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#So hot I cannot help myself
shinyportalsandthings · 6 months
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Welcome back to hyperfixation station!
Just posted a Transformers Megatron x Reader fanfiction: High Voltage.
Rated E
You are a U.N.C. Space Marine and inadvertent crew member of the Lost Light. When the notorious Megatron is named co-Captain against the will of the crew, you find yourself loathing him more each day. But you can’t deny a growing attraction even as you want to punch him in the face.
No use of y/n.
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b-blushes · 2 months
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thursday quest - no physical therapy today - make and eat lunch sooooo early but i can do it!!!!! - get ready for wedding - attend wedding! yay! (: - decompress well when i get home <3
#its thursday quest#god i'm so anxious about it autism style. so many uncertainties that i simply cannot account for alone. but i'm being sooo 'brave' about it#(keeping it to myself. except for posting about it)#taxi company hasn't texted me the drivers' details yet and i emailed them to be like ummmm your policy is to pay before the day#would you like to email me the payment details so i can do that? and they were like 'we'll send the driver details soon' ummmm#there isn't much soon left!!!!!!! it's happening tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!#they're probably just not Organised™ in the way i prefer to be. which is objectively fine it's just challenging for me personally.#i do not think it's Bad but!!!!! i've never taken a taxi before <- guy who Is Scared Of Taxis Specifically but has to face#their fears because they're disabled and have no other choice.#worst case i am down the money and no-one arrives to take me home i guess :P but it'll be afternoon AND my family are there so#in theory i could just get a lift home even though that would mess up other people's plans sooooo bad. UNLESS they have already drunk uhhhh#in which case i guess i'd just ask for help calling a taxi to the place. plany of people who can do such things easily (unlike me)#it'll be fine!!! i can ask my siblings if need be bc they are so niceys and will not get mad at me for being autistic o7#My other worry is being too hot and being in a rush getting ready bc i have to eat a proper meal due to the symptoms syndromes#and we are leaving when my lunch usually is so that's a whole thing. which ALSO doesn't matter and I can do! it's just hard!#where is that post that's like 'managed mental illness can look like absence of mental illness 😅'. NOT saying being autistic is mental#illness i am saying that the specific extreme anxiety i have is for me linked to autistic issues with 'the unknown' and boy. does this#social situation also have a lot of unknown.#BUT I CAN DO IT! and dare i say even have a nice time!!!!! it's just i get so so scared beforehand but i will not express it in a way that#impacts or inconveniences anyone else!!! i can handle it by myself at my house and it'll be fine
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the amount of effort that goes into figuring out what to cook and eat every day is RIDICULOUS. i used to think people were so weird and boring for eating the same thing every single day but it truly does make life so much easier
#and also it's nice to know exactly what your food is going to taste like before you eat it#like when i get unfamiliar takeout. half the time i'm like. oh.#i'm going to have to eat all of this. or be judged.#so i just do my best to suppress my gag reflex and Get Through It and then it makes me sick so what was even the point#i think my parents spoiled me. and the most annoying thing is they're significantly better at cooking now than when i was a child#so when i go over i eat three delicious home cooked meals + snacks and they're all different and amazingggg#and then i come back to texas and i am like. googling 'how to feed myself healthy vegetarian'#because I do NOT have the time or money or energy to cook three beautiful delicious meals Just For Me#i think this would be easier with a partner#this whole week i bought a fuckton of mediterranean groceries and i have been making and eating food!!#mediterranean is close enough to indian that i like it well enough#unfortunately for me. i am def going to have to learn how to cook indian food to get through life. because i cannot fucking eat american#i don't know HOW you guys do it i'm so spoiled#i'm assuming meat is this really amazing wonderful thing that just adds flavor to everything#(it is physically repulsive to me and the couple times ive accidentally tasted it it's bleh so i refuse to partake)#i think it's an acquired taste but it magically makes ur food better. that is my understanding of how meat works#cause american vegetarian food is the saddest fucking thing i've ever tasted#i still think about my coworker i was talking to about my food issues and he was like. 