#and I hope this can help someone else

[shippingfangirl013]

You know… even when you’re at your lowest, your dog is still going to be there to love you. (And so will your cat, or your horse… or your bird/reptile/rodent, whatever companion animal you may have)

They just know how to be there when you’re falling apart.

I’ve been having a really hard time lately, because this time of year is kind of consumed by grief for me. I’ve lost more people and animals between the months of January-April than I think should be possible, and Gavin, my best friend of 15 years, will have been gone for a year this month. It’s honestly at a point where I’ve been borderline suicidal, (to be clear I do not plan to leave this world nor have I attempted it in or plan to attempt it) but the thoughts just refuse to go away, and it’s been this way since I was 14… and I just get so tired of my own head making so much trouble, when it seems like other people don’t have this as a problem. . .

I ended up sobbing on the couch in my living room earlier today, because everything in my life feels like it’s falling apart. I graduated college and learned that I don’t even know myself, I’m 8 hours away from one of my best friends after 4 years of living together and 4 hours away from my other best friend that I lived with for 2 years…

I’m 22 and I feel like I have no time to get my shit together. It feels like I have a ticking timer for a bomb just rapidly tapping out the time I have left, as if once it goes off I’ll end up dead from the gallows.

I didn’t get into vet school and it’s been my dream since I was six years old, and to be honest, some days (okay; most days ) as of lately, I’ve just felt like giving up on that dream. It feels like nothing will ever get better and the ‘end goal’ for staying alive just always seems to merely get bumped up another few years. First it was 17, then it was 22, and now it’s 26.

It’s like walking around with this soul sucking pit right behind you, day after day, even though you do your best to ignore it.

(And god, I know that there are people far worse off than me, and I know that if I were in a position to, I would try and do my damndest to help them out. Because I’ve been there too… but I suppose this is my way of helping, just writing down what I’m dealing with because it might help someone else that needs to hear this.)

But I just wanted you all to know that in the middle of sobbing for thirty minutes, my dogs climbed up on the couch and started licking me, trying to get me to play with them. And when Bandit realized that I didn’t want to move, he shoved my phone out of my hand with his nose, and he laid down on my lap and chest to get me to try and ground myself… and he took a nap while I cried petting him.

And I just thought to myself, you know, I would really miss this… and I started bawling again, because that might have been one of the first genuinely positive thoughts I’ve had in over six months.

I really don’t know what humans did to deserve dogs and cats, but I’m really glad that companion animals exist because things may not be perfect, but at least my dogs and cats and horses (and chickens) still love me enough to have me around.

Honestly, I seriously, normally will not post this sort of thing, but just in case anyone else is struggling, you’re not alone 💛 (and I know if you’re struggling and reading this, you might be sick of hearing that… but coming from someone else who is absolutely going through it… We’re gonna be okay. Even if it sucks right now, even if you don’t want to be here, eventually we’ll be better… baby steps 💕)

And sometimes one positive thing can make it suck less… it won’t fix it, and everything may still be shitty, but it might suck less and your pet still loves you no matter what.

[mariyekos]

One of the things that makes me feel crazy on DMC5 replays is the way V phrases his request to Dante.

He doesn't say "we need your help to stop the demon." He says "A powerful demon is about to resurrect, and we need your help, Dante." The implication seems to be that V needs Dante's help to stop it...but if you've played it before, that's not what he's really asking. V needs Dante's help in order for the resurrection to take place. Because until Urizen is weakened V has no chance of rejoining him, so he needs Dante's help to weaken Urizen so he's primed for merging and bringing about Vergil's resurrection. The "we" V refers to could also absolutely be both V and Urizen in that case, instead of just some general "we" of humanity. So he's not really asking for help to stop the resurrection, but instead to bring it about, hiding the truth in plain sight and careful wording.

The DMC 5 localization can be wonky in some places, but in other places it just shines. "We need your help, Dante." Not to stop it. He never says that. It's to bring about the resurrection itself.

[schizodiaries]

things i learned from my therapist

Asking for help takes courage and is not a sign of weakness.

All emotions are valid, including the uncomfortable ones.

