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sincerely-astra · 4 months ago

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Since it makes some time since someone requested Yandere choir....

The choir with the most anxious girl in town?

Darling is like Penny, but just way more paranoid, anxious and shy, and most people at school find her weird and mock her social anxiety

Thanks in advance! :))

☁️Yandere Choir x Anxious!Reader🌧️

⚠️WARNING: General Yandere content and geared towards a fem reader!⚠️

Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg:

Introductions were the worst. Having everyone stare at you while you struggled to get the words, "Hello, my name is Y/N." out was not an enjoyable experience, especially when basically everyone in the classroom was snickering at your pathetic attempt to speak. As you kept stuttering through it, your anxiety peaking in you, the teacher finally let you off the hook and said, "That's enough Ms. Y/N, please go take a seat next to Ocean. Ocean, please raise your hand-" The teacher had no need to request that though as Ocean's hand shot up the moment she mentioned you would be sitting next to her.

You make your way over, where Ocean gives you a nod of acknowledgment as a greeting before turning back to the teacher. Normally she would've introduced herself already, but she needed to pay attention to the lesson, and so should you as you're gonna need to catch up! Other than that, the lesson went pretty smoothly, minus the few whispers you'd hear behind you during the beginning of it.

Thankfully, class ended quickly enough and as you got up, packing your things, Ocean comes up to your desk and holds her hand out as if she's expecting a handshake. You hesitantly shake her hand, which has a much stronger grip than yours, and she starts to speak, "I wanted to introduce myself before we have to go to our next classes. As Mrs. Jones said, I am Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg and the head of the chamber choir here at St. Cassian!" She held a prideful smile on her face as she spoke, soon continuing on as she introduced more about the school and the choir she mentioned.

You didn't get much of a word in either, even as you got up to start walking to your next class, which you two just happened to share, Ocean kept going on and on. It's not like you minded too much, though. Saves you the trouble from having to think of something to say and you were honestly just glad she wasn't making fun of you like those other kids were...

It hadn't even been a week after you met her either, where you were finally convinced by Ocean to join the choir she was always mentioning. Like, always mentioning.

You two had talked almost every day at that point and she had invited you to sit with her and the choir for lunch on multiple occasions, though you always declined because you didn't think you'd be comfortable sitting and talking with so many new people all at once... So how did she manage to get you to join the choir then? You have literally zero idea... Maybe it was Ocean praising it 24/7, or her speech about all the benefits it has and how you should join to make some new friends. Whatever it was, you walked in with Ocean that next choir rehearsal.

She introduced you to the choir and Father Markus, explaining how you are their newest member! A girl named Constance was the first to come up to you to welcome you into the choir, which she mostly did, but Ocean eventually had to cut her off so practice could move along. Now, the one thing you told Ocean you weren't gonna do by joining the choir, even though it was choir, was sing, which to your surprise, Ocean said was fine since another kid named Ricky was also in the choir and he didn't sing either.

That's how you ended up sitting next to a boy you barely know, temporarily without an instrument as they would have to borrow one from the band.

Despite how friendly most of the choir members were, save for Noel and Mischa, you pretty much clung to Ocean most of the time. As the only person you really knew there, she was like your lifeline as you didn't feel comfortable around the others quite yet... Now, if this was anyone else, they might have thought you were being annoying and too clingy, but this was Ocean and she thought the complete opposite. She reveled in the attention you gave her as not only did it feed her ego, but she also found herself enjoying your presence a lot.

You don't send annoyed eye rolls her way whenever she talks about her accomplishments and what she wants to do in the future, you don't make her feel bad that she needs to feel successful, you don't push her about her homelife and why she smells marijuana most days. You aren't like everyone else and she loves that, she can finally let her guard down around someone, something she can't even do with Constance. You're her vice.

If you ever start feeling overwhelmed with life and just need something to distract you, Ocean will 100% be your best bet for that. She will talk your ear off even if you didn't ask her to, which helps a lot when you just need to hear something in the background while you calm down.

Ocean, being the overachiever she is, knows how to do pretty much everything and she will be passing those skills down to you. She will be teaching you all kinds of different languages, instruments, crafts, everything and anything you want to learn, she will teach you.

Surprisingly, she is also a good mentor figure too.

Ocean isn't really the type to give you her things to wear, mainly because she doesn't have that many clothes to begin with, but if you ever ask, she would probably give you something like a piece of jewelry or a headband.

The more time she spends with you, the more Ocean just enjoys being in your presence... She never really thought she could like you more than she did, but getting to know you on a deeper level and having you come to her for most of your problems makes her feel so unimaginably happy. Suddenly, you aren't gonna be the only clingy one anymore and she isn't letting you out of her sight.

Whenever you guys pass notes to each other in class (which Ocean discourages as she says it's distracting but continues to do anyway because it's you,) Ocean always ends up keeping the notes you pass to her and when she isn't with you, she'll go through them, running her fingers along the words you wrote so she can feel close to you, even when you aren't with her.

You will never have to worry about people mocking you or being mean to you ever again with Ocean around because the people that do will be thoroughly run over with her words and her connection with the principal (Whom she will not stop bothering when someone is rude to you.) Word travels quick in St. Cassian and soon, people avoid you like the plague.

Ocean is lowkey either the best or worst person to be around when you have anxiety, there is no in between.

On those good days though, she'll take a break from whatever she is doing just to go find a quiet place for you to calm down in. She also has snacks that Constance gives her that she will let you eat.

As much as Ocean loves and cares about you, she will also not be letting you into her house... She would hate to have her parents' behavior affect you in any negative way, so her house is basically banned from you.

Even if you can't go to Ocean's house though, that doesn't mean she isn't allowed at yours, which believe me, she is there pretty much every day.

You and Ocean were in your bedroom, Ocean ranting about something a teacher said while finishing up her homework, while you were snuggled up on your bed, half listening and half watching a movie. It was your average afternoon, a routine that you and Ocean had grown comfortable with after doing it for so long.

And Ocean had liked it that way, she liked predictability, she liked having a routine only you and her share. She liked having things stay the same as always.

...But she supposes she doesn't mind you changing things up a bit either.

"I'm glad you're here, you know... You are like, the one person I feel comfortable around." Your words were full of adoration and were a complete shock to Ocean, who immediately stopped writing, turning to face you with wide eyes.

For some reason, even though Ocean had never thought of you that way, those words made her heart skip several beats and her face flush red. Quite frankly, her having such a visceral reaction to your words was making her feel incredibly embarrassed for herself... How come all of a sudden, when you just said something that she's sure everyone says to their friends, she starts to feel like she's the most special girl in the whole world? Why are her hands suddenly fidgeting? Why do her words have a stutter to them now as she replied with, "Y-You should, I'm a very comfortable person to be around!"

This feeling she's never felt before..., it couldn't be love could it??

...

Seeing you make a huff of amusement at her words, your smile bright as you turn back to your movie...

Well, maybe change is good. Maybe loving you isn't all bad.

So, one of the ways Ocean shows her love to you, is that even if she is an eternal yapper at heart and she knows you don't mind listening to her, she now is very adamant in listening to you and what you have to say, even if that's nothing at all.

She loves hearing your voice.

She would become so red if you did her hair, like put it into braids or just play with it, it just feels so weirdly intimate and domestic that she can't help but become so flustered.

There are a lot of moments where she's afraid of doing anything she sees as too intimate since she doesn't want you to possibly reject her and her feelings. Even then, though, she has a hard time not just being near you and showering you with praise.

Ocean has a bad habit of talking over people. Most of the time, it's unintentional, but there are moments when someone is talking to you for whatever reason and she'll just come up and crash the whole conversation. Those times, it's definitely not an accident.

Sometimes when she's writing an essay or just anything in general, her mind will wander and she'll end up writing paragraphs all about you. Some of the stuff gets a bit strange too..., like how she wrote 2 paragraphs on why she likes the way you walk.

As your friend, and hopefully potential lover, she should be helping you with your anxiety, right? Well, she does for the most part, but Ocean can't but place some fear in you sometimes when it comes to talking with strangers or going anywhere without her. It's for your own good, she doesn't want anyone to hurt you.

Noel Gruber:

Noel was having a bad day today.

Okay, so he has a bad day every day, but that fact that he's acknowledging today was really bad means a lot for how his day was going so far.

First off, some stupid douchebags were making fun of him for being openly queer, then he had to deal with his teacher pulling him out of class even though the kids behind him were making a ruckess, then he had to deal with Ocean during lunch. All of this combined made him want to bang his head against a wall.

Thankfully though, it was all almost over, all he had to do was turn the corner, walk a few paces, do choir, and he could finally go home. He just needed to get through this final stretch of the day and all would be well. So, walking down the route he usually takes to go to choir, he slowly starts to turn the corner, not at all realizing that someone was also making their way past it...

That person being you.

You both knock into each other, knocking you back and Noel onto the ground below. Noel lets out a grunt of both hurt and frustration, quickly looking up to the perpetrator so he could scold them for their carelessness, his frustration levels hitting their peak as this was kind of his last straw. However, as soon as he looks up at you, he couldn't even get a word out as you promptly apologized, anxiousness in both your voice and behavior was evident. "I'm so sorry! I really didn't mean to do that, I should've looked past the corner or something. Are you hurt? Did you break anything? Should I take you to the nurse?-" Questions flew out of your mouth at lightning speed as you nervously flailed your arms around while you tried to explain yourself.

This kind of reaction from anyone at St. Cassian was new for Noel as most people wouldn't even bother to apologize and would just insult him before walking off. It's not like it was all your fault either, so this was really strange for him... Awkwardly, he gets up from the tiled floor and adjusts himself, ignoring your rambling before speaking over you, "I'm fine, stop worrying so much." Which thankfully got you to calm down a little. Noel was honestly kind of at a loss for words in the moment, wanting to say something else to you, but he didn't know quite what to say... So, he just shrugs it off and walks past you to the choir room, muttering a, "Sorry...," as he passes by.

That was your first introduction to each other and apparently it wouldn't be the last as soon enough you joined the choir.

Becoming friends (Whenever you got into the choir, he noticed Ocean enjoying having you cling to her, which he hated, so he starts to become your friend to spite her. He soon enjoys being your friend though.)

As Ocean had done a million times before with every other member of the choir, as she was pretty much the reason they all joined in the first place save for Mischa who was forced to, Ocean introduces you to everyone before Constance goes up to you and takes up your attention. He noticed you looked just as nervous as ever, which wasn't surprising, but what was surprising was the glow on Ocean's face after the choir rehearsal had ended as you clung to her. He knows her prideful face when he sees it, and apparently having you cling to her instead of any other choir member was giving her an ego boost she so desperately craved.

Now, Noel doesn't hate Ocean, he really doesn't. Sure, she can be annoying at times and he gets onto her a lot for being an ass to people, but that doesn't mean he hates the girl. In a way, they were kind of like siblings, at least, that's how Noel saw it. But watching you stand by her side like a loyal puppy with Ocean having a power trip over it made a switch flip inside of him. It was annoyingly pathetic how much you relied on Ocean and Noel wasn't having it. He knew you needed some kind of guidance in this school by someone who's been through hell in it, so he's gonna help you.

He's convinced himself he has to, otherwise you are going to have a rough time here.

So, whenever Ocean is busy with something else and you are left to stand idly by her side, Noel makes it his mission to go and talk to you. This turned out to be a good decision on his part as well since you were surprisingly pleasant to talk to unlike most people at St. Cassian. Your anxiousness did mean he needed to do most of the talking, but he could really care less, if he had to wait an eternity for you to get out of your shell and treat him like a normal human being compared to everyone else, then so be it.

You also enjoyed this dynamic you had with Noel. You did love and appreciate Ocean taking you under her wing and becoming your friend, but having Noel there was different in a good way. He showed you which places and people to avoid, where the good hiding spots are, how to get away with taking a nap in the nurse's office, basically, he was the street smarts to Ocean's book smarts. You had to even admit, he had a way of making it actually fun to let go and talk to him, something you'd never thought you'd be able to do. It was refreshing.

Noel doesn't mind how anxious you get at all, he's kind of friends with Penny and despite how confident he is, he's had his moments too, so he's pretty good at helping you manage your anxiety.

Sometimes though, just because he thinks it's kind of funny, he'll come up behind you when you are least expecting it and spook you. If you do end up having like, a panic attack or something because of it though, he'll feel so awful and will help you out immediately.

He loves having you read to him because, as you don't talk much, he finds it nice to hear your voice.

If you're ever hungry, trust that Noel will let you eat all his Taco Bell leftovers, he could literally care less.

Noel is extremely picky on who you spend your time with and if you don't fight back somewhat, you probably wouldn't talk to anyone but him.

He will also be making you give him access to all your social media accounts and no, this is not negotiable. He wants no creeps near you and probably ends up turning on some kind of child safety features on your phone.

He will give you a screen time so you are forced to talk to him.

You can literally appear at his house in the middle of the night, and Noel will not care at all, he trusts you completely.

If your anxiety ever gets too bad, he might help you find a therapist to talk to that's not the school one since Dr. Prattle is the worst.

You're more than welcome to come to him to vent though if that's what you'd prefer.

Noel hates the idea of you keeping secrets from him, like, a lot. So, because he wants to try and lean you in the right direction so you feel comfortable sharing things with him, he shows you Monique. He was undeniably anxious when he first showed her to you, because he might literally die if his biggest obsession finds his other biggest obsession weird, but thankfully that wasn't the case and his plan actually worked! After telling you about her, you pretty much get weekly updates on Monique and her story since he changes and adds things frequently.

Now the only biggest secret being kept between you was his sexuality!

Except it wasn't because you had known for a long time...

You knew because 1. Noel wasn't exactly secret about it. 2. Anytime you are with Noel at school, someone always manages to pass by and whisper slurs at him. And lastly, 3. It was kind of obvious.

Now, this does save him the whole coming out ordeal but Noel has to admit that he hates that he never got to formally tell you... It's just so important to him, and having something like that ripped away was honestly heartbreaking.

Please give him hugs and tell him he'll be alright- He needs it.

Do people still bully you even though you are with Noel? Yeah, it's actually kind of gotten worse since you've become friends with Noel. But you at the very least have each other and even if Noel has no power to stop the bullies, if any of them lay a finger on you, he's gonna kick some ass.

His mom actually adores you so much, you are the daughter she never had and she just thinks you're so precious. (She's low-key also encourages Noel's darker thoughts, but moving on...)

You're required to hang out with him during his work shifts, he needs someone to talk to that isn't his burdensome coworkers, and you're by far the best option.

Noel sometimes paints you, but he never lets you see the final result since he's embarrassed about it.

If you look past all the awful notes and stuff that your bullies put in your locker, sometimes you'll find a note threatening you to stay away from certain people and to do certain things that make you end up isolating yourself. You have zero clue, but that's all Noel...

Noel knows it's bad, but sometimes he has fantasies of bad things happening to you. It's dark and twisted, but his whole life is romanticizing tragedy, and he just loves you so much that he can't help himself but to imagine the worst possible scenarios, even going as far as to write about it sometimes.

Noel would never hurt you under any circumstance, you're way too special for him to do that to you!

...

But if you ever did try leaving, he does know a few ingredients to knock you out for a while.

Mischa Bachinski:

Mischa has never been one to cry, sure, he may get so angry that he feels like he wants to cry out from frustration, but rarely does he ever actually cry. It's a trait he's proud of, he feels like it makes him look not as weak. It makes him not look like the sobbing little boy he was when he was ripped away from his mother.

Truthfully, he hasn't cried since then, he would never allow himself to. If this world was only ever gonna break his heart over and over with no signs of comfort or relief, then he wasn't going to give it the satisfaction of him bawling his eyes out.

...

That was until Talia, the absolute love of his life, broke up with him.

He didn't think it was possible he could cry as much as he was right now, his eyes were puffy and red, his cheeks stained with tears that just kept flowing, and his phone laid on the bed in front of him showing past texts of him and Natalia. He hated how weak he felt, but god did this hurt.

Mischa had been crying for hours at this point, skipping school entirely as he knew he couldn't handle it today. He needed some kind of comfort, something to take his mind off of the hurt in his heart. And what better way to do that than to vent to some online strangers.

Finally grabbing his phone and swiping off his past text messages with Natalia, Mischa goes to the internet, gets on some old chat room site he uses occasionally to vent out his frustrations, and he taps a button to connect him with someone. It took a minute to connect him to someone, which he can only contribute to the crappy internet in the basement, but eventually he connected with someone which was, of course, you.

The conversation was a little awkward at the start, with you trying to navigate through the conversation without triggering your anxiety and with Mischa trying to find some segway to where he could just get all of the horrible emotions he was feeling in the moment out. Mischa did find his segway at some point, and you being the kind person you are, listened to his problems. You guys actually talked for hours and eventually also traded phone numbers to talk more. (P.S. I don't know who needs to hear this, but don't give out your phone number to random people online- Learn internet safety.)

Your long conversations didn't just stop there either; it might have been the fact that you both were strangers or the fact that this was online, but you both found comfort in each other and found it easy to tell each other everything. You learned so much about each other, you learned of Mischa's Youtube channel, how he used to live in Ukraine, how he is in the choir at his school, and Mischa learned about your anxiety, where you lived, and about your bullies. With that last one, he promised you if he ever met them, he wouldn't hesitate to punch them, something you thought was a joke but he was dead serious about.

All of this was to say that you and Mischa became good friends, even if it was online. You helped him in so many different ways, especially when it came to getting over Natalia, and he helped you gain confidence in yourself, it's almost too good to be true.

But it was true.

And it was only going up from here.

On a late Sunday night, you and Mischa were chatting like usual. Nothing was totally out of the ordinary with Mischa just ranting about this one rapper he likes and you listening, but as he is mid-way through his rant, you ask him, "Hey Mischa, what school do you go to?" To which, he immediately responded with, "St. Cassian High School, it's school for whiny, privileged kids, why?" Luckily and unbeknownst to Mischa, this was exactly the information you wanted to hear as you excitedly blurt out, "Oh good, I'm moving to Uranium and I didn't know if there were more than one high school or not."

That was the news of the century for Mischa, his eyes going wide as he heard you say that over the speaker in his phone. He practically jumped out of his seat, taking his phone with him as he ecstatically started to pace around the basement. "For reals!? Do not joke with me right now, it's not funny." But you weren't joking in the slightest, you meant every word.

You were moving to Uranium and going to St. Cassian. Mischa will finally be able to see his best friend in person and not even for just a few days, but for now and the foreseeable future. If Mischa is allowed to have just one good thing in life, he's glad it's this.

Mischa made sure to be kept up to date with everything that was happening during your move, calling you every chance he got just to see how it was going as a small part of him was fearful that things wouldn't end up the way he so wished they would...

Thankfully though, they did and as soon as you were in Uranium and let out of your new house by your parents, you and Mischa immediately met at the nearest park which was pretty close to your house.

To say that Mischa was beyond excited to see you was an understatement, he seriously felt like a kid again and had to calm himself down while he waited for you so he didn't scare you off or anything... Of course, that didn't last long though because as soon as you got there he couldn't contain his feelings and immediately ran over to hug you. He couldn't help himself..., you are just so different in person in the best of ways, you're so pretty, he loves the moments of silence you have when you are trying to think of something to say, he loves the way your hands are always messing with something on your person.

He's so glad to finally have someone near him who truly loves and understands him. Trust him when he says he is never letting you go.

Okay, so, even if this was only for the first few days you were in Uranium, Mischa quickly found himself loving having you cling to him since you didn't know anyone here. He finds it so incredibly adorable.

For whatever reason, Mischa refuses to let you pay for anything- If you ever want something, trust that he's gonna get it for you one way or another, and you are not going to be the one buying it.

As chivalrous as Mischa might be, he will also 100% make fun of you (in a joking way, of course.)

He will stop immediately though if it ever hits too close to home for you, your comfort is far more important to him than a laugh ever will be.

Once you start branching out to more and more people in Uranium, most notably Noel and Ocean, Mischa, for whatever reason, can't help but feel a little jealous... He knows it's good for you to make other friends and it's nice for you to get along with the people he's close to, but whenever Ocean holds on your arm or when Noel ruffles your hair...

It just gives him such an indescribable sense of loneliness and anger.

He wants to squish your cheeks so badly. (That's it, that's the head canon.)

If you are ever feeling down or your anxiety is really getting to you, Mischa will not hesitate to make an absolute fool out of himself trying to cheer you up.

He'll do whatever it takes, whether it be making fun of himself or saying the most unhinged things out of nowhere, he will do it.

So, in order to get to Mischa's room, aka the basement, there are gonna be times where you have to go past his parents. You know all about them from Mischa, and it's safe to say you aren't fond of them in the slightest, his parents aren't that fond of you either... They don't know what you are doing with that boy, but to them, you are way better off not associating with him.

You aren't leaving him though, never in a million years would you ever even think of the prospect.

Mischa never thought he would ever get over his break up with Natalia, not since it broke him in such awful ways that it took months for him to not think about her every second of the day.

And even when he did eventually get over it, he thought it would take a while for him to fall in love again. His heart was now so heavily guarded and he was so scared of having to open up about everything to someone new.

But then, to his absolute shock and somewhat horror, he didn't have to open up to someone new, quite the opposite in fact. Because there eventually came a day when he started to get all flustered and red-faced around you. When he first realized, he almost didn't want to accept it, fearful that it would totally ruin the great relationship you both have so carefully formed, one that he doesn't think he can handle losing.

But the feelings, no matter how hard he tried to push them down, kept coming up, along with the thoughts of holding you in his arms and kissing your soft lips...

He started to not mind those thoughts so much the more he thought about it. Maybe it would nice to hold your hand and whisper sweet nothings to you, in fact, maybe that would be the next best step in your relationship.

Mischa usually wasn't always quick to fall in love, but when he does, he falls hard.

He is always constantly craving your touch, especially in the moments when he can't have it like in class or when he's in his bedroom alone. He's a very touch-starved individual.

Mischa is always making an effort to learn and memorize everything about you, even to an unhealthy degree.

All he wants to do is kiss you, is that so much to ask for?

Mischa has no clue how you came to become friends with a guy like him, but he literally is so grateful for it. He loves you so much it hurts, and thinking of the fact that your paths may have never crossed is such a gut-wrenching thought process.

On the nights where he's missing you really bad, he'll literally just stay up all night scrolling through photos of you on his phone, wishing you were with him or that he could hear your voice.

And sometimes he even takes things a step further and decides to watch you sleep..., he just really needs to see you safe and near him.

Mischa is no stranger to bullies and he is not a stranger to beating said bullies up. He will be beating the crap out of anyone who even dares looks at you wrong, mark his words.

As cheesy as he knows it is, he writes secret admirer letters for you and stuffs them in your locker, most of which have a love poem written in Ukrainian. If you manage to decipher the letter, than be prepared because some of the things he writes about are incredibly disturbing...

Like, sometimes he wants to just murder someone because of how beautiful you are, his passion and love for you not being able to stay contained inside of him.

Ricky Potts:

One of the perks and downfalls of being in the St. Cassian chamber choir as someone who can't speak, is the fact that most of the time, the rest of the choir forgets he's there.

He could literally not be playing whatever instrument they stuck him with this time for the whole song, and Ocean will congratulate him on how well he did. It was a curse in the way that he always felt such an indescribable loneliness at times, but it was also a blessing in that he gets to do one of his favorite activities, people watch! Which was great to do with the rest of the choir since they were fascinating individuals.

And he never really expected this to change as Ocean had been failing for months to get anyone new to join the choir, so he just assumed this was it, this was the group he'd be stuck with before he graduated. Even if he was totally content with that, he definitely didn't mind having you sit next to him on some random whim of Ocean's, giving him a bit of company.

Although you both didn't talk much to begin with, he because he is unable to and you because of your anxiety, eventually you both picked up subtle ways to communicate without speaking or ASL. You both would give each other a certain look that could mean a variety of things or you'd both pick up on each other's body language and act accordingly.

Ricky does wish you'd talk to him at least a little bit, but this was fine to, he gets not everyone is the talkative type. Little did he know, though, that you wanted to be able to talk to him just as much as he did. Ricky seemed really sweet to you and you enjoyed how easily you both could read each other, it was nice, effortless acquaintanceship that you longed to turn into more. But to do that, you'd have to do the one thing that you really hated doing..., talking.

Despite wanting to be his friend, you sure as hell dragged your quiet acquaintance out... It took a very long time for you to get a word out to him without dying on the spot and even longer to be able to actually speak with him.

But when you did, Ricky was so happy for both of you. Even throughout all your stuttering, pauses, and awkward glances away, Ricky really did appreciate stepping out of your comfort zone to talk with him and his way of repaying you was to fill whatever awkward silences with his yapping.

Whether you know ASL or not, he will be talking about everything and anything. People usually don't give him the time of day, so you best believe Ricky has a lot to talk about with you. You don't mind though because it was either that or dealing with a silence that would surely only make your nerves worse..., so obviously you'd choose the former.

For Ricky, he's pretty much known since the day you first showed up to rehearsals that you had some anxiety, it was obvious to him in the way you'd glance around the room occasionally to see what others were doing before copying them, when you would fidget with your hands, and how you'd refuse to make eye contact with anyone. He's very aware of your anxiety and he always tries his best to be someone comforting for you, someone quiet and away from the chaos that is the choir.

Ricky once read that taking walks or just getting out into nature helps people who get overwhelmed really easily, so he pretty much incorporates that whenever he can into your schedules, which means you both usually walk together in peaceful silence during the weekend or after school.

He will not stop trying to get you into every movie franchise he loves, he wants to be able to talk about it with you, but it's really hard when he has to explain the lore 3 times over every single time he has a conversation about it with you.

Since you're stuck on the sidelines with him during choir, he will be trying to teach you some of the instruments they use. Granted, he definitely doesn't know how to play all of them, but he is a very good teacher for the ones he does know!

Almost every sweater he owns will now be in your closet because Ricky just loves seeing you wear his clothes, specifically his sweaters because he thinks you look so cozy in them.

It's also nice to know that other guys can see you wearing things of his and know that you guys are close, even if it's not in the way they think. :)

He likes to draw you for his warmup sketches for no particular reason other than he just likes to draw you. He doesn't show you most of them, but the ones he does show you, he will melt so fast at any praise you give him on them.

Ricky will be trying everything to help you manage your anxiety since he sees how hard it can be for Penny, so he wants to do his best to help you! He'll teach you new breathing exercises, help you find distractions, help you through the 333 rule, etc. Even if none of it works out, he definitely won't stop trying until he finds something that helps you.

If you ever need to like, hold his hand or something when you start to feel overwhelmed, trust that he is right there and his hand is ready to be held! He'll even let you squeeze it as tight as you need to.

Pretty much all of your hangouts will be in private since Ricky isn't too big on going out and junk, he just prefers to have you both in his room or in your room doing whatever. Another big reason though is because he wants to have you to himself.

Now, St. Cassian is a catholic school in a small town in the middle of nowhere Canada, which, as one can probably tell, isn't the most accepting place for people who the population perceives as different. And what they perceive as different, unfortunately includes one Uranium's only nonverbal disabled kid, Ricky.

Ricky's dealt with small amounts of bullying before, mostly in terms of him being neglected and left out by the other kids purposefully, but usually none of the kids at St. Cassian bothered him that much. That was until he was "graced" with the presence of his newest bully, Max Warner.

For god knows what reason, Max was hellbent on making Ricky's life a living hell, be it him tripping Ricky in the hallways, messing with his AAC device, or writing nasty stuff about him on his locker, Max seemed to not be able to get enough of Ricky's suffering. Ricky, being the pacifist he is, wasn't gonna fight him about it necessarily, but he did make sure to tell teachers and the school counselors about it so Max could hopefully get into some kind of trouble. Which he did, but even then Max would just continue on like nothing happened and it was seriously starting to really irk Ricky...

But the most he thought he was able to do was vent out his frustrations to you and continue hammering the teacher about it, he knew no one else was gonna stand up to Max about this since everyone else pretty much ignored his existence and the few who don't, like the choir, didn't know about Max's tyraid. You were the only one who did know.

Never would he have expected you to do anything about it though.

On the tragic day of another bullying attempt by Max, you and Ricky were walking down the hallway that led to the choir room, which was thankfully mostly empty due to it being after school. You both were chatting like normal, not at all expecting Max to just appear behind you both out of nowhere and to grab Ricky by the collar, causing him to lose his balance a bit. It was something Ricky had gotten quite used to, evident by the exhausted, defeated look upon his face as Max just started spouting all sorts of horrible things about him.

You weren't used to this though and watching someone treat Ricky like that, despite the inner panic you were feeling, made a large wave of anger pass through you. No one should be treated like that, especially not Ricky, someone you care so much about and would never want to see hurt.

Listening to Max just go on and on, mocking Ricky and his disability..., there came a point where you just couldn't take it anymore. You couldn't stand to stand aside like everyone else has done in the past, you couldn't stand to watch such a pathetic individual torment your friend.

You could barely process what you had done in those next 10 seconds, other than your fist hurting like hell, and you rushing Ricky out of the hallways and into the choir room. It was only after you both made it and you had the chance to breathe where you could look down at your fist and see the blood on it, the way you got it rushing back to you. You punched Max square in the face. You punched him so hard that his nose started to bleed and a sickening crunch was heard whenever your fist made contact with his face.

You could barely believe you did that... and neither could Ricky.

He would have never in a million years guessed that you were gonna punch someone for him, it was so incredibly surreal... And he loved it. The moment was still playing fresh in his mind, but he would play it 10 times over just to see you care so much about him that you protected him when he couldn't do it himself. His heart was racing so fast and even if he's sure Max will have his head for this, he can't find it in himself to care.

Because he loves you.

He loves you so much.

Remember how I said that if you ever feel overwhelmed, he'd let you hold his hand? Well, now he holds your hand every chance he gets, even if you aren't overwhelmed at all.

Ricky will be getting into everything you are into, no questions asked. Do you like a certain show? He loves that show too! Is there a certain food place you like? What do you know, that's his favorite place as well! Do you collect something? Well good news, because he collects it to and you can have his collection!

Please marry him-

Ricky has been interested in a lot of things in his 17 years on this Earth and one of those things just so happened to be, flowers. Meaning he does know about Floriography and he loves to gift you flowers with specific meanings. His favorites being, Aster (Symbol of love), Baby's breath (Everlasting Love), pink Carnations (I’ll never forget you), and a lot more. If you ever catch on though, he'd probably pretend that he had no idea or say that he meant it in a platonic sense-

You've known about Zolar for a while now, but Ricky gets so excited when you bring it up or if you remember the small details he's shared with you about it, it gets him so happy because he likes to know that you actually care and listen to him.

Ricky might not want to do too much in the case of his bullies, but when it comes to your bullies, it's a totally different story. The fact that anyone tries to bully is reason enough in his book that they don't deserve any semblance of peace or kindness, and he will do anything in his power to get them off your back, and I mean anything.

Ricky, for some reason, likes to smell like you. It's something he knows he's probably picked up from his cats, but he likes it because it's like he's telling other people he's yours and you're his.

He is always so tempted to kiss you in every single moment, but mostly when you are asleep. He thinks you look so adorable and unaware when you sleep..., he really can't resist you sometimes.

He considers every hang out you guys have as a date, even the ones where you both aren't doing anything but just laying next to each other's side. He doesn't care if you both didn't agree it was a date or something, he knows you love him so that makes this a date. Obviously.

Penny Lamb:

You know how most people tend to make friends with those similar to them? Be it that they have the same habits as you, they act the same way as you, they dress the same way, or anything else, people make friends by those they can find a connection with.

And that theory was exactly the one Ezra Lamb had thought of when he made up his mind on introducing you to his sister, Penny.

For some context, you had met Ezra on one of your late night strolls through the park. It definitely wasn't a ceremonious meeting as you quickly learned the reason he was there was because he was selling medication to some college kids, but for some reason you both felt compelled to talk to each other. He seemed to be very well versed when dealing with your anxiety as you learned the more times you both bumped into each other. Apparently it's because, as he mentions to you when you ask him about it, his sister dealt with the same thing.

Well, one thing led to another and you two became friends despite your very different personalities. Ezra, of course, eventually wanted to introduce you to his sister. To him, you were both quite similar in that you were the same age, you were both girls, and you both had crippiling anxiety. And going back to his theory from earlier, it just made sense to him that you both would be good friends.

That's what led you to where you were now, in Penny and Ezra's shared bedroom with you in Penny awkwardly shaking hands as Ezra introduces you to each other before leaving the room so you both can "get to know each other."

Yeah, you both didn't do anything of the sort, in fact, you both didn't speak a single word to each other the whole time you were there. It was a lot more awkward than you expected and without having Ezra there to mediate or anything, you both were just too anxious to make a move which really sucks, because Penny's heard a lot about you from Ezra and she really wanted this to work out...

