#I could go on about this for hours

[kragehund-est]

using rodents, fish, and small birds as "starter pets" to teach kids responsibility is a part of our culture we need to purge.

[sisaloofafump]

There's this misconception that Golden and especially Silver Age comics were particularly sexist. In reality, when looking at the treatment of Lois Lane, it's the Bronze Age and the introduction of second wave feminism that is actually so much worse.

For context, in the Golden Age, Lois is an independent and fiercely capable reporter. She has massive amounts of agency and often solved and leads investigations on her own. She gets rescued a lot, yes, but she is kidnapped due to her own actions, not Superman's. In the Silver Age, adherence to the comics code (and shifting public preference towards romance comics) made her character's main goals include marrying Superman. One may think this would lead to abhorrently sexist writing but it didn't. Instead, it used these constraints to make her one of the most ethically complex and defined characters, written by authors who love her, and taking her previous iteration's strengths and fleshing them out into a fully three-dimensional character. In addition, she may be less fierce, but she is one of, if not the most active member of Superman comics. She is uniquely a problem solver, problem starter, and investigator, acting in every position of case rather than just reacting to someone else's actions.

Then along comes the Bronze Age. Initially it looks like she is improving even further—she learns to fight, she regains independence from Superman, she lessens her need for marriage. But those changes don't last long.

Lois is flattened until she looses all personality and competency. Every story ends with her saved by Superman. Lois and the Black characters have the occasional quip about "Woman power!", all of which is made to be mocked by the audience and by Superman. Suddenly Clark (with and without cape) is telling her not to do things because she is a woman. Suddenly the things she easily could have done in the past, she can't anymore. It's not just how horrifyingly they treat Lois, it's how they make other characters sexist to balance her "feminism" out.

The Lois Lane comics go through several management shifts and by the 70s they are edited by a woman, who doesn't get to write the responses to the fan letters, and instead they institute the most comically sexist columnist I have ever read. It is so bad that I genuinely thought it was a joke. Even in the regular letter sections, the editors have clear contempt for Lois, a stark contrast to the love that was so apparent in the Silver Age.

The Lois series ends and she is booted to Superman Family, where she is treated far from good but at least she is her own character. In mainstream Superman, she is reduced to a background love interest with no capabilities, personality, or interests. Even in romance she is treated horribly by Superman and Clark. They keep saying that he loves her, but despite being more official than ever, it sure doesn't show.

Here are some panels for your perusal:

And of course, the mystery columnist:

Compare that with this editor's response from the Silver Age. See how much love they had for her and all her flaws. How much effort they put into making her a well rounded character. This is what we lost.

[cosmic-light-fics]

Hi

I just watched the last episode of season 1. And I can’t help but wonder why does Carmy text Syd BEFORE opening the letter Michael left to him ?????

Hello! Sorry it's taken me a while to answer this, I wanted to give you my thorough interpretation of why Carmy texted Sydney first.

It's one of the biggest head scratchers of the season, and I'm not entirely sure my response will cover the entire scope as to why Carmy delayed opening Mikey's letter to him in order to text Sydney. For me, a sizeable part of the answer lies in the way Carmy dealt with his personal problems throughout the whole season.

He's been rightfully called out as avoidant when it comes to addressing other people's emotions, even his own. In the beginning of the season, it is stressed that he is avoiding his sister Natalie who has been trying to reach him ever since he took over The Beef. He won't stop working to acknowledge the feelings he has of losing his brother, but he's trying to be open to it. That's why he winds up going to the Al-Anon meetings. At first, he doesn't speak. He's only at the meetings to listen. But towards the end of the season, when he finally has his big speech, we see Carmy finally ready to talk about Mikey.

Now, how does this relate back to Sydney? I think the glaring thing about their connection is that he is always honest and open with her. Whenever he is upset, he tells her why. Whenever she's upset, Carmy tries to understand why. He always apologizes to her after a dispute and asks if they are okay, if she's okay. I think she's the only person at the restaurant that Carmy's felt comfortable enough to tell about his Al-Anon meetings. There is an implicit trust and respect Carmy has with Sydney (something that steadily grew over the course of the season), and that type of trust bypasses his avoidant tendencies, but not completely.

