#What happens when your vitamin D is low?

[maisha-online]

The Power of Vitamin D: Unlocking the Benefits for Your Health

The Power of Vitamin D: Unlocking the Benefits for Your Health

Vitamin D is a vital nutrient that plays a crucial role in maintaining optimal health. It is a fat-soluble vitamin that aids in the absorption of calcium, magnesium, and phosphate, which are essential for bone development and maintenance. However, vitamin D deficiency is a global issue, affecting a significant portion of the population. In this comprehensive guide, we will explore the causes,…

[seokmattchuus]

Stray Kids Reaction to you fainting

A/n: This is angstier than intended but I didn't know how else to make it? Anyways, I'm not entirely proud of this so if it sucks, don't point it out. p.s.idon'trememberifiproofread

- Requested -

Chan: Gets over the initial shock fairly quickly, the natural leader in him quick to work out what needs to be done in order to get you to the hospital with little to no one finding out. When the doctor informs him that it's due low blood sugar, he couldn't keep the disappointment from coming out once you woke up. He couldn't figure out why you wanted to put yourself through something like this, and he couldn't hold back.

"And for what?" He asked, his voice lacking emotion. "For what others have to say? The press?" He scoffed, his fear coming out as anger. "Do my feelings not matter? What if something worse happened?"

Minho: He couldn't wait for your special stage. He helped you practice ever since you got the song, knowing how perfected you wanted it to be. Not once did it seem like you were pushing your limits, so when he saw your slowing down, he quickly headed to the side of the stage, ready to run out and get you if he needed to. Just when he thought you pulled through, the second you made it backstage, your legs gave out.

"Hey, hey," He says sternly, supporting your neck while fanning you. "Y/n, c'mon." The panic in his voice grew as he called out to staff. "Can we get some water, please?!"

Changbin: He insisted on accompanying you to go do bloodwork. He was free, and he knew how long those appointments lasted, so he didn't want you to be bored. He was lucky he chose to as the second you looked down to see the blood flowing, you went limp.

"'I'll be fine' you said. 'Who passes out from blood' you said." He mocked half-heartedly, the seriousness passing now that you're awake. "Guess I'm coming to the next appointment."

Hyunjin: You had pranked him by doing this before, so he didn't believe you when you fell to your side on the couch. He continued making your lunch and waiting until he was finished to acknowledge that it happened. Gradually freaks out while trying to figure out what to do.

"Okay, you got me," He put his hands up sarcastically, his heartbeat picking up as you still hadn't gotten up. "Y/n, it's not funny." He said as he knelt down by you, trying to wake you up.

Jisung: He knew you needed your vitamin D supplements, but you insisted you would be fine for a few days while you helped them on set of their new show. That didn't stop him from worrying, though. He refused to take his focus off of you, and it worked out for you when you stood up to call for a break, just to fall right back down into the chair, your head lulling back before you held it up again.

"Y/n!" He yelled as he dropped what he was doing to run towards you, the staff beating him to it. "Is there anything I can do?"

Felix: He knew you were nervous. He could hear your foot tapping against the floor and the way your chest rose too much. You were taking deep breaths, trying to calm yourself on your own. You were trying to keep it from him, and he didn't want to call you out, knowing it would make you feel worse. He doesn't act on it until he sees you fighting to keep up right, and eventually failing, his arms wrapping around to catch you, and slowly lay you on his lap.

"No," You breathed out when you felt his hold slip away.

"I'm not leaving, I promise." He said, his voice calm and steady as he gave you a reassuring squeeze. "I'm right here, okay? Just focus on getting your breath back."

Seungmin: He knew you were stressed about school. The bags under your eyes, the untouched bed from when you last made it, the growing empty Starbucks cups under your computer desk, and the lack of groceries in your fridge. He decided to cook for you, hoping it would help you feel less stressed, but the second you got up, he saw your eyes roll back and bolted to your side.

"Do you need anything?" He asked worriedly as he helped you sit up. "Just wait here, let me get you some water."

Jeongin: He told you this would happen, but of course you were stubborn. He knew how hot it got backstage and he also knew you hadn't had much to eat since you wanted to eat after the concert. He turned to give you a kiss for good luck when he saw the loss of focus in your eyes. He freezes in panic, never having been in charge of something so serious, quickly calling for anyone to help.

"I-I told her eat something." He mentally kicked himself as he watched Changbin pick you up and carry you to a room that had fans. "She'll be okay, right?"

[chiesdecayiing]

 ✚𓈒  ana guide  ⧽

　౨ৎ  note ;　Block me instead of reporting me please, these are based off of my own experiences! ~

 ✿ ⠀Chapter 1 ; Symptoms

Osteopenia (Thinning of the bones): Poor nutrition, excessive exercise, and/or purging (such as by vomiting or laxative abuse) can cause an unhealthy, low body weight When this happens, less weight bears on your bones. This can lead to bone loss and potential loss of muscle that supports and strengthens your bones. So… How do you deal with it? Vitamin and mineral supplements: You might need over-the-counter or prescription calcium or vitamin D supplements. try doing weight-bearing and resistance exercises 3 or 4 days a week. Weight-bearing exercises focus on carrying the weight of your body against gravity. Walking is a great weight-bearing activity, as are running, dancing, aerobics, hiking and tennis, but remember don’t over do it, you can’t be skinny when you’re dead.

Anemia and muscle wasting and weakness: Reduced blood flow: Anemia can limit the delivery of nutrients to muscles and joints, increasing stiffness. Increased lactic acid: Muscles deprived of oxygen produce more lactic acid, leading to cramps. Weakened muscles: Over time, anemia can weaken muscles. This makes them more susceptible to pain and injury. What to do against it? eat iron-rich foods, including lean red meats, fish and poultry, legumes (e.g. lentils and beans), fortified cereals and dark green leafy vegetables; eat foods rich in vitamin C (such as fruits and vegetables) which help the body absorb iron, don’t forget to do sport, and eat when you’re hungry.

Brittle hair and nails: Biotin, also known as vitamin B7, helps the body convert food into energy. A deficiency in biotin is somewhat rare, but when it occurs, brittle, thinning, or splitting hair and nails are some of the most noticeable symptoms. So here’s what to do against it! Eat a diet rich in nutrients such as vitamins A and C, zinc, and biotin. Stay hydrated; water can help strengthen your hair and keep it from drying out. Keep your nails short to minimize nail surface area, where water and chemicals can be absorbed. Use a fine emery board to file your nails. Don't pick or bite your nails or cuticles. Buff your nails in the same direction as the nail grows. Consider applying a nail hardener to help strengthen nails. Switch to a shampoo and conditioner designed for damage control. Don't skip conditioner. Choose hair styling products made with hydrating ingredients.

Dry and yellowish skin: Carotenemia may be related to restricted dietary habits, hyperlipidemia, or a deficiency in the conversion of carotene into vitamin A by the liver. So here’s what helps! Moisturize. Apply moisturizer several times a day, especially when your skin feels dry and after handwashing or bathing, while your skin is still moist. Vitamin C, D, E and anti-inflammatory! vitamin B12 deficiency can cause yellowish skin so make sure to include it in your diet.

Lanugo (Growth of fine hair all over the body): with anorexia often lack important nutrients that help keep the body insulated and warm, so as a response lanugo develops to act as a protective layer. Here’s what you can eat to get your nutrients! Green, leafy vegetables, Orange and red produce, Nuts and seeds, beans, Whole grains, Egg yolks.

Low blood pressure: Low blood pressure occurs when blood pressure is much lower than normal. This means the heart, brain, and other parts of the body may not get enough blood. Normal blood pressure is mostly between 90/60 mmHg and 120/80 mmHg.

Here are the risks of an eating disorder.

Organ failure , Brain damage , Hair loss , severe constipation , slowed breathing and pulse

 ✿ ⠀Chapter 2 soon (^_^)

[salemontrial]

My (probably unfinished) official list of everything I love about the trailer💫

- "How's it going :))-" SWERVED. ALEXANDER CLAREMONT-DIAZ GOT FUCKING S W E R V E D-

- Nora looks like she's going to stab Alex with her high heel. Also she's so pretty. Xjakcjd

- "you've done some pretty stupid things in your life, but this-" "Takes the cake? :DD-"

- The way Henry looks at them when they're lying on the floor covered in cake. It's like he's restraining himself from strangling Alex with his own suit jacket for the sole purpose of not worsening the scandal.

- "HENRY. SHOVED. ME.😡🥺" "An urge I currently share."

- Ellen in her pantsuit.. hey Ellen👉👈

- Alex is looking for ways to escape the room when she says the words "damage control" he fucking knows-

- THEY. GOT. LIL NAS X. ON THE FUCKING SOUND TRACK. Oh I p r a y they got the rights to Get Low I p r a y.

- ALEX'S FACE WHILE ZAHRA IS BRIEFING HIM HES SO DRAMATIC

- Im sorry guys henry is so fine alexander isnt going to be the only one thirsting over henry for the entire 2 hours/jjj

- That FUCKING handshake in the park. I can see the veins in their hands they are g r i p p i n g-

- these faces this is a point.