But alas, it didn't and you went home about an hour or two later without a friend gained. You kind of just assumed that would be the end of your interactions, maybe you'd see each other once in a blue moon, considering Uranium isn't all that big and you both went to the same school together, but that was all you really anticipated to happen.

Of course, at that moment you didn't realize how pushy Ezra can be when he's made up his mind about something. See he heard from Penny that you two didn't end up talking much..., or rather at all, which didn't surprise him very much, but he had already made up his mind that your friendship was going to happen, and he doesn't change his mind that easily.

Cue Ezra basically coaching Penny through a conversation with you, plus the added benefit of you joining the choir, and that's how you got Penny nervously coming up to you after one choir practice and just lore dumping on you about lions. Normally, Penny would have never agreed to this, but as stated before, Ezra was pushy and Penny did think you both could be good friends... So she stepped out of her comfort zone to talk to you.

It was pretty confusing for you since she didn't seem all that talkative when you first met her, not to mention you had no clue Ezra was that keen on you guys getting along, but after about the third or fourth time she's done it, you got used to it and eventually got comfortable around her enough to add in a few words of your own which she was ecstatic about.

You both ended up realizing how similar you were and it was really nice to have someone you could connect with about anxiety and how much it affects your life. You kind of wish you met her sooner actually, she understands how you tick a lot more than the rest of the choir can and that's extremely helpful when your anxiety starts getting to the point where you like, can't breathe, or you feel like you're on the verge of a panic attack.

Ezra was right, it's good to have a friend who just gets you like Penny does.

Penny is really good at helping you manage your anxiety, but hers... not so much. For whatever reason, she just cannot handle it by herself and she always ends up trying to convince herself that she's fine, even when she's not... Please help her through it because she's not gonna be able to do it herself-

Penny loves to gift you random trinkets and doodads, meaning you will have a lot of random rocks and small knickknacks she finds from the forest and garage sales, respectively.

Whenever you guys text, Penny either writes some of the most formal text messages you'll ever receive or utter nonsense that requires a Sherlock Holmes to decipher, it all really depends on her mood.

Penny will be subtly trying to get you into Johnny Moon (she isn't subtle at all), and it's like, even if you aren't a fan, you have to respect the effort.

As you guys grow as friends, Penny just gets such strong feelings of wanting to protect you even if she doesn't know from what... She just knows that if anyone puts their hands on you, they are gonna be way more than sorry.

A habit you've gained from hanging out with Penny so much is that sometimes when there are awkward silences between you and someone else, you'll just info dump like her to fill the space. You didn't even notice you started doing it until you did it around Penny and she pointed it out to you-

Penny knows like, every breathing exercise in the book, and it honestly is her favorite trick in helping her calm down since it forces her to focus on her breathing rather than whatever is making her anxious. She'll definitely teach you all of them as well if you want, though with you, she kind of prefers taking you somewhere secluded to calm you down there so it's just you two instead of you two and a ton of other people.

Please let her ramble about why she thinks certain characters have anxiety or why certain characters are really bad representations of people with anxiety, she needs to get it off her chest and you're the only one who'll understand! :(

Penny waited for a minute before introducing you to her one other friend, Tammy, since she knows Tammy can be kind of a lot sometimes... When you guys do meet and you get to know each other better, trust that Tammy adores you!

So, it's embarrassing for Penny to talk about since she has a bit of a bad track record when it comes to her crushes, but for a while now, Penny has been feeling a certain way about you. She wouldn't exactly call it love yet, but she can't help but smile so brightly whenever you are near her and her hands get all sweaty when you are holding them..., it may not be love yet, but she wholeheartedly loves having you with her.

...

It wasn't love yet, but it sure is love now.

Penny's love for you really started during a sleepover you two were having. It was really late at night, about 2 AM, and Penny could tell you were about to pass out from the way your eyes could barely manage to stay open as you watched the movie currently playing on her television.

You two were already sitting side-by-side and holding hands, but that's not what made Penny's heart start skipping beats, no, it was when, not only a few minutes later, your head hit her shoulder and started to nuzzle into her neck. She knows you were only doing it because you were about to fall asleep, but that made her so incredibly flustered that she went still for a good 30 minutes, trying not to breathe too hard that you would move away.

Having you be so comfortable around her that you would get so touchy just made her fall hard from the brink she was once on..., she can't believe she's saying it, but she loves you.

The first thing Penny does when she finds out that she likes you is to increase the amount of gifts she gives you by tenfold, she finds it's one of the only ways she can show her interest in you without exploding on the spot.

If you ever want to, she would be more than happy to have you hold her face while you do her makeup. :)

Penny isn't the greatest when dealing with bullies, but she'll try a lot harder for you! She always makes sure to ask you before she does anything though since she doesn't want to cross your boundaries or anything.

She somehow convinced you to let her kiss you on the forehead or cheek every once in a while. She will always say it's platonic, but she does not mean that one bit-

Penny practically makes you stay over at her house every night and if you can't, then believe me when I say that she'll be getting into your house one way or another. (She probably somehow has keys to your house or she gets through your window in the least elegant fashion possible.)

She loves you so much that she can't even describe it in words, which she has tried as evidenced by all the letters under her bed. It's so difficult to describe how her bones feel like they are crumpling every time you look at her or how her body feels like it's gonna cave in on itself with every little touch... Seriously, you make her so sick and she cannot get enough of it. It would be impossible for her to let you go.

She isn't really the type to get jealous, but having to share you with the rest of the choir, because they all might kill each other if they don't, is extremely hard for her as she just wants to keep you all to herself.

She wonders if you like her room enough to want to stay there for a while...

Constance Blackwood:

You don't think you have ever walked so fast in your life as you did today...

Bullies aren't anything new to you, being the anxious person you are, you've dealt with your fair share of awful people before. But in the past, at least you had somewhere to run away to, a sanctuary where no one could mock you or get to you. However, you moved. Now you are in Uranium with a whole new group of bullies and no place to run off to.

Hearing their insults and mocking tones from behind you, your pace kept growing as you held onto your backpack straps tightly. You had no idea where you were going at this point, all you wanted was to be away from them. You had been at this for a while now, and you were so over it..., you didn't want to potentially lead them to your house, so where were you to go?

Finally lifting your head off the ground, eyes scanning the area around you, your eyes get caught on a small cafe down the block labeled, "Blackwood Cafe." With no other place to go and the cafe seemingly like your best option at the moment, you hurriedly dashed over and went inside. Closing the door behind you as you catch your breath, you glance over the cozy cafe you're now in, silently admiring the cute pastel colors and warm interior.

Thankfully, there were a few people already in there, you just know it would be incredibly awkward if you were the only one, and you had also luckily had some cash on you, giving you a reason to stay here while your bullies hopefully left you alone. You went up to the counter, ordered, and got seated, but even if you were safe in here and able to just breathe for a second, you actually had no idea if your bullies would leave you alone when you inevitably have to leave... What if they just waited till you walked out to jump you? What if they come inside and no one stops them from dragging you out??

God, you hated your anxiety... You can feel your heart pounding and your hands shaking even if nothing was happening, you could only hope no one would notice.

And no one did! ...Except for one girl, Constance Blackwood.

Constance had always been one to observe the cafe's patrons while they enjoyed their treats, it's a habit she picks up from her dad who is always looking to make sure their customers were having a good time. So, it should come as no surprise that she would notice and observe you too. Except instead of seeing a content face or a calm demeanor, she saw your anxiety-ridden one, one that immediately made her frown with concern.

She knows she has no right stepping into a stranger's business, but you aren't really a stranger to her. She can see your slightly disheveled St. Cassian uniform and she recognizes you from the choir so... doesn't that give her a bit of a reason to ask what's wrong? Constance quickly grabs a muffin and tells her parents she's gonna go on a quick break before walking over to your booth in the corner, much to your confusion. "Uhm, hey! I don't know if you remember, but I'm Constance Blackwood, we met in choir the other day. I just wanted to come over and ask if you were okay since you seem a little..., uh, down?"

Little did Constance know though that those few simple words would change things forever.

You tried your best to fend her off at the start, shakily explaining that you're fine and there was nothing to worry about, but her warm and caring words made it hard to keep pretending everything was fine... So, even if you still weren't sure about it, you decided to tell her what was wrong. You both ended up talking for hours, even past closing, as Constance comforted you and you ended up moving on to other topics to lighten up. Even if it was a surprising encounter to say the least, you're really glad Constance came over and asked if you were okay, it was nice to know someone cared...

Once it started getting late, she took you home just in case your bullies were still there, which they thankfully weren't, and you both parted ways for the night.

For the night.

Of course the bullying didn't magically stop after that, so you found yourself at the Blackwood Cafe more and more often. Eventually it even became an everyday thing. You truly did feel bad about this at the start since you didn't want to be a bother, but Constance always reassured you that you weren't and she enjoyed your company. She means that too, you are a lot easier to talk with compared to Ocean or Penny, and she finds herself always having a smile when she thinks of your conversations later that night.

Really, it wasn't surprising at all that you two would become friends with how often you spent time together, and Constance couldn't be happier about it. Even if the people in Uranium were awful, she was happy she could be friends with someone who wasn't. :)

Constance may not know every trick when dealing with anxiety, but she's a very good listener and will let you ramble as much as you need while being so incredibly supportive.

It doesn't matter how long you've been friends for, Constance quite literally trusts you with her life.

Sometimes when she is feeling a little silly, she'll invite you to her house in the middle of the night to do some late night baking. It's basically her therapy and why not share it with her new favorite person?

Her little brother is obsessed with you and Constance has zero clue why- Like, anytime you're over, he'll try to monopolize all your time and he is always asking about you. Constance doesn't know if she should be jealous of you or of him.

Constance tends to people watch, but she doesn't just watch anyone, she likes to watch you in particular... a lot.

Like, anytime you are around, a lot.

She also talks about you a ton, leading her parents or her friends to have to shut her up so she'll talk about something different- She's glad they do to, because's she sure she can talk about you for hours and she's not sure how deep and dark her thoughts on you can go...

She loves having you try on her glasses, she thinks it's so cute.

If Constance is ever the one feeling anxious, you'll likely be the first person she goes to in order to calm down. This is mainly because she knows you know how to deal with it but also because she finds your presence calming.

You're also welcome to do the same with her! It could quite literally be the dead of night, but if you need her, she'll be there for you.

They might be a little outdated, but Constance likes to make mixtapes for you with a bunch of songs that either remind her of you or songs she thinks you'll like. She might put a few ABBA songs in there too for good measure. :)

Falling in love (She noticed Ocean stealing you away from her and she got super jealous, where she soon realized her feelings.)

Constance gets that you are a busy person and that you can't be near her all the time, she really does, she understands that you have other friends to tend to that aren't just her.

So why is it that she feels so gross watching people like Ocean and Ricky steal you away from her? Why is it that she feels such an overwhelming urge to scream as Noel fixes your hair, or when Penny holds your hand, or when Mischa is constantly stealing your attention from her?? What is it that makes her so... so..., jealous?

She has no idea, she really doesn't. These are both of your friends she's talking about, she has no reason to be jealous of them! They all just want the best for you and you deserve to be loved and cared for. Yet, it's like she's walking on Legos every time you aren't paying attention to her.

These were the thoughts that plagued Constance's mind for days on end, even months. She wasn't sure why she was feeling this way, but god did she hate it. It was easy to see something was bothering her as well with how she would go straight into her room after school and pace around anxiously, her mind filled with thoughts no one can see. And truthfully, her parents were starting to get worried... This wasn't like their wonderful girl at all and they hated seeing her so conflicted.

So, being the one pair of decent parents in Uranium, they stop her on her way to her room one day and ask what's wrong. Constance was extremely reluctant to talk about it at first because, what do two adults who've been around much longer than she has know about jealousy? But they were pushy and she relented, telling them everything about the jealous and how she likes having your attention on her, getting it all out.

The laughing they did after that made Constance beyond frustrated-

Through tears in their eyes and the laughs, they had to explain what she was experiencing was likely a crush. That made everything click for Constance, who couldn't help stare at her floor in embarrassment and realization...

She loves you...

"Oh..."

Constance gets lowkey kind of nervous when she's around you now since she doesn't want her crush to be too obvious..., eventually the anxiety will melt and she can be herself around you, but for the first few minutes every time she sees you, she just feels so awkward.

She will be making sure you are well hydrated and fed, and you are gonna like it! She loves you too much to watch you waste away!!

Please let her have movie nights with you, she wants to watch all of your favorite movies and have you ramble about them to her. :'(

She loves squishing your cheeks.

She may or may not be stalking your social media so she can know what you are up to all the time....

Constance doesn't know if she should be grateful or not that her parents pointed out that she likes you because now her jealousy has basically tripled and it's only getting worse by the second. She wholeheartedly wants to just punt people whenever they interrupt her time with you.

You have bullies? Well not anymore, she is not letting anyone be disrespectful to you in or out of her presence. She always somehow finds out if someone is spouting nasty things about you and she will be doing something about it.

A/N: I'm struggling guys, I have no clue why it takes me so long to finish requests, but I swear I'm working on them! :'(

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sincerely-astra · 4 months ago

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Hii, I was wondering if you could write a Mischa Bachinski x gn!reader fic where they're on a choir field trip and they're jokingly flirting with each other and one thing leads to another and they're making out, then one of the other choir members (preferably Noel or Ocean) walks in on them to tell them that they have to go somewhere?

Sorry that that was such a long request with little to no details

☁️Mischa x Reader: Caught Making Out☁️

Hello! No need to apologize, I just hope this fic is to your liking. ^^;

You and Mischa Bachinski definitely had a... special kind of relationship.

In the most technical sense of the word, you two weren't dating. There was never a moment where you two looked into each other's eyes and whispered those sacred words, "I love you."

But you both were a little too close to be just friends..., that much was evident with the several longing gazes, playful words, and bright smiles, which all only seemed to grow as the days passed on. Mischa was fun, exciting, and so incredibly passionate in everything he does. Although you two never crossed that boundary between friends and lovers, it would be quite easy to mistake you two as such with how lovingly he speaks of you. Every word is filled with so much adoration and love that it almost becomes too much to bear, saccharine in the best of ways.

So of course, with this strange, yet oddly comfortable relationship you both found yourselves in, it isn't at all uncommon to see you two mercilessly flirting with one another. Nor, was it uncommon for you two to make a sort of competition out of it.

You and Mischa are sat in the deteriorating leather seats of Constance's parent's minivan, the off-grey coloring a testament to how old the vehicle likely was. The van's metal doors shielded you both from the chilly fall air that flowed outside, its harsh bite even colder due to how early it was, 7:30 AM to be exact.

There was only one reason you two would be out here this early and that was that it was time for yet another choir performance, something Mischa was clearly not that enthused about. Really, who would want to get up this early in the cold to go sing to some old people at the nursery home?

...Okay, maybe Ocean, but she doesn't count.

It was only you two in the van as the rest talked outside about god knows what, it could be about Noel forgetting his sheet music even though we all know he just lost it because he didn't want to perform or it could be Ocean giving some monologue on staying positive and doing your very best, whatever it was, they were taking forever to get into the freaking van.

An exhausted sigh escapes your lips at the scenario you were stuck in, your eyes drifting away from the skies beyond the window to your favorite Ukrainian, Mischa Bachinski. Suddenly, as you watch him scrolling mindlessly on his phone, a thought pops up in your brain, one that has the potential to hopefully cure the seemingly neverending boredom you are feeling at the moment.

You lean in a little closer to him, a smirk tugging on your lips. "Oh, Mischa~" The words came out in a singsongy tone causing the boy's eyebrow to raise as he directed his attention from his phone to you, his hand subconsciously flipping the phone over so the screen faces in thigh. "Yes?" Mischa was undoubtedly a little confused about why you have that cute stupid grin on your face, but there wasn't much he could do other than just play along for now.

Fully aware of his confusion, you lean in a little more to say, "Have I ever told you that you have pretty eyes?" There was no ounce of shame or embarrassment in your voice as you spoke, the sudden compliment making Mischa's eyes widen slightly in surprise before his neutral expression slowly twisted into an amused one. He knows what you are doing here and although he definitely doesn't mind it, he isn't gonna let you go so easily.

This means war.

Mischa makes no effort to lean away despite how close you are, yet he doesn't lean in either. It's almost like he's daring you to come closer. "Really? Have I told you that I adore the way your hair shines in the sun?" To which you reply with, "I don't believe so..., but there's no way I haven't at least told you once that you're way too attractive for your own good." The tension that was growing between you two was palpable, only growing more with each flirty remark you would throw each other's way.

Deciding to poke the bear, so to speak, your body shifts ever so slightly closer to Mischa, your hand inching towards his in a teasing manner. This new change in position leaves Mischa to narrow his eyes slightly, "...Are you asking me to hold your hand or something?" You tilt your head coyly in response, making Mischa roll his eyes with mirth. "Do you want to hold my hand?" "You know I don't mind holding it and you if that's what you're asking for, кохана (my love)." Your hand inches closer and closer to his, your eyes not tearing away from his for a second... Well, that last part wasn't true, your eyes definitely were focused on one other thing, which was the soft pair of pink lips that lay on his face.

It would be so easy to just lean in a little closer and kiss him, dessolving all the tension that just sprang up from your little war into a heartfelt, passionate kiss.

All you'd have to do is lean in.

...

Mischa, as if thinking the same thing you were, starts leaning in as you do, his hand finally engufling yours as your fingers entagle one another. His eyes stare so longingly into yours as the fire you started is so desprately asking to be tended to, to keep banking it until you can't anymore.

Yet just as your lips were almost touching his, the sounds of the choir slowly opening the van doors caused you both to jump back to your respective seats. It seems everyone was ready to head out to Uranium's one nursing home as Constance takes the wheel, Ocean in the passenger seat, Ricky and Noel sitting side by side in the second row, and leaving you and Mischa in the back.

And as much you wanted to keep going, despite what you know was common manners, you also really didn't want to get scolded by Ocean today and were sure Mischa didn't either.

So you two settle for glancing in each others directions once in a while, the grin you both had never leaving your faces.

Honestly, with how close everything in Uranium is to each other, you really wonder if you needed to drive to the nursing home at all or if walking could've got you there just fine...

It really didn't take long for the van to stop at an ancient-looking nursing home, which was surprisingly still allowed to operate despite its rundown appearance.

Ocean quickly ushered everyone out of their seats and into the nursing home, muttering something about being late even though Constance assured her you had made it on time. Everyone did make it in though, going over to the small area they had cleared out for your performance, and you all were just mingling as you awaited the elders.

You and Mischa were off to the side, like usual, though this time, Mischa seemed to have something up his sleeve...

Apparently, not having had enough of your flirting earlier, Mischa suddenly comments out of the blue, "You look like a dweeb." His words, although sounding like an insult, were said in a playful tone so it was hard to mistake it as such. You roll your eyes and shoot back, "And you look like a dork." Gaining a snort from Mischa who lightly bumped his shoulder into you. "It's all for you babe," The word babe made your face scrunch up, the fake way he said getting a kick out of you as well, your hand moving to your mouth to hide your giggling.

However, as soon as your hand started going up to cover your smile, Mischa's expression dropped slightly. The Ukrainian gently took your hand away from your face, a small frown on his lips but a smirk still tugging upward on it. He mumbles to you, "Don't do that..." Confused and slightly concerned at this turn in behavior, you ask, "Uhm, why?" Your voice dropped its playful act as it grew slightly serious.

However, that turns out to be unwarrented as Mischa, being as sly as ever, replies with, "The world needs to be graced with a smile as beautiful as yours." The corniness of it all made you groan, acting frustrated, though the way your face lights up gives you away. You shake your head at him, pulling away from his grasp. "...That was so cheesy, never say that again you dork." You were kind of serious about that too, you weren't sure how many more cheesy pick-up lines you could take before you would have to kiss his stupid face. Mischa, not believing your words for one second, is quick to once again grab your hand. "Come on! This is flirting in Canada, no? Cheesy and corny?" He's seen a few romance movies set here and in the States and this is just the kind of flirting that they do, which usually isn't his cup of tea at all but he can't say no to getting a chance at teasing you. You're adorable when you're annoyed at him. Reciprocating his touches, you squeeze his hands tighter and sigh, "No, that's just you being you, loverboy." As always when you speak to him, a grin makes its way to Mishca's features. "Whatever you say Мила (Sweetheart)."

As you two stared at each other for a moment, eyes locking in a look of fondness, both of your attention was soon taken over by the sound of footsteps, which while looking over to where the sound was, happened to be the group of elders you were performing for. With a small breath, you let go of Mischa's hand to get into your place, as did Mischa.

Hopefully, this performance goes well... If you had to be here, might as well have a good time doing it, right?

As the empty seats in front of you were quickly filled to the brim with all different types of people, Constance stepped up and started speaking, "Hello everyone! ...Uhm, we are the St. Cassian High School chamber choir and we are here to perform a song written by-"

In an act of mercy placed onto you by some god above, the performance finally ended after a good 30-45 minutes! You were immensely glad it was over..., you weren't even sure if any of those people had blinked the whole performance through but you were sure that they could not care less that you guys were there. You guessed that old people so close to death probably had a lot more things to worry about than a group of teenagers singing with zero enthusiasm for them at 8 AM, but you digress.

Packing was pretty easy and you soon made your way to the nursing home lobby where now Ocean was chatting with the receptionist despite Noel's obviously annoyed expression and attempts to drag her out of there. You were practically dragging your feet from the area of the performance to the lobby, your bag feeling heavy in your hands. You had only stopped from hearing a soft chuckle beside you, which when you looked up to see who it was, it turned out to be from Mischa.

Rolling your eyes at him from finding your exhaustion amusing, you groan out, "I am so glad that's over..., I don't think I could've stood another moment of those dead-eyed stares in the crowd." You're sure you'll have trouble sleeping tonight just remembering how dead those people looked... Mischa seemed to agree as well, his face lighting up slightly as he nodded, "That's what I'm saying!"

Straightening your back, your hand reaches up to rub the back of your neck. "I mean, I guess it could've ended up worse, but I still would've preferred to spend my Saturday morning doing anything else." This throwaway comment, despite not it being your intention to, interested Mischa in a way you knew was trouble... He tilts his head, crossing his arms as he asks, "Yeah, like what?" You've been playing this game all day though, meaning you knew exactly what he was trying to pull here and you knew you had to beat him to it before he goes off yapping something embarrassing again.

"Oh you know..., sleeping in, reading a good book, scrolling on my phone, texting this one handsome guy I happen to know very well..." Elongating the last few words to show your intent, Mischa played off of your words with, "Well of course, he would be emotionally devastated if you didn't." He places his left hand on his chest where his heart is, an amused look on his face all the while. Shrugging off his fake hurt, you placed a hand on his shoulder and smiled. "I'm sure he would be."

A silence was then put between you both for a moment as Mischa thought of something to say, his heart for some reason beating a little more quickly like it has been every time he's been around you today. He swears he might get a heart attack from you being all touchy like this... Taking a deep breath to slow his rapid heartbeats, he speaks earnestly, a big contrast to the playful atmosphere you two had created by flirting all day.

"...I think he would be glad that today happened though." Your head tilts in small surprise at the shift in his tone, though you swiftly reply with, "Oh really? Why's that?" A genuine curiosity lies in your tone as you wonder the reason for this mood shift, one that you can only hope to mean good things.

Mischa just shrugs, a genuine, heartfelt smile replacing his usual smirk as he drops the "he" mentions. "Because I got to spend time today with my favorite person on the planet." Like his words, his hand gently moves up from his side to your hair as he runs his fingers through it, pushing some behind your ear endearingly. It was safe to say you were definitely a little shocked at the sudden sweetness coming from him, though that only made butterflies soar through you as you made a small hum of acknowledgment, your body leaning over to be closer to his. "Hm..., well, I suppose then that I also wouldn't mind doing this over and over if it meant I got to spend more time with you." You try to match his fond words with your own, hoping that it makes him feel the tremendous adoration you carry for him. He deserves it after all.

And maybe he did feel it as he nods his head slowly, his fingers never once stop twirling your locks into coils. Trying to bring some light back into the conversation, Mischa chuckles, "Good because have you looked at the choir calendar lately?" That question brings you out of your sappy mood and into one of growing dread. You mutter back, "...No, but now I'm kind of afraid to."

The male shakes his head, "It was scarring."

After Ocean somehow took a good 20 minutes talking with the receptionist and two other elderly patients who walked by, Noel finally got her to come with everyone else to the van. This was quite unfortunate timing as you and Mischa both needed to use the restroom at this point...

You could hear the frustration in Noel's voice as he said, "Be quick, I don't want to wait out here more than I already had to."

At first, it really wasn't anything special, you both ran off to the nursing home bathrooms and did what you needed to. It really was just gonna be a short trip!

...

But then when you came out, saw Mischa, and noticed you both had a moment alone...

Well, all the flirting and lingering touches that happened today just kind of made you both come to your breaking point.

Like, you couldn't keep your hands off of each other as you slipped into the girl's restroom while you both practically ate each other's faces off kind of breaking point.

Mischa had hurriedly closed the door behind you both before his hands made their way to your waist, slowly inching their way under your uniform shirt. A small gasp escapes your lips from his bold actions, your body moving with his as you moved back until you hit the ledge of the sinks.

Your hands desperately shoot up to run through his hair, tugging as gently as you can while directing him through the kiss. This was probably the most passionate kiss you've ever had with the boy..., the rest of your small pecks couldn't even compare to what you were feeling at this moment as his rough lips collided with yours.

Both of your breaths had turned ragged at this point as his teeth started to lightly nibble on your bottom lip, begging for access as you made soft groans that were music to his ears. Even if you could playfully deny him a little longer, you were far too pent up to even do that... You were sure he was too with how his tongue immediately darts out of his mouth and into yours as soon as you let him.

This was so different from what you're used to, yet you didn't mind...

In fact, you were living for the fire that was building inside of you every minute his hands slowly inched up your body, his calloused fingers making you shiver as they got higher and higher up. The way the butterflies in your chest grew tenfold, the neediness he exhibited, and the love you felt for him were all things you didn't think you would ever grow tired of.

God, you loved him so much...

Mischa, of course, loved you just as much if not so much more. From your eyes, your hair, the way you talk, the things you like, everything you were was just so magical to him. You were everything he could ever dream of and the fact that he gets to touch and kiss you like this, to have his lips trail down from your lips to your neck and hear the wonderful noises that come out as a result makes him feel like the luckiest man in the whole world.

And he was sure he was.

Not just anyone gets to hold you like this, so closely that you can hear how fast his heart was beating for you. He is so grateful you let him be with you like this... You were his and he was yours.

As the fire inside of you both continued to grow with every kiss and touch you two shared, what you both had failed to notice in the midst of your passionate makeout session was a certain red-head walking in only to have her jaw dropped to the floor because of the scene playing out in front of her...

When it feels like it just started, your makeout was just as quickly ended by none other than Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg who started to berate you two in sheer disbelief. "What do you two think you're doing!? Doing such inappropriate acts in a nursing home for crying out loud!! You should be ashamed of yourselves!" She speedwalks over to you two and rips you off one another with a strength you didn't know she possessed and didn't get a chance to question as she immediately starts to go into a tirade on how despicable your actions were.

She also apparently wasn't the only one searching for you two as Noel soon came in, presumably after hearing Ocean start shouting about inappropriate behavior and something else about celibacy.

With a hand covering his eyes, this was the women's restroom after all and he wasn't a perv, Noel slowly walks in and asks, "What on god's green Earth are you shrieking about Ocean?" To which Ocean forces herself to stop her speech for a moment, whip her head around to face Noel, and say, "These two were making out!" before going back to her speech. That statement had caught Noel completely off guard as he dropped his hand to face you with a look of sheer disgust and his words were not much different as he mumbled, "In the nursing home bathrooms..., really???"

Truly, you had to be so lucky Noel liked the two of you because if he didn't, he definitely would've let you continue to be berated by Ocean for doing something so strange. But alas, he also wanted to get home before his shift started.

Walking up to you three, Noel puts his hand on Ocean's shoulder and starts to push her away from you and Mischa and outside of the bathroom. The redhead almost started to complain before eventually just giving an annoyed huff as she rips herself away from Noel, walking out herself. "...I can walk you know." You can hear her voice ring out as Noel motions you both to walk out with him, "Let's just get out of here..., it's actually freezing."

Standing still for a moment, you and Mischa just share a look before walking out alongside Noel, thankful you both at least live another day without having to feel the full extent of Ocean's wrath...

A/N: Sorry if this is bad- I realized immediately as I started writing this that I do not know how to flirt so my words are probably really corny... My bad. ^^;

P.S. Sorry if any of the Ukrainian is incorrect, whenever I need to use a Ukrainian phrase I just peruse around Google for a bit before I find one I think fits, but if it's wrong please feel free to tell me so I can fix it!

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sincerely-astra · 4 months ago

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Teruteru X apothiosexual reader? Pleasee [☁️]

☁️Teruteru Hanamura x Apothiosexual Reader☁️

Being the new student of a highly prestigious academy known for schooling ultimate students sounds wonderful on paper, right? You get to meet so many new people who are all the very best at what they do and just by being associated, you get some recognition on top of that! Super amazing, no complaints, 10/10!!

Yeah, well, that's just a flat-out lie. Of course, being in such a prestigious school was great and all, but it was extremely expensive to get in as just a regular student and being compared to the ultimate all the time wasn't great...

But what can you do? You do have friends in the Reserve Course and you get decent grades, so at least it isn't all bad.

In fact, one of your friends happened to be a guy named Hajime Hinata who knew this one girl in the Main Course, who knew this guy, who knew this guy, who knew this guy, etc. The point was, that all of this eventually led to you meeting a short, brown-haired guy named TeruTeru Hanamura, the Ultimate Chef.

Your official meeting was during a school event, the one time when most Main Course and Reserve Course students actually got along. You were sitting on a bench, waiting for some friends to finish grabbing whatever they wanted to eat, when Hajime happened to come up to you. He apologized for disturbing you but then introduced you to TeruTeru, explaining that he had asked to meet you.

The moment he began speaking though..., let's just say, even people who are normally very sex-positive would be in disgust at his lack of manners.

Sure, he was friendly enough and you can tell from the brief conversation you were able to have with him, before excusing yourself due to all his sexual comments, he is extremely passionate about what he does.

...But god, is it hard to get past his weird exterior when the first thing he says to you is, "The name is TeruTeru Hanamura. Normally I'd shake your hand but..., mind if I touch somewhere else instead?" You can guess where that went when you and Hajime just awkwardly laughed it off, an intense feeling of discomfort rising in you as you already knew exactly what kind of guy you were dealing with.

But that was only your first meeting and even though you tried your best to remain distant with him, hoping he'd get the message to just leave you alone, he unfortunately didn't...

In fact, any time he got the chance to, TeruTeru would visit you and the cycle of discomfort would just repeat itself.

He'd say hi, things would be fine for a minute as he asked you the usual polite question of how your day was going and if classes were being rough to you as well, and then he'd say some innuendo, making you uncomfortable, and you'd end the conversation as quickly as possible.

It seemed like the more he was getting comfortable, the more open he would be with his lewd words and advances. You weren't even sure if he meant any of them, but that didn't stop you from ending the visit quicker and quicker each time he came over from the Main Course.

At some point, you even started to just avoid him... You really didn't want to deal with the weird sexual comments he was giving you and despite how decent he can be at times, like when he gifted you some delicious sugar cookies one time, it still wasn't worth the discomfort for you.

Of course though, as you distanced yourself more and more, eventually avoiding TeruTeru altogether, he did eventually notice your lack of presence as well.

Now, TeruTeru is aware he can be bad at picking up social cues most of the time (literally all of the time-) so he can really only assume he did something wrong to warrant this kind of reaction from you, he just doesn't know what that is...

He's been friendly, hasn't he? He gives you baked goods all of the time, you have some good conversations, and he really enjoys your company! In a lot of ways, you're different from the Main Course students, you actually understand and don't disregard his talent, unlike the others. Sure, the other kids might say his cooking tastes good, which he already knows, but you go in-depth with it and he really likes that, you appreciate the art of cooking!

Even though you both haven't known each other for a long time, that is the reason he keeps actively seeking you out. He's got to know what he did wrong..., so he goes to the one mutual friend you both have, Hajime.

Hajime can only really give the biggest sigh whenever he hears of TeruTeru's problem, mainly as he feels it's extremely obvious what the issue is but also because he can tell TeruTeru does take a special interest in you compared to everyone else he mercilessly flirts with. Hajime also being your friend, knows of your sexuality and the repulsion to nsfw content that gives you, but he knows better than to just out you like that, so he basically just gives TeruTeru the cliff notes without outing you.

"Is it not obvious? They're avoiding you because of how inappropriate you are, Teru. That's why most people avoid you, but they in particular are not a fan of it." A simple and concise explanation that even dense people like TeruTeru or his underclassmen(?) Hifumi Yamada.

