#this type of behaviour is completely childish

[thegirlinvelvet]

Never thought someone would call me "homophobic" over fucking pixels again but here we are looool.

Mind you this person harassed a 15 yo girl over settphel (yes). They made a whole ass post on r/apheliosmains accusing her of 'homophobia' because she made a humorous tiktok about her least favourite LOL ships, SettPhel was one of them but she clarified in the comments the reasons behind it, basically saying that it was due to the fact that some ppl tend to mischaracterize Phel and often associate him with Sett. Clear explanation, right? Well, that person still refused to let go of the accusations, which led the poor girl to privatize her fucking account. They’ve been called out by multiple ppl, myself included but still didn’t seem to give a shit.

I stumbled across their comments multiple times, one time they accused yet another girl with fairly fragile mental health of homophobia because she said she didn't really like the idea of shipping Aphelios with anyone, that he was her comfort character, and made her feel better; happy.

"jUsT saY yoU’re HoMoPhobIc anD Move On" was their answer. They keep on throwing these words under harmless posts but when I called them out and on their BS I’m wrong and homophobic????

Oh and they also criticize other people’s ships and hcs, I remember someone posting a super well-made painting of Sb Phel x Sb Thresh, and you know what they commented? "SettPhel is much better." Okay? If you don’t have something nice to say, don’t say anything at all. Like, how can you possibly be this disrespectful? Why do you feel the need to bring up SettPhel? Are you that insecure? Over fucking pixels?

Simply INSANE. It’s like people aren’t allowed to have different tastes anymore. "No you can’t ship SettRaka, it’s gross-" "NamiPhel is weird" "You can’t ship SettEz, Sett is already-" stfu and let people live. These characters are NOT REAL, they do NOT BELONG TO YOU, stop harassing innocent ppl and let them be creative. You’re fighting the wrong fucking battle.

[bella-goths-wife]

How alec, Johnny and Jane court Cullen reader

Warnings: obsessive behaviour, possessive behaviour, oblivious reader, inexperienced reader, mentions of abuse from Cullens

Alec:

Alec has to be subtle about his affections and intentions with you

Your ‘family’ already hate him, they have since the day Edward was introduced to the volturi and could report to the Cullens every thought alec has had of you

His courting had to remain subtle for his forbidden flower, for his sweet Juliet to his Romeo

He found that at first his best option for being close to you was ask for a dance at one of the balls that the volturi threw for the introductions of new members of big time clans

These balls were for the most part mandatory, meaning your family couldn’t just lock you away and you could spend time with other vampires with minimal fear

Alec would walk to to you with one of the volturi kings next to him so that If you accepted a dance with him, they could distract the Cullens long enough for Alec to slip the two of you onto the ballroom floor

He never was one for dancing before you, coming from a poor village in the medieval times he never really had to learn

Even after joining the volturi, he copied basic moves whenever he had to dance with someone for the sake of politeness

But after meeting you and realising that you came from a different time period to him, he begged some of the female volturi members to teach him some steps to dances from your time

He tried to master them but sometimes you still have to correct him, to which he’ll claim that you must be seeing things to save himself embarrassment

He also tried to learn courting culture from your time, but he never could do with all the politeness from it

He preferred being improper with you, it gave him the opportunity to see the real you

So he’d sneak up to your room after the Cullens locked you up for the night

He’d sneak through the window and the two of you would spend the night talking and laughing together, considering neither of you needed to sleep

It made him feel closer to you, made him feel special to have that time with you

He knew that no one else had that experience with you, and that made his worries of you being taken from him

He’s done everything in his power to make sure the vampire clans know that he has claim on you and is courting you, he’s seen the newer clans looking at you like a piece of meat and he thought it best to show who you belong to

If any others try and intrude on your time together, they’ll be hissed at viciously and the volturi kings will be told of the interference to their plan to match you with either Alec or Jane

His last act of devotion to you was to swear you that he will free you from the Cullens grasp, and you can only pray he’s truthful

Jane:

Jane isn’t the most loving person

She struggles to express most emotions, but showing her adoration and love is the hardest

So she tries to court you in more practical ways, such as acts of service

Anything that you need doing, she will have the task completed by sundown

Your struggling to find clothes because the Cullens only give you childish clothes? Jane had handmade clothes tailored to match and compliment your body type and skin colour and she leaves them in your room for you

You’re thirsty but you don’t have any blood to feed with? Jane killed a human for you two to share during your teatime

She even asks for it to be baked into pastry’s even though neither of you can digest food anymore so you both end up coughing it up

You need entertainment while you’re locked away in your room? Jane will sit outside your door and read your favourite books and poems to you and keep you entertained

She also tries to work on her physical affection for you

She offers you an arm when you walk together through the garden at night, she places her hand over yours when you need comforting, she will place small kisses on your hand when greeting you in private

These are all things she never thought she’d be comfortable with until she met you, so she’s slowly improving in private

When she’s feeling extra possessive, she will cover you head to toe in her signature scent either by spraying you with perfume or briefly holding you and rubbing her cheek against your neck

This means she can put a subtle claim on you to show that you are hers and that anyone who tries to touch you will feel the wrath of her painful stare

Her final act of devotion from when she saw you last was swearing to free you from the Cullens so the two of you could stay near each other forever

She does all of this and yet your still completely oblivious to the affections her and her twin hold for you

Johnny (post meeting you)

Johnnys methods of courting is mainly just trying to help you discover more of yourself and help you separate your identity from the one forced upon you by the Cullens

I suppose it would fall under the category of quality time as he will spend hours upon hours with you helping you learn a new skill or remember an old memory

He helps you acclimate to the more modern parts of society that the Cullens never taught you about, such as dating culture and party culture

He tries to find things for the two of you to do that he thinks you’ll enjoy the most

An example of this is him taking you to a petting zoo and letting you control all the cute animals because it made you feel better then hunting with the Cullens

He also used his power to his advantage and he will shape his shadows to make shadowy animal figures for you to admire

He will also get very secretly proud of himself every time he sees you’ve enjoyed yourself doing an activity he chose out

He’s also very big into PDA as he’s less afraid of what the Cullens will do to him

He’s always got an arm around your shoulders or waist when you walk or he’s holding your hand as you talk to each other

But always with permission, he understands that you can have a slight touch Phobia because of your time with the Cullens

He was also raised as a lord, so all of his courting will subconsciously be very gentlemanly despite his playful and rough persona

So that means the sidewalk rule is being obeyed, he’s always taking your arm when you walk together and he’s always generally acting with honour and decency

He’ll do all this and you’ll still swear that he hates you though

Thoughts guys? 😭

[seventeen-roxy]

RELATIONSHIP WITH THE PERFORMANCE UNIT ☀︎︎

KWON SOONYOUNG ; ROXY. ship name: roshi

He was very excited at the thought of having a female member in the group.

He cheered so hard when he knew Roxy was gonna be in the performance unit since at first she was supposed to be in the hip hop unit.

Him and Roxy are called one of the loudest duo in the group.

They often have dance offs to see who is better at dancing (Hoshi lets Roxy win most of the times because he knows she will get cranky if she loses).

When Hoshi gets in the performance leader mode though he becomes serious and strict even with Roxy (even though he tries to be a little gentler with her).

He shares photos of his dog Latte in exchange for photos of Roxy’s cat Daisy.

WEN JUNHUI ; ROXY. ship name: huixy

Him and Roxy weren’t really close at first since they spoke two completely different languages but they both tried to be polite to each other since they knew they were gonna be in the same group together.

He has the habit of communicating with cat memes via text and every time him and Roxy text she responds with cat memes as well to make him happy.

He’s also a really big fan of Roxy’s cat so she sends him a lot of pictures of her when she can.

He’s kinda Roxy’s therapist because he would just ask a simple ‘what’s wrong?’ and she would just start yapping and yapping and he would never get tired of her for it.

Usually takes Roxy’s luggage at the airport if it’s too heavy for her.

He learns English from Roxy and she learns Mandarin Chinese from him.

XU MINGHAO ; ROXY. ship name: roxhao

He actually didn’t like the idea of having a girl on the team and was actually really jealous of Roxy at first but then he realised that his behaviour was childish so he decided to give her a chance.

Roxy would choose to hold Minghao’s hand in crowded places when they first debuted and he wouldn’t complain one bit.