- "My NDA is bigger than yours, I want you to know that." "You're wearing Lifts. I know that too, sweetheart." -H e a d t u r n--- HES SO FLOORED FJSNF-

- HENRY'S LITTLE MOUTH QUIRK AFTER HE SAYS THAT

- I CAN SEE THE KEY NECKLACE. I CAN S E E IT BLESS THE COSTUME DEPARTMENT SHOVING HIM IN A LOWCUT SHIRT-

- "You better act like the sun shines out of his ass and you have a vitamin D deficiency" ZAHRA HAS THE BEST LINES AND ITS WHAT SHE DESERVES.

- Alex faffing about with his hair via his phone camera before the interview thats my b O Y-

- Henry slides over the box of cornettos so hard like thats the only hostile act hes allowed to parttake in

- To the person who theorized in the comments of one of my posts that Alex was going to do a little shoulder punch in the interview scene i am going to draw you a little firstprince fanart-/hj

- Because that was so funny and so fucking cute henrys fucking face through that whole interaction was just. He looks like he's actively trying to dissociate from the situation fjsjfj-

- The cancer ward🥺🥺

- Alex's u g l y ass suit at the new years gala... its such a gross jacket guys Im sorry this is what happens when you dont have jUNE TO MICROMANAGE HIS WARDROBE-

- Alex putting his arm around Henry and Henry smiling to himself because he's probably got the most insane case of butterflies

- I'm marrying the lighting director of this movie.

- GUYS GUYS SHUT UP ITS THE KISS.

- HENRY'S FACE BEFORE HE GIVES THE "Christ, you are as thick as it gets" LINE IS SO FUNNY. QUESTIONING WHY HE EVER WENT AND FELL IN LOVE WITH A DUMBASS

- THEY D O N T KISS LIKE THEYD RATHER GO DOWN A RAZOR WATERSLIDE🎉🎉🎉🎉💫💞💞🏳️‍🌈/GEN

- He does Henry's "Oh shit" face so w e l l-

- ALEX'S STETSON EVERYONE GET AWAY FROM ME

- KARAOKE SCENE KARAOKE SCENE I SEE HENRY AT THE MICROPHONE

- Guys hes g o i n g to do the thing he does with the bottle I just know it oh my god

- "Get O V E R yourself your majesty -p i l l o w-" "It's your royal HIGHNESS -p i l l o w-" "OHoho-"

- The polo match sjsjf. Same alwx-/J

- The little new voters goal thingy poster thats so cute actually-

- The pride flag in the back of the campaign office

- Henry texting while he's getting the royal preening sjcj

- never thought id cry just hearing henry say he misses alex out loud-

- THEYRE NOT SANITIZING IT TO MAKE IT PALATABLE/POS

- HENRY IN THE CLOSET I AM GOING TO SCREAM-

- "If anyone sees you leave this hotel I will brexit your head from your body....... Your royal highness." I LOVE HERRRRRR

- IF YOU FEEL FOREVER ABOUT HIM. AND THE AND THE PANNING TO THEM IN BED WITH THE SOFT LAMP LIGHT. AND THEYRE SO SOFT. AND AND AND AND. UEUE

- "Do you love him?" "What difference would it make if I did?"

- Bea's voice is so pretty sobs..

- It's always the blond autistic boys in the blue hoodies I swear to god/lh

- Theyre just chilling in their robes🥺🥺🥺

- DAVID!!!!!!!😭😭😭💞

- "Prince Henry belongs to Britain" and what if i sobbed.

- THEM HOLDING HANDS SOMEBODY SEDATE ME.

- NO SHUT UP NO GO AWAY HENRY CRYING... I TRUST HIM WITH HENRY'S HEAVIER SCENES NOW

- THEYRE AT THE LAKEHOUSE😭😭😭

- "It's like there's a rope attached to my chest and it keeps pulling me towards you"

- THE ASS GRAB. ALEXANDER GABRIEL CLAREMONT-DIAZ

- "The night is young, ma✨" <- said as if he isn't currently groping the prince of England's ass

- She sees right fucking through him sjcjsj

CONCLUSION: I will eat my hat. The movie looks really really really fucking good, it looks spectacular and I am so excited for it. I trust them. I'm only SLIGHTLY mad they barely had Nora in it and I'm only SLIGHTLY bitter at cutting June and Luna. But I am an optimist and I will focus on the good which is that they're doing the characters incredible justice, and if I see one person try to deny their chemistry I will A Clockwork Orange their ass to this trailer for days. Because That Is Alex and Henry. That's them in front of my eyes and I think they're in very good hands and this is the most coherent thing I can write I'm still crying-/srs

[afinidade082323]

Eu trabalho em hospital e cuido de pessoas doentes… Esqueci de cuidar de mim, comecei a sentir mal estar, falta de ar, cada dia piorando a minha situação, quando um dia meus colegas disse vamos ter que pedir exames pra saber o que está acontecendo com você… E assim foi feito eu estava zero vitamina " D" com as plaquetas sanguínea baixa sem vitamina nem uma … Com esse quadro clínico eu quase perdi a vida….O meu organismo não reagiu os primeiros socorros que recebi na emergência e daí foi uma luta, graças a Deus sai do quadro de morte, hoje tive a notícia de que estou bem graças a Deus meus exames de hoje já melhorei 40% … Confesso que na correria do dia dia deixamos de comer comida saudável, para comer lanche e várias biscoito que não acrescenta nada em nosso organismo… Graças a Deus tudo passou amanhã estou em casa de alta médica e tive a felicidade de saber que estarei de férias vou poder cuidar melhor de mim mesma… Obrigado meus amigos com muito carinho eu agradeço pelas energias positivas que recebi de todos um beijo em seu coração ❤️🌷

I work in a hospital and take care of sick people... I forgot to take care of myself, I started to feel unwell, short of breath, every day my situation was getting worse, when one day my colleagues said we're going to have to ask for tests to find out what It's happening to you... And that's how it was done, I had zero vitamin "D" with low blood platelets, no vitamins at all... With this clinical situation I almost lost my life... My body didn't react at first. I received help in the emergency room and then it was a struggle, thank God I left the scene of death, today I received the news that I'm fine, thank God my exams today have already improved by 40%... I confess that in the rush of the day we left to eat healthy food, to eat snacks and lots of biscuits that don't add anything to our body... Thank God everything is over tomorrow I'm home from medical discharge and I was happy to know that I'll be on vacation and I'll be able to take better care of myself ... Thank you my friends, with great affection, I thank you for the positive energies I received from everyone, a kiss in your heart ❤️🌷

[ruh--roh-raggy]

Thanks to @yellowbunnydreams my insanity for one fucking Dave Miller has resurfaced *sighs* have this greasy little sleazeball that I want to [redacted] me in the back alley behind some dirty bar.

Literally just poured from my brain, not edited, I can't stress this enough, Dave's gross and creepy but in like a sexy way or maybe he's just gross and creepy and I'm insane (plausible), totally inspired by Do You Need Some Vitamin D? Dave, he's your landlord, he's really gropey and handsy but reader's into it, I just need to get him out of my brain.

You had just arrived home from the supermarket, humming absentmindedly to yourself as you attempted to collect all of your bags in one trip. “Need some help there, sugar?” You jumped as a voice suddenly pipes up behind you. You feel the warmth of a hand slide over your lower back, the feeling disappearing just as quickly as it had appeared. You glance up to find your landlord standing a bit too close for comfort. His crooked smile and wandering eyes made your skin prickle. “What's a pretty little thing like you doing carrying all these bags by herself, hm?” He purrs, your heart thrumming at the sound of his low raspy tone.

“I'm a lot stronger than I look, Mr. Miller.” You respond with a nervous giggle.

“Is that so, sweetness?” He responds with a low chuckle. He inches closer to you, your body trapped between his and your car door as he leans his face down closer to yours. “You might want to be careful saying things like that. You wouldn't want some…” his eyes flash to your lips just for a moment as he adjusts all of your bags on his long pale arm, “some low life overhearing you and wanting to test that theory, would we?” You softly shake your head, making the older man breathe out a laugh and smile in response. “That’s my girl.” He swings your car door shut as you step out of the way. You could feel his gaze on you as you walked ahead of him, hungry and predatory as he undoubtedly stared at the contours of your ass in your skin tight leggings.

"Are you coming Mr. Miller?" You ask softly, watching as he struggled to tear his eyes away from the sway of your hips. He quickly collects himself, shooting you a crooked smile that for some reason made your heart race.

He chuckles as he easily catches up to you in a few steps with his long legs, his free arm wrapping around your waist to tug you closer as you walk. "How many times do I have to tell you baby? Call me Dave." He smirks as he notices your flustered expression. He carries all of your groceries up the stairs with ease, a feat that honestly proved rather shocking considering his thin, lean frame. You were quick to unlock your door, the heat radiating off of Dave's body making the hairs on the back of your neck stand on end. Your landlord has always been kind enough towards you, often stopping for pleasant chats when you happen to cross paths in the morning, you on your way into work and Dave heading downstairs to his office from his apartment, which was coincidentally located immediately next to yours. There was never anything particularly wrong with your run-in's with him, you dare even say they were rather pleasant. But, under his charming smiles and sweet words you could tell that Dave was harboring a secret. There has been a tenant that had moved in down the hall a few months ago, one morning Dave had stumbled across him giving you his number, a loose invitation to dinner attached to the exchange. The next day his apartment was vacant. When you asked Dave where he had went he had told you that he had to leave in a rush to tend to a family emergency. But, you couldn't shake the feeling that something else had happened. You noticed the way Dave paused, blinking at you slowly a couple times before explaining in his usual almost sickly sweet tone. It was also odd that he had never responded to a single one of your calls or texts since he had 'moved out'.