When Hajime says he's never seen someone look like they had such a moment of clarity, he means it.

TeruTeru has never once really questioned the things he says or does, especially his more questionable decisions. He just never thought about it...

If it wasn't obvious, TeruTeru, despite his rural background, tries so hard to build his persona under the guise of being from the city. Every chef he's seen on TV or in magazines may have started somewhere humble, but their big break was in the city, unlike him. I mean, wouldn't it be silly to stay in a small, rural town no one's ever heard of when you have far greater and more prosperous opportunities in the city? In fact, if he's telling the whole truth, he would much rather just have been born there... People would actually take him seriously as a chef. There would be no accent to make fun of or mannerisms to mock. He would be where he always dreamed of being. Not in some backwater town.

So, in an effort to make people take him and his passion seriously, he disguised the worst part of himself and said he was from Minato and Aoyama. He covered his accent and tried to copy the mannerisms of people from the city, mainly by movies, TV, magazine interviews, etc. Of course, this was what made him pick up his lewd behavior in the first place as most of the content he viewed to gain new mannerisms wasn't shy when it came to being explicit and while the people in his town sugarcoated a lot of the explicit things they said, they also didn't care to correct his behavior either.

As much as he wants to excuse all his behavior though, TeruTeru knew deep down that he still did it even when he should have known better... He knew he needed to at the very least apologize because even if his behavior was once atrocious, he at the very least had decency.

It took a good few weeks before TeruTeru started to approach you again, which you were thankful for as you could only hope your life would start to go back to normal.

You were of course wrong when he came up to you after school, a frown on his face as no mention of anything NSFW came out of him, but at least this time he took you off guard in a good way.

He takes a breath, his shorter stature looking up at you in the most apologetic way he could muster, and he soon speaks, "I know I'm probably the last person you want to talk with right now, which is okay, but, I needed to let you know I'm sorry..." His voice was quiet and you could hear slight traces of his country accent slipping out before he quickly reeled it back in.

Now really, if this were anyone else, you would've likely just said you'll think about it and moved on, but strangely enough, it was really hard to say that so disingenuously when he was being the complete opposite of that. You knew it was probably better to just reject him but...

"Okay..., just don't do it again." A sigh escapes your lips as you know the future you was probably kicking yourself looking back at all of this. "Let's try this again."

TeruTeru almost jumped for joy at your acceptance, every word you said pulling a weight off his shoulders that he didn't even notice was there. This time was going to be different, he was going to be better! And that isn't something he takes lightly.

After agreeing to start your relationship over, TeruTeru was unexpectedly and yet also expectedly pleasant to be around. As mentioned before, there were times when his passion for cooking would take over the topic of conversation and you got to see who he was past all the inappropriate remarks, but it always turned sour as he eventually caught himself and started shooting more lewd comments at you.

Thankfully, you get to see the good side of him this time. He was honestly a lot harder working and caring than you initially gave him credit for, and even if he didn't talk about her often, it was sweet to hear that he cares so much about his mom from the few times he's spoken about her.

TeruTeru was undoubtedly starting to find himself getting more and more interested in you as well. When you both first met, he was only really interested in you because of your looks and what he then perceived to be your "hard to get" personality, but now he can't deny he feels intrigued by you. From your personality to the things you like, to your background, he finds himself grinning as he replays your conversations in his head over and over.

It's weird for him to admit, but he likes actually getting to know you past the shallow level that he knows everyone else on. It was also nice to know you were willing to get to know him past that too.

Everyone in the Main Course is honestly super confused about why TeruTeru of all people uses whatever spare time he can to go to where the Reserve Course students are, only to come back, grinning like a moron. Anytime they question him on it, mainly Mahiru as, knowing TeruTeru like she knows him, she can really only assume he's going over there to prey on people, TeruTeru will just give some vague answer. He does this because he rather not have everyone question him about you the moment he brings you up...

A surprising thing you've learned about TeruTeru is that he is surprisingly very into pop culture, you can literally name any celebrity and he will be able to give you a whole biography about them, no questions asked.

Does TeruTeru sometimes slip up around you? Of course, he's human and when you've been doing something for so long and it's so integrated into your mannerisms, you're bound to slip up every now and then. He really tries not to make any inappropriate comments about you or anyone else, but when he does slip up, he apologizes profusely.

You have no need to worry about packing a lunch anymore because TeruTeru will be providing that for you! He isn't the ultimate chef for no reason either, you are gonna be eating good.

TeruTeru feels like he should've suspected this change in him to happen eventually. You're pretty, smart, and so patient..., it's really no wonder that he would soon start to fall in love with you.

In fact, maybe he's been in love with you for a long time and he's just never had the guts to notice.

And that thought terrifies him.

He has never been one to easily fall in love, he's obviously found people of all types attractive, but he's never gotten so close to someone where he can seriously imagine a future with them...

Not to mention how you both got off on the wrong foot, and he really doesn't want to destroy the trust he's built with you all over these feelings. Because, sure he loves you, but his feelings will never matter more to him than seeing you happy.

He doesn't care how long he has to hide it, as long as you are safe and happy, all the effort will be worth it.

Even if his heart is breaking every second he doesn't confess.

Pretty much every time you are around, TeruTeru feels like he's walking on eggshells as he tries to not let you notice how infatuated he is with you. It really isn't hard to notice this either with the way he stumbles over his words and the way the air has an awkward tension in it when he visits. You were starting to wonder if you had done something wrong..., he was acting like this for a reason right? You just didn't know what that could be.

The more TeruTeru tries to hide his feelings, the more this awkward tango drags on with him steering the conversation to anything but himself, his body uncomfortably shuffling as he seems weirdly distracted.

Hell, when the feelings just wouldn't stop making his life miserable, TeruTeru even tried to distance himself from you. It definitely didn't work, but he was really out of options... He wasn't going to tell you and even if he did, why would you ever want to date someone like him anyway? He knows for a fact he is not the most conventionally attractive and there are way smarter, funnier, and more caring people out there who would love to have you as theirs.

He wasn't meant for you.

...

To see one of your best friends acting so strangely around you and even purposefully distancing themself from you was not exactly fun... You'd just wish he would tell you what was wrong instead of bottling it up so things could go back to normal! He usually is a pretty confident person, so for him to be doing all of this meant it had to be something important and honestly, you were getting a little anxious yourself the more you waited for him to come out with it.

Okay, maybe not even a little anxious, the more time passed and the less and less you saw him, the more anxious you got. You really were starting to get to the point where you couldn't take the waiting any longer..., so you knew you would have to ask him directly.

It was during lunchtime on one of the few days he would let himself visit you, though his behavior still remained stiff and awkward as he tried to not focus on how your smile made butterflies soar through his chest... You two talked for a bit, you doing most of the conversation, before eventually the conversation goes stale like it usually does nowadays. You can't stop a nervous sigh from leaving you as you make eye contact with him, quietly gathering all of your courage to finally ask the question you had a feeling he knew you were gonna ask.

"So..., what's been up with you recently? Did I do something because I feel you have just been avoiding me?" To which, TeruTeru also gives his own sigh back. "...Do you really want me to tell you?" He asks, eyes clinging to the ground below as tries to will himself to be anywhere except where he is right now. As gently as you could, you grab his hand, "Of course I do, you shouldn't have to hide anything from your friends and especially not from me."

A silence fills the air after you speak, the suspense building inside of you both, though for completely different reasons. Whenever he speaks again, his voice is quiet, like he wishes if he says it quiet enough you won't hear him. "I just..., I love you."

You did hear him though.

And he definitely heard you when you replied with, "Oh..., well, I love you too."

He also made you repeat that like five times after though, just because at the moment he was so filled with disbelief that he really thought his mind was playing tricks on him. Like, that at any moment he would wake up and all of this would be another dream.

He's really glad it isn't though, the warmth of your embrace is something no dream can replicate.

Now that TeruTeru is completely comfortable around you, whenever you two are alone, he'll allow himself to speak in his natural accent. He is also a lot more open about his past and his family life.

He is unbelievably happy when you mention that you would love to go visit his mom soon.

His nickname for you would vary since he likes to have some variety with it, but his favorite is probably something food-related, like, moonpie, muffin, peach, etc.

He never did care, nor will he ever care that you don't have some ultimate talent. He knows some people can be jerks about it, but he really can't find it in him to care about something as pathetic as that when you are already so incredible. To him, you are the best at whatever you decide to do, no contest.

TeruTeru, despite how confident he seems, does have moments where he can be insecure. He's no stranger to being looked down upon because of his upbringing or his looks, he's very aware he's not gonna appear on some fashion magazine anytime soon. That doesn't mean it doesn't hurt though..., having people making snide remarks about his height and weight...

Please just give him a hug or kiss whenever he's having rough days. :(

Whenever you feel comfortable coming out to him, per or post-relationship, TeruTeru is immediately pretty laid back about it. He's never been one for labels personally, but he also definitely isn't straight. You won't have to worry, he is 100% supportive of you! And if anyone tries to invalidate you or is generally just giving you hell for something you can't control, rest assured he will not let them down easily.

You're his partner, meaning he is never gonna let anyone mess with you like that, he loves you way too much for that.

A/N: I wish TeruTeru was used more than to be the joke character, I feel like he has a lot of potential to be really compelling.

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sincerely-astra · 4 months ago

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Can I request something about isshika midarai from danganronpa 0?.. (It's my first time to request something but I think just female reader x isshiki if you can! Can be smut or normal one I don't care 🔥)

Hello, super sorry for this, but I won't be able to fulfill this request as I have not seen Danganronpa 0 and I do not wish to give you a poorly made post about a character I know nothing about.

Thanks for your request nonetheless! :)

#danganronpa 0 #danganronpa #isshika midarai #For reference for anyone who wishes to request any other Danganronpa related content in the future #The only content I have seen/played is the main 3 games and bits of the anime #super sorry!

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sincerely-astra · 5 months ago

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Hey I was wondering if I could request and Ricky Potts x fem!reader where the reader is his crush/bff (also in the choir maybe) and she’s a cat for for Halloween, can have nsfw elements but nothing too crazy. Thanks

☁️Ricky Potts x Reader: Reader is a cat for Halloween☁️

Ricky Potts has known you for a long time, like, ever since childhood.

Not only have you two known each other for a while, but you've also been friends for just as long. Ricky still has no idea how even managed to obtain a friend like you, but he definitely isn't complaining! You're the one person in his life who listens to all of his well-thought-out fantasies, the one person who even bothers to ask for his opinion on things, the one person who sees him past his disability. All of that is something even his parents can't do at times, so he deeply cherishes your friendship.

You were his best friend and he would have it no other way.

...

Well, that's not the complete truth, there is one other way that he would have it.

You see, lately, Ricky has been pondering a strange, yet intriguing thought. That being you two in a relationship.

At first, it was just an innocent wondering, you two do get mistaken for a couple a lot when you go out, so naturally he's curious about what a relationship with you would entail. It started off with him wondering how your hand would feel in his if it would be soft or more calloused, then he would wonder about the cheesy, yet romantic nicknames he'd give to you, and then he wondered how your lips would feel on his-

Before long, something was painfully obvious to Ricky as these enticing thoughts became all the more common.

He has a crush on his best friend.

He has a crush on you.

Now, Ricky has had crushes before, and all of those ended up disappearing quick enough when he thought of the logistics of it all. Most people don't even acknowledge his existence so it's kind of easy for his crush to just dissipate after that thought. So, he thought it would be the same for you. He just needed to push his feelings down, think about how he would never have a chance with you, and think would go smoothly. Hopefully.

With a plan set into action, Ricky only had one more thing to worry about and that was that Halloween was just around the corner!

Halloween has never been Ricky's favorite holiday out of the bunch since he really can't walk for long periods of time and even if he does like the candy, most of the people giving out the candy are older people with incredibly bad taste. Don't get him wrong though, he 100% sees the appeal and aside from trick-or-treating he does enjoy it, but it was definitely a big bummer for him as a kid.

All of this is to say that he usually doesn't have any plans for Halloween, the only thing he really does is watch scary movies at his house with you and that's kind of off the table since anytime he's near you he gets butterflies...

But this Halloween was different as courtesy of Ocean and Constance, they had planned a small get-together for the choir to celebrate Halloween together. Everyone in the choir, along with a plus one if they so choose, was invited, which included Ricky and his plus one of you.

Honestly, Ricky was pretty excited to go. Even if him and the choir actually trying to make things work as friends is a recent development, it was still nice to be thought of and actually invited to something for a change.

(Not gonna lie, he's always hoped this moment would come so he could reject the invite just for the satisfaction, but he really wanted to go so-)

Halloween could not have come faster, every day leading up to it just made Ricky more and more excited, especially after listening to Constance and Ocean plan all the activities they were gonna do.

You can bet that whenever the day of Halloween finally came, Ricky was 100% ready to take on the day.

He had been planning his costume the second he got the invite, mainly because Ocean said it was a requirement, and to him at least, it was perfect. The costume he had chosen to go with was Data from Star Trek! One of his favorite side characters from the franchise and one that he had dreamed of dressing up as ever since Ricky saw him in "Star Trek: The Next Generation."

Was it a bit dorky? Yes. Is that gonna stop him from living out his fantasies? Hell no.

Ricky, probably due to his previously mentioned excitement, was the first one at Ocean and Constance's get-together aside from Ocean and Constance themselves. Constance was dressed as Emily from Emily in Paris and Ocean as Belle from Beauty and The Beast. It didn't take long though for the others to start pouring in, Noel, who finally committed to being Lola Lola from The Blue Angel, then Mischa who technically didn't have a costume but was allowed to borrow a Mario costume from Constance, Penny who was Dorothy from The Wizard of Oz, and finally, you.

And boy, was he not expecting what your costume was going to be... He really felt like the world was just tormenting him with this one.

You got to Constance's house not too long after Mischa and Noel got there, Ricky was sitting on the couch, listening to Constance as she was retelling a story from a previous Halloween in her childhood. He hears someone knock on the door and Ocean quickly shuffles over to go get it, her voice ringing out in a greeting as the newcomer is welcomed in.

Ricky, who finally decides to tune out of Constance's story for a moment to check on who came in, was immediately welcomed to the sight of you in your cat costume...

He felt like his heart was about to break out of his chest with how fast it was beating, his palms grew sweaty, and he had an undeniable blush on his cheeks.

Ricky usually is a pretty confident person, but seeing you in your costume made him feel a little silly in his...

Once everyone had welcomed you in, you made your way over to the couch to sit with him, greeting him like everything was fine and you weren't looking even more attractive than usual. It was moments like these where he's glad he can't speak because if he did, he's sure you would hear how utterly nervous he was as his hands sign, "You're finally here..., your costume is nice." Which is secretly code for, "You look so pretty and I'm going to explode if you get even one more inch near me-"

Thankfully, now that everyone was there, Ocean quickly took charge of the conversation so the festivities could begin. Ricky's sure if he was allowed to talk to you anymore in that moment, he would say a lot of things he would regret...

It was also probably because you were both good friends that Ricky spent most of the night avoiding you, sometimes intentionally and other times not. He just really doesn't want his stupid feelings getting in the way of a friendship he adores so much, especially if that means potentially losing you.

So, as the night dragged on with horror movies, trivia, games, and all the like, Ricky had pretty much not spoken more than a few words to you since you got there. You, of course, were pretty concerned for him as he's never outright avoided you before and it wasn't exactly hard to tell something was wrong with him. Yet, no matter what you did, Ricky would budge and instead would pivot over to whatever activity the group was doing at the moment.

It was lowkey kind of frustrating..., all you wanted was to fix whatever it was you did wrong and get your best friend back! :'(

Yet, things continued like that for the rest of the night, unfortunately. It didn't help that with everyone else there, it was kind of hard to get a private moment with Ricky but thankfully as the party came to a close and you saw Ricky step outside for a moment, you finally got your chance!

After excusing yourself from the party, saying that you were gonna go check on Ricky, you make your way out the backdoor and onto the Blackwood's back porch. Ricky was pretty easy to spot as he sits on the stairs leading down to the yard beyond you and him, his crutches placed beside him.

Carefully, you make your way to him, sitting down on the stairs right next to him, just like you had done when you first got to Constance's house. He gives a weak smile, redness coming back to his cheeks as he signs, "Hey, everyone's a little too chaotic for you too, huh?" His face gave away that he was joking, though he knew you weren't out here for that.

"...Did I do something wrong?" You ask, frowning as Ricky's eyes widen and he shakes his head. His hands quickly signed, "No! You did nothing at all, why would you think that?" To which, you sighed and replied with, "I think you know Richard Potts, you've been avoiding me this whole party. If I didn't do anything wrong, then what's up? Why do you keep avoiding me??"

...That was a hard question for Ricky, not because he didn't know the answer, but because answering it would mean doing the one thing he was trying to not do this whole time.

He would have to tell you how he felt.

You've been friends for so long and realistically, he knows he can tell you anything that's on his mind. But this..., this was just another thing entirely.

Ricky brushes his thoughts off again, turning to face you to spout out another excuse on why he's been so distant all night, but then he sees your face. He sees your pretty eyes, the way your hair frames your face so perfectly, those gorgeous lips of yours... It's so unbelievably cheesy, but the sight of you just makes his throat close up for a minute, especially with you so close to him.

He instinctively averts his eyes, hoping you don't notice how flushed he's become even if he's sure you do, his hands forming into fists as he tries to distract himself from the sight of you.

Ricky did eventually sign something, though it was not the excuse that he had once prepared...

"...God, I love you so much."

His hands freeze up as soon as they finish signing, surprise on both of your faces at the sudden declaration.

He quickly started to backtrack, hoping that by some miracle you never saw what he signed and this whole situation was nothing more than a dream. "Oh no, I'm so sorry! I really didn't mean to sign that and I know you don't like me like that-" But before he could continue rambling, he was taken off guard by none other than you as your lips gently latch onto his.

Never in a million years would he have assumed this was going to happen, never would he have been so cocky to assume you were actually going to kiss him after that embarrassing blunder. It was happening though..., he was kissing his best friend and the one crush that never left him.

It was magical.

He almost didn't want your lips to leave his as the kiss ended, his hand grabbing yours while his eyes remained wide. It was clear he had a lot of questions, yet they were all answered as you spoke up, "I love you too."

A/N: Ricky is simultaneously so me and a character I would 100% marry. I have no clue how anyone could've ignored him in the canon universe, he's just a silly guy with cat-girl fantasies. :(

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sincerely-astra · 5 months ago

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Hi, may I request yandere rtc choir x toko fukawa! reader?

☁️Yandere Choir x Toko Fukawa!Reader🌧️

⚠️WARNING: General Yandere content, written with a fem reader in mind but no gender is explicitly stated, and potentially some Toko Fukawa bashing- Sorry, I just find it hard not to mention some of her bad qualities at the beginning. :'(⚠️

Ocean O’Connell Rosenberg:

"S-Shoo! How many times do I have to tell you to leave me alone!? I-Is it so amusing to see such an u-ugly girl cry, huh?"

Those words, along with a few others Ocean couldn't make out from around the corner filled the empty hallway after school. As she peered around the corner, Ocean couldn't help but roll her eyes at the scene in front of her. Seriously? Another bullying incident?? Look, she gets it. It must be hard not to be as successful as her, but come on, there are so many better ways to spend your time than harassing people!

So, as the model student she is, she struts over to the lot with a click of her tongue to sort it out. As soon as the group of bullies noticed Ocean coming over, they were quick to hurry along, not wanting to deal with whatever lecture they knew was waiting for them. Believe her, she really wanted to go after them too, but she was in a rush already since she needed to get to choir after she helped you out.

Ocean turns towards you, ready to scold you for god knows what before you cut her off with a rather... interesting comment. "Fighting with students on campus is strictly prohibited!-" "What, a-are you here to mess with me too?? O-Or are you some kind of w-weirdo who thinks helping me from some bullies w-will get me to make out with you o-or something!?"

...Yeah, Ocean felt her jaw drop a bit from that, feeling so confused and offended that you would even think that about her. She quickly retorts with, "What!? No, I was just trying to help you out because I'm a good person!" To which you responded, "Sure..., I-I bet you just did that so I'll owe you something! D-Don't try to d-deny it!!"

Your conversation very quickly escalated after that with Ocean trying to prove her innocence and you not believing her in the slightest. Seriously, it took a good 15 minutes of you two going back and forth with this before you finally relented and said, "God, f-fine, thanks for getting rid of them... J-Just don't expect me t-to give you something for it, g-got that!?" That was enough for Ocean to move on with her day gloating that she had done yet another good deed.

After this initial meeting, Ocean would bump into you occasionally, most of those meetings ending up like the first one. To say you were a lot was the understatement of the century and that's coming from Ocean... From how insecure you were to the awful assumptions you would throw at her, normal people would take this as a sign to just leave you alone.

But as is obvious, this is Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg we are talking about and there was something about you that deeply interested her. In fact, it was so interesting that Ocean from the day she met you gained yet another purpose in her school life, to fix you.

The first way she was gonna do that was by getting you to join the choir! Who doesn't want to add more extra-curriculars to their school lives? It looks great for colleges and gives Ocean more of a reason to talk to you! ...Which she already does a lot now by how often she goes up to you to try and convince you to join the choir.

Through her constant pestering, she even learned some more things about you! Like, that you had a pet stink bug named Kameko which Ocean can't help but find cute but also extremely weird.

She also knows of your extreme phobia of blood, the dark, and ghosts. You also had a habit of mentioning someone else, a girl who clearly gives you great distress, but you always backpedal before Ocean can get any more information. She has tried before to push you to talk about it, but you are very good at deflecting it.

Occasionally, she'd also get snippets of your writing, which Ocean can't help but envy... She's never met anyone with as much skill in literature as you and as much as she wishes she had that, reading whatever snippets you allow her to always manages to leave her in awe.

She honestly can't say she regrets trying to get you into the choir, it's the reason she's become close acquaintances with you after all. However, the more she gets to know you past all the extremities in the front you put up to protect yourself, the more she has a deep-seated urge inside of her that wants to know you more and spend more time with you...

And luckily for her, you couldn't take any more of her nagging and finally joined the choir, much to your initial displeasure.

Ocean was beyond ecstatic to see you walk into the choir room during one of their practices, knowing she had gotten to you. From then on, you and Ocean were pretty much attached to the hip with the excuse from Ocean being that, "As the lead singer of the choir, it is my duty to help you settle in!" Deep down, you knew that couldn't have been the whole truth, but as much as you expressed that thought to Ocean, she didn't budge.

It wasn't all bad though, Ocean was one of the better people to stick beside as her strong-willed nature could stand against whatever your insecurities made you feel about her. Plus, it's nice to have someone with similar intellect to talk to about literature.

With both of your firey personalities, you do get into some actual arguments sometimes, but after you both take time to cool off, you come running back to each other eventually.

Whenever you two become friends, all of the bullying you experience pretty much stops. With Ocean hanging around you all the time, it's hard for anyone to even get a word in when she goes off at them for even looking at you wrong. Despite how often she tends to push people down (she's getting better,) she is also very protective of her friends.

She's tried to get you to join her and Constance for sleepovers before, but you usually refuse for whatever arbitrary reason you can come up with like something self-deprecating or something about how you don't have time for it. If she ever does get you to join them though, she will be the 2nd best person to do it (the first being Constance) with as she is on top of whatever you need to have the night be enjoyable. She will literally bring a night light so you don't have to sleep in the dark, novels for you to read, and whatever else she can think of to keep you happy.

Ocean goes to you a lot for book recommendations since she reads a lot, most books she ends up tearing through and finishing in like, a day.

Ocean had really never thought your phobia of blood would ever come up after that one-off mention when she first learned about it. You guys were in school after all, it wasn't like blood was bound to be everywhere in St. Cassian, so when she gave herself a paper cut, she didn't think anything of it. In fact, she honestly forgot about it, just mentally cursing at herself as the cut stung on her finger...

And then she met her.

Genocide Jack.

As soon as she heard your body hit the ground before you quickly stood back up, your eyes turning red, and your personality doing a complete 180, Ocean knew she was in for a lot more than she signed up for. Genocide Jack was very different, she was so much more outgoing and uncouth than you, and her personality and violent outbursts baffled Ocean.

Ocean had to admit, Genocide Jack scared her a lot... It took her a good minute to accept what was happening in the first place and that she was talking to your alter, but to have said alter literally flat out say to her face that she murders "cute boys..." Ocean really thought her parent's weed must have gotten to her at this point.

You did sneeze at some point when Ocean was mid-freak out, returning back to your old self. As soon as you saw the look on her face, you knew what happened and that you had a lot of explaining to do.

Was Ocean any less scared of Jack after you explained everything? No. Was she less confused? Barely. Was she at least glad to know how she could prevent getting Jack aggravated at her? Yep.

Ocean has always been a bragger, why wouldn't she be when she is by far the most accomplished in all of Uranium? But that trait gets 100x worse when you are around. She gloats and inflates her self-esteem a lot, mainly because she wants to impress you. She just needs to have you think highly of her like how she thinks highly of you.

But don't worry too much about it either, because she will hype you up just as much if not even more than she does herself. You are obviously so much more intelligent and mature than everyone else in St. Cassian and you should know it! Really, you two are the only ones who are on the same level, that's why you need her and she needs you.

Now, you may be wondering about how Ocean fell in love with someone like you? After all, you are both very opposite in your personalities and beliefs.

The answer to that is... Ocean doesn't quite know.

There was just suddenly one day where when she looked at you, her heart started racing. Her hands started to grow sweaty as she glanced at your hands ever so often, wanting nothing more than to hold them. It was like a switch was flipped and instead of just wanting to be your best friend, she wanted to be so much more than that.

For a while, she almost blames you for it... There's just no way she's in love with a girl, or even in love at all! You had to have done something to make her feel this way, surely!! ...It took a while to admit to herself that, that wasn't the case and she just really liked you.

She likes you so much that you consume pretty much all of her waking thoughts and her dreams which is strangely okay with her. It's totally normal, nothing to be concerned about! Everyone imagines their crush becoming so co-dependent to them that they can't even look at other people, very normal indeed.

Remember how you used to deny having sleepovers with Ocean and Constance? Well, say goodbye to that because you will be having so many sleepovers with Ocean (just her) that she does not allow you to skip out on. In all honestly, she just always wants to be near you which is why she drags you to her house every day after school to spend even more time with her, It's not like her parents even notice she's there.

...Have I mentioned that she may have stolen a pair of scissors or two when you sleep? Because she has and she keeps them in the box under her bed that's filled with a ton of other things of yours.

Ocean treats you so well, like, she makes your bed, does your laundry, helps you study, whatever she can do to help you, she does.

No matter how many times you get a bit insecure and berate her for something, she literally sticks to you like a leech. She knows you don't actually mean it and she would rather die than get really mad at you.

Ocean also eventually learns to co-exist with Jack because you know, she's your alter and she isn't going away any time soon. It does definitely take a while for them to get along, but once Jack officially stops murdering people and becomes softer to Ocean, they are fine.

No matter what you say, she really thinks you are pretty. She loves your hair and clothing, all of it.

Ocean would probably die if you wrote a novel about her, like, she'd be so flustered and giddy at the same time. She'd have so many copies of the book and show it off any chance she gets.

What can she say, your love for her is now immortalized forever. :)

Noel Gruber:

Most days that Noel had to work at Taco Bell were unbelievably boring. In fact, Noel would say that a good 95% of his shifts have been completely uneventful, the other 5% being the rare few shifts where either a fight broke out or something interesting was happening in some other store at the mall. It's not necessarily bad per se, but it does make Noel drag his feet when getting ready for work since he knows it won't be anything special.

Today was going to be just like any other day in Uranium, plain and boring. Really, why must graduation be so far away... All he wishes to do in this life is move to France, must that be so difficult?

This mindset plagued Noel as he walked through the mall, the Taco Bell he works at just in sight. His lips spill out a sigh as he approaches his work sooner and sooner, only for him to be stopped by yelling.

"Are you Toko Fukawa!?" "Oh my god, she is! You know, I just love your book, "So Lingers The Ocean!"" "Will you please sign my copy of, "Blue Thread from the Scarred Mountains?""

Noel had no idea there was a celebrity in town... Around here, you'd think that would be the news of the century. He turns to see what the commotion is about, wondering if he saw the person's face then maybe he'd recognize some of their works, but as he pushes his way through the ever-growing crowd of people he is met with the face of some high schooler. Noel's brows quickly furrowed, confusion immediately settling in.

...Who was this? He thought maybe seeing her face would help remind him, but he still had no clue who this supposed celebrity was. What he can tell is that she is a high school girl who is getting harassed by her own fans, and the frustrated and uncomfortable look on her face is blatantly telling him that she does not want to be in this situation. Now, this isn't anywhere near his problem to deal with, he knows he should just get a move on and get to work.

But he had to admit this was interesting and he did feel bad that she was being harrassed like this... So, he did the one thing he knew to do at this point and he grabbed her wrist to quickly drag her away from the paparazzi. It took a few twists and turns for them to finally lose the fans, but Noel eventually got them to a more private spot.

You immediately ripped your wrist out of his grip, Noel taking a deep breath after the unexpected exercise. "Sorry, I just thought you needed to get away-" "W-Why did you drag me here you p-pervert!? W-What kind of s-sick fantasies do you have!?!?" You cut him off, a distrustful look on your face as you back away from him. Noel couldn't even get a word in as you kept coming at him with obscene accusations, all of which he tried to keep denying before you accused him of something else. He felt like you were just going in circles at this point...

After a good 5 minutes, he was finally able to say, "Look, I didn't take you here to do anything weird with you, all I was trying to do was help someone who looked uncomfortable. My bad for having morals I guess, now if you'll excuse I'm late for work." At this point, he was kind of done with the conversation and just wanted to go to work. (Which he literally never wants to do so-) And as he left you there, now very annoyed that his one attempt to be nice to an absolute stranger went horribly, he did hear you say something but it was too muffled for him to hear or care. He just went along with his day like usual..., albeit, now late.

His day was pretty tame after that, once the paparazzi left, the mall was pretty quiet aside from some older couples. He even got cut early for a change, so at least there was that.

He finished taking off his uniform in the mall restrooms and was on his way out the mall doors before he heard a, "W-Wait!" Only to turn around and see you walking up to him. He was honestly just gonna leave you there, done with your shenanigans for the day, but you quickly stopped him as you apologized for acting the way you did. Granted, you did it in a roundabout fashion and were still being a bit rude, but it was nonetheless different than what he thought you were gonna say. Noel just shrugged and said, "Whatever, it's not a big deal," before finally leaving, feeling slightly better about you and the day as a whole.

From then on, you'd occasionally visit Noel at his job in the mall. It was a bit weird for both of you but you both also never mentioned it. He also saw you walking around school and you two talked a bit more there.

Noel wasn't going to lie to himself, he knew you were pretty extreme to be around, but when you've been around people like Mischa and Ocean for more than a few hours, you learn to grow accustomed to the most eccentric of people.

Plus, when you weren't so hung up on him secretly wishing you the worst for something he didn't even know he did, he can see how intelligent you actually are which is a rarity in Uranium.

You were actually the one who decided to become friends with Noel but believe you, it was a very spur-of-the-moment decision.

See, Noel had been raving about a book that had apparently inspired his all-time favorite movie, The Blue Angel. The only issue was that said book, Professor Unrat, wasn't going to be coming to Uranium any time soon—nothing ever did. Yet, did that stop Noel from talking your ear off about it? If anything, it encouraged him.

He had wanted that book so badly..., so because you were totally tired of hearing him yap about it (Not because you care about him, what-), you used your liberties of being a well-known author to get your hands on one. It was exceedingly difficult to get one to Uranium, but somehow, someway, you managed to get your hands on one and it was even signed by the book's late author.

Whenever the book finally reached Noel's hands, it was after choir practice and he was walking you home. After you stammered through your totally not fake reasoning on why you got him such a gift, Noel immediately bombarded you with questions and thank yous like his life depended on it. He meant it too, he had been wanting this book for so long and he never even thought you actually listened to his rants about it... It was quite literally the most thoughtful gift he had gotten in a long time.

Though, as Noel kept pressing for your reasoning on why you went out of your way to get him said book, you flusteredly shut him up with, "W-Whatever..., this is just something f-friends do for one another, right? S-So stop bothering me about i-it!" You really hadn't even meant to call you both friends, it just fell out as you desperately tried to defend yourself from Noel's growing curiosity. Yet he didn't mention it, nor did you bring it up again so..., so it could only be assumed that it was true. You both were friends.

It was only natural that after you got your hands on that book, Noel would grow pretty curious about your talent. After all, even if he's never heard of you, to be able to get a signed copy of Professor Unrat was quite the feat.

