#an interrupted life: the diaries

[iluv-opal]

Lisa (girl interrupted) th1nspø

[zenasfuxk]

What a mind, twenty-five, you’re going to make a masterpiece of your life. You grew accustomed to be the girl we need. Squeezing your cheeks between our knuckles cause we threw the seeds. How many degrees? Try a PhD. So you write. Oh, you won a prize? You could be bigger if you only knew how to bite. It is very sad to see all of these young voices of progression and change being drowned out by old and regressive frames that collaborate to persist this country’s obsession with shame, which I fear is the only real value we reclaim. The death of the American dream has been making us live in a non-stop state of grief, but you’ve got still sunshine to see. Don’t be lazy, don’t get crazy. It’s easy to get to the top, I’ve been told from a guy on TikTok. You decide, you can’t keep doing unpaid interships all your life. One day you’ll have to leave this house. Beautiful girl, grow some ambition, with that face I can put you on my television. To survive in these frail financial conditions you can always try an open competition. I know to give up on your dreams sends shiver down your spine, but you could give your mama a grandchild, I promise you will feel just fine. But hurry up, you are going to waste your life, grown woman of twenty-five.

[beljar]

With all the suffering there is, you begin to feel ashamed of taking yourself and your moods so seriously. But you must continue to take yourself seriously, you must remain your own witness, marking well everything that happens in this world, never shutting your eyes to reality.

Etty Hillesum, from An Interrupted Life: Diaries and Letters of Etty Hillesum [1941-43]

[neviiv]

[cupidscult390]

My kind of vibes 🐇🩵💭🍃🧺🌾

[livelikealucid]

[intern-gershwin-palmer]

mangus

who's ready for the mangus scrotocol i can't wait

[crazystonergirl]

i <3 (and am so greatful for) the way i'm skinny enough to literally do any instagram pose 🙏🏻

[mooncalss]

don’t listen to me i’m an unreliable narrator (incredibly delusional too)

[angelic-tv]

a diary excerpt 🧁

[kiralamouse]

Me: I'm bored at work. Time to listen to the adventures of Blorbo From My Audiobook to pass the time. *starts playing audiobook*

Murderbot, aka Blorbo Du Jour: I'm bored at work. Time to consume media to pass the time.

Me: Amen, sibling.

[sheviolentlyher]

ARSON

Him:

“You light up my world”

Me:

“Yes, I set it on fire”

-x

[diablogs]

Just girly things

[maria-eve-falcon]

the one who left

7.May.2023

dear, crazy realization after blaming for long.

not every love is the same , yk . sometimes people still love and leave. imo, sometimes they have to choose themselves , when someone puts you on edge and you still stay with them for long enough to realize they'll never change.

and then sometimes it's better to leave them than start to hate or fall out of love. it doesn't necessarily mean the person who left is the one who doesn't love anymore. you can still love and let someone go thinking you have different visions or none..at all.

not everyone is capable of taking everything in when it's too much or for too long. not every person can let their demons stay stable and tame someone else's.

sometimes we leave to let the other person grow. knowing they won't if we stay.

to give them time to think by themselves and grow. hoping for the best even tho it shatters us to pieces.

the worst is, most times, we may never know the stories of the ones who left.

not everybody is the same. sometimes you just can't blame anyone, not even the one who left. you can't say they didn't want them or love them anymore .

and I'm not even projecting cause i've never been in love. now you may think of me as stupid observer, dear, but maybe I've just seen too much . I've...

seen people killing themselves while they leave the other person even tho the other person doesn't understand. just cause they maybe it's for the best.

I've seen people sticking with each other no matter what and falling out of love and even hating each other. not leaving for several reasons.

people can love and leave and keep loving.

love does bind and blind us but it's not that we'll always run to other person within seconds after leaving just cause you love them soooo much! i'm afraid it only happens in the movies

but then again in the notebook they reconnect after ages in la la land they reminisce the good times thinking about what ifs and in lfe, life does it's thing

we may never know what's waiting

[cupidscult390]

I never wanted this

All I ever wanted was to be loved 🐇

[good-morning-sunshine-vkmu]

I know what it's like to want to die,

How it hurts to smile.

How you try to fit in, but you can't.

You hurt yourself on the outside...

to try to kill the thing on the inside.

- Girl Interrupted