#*sweats in pan and nonbinary*

[beeshoesometimesdraws]

(centaur au)

Will Eclipse get revenge on Lunar for zapping him? If yes, how?

Also do you have any random facts/hcs about any of the centaurs?

I'm sooo interested in this AU that you can't even imagine

Yes, Eclipse will definitely be getting revenge on Lunar later (it will most likely involve snakes - I don’t think Lunar in canon is afraid of snakes, at least not that I recall, though centaur Lunar is, I kinda imagine it how Toothless and the other dragons in httyd are scared of eels)

Oh yeah I have LOTS of random fun facts/headcanons for this au >:)

Starting off with gender/sexuality headcanons :

Lunar is trans and uses they/he pronouns, pan

Earth is panromantic demisexual and uses she/they

Solar is pan and uses he/they

Sun uses any pronouns (he/she/they), bi

Moon is aroace, uses he/him

Eclipse is demiromantic pansexual and agender, uses he/him

(BM twins) Scarlet (twin 1) - genderfluid, pan | Whiskey (twin 2) - nonbinary (masc leaning), uses they/he and is biromantic grey-ace

Ruin is unlabeled, def queer tho, and uses they/them

KC is bisexual and uses he/him

Now onto other random facts/headcanons :

The BM twins in this au are obligate carnivores (most centaurs are omnivores like humans—in my headcanon anyway- so the twins are an abnormality)

The twins are separate in this au and that is how they have always been though they still have a very close connection to each other

The nick/tear in Solar’s ear is from a tracker that he ripped out of his ear sometime before meeting the others

Solar has a bit of a southern accent in this au (I may do voice claim stuff tho still unsure)

Instead of coming from his time in space like in canon, Lunar’s star powers were just something he was born with that lay dormant in him until later on (the astrals of course knew he had these powers the whole time but didn’t appear until they started to manifest)

KC is the tallest as well as the oldest in this au (with Eclipse being a close second in height) and Lunar is the shortest (and the only one based off a pony)

KC’s right ear is permanently flattened due to an injury from years ago (you can see this on his ref sheet)

All of them display horselike behaviors (because as many already know I LOVE characters with physical animal traits that also have behavioral traits)

These behaviors include :

vocal (snorting, squealing, whinnying, nickering, etc)

stomping hooves when annoyed/upset or sending an alarm to others

ear emotes (laid flat - angry, swiveling rapidly - anxious/nervous, pricked - alert/interested, etc)

when excited or playing they may nip and bump each other and/or chase each other around

charging/false charging (Eclipse is well known for doing this both to other centaurs and people)

They may be centaurs but they are still of course half horse and have prey responses/behavior, especially when it comes to things that could be a threat to them (wild cats, wolves, other large predators, snakes, etc)

some have stronger reactions to this prey response than others (though again the twins are the odd ones out and have little fear for other predators with them being more like a predator themselves)

during the fall and winter their coats get thicker and fluffier and in the spring and summer they thin back out

They all live with their own little “herds” —Moon and Sun’s herd (them, Lunar, Earth, Solar, eventually Eclipse), KC’s herd (KC + the twins)—Ruin’s the odd one out in this as they don’t belong to either herd

(There’s other behaviors they do but these are some of the most common/notable)

That’s all the random little facts/headcanons I have for now, I don’t want this post getting too long lol

Thank you for giving me an excuse to infodump :D

[seeresultssweep]

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ik this blog is dead but yknow what, im gonna take advantage of my following to make an important post:

this pride month, i want you to educate yourselves & support the "controversial" queers.

& no i dont mean people with contradictory labels or xeno pronouns or those who use outdated/offensive terminology. i mean the people that even the most sex-positive, pro-kink, self-proclaimed perverts think are dangerous freaks who deserve to die.

i mean the paraphiles & people with taboo or stigmatized kinks/fetishes. i mean the people into the most taboo & stigmatized things like children, animals, corpses, & incest. i mean the people into violent things like murder, gore, rape, & abuse. i mean the people into unsanitary things like piss, shit, vomit, sweat, & snot. i mean the people into things that are constantly memed on like feet, armpits, bodily excretions, cartoon characters, pool toys, & plushies. i mean the people with attractions that would be illegal, immoral, or downright impossible to act out in real life.

no attraction is inherently harmful or evil. there are safe ways to indulge in these things such as fictional content, roleplay with consenting partners, & custom sex toys.

no, i dont think paraphilias are lgbt+ identities. they cant really be grouped into the same category or treated the same way as being gay or trans. but paraphilias are undeniably queer, as theyre highly stigmatized attractions that fall outside the norm. paraphiles face far more violence & hatred than any other lgbtq identity you can think of. it is still normalized & accepted to subject paraphiles to abusive treatments that have been proven to be cruel & ineffective, such as conversion therapy, forced sterilization, & excessive medication. even queer people forget their own history & advocate for this kind of abuse for paraphiles. there is no safe space for paraphiles to seek support, acceptance, or community the way lgbtq has pride, & that's a damn shame.

& believe it or not, many (maybe even most!) paraphiles are gay, bi, pan, poly, trans, nonbinary, aro, ace, & any other lgbtq identity you can think of.

so yes, paraphiles belong at pride. spend this month unlearning preconceived biases & educate yourself on what paraphilias actually are & how theyre not inherently dangerous.

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[perfectlovevn]

Hello hello! How are you doing? I hope you're doing great!!

Anyways, I was wondering a bit

What are the sexualities of the characters? Eris, Ryan, Milo, etc... Do they have any sexualities? Like preference, gender etc...

And another question. What will all the Milo do if they see Eris/M/C sleeping ?

Hello hello! Thank you for all the fanart! I always like seeing what you end up drawing next.

I think some of this has already been covered in the ship templates but I will go over them more in depth.

For the Milos I think that they will fall for anyone they think will give them attention or will love them. I just put them as player sexual since it depends on Eris/the player. I think he likes people who are confident though since it’s not a trait he has, but really I think being nice to him is enough.