You weren't shy about showing off your talents either, despite how insecure you can get, this was the one thing you were proud of, that you knew was worth all the constant praise it got. After letting Noel read a few of your works, he was honestly completely dumbfounded he hadn't heard of you before. Your writing was nothing to scoff at and as a romance novel enjoyer, it was safe to say for him that these were immediately going into his collection when he got home!

Yes, your writing is that good, and yes he will constantly ask if he can read the WIPs you have.

One thing with Noel is that he has the most roundabout way of making you feel not insecure about yourself. Like, any time you start feeling bad or start beating yourself up over something, he will say, "Do you think I'd seriously hang out with you if you were really that bad? Get a grip, how badly do you think of me?" Basically, you are gonna have to be forced to see how great you are because if not, that means you are insulting his best friend, which believe him, you don't want to do.

Noel's love language is words of affirmation, so as much as he's fine with tolerating whatever insult you or others throw his way, please throw him a bone every once in a while and compliment him, he needs it...

In turn, whatever your love language is, Noel will be sure to accommodate that every once in a while. He might deny that he was doing it because he knows you like it at first, but know deep down he does think about you and tries to be good to you.

Now, when Noel finally decides he's ready to come out to you, he kind of has trouble deciding how to do it. I mean, coming out is never easy, but it's especially hard when it's coming out to someone who you truly cherish and care about.

So, that's why like the coward he unfortunately has to admit he's being at this moment... He decides the best way to tell you and to not potentially get his feelings hurt so fast is to write you a letter. Maybe if you hate him after then you can at least appreciate the penmanship or something.

It took a good weekend for him to finish the letter as he wanted it to be clear, concise, and as perfect as it could be. The next Monday morning, he slips it into your locker and practically runs off as he tries to find someplace away from you as quickly as possible, again, just in case things go South. Whenever you got to school, saw, and read the letter... you just knew you had to find Noel immediately.

You looked everywhere you could think of to find him, from the library to the courtyard, to the cafeteria, yet he wasn't anywhere to be found. It took up almost all of your time before classes to find him in his favorite hiding spot he decided to share with you, under the stairs by the math classes. You were smart, so he knew you would find him here eventually but no matter how long he had to prepare for what you were about to say next was enough time to prepare him for a possible friendship breakup...

But the relief he felt when you hurriedly spouted out your acceptance of him, followed by a brief hug was far enough to make all that anxiety worth it. He knows it was silly to think you of all people wouldn't accept him for something like this, but his fears get to him sometimes.

He really is just glad it turned out okay.

Little did Noel know though, was that you both weren't done here for you had a secret you wanted to share with him too. With Noel coming out, something was telling you that you needed him to know about her, that he needed to be told the truth if you both wanted this friendship to last.

That's how Noel met Genocide Jack, otherwise known as just, Jack.

Although at the moment, you didn't allow your murderous alter to come out, afraid of what she might do and say to Noel, you were able to give Noel a pretty good idea of who she was. Jack was a psychotic killer who, in your own words, was absolutely insane.

The more and more Noel learned of Jack, the more he felt just bad for you... Sure, it was a little unsettling to know that your alter was in fact a serial killer, but she wasn't you. You shouldn't have grown through all that you've gone through, you shouldn't have to deal with knowing that your alter goes out and murders a bunch of men, you shouldn't have to deal with the utter guilt and awful feelings of it all. You deserved so much more than that. You were just a child.

...

You won't have to worry anymore, Noel isn't gonna let you worry. If there's one good thing in Uranium, it's you. You are the only good thing in Uranium and the only good thing in his life, believe him, he needs you. So from now on, don't worry about bullies, your parents, the guilt, or anything else, he wants to see you happy. If he has to break a few noses to achieve that, then so be it.

Noel wasn't going to leave your side ever again.

He actually means that too, because he will not be leaving you alone. If you thought you were clingy, Noel is 100x worse than that.

Not gonna lie, I can imagine discovering Monique was quite the experience for you.

Noel had let you read some of his poetry, most of them being from the perspective of Monique, though he never clarified that. He just said that it was written from the perspective of a character he made up. He was hoping you wouldn't notice how deeply personal the writing was or the occasionally sexual undertones they carry..., which was really stupid considering you are the ultimate writing prodigy.

Of course, you found out about Monique. It was exactly difficult as you kept pressing Noel on all the weird details and themes of each piece, eventually making the truth spill out of him. He was a little embarrassed when you found out, but it's not like you were judging him too harshly so he got over it pretty quickly.

If you ever get tired of going to Ocean for writing critiques, then Noel is gonna be your second-best bet. He isn't as skilled in writing as you but he is a great beta-reader for your more romance-heavy books.

That also gives him a chance to brag to other people that he gets to read your books before they go out the public. :)

Now, Noel knows you, there will probably be a day when you see a man you like and no matter how terribly he treats you, you keep going after him anyway... And as much as Noel hates that possibility, he knows you crave romance so deeply that you'll put up with it.

Although nothing is certain for now, just know he will be breaking whatever relationship you find yourself into as soon as possible. Those people are only there to hurt you and he'll be damned before he lets that happen.

You only deserve the best and he's the only one that can give it to you.

You're family now after all and he won't let you go.

Mischa Bachinski:

There are some days when life just feels like it's repeating itself, a weird deja vu that often makes you feel too powerless to stop it.

Lately, that's the exact feeling Mischa has been having. He gets up, goes to school, goes "home," avoids his foster parents, texts Talia, sleeps, and then it repeats. Maybe he's been spending too much time in his room, but life just felt so bland and unexciting... At least if he were in Ukraine, he'd have Talia there to comfort him.

But alas, life is cruel. He can only communicate with her through the numerous texting sessions they have, never truly being able to see and feel the girl he calls the love of his life. As he walks home from school, texting Talia once more, Mischa is prepared for another boring, repetitive day. He was ready for the daily life cycle to repeat for another day.

That was before he was unceremoniously knocked into, leaving him to stumble back while the person who bumped into him fell to the ground. Mischa made a silent groan to himself as he quickly brushed off the sudden event, he wanted things to be different, yes, but this was not exactly what he had in mind... As he looks to the culprit of the interruption of his walk home, ready to tell them off for being so careless, he is instead met with your harsh words.

"H-Hey, can't you look where you're g-going!? God, is everyone here t-this stupid?" As soon as those words hit his ears, he felt his jaw clench as anger bubbled up inside of him. Immediately, Mischa shoots back, "First off, you were the one who bumped into me, and secondly, you can't be saying anything, you act just as arrogant as everyone else in this stupid town." As soon as those words left his mouth, you were quick to retort him, the conversation soon turning into a full-fledged argument. One that went on for a good 10 minutes before being interrupted by a call from Talia where Mischa finally just rolled his eyes and walked away.

Safe to say his first impression of you was anything but great..., literally finding out you went to his school the next day just made him more upset about the random argument you two had yesterday, and don't even get him started about finding out you also joined the choir! It's like life was punishing him for daring to call it boring by making him deal with someone like you.

Seriously, he found the way you were constantly defensive about everything incredibly irritating.

Not to mention how you would almost always bash the people around you from your assumptions that they had bad intentions, even if they gave you zero reason to think that...

He's quite literally begging for life to go back to normal, he cannot take this-

The only thing he is even semi-willing to give you credit for is that you are undeniably smart. From the short time he's known you, you've made it clear from how easily you can decipher meanings in songs and solve general problems just how intelligent you are...

And as much as you annoy him, he will admit through gritted teeth that you are kind of cute. Talia is better though.

You weren't exactly too fond of Mischa either, despite him being visually what you envisioned for the partner of your fairytale romance to be, he was crude and like how Mischa felt, his first impression left a lot to be desired from you.

You both were stubborn people who could only begrudgingly compliment each other on a really good day..., which is what made you standing up for him equally confusing and unexpectedly nice.

We all know how Ocean can be, there are days where she really is not as bad as she seems and there are days where she is the most insufferable person on the planet.

Today it was the ladder.

All day, Ocean had been really just getting on everyone's nerves with her constant critiques, especially Mischa. Maybe it was just because his one respite in the form of talking to Talia was slipping away from him recently or maybe it was just because his hatred for Canada just seemed to be growing more by the day, but whatever it was, Mischa wasn't having any of Ocean's nagging today.

Really, nobody was, but as Ocean corrected his pronunciation for the umpteenth time, Mischa felt the final strings of his resolve snipping away inside of him, ready to just go off and finally get Ocean to stop for even just a moment. Before he could do that though, his fingers already pinching the bridge of his nose as he tried to tune Ocean out, someone else finally spoke up against her. That person of course is you.

He wasn't going to lie, he wasn't expecting you of all people to say something, maybe Noel, but definitely not you. Despite your stuttering, you were extremely eloquent and had no trouble at all in turning Ocean's ego down a few notches. Whenever you finally finished, Ocean even needed to leave the room for a few minutes while Constance rushed after her. Even Mischa had to admit that side of you was mad wicked awesome. >:)

You weren't exactly friends right after that, but it did show Mischa that you weren't as bad as everyone else here and you weren't as arrogant and selfish as he once thought out to be.

Plus, as you two did end up talking more, you ended up becoming friends! A weird combo that no one else thought was possible but ended up working out.

Mischa is kind of iffy on your talent, he does think it's neat and enjoys reading some of your works (especially if you write them in Ukranian,) but he also isn't too into the kind of literature you write. He just isn't too into romance novels as he prefers something more grittier, but if you do ask him to read something of yours, he will do it.

He will also definitely ask for your advice when making his songs, even if it's not your thing, and it has actually helped his rapping career so much. I'm not even joking, his raps are actually half-listenable now.

You two still do get into fights from time to time but even in some of your bigger arguments, you two are weirdly drawn to each other and one of you ends up apologizing in the end.

He is always extremely careful with you when it comes to your phobias since he'd just hate for you to feel scared or uncomfortable around him.

Mischa will be making you watch all the Saw movies, which are unnegotiable, he will, however, let you pick apart whatever plot holes you see in them as an exchange. Rest assured though, he will be fighting you on every single hole you point out unless he's proven very wrong.

As you are one of Mischa's only friends, he pretty much tells you everything which includes Talia. Now, you obviously haven't spoken to Talia and you are pretty sure she only knows you exist through a few mentions from Mischa, but you were extremely suspicious of her when Mischa first told you about her. However, any time you brought it, Mischa would shut you down real quick, making it clear that Talia was not going to be something debatable if you wanted to keep your friendship intact.

So, you didn't, no matter how much it irked you when Mischa would complain about Talia growing more and more distant as of late, you kept your mouth shut about it (surprisingly.)

But then came the breakup.

You were going over to Mischa's house, like usual on the weekends since your house was strictly forbidden. Once your feet reached the porch of his home, you texted him that you were there and were ready to wait for him to eventually retrieve you and bring you down to his room. Mischa was oddly quick today though and the look on his face as he dragged you down to the basement made you know that something was up.

With the door being shut with a click from Mischa, he finally started to speak, his words rambled and his tone distressed. "Natalia broke up with me, please tell me what I did wrong! I need to fix this-" It took a few seconds for you to register what he was saying as he kept rambling, the news making you feel rather conflicted... On one hand, you really wanted to just rub it in that you were right and do an I told you so thing, but on the other, you did feel bad for Mischa. Like, come on, you would kill to have a guy so passionate and devoted to you, how could she throw something like that away?

So, against your better judgment, you made a sigh and guided him away from the door to his bed so he could sit down for a minute, his mouth shut as he stopped rambling but his face was so full of defeat...

After a while of just helping him calm down, you finally got the full story of what happened. Apparently, Talia had broken up with him the night prior as she, in her own words, had "found someone else." Mischa was hurt and you were at a loss since you had never been in a relationship before..., the most you knew to do at the moment was awkwardly rub circles into the palm of his hand as you tried to explain that there was nothing he could really do to fix this. She wasn't in love with him anymore and there was nothing he could do to change that, he couldn't force the girl to love him.

She found someone else to fulfill her needs and as much as it sucks, he needed to be okay with that.

Mischa took a long time to recover from the hurt that Talia had left him.

He gave so much for her, she was literally his everything and now she was gone. She was gone because he couldn't give her what she needed...

In some ways, your words did give him some perspective, but he really just needed time to spring back from the relationship. Truthfully, it was nice to have you by his side as he recovered though. You with your interesting quirks and flowery literature. In his eyes, you were like a lone candle when all the power went out, his one light and warmth in such a dark, lonely world.

It was comforting to know that there was someone else he could rely on..., someone else he could give his love to.

Platonically.

Obviously.

Moving along to a completely different topic, Mischa now has another thing to worry about and that is making sure he is never in the presence of Genocide Jack!

Very early on in your friendship, you would mention Jack without ever explicitly stating her name or saying anything about her, you would just say things like, "S-She just drives me c-crazy!" or "There's no way I'd ever let her come out ever again." Of course, he'd question you on it, but you would almost always refuse to answer no matter how insistent he was with it. He really hated being so pushy with it, but he couldn't just let someone mess with his friend this badly! He sees how terrified of her you are, please just let him help you!! :(

So, you eventually let up and did. Unintentionally, but you still did let him see the person who was bothering you so much...

Genocide Jack, the girl who's been causing you so much misery, was apparently your alter..., which was a rather confusing thing for Mischa to learn. He knows of people with DID and has even met a few people with it, but he never once suspected you would have it due to you never once mentioning it. Nor would he have suspected your alter to be a serial killer.

Back to how he met Jack, Mischa was once again pushing to find out who was causing you so much trouble as he wanted to help you, no one should ever dare to cause his friend so much distress! You were getting a little irritated by his questions and were being defensive about the whole thing, you never wanted him to find out about her... And yet, somehow, someway, you happened to have spot blood, you sneezed, and it all went downhill from there.

The person Mischa was greeted with was so different from you, as soon as Mischa asked if you were okay after seeing you freeze up for a second, he was met with the loud and boisterous Genocide Jack. At first, he was incredibly concerned with your dramatic personality shift and the way Jack so openly fawned over him but Jack quickly enlightened him as to who she was and what was happening. She was your alter ego and apparently someone who seemed very keen on using her scissors on him...

Thankfully, you managed to take control again before something seriously bad happened, but you knew as soon as you saw his face that you had a lot of explaining to do.

Mischa is pretty understanding about the whole thing and reassures you that Jack's murders are not your fault. As you two talk things out and he learns more about how you learned about your DID and what caused it, Mischa really can't help but feel so hurt for you...

He really hopes you know that he cares so much about you.

After learning about Jack and your past, Mischa grows incredibly protective over you, he doesn't even try to hide it. He wants you to feel safe and comfortable and other people, especially other men, will only hurt you.

Mischa has a bad habit of being convinced you are going to leave him every time you are away from him for too long... He knows it's stupid, but after what happened with Talia, he really doesn't want to take any chances with you. That's probably the reason he always feels the need to be so clingy with you.

His thoughts are so unintentionally filled with you, like, everything he does always ends up having him thinking about you in some way.

Mischa falls in love with you hard and fast.

The first time he ever noticed just how intense his feelings for you were was when you two were at some carnival in Uranium. It was evening and Noel had convinced everyone to go on the Ferris wheel as the last ride of the day, to which everyone was too tired to argue with him. You and Mischa got together in one of the carts, sitting across from one another, and eventually, the cart started going up.

A comfortable silence filled the air as you both just enjoyed the sunset and each other's company. As a cool breeze rushes by you both, the cart making it to the top of the Ferris wheel, Mischa glances at you and...

God, you are breathtaking.

He doesn't know how he never realized it sooner, but with the wind gently making your hair sway, the sun illuminating your form, and a serene expression on your face... You just looked heavenly.

His heart rate picked up, racing through speeds he never knew it could go to. It was there he realized he loved you, far more than he loved anyone else before.

You were just perfect for him.

He feels conflicted about teaching you Ukrainian sometimes, just because as nice as it would be for you to speak his native language, he also likes to call you кохана (my love) and for you to not know what it means.

If you ever call yourself ugly or insitutate you are, Mischa is gonna put a stop to that real quick. To him, you are far from that, and anyone who even tries to call you that will be dealt with, trust him on that.

You are so beautiful in his eyes.

Mischa will be treating your pet stinkbug, Kameko, with the utmost respect. If you love it, what right does he have to be anything other than nice and respectful towards it? Plus, he can see how much it means to you and he would never want to hurt your feelings because of something petty.

He will never say it out loud, but he really wants to run his hands through your hair.

He honestly really loves being able to bond with you over your family issues, not only because it's nice getting it off his chest, but because that means you rely on him. ...Sometimes he even hopes that you'll have a bad day with your family so he can hold you in his arms and comfort you.

Mischa knows this thought might be a tad delusional, but sometimes when he reads your romance books, he can't help but feel like they were written with him in mind. The thought makes his heart beat so quickly and he really wishes it's true.

Even if you don't write your books with him in mind, he is certainly writing his songs with you in mind. Every lyric, melody, beat, etc., is written with you in mind.

Not like he can get you off his mind anyway.

Ricky Potts:

Constance Blackwood would probably have to say she is the number one fan of your books, like, she's read every single one and has consumed every piece of media she has available to her.

And while Ricky Potts isn't as big of a fan as she is, Ricky was definitely enthralled when she introduced him to your romance novels. The writing in them was brilliant and every word just drew him in to read more and more, he really did love your books. He loved them so much, that a lot of his own works are inspired by yours.

Although he doesn't think he can call himself that much of a superfan knowing people like Constance are out there, he definitely was excited to see that you were doing a book signing in Uranium. How lucky was he!

He and Constance made sure to be the first people in line for the signing, which unfortunately was a bit empty considering most of the people in Uranium were older people who didn't enjoy new-age romance novels like yours. Thankfully though, because of the lack of people at your signing, Ricky didn't have to suffer too much from standing for such a long period of time.

He and Constance got up to the signing booth pretty quickly, both of them excitedly saying hi and you took the books they had and signed them. Normally, Ricky would feel a little bad from holding up the line by asking a question, but this was honestly a one-in-a-lifetime chance for him, rarely anyone goes to Uranium, so he might as well ask something. That something is, "What made you decide to do a signing in Uranium?" The robotic voice of his AAC device asks.

As stated before, Uranium isn't exactly the most popular spot for book signings or for much in general. Ricky had to admit he was really curious about why you chose this place at all instead of somewhere like Vancouver or Montreal. Your response though, had him incredibly shocked. "...I-I'm moving here, there's no way I'd b-be here otherwise." First of all, ouch... but also unfortunately true. Secondly, you are moving here!? If Ricky could be jumping for joy, he would.

As Constance hurriedly apologized to the line behind them and to you, rushing Ricky past the signing booth so they would be out of the way, Ricky couldn't help but have a big grin on his face. One of his favorite authors will be moving here and likely will be in the same school as him as he knows you both are the same age, how neat is that! :D

Also, you didn't ignore his question or anything, which was pretty cool. :')

Ricky was over the moon for the next few days as you moved in and he saw you walking around school. He never got the chance to talk to you for a while after you moved in, but he was pretty giddy to get to know you as a person and not just as an author.

Before that time though, he was content in just observing you for now.

What surprised him most about you definitely had to be how opposite your personality and looks were. He rarely, if ever, actually judges a book by its cover (I feel like that can be a pun-) but you'd have to admit, you looked a lot more timid than you actually were. Sure, you stuttered like how he knew and would expect you to, but you were a lot more brash than he initially thought of you as.

You also tended to be pretty defensive about almost everything. Ricky can't say he minds though, honestly, finding out about this side of you was really interesting! Plus, have you seen the choir? He definitely has no room to judge when they are his friends.

The first time Ricky really got to talk to you for more than a few seconds was during some school event you were both supposed to help out for. Ricky was quite surprised he so coincidentally got chosen to help out alongside you, but he definitely wasn't complaining. If fate had that kind of plan for him, then so be it.

He made his way through the door to the counselor's office and was met with you standing alone, presumably waiting for the counselor to show up so you'd both know what to start doing. You looked back, seeing Ricky make his way through the door with a wobbly smile, giving a small wave whenever he made it to the spot next to you. You actually started the conversation before Ricky got to, your voice holding a questioning tone as it hung in the air. "Were you at my book signing the other day?" To which Ricky cheerfully nodded, glad and slightly shocked you remembered him, and he grabbed out his AAC device to respond. "Yes, I am. This is a little late, but, welcome to Uranium."

You and Ricky talked for a bit before the counselor finally came in and gave you both a checklist of things to complete before the evening. You both introduced yourselves, although you technically didn't have to, and Ricky gave you the gist of how things work in Uranium. Of course, as the afternoon went on with you two chatting as you worked, you both got to know each other a little better.

Admittedly, there were a few moments where you'd be less than pleasant company by insulting him or sometimes getting so impatient that you'd skip past whatever he was going to say with his AAC device, but it was clear to Ricky that none of it was anything more hurtful than basic insults meant to throw him off from wanting to talk to you. And although it did hurt, he felt compelled to move past it and keep talking to you, which was eventually rewarded as the insults did eventually stop even when you got defensive or insecure.

He wasn't even sure why he kept going, maybe it was a philosophy of his or a weird interest he had, whatever the reason, it was safe to say you both became fonder of each other that day. In fact, after that, you both quickly became friends!

Ricky obviously already knew you were an amazing author, but to find out that you are literally known as the ultimate writing prodigy was something else entirely.

Seriously, it's like everything he learns about you is so much more compelling than the last.

And yes, he will subtly try to convince you to write stories about Zolar and if you don't get it, he will not so subtly beg you. He just knows his adventures will sound so much more amazing in your words!

Ricky really does love your academic style, he thinks it suits you well.

Look, no matter how clingy you are, he will still love being your friend since he can also be pretty clingy. When you only have maybe 7 people you can talk to and only two of them will listen to you about Zolar, you are gonna take all the attention you can get.

Plus, you are just really awesomesauce. :)

Look, he knows that others may find it annoying, but he kind of likes it when you get all cocky about your artistic works. You deserve to be proud of yourself, even if you do get a little too prideful with it. He will hype you up!

He will go to you with writing ideas all the time. Say goodbye to writer's block because, with the wild ideas Ricky's pitching to you, you will never have to worry about it again.

Just know that whenever Ricky spaces out, it's either about Zolar or ways to keep you from leaving him.

It's a weird phobia he has.

So, as the writer that you are, you are bound to end up keeping a journal or two. It's good practice to just write your thoughts down from time to time!

And as the curious boy Ricky is...

He went through it.

Look, he knows it's supposed to be a private, personal thing of yours, but that's what makes it all the more forbiddenly exciting, that he isn't meant to be looking in there. As he reads some mundane entries of your thoughts or about your day, all the which he gushed over you while reading, he finally came to a particularly intriguing page.

On the said page were a lot of references to feeling guilty over something and even disgusted over "her" hurting people. That page and a few more entries, all describing a certain person who was causing you so much trouble and grief made Ricky's eye twitch in aggravation. He wasn't irritated at you, he doesn't even think that's possible now, no, he was irritated at the person who dared to cause someone he adored so much trouble. Just who do they think they are messing with you like this?

You are just too great for your own good.

Ricky knew he had to act quickly after learning about this awful vermin, he didn't want to keep letting you suffer at the hands of this person. But he also knew he couldn't exactly tell you he was snooping through your personal journal..., he knows exactly how you'd react and he doesn't want to make you feel awful about yourself.

It was a pretty complicated situation, one that took a good few moons to solve, but he eventually came up with an idea. He would come clean but in the most roundabout way possible, one where you wouldn't know he went digging through your journal and he could still get some information on the person.

After sitting you down in his room on a particularly nice Saturday morning, he finally popped the question to you. His face was full of worry as his hands steadily signed to you, "Has something been going on with you? ...Has someone been messing with you?"

Of course, you didn't come out and say it initially, you weren't that kind of person, it honestly took a lot of time, pushing, and reassuring to even get a peep out of you. Whenever you did start explaining it, the fact that you have an alter named Genocide Jack who was a serial killer, Ricky could stop the shock from appearing on his face. In no world or story would he ever have imagined this scenario to come up, especially not with you of all people.

As you kept explaining, a pit of anxiety formed in your chest as Ricky looked lost for words the more you went on. For the first time in a long time, Ricky had nothing to say, no words to explain the thoughts that were rummaging through his head. A long, tense silence filled the air between you and Ricky, Ricky deep in thought as he tried to think of what to say. He wanted to comfort you so badly, to say anything to you so you wouldn't have to feel so worried and alone in this situation.

His mind kept being blank before he took a big breath and moved carefully towards you for a hug. After which, he signed with all the love and care he could muster, "Sorry for bringing it up, I'm always here if you need to talk you know. I don't mind helping you get in touch with a therapist either, I know I can't substitute a professional or anything like that. Just..., whatever you need, I am here to give it to you." He could only hope that was the right thing to say, he doesn't know what he would do if he lost you...

And by the way you shakily replied with, "T-Thanks...," He assumes he did alright.

From what you told him about Jack though, he's gonna make sure he stays away if she ever takes over..., for his own safety.

Ricky felt like his adoration for you was obvious, really, it's not like he ever tried to hide it from you before. There's no reason to, he wants you to know how much he cares about you.

The thing is though, that he also thought his love for you was pretty obvious. Again, he never bothered hiding it since he's sure you feel the same way, right? Like, you never let anyone get as close to you as he's gotten, that has to mean something write?

...You love him right?

He loves you a lot.

Ricky fell in love with you the moment he saw you..., is what he would say, but he more accurately fell in love with you during your first ever sleepover together. He was undeniably pretty giddy the whole day even before you got to his house since this was your first sleepover with him, he wanted it to be perfect.

And, it kind of was. When you got there, you both did all your typical sleepover stuff of playing games, eating junk food, and even playing with his cats for a bit. The last thing that was on his bucket list for the night was to watch a few movies, an obvious sleepover staple he knew you two had to do. So, there you both were sitting on his couch with blankets and pillows comfortably lying around you two. About halfway through the movie, he feels your head fall on his shoulder, something Ricky tries to ignore due to his own internal freakout for a brief moment before he finally wills himself to look at you...

...

That moment will forever be cemented in his mind because you looked so at peace, in a way you never ever do when you are awake. You were at peace because of him.

He fell so hard for you that night.

Truthfully, one of Ricky's favorite things to do is mess with you. Not in a mean-spirited way, of course, just small pranks here and there.

Ricky definitely has a plush in his room that you and him won from some carnival and named that he now treats like his son.

Please yap to him and let him yap to you, it's his favorite activity and that's saying a lot since that title used to belong to him spacing out and daydreaming about Zolar.

So, Ricky does have a tendency to cyberstalk you... like, a lot. He even somehow knows of your secret account you post anonymous ramblings on.

Not only does he cyberstalk you though, but he also cyberstalks everyone close to you. He wants to make sure you're safe and no one around you is a bad influence! (Who needs that many friends anyway when you have him?)

He will often stay up late at night just rereading your books over and over again, a lovesick grin on his face every time he looks at the signature that you signed on the front page.

You literally make it impossible for him to do anything other than think about you, so don't be surprised if he one day can't take it and acts out on his urges.

Penny Lamb:

Penny really would have loved to meet you in any other way, she really would have...

It's just that, meeting in the counselor's office to do her weekly therapy session was not where she expected to see someone as gorgeous as you also waiting for Dr. Prattle. Not to mention, she really wasn't emotionally ready to make any conversation as she had to deal with the usual group of girls trying to mess with her as she came in.

The point is that this wasn't exactly the best place or time to talk to you.

So you guys didn't talk. At all.

Which in retrospect is perfectly normal, but Penny just felt so awkward sitting next to you with no one else in the office, not speaking a word even though it's clear she wanted to talk to you. Thankfully Dr. Prattle called her into his office soon after (literally the only time she's ever wanted to actually see him,) and Penny, albeit a little sad about it, was pretty sure she wouldn't have to be alone with you again. Good for her anxiety, but not so great for her getting the chance to talk to you again...

You win some you lose some.

But of course, as most things go in Penny's life, her wishes were not respected and you were still in fact there at the counselor's office the next week. As soon as Penny walked through the doors and her eyes saw you, she knew that last week wasn't a one-time thing... She knew that those long awkward silences as she waited for Dr. Prattle to get her weren't going away any time soon... Great.

She quickly shook off the thought to go sit down and not linger by the doorway for too long, getting a bit of deja vu as it was the motions of last week played out before her again, the same clock ticks, the same fluorescent lights, the same you... Taking a breath, a few words slipped out of Penny's mouth that neither you nor her were expecting. "So..., what are you in for?" As soon as Penny said it, she felt like dying on the inside from how much she was cringing...

It seemed like you weren't too thrilled by her lackluster communication skills either as you replied with, "N-None of your business... Y-You think I'm that weird that I'm in h-here for therapy or something, huh?!" To which the situation only escalated as Penny tried to explain what she meant through her fast-paced words and anxious smile. "No! That's not what I meant at all, It's just that I saw you in here last week and I wondering if you were in here for a specific reason or if you just came in here to be away from everyone else-" Penny kept rambling on as you would keep shooting things back at her, making her trying to keep overcompensating so you hopefully wouldn't think she hates you for no good reason.

Even when Dr. Prattle called her up, Penny would still mutter a few sorries in your direction before the door shut behind her. That wasn't the last of it either, because for some reason every single time she went in and saw you, she'd say yet another cringy thing and you would unfortunately, more often than not, become self-deprecating.

Really, the only thing keeping her going in this strange relationship of yours was those rare days where the conversation didn't immediately escalate and she actually got to know you a little bit. For Penny, that was the main reason she kept trying to talk to you, at first it was to just clear the long, tense silences that filled the air every week, but it slowly transformed into her wanting to actually know you. She doesn't have many friends and she knows what it's like to deal with preconceived notions and anxiety which is why she really wants to push past your walls.

Because if she can do that, she won't have to deal with it alone anymore.

Penny tells a lot about you to Ezra, as she does with pretty much everything, and while he isn't totally keen on you treating Penny so harshly, he'd be lying if he said he wasn't interested in you as well.

What can they both say? Most people in Uranium are either really bland old people or bullies, neither of which really catches their attention.

Penny has thought about bringing you a gift on several occasions, but she always chickens out last minute since she has no idea what you like...

Like, she knows you like writing and movies but you give so little information about yourself (probably because you aren't that willing to open up to her,) that she can't think of anything.

...

She really is trying here. :(

Despite Penny's normally anxious nature, this was one thing she was really stubborn about, that being becoming your friend. Perhaps it all goes back to her ex-love, Johnny Moon, but whenever she finds someone she likes or is rometly interested in, she can't help but really want to get closer to them! Plus, with the way you let your walls down sometimes and give her tiny crumbs of info about you, it's hard not to want to push some more.

So, when Penny walked into the counselor's office just like every other week, she wasn't expecting much to change. The only thing that was kind of different was the fact that she had a book with her this time titled, "The Family From The Day Before Yesterday," an interesting story she's sure you would enjoy! Going through the motions of sitting down next to you, stumbling through conversation as she eventually brings up the book, Penny was halfway through explaining it before you interrupted.

"Y-You don't have to explain to me my own book, you know? I k-know it's great, I w-wrote it." "...Wait really?" "D-Do you just not look at the flap that tells y-you the author's information? O-Or am I just that ugly that you couldn't d-dare look at it?!-"

Penny was certainly surprised to find that you wrote TFFTDBY (long acronym), but in her defense, your name wasn't on the front and your information was on the back flap which she wouldn't have seen since she hadn't finished the book yet!

Pushing that aside, however, Penny was actually able to connect with you on something so, huzzah! Pretty much as soon as you noticed the wide grin on her face and stopped your rant to ask her what was up, she immediately started to ask questions about the book and your writing process, all of which you happily indulged in.

Every week after that, she would bring in that book or a new one of yours she started reading to discuss it, finally being able to talk to you and be able to hold a normal conversation like Penny's been wanting. You too also felt yourself growing fond of Penny's company, even if you'd never admit it. You've met a lot of fans over the years but Penny's enthusiasm felt different..., it was genuine and it gave a weird tingling feeling that you couldn't ignore.

Her presence almost became a nice comfort in the cold, small town of Uranium.

Plus, you weren't going to complain about someone gushing about your writing to you.

Once you guys start hanging out more outside of the counselor's office, Penny will not so subtly beg you to watch her choir performances as she deems them very boring but having you there will make them at least a little more fun. While you usually refuse, the few times you do go, you can see Penny's face light up every time she spots you in the crowd.

Look, you may have teased her for carrying around a doll several times, but that hasn't stopped you from helping Penny form a collection with how many you gift her... It may not seem like it, but you do pay attention to what she likes.

Penny would have never guessed you were the type to own a stinkbug, but finding out you had one was so random yet fascinating to her.

You have gifted her matching friendship bracelets, yes it was corny, and no you will not be taking it off anytime soon.

To be fair, there are days when you can get snippy, but even on those days, you two eventually can reconcile.