Insightfulness is a useful skill when managing mental health.

When dealing with negative self talk, remember: if it’s something you wouldn’t say about a friend, why say it about yourself?

Reframing negative thoughts. “I’m worthless” —> “I feel worthless because xyz.” “I’m unproductive” —> “I would like to make better use of my time.”

Describing conflicting feelings with and instead of but. “I feel good and I’m having anxious thoughts.” “I have people that love me and I feel lonely.”

The phrase “I am having a scary thought right now, and I am safe.”

Resting and keeping busy are both equally important types of self-care. Same goes for me-time and socializing. Balance is the key.

Coping skills can and should be used even if you aren’t actively in distress.

Having an episode is like having a “brain attack.” It’s unexpected, but treatable.

When worried about worst case scenarios, ask yourself: “Will I be able to live with it?”

Healing takes time, but more importantly it takes willing, conscious effort.

Having a mental illness is like having a full time job. Don’t feel bad for devoting so much time and energy into it.

[raven-master]

Only 5% of college students with ADHD graduate. A statistic that's disheartening on my good days and terrifying on my bad ones. Still, I know that I (and many others!) have so, so much to offer in my field of work once I get past all the hurdles of getting a higher education.

Hang in there, fellow ADHD students, I see you and I love you.

[pathos-logical]

How to Keep Doing Descriptions (from someone who does a fuckton)

Plain text: How to Keep Doing Descriptions (from someone who does a fuckton)

This is a list aimed mostly at helping people who already write IDs; for guides at learning how to do them yourself, check my accessibility and image description tags! I write this with close to two years of experience with IDs and chronic pain :)

Get used to writing some IDs by using both your phone and your computer, if you can! I find it easier to type long-form on my laptop, so I set up videos and long comics on my phone, which I then prop up against my laptop screen so I can easily reference the post without constantly scrolling or turning my head

I will never stop plugging onlineocr.net. I use it to ID everything from six-word tags to screenshots of long posts to even comic dialogue! On that last note, convertcase.net can convert text between all-caps, lowercase, sentence case, and title case, which is super helpful

Limit the number of drafts/posts-to-be-described you save. No, seriously. I never go above 10 undescribed drafts on any of my four blogs. It doesn’t have to be that low, but this has done wonders (italics: wonders) for my productivity and willingness to write IDs. If I ever get above that limit, even if it’s two or three more, I immediately either describe the lowest-effort post or purge some, and if I can't do that then I stop saving things to drafts no matter what. No exceptions! Sticking to this will make your life so much easier and less stressful

My pinned post has a link to a community doc of meme description templates!

Ask! For! Help! Please welcome to the stage the People’s Accessibility Server! It’s full of lovely people and organized into channels where you can request/volunteer descriptions and ask/answer questions

I make great use of voice-to-text and glide typing on my phone to save my hands some effort!

Something is always better than nothing!!! A short two-sentence or one-sentence ID is better than no ID at all. Take it easy :)

If you feel guilty about being unable to reblog amazing but undescribed art, try getting into the habit of replying to OP’s post to let them know you liked it! This makes me feel less pressured to ID absolutely everything I see

This is a sillier one, but I tag posts I describe as "described" and "described by me." When saving to drafts, I never preemptively tag with "described by me," since for some reason that always makes me feel extra pressure and extra stress. Consider doing something similar for yourself if that applies!

I frequently find myself looking at pieces of art which feel like they need to be considered for a bit before I can write an ID for them, and those usually get thrown into drafts, where the dread for writing a comprehensive ID just builds. Don’t do that! Instead, try just staying in the reblog field for a bit and focus on the most relevant aspects of the piece. Marinate on them for a little; don’t rush, but don’t spend more than a handful of seconds either. I find after that the art becomes way easier to describe than it initially seemed!

On that note, look for shortcuts that make IDs less taxing for you to do! For example, I only ever describe clothes in art if they're relevant to the piece; not doing that every time saves a lot of time and energy for me personally

Building off of that, consider excusing yourself from a particular kind of ID if you want to. Give yourself a free pass for 4chan posts, or fanart by an artist who does really good but really complex comics, whatever. Let it be someone else's responsibility and feel twice as proud about the work that you can now allot more energy to!

