#and thats without accounting for time to study!! like!!

[camelspit]

how am i expected to have hobbies when there is homework

[biteyoubiteme]

catching soobin masturbating pls pls pls

an: eeeeeekkkk one of my favs to read >< i hope you like it i didn't add more but maybe next time because i love love love this topic- wc: 0.8k warnings: 🔞!!! masturbation (m!), i think thats it lmao

The two of you had agreed to share the small apartment because of how close it was to campus and how convenient it was to split the rent. Neither of you had taken into account why the space with two bedrooms was listed so cheap in the first place, and neither of you had looked at the square footage before locking into the lease without having a walkthrough. You had been all in for snatching it up before it could be taken by some other duo looking for the right fit, just as desperate as you and soobin. 

But neither of you accounted for the single bathroom, thin walls, and minimal living space. The couch was just about in the kitchen, and both rooms are the size of a small office with no room for anything larger than a twin-sized bed. The single bathroom had been in the listing, but nothing had prepared the two of you for how minuscule it was. 

The space was shared between the two of you with a schedule to keep the bathroom free for each other when you needed it most. Soobin kept to his showers at night, and you could be found in your regular morning shower without fail since he woke up late for afternoon and late evening classes. 

It's why you scramble to pick up all your things when you wake up. You're late for class after staying up all night studying for a test that wasn't until Friday, and yet you had tried to get ahead of the work, only to be thrown back in another class by sleeping in. The clock blinked back at you with its taunting numbers, alarms silenced as you rushed around your room, grabbing random items of clothes to change into. 

You didn't even think about where soobin would be, not when the door to the bathroom was half cracked open, and you pushed it open with your back. The hem of your shirt already in hand as you tried to multitask, taking it off and holding your clean clothes in hand. It wasn't until your top was off that you noticed the bathroom was steamy, the mirror fogged up right around the edges, the whispering water beating down onto the tiles masked the sounds of his soft moans. 

But it didn't keep you from seeing him through the glass doors. The water drips down in lined streaks, cutting through the steam on the glass doors. The faint outline of Soobin's body leaning back against the tiled wall caught your breath right at the back of your throat, the gasp loud enough for him to open his eyes. 

He had thought he had been alone, the apartment quiet, and the time late enough to sneak a shower in when you were gone. He didn't even plan to masturbate, his mind racing the second he had seen your discarded panties in the laundry basket sitting in the corner of the room. No shame coursed through him when he had wrapped his hand around his hard cock, aching over nothing more than a thought of you. 

Pumping at a slow enough pace to drag out his delusions of you as he leaned back against the wall, hair sticking to his forehead. Stopping didn't even cross his mind, hand stuttering in his strokes only to be picked up when your eyes fell to where his fingers circled his tip. 

Your name was caught right at the edge of his whimper, eyes taking you in, frozen without your top on, stuck in space, forgetting yourself and the now fractured rules of your friendship. Because you couldn't look away, not from the way his toned stomach flexed with every shaking breath, his arms corded in lean muscles, and droplets of water flexing with each stroke, and his eyes caught on you. 

He should have stopped, felt the realization rise up with the building of his orgasm as he leaned forward closer to you, and the thin door of the shower, one hand reaching out to brace himself against the glass, hips thrusting forward into his fist. 

“Say my name,” the words were gasped in a plea, the final nail in the coffin for getting caught, no way to brush off the truth, the second the two of you leave the bathroom. You had seen him, and he didn't want to stop, couldn't, and now all he needed was nothing more than your voice wrapped around the syllables of his name. 

And even through the mirror, your back to him, you couldn't stop how thready your breathing was, his name whispered just loud enough for him to hear it over the water, said just as desperately needy as he felt. It was all it took before he came, the room filling with his throaty groans, his hips slowing as he coated the glass in rivulets of cum.

[m.list]

[star-bursts-industries]

Brian currently consumed by SMAU thoughts. There’s so much potential.

Andrew and Neil are NEVER online. They have accounts because they have too, but there’s only like….5 photos on their pages combined. And it’s like press photos. They post like Harry Styles ok. Once in a blue moon and you have no idea if it’s them or the press team (it’s definitely the press team).

Allison is purposely chaotic, the ultimate f you to her family. She stirs shit up just because she can.

