#vent post sort of

[morg-among-the-stars]

You have to imagine the hell it is to be so uncertain

To not know whether you’ll work yourself up over nothing or if she’ll blow up and make you wish you could poof out of thin air like a magician

To be met with warmth one day and an uninterested stone-face the next

To have her so excited when you get a new interest, just so you’ll shut up about the last one (and then get annoyed within a day, praying for a new, new one)

To not know who you can tell about what happened when she got a call home from school

Or when you talked too much

Cared too much

Spilled a drink at the dinner table

Or what happened when you didn’t dress normal

What words were said

Because then it scares people

And if I’ve learned one thing from my whole life, it’s that I don’t want to scare anyone

To be an adult with the fears of a child

Panic attacks when I’m alone and can’t be questioned

And can be vulnerable

A million, “I’m okay.” or “I’m just tired”’s said when they weren’t true

To want to change but not too much

Because change scares her

Intimidates her

Uncertainty is the bane of my existence

Not knowing

Having to hope I can play my cards right

To stay safe

Get a good result

Of some kind

[villafordefeatedvillains]

so it turns out that having your back hurt 24/7 and being unable to walk for five minutes without needing to stop for a break because Ow My Knees and also I Can't Breathe is in fact perhaps a sign that we are disabled in some way and not just because we're lazy like we've been told before. oopsies.

[a-loose-collection-of-ants]

A true and 100% historically accurate account of Hamilton's first meeting with Andre

+ Bonus Lafayette

[queenlucythevaliant]

Just to clarify my thoughts (since I've had a number of people ask me about it) re: Job and cursing God. There's a big difference between cursing God as used in Scripture and how we generally would think of cursing at God today.

Cursing someone, in the Bible, has a lot of depth to it. It's not just saying "screw you " in anger, it's got a sense of forsakenness to it. It's the opposite of a blessing, a removal of blessing. If the blessing is presence, your face shining on the person you're blessing, then a curse is absence. In some translations, Job's wife tells him to "renounce God and die," which I honestly think makes a lot more sense to modern ears.

Job says a lot of unpleasant things to and about God in his anger and grief. So do the Psalmists. A number of the Prophets. So can we. God can take it if we come to him with honest expressions of our emotion, including those not-so-nice ones directed at him. I don't think there's anything wrong with getting mad at God and saying, "How dare you, you bastard" when you suffer unjustly. You can say much worse, I think, without sinning, though I don't feel particularly inclined to give examples. But as long as it's an honest expression of your heart, I think you're doing exactly what prayer is for. You're presenting him your heart with an open hand. He can use that. Opposite of love is not hate but indifference, etc.

Job doesn't renounce God. Neither should we. But I think when you're truly suffering, you're gonna have those feelings toward God either way. He'd rather you address them with him directly than try to avoid them. Cursing at God in the modern sense is actually a great way to keep the relationship strong and not end up cursing/renouncing him in the Biblical sense.

[ghastlyaffairs]

for something as trivial and simple those feelings sure are hard to get rid of

also made a gif a version for fun + alt version with no tears under the cut

the gif is in very low resolution...this is a feature (i could make it bigger but that would require saving each frame individually and than glueing it all together. also i feel like low resolution suits it better. aesthetically and fits the mood)

[fun-k-boards]

I've never understood the excitement around marriage. I've never understood the 'rush' around the idea of a relationship. I've never understood the heartbreak or annoyance people feel when they're alone for valentine's day, or when their partner doesn't give them a gift for it. I've never understood why someone would like kissing with their tongues or on the lips. I've never understood why naked bodies are sexual. I've never understood why I should feel my world shatter when someone rejects me. I've never understood why I should be expected to 'just give the relationship a try' when someone confesses to me. I've never understood why friends will demean someone by implying they just 'aren't good enough' because their friend got rejected by that person, no matter how gentle or respectful the rejection was.

I've never understood why sex and romance need to be brought up and hyper focused on in every conversation imaginable.

I'll probably never understand.

[crunchchute]

stupid, emo, dave

wtf has this world come to

[absolute-decay]

Everybody wants a loser bf until he doesn't shower or brush his teeth or have any hobbies and constantly clings to you and stakes all his happiness on you and is a creepy perv who doesn't understand bounderies or social cues.

Everybody wants a loser bf until they visit their place and it smell horrific with the trash from takeout and delivery food piled in their room with a dirty bed and your barely able to walk through it.

Everybody wants a loser bf until he's constantly online stalking your accounts constantly messaging you spamming you and get super upset when you don't message back immediately.

Everybody wants a loser bf until they don't want you to leave them alone no matter how important something is because they don't understand what it's like to have a life with priorities and responsablities.

Everybody wants a loser bf until he's emotionally unstable and getting angry at you for spending time with anyone who isn't him and suffers with extreme self loathing to the point that even the slightest insinuation that you have any negative thoughts about him cause him to spiral.

