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googledetective · 3 days

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my thoughts on the new episode as always, as I am currently losing my shit lol. I know a lot of people dislike me after last ep when I spoke up about my thoughts, but this time I'm ready to be more mature about it.

1. I love the Hu argue uhhh thingy! I forgot what it's called ngl! I love her and Nico's new sprites too, they were really all amazing and conveyed so much emotion!

And then Hu said this 💀

genuinely insane analogy to make here. I'm sorry, but that was actually insanely uncalled for imo.

2. I think everyone forgot Hu's custom weapon is wire, (if you realized and predicted this, huge props to you), and I did not expect Nico to try and frame Hu for murder like that. NicoHu divorce arc when??? Just kidding, but they're much more cruel then I originally thought. I completely understand trauma from not being accepted as the person you are which was likely in the form of bullying/abuse, but I was genuinely surprised that they really try and murdered Ace just because they didn't like him and they didn't want to go through that again. Very interesting. I also feel very bad for Hu, because she's poured her heart into trying to protect Nico, and even though her methods are EXTREMELY flawed, it must hurt to know someone you really tried to help would try to frame you for murder. This makes me wonder if Nico felt Hu was a threat to their sense of self like Ace was, if they were going to try and pin a murder on her. I'm glad Charles and J told Hu to shut up though, because she was becoming unreasonable. I really hope things turn out the best for her though, because it's clear she's coming from a place of kindness, even if her kindness is mostly self-serving.

3. As much as I don't really like the guy, I'm very glad to have seen Ace pop off. Everyone has treated him like shit, and even if he's treated everyone like shit back, he did not deserve to be almost murdered and then for people to just not care. I really hope Ace ends up making a friend if he isn't the killer, because he really deserves someone to care about him the way mostly everyone in the cast already has someone.

4. They both make very good points here. I think Ace deserves an apology, but a real one.

5. "of course I regret doing it, I'm not Levi" - Nico

THATS ACTUALLY INSANE- but that may be my favorite line of the ep. I'm glad Nico regrets the crime though, because I was scared for awhile they didn't and there might be another incident of the same thing again. This makes me think they won't try and kill again, but it's drdt so you never know, and I think they're a definite threat if they get provoked to that point so easily.

6. I feel so bad for Rose, but let me say, dare I say, I think Whit asking if Rose is okay might've been the sweetest thing Ive ever seen. A lot of people tend to forget that Whit is actually very compassionate, so I'm glad to see that part of him shine through again. Rose is so human, and I think she may be the most realistic character I've ever seen portrayed in a fangan. A lot of characters are able to just get back up after a murder, but she's stuck, and I think I would be the same way. Unfortunately there's zero mental health professionals (obviously, cause they all need to be in a ward) in drdt, but I hope that she maybe can come to cope in a healthier way with what's going on around her, because she doesn't deserve this mess. I didn't actually realize before that the cast had put her on a bit of a pedestal due to her amazing memory, but it makes sense. I'm not sure where I'm going with this, but I hope that Rose comes to peace with the turpentine and the tape thing because it really isn't her fault and that she can get help for her trauma due to Min and Xander, and Teruko's almost death. No matter how much people expect her to memorize a crime scene, she's human, and we all take things at much different paces.

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Hey David, didn't Whit teach us that trauma is a serious thing? You know I've been defending this guy a bit because of how he helped Eden and how I think he's trying to do what's right, but NEVERMIND. Because what the actual fuck is wrong with him to say something as messed up as these two statements. Rose and Arturo do not owe you anything, and they deserve to heal healthy, and at their own pace.

8. Teruko defending Rose was not in my ch2 trial bingo card, but oh my god, that really is sweet. I think Teruko really has started to change from talking with Rose.

I'm running out of images so I can't include her monologue, but it genuinely makes me happy she's starting to get some sort of character development. She really deserves it, and Charles really deserved being so fucking right about being social, lol. Also Teruko thanking Rose with that genuine smile on her face- brought me to tears. I hope they become friends :)

9. Ace and Eden, huh? To be honest, I'm completely torn and I can't see it being either one of them, but then again, I can't see it being anyone. I know so many people are complaining about not having a culprit reveal this ep, but I'm fine. I could wait another year and a half for the reveal. Actually, I don't think we need one at all. Maybe the true drdt is the friends we made along the way. Maybe it's better to choose delusion that nobody could've done it than it to have been Ace or Eden. Maybe, I killed Arei.