Once Penny can get past her anxiety and she gets comfortable with someone, she can be a bit of an oversharer. Like, she tells you every single detail about her trip to see Johnny Moon and about the times she and Ezra visited Walmart. She tells you about pretty much everything in excruciating detail and she encourages you to do so too! ...Like, a lot.

Penny just feels like she talks about herself too often, which makes her feel really bad. So, she trys her hardest to get you to talk about yourself too, whether that be on how your day went or intricate details of your past, she wants to know it all. Plus, you can trust her, she would never want to hurt you! (She likes you way too much to do that.)

All you have to do is let go and rant about whatever is bothering you, easy as pie.

...

So, knowing you were going to have to get it out of the way sooner or later, you tell Penny about your darkest secret, something you've never told anyone before. You've never told anyone because you thought you would never be able to trust anyone, thankfully though, you were wrong about that.

Sitting on the edge of the bed in Penny's room, Ezra's presence absent, you spill about your alter, Jack.

As you lay out all your vulnerabilities at the moment, sparing no glance at Penny as your eyes were glued to the floor with an unconscious fear of rejection, Penny couldn't help herself but smile. She can't believe you would have ever thought that your alter would make her think negatively of you, it honestly makes her want to laugh a little.

She would never blame you for something you can't control, not to mention, who is she to judge you with all that she's done? She's just so happy you finally opened up to her. She would hate you keeping anything from her, especially something as important to you as this.

Before you can finish, Penny gently grabs your hand and tries to give the most comforting smile she can before saying, "You know you never have to worry about telling me these things right? I could never hate you." Although she's not as great with words as you are, she really hopes the few she can put together are enough to soothe you.

...If she ever does come across Jack though, she will be saying a few not-so-kind words to her for making your life so miserable.

Moving on, with Penny being the person she is, it really isn't so strange to her or probably anyone who knew her well enough that she knows that exact time and day when her feelings for you became a little more than friendly. How could she not keep track of something as important as her falling in love?

She may have grown up on a commune, but talks of love and fairytale romances were not uncommon at all for any girl there to hear of. Really, in the back of her mind, it was all she thought about, she was always wondering just when she would meet that special someone.

The point is, she fell in love with you the evening of July 4th.

It was a nice summer day in Uranium and you both were making some homemade pizzas from scratch, something Penny had never done before but was eager to try after having it on her bucket list for a while. The process was a bit messier than both of you had realized with flour practically everywhere, but at least both of the pizzas were in the oven! You and Penny were leaning against the counters, chatting about nothing and everything like always, before you made a comment that you can pretty much make a poem out of everything, something that deeply interests Penny.

So, with that challenge so teasingly dangling in front of her, of course, she dares you to come up with poems for various things like the fridge, the floor, the granite countertops, everything she can think of. You obviously excel at this and before long, you have made a poem for pretty much everything in the kitchen, the only thing that was left was Penny herself. Now, Penny didn't think too much of this as she just assumed the poem would be a short silly one like everything else had been, yet the words that were uttered from you next were far from that...

The poem you curated for her was heartfelt and as passionate as you'd let yourself be. It wasn't at all what Penny was expecting and yet..., that's when she knew.

That was the exact moment she felt her heart skip a beat, her face was warming, and her palms grew sweaty.

She knew she had fallen in love with you.

There was no way in hell she was gonna let you go either. She loved you so indescribably and with that poem..., surely you felt the same way. You had to, there was no other choice.

Penny is usually not that big on touching and in all honestly, neither were you, but there will be moments where she is the clingest person alive. She is very touched-starved.

As gifts, she will try to make poems and other short stories for you to enjoy. They definitely aren't the best, but you can tell they are full of love and care.

(She totally isn't projecting you both onto the main characters, what-)

As said before, she isn't the touchiest person, but please, please, please run your hands through her hair!! She adores it! :))

You are now required to go to all her choir performances, no questions asked. If it helps though, she will be more than thrilled to go to any event you have planned! She might even go even if you ask her not to...

She just wants to keep an eye on you is all.

Say goodbye to your bullies because they will not be seen again. :)

Same with anyone who even remotely tries to flirt with you, because that's not gonna happen on Penny's watch.

Constance Blackwood:

Constance truly couldn't believe this day had finally come, really, it felt like a dream!

She had been reading your books for so long now and you're by far her favorite author. Your words are just so articulate and you are able to bring her to tears with just a few words..., not just anyone is able to do that, you know.

So, as is obvious, the event Constance is so excited about is you coming to Uranium for a book signing!! Even now, as she and Ricky wait in the relatively short line outside the library, it feels so surreal. Who would've thought someone like you was coming to Uranium of all places? Uranium is far from a popular place so it does seem a little strange, but she was definitely not going to complain.

It didn't take long to reach you, yet every step Constance took made her giddy and anxious simultaneously. As they got closer and closer to you, she couldn't tell if she was about to throw up or squeal from the whirlwind of emotions she was feeling... Then of course she got up to you and the nerves really started kicking in.

All her nerves would let her do at the moment was anxiously say hi, ramble on for a minute about how big of a fan she was, get her favorite book signed, and then leave. That was all she could handle at the moment, otherwise, she might just explode-

Which she almost did because even after she somehow smoothly broke past her anxiousness and did the whole song and dance of getting her book signed, Ricky just had to ask what you were in Uranium for. And yeah, Constance was curious, but having to talk to you any longer than she was planning to be making her nerves shoot up. As Ricky's AAC device speaks out his question, Ricky oblivious to Constance trying to inch them along, your response almost made Constance freeze up immediately.

...You were gonna stay in Uranium? For real?? Her favorite author of all time was going to live in her city and go to the same school as her???

Her nerves could not compete with the sheer amount of joy she was feeling at the moment as she and Ricky left the line, the widest grin on both of their faces. She knew right then and there that she was going to try her hardest to be your friend because, when do you ever get another opportunity like this? Plus, she's sure Ocean wouldn't mind a new face in the choir with all the recruitment she's constantly doing!

And the rest is history! Ocean was immediately on board with the idea and somehow Ocean was able to get you to join the choir.

Now that Constance can get to know you better, she will be the first to admit that you aren't the most secure person, which is totally okay! She had to also admit though that it was kind of surprising considering she's kind of put you on a pedestal as her favorite author, so she really can't fathom why you would even feel insecure.

She also doesn't get why you don't think her friendly gestures are genuine!! It makes her so sad to hear you be so suspicious of her motives when all she wants to do is talk to you. Thankfully, you did let up after a while and you eventually don't call her every bad name in the book anymore just for saying hi, but it was pretty startling for a minute.

Some might think that after she got to know the real you (or at least as much as she can know about you from being acquaintances,) that Constance's view of you would change to a more negative one. After all, everyone says to not meet your heroes, right? Well, for Constance, that assumption would be incredibly wrong. She's dealt with her fair share of awful people in Uranium and online, but the difference between you and them was what made her want to keep pursuing a friendship with you.

That difference being that you have the ability to change and she is wants to see that. Sure, the people she previously have met and had exhibited the same cold, rude responses that you are currently could also change, but she knows that something about you is different. She wants to see you grow into the good person she knows you are deep down.

Plus, with how much your words have changed her life, she can at least do this for you. :)

Constance usually loathes being called nice, because..., seriously? "The nicest girl in town"?? It just feels like a pity title because no one could come up with anything better.

But is she complaining when that title is the reason you choose to come to her when the rest of the choir is being too much? The title that lets her bond with you and lets her get closer to you? Oh, definitely not, this might seriously be the only occasion when her niceness really gets to shine.

While the rest of the choir is off doing their usual shenanigans, being loud and chaotic as usual, you and Constance hang back and chat. A nice break that eventually goes from just hanging out because everyone else is too chaotic, to you both hanging out because you are friends. Constance is like the shade under a tree that protects you from the grueling sun.

She wants to keep it that way.

Now, believe Constance when she says she is the biggest fan of your works because she 100% is.

So whenever you explain to her your ultimate talent, that of being the ultimate writing prodigy, Constance is not surprised at all. She might be a little taken aback that someone can be called an ultimate for that (since writing is very subjective,) but after shaking off that initial surprise, she is spouting on about how much sense that makes and praising your writing like there's no tomorrow.

If you ever need an ego boost, go to her because she will give you one times 10!

No one would have ever guessed you both work well at being friends, probably due to how different your personalities are, but somehow you two just balance each other out.

Did I mention that are your go-to person when you pull all-nighters? Constance is 100% a night owl so she will be awake and ready with a coffee and pastry in hand if you need it.

You are not the greatest at giving compliments, that's a fact you have come to live with and that Constance understands, so the few Constance can manage to make out of you get her so giddy. Especially begrudgingly reassure her that she has qualities other than being nice, it's nice to hear that in general but it means so much coming from you.

A hobby Constance has seemed to pick of up recently because she's been around you so much, is writing. Not just any writing though, she really likes writing letters.

To you.

She has written countless letters to you, none of which will ever see the light of day, all about things she likes about you in excruciating detail. And yes, most of them can get a little... creepy.

Constance also has a habit of tracing her fingers over the rim of your used coffee cups..., it makes her feel closer to you in a way that makes her heart race and face get hot.

For the record, Constance had put together the pieces that you had potentially dangerous alter long before you ever told her anything. Do you think she knows so much about you by just not doing her research? Of course, she knows bits and pieces of your alter that she was able to find online or wiggle out of you.

Nothing could have prepared her for meeting that alter of yours though.

It was during one of your late-night coffee runs to Constance's house, which she always happily obliged to. You both were hanging around the kitchen, waiting for the coffee pot to brew, and chatting like always. It was a calm, cool night, no reason for either of you to suspect the wild events that were soon to take place...

Constance had decided to cut up some fruit for the two of you after explaining you needed something healthy to balance out the coffee you were about to have. She laid some strawberries on the cutting board after washing them, the knife slicing threw them with ease. She must not have been paying enough attention or her lack of sleep was finally catching up to her, because in the midst of talking, Constance accidentally cut herself.

It wasn't a big cut or anything, but it did start bleeding and caused Constance to reel back with a small hiss in pain. She turns to you, hiding her hand behind her back as he is acutely aware of your phobia, but before she can ask to grab the first aid kit..., the damage has already been done.

You stumbled back before passing out, causing Constance to call out your name in shock and concern, rushing over to you to catch you before you hit the tile. As she held onto you, shaking you lightly to try and wake you up, you eventually arose from your unconscious state.

...Except that it wasn't you, it was Jack.

And to say the sudden switch in your personality wasn't surprising would be a lie. Jack quickly jumped up and was already up to her usual shenanigans while introducing herself, being incredibly vulgar but at least giving Constance an explanation as well...

It took a while for you to switch back, like, a good three hours. Constance did get to know Jack a little in that time and although Jack does scare her, she had to admit she was kind of funny-

You didn't even need to go through the effort of explaining everything as Jack did it for you, and even if Constance would be willing to lend an ear if you needed someone to talk to, she gets it if you don't want to.

So, you know how Constance is your biggest fan and you know how most people have a celebrity crush?

You can guess where I'm going with this...

Constance, for whatever reason, had a pretty big celebrity crush on you for a while. It started out as just some silly crush that she was sure was never going to happen, after all, she had zero chance of leaving Uranium and you sure as hell weren't gonna just magically appear here. So, she just settled for giddily watching clips of you and maybe writing some really bad self-insert fanfiction... (Does this count as a fourth wall break?)

And yet, somehow, someway, the gods finally decided to toss her a bone in the form of having you literally move to Uranium, and that made her crush on you so much worse. She initially just tried to keep her thoughts and actions toward you strictly platonic, after all, you totally weren't gonna end up being the person of her dreams right?

...Right??

...

Yeah, the universe was back to torturing her.

She fell for you and she fell for you hard, like, she thinks about you at every possible moment she can. It was kind of embarrassing...

But what can she say, you have some really captivating eyes. (Ones that she hopes will only look at her and no one else.)

Constance can be a bit clingy and she knows it. She pretty much follows you everywhere and will not give you much alone time, if any at all.

Look though, as much as she loves you and knows you aren't the careless type, she will be in fact confiscating your scissors whether you like it or not.

Hold her hand. Pretty please.

You guys definitely have certain shows and movies you watch together and only together. Even if you do complain from time to time that the books are better, you have to admit it's a nice activity that you look forward to a lot.

So..., Constance tells her family pretty much everything she can about you, so much so that they pretty much think you two are dating even if you aren't. Will Constance ever correct them? Nope.

Constance for sure has a fanpage dedicated to you, one where she can spend even more of her time dedicated to you by talking with others who like you as well! (No one else can match her devotion to you though.)

Remember the letters mentioned previously? Yeah, those are a whole lot creepier once Constance finally admits to herself that she likes you.

A/N: I FINALLY FINISHED THIS, YAY! :D

By the way, for everyone, I have closed my requests, if you weren't aware. I did it mainly so I could finish up the requests I do have and also so I could write some original stuff for a change, lol.

P.S. I know I didn't mention much of Toko's backstory here, for which I apologize. If you would like me to write about it, please feel free to request it whenever I open up my ask box again!

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sincerely-astra · 5 months ago

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Happy one-year Tumblr anniversary to me! :D

I cannot even begin to explain how much joy creating content for this Tumblr brings me, it's so nice to get my writing out there and to meet so many others who love the fandoms I'm in just as much as I do.

Thank you so much to everyone who has interacted with my content, either through reblogs, likes, or whatever, it truly does mean the world to me.

I hope you all have a good day, stay safe and stay hydrated! :)

#tumblr anniversary #anniversary #one year anniversary #ride the cyclone #steven universe #friends #twisted wonderland #danganronpa #ouran high school host club #ohshc #stardew valley #headcanons #drabbles #thank you all so much #this really means so much to me #i love you all #:))))#:3

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sincerely-astra · 5 months ago

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Hey... You accpet darkship stuff??... Because I want korekiyo x his sister but I understand if you don't!!

Hello, I don't do darkship stuff. It just personally makes me uncomfortable so I'll have to say no on this one.

#darkship #...anyway

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sincerely-astra · 5 months ago

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So i request Yandere choir X Penny some time ago, and i wanted to request other thing if it's not a problem-

Yandere choir X Penny having a crush on Tammy

So if you don’t know who Tammy is, Tammy is a character that only has like two lines in Legoland, but according to fandom hcs, Tammy is a super religious/catholic girl and Penny's best friend, she is the most devout girl in town and possible tried to convert Penny when they became friends (she stopped right after), she is a kinda popular and extrovertd and tried to make Penny fit in (it failed so both of them gave up), they meet after some bullies burned Penny's backpack, then Tammy aprooched her and gave her a CD or something

If I remember her lines were: " Only the lord knows what's really cool " and something about erasing Penny's sins

I imagine that Penny has a crush on her since they meet and she mentions Tammy most of the time, like: " Tammy introduced me to this band. " " The first time i went to the fair was with Tammy. " etc.

I hope this isn't difficult! If it is you can ignore, i don't remember much of Legoland! Thanks! 💞

☁️Yandere Choir x Penny: Penny has a crush on Tammy...🌧️

⚠️WARNING: General yandere content and some religious mentions!⚠️

Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg:

When I say Ocean has never felt so furious about anything in her life, I do mean that.

Penny and Ocean have never really spoken about Tammy before. Sure, they mentioned her in conversation once or twice (it's hard not to due to the girl's popularity), but it never went further. So hearing Penny casually mention that she really likes Tammy during one of their study sessions, Ocean had to excuse herself for a moment before she had a meltdown.

Really, she tries so hard to show Penny that she's the only one the girl needs, that she will always be there, and that she is logically the best choice. So why is it that her efforts never seem to be enough? Why is it that when she is head over heels for Penny, Penny wants to go off and smooch some other girl??

It's quite frankly, outrageous.

It's safe to say Ocean is not happy with this development and she makes it known.

For the rest of the day and week, she acts sour, never snapping at Penny (She would never) but it's clear something is bothering her which leaves Penny worried. Ocean has these moments a lot, but to have it directed at her made Penny want to crawl into a hole and die..., especially since she doesn't understand what she did wrong.

And to be fair, even if Penny did ask if she had done something wrong, Ocean would just brush it off and dote on her for a bit before going back to her foul mood. Penny was thoroughly confused...

To Ocean, she had never considered Tammy a threat to her and Penny's relationship. She knew Penny and Tammy were friends, but with Tammy being so popular and with the trouble that Penny had gotten into as of late, she never gave their interactions a second glance. Apparently, that was a bad choice on her part because now she has even more to worry about.

As mentioned before, Tammy is popular. Although she is one of the few actually religious girls in St. Cassian, everyone seems to be attracted to her whether it be for her kindness or something else. Ocean would never, ever admit this out loud but... god, she was jealous of Tammy, like, really jealous.

Ocean has always had to try hard in life, as much as she didn't want to admit it, nothing really came easy to her. 9/10, she had to drag herself to study and complete all her extra credit assignments just because she wanted that 1 extra point. Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg was successful, but that came at the cost of burnout and being alone. That's why seeing someone like Tammy be so popular and successful in her own right and not even lifting a finger to get it makes her so upset. Why is this so hard for her? How come she is the one who gets stuck with no friends? Hell, Ocean knows the majority of people don't like her at St. Cassian because of her ways, so why do people like Tammy??

Ocean just doesn't get it..., good thing this will only be a temporary setback. :)

After a good week and a half of moping over Penny's newfound crush, Ocean is quick to pull herself back together and get to work. She didn't know exactly what she wanted to do about this yet, but she knew she had to work quick and after a night of brainstorming, Ocean had a good idea.

She was going to do something she never would have done if this situation didn't arise in the first place, something she was kind of afraid to do...

It was Thursday afternoon, right before choir rehearsals started. Earlier that day, Ocean had managed to convince Tammy to meet her after school so she could talk to her about something, intentionally being very vague about the whole thing. Once Tammy was there, Ocean's plan could finally be enacted... Pulling out the fake tears and the best acting she could manage, she was quick to lie about Penny to Tammy. Oddly enough, her plan was to get Tammy to see how "awful" Penny was and to leave her alone "lest her own soul be damned."

Was it a dirty tactic? Maybe, but Tammy, after hearing about all these horrid things Penny had supposedly done (some lies, some truths,) was pressured into agreeing with Ocean to stay away. Ocean made sure to cover her tracks also by making Tammy promise to never tell Penny she said this and that she was too far in to leave Penny, unfortunately.

And like things always seemed to, everything went perfectly and Penny was kind of a mess during rehearsals.

Penny is, of course, devastated by the sudden news from Tammy that she can't be near her anymore, something about her being "unholy?" It was kind of a blur as Penny had to restrain herself from bawling on the spot.

For days on end, she was inconsolable. Tammy was her first real crush if you don't count any celebrity crushes and she thought everything was going so well... What changed to make Tammy hate her so suddenly? First Ocean and now her.

Penny didn't need to worry though as Ocean was quick to console the girl, a wide smile on her face all the while...

Noel Gruber:

Honestly, it really wasn't hard for Noel to see that Penny was gaining a crush.

It was quite obvious with the way she and Tammy were hanging out more than ever, how Penny started mentioning Tammy more often, and a lot of other signs he picked up over the course of a few weeks. He's the most romantic boy in town, he knows a thing or two about love, of course, he would be one of the first people to know she has a crush even before Penny knew.

And as much as he wanted to say that he was happy for Penny, that he was incredibly eager to help her get the girl of her dreams... He wasn't.

He wasn't at all, in fact, Noel couldn't help but be very suspicious of this development.

It just seemed odd to him that Tammy was suddenly so buddy-buddy with Penny for no reason, and someone as popular and highly religious as her was hanging out with someone with a less-than-stellar track record.

Plus, he's seen every "religious kid" here, Noel knows how they tick and he just doesn't buy that Tammy is hanging around Penny for pure reasons.

Granted, he doesn't know Tammy personally as he's sure no one would even let him glance at her in fear of her catching the "gay disease" or something stupid from him, but that definitely doesn't stop him from downplaying her to Penny.

Anytime Tammy is brought up, Noel just dies inside a little more... He doesn't mean to be so harsh, but as Penny talks about her in the giddy way she does, he can't help but make a few snide comments about the girl here and there. He wasn't exactly subtle with his distaste for her and Penny was quick to learn to stop bringing her up so often around him...

Penny didn't quite get why he was so offset by Tammy, they haven't even met so why does he get so sour when she's brought up? It really sucks too cause Penny did want them to meet at some point but now she's not too sure that would be a good idea...

Over time Noel's paranoia about Tammy just kept getting worse and worse... He's never thought about anything other than The Blue Angel and Penny this much and it's starting to aggravate him. He doesn't need to spend his nights bashing Tammy in his head or thinking about how to get Penny away from her.

But simultaneously, it was so easy to fall into the headspace when he knew Penny was so close to leaving him... There is no way on god's green earth that he's gonna let that happen but he doesn't know how to stop it unless he comes clean to Penny about his feelings on Tammy.

And without many options, he knew he would just have to take that risk.

When the week was finally over and the weekend came around, Noel had invited Penny over for one of their usual hangouts. He tried his best to not come off too strongly at the start, he didn't want to scare her off or anything by suddenly insulting the girl she was crushing on... They just talked for a while and watched a movie to settle in.

Noel wasn't sure if there even was a right time to tell her something like this..., that the person whom she considers a brother figure hates her crush's guts, but as the night neared, he knew that time would have to be soon.

...Yeah, he told her right before she left.

Penny was grabbing her things, making sure she didn't leave behind anything as Noel stood awkwardly to the side, internally trying not to panic as he thought about how to start the conversation. Snapping out of his thoughts as he heard the zipper of her purse, Penny turning towards him to bid him goodnight, the words, "I don't trust Tammy," Suddenly flooded out of him much to the shock of both him and her.

After a deafening pause, more of his feelings came out before Penny even got a chance to react. All of the built-up feelings he's had for the past few weeks were finally being acknowledged by both her and him, no longer being held back by Noel's fears. Of course, he was at least able to catch himself before his words could start slipping into a concerning territory that Penny didn't need to know about, it can't hurt her to not know that he is so constantly worried about her that he stalks her profusely or that he often thinks about keeping her trapped in his house...

...Anywho, his ramblings about his distrust of Tammy and how he's been hurt by those kinds of people in the past were met with a lukewarm reception. Penny was seriously conflicted about how to feel at the moment and it was really hard to think about it when Noel's words started getting a little more desperate.

Needing to just get away from him for just a moment, she simply replies to his ramblings with, "I'll think about it Noel, see you later." A response that delighted and terrified him to the core as she left his house, he could really only hope she made the right choice before he had to take some drastic measures... (He also totally spent the night tossing and turning from the anxiety of awaiting her response-)

Penny couldn't really believe her ears after hearing what was really bothering Noel all this time. She knew he didn't love her, but hearing the words come out of his mouth of how much he hated her was so devastating to hear.

Come on, Noel is like another brother to her and honestly, one she talks to about a lot more things than she can to Ezra, she didn't want to lose him over a crush... She does love Tammy, but who knows if that would even work out, especially with all the trouble she got into. Would Tammy still want to hang out with her if she heard about it? For some reason, Penny highly doubts it.

Penny needed Noel.

She knew it, he knew it.

The next morning for both Penny and Noel was filled with apologies from both of them and a promise. The promise is to not talk to Tammy again.

Really, Noel knew Penny was smart enough to make the right choice.

Mischa Bachinski:

Mischa has this belief that he has the complete right to go through Penny's phone at any moment he pleases, for safety reasons of course.

Penny grew up on a community farm without a lick of the internet so it makes sense she is not the most tech-savvy person in the world. She literally forgets where her phone is half the time and although she likes it, she gets frustrated with it quite easily. So why not have her loving boyfriend friend help her out and make sure she didn't download any viruses or is talking to anyone fishy!

It's all for her benefit, really.

Today was like any other weekend, Penny had left Mischa's room to use the restroom (much to his foster parent's dismay, he's sure,) and Mischa was using this opportunity to look through Penny's phone. Nothing stood out at first, she was rarely on it anyway and nothing looked like it had changed since yesterday...

Then the phone rings as a notification drops down, showing a text from a girl named Tammy... Mischa's eyebrows furrow in confusion as he clicks on the notification, eyes quickly scanning the words of Tammy and Penny's various conversations, all seeming a little too affectionate for normal friends.

As each word is processed in his brain, he feels his gut sink lower and lower as the familiar feelings of rage also tingle inside of him. Mischa had heard of Tammy from others before and he thinks Penny might have mentioned her name once or twice, but he's never interacted with the girl himself. So, who does she think she is being so flirty with his friend? What gives her the idea that it's okay to send morning and goodnight texts to Penny, heart pretty much every single text Penny sends, and be so sickeningly sweet to Penny??

He had to put the phone down for a second before his rage started really consuming him, jealousy also made its way into the mass of feelings he was experiencing at the moment.

He knew he needed to do something about this, he couldn't just let Tammy pester Penny when it was so obvious that she wanted nothing to do with the girl and was just being polite! (Lol, keep telling yourself that Mischa.) Penny shouldn't have to worry about insolent people like her when he's all she needs.

Does Mischa know of Tammy? Not really no. He's sure he's probably heard her name once or twice, most likely when speaking to Penny, but he tends to just block people's names out when they aren't someone he cares about.

Plus, even if he did know Tammy personally, that definitely wouldn't stop the immense feelings of jealousy that were rearing its ugly head inside of him when he looked at her and Penny's messages. Really, he can barely handle the choir's constant advances on her, what makes anyone think he can handle a person he barely knows advances??

He's gonna make Tammy stop bothering Penny in one way or another... In fact, there is one way he is quite familiar with that has proved to stop these kinds of nuisances in the past. Physical approaches to these situations did always tend to be his favorite.

Now despite what he's sure a lot of people think about him, he isn't a violent person, especially towards women. He doesn't plan to treat Tammy too harshly just to..., rough her up a bit, nothing too crazy. He knows people will start getting suspicious if it is too bad after all.

With Mischa not knowing Tammy personally and the fact that she was pretty popular, Mischa did find it tedious to get an ounce of alone time with her, it was like everywhere she went there were at minimum 3 people waiting to speak with her. It took a good week to find a spare moment where she was alone. It was before school outside of the back of the building, Tammy's face wearing a bright smile as she texts happily on her phone, completely unaware of a rapidly approaching Mischa. Mischa didn't exactly know what she was doing back here, but he wasn't going to waste this opportunity overthinking it.

As he got closer and closer to the girl, he found his heart rate starting to pick up, his hands subconsciously clenching at his sides. Anger..., a feeling he knew all too well started quickly spreading inside of him like a forest fire, all too eager to get to Tammy and do what needed to be done. The thoughts of Penny and Tammy texting and talking, those moments of flirtation between them, and the simple idea of them potentially getting together made Mischa unbelievably pissed, more so than he's ever been.

He doesn't care how many times he needs to say it, how many times he needs to make it crystal clear, Penny Lamb will forever be his.

No one is gonna get in the way of that.

...

Mischa can't quite recall what happens next..., only faint images of anger, rough handling, and sobs could be retrieved as he must have blacked out from the anger. All he knows and cares about now is that Penny is safe from Tammy's bothersome attention.

The past few weeks have been awfully strange for Penny...

Mischa, possibly one of her best friends in the entire world, had been acting a bit distant. It wasn't like he quit speaking to her or anything, but he was just more busy than he usually was. That was just one thing though, it wasn't enough to have her as confused as she was now.

But then out of nowhere, he started being extremely active in her life again right as Tammy decided to block her with no rhyme or reason. She was just so distraught as she rambled to Mischa about Tammy's sudden disappearance from her life that she never once thought to question it all. She can't believe a girl she really thought was the one just up and left, just like that... Was she really that bad? Was her ways of love that despicable??

Penny couldn't stop those feelings of sadness from consuming her for days...

And as sad as Mischa was to see Penny not being happy, he knew she just needed some time to see that Tammy was just a burden on her, that she never loved her the way he does.

Ricky Potts:

...

Well that was unexpected.

If you would have told Ricky that Tammy Edwards, a highly religious girl with more friends than she knew what to do with, would be friends with Penny Lamb, a girl with a known toubled past and is basically the school's punching bag, he would have looked at you like you were crazy.

And if that wasn't shocking enough, finding out that Penny liked Tammy..., that sent Ricky through a bit of a spiral.

Ricky would be lying if he said he ever cared for Tammy, really, to him, anyone who wasn't Penny, Ezra, or his parents, were all just kind of side characters he had no interest in interacting with.

Can you blame him though? When you have been shown that time and time again, everyone around you views you as a background character who has no thoughts or feelings beside than what they were "made to do," you to would get a little cynical about others as well.

Moving on, Ricky has a bad habit of looking through Penny's stuff from time to time, he knows how bad it looks, but he hates the idea that she's keeping stuff from him! So..., while Penny went off for a moment, leaving him alone in her and Ezra's shared room, he admittedly got a little curious. He checked all the usual spots he knows she hides things in, having done this plenty of times before, before coming across her diary.

Now, he knew of Penny's diary from snooping previously and because Penny herself has mentioned it before. Apparently is was just some activity Dr. Prattle was making her do to let out her "intense emotions."

Normally, he would've just skipped over it, he has some boundaries after all and reading her diary was stepping over them. But today..., today something just told him that he needed to read it. It was a gut feeling far too strong to ignore. So, he did...

Skipping over to her lastest entry, one having been done from the day prior as seen from the date written in the top left corner, he saw it.

Written in the messy handwriting he adores was, "Okay so, I think i'm finally ready to admit to myself that I really like Tammy... and not just as a friend either. (I guess those barbies were right, huh?)" Clear as day, right in front of his eyes, Penny admitted that she liked Tammy.

She didn't love him.

Ricky's hands were particularly shaky as he placed the diary back to were he found it, expression unreadable as the storm in his head grew to an incomprehensible size. He had always told himself that if he waited, if he was patient, kind, and if he was everything Penny would ever need, than she would realize he was the one for her.

He's tried so hard. Everything he does and think about is for Penny, all he wants is for her to see that he loves her more than anyone, including herself, can even imagine. He just wishes that for one moment, one signular second, that piece inside of head will click and everything will be the way it should be.

But that wasn't going to happen. That moment will never occur if Penny continues having eyes for Tammy.

...

Maybe it was the anxiety overflowing in his head or the thought that Penny would never love him that made a thought Ricky woulde have never dared to think of pop into his mind. An idea that he normally would never dream of doing, Penny is her own person after all, but in such a dire situation....

He knew it would have to be done. What better way to show Penny that he loves her like no other than to have her have no one else in her life. (With exceptions of course.)

Isolating Penny, to no one's surprise, was a lot easier than it probably would've been for most people.

All Ricky had to do was, 1. Take up as much of her time as possible (which he was already doing.) 2. Put in a few bad words here and there about Tammy or whoever else tried getting close to Penny. And lastly, 3. Make her think this was all her own desision!

Who knew Ricky could be so good at gaslighting?

Whenever he made up his mind about this plan, he started on it almost immediately, he couldn't waste anytime with it because who knows when Penny was planning to confess?

And yet, as much progress this plan was showing and even when Ricky was almost positive Tammy was out of Penny's life..., he couldn't help but still feel so paranoid.

What if Tammy came back? What if Penny still liked her and ready to just leave him behind? What if she knew what he was doing and found him utterly despicable?? What if-

Those pesky thoughts just kept snowballing and snowballing. He really would have never considered himself a nervous person, but Penny is just too amazing to let go...

Penny on the other hand, despite what Ricky's paranoia might have been screaming at him, was none the wiser to the isolation Ricky was imprinting on her. She was never really a social butterfly anyway, so she hardly noticed how these days Ricky and Ezra were the only people she talked to.

This was just her desision right? She just needs them in her life, others wouldn't get her anyway. Penny was perfectly content with being alone, as long as it meant being alone with the two most important people in her life.

Did she miss Tammy? ...Yeah, she did miss her a lot.

...

This was her desision and she's sticking to it.

(Sorry that this one is kind of bad- Writer's block is hitting me hard.)

Constance Blackwood:

"Have you seen the way that Penny looks at her?" "I just know she has the biggest lesbian crush on Tammy! Poor Tammy." Giggling and laughing soon ensue, and those words Constance would normally never pay a second glance to suddenly seem awfully interesting.

Constance was nice. That was the only word people could describe her with in St. Cassian. No matter what other skills or personality she's shown to make them think any differently, it always reverts back to her just being nice. And as much as she hates it, which, believe her, she does, she can't help but admit that it was useful in these situations.

You would be surprised by the dirt she's heard from people either too careless to notice she was there or naively believing she was too kind to do anything with it. While it's true she usually never thinks twice about this stuff, she isn't shallow after all, this time it was different. This time it was about Penny.

And it wasn't exactly something she was thrilled to hear.

In fact..., the mere idea of Penny having a slight interest in Tammy was enough to make Constance have a bit of a freak-out... Quietly, of course!

