, both hoping that this one goes well (tbh both were ecstatic that the other was giving them another chance).
Ofc that doesn't happen bc Harrow and his cult with Ammit ensue hijinks.
So Marc and her are complicated bc they used to be friends as kids but then her family moved to NY. They kept contract and talk but it became very minimal. Like simple how are you type shit. So they have no idea what the other looks like over the years.
So Marc is in for a big twist when he finds out Steven's date is her. It doesn't help he had a tiny itsy bit of a crush on her as kids.
But he doesn't have feelings for her he loves Layla still, right? It's probs bc of the fond memories he held of her as a child that makes him soft for her. No not bc she's kinda of a cute goof.
They're grump and sunshine embodied really.
Also embodies slow burn and friends to lovers trope real hard. Marc's gotta to learn to move on and live a happy life. It's hard but he'll get there.
He is emotionally constipated and will deny any possible thought of him having feelings for oc or any form of happiness.
Oc does not approve and annoys him with affection.
What the fuck was that????
A hug.
Disgusting. Do it again....
Nicknames. Nicknames! NICKNAMES!
Sunshine - Marc, Twinkle Toes - oc
Hc that Marc was kinda clumsy as a child and oc called him that to tease him (was more reinforced after they watched atla).
Steven call her his little sunflower.
Jake calls her his bébé usually.
And Layla.
They're divorced. They'll try to work it out but really Layla realizes that she fell out of love for a while now. The lies and guilt put a strain on their marriage.
That doesn't mean she doesn't care for Marc. She does. As friends.
She won't admit it but deep down, she thinks Marc was conflicted about his feelings whether he knew it or not (whether it was his guilt about her father or not, no one truly knowz). So seeing how he gets along with oc is good for him.
Layla slowly pushed him towards her bc she wants Marc to be happy as well and move on.
Layla is a good friend and wants everyone's best interests.
Now onto Jake.
Keeping in mind of the hc that it's Jake that asked oc out on a date on Steven's behalf. Well then things are gonna be messy. Bc haha they've met before. Like way before Marc met Khonshu and became his fist of vengence.
They met when she was in college and hit it off from there. I don't want to give away too much of their relationship but long story short. Jake does break contact with her.
So when everyone finds out about Jake things get awkward real fast and real bad.
Small hint of their relationship is ???? To lovers trope.
Khonshu is a manipulative bird brain and Izanami commit Khonshu hate crimes on the reg as she should.
Speaking of Izanami.
Goddess of Death and Creation. The overseer of Yomi, the underworld.
Yeah she's cool. Kinda unhinged but cool.
A bit over the top, but aren't all gods are???
Kinda gives off Scaramouche vibes from Genshin Impact but not as arrogant you know. She's not very well liked within the Japanese pantheon due to her role and also from her ex-husband's influences.
She really does care for oc. Thinks of her as her kin. She was a mother once too.
Speaking of her ex-husband, also commits hate crimes against her ex-husband Izanagi too (iykyk) and tbh go off queen.
Only oc sees her and she takes an appearance of a normal woman but dresses expensively. Thinking of Manwol from Hotel de Luna, same vibes as well tbh bc when I write Nami I think of Manwol tbh.
Oh possession is a thing too, ig
Bc with how oc acts, Izanami needs to take over when push comes to shove. Though this happens rarely.
Mostly this happens when oc is unconscious and in peril danger. Or when provoked enough to encite her fury or vise versa (usually the later is towards other gods of different pantheon, yeah she's still bitter they did nothing to restore balance in life and death). Sometimes when oc's spirit/consciousness is forcefully pushed out of their body, Izanami takes control to make sure the body is breathing.
Overall that's it for this word vomit. It's still in the process but if you want to know more lmk bc I haven't seen this idea in Moon knight fics just yet.
Fic idea inspiration taken from: Hotel de Luna (kdrama), Goblin (kdrama), Tomorrow (kdrama), The Uncanny Encounter (kdrama), Tale of the Nine Tailed (kdrama), Death Mark (game), Spirit Hunter NG (game), Mieruko-chan (manga)
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i want to be meaner to my mom but scared that i might make a habbit of it to the point of that spilling onto other people, so let's vent, near everytime i say something that challenges her belief that she's right about everything she always goes on about how i love debating her and how im always attacking her and saying she's wrong about everything, this bitch litterally fucking just told her child "you're always the villain to me" like i dont have a mountain of evidence saying that she's the one who's fucked up
look we disagree on things a lot, i disagree with her a lot, she seems to take everytime i point out she could be wrong (the first few times her response was "it's like your my mom mano po" ("mana po" is something people do to their elders) and "go work on your self first" in response to my room and my sleep schedule, like. y'know me sleeping late and being messy gives her yhe excuse to be a bad person.) now it's "you just love debating me don't you" "you always think im wrong about everything" and now recently "youre always the villain in my story" ("lagi kang kontrabida saking buhay")
because yeah sure im the villain, im the person who bullied ("idiot, lunatic, insane, you made yourself ugly, you look insane, you look like a lunatic") verbally abused (read the previous sentences, and what comes after this), hit (four times to be exact, also threathened to beat me up if i ever did that again, and later on said she was gonna smack me if i ever tried it again later on too) and told their kid they're insane and that tgey didn't care about anyone except themselves for botching their haircut
like this isn't my first time saying this within these last few days, it still holds true though, her words, the villain sentence specifically, should be directed at herself if anything, like girlie are you describing your own actions or
damn these last few days have been shit, like most days that have my parents in them aren't good, but these last few days have been horrendous, wonder if i should kill myself lol, atleast id have a botched haircut at the funeral, where a lot of the people whod know me would see, might botch it even more before doing it, just out of spite, it's just like id face the abuse that would com after anyways, i would be dead. also that whole haircut and these few days after said haircut have confirmed my theory that my parents treat me nicer when im pretty so! that's another thing! man!
