I'm a doctor, not a miracle worker.
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it is all chaos and entropy. the thing is that the chaos and entropy make it beautiful and lovely.
yes, it's true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is terrifying. i have lived through some of the unfairness - i got born like this, with my body caving into itself, with this ironic love of dance when i sometimes can't stand up for longer than 15 minutes. i am a poet with hands that are slowly shutting down - i can't hold a pen some days. recently i found a dead bird on our front porch. she had no visible injuries. she had just died, the way things die sometimes.
it is also true that nature and the universe are uncaring and unspecific, and that is wonderful. the sheer happenstance that makes rain turn into a rainbow. the impossible coincidence of finding your best friend. i have made so many mistakes and i have let myself down and i have harmed other people by accident. nature moves anyway. on the worst day of my life she delivers me an orange juice sunset, as if she is saying try again tomorrow.
how vast and unknowing the universe! how small we are! isn't that lovely. the universe has given us flowers and harp strings and the shape of clouds. how massive our lives are in comparison to a grasshopper. the world so bright, still undiscovered. even after 30 years of being on this earth, i learned about a new type of animal today: the dhole.
chance echoing in my life like a harmony between two people talking. do you think you and i, living in different worlds but connected through the internet - do you think we've ever seen the same butterfly? they migrate thousands of miles. it's possible, right?
how beautiful the ways we fill the vastness of space. i love that when large amounts of people are applauding in a room, they all start clapping at the same time. i love that the ocean reminds us of our mother's heartbeat. i love that out of all the colors, chlorophyll chose green. i love the coincidences. i love the places where science says i don't know, but it just happens.
"the universe doesn't care about you!" oh, i know. that's okay. i care about the universe. i will put my big stupid heart out into it and watch the universe feast on it. it is not painful. it is strange - the more love you pour into the unfeeling world, the more it feels the world loves you in return. i know it's confirmation bias. i think i'm okay if my proof of kindness is just my own body and my own spirit.
i buried the bird from our porch deep in the woods. that same day, an old friend reaches out to me and says i miss you. wherever you go, no matter how bad it gets - you try to do good.
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Mav was put to rest yesterday. His spine injury was affecting his quality of life and he deserved to go without suffering.
I have a lot of things to say about my beautiful dog. He was funny, he was easygoing, he was versatile, he was charming. But mostly, Mav was beloved. He was loved from his very first breath until his last, and he'll be loved for a long time still. He was loved by everyone he met and by people he'd never get the chance to meet, and he loved the entire world in return.
He was the coolest dog in the world. We could've had a hundred years together and it wouldn't have been enough. But we fit so much love into that little dog, he was full to bursting. And that's something at least.
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I'm turning 30 this year and in the last 12 months I've been dumped by my partner of 11 yrs and fired. My life has completely fallen apart and I feel raw and scared and brand new. There is no right way, we're all just doing the best we can.
❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹❤️🩹
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1/ no invite = not going: i mean good you weren't invited. unless you want to crash the party which actually is fun
2/ last minute invite = not going: ok that sounds very stupid to me especially since were all adults here. sometimes you dont talk to someone for 5 years and then you run into them and its nice and you're happy about it so you go "by the way I'm having a birthday party on Friday, are you free? do you want to come?" i don't think anything weird or offensive about that & were in this situation many times before
3/ no contact on the date = not going: makes sense probably only if its the first date? if its a party then you just might be stupid.
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Hello Rein! Hope you're doing well :) I wanted to, first, thank you for adding the ability to have disabilities in-game. It means a lot to me and, I'm sure, to others as well <3. I also wanted to know how we'll see the physical disabilities present themselves throughout the game? My MC, like myself, is HOH. I haven't tested other paths (yet!) but I really like what I've seen so far. I'm so curious to see the effects they'll have on the story/MC!!
Hey there! :D I appreciate this message more than you know- I really wanted to make the representation (if limited) significant in game, so I’m really genuinely glad to know that you find it fitting!
I think I’ve mentioned very briefly in some random tags before that the whole story, in its first phases, was extremely personal to me because it happened alongside me recognizing my own mental disabilities, so there’s a lottt of themes centered around concepts of community, care, and how society treats it. I won’t be able to cover all of the nuanced ground a conversation like that deserves, but I can sure as hell write some fictional dragons talking about it !
I’m hoping to make this clear especially to players who make their MC’s disabled in one way or another! There are currently multiple conversations planned about just this between the MC and the cast, with every character with their own relationship to it. For example, Skye is a lot more comfortable talking with someone with visible disabilities like her about her history, while Puck is still getting used to having such company. (sneak peek below the cut at the bottom👀)
So though for now it’s mostly flavortext, I’m really excited to dive into the heftier stuff in future chapters, where the significance really kicks in. It doesn’t make much sense to me for characters to just ignore this, especially when the story so heavily centers around similar themes, yknow?