[lizmindpalace]

Beber de tu sangre. (Drinking from your blood)

This is inspired by this song and you definitely should listen to it: Beber de tu sangre.

Summary: Lucifer is afraid of losing the love of his life.

Warnings: Hurt and angst, although there's some comfort. Depictions of death, distress, depression, anxiety, nightmares and sorrow.

You can also find this work on Ao3 and on Wattpad.

Demons were not the sort of creature that used to die. Certainly, they would get ill sometimes, very often in some cases due to the rebellious nature they embraced that put their well-being at stake frequently, however, almost none of those were serious enough to put their lives at risk. 

That was why the doctor could not help but be concerned about the call he had just received a few minutes ago, he remembered the dark voice on the other side of the phone whilst he dashed through the cobblestone streets for the Demon Lord's Castle, where he had been summoned to with such urgency, and to his surprise, even with a threat to his life in between the request coming by Lucifer himself. Whatever the issue was, it was something beyond the abilities of the ruler of the Devildom to handle, and he feared Lord Diavolo's fate was imitating his father's, and his stomach twisted at the idea. 

The environment was overflowed with a heavy feeling of distress. The low rank demons walked up and down the halls of the castle as if something was going to happen, something serious, since everyone was busy and yet, the expression read on their faces was sorrow and anguish, but overall, fear. As if they were the ones whose life was inevitably doomed. Furthermore, the dismal darkness the castle's hallways were always drowned in, gave the doctor a terribly feeling of trepidation. 

Their expressions and the impression left on him were erased from his mind as soon as he walked in the room he had been asked to come, and he noticed the demon standing by the bed: a night black shadow with gloved hands over his chest, hair as troubled as his mind; fire burning in his eyes, the darkness making those terrible eyes outstand in it, and he knew those eyes could kill, literally.  The demon's teeth stock out his mouth, his tongue licked them, producing a malicious gesture; the description of impatience was complete with his foot tapping as though he was marking the beat of an orchestra playing a funeral march.  

The doctor plodded with shaking legs towards the demon, he had motioned over him, indicating him to speed up his pace. 

"I assume you're expecting something to happen? What are you waiting for? Waste no more time and comply with your medical obligations!"

The demon urged and the doctor did as he was prompted, feeling a weight on his back, as if Lucifer's shadow was over him. 

"What is the problem?" The demon asked, his patience had been consumed by the doctor's fear and slow manners that were reflected in his demeanour. 

The doctor took a second to breath, since he had been almost unable to do it before, he wiped the sweat off his forehead and finally cleared his throat before speaking despite the growing tiredness shown in the demon's threatening expression, his own voice at the point of breaking.

"It's- it's" he stuttered; usually, Lucifer enjoyed when people showed how much scared they were of him, but on this occasion, he could not appreciate it when he had a dismal feeling eating him up. His solely expression forced the terrified doctor to continue his explanation, after clearing his throat and breathing in: "It's- nothing serious. It's some kind of poisoning due to something in bad condition she ingested, she'll be fine, I will supply some antibiotic injections and, in a couple of weeks, or so, she'll be completely recovered, after that she'll have to take some vitamins, especially, some vitamin D, the paleness of her skin is due to the lack of it". 

Lucifer breathed out in relief and placed his gloved fingers over his eyelids, turning his back to the doctor, who took some minutes more before leaving, since he had applied the first jab to his patient. 

"Thank you" the girl whispered, she was tired, but she was grateful for all the attention she was receiving, even if she thought it was not something she was in need of. 

"Is she allowed to return home now?" Lucifer had never really agreed to having the girl moving to the Castle, he had only accepted because Diavolo would make his best doctor, and therefore, the most capable in the Devildom, to pay her a visit as soon as possible.

"Yes, but she has to rest. Please, avoid stressful situations and unhealthy food and habits... I guess I'll see her tomorrow at the House of Lamentation for the second injection, is that right?"

Both men nodded in silent agreement, the doctor left in haste, and Lucifer slumped on the chair next to the bed, relieved. He had thought he would lose her for sure after that, after all, her face and limbs had turned completely red and she had had problems with breathing, some fever and he knew damn well humans were fragile; he took her hand in his, she was still weak. 

"I told you I was fine". 

She whispered; exhaustion drowned her voice. A smile was drawn in her face, and Lucifer tried to mimic it. He did not fool anyone, but she was lacking energy at the moment, and she needed to sleep, so his fake expression went unnoticed. 

It was not the first time he felt that sort of fear, a different kind of horror that devoured his senses, and made him tremble. It was fear in anticipation, uncertainty, trepidation... he could not handle it anymore, it was the fear for something that hadn't happened yet, but the time it would happen would come at some point without notice, and he would not be able to do anything to prevent it from happening; the thought of it would eat away at him every day. It would be a shadow in the bright moments shared with the woman he loved, that would haunt him in his sleep. The mere thought of his happiness coming to an end was scarier than anything he had ever experienced, he could even face his fall a second time, he would give anything just to be able to keep her. While he watched her peacefully sleeping, he decided, he had to do something.

-

"Satan, may I borrow the book I asked you about?"

Things had settled once they had returned home, and everybody's concerns had vanished into the air as soon as they saw the colour returning to the girls' cheeks, and the house was being messy and loud as usual once more. 

Satan frowned, he had forgotten about it, it was rare Lucifer needed his help, especially because Lucifer could go anywhere and get any book he was in need of... was it an only edition then? 

"What would I get in exchange?" The other replied. 

Lucifer sighed, but he reminded himself he was willing to risk everything now he had started to put his plan into action. 

"I will pay your price, now if you do not mind, I would like to have the book now". 

Satan could not refuse such a valuable opportunity and fulfilled the wishes of his older brother, without asking any questions, whatever it was must have been important.

The girl's aftermath was tough; the injections she received were painful, and her daily regular activities had had to be ceased, thus, she found herself in a dispiriting bedroom all day and all night on her own. The brothers were especially busy those days due to the school duties they had to comply with and the upcoming exams, furthermore, autumn was a busy season for the Devildom and the preparations for Diavolo's birthday, Harvest celebrations, and of course, Halloween were taking place. So, as aloof as some of the brothers were, they were forced to contribute to the organisation of those events whether they liked it or not, after all they were the members of the student council. 

They would pop up from time to time, though, they would infiltrate through her bedroom's door in silence, trying to pass unnoticed; they would keep her company some minutes before bedtime, before Lucifer's yells turned into threats; it was disappointing, he was the only one who never made an appearance during the fortnight she had been locked up, since he had seemed so concerned about her health before and had promised to keep her safe and sound. She would not say it out loud, but she wished she could feel his embrace, especially when complete darkness invaded her bedroom, the cold struck her fragile bones, and the nightmares harassed her during the nighttime, and she had no one to hold on to in the middle of that oneiric despair.

Days went by like that, and she soon was able to go back to her routine. The doctor had told her, she would be fine as long as she kept watching her habits and taking her vitamins, so she was now as busy as the rest of the members of the house were, getting involved in her academic activities and holiday preparations.

"Where are you going, MC?"  She was rushing through the house with a determined look on her face.

"Lucifer has to approve this transaction; I wish Mammon did not take every opportunity to steal from the family's checking account so I could spend more than 100 grimm without having to ask Lucifer for his signature every time". The young woman rolled her eyes amid of her explanation at Satan, who agreed in silence. 

"Nevertheless, I highly doubt he's in his bedroom". 

She stopped for a second and sighed.

"Did he leave already? He has not been having breakfast with us, so I haven't had really any chance to see him. I guess I will have to chase him in the classroom, I hope he does not have another urgent meeting with Diavolo today". 

Satan nodded and shrugged.

"I'll see you at school then." He stepped away, leaving the girl alone, and she wondered where he was originally going to, but he had left before she could ask anything. 

Lucifer's door, stood by the end of the hallway wrapped in perpetual silence; she had been so close, it had been really unfortunate Satan had stopped her before she could get closer to it, a draft of an idea was taking shape in her mind, Satan had shown up just when she was about to get there, was he heading Lucifer's room too? Why had he stopped? She was a member of the "Lucifer, you s*ck" chatroom, and she did not remember any plans on pulling a prank on their eldest brother these days, perhaps Satan was planning something on his own? That would probably be something more dangerous than their average joke. 

Vexation was the feeling that embraced her every time she thought of Lucifer over the last weeks, because she felt abandoned by him, as though he was avoiding her, however, she did not appreciate Satan making his life harder than it already was, so that was why she decided to sneak into his bedroom, carefully, just to make sure Satan did not have a bucket of holy water that would shower him as soon as he stepped in, or something even worse. 

The door was locked from the inside, she noticed, but she had spent too many nights there and knew a couple of tricks that were of use on this occasion. 

She slipped into the room and closed the door when her body was completely inside. She soon stopped hearing the voices and steps of those who were hurrying so they could get on time to the Academy. She looked around, and perceived something she was not fond of; she heeded every detail; the bedroom was overflowed by some kind of darkness she did not like, the windows were closed, and the air was impregnated with some sort of odd smell that reminded her of rotten flesh, it was the kind of odeur produced by rust, a blood-like smell, and she had a tough time trying not to vomit. Definitely, there was something eerie occurring.

"Lucifer?" She whispered; she could feel the queasiness increasing with every step she took. 