Dan and Renee are properly trained little media girlies. Pretty photos and pretty tame, Dan sometimes gets out of hand if provoked but it’s never anything to crazy.

Seth is banned from having access to his accounts like once a month for posting offensive shit simply because he doesn’t know how NOT to be an asshole.

Matt is a FUCKING comedian. He also professionally shit posts. Movie critics, exy stats and ultimate professional trash talk.

Kevin is basically a professional exy account, the only thing on his account is exy and he’s like the least controversial because all he does is talk about exy. Sometimes he gets a little harsh with his criticism.

Nicky is one of those accounts everyone sees but no one really follows you know? He’s funny but in a wtf way? Bro is all jokes, thats IT. He also faces near monthly expulsion from his accounts but for inappropriate behavior in the public sphere.

Aaron funnily enough has the most followers out of all of them, even Kevin. Aaron’s account is basically faceless and he just posts candid shots of his life. Like look at my ice coffee, watch me study, here’s a time laps of me cleaning my dorm. Aaron is followed by a lot of people even people who don’t care about exy for the soul purpose of he somehow became one of those accounts that just gives people motivation. Funnily enough he did it by complete accident, he started posting photos for the sole purpose of keeping in touch with the friends he wasn’t supposed to have because Andrew. It exploded without him meaning too.

Even funnier? The other foxes have NO IDEA. Aarons internet handle is something dumb and not at all related to his name. So they all think Aaron is using the fact he’s the least problematic child to get out of media duty, and since Aaron doesn’t post his face online they don’t realize those photos that always go viral across the PSU campus are Aaron.

Wymack knows. Wymack has decided this is INFACT above his pay grade ( he also thinks its both funny and good for Aaron, since Aaron is usually the fox that gets looked over)

Aaron doesn’t pay that much attention to the numbers his posts make either. Bro really just likes pulling one on the other foxes.

Also study with me posts help keep him accountable for how he spends his own time.

[acheronist]

to the ghost of henry peglar, congrats on writing your poem down 177 years ago!!!

to the actual academic scholars who have studied the pages before me....

so I took the royal museum greenwich's scan of the poem page (which is available online hereeee) and screwed around with its light levels in photoshop until henry's script was darkened enough to see more clearly. then I digitally traced over the darkened letters as best as I could, while also trying to discern his handwriting, and type up how I was reading it & this process took me about a week to get done between like... living my regular day to day life lmao.......

so when it WAS done, the final isabel acheronist peglar papers ["the open C"] transcript seemed a bit different than how I remembered the readily available russell potter transcript going ? (the poem is on the last two pages of that pdf for those of you who don't spend a billion hours a week looking at it btw)

it felt like I was getting more/different information out of it, compared to the potter transcript, which was kind of stressing me out honestly. so THEN I compared mine with barry cornwall's original poem and found more words that matched up? particularly in the second and third stanzas?

so!!!!! almost two hundred years later here's what I've landed on:

April 21 1847 the C the C the open C it grew so fresh the Ever free the Ever free the Ever free without it without it covered it will Run to Earth above Re gions Round I love the C I love the C when I whare & I wish to be with and and silence whare Never go if a sailor should a Come and Make the meek What matter what matter Come Ride Or Sleep there was shores white and of red morn at the noisy hours knew I was ever near I was Born the [...] in felt Unto the Maid the wale the young dolphin ...... yet thes back of gold the Call of gods When I was on Old England Shore I like the young C more and more oftentimes time flew to a sweltering place like a bird thats seeks it mother Case and ware she was bird oft to me for have I loved a young and Hopen C

so then after going thru All Of That, I wanted to have a version of the original poem with parts that Henry did remember clearly highlighted for comparison purposes:

I know it's a popular theory that Henry was writing a dirty parody of the original poem? which if true, is funny as hell. me when i have to write cheeky victorian porn before i die.