When he reaches his boiling point in episode 7 and lashes out at Sydney, I think he was too consumed with the to-go disaster to fully grasp what he'd done to drive her away. Sydney put up with a lot of shit that whole season, but the thing that completely pushed her over the edge was Carmy's behavior. And he knew that. But there is some time that passes from Sydney quitting to him finally texting her. In that little pocket of time is his avoidance. This is the first time in the whole season where Carmy doesn't apologize to Sydney in the same day. He avoids contacting her right up until the moment he is about the open Mikey's letter. Even when Tina asks what time Syd would be coming to work, Carmy avoids telling her that Sydney quit, almost like he doesn't want to acknowledge that truth.

Carmy finding Sydney's notebook before Richie gives him Mikey's letter is the catalyst that breaks his avoidance. The truth is plain in his eyes as he looks down at her braised ribs and risotto recipe. He deeply, deeply cares for her as a person and highly respects her as a chef. And I believe undoubtedly that being confronted with something so personal of hers was the wake up call for him to own to his awful behavior.

So when it gets to the scene where we are all expecting Carmy to open Mikey's letter and he doesn't, instead choosing to text Sydney, I believe that the moment shows how the connection he has with Sydney bypasses his avoidant tendencies. He's scared and not forthright with her at the beginning of his texts ("No acid") because he is still not sure how to be completely open, but texting her is the biggest step of him reaching out first to someone he really cares about.

Also, I must add that narratively speaking Carmy already atoned with Mikey at the beginning of the episode in his Al-Anon speech. If he'd had the letter before the speech, I don't think he would have texted Sydney first. And it's hinted throughout the last episode that Sydney was heavily on his mind (ex: a clip of him yelling at her when he's having his panic attack, "you're dressed like Syd," and him staring into her little notebook like it was her soul).

I hope this long ass post makes a little bit of sense. I'm not that great at putting all my jumbled thoughts together cohesively. The biggest thing I wanted to impress upon in this answer to your question was Carmy avoiding the people he cares about, avoiding the emotions that come with being open, and how Sydney is the one person he can't seem to hide from. He always wants to be open with her, he doesn't want to avoid her, even if that means getting out of his own way.

[productofaritual]

"I guess you don't need skin to sing" Will forever remain one of the most hard hitting lines in TMA ever.

The delivery. The context. The voice. The music. The everything.

[galaxythreads]

Loki in the avengers wanted thor to hate him. So why is he shock in the dark world when thor hates him like he wanted

okay, I'm really glad you asked this because I have wanted to talk about this for a while, and I think it's a massive misconception inside of the Thor fandom and the Loki fandom.

Loki wanting Thor to acknowledge they're not bio family ≠ loki wants thor to hate him.

I can't think of any lines in canon where Loki specifically tells Thor "I hate you" or says to anyone that Thor should hate him. Or tells anyone in canon that he does hate Thor.

The most Loki seems to believe is that Thor should acknowledge that they're not related by blood.

Canon lines Loki says regarding this:

Loki does not want his family to hate him. That's not his goal. If it was his goal, he'd go about it in a much, much different way.

Loki does want them to acknowledge that he was lied to for his entire life and that not only is he not even their son/brother, he's not even the same species. It's very different things.

But because Thor and Odin will not address this with him, and Frigga is making him choose accepting Odin as his father or not accepting their family, Loki feels like they aren't seeing him. Again. This lack of acknowledgement about his person, about something that is in the very essence of his being, is something he finds deeply hurtful. It's why his argument with Frigga happens in the first place.

It's not that he doesn't consider her his mother. It's that Frigga makes him choose. There is no gray area for them. No "yes, i'm not your mother by birth, but you are my son by choice" or any sort of reassurance. Just "either you accept that he's your dad or you don't"

Thor, at least, doesn't make Loki choose. He and Loki just...don't talk about it, when they clearly should. I think it would have vastly improved their relationship if they HAD discussed it.

Loki and Thor skirt AROUND the topic in Ragnarok, but they never actually discuss it in any of their time together:

i feel like a lot of Loki's problems with Thor don't stem out of a lack of love. they stem from a lack of communication. this line in ragnarok, i actually found to be a really good summary of their relationship from loki's pov post-avengers:

Thor, on the other hand, seems to view Loki's desire to make them acknowledge his adoption post Thor 1 as Loki's desire to separate himself from the family and that he hates them now, because, well...why wouldn't he in Thor's mind?