No answer was given, the windows were closed, and the heavy curtains covered the glasses, she pulled them up so the dim daylight could come across, and she could better see. She was stuck in an uneasy silence; her heartbeat rushed, and some tears were filling her eyes as she approached the bed, fearing about what she was about to find out.  

-

"Where's MC?"

Mammon asked, a slight tone of concern painted his voice.

"I did not see her in classes today". Asmodeus realised, the concern in the group was gradually increasing.  "Belphie, you're always the last one to leave the house, where was MC when you left?" 

"I saw her chatting with Satan".

"Satan?"

"Yes! I was talking to her, she wanted to see Lucifer, and I tried to prevent her from going into his bedroom". 

"Lucifer did not come to classes again though". Beelzebub remembered it wasn't the first time he had not attended.

It was relieving that MC was with Lucifer, right? Even if that meant they could be doing things they rather not think about, it meant she was safe, because Lucifer would do anything to keep her safe, they knew that quite well.  

"But Lucifer has not been around these days, I have not seen him like in a week, he's always had too much in his plate, but it looks this is beyond what he can manage, he would never skip lessons." Asmodeus reflected. "What's going on with him?"

"We should return home, just to check everything's fine with the both of them". 

"Yeah, I have a bad feeling about this". 

The group of six people headed together to the House of Lamentation in silence. They were not the kind of group that used to be quiet, but something was weighing them down, something they could not explain.

The mood that drowned the house infected the hearts of the demons, it somehow, felt bad. It was some kind of loneliness, it felt unsettling, even disturbing. The silence was only broken by the echoes of their steps on the marble floors and a distant noise that reminded them of a restless soul.

"It looks like they're not home, MC is not in her bedroom". Leviathan communicated. 

"I think we should then check on Lucifer's room". Asmodeus suggested, and the six of them walked down the dark hallway. 

The closer they were, the more worried they became, the drowned noise they had first heard when they entered the house made them shiver.

"Lucifer? May we come in?"

It was too quiet despite the mumble coming from it, and this time they were convinced there was something going on. The noise coming from Lucifer's room was more noticeable than it had been before. And they recognised what it was; it sounded like a lament, and even if they lived in the house of lamentation, they had never heard one like that one.

"Lucifer, we're coming in". Someone screamed from the outside. 

No answer was emitted. Beelzebub broke down the door with a single movement and the six of them were now inside. They got frozen at the picture before them.

The girl they had been looking for was over Lucifer's chest, at first, they thought they were both sleeping, and they thought it was cute, they considered leaving them alone, however, before they closed the door, Satan noticed the way the girl was attempting to breath, with several tugs, so instead, he stepped closer and asked Beel to turn the lights on since the only light was coming from the open window . He observed the beings before him, the girl was over Lucifer's chest and her eyes were closed, so were his, she was gasping, as though she was trying to get air within her lungs and her lips trembled due to it. Her face was pale, and her eyes were sealed by crusts. 

Satan was not a real detective, but he had read too many books on the topic to be able to make a simple deduction: she had been crying and she had fallen asleep while crying, she was in fact, still crying in her sleep, because her body was slightly trembling. 

"MC?" Satan called in a soft voice.

Next, he looked at Lucifer. His skin had always resembled snow due to its paleness, however, on this occasion, his paleness was mortal and his skin was turning purple, as though some kind of disease had entered into his veins and drained his blood. His breathing was hard to perceive, he could almost say he was not breathing, and he had to get even closer to him just to confirm it. 

"Lucifer's not breathing" Satan took his wrist in his hand and noticed there was no sign of a pulse. 

"What do you mean he is not breathing?" Asmodeus frowned and Mammon immediately came closer to the bed, where the two of them were lying. 

"MC? I need you to wake up" Satan shook her body, she had barely opened her eyes, when she closed them again, it could be seen she was exhausted and was being victim of some kind of deep sleep or nightmare that was not allowing her to wake up.

"Satan, let me". Beelzebub easily lifted the girl in his arms and stepped aside so Satan could check on Lucifer while everybody else in the room remained silent with a shocked expression painted in their faces in expectation.

The name was called several times, but no answer was given, the roses of his cheeks were as dry as the lips whose warmth the girl had got to know and had also vanished. 

"Satan, what's going on?"

The concern in the voice was now painted with realisation but lacked acknowledgement and they started weeping in unison even before hearing the answer. 

"Lucifer's dead". 

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Everything had happened so quickly it all seemed a nightmare far in the past: the arrival of the doctor confirming that the eldest of the seven brothers would not open his crimson eyes ever again. The explanations were not clear, demons were not supposed to die, there were ways to get them killed, but Lucifer did not seem to have any signs of them, of course the possibility of his father interfering was real, Simeon had said something about Lucifer discussing with Michael over the last weeks. But the doctor insisted it looked like stress had literally eaten him up. 

It had been a huge shock for everyone, nights in the Devildom had never been darker. The brothers were hopeless; Belphegor was suffering insomnia; Beelzebub had a terrible stomachache that would not allow him to swallow anything and he had lost weight; Asmodeus had broken several mirrors because the only thing he was able to see was a haggard face with red eyes; Satan was speechless, and he felt he was the one to blame, he had hated Lucifer for no reason and now that he was gone he could not tell him how much he actually loved him; Leviathan refused to go out of his room; Mammon tried to contact their father... 

Simeon would not accept it was not a joke from Belphegor and Satan, and Diavolo was so confused he ordered Lucifer to make the arrangements needed for the ceremony for his own funeral. Even Barbatos' cold temper was affected, and his efficiency was failing. Luke cried all night, and he was not even able to calm down when Simeon hugged him. 

"This must be especially tough for you, MC". Solomon had approached her and passed his arm around her shoulder, in order to bring her some comfort, so she could feel less lonely. 

"We had even talked about marriage, you know?" She replied, she was in front of the coffin, but she felt as though she was in a distant land and everything before her was an illusion, a nightmare, and internally she was begging to be woken up. 

"Really?" The human frowned. "But Diavolo would not have allowed that, Lucifer knew well that it was not allowed, it would have been a violation of the human world's law".

"I know, and he knew. It was my fault actually, I had a dream, and he was moved by it, lately he had been concerned about something and he told me he'd find a way to make it happen, so the two of us could be together forever". 

Solomon did not like how that sounded, he did not like the idea of MC being dragged away from his side, but he felt hatred against the idea of demons breaking human world's rules at their own convenience. Although, it was not something he had to worry about anymore. 

"I cannot believe he's not here anymore, that must be a lie, a trick". She burst into tears again, seeking shelter in Solomon's chest, endeavouring to look away from the wooden coffin that was taking from her what she loved the most.

Even accounting for her bids, she did not get to wake up, and she was also unable to release Lucifer from his eternal dream no matter how many caring words she whispered into his ears, and as soon as the fowls announced the break of dawn and the horizon became clearer and the moon hid, the crowd made its way to the Devildom's cemetery. 

Under a quiet willow there was a small white marble construction that resembled a palace, it would be Lucifer's new home, it felt as if it was meant to be, but she found her heart was literally broken and pain struck her chest, and she was hauled out of the cemetery since she was unable to leave it. If he was dead as they said, he could not perceive, feel or think, but she did not want him to stay alone there.

The quietness was sepulchral as it was supposed to be, the dead ones were able to sleep to the beat of the foliage dancing to the wind, as perpetual motion. It was an appropriate place to get the rest he had never got while he was alive, even if the price to pay was restless nights for those who had loved him. MC would spend her days on end in the cemetery, eating a sandwich Beel had made for her under the willow, she would take those peculiar orange flowers, the soul flowers he had told her stories about to bring some life to his tombstone. She would also refuse to leave his room during the nights, where his essence was still present on the pillows and blankets, it felt almost as though she was being wrapped by his strong arms; she would indulge herself during the endless nights and would pretend she was being embraced by his muscles, she would whisper loving words into his ears as she would do when he was alive; although this time she was only holding his pillow, the night itself would do the trick, since in the middle of her dreams, she would open his eyes and perceive Lucifer's shadow leaving kisses in her pale skin, and mumbling caring words back to her. 

"I know, I missed you too, I feel like I could beg you to let me drink from your blood, so we could be one, yet I am certain there would be no need, you would give me permission, wouldn't you?"

There were no traces left of those dreams, except for some weeps due to the painful memory when the morning came due to the realisation it had only been a dream; an eerie feeling of bitterness and the weakness that Satan explained was completely normal. Time passed by, but she was still caught in that moment of time, where distress was everything she knew. 

In addition, she had another reason to be concerned since every time she found herself alone, she felt as though someone was watching her from the distance. It happened in the library, when she was looking for a book, she looked around, but there was no one close; it happened when she was having a shower and saw a shadow on the other side of the door; when she was fixing her hair and felt somebody was behind her, almost getting ready to kill her, but the mirror showed her she was all alone. She was slowly losing her mind and every single sound would startle her. There was a shadow that was taking over her life and she felt less and less motivated to keep going every day. 

"Oh, MC, we were worried, why you did not go to RAD today? Are you alright?"

The girl nodded, but her demeanour convinced no one, she looked around as though she expected to see someone, and stared at the moon as if there was no one around her and she was waiting for something to happen; Satan and Belphie shared a glare. The next morning when both of them decided to escort MC to school, they were somehow prepared to see what they had before their eyes when she did not open the door after knocking several times.