But (serious voice) something about that hadn't ever seemed exactly right to me... IN MY HEART it seems more realistic that around 1847 he (and also by extension, the whole surviving expedition crew) were starting to experience confusion / brain fog symptoms from being ummmm quite physically unwell. the lead poisoning/scurvy combo would have severe effects on the brain's ability to function properly, and I started to wonder if Henry was trying to test his memory somehow? So he picked a widely known and popular Victorian era poem about being a sailor to see how much he could recall??? and he then got a little whimsical with it, and wrote in his own words to fill in the portions he couldn't fully recall, because it's his own diary and likely didn't expect anyone else to ever read it, much less have it turn into ONE of TWO surviving sources about the expedition?????

like... idk... this is probably the work of someone in the exact moment as they were starting to realize how bad things were, and then was trying to cope by using poetry. and That hurts my feelings enough as it is, but going through it was also just a very weird and haunting experience....... like, I can recognize all these tiny details in this dead guy's script and handwriting now. and to read his own account of his life in his own words, what stood out to him and what he recalled, what he wanted people in the future to know about him? insane. it literally felt like i was getting haunted by him for no reason. on top of knowing that Someone (#teamarmitage) loved this guy enough to keep his memory protected and safe, even though They Were So Totally Fucked And Going To Die There, unknowing if they'd ever be found again........

SIGHING + SIGHING + SIGHING + SIGHING + CRYING A BIT HONESTLY

anyways thanks for reading this all. I don't think that this is revolutionary franklin expedition news by any means, and idk if there's a better different transcript somewhere that i've not found that already covers all this? but it's consumed a lot of my life lately lol and i wanted to share. because its the anniversary of henry writing it, and it felt...... important....? 💌....????

[beelearnsfinnish]

weekly recap: week 01 [30.12.24-05.01.25]

i decided to start doing weekly recaps as a way to keep myself accountable not only with language learning but with all my studying in general. So, peep my new rug and Pikku Myy cup, as well as the moomin calendar i got for christmas! let's see:

studying

Finnish

As I said in my last Finnish update, I hadn't been doing much this past weeks. I've restarted again, but I'm aware this two months are not gonna be the best, since I need to focus in all my tests happening in February. Still, I wanna try and find time for it everyday, even if its just couple minutes.

I'll add the tracker of what I did this week (only started counting the 1st tho) but yeah managed to get a session of active studying and one of writing besides my immersion. I'll continue my lessons next week so looking forward to that.

My degree

To be honest I don't normally have to spend much time with this. I only have three subjects this year, and since I'm studying online and have no classes I don't need to do much during the year. The only stressful times are when I have to turn in papers and exams. This being said, I do need to turn in papers next two weeks, and I have my midterms at the start of February, so I am indeed stressed :D

I started revising the content for one of the subject's paper, which is already something. I usually get decently good grades without much stress since its the second degree im doing in the topic and almost everything sounds familiar already, but last two papers with this teacher didn't go that well (imo bc of her way aka inexisting way of explaining the papers) so im kinda pissed off :D

I didn't need good grades in this degree since its kinda useless having already my previous one, but since there's the possibility of going in erasmus again i want good grades to hopefully get into the program again. Soo, this next weeks I gotta grind and start doing the papers as well as start working on the units.

Hygieniapassi test

New addition! Since my plan is to move to Finland hopefully this year (still don't know how or when but we're getting there) and getting a job of my area (media production) is impossible without experience anywhere, I'd need to get a regular no studies entry level job and I thought I could make things easier for myself and get it before the move. I'm going there late February, so thats my deadline!

Actually signed up today for the exam. I have been working on the material in the app for the past two weeks ish, I only have two courses left to copy into my notebook (I physically can't retain any info if I don't write it myself) so I'm hoping to finish them before my papers are due! I still have to work on a schedule so I have time for everything, but pretty happy so far.

life updates

work

Christmas rush is coming to an end, but we have an inventory coming soon, which means extra hours and extra stress. Not the most ideal thing with all the studying I have to do, but we'll survive i guess :'D

hobbies & social life

To be honest I don't have much time for hobbies these days, but that's something I wanna change. Went to see Nosferatu with a friend at the start of the week (loved it) and we have another 3 movies lined up for the next weeks (can you tell i love going to the cinema). Also planning couple meet ups with different friend groups, this doesn't happen often since couple of them we don't see eachother in months, but seems like everything's happening at the same time. Stressful, but happy to get to see them!! Also meeting with my bookclub, so gotta finish the book of the month at some point.

