#why is being mentally ill so exhausting

[bipolarmango]

You know what sucks? When people say "you need help" and you go to get help and it doesn't go like in the movies where you cry a few times in a therapy, go for a jog in a park, have a couple of drinks with a friend, move to a new apartment, change jobs, and then meet the love of your life at a house party.

In real life it might go like gaining weight from your medication, self-isolating, starting to drink or to abuse meds and having to process that too, finding out you have comorbities, having to deal with pre-existing trauma, becoming hyper-vigilant for abuse/manipulation/you name it, getting fired from your job, having to move back to live with parents, applying for social benefits, feeling like no one should date you because you are a mess, questioning your whole existence.

[endlessmidnights]

I miss my old favorite blades, like why did I think throwing them away was a good idea, I knew I’d relapse I always do

[pepprs]

genuinely so angry and scared im shaking. how many other times this week this month this year have i been exposed without knowing it. do people even tell each other anymore. it’s just so grim. it’s so fucking grim

[gloriousmonsters]

hi hello just saw everything everywhere all at once and i am experiencing the temporary euphoria of remembering that in a fragmented and chaotic universe we must search for wonder make our own meaning and most importantly be kind

[pisspeas69]

Exhausted and Alone

If only I had realized

That was the last laugh

Of only for a bit

I got comfortable

I was happy

But of course something happened

It always does

Every little scratch adds up

And I fall

My legs give out

But this time they aren't here

They aren't my legs this time

They left me behind

And it's so exhausting

To lift myself up

On legs that won't work

And I don't know what to do

Because everything

Everything

Is exhausting

And I don't know how to do this

Without them

I should be happy

But I'm lying in bed for hours

Exhausted

And

Alone

[muthwoom]

i never thought i’d be this tired of doing nothing

[mothbeasts]

Okay trying to not get like too serious or anything but. I am having a Time today. Being hit with the realization that I'll probably have to retake this year of school.

[saviourkingslut]

i should be getting paid for the number of times ive noted concerning things in my friend's thought patterns and behaviour that she didn't pick up on and neither did her therapist fr i feel like im doing half this woman's work sometimes

[rxttenfish]

everyone’s always like

oh you have to open up!!! its not healthy to not tell anyone anything and keep it all to yourself!! you cant just hide your emotions away all the time, its super abusive and youre a bad person if you dont tell people youre upset or hurt!!! people will thank you for opening up about it and you’ll lose everyone otherwise!!!

while also wholeheartly blaming you for not being healthy already or for not phrasing or thinking of shit In The Exact Way They Want You To and calling you abusive for opening up about it or telling people that something’s wrong or just being mentally ill at all and if you dont jump through every single fucking hoop they put in place then you’ll just get hurt more until you finally shut up

and then they pat themselves on the back and say they’re not ableist in the slightest

[imwritesometimes]

the mental trials and tribulations are once again acting up you know how it is

[bipolarmango]

When your depression makes you question if you're really mentally ill or just a fraud and you spend the next days feeling guilty for potentially faking the mental illness you've got diagnosis for

[fancy-brudgom]

being the vaguely mentally stable friend with oldest daughter syndrome is WILD. Like someone has a problem I will drop everything to make sure they're okay. I will make damn sure they have eaten and drank water. I would happily go to the ends of this earth for my partner or any of my friends but at the end of the day having to be responsible for another person is fucking exhausting. but I'll still wake up tomorrow and do it again

[cravny]

Woaw holy shit

I really do have mental problems

[thegenderclown]

i hate capitalism, i hate ads, i hate selling my soul and creativity for big companies, i hate companies, i hate this dystopian nightmare, i hate paying for everything extra, i hate paying for ad free, i hate money, i hate that I can't use tumblr without going insane with these shitty ads

[ghostlysoupcan]

I swear being a trans dude who is both aro and ace is just the worst combo for being set upon by the most caustic, rude sort of ironic highschool meangirl humor coming out of the mouth of a person who is totally for queer rights and then people are wondering why youre both a. not shocked in the slightest and 2. disillusioned with others to the point of tears.

[localdiscountgoth]

sometimes things go a little to well for a little to long so life has to make sure to slap you