Roxy always gets excited every time Minghao comes back from China since she knows he would buy her all types of different teas that they will eventually try together.

During practices he would tell Roxy to take a break since he knows she gets out of breath easily.

The only time Roxy would be calm is when Minghao would meditate and she would quietly join him, closing her eyes, trying to imitate him.

They give each other reassuring looks to let each other know they’re okay without even needing to say a word.

LEE CHAN ; ROXY. ship name: dinxy

His maknae title being taken at first was a big slap on the face for him but even if he was just one year older than Roxy, he realised that she deserved it better than him.

Being the two youngest members of the group though meant always getting babied by all of the the members but he would never forget that Roxy was the youngest so he would also baby her a lot (more than the others actually).

He knows when Roxy is feeling down so he always tries to make it better by buying her gifts or food even though she always tells him that even an hug would be okay for her (he also gives her a hug in the end to make her extra happy).

He’s actually stricter than Hoshi when it comes to dancing but he only does it because he wants Roxy to be the best she could ever be.

Every time their group wins a trophy Dino goes up to Roxy and high fives her.

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[mistycreativelilacs]

The Sins We Carry

The reader gets her world view upended by visiting someone from her past.

Chapter 1: Like Father, Like Son Kitchen Off Limits (The fic that started it all) Life Knocked You Down? Get Back Up. (Part two in my ongoing Bruce x Reader series) Ao3 Series (Read all parts in one convenient place and be the first to read new chapters when I post them.) Check out my other works on Ao3

Chapter 2: Sins of The Mother

“Why didn’t you tell me about my father?” Your mother sits in her living room, blatantly ignoring your entrance to her home. “Mother?” She turns the page of her book before gently placing it on the table beside her.

“I did start to wonder if you were finally going to visit your poor mother when the news of your patronage was revealed.” She picks up her teacup and gestures towards the chair across from her.

“This isn’t a social visit.” You grumble out while reluctantly taking a seat.

“Obviously.” She responds dryly. “We’ve barely spoken a word to one another since I told you not to marry that awful Wayne boy.”

“Why do you hate him so much?”

“Why don’t you? After every terrible thing that’s happened to you since becoming acquainted with that man, how can you possibly stand to be around him?” She raises a single, perfectly sculpted eyebrow. “Regardless of whatever simpering, pathetic answer you have for that, I don’t hate him. I simply know you could do better.” There's an ever-present air of pretentiousness wafting off her as she sips her tea.  “How many times have I told you not to slouch like that. It’s very unbecoming, not to mention awfully un-ladylike.”

“In case you’ve forgotten I’m an adult, and I’ll sit however I damn well please.” You slouch further into the couch in an act of admittedly childish defiance.

“This is exactly the type of regressive behaviour I feared that Wayne boy would encourage in you. You’ve completely forgotten how to act in polite company.”

“You’re not ‘polite company’, you’re my Mother.” Coming here was a mistake; the same mistake you’ve made every few years over the nearly two decades since you’d fled this stuffy intellectualist hellhole. “And thank you for reminding me why I shouldn’t even bother trying with you anymore.”

“Oh, do come off that incredibly high horse of yours, dear.”  She stands, smoothing out her skirt. “We both know these visits aren’t about some ‘misguided attempt to make amends.’ They’re about your ego. Things aren’t going the way you want them to in your personal life, so you come here to try and blame me for everything that’s ever gone wrong.” She moves to the bay window on the far side of the sitting room. “I was never as terrible a mother as you constantly try to make me out to be.” She opens the cabinet under the window bench and removes what appears to be a scrapbook. “I may have been strict, but you and I both know I was never cruel, never raised a hand towards you in anger.”

“But you never raised them in love either.” Your voice is shaky and small, so eerily reminiscent of the mons-… man you’d left in that hovel of an apartment mere hours ago. “I can’t remember a single time you hugged me as a child, nor an encouraging word. It was always a criticism, a scolding look, a disappointed glance across the table. I needed a mother and all I got was a governess.”

“Yes, well, you and I are very different, aren’t we?” She places the album in your lap before returning to her seat. “You wanted those boys, with every fibre of your being, and I’m sure you want children of your own with that awful Wayne boy.”

“They are my children, whether or not Bruce and I have a baby, those boys will always be my children.”

“Yes, because you have a nurturing spirit. It was always my biggest regret about you. Nurtures like you don’t last long in this city, especially not in the circles you’ve landed yourself in.” She almost sounded concerned for you. “Poor Martha was a nurturer, and look how that ended for her.” Your mother shakes her head. “When I found out about my pregnancy, I was prepared to do the right thing. Your father was an engaged man of prominence, and I was in the midst of getting my first PhD it made sense to terminate.”  Your world starts to tilt. You’d always assumed your mother never wanted children, but to hear straight from her mouth that she tried to terminate you… There’s a pain in your chest, and you can’t help but think of the boy’s face when you said those hurtful things to him earlier this evening. “Of course, I went to him first. I figured I could squeeze enough money out of him to cover the appointment, even more if I threatened to go to the press. But instead of wanting to get rid of you, he paid me to keep you. I never truly understood why, especially when you turned out to be a girl, but he continued to pay for your well-being, so I raised you as instructed.”

“You should have taken the money and aborted me anyway. Would have saved both of us a whole hell of a lot of trouble and heartache.”

“Open it.” She gestures at the album she’d placed in your lap. “My words will never be good enough for you; you never did respond well to logic. Such an emotional little thing. Perhaps those will finally show you what my words can’t.”

You crack open the album and are greeted with picture after picture of yourself. Each photo is accompanied by a description depicting when, where and why it was taken. The meticulous handwriting of your mother is scrawled across each page, with the descriptions getting less factual and more... emotional.

“My father paid you to keep a detailed photo album of me, so what? Is this supposed to make me feel better about having a mother who doesn’t love me?” Your mother rises from her chair once more.

“That trust fund your father left you in his will, that I'm sure he attributed to himself, or your grandfather; That was the money he paid me to keep you.” She moves towards the stairs. “I did send him a few photos over the years, but that album… that was mine, and mine alone.” She ascends the stairs, seemingly aloof to how she’s upended everything you knew about your life.

If you could be so... wrong about your own mother, what else could you be wrong about?

[33446699]

Red flags in tarot/astrology readers:

Readers who do 18+ ,love readings on minors

Readers who are biased in their readings

Readers who answer invasive questions

Readers who answer NSFW questions about celebs

Readers who are racist or cultural appropriate

Readers who impose their religious or political or social beliefs on others

Readers who accuse any celebrity of knowing or doing black magic or hexxing

Readers who are passive aggressive, or literally cursing or lashing out on people asking them questions or to other readers

Readers sharing moodboards in which FS (appearance , connection, description)of a celebrity , weirdly matches with their own appearance , connection or vice versa

Readers who act childish

Readers who act like they know it all

Readers who believe/ say only their readings are accurate 100 percent,and other readers are wrong or not accurate

Readers who use AI for their readings but don't mention it

Readers who are extremists or part of organisations that are extremists

Readers who support genocide or war in any region of the world in any form

Readers doing readings( games,free,paid) how relationship will be like between a particular celebrity and their fans (friends , romantic) as it increases delusional behaviour and strengthens parasocial relationship

Readers who answer questions related to divorce/ death

Readers who answer questions related to cheating

Readers who are friends with delulus or themselves fall in stage 2,3 of Parasocial relationship

Readers who are hateful to a particular celebrity and their FS for no reason and drag them for it

Readers who assume gender of FS of a celebrity without giving the reason why they feel /believe so

Readers who assume sexual orientation of a celebrity by themselves and readers who are shippers

Readers who say that what they dream is 100 accurate only the interpretation can be wrong ( dreams can be normal sometimes) ,or readers accusing other people/ readers on basis of dreams

Readers having whole blog discussions based on dreams , judging everything related to a celebrity or their FS everything on basis of dreams

Readers who tell that a particular celebrity or FS is tired of being read on ,or people discussing their love life but still continue to do so

Readers rejected by a celebrity or FS energy many times and continue to read on that celebrity or FS

Readers being too invested in a specific celebrity personal life ,or FS ,having discussions on their blogs for weeks or months ( parasocial relationship type 1)

Readers dedicating their whole blog or almost whole blog to one specific celebrity or their FS