Also something I'm super excited about, booked my flights to Finland!! Already mentioned I was going in February but actually having the flights its a life changer when it comes to waiting. Can't wait to be back 😊

media update

📖: The Invisible Life of Addie LaRue - V. E. Schwab

🎬: Nosferatu - 4 ⭐️

🎧: Nonbeliever - Lucy Dacus

[winwintea]

A Kiss to Make it Better - Hong Seunghan

PAIRING ↬ hong seunghan x fem!reader

AUTHOR'S NOTE ↬ FRIENDLY REMINDER TO BOYCOTT RIIZE. RIIZE IS OT7, if ur ot6 briize pls get OFF my profile. guess what it's fei's birthday and it's also seunghan's birthday so double whammy. how does it feel to be born on the exact same day as ur bias huh. like thats crazy. not tagging her account bc she said she wants to remain "mysterious" wtv u suck. anyways happy 21 years old to both u and seunghan <333

GENRES ↬ fluff, romance, seunghan is sick, this is really just a short drabble i whipped up, lil suggestive esp at the end

WORD COUNT ↬ 1K

It was early afternoon, and you were humming as you made your way into Seunghan’s room. 

“Seunghan, isn’t it about time you took a break? I brought you some coffee.” It was right about the time Seunghan usually took a break, and you smiled as you knocked on his door and stepped into his room. 

He was sitting at his desk, hunched over his essays, completely absorbed. He barely glanced back at you, then turned back to face his work again. “Mmm, thanks. Just leave it there. I’m right in the middle of a very good creative burst, and you’re probably busy, too, so… you don’t need to stay.”

“Hmm? Okay, if you say so.” That wasn’t like him though–normally he welcomed you with a hug and kiss, no matter how busy or inspired he was. You frowned for a moment studying his back, and then you stepped closer, putting his coffee down and leaning in towards him. “Arthur, is something… hang on a minute!”

“Y/N, wait–”

You ignored his words and pressed your hand against his forehead, and sure enough… he was burning up. “Seunghan, you’ve got a fever!”

“Damn… you noticed,” he muttered, a weak grin tugging at his lips.

“Of course I did! Now put that laptop away and get into bed!” You shot him a stern look as you half-led, half-dragged him towards the bed. He was so unsteady on his feet that when you gave the lightest push, he practically collapsed onto the mattress.

“Am I dreaming, or are you actually pushing me down onto the bed? You na—” His teasing was cut short by a fit of wheezing coughs that left him breathless.

You crossed your arms, trying to look more annoyed than worried. “I’ll do more than push you down onto the bed if you don’t stop joking around and get some rest!”

“...Okay, okay.” Seunghan let out a long, loud sigh of resignation, and then he slumped back against the pillow, his eyes falling shut.

You tucked him in, and then hurried off to get some medicine, water, and a cool cloth for his forehead. 

Why the hell was he pretending to be fine, though? He clearly felt awful, and all he had to do was just tell you…

You sighed to yourself as you knocked on his door, and then hurried into his room without waiting for an answer. “Seunghan, I’m back–”

“Y/N…” His voice was hoarse, interrupted by another round of coughing. “...ahh, dammit, should’ve just locked the door…”

Wait. Locked the door? What was he talking about? You paused, a flicker of confusion crossing your mind, but quickly shook it off. That could wait. Right now, he needs you to focus on getting him better.“I don’t care about that right now,” you said, determined as you walked towards him, arms full of medicine, cold water, and a damp cloth. “I brought reinforcements.” Your doubts faded as you focused on helping him, determined to make him feel better, no matter what secrets he was keeping.

But before you could get too close, Seunghan lifted his hands, weakly making shooing gestures. “...Don’t come any closer,” he rasped, his voice barely holding together. Then, through labored breaths, he added with a mischievous glint in his eyes, “When I’m better… I’ll be as wild as you want me to be… to make up for it. I’ll be better soon, right?”

For a moment you just stopped and stared at him, but suddenly everything fell into place in your head. “Seunghan… when you were pretending to be busy earlier, and talking about locking the door– Was that all because you didn’t want me to catch whatever it is you’ve got?”

“...Got it in one.” He let out a deep, exhausted sigh, rolling onto his side as he gave you a tired, lopsided frown. “I knew if you realized I was sick, you’d go into full-on ‘nurse mode’… and I can’t let you get sick too. You’re already juggling so much… you don’t need to be fussing over me…”

Even through the fever and discomfort, his eyes were clouded with worry—worry for you. It was enough to make your heart ache, a bittersweet reminder of why you loved him so much. Even when he was feeling miserable, his concern was all for you.