Thor participated in the lie, even if unwillingly. His mother and father lied to Loki their entire lives, so of COURSE it makes sense Loki would hate him, so Thor tries to numb down to avoid thinking about it, hence the massive depression arc in TDW.

Loki has also, you know, tried to commit genocide and conquer a planet, which is VASTLY out of character for him pre thor 1, so Thor must wonder if he actually knew Loki at all or if their relationship was a facade the entire time. He feels like he never Knew Loki. Jotunheim Thor can understand, maybe. Maybe he can get where Loki was coming from, the understanding of how badly he was spiraling, the political moves Loki was trying to make, he can make sense of that.

But Earth?

Earth has done nothing to Loki.

Thor doesn't understand why Loki wants to hurt innocents. The brother that he knew defended them. Loki is the only reason the Warriors made it off of Jotunheim. Thor trusts Loki to keep people safe, and for the first time in their lives, Loki wasn't.

Hence this line in TDW:

"I don't. Mother did. You should know that when we fought each other in the past, I did so with a glimmer of hope that my brother was still in there somewhere. That hope no longer exists to protect you. You betray me and I will kill you"

That glimmer of hope was destroyed when Loki turned down Thor's offer in Avengers 1 to stop the attack. Thor tried to reach out to Loki in the Avengers, but after Loki stabbed him, something in Thor broke.

You can see it in his expression.

It's part of the reason that the "oh, Loki stabs Thor all the time lol!" joke doesn't land with me and I kind of ignore it as canon.

LIke just LOOK at them okay? Thor drops Mjolnir in shock. He grabs Loki's arm for support. Loki has to shove him away before Thor lets go. You can SEE the shock in his face as he looks down.

Loki hurt him.

And he meant it.

So yeah, I do 100% get why Thor would threaten to kill Loki in TDW, because he feels he has to do it in self defense. Not that I think Thor could go through with it. They're empty words and Thor and Loki know that. The idea probably sounded a lot better in Thor's head before he saw Loki again and realized oh crap I have missed you and I love you and I'm sorry too.

Loki's adoption being withheld hurt Thor too. Their parents lied to Thor too. Thor tries desperately to separate the idea that his Loki (pre-thor 1) and THIS Loki in the TDW are the same person, but by the end of the movie, he knows.

TDW Loki is more battered, grown-up, hurt, darker, a mess. But it's still his Loki. That is why Thor doesn't feel the need to bring anything up in Ragnarok. He has made his peace with Loki's choices.

Loki...hasn't yet.

In the TDW world though, Thor has clearly been putting distance between himself and Loki, he didn't visit Loki at all in TDW, but he knew where Loki's cell was immediately, which makes me think that Thor has visited Loki, just not when Loki was awake. And you know what, unlike a majority of the Loki fandom, I'm not mad at him for that. I get it. Loki stabbed Thor with the intent to hurt in Avengers. It drew blood. Thor does have a right to be frustrated with Loki, just like Loki does with Thor. Their frustrations are not equal or the same, but they are valid.

But I do want to point this out:

Loki doesn't want Thor to hate him. And Thor doesn't hate him. Thor is severely depressed in the Dark World. Apathy is practically bleeding from his every movement in the movie. Having to face Loki would have meant having to face the family issues he didnt' want to face, but he never didn't love Loki, he just couldn't trust him.

Not being able to trust someone ≠ not loving them.

(which I also find ironic that Thor says that, and then immediately trusts Loki with the most important thing to him at that moment: Jane's life. Thor trusts Loki. Loki trusts Thor. They just won't admit that because they're both stubborn.)

Thor and Loki do love each other.

And I think that Loki is aware that Thor didn't lie to him, because the person he most consistently calls family is Thor from that point out. He doesn't reclaim Odin as family until IW, and he doesn't reclaim Frigga until IW either by association (not that i think he ever really unclaimed her, he was just trying to make a point), but Thor:

Thor, Loki never unclaims, and neither does Thor

For all their frustrations with each other, they still view each other as family. the hurt wasn't deep enough to undo that:

does not deny this

the FIRST thing Loki says to him after ALL that happened with Thanos and the invasion and the Void is thAT

^ you do not mourn someone you don't love.

Thor calls Loki brother twice in that conversation and Loki doesn't say "i'm not your brother" the only person he corrects Thor on is Odin.