Eris is kind of a weird case since while they have a strong personality, they are still a self insert character, so they can be any gender or sexuality the player desires them to be. Their preference is “someone who is easy to manipulate and is easy to control.” Classic Eris.

Ryan.. I also have no idea, but it likely depends on Eris as well. I think I put him as omnisexual though since I feel like he would try to get with anyone with a pulse ( though that’s what I think).

Valli is bisexual with a preference for women. She and Holly dated for a while before Holly ended up betraying her so now she hates her.

Desmond is demiromantic. He and his girlfriend Iya are childhood friends though they both are kind of tsundere with each other so they tend to fight a lot. Iya is demisexual.

Seph is… what’s the word, Teratophilia? He’s only area he’s to monsters and specifically the monster he mentions, the one who lives in the woods. He has no interests in humans.

Poison is… nonbinary I suppose? She goes by she/them so I just swap their pronouns every time I talk about her. I can imagine they’re pan sexual because she only cares about if the person is a good challenge physically aka can you keep up with them in a fight or brawl. She likes people that challenges them and has no interest in weaklings.

How would the Milos react to a sleeping Eris?

PreMilo would probably tuck Eris in, put a blanket on them and make them feel comfortable where they’re sleeping. They’ll try to not wake them up as best as possible.

Violence Milo would go either into guard dog mode, making sure that nobody would get near them while they sleep or try to hug/cuddle them. If they have the stalking trait, whatever happens in the stalking route while Eris sleeps also applies.

Manipulation Milo might take a lot of pictures or record Eris. They might hold Eris’s hand as well and maybe stare at them really closely, analyzing their pretty face. I can also imagine them trying to get Eris to spoon him before he sweats like crazy next to them.

[100percent-shell-oil]

Pride Month Pick Up Lines

Are you bi? If so, can I bi you a drink?

Are you trans? Because I’m transfixed by you.

Are you pan or am I just panting at your beauty?

Are you omni? Because you mean everything.

Damn you must be polyester with how much you’re making me sweat.

Are you agender or just amazing?

Are you ace? Because you’re number one.

Are you demi cause I think your looks are gonna cause my demise.

You must be a butch which how much your hotness is butchering me.

Is your gender fluid? My schedule is and I think we can grab a drink.

You know, neo means new and I think you could be my new lover.

Even if you’re nonbinary, I hope you won’t be nonsensical and say yes to my offer of a date.

Are you aro? Because I think Cupid just shot me.

[xx-obliviousfantasy-xx]

My pipeline was pretty basic. Nothing serious

It was like "Haha I'm cishet but online I'm androgenous bc I think it would be funny to make ppl confused about my gender while staying safe online 👍." (I didn't know what transgender was or being gay outside of knowing it was an insult) (some kids may have clocked I was gay before I did tho bc of the frequent use of it towards me. Crazy)

To "Haha I'm gonna roleplay as being gay for the plot" (I still dunno what being gay is rlly.)

"wait...wait no wait I actually...like this girl outside of roleplay. Am I...gay????" (I end up believing I may be a lesbian.)

"Oh wait no...wait...AM I BI? NO WAIT AM I PAN?" (I AM STILL NOT TELLING PPL MY GENDER.)

"Wait... something... something is weird about me...am I ace? Also I'm bi now" (I very briefly take on the lithromantic label after I gave it to the same trans guy character.)

"WOAH WAIT MY FRIEND FROM SCHOOL WHO INTRODUCED ME TO THE CONCEPT OF THE LGBTQ+ COMMUNITY IS TRANS? THATS SO COOL w a i t...am I..? Nah" (Questioning to not)

(Important note, I made a character who's a trans guy and fixated on him hard for several years and roleplayed as him a lot. I felt very connected to him for some reason.)

"Wait no I can't be ace haha. Also I'm pan now"

"WAIT MY PARTNER IS NONBINARY?!! THATS CRAZY!!! ...Am I also non-binary?? Haha nah. Can't be."

"Wait...no I'm definitely ace...but...also I think I'm bi??? Again?"

"...I think I'm aroace guys. NAAAAH. Nah nah. Just ace!!" (I've started wearing multiple bras to compress my boobs and I hide myself in hoodies and baggy pants when possible bc #1 I'm ashamed of my body for multiple reasons. But #2 I'm also trying to see if I feel any better from it.)

"OH MY GOD...GUYS I THINK IM TRANS!!! WAIT... OH...OH MY GOD. ???" (I switch from they/them pronouns to he/him to he/they :D Still weird about neopronouns unfortunately) (I say I'm Nonbinary, Genderfluid, Demigender, Neutrois. I settle on Agender.)

[Fast forward flopping between bi/pan labels and firmly cemented in my asexuality and embarrassing Kalvin Garrah years]

"Haha am I Nonbinary? ...nah" (Literally my nonbinary teacher had most definitely clocked me but I'm in denial) (I've literally made a nonbinary character who I continue to write about constantly and even have them come out to characters modeled after my friends.)

[It's a year later. We've now hit the pandemic.]

"...Guys I think I'm aro...no I'm not...yes I am. No???? I'm confused WAIT AM I NOT ACE EITHER? No actually I definitely am. I might be a lesbian tho. No NVM." (like 3 years. Straight) (Specifically Demi-Ace to GrayAce pipeline. Malisian is also a label I take.)

"HAHA IM QUEER AND NOTHING MATTERS!!!" (I stop thinking about it too much.)

Literally 19 days ago: *WAKES UP IN A COLD SWEAT* "I might be demiromantic guys." *goes back to sleep*

Now: "WHEEEEEEEEE!!!!! I'M QUEER" (I still don't think about it as much anymore. I use a variety of pronouns. I am probably aspec. Definitely genderqueer.)

LGBTQ+ folk what was your gender/sexuality pipeline?

[frrank3nt00th]

My personal ST sexuality headcanons :) IK it’s long stfu I needed to get this out

Nancy: I’d say she’s a lesbian just strong wlw vibes all around, she was into dudes but platonically and mistakes the desire for affection and friendship as romantic feelings and just thought her attraction to women was bestie vibes only :)

Robin: Fuhkin gay. so gay. Figured out she was gay from a kitschy erotica novel that she stole from a yard sale when she was 12 (the ones with huge half-breed musclemen and fainting women in ripped bodices on the cover)

Steve: Oh homie, get some dick. Watched Grease when he was 11 and had a boner he had to hide throughout the whole thing because he was sweating from John Travolta and Olivia Newman.