"Penny likes Tammy? But what about me??" Constance mumbled to herself as she left the cafeteria all shaken up, her thoughts scrambled as all she wanted to do in the moment was find Penny and figure out the truth. Surely she just heard it wrong right? She's been there for Penny way more than Tammy has..., and Penny would have been so understanding and open with her if she didn't like her somewhat, right? ...Right?

Constance found Penny fairly quickly since she pretty much knew the girl's schedule to a T. As soon as her brown braids came into view, Constance took a breath and tried to walk up to her as calmly as she could, it would be rude to just ask something like that so suddenly.

Constance had finally made it up there and they talked for a few minutes, luckily Constance's anxieties always seemed to melt away when she was around Penny. But she knew the bell was going to ring soon and she would have Penny to herself forever... (Even if she should-) So, with what little courage she could salvage, she manages to speak up, "Uhm Penny, do you by chance like... someone? ...Sorry-"

While the words filled the space between them, a silence came soon after as Penny, in a bit of shock and confusion, stared at Constance for what felt like an eternity... Honestly, Constance was ready to throw in the towel as soon as the silence occurred, but she somehow managed to not run out of the room at that moment and Penny finally spoke up. "...You mean to ask if I like Tammy, right? I guess I do, she's really nice and I like her smile... So, I guess that means I have a crush." Penny simply shrugged as she said that like she hadn't really thought about it and was only now realizing her feelings for the girl.

Constance, trying her absolute best not to break and start sobbing right then and there, replies with a small, "Oh..."

Look, it wasn't the fact that Constance hated Tammy that made this confirmation of Penny's crush so hard for her. Really, she's spoken to Tammy a few times and she never had any issue with her, it's just that Penny has a crush on her.

In these situations, Constance's first thought is to just be as self-deprecating as possible. Of course, she likes Tammy..., what does Constance have that Tammy doesn't? She's nice, pretty, smart, popular..., It's not exactly rocket science as to why Penny would find her attractive.

But see, Constance wasn't going to do that this time. Penny wasn't some old crush she would only really care about for a week before Constance would act like nothing happened. This was Penny Lamb, the love of her life and the girl who makes living seem even a little bit bearable. So, she wasn't going to sit back this time and watch Penny get stolen from her, no, she was actually going to do something about it.

And what better way than to do what she is always known for? She was going to be nice.

Only a day later after Penny admitted her feelings for Tammy to Constance, Constance had managed to grab some of Tammy's attention before school and get her into a semi-secluded area so they could talk. Constance honestly thought this would be a lot harder, considering Tammy's popularity and all, but despite it, Tammy made time for her. Constance could only guess this was from their friendly relationship in the past or her reputation..., either way, she was glad for it.

Like with Penny, she didn't want to scare the girl off by demanding things right away, so she decided to do some small talk. It was definitely a little awkward..., but hey, Tammy hadn't run away screaming yet so a win is a win.

Eventually, though, Tammy had the heart to finally ask, "So, is there a reason you called me out here Connie? It's not that I mind chatting, I just thought there might be something going on, you know?" Giving Constance the perfect segway into the left-field conversation she was kind of dreading having..., "Okay, so I'm just going to get it out of the way and say it but..., I like Penny, like, a lot."

Constance slowly starts to ramble on about her love for Penny and how she knows Penny likes Tammy, all to lead up to asking one simple favor of Tammy.

The favor being, to stay away from Penny.

And as much as Tammy wants to decline, to keep seeing Penny and continue exploring these feelings she had gotten for the girl..., how could she deny Constance? One of the few truly nice people at St. Cassian and especially when she's asking so nicely. Tammy can tell Constance really likes Penny and she knows she'll treat her well...

"Of course Connie, may the Lord bless you and your relationship."

...

Constance could hardly believe the words she was hearing as Tammy gave a quick goodbye, leaving her alone with her thoughts. Turns out being nice isn't all bad after all.

Now, Penny was of course very confused and a little heartbroken as she received Tammy's text. She has no clue why they can't see each other anymore..., or what "Don't worry, the Lord has made a perfect someone just for you," means.

Come on, she was just discovering what it means to love someone after being stuck on a farm with old people all her life...

Well, at least she has Constance.

A/N: I honestly have no clue if I got Tammy right- Or any of the others for that matter, writer's block is hitting me hard. :'(

This post did however make me want to write a Yandere Choir x Tammy Edwards post, which I don't know if that's a good thing or a bad thing, lol.

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sincerely-astra · 6 months ago

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YOOO, happy late new year! How was your 2024?

Happy late new year, lol!

Honestly, 2024 was a huge roller coaster for me but I’m happy with how it turned out nonetheless. I hope you had a good 2024 as well and I wish you luck on your New Year’s resolutions!

#new years #ride the cyclone #rtc #rtc musical #musical #happy new year #omg roller coaster like ride the cyclone??#ride the cyclone mention????#the brainrot is real

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sincerely-astra · 6 months ago

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Could you please do Hifumi Yamada X Trans-boy!Reader? (☁️) ^^

☁️Hifumi Yamada x Trans-Male Reader☁️

It all started at none other than an anime con, the breeding ground for artists, fanfic writers, merch creators, and anime fans alike.

Really though, the only reason you were at this particular con today was because your friend had begged you to come with them... Spouting some nonsense like you need to get out more and be "socialized", whatever that meant. So, being the great friend you are, you went with them begrudgingly and to your surprise, it was actually pretty fun! Whether you watch anime religiously, are only a casual enjoyer, or flat-out don't like it, you could still find fun in every corner of that place, there is always something for you to do.

As cons go though, you eventually lose your friend in the sea of people. You also wanted to leave soon, which required you to find them. They weren't answering your texts nor were they picking up your calls so you had to just walk around mindlessly, hoping to spot them. The best timewaster, I'm sure.

Walking around the artist alley was at least some alleviation from your growing headache as you got to see lots of cool artists! While walking though, you began to notice a rather large line of people lining up at a singular booth... In fact, the line was so large that you honestly had trouble figuring out what it was they were lining up for, only getting any information from passing conversations about some writing and a "Princess Piggles." You had to admit though, you were curious, so with time to kill until your friend answers you and some spare cash in your pocket, you make your way back to the end of the line to hopefully get a glimpse at what this particular artist was selling.

...And boy, what a long line that was. You had almost given up on three separate occasions only to just stay in line after figuring that you were too deep into it to leave now. It took a solid hour to finally make it to the front and apparently, you were the last person to do so as no one was behind you. Finally being able to see what you were probably paying for, you looked ahead and saw a booth with a ton of different books stacked on it, presumably a manga or something of the sort. Behind that booth though was a man with brown hair, glasses, chubby, and wearing a shirt with a pink-haired anime girl on it.

"Welcome to the one and only booth of the famous Alpha and Omega! Or Hifumi Yamada if you prefer, how many editions of my fanfic, "Princess Piggles and the Quest for the Crown" will you be buying today?" "...Oh, that's what this is?" "....Of course that's what this is! Are you mocking my work or something!?"

Yeah, it took a moment for you to even process the fact that he was selling fanfiction in an artist alley and the fact that, that many people wanted to buy it. No disrespect to the guy, but you have never heard of a fanfic creator becoming that popular... It just took you off guard. Still, keeping your word and getting past all the initial confusion from both you and Hifumi, you did end up buying one of the copies. You even got to talking with Hifumi (no, you will not be calling him the alpha and the omega for your own sanity) and he honestly did seem to be too bad after you cleared up the misconception from earlier.

Admittedly, he was still a bit skeptical of your intentions but that's just how he is with everyone, so there's no true malice behind it.

Hifumi didn't think too much of you at first, it was nice talking to someone who wasn't the five online friends he regularly chats to about Princess Piggles and other anime, but it wasn't like you automatically became besties or anything.

Not to mention, this was just one meeting at a con and you both didn't exchange socials, so it's unlikely you'll meet again...

Yeah, unlikely doesn't mean it won't actually happen. It was no later than a few weeks later when you two met up again at another con. And then you saw him at another one and another one... You both went to a lot of cons apparently.

You two didn't go up to each other outside of the booth, but you would go up to his booth and buy whatever new edition of his fanfic was out as well as chat for a bit.

You kind of felt like a regular customer with how often you were seeing and buying his stuff. Though truth be told, you were more there just to chat with the guy since, well, why not? It's not often you keep meeting up with the same person at different cons completely unplanned, it had to mean something right?

Hifumi also didn't mind the company, you both actually got to know each other a little better and learned things about each other's personal lives. You learned he had a sister, that he occasionally likes karaoke, he likes diet coke, etc.

Gonna be honest, Hifumi was completely oblivious to the signs that you were trans at first...

He's never had many friends to begin with, much less female or trans ones, so any sign that could have given you away is completely lost on him. The only thing that he noticed was that you were a little more tomboyish than the usual girls he runs into, but even that's subjective with each girl.

Your acquaintanceship had been growing pretty rapidly ever since you two first met and a friendship was quickly blooming.

The catalyst for it of course is the fact that you two finally decided to exchange numbers!

Outside of cons, you would text each other pretty frequently between school, work, and what have you. Hifumi was pretty great at making you laugh, not to mention his seamlessly endless supply of memes he had for every occasion, it wasn't hard to start actively seeking out his presence through the phone.

He would give you sneak peeks on new editions of his fanfics and you'd give him whatever critiques you could find on the previous ones, which there weren't that many of considering he was a really good writer.

You did try to lean into the fact that you were trans a few times in conversations, mainly because it was giving you bad dysphoria being referred to as Miss and other feminine attributes all the time...

He still didn't quite pick it up though.

Though, if you tell him to stop calling you miss, he will stop! So, it's a small victory.

A big perk of having Hifumi as a friend is that he will draw for you, be it your OC's or just something from your favorite shows, movies, games, etc., he loves surprising you with them.

While being his friend, please also do the world a small favor and try to make him calm down a bit... Especially his attitude towards women.

The world thanks you for your service.

He will be yapping to you about Princess Piggles, no questions asked. He also makes fun of you for not being as invested in it as he is, but it's all in good fun.

Please feed him some actual food, Hifumi hasn't eaten anything other than snacks and junk for the past few years, he needs this-

If you ever ask Hifumi if you can burrow his clothes (because they are more oversized and more masculine than what your wardrobe), it's gonna be a hesitant yes, not because there's a problem with you burrowing them but because he only has so many clothes that actually fit him... He really hates clothes shopping.

Hifumi's talent, no matter what others might say, is impressive.

He brings the worlds he loves to real life, spreading the joys of such creations to anyone who will listen. Although entertainment is not something incredibly useful like medicine or martial arts, it is still a pillar in people's lives.

He wishes more people would realize that...

Weirdly enough, Hifumi, I headcanon Hifumi to be a germaphobe. He will ask you to sanitize your hands anytime you come over and wash them at least five more times before touching anything.

Hifumi is also not judgy, like, at all. He might be in denial of most things, but he is very aware that others find his talent and passions weird so he never really feels like he has room to judge anyone else.

There comes a point in your friendship when Hifumi actually does start to pick up on the clues that you're trans and it surprises him that it took this long for him to realize anything- Although he doesn't exactly know you trans, he does find it weird how often you cover your body up, how you try hard to speak in a more monotone voice, the way you avoided mirrors, all of these signs that started to concern him.

He didn't want to push you to talk to him about it, he valued your friendship too much to lose it by him being stupid. (He might also have a teeny tiny crush on you but whattt-)

Hifumi Yamada is not that impatient..., but god is it hard to not blurt out all his questions the more stuff he notices. Look, he does feel bad, but also, he really wants to know, like, now! :'(

That's why when you eventually come out to him, his first reaction is a sigh of relief... He is now in the know. Don't worry though, cause his second reaction is to be immensely supportive, scooping you into a hug and saying whatever he thinks sounds right in the moment. He really just wants you to be you and be comfortable being you with him, please know he cares about you so much and you're welcome to tell him anything!

With coming out, out of the way, Hifumi's behavior and actions don't actually change much from before coming out- He's never treated you one way or the other before, so why start now? He does try to be considerate of things that might give you dysphoria though and he will give you gender-affirming items like binders if need be. Trust him, his fanfics have made quite the market so he's not afraid to spend a couple bucks on you.

The transphobes better beware too, cause Hifumi will go after them in online and real life! No transphobe will be getting passed him, not to you or any other trans person he sees getting harrassed.

You two have a ton of over-the-phone movie nights together when either of you for whatever reason can't go over to the other house. The only thing is though that Hifumi will be picking the most obscure anime movies to watch or something with Princess Piggles, so you might be suffering through it all the whole time.

Hifumi absolutely hates horror since he gets freaked out quite easily, so horror movies, games, and what have you are all banned.

Now, Hifumi has had a... small crush on you for quite a while now. (Who's he kidding? Dude is literally head over heels for you.)

But he's always been kind of in denial about it since you are friends and he rather die than lose his one irl friend. Plus, there's no way on earth you would like someone like him... He's well aware of how he is and he sees no reason for you to like him.

Hifumi is in pretty good denial about his feelings towards you due to his own insecurities and the risk of jeopardizing your relationship over something that will totally go away in like a week. But as time passes and his feelings just get stronger and stronger instead of disappearing like he wished they would, he knew he was eventually gonna crack... He was not good with these kinds of things and it was pretty clear to you that something was bothering him every time you came over. It was written all over his face... and his sweaty palms.

He tries to keep his cool anytime he's around you, he talks about Princess Piggles and all his other interests, but suddenly, mid-way through talking, none of his passions seem so interesting when you are in front of him...

God, he can't believe he's allowing himself to love someone that isn't 2D... May Princess Piggles forgive him for this but he can't keep in his love for you any longer.

When he finally feels ready to confess after months of staying in this awkward crush phase, he is determined to confess in the most formal, romantic way he can think of.

He gets you both a reservation at a nice restaurant, telling you it was just to celebrate your friendiversary (which conveniently was coming up,) and he gets everything prepared for that day. He rents himself a nice tux, buys flowers, and tries his best to emotionally prepare himself so he doesn't break down through dinner from his nerves.

It was going to be perfect, he's seen countless anime scenes where this very thing happens, surely it won't be that much different in real life, right?

On a cool Sunday night, you both meet up at said restaurant all dressed up and fancy, ready to have a nice time. While walking in with Hifumi and sitting at a table, it wasn't hard to see that something was bothering him... You didn't mention it right then, but he was jittery and nervous throughout the whole meal, completely unlike himself. Sure, he was talking and joking like normal, but there was always this tension coming from him that made you raise an eyebrow... Hifumi himself wasn't feeling great about it either, mentally cursing himself for still being so nervous even after all those hours spent preparing for this very moment. It didn't help that he was kind of overstimulated at the moment with all the bright lights, his stuffy tux, the new foods, and everything else that was making this night a lot harder than he wanted it to be.

Hifumi practically ran out of his seat once dinner was over and he paid the bill, saying that there's this nice scenic spot he wants to take you to. Said spot being a gorgeous, secluded spot, right along the beach, the moonlight reflecting off the water's surface finally get the chance to ask Hifumi what was wrong, a question that had been on your mind ever since you saw him. Hifumi took a deep breath... and finally was able to tell you how he felt!

Except that you couldn't understand a word he said due to how fast he was speaking- It took a few more times of him saying the same thing over and over for him to finally slow down and let the words, "I love you!" Leave his mouth.

His heart was pounding as his ears rang, the silence between you two making him really want to take everything he just said back even if he knew he couldn't...

He's glad for that as well since not even a second later after that thought passed through his mind, you accepted his confession. You accepted him.

Hifumi can be kind of touchy when in a relationship since he's been so touch-starved all his life, he needs to make up for all that lost time!

One of the biggest changes in his life since getting into a relationship with you is the fact that his Princess Piggles obsession has simmered down drastically-

Also, he's a lot more active and social now since you two go out a lot on dates or just hang out. However, his favorite moments are still the ones where you two just laze about watching movies at home.

He pretty much kisses the ground you walk on, no joke. Hifumi just never thought real love would ever come to him, much less with someone who is 3D, so he wants to make sure he treats you right!

He is still a very active supporter of your identity, arguably even more so now that he's in a relationship with you. He is always staying informed with the trans community and still tries his best to make you comfortable wherever you both are.

Seriously, Hifumi does not understand transphobes... Like, how can you hate something that doesn't even mildly affect you or hurt anyone?? He's so confused.

Hifumi could really care less if you want to fully transition or not, whatever you want to do is none of his business and he supports whatever route you take. If you do wish to medically transition though, he will be paying for your surgeries and medications since he wants to help out in any way he can. :)

He loves getting you any kind of trans pride items that he can find, like pins and shirts. He also gets some ally pins pins for himself.

Please let him drag you to every con he goes to, he needs your support while he talks to so many people who don't know Princess Piggles like he does! :'(

He also will take breaks with you though and go around actually exploring the con and probably spending way too much money on other stalls at the artist alley-

Whenever he's doing art warmups, his favorite thing to sketch out is you.

A/N: I am not going to lie, I was surprised to see a request for Hifumi since people usually tend to dislike him. I quite enjoyed writing this though, he deserves some more attention. :)

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sincerely-astra · 6 months ago

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Noel x Trans Male reader, pretty plz :]

☁️Noel Gruber x Trans-Male Reader☁️

Noel Gruber met you during one of your choir competitions rather unceremoniously...

See, in "stroke of brilliance" (heavy air quotes) by Father Marcus, he decided the best way to actually win this choir competition was to randomly acquire a new member without telling anyone and hoping that the said new member was magically so good that they won the choir actually won the competition...

It doesn't take a rocket scientist to determine how well that one went.

Not only did they lose in a competition against themselves, but now there's a new member, Noel would have to deal with. Great.

Granted, he didn't get to speak to you much during your first meeting since Ocean was running around, trying to get you ready for your first performance, so he didn't really know what kind of person you were.

But considering the rest of the people at St. Cassian, it would be a miracle if he didn't walk past you and hear you mutter a slur at him.

So, for at least this moment in time, Noel was not going to be bothered to go out of his way to get to know you. He doesn't need to hold your hand and explain everything about choir to you, (*cough, cough* Ocean *cough, cough-*) you hadn't lived 17 years on this earth for nothing. Plus, he didn't need any more trouble on his plate, he already had to deal with Ocean and Mischa, can the world please leave him be for just a moment!

Noel stayed pretty far away from you for the first couple of weeks in the choir, it helped that you guys didn't have any classes together, so he wasn't seen as being outright rude or anything for intentionally avoiding you. He did talk to you when needed, but those conversations were few and far between.

As previously stated, he wasn't going to talk to someone who had a high chance of being homophobic.

...But god, does he love getting under Ocean's skin any chance he gets.

It was clear to everyone that even Ocean wasn't super thrilled about your abrupt arrival during the competition weeks prior, but that didn't stop her from taking it in stride and being a "model student!"

Which basically means she was acting like you've never sung or done anything in your life.

Of course, this slightly irked you, but it wasn't too awful and you weren't going to yell at the girl for trying to help out (that's what you think she's trying to do at least.) But after having her condescendingly "teach" you things for weeks and having her comment on how sloppy your baggy attire was, it came to the point where you were fully annoyed with her, frustrated even.

She was going on and on about your appearance again, pointing out everything she deemed inappropriate for school and even getting close to figuring out a certain fact that you aren't ready to talk to everyone else about yet... (Look, for as annoying as Ocean can be, she's smart and she's seen enough trans people in her lifetime to be able to start putting together the pieces okay.)

Now, Noel usually would roll his eyes at the comments and turn his attention to something else, but he also happened to be in a not-so-great mood that day. All he wanted was some peace and quiet after school before he had to go to work. Was that so much to ask for?

So, with a long sigh that said everything about his mental state at the moment, he walks over to you and Ocean and starts laying it in her. Ocean was stubborn and the two began bickering like usual before getting broken up by Father Marcus before things could get too heated.

That was enough time though for Ocean to get off your back for a while and for Noel to finally get some semblance of peace in the awful world. Now, don't get him wrong, he wasn't doing this for you but he did pity you somewhat.

He looks over to you, a questioning look on his features as he asks if you're okay. Whatever answer you give him, be it a yes or no, he gets how Ocean can be and has mentally made up his mind to stay with you for a bit to talk it out.

He tries to be nice when it comes down to it.

Noel leads you back to his seat, motioning for you to sit down in the empty seat beside his, and you two talked for a while as rehearsals were getting set up (which takes a while since Ocean is really the only one taking it seriously-).

Through your talk of him giving you whatever comfort he can and letting you know that you aren't crazy, he comes to realize that you aren't all bad. At the very least, you are a lot nicer than most people here and pretty genuine, which is a rarity these days.

He finds himself smiling while speaking to you, a warmth coming over him as it dawns on him that he is actually enjoying this conversation. He enjoys being near you.

That's why, despite still keeping his guard up, he made up his mind to try and get to know you. Lord knows he needs at least one friend in Uranium...

Noel now goes out of his way to speak with you during choir and lunch, sometimes during the morning as well when he actually shows up early for a change.

He's learned a lot about you in the short time you've known each other, even stuff you didn't tell him directly cause despite what it may seem, Noel is actually pretty intuitive.

He's a big supporter of you, even as you're just getting to know each other, he just thinks everyone should be able to go after their passions, and that very well also applies to you.

Like Ocean, he too noticed your choice in baggier clothes and the way you carried yourself differently than other women, but he never bothered questioning it even if it did make him raise an eyebrow once or twice.

If you ever get uncomfortable with something he or someone else is doing, just tell him and he'll do his best to make you comfortable, even if he doesn't realize it's because you're trans.

Somehow, you integrated into his daily life so seamlessly... Noel can't help but be taken aback a little when realizing this fact. He went from not bothering to talk to you at all, to actually considering you a friend, and even though it was all an intentional process, it still freaks him out at how quickly you two became friends.

...

Eh, not like he's complaining, it's too late to go back now anyway.

Noel has strange ways of showing his affection towards you because his way of doing that can either be to give you the most sincere, loving compliments, or to be the meanest person you have ever had the misfortune of meeting. There's not a middle ground.

He just thinks everyone needs to be taken down a peg, though for you it's all just fun and games.

You are quite literally his only friend-

I mean it, Noel won't show it, but he is lonely.

If you ask, he will definitely lend you some clothes! :)

Honestly, he actively encourages you to steal some of his clothes since he thinks they look nice on you. You do have to give them back though-

There comes a time when Noel finally feels comfortable enough to come out to you about being gay... even though he's sure you've known since the rumors about it are endless.

Still, it's better to find out from Noel himself than some nobodies.

His coming out wasn't extraordinary though, you both were just hanging out in his room, watching The Blue Angel, and he just casually lets it slip, "I'm gay by the way." Which you could only respond with an, "...Okay?"

Very average Saturday night.

Speaking of The Blue Angel, trust that Noel is making you watch that every time you come over.

He is begging for someone to get this movie the way he gets it. :'(

Noel is normally kind of shy when showing his poetry to others since he doesn't think it's very good, but if you beg him enough, he will show you.

Just try to criticize it too much or he might cry when you leave-

And just like your friendship, Noel's crush on you developed similarly, that being a gradual shift over time. He could tell his feelings for you were getting stronger by the day, but being hurt before, and him not even being attracted to girls, he was extremely reluctant to tell you about it.

Seriously, he knows he's gay, he knows he isn't attracted to girls but for some reason, he's attracted to you. Maybe it's the fact that you don't look or act that much like a girl around him, but Noel's thoughts were still a mess...

While in this awkward crush phase, Noel is a little more sensitive to compliments and criticisms from you. It's not that obvious unless you are paying special attention to it, you can really only see it when he starts fiddling with his hair during his more anxious moments, and the slight pink of his cheeks when you laugh at his sarcastic remarks.

He also gets kind of defensive whenever someone else or you tease about him possibly having a crush on you, whether it be serious or just playful teasing, he immediately has alarm bells going off in his head.

Subconsciously, whenever Noel starts to recognize his feelings for you, even if he pushes them down, he does start to notice more of your odd behaviors that reveal your actual gender identity. Like you hiding your chest at all costs or how uncomfortable you get in more typically feminine outfits, he notices it. It's not like he didn't really see it before, but now when he has the urge to just gaze your way, he just sees it more often.

Learning about Monique was a weird experience for you...

Just thinking about it, Monique would definitely have you start questioning if Noel was also trans or not, considering his whole fascination and want to be like her-

Noel does explain to you that he's not trans and he just likes living his darkest fantasies through her, so all is well!

Whenever you start crushing on Noel, he's gonna be an incredibly hard person to keep those feelings from because, despite his own reservations and his own feelings for you, he can be pretty touchy. It's never like, overbearing, but he does like to hold your hand and lean on your shoulder, which might have you struggling to keep your heart at a normal pace...

He's also just so sweet to you when he's not being incredibly sarcastic..., he makes you poems and will give you flowers, true boyfriend material.

Before we get carried away though, there was still the whole, coming out thing you had to do...

Deep down, you know Noel would be accepting of you and your identity and he would never want to hurt or lose you, but there's always that little bit of doubt inside your head. It's always a nagging feeling of, "He's just gonna leave. Why bother telling him and ruining such a great friendship?" But despite your fears, you knew you would have to tell him eventually so he could at least hear it from you and not someone else.

It was so scary but... you love him, you love him so much and you needed him to know this before you allow yourself to be truly vulnerable around him.

Your coming out was a bit more formal than Noel's was, with you bringing him over to your house when your parents weren't home, sitting down, and taking a big breath before explaining your identity to him. You explained how you felt uncomfortable being a woman and how she/her pronouns never felt right for you, you explained all of it.

As you talked Noel through it, he really wasn't that surprised, in fact, he feels he should have seen this coming... He's seen so many unspoken behaviors he's not even sure you knew you had, and the fact that he knew something was off about you should've been his first signs that you weren't cis. Nonetheless, he's so incredibly glad you told him how you felt, even if he could only wish it had happened sooner, he's so happy you felt comfortable sharing this with him, when he, out of anyone, would know how difficult coming out can be.

He reaches for your hand after those thoughts and feelings you had for such a long time fall from your lips, his thumb rubbing circles into your palm, and he says, "You're so great, you know that? Thanks for telling me." Before brushing some of your hair behind your ear and enveloping your form in a hug that could only be described as soothing. He hopes you know how loved you are and how glad he is to have you in his life.

It must have been all of this new information coming out of the sheer vulnerability in the air, but as Noel held you in his arms, his heart wouldn't stop beating rapidly... It was as if it was screaming at him to confess already, to let his feelings out.

Learning you were trans-masc gave so many answers to the questions that had plagued his head ever since he found out he liked you, even making his attraction to you stronger than before.

There might have been some part of him that always knew this was the case, that part of him that flourished his love for you in the first place. Whatever the case may be, he couldn't stop his mouth from whispering the words, "I love you."

The moment had been vulnerable enough with your coming out and as the words left his mouth, his eyes slightly widened and hurriedly fell back away from your grasp. He can't believe he just said that... God, he really needs someone to take away his title of the most romantic boy in town if this is how he's confessing to you...

But before he could apologize and run out the door, he heard, "I love you too," leave your mouth and fill the air.

That was the day Noel Gruber actually managed to bag someone.

A plus side to you and Noel dating was that he was notably less sarcastic with you! He does still have his moments though.

If you thought he wrote a lot of poems about you before? Well, think again, cause he somehow made like 10 poems all about the way your eyes sparkle in the sun.

Seriously, you're like crack to him or something because why is he suddenly whipping up these things like they're nothing??

He is begging for you to visit him at work, he can literally not take being around these dumb freaking customers any minute longer!! :'(

Noel is once again, your number one supporter and now he is upgraded because he gets to support you being trans as well!

He may be kind of broke, but he will be buying you whatever supplies you may need, be it binders, masculine clothes, a decent hair stylist, whatever you want, you shall receive.

He still wouldn't mind if you wanted to burrow his clothes though... (Translation: PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE-)

Don't worry that a transphobe will even be in your direct vicinity because Noel can somehow sniff out those losers within a second. No one is hurting the love of his life today!

If they somehow did get to you though, he is a good person to go for comfort since he knows all about how it feels to not be accepted. He is ready to listen, distract, and he has chocolates for you to snack on.

Unlike others, he will be glazing you every moment he gets. Yes, you're just that handsome and smart, obviously.

If you ever have any bad days with gender dysphoria or what have you, all you have to do is go to him for a cuddle and you will be feeling better instantaneously.

A/N: Yay, it's finally done! :D

Hopefully, this is okay and that Noel falling in love even before he really knew you were trans is okay, I just feel even if he didn't know you were a guy (even though I'm sure he'd pick it up at some point) he would still love you for the person you are. If this isn't okay though or homophobic/transphobic in any way, then please tell me and I'll change it!

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sincerely-astra · 6 months ago

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Hi!! Can I please request Jane/Penny with a fem reader on her period?? Thank you!! <3

☁️Jane Doe/Penny Lamb x Reader On Her Period☁️

I hope it's okay if I put Penny and Jane separately since even if they are technically the same person, I think they both act pretty different and I would see them doing different things in this situation. :')

Penny Lamb:

Oh honey..., she feels you.

I can imagine Penny, due to all the stress of her life, probably has a pretty heavy flow and such herself, so she understands how terrible periods are more so than most.

It really doesn't matter if your period is light, heavy, long, or short, a period is a period and she will be caring for you no matter how bad it is.

She will also be grateful if you tell her this sort of thing since now she helps you instead of being concerned about why you're acting a bit differently than normal.

Even if you didn't, she respects your privacy! She probably will also figure it out anyway, lol.

Penny knows all the tips and tricks when it comes to dealing with periods since growing up on a communal farm comes with knowing lots of older women who have been around the block once or twice.

She gets you pads, tampons, panty liners, and whatever you need and feels comfortable with.

Also, be aware that the amount of chocolate and bottles of your favorite drinks will be endless... You will literally have enough to last you til your next period.

Do you have bad cramps? Cause don't worry, she's got a heating pad and a dream of helping you get better!

She is also pretty accommodating with how much affection you want on your period since even if she can be kind of needy, she will give you space if you need it! You are just gonna have to make up for it later. >:)

Unsurprisingly, a lot of the tips she learned during her time at Elysium can be kind of useless since a lot of them require some kind of natural "herbal" medicine... And yes, that means weed-

You didn't end up using those kinds of tips.

If you let her, she will be the most cuddly girlfriend one can ask for.

If you guys do end up getting your period together, you might have to be a bit more accommodating for her since her cramps are vicious...

Jane Doe:

...Oh, she does not know how to accommodate this.

Jane is a doll's head on a dead human body.

She doesn't even know if she's ever had a period before-

Nevertheless, she'll do whatever she can to help you get better.

You just have to guide her through it most of the time...

I think she's the type to mainly buy pads, but I can also see her buying everything else if you aren't too specific about what you want.

She may not be the best at knowing exactly how to help you and when you need it, but her cold hands do work as a pretty nice ice pack when you have cramps.

She is also pretty good at distracting you from the pain, mainly from rambling on and on about her rather morbid animal facts...

If it works, it works.

Jane's voice is soothing for those days when you just lay in bed, unwanting or unable to move.

She'll let you rant as much as you want about the pain for however long you want to.

She's just happy she gets to talk to you!

Please let her cuddle you as well..., she wants to help you and take your problems away. :'(

...

Hearing about your period's lowkey makes Jane never want one.

They sound awful-

A/N: Guys..., I hand-fived some preschoolers after performing for them the other day, and now I am mildly sick. >:'(

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sincerely-astra · 6 months ago

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Hiya!! :D

- @theangelcatalogue

Hello ! :))

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sincerely-astra · 6 months ago

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Uh... If your requests are open, can i request Yandere polychoir (the choir) with a Mikan Tsumuki!Reader (A darling that acts like Mikan, or even is Mikan herself, danganronpa and rtc is a crossover i never imagined so-)? Thanks in advance!! ฅ^•ﻌ•^ฅ

☁️Yandere Choir x Mikan Tsumiki!Reader🌧️

⚠️WARNING: General yandere content, mentions of fighting, abuse, scars, and possibly more! This is also geared towards a fem reader, but I'm sure you can switch around some things if you wish to read it differently.⚠️

Ocean O'Connell Rosenberg:

Omg, Hi!! Welcome to the choir Constance 2.0!

Yeah, Ocean is pretty quick to treat you like Constance the first time you meet. You're both shy, insecure, and gullible, why wouldn't she?

This goes on for maybe 5 minutes minimum before Ocean is introduced to probably the most notable thing about you..., just how unbelievably clumsy you are. No lie, in the time she managed to meet you and go over to Father Marcus to ask questions about their upcoming competition, you had already managed to trip over (seemingly) thin air and fall face down, ass up.

...Ocean will admit that she definitely wouldn't have written you off so quickly if she knew this was how you were.

Look, she's met her fair share of clumsy people, but the way you just kept falling every time you tried to get up while bawling your eyes out stunned even her.