Because the ONLY person in canon Loki has EVER corrected about Thor not being his sibling was in Thor 1 to Thor and there were extenuating circumstances.

^ defending his sibling even though LOKI IS NOT IN THE ROOM. Loki will not SEE or HEAR this.

loki still does not deny this

TDW:

Loki: now you see me, brother

loki is calling Thor is brother again. He didn't deny it in the Avengers, but in the TDW he is actively acknowledging that they are family

Loki: This is so unlike you, brother. So clandestine. Are you sure you wouldn't rather just punch your way out?

Loki: Still, we could be less conspicuous. [Loki turns back into himself but turns Thor into Sif] Hm, brother. You look ravishing

Loki: They're on the ship! [as they approach the ship Volstagg starts attacking them; back in the ship] Well, whatever you're doing, brother, I suggest you do it faster.

Loki: You still don't trust me, brother?

Loki is practically falling over himself to claim Thor as his sibling. Part of this, I imagine, is due to the fact that he never got to call Frigga mother again, but I also do, sincerely, believe that Loki never cast Thor out of his heart.

By Ragnarok, both of them are referring to the other as their sibling, an indication that they have moved past their frustrations:

Strange: ... Your adopted brother Loki is one of these beings.

THOR: He's a worthy inclusion.

^ does not deny they are siblings

THOR: I suppose I'll need my brother back.

Grandmaster: YOUR brother. Whatever the story is. Adopted, or complicated. I'm sure there's a big history.

^ loki does not deny they are siblings

even Hela gets thrown into the "getting claimed as family" thing and they barely know her for the span of a few hours:

anyway, tl;dr

loki and thor love each other and want each other as family, they're just too emotionally constipated to actually talk about that. They have never, and will never, actually hate each other because that was never actually in canon and it won't be. And for all my problems with ragnarok, I do like that they made Loki and Thor acknowledge that they care about each other in the subtext.

Thor and Loki only use each other's names when they're being serious. Brother is a term of endearment and they are both aware of that. Loki knows that in the TDW. That's why he's using it. That's why Thor doesn't. Because Thor is still processing and trying to figure out who Loki is to him. I could talk for hours about Thor's arc with his relationship with Loki.

Loki and Thor's love for each other is what made their estrangement so painful. but they were able to repair things in Ragnarok (to some extent). Loki sacrificed himself for Thor. Thor killed Thanos for Loki.

If Loki never loved Thor, Thanos never would have purposefully picked Thor out of the crowd of Asgardians to torture him for the Tesseract. Even Thanos knew how much these two idiots love each other.

[mileslovesdick]

if dl-6 never happened and edgeworth became a defense attorney as he wanted its likely gumshoe would consider him him a rival so… rivals to lovers…?

Omgggg rivals to lovers gumworth would be absolutely mwah *chef's kiss*

You know how Gumshoe accidentally spills information to Wright? It'd be a thousand times worse with Edgeworth.

Gumshoe just can't seem to stop sharing private information with Edgeworth, he doesn't mean to, really! But it just keeps happening!

Next time they're at a crime scene and Edgeworth approaches Gumshoe he can't even get a word out before Gumshoe is pointing a finger in his face and rambling on about how he's gotta stay away from him, that he won't give him any more information just cus he's got a pretty face and that he might as well just leave because there's no way he's gonna tell him about the prime suspects fingerprints being found all over the murder weapon! Oh, wait- oops. He just did.

Gumshoe storms off thinking like "I really put my foot down this time!" All proud of himself, completely oblivious to the fact that he not only revealed a crucial piece of information to Edgeworth but also his huge crush on him.

Edgeworth completely glosses over the bit about the prime suspect and instead focuses on the fact Gumshoe thinks he's got a pretty face. Of course Edgeworth's Weird Girl™ (Kay) encourages him to use his "charm" on Gumshoe to get more information but he would never even begin to consider doing such a thing, he wouldn't want Gumshoe to get in any more trouble than he already is.

But if he decides to use his newfound "charm" on Gumshoe to ask him out on a date, well, that's his own business.