(I'm not that smart so I don't think I should be making killer theories, lol. I think it's safe to say I should stick to memes.)

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LMAOOOO. She right though.

11. "It pains me to come to Ace's defense" - David

another laughable moment, but a win for the Acevid shippers, I guess. I don't think David was lying though, and it was my suspicion all along that he had seen the body before anyone. I'm not very smart so I'm a bit confused as to whether later they're saying David actually did see her body (which is weird bc he'd have an alibi), or if he thinks someone else might've seen it and wanted to include that as a possibility.

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Teruko handled this whole situation super well, I was very impressed with her. Obviously you can't rule Eden out as the killer and Teruko explained that, but she was so compassionate and understanding about it that it made me cry. I never thought I'd say this, but here's a Teruko W. As for Eden pleading... I wish I could say more and I'm sure I'll be able to later, but it's just so likely she could be the culprit that I can't take anything she says at face value rn, and I was having trouble empathizing with her. Of course that's just my take, and I have already chatted with others who felt the whole scene was just a heartwarming experience, and that makes me really happy. This being said, the fact Teruko immediately turned to Ace as her main suspect TOOK ME OUT. I feel so bad for him he has literally done nothing but be suspicious to warrant this, while Eden is at the same level of suspicion. I really like that Teruko is playing favorites now, because Eden's been so good to her all this time.

13. I forgot to include David trying to get Teruko to not trust others!!! Shit!!!

Is that seriously how he plans to end the kg.. I can kinda see what he's going for bc so far the trope is in most danganronpa that you need to trust others to live and be fulfilled (not saying drdt is gonna follow that trope though). Hm.

Bro is actually down horrendous for Teruko though 😭

tierlist after watching this ep (kill me now)

#drdt #danganronpa despair time #drdt spoilers

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dollgxtz · 1 day

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Anon here, I was just wondering— reader is clearly a hunter. You’ve said it yourself. I don’t want to criticise your version of reader but I’m genuinely wondering; how come reader is a hunter who has gone through rigorous training sessions and combat lessons, and can’t defend herself against easy targets like Reese or the rxpists? She, at the very least, has some basic self defense skills, but couldn’t even grab he gun from Reese when he pointed it at her? It bugs me alot. Sorry if I’m being rude, but is there a reason for this?

Yes, there is a clear explanation for this. It’s not that she cant defend herself—she absolutely can. However, I deliberately portrayed her struggle against her captors as less than perfect because it was realistic given the circumstances.

After being subjected to extreme stress, starvation, and emotional + physical exhaustion, both her physical and mental abilities would have been significantly impaired. It’s important to consider that these conditions would slow her reflexes, cloud her judgment, and drain her energy, making it difficult to execute her trained combat skills as effectively as she would under normal conditions. Even the most skilled hunter wouldn’t be at their best after enduring such trauma.

That being said, if you recall, she did manage to land a kick on one of her attempted rapist, but the combination of her weakened state and their greater physical strength meant she was still easily overpowered.

She also tried the same move on Sylus when she was still in decent shape. She very well took advantage of her training.

I didn’t want her to be completely helpless, so she does have basic self defense skills but is overpowered by the circumstances of her situation, whether it be starvation, extreme psychological stress, or exhaustion. She’s human after all 🙂

I wanted to reflect how vulnerability in such dire circumstances affects even the most trained individuals. It felt more authentic and true to the situation, than let’s say, she’s still kicking ass despite everything she’s been through lol.