As always, make an effort to find and follow fellow describers! It’s always encouraging to get described posts on your dash, and I find that sometimes I'm happier to ID an undescribed post when the person who put it on my dash is a friend who tagged it with "no ID"

TL;DR: To make ID-writing less stressful and more low-effort, use different devices and software like onlineocr.net and voice-to-text, limit the amount of work you expect yourself to do, and reach out to artists and other describers!

[rabid-citrus]

Please do not thank me. Please don't ask me to donate, Gofundme won't accept it. (also, likes do NOTHING, reblog this to help it reach more people) (edit: I DO NOT verify campaigns and I don't know these people in person!)

Correction: approximately 43 now. PLEASE SLOW DOWN, I can't keep up!

The oldest one in my follower list started following me back in July. They've been flocking to me ever since. I'm sorry, but I'm not the person you should be looking up to.

The list:

@m7meds / https://gofund.me/1f6f3d0a

@noor678 / https://www.gofundme.com/f/save-nour-and-her-family-from-war-help-them-escape

@asmaayyad / https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-to-live-and-rebuild-a-home

@help-manal-family / https://gofund.me/cc51a060

@yasermohammad / https://gofund.me/e7c7528a

@mahmoudayyad / https://gofund.me/fe3cd6dc (https://www.tumblr.com/90-ghost/757710479206563840/legit-fundraiser < verified!)

@basel1995s / https://gofund.me/0dc0aa34 + https://gofund.me/e7b5377c

@abeer-adel / https://www.gofundme.com/f/urgent-relief-for-family-living-in-tent

@hudameq6 / https://gofund.me/a25b42f8

@shadowyavenuetaco / https://gofund.me/ba5b76e9

@khaledgazacity / https://gofund.me/65d3c667

@hazemsuhail / https://www.gofundme.com/f/urgent-help-needed-a-journey-from-gaza-to-safety

@engalaazaqout / https://gofund.me/5182be01 + https://gofund.me/d86eead0

@kenzish / https://www.gofundme.com/f/urgent-help-needed-a-journey-from-gaza-to-safety

@hirheem / https://www.gofundme.com/f/emergency-hamza-and-family-for-survival?utm_campaign=man_ss_icons&utm_medium=customer&utm_source=copy_link&attribution_id=sl%3A9892cda3-7c45-4c41-a4e1-adaaa071280a

@lobnaalser / https://gofund.me/2284158c

@shery-89 / https://gofund.me/fbcbb293

@alimeq92 / https://www.gofundme.com/f/fm8uf-khan-younes

@falestine-yousef / https://gofund.me/7e05a237

@mahmoud-gaza / https://gofund.me/0ba1af9f

@kareem-family2 / https://www.gofundme.com/f/give-them-hope-kareem-family

@melhindips / https://www.gofundme.com/f/hcz2n6-help-my-family-fleeing-the-conflict-in-gaza

@mohammad2 / https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-mohammad-survive-the-genocide

@mohmadelser / https://gofund.me/f784eeba

@ayoosh-gaza / http://gofund.me/87a0fa9f

@ranibra71 / https://t.umblr.com/redirect?z=https%3A%2F%2Fwww.paypal.com%2Fdonate%3Fcampaign_id%3D2PCAGRSXEUK3J&t=ZGFiMTRkZWMwNDUwOTllMThhNDJkY2I2ZGIwNzYxMGQ1YmQyNzQ2OCxmYjQyNjQ3N2EyMzg2YzBjYzMxYWU4MmI0MDUxNWQ5NWZiMWE3NDY4&ts=1726082177 + https://www.gofundme.com/f/displaced-gaza-family-seeks-help-after-war-destroys-lives