'do u understand that you have been given a gift#by having constant access to tasty food your entire life. i ate unseasoned green beans every day of my childhood. learn how to fucking cook#indian food already.' truly a horrific thing to hear. but i'm calling my parents more and going HOW TO COOK VEGETABLE? BEAN? PLEASE HELP??#and by god i am not going to turn into my coworker.#anyways we start with baby steps. lentils and rice it is next week .-. going to the indian store to buy pickles to make it more tolerable#and i have my cabinet full of spices already at least#i wish i was less pickyyy#sometimes lalita cooks indian food for me and i'm like wow. i love and appreciate u for feeding me. but this sure is south indian food#i don't understand How they use spices. it feels like they toss as much of as many bottles as they can into every dish#and it's. the taste is just OW OW OW and nothing else. where's the nuance. the flavor.#and i like it when things are spicy!! i can even eat things where the flavor is just Hot. but not when she cooks it.#she will like watch my face when i take a bite and then go 'if you don't like it i'm throwing away all my pots and running away'#which. honestly a fair reaction. the problem is that i am incapable of lying
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heliosinwater · 1 year
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i need me a man like barty crouch jr. PLEASE GOD. 🙏
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lured-into-wonderland · 9 months
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Apologies for disappearing just after the New Year, but going back to work drained me from all the energy. It's been a constant overtime and I am working this weekend as well. January appears to be tough at work, so I am not sure how much I can be here.
But will always be happy to chat or plot on discord, if that's something you'd like.
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neganium · 3 months
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The temptation to break into my birthday ice cream versus knowing I should wait until the 7th, aka my actual birthday...
And yet, the caramel... it beckons.
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tautozhone · 5 months
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idk how to start this so this post is ab individual action, trying to motivate positive change in the world, etc etc
a lot of growing up in the US for me makes things feel more scary than they are. like it’s actually not that difficult to go out of your way to get a bottle of water or iced cup of water from some random drive through if you think you should do it. either fast food conglomerate or local actually, it’ll usually be cheaper than 5 dollars to get drinkable water. i try to have 5-10 dollars i can justify spending on water, and asking for change, because sometimes when i’m out driving i need to go grab water.
i do not do this for me as much as i try to do it specifically when i see someone who’s most likely homeless on a street corner. i’m sure one day i might do this and they might not be there when i come back, but what have i lost really? a bit of time and a bit of money that would’ve meant more to them, that i can hold onto until i see them next.
the pressure that a lot of people feel when they think “what can i do” comes from this grand narrative that the average citizen can singlehandedly fix the housing crisis. rich people? maybe. nonprofits? not in a day, not all one person still. what can i do is a question i ask a lot. what can i do, not just because it feels bad to move along like nothings wrong with the world, but what can i do that will do anything. what can i do that makes even the smallest change.
i feel like it took me too long to figure out a personal method to what i consider individual action. it’s taking time to get to my own financial stability to be able to do more. but for now it’s as simple as water and cash. not water and food, but water and cash.
individual action means a lot in small steps, go get a bottle of water bare minimum and the price of a meal if you can and then just give it to them. if it wasn’t such a miserably hot place where i live i would keep a pack of water in my car, which i still want to do for the sake of having immediate access to water to give someone who might need it- hot or cold sometimes won’t matter. but when it’s hot out, get cold water, if it’s cold out, a warm tea will hydrate more than coffee will as long as it’s not super caffeinated.