Readers supporting or having fan blog for FS of a celebrity

Readers saying a celebrity has children ( if unmarried) when the celebrity hasn't/ hadn't mention anything about it

Readers who completely deny the possibility without reading that FS or partner of a particular celebrity can be of certain age , religion,country ,status , appearance,race, professionetc

Readers who do readings on a celebrity or their FS too often , ( every few days or weeks ),or doing too many tarot readings in one day ( energy draining)

Readers creating possible birth chart of a celebrity FS ,or describing every little detail of a celebrity chart using astrology

Readers who encourage drama,create drama, controversy in tarot, astro community

Readers doing readings on rumors

Readers body shaming celebrities or their followers

Readers diagnosing a celebrity or their FS ,or their followers ( even worse if not a doctor)

Readers answering same question multiple times whether ( for example jungkook has met his FS or not , will cheat or not , divorce or not ) ,for views ,followers ,or to feed curiosity, Delusions of their followers

Readers who claim to be FS of a celebrity

Readers who label a celebrity as playboy

Readers who sexualise a celebrity or their FS and give weird sexualised nick names to them

Readers who promote,share reading fanfics ( increase delusional and parasocial relationship)

Readers saying that a particular celebrity is delulu when they are doing their job

Readers acting like they know a celebrity personally and having discussions how they should act in relationships or friendships according to what they think ( no tarot or astrology )

Readers being bully themselves or supporting celebrities who are bullies,readers who mock and bully other readers ,their followers , or readers supporting convicted criminals..

Readers getting angry or making fun of ,if anyone ask them questions about possibility of that person being FS or having a connection with the celebrity instead of answering politely

Readers whose main focus is only love life of a celebrity with few to none readings on a celeb career ,goals , achievements etc

Readers being too specific in details in their readings for FS physical appearance ,country ,zodiac sign, ethnicity,race, age ,religion ,profession anything which tarot,astro can't tell precisely

Readers who answer every question they get about a celebrity or FS ,with no boundaries with themselves and their audience,and disrespectful of the boundaries of celebrity or FS they are reading on

Readers saying a certain celebrity FS readings are done on them

Readers who switch on their words often ,doing the very things they criticise others for

Readers who request their fans to do reading on a particular celebrity or their FS if that celebrity or FS energy rejected reading by that specific tarot reader

Readers sharing no feedback at all ,or sharing no feedback from their personal readings,the only feedback is about celebrities they read on

Readers continuously deleting and creating blogs ( content is precious and it creates trust issues between a reader and audience)

Readers forcing their advice on people they read tarot for

Readers saying someone has dark aura ( without giving reason why )

Readers advising people to follow tarot, astrology in everything in life ,or saying they can't change anything about future

Readers behaving like every ask or every question is delusional

Readers saying a particular celebrity or FS is on their blog (without use of tarot or astro)

Readers whose energy feels off

Readers who are performative activists

Readers who infantalize a celebrity

Readers saying that the person any particular celebrity will marry won't be their main FS

Readers stealing content of other creaters ,readers

Readers who don't take positive criticism well

Readers directly or indirectly supporting saesangs, discuss,share it do readings on content leaked by saesangs

Readers who don't mention what cards they got in their readings

* This is what I believe and think ,in the end everyone is free to follow and like any reader they like ,no one is forced to agree with me ,lot of the points are linked to the followers ,will discuss later

[spongeofaces]

Matchup exchange for @thecurrator 1/3

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First of the three matchups! I'm sorry for taking so long with these 🙇‍♀️

Really loved the one you made by the way, super cute.

Hope it lives up to your expectations!

Do tell me if I made any errors, I'll fix it up right away.

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Romantic

I match thecurrator with...

🐉 Malleus Draconia 🐉

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Malleus may be an absolute sweetheart of a partner, but he is also new to this kind of relationship. He does try his best, however he may not always know what is expected of him; what's too much or too little. Just be patient with him, okay? He'd wait an eternity for you, after all.

Typically, Malleus talks to others in a respectful yet somewhat cold tone, but fortunately he's comfortable enough around you to drop the polite walls he's built up. At times, he may find himself making small jokes or teasing comments that he usually wouldn't make with anyone else. Slowly yet surely, he'll become more and more willing to act childish if he wishes to, not feeling the same shame he used to when he acted in such a way. You've helped him become a lot more open with his words and actions, and he appreciates that.

As someone who has had personal experience with feeling isolated for a long time, Malleus has made it his personal mission to make sure that as long as the two of you are together, you'll never feel lonely. He needs you to know that no matter the situation, no matter the time, he is willing to be by your side. There's no need to hesitant or worry if you want to ask Malleus to spend time with you, I assure you; he'd drop anything if it meant he could be with you instead.

Malleus can take on any role in a conversation, switching between speaking and listening depending on the current mood. Whenever you speak, he is sure to pay his utmost attention, treasuring the words that leave your lips, storing away any and all information you give him in his head. You may make a one-off comment about a show you sort of like, and a day or two later he'll be bringing it up, having watched some of it to learn more about your tastes. Whether you feel like fast-paced banter, meaningful conversation, sudden rants or complete silence, Malleus is always happy to oblige.

This guy does not hold back on the compliments, always finding some sort of excuse to praise you. No matter how mudane a task you complete is he'll have something positive to say about you. Just by the look of utter adoration in his eyes, you can tell that it isn't empty flattery; he means every word of it. At this point, you find that he's truly enamoured with even your smallest actions and behaviours.

Definitely a gift giver. He'll experiment with different types of gifts, trying to get a read on which kind of trinket you treasure most. At the start, he'll stick to the default gifts, flowers, jewellery, clothes, plushies. The only thing that isn't stereotypical about the gifts he gives, is the amount. You'll be recieving something every other day, some things small, some things large. His gifts will become more personalized as he learns more about you.

He adores spending time participating in your interests with you. He'll organize movie nights or days to binge entire shows, just so he can listen as you discuss the themes and delve into the characters.

He is not going to help with your habit of getting lost in new places, if I'm honest. Pretty sure he'll just play dumb and let you lead you both off-track, feigning ignorance when you ask if he has any clue which way to go. Oh, but he doesn't have any malicious intent, he just finds the act of going on a simple, spontaneous walk with you pleasant.

He'd go absolutely anywhere if only you'd invite him. If he's the one choosing a date location, it would probably be somewhere out in nature, with a pretty view or scenery. He may start getting sappy and compare you to a flower or something, how you react to that is up to you.

Make him a music playlist, and it will be the only thing he listens to for practically the entire month. He might seek you out to talk to you about how he interprets certain lyrics and songs. He's grateful you took time out of your day to make something so thoughtful for him.

You two share the 'unapproachable' vibe. You because of the rbf, him because of his intimidating presence. But hey, at least you two know that the other isn't as scary as they look.

If you ever space out, he'll just sit in silence and watch you affectionately, wondering what could possibly be going through your mind at that moment. When class is about to start, he may poke your cheek to snap you out of the small daze.

Other options: Silver and Jade.

[imagineanime2022]

Heroes W/ S/O Like Queen B

Shota Aizawa X Fem!Reader, Taishiro Toyomitsu X Fem!Reader, Rumi Usagiyama X Fem!Reader, Hizashi Yamada X Fem!Reader

Requested: Anon

Request: I loved your villains with Queen B helluvaboss😁 may I please request queen B but with the pro heroes Aizawa, Fatgum, Mirko, Or even present Mic And they even like when she sings her song, “cotton candy” That would be pretty cool?

Shota Aizawa

🐛 You are not the type of person that anyone expects Aizawa to be with, you were the complete opposite colourful and sweet, most of the time. 🐛 You were popular amongst the younger kids and some of the teens, he was not surprised when he heard his class talking about you. 🐛 That extends to him hearing people singing your songs, he always thought that the song sounded best when you were singing it. 🐛 The best part of his day was when he’d come home to you humming or singing to yourself as you carried out everyday tasks.

Today had been taxing, 1A had been particularly testy and he had had to step in and stop a number of fights between the classmates and everyone else in the building. Not to mention all the other kids constantly goading the top class in hopes that they could get a rise from them. Honestly it was all childish behaviour and usually he would ignore it but today it so happened that it was his job to deal with it.

