#Experience Unlimited

[mixamorphosis]

Blog post and linked up tracklist [HERE]

Tracklist

01. Ron Rinaldi - Mexican Summer (Spacetalk) 02. Jam Band '80 - Jammin' (With The Jam Band) (Rush Hour Music) 03. Sunset Gun - Be Thankful For What You Got (Thanks But No Thanks Edit) (Balearic Blah Blah) 04. Carrie Cleveland - Love Will Set You Free (Kalita) 05. Nana Love - Love Feeling (Dance Mix) (BBE) 06. Rob - Make It Fast, Make It Slow (Soundway) 07. Baby Huey - California Dreamin' (Curtom) 08. Experience Unlimited - Functus (Black Fire) 09. Marvin Gaye - Right On (Tamla) 10. Jeff Floyd - Don't Leave Me (City Of Dreams) 11. Jaye P. Morgan - Let's Get Together (How Do You Are?) 12. Reuben Wilson & The Cost Of Living - Together (Cadet) 13. Frederic Castel - Open Up (Leng) 14. Billy Paul - It's Critical (12" Version) (Philadelphia International Records) 15. Oby Onyioha - Enjoy Your Life (Soundway Records) 16. John Ozila - Funky Boogie (Spaziale) 17. Bokoor Band - Onukpa Shawarpo (Strut) 18. Roy Ayers - Africa, Centre Of The World (pitched up) (Polydor) 19. BB Seaton - Dancing In The Moonlight (Studio One)

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[captainofthetidesbreath]

CritRole should broadcast a rerun of ExU Calamity so that we can all Feel Something together again.

[our-arospec-experience]

I feel platonic love so strongly for so many people that I was accused of being a hopeless romantic in my youth. Instead, as I've aged, I realized that because of my inability to experience romantic love, I love platonically more deeply and fiercely than a lot of alloromantics typically do. I love family, friends, and my QPP with a platonic intensity that doesn't vary.

Thank god for my big aro heart. I am able to give love in ways allos can't because to them romance is hierarchical. Just because I don't like or feel romance myself doesn't mean I lack love. I have a dynamic, intense personal life that doesn't revolve around romance. I will always be glad I'm aro. It allows me to be someone for other people in my life that if I were allo I may not be able to be.

:)

[halflingkima]

“On a 16, you must make a tough decision...”

[sketchlm]

“How many dice is that, you fuck?”

[rotzaprachim]

digging my teeth into the really dark fascinating fucked-upness of helnik. they’re fascinating in being a wartime love story about an intentional victim of genocidal violence and an unintentional fuck-around-and-find-out victim of “collateral damage,” both of which are different forms of wartime violence. 

nina is targeted as a grisha, she’s almost killed by the druskelle and fjerda in the books not for being a ravkan spy or agent but simply for being grisha. they will kill her for being grisha. and how will they kill her? they will burn her. and it’s fascinating when she tells matthias in a very justified moment of rage (i mean. they’re looking at the dying burned corpses of her people whom jesper, also a grisha, had to physically shoot) and says i want your family to burn i want them all to be burnt in the way my people were. and matthias says, they already have been. they already burned. and how that changes the entire dynamic between them, everything leading up to that, becuase FUCK. yeah. his whole family has already been burnt. he’s a lone survivor of something in much the same way she is, and his family was burnt not on purpose for being grisha but as a “justified accident,” the casual civilian side-damage of war. and it was her people. unlike the intentional, systemic violence that destroyed her people and left nina a shaken, traumatised survivor of a purposeful genocide, we have matthias as this destroyed survivor of one of those little sorts of accidents that’s swallowed and justified by the shape of the war and what Must Be Done to succeed. (also he serves as like, one of the only times i think it’s really faced that the first army is, you known, a national army that does national-army-during-a-war things.) one does not cancel out the other. 

their relationship is difficult and fucked and that’s why it’s fascinating and has so much potential to explore. it’s so much more complicated than the tiktok “enemies to lovers” trope because they dig right at the base of what it is to be an enemy to someone else. from the ship nina is an almost-lone survivor of the damage his people did. from his village being burnt by inferni matthias is a lone survivor of the damage her people did. from the consequences of war on his people and violent prejudice against her own, nina is raised a child soldier and in many ways reduced to weaponry, something that absolutely is a form of child abuse. from the consequences of war on her people matthias is inducted into a cult and subjected to spiritual abuse. they’ve been hurt by each other’s nations, but also by their own. there’s something so brutal but also tender in the way they knock each other off the orbits they’ve been living in and force them out of the home that is burning. love may make you free, but not without drowning first. 

[pocketgalaxies]

Rain, sleet, snow, there’s no telling what kind of weather we might be facing!

[nokingsonlyfooles]

How D'ya Like THEM Apples?

So, trying the decriminalized mushrooms in tiny doses for the ADHD (because, in my particular situation, going to a doctor for this might be hazardous to my health in general). The first time I took them before bed, with chocolate, and that upset my stomach a little so I decided to take them with breakfast like they suggested in the instructions (not really a breakfast person). Not an improvement, they upset my stomach more and made me anxious all day yesterday. Can't know if I'm getting used to them or I need to figure out the best way to take them.

Still slightly anxious today, but able to roll with it.