Eddie: way too gender to not be nonbinary (he/they king) also BISEXUALLL so bisexual like he radiates bisexual slut (affectionate) Maybe pansexual? He also gives pansexual vibes in a total “*shrug* ass is ass, man” kinda way.  Was that one kid who was kissing boys in secret when he was 6 and putting on lipstick before having a crisis at 14 and sadly became a total shithead before going back to being a nerd at 16. Blows men at truck stops without shame.

Billy: Fakes being straight but is the biggest fag in history like stone butch has had affairs with 13 different men. Makes women want to leave their husbands but even more so makes men leave their wives. He does drag and is intense enough that if anyone tries to make fun of them he’ll beat their asses until they’d have to be scraped off the floor with a spatula.

Eleven: Ok so like, really heteromantic but experimental with girls. Asexual but doesn’t really understand her asexuality so developed a pretty shitty mindset of thinking something was wrong with her. Max being educated on this helped her understand herself better probably.

Max: B I S E X U A L all the way omg. Fucking definition of hot bi girl. I’d say also poly?? She’s the girl that Joan Jett is singing about in AC/DC. 

Lucas: Just told people he was a spicy straight after he was caught making out with a guy. Actually bisexual but has a shit ton of internalized biphobia. Which leads to shit getting rocky with max sometimes.

Mike: Oh god he needs to get dicked down even harder than Steve he has so much internalized homophobia. I’m not even going to call him bi he just feels so gay it ain’t even funny.

Dustin: panromantic asexual. I dunno how to elaborate but his mom bought him a barbie when he asked for one. He’s just chill about his sexuality doesn’t get the big whoop about why it’s so important. He doesn’t really like pride but went to a parade wearing a pan flag with Suzie who’s pan as well and he’s super supportive of her .

Will: Toned down gay, similar to Dustin where he really doesn’t give a shit about sexuality like has a very “gay isn’t different to straight so let’s all just be treated as equal it should just be considered normal” mentality. Tho I reckon he’s the sort that would throw a brick through a window if he had to. More punk scene activist less Yas Queen 

Jonathan: Aroace, depressed and felt desperate to feel something so convinced himself he was in love with Nancy. Still unaware of what he is :(

Joyce: Bisexual. No elaboration. 

Chrissy: Pansexual. She looks like a walking pansexual flag.

I probably missed some people out lol i’m just tired <3

[braindeadskeletons]

Lgbtq+ Y/N for Pride Month!

Pride month is tomorrow actually but I had a lot of fun doing this so have an early pride month post

Nonbinary!Y/N:

Frisk: -_-

Y/N: you too?

Frisk: -_-

Y/N:

Y/N: that’s rough buddy

—————

Undyne: [exists]

Alphys: [also exists]

Alphyne: [in a happy relationship]

Lesbian!Y/N, sipping tea: ᴵ ʲᵘˢᵗ ᵗʰᶦⁿᵏ ᵗʰᵃᵗ ᵗʰᵉʸ’ʳᵉ ᵏᶦⁿᵈᵃ ⁿᵉᵃᵗ

—————

Sans: [existing]

Bi!Y/N, sweating: cool

Undyne: [also existing]

Bi!Y/N: ᵗʰᵃᵗ’ˢ ᶜᵒᵒˡ

—————

Papyrus: HUMAN IT IS CLEAR TO SEE THAT YOU HAVE DEVELOPED FEELINGS FOR ME

Aro!Y/N: uh

Y/N: not exactly-

—————

Trans!Y/N: WAIT

Y/N: SO YOU’RE TELLING ME THAT THIS GUY CAN CHANGE LITERAL MONSTER SPECIES

Asriel:

Y/N: CHANGE HIS NAME TO FUCKING F L O W E Y

Asriel: are you-

Y/N: AND THEN CALL HIMSELF THE ACTUAL GOD OF HYPER DEATH

Asriel: -okay?

Y/N: BUT I CAN’T EVEN GET THE CORRECT PRONOUNS OR THE RIGHT NAME

Asriel: 

Asriel: wait what

Y/N: E X A C T L Y

——————

Pansexual!Y/N: what is this??

Papyrus, holding a pan: A GIFT

Y/N: I

Y/N: what made you think that-

Y/N, realizing:

Y/N: s a n s

—————-

Grillby: [laughs]

Gay! Y/N:

Y/N: holy shit

—————-

River Person: I just let monsters assume what I am. It’s a new answer everyday. Tra la la.

Genderfluid! Y/N: 

Y/N: mhm

——————-

Alphys: i-i’m just so afraid that if i tell e-everyone the truth

Alphys: everyone will h-hate me

Queer! Y/N, crying violently: Alphys no baby holy shit we all love you just how you are you’re so perfect don’t worry about it oh my god oh my god oh my-

Alphys: w-

Alphys: what

—————-

Flowey: down here

Flowey: it’s KILL or be KILLED

Queer! Y/N:

Y/N:

Y/N:

Y/N

Y/N: that’s homophobic

—————

Mettaton: would YOU smooch a ghost?

Demisexual!Y/N:

Y/N:

Y/N:

Y/N: do i get to know who this ghost is first or is this just in general-

—————

Undyne, in her casual outfit: HEY PUNK

Lesbian!Y/N: ma’am please

Y/N: do you listen to girl in red

_________

Sans, walking with you in Snowdin: guess you could say this is

Bi!Y/N: sans no

Sans: real

Y/N: no

Sans: sweater weather

[junipernoon]

Today's Indigenous Queers are Paul and BB!

Both are pan - Paul is cis and BB is nonbinary. Now looking at this I realize I draw floppy short hair kind of the same every time but oh well! I still like it a lot and I think they're cute :-) Also Paul has a bar and grill and I pulled the name out of my butt but that also works bc his hoodie repping his business is also super cute!