He walked into his room at the UA apartments and instantly relaxed when he heard you singing softly, he walked into the kitchen to see that you were frowning to yourself as you cooked. “What’s going on?” He asked as he walked up behind you gently wrapping his arms around your waist. “Nothing…” You answered as you changed the tune you were humming before shaking your head, crossing something out on a piece of paper a little bit away from you. “I’m trying to figure out the next few songs for the album.” “Mmm.” He hummed “I’m sure that you’ll make something amazing.” “You say that every time.” You narrowed your eyes as you let your head fall backwards to rest against his shoulder. “Have I been wrong?” He asked. “That is not the point.” You giggled as you squeezed his hands before continuing to make dinner. “How was your day?” You asked. “Hectic.” He answered “the kids are getting antsy.” “How so?” You asked. “1B is being particularly antagonistic.” Aizawa mumbled, pressing his face into your shoulder. “Well it’s not your problem anymore, let them fend for themselves for a little while.” You said softly, turning off the food and turning around in his grip. “Mmm, only if you show me those songs.” He said softly and you nodded. “Seems like a fair trade.” You finally nodded.

Taishiro Toyomitsu

🍡 You are the best thing that has ever happened to him period. 🍡 You have all the food that he needs, he’ll often come find you because according to him the best food he has had is the food that you have made for him. 🍡 Not to mention he’s always been a fun guy, he loves watching you perform any of your songs and even showed up if you filmed music videos, just for the support. 🍡 If he’s got paperwork to do or just odd jobs that require him to be able to hear everything going on around him, you can guarantee that your music is playing, through speaker or pair of earphones.

You are supposed to be meeting Tai for lunch, he had told you that he had been bogged down with paperwork. You knew that meant that he couldn’t leave the office but that didn’t mean that you couldn’t bring something to the office for him.

You walked into his agency and you could hear it before you even fully stepped into the lobby, a song from your newest album blaring from Tai’s office “has he been playing that all day?” You mumbled to yourself. “All week actually.” Kirishima corrected you, you glanced over at him and Tamaki sitting in the break area. “I’m so sorry.” Your face took on pity you couldn’t imagine dealing with someone playing the same album on repeat when it wasn’t your choice. “Ah it’s not so bad.” Kirishima waved you off but you didn’t believe him, instead you made a new promise. “I’m going to get him to stop playing that album.” You promised, you could hear Tamaki muttering something but you didn’t quite catch it as you made your way towards the office.

He didn’t even look up with you walked in confirming an earlier thought against knocking as he was unlikely to be able to hear you. You walked over to his desk gently knocking on the wood of his desk, he looked up at you and smiled pushing hush chair back and opening his arm. “There she is.” He cheered as you looked around the room trying to locate the control for the sound system. “You won’t find it.” “Where is it, you can’t keep subjecting everyone to this.” You stepped around the table reaching for the desk drawers, opening and closing each of them when you came up empty. “I’m not subjecting anyone to anything, I’m gifting them this.” Tai answered. “I’m not sure that everyone thinks that.” You continued searching still not finding anything, finally you turned to him, realising the many pockets on his hero suit. “Then they shouldn’t be working here.” Taishiro grabbed at your waist when you were close enough. “You shouldn’t joke like that.” You smacked his shoulder as you straddled his lap, hands moving to his pockets, he grabbed your wrist, the movement caused the control to peek out of his pocket, your tail shot out to grab it far to quickly for Taishiro to comprehend. The music cut off and you almost heard the collective sigh from everyone outside of the room. “You're no fun.” Tai pouted and you smirked and pressed a kiss to his cheek. “I’m plenty of fun but no one needs to hear my music that much.” You muttered as he opened his mouth to protest. “I don’t want to hear it, it’s lunch time, let's eat.”

Rumi Usagiyama

🐇 You and Mirko are the power couple of the century, the wolf and the rabbit, most villains were terrified if you two were the ones after them. 🐇 Mirko was never not promoting your music, she loved it and she honestly didn’t care what others thought. 🐇 You were never too bothered by hate that found its way to you through your music career but Mirko often took it as a personal offence and stood up for you in any way that she could, that often worried her PR team but like I said before she doesn’t care. 🐇 Mirko liked when you sang for her and only her, so she’d often ask for a performance at home, where it was just the two of you.

You’d been home for a while before Mirko came in, so long that you had showered changed and started dinner. You heard the door open and smiled when she peered around the kitchen door to look at you. “Good, your home.” She grinned as she walked towards you pressing a kiss to your temple “you’ve been working too hard lately.” “The same could be said for you.” You argued as you turned off the food walking “everything is ready, go wash up while I plate up everything.” “Fine.” She walked towards the bedroom and through to the bathroom while you continued with the food.

After eating you were both in the living room, the news playing softly in the background not that either of you were really paying attention, Mirko had pulled you onto her lap both of you talking in hushed tones about your day and the people that you had spoken to. “You know I missed you today.” Mirko changed the subject, she had been talking about some boring meeting that she’d had to attend, the only reprieve being that she was with Hawks, he made it a lot more bearable. “Missed me? You saw me this morning.” You pressed your finger to her nose and nipped at the air attempting to catch it as you pulled away. “I didn’t have time to listen to you today, usually I hear your voice throughout the day.” She explained. “Mmm.” You hummed. “Where is this going?” “I think after such a stressful day I’m entitled to a personal performance.” Adjusting you to sit facing her she knocked her nose against yours drawing your attention to her. “Personal performance?” You asked. “Whatever song you want.” The grin never left her face and her eyes never strayed from yours. “Right now?” You asked. “Is that a problem?” Mirko asked. “Just a bit sudden, I didn’t have a performance on my schedule today.” You shrugged and she leaned up lips next to your ear. “Come on for me?” And of course you did it.

Hizashi Yamada

🎙 This man has a radio show… I don’t think there is anyone who hasn’t heard whatever your newest song at the time is. 🎙 He will have his own renditions of your song whether that’s covers or remixes, literally dedicates a whole segment to you, man has no chill and also doesn’t know how to keep what he deems small insignificant secrets so that segment is usually dedicated to disproving rumours and telling little secrets. 🎙 No.1 fan, no one hears the end of him talking about you, Aizawa knows more than he should about you. 🎙 Your work colleagues are always calling you telling you that you need to listen to whatever your boyfriend is rambling about because it’s hilarious.

You groaned as you continued to listen to Hizashi continue to enthusiastically rant on about whatever it is that he’s talking about, you had stopped listening a little while ago but it had started with the newest villain arrest that you had made. You were heading to the studio considering Hizashi had gone well over what he had told you was the segmented time for his rant.

“There you are, I tried telling him a few times that he’s going over.” You nodded as you listened to the show runner who was leaning you towards Hizashi’s studio. He opened the door and you rolled your eyes at Hizashi sitting with his feet kicked up as he talked. “You need to end this show.” You said walking towards him but he just laughed. “There she is!” Hizashi cheered. “No, say goodbye to your listeners, time to go.” You ordered. “But I haven’t even played your new song yet.” He whined. “Who’s fault is that?” You pushed his chair away from the mic and leaned forward. “I’m so sorry guys, it looks like he’s gotten carried away again, you’ll have to tune in tomorrow to hear my new release.” You signalled to the other show operators on the other side of the glass and waited for the on-air light to go off before turning to Hizashi. “We’ve talked about this, do you remember what happened with Aizawa?” “I missed you.” He mumbled reaching for you, you rolled your eyes and lifted your hand lacing your fingers together. “That does not need to be everyone else’s problem.” You squeezed his hand prompting him to pull you forward, as he made a noise of disapproval wrapping an arm around you and resting his head on your stomach. “I’m finished now, so how about you pack up and we head home, spend the rest of the evening together.” “Really?” He asked. “Really.” You nodded, he stood from her chair before you had fully stepped back waving to everyone and announcing that he was leaving, while dragging you behind him. You rolled your eyes as you followed after him waving to everyone as you did, some of them mouthing a ‘thank you’.

Request Here!!