So, here's the deal. A while back, the spouse and I discussed what the prompt "imagine an apple" gets you, in your brain. He can imagine an apple at will. I found out, I can't. I need context. What's it for? Do you want my culture's Platonic ideal of "apple" or are you going to the store and you need to know what's a good one to buy? Do I need to get taste and texture involved here or is it more like set dressing? With some context, I can kinda get you an apple, but it's indistinct.

And I thought, "Ahaaa! That's that 'imagination deficit' they want to see to diagnose the autism. That's what that is! I can't cough up unlimited specific apples without specific contexts for each one, and even then it's not so good!"

But, after that first microdose, while heading off to sleep, I thought to myself, to pass the time, "Hey, wonder if I can imagine an apple any better?" And, uh, I COULD? Unlimited specific apples, no context. I mentioned that to the spouse, and he said, "Can you still do it now?" And, yes. Yes I can. +/-36 hours away from the second tiny dose of mushroom, and I can give you unlimited specific apples, if you need me to imagine that for some reason.

And... It kinda feels nonsensical that I couldn't do that before? Yeah, apples. There's lots. Just pick one. But I know I couldn't. Not even for the sake of a person who would be satisfied with any imaginary apple. Like, I could imagine the shittiest apple and that would be fine, it would be a judgment free zone! But I remember I couldn't do it. I needed a better prompt.

That thing with the apples is not something I've heard about for ADHD, but I did just barely get an internet diagnosis on that (thanks, @kithpendragon), and I only ordered the stuff because my THC vendor has it. I need the THC to keep from waking up from the edge of sleep with a gasp and heart palpitations, fearing to be harmed. If you spend $200 and stock up, they send you more THC as a surprise! That's a good deal! I like not having panic attacks! For months at a time! I'm not liking the stomach ache and anxiety from the mushrooms, but this thing with the apples makes me feel functional and cool. I don't wanna lose that!

I'm kinda concerned I'm gonna end up doing a real Flowers for Algernon here if I can't tolerate the mushrooms, or they go illegal again because politics. Like, I'm not sure how well the brain differences will play with my creativity and productivity. I need to draw things and go shopping and make dinner, ya know? Lots of different stuff. I seem to be able to do laundry and write a long-ass Tumblr post, but I need long-term data on that. In any case, five days a week is the maximum recommended dose and I gotta take breaks or I'll build up a tolerance.

I may end up looking forward to my meds like that one Tumblrite in my feed the other day, even if they make my stomach hurt! Or I may end up trading one kind of imagination for another and going back and forth indefinitely. I'd prefer the former, but I gotta wait and see.😅

[sf-bl]

Still posting old unfinished WIPs, and it's been quite a 24hrs, so let's throw dignity to the wind with .... aquatic lizard monster boyfriend Rhys. Think if Hyperion R&D wrote the little mermaid, but with more mutated middle managers, and far fewer survivors.

(Honestly, today has been A Day. If I tell you that posting this mutant lizard Rhys is actually the most dignified thing to happen to me so far, you'll get a rough idea.)

[definitelynotrhi]

major critical role spoilers for c3 e33

cw// blood & injury

"it's not goodbye, just a see you later. that's all"

[natcat5]

one fun thing about lou coming over to CR is that whenever his character would do something cool, there’d be people in the chat going ‘HOOT GROWL’ or ‘GOAT HOUSE!’. it was great

[finncakes]

crying eternally cause i miss the crownkeepers so very much

[sundercr]

sure we've got goth ihop, femboy hooters, tomboy outback etc but have we considered

Y'allive Garden

[captainbuzzard]

posting some drawings that have been sitting in my files for a while, starting with aly leaf and fran sasquatch!

ID: The first image depicts alejandro leaf, a mexican american trans woman made of vines, in a variety of poses and outfits. in two drawings, she is less humanoid, made of vines loosely formed into a human shape, with a pitcher plant for a head. in the others, she is shown as a more humanoid woman with six eyes, large round glasses, and a pony tail of spiny vines. her limbs have lines on them, and sometimes unfurl into the loose vines of the less humanoid design. the lineart is colored in with a flat minty green to contrast from the light purple background.

The second image depicts francisca sasquatch, a middle-aged sasquatch with furry arms and legs, pointed ears, and a long furry tail. she sits on the ground in a relaxed position with her profile to the viewer, leaning back on her arms as she smiles and glances at the viewer from the corner of her eye. this drawing is on the same mottled purple background as the first, but is in full color. End ID.

[beedreamscape]

Just finished my Kymal rewatch and I've come to realize that I liked it better this second time around.

Perhaps the knowledge of it, the memory I retained helped increase my enjoyment. I also knew which parts to skip (some ep1 fluff and character conflict that my sensible lil heart can't handle) which weren't much. I also enjoyed Morrighan a lot more this time around, I don't know why I just did.

This is needless to say but they interact so differently from the main cast, it's their general vibes and the fact they're more occasional players, it's such a breath of fresh air *for me*. Their willingness to toy with the mechanics and impress with their creativity is fresh and alive... and I love them for it.

[lordknightmon]

been dabbling in the SaGa series and usually when I get into a new series I will try to just stick to one game at a time but with this one I am having a hard time sticking to one cuz each one that I have played has lots of its own unique mechanics that I'm really interested in