[Image ID: thigh up digital illustration of two people in their late 30s or early40s, standing with their heads together. Both have short hair. Paul (left) has a nervous smile, one drop of sweat on his cheek, and is wearing a yellow and orange hoodie with the logo for the Ugly Duckling Bar and Grill. BB (right) has their arm outstretched as if sharing an idea or showing Paul something, they have a grin and are wearing a pink sweater. Both have dark hair and eyes and light skin, though BBs overall coloration is a little darker. The background it a blue circle.]

[starswallowingsea]

Your boyfriend Mammon and your little meow meow from bungo stray dogs for the character asks

JPAISDJPFOIJADSIF MY LITTLE MEOW MEOW FROM BUNGO STRAY DOGS

Mammon

Sexuality Headcanon: bi/pan & arospec

Gender Headcanon: money uhhhh i made a pun on his name & nonbinary which was mammonbinary and I stand by that.

A ship I have with said character: Myself obviously this is a dating sim and he's in my polycule but I don't ship him with anyone in canon

A BROTP I have with said character: Bro him and Asmo could have the best relationship devs are just cowards and make Asmo bully him too much

A NOTP I have with said character: with his brothers? Obviously?

A random headcanon: When he's serious about getting someone a gift he will actually work for the money to get it instead of pawning off things his family owns. He wants them to know that he didn't get it illegally or anything and actually put his blood sweat and tears, mostly blood, into getting them something nice.

General Opinion over said character: I love him a lot and want to give him cuddles and tell him he's the best.

Chuuya Nakahara

Sexuality Headcanon: I can't decide between gay and bi but he is 100000% aro hehehe. Rubs my aro hands all over your faves.

Gender Headcanon: Trans gener. Maybe non bineary. A gender only the coolest of kids have

A ship I have with said character: Uhhhhh I don't really ship him with anyone

A BROTP I have with said character: Whatever him and Akutagawa got going on in the Wan

A NOTP I have with said character: Dazai and I will stand on this hill til the day I stop caring about BSD

A random headcanon: Hmm. He collects hats in canon and he makes everyone think that they're all like his fedora and totally serious hats please stop asking about them but he would totally get those novelty hats just for fun and unironically wears them when he's alone because they're fun. Somehow Dazai found out and holds it over his head.

General Opinion over said character: You already did. He's my little meow meow and I will excuse all of his crimes because I love him.

[cishetlessfashion]

Pastel nonbinary pan ace fashion with crows and gore for anon Crow and eyeball felt patch Pastel punk demon enamel pin Pan colors bird skull earrings Ace of spades earrings Pastel pink heart eyeball brooch Pastel weapons sweat pants  Ace colors frilly neo-victorian blouse Crow patch Bruised bunny mask shirt Pan colors short sleeve blouse

[dvp95]

quiet on widow’s peak (15)

pairing: dan howell/phil lester, pj liguori/sophie newton/chris kendall rating: teen & up tags: paranormal investigator, mystery, online friendship, slow burn, strangers to lovers, nonbinary character, trans character, background poly, phil does some buzzfeed unsolved shit and dan is a fan word count: 3.2k (this chapter), 49.6k (total) summary: Phil’s got a list of paranormal experiences a mile long that he likes to share with the world. Abandoned buildings, cemeteries, and ghost stories have always called his name, and a particular fan of his has a really, really good ghost story.

read this chapter on ao3 or here!

"So," Phil starts, and then pauses. He has no real idea how to say this.

His parents wait patiently for him to gather his thoughts and his mum mutes the telly. Having their undivided attention doesn't really help, it just makes Phil sweat a bit. He can't even bring himself to sit down, too wired with anxious energy as he is.

The video has only been live for a day, but it's already one of Phil's most popular. People are clamoring in the comments for more; demands for proof and simple curiosity about what could explain his experiences. He's already had a call from Martyn about the benefits of going back and doing an update, but PJ and Sophie have put their two cents in as 'absolutely not'. Chris offered a don't care and then asked for Phil's mum's lasagna recipe.

Phil wants to stay. It's not so much about the mystery, for him, but he's pretty sure his friends and maybe even his brother already know that. He's got his own reasons for not buying a train ticket the moment the video went live and asking his divisive audience what they wanted him to do. Yeah, he'd been sort of hoping for this outcome.

He's not sure if he wants to stay for himself, for the stagnation that being here allows him, or if he wants to stay for deep dimples and a nice laugh. Probably a bit of column A and a bit of column B, if he's honest with himself.

"I uploaded the video on this case," Phil tells his parents. "And there were a lot of, um, unanswered questions. Because of that whole thing with the footage."

"Phil," his dad says, exasperation in his voice already.

"And that means more money from one case," Phil presses on, "because I don't have many expenses here and the ad revenue was really good in comparison to my last five videos. Martyn really thinks I should look into this some more. I promise I won't be here for months or anything, I just - just give me another week. Please, I just need a week."

Money talk usually gets his parents to back down a bit, but they exchange a long look between them that convinces Phil it isn't going to work this time. His mind is already whirring quickly, trying to settle on arguments that it thinks might win him this battle. He considers telling them that this is more than just a video to him, that his whole future feels like it's resting on this one mystery, but he has a suspicion that they wouldn't be very impressed with that lack of foresight. He's ready to bring out specific numbers when their silent communication breaks and his mum gives him a small smile.

"Phil," she says, echoing his dad with a bit more warmth and a lot more pity. "You know we need to talk about this, dear, why don't you sit down?"

He shakes his head and shoves his hands into his hoodie pockets so they don't see the trembling. He's not scared, he's just anxious, and his brain and body are conspiring to make him feel like he's going to die if something unexpected happens.

Phil doesn't like change. He doesn't like seeing his childhood house like this, he doesn't like having his career up in the air, and he doesn't like the way his parents no longer trust him to do what's best for himself. The worst part is that he's not even sure they're wrong - Phil knows he isn't thinking logically right now, that Martyn is the one who even mentioned ad revenue while Phil was busy wondering how best to prove himself.