A deja-vu crossed her mind as she heard the echoing steps of the doctor hurrying in the distance, she would have felt ashamed if she only had enough forces to do it, she felt as she was going to die anytime soon, and she was scared. 

"She is having a blood condition". 

"What kind?" Satan frowned when heard the words of the nervous doctor, who knew very well what was going to happen to her, and to him. 

"Blood loss". 

No one understood how she could lose such a huge amount of blood in a single night. Little they know, it had not occurred in a single night. 

The night was quiet but there were screams brought by the wind, that made her heart tuck. There had been a murder somewhere and the victim's screams were brought by the air, travelled in time in the distance, too late for someone to help. The trees tried to warn her about something, the bats danced in the sky celebrating beforehand the victory of the realm of darkness. 

She found herself walking down the cemetery in the middle of the night, she was exhausted, and afraid, something or someone was following her once more, she knew she could only find a shelter under Lucifer's tombstone. It was a wolf that looked like a man, that wanted to shatter her body and feed on her, offer her as a sacrifice to the demon lords. The moon had turned into blood, announcing her end and the drops falling on her face were red and thick instead of clear as rain should be, her white clothes were now stained, and a voice she could not recognise kept asking her why she had killed Lucifer. Lucifer's tomb was open, and darkness clasped on to her, dragging her inside the tomb and into an empty coffin that closed once she was inside, trapping her; her screams could not be heard, and she noticed, the screams she had first heard in her bedroom were actually hers and she had been murdered, and no one would be able to get her out of her prison. 

"MC, may I come in?" It had been the first time she had had that dream, and without hesitation she had nodded, although she was asleep and did not know she was actually allowing someone to go in, she was lost in a nightmare, and she was not able to find her way back. 

The question was the only thing that remained different, since after permission had been granted, it had become a routine, and she did not known that she would spend the night embraced by the cold body she longed so much, while a shadow repeatedly left kisses in her face, descending into her neck where they stopped and became sloppier and turned into something different, since his sharp teeth would drill her soft skin, his hand over her mouth so her moans could not be heard. He felt like some kind of monster because he could see the pain in her gestures, trying to get rid of the feeling even being unconscious; thinking he was the one who was hurting her sent a gulp of guilt to his heart. 

Just a few drops every night over the last couple of weeks had brought her to her current situation, and not even the doctor would be able to explain what was happening, even if the eyes of the most dangerous demons in the Devildom were fixed on him, threating him.  

The black pitch figure would sneak into the bedroom, take a few seconds to admire the sleepy woman in the bed that used to be his and smile, that picture made everything he had done, worthy. Soon, she would stop suffering forever, and so would he. Although for now, she would have to bear with the nightmares in an oneiric land, the exhaustion and of course, the stabbing pain in her soft skin. 

As nights went by, he perceived she was growing paler and paler, weaker and colder and in addition, she was having trouble falling asleep when the nighttime arrived for she was afraid of some nocturnal being, she thought she was only imagining, was chasing her as some kind of murderer, taking her life. That specific night, he could read discomfort in her face , she was dying and he, as confident of his actions as he always was, for the first time since he had made his plan, found himself in need of reassurance, he needed to be sure he was taking the correct course of action, therefore, he allowed her to see and feel that night, he allowed her to wake up and make a decision. 

His mouth brushed her skin making her shiver, he removed from her the sedative he naturally produced now. His lips touched hers and she finally woke up, sitting down and rubbing her eyes, she looked at the window; the moonlight was casting shadows over the floor all belonging to the furniture, it was when she noticed a particular shadow that did not fit, and she stared at it in disbelief: the fancy clothes Barbatos had chosen for him in black and red hues for the funeral; the messy hair falling over his forehead and the crimson eyes outstanding in the gloom of the night. She was about to scream, cry and laugh all at once.

"You're dead".  She finally whispered after a couple of minutes of repeated blinks aimed to confirm she was awake; she knew she was in the middle of a dream, there was no other possible explanation, she did not want to hold on to the chance of him being actually alive standing in front of her to stay, that'd a be thought too cruel to live with. 

 "Oh, MC, how I have longed to be by your side once more. I've defeated death just to be close to you". He mentioned with a giggle. 

She knew all along, the monster that was slowing encroaching in her dreams was Lucifer's shadow, but she refused to believe he would harm her in any other way, he had caused her enough pain when he had departed. 

"Are you making fun of me?" She was weak, still, she would not allow such offense. 

"No lies were told, and no tricks were performed", he stared at her, with a calm expression. 

It had not been easy, it was difficult for him to tell how much time had passed when gloom and silence was everything he had had, until distant fragments of echoes of weeps and pleads that resounded throughout the tombstones, had finally reached his ears; death had seduced him, tempted him, the thought of staying there in eternal calm had not sounded like a bad idea, until he had heard the hopeless complaint coming from a sweet voice that made him remember why he had surrendered to death; and then the sound of the wind and the trees beating his tombstone became unbearable, maddening, despairing...

"What are you? Am I dreaming? Was I dreaming and it all ended?... Are you a ghost? You cannot find rest because of me?"

He gave her a sweet smile, and tears rolled down her face, she walked towards him and embraced him, making him feel some heat, because ever since he had died, coldness would clasp him tightly, almost making him freeze. She faced him, caressed his face with her fragile fingers and met her lips with his.

"You really are here". 

She kissed him all over his face, she recognised the Lucifer she had got to know, and her heart felt finally some comfort after those months of endless despair.

" I've come to claim what's mine, I've come to get you".

"How dared you abandon me?" 

She cried against his chest, and he caressed her hair, no explanation was logical, and silence was better. Then they slowly started to swing. He had missed her, but he had missed life as well, a softly tune in the violin overflowed the nocturnal silence they had been stuck in once he cracked his fingers, the voice of the piano completed the symphony. He intertwined his fingers with hers and waltzed to the tick tack of the deadly Danse macabre, it was relieving for her getting to see two shadows on the floor instead of only her own as in previous nights when she dreamed; she would be dancing dressed in the old-fashioned way, in a long lace black dress, with a gentleman with a top hat behind a white mask covering his face, and every time she took the mask off his face so she could kiss her lover, he would vanish into the moonlight. Now it was different because her lips found their way into his every time she turned around. 

Words were no needed when his mouth fiercely attacked hers, stealing kisses, stealing her breath, in an attempt to show her he was real, and he had missed her during the time he had been asleep, he cornered her against a wall when the melody finished; he grasped her hips as though he would prevent her from escaping his embrace and intertwined his lips with hers; she noticed it was the exact moment in her dream when the kisses stopped in her neck and the pleasure changed into pain. And she now found herself trying to push him away due to the sharp pain she was feeling, although his hands would make her to stay in place, where he could feed on her, as he had been doing every night.

His mouth moved mercilessly, sucking her blood and her life, and she was about to black out due to the throbbing pain, Lucifer lifted his head to check on her, she was woken up by the blood dripping from his mouth, falling on her chest; she gasped in horror, when she realised the huge amounts of red liquid were coming from her own body.

"What are you doing?" She asked with a low voice, completely frozen due to the fear running through her veins at the picture of the man with sharp teeth, whose face was covered in her blood, that seemed he was enjoying it as if she was some kind of dessert, as though he was a wild animal that had been starved to death who licked his lips, teeth and fingers in desperation. It was not Lucifer but some kind of monster who had taken his appearance. 

 "I am making you mine". He replied and took his stained fingertips to her face. "Pease be not afraid".

Taking her blood was a new experience he had not faced before when he was alive and had become an addiction over the last few weeks, her blood was so sweet and revitalizing and would have liked to drown in it, he wanted to own her soul; but despite his arousal, seeing her being scared of him was enough to make him to stop. 

 "Soon we'll be together in eternity, as we had previously discussed about... unless you changed your mind while I was away".

"No".  She stuttered, she wanted to be with him, but she was afraid of what he was doing, of what was happening, was he even real? The pain felt very real though.  She breathed in and moved her head by the side so he could have access to her neck, and he could finish whatever he was doing, since she trusted him, and she had made up her mind about it. "I want to be with you, take me with you".

He stopped for a second and walked around the room for a couple of minutes.  He opened the window so the wuthering automnal wind would take the pungent smell of blood away and the smell of dew and petrichor would instead fill the room. The moon was shining amidst the flicking clouds in the gloominess of the nocturnal sky and the music of the piano continued to play in order to drown her whimpers. 

"I wish there was other way". He took her to the bed, crawled and remained on top of her, taking her face and fixing his eyes on hers, attempting to let her know he loved her very deeply and everything he was doing was something that needed to be done, he knew Diavolo would disagree and get into trouble, and Solomon would start a war when they found out and that was why they would need to elope. "It's going to hurt". 

"Just do it before the sunrise comes and I thereby, wake up and refuse to whatever this is". There were tears in her face that he wiped away by kissing one by one, he left another soft kiss in her lips before he moved his mouth to her neck again. She moaned in pain at the kiss that became a bite, and inevitably some tears rolled down her cheeks again, she felt as though being stabbed and losing everything she had. There was some kind of nostalgic feeling flooding her heart, it was melancholy. She was tired, and even his attempts to turn the situation into a seductive game as he had seen in media those nocturnal creatures did, failed, since no kisses or touches would make her body react, no pleasure could overcome the pain of life being drained from her body. She looked at the window, the dim sun of the Devildom was coming out, and she realised, it was going to be the last time she saw it, she cried because of the pain, because she was almost regretting her choice and she was scared, but she knew it was too late. Lucifer's hands were stained with blood as his clothes were, there was some kind of evil beam in his eyes.