Everybody wants a loser bf until he's threatening suicide if you ever try and take a break from the relationship or worse suggest breaking up, saying he has nothing to live for and you're his only reason for living.

[mortysmith]

In theory i like the idea that rick is growing and developing as a person. In practice it ends up falling short though, because no one balances him out. rick is getting better while no one else is getting worse, and it causes the whole thing to end up feeling a bit stale. The biggest draw, at least for me, has always been rick and morty's shitty dynamic, but it barely exists anymore because rick has been so watered down.

The ideal solution is literally just to make morty into a bigger asshole. Essentially flipping the main characters' personalities would offer a wide variety of conflict into the show, and would also help keep it "fresh".

Instead it feels the writers are pretending that they can't possibly do anything with morty's character, that they have to keep him the same anxious idiot he was in season one. I've said this before, but it's incredibly frustrating to watch the show have no problem with expanding rick's character while struggling with keeping morty's heavily stagnated characterization consistent. Where rick has space to develop between multiple seasons, morty is constantly forced into one of two boxes (smart/stupid) depending on the episode.

[gremlinwithakeyboard]

brain is going on another wild ride tonight and I want off please

[morg-among-the-stars]

Seeing healthy older couples hits me deep at my core

Seeing a husband and wife who can joke with each other and be sweet together kills me

It shows me directly, “This is what you were not raised in.” and it hurts so viscerally

I almost can’t believe it; I can’t believe that people can be happy and married

But I see living proof and it gives me hope

I want to fight so hard to be healthy with my partner and for us to have a healthy life together

Though, there’s a voice in the back of my mind that tells me I’ll be doomed to repeat history

“Couples fight, it’s normal.” Arguments and disagreements and miscommunications are normal, but fighting— name calling, throwing things, screaming— are not normal

Fighting isn’t normal

I never plan to fight my own partner, why would I want to fight and shred apart someone I love so dearly?

Why on Earth would I want to do that?

I don’t

I want to talk it out, I want to listen, I want to see the other side

I want to be like the happy couples I’ve never believed in

I want to be happy and safe

I want to rest

I want my partner and I to get old together and not fight

It’s not a lot that I’m asking for and hoping for

I don’t want my kids, if I have them, to grow up doubting whether or not their mothers loved each other

Like how I doubt my own parents

[falmerbrook]

I'm getting back into animating after having to avoid it for a year because of my hand pain, and while I'm really excited about it and about posting to youtube again, I'm also kinda scared to actually post tes animations because it means I'm gonna have to interact with the gamer™ crowd. They can be fun, but also part of the reason I only feel comfortable with posting tes stuff here is because I find half of the fanbase everywhere else stressful and obnoxious to deal with sometimes. For example: my nerevarine is an argonian, and l'm quite proud of his design and like sharing him, but ever time I do on youtube or reddit or twitter I inevitably get the same "hurr durr argonian nerevarine?!? that doesn't make sense" or faux-racist argonian comments that I don't even know what to do with. It's not exclusive to that scenario, but it's like there's always one or two uncomfortable comments under any given tes fanart or post that goes against the standard popular meme interpretations of everything. and I hate dealing with them

[dougielombax]

The ongoing impact of Brexit is like a political whalefall.

Except instead of the dead remains of a blue whale, it’s the bloated, swollen, fat carcass of some infernal creature not fit for this world, leaking oil and excrement, irradiated into oblivion, occasionally belching smoke, constantly pouring out blood-soaked disease ridden currency, setting rivers on fire and polluting the fuck out of the entire surrounding area leaving it irreparably damaged and riddled with disease for generations.

While groups of feral fascists occasionally show up to worship it despite its visible danger to public health and well-being.

With NO ecological or scientific benefit whatsoever.

Hazmat crews trying to manage the contamination and contain it. And so on.

[ineffablefool]

gahhhh the last few weeks I have been starving for fics or art where Aziraphale is clearly, legitimately fat (with adoring attention paid to his physical features which are associated with said fatness) and also clearly, legitimately loved ("desired" would be okay but oh give me cherished, give me treasured and held dear and, again, adored)

and I know that this is one of those things where I should just be the change I want to see in the world, but the last few weeks I have also been [flops face-first onto bed and doesn't move for 45 minutes], so clearly that is not happening

[spitblaze]

What happens when you win the debate on who's the most oppressed group in the transgender community. What happens then. What could be accomplished by finding the one group that is the single most downtrodden demographic that suffers at the hands of every other community and putting them up on the 'most oppressed' throne with a 'most oppressed' trophy that could not be accomplished if we listened and paid attention to individual and group needs and worked to address them without the need to determine 'who has it worst', or worse, 'who actually belongs to the most oppressed group'.

[rottenn-angel]

ppl like this are the reason we will have another generation of traumatized children

if you think hitting your child in any situation (even just ‘spanking’) is okay dont fucking talk to me