#Questioning npd

[suicidalseraphim]

things I didn't know could be undiagnosed npd:

(NOTE: this is my personal experience. I am not currently diagnosed.)

HATING being told I was "as good as everyone else." i SEETHED hearing that. I didn't want to be "as good as-" I wanted to be BETTER.

hating HATING everyone who did better than me- they must've cheated. It's not fair.

if someone criticises me, they didn't get the full picture. they'd LOVE me if they did.

constantly feeling like an outsider but ONLY liking people I could see as the same as me. everyone else is a piece of shit.

constantly trying to present myself publicly with a "confident" posture and use "fancy" words to seem more intelligent

exaggerating my self hatred for sympathy and compliments, getting pissed when people don't compliment me for that

getting confused when people don't laugh at my humour because I make the Best Jokes Ever

[cluster-b-culture-is]

Questioning NPD culture is presenting a cool observation you made, someone saying "Hmm you know I'm not seeing it!" and you instantly hearing it as an insult, probably just trying to make you look stupid.

Then you, feeling raw and offended and holding back the urge to be fucking mean, try to calmly discuss your differing viewpoints while seeing the other person as your enemy for that whole time.

And you can't even talk about how you feel because this isn't something "cute" like RSD, it's narcissistic and everyone would think you are a bad person for feeling stand-offish in a moment like this. So you also hate yourself a little when it happens.

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[zachywackyman]

God thought my personality was lacking so he gave it a ✨disorder✨

[blxxdless1z]

I did my finals presentation on NPD stereotypes and destigmatizing narcissism. It was pretty controversial and all the other presentations got applause while mine got none... ;-; gang can I kindly ask for applause I warm heartedly request supply /nf/gen

[tear-stained-lenses]

Give me your attention before I kill myself.

[purrfectdollie]

I taught my grandma about npd and now she won’t use the word “narcissist” as an insult anymore !!

[777-wailerchive]

be bothered by me . stalk me . c are bout what i do and how i breathe and how i think . ask me. put effort into me . see me & tell me 25/8 how much u want me and how much u like me and how cool i am . tell me what reminds u of me and it should be fucking everything that you consume . make me ur muse . talk abt me 2 ppl . be obsessed to the point that u cant think of nuthin else & it's a hassle . love me like i love you . ill die happily if this happens to me

maybe i dont want whats best 4 ya.

[puppyhunger2]

I always kinda get the "ick" when academic writings just refer to ppl with npd as just "narcissists" and nothing else. It's like when ppl call those with schizophrenia as just "schizophrenics" or "schizos."

There are no other disorders I'm aware of right this moment where ppl with the disorder are referred to just by their disorder.

It's always an "oh this Narcissist is xyz" "that schizo did xyz" such and such type thing. Whereas others are referred to as "individuals with x disorder."

IDK! It feels dehumanizing and derogatory to remove a person's name (even their identify) and replace it with their disorder.

does any of this even make sense, I'm really tired & kinda high lol please add on if you get what I'm talking about & can say it better lol

[sn4k3th]

I'm a horrible fucking person I fucking hate myself I shouldn't be allowed to even live on the same planet as other people, let alone at all, I have no fucking empathy and despise any living thing and don't fucking care about anyone, everyone is just here to feed my ego by showing me affection, so I pretend to care so that they continue, and objectively that's wrong on so many levels but I don't even care about that, I should just starve myself and die and do something good in my life for once

[npdculture]

(questioning) npd culture is having to fake laugh and pretending you're actually interested in what other people have to say while really disregarding them as stupid / lower than you

I hate when I have to do this, it's so exhausting.

[cluster-b-culture-is]

Bpd (+ possible npd?) culture is always feeling like the attention is on you but its always either "everyone loves me/has a crush on me" or "everyone knows everything bad I did and hates me and trash talks me"

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[demonized-infodumps]

i’m pretty sure i have npd (undiagnosed) and jesus christ i hate my friends. i tried to tell my friend that i was trying to figure out if i had npd and he literally said “oh than i should stay away from you”. i understand his only understanding of mental disorders is anxiety, depression and autism but jesus christ. when i tried to tell my other friend, she said “ok” and started talking about a kids show. if you handed me a shotgun at that moment i would’ve put it to my head and fired tbh

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[pain-is-my-game]

If I don't get any attention from anyone in the next 30 seconds I will spontaneously combust into flames.

[blxxdless1z]

I'm too shy to make an ask so...

NPD culture is getting triggered and your inner child starts throwing a tantrum screaming "what about me!?"

[tear-stained-lenses]

My supply is getting so low. No one is paying attention to me, I feel like I'm dying.

[purrfectdollie]

Pspspspsps… come here my fellow narcissists… pspspsps.. let’s be mutuals…