“Besides, I can’t stand the idea of having you right here… but not being able to do anything with you…”

You rolled your eyes. Never mind. His annoying side was definitely still alive and kicking.

He still sounded so genuinely distressed even while making jokes that you couldn’t help laughing. “If you’re well enough to be thinking about that, then you’ll be feeling fine again in no time. Look, Seunghan, I’m really grateful that you care so much. But I care about you too, okay? So let me take care of you.”

“Fine, fine, alright already. And… thanks, Y/N.” Seunghan sighed again, and the smile he gave you was both troubled and relieved.

His small smile made your heart swell. Even in moments like this, it was clear—he wasn’t just grateful, he was reassured by having you by his side.

—-

Three days later, you stopped by Seunghan’s room first thing in the morning and he grinned at you as he sat up and stretched languidly. “Mmm, see? No more coughing, no more fatigue! I’m quite the picture of health.”

Seunghan had cut you off with a sudden kiss, one hand coming up to twine in your hair and pull you closer as he pecked teasingly at your lips.

You blinked in surprise. “What was that for?”

“Don’t you remember?” he murmured, his voice low and playful. “I promised I’d be as ‘crazy’ as you wanted to make up for things once I was better. It’s been three days, and I’ve got a lot of lost time to make up for... and let’s just say, I’m feeling very ‘crazy’ right now.”

His grin was wicked, and suddenly, you knew exactly what kind of “crazy” he meant.

PERM TAGLIST ↬ @lyvhie @aquaphoenixz @galacticnct @ldh0000

[animesimp-writes]

YO, YO, YO! (Billy referred.) Hope your having a wonderful morning/afternoon/evening/night Mel! Could you write a Luffy x fem! Reader fic? Like They're making jokes on the deck of the thousand sunny while the rest of the crew is asleep, and Luffy calls Y/N pretty and stuff, and then confesses, saying that Robin and Nami told him he was in love with her after describing how he felt about Y/N?

If you don't want to write it, thats okay (bc I dont know if you write for other fandoms) but stay safe and stay hydrated! :)

-Anon <3

# Summary ; Late one night aboard the Thousand Sunny, Y/N and Luffy find themselves alone, sharing jokes and laughter under the stars. As the conversation takes a sincere turn, Luffy surprises Y/N by telling her she's pretty and confessing that Nami and Robin pointed out he might be in love with her. Realizing his feelings are true, Y/N admits she feels the same, if not more. Before she can fully express herself, Luffy kisses her, sealing their mutual affection with a sweet and tender moment.

# Notes ; Heyy!! I LOVE One Piece, its my favorite anime for years <3 It's my first time writing a fic instead of headcanons ON TUNBLR so I'll do my best :D Also, yes, I am writing for other fandoms, so please don't be shy to request. And sorry for being away for so long, I just needed some time for school and I honestly forgot about this account and had to study since I'm going to high school in a few months. Wish me luck!!

Late at night, the Thousand Sunny drifted peacefully under a blanket of stars. The gentle rocking of the ship kept the Straw Hat Pirates lulled in a deep sleep. Everyone, that is, except for Luffy and you.

You were sitting next to him on the deck, the night air cool against your skin. The only sounds around were the occasional creaks of the ship and the soft lapping of the ocean against the hull.

"Y/N, you know, I think I could eat a thousand meat skewers in one sitting!" Luffy said with a wide grin, his eyes sparkling in the moonlight.

You chuckled softly, shaking your head. "Luffy, I believe you could do it. But how would you even fit that much food in your stomach?"

He laughed, the sound warm and carefree, and you couldn't help but laugh along with him. The way he made everything seem so simple and joyful was one of the many things you loved about him. For what seemed like hours, the two of you exchanged jokes, stories, and silly banter. Luffy was on a roll, saying the most random things to keep you laughing. But as you waited for him to crack another joke, his expression softened. His gaze settled on you, and the intensity in his eyes caught you off guard.

"You're really pretty, Y/N," Luffy said suddenly, his voice quiet, but sincere.

You blinked, a little taken aback by the shift in tone. "W-What?" you stammered, feeling your cheeks warm as you processed his words. "Why would you say that all of a sudden?"Luffy rubbed the back of his neck, his usual confident demeanor now tinged with something more thoughtful. "Well, Nami and Robin were talking to me the other day. They said that when I described how I feel about you, it means I’m in love with you. And I think they’re right… 'cause I’m always thinking about you, and I like being around you more than anyone else."