[r4venking]

there is something very Achilles and Patroclus in Gansey dying wearing Henry's sweater

[granolabird]

Please Forgive Me for Whatever I do

Kinda a 3x10 reaction fic, kinda just me getting my brain thoughts on what Rick and Beth are going through onto a page bacause it’s such a complex situation and I don’t think I’ll ever get over it. So, enjoy this giant chunk of angst. 

Title is from Remember You, which is originally a song from Adventure Time but is scarilly accurate for the current Hournite situation so-

... This was not how Beth wanted things to go. She’d expected her attempted intervention with Rick to go poorly, but in the end she thought she’d get to him. He understood her, more than anyone else she thought he’d listen, not… Whatever that was. Him yelling at her parents, then yelling at her, and then storming out? That wasn’t okay, but more importantly that wasn’t Rick. Not the Rick she knew, at least. The Rick she knew was more understanding, he actually listened to her, he actually cared about her. The boy she’d just talked to hadn’t cared at all. There had been a flicker, a brief recognition in his eyes that it was Beth he was talking to. His best friend, the girl he cared so deeply about. Beth had seen it, the moment his voice went quiet to talk to her, to let her know he was talking to her alone, despite her parents presence in the room. Then his hand had slipped down towards that stupid hourglass, and he was gone. He was back to whatever shell of himself had taken over, eyes so filled with hurt and rage and somewhere beneath it all, fear. 

Now she’s cruising the streets of Blue Valley in her dad’s car searching for him. It feels weird, she’s so used to driving with Rick, settled into the worn leather seats of his mustang. The thought makes her want to cry. It hasn’t been that long since he’d driven her to school and yet it feels like it’s been years. She has to take a deep breath and focus herself. This isn’t time to reminisce. Rick isn’t safe, he isn’t in his right mind. They have to try and find him and help him. It’s all they can do. 

Her dad turns to her as they scan the main road, voice tentative and full of concern.

“He isn’t usually like this, right?”

“Rick? Dad, you know he’s not. He’s… sick. That’s all.” Beth reassures him, but she knows her words probably sound hollow.

“I know, I just worry. He hasn’t talked to you like that before?”

Beth’s mind flickers back to a year ago, when he’d towered over her for suggesting a different plan to go catch Cindy Burman, and how she’d had to stand her ground. That was different, though. Rick was different. It was before they’d even really gotten to know each other, and even then, he hadn’t been like this. She’d never seen him this far gone before.

“No. That’s not him. It’s the hourglass, it’s changing him.”

Her dad makes a noncommittal noise of recognition, turning the car down a side street. 

Beth opens her phone next, to check if Rick had texted back. She’d messaged the rest of the JSA in an attempt to let them know what was going on but nobody had seen her messages. They’re all busy with their own problems, she gets it, but at the same time this is Rick. He needs them now more than ever, and she feels so alone. Usually he’s the one to help her through things like this, but now he’s the one that needs her help and she feels so useless. Her parents don’t understand, they’re just worried for her safety. And she gets it. She does. She’d be worried too, given the entire situation. She is worried, angry, and tired. Tired of things like this happening. She wants to grab Rick by his shoulders and shake him forever and ever until the hourglass snaps off his waist and shatters and he gains some sense again. That’s what she wants. She wants him to apologise for yelling at her, for yelling at her family, for everything. She wants him to understand the severity of what he’s done and what the hourglass has done to him. But most of all she wants him to be safe. But he isn’t. He won’t do any of those things, and he won’t be safe because he’s missing. 

She scrolls through her messages to him idly as they drive. Beth knows she’s texted him far too many times after he left the house, but she can’t help it. She’s worried.

I’m not very happy with you right now.

You need to take the hourglass off Rick. 

Just think about it OK?

Please come back, we need to talk

Are you alright?

We’re out looking for you. Tell me where you are and we can pick you up. I promise my parents aren’t too mad.

Just text me something please. I need to know you’re at least okay.

Rick, 

The last one remains unfinished, the little line indicator still blinking away, waiting for her to finish the sentence. She doesn’t. Not now, at least. She doesn’t know what to say. She already tried phoning him and left several messages, some nicer than others. There’s so much she wants to tell him, to let him know, but it doesn’t matter anyway. She knows he’s not going to check his texts, or his message inbox. Not while he’s like this. When he has the hourglass off she knows he’ll hear the messages, and read the texts, and feel awful. Honestly she feels like he deserves it just a little. He needs to know the impact he has on others. He cares so deeply for everyone else, but he still thinks that nobody cares about him. That nobody should care about him. Even without the hourglass, that’s a fact, she knows that. Maybe this experience will finally change that. She can only hope. 

