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Girl are you good? You haven't posted in weeks...

Hi thanks for your concern, it’s really nice of you! I’ m not doing really great I was forced into recovery and so I had to gain weight :( but now I am more okay with recovering just it’s really hard so I deleted Tumblr since it was very triggering.

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Hi🤍 I wanted to share for the first time some bodychecks :

Stats : 38kg for 158cm 🤍

I only have to lose 1kg until I reach my ugw !!

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Hi guys!! I am so proud of myself as I have dropped 4kg in less than two weeks and I reached 39kg! However last wednesday I went to my ed doctor and I was 41kg (which I find to be way too much) and told me that he was worrying and he made me have blood tests.

I have to see him tomorrow and he told me if my tests wasn’t good I wasn’t getting better he would hospitalise me and if I didn’t eat I would get a tube :(

I really don’t want that especially since I haven’t reached my gw and don’t want to be isolate.

Honestly I don’t know what to think or do I just know I don’t want to eat as I can’t stop myself from restricting. I love restricting even if I look like a zombie and I’m exhausted I can’t stop.

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Sameee just to think about the number of calories in it is making me nauseous 🤢

what’s ur biggest fear food i’ll go first:

FUCKING OLIVE OIL 🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮🤮

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TW- Thinsp0

Literally my dream bod :

I can achieve this for summer!!

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ミ★ 1𝘴𝘵 𝘚𝘞 : 46𝘬𝘨 → 𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘮𝘺 𝘯𝘰𝘳𝘮𝘢𝘭 𝘸𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵, 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘷𝘦𝘳 𝘵𝘳𝘪𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘸𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘓𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘚𝘞 : 43𝘬𝘨 → 𝘚𝘪𝘯𝘤𝘦 𝘖𝘤𝘵𝘰𝘣𝘦𝘳 1𝘴𝘵, 𝘐 𝘢𝘭𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱𝘱𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦, 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘺’𝘳𝘦 𝘭𝘦𝘴𝘴 𝘳𝘦𝘤𝘶𝘳𝘳𝘦𝘯𝘵 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘴𝘰 𝘯𝘰𝘸 𝘐 𝘸𝘢𝘯𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘤𝘰𝘮𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘵𝘦𝘭𝘺 𝘪𝘮𝘮𝘦𝘳𝘴𝘦 𝘮𝘺𝘴𝘦𝘭𝘧 𝘪𝘯 𝘮𝘺 𝘸𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘴 𝘫𝘰𝘶𝘳𝘯𝘦𝘺, 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵’𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘸𝘢𝘺 𝘐 𝘤𝘢𝘯 𝘧𝘦𝘦𝘭 𝘨𝘰𝘰𝘥 𝘊𝘞 : 41.6 𝘬𝘨 𝘓𝘞 : 39 𝘬𝘨 → 𝘛𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘢𝘴 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘯𝘵𝘩 𝘢𝘨𝘰, 𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘰 𝘣𝘢𝘤𝘬 𝘵𝘰 𝘪𝘵 𝘢𝘴𝘢𝘱 𝘎𝘞 1 : 40 𝘬𝘨 → 𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘨𝘰𝘢𝘭 𝘪𝘴 𝘯𝘰𝘵 𝘷𝘦𝘳𝘺 𝘥𝘪𝘧𝘧𝘪𝘤𝘶𝘭𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘧𝘰𝘳 𝘮𝘦 𝘴𝘰 𝘐 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘯𝘬 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘐'𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘢𝘵 𝘸𝘦𝘪𝘨𝘩𝘵 𝘰𝘯 𝘛𝘩𝘶𝘳𝘴𝘥𝘢𝘺 𝘎𝘞 2 : 38 𝘬𝘨 → 𝘛𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘪𝘴 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘰𝘯𝘦 𝘎𝘞 𝘐 𝘴𝘵𝘳𝘶𝘨𝘨𝘭𝘦 𝘵𝘩𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘴𝘵 𝘸𝘪𝘵𝘩 𝘐 𝘢𝘭𝘸𝘢𝘺𝘴 𝘣𝘪𝘯𝘨𝘦 𝘥𝘶𝘳𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘢𝘵 𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘢 𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘬 𝘸𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐 𝘧𝘪𝘯𝘢𝘭𝘭𝘺 𝘳𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 39 𝘬𝘨, 𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘰 𝘱𝘢𝘴𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘢𝘯𝘥 𝘵𝘩𝘦𝘯 𝘐’𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘶𝘯𝘴𝘵𝘰𝘱𝘱𝘢𝘣𝘭𝘦 𝘎𝘞 3 : 36 𝘬𝘨 → 𝘐’𝘮 𝘵𝘳𝘺𝘪𝘯𝘨 𝘵𝘰 𝘦𝘴𝘱𝘢𝘤𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘎𝘞𝘴 𝘣𝘺 2𝘬𝘨𝘴 𝘦𝘢𝘤𝘩 𝘴𝘰 𝘐 𝘥𝘰𝘯’𝘵 𝘭𝘰𝘴𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘵𝘪𝘷𝘢𝘵𝘪𝘰𝘯 𝘜𝘎𝘞 : 34 𝘬𝘨 → 𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘰𝘯𝘭𝘺 𝘢𝘤𝘤𝘦𝘱𝘵 𝘵𝘰 𝘨𝘦𝘵 𝘩𝘦𝘭𝘱 𝘢𝘵 𝘵𝘩𝘪𝘴 𝘱𝘰𝘪𝘯𝘵 𝘣𝘦𝘤𝘢𝘶𝘴𝘦 𝘮𝘺 𝘉𝘔𝘐 𝘸𝘪𝘭𝘭 𝘣𝘦 𝘭𝘰𝘸 𝘦𝘯𝘰𝘶𝘨𝘩 𝘉𝘔𝘐 : 16.9 → 𝘐 𝘯𝘦𝘦𝘥 𝘵𝘰 𝘣𝘦 𝘮𝘢𝘹 𝘢𝘵 14 ★彡