"I'm good," says Phil. He hopes that the nerves aren't as palpable as they feel to him.

"Okay, well," his mum says, briskly rearranging things on the coffee table like she has to be doing something with her hands while they talk about this. He's reminded a bit of Dan in the coffee shop, of Chris in the attic, and he wonders what it is about him that makes people need to split their focus like that. "Your dad and I have been talking."

"About how I need to grow up?" Phil offers, heart in his throat. It feels like he might laugh or cry at any moment. "Yeah. I've noticed."

"We're retiring, Phil," his dad says. That's not exactly news to Phil - he knows why they're selling the house, after all - but he bites his tongue and lets his dad speak. "We've understood the... unstable nature of your work for several years now, but we can't keep bailing you out whenever you have a bad month. You're a smart man and you've got a good degree, you should have something steadier under your belt."

"We love how creative you are," Phil's mum chimes in. It almost sounds like they've practiced this. Phil bites down harder. "And if you can channel that creativity in a way that isn't so dangerous, you'll have our full support."

Phil kind of wishes that he already had their full support, but he's already had this conversation with himself. The work isn't fun for him anymore, and the risk of getting arrested for trespassing isn't a low one. It's almost not worth it when he doesn't have that full-blown excitement about a case.

He doesn't need every haunt to have a nice ending wrapped up with a bow, but he does need to like the content he's producing. Otherwise there isn't any point to it.

Still. It sucks to hear.

Phil deflates a little bit. His automatic defensiveness that springs up whenever his parents start questioning his many bad decisions in life is fading to something that feels like bone-deep exhaustion. The anxiety is still there, thrumming under his skin, but there's nothing he can really do about that. The truth is that he's been feeling listless and defeated and trapped for a lot longer than he's been back in his parents' house. There's no real point in pretending otherwise.

"Give me a week," he repeats, quiet. "I want to finish this project either way, y'know? Just let me stay for the rest of this week and - and if it doesn't pan out, if I don't find anything new, then... then I'm done. I'll stop. I'll find something else."

"Are you sure, sweetheart?" his mum asks. The relief that pulls at her shoulders and her pursed lips is enough for Phil to be sure.

"Yeah," says Phil. He gives them a little shrug. "I'm comfortable with what I'm doing. I like making videos and exploring places with cool stories, and even talking to people has been getting better. But you're... you've got a point. I can't keep doing this forever. Not at the pace and quality I like to maintain. If this video goes well, it might help me break into a more diverse and less dangerous niche, which would make everyone happy, I think."

His dad nods at him. "Okay. You can stay until Sunday, because that's when we're going to the Isle. You can do whatever editing and post-production stuff you need to when you get back to Brighton. We'll expect a call when you know for sure what you're going to do, Phil."

Phil swallows, clenches his fists tighter in his pockets. "You'll be the first to know."

--

Nobody asks Phil to leave, but he can't stay in the aggressively neutral version of his parents' house and field their 'casual' questions about what sort of things he might want to do if YouTube doesn't work. He escapes to the city again, sending a message to Dan on the bus. Instead of asking if they want to hang out with him, he simply asks where he can meet them today. As if it's a given that they're going to be spending time together.

Maybe that's presumptuous of him, but Dan uses an exclamation mark when they reply, im at home!, so Phil thinks it's probably fine.

Dan meets him at the door this time, mid-ramble about the broken dishwasher in their flat as if social niceties are no longer expected of them. That suits Phil. He grins back at Dan and joins them in the small but tidy galley kitchen, letting Dan talk his ear off while they scrub at some discoloured Tupperware.

"Sorry," Dan interrupts themself, turning big and apologetic eyes on Phil like they've just registered that he's standing there. "I'm having a weird brain day. Bit all over the place, you know."

"That's fine," Phil says honestly. He smiles, because Dan doesn't look all that convinced by it. "No, really, I don't mind. I like listening to you talk."

The blush spreads across Dan's face too quickly for them to hide by turning away. They try, anyway, and Phil is left looking at their face in profile, turned down and rosy as it is. "Normally I at least break for breath. What's new with you?"

"Since two days ago?" Phil teases. Dan's dimple makes an appearance right before the smile splits their face, and Phil has to twist his own fingers together so he doesn't reach out and poke at it. He's still working through some stuff, still doesn't want to make any decisions about this without thinking it over carefully, but he's never been good at resisting temptation either. "Uh, not much. My parents are still on my case. I'm getting good feedback on the video, but you probably know that already."

"It was a good video," says Dan. They pause as they dry their big hands on an old tea towel. "I... appreciate you saying that stuff about me."

"I didn't say anything that wasn't true."

Dan meets his eyes again, almost stubbornly ignoring the colour in their own cheeks. "I can appreciate things that you think are true, dingus. Take the gratitude already."

Phil grins. "Never."

--

There are snacks after that and some video games that Phil loses spectacularly and some good ferret snuggles. As the afternoon turns to evening, Phil watches Dan rearrange some titles on the bookshelf as they chatter about one of their science-y classes, no longer self conscious about how much they're talking. He's sitting on Dan's soft, unmade bed with Pixel, who keeps rolling around in the sheets like she's trying to get comfortable.

Phil is already comfortable. It's hard for him to ignore that Dan's bedroom feels so much like a safe haven in the way that his old house no longer does.

At some point Dan gives up on whatever system they were trying to implement. They pick Tofu up off the floor and flop onto the bed with Phil, wiggling around in almost the exact same way Pixel had. Phil presses his lips together tightly so he doesn't laugh.

"I think that things can be improved," Dan is saying, and Phil tries to figure out if they're still talking about the environment or if Dan has picked up the loose thread from their earlier rant about Bethesda. Pixel and Tofu are both running around like Dan and Phil are just bony jungle gyms, and Dan barely even stutters when one of them steps on their nose. "Of course they can be improved, it's not something you just give up on when things get tough, but the problem is that the people in charge have to implement the changes that are necessary for improvement, and - ow, that's my ear, don't bite that - and, uh... where was I?"