It’s not rude to ask questions or want clarification by the way! I do like when people ask about my work. I have my reasons for writing Reader the way I did as I feel it aligns more with what I’m trying to portray. Also this is x reader technically. I want my audience to feel her emotions and relate to her in a way, so portraying this as realistically as I can to the actual human experience while still immersing you guys in this universe is important to me ≽^•⩊•^≼

#umi answers ♡︎#love and deepspace #love and deepspace sylus #sylus

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tubbytarchia · 8 months

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I don't know what this is all I know is that LimL Joel makes me really emotional

#I know he has a tendency to go deranged on his red lives but idk something about him beginning to lose it after Jimmy died and killing Grian #joel smallishbeans #smallishbeans fanart #trafficblr #Again its his red life shenanigans but... If only Jimmy had known how affected someone was by his death. I'm choosing to believe this #and him then going out like a sad pathetic wet cat even with Grian's sacrifice... He really deserves a win one of these days lmao please #Also I cant stop thinking about how Jimmy wouldn't have left him. Grian was sensible to and most players probs would have #Joel really does become a lost cause so its fair and Grian did still care (and went to say goodbye as well as sacrifice his time for him)#But Jimmy would have stuck by even if Joel were in this state (and they'd both get themselves killed pathetically but)#And Joel having shown such genuine care for Jimmy and concern over his limited time... man anything w Jimmy makes me so emotional lol #I love them so #oh Ig about the art itself. I dont like it but hey thats how it tends to go when you try smth new. And no shame in trying #but if one person likes this then yayy I will still feel accomplished and happy #Im looking at this again and hey its not that bad actually yay I love to approve of my own art. self love hell yea #tubby art

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imaybe5tupid · 4 months

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Why bother? (Why bother?) It's gonna hurt me. (It's gonna hurt me.) It's gonna kill when- (Why bother!) -You desert me! (Gonna hurt me!)

Set after Nightmare. Laios is reminiscing and contemplating.

#laishuro #laios touden #i make a lot of jokes on here since part of the fun of this blog for me is limiting myself to only expressing ideas via drawings #as much as I can to try to see what I can try to convey in the limited time I have to draw each day which is sometimes like 15minutes #but laios idea of who shuro was to him and who he continues to be and how it ties into his own feelings of self worth and self hatred #not to mention being so thoroughly defined by having never been indulged before by the men in his life #are so compelling to me #and then of course you mix in toshiros own mind prisons #and their established dynamic of him begrudgingly putting up with him because he feels he has to and bc hes cursed with obedience #whilst laios genuinely thinks shuro does it because he likes it and likes laios because why else would anyone act like that #when everyone else in his life has not hesitated to Let Him Know #this is what is so fun about relationships like this…forever passing by each other’s true feelings like ships in the night #sometimes i get embarassed how deep i get for some of the characters in this series it really is that deep sometimes but not always #but WHATEVER #i never even engaged in or was interested in shipping the several years i read dunmeshi EXCEPT laishuro lol #which i sadistically wanted to stay one sided and miserable forever. I rarely get fed such genuinely fraught dynamics as their one in manga #so i became obsessed #and walked through the desert alone for 40 years and then checked in as anime started airing that other people ship this and gaf #and decided to unleash the jokes and ideas that my like 2 friend who like anime previously suffered alone as though they were jesus christ #now tho as much as I still enjoy tragedy and pain and emotional suffering I’ve let love and peace and requited fulfilled yaoi into my life #with laishuro. and its great!#my comics

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kiwisandpearls · 3 months

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my gender identity is really weird and complicated for me and I kinda hate that I still don’t have a definitive idea of it.

i can’t find myself fully identifying with any of the more bigger well known gender identities.

I know for a fact I’m not cis, but I also doubt that I’m trans, I’ve never experienced gender dysphoria other than simple discomfort over some gendered labels and titles I’ve been referred by, but I also don’t think nonbinary as a label fits me, but I also can’t see myself as being genderfluid nor multigender but I also doubt that I’m gender nonconforming.

“Ok, then just say you don’t wanna label yourself?”

maybe that’s an easy answer for some people but for me personally I want to have that tiny little box of other people to fit in with. And the fact I’m having such a hard time finding that box makes me feel pathetic.

irl, most people just perceive me as being cis and use the pronouns that were assigned to me at birth. I’m terrified of telling people how I actually feel and it’s just easier to keep my mouth shut about it. Heck most people irl don’t even know I’m aromantic and I’m sure they’d have a field day if they found out about that.

And thankfully not saying anything about my gender identity is easier for me (for me PERSONALLY not everyone, please do not apply my own personal experiences to others) because I’m just apathetic to it. But I know that I’m not totally happy being perceived that way because the one time one person offhandedly referred to me as with they/them pronouns irl, I felt euphoric on the inside.