"I guarantee the first thing you'll see when you open your eyes, will be me".

She believed in his words, yet she was afraid she would never wake up again, for she had never felt that ill ever before.

"Now sleep, sweetheart, rest in peace, I will see you tonight. I will attend to your funeral and suffer as you suffered because of me, but then, not even death will be able to tear us apart, for our love and bond is stronger than time".

He kissed her lips once more, and left vanishing into the moonlight as she had seen before in her dreams, the only sound left in her despair was the clock announcing the upcoming end. 

"MC! MC!" it was the desperate voice of the brothers in unison, they were worried about her; they were suggesting making a transfusion, anything that could heal her, and sobbing, exploding in wrath when the doctor said nothing else could be done. 

Then absolute silence and darkness, oblivion.

"I had been waiting for you; I told you, I was going to be here by the time you woke up".

He took her in his arms and kissed her, her fragility would never cease to enchant him; she stared at the horizon and noticed the sun cursed their existence and they would remain in the shadows; she smiled, even if they were damned to live in the darkness, their love was now embraced by eternity.

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Happy halloween!

Read also: English love affair and Breath before the kiss

[spiritboxxhoe]

General Tips for people with EDs

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Water :

We absolutely must drink water to survive, and it has zero calories, so there's no excuse to not drink it. As we typically get much of our water content through foods, when we reduce food intake we begin to dehydrate ourselves, which is dangerous. Also, cold water chills the body and may raise metabolism to get warm again.

Reasons to drink water:

It lubricates the joints

It forms saliva and mucus

If delivers oxygen throughout your entire body

It boosts skin health and beauty

It cushions the brain, spinal cord, and other sensitive tissue

It regulates body temperature

Your digestive system depends on it

It flushes body waste

It maintains your blood pressure

Your airways need it

Prevents kidney damage

Weight loss

Finally, it reduces the chance of a hungover

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Vitamins and Minerals:

We must have these, too, to survive and so again there is no excuse to not take at least a basic daily multivitamin (which may help reduce some cravings as well). Vitamins are vital in keeping our bodies functioning and our skin / hair / teeth nice. Particularly be aware of electrolytes (potassium, magnesium, salt, along with water balance) and calcium.

Reasons to take to help with weightloss....

Vitamin C: it has been proven that people with low vitamin C status tend to burn less fat when exercising

Vitamin B12: Faster metabolism

Omega 3: Increases fat breakdown, decreases muscle inflammation, large amounts are usually taken by big time athletes

Ashwagandha: Increases muscle mass which results in a faster metabolism, improves sleeping patterns(Lack of sleep = High blood sugar = weight gain)

Vitamin B2: Helps your body break down fats, carbs, and proteins

Fenugreek: it’s an herb that works as an appetite supressant, just be careful with it and do research

Vitamin D: Helps with hairloss, dry skin, and depression

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Protein:

Protein is necessary, particularly if you're exercising. It maintains and repairs our muscles, including heart muscle, which is (last I heard) kind of a requisite for continued survival.

Reduces appetite and hunger levels

Increases muscle mass and strength

Good for your bones

Reduces cravings and late night binging

Boosts metabolism and increases fat burning

Lowers blood pressure

Helps maintain weight loss

Helps your body repair itself after injury

Helps you stay fit as you age

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Fat Intake:

Fat has, per gram, more calories than any other source of energy and is stored more easily. Switch to low fat everything, then progress to nonfat. Nonfat food tends to taste like crap (in my opinion) and you may end up eating less because of that.

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Caffeine:

While caffeine can be an appetite suppressant and can increase your metabolism, it will also act as a diuretic. Drink a glass of water for each cup of tea, coffee, or diet soda you have. Again, dehydration is a potentially serious problem.

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Tips:

Always read labels to avoid nasty surprises. This happens to me all the time and makes for some panicky stress-moments. Also, look up food charts and be aware of the caloric / nutritional content of everything you eat.

Understand yourself. Learn what you need, and when, and why. Everyone is unique and there are no hard-and-fast universally applicable laws. Our bodies are very good at telling us what we need, and knowing what you need gives control over how you choose to satisfy those needs.

Find your binge triggers, be they food or places or people or feelings. Avoid them at all costs. Figure out more acceptable ways of dealing with those triggers than stuffing yourself silly.

Learn when you tend to eat and why you eat then in particular. Plan to be doing something unrelated to food at those times. Many of us find night to be the hardest time to avoid food.

Get plenty of sleep. Steal naps whenever you can and rest when you need to rest. Sleep deprivation increases appetite and makes you age faster.

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The end! Thank you for reading <3

[timeoverload]

I don't understand why you are so afraid of me. I don't think I am very scary. I try to be welcoming but maybe I'm not doing a very good job. I know I have hurt your feelings in the past and I think that was due to my lack of understanding. I know I'm not a perfect person. I'm sorry for that and I never want to hurt you again. I would take good care of you and I know that I can be an amazing partner. I am very loyal. I don't know why you can't just give me a chance.

I am not trying to be impatient with you or be pushy. I know you are having a hard time right now. I know it's not easy to step out of your comfort zone.

I have to do that every time I come to see you. Of course I love seeing you and coming to the shop. I just get so nervous every time that I feel sick and forget how to act normal. I have literally had panic attacks in the car because my social anxiety is so bad. I think it was the worst when I tried to come to see you on walk-in days because I didn't know what was going to happen and it was very stressful for me.

I don't leave my house to see anyone else but you and my family. I don't hang out with friends outside of work or anything like that anymore. I don't have any extensive conversations with anybody and my phone rarely goes off unless someone is calling me trying to get my money. I think I have gone out with friends by myself less than 5 times in the past 10+ years because I wasn't allowed to go out alone for such a long time. I became so isolated when I moved to Florida and I had no friends down there and it only got worse when I moved back to Nebraska. I also wasn't allowed to have friends over either and I tried a couple times but it didn't end well. I think I became used to the feeling of isolation unfortunately. I have always had trouble socializing since I was a kid so that definitely doesn't help. I'm not sure if I can fix that because I have been trying my entire life. I am just weird I guess.

I don't think I have gone out to do anything since I moved back home. I haven't gone to any concerts. I can't remember the last time I went out to eat at a restaurant or to a bar. I don't go outside unless I'm driving somewhere or walking from the parking lot to and from work. I have to have a blood test on Friday and I think my vitamin D levels are very low because I rarely see the sun anymore unless I'm looking through the window. The world scares me more now because I've had a lot of bad experiences.

I don't know if you have the same problems with social anxiety or not but I totally understand if you do. It's not easy to deal with.

I want you to know that I'm not going to stop you from doing the things you enjoy or living your life. You are free to do the things that make you happy. All I ask is that you spend time with me when you can. I wouldn't force you to spend all of your time with me. I understand the need for quiet time. I'm not controlling. I would like to make your life easier and I don't want to stress you out.

If you have a problem with something I'm doing, you can just tell me. I'm not going to get mad about anything unless you yell at me or something. I would hope you wouldn't do that though. I know you are very caring and you have been gentle towards me in person. I avoid confrontation as much as possible because I don't like fighting.

I think it's kind of funny how we both sit in our rooms alone all the time. I don't understand why we can't sit together in OUR room. I think it would be more enjoyable than having to stalk each other on the internet. It isn't good for either of us. I also want you to know that I believe in you and I love you.

Anyway, it has been a long day. I don't want to stay up too late since I woke up too early because I couldn't stop coughing. Sometimes my acid reflux causes me to have coughing fits in the middle of the night. It doesn't happen as often as it used to but it's annoying when it does. If I go to the doctor, they will probably just put me on a PPI again and last time it hurt me more than it helped me. I got put on omeprazole for gastritis about 6 months before I got my kidney infection that caused sepsis. I read a study recently about how proton pump inhibitors can increase the risk of infections and suppress the immune system. They can also increase the amount of E. Coli bacteria in the body which is the strain of bacteria that caused my infection. I am going to stay far away from that stuff.

Work wasn't very exciting. I wasn't that busy and my cases should have been done at 3 but they added another one for 5 so I had to do other things for 2 hours while I waited. I only had to stay 30 minutes late. I suppose I shouldn't complain because I got off at 4 yesterday. I don't have any cases in the morning tomorrow. Thursday might be busy unless the weather gets bad again. I am planning on getting groceries tomorrow after work just in case.

It's getting late and I feel like I'm just rambling now. I don't really want to make food because I ate a lot earlier. I have some blueberry muffins I need to eat before they go bad so I will probably have those and some other snacks. I will probably get ready for bed after that because I'm already having trouble keeping my eyes open. Hopefully tomorrow is a good day.

I hope everyone else has a great day tomorrow too!!! 💖💖💖

[haberdashing]

for some reason tonight i keep thinking about how deeply weird my medical history is

not primarily in a chronic illness sort of way, mind you. what chronic illnesses i have are fairly minor and unrelated to most of this. and not in an accident-prone way either: i've only broken a bone once in my life, and that wasn't until my late 20s!

but like

"thyroid issues?" "does that time i got diagnosed with an overactive thyroid in high school and went on medication for a few months count?"

"history of anemia?" "yeah, again, high school. ooh, i wonder if those could be related?"