like girlie really did just say her kid was the villain in her life despite being the one to hit her kid four times over a botched haircut, and verbally and physically abuse said kid for days afterwards (the verbal abuse was worse than what id written, basically just wrote a summary for the most part, just don't feel like translating it) i mean girlie really?
edit: also if you read the tags i almost forgot about that last bit, memory repression works hard ig. wonder how much shit i forgot that i never remembered.
also another edit: i think it's interesting how she used to so "oh so im the villain now" in response to me whenever i brought up her doing something bad, like that used to be a common occurance a few months near a year ago, but now she says "you're like a villain to me" after, reminding her she can be wrong, and botching my haircut. i mean. girlie at least isn't blatantly ripping off mother gothel now so that's fun.
#girlie litterally called her kid the villain despite being the one who bullied#(said idiot. lunatic#insane#you made yourself ugly you look insane#you look like a lunatic.)#verbally abused (read the previous sentences and what comes after this) hit#(four times to be exact#also threathened to beat me up if ever did that again and later on said she was gonna smack me if i ever tried it again later on too)#and told their kid they're insane andthat tgey didn't care about anyone except themselves for botching their haircut#girlie litterally called her kid the villain#it think it's interesting how fell back on using social media slang as a coping mechanism here because sm incites dophamine most times#anyways vent parents i mean wow really let's just fucking#go and jump off guess. i#am exhausted and quite frankly just want to sleep and never fucking wake up again an overdose might be nice idk.#me dying might be the only way to convince her that she's the one that's fucked actually.#or maybe she might fucking say im spoiled dramatic and overemotional in which case idc idc id be too dead too by then anyways#look explaining shit won't work ive already tried that and whenever get into fights with my parents#words and memories just fucking bail on me under enough stress#till i get my shit together hours later and able to pinpoint exactly why they're or in this case she's wrong fuck this#she also told me that ''since im so mature now to now have to rely on her anymore'' and said she wont attend or give me shit anymore#as part of said haircut thing#basically told me she wont be a parent to me anymore because of something that started from a botched haircut#but still doesn't think that actually She may be the villain here#vent#parents
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RIN LOVE IM SORRY IM LATE I WAS TOO EXHAUSTED YTD AND I FELL ASLEEP BEFORE I COULD READ LOVE AT FIRST SPEED 😭😭😭😭
but now that i've finished reading it...
their first meeting was SO UNSRS like PLEASE HEE WAS SEARCHING HIS SOCKS FOR HIS KEY CARD?,!,' & NOT YN WITNESSING EVERYTHING TOO ☠️☠️☠️ soooo chaotic
the morning after was so cute and completely unexpected for me bc what was yn doing there 🤨🤨 was my first thought i was like noooo wayyy??? this entire scene was so ,!?.!,'@!.!,?.?.!. like hee was down HORRENDOUS already its kinda insane but u go king!!! and then came the NICKNAMES WHAT THE FUCK. URE JOKING OH URE JOKING. r u crazy or am i insane? i ABSOLUTELY LOVED to be able to see how their relationship and dynamics developed <3 not every writer includes that but i really enjoy reading how everything comes into play!!! heeyn's dynamic is so soulmate bff coded sooo comfortable
DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON THEIR FIRST DATE. DAWGGGGGGGG IVE BEEN WAITING FOR THISSSS 🤣🤣🤣🤣 they're so freaking cute <33333 and then cue jake being sus 🤨🤨🤨🤨 one of my FAV lines from this fic was when hee told jake "i will, like my heart depends on it" like sir. GOD ME WHENNNNN???!:!: i also love how heeyn's r/s didnt feel rushed? if that makes sense 😭 like yn knew she felt smth for hee but she also knew she wasnt ready yet. with that being said, i also loved how we could tell how equally down bad heeyn were for each other 🤪 like it was not one sided AT ALL. she told him her heart feels full every time she sees him 😭😭😭😭 🤍🤍🤍🤍 albeit drunk... but ☠️
and then the lack of verbal communication for their feelings came through 💔💔😟💔😟💔💔 I WAS LIKE YAAAAAS when they kissed in my head i was like "ohhh yea they r official now" and then boom. 🤯. i totally understand hee bc up until then yn didnt tell him what she really felt about him so he was valid for feeling that way but him choosing to avoid and run away instead of talking to her abt wasnt the wisest choice 😞 im so glad he came to find her to talk to her afterwards 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻 my couple made it 😭🤍
then came the last race.. HEE WONNNN!!!! DESERVEDDDDD 🥇 he fawking kissed her in front of everyone AND ASKED TO BE TGT OFFICIALLY 🥹🫂🤍 MY HEEYNNNNN absolutely INSANE. i was giggling & kicking my feet btw 😭 the last scene. dont even. THEY R SO CUTE UGH BOTH OF THEM SAYING HOW THEYRE SO LUCKY TO HAVE EACH OTHER?:!:&.&/ thats it im out. i cant take this lovey dovey shit no more (i absolutely ate that up)
& in case u couldnt tell i LOVED love at first speed i really enjoyed reading it!!! thank u for sharing it w us 🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍🤍 & i cant wait to see what else u have in store for the series!!!!!!!!
OH MY GOD. THIS. WHATM. THANK YOU THANK YOU FOR THIS LENGTHY FEEDBACK!!!
honestly reading this made my day A LOT. it also reassured me so much because i had a lot of self doubts while writing lafs, so seeing your positive feedback only made me cry tears of joy. love u love u! i'm so happy you loved it a lot! i'll make sure to cook up a good fic for the 2nd installment 🙏
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