Your heart skipped a beat. Hearing those words from Luffy, who was always so focused on his adventures and dreams, made your chest tighten with happiness. You glanced down at your hands, fidgeting nervously, trying to find the right words to tell him that you felt the same way. "Luffy, I… I feel the same," you began, your voice barely above a whisper. "Maybe even more than you could imagine..."

Before you could finish your sentence, you felt a gentle touch on your chin. Luffy had leaned in closer, lifting your head with his hand. Your eyes met his, and in that moment, the world around you seemed to fade away. Without another word, Luffy closed the distance between you, pressing his lips softly against yours. The kiss was simple, sweet, and filled with all the emotions you both had been holding back. Your eyes fluttered closed as you melted into the kiss, your heart racing in your chest.

When he finally pulled away, Luffy's smile was the brightest you'd ever seen. "I think I like kissing you too," he said with a chuckle.

You giggled, your cheeks flushed, feeling a mixture of joy and relief. "Me too, Luffy… me too."

GAHHH!! I loved it so much, hope you guys do to! If you want more like this, drop a request in my "Ask Me Anything" hope you guys have a wonderful rest of your day, bye! <3

[amity-moonrise]

Ive seen non traumagenic systems online claim to have dealt with ableism regarding their plurality and calling anti endos ableist and sometimes it makes me wonder if they even realize what they’re saying.

Let me point out two very important things…

1, anti endos are not ableist, we’re literally trying to defend our disorder because it’s already stigmatized and demonized a lot by social media and having non traumagenic people associate themselves with us in any remote way makes it harder to convince people to take CDD systems seriously. Yes, some anti endos are rude, mean, and sometimes bullies, and thats not right because people shouldn’t be hurting each other, but you need to understand that the level of trauma systems have been through to even get a CDD is severe (in a subjective standpoint since everyone experiences and processes trauma differently), so when we see people who are like us without the bad parts, without the memory loss or the trauma, we see it as a mockery 90% of the time, as something that invalidates our experiences that we didn’t ask for. Not all traumagenic systems have gone through recovery, which means many will carry negative traits and habits that they picked up from their trauma, us included. We have not gone through any sort of recovery yet and we will make mistakes, it’s just how our disorder is at the moment, but it doesn’t excuse our actions and we should be held accountable if we make a mistake. If you are being harassed by anti endos, then walk away and block the person.

You can’t expect CDD systems to be nice to you, especially when a lot of us have dealt with ableism and trauma from non traumagenic systems. It’s the Internet, if you don’t like something, scroll.

2, if your non traumagenic plurality doesn’t hinder your life and make it difficult to live then it’s not a disability. If it’s something you willed into existence and quite literally asked for (talking about willowgenics and tulpas to some extent) then it’s not a disability. And if it does affect your life negatively then it’s something that you should actually get checked because chances are, you’re probably otherwise traumagenic or deal with something else with similar symptoms. There may not be enough research on CDDs and non traumagenic plurality but if it actually is making your life difficult then you need to seek help, because regardless of your origin, plurality is not normal. Humans are not supposed to have multiple parts/alters because our brains are not meant to handle separate parts that way without leaving negative consequences; at most we are supposed to have a 3 dimensional identity that is still one whole and can change and adapt over time, but also shouldn’t affect your memory, your mental health, or impact your life negatively.

Ableism is hate targeted towards disabled people, which can include autistic people, people with ADHD, people in wheelchairs, people who wear glasses or are legally blind, cane users, nonverbal people, people with personality disorders, people with schizophrenia, and of course, people with a CDD. Every single disabled person will tell you that they did not ask for this disability and would rather be normal instead, because like we said, disabilities impact peoples lives negatively.

If you’re someone who genuinely understands the struggles CDD systems face yet also deal with non traumagenic plurality, then you would know when to not overstep and push CDD systems at their limit. You would know to not misuse medical terms which are meant for CDD systems to use. You would know to look into your plurality and see if it is truly non traumagenic or if it’s an actual disorder or a CDD and get treatment, rather than taking no action on it. You would know to stay away from CDD spaces and not invade them.