And yet, when she manages to shake off the shock of your less-than-stellar first impression, Ocean is quick to make up her mind about you.

See, in the time she has known your sorry soul, she has now made it her mission to help you baby you!

Dead serious though, she babies you so much... You pretty much can't do anything without hearing a, "Oh! No, no, no sweetie, let me do that for you!" From her.

On the bright side though, she can be surprisingly comforting (albeit, a bit condescending) when you accidentally fall or if your anxiety gets the better of you and you start sobbing mid-rehearsal.

Speaking of you sobbing mid-rehearsal, anytime you get upset like that and start offering to do some less-than-appropriate things for your fellow choir members, Ocean lowkey starts to feel really bad for you, like, way more than before. Your personalities are on two different extreme ends and while she can't understand why you say or do the things that you do (seriously, please stop asking her if she wants you to take your clothes off, she promises, she really doesn't-) she does want to help you past these feelings and grow more confident.

Right after she says you can't hurt yourself by being away from her for too long.

As mentioned before, with your extremely different personalities and your, quite frankly, fragile sense of self, even Ocean just feels incredibly bad for you. Really, you have super low self-esteem, you offer things that you really shouldn't be to people who could take advantage of you, you're super clumsy, and so on and so forth. Just the way cry and apologizes over and over makes her pretty much the softest person around... She'll be the one who ends up apologizing! Do you understand how strange that is to everyone else?!

She cannot stand seeing you cry, you are way too precious for that.

Ocean also very much cherishes the few moments when you can be calm, usually when talking about medicine or things related to that. It's like seeing a whole other side to you and she does admire how knowledgable you are.

She is also definitely taking notes on everything you talk about because she likes to know what topics get you in a good mood and what ones to stay away from.

It's so weird because even she'll admit that she used to be very focused on herself and becoming the "best version" of herself she could be, but now she finds herself looking out for you more and more as the days pass... Ocean so frequently finds herself worried on how you are whenever she can't see you and has seriously debated multiple times in convincing you to change your courses just so you'll be in the same classes. Choir just isn't enough for her! :(

There was this one time when you and Ocean were walking to choir together after school, mainly just Ocean telling you her plans for the future and how she's gonna get there, only for her to suddenly trip on some uneven concrete and scrap her knees pretty badly. In the moment, she was feeling a lot like you suddenly-

Ocean was quick to get up, trying to suppress the tears that prickled in her eye ducts from the sudden pain. She was totally good to just keep walking to the choir room, doing rehearsals, and going to the nurses after school, and that's what she was going to do until you suddenly grabbed her shoulder to stop her from walking.

You insisted on patching up her knees before rehearsal, mentioning how they could get infected and how it would only hurt more if she left it untreated. Ocean really did try to deny it, the others were waiting for them and education waits for no one! But you weren't having it...

Cue you somehow pulling out a few bandaids and some rubbing alcohol from your bag, none of which Ocean was even going to begin questioning why you have. She couldn't even if she wanted to because... as embarrassing as it was, she found you absolutely stunning in the moment. Your focused expression and precise movements struck a chord with her as you got to work, a blush escaping on her cheeks while she stared at your crouched form.

You just seemed so different than what she was so used to..., even when there were those few moments of calm between you two while you explained the intricacies of medicine to her, there was always that barrier that made you unable to fully just relax and be yourself... But now that barrier was basically nonexistent, your usually anxiety-ridden and insecure nature being replaced by a calm, confident one that Ocean had to admit she found incredibly attractive. She liked that you can be yourself around her, even if it's in a moment like this. She wants to see more of it.

As quick as a bunny running from its prey is how fast she fell for you, all in a matter of a few seconds she felt it crash down on her heart and bring her new thoughts she had never thought she would entertain before.

I don't think I can say enough that Ocean infantilizes you, but now that she has a crush on you, that might just get 100x worse. You cannot do a thing without her peering over your shoulder and basically doing everything for you (minus anything to do with being a nurse since she loves watching you do that.) It's not like you can really say anything about it either considering you can barely stand up for yourself as it is...

It's unfortunately just a fact of life now.

She also uses this weird relationship with you to be as close as possible, like she'll do things clearly meant for couples but she always reassures you that "it's just what friends do."

This means you are gonna get smooched everywhere except the lips, a lot. (She gets too nervous to do the lips since she surprisingly wants to actually be dating you before that-)

This also means a lot of touching because Ocean is touch-starved.

Side note, you definitely want to ignore the way she stares at you 24/7, nothing weird about that at all, nope. Very normal behavior on her part.

There comes a point where Ocean, being the girl she is, gets extremely pushy when it comes to learning more about her girlfriend's friend's home life and life before St. Cassian. Look, when you act the way you do, can you blame her for being a little curious?

And sure, you did try to maneuver around the subject and not talk about it since it brings up bad memories. Ocean has thankfully been teaching you how to actually say no to people so this was a good start until you immediately caved cause Ocean started to look a little frustrated (she was not at all.)

You were pretty quick to crack and you immediately gave Ocean every detail she wanted to know, from your parent's abuse to your less-than-stellar schooling experiences, Ocean knew it all.

Oh my god does Ocean have some choice words for people and even more actions she wants done to them. She is so brimming with silent rage that by the time you get done she has to physically have to tightly hold on to her seat to stop herself from running out of there to beat people up verbally and physically.

Ocean even hates physical violence but she is 100% on board with it when it comes to your peers and parents.

There was a long period of silence after you finished telling everything as she needed to calm herself down before she continued to talk to you, and you were sure you did something wrong... How could you not when her eye was twitching and her hands were clenched to the seat of her chair?

After a good minute of tense silence, you started to apologize and make various offers to make it up to her, saying how you shouldn't have thrown such a pity party for yourself and saying you pretty much deserved the abuse anyway, anything to get her to talk to you, to not ignore you.

When I say she so quickly grabbed your hands and was so quick to denounce everything you just said. This was in no way, shape, or form, your fault and it was so disheartening to hear you say that it was. Ocean is in no way good at comforting people, she is aware of this, but there was no one in the world she wanted to try comforting harder for than you. You are the sweetest, caring, and most intelligent individual she's ever had the pleasure of meeting and she would rather die than have you not know that! (Too late for that one I guess-)

Many hugs were given and tears were shed that day.

Also many broken bones and a spike in reported abuse cases, but we're just gonna move on from that.

Ocean loves you unlike any other, she's never even felt this way about someone and legitimately thought she was incapable of it.

You are such a breath of fresh air in this dingy, unremarkable school and town, like a singular ray of sunshine on an otherwise cloudy day.

She adores the color of your hair, the bandages that cling to your arms and legs, your smile, your handwriting, and everything about you. You're just in a different league compared to everyone else she's met..., even above her own which she was surprised to think about.

She seriously does have to stop herself from combusting on the spot anytime you "trip" into an intimate position...

Sometimes, Ocean will deliberately take your stuff and hide it from you just so she can "look for it" with you, find it, and be praised by you.

All she asks in return is a smooch :) (And your undying loyalty-)

So, as much as Ocean adores and loves you, she does have a tendency to push your self-esteem down at times because she is insecure that if you get too confident you'll leave her for someone you actually deserve.

Ocean will also not let you speak to anyone outside the choir or the people who you are required to for the very same reason, but she uses the excuse that everyone will bully her and she shouldn't be around people like that.

Noel Gruber:

The way Noel meets you is... unconventional at best.

He finds himself speed walking to the choir room, determined to get there before Ocean so he can turn the tables and scold her for once, only to hear a crash as he pulls down the handle on the door... He was wholeheartedly prepared to deal with their frequent rat problem, thinking nothing of the crash as he walked into the room, eyes already scanning the floor for the hairy, grey pests.

That's when his eyes lock on your form sprawled out across the floor in a way he didn't even know was humanly possible... Music sheets and pencils are scattered everywhere. He's not a jerk, of course, so he quickly shook off his confusion and helped you up... before you tripped yet again and pulled him down with you.

He can already tell that you will have a lot to deal with.

And he was right, upon learning you were a new addition to the choir, he was also quick to learn of your eccentric personality.

Quite frequently when you would get something wrong during practice or one of your few shared classes, you would offer anyone who would listen to a variety of "services," most of which everyone would uncomfortably turn down.

You would also let people walk all over you, making you a prime suspect for bullying but also, to Noel's annoyance, a perfect target for Ocean's shenanigans which included lots of things, making sure he got to choir on time being one of them.

He definitely isn't saying you are all bad, you have a nice voice and he has to admit, he is a fan of your aesthetic.

What he is saying though, is that he doesn't see you much differently from Constance or Penny and often chooses to stay away from you, despite his concerns for your wellbeing at times.

Seriously, with how often your personality can go from 0 to 100 it's a wonder how you have the emotional strength to make it through the day.

Nevertheless, his plans of avoiding you were going swimmingly! You didn't really talk to him during choir, much less during class, so he didn't have to try all too hard to not associate with you.

That was until he was informed both of your English teachers were going to assign partners for an upcoming partner project... Guess who he got stuck with.

No really, guess.

As much as Noel wanted to beg your teacher to rethink her decision and let him work alone, he just decided to suck it up. You aren't all that bad and it was one project that you both can get done quickly and he can go back to ignoring your presence.

Unfortunately, life seems to love laughing at him recently.

The project itself wasn't too difficult, just pick a few poems by some more obscure poets and write a paper on how they all connect to a theme of your choosing.

It would be no issue at all to go to one of your houses after school for a couple of days and finish it all up. The house you chose was Noel's as you were weirdly incessant about not going to your place... Whatever, he certainly wasn't going to complain.

For the next few days, you both did what you needed to and Noel got to know you a little more during your breaks. Sure, you were still pretty emotional and he had to shut down your weird offers every time they were brought up, but he was surprised to find a more calm side to you.

Maybe it was the fact that you were in the safety of his home or maybe it was because Noel had proven not to have any ulterior motives during the span of this project, but eventually, you managed to be calmer and happier during the time you two spent together. It was easy to talk to him, it was so easy just to relax and not have your fight-or-flight response put into overdrive at every opportunity.

It was nice to be near someone who wouldn't judge you. Even if he did, it was almost always in a teasing manner.

That's why you were to grow on him, quick to be able to feel like a normal teenager, quick to enjoy his company.

Likewise, Noel had grown to like you too. You were actually a lot more mature and thoughtful than many others gave you credit for, he felt like you could understand his need for tragedy.

You could potentially understand him.

That's why after the project was over and his plans for ignoring you once more were supposed to commence, he instead did a complete 180 and kept talking to you.

You walk to choir together, he helps you avoid bullies, he lets you stay over at his house more often, all the typical friend stuff.

By far though, his favorite thing to do with you is to have mini-fashion shows. He knows better than anyone that it's childish, but that does not stop him from having the biggest grin on his face when he watches your face light up as he is dressed as Monique.

Once he actually saves up enough money to get you a decent phone (because you can not tell me Mikan would even have a phone, to begin with,) you guys have a ton of shared music playlists with different vibes associated with each of them. Noel also will be teaching you what real music sounds (It's a lot of Will Wood, Mitski, and TV Girl-)

Noel is practically begging you to come with him for his Taco Bell shifts, he needs someone to shit talk to so he doesn't actually go insane.

When it comes to your talent, Noel is kind of iffy on it...

On one hand, it is a very convenient talent to have and he likes seeing how passionate you are about it, on the other hand, most people aren't that well-versed in medicine unless there is a reason and he really doubts that reason is just because you're clumsy...

He isn't going to push you, he really isn't, he's just worried... So worried that he can't stop hinting at it, so worried that eyes instinctively gaze down to your bandaged-up arms every time you hang out, so worried that he finds himself trying to reassure you that you can talk to him if anything is bothering you even if you already knew that.

He really wants to know, but he won't push it.

So whenever you do tell him and spill out the reasons why you act the way you do, the reasons for your constant injuries, and the reasons for knowing so much about medicine, he is beyond livid.

Not at you, of course, he could never be mad at you, but just hearing excuse your parents, "friends," and bullies' behavior makes him genuinely so angry. In no world is that okay, especially when they do that to you of all people.

He might be comforting you at the moment, holding you close, and explaining to you how none of the abuse that's occurred is your fault, but all he wants to do is find those people and give them a taste of what's coming to them.

But you need him right now, so he pushes those thoughts away as he rubs circles into your back and shushes your cries.

If you thought for a second that Noel was going to just let you go live back with your parents when they are treating you so horribly, then you are dead wrong. From this moment on, you might as well change your last name to Gruber because you are being adopted.

Noel's house isn't the biggest thing either, but he is also looking forward to sharing a room with you. It would be nice to look after you and make sure you are happy and healthy.

Many more movie nights will also be occurring with "The Blue Angel" being the main attraction. No, you cannot watch another movie before you both watch this one, it's the rule when living with him.

Side note, as much as it seems like a good idea to let Noel cut your hair, do not let him do it. You will regret it.

As your new, official sibling, Noel will be making sure you stay with him at all times, you have to catch up on all the time you missed.

He will also be heavily encouraging you to wear his clothes since you don't have many to begin with and it gives a chance for some of Monique's more modest clothing to be used. (Also makes other boys stay away from you.)

Noel praises you and teases you heavily, it's either one or the other all the time. The true sibling experience is not one where you are nice to each other all the time after all.

Noel knows you can handle yourself, but he can't help but treat you like glass from time to time... Can you blame him? You just made it out of a really abusive situation and he doesn't want to be the cause of any of your pain.

So don't blame him when he purposefully makes you miss your hangouts with friends or cancels any appointment you may have so you'll be safe inside with him.

He tries to not appear it, but he does really want to learn more about medicine and whatnot. Not only is it good to know, but he also wants to be able to patch you up if you can't yourself.

Do you remember the phone I mentioned earlier? Yeah well, get ready for that to have a ton of restrictions from the parental controls. Noel will not have you tainted by the horrors of the internet if he can help it.

Another side note...

...He does like to watch you sleep sometimes, he finds it calming.

Mischa Bachinski:

Mischa had been pretty much the last of the choir to meet you, all due to the fact that he doesn't share any classes with you and he skips choir super frequently...

You both actually met during a lunch period where Noel had practically dragged Mischa to sit with the rest of the choir so he wouldn't be alone in dealing with Ocean. So without much of a choice, he sits right next to Noel at a table you all secured in the cafeteria and across from you.

You had immediately caught his eye as soon as he sat down and as much as he wouldn't admit it, your appearance had piqued his interest. Though, he didn't give you much thought after that, why should he? You're just going to be like every other girl he's met here.

And then you started speaking, which caught even more of his interest. Your personality was extreme compared to the likes of Constance or Penny and the exact opposite extreme of Ocean. You were meek, overwhelmingly apologetic, and would burst into tears the moment anyone did anything even slightly negative towards you.

If you could make the town of Uranium even somewhat less boring then he is 100% willing to let you into his small world.

From that point forward he had actually tried to speak to you a few times, mainly from the pushing of Talia and Noel as they both wished to see him expand his social circle a bit. And every single time, with no doubt, he would always find something new that interested him.

For example, while talking to you during a break in choir, he found out just how clumsy you could be as when you stood and started walking towards the exit door of the classroom after excusing yourself to the restroom, you promptly tripped over the risers and fell.

Then comes the weird positions you would find yourself in..., he always makes sure to look away whenever that happens because he is loyal to Talia! He will help you up though, just not while looking at you.

He does find your constant need for reassurance and the crying that comes along with that to get a bit irritating at times, but he really does try his best not to be too mean when that happens since it is obvious to everyone that you are going through a lot, even if he doesn't know exactly what.

Mischa really does pity you, you are just so easy to scare into submission and he knows he can't be the only person who's found that out... He knows there's got to be others taking advantage of you and that really upsets him for reasons he can't explain.

So Mischa had made it his mission to help you! Even if he doesn't quite get why, Talia does tell him that it's a good idea and she is never wrong.

Mischa helps you build up your confidence by praising you and making you do daily affirmations, which actually does help somewhat as you now aren't always second-guessing everything you do anymore!

He also teaches you some breathing techniques for you to feel yourself getting overwhelmed when you feel the need to cry which Noel also helps with. Noel is also better at the two when explaining it- Mischa is better at giving a physical example.

And when it comes to you being clumsy, that's not really something Mischa can help with... But he does try to catch you now if he notices you're going down.

While spending so much time with Mischa, you two quickly become friends.

This also means with you being one of the only female friends in his life that he will take anything related to Talia to you if he can't figure it out... Which is not really the best idea since you've never had any female friends either-

Mischa is really glad to have your help though and just to have you as a friend in general since he only really considers Noel a friend out of the choir and he gets a little lonely sometimes... Noel gets busy with work and school, Talia is in a very different timezone than him so she can't always chat, and his foster parents literally hate his guts, it's nice to have one friend who will always be there you know?

You also need to repay him for helping you out. /hj

...Okay, he definitely won't admit this to anyone, not even himself, but he finds your laugh the cutest thing in the world.

Mischa isn't really surprised to find out you have bullies. It is something he predicted before he became friends with you and he sees how others might misconstrue your personality with how extreme it can be, but does that stop him from wanting to curb stomp every single one of them? Nope.

In fact, that makes him even angrier since they never took the time to get to know you, and like how people do to him, they also take your initial impression at face value and don't try to see how you are deep down. The difference between him and you though is that he is more than capable of protecting himself in those scenarios, you on the other hand...

Welp, you don't have to worry about a thing! Only a fool would still try to mess with you when Mischa is literally strapped to your side like a guard dog. :)

It's kind of obvious that you don't know much about pop culture or music (because of your parent's refusal to get you anything) so Mischa will have to teach you everything you need to know... This means you will know a lot of random rappers, the discourse surrounding them, and a lot of cultural music and culture in general from Ukraine.

You also learn some Ukrainian from him and he has to stop his heart from skipping a beat every time you speak it to him-

Your accent is just so adorable--

While being friends, he is also quick to know of your vast medical knowledge and while none of it really interests him, he will ask you questions about it because he likes to hear you speak so passionately about something you love.

He loves it when you are both calm and when you are on the extreme. There is never a day where he wishes you weren't you.

So, he's always known that because of how knowledgeable you were about medicine you were also good at actually doing the trade, but when he first watched you do it, it was like watching a whole other person!

You were calm, collected, and very precise with your movements, nothing at all like the fidgety, anxiety-ridden girl he's known.

It weirded him out a little at first since it was a pretty big change, but he got used to it over time and actually enjoys the change of pace from time to time.

He hurt himself just so you would treat him?? What..., no.....

There are some moments where you are reminded of his mom when you use your talent, because being a single mom in a lower-class area, she too was pretty proficient at medicine (obviously nowhere near the skill you are at of course.)

The thought makes him smile.

Even with all the help and coping strategies he's given you, you do sometimes break down and revert back to old habits.

When that happens though, he just holds you and helps you get back on track, no matter how long that takes.

Like with the whole bully situation, Mischa had an inkling that something else may be going on in your life..., something obviously not positive, but being that you didn't speak about your home life all that much, he was never sure what that could be. He did try to subtly ask a few times, to try and pry you to answer the questions that were burning in his mind as of late, but to no avail.

It came to a point where he just stopped asking, figuring you'll tell him when the time comes, and even if he was extremely curious (and worried,) he would begrudgingly wait for that day. That day comes in the form of him going to your house for the first time.

Of course, you never wanted him to visit your home... But Mischa's place was sometimes not an option due to his parents "accidentally" locking him out without a way to get back in and with how the weather could be... There was just this day when you had no choice but to go to your house. Even if it was the last thing you wanted, you couldn't find another excuse not to.

By the time you two had walked a good distance away from school in the more shady part of downtown, your footsteps had become noticeably slower as you both reached the home Mischa could only assume was yours. The home itself was pretty run down and the smell left a lot to be desired..., but then again, it was better than nothing and Mischa wasn't going to judge something you couldn't control.

You had let him wait outside with the excuse that you needed to tell your parents your friend was over, a seemingly harmless reason Mischa had no reason to deny as he nodded and let you go on your way. The actual reason was to make sure your parents weren't there at all..., your hand shook while you opened the door as you hoped to whatever god was out there that they would just be anywhere but here.

It took a minute, about 8 to exact before Mischa started to hear shouting... The poorly maintained house did little to muffle the sounds of crying, yelling, screaming, etc. He could hear three voices, two he didn't recognize of a man and woman... and yours.

He could feel his body stiffen, his adrenaline starting to pump through his veins and he heard the sounds of glass being shattered on the ground... It really didn't take long for Mischa to rush into your home, panicked as desperately tried to get to you, to see if you were okay. The whole moment felt like a flash as the next thing he knew he was holding you close and you both walked back to his home, scrapes and blood littering your body while your cries and gasps for air filled the air around you too.

Taking a moment to stop, dry your tears, and rub soothing circles into your back, his mouth felt unable to move..., unable to use his words to comfort you as he was not too sure how... He tried to think back to how his mother, his actual mom, would comfort him, his new "parents'" harsh demeanors have made his skills of kindness and comfort dull by now, but he had to try, for you.

Whispering whatever soothingly words in Ukrainian he could muster, having you cry on his shoulder as you cried out apologies and "offers," he thinks back on the moment at your house. Although his memory is still a little fuzzy..., he remembers seeing your parent's drunken, drugged-up figures hovering over you as they shouted and screamed at you through mumbled words he could make sense of. A bottle had been thrown before he came into your living room it was shattered all over the ground, you being the clear culprit of the hit and begged for them to stop.

So much was happening at one time and he felt such heavy rage he'd never felt before boil over inside of him, making him run over and fight your parents off of you, which wasn't hard considering how messed up they were in the moment, he then grabbed you and left. He had no way of knowing your living situation was that bad... and yet he still blames himself for not knowing anyway.

Mischa shakes his head, your breathing evening out as the tears slowly come to a stop and you calm down. Running a hand through your hair unconsciously, Mischa made a silent vow at this moment to protect you from those people and anyone else who made you feel like this.

He wasn't going to lose someone else special to him in this lifetime if he had anything to say about it.

Safe to say that Mischa is officially attached! ...Which may or may not be a good thing.

He's always very adamant that you stay with him, both during school and out of school. He wouldn't be able to forgive himself if anything else happened to you..., not to mention there's always this weird feeling of dread in his chest anytime you have to leave him. He swears you need him but in reality, he needs you.

And then there's Talia.

Mischa, for what it's worth, never stopped loving Talia. He still called and texted her every day, would make songs for her, and devoted his earnings to going back to Ukraine for her, everything he did was still ultimately for her!

...

But that didn't mean he also didn't lessen his attention to her. By adding you to his life and list of people he would die for, you take up a good chunk of his time. Maybe it was just the fact that you two were in the same timezone or maybe it was because you were closer, whatever it was, Talia had noticed him not replying to her as often and their calls getting shorter...

Talia really wanted to say this new development didn't get to her, but how would you feel if your boyfriend who lived in another country made a new female friend who he was spending all his time with? Of course, she's going to get a little jealous..., so much so that her family starts to notice something is wrong with her.

Now, Talia has never told her family about Mischa, she knew they would be unaccepting of her going out with some guy on the internet and would likely cut her off from him. So whenever they started to notice something was wrong and started to pressure her into saying what was up..., she knew exactly what was going to happen as the words "My boyfriend in Canada-" fell out of her mouth.

Her parents were obviously quick to disapprove, scolding her about internet safety and the like. They were also quite furious at her for not telling them sooner..., so furious that they made her cease contact with him immediately, going so far as to make her block him in front of them. The smallest amount of grace they gave her was allowing her to send one last message as a goodbye before blocking him out of her life..., before cutting her off from her beloved fiance right before he could come to her.

Before they even had a chance to see each other face to face.

Without much of a choice, Talia wrote one last goodbye filled with sappy words, stories, and wishes for him to be well, all before her finger eventually pressed on his contact and blocked his number forever.

Mischa knew Uranium was a terrible place, he knew it would only ever bring him misery and heartbreak ever since he stepped off the plane into Canada. Uranium was the worst.

It took away his mother... and now it took away his beloved Natalia.

Mischa and Talia's breakup hit Mischa hard, he got the message as soon as he woke up only a few hours after speaking to her... He couldn't- no, didn't want to believe his eyes as he read her message in his native tongue, each word making his heart beat faster as tears formed in his eyes. She was breaking off her engagement to him. They were no longer going to get married.

No matter how much time had passed after he read that message, he was still freaking out the moment she read it. He had skipped school that day entirely as he just sat in bed and stared at his phone. It was so hard to believe that the girl he loved with his entire being, who said she too loved him just as much, and the girl who accepted his proposal was not being ripped away from his life without him even getting a word in. His number and profile were blocked on every social media account he could think of, and his number was likely erased in her phone too...

Uranium was awful, Canada was awful, and this life was awful. Every time he thinks he's seeing the good in the world, every time he picks himself up from being pushed down, every time he thinks it couldn't possibly get any worse, it does.

Worse of all he has no one to talk to about this... Well, except for you.

As soon as school was over, he texted you to come to his house with no further explanation, though you didn't need one to see that something was wrong. Upon arriving, awkwardly getting passed his parents and into the basement, it was immediately clear to you that Mischa was not doing well... He hadn't moved an inch from his bed all day, he had eaten the meals that were left outside his door, he hadn't even touched his phone as it lay on the floor beside him.

He couldn't bring himself to move as you near him, his expression just exhausted as tears had stained his cheeks. Mentally, you were freaking out as you couldn't imagine what could have led him to such a state but before you ask what had happened he managed to turn to face you and pat the spot beside him, urging you lay next to him. That turned into him hugging you as you could only comfort him in the ways that he comforted you, by rubbing circles into his back, sometimes stroking his hair, and nervously whispering whatever words of comfort you could while he basked in your attention.

This had gone on for a while before he explained what happened, how Talia called off their engagement because of her parents, and how the love of his life had just left him... He left himself vulnerable to you because you were the only person he could trust with doing so, the only person he trusted to see how hurt he was. And as bad and hurt as you felt for Mischa, there wasn't much you could do but continue laying with him and comforting him. These things take time to heal from and you can't change that.

Mishca was grateful for that at least. He was grateful to have you by his side even if his whole world was collapsing around you two..., he was thankful you were the piece of his world that stayed together.

What Mischa failed to realize would happen through the weeks of his healing through his breakup was that he noticed a change in how he felt about you... Well, maybe it wasn't a change and it's always how he's felt, but he's only now started to notice the warmth that fills his being every time you are near him. He's finally noticed how complete you make him, how much you make Uranium bearable, how much he likes you.

...

How much he loves you.

...

Oh..., he loves you? The words felt foreign when directed at you, but that didn't make his mind stop racing anytime your hands touched or the blush from spreading on his cheeks anytime you praised him.

As minutes, hours, days, weeks, flew by, Mischa stopped thinking about his breakup and about Talia completely. Sure, at one point he did love Talia but that just wasn't meant to be, not when he had you right in front of him. Not when he has you who would never hurt him like she had..., right?

You were too nice, too perfect for that.

God, he loves you so much that it makes him giddy and that is one hell of a feat.

Mischa and Talia's breakup really bummed him out for a while and stopped his motivation to write music, but with you around, he finds all of that lost passion coming back to him! Do make sure he paces himself though, lest the burnout of writing 5 different raps in a week gets to him.

Has he ever mentioned how pretty you are? Because he is dead serious when he says that you are the most gorgeous girl he's laid eyes on, your beauty rivaling that of the moon, stars, and literally everything else.

Whenever you sleep over at his house, you both usually sleep on opposite sides of Mischa's pullout couch out of respect for each other's boundaries, but in the morning you two definitely wake up tangled in one another. Mischa may or may not be doing it on purpose too..., who's to say?

If you ever compliment him in Ukrainian, he might just die on the spot, I'm not kidding.

Mischa always feels a little guilty when you fuss over his injuries after he beat some certain bullies up, but it's still nice to have you care for him.

And if you wish, he will be more than happy to do the same for you! He is not the best at medicine, but he is a fast learner if you decide to teach him. He also loves how intimate bandaging up your scars is.

He would still prefer if you didn't get any of them though..., please.

Mischa, for whatever reason, is a very big scent person. Smell can bring him back to the best times of his life and your scent always brings a feeling of calm to wash over him.

That's his excuse for why he has so many of your clothes in his room.

...Okay, so it's not his best moments but Mischa does intentionally scare you sometimes so you'll stay with him. He'll make remarks about how everyone else just wants to use you and how he doesn't want others to hurt you again, how couldn't you trust this man when all he wants is the best for you?

His favorite place to kiss you (totally platonic ofc-) would be your cheeks.

He 100% has a secret recording of your voice that he listens to when he's alone at night, he just needs something to hold him over before he can see you again!

He knows it's gross, but he also sometimes keeps some of your old bandages-

No words can describe how protective Mischa is of you, like, he legitimately treats you as if you were glass. He will also tell you as such, that you are too nice and fragile for this world, but thankfully you have Mischa to protect you.

Ricky Potts:

Oh..., you're so cute.

That was Ricky's first thought as he watched you stumble into the choir room for your first rehearsal, apologizing to anything that could breathe. From your hair to your shoes to the way you spoke, he just found you so incredibly pretty, so interesting, and unique.

Ricky felt such a strong pull to you, he of course has thought of other people as cute before, but there was something about you that made him wish more than ever that he could just walk up to you and sweep you off your feet...

He had hardly noticed you sitting next to him on the risers, hands shaking as you adjusted yourself to listen to Father Marcus explain the upcoming competition Ocean had signed you all up for.

The moment he did notice though, he felt a smile curl up on his lips at the sheer luck. You could have sat anywhere, but you sat next to him, that had to mean something right? Destiny did have a tendency to pick him after all.

Maybe he doesn't need to walk up to you or magically just become able-bodied, maybe you'll come to him.

He liked those odds.

So, whenever you did work up the nerve to ask him about something or to just talk to him in general, your first interaction was less than stellar- Mainly because he tried signing to you first, hoping you might understand but you didn't... And with his silence, the hand motions you didn't understand, and the pause that came afterward, you really thought he was just flat-out ignoring you or that you offended him in some way.

So of course, you started apologizing and tearing up, begging for him to forgive you and giving him "offers" which disturbed him and also made Ricky start to panic... He had never grabbed his AAC device so fast before, quickly typing out, "No! It's fine, I'm not ignoring you or anything, to answer your question it's-"

Thankfully you calmed down after some explaining and reassurance, but it was definitely an odd encounter for Ricky... Didn't stop him from talking to you though!

Ricky has to admit though, he can't help but cringe every time you fall. He really does feel bad and he wishes he could help you prevent it like how he sees Mischa do, but the positions you end up in every time make him look away out of respect for you...

He does find talking to you nice as you actually bother to listen to him.

Also seeing your smile whenever you're happy makes his heart skip beats. :)

Ricky is a big fan of your aesthetic as well, the whole nurse vibe with the pinks and blues he finds nice. The bandages do concern him a little bit, but he shakes it off and just thinks of it as decoration at first, you know, for the aesthetic.

Ricky is so patient with you when you start stuttering or when you can't seem to get the words out of your lips, he'd be willing to wait forever like he hopes you'd do for him.

Although your personality can be a bit extreme, he doesn't really mind that since most of the people in his life are also pretty extreme. I mean, the entire choir can be a lot to deal with every day.

He notices how meek you are as soon as he meets you, but now that you two are starting to become friends, he can't help but frown as he thinks about why you are that way.

He notices the way others speak to you, the way they touch you and the ways they hurt you... He's sad for you and so frustrated that others think they can just treat you like that! ...And that he can't do much about it without some kind of proof that they are actually bullying you.

But trust when he says that he is watching.

Becoming friends with you came so naturally to Ricky, ever since you met, your relationship had just grown ever so steadily until now when he considers you a good friend.

He's really glad about that too since he doesn't have many friends but you...

And sure he does feel a little bitter seeing you hanging out with other people in the choir, but he pushes that feeling down. He doesn't want any of that to come in the way of your new friendship after all. He's happy for you, really.

Ricky will doodle random cats on your worksheets at every opportunity he can and he will only stop if you ask him to, otherwise, prepare for your papers to be filled with kitties!

His contact for you on his phone is, "sunshine," although it is always subject to change. What won't be changing though is the type of name, he will be giving the most sappy nicknames he can think of, no questions asked.

His parents were a little iffy on you at first, but after seeing how much Ricky cares about you, they are quick to warm up. His mom really starts to like you too as you teach her some bandage techniques and other things about medicine, which is helpful when some of your cats are literally the spawn of satan-

Actually, when it comes to your medical knowledge, Ricky is definitely one of the better people to talk about it with since he actually understands most of it.

Yes, he will be using that to brag to the others about, sue him.

If you ever want to learn sign language, Ricky will be pretty ecstatic! Why, you ask? Because that can only mean you like him enough to want to be able to talk to him in a way that's convenient for him. :D

He will gladly teach you everything there is to know about ASL while also teaching you bits and pieces of his family's made-up sign language so you can understand his parents better. (The first time you used some of their sign language in front of his parents, they were beyond excited.)