I just don’t have a clear idea of what I even want to identify as and it just makes me feel shitty all around

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crunchycrystals · 4 months

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i did not realize going into this season i would come out shipping gorgug with three different people i was coming into this with the biggest donospring mindset and yet here we are

#crunchyposts #i miss zelda but gorgug and mary ann and gorgug and unit............#they can all date i dont give a shit #zelda is a purely emotional thing logically i know its good they broke up like normal teenage relationships #BUT i do also think gorgug dating both unit and zelda and/or mary ann would be a good extension of his character arc #melding barbarians and artificers !!!!!!!#the chill part of his personality (mary ann and zelda out of combat) and the more emotional side (them IN combat)#also his parents are swingers he knows polyamory i believe in my ship.#side note first time ive genuinely shipped more than two people very happy day for me !!!!#usually i just have one monogamous ship and some others that i am chill w but this time its like no. all of you kiss #d20 #fh #fhjy #fhjy spoilers #fantasy high spoilers #fantasy high junior year spoilers #WAIT CONCEPT. i like gorgug and zelda together but logically i feel like they just wouldnt get back together #in hs at least i still love them but thinking logically rn i think theyve done normal growing apart #concept before emotional brain comes up w ideas to get them back together. gorgug and unit and mary ann. and then mary ann and zelda #zelda learning from mary ann how to not give a shit and mary ann learning from zelda how to be a bit better to her friends #alright ive solved every problem i have making this headcanon lol #edit ok ive made up my mind. all of them date. i dont know unit well enough to see how theyd be good in the ship #just like date gorgug MINIMUM but mary ann and zelda and gorgug all dating each other. ive created the best case scenario for me lol

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dimonds456-art · 4 months

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Maladaptive daydreaming.

#daydreaming #maladaptive daydreaming #maladapting daydreaming disorder #maladaptive behaviors #maladaptive coping #dissociation #immersive daydreaming #dimond speaks #yeah so adding this to my list here lol #my therapist helped me realize i dissociate a LOT and the primary way i do it is through vivid daydreams #they usually happen at work but they also pop up if i'm having a bad day or... anytime really.#i've also come to the realization that i have at least one of these a day which is not good fgsjh #my therapist says they're not inherently bad especially since they do have a positive effect on my emotions (if its a good daydream)#but it's gotten to the point that it's affecting the way i work #and they can last for a LONG time too #i haven't timed them but i do know they've been over 30 minutes at work before #this is either due to ADHD autism PTSD or a mixture of the three lmao #weeeee #anyway. this post isn't really intended to be a vent post #it's more like a 'this is my experience' type post #it just kinda comes across as somewhat vent-y #but that was because i wanted to try and immerse the reader into what its like to have these daydreams #like mine look NOTHING like this but making it more generic would help others understand it #the void is the general dissociation from reality #then you emerge in the dream #i can feel things as if i'm there- the sun the wind and sometimes even physical touch #and i'll stay there until something snaps me out #strangely i can get my work done while i'm doing this- i just wont have any memory of doing so. it's like being on autopilot #anyway. I hope this post was helpful to someone out there #if you also maladaptive daydream YOU ARE NOT ALONE! it's valid and you're not 'faking' anything. it's a genuine trauma response.