[elainsgirl]

honestly gwynriels are some of the rudest people i’ve seen on tumblr, tiktok and instagram. they will push their way into elriel spaces and shove their theories down your throat as if it’s facts. and not to mention the recent thing with that instagram post where it seemed like elriel emojis were either the top comment or somehow an easter egg for the next book. their response? spamming the comments with “gwynriel” emojis. like… how are you so insecure about your ship that you feel the need to overwhelm the other ship’s comments under a singular post? while i can’t say for sure — because i straight up refuse to properly read gwynriel posts anymore as i’ve found their posts to be either repetitive (probably because they have 🤏 this much canon content to work with), nonsensical or downright completely making stuff up to support their theories — i don’t think i’ve ever seen elriels push themselves into gwynriel spaces and straight up attack them (thinking back on when i was new to the fandom and was exposed to all the different ships). of course there are always bad apples, but they seem to be rare amongst elriels. idk maybe i’ve just created a nice space for myself and somehow avoided them

There’s bad apples in every side of the fandom. I’ve seen elriels be mean and degrading as well as antis - but In my personal opinion or experience, toxic elriel stans are just…trolls. Whereas with Gwynriel and Elucien - yes some of them are trolls but their main toxicity comes from their arguements which are popular and widely accepted. Whereas with elriel - we genuinely don’t have a toxic elriel arguement that is supported by so many.

As an example:

A popular Elucien take is that Lucien deserves to be happy therefore Elain needs to accept the bond so Lucien can get his hea - That take is toxic and a bit degrading towards Elain however it is an acceptable thing to say with the majority of eluciens. 8/10 ask an elucien why they ship them and they’ll give you the above reason.

With elriel - I cannot think of a toxic take that is widely accepted by elriels. Not to say Elriels haven’t come up with horrible or degrading takes towards Lucien/Gwyn - but its not widely accepted. Take some believing that Gwyn is an “evil” LS. Maybe 4/10 elriels would agree but mainly - none of us think she’s evil. Possibly manipulated? Yes. But having nefarious intentions? No.

You get my point?

What they did with that instagram post was just downright embarrassing. Like there is no other way to word it - it was icky, pathetic and honestly. For me, it just solidified they are very very insecure in their ship and as people, petty. Bcs wtf childish behaviour was that??? And now crying over someone theorising Elain being an LS when majority have hated Gwyn being an Ls for so long. Its just. Im so glad to be an elriel. & grateful elriels dont behave like they do on average.

LMFAO you’re so real for that bcs I do not keep up with Gwynriel or elucien posts. It requires a whole different type of anti logic to understand.

I think when elriels comment under anti stuff, 95% of the time its by accident or people just wanting to have a genuine conversation but when antis comment under elriel content, 99.999% of the time its to rile elriels up. Atp, im convinced they dont even gaf about you refuting their points. They just want to spread their arguments and misinformation in a superior, condescending manner. Then you prove them wrong and they go crying about “elriels are soooo toxic” then boom, blocked you.

I love the elriel bubble I created for myself, it’s filled with good people who love elriel as much as I do. They’ve made this fandom such a bearable place to be in and its why I love creating elriel content. I wouldn’t change my mutuals and friends ive made through liking elriel for the world. And Im glad you’ve created that positive elriel space for yourself too.

[coolwyous]

I was listening to Me and your mama by childish gambino and I thought of domestic Meizini (I almost cried cus I had my period lmao...also im not sure if the song's inherently domestic that's just my brain being lazy)

Weddings...Them crying the whole time...Friends crying harder (Probably Sophia and Lara) Dani being picky with the aesthetics of the wedding and Megan just being happy to join her lmao..

Honeymoon in Dani's hometown and Megan trying out Dani's favorite food and seeing her favorite spots...Petty fights over chores, Megan getting away w everything cause she's cute, Dani being scary so Megan MOVES, Dancing 24/7 together, calling each other "my wife" daily idk

Then like fastforward to Megan flexing Dani when theyre older and their kids questioning how Megan bagged her LMAO

Wanted to ask who u think proposed tho...or is it a they did at the same time type of thing...lmao..

BYE i probably sound peak delulu rn but i hope u see the vision i have nobody else to yap abt this to HAHAHAHAH

-m

listened to it while i read this and got emotional, m anon u are fucking me up lately what is this behaviour 💔 you keep cookin bro save some gas for the rest of us tf

dani is 100% a bridezilla and megan just stares at her w heart eyes the whole time. would probably be happy going to a trampoline park after signing papers at town hall like literally does not care as long as at the end of it all she gets to say dani is her wife!!

megan immersing herself in dani's world ❤️ has always been so eager to be part of her life and see what makes her her! lots of arguing but not actually arguing bc meg is a firm believer in happy wife happy life but the bigger secret to their success is that daniela is just so ridiculously soft for her sweet puppy girl..... like how can u stay mad at a sweet face like that and her perfect worried eyes.....

100% WHEN GIRLFAILURE MEGAN SHOWS UP ANYWHERE AND IS LIKE "oh my wife will be joining us soon!" w her dopey lil smile, nobody is ever prepared for this intense mean ass BADDIE to roll up. their kids are in constant disbelief, but honestly megan is the living embodiment of this pic

ok with this specific dynamic, i feel like megan bought the ring and was ready but maybe kept getting too nervous, kept wanting it to be perfect, kept putting it off. and one day maybe they're in the most random of places, getting ice cream together or something so simple as part of their routine and dani is just so blunt like "i think we should get married" and megan just BURSTS OUT SOBBING so upset that she didn't get a chance to suggest it first, "i was gonna ask you but now it's all ruined," she'd sob and dani would hold her even though she's lowkey confused lmao but then megan is pulling out the ring and being like "you weren't supposed to be thinking this far ahead" and completely loses the plot of why she bought a ring in the first place. needs to be consoled before she realizes it's a major win that they're about to be engaged and dani is actually happy bc it wasn't about the setup it was just about her <3333 ugh my mezini heart

[screeblees]

Heyaaa are you still taking req?

I really love your writings especially the angry yandere x reader

I was wondering if you could still continue that with them having children's or adopting kids if not make them have pets but have it in a plot twist

Hi!! Yes I am still taking requests!

Thanks so much, this is a cute request, maybe not so cute of an outcome though. :/

Hope my writing isn’t too degraded in quality!

Angry ! Yandere Headcanons here !

Find my Masterlist here !

Please enjoy!!<33

❥ To be completely honest, Angry ! Yandere is not the type to want kids. They’re messy, loud, irritating, and they steal away your attention. He is not a kid-person.

❥ But~ they do come with the benefit of creating them. If that can’t be done naturally or through one of the many scientific methods (using bone marrow, etc), then it’s not happening.

❥ Let’s be clear, he would hate them unless they were biologically yours and his, as he can reason that as they are a part of you, they won’t be as horrible as other people’s kids.

❥ Angry ! Yandere the strict, no-nonsense father, the rules he sets are the rules, no if, ands, or buts. There are definitely rooms they aren’t allowed in, even if it’s for the sole reason of Angry ! Yandere getting some time alone with you. They aren’t allowed in the master bedroom for one, and once they are older there’s definitely going to be sound-proofing on the walls.

❥ Angry ! Yandere who is definitely having the kids home-schooled not only due to the fact that his school experience was pretty horrible but so they won’t really be leaving home until they’re older. He doesn’t want some little chatterbox spilling everything that is going on at home, now does he?

❥ Angry ! Yandere who will engage in screaming match after screaming match with the kids if they develop his heated temperament, though they’ll likely be much softer than him due to your calmer influence. That and fear being used as a tool by their father to nip such behaviour in the bud.

❥ Angry ! Yandere who often wonders if the children will end up more like him and search for their person. The person who will calm their irate minds and smooth over their wounds as you have for him.

❥ Angry ! Yandere who definitely grows softer on you as the two of you get older, though he’s still just as ill-tempered and demanding of you as he was in the beginning. Having you read to him and talk to him about your day with the kids and your little projects.

❥ Angry ! Yandere who’s punishments on the kids are definitely as harsh if not harsher than the ones he gave you before you learned to behave. At least once they’re older, he can’t have them thinking they can get away with just anything, huh? Most of all, showing disrespect to you or him.

❥ Angry ! Yandere who knowingly or unknowingly drives the children more and more to your side, loyal to you and only you, always. You are their favourite parent, the one they seek to show their achievements and be comforted for their failures, to mend their childish scrapes and kiss their bruises better.

❥ Maybe you’ll also be the comforter of your children, your sweet voice singing them to sleep each night and softly waking them up in the morning.

❥ Angry ! Yandere who enforces the nuclear family dynamic: he, the breadwinner, his loving spouse at home, taking care of the housework, cooking and children, and the two or three obedient kids who love their parents dearly. The perfect family…

[julietasgf]

💔 🧸🖕for Marcus please!