Plurality is not studied enough, and theres a good chance that there might be an answer to what causes non traumagenic plurality or what it even is, but regardless of what it is, it is definitely not comparable to a CDD. If you relate more with CDD systems than non traumagenic systems, then you really should look into it.

[magiturge]

Thank you,,, like tysm genuinely i think your advice was the final thing i needed to make it click in my head. It was such a joy to look through the twt accounts, i love bunnies sm. I actually hopped on a magma with my friend so we could study bunnies together, and your advice helped us both a lot. Im super gratefullll!! Thank you so much ^_^

I'd like to share my final product if thats okay,,, idk im just super overjoyed right now!!! My sketchbook will be filled with bunnies soon.. mewheheh..

Im very nervous sending art through asks, since im not that familiar with tumblr culture (?), just lmk if thats not the right thing to do and I'll @ you next time. :D

aaaaah so cute! im glad that my advice helped, im not very good at giving it since things tend to just soak in without much thought.

i dont mind art being sent through asks, its alright.

if you ever would like other bunny accounts to look at, i have a lot to share

[darkbluekies]

Dr Kry asks #4

Previous one

Concept: I've put multiple asks into one post to avoid too much loose posts on my account! This way, you have more to read too<3

Warnings: mentions of ed, otherwise the normal Dr Kry stuff

I wonder how Dr Kry would feel if his darling developed romantic for him but was waiting to leave the hospital to officially ask him out. They'll say stuff like "I can't wait to leave this hospital bed so we can finally have a proper date together !",  "I would love to go see [movie name] in the theaters with you!" Or "I'd love to be with you but once I get better I promise! You deserve more than the semi-vegetable that I currently am." I guess he'd be a little conflicted, would he let his darling free from the hospital so they can have a somewhat normal romantic relationship or would he keep them here ?

He'd let his darling get well because he doesn't want anything else than the traditional house hold and only keeps them ill because they're not complient. But if they actually do like him and see a future together, then he can begin to live out his dream.

How would dr Kry react to a coworker reader who figures out he’s been telling people they’re dating and tries to leave him?

He'd be flustered. You weren't supposed to figure it out, you weren't supposed to know! He'd try to justify his actions while making you feel bad for leaving him.

"But Y/N, please, I'm doing it for you. If people think that we're together they'll not bother you. I've seen how people eye you in the corridor. It's disgusting. I'm just trying to help, so please don't leave. It hurts my feelings. I'm just trying to help ..."

He might say that you're pretending now, but he'll fake it til he makes it.

At this point I’ll let Dr kry talk for me,like yes please finish of my setences Cuase sometimes words are hard and it’s hard to speak so that sounds amazing

Careful, he will do it. As long as you're around other people, he'll finish your sentences, but he'd like for you to talk to him when you're alone. He loves to hear your voice so much.

I remember when you said that Dr Kry would worsen the toxic air purifier if we ignore him till it hurts too much, me personally I'm petty as hell, he'd have to see me DIE before I speak to him because thats what he gets, I'm petty to the death ✊

I- .... i don't know what to say.

My headcanon voice for Dr. Kry is Sammy Lawrence from Bendy and the Ink Machine.

Omg, you are so big brain. I would say his voice is a tad bit lighter in my head, but other that that, damn.

Does dr. Kry bathe reader or he only does if the reader is very sick?

He does it all the time. Since the reader is too weak and dizzy and everything from the poison 24/7, he doesn't trust them. They could hurt themselves in there. Besides, he likes being able to take care of the reader in every aspect. This is the closest he'll come to their nudity without it being uncomfortable for him.

Would Dr. Kry let the reader customize their hospital room if they asked nicely?

Of course! If he knows that they're okay with being there (and even fix the room to their liking) then it'll just make him happy!

do you think kry would treat darling differently if she has an ED and won’t eat much?i have an ED and just wanted to see how my favorite boy might take it :’) feel free to ignore lol

He will. Every action will be calculated and well thought out to make you calmer and more open to try to eat. He won't force you, but he'll encourage you. He's studied this, he knows how dangerous something like this can be. And that's why he wants to help you as much as possible.

Me whose been sick for 3 weeks with an awful cough and body pains. "Please dr kry come kidnap me..just wanna sleep and not work"Have been working weekends with my sick body because the boss doesn't give sick leave for flu

Careful, he will do it.

I love dr kry but he drinks coffee all the time so his breath probably STANKS. Hes a 10 but