"You were telling me about climate change," says Phil. "Or potentially Todd Howard's ambivalence towards a quote-unquote 'perfect game'. I honestly lost track."

For a moment, Dan is quiet. Phil's anxiety rears its head for the first time since he got here, but luckily he hasn't stuck his foot in his mouth this time - Dan starts laughing, more or less cackling, and they roll closer to Phil to bury their face in a pillow.

Phil grins and reaches out to tug at one of Dan's curls, fascinated by the way it just springs back into place. He's done this to PJ once or twice or six times, but he's usually had a couple drinks before he resorts to it. Dan comes out of hiding with tears of laughter welling up in their pretty brown eyes and their dimples in full force, grinning up at Phil like he's the funniest person in the world.

"Those are both really important issues," Dan says, trying their best to sound deadpan when they're so obviously gleeful.

They wiggle around again and Phil says, "You look exactly like Pixel when you do that."

He's pretty sure that Dan honks at that, but he's immediately distracted by a ferret trying to bite his eyebrow.

This is good. Phil likes this. He's trying to dig himself out of the mindset that he'd backed himself into when he first started noticing Dan, because PJ might have had a point. Okay, so PJ definitely had a point, and Phil has been a bit of an idiot.

He won't know for sure how Dan feels about him being gay and uncompromising about that fact unless he asks, and he doesn't think he's ready to do that just yet. But there's a rainbow flag on Dan's wall and they don't consider themselves not not a guy, so... Phil thinks that maybe he's been assigning a strictness to Dan's own relationship to gender and sexuality that isn't actually there.

Dan is talking again, to their ferrets this time, and Phil is almost overwhelmed by the force of affection that washes over him now that he isn't trying so hard to hold it back. Dan's leg is pressed against his own and they're holding Pixel up like they're playing airplane with her and Phil likes them so goddamn much.

"Did you want to," Phil starts, interrupting Dan's musing about what goes on in a ferret's tiny brain. Dan looks up at him with such genuine happiness on their face that Phil's words stick in his throat. He should be asking if Dan wants to go out for dinner again or if they've seen whatever blockbuster action film is playing in cinemas this week, but that's not what comes out of his mouth. When Dan raises their eyebrows quizzically, what Phil ends up asking is, "Uh, come spend the night in the haunted house with me?"

Great. Real romantic.

--

Dan doesn't make a secret about how much they hate this plan. They say it over and over, but they don't take any of the outs that Phil offers them.

"I hate this plan," Dan says as they make a bunch of sandwiches. It seems like way too much for just the two of them, but Phil isn't about to say no to having a near endless supply of peanut butter and bread when they're stuck in a dusty attic again. "This is stupid. You should have just left it at the first video, Phil, that was fine."

"You don't have to come with me," Phil reminds them for the umpteenth time.

Dan glares. "No, I'm coming."

"You're a very complicated person," says Phil.

With a heavy sort of sigh, like they've been dealing with Phil for years instead of a week, Dan finally sets the peanut butter down. "Look," they say, pointing the dull knife at Phil for emphasis. "I can hate this plan and still want to make sure you don't get fucking arrested or possessed or trip down the stairs or something. PJ knows where I live."

"I think he'd be in the camp of me deserving it if I died in the Wilkins place," Phil says, his lips tugging into a grin. "But thank you."

"Yeah, yeah," Dan mutters. "Will you at least tell me why we're going back? I know you're fucking stubborn and all, but I didn't figure you for someone who beats dead horses."

"Oh, that's a terrible idiom," Phil says, mostly to himself. He reaches out to squeeze Dan's shoulder when he sees them get all huffy at the apparent avoidance. The tension leaving Dan's body under his palm is frustrating to feel, because there's nothing Phil wants more than to lean into it. The problem, of course, is that he really does need to talk to Dan before he starts trying to hug them in their own kitchen. Phil lets his hand drop awkwardly between them and shrugs. "Well, uh. This is the first time in a long time I've actually been excited about a project. And that makes me think that maybe I've worn out my welcome here. Not... not here like Manchester here, but here like... my job, here."

Dan leans their hip against the counter and looks at Phil with their brow all furrowed. "This is an ultimatum," they say. "Like, to yourself."

"Yeah," says Phil. "I need to solve this - or at least find something else that I can show to people. Because if I don't, then I need to actually look at myself and admit I'm not doing something I like anymore."

"It sounds like you're already looking at yourself," Dan says quietly.

"I guess."

"No, you are," Dan insists, their voice stronger now that they can assert an opinion. "Trust me, I'm a pro at unproductive self-reflection and existentialism. Who am I, what does it all matter, I know the song and dance. And I don't think that getting more footage is going to erase what you're already thinking, Phil. Tell me if I'm out of line, whatever, but if you want to do something else with your life then just do something else with your life."

The automatic defensiveness threatens to make Phil snap back at Dan that this isn't any of their business, but he's had a lot of practice in keeping his negative thoughts to himself. He gives Dan a little humourless smile and shrugs his shoulders.

"You're twenty-one," Phil says. "And a student. I don't really expect you to get it."

Dan puts their hands on their hips like they're settling in for a proper row, but instead they just say, "I know. I don't know what you're going through, sure, I doubt anyone knows what anyone else is going through at any time. And, yeah, I've got another year before I have to worry about my career. But I've made some fucking tough decisions in my life, mate. I dropped out of my law course after two lectures. I don't talk to my family anymore. I've tried on so many different names and labels that it would make your head spin. You don't like your job anymore, and one video isn't going to change that."

"Yeah, probably not." Phil looks down at their little collection of sandwiches, feeling lost and stubborn and a bit scared about how much Dan sees him. "But I have to try, y'know? I can't just give up. I have to try."

There's a long moment of silence. Then, Dan sighs.

"Okay. Put these in a container, we don't use unnecessary plastic in this flat. Just whatever they fit in. I'll make some coffee for the road and find our Scrabble board."