(Also for Strabo if you’d like to do both, no worries if not though)

tysmmmm for the ask grace!!! 🥹💖 and I would love to do both! alright, let's go:

— FOR MARCUS:

💔 — an angsty headcanon: I think marcus has a lot of mental health issues as well. I particularly think he has a complicated relationship with his mother with highs and lows, and there's such a high expectation placed on his shoulders (as I think his father died when he was very young, so his mother ended up placing so many expectations on him) that a lot of times he feels like he's going to explode, and there's nowhere to run and hide from all of this. I think he deals with a high level of anxiety and it's not hard for him to dissociate or feel overwhelmed (or even think about dying).

🧸 — a headcanon about their childhood: I hc that marcus has two sisters (an older one and a younger one), so all his childhood he was the brother that was stuck playing house, having them doing braids on his hair and trying makeup on him (he never complained, tho!). because of this, I think he was very popular among young girls in the school because ALL of them wanted to play with him because he was the only boy around who wasn't complaining of holding dolls and having them braiding his hair when he let it grow

🖕 — a headcanon relating to anger: I don't think marcus is the type of person that's angry easily, not at all. actually, I think he's very much chill, the type that really lets so many things pass. and one of the few times he is, indeed, angry with someone or at something, I think his response is similar to what he did to sejanus: he shuts down. he goes completely quiet and silent because of how overwhelming anger feels to him (plus, I feel like it took some time until he had this approach to anger; baby marcus to me was the type of child that cries the minute he's too upset on an argument)

— FOR STRABO:

💔 — an angsty headcanon: I think strabo's mother was really into religion, and when he was a child, he grew up very much religious (regarding the faith of the mountains, etc etc). but the thing is, his mother died, and his father sucked, and then his stepmother came in and his life was hell. I think strabo stopped praying or believing in anything at such an young age... except when sejanus died. and after sejanus died, it was the first time in such a long time he prayed. it didn't make him feel better.

🧸 — a headcanon about their childhood: I think strabo was such an adultified child after his mother died that he doesn't really remember about having a childhood or being a kid at all. his favorite activity, for example, was shooting in the forest. I think he has a very, very far memory of playing with building blocks his father once bought to him, but that's so far away and blurred in his memory that it's hard to even recall (and I think that's something he struggled a lot while raising sejanus; strabo doesn't remember how it is being a child, and is constantly thinking sejanus is too childish or too immature for his age, but that's because at that same age, strabo had such a different behaviour because of all the problems in his family)

🖕 — a headcanon relating to anger: that man has anger issues and it shows. he doesn't have a good control of his own anger since he was a child, as his way of calming down was, again, shooting in the forest. nowadays, he can control it better, but still his anger is so terrifying. he raises his voice in a way that can make walls shake and it's not pretty at all... (no wonder sejanus feared him to some degree).

[charliedawn]

OH, YOU THOUGHT THE LAST REQUEST WAS WEIRD-I have many more in-store for you

If I remember correctly, there was a post you made yourself where it was non-con. It was a big surprise coming from you.

So I was wondering if you could do the reader with the hannibal family and they do age play.

Age play: When you act younger than your age. (Usually used for sexual pleasure)

Me: Something Important to add would be spanking for a brat, (even though I like being good for rewards) wearing frilly dress and girly childish clothes (light colors), them having to dress and clean you. There's a lot to it, but remember that it's also used for sexual pleasures. So please, add some smut.

*Cue me me maniacally laughing*

Me: it's not that bad when you think about it, Charles [New Nickname Achieved!]

With my degenerative mind, we can do wonders together, think about it.

Also, here's more Bo gifs:

Warning: SMUT AHEAD.

Hannibal Jr. :

Hannibal Jr. knows how to play the caring *cough cough* daddy.

He’d be the type to reassure you and tell you everything is going to be okay. He’d wipe your tears and hold you while shushing you gently.

Hannibal Jr. wouldn’t punish you often, and would always make sure to keep his baby safe and protected.

He’d go on shopping trips with you and wait patiently while you try everything pink and fuzzy.

But the thing is, he’d also be sure to make you understand who’s got power over you. He’d be quite calm and collected while punishing you, but he’d be ruthless nonetheless.

Meaning: He’d show no emotion whatsoever while making sure you get the message.

Him *smiles before gripping you by the back of your neck* : "Sssh, love. You wanted to be a brat ? Now, I have no choice but to do this. It is for your own good. Now, be a good little love and stay still."

You move. You dead.

Kevin Hannibal:

Kevin will play right along with it and love going on shopping trips with you. He likes to be unconventional himself.

And god forbid anyone who would make fun of you for it.

Morgan *snickers when he sees you give your favourite plushie to Kevin* : "Great. Another plushie. I knew you were eager for attention, but that is just sad…"

You *lose your smile and attempt to walk off in shame*

Kevin *grabs you and settles you on his lap before flipping Morgan off* : "Yeah. And where are your gifts, Morgan ? That’s right. Ya got none. Must be sad getting no bitches, right ?"

Kevin would love your gifts and constant need for attention.

He’d be sure to take care of you and play with you as much as you want. He’d show you all the affection he’s got. No way you’re moving from his lap now….

However, he’d refuse to punish you.

His motto: Stay there, look pretty and let me spoil you rotten.

Morgan Hannibal:

Morgan wouldn’t mind, but he is one to like intellectual conversations on many different subjects. If anything, he’d be attracted to older women.

But, there is one thing that you would both agree on…Story time.

He’d be thrilled to read to you children stories or fairytales and take you to different events related to them. He’d talk to you and take you to see children movies at the theaters without a care in the world.

He may eventually become a little annoyed by your childish behaviour, but unlike Kevin…Morgan would have no problem punishing you when you turn into a brat.

You *accidentally throw water at his face* : "M…Morgan. It was an accident. I’m sorry."

Morgan *gently wipes his face with a napkin before addressing an apologetic smile to the rest of the family* : "If you’ll excuse us…" *suddenly drags you out of the room in a flash*

He will not tolerate disrespect and would make sure you can’t sit down properly for a couple of days…

Hannibal Sr. :

Hannibal Sr. wouldn’t have a problem with it.

He would love it when you’d dress up for him and he’d dance with you and spoil you rotten with gifts and kisses.

But, you have to understand something. There is one thing he’d ask of you in return:

Complete and total submission.

You want to be his little doll ? Fine by him. But, one word of protest or even a glare out of you, and he’d be spanking the shit out of you.

Hannibal Sr. isn’t the type to play around. He needs to be in complete control. 24/7.

Hannibal Sr. *slowly strokes the top of your hair while you cry on his lap* : "Sssh…little lamb. You know better than to make me angry. Why would you try to upset me like that…"

You *whimpers* : "M’sorry…"

Hannibal Sr. *smiles* : "Good girl/boy…"

Praise king though. He’d be sure to reassure you and whisper sweet nothings into your ear after he’s done.

Peter Hannibal:

Nope. Sorry. No way that poor boy is daddy. He wouldn’t be able to be. Literally. He’s baby.

If anything, you’d both be babies together and make the whole family take care of you. Partners in craving affection.

However, he’d be more than capable of punishing you in his own way…

Peter*tying you up to a chair with the sweetest smile ever on his face* : "Let’s play a game, Y/N…You stay on this chair. And no moving at all, got it ?"

You *nod*

Him *giggles* : "Good…And tell me if it gets too much, alright ?"

And he means it.

Peter can sometimes be pretty cruel in his punishments. So, better tell him when it’s too much.

And don’t be afraid to punish him in return.

He secretly loves to cry…

[sullencrab]

Avoidance, acceptance, and progress

I love the declutter subreddit saved my life one million times over but there are some posts where its like, you just needed validation, not actionable help. Which happens in many areas of life. It makes me feel like there is a child in all of us that reaches out for comfort. I'm going to preform an action that I percieve to be "bad" or make me uncomfortable and I need to be comforted that I am doing the right thing. (Not a criticism, I can not criticize this behavior i was raised by wolves cant ask for anything, at times perhaps even envious of these people.) But I like to acknowledge that feeling because I think helps me understand my behavior, at times. There's nothing wrong with wanting support, validation, and comfort but I certainly feel that there is! And I like to explore why I think its bad. So I'm judging the validation seekers on the subreddit.