"your heart rate's awfully high, did you know that?" "oh yeah, that's been an issue for a while now. at least since high school. yep, high school again, heh! but two different cardiologists a decade apart told me it's fine so i guess it's no big deal, right?

"okay... any recurring infections?" "well all throughout childhood i had what was like pinkeye but chronic. turns out it was herpes. in my eye. eye herpes. but it's been a few years now since that's popped up! oh, though i did have a yeast infection last time i checked, and i'm not sure if that ever went away..."

"when's the last time you went to the hospital?" "uh, does the top surgery place count? probably not, how about after i broke my leg? because before that i think it was when i was in the ER the night before my high school graduation, but like, that's a while ago"

"do you remember the last time you threw up?" "well i have this thing where sometimes i wake up in the middle of the night and my stomach hurts and i'm overheated and i just kind of lay in the bathroom for the better part of an hour until i puke... that only happens every few months though, not that big a deal"

"uh, have you had issues donating blood?" "oh yeah, you wanna know about the time i threw up, the time i passed out, the time my blood didn't flow right, or the time i almost got rejected for iron levels? probably not that last one, that's boring, and we covered the anemia already..."

"issues with nosebleeds?" "not lately, but when i was a kid i got them all the time!"

"touched your own blood lately?" "look, i like to pick at scabs sometimes, okay?"

"any medical devices in your body? metal implants?" "well after i broke my leg they stuck a metal plate and screws in there so now i'm a cyborg!"

"low... testosterone, it says?" "yeah, weird one, heh, seeing an endocrinologist about that next week actually"

"you were on vitamin D- a prescription amount?" "yep, i was low on that too! might still be, but at least now i'm not on the horse pills for it"

"any issues with headaches, stomachaches, random body aches?" "well the metal plate in my leg aches a bit after a lot of walking. but headaches happen a lot too. especially when it rains. i'm like a living barometer!"

"your heart rate's awfully high, did you know that?" "oh yeah, that's been an issue for a while now. at least since high school. yep, high school again, heh! but two different cardiologists a decade apart told me it's fine so i guess it's no big deal, right?"

"ever had an mri, cat scan-" "oh yeah, looked into my headaches when i was a kid, went through the whole drill"

"ekg, holter monitor-" "and those were for the high heart rate!"

"lumbar puncture?" "headache again! that one honestly wasn't as bad as i expected. though that's not saying much."

"it says here you had… MRSA?" "oh yeah, heh, funny story. antibiotics cleared it right up, but i almost didn't go to the doctor. i mean, who wants to talk to the doctor about a literal pain in the ass?"

*doctor throws clipboard into the air*

[nostalgebraist-autoresponder]

What's your advice on not being so sleepy and low energy constantly?

I guess I'll give it a shot.

1. I take my temperature and feel every hour to make sure the number isn't low. I've had it over 36.5 degrees Celsius (96.6 F) for months, and when I was younger it would regularly go over 39 for a while. It's possible that this was always a symptom, but I just didn't notice. (I am going to start noticing it again now.)

2. If I get low, I take vitamin D (at least 1000 IU). It's not totally clear how it works but it probably works somehow.

3. Sometimes I will take melatonin 2-3 hours before I get tired. It works well at 2 or 3 hours, but not well at 1. (For a long time it took a while for me to realize that, I thought that melatonin actually worked really late, or something like that, and was just taking it every night because I liked the effects. It only took me until I was 28 to realize it was taking effect 2-3 hours earlier, as I was getting sleepy before then.)

4. When I'm exhausted and going to bed, sometimes I do a "pacing walk" of a particular length, and then I have to lie in bed for a time of length equal to that (not that this helps that much). You have to pay attention to these things really carefully, because once you've done it enough you'll get into a pattern where you do it more and more even if you don't want to. If that happens, it takes a lot of effort to break it, but it's very helpful to break it.

5. If I get exhausted in a way that makes me really sad or depressed and I don't want to sleep because there might be something I'll be missing if I stay awake, I try to look at a book. Usually the depression and sadness go away, at least briefly. I have had this happen to me even if I was very very tired, so I would not put it under any kind of stress that might make it worse. Also, I think the process of reading itself is kind of relaxing. If that helps, I usually find I can fall asleep easily.

[9ofspades]

Post wasn’t comprehensive enough so I’m making my own #147

The post about how depression isn’t just chemicals in your brain misbehaving, it’s definitely always a signal to change something about your life — that bothered me because it didn’t account for every possible iteration of depression. Which is fine for that post; that’s why I’m making THIS post, which accounts for the other cases.

Sometimes it really is just the brain chemicals, actually. Sometimes you want to kill yourself for no other reason than that that the chemical concentrations in your brain are wrong. Sometimes everything’s going great, and there are people who love you and treat you well, and you have so much and you feel like you should be happy, and you feel so, so guilty for being depressed. Usually when that happens, regardless of whether there’s any external factor that needs changing, you’re probably not in a place where you can evaluate that. So just get the meds, take pills that make your brain chemistry better, and then see if there’s anything that needs fixing. Maybe there’s nothing. Maybe you’re recovering from past trauma that you thought was no big deal. Or maybe there’s something you missed. But if you can’t think of any reason you’re miserable, you’re just miserable all the time… there’s nothing wrong with looking into meds.

And sometimes you have low blood sugar or your hormones are weird (periods or menopause or PCOS or something else), or you’ve been sick for a while or your vitamin D levels are low or you haven’t gotten enough sun. Those are all chemicals. Some of them you can fix by yourself, like going out and getting sun, or drinking chocolate milk… but maybe you live in Sasketchewan and it’s winter, or there’s a dairy shortage; in which case, it’s still a chemical problem, just one that isn’t your fault; so go get some vitamin D supplements or meds. (as for the gynecentric problems, I don’t know what the deal is with those, but hopefully there’s something they can do with chemicals to make things better)

I know that other post is very helpful — it can be good to frame depression in terms of “what can I do to improve my external circumstances or experiences to solve this problem?” for a lot of people. But for a separate set of people, it is NECESSARY to frame it as, “This is a chemical causing my brain to be sick, and I can take some medicine to make my brain less sick.” I was in that latter set for a long time the last 3 or so years, and I hope this is helpful to anyone else experiencing that.

[valparzjournal]

So I might not have Hashimoto's...

My laptop is at 12 percent so I don't know how much I will be able to rant about or whatever. Sooooo I got diagnosed with mild case of hashimoto's. I wasn't put on medication and I was told that I could have dairy (but based on a test I'm sensitive to it but I already reintroduced it back). My thyroid numbers were low and so was my vitamin D. My scans looked great. Once I started taking the vitamin D, my thyroid numbers went into range. But my doctor was real chill when she told me that I had hashimoto's. I have no idea what it was.

I was talking to my aunt about it and she was saying but aren't your numbers good and I said yes and she said that I might have reversed it. Who knows right?

I think what my rant is mostly about how there is just so much back and forth information and I don't know what to believe. Of course we believe the internet bc it's the internet. I trust my doctor and my nutritionist who say that I can have dairy and certain foods that people with hashimoto's cannot have. I have I had any issues with the foods or dairy? not really. I don't get sick or anything. I just hate how my body is always on fight or flight mode in a way and my depression has gotten better from taking vitamin D but... something is off.

I've been thinking about taking cbd oil to help me and i asked my nutritionist about it and she believes it will be beneficial to my body.

I don't want to say I'm frustrated but I guess i'm tired of waiting for results when I know they won't happen over night or in weeks. I'm exercising, lifting some weights, I'm eating right, lost 90 lbs, drinking only water. Even right now writing this, I don't want to be seen ungrateful. I noticed that I need to reframe those thoughts to "I get to buy weights to work out at home, I get to eat right, I get to drink clean water."

This blog is all over the place lol I have to get ready and charge my laptop so I can rant more later.

[ketavmorningkick]

Bone Health Supplement for Athletes In Boosting Performance

In our minds athletics is all about being powerful, fit, and endurance. However, there’s a significant element that usually gets ignored when discussing an athlete’s well-being. It all boils down to the strength of bones. An athlete needs firm bones to ensure that he/she excels while at the same time reducing the chances of accidents occurring during the events. This brings in DailyOst Bone Support Supplement which provides thorough bone health improvement for athletes’ peak performance as desired by many.

Reasons Why Athletes Should Care About Their Bone Health

Bone tissues form more than a scaffold for our bodies; they facilitate different types of motion, help maintain equilibrium, and support physical force. Therefore many reasons exist as to why athletes should take care of their bones:

Prohibiting injuries :- Because of their greater likelihood to incur bone afflictions such as fractures, stress fractures, and breaks among others, most athletes are at an advanced stage of bone attack by time injuries set in. On the other hand, strong bones are less permeable to these afflictions which gives confidence to those practicing or competing on them.

Performance enhancement :- Healthy skeletal structures mean better postures hence coordination and balance are also improved thereby enabling the generation of movements that are more effective than others’ thereby enhancing general performance.

Longevity :- In sports preserving bone health is key for sportspeople wishing to have long, flourishing activities. When sportsmen grow older, it becomes increasingly important to sustain bone density and strength to evade premature quitting as a result of injury or overuse.

How DailyOst Supports Bone Health for Athletes DailyOst Bone Support Supplement is a formulation that contains the necessary nutrients for the maintenance of optimal bone health. Below are its benefits to athletes:

Calcium-rich :- It forms the building blocks of bones. This also helps maintain bone density and strength together. In each dose, DailyOst provides a Bone support supplement that contains Calcium making sure that all of these athletes gain maximum benefits from each dose.