[zenzilihasmoved]

totally! i mean, obvs there are the genders and sexualities most people are aware of (trans,male, female and gay, straight, bi) but there are a lot more? (enby, genderfluid, etc and pan,ace,etc) and my family aren’t all that ‘sold/convinced by’ the ‘newer’ sexualities/genders .

oh ok! well here’s my thoughts on what you talked about just now.

so for one thing, “trans” isn’t really a gender in and of itself - i wouldn’t even describe it as a modifier. its like a prefix- “trans man” “trans woman” or, something like “binary trans” etc. moreover, nonbinary(enby/nb), genderfluid, etc are all trans- as in, they do not wholly identify as their assigned gender. “nonbinary”, “genderfluid” etc can also be used as prefixes, “nonbinary woman” etc. obviously i am pro-trans of all kinds considering i am nonbinary lol. most of this paragraph is just me nitpicking on the language you used in your ask so im sorry about that but i think its kind of important (sweating emoji)

on the topic of sexualities, i have no real idea. i’ve seen both sides of the asexual discourse and i gotta say i don’t really have much of an opinion. perhaps that’s just from a lack of knowledge. i think there’s a difference between the way asexual people move through the world vs. how sga people do, but i don’t think that really means they arent lgbt(+??) inherently. but also i dont really think it necessarily means they ARE lgbt(+) inherently either. like i said i do not really have an opinion. however i can say - most use of pansexual as a word comes from a misunderstanding of its predecessor, bisexual. bisexuals are and always have been attracted to all genders! even though “bi” means two- there’s lots of other things like that in the english language after all, and words develop new meanings over time. bi came before pan, the record shows, and means the same thing, so i’m not really sure why people choose to call themselves pan as opposed to bi. i think we should care more about history. i think that the criticism of pansexual as a word to describe a sexuality is valid! especially adding on that internalized biphobia makes it far easier to call yourself by a new word, than an old one with its connotations (ie. the history of the fear of bisexual men as sti-ridden, which is an internalized phobia in and of itself or of bi people in general as cheating and sex obsessed)

something else: it seems to me that a lot of people simplify it a lot more than they should, for instance, “if you want to identify as (x), identify as it!” seems harmless at first . but adding into it the entirety of society, internalized transphobia, homophobia, biphobia, a society that has taught us to hate ourselves (becoming only more complex with the addition of being poor, disabled, neurodivergent, a person of color, etcetera) i think we really need to work harder to see it as really complex, and a journey more than anything. it’s difficult to figure out who we are. that shouldn’t be ignored. 

um. yeah, i think it’s really a lot more complex than a lot of people make it out to be and i think we as a community should work to make each other and ourselves fully understand how truly complex it is. obviously i’m only XX years old and very new to all of this. that also obviously doesn’t excuse me from learning.

also i’m really sorry for the large blocks of text and for being so lacking in knowledge - _ - writing this out revealed knowledge i was missing. so iguess i’ll try to fill these gaps now. i really hope i didn’t say anything ignorant although if i have i guess it’s alright after all, its just a chance to learn... also sorry for overusing this: “--” it’s just way too fun to use 

[newgameplus]

3, 6, 7, & 9 for the asks!

3.What pronouns do you use?i use he/him and they/them pronouns fr the most part! i dont usually have specific “he” days and “they” days, i usually just let a chat decide what they’ll default to, and its a coin toss to which one they’ll choose ahahaha, so i get good mileage out of both of them. i’ve considered using neopronouns or such but i havent found one that feels right to me, so im happy w the ones i have ehehe6.What is your sexuality/romantic orientation?shrugs! im aromantic and asexual, but im also gay (or mb bi!) i dont really sweat it though. i feel what i feel for whoever i feel it for, and thats good enough for me7.What labels do you use for your gender?transmasculine nonbinary boy/demiboy! when talking to cis ppl or when i just dont care abt nuance i dont mind calling myself a trans man, because im not.. not! im defs that! but im also nonbinary too! i contain multitudes9.What previous labels did you go by when you were questioning?oh i’ve been many things... pan+genderfluid...agender+aro+ace, gay+nb... truth be told i found the aro/ace label comfortable pretty early on (mb 16? 17? i have no concept of time) and while it took me ages to figure out lables that made me comfy re: gender, i just generally go w/ the flow. i dont have a strong sense of gender, and it took a lot of waiting and experimenting and just going w the flow to realize nah, yeah i Do like existing in the boy-space and the general void around that, so that’s were i’ve stayed fr the last several years

[gotmagicwithoutwands]

Having a bad pain day but I made progress on some kickass pride hats, clockwise from top left, trans flag band detail, trans pride brim design, panromantic asexual brim design, panromantic asexual band side details with "likes people" lettering, pan flag strap, and ace spade, and lastly a nonbinary flag band detail. These get as subtle or as loud as you want, message me for details on commissions. All hats are $10-15+shipping made on 100% cotton hats with adjustable Velcro strap, done in permanent fabric ink, and finished with scotchguard for weather and sweat resistance. #pride #pride2018 #pridegear #wearyourcolors #prideflag #asexual #pansexual #panromantic #trans #transgender #nonbinary #diyfashion #queercreator #buylocal

[poutyzendaya-blog]

my thoughts on odaat season 2 !!!

first of all THE HUMOR?!

they lowkey highkey slammed donald trump im 1000% here for this show

this show continues to be progressive and mention important issues

okay but elena this scene, SWOON!!! shes the ideal lesbian gf and im here for it!!! 

her outfits? holy shit. the space buns? the flannels? im soft as hell?

the switch from her wearing a skirt to pants for her school uniform.

elena in doc martens? im SWEATING

hER IN THAT HANDYMAN UNIFORM

her and syd’s relationship? a dorky pure soft lesbian relationship

and they didnt sexualize it in any way and isabella does such a good job potraying a gay character

the fact that syd was a nonbinary lesbian? we love the representation

we were fed so much gay content this season

continued penelope’s mental illness storyline and i was HERE for it

we got cute penelope x schneider moments!! i really hope they finally get together in season 3, ive been rooting for them since the pilot

also schenider is a bi icon who i love

alex this season? he grew up so much. i love my son. i went on a rant about him here

that finale? was everything. i was tearing up so much. 