#very genuinely i’ve always felt paralyzed by the idea i cannot doing anything to help and on the grand scale i kind of can’t#i can’t give someone a house to stay in where i could take care of the space enough to get someone back on their own feet#but i can give someone water and some money for whatever they need#one day i’ll be able to do more but for now. water bottles and cash.#what i want to say here is everyone knows bare necessities and everyone knows ways to get them#i also have an opinion that you should sit with and hold the harsh feeling of seeing the world fall apart and help people survive anyway#idfk man#i’ve met some extremely fucking jaded people in my time at college who seem to have no way to piece together that they can do SOMETHING#one of my classmates once complained about feeling bad about not doing anything for a guy on a corner and i recognized who#because i’d seen him too and done nothing at least 5 times before one day on the way home i gave him all the cash i had on me#she’d said she’d do more if she wasn’t so scared and anxious of being hurt. i don’t see how he could even look harmful or dangerous#he blessed me and offered a hug and asked me to have a good day and said thank you and i still can’t see why she was scared of him#at the same time i hadn’t done anything until i saw myself in someone else and thought it looked nasty. looked uncaring.#i saw him again today and gave him a water bottle and all the cash i had on me. i told him the weather seemed hot#he agreed with me and he took the bottle of water#i think i interrupted him opening it to hand him the rest#he got up and he blessed me again#offered a hug and more thank you’s and it’s so simple but i felt us both human in that moment. talking about the weather in a brief exchange#wishing each other well as we go different ways#he wouldn’t stop thanking me and wishing me well#i told him it was the smallest thing i think anyone could do and i still walked away hollow wishing to have done more somehow#to suddenly own an apartment complex nearby for him and anyone he knew that needed it too#not a rigid shelter but a place to make home#blah blah blah talking too much about a deed done because i get emotional about humanity#tauto talks
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widevibratobitch · 6 months
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#im so tired of this lalalalalalalalaa#something is Wrong lol#i really need this therapy on wednesday but guess WHAT im not going. im going to a funeral instead 🤡#and ill be singing in that stupid fucking church because have to but i dont fucking wanna i hate doing it and i hate churches#all i feel rn is the overwhelming urge to selfdestruct and like obv im not gonna kms now#but im so fucking angry that im not even *allowed* to do that anymore. like it was such a comfort all this time to know that i can just Quit#and now i cant because guess what someone has to take care of my mother 🫠 and im so fucking tired of being someone people depend on#to handle THEIR feelings and THEIR emotions and just take it all with humility and acceptance and kindness and never snap and bite back#like i dont WANNA hear about your dead husband i dont wanna hear about your stupid fucking boyfriend#i dont wanna hear about the new guy/girl who's hitting on you because you're so hot and perfect#i dont wanna be responsible for how people feel. i should just shut up and take it and be humble and never ask or expect anything back#but when is it MY turn to call at 1 am crying about how im tired and want to kms#or to start expecting shit of people and allow myself to get properly angry at them for not meeting those expectations#or to braggingly 'complain' about something the other person clearly lacks without any consideration for their feelings#or to just openly cry and say deeply personal shit without any filter not caring if that other person is clearly uncomfortable af#because *i* need it right now and i need someone to listen and let them worry about how to even respond to that stuff#im just so tired of people expecting shit of me im tired of being made responsible even tho i clearly cannot handle that responsibility#i wanna be mean i wanna snap and get angry and openly say that i dont give a shit and am tired and cant listen to this rn#but i cant because i have to be a motherfucking mother theresa and never dare to demand something for myself#and idk where that comes from. idk if it's coming from the fanatic catholicism of my childhood or my mother or just from myself and idc#i just feel so horrible and guilty and wrong for wanting anything for myself#and it once again feels like im making myself the victim and the tortured martyr here when i should just shut up and take it#i just wanna lie down and die and not care about who'll get angry or judge or blame me for it im tired and i dont know what to do#i want someone to take care of ME and reassure ME and make ME feel like i matter and that they really will help me if i ever need it#and that they'd be kinda sad if i were gone not because i had a role to fulfill that i failed at by killing myself but because i am a person#<- math calculations flying around my head as i come to the terrible realisation#of just why exactly im so deeply obsessed with my voice teacher (aside from her being literally the most beautiful woman alive lol) 🤡#like babygirl stop being so utterly overwhelmingly kind to me my knees are weak i would do anything for you queen and I MEAN IT
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the-acid-pear · 10 months
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I'm hitting rock bottom <- dude whose belly aches so fucking much because he ate pork.
