#am i??? articulating this well enough

[ectoplasmer]

sorry it’s early and i’m brushing my teeth while the sun is rising since I passed out last night before I got the chance to, and we’re getting genuine sunlight for the first time in weeks, and I’m busy contemplating just how ridiculous this series is

[mossy-aro]

ultimately i think my insistence on aro positivity honestly is as much a political stance as a personal one.

when i say aro positivity is crucial and that i dislike doomer-ist posts that express sentiments like 'I hate being aro so much I wish I was dead instead’ it's not because I don’t think there can and should be a space for negativity and acknowledging self-hate, or the many ways being aromantic can really suck sometimes. i find that to be very important!

that being said. there is smth here about how self-hate posts are sometimes just arophobia that we inflict on ourselves. and when we put that out into the ether it (intentionally or not) can become arophobia that we inflict on other members of the community. i think there absolutely needs to be a place for negativity and the expression of anger and frustration and self loathing even - these are all good things to talk about because these are things that we experience. that being said, it can also be genuinely upsetting and triggering to people to have what is essentially arophobia shown to them and then have that be validated by other aspec people. your personal thoughts can affect your wider community on a level you may not anticipate. and i understand it i truly do! it took me so long to be able to recover from accepting being aroace - it threw my entire world off kilter and made me question everything about my place in the world.

but my insistence on aro joy and positivity is because ultimately i do believe that building is at the core essence of it all. that ultimately discussions and the purpose of community should be about construction, not destruction. and this is both a personal and a political stance. talking about how much you hate yourself and cultivating online discussions/spaces where negativity about aspec identity is the main and only theme is destructive - if that’s where we let the conversation end. these thoughts can and should be used as a vehicle to look for a path forward!

joy and positivity create a space where the focus can become on forging a path forward, on construction, on community building instead of tearing ourselves and others down with negative thoughts. it’s not productive or healthy when it stops at a place of negativity - it becomes actively destructive to the essence of community.

and i do think that this is especially poignant considering the fact that being any kind of queer, but especially aromantic (and/or asexual) means forging a path for yourself and making your own happiness where there is no obvious way forward. our communities exist mostly online (right now, anyway), there is little recognition of our existence in the real world, the effects of amatonormativity are both pervasive and actively dehumanising, and there are legal, economic and social structures in place actively making our lives more difficult. yes that all sucks! it’s good to acknowledge that. we need to in order to change it. but more importantly, that’s not the end. we are still here and our happiness, our future is for us to determine. even if we can’t change the laws or society, loving yourself and understanding aromanticism as a political identity (as well as personal), as a radical worldview, and as a protest against amatonormativity is essential for both community and personal well being. the personal is political.

tldr. i guess my point is that as a community, we should focus on building, improving, and nurturing ourselves and each other (construction) as opposed to destruction. we should recognise aromanticism and asexuality as political identities as well as personal ones and rely on community and self-love in the absence of anything else as a form of protest and political power. destruction (the recognition of everything that is wrong) is essential as a starting point - but where do we go from there? we rebuild.

[otrtbs]

here’s the thing. the absolute joy and wonder i feel whenever someone tells me they came across ahb! and are now taking an art history course / majoring in art next year / went to their local art museum for the first time in ages is exponential. when yall send me your favorite artworks and tell me about them or tell me you went to x museum to see x painting mentioned in ahb??? it’s just so so wonderful. because never did i think something i wrote out of love for art and love for art history would lead anyone else to research art or talk about it or seek it out for themselves and that’s so much more than i could ever imagine would come out of a very timid first attempt at creative writing/fandom involvement.

i wrote it out of love and y’all have all reciprocated that love tenfold and ran with it to talk about art and explore it and share it with me and those around you. and it’s just been a very special incredible thing that makes me emosh. :,)

[angelmush]

the other day i walked around the golden lake w my love and the sun was setting hot and orange and we watched a brown duck preening through the weeds, ducking her head under the dark water. the cool lake swallowed up my tired feet to the ankles and we counted the dog walkers with their curly panting doodles and their handsome german shepherds and their whip smart little terriers and we admired the careful construction of a sand castle whose moat held determinedly against the lapping of the waves. we could feel in our chests the persistent thunderous thumping of celebratory music at the finish line of the lakeside 5k, welcoming each gasping runner across its bounds. and i felt like crying. i felt like curling into myself and crying. we walked through the swamp of the bird sanctuary afterwards and listened to the woods sing and croak and groan and then we went and got ube and yuzu gelato and devoured it suntired and sweating on the couch in our living room. and i was so overcome w a deep and true unshakeable happiness and a sort of confused grief that i wanted to sob and sob and sob.