The car rumbles over a bump, breaking Beth out of her stupor. She has to be looking around. Right. Rick is out here somewhere. Yet staring out down an empty sidewalk, dead leaves skittering in the wind the only sign of movement, she feels more hopeless than ever. Rick is out here. She has to find him.

…

Rick wants to hit someone, or something, or… no he definitely wants to hit something. There’s a chill to the late November air as he marches through the woods. Something in the back of his mind tells him he should’ve worn a jacket, but it’s too late for that. He doesn’t know where he’s going. He doesn’t care. He’ll go home eventually, but not now. Not while he’s feeling like this. This is a very broad word, but he can’t think of anything that describes the way he’s feeling. It’s been getting harder to think lately. Beth would blame that on the hourglass. He thinks it’s because he’s more sure of himself, he doesn’t need to think about what he’s doing, he trusts his instincts. Beth doesn’t understand that, she couldn’t- Rick shakes his head and swings a fist, cracking into a tree and sending wood splinters flying around him. Blood drips down his knuckles, and he stops to pull small chunks of wood out of his reopened wounds. He doesn’t even feel it. The dull throbbing across his body doesn’t get any worse so it can’t be that bad. 

He has to stop thinking about her. Every time he closes his eyes he sees Beth’s face, staring up at him. She looks so worried, so scared. She was scared of him. No, no, she wasn’t scared of him, she was scared for him. Scared that the hourglass was harming him, but that’s stupid. It’s only made him stronger, why can’t she see that? Why can’t she be happy for him? She’d always been so supportive, maybe Beth was the one that had changed. That made more sense, maybe her parents had put some idea in her head, and she’d latched on to it. That must be the answer. 

He keeps replaying that moment in his mind, over and over and over. Maybe he shouldn’t have left. He heard her calling after him but he didn’t want to turn around, he knew he couldn’t. He couldn’t because if he did he might break down then and there. He might tell her how much he cares about her more than anyone else. How the feeling consumes him every day, and how he just wants her to understand. To understand why he has the hourglass on, to understand what he’s feeling. It’s too much, he isn’t sure if he’s about to cry, or scream, or hit something else. He goes with the latter, smashing his fist into another tree. 

The tree topples over with a loud crash, thundering down in a spray of dead leaves and pine needles, trunk splintering into a shattered stump. Rick stares at the stump for a moment, tracing the jagged edges with his eyes. Then he sits down, leans against it, and begins to cry. There’s nobody to help him now. He’s ruined his relationship with Beth, Grundy is dead, his parents are dead, even Matt abandoned him. He’s completely and utterly alone, and he probably deserves it. He knows that. He knows that he’s gone and fucked it all up, that this is all his fault. What he doesn’t understand is why nobody can see that he’s just trying to help. He has the hourglass on so he can protect them, he just wants to keep them all safe. Why can’t they see that? He just needs them to see that. 

His phone is buzzing again, heralding another text. Probably from Beth, wondering where he is. She won’t find him. He doesn’t want her to, not like this. Rick pulls his phone out of his pocket anyway, just to see. It is Beth. Of course it is. The rest of the JSA gave up on him a long time ago, she’s all he has left. All he had left. His thumb hovers over the screen, threatening to tap that message notification. Just to see what she’s said. He debates it, wiping at his face, gritting his teeth as if this is taking more effort than him punching down an entire tree. Finally he bites the bullet, and taps on the text.

Rick, if you’re in there I’m sorry. I should’ve tried to stop this sooner. Who you are right now, that isn’t you. I think we both know that. I just thought you should know I miss you. I miss the Rick I knew. Please text me. Anything, so I know you’re okay. 

Rick throws his phone across the forest with a shout that echoes through the barren trees. He doesn’t see where it goes, and he knows he’s almost certainly busted it. He doesn’t care. He doesn’t care, not about his phone, and he most certainly doesn’t care about Beth. That’s what he’s trying to tell himself, at least. But every time he thinks about her, about their late nights in the Pit Stop, all the mornings in his car, about the way she looked at him before he left her house today. It makes him want to scream. To rip himself apart into tiny pieces until there’s nothing left because at least then she wouldn’t have anything to look at. He wouldn’t have to see her anymore, and know that she saw right through him. 