Tangent, I increasingly feel like a lot of abusive behaviours (at least the ones in the dysfunctional family i grew up in) are childish. There are so many actions where I think oh that's how a child would behave, like someone who doesn't have control of their surroundings, someone who isn't able to express their own needs, someone who is unable to have their needs fulfilled, someone who needs another person to take care of them. But you're an adult. So those things are within your control and are your responsibility but instead. A grown child. An adult acting like they are still a child. Does this make sense? This is swirling and forming in my mind for some time now. I don't think its fully formed yet.

Back to the validation seekers. There's a Sartre quote that's something along the lines of: when I go to someone for advice, the person I have decided to ask informs my answer. I have no hope of finding the quote but the idea is that we are expecting a specific answer when we ask certain people for help. Im butchering this I will find the speech later. This has completely destroyed my ability to ask people for advice because I think of what I want them to say and have my answer. I can't articulate this thought hopefully this makes sense.

In my mind all these things were connected but typing them out... Not related...

My point is I increasingly feel like I've had to learn to be okay with being uncomfortable. Oughh I have so much trouble expressing myself. I must try anyway.

Last year managing the bulk of the estate, I was stressed and crying all of the time. I felt so trapped. Trapped in my grief, trapped in my responsibilities. I didn't feel like I had a lot of help or support. And I reached a point in therapy where I began to understand that I was upset because of this lack of control. Up to that point everything in my life that upset me, I could escape (although I never did). If I didn't like my job I could quit, if I didn't like school I could drop out, if I didn't like my parents I could move out, if I didn't like my friends well I didn't need to see or talk to them anymore. But the estate? There was nothing I could do but go through with it. I had committed myself to this legal obligation (something I would regret for some time after) and there was nothing I could do about it except fulfill the obligation. I could not change how he died. I would never talk to him again. All of these things outside of my control. I felt like my autonomy had been violated but I didn't know that at the time and I didn't have the words to express that. The estate consumed my whole life. Taking care of the house, fixing the house, getting rid of his things, selling the house, dealing with lawyers and accountants, etc. I had no life, I was sacrificing all of my free time, I had no hobbies. No one my age understood what I was going through. Couldn't understand the loss of immediate family members, and those who had lost immediate family members did not understand the dysfunctional relationships or dealings of an addict/alcoholic family member. Its so fucking specific.

Some of you caught the tail end of this, the isolation i felt. The pain and anger. Woe is me no one understands me or is helping me.

There was a point when I realized during a therapy session. This is just something you go through. It felt like my primary coping mechanism was avoidance and there was no avoiding my situation. Going through hell keep going etc. And it got a little easier when I realized this is just something I have to go through. And it fucking sucked so fucking bad. But here i am, I made it through, radically changed. I know I've posted the comics I made about this before.

All I could do was accept. And I keep coming back to this. All I can do is accept that I will at times be uncomfortable. Everyday we reinvent the serenity prayer. I think I have finally begun to internalize it. I never shut up about this I think because I want everyone else to know about this magical elixir. Accepting that things in your life will be uncomfortable and you just have to deal with being uncomfortable. I don't want other people to feel how I've felt, I want us all to be saved. Do you know about this crazy thing accepting things we cannot change?? I know there was a post circulating, its very annoying lel. Sometimes you read things thousands of times and never really get it. So while I can tell everyone about this cool serenity prayer thing and this awful experience I had. You might not internalize it, I sure as fuck didn't. So I need to stop worrying about other people getting it. I want everyone to know about all this stuff I've learned but you have to learn it for yourself and I can't force it on other people. You gotta go through it yourself. I hate that ! But what can you do.

Anyway back to discomfort. When I was cleaning out the boxes of his stuff, highly precious momentos. It felt bad. But I had a whole year of feeling really fucking bad. So I know I will make it through. So when I do the boxes I know I'm going to feel like shit, and I'm okay with that.

Tangent again, I remember i had a convo with WM, I think before my trip to visit sick relative. Where I was verbalizing my anxiety about the trip and she kept suggesting things to me. And I said I don't need you to do anything about it, and I don't need to do anything about it. Its not something that needs to be fixed, I am anxious about this trip, I will be uncomfortable and that's okay. She did not understand that shit at all LEL

That was huge for me in accepting discomfort. There was a line on a subreddit for people afraid of flying, that I think of frequently. It went something like "discomfort does not mean its not safe". It was about turbulence on a plane but I think its applicable else where.

Just because something makes me uncomfortable doesn't mean I'm not safe.

Another important precursor. I don't think I could identify my own feelings and emotions until last year when I was forced to confront them. I genuinely believe I was upset and depressed all the time and I had no idea why.

This is all over the place sorry. If you've read this far I love you.

So back to discomfort.

Cleaning out boxes -> uncomfortable (not getting rid of my dead guy, just some of his stuff)

Decluttering my possessions -> uncomfortable (environmental impact, getting rid of sentimental items I dont use)

Hanging out with friends when I really don't want to -> uncomfortable

Not scrolling through social media for twelve hours a day -> uncomfortable

Annoying WM/not catering to her/setting boundaries -> uncomfortable

And so on and so forth.

Those things make me uncomfortable but they do not make me unsafe. Because of my experience growing up i might think pissing off WM is unsafe but I'm an adult now, I can remove myself from the situation if need be (in my case ! Obvi not good advice depending on abuser etc)

I have control ! First important step. Recognizing I have autonomy. Second step is recognizing that emotions/thoughts/feelings-> temporary. I don't have to stay there but I do have to feel them.

Im tired and starting to lose the plot and need to go do some cleaning so let's wrap this up.

Autonomy good, if upset check if im missing that (my T uses ABC, need Autonomy Belonging and Competency to feel good)

Gotta feel the feeling, get used to being uncomfortable, its like a muscle

If feeling a certain way it's not forever and also you can figure out why instead of making it everyone else's problem lel

Okay ttyl

[wooimbouttamakeanameformyself]

grow up, and stop using the fucking prequel, you guys are so fucking childish, making fun of people YOU don’t know. Everyone on this fucking planet is problematic so grow the fuck up and a life. And making fun of people’s appearances is DISGUSTING and Disrespectful. You need to get morals and Jared isn’t that good of a person as well so grow up and stop fucking crying over mistakes people make including any actor or celebrities.

First off, Jenn—ANON,

They’re celebrities. They’re going to get hate and criticism from the media. I’m sure they’re all aware of that when they’re actively putting themselves into the public eye.

Can’t exactly argue with you, I’ve said things about Jensen’s and Danneel’s appearance — because they’ve had very noticeable changes due to fillers or other type of cosmetic surgery. I’m not saying anyone who has work done is automatically ugly (because then I’d be a hypocrite) but having excessive work done never has good results, take Danneel for example, she used to be really beautiful before she filled her face with Botox that she didn’t need — to the point where every five years she looks like a completely different person. I just hope Jensen doesn’t go down the same route.

And just please… shut up with your holier than thou nonsense. Because you’re literally bringing up Jared, which proves my entire point of how AAs have to somehow make everything about Jared to deflect criticism from Jensen. I’m aware Jared’s made mistakes, neither him nor Jensen are saints.

Why should I stop using the prequelgate? Because there’s no way to excuse Jensen’s behaviour so you’d rather me just not bring it up?

And what’s with all the ‘fucking’? Did someone learn a new word?

[chaoscrawls]

( for Nyarlathotep , I'm laying this down and Saint says answer all these , pookie . . . no reason )

≻ how does your muse handle competition ?

≻ how does your muse handle losing control ?

≻ how does your muse express their passion ?

≻ what is your muse's most prized possession ?

≻ what is your muse's most arrogant behavior ?

≻ how does your muse handle being ignored ?

≻ what does your muse find beauty in ?

≻ is your muse the jealous type ? are they possessive ?

≻ how does your muse deal with obsession ?

≻ what is your muse's most reckless decision ?

≻ how does your muse handle commitment ?

≻ how does your muse demonstrate their ambition ?

≻ does your muse value their legacy ? what have they done to ensure it ?

≻ what is your muse's average daily routine ?

✱˚｡⋆ ↪ 𝐙𝐎𝐃𝐈𝐀𝐂 𝐇𝐄𝐀𝐃𝐂𝐀𝐍𝐎𝐍𝐒 . ( a collection of headcanon prompts based on each zodiac sign . adjust questions as desired . ) - Accepting.