the acting in this show is everything

they talked about things this season like : pronouns, nonbinary, nonbinary lesbians, tRUMP, gun violence, immigration, IM PROBABLY MISSING SOME

its such a good show i can go on and on about it

one thing i must say is, the way they bring up the important topics with such lightheartedness and its not heavy to watch?? i love

oNE THING WHICH IM EHH ABOUT IS HOW CRINGEY THAT ASK WAS BY SYD BUT THEY ARE ADORABLE SO ITS ALRIGHT

elenas lil dance in ep 2?? my lil pan heart exploded!!

lydia opening about her citzenship

syd and elena’s first date is at comic con? AND THEY DRESSED UP AS THE DOCTOR AND A TARDIS? goals

syd and elena’s first kiss? wow !!! like wowoowowow i had to rewatch it bc i am so soft and single. tHE WAY ELENA CUPPED SYDS FACE? ‘ we will protect each other’ 

i wish we saw more of judy, i love her. maybe like judy x elena meeting / talking about being gay?

ALSO IS IT ME OR IS JUDY TOTALLY CRUSHING ON PENELOPE ? SHE WOULD GET JEALOUS WHEN PENELOPE WAS TALKING? or maybe shes just bitter because she kept talking about being hetero

iconic quotes from this season !!

i thought i was homolinguial 

gay! me gay!

dale blanquita dale

are you gay? i forgot! you haven’t mentioned it in the past five minutes

exterminate! exterminate!

[killorbekillian]

I made aesthetic... boards? for some groups of characters in my story! but not including the main character. she’s an outlier and should not be counted.

and now i’m going to Get Into It because i am JUST that bored

The Queer Street Gang is a group of four rebellious teenagers who live on Queer St. 

Alex Palmer: Ace. Nonbinary. Punk af. Traded their eye color for knowledge to some unspecified Otherworldly Being. Lowkey me but cooler.

Dayo Nakahara: Bi. Also punk. Impulsive. Has a running lists of potential band names and knuckles tats. 

Layla del Toro: Pan. Seems chill but is Not. I can never describe her, but I know her vibe and that’s what’s important. Great with the bants.

Roxy Freeman: Sexuality is just kind of whatever, you know? Don’t sweat it. Mom friend. Easily mistaken for a nature goddess, what with the flowers in her hair, friendship with crows, smile like sunshine, etc. 

Photo break down

“Drink coffee and destroy”: Mostly relates to Dayo because he works in a cafe, but could also fit Alex, who drinks a lot of coffee. Both are liable to wear punk jackets and potentially destroy something. [source]

Boots with flowers: Roxy’s parents are florists, her front yard is a garden, and is she constantly tucking flowers everywhere. Boot laces, her hair, pockets, etc. She’s Black, though, so those are not her legs lol

Red converse on the dashboard: I would assign this photo to Alex although I don’t have a very strong justification. Maybe because heir hair is bright red and it matches the shoes? Maybe because both converse and putting your feet up on a dashbaord represents a lite alternative culture? You know, sometimes you just know your OC’s vibe and this is Alex’s. [source: me]

“Roses are red / Gender is performative / mass market romance / is heteronormative / with you were queer”: They’re a group of not straight and/or cis, socially critical teenage rebels. Also, I love this graffiti and want it as a tattoo sleeve. But I already have sleeves planned, alas. [source]

“Contra toda autoridad... excepto mi mama” (against all authority... except my mom): Layla speaks Spanish around the house and, again, they’re all rebellious teens. [source]

“Queer kids run this town”: I don’t know what else to say here. [source]

Dog next to record player: My dear sweet Ella and and my radiohead lp are representative of Dayo’s dog, Wicket, and his.... radiohead lp? [source: me]

“Punk rock gang rampage is only rumor, police say. / The rumors say the gang has 6 to 12 members, both male and female, who wear tight pants and have very short, brightly dyed hair. Some children apparently believe the group has superhuman powers...”: The early plan of the story did in fact have 6 members of the gang, and everyone was going to have a supernatural element to their character. [source]

“Don’t be a dick”: Pretty sure this was a sticker on an amp belonging to a band I’m friends with.

Tres Horny Boys are three roommates (two of whom are dating) and instead of referring to them by, like, their names, I just stole the trio name from the adventure zone.

Leo Palmer: Trans. Alex’s older brother. Just like..... a really nice young lad.

Wolfgang Mitchell: Gay, and if that’s a problem he WILL physically fight you. Always seems angry but he’s not a bad guy.

Robin Graves: Gay. Local Goth. His parents really named him Robin Graves. Suspected of being a necromancer by the townspeople. 

Photo break down

Deer in a cemetery: I use deer as a sort of symbol or motif for Leo. In this case the cemetery aspect is irrelevant, it’s just better than the photos I got of deer in a forest. [source: me, but I have a photography blog]

Person with their back to the camera: This is a photo by Kyle S Thompson that I love. I might love it because it reminds me of The Outsiders, but that’s neither here not there. I ended up basing Wolfgang’s character design on the person in this photo. [source]

“Not gay as in happy... but queer as in fuck you”: Wolf and Robin are both gay but this is a very Wolfgang sentiment [source]

Flannel: ...Leo wears a lot of it. [source]

Building: These characters live in an old manor that has been converted into a hotel/apartments. I always want to spell apartment with two p’s. This is a central location the the story; almost a gacguffin, really. [source]

Bookshelf: Both Wolf and Robin work at the library [source]

“To Do List: Die ✓”: I took this picture of our dry erase board at work on a busy day. It gave me the idea of these three having a dry erase board that usually has like a chore list or whatever but the first time the main character goes to their apartment it just says “To Do List: 1. Go fuck yourself”  

Cemetery: This is a little bit of a filler photo, but a) i wanted another photo represented Robin, and he is a goth/suspected necromancer, and b) it fits the sort of warm color pallet that emerged naturally as I assembled the pictures - which is why i chose it over a photo i took of the same cemetery at night. Also, this is a different cemetery than the pic with the deer. I guess I just have a thing for photographing in cemeteries. [source: me]