It’s like his brain can’t decide, he wants to see her every day, to always be near her, to protect her more than anyone else. Then there’s this other thing, gnawing at him, tearing through his mind, telling him that she wants to take away his hourglass and that she can’t be trusted. That he would ruin her life anyway, so he should stay far away. He feels like his heart is going to burst, like he’s Cameron’s stupid grandfather, about to keel over and have a stupid heart attack. Stupid, stupid, stupid. Why did that old man have to have a heart attack anyway? Beth should’ve been taking care of him, Rick was bleeding out on the stairs, he needed her help. He…

He covers his face with his hands and screams, digging his nails into his forehead until the bruises and cuts on his face scream for him to stop. He’s nauseous, dizzy, there’s this terrible pain in his head that he hasn’t been able to shake for weeks, and he’s exhausted. This was not how things were supposed to go. He wasn’t supposed to lose Beth, she was supposed to understand. She always understood.

Somewhere in the woods, Rick’s phone buzzes again.

Rick. I’m so sorry.

He doesn’t even notice.

[lightofunova]

munday; you said Zelda inspired you on your characters, what else inspires? is there something particularly important to you that you think about often/that drives you?

Zelda is my main, but I love Pokemon alot too, and then The Last Unicorn is one of my favorite movies! Those are my big three, but I also have alot of songs that remind me of certain ocs that I’ll listen to while drawing them! For my Lugia gijinka, Ryuki, I got inspieed to make his shadow form based off of an old vocaloid song I decided to relisten to on a whim! But then for Reshi I have plenty of non pokemon related ideas for her just listening to songs by Taylor Swift and Aurora! Sometimes I’ll get inspired playing a game or even just from a random interaction in my life haha.

As for what drives me, my main goal is to eventually make a video game and be a character designer! I want to have Reshi be the main character you play as in a game someday based on her own story that I talk about on my main blog!! I want to work for nintendo buuuut I’m not putting all my eggs in one basket so to speak XD

Sorry for the looong reply but I appreciate the question alot!! I just have alot of inspo and drive for my ocs haha

[dustedrosettes]

i find love transcending lifetimes so fascinating. usually, there are no constants in this life and that's why happy moments need to be treasured and held sacred, especially relationships. but, imagine for a second that you are able to defy death. you live and you live. what would you even be able to do then? what use is a story without a pre-written ending?

surely, at that point, even people who have dried your tears and promised you forever with gold intertwined between their fingers will get bored of you eventually. nothing is constant after all. not even love. not even them.

but what if that's wrong? what if despite the innumerable obstacles life throws your way, despite how your eyes no longer hold that same spark that attracted them to you in the first place, despite how unrecognizable you are now even to yourself as a creature forged from fire and spittle, they still love you.

they still hold your hand. they still brush your hair as if it's spun from gold and braid it into intricate patterns. they still look at you as if you hold all the secrets in the universe and that it's a miracle they're even standing so close.

they still love you.

no matter what lifetime you're on and no matter which iteration of yourself you are now, they'll still stay because each hellish experience was worth it to spend even a few moments with you.

they still love you.

and isn't that a funny thought?

[sillyboyworld]

i hate mlp. its such a problematic show and doesn't deserve all the attention it gets

[cursedwithwords]

Remus Lupin's best friend was/is Kingsley, send tweet.

[paper-mario-wiki]

theres a million blogs these days with names like "puppygirl-macrobulge" and "netflix-for-girl-balls" and whatnot who make 150 posts a day like "theyre all out of 'piss from a girl who's been holding it in all day playing factorio' at trader joes, whats the fcuking point of it all" and i gotta say, i didnt expect that to be its entire own genre of posting in the 2020s.

[toxtricitylow]

playing around with some historical french fashions on furina (+ neuvi).. I think she should always get big silly hats

18th+19th century mens fashion is one of my fav fav fav things is ever so this was fun 🫡 love being fashion history neurodivergent

[lancteu]

this has drained me of my will to live

[soldrawss]

Single dad Darius AU is something that can actually be so personal guys

Featuring local 23yo law student who finds an abandoned baby and decides to raise it as his own (cue cool young bachelor to being an absolutely smitten dad speed run)