≻ 𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥 𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙡𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙥𝙚𝙩𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 ?

They're perhaps a tad strange with regards to this. If it's something they don't care for they can be completely aloof and ignore any competition. Yet, the moment it's something that even remotely interests them they become EXTREMELY competitive. Losing isn't an option. (They are also a sore loser and have been known to just up and kill the actual winner.)

≻ 𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥 𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙡𝙚 𝙡𝙤𝙨𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙘𝙤𝙣𝙩𝙧𝙤𝙡 ?

Terribly. Considering their whole thing is chaos, they hate not being in control. It's the quickest way to set their temper off and it's not a small simmering rage. It's red hot and indiscriminate, lashing out at anyone who happens to be involved or nearby.

I do actually think this is in part triggered by the semi-regular possessions from their family members, the absolute loss of control leaving them sensitive to the matter.

≻ 𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥 𝙚𝙭𝙥𝙧𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙞𝙧 𝙥𝙖𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣 ?

It's very dependant on the situation. When they are enjoying something it is usually a silent, hungry appreciation. They take their time to relish the feeling and greedily seek out as much as they can from it before that feeling fades away again.

There are some physical signs as well, such as an increase in that static sensation, a rippling of their flesh if they are in chaos form and if they are in human form they become even more uncanny.

≻ 𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥'𝙨 𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙥𝙧𝙞𝙯𝙚𝙙 𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣 ?

A portrait of themself. In fact it was the first portrait where anyone managed to catch their likeness. It was, of course, of their chaos form and despite it being a little amateur and rough around the edges it gave them a strange delight. Especially considering they had never met the artist up until that point.

When they met for the first time, the god asked how he had conjured up such a creature, only for him to respond, it came to me in a dream. The man in question never grew to be hugely successful but Nyarathotep always went back to buy his paintings after that. Out of curiosity if nothing else.

≻ 𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥'𝙨 𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙖𝙧𝙧𝙤𝙜𝙖𝙣𝙩 𝙗𝙚𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙞𝙤𝙧 ?

Apart from literally every single behaviour they have? Probably their ability to look down on pretty much anyone. For any reason.

≻ 𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥 𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙡𝙚 𝙗𝙚𝙞𝙣𝙜 𝙞𝙜𝙣𝙤𝙧𝙚𝙙 ?

Depends on who is ignoring them. Most of the time they don't really care too much if someone they had a fleeting interest in starts ignoring them. Yet, if it's someone who has triggered that deep insidious curiosity then they start acting rather petulant. This can be seen currently with @cosmicdreamt's Neff, who has cut them off. While they don't actively reach out to her, whenever the pair do meet there is a lot of not so passive aggressiveness and borderline childish or manipulative behaviour.

≻ 𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥 𝙛𝙞𝙣𝙙 𝙗𝙚𝙖𝙪𝙩𝙮 𝙞𝙣 ?

Chaos is the obvious answer and probably still the most true. They also enjoy beauty in watching people lean into their own personal chaos and indulging their true desires, only to reap the horrible consequences after.

Outside of that though, they are fond of art and opera.

≻ 𝙄𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥 𝙩𝙝𝙚 𝙟𝙚𝙖𝙡𝙤𝙪𝙨 𝙩𝙮𝙥𝙚 ? 𝘼𝙧𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙥𝙤𝙨𝙨𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙫𝙚 ?

Again this is very dependant on the partner. For some they are very free and lax with their affections. Though there are the odd few that create a huge jealous streak within them and they feel the urge to claim them entirely.

It's unclear what brings about their possessiveness though.

≻ 𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥 𝙙𝙚𝙖𝙡 𝙬𝙞𝙩𝙝 𝙤𝙗𝙨𝙚𝙨𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣 ?

When it comes to being on the receiving end of obsessive feelings they are most used to it. Having a large cult will do that to you. They have many mortals completely enraptured with them. As is the god's way, they will take what they need from obsessed before discarding them.

When it comes to the one being obsessed they will stop at nothing to claim what they want. That doesn't change whether the obsession is a person, knowledge, item, ect.

≻ 𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥'𝙨 𝙢𝙤𝙨𝙩 𝙧𝙚𝙘𝙠𝙡𝙚𝙨𝙨 𝙙𝙚𝙘𝙞𝙨𝙞𝙤𝙣 ?

There have been so many. From taking humans as pets, to potentially falling in love, to trying to merge different cults together. Though no doubt the thing they probably regret the most, and was probably the most dangerous is the singular time they tried to wake one of the sleeping ones as opposed to communicating through dreams.

Their rage was so intense it almost killed them and perhaps some of the other members of their family. They were much younger at the time and have since learned this lesson.

≻ 𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥 𝙝𝙖𝙣𝙙𝙡𝙚 𝙘𝙤𝙢𝙢𝙞𝙩𝙢𝙚𝙣𝙩 ?

Relatively well, all things considered. When it comes to work commitments they are incredibly focused and dedicated. Relationship wise, it again depends on the partner, if it's someone they are truly interested they are more likely to be committed.

≻ 𝙃𝙤𝙬 𝙙𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥 𝙙𝙚𝙢𝙤𝙣𝙨𝙩𝙧𝙖𝙩𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙞𝙧 𝙖𝙢𝙗𝙞𝙩𝙞𝙤𝙣 ?

With power and influence. Their ambition is clear from their work as the messenger for the elder gods. From management of their the cults to the spreading their family's 'messages' the god strives to bring the world closer to it's end. Probably.

≻ 𝘿𝙤𝙚𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥 𝙫𝙖𝙡𝙪𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙞𝙧 𝙡𝙚𝙜𝙖𝙘𝙮 ? 𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙝𝙖𝙫𝙚 𝙩𝙝𝙚𝙮 𝙙𝙤𝙣𝙚 𝙩𝙤 𝙚𝙣𝙨𝙪𝙧𝙚 𝙞𝙩 ?

Somewhat. Though they have no interest in a legacy on earth, as eventually one of the outer gods will end the world as humans know it. Or perhaps they will, it's unclear to even them. But despite that, they obviously have their following, Bellamy their prophet and their children (The Million Favoured Ones, sort of count.)

≻ 𝙒𝙝𝙖𝙩 𝙞𝙨 𝙉𝙮𝙖𝙧𝙡𝙖𝙩𝙝𝙤𝙩𝙚𝙥'𝙨 𝙖𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙖𝙜𝙚 𝙙𝙖𝙞𝙡𝙮 𝙧𝙤𝙪𝙩𝙞𝙣𝙚 ?

Sometimes they will simply observe the world, watching people and chaos take place. Other times they will be busy with cult management or bothering people that interest them. There are also years upon years where their daily routine will just be sleeping, but that hasn't happened for a long time.

[cresent971]

Whenever I see pictures of this handsome and good looking and attractive man going to court I think to myself why in the world are people are targeting this man for what has he done to anyone in general if people weren't so darn immature and selfish and inconsiderate and inappropriate with michael jackson none of this nonsense would've never happened in the first place this has to be the dumbest thing ever in general people sure can mess up badly and look stupid in general none of this is funny at all people sure can take the brunt out of ruining someone's life and watching them go down a dark hole seriously what the heck is wrong with people nowadays just because michael jackson hasn't done anything to anyone what gives anyone the right to start causing mayhem on the internet it's bad enough that he's Been used and other stuff I don't understand why people think they can just start causing problems and other ridiculous issues if people weren't so darn immature and selfish and disrespectful and inappropriate and heartless as well they need to suddenly realise that their behaviour have dier consequences this type of behavior is uncalled for I don't even have the words to describe this nightmare anyways if people cannot stop their ways then they will face serious problems later on in their lives this nonsense is not funny anymore I don't understand how anyone can find this funny and watch this man suffer like that I'm not happy anymore people need to stop already michael jackson has been through enough turmoil already this is not funny anymore people need to realise that what they are doing is disrespectful and other stuff I'll never understand why people think they can just start causing problems like that and not get in trouble here's a tip don't be an idiot or a moron or a nuisance in general I don't know how many times I've actually had to endure this nightmare anyways this is completely ridiculous and saying I'm a useless knucklehead who takes joy out of ruining someone's life for my own amusement this behavior is uncalled for my emotions right now I don't know what to say anymore I'm at a loss for words right now people need to stop already this is immature and childish