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chiimeramanticore · 5 days

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#im not dead quit asking #I'm just really really really not doing well #sorry if i scared anyone. that wasnt my intent #things got. let's say worse. for me irl. more complicated for sure #i hate to publicize my breakdown I really do. but maybe i... need this? in a weird way?#i haven't really been adjusting well to having a platform online. that's not anyone's fault but mine ofc #i feel that my 'fans' (if ive earned the right to call them that) dont and frankly cant ever care for me as a person #i dont know you and you dont know me. you dont know all of me at least. just what i make public. what i allow others to see #i had it kinda bullied into me that i need to keep my mouth shut abt my own issues. and ive spent a lot of this year trying to unlearn that #maybe publicizing this is a bad idea anyway #I just know ive been more honest abt my emotions and my personal life with my friends and my partner #and not everyone enjoys it but i know I'm not like. traumadumping so i feel somewhat assured that anyone who doesnt wanna hear abt my life-#-probably wasnt all that interested in forming a close relationship w me to begin with. even if theyre friendly at first #everyone else; the people who I know care about me; have shown me that through their actions #my point is being honest abt how youre doing w other ppl is a good idea. revolutionary i know lol #and i still don't know a lot of you personally but #parasocial or not i got some very genuine sounding messages while I was gone. and i. feel really bad that i worried those people #I guess theres my proof that people would care if i disappeared suddenly. people would notice pretty quick it seems #im never gonna kms btw. even if i didnt have the support i have im simply too stubborn to die lol. to put it lightly #and to those who thought this was abt fandom drama: it's not. those who shall not be named are genuinely the least of my problems these days #I'm on a journey of self actualization. or something. im trying to get my shit together. im trying to stop being clinically depressed lol #but god keeps throwing wrenches in my plans and. i beat myself up about it too much #but that's just life. they say you make a plan and god laughs #im. trying to be okay with just riding the wave. im impatient but if i keep trying to somehow speed up time im just gonna exhaust myself #which I think is where im at now. burnt out #and on top of all that i still feel this need to like. perform for you guys #if i dont keep making content everyone will forget i exist. if i dont make another video essay this year can i even call myself a youtuber #etc etc. its the spiral its impostor syndrome we've all been there #im trying to end this on a positive note but idk. i dont have all the answers yet #hoping i figure it out soon. i hope you dont forget me in the meantime

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moonchild-in-blue · 4 months

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Oh.

#according to facebook memories (why do i even have that still??) 12 years ago today i saw Linkin Park for the first time 🥺#in a few days it'll be 10 years since the last time i saw them #and. hm. there's a lot that surfaced this days since clancy dropped and i'm a bit more emotional / sensitive than usual #and this is. well. making me extremely sad.#12 years ago. i remember as if it was yesterday. i cling to that day so much and i'm scared of forgetting about it #i wonder how 14 yo me would've reacted if she knew.#they were my first gig ever! i remember the 2nd song was given up and the people around us started moshing pretty hard.#so much that my shoe came off and my dad had to shield me while i crawled and looked for it hahaha #it was so fun! i didn't really know that was a thing #that day was the first time they played Lies Greed Misery - it had been released just the day before #my videos are SO blurry but i still have them all saved 🥹#idk i've been in some typa mood these past days. not necessarily bad at all but.#me and a couple friends had a very important conversation 2 nights ago which was GOOD but. the bad thing about letting everything bottle up #is that once you spill it's hard to deal with. and yeah this is. idk. i'm just venting here like. ignore me.#it's just really hard for me. i miss him terribly and i'm really scared for myself because i *know* i'm back in the loop #and it feels so hopeless sometimes. maybe this is super silly but i'm so thankful that Clancy came out now because OH BOY i need it #maybe it's not the best strategy to put so much faith? importance? in like. music and other people but #man. i genuinely don't know if i'd be here if not for certain songs/artists etc #idk I'm rambling lol. i might delete this later #probably. maybe. i try not to talk too much about this here because i tend to deal alone but. sometimes it's nice to send things to the void #anyways. support your favs. talk to your friends - even if you much rather not. don't be like me and let things rot inside.#🤍#darya talks to herself

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the-scarlet-witch-22 · 2 months

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this is either one of my favorite chapters I’ve ever written for conductor Agatha or it’s the worst thing to ever grace my Google doc. hard to tell at the moment.

#I genuinely feel like the quality of my writing has gotten so worse as of late #I’m not sure if it’s because of life stressors or just… me lol #I have such a clear vision of my emotions and I try to make that the focal point of my writing #but I don’t think it always comes across clear #I’ll delete later but yeah

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bunnihearted · 1 month

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u cant lovebomb me in a way that matters....