[sydbarrettism]

🔥 pink floyd fanfiction

i have a lot of thoughts about pf fanfics so uhh sorry if this gets long and rant-y im just very opinionated #peaceandlove

idk if it's unpopular but a good chunk of the ones in ao3 are umm... not exactly the level of writing im used to compared to some my other fandoms. to put it nicely. (mainly talking about the slash fics) there are okay ones, but the best fic i read in ao3 was essentially a gen fic.. so... Yeah. anyway i've read a lot of good ones in livejournal but trying to navigate that site was like using a metal detector to find treasure and it's either i get a gold coin or some random piece of metal

also in the ao3 sphere i think that we need more fics about the guys being in messy unlabeled situationships rather than anything about them being loving boyfriends to each other (exceptions may apply in moderation). i don't think these guys have the emotional intelligence to say "i love you" to each other in a way that feels like they're in a normal romantic relationship do you get what i'm saying?

anyway that's all what i've thought of for now thank u for sending me this ask 🫶

[pencap]

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[ganondoodle]

so, except for that one painting i still wanna finish im gonna tone down the OC stuff again, zelda work resumes now (°ー°〃)

[imjustawaffle]

just randomly remembered my middle school DHMIS obsession and specifically that i fucking loved your DHMIS art (i'm pretty sure i drew fanart of your fluffybird kids at some point?!) and went back to your acct to look at your DHMIS art and it's just hitting me how much of my art style was influenced by yours back then!!!! i really really liked the bouncy fluffy energy it had, i guess. anyway just thought i'd share hope you're doing well!

sorry for taking so long to respond, I wanted to draw something for this, but I'm an old man who takes forever to draw things. I'll gush under the read me so I don't take up the feed space.

Thank you so much for leaving this ask, I've been struggling a lot recently with finding purpose in my art and it's very heartwarming to hear that I helped someone on their creative journey♥ Fun fact: I was in freshman/sophomore year of high school when I made a lot of my dhmis art, so I wasn't much older lol.

I wanted to do this drawing to showcase how much my art style has changed in the past 5 years, but also to show how much fluffybird has changed as a ship from the youtube -> series transition, when we found out in more detail what the puppet's relationship was. (which in my opinion is probably the funniest ship 180 I've ever seen) Seeing these characters I used to draw in flower crowns and cuddling start beating the hell out of each other was in fact the highlight of my 2022 when the series came out. I hope you enjoyed it too dear anon.

overall I hope your art journey is going well anon! whether it be something you stopped doing or something you still partake in, I'm glad I could be an inspiration to you on your journey, and I hope you find many more inspirations on your path to success, whatever it may be.

[ahollowgrave]

Why shouldn't I have another ice based character

[peachyteabuck]

having low empathy is weird bc I feel like I've always had big emotions and pretty often everyone else's response seems to be to suck it up & shut the fuck up about it. but then I have the same response to other peoples' problems and suddenly I'm the bad guy. which feels pretty weird, considering no one seemed to have a problem with that dynamic when I was on the receiving end of it.

[silverserpent]

things are bad. send post

[thesaintelectric]

have i ever actually explained she/her harrier du bois on here or have i just tortured leo in dms with it. its mostly vibes based but also if i look at a character and go 'yes theres gender happening here' disagreeing with me is illegal because it hurts my feelings :(

[rosylamb]

Wow, I have just stumbled across an angel on earth, you are stunning.

Oh, gosh . . .

These words were so sweet, and so charming — I genuinely couldn’t believe they were for me at first!

Thank you so much, my friend!!

You have the most wonderful heart, and I truly hope that all the people around you appreciate you for that. ♡ ♡

‘Cause I’m hardly stunning, but you are very kind. :”)

You’ve just made my whole evening that much brighter I mean! If only you could see me! I’m practically glowing your words have made me so happy. ♡ ♡

What about you though, my lovely stranger?

Are you happy, too? Or at least having a nice day? I pray that you are!

Sending lots of love and hugs! Please take good care of yourself for me, and make sure to stay safe, okay? ~ xo ♡ * ·̩͙ . 🧁 ˚ . 🌸 ✧ 🤍

[mediapen]

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[honeyoats]

Anyway i was already thinking abt it tonight but the way tim had to have idolized and looked up to jason when he was starting off as robin and even before then. ya know. maybe even mourned him a little bit because he was his robin too when he was still alive. Anyway

[imaginealpha]

i ought to start posting more tbh. i miss posting the randomest shit i could with no explanation. maybe tumblr is the place i finally do it