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tardis--dreams · 10 months
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I love this hostel. They're like 'oh we're gonna make your room sooooo cozily warm you'll forget the icy winter cold outside ♡' and then go 'ahhh the bathroom! The room where people are most likely to be undressed and therefore exposed to the Temperatures™️ ! Let's make it.. hmmmm.. -20 degrees! Perfect'
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caeca-iustitia · 1 year
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Modern Marc Headcanons
= His hair is naturally white-blonde but he's dyed it blue and black in recent years because he wanted a change.
= Marc loves to rollerskate and is quite proficient at it; spending most of his limited free time skating to the local park to sketch things there.
= He is a former art student but his degree is mostly just collecting dust as he can't really afford to drop his jobs to pick up a career in art. However, he does do commissions to bring in some extra money sometimes.
= He works 2 minimum-wage jobs to cover his mother's prescription, his own medical costs, his student debt and the rent. This means that his free time is limited and he often can't afford to indulge himself with things.
= His morning job is as a postman but he sometimes covers a shift at the post office counter. His evening job is as a cleaner at a high school.
= Marc has his septum pierced, snake bites and has stretched his ears slightly to accommodate tunnels. He also has a small rose tattoo by his right ear that is usually hidden by his messy hair.
= He is a massive cat person and has plenty of things with cat motifs on them. His favourite item is a pair of cat-ear headphones that a friend bought him for Christmas; the ears light up and it makes him happy.
= He is surprisingly active on social media and often posts pictures of his sketches or the occasional selfie to Instagram. Marc also runs a Tumblr blog dedicated to his commissions and various other bits of art; treating it much like a portfolio for his more beloved work.
= His clothes are usually second-hand and covered in paint. He is usually seen in baggy t-shirts and loose jeans that are slightly ripped. He also usually wears scuffed-up trainers or his pastel rollerskates; something that he has spent a lot of his own money on to keep in perfect working order.
= Marc has- unfortunately- been at the mercy of many people's ire. Usually due to his work as a postman, though him simply rollerskating and minding his own business has bugged a number of people. It has led to him being physically assaulted at least twice, nearly hit by a car a few more times, actually hit by a car, bitten by a dog and yelled at for minutes on end. He tries to not let it get to him but it's proving harder and harder each time it happens.
= He is lactose intolerant and is life-threateningly allergic to onions and garlic. Marc was almost killed by a poor prospective date in the past because of his allergies. He and the other guy are still friends and the whole ordeal is now an inside joke between them.
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stillmumu · 1 year
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sasha literally RADIATES poise from every pore like how are these interviewers not stammering and acting a fool. i’d fold.
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queenofbaws · 1 year
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Okay so I’m pretty sure Caleb’s the only werewolf in the whole game that has the “ominous glowing eyes” effect and I’m curious to know if you have any thoughts on that.
oh i got thoughts all right. i got thoughts.
hehehehe, so...the long and short of this is that, alas, i'm probably the worst person to ask about this because i am incredibly biased. incredibly, incredibly, incredibly biased. why's that, you might ask? well that's because i have two, count 'em, two, weaknesses when it comes to horror:
hiveminds and
* ~ * ~ * humans with eyeshine * ~ * ~ *
so while i do acknowledge that the in-game werewolves all have their little differences - and love seeing the art people have made of those differences!!!!! - in my heart of hearts and soul of souls, all those sweet lil' meat puppies do, in fact, have ominously glowing eyes, and nothing as paltry as the canon source material will change my opinion on THAT!!!!
but i will say that i 100000000% hc caleb as the most, um, violent of the werewolves, so i can also very much get behind the idea that his spooky glowy eyes are just, like, A Warning. he's not just a werewolf, he's the werewolf, and watch out!
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misfortunegirl · 1 year
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" yeah so i know you were having a Moment and were saying depressing stuff but I just have to let you know.... you looked great today, your pants were straight up your ass, and your hairstyle was really cute and suited you."
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. sigh.
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williamrikers · 1 year
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why am i like this
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