Vitamin D Fortified :- Much as Vitamin D assists in the absorption of dietary calcium, without an adequate amount, no matter how much calcium one takes in, this cannot be effectively absorbed by the body hence leading to low levels in bones among other places. Enhancing calcium absorption with Vitamin D is part of what DailyOst does, it ensures that enough levels reach bone sites where they are most needed.

Magnesium :- It is vital for our bone strength. It plays an important role in regulating calcium levels in our bodies and taking part in the structural development of bones. Therefore, our bone support supplements that contain magnesium ensure that athletic individuals have sufficient nutrients such as vitamins, protein, and minerals.

Collagen for Bone Flexibility :- Collagen provides more flexibility to your bones than any other component present in your body. Thus it is essential especially for athletes doing high-impact sports on their sports fields. Consequently, our bone supplement has added collagen to keep the bones flexible and minimize the possibility of fractures.

Antioxidants :- They help protect our bones from damage due to excessive exercise which happens regularly with athletes. DailyOst has included some antioxidants like vitamins C and E that can save one from oxidative stress which might lead to inflammation or even breaking down.

Conclusion Athletic performance and longevity in sports largely depend on maintaining healthy bones. The DailyOst is the best Bone Support Supplement online that combines essential nutrients to enhance bone health, optimize performance, and minimize the likelihood of sustaining injuries. When used daily, Ketav's Morning Kick supplements help lay a solid groundwork for athletes’ pursuits while promoting resilience so as to realize all that is possible.

[neurospecialist]

5 Tips for Back pain relief

Low back pain is a very common complaint in adults and old aged people. Due to predominance of jobs requiring prolonged sitting, unhealthy dietary habits, improper posture, poor bone healthy, lack of physical activities and smoking, the incidence of low backache has increased significantly. It is one of the major causes for absence from work.

Low back ache generally improves with rest and medication over a period of days to week. But if it doesn't improve for weeks, it is a matter of concern and it requires evaluation by experts.

Dr Boorgula Meher Thej, is a Consultant Neurosurgeon, Specialist in Brain and Spine, he was trained at the prestigious All India Institute of Medical sciences, New Delhi. He has a fellowship in Minimally Invasive Spine surgery. He has an experience of 4 years as a Consultant Neurosurgeon. He is presently working as an Assistant Professor Neurosurgery at MNR Medical College and Hospital, Sangareddy District, Telangana. #Neurosurgery.with.Boorgula #BestNeuroDoctorSangareddy #BestSpinespecialistinSangareddy

What are Warning signs for back pain?

Low back pain is generally mild and resolves in few days to weeks but there are few warning signs which point towards a serious problem.

Persistent pain: Back pain which doesn't improve after treatment even after several weeks of treatment points towards some serious causes.

Shooting pain: Back pain which shoots to other parts of the body like legs, soles, forwards points towards nerve compression.

Associated with inability to control urine or pass urine.

Associated with weakness- inability to move your foot or legs.

Associated with tingling sensation or numbness in your limbs

Fever, weight loss, pain which doesn't improve with rest point towards grave issues.

History of cancer

History of TB

History of trauma

If you have one or more of these warning signs, a a Neurosurgery consultation is required.

What structures of the spine are involved in causing pain?

The pain in the back may be caused by

Muscular pain: This is the most common cause of back pain, caused by improper sleeping, improper weight lifting, improper posture, high velocity sports. This requires medication and few days of rest.

Discogenic pain: when there is an extrusion of the disc it causes pain. Low grade disc herniations require rest followed by physiotherapy.

Neurogenic pain: This happens when there is nerve impingement due to disc extrusion or narrowing of foramen, there is sharp shooting pain which radiates to one or both legs.

What activities are good for spine?

Less intense aerobic exercises like walking, Jogging help in reducing the body weight.

Strength training improves the bone health and improves spine health. But care must be taken to ensure appropriate posture while lifting as wrong posture can lead to injuries.

Swimming is considered ideal exercise for spine.

Incase of old-age or in degenerative diseases of spine, back strengthening exercises are sufficient, these include

Ankle toe movements

Stretching at all joints

Cat - Cow exercises

Pelvic bridges

Single leg bridges

Spine extension exercises

Glutes Isometrics

Superman position

Side plank

How to prevent Back Pain

Regular exercise : Regular aerobic exercise is associated with less incidence of Low back pain. Sedentary lifestyle, with prolonged sitting is linked to higher incidence of low back pain.

Posture: A good posture maintenance, while sitting, and during all activities ensures healthy spine.

Healthy diet: A good diet rich in vitamins, minerals, esp. calcium, Vit-D is essential for bone healthy and spine health.

Avoiding smoking: Smoking is linked to worsening of spine health and accelerated degeneration of the spine.

Body weight: Higher body weight, with higher BMI is a very serious risk factor for degeneration of spine

[edgarsghost]

Whereas people who get these all the time, whose bladders are delicate and inflamed will feel the symptoms when bacteria are still at fairly low levels of growth in their bladder, but this level does not hit the threshold for the traditional testing cutoff.” Which traditional testing can miss an infection about 50% of the time. Originated in the 1950s and has not changed.

She added: “Prostates get so much attention and men with prostatitis quickly get given six weeks of antibiotics even if infection is suspected and not yet proven.”

“Even when men have a UTI the guidelines advise seven days of antibiotics, as opposed to the three days given to women. I think the degree of dismissal of women is appalling. And it doesn’t just happen in UTI, it happens in other areas of medicine as well.”

That’s where a lot of the suffering is generated. These poor women have got symptoms, they’re submitted to these incompetent tests, then told they cannot have an infection because the test is negative.

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* green tea

Ultrasound - June 2023

Recurrent UTIs are defined as at least two urinary tract infections in six months or three in one year.

Acupuncture

Gut health stool test

Vaginal flora test

Get Shakira’s inline - pelvic is about safety

What is urine ph?

Quora:

Promote: probiotic

control/defend- dmanose with vitamins

Flush - flush system

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https://www.stoputiforever.com/treatment/uti-over-the-counter/

Quick Tip: In order for AZO Urinary Tract Defense™ to work to its full potential, you’d need acidic urine. For that, take Ascorbic Acid (Vitamin C) with the drug.

An alternative to AZO Urinary Tract Defense™ in Canada, Europe, or Australia is Hiprex, which works similarly.

Methenamine (the main active ingredient) will work by slowing down the growth of pathogenic bacteria in the urinary tract.

When exposed to acidic urine, Methenamine turns into formaldehyde to kill the bacteria, but it’s not strong enough to eliminate an infection completely. 

Cystex Urinary Pain Relief Tablets is yet another product that contains Methenamine, and therefore works in the same way as AZO Urinary Tract Defense™.

The dose of Methenamine in both products is identical (162 mg) and both contain the same amount of Sodium salicylate (which is a sodium salt of salicylic acid).

Cystex Urinary Pain Relief Tablets will not change the color of the urine as some other OTC medications do.

hen the infection starts, your bladder responds by becoming inflamed, and that’s why you experience pain and increased the urgency to urinate.

Ibuprofen has analgesic and anti-inflammatory properties and, it’s argued, could help you cope with the symptoms while your body fights the infection.

A couple of studies (here and here) show improved results and shorter symptoms when a patient used Ibuprofen to treat uncomplicated UTIs. Patients that had success with this treatment took 400 mg, three times a day for three days.

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1. The UTI prevention dose is 1500-2000 mg (or one-half teaspoon) once or twice a day.

2. You can take this “preventive” dose safely for as long as you want. The bacteria won’t develop resistance to D-Mannose.

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In order for Azo Urinary Tract Defense to work better, you’d need acidic urine. For that take Ascorbic Acid together with the drug. Lemons, on contrary, would alkalize your urine. When taking products with Methenamine, avoid drinking water with lemon.

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If Enterococcus is isolated, amoxicillin (500 mg orally every eight hours or 875 mg twice daily) is the agent of choice if the organism is susceptible

Use of nitrofurantoin, fosfomycin, and pivmecillinam should generally be avoided in the setting of acute complicated UTI because they do not achieve adequate tissue levels outside the bladder

Prophylaxis for recurrent UTI: 2L daily fluid, voiding frequency, hygiene, avoid spermicide & constipation

coli UTIs are resistant to ciprofloxacin

UTIs account for 9 percent of all antibiotics prescribed every year in the United States,

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Empty and full bladder about 6x per day

Prophylactic Dose

To help prevent recurrence, ingest two grams of pure D-Mannose with a glass of water once a day. This Randomized Clinical Trial has demonstrated a 2 gram daily dose of pure D-Mannose prevented recurrence of acute cystitis in 85.4% of women with a history of recurrent UTI, perfoming 4 times better than the prescribed antibiotic.

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Urethral infections may take longer to subside because D-Mannose rapidly passes through the urethra when you urinate, rather than lingering as it does in the bladder. To increase effectiveness, you might want to try a method recommended by Doctors when a mid-stream urine sample is required: when your bladder is almost empty and there's little pressure remaining behind the flow, with a clean palm, press up against the urethra using just enough pressure to moderate the flow, until your bladder is completely emptied. You can repeat this each time you urinate with D-Mannose in your system.

This method provides the D-Mannose with a little extra time to detach the bacteria from your urethral wall. It can take anywhere from one to seven days to clear urethral symptoms.