#(bc im demisexual and nothing like that even means anything to me if i dont feel a connection<3)#(lovebombing (the internet forgets that it's an actual term within emotional abuse lol. is insane to me... not for me. i just dont care.#not even normal compliments make me feel anything if i dont have a connection with a person.... its like im demisexual but platonically too #like ofc i appreciate it but it dont /feel/ anything. i dont even feel happy. it see #ms like most ppl feel happy or good getting compliments by anyone but im like.. 🧍🏻‍♀️. but when i get a compliment from a person i have a #connection to it feels like im high bc it feels so good lol. anyway idk what im talking abt. just thought abt it bc #when youre a mentally ill woman online talking abt feeling lonely and vulnerable and such u will get guys trying to lovebomb u 💀#im always like... ok.... i dont care..... if u arent genuine and authentic and sincere... kys.. haha jk ofc ^-^)

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coffeeandcalligraphy · 1 year

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ok day 1 of using a mobility aid (a cane!), anybody with experience have advice? any help or words of wisdom are appreciated!

#ngl I feel a little foolish like I know it genuinely helps and I’ve seen ppl say lots of ppl delay using aids bc they feel they’re not #disabled enough but despite knowing that I feel like idk if I can do this in public even tho I cannot walk properly lol or without #a lot of discomfort #at least on some days on other days I can make it but today I feel awful #anyway using my literal grandmother’s cane that she doesn’t even use LOLLLL i love being 22 but we’re gonna go out and get me one #also boosts appreciated sm like I genuinely am so new to this & a littttlleeee emotional abt it

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tadpoles-and-daydreams · 2 months

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still alive!! and a small photodump bc why not.

I was down for the count for a while, but I'm finally slowly reintegrating myself into society again lol. Connecting back to my spirituality and major parts of my life, etc. etc. and part of that has, weirdly enough, been going back to playing... a specific video game. I know but hear me out- sky COTL is one of my favorite games, a daily task of mine, and I wasn't doing it while I had COVID (just letting my friend drag me through dailies like a sack of potatoes.)

So today I spent like five hours in the little meditation island area that's going away today (so glad it's going to become permanent in the future!) because I knew that when I left it'd be gone and I wanted to take photos. And, while I didn't really feel his presence at the time because I'm feeling disconnected at the moment, I.... feel now as though the reason I like this photoset is because of Apollo. Maybe Loki, too. Something about taking these pictures, even in a game, felt very sacred and it's immediately become my favorite in-game photos I've taken.

So, I guess this is considered an offering to whichever of my deities wants it, have a bunch of photos of my skykid dancing in the sunset :D

I might post more sky cotl photos sometime, it holds a special place in my heart. Plus, photography is something I've always loved and wish I could do- but going out and taking photos of beautiful scenery, of people that I have to direct and ask to pose certain ways, etc, isn't accessible to me. So instead I take photos in sky and it connects me to a part of myself I don't often get to tap into. ^^

#recently my skykid turned very tiny when I was trying to get max height and I fully blame loki #I kept it though bc it's cute and makes me feel feral #also if anyone else on witchblr/paganblr/whatever plays sky and wants to friend me just shoot me a dm or an ask! I love meeting new skykids #especially if you want photos of ur skykid I'm thinking about asking the discord if anyone wants photos of their skykid #I really like taking photos of greykids in the moment though. There's this one photo I took that just radiates friendship it was so sweet #also got a comically haunting photo of a swingset suspended in the air #anyway I've rambled enough in the tags someday I'll ramble about sky in a post and how genuinely emotional I am about this game lol #witchblr #digital offering #in a way #apollo deity #sky cotl #sky cotl photography #witch blog

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tethrras · 2 months

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i will be so real i'm so thankful to have a job but the amount i want to grill myself on a bbq has increased like 20% lol

#i genuinely feel like a trapped animal and i'm so anxious thinking about it #esp bc it's like a High Importance job with some Confidential elements #i just don't wanna fuck anything up and get anyone in trouble like i really really don't #and it's really exhausting. and i've only worked here like 2 weeks lol!!!!!!!!!#aaaaa!!!!#i'm trying to be good about it and normal about it because i will literally only have to work #2 shifts a week for most of the summer and then 1 shift a week for the school year like #worrying about it is making me such a huge baby. but also. i'm so fucking scared lol #i wish my brain would let me have a mental breakdown but i care so little abt myself #that i can't even do that anymore #my body is fully like no one will care or sympathize with you if you show any emotion at all whatsoever #so why bother #and it's like well true!#that's a good point!#anyway hope i die actually i can't do this lol #maia.txt

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wiseatom · 1 year

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anyway you can literally pry mike and will sw*ftie agenda from my cold, lifeless hands