Anyways! Sorry for the ramble didn’t mean to just talk at you lol but I hope you have a wonderful day anon! <3
[EXCERPT: “Me? Psh- nah.” They reply, lifting a hand and adjusting their glasses as they look back out at the scene ahead of them. The group is still talking. “I'm not nearly that talented. I'm basically half-blind anyways.”
<<if $blindeye is true>>They take a second before whipping their head to look back to you, eyes flashing with worry as they let out a sudden regretful bark of awkward laughter.
“Shit. Not like that. You know what I mean- sorry.”]
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it's been since my early 20s that I had in-person friends to actually hang out with regularly. and idk how to word it exactly, but making a push last year to actively try and forge friendships in person was such a good idea
I'd been missing that sense of physical community for so long and I finally feel like I have it back. and it's just a boon to my soul!!
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i have to go to bed very soon so instead i'm lying here being overcome by clintasha emotions
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chewing on u all 🥺🎉
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my monthly overthrow the tsaritsa post. you do not need to owe your loyalty to anyone but me i think. abandon your god for the prettiest wife this universe could ever provide a warrior. Ajax I’m speaking directly into your ear
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The true villain of Heir of Fire MISSCOMMUNICATION
because for the love of wyrd CHAOL CELAENA DORIAN just sit in a room together and talk and please especially the latter SOMEONE FILL DORIAN IN🤦♀️😅😂
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´´We should normalize seeing a character with very deeply rooted mental health issues literally on the brink of insanity having a horrible time and saying to yourself, ´huh, that´s so me, lol´ while giggling (read: sobbing) like a manic,´´ I say as I think about my time consuming any book movie song literally anything in the past few months.
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can we talk about the death of the minigame. very closely related with the death of the touchscreen handheld console. the ds was the golden era for minigames and i'll miss her forever
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Stormy Night, Warm Embrace
PLEASE READ ALL TAGS BEFORE STARTING! ALL TAGS BELOW CUT!
Fandom: Pokémon
Character(s): Friede, Amethio
Ship(s): Friede/Amethio, Mentioned Amethio/Zirc, Mentioned Amethio/Spinel, Mentioned Amethio/Sidian
Platonic Ship(s): -
Content Warning(s): Implied toxic relationship(s)
Rating: Explicit
While waiting out a storm, Friede spends the night in the arms of his unlikely saviour.
That was when it clicked. Or rather, it was when Friede was forced to acknowledge the feelings he tried so hard to ignore.
He had always wanted Amethio. Not just his body, but also his heart.
READ HERE ON AO3
Tags
•One Night Stands
•Jealousy
•Kissing
•Oral Sex
•Anal Fingering
•Anal Sex
•Barebacking
•Creampie
•Top Friede (Pokemon)
•Bottom Amethio (Pokemon)
•Aged-Up Character(s)
•Friede’s 23 and Amethio’s 21
•Angst
•Amethio gets a little violent at times but Friede doesn’t mind
•Hints at Amethio’s toxic not good very bad workplace in the form of old injuries
•In this house we ignore canon when it’s convenient
•Written before horizons episode 44
•Amethio has very briefly mentioned relationships with Zirc Spinel and Sidian
•Pocket Monsters | Pokemon Horizons: The Series
•Not Beta Read
•No beta we die like Wattrel’s screen time
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Hey, your work is amazing. Thank you so much for sharing it with the world the way you have, even in this wretched climate so inhospitable to art and artists. You do a lot of good by existing and sharing and creating. Thank you!!!
ADKJGFJGJDKJGF OMG THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!! 😭😭😭
Yeah the whole AI-stuff seems very grim and depressing, but luckily I see more and more conventions, corporations and publishers putting a stop to it by not accepting any AI-generated work and I'm sure more companies will follow this motion and update their guidelines accordingly, for only "human-made" work to be accepted.
I don't say much on the topic because I just don't like to put my attention to it, so this will be my only comment on the subjet, but I absolutely applaud all those who are actively fighting against it, because it's definitely a necessary fight against art theft and to make sure there are guidelines being created to handle this new technology. We can't make it disappear, but we can set up rules and give it proper management.
This may sound naive but I am actually very optimistic that this will be handled and settled in a couple of months. Or maybe a year or two. I don't think AI can replace artists in any way. Because in the end, artists are not a hivemind you can study and simply copy and paste, because every artist is an individual. They're all unique with their own minds, their own styles, their own ideas and concepts and every single person brings something new to the table.
Sure, AI can steal and copy a person's art style. But they cannot copy what's inside your mind. They cannot predict you. They can just copy what you have already created, but its YOU who came up with it. And if you're a comic artist or a storyteller of any kid, they'll never be able to tell YOUR stories.
They'll never replace you because they cannot be you.
Nobody can be you. Only you can be you. And that's why you'll never lose your worth, because nobody can create the things you create in YOUR way. Don't let the outside world tell you otherwise.
You are so worthy just for being here.
You bring so much joy just for being and sharing what's on your mind. Don't let anyone make you feel like you're replacable, because you're not.
So thank you for being here too! :DD
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