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i swear fasting is easier than restricting

once i get one thing in my stomach its over for me

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I have no one to talk to about my struggles and feel like I’m going insane so I’m venting here, TW it’s kinda harsh.

No matter how much I push my fingers down my throat nothing comes out of my mouth. I binged and I can’t throw up, I’ve tried every « tips » but nothing works.

To balance out that binge I’m going to increase my daily exercise and go on a fast for two days. My new plan is to only eat on wednesdays and weekends. Hopefully I won’t binge again.

I also decided to change my ugw. My old one was 34-33kg now it is 30 kg. If I’m consistent and strong enough I will reach that weight on my birthday, October 30th.

After many mental breakdowns in the past two weeks, I’ve realized it’s the only way people can ever take me seriously bc for now they tell I’m skinny but not « too » skinny, which means that I’m not thin enough for them to be considered ill. I don’t think I’m that bad bc I could in fact be more skinny but if you’re struggling with eating problems and are at what is considered to be a « healthy » weight or « overweight » I want you to know that you are valid and people are most of the time ignorants.

There is some other girls at my school struggling with eating too. That really doesn’t help. It’s my last year in high school and in 3 years I was never able to even have one meal at school. Eating is hard but when you’re surrounded by (very) skinny girls, like my friends, it’s just impossible to eat. One girl that I kinda know lost a bunch of weight during summer. She had a « healthy » body mass and now she’s severely underweight, to the point that I didn’t recognize her at first. I’m really sad and concerned for her but every time she walks by, my heart just drops and I feel like my eyes are going to pop out, I can’t stop thinking to myself why and how did she get so skinny so quickly when I’m barely eating 400cals since nearly 4 years and not losing weight. I’m saying that but during those years, even if most of the time I ate really little, I still had periods where I would definitely overeat.

I’m so dumb but honestly if my family didn’t love junk food I wouldn’t even need to fast. I would love to throw every single food present in my house right now and replace with almost nothing or only low cal and vegan food. (I’m vegetarian but I’m considering becoming vegan so that way I’m going to be morally forced to not eat some types of food, I know it’s fucked up but honestly I just wanna drop the weight and die)

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• I feel like I have alzheimer but only for my face and body.

Like every time I see myself in a mirror I discover a new face/body and I can’t describe exactly what it looks like.

Please tell me I ´m not the only person on earth that thinks her face changes everyday

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okay. so i’ve been seeing a lot of discourse about what it means to be a coquette.

it’s much more about your vibe than anything.

all of the OG coquettes weren’t following all the tiktok trends

(if you do it’s fine bc i like a few of them) but my point is you don’t have to copy everything tiktok says to be coquette.

it’s also not just cis, thin, and white either.

like seriously look on ur history. some of this shit some ppl swear you “need to be” to be a “true” coquette wasn’t even relevant at the time the subculture really emerged, so for some people to say that some people “don’t fit” in the aesthetic is bs.

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3 of my friends are struggling with food (restriction) and i know this is horrible but i can’t stop comparing myself and them and act like it’s a stupid competition like who is the one with the worst mental and physical state. I love them but i can’t help doing that :(

WHEN OTHER PPL HAVE ED'S AND UR ED BRAIN THINKS OF IT AS A COMPETITION <<<<

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✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:* TW ED✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

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❣  So i’m posting a picture of my actual body type (even if I’m still trying to figure out how my body looks lol) and a picture of my body goal, to motivate me !  ❣

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*Actual body type ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*My dream body type ✧･ﾟ: *✧･ﾟ:*

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Hey i just wanted to share with you guys some of my fav th1nsp0

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i just wanna look as sick as i feel damn it

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cant wait to live by myself so i can starve in peace

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I can’t even enjoy losing weight because it feels like I’m just undoing damage I should have never allowed to happen in the first place.

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