As stated before, obviously Ricky knows quite a bit of medical jargon because of his condition.

That doesn't stop him from being completely shocked at how much medical knowledge you have and how good you are at the practice. Seriously, he has no idea where you learned all the stuff or why, but he is literally applauding you every time you spout even a bit of new information at him.

Also, the way you get so serious and mature whenever you patch someone up...

You have him swooning.

(Anytime he's watching you patch someone up, he likes to pretend he's in some kind of medical drama on TV-)

To your friends/the choir members, he will be calling you his wife platonically. (He doesn't want it to be platonic-)

He always gets such an urge to collect information about you, as weird as that sounds. He just wants to fill notebooks with everything he can about you because he wants to know everything about you, even very personal information.

So, if you notice him asking some rather deep questions as of late..., there's definitely a good reason for that. Obviously.

Being as close as you are with Ricky, there will come a day when you eventually start to tell him about your insecurities. Even though you knew it was quite obvious that you were insecure, whenever you just started spilling it all out to your best friend in the whole universe, it felt so cathartic.

It all came barreling out so suddenly, about how you always feel so weird and gross, how everyone always seems to be against you, how you feel like you just can't take people's mean comments any longer. You told him everything that one faithful fall day.

Ricky was of course quick to comfort you, to pull you against him and wipe away your tears before signing whatever words of comfort he could think of. Honestly, your words hit a very strong cord in him because he feels the exact same way, weird and unwanted. That's why the stars destined you together.

Words of comfort can only go far though, especially when you were still learning sign language and Ricky couldn't grab his AAC device from how he was positioned... So, he did the next best thing, to confide in one of his biggest vulnerabilities too.

He confided in you about Zolar and the reason for its creation.

He told you everything, from his own OC to the planets, stars, and the people his OC encountered on his journey, whatever he could think of in hopes of distracting you so you could calm down.

Although he was definitely a little nervous about sharing his world with you, the way your eyes lit up as he kept explaining it was the highlight of the year to him. The more acceptance you showed, even though some of the more NSFW stuff, he grew more and more passionate, his hands moving at lightning speeds that you struggled to keep up with...

By the time he was only halfway done, you, going completely out of your comfort zone, hugged him and thanked him for sharing.

That hug lasted a long time..., he never wanted to let go.

By the end of the hug, Ricky offers to help you make an OC for his universe as in his words, "Zolar could use a cute medic." And so, you both spent the rest of that afternoon making you an OC, Ricky even making a quick sketch of her!

That evening when he went home, he felt so giddy and spent the whole night writing her into Zolar.

The moment Ricky learned of your abuse is a day he will never forget...

He had groggily come downstairs to get a glass of water in the middle of the night, something he did quite often and nothing out of the ordinary. What was unordinary was the odd sinking feeling in his gut..., one that forced him to stay awake despite how tired he felt.

It wasn't even a couple minutes later before he heard rapid knocks at his front door, desperate yet also somehow meek, as if whoever was behind it needed help but also didn't want to be a bother. Despite the stranger danger warnings, he knows his parents would've given him if they were up, he goes over to his front door and opens it slightly, only allowing a sliver of the door open just in case it was an unwanted visitor...

However, instead what he got was you. You who was crying and shivering with scars and bruises all over your body. Ricky felt his heart stop for just a moment while his eyes widen before throwing the door wide open and pulling you inside his house. He could have never imagined this sight would appear in front of him... He would have never wanted to, his hands shook as he rapidly signed, "What happened?!" His eyes flickered from your scars to your face and then to your hands.

As you ramble on about how your parents had a particularly bad day and you just couldn't take being on the receiving end of their abuse anymore, Ricky's heart quite literally shatters from how scared you look. He can't believe all of this was happening and he somehow didn't know, why hadn't he noticed this? Why didn't he push for some kind of answer before it got this bad??

The questions swimming in his mind were starting to cause a headache... Ricky takes one last look at your injuries and takes a deep breath, trying to steady himself before he bursts into a fit of rage at your supposed "parents." (He refuses to believe they should be called as such.) He then takes your hand and leads you to his bathroom to deal with your injuries without a word, only rubbing small circles into your palm as he focuses on finding his med kit.

While bandaging you up, your tears stopping only due to the fact that you couldn't produce anymore, Ricky finally signs once more. He asks you if you are okay, his hands stopping immediately after he signs it as he realizes how dumb of a question that is- He then rephrases and signs, "What do you want to do about this?"

It was a simple question, yet one you didn't quite understand as you asked what he meant by that. Your voice sounds so small right now...

"I'm not just going to let them get away with that, those people need to be reported to the police or something! ...I guess I'm asking, are you okay with calling the police?" Ricky tried to be as gentle as he could with his words, even if the anger at them hurting you was still brewing inside of him. Yet, to his disbelief, you refused to report them and no matter how much he tried to convince you to do so, you kept refusing.

You weren't ready.

You weren't ready to let go and as sad as that makes Ricky, he can't do much about that. The only thing he can get from you is that you'll stay over more often and that you call him if they try to do anything to you.

As much as this outcome hurts, he has to accept it. It is okay to not be ready to report your abusers, he just wants you to be safe.

(A/N: That got dark incredibly fast... For real though, if you are in a situation similar to this, do not be afraid to reach out for help, even if you aren't ready to report your abusers, at least know that you aren't alone. I am always willing to listen if need be.)

(A/N: Please excuse the jump in tone as we move on to something lighter.)

Some could make the argument that Ricky fell in love with you at first sight...

Some being Ricky.

Ricky Potts is totally convinced that he loved you since the day he met you, how couldn't he? You are beautiful, smart, kind, and everything he could possibly want. You understand him like no other and he won't be pushed to the side while the other vie for your attention.

And, he's convinced you'll see that someday too, that you were meant for him as he is to you! He'll wait as long as it takes for you to realize you are his, he's been known to be quite patient after all

One of the ways Ricky's love for you manifests out is through humor. You are always so jumpy and pessimistic..., he does everything he can to make you laugh, even if it means making a fool out of himself.

It's also a given that Ricky is a romantic, a hopeless one that is. All he's ever wanted was to find someone who could listen to him and he would know right then and there that they were meant to be. Despite every single unrealistic expectation he made for his true love, you met every requirement and excelled.

Side note, he's always so afraid he's gonna have a heart attack every time you pass by due to how fast his heart beats around you...

He just loves you so much..., that makes it totally reasonable for him to aggressively cyberbully anyone who tries to get close to you! It's all for you!!

Ricky is usually not a needy person, but when it comes to you, he really can't help himself. (He mainly does it in front of the other choir members since he knows how jealous they'll get because of it.)

Do you need tissues? He has it! Water? He has that too. Do you need some alone time? Well, that's a little harder for him to do... but, if it makes you happy, then he will.

Ricky is the type to set up the most romantic dinner date for the two of you and then turn around and act like it's all platonic.

He's legitimately terrified to let you know of his feelings despite how much he's convinced you two are meant for each other-

He spends so much time thinking about you, it's not even funny, like, he thinks about you more than Zolar. That is a huge feat.

If you ever mention being cold or he finds you being need of a shirt, sweater, whatever, he will give you one of his. He will also gaslight you into accepting them because he wants you to wear something of his and he really doesn't want to take no for an answer.

Also, don't be surprised if someone goes up to you and asks if you and Ricky are dating. Ricky will literally tell everyone (minus the choir because he might die-) that you are dating and then act like he never did in the first place.

But, pshhhhh, if you want to be his girlfriend, he's not complaining. ;)

Penny Lamb:

Penny had met you when you found her dolly, Jane.

She doesn't know how she lost Jane, considering she takes Jane wherever she goes. As soon as she noticed Jane was not by her side, Penny promptly freaked out.

She spent all day looking for the doll between classes, before and after school, but to no avail... By now, the boys at St. Cassian had probably already beat her up beyond repair...

By the time Penny finally decided to give up, it had already been well past the time she usually gets out of school as could be seen from the dark blue that covered the sky. She drags her feet to the exit, her cheeks stained from how much she cried that day, only to be stopped by a faint tap on her shoulder.

That's when she turns and sees you holding up Jane... Your voice was quiet and meek as you nervously explained how you found her on a chair in the library. You explained how you knew it belonged to her as you both were in the choir and you would see her carry Jane around everywhere.

Oh, that's where Penny knows you from! Throughout your whole explanation, one that makes Penny want to kick herself as she has no idea how she left Jane in the library, your face seemed quite familiar to Penny, but she just couldn't place why... But, now she distinctly remembers you as their new choir member.

Shaking her thoughts off, Penny rushes to grab Jane from your bandaged hands as she gently holds the doll in her arms, as if it were a real person who could get hurt if handled roughly. She can even begin to explain how relieved she feels to have Jane safely back into her arms..., as could be told from the massive sigh of relief she let out before she thanked you thoroughly and you both went your separate ways.

That interaction though, had stuck to Penny's mind... Most others at school would've either left the doll alone or flat-out destroyed it, and even if they did know it was hers, they definitely wouldn't have gone out of their way to give it back to her. So for you to do so left Penny with a bit of hope inside, hope that she won't have to be alone in this school, hope that someone would actually choose to hang out with her, hope that someone would actually remember her name.

And if you're the person to make that happen, then she is more than glad to stand next to you.

For the next few days, Penny tries to get closer to you and she pays more attention to your mannerisms. That's how she soon found out about all of your insecurities, ones that were easy to spot with how much you actively apologized for simply living.

She noticed how sensitive you are, how your moments of calm were nice but far and few between when in contrast to the rest of your personality, how often you offered to do obscene things for others, the whole lot of it.

And of course, she also noticed how clumsy you were, though she found that more comical than anything. Seriously, she's never met anyone who could trip on literally air before.

Rest assured, she will be looking away whenever she sees anything too explicit though.

All of these perceived flaws as she tried to get close to you never turned Penny off like they did to others, in fact, she found you utterly fascinating with how different you were from her peers. Even if her attempts to get to know you have been failures so far, it's really hard to get people to notice her naturally when even she admits that she is pretty forgettable, the hunt for your friendship is still going strong!

...Penny will be side-questing first though.

See, Penny has decided after a myriad of attempts to get you to notice her, that she will just start observing you and find a way to talk to you through that. Nothing weird, just her trying to find the perfect inning to talk to you.

Which wasn't hard at all since no one seemed to notice she was at rehearsals at all.

Penny would observe you as she did before, learning about your intensive knowledge of medicine and your love of horror movies. Yet, there had been little opportunity for her to speak to you... She did manage to say hello to you a few times! So progress!

What Penny didn't realize about her plan though was that you did in fact notice her watching you... and that freaked you out. Why was she always watching? Did you smell weird? Did you say something wrong?? Your mind couldn't help but spiral bit by bit as the endless thoughts of her possibly judging you ran through your mind.

It really wasn't long into this process where you broke and couldn't contain your fears anymore, honestly, you were surprised you stayed as quiet about this as you did.

You go up to her at the end of rehearsals after purposefully taking a long time so you two would be the only ones left in the room and you confronted her! ...The only issue was that Penny could hardly understand what you were saying through your sobs, but she got the gist.

As you cried with questions flying out of your mouth, Penny awkwardly grabbed your shoulders, startling you just enough to where you stopped crying for a moment, and she comforted you, explaining that her intentions were not malicious. "Oh, I'm sorry, sorry! I swear, I didn't mean it like that, I just... Uhm... I just think you're really interesting but I didn't know how to approach you."

She really didn't think you were gross or anything! She feels bad that she made you think that she did feel that way... You'll let her make it up to you right? Please, let her make it up to you.

Thankfully the misunderstanding was short-lived and you calmed down. However, Penny still felt the need to recompense you for your troubles and she wasn't exactly the type to let these things go, especially since this was now her chance to talk to you directly.

She started small by offering to carry your things or help you with homework and assignments, then it went on to bigger things like giving her gifts and getting her lunch.

Doing these things would also give an excuse for you guys to start hanging out and spending time together. If asked though, Penny would still say she's just trying to make it up to you, but she does start to see you as her only friend.

Not like she wants any friends other than you anyway.

Penny thinks your talent is so neat and will be begging you to teach her.

Medicine was always one of those things she had to learn about when living in the middle of nowhere without an actual doctor in sight, so it's not like she was totally incompetent with it, but watching your hands methodically rewrap the bandages that cover your arm really ignite that spark of interest in her.

If you do teach her, she will still ask you to patch up her wounds for no other given explanation than, "You do it better."

If she does see you patching anyone other than herself or you up though, she might just have to give said person a few more bruises... Just a few.

Being friends with Penny will unravel a lot of your trauma weirdly... Because you'll do some kind of trauma response and she will just ask you a ton of questions about it. (After comforting you of course and only if you'll let her.) It just makes you face why you do the things you do head-on, which can be great and also awful.

Penny also loves playing with your hair, no matter how "messed up" it may be. She loves doing tons of different styles with it and she also likes for you two to match. :)

You are the only person, other than maybe Ricky, she allows to hold Jane.

She will also be over the moon if you get her dolly anything, like doll accessories, clothes, etc., she will practically marry you right then and there.

As mentioned before, Penny is aware she is forgettable. It did sting a lot at first, coming out of a commune being young and naive, searching for friends only for none to be in sight, but she's used to it by now. For the longest time, she only thought she needed Ezra... Which proved to be untrue the moment she met you.

Anywho, you were sure to also start realizing this. How teachers would skip over her name during attendance and how the other choir members would forget to go over her part during a song. Although it did make you sad, there was a nice solace to be found in it, to not have to worry about anyone coming up to you or your bullies finding you. Weirdly enough, when you were with Penny, it was like you were invisible to the rest of the world...

That was nice.

Penny will be #1 at respecting your boundaries, especially if you don't like people touching you since she doesn't care for it either.

This also means if anyone else dares to disrespect you and make you uncomfortable, she will be rocking their shit.

Penny can be really possessive... She just feels that anytime you leave her alone, she'll be right back to how her life was before you and she really doesn't want that to happen.

She will be near any chance she gets, even if you don't know she's there. Trust me, she is there.

Penny had always known bits and pieces of your past and your home life. It was never enough to make her seriously consider if you needed help, but she had always known that something was off...

Not to mention, the times she got any sort of answer about it was when there were some scars and behaviors you couldn't hide. She wasn't mad at you for never telling her, but she had to admit, she had gotten pretty worried about you as of late...

It was like every day, there was something new to be worried about and you were really starting to look like you were going to start boiling over. ...Which wasn't so far off when she heard you had gotten detention for yelling and showing some violent behaviors towards your peers.

This of course had Penny worried, after all, she'd never seen you do anything like this..., there had to be a decent explanation for all of this! (Even if there wasn't, Penny would never dream of blaming you for anything.) So, that's how she found herself sitting in an empty classroom with you after detention, the words, "What happened today?" Hanging thick in the air.

You just couldn't take it anymore... You couldn't take the constant yelling, hitting, smell of booze and drugs, and all the abuse you've had to face day to day. It was always like the world was constantly out to get you like you were just some big joke the universe loved to laugh at and torment. You couldn't stop the words of hurt from coming out of you as you ranted about all your frustrations and how tired you were of it all.

And Penny, being as awkward and patient as she was, listened. She let you get everything off your chest, despite how horrible she felt after learning what you were going through daily from not just bullies but also your parents. She could have never predicted this was happening to you behind the scenes and even if all she wants is to do something, anything to put those people who dare call themselves your parents through the wringer, she wanted to be there for you more.

You both had a long conversation after that about pretty much everything, staying incredibly late after detention just like how you two met... Some of your conversations weren't even about the topic at hand, but it was so nice to finally get your feelings out that you couldn't even care when the conversation drifted. Whatever you wanted to talk about, Penny was there. She made sure you knew that she loved you (platonically of course..., yep, in a very platonic way, no romantic feelings at all-) and that you can come to her when these things get too much. Not to mention, she made sure that you were going to stay with her at least a few times a week, anything to get you out of that house.

You and Penny went to her house that night feeling a little lighter.

Did you really think I would forget to mention Ezra in this? He's too iconic not to mention at least once.

Anyway, when it comes to Ezra, he can read Penny like a book. It was always something he could do since they spent so much time together and despite how closed off she seemed to others, he could discern her emotions from every eye twitch and fidget she would exude. It's just something siblings do.

Maybe that's why when Penny would talk some more at the dinner table to their foster parents about her day and when she started writing in her once-forgotten journal once more, he knew something was up with her. He couldn't tell what it was immediately..., but the way she started double-checking herself in the mirror before heading out to school gave him a good clue.

A clue that was slowly pieced together as he saw you coming around more. He's surprised it had taken him this long to see it..., watching Penny read to you her favorite books about animals, he found the answer that had plagued his thoughts for a couple weeks. Penny was infatuated with you.

It was almost laughable how dense you both were to it... Almost. There comes a point when watching you two skirt around the subject for so long becomes immensely frustrating, which is why Ezra bluntly asks Penny as she is waiting for you to finish getting ready in the bathroom, "When are you going to get this weird crush thing over with and confess to her? You weirdo."

...

Penny swears she almost choked after his words processed in her head, Whipping her face around to look at him and shoo him away from her sight out of sheer embarrassment. Like, pshhh, yeah, she thinks you are great and all, but her being love? That's a bit of a stretch...

Sure, you're pretty, uniquely charming, sweet, intelligent, gentle, everything she could ever dream of for a partner-

...

Oh my god, she likes you.

If Penny starts to act a little more flustered and awkward around you starting from this moment forward, there was in fact a reason.

That being she is now questioning every interaction she's had with you since the beginning to see if you knew or if she was really that obvious about it the whole time...

It takes her a solid week to at least be somewhat back to normal.

Penny shows her love in really subtle ways, like giving you a few more compliments than usual and going out of her way to look nice around you, whatever it takes to not make her look like a complete buffoon, she will do.

She kind of does make herself look like a fool in front of you though-

It's difficult not to when you are literally such an angel to her. :'(

Remember the journal mentioned before? Well, that journal will now be getting more use than ever with how much Penny writes about you. Literally, you could just sneeze and she'll go in and write, "She sneezed around me today, what does this mean?? Does she like me too??? SOS!"

She also likes to take photos of you and stuff them in there, like a collage of sorts.

Penny will be using her status as being really forgettable to sneak around others to get to you. The amount of times she has snuck around the choir as they fight over who gets to sit next to you and sitting right beside you is astonishing. It gives her a little power trip when they all turn around and finally, notice her, ...which is easy to see on the big grin she wears while looking right back at them.

Penny has literally gotten into art just so she can draw you. She just needs something other than writing to get her thoughts of you out since she thinks about you 24/7... Some drawings are a little more concerning than others.

Even if she isn't the most touchy person, she loves to hug you and cradle you in her arms. It's so nice to feel you safe and sound against her and she likes to feel like she can protect you.

Be careful though, cause she will refuse to let go for a long time.

Also, her stalking you go from about 60% to 100%... and it will only get worse from there.

She has a doll named after you. :)

Look, I don't make the rules, Penny will be bringing you pretty rocks she finds at every opportunity. If you let her, she will be more than happy to take you rock hunting with her!

Constance Blackwood:

You were introduced to Constance shortly after meeting Ocean who wanted you to meet her BFF.

Initially, it was a little awkward as you both weren't exactly the most outgoing types and Ocean was of course the one hogging the conversation. Constance could deal with this though, it pretty much happened to every other choir member besides her... Ocean would bring them along with her to rehearsals, she would stand awkwardly to the side as Ocean introduced Constance and the choir, and as they got adjusted they stopped making an effort to be polite and talking to her.

She gets it, really. Being pushed into an extra-curricular that she can tell most don't actually care for and being introduced to the girl who could only get a few words in before Ocean ran off with the conversation topic doesn't exactly put Constance in the best of light... They had no reason to talk to her; even if it hurt, she's learned she's just got to deal with it.

So she thought nothing of this encounter. Even if you were one of the more extreme members of the choir, Constance was more than prepared for you to talk to her a few times to be polite before going off on your own. That was all there was to it, no reason to get her hopes up after they've been crushed repeatedly, right?

Yep, it was all sure to come crashing down soon... That was what she thought as your interactions kept popping up, your acquaintanceship spanning a lot longer than normal..., but she was sure it would all end soon enough.

...

Are you sure you still want to be talking to her?

In a rather strange twist of fate, instead of doing what Constance had expected and leaving her alone like everyone else, you consistently went up to her for questions, to apologize for something she didn't even know you did, or to simply just talk to her. It had caught Constance so off guard that during one of your conversations, she accidentally let the question, "Why are you still talking to me?" Slip from her lips...

After the whole fiasco of her having to reassure you that your presence was wanted and she was just confused, your answer to her was simply, "...You're a lot easier to talk to compared to everyone else here." Which left Constance feeling pretty giddy.

Although she didn't understand exactly what you wanted from her or why you continued to associate with her, she was going to try and take this moment in stride. Maybe, just maybe, she can have someone to rely on.

As you and Constance talked more and more, your odd behaviors became more and more apparent in her eyes. It wasn't every day she knew someone with such fragile self-esteem as yours.

She was really starting to get worried that someone was going to take advantage of you with how often you would offer obscene things as a form of apology.

Not to mention how quick you are to panic even if you did nothing wrong...

And when it comes to how clumsy you can be, which she sometimes can't help but suspect is on purpose..., she really does feel the need to look after you.

Constance is pretty much set into mom mode when you're around, she's so worried that if she looks away for one second, something is going to happen to you. She will not be having her friend get hurt while she's around!

So, she tries to look after you as subtly as she can.

She helps soothe you whenever you cry, she helps you back up whenever you fall..., Constance even helps get bullies off your back. Whatever you need her to do, she wants to be there for you.

Though, even if she thinks she's being subtle, it wasn't that hard for you to discern she was going out of her way to help you out... Really, did she think you wouldn't figure out by how many times you've brought lunch for her? Anyway, not used to this sort of kindness, you had to ask the question that was hanging in the back of your mind. The question of why she was doing this.

...Constance didn't really have an answer to that. You guys weren't quite friends yet, she's never gone this far to help people out before, hell, she's been scolded more times than she can count these past couple of weeks from Ocean after being late due to having to help you. So why was she doing this, what made you so different in her eyes?

The only answer she could come up with was, "I'm just worried I guess... You seem like a good person and I would like for us to be friends, I guess that's why I'm doing this, to prove I can be a good friend to you." She almost stopped the words from flowing out of her mouth, her words coming out quicker than she could think. She definitely would've been embarrassed if it weren't for the way a small smile creeps up on your face, the sight bringing her a nice tingly feeling in her chest.

Surprisingly, that was a good day, one that changed Constance's and your acquaintanceship as it became more of a friendship.

Now that you two were trying this friendship thing out, you also tried to look after Constance in your own ways! You patch her up whenever she gets hurt, help her with her studies, and basically just make it a good, healthy relationship instead of a one-sided one.

Constance was a little hesitant about receiving the help at first. She's just had to be strong for everyone else for so long that it's a weird turn of events to be on the receiving end of the help...

She had to admit though, it was a well-welcome change of pace from the weight of everyday life.

Constance really likes doing those magazine quizzes with you as she thinks it's fun to see how differently you both think.

She also loves seeing your reaction to all the sweets she makes for you, with the way you try to hide the way your eyes light up as you try and decline the treats, all before being forced to hesitantly take them as Constance insisted you do. She thinks it's adorable!

Don't even get her started on your way of dressing and your nurse aesthetic. She really wants to know where you shop because she is dying to look as cute as you. (She already is though <3)

Constance might quite literally be your biggest supporter..., like, ever. As long as you aren't hurting yourself, she is all for any idea you have! Which is sometimes, not a good thing.

One thing she will not support you on though, is your being in the kitchen... Look, she loves you, but with how clumsy you are, she knows that you + the kitchen = disaster.

Look, no matter how nice Constance is, she is not afraid to say a few mean things to people who mess with you. You are precious to her and she doesn't want anyone hurting you! If she ever gets wind of some of the other horrible things people try to do to you (for example, touching you without your consent, hurting you, etc.), she really doesn't think she can hold back from doing some terrible things that time...

And when it comes to rumors, you don't have to worry about that because Constance will take care of it. :)

You just don't need to figure out how.

Constance thinks your talent is pretty admirable. Not many teens practice medicine, at least not in Uranium, so it's pretty neat that you are so good at it.

Constance, herself, is okay at medicine as she learned some tricks from her parents, but she isn't too interested in going farther into the practice than that. She'll leave you to be the one to patch her up.

If you have that kind of handwriting doctors have with the absurd amount of loops and tiny print, Constance will have the worst time trying to read that... Look, she already has glasses, please make life a little easier and write in a legible print. :'(

It was no secret to you that Constance is incredibly family-orientated. She loves her family and would do anything for them, so of course she wants you to be as close to them as you are to her!

That's how you find yourself spending time with Constance, her parents, and her brother, after school and on the weekends.

Her parents adore you. No questions about it, even if you can be pretty extreme, they find you so adorable and practically adopt you the moment they see you. Constance's brother is a little harder to please since he's actually a little scared of you when you first meet..., but he eventually grows to like you as well and tries to protect you even though he is a lot younger than you.

Seeing Constance's family be so good to each other and treat each other like how family should... It makes a certain part of you hurt like hell. You were glad Constance's family were good people, that you had more people to rely on in your times of need, but it hurt that you didn't have that.

You didn't have loving parents or siblings, no one was there for you at home, and your parents literally loathed your existence... Your home life was miserable and it was eating away at you by the day.

It might be because Constance and the others have greatly helped you lift your self-esteem and yourself worth since you met them, or it might be the fact that your parent's abuse was getting worse by the second, but you literally couldn't take it anymore. Your boiling point was reached a long time ago and now it's overflowed to the point you can't contain it anymore.

And for the next few days after the revelation hit you, you had grown quite distant from Constance... Like, you were with her physically but emotionally you were far, far elsewhere. Constance was of course worried, fearing that she might have done something wrong, but she wasn't going to push the topic. If you didn't want to talk about it, she wasn't going to make you.

But you did want to talk about it..., you did want to tell her what was going on, you just didn't want to bother her.

Yet, during a sleepover when Constance had asked you if you were okay..., you couldn't stop the waterworks from coming. Tears start to stream down your face as Constance quickly moves over to you and holds you, a worried look in her eyes as she just lets you cry your heart out. Years of built-up emotion were flooding out of you in a way that it always seemed to, you did hate crying but it was always the only way you could get those emotions out.

Your voice sounded so broken as you rambled on and on about all of the abuse you have gone through and still go through, the words being unintelligible at some points due to just how hard you were sobbing. It took a solid hour before the tears would finally stop, though your body was still shaking from all the emotions you were feeling.

The moment Constance could get a word in..., she didn't. She just sat beside you, comforting you in the best way she could through her actions instead of words. Hearing what you have to deal with makes her so upset, as it would be for anyone else, and as much as Constance wants to push and tell the police about your abuse, that was something she knew was up to you. It wasn't her story to tell and she didn't want to make your life even worse by making you go through the legal system if you aren't ready for it.

So for now, she'll hold you. She's gonna be there for you in every way she can because she loves you and only wants you to be happy.

She makes sure to let you know that you are always welcome at her home, no matter the hour or date. She knows her parents certainly wouldn't mind and neither does she. If it gets you away from the horrible situation you are stuck in, she encourages it.

Learning about your abuse also puts your behaviors and scars into perspective... She hopes you know she is the best person to come to for these kinds of things, none of the others can treat you as well as she can.

Constance falling in love with you was a very slow, gradual process that built up throughout the time you both have known each other.

...

That is what Constance wants to say. Truth be told, she isn't sure if there was ever a moment where wasn't absolutely infatuated with you, even if she didn't know it then, she knows that what she feels for you isn't her just wanting to be friends with you or feeling a sort of familial connection to you. No, Constance Blackwood knows now that she loves you. She loves you more than she has ever loved anyone before, so much that it scares her how much she wants to just take you home and never let you go.

She is aware that her love for you is darker than what most think love should be..., but god, there wasn't any way she was going to let this go. There wasn't any way she was going to let you go.

She loves you... You love her too, right?

The way Constance shows her love isn't too far from how she treats her friends. She takes care of them, brings them treats from the cafe, and spends lots of time with them, it's so normal that you don't even notice the shift in her tone and actions compared to before. You didn't notice how much adoration lies in her eyes as she watches you or how her touch lingers for a little too long...

In her eyes, seeing you happy is like waking up late in the summer and having the warm afternoon glow lay on your body.

A random thing Constance really enjoys is holding your hand, especially in the most mundane of places like walking to school, sitting next to each other in choir, or sitting in a booth at the cafe, it just makes her feel so giddy and light.

One thing she loves gifting you other than sweets is flowers. She doesn't exactly know why, but there's just something weirdly romantic about it.

Sometimes, she sneakily takes photos of you in the middle of the night during your sleepovers.

It's not hard to see that the other choir members like you, especially when it comes to people like Ocean and Mischa who aren't shy about showing their affection to you. Constance really tries not to let this get to her, she really does, it's no surprise everyone likes you when you're you. It's only right that everyone gets a shot at winning your heart...

Still, it's hard to ignore how hard her fingernails dig into her palms as she subconsciously balls her hands into fists while Noel plays with your hair, Ocean talks your ear off, Mischa grips your shoulder, Penny glares at everyone, and Ricky bites his lower lip in sheer frustration...

Is it so wrong of her to use her family against you to get you to stay a couple more hours? She isn't lying, her brother has been wanting to talk to you all day and her parents have meant to show you a new recipe they've been working on. Wouldn't it be kind of mean to leave them hanging?

She wasn't lying that her feelings for you kind of scare her. She's had crushes before, but they all were such fleeting thoughts that she's never had a chance to actually feel this way for any of them as she does for you.

Love is scary...

But you leaving is way worse.

General/All together:

Ocean's relationship with the rest of the choir was never overtly positive, save for maybe Constance, so now that she views them as her romantic rivals, her relationship with everyone is going to tank dramatically. She's never been a loser, so why change that now? She's gonna every underhanded tactic she knows to win your heart and that's not even mentioning how often she already does that. The only person in the choir she actually feels threatened by is Mischa since she knows he can snap her like a twig if he very well pleases...

The way Noel deals with everyone else is not too much different than Ocean surprisingly. He isn't afraid to fight dirty and even if he isn't going after you romantically, that doesn't mean he is going to fight any less against people like Ricky or Penny who seem to be getting closer to you by the second. He's gonna remind you at every chance he gets that his connection to you is stronger than anything those losers can give you.

Mischa really isn't threatened by the choir at all... He already has the upper hand with seeing your home and actually dealing with your abusers directly, no one else has come close to that. He is better than all of them combined, he just needs to show you that. His passion for you is an eternal flame that won't die no matter how much time has passed. You're his.

Everyone fighting for your attention and love kind of makes Ricky want to laugh because... who do they think they are? Seriously, you came to him in your time of need, not anyone else, so how do they think they stand a chance when you chose him? He was never one to be arrogant, but doesn't that just prove you feel safe with him? That you love him as much as he loves you? No way do people like Ocean have half a chance when he's right here.

Would Penny consider themself a temperamental person? ...Maybe, but generally, she would say she is pretty calm all things considered. Is watching the choir flock around you like the useless parasites they are making her blood boil? Definitely. She doesn't like being angry, she doesn't like hurting people, but something about the way the rest of the choir all vie for your attention just sends alarm bells through her head. Surely, you don't care about any of them, right? Yeah, you're way too nice to say anything to their faces, that's it. Don't worry, Penny is gonna make sure they never get to utter a single syllable of your name ever again.

Constance Blackwood is a nice girl. She doesn't wish harm upon others or does things purely to spite the competition, no, she is obviously the most sane person here. ...She just gets a little frustrated with watching you deal with people who aren't and will never be worth your time. That's all. There's no way she would destroy Ocean's project at the last minute or drown Ricky's sketchbook, she would never do such a thing...

A/N: I was kind of yapping on Mischa's section- It's so funny because I don't even consider him my favorite choir member, but I always end up writing so much for him.

Hopefully, I also got Mikan's personality right... For as much as she's one of my favorite characters in the Danganronpa franchise, she's kinda hard to write for.

And last note, like I stated earlier, if you are ever in an abusive situation or one where you do not feel safe, please seek help and stay safe.

Abuse hotlines -

National Domestic Violence Hotline: 1 (800) 799 – 7233

National Teen Dating Abuse Hotline: 1 (866) 331 – 9474

National Sexual Assault Hotline: 1 (800) 656-4673

ChildHelp National Child Abuse Hotline: 1 (800) 422 – 4453

If you would like me to add any more, please feel free to tell me and I will do so.

Remember that people care about you and that no one deserves to go through abuse.

Stay safe.

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