@hanyfamily / https://gofund.me/03d12215

@danahayat / https://gofund.me/9d9df629

@safaa-amir / https://gofund.me/9955bd5a

@moh266 / https://gofund.me/dc7a3a6b

@mohammedsh88 / https://gofund.me/b598a3e1

@belalahmedgaza / https://gofund.me/2cbfba4f

@ahmadresh2 / https://gofund.me/c4472150

@lawyer-adhamayyad81 / https://gofund.me/dd27f564

@ibramogh / https://gofund.me/aaba65e6

@hashemabd / https://gofund.me/39b9335b

@aseelo680 / https://www.gofundme.com/f/support-aseels-fight-for-life-and-family-in-gaza

@hanangazaa / https://www.gofundme.com/f/9s6zht-please-help-my-family-in-gaza?utm_source=copy_link&utm_medium=customer&utm_campaign=man_sharesheet_ft&utm_content=amp9c&attribution_id=sl:3834f25d-d0cf-48ab-8eb1-7486b0785867

@sfaamq10 / https://gofund.me/b25cb4bf

@nooralanqar / https://www.gofundme.com/f/rebuilding-lives-a-mothers-plea-for-hope-and-safety-in-gaz?lang=en_US&utm_campaign=fp_sharesheet&utm_medium=customer&utm_source=copy_link

There is also a list of those who reached out to me via asks:

[ndcultureis]

Autism culture is getting bullied for making a mistake and not knowing why you want to cry so badly when you don’t care about their comments.

Ps: how do I deal with bullies? I’ve tried talking with them, they just laugh at me. I’ve told authority figures (teachers, etc) and they talk to the dudes and it only makes it worse.

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[rotteneldritchhorror]

I will forever love Lydia barkrock as disabled rep in fantasy high

[plulp]

hey guys. remy design

[deer-with-a-stick]

I love how all of the companions' stories revolve around autonomy and I love how some of the romances show the whole "I love you for who you are"

Don't love how so many people are misinterpreting them though

[cobraisveryhorny]

can someone pls help me find this fic pls?

it was perv fanfic reader and I think had Geto in it and maybe a few others. And from what I saw, the beginning sentence I’m pretty sure was something like:

“Geto looks over your shoulder at your laptop screen and says “Gangbang, knifeplay, bondage oh that’s kinky.” (This is absolutely not word for word what was said but it was atleast something very similar. Also there is potential it could’ve been Gojo instead so it was either Gojo or Geto)

I just tried to find it again cuz I saw it on my dashboard in my little “you should check this out” that’s there and my stupid ass apparently forgot to like it after I was like “oh I’ll read it later” and so now I can’t find it

[the-attic-of-porcelain]

I have noticed recently that every time I discover a subculture (punk, system, queer, disabled, etc) there is a fun learning period and then I am SUDDENLY smacked in the face with exclusivity discourse!!

Queer people will talk about transmasc-only spaces, or lesbian-only spaces, or any other sub-sect of queerness, individualized into it's own Club that no one else is allowed into

Disabled people do this too, excluding other kinds of disabled people, amputees will want amputee only spaces, chronically ill folk want their own spaces, and so on

This happens with many systems/plural folk, who try to seperate endogenics from traumagenics. This happens with punks, attempting to exclude such-and-such subculture from "being punk" and on and on and on

The point is: everyone seems to be scrambling to find and/or make their own exclusive club that they can enjoy, with only "their" people, and I HATE this!! It isolates Others- people who are questioning, closeted, or simply don't fit into a category, a person I used to be. A person we all used to be. We cannot live by cutting eachother off. We cannot thrive by closing everyone else out. We WERE Other, these communities were MADE to embrace Others, rejected folk, damaged folk, and invisible folk. The point of being Queer, of being Punk, of being part of a community, is to LOVE

You can't love someone that you push away

You can't grow if you're not given a chance

Our beloved communities will die if we never allow anyone into them who doesn't fit Perfect Criteria, and none of us want that

Just think about it and next time someone Weird or Uncomfortable shows up, I'd be grateful if you'd remember my words, even if you're don't agree with them for any reason

thanks for your time, I wish you the best/gen

[danothan]

batflash is soooo real to me and also it can never be reciprocated at the same time or else it’s not batflash to me anymore

[eyrieofsynapses]

good evening, all. it is May the 25th. our lilacs are blooming, just as the ones at the Watch House did. and I am thinking about remembrance of the fallen, and GNU, and the love in commemoration.

y'know, I read Night Watch… oh, maybe a year ago and some months ago. and the lilac symbolism, the remembrance of the Watch, has always struck me with the depth of the emotion of it, the tangibility of it in the flowers. but I wasn't aware that today was the day until I saw commemorative posts, all that gorgeous artwork and more, on my dash.

I was also not aware, until now, that fans commemorated the day not only because of the book reference, but in support of Terry Pratchett and of those with Alzheimer's. which knocked me over a bit because of course, of course the group that would use GNU to honor him would do that. and… I've been thinking about GNU a lot, lately, and this caught me again.

I read Going Postal a bit ago, and reread it recently. both times, the parts about GNU made me tear up. this idea of the names, the memories, the lives of the clacks workers who dedicated themselves to ensuring that people heard each other's voices—all those names spoken again and again and again by that which they poured their souls into, winging along in the air as they could not, an eternal reminder that they were loved—how could that not touch a person's heart?

when I found out that fans online used it to memorialize him, I damn well cried. hell, I still tear up just thinking about it. do you know, there's a code for an HTTP header "X-Clacks-Overhead: GNU Terry Pratchett" written by Reddit users to put in webpages, where it goes unseen by the average user? and in 2015, when Netcraft took a survey, there were eighty-four thousand websites using it? it's eight years later—how many thousands upon thousands of websites have this now, do you think? how many little cables of light has his name flown along, now? how many times?

that alone is absurdly and unimaginably lovely in its own right, but… there's something else to it. there's something about remembering with the lilac sprigs every year, just as Vimes and those who were there remembered their dead. something about how, when we take up our lilac sprigs, we carry a little piece of the characters in our hearts, too. I kept trying to put my finger on why that makes me tear up the way it does. the conclusion I came to is this:

what greater way to honor a writer is there, but to honor them the way they did the characters they poured their heart and soul into? what better way to say we know you and you are not forgotten and your work and words and gifts to the world are held in our hearts forever than to remember them by their own words, their own vision? how else could we say you embodied all the good you believed in and wished to see in the world, but to memorialize them after the little pieces of their soul they wrapped in ink and put upon the page?

it is a knowing of the writer, to remember them in their way. it is not a worn-out faceless platitude, but a reminder that their work has been read and will continue to be, that the characters and world they loved enough to bring to life last just as their name does. such remembrance is warm and loving and delights in their memory even as it grieves.

and now Pratchett's name has been written in his tradition, over and over and over, across the vast plane of the Internet, where it will—with any luck—continue to fly for generations to come.

there is no way to truly express the beauty of that… but perhaps we can catch a glimpse of it in the lilacs, both ours and the Watch's.

[ghostlyheart]

as we approach the start of a new semester i'm sending all the compassion and empathy in the world to students who struggle with procrastination and what I affectionately like to call the Shame Monster that goes along with it. it sucks to always be treading water and feeling like a fraud to yourself and others, especially when it's something you truly care about. if you're always thinking "why can everyone else be responsible and organized but not me," your brain is overgeneralizing. you're not the only person to experience being overwhelmed and stuck. and even IF everyone else balanced their life perfectly, that wouldn't make you a bad person for struggling. if you care about something but keep avoiding it and don't understand why, there is probably more going than you realize. if your physical and mental health are being neglected, then you're never going to be able to accomplish what you want to do because you don't have any gas in the tank. it took me crashing and failing last semester for me to finally admit to myself that i was suffering from some SERIOUS burnout. i had this whole plan for research i was going to do over the summer and all these opportunities i wanted to take advantage of that i couldn't do because i was neglecting to take care of myself. the worst thing my anxious brain told me could ever happen did happen and i'm still alive. i hope that doesn't happen to you, but know you can recover and come back better. also: it's okay to stop wanting what you thought you wanted, or to take a different path than the one you were "supposed" to. don't do things because you think other people expect you to, or because you think it's too late to change your mind. that isn't sustainable. your college experience is for YOU, not for other people. you can do this!

[puppyeared]

who up seeing their disorder in a fictional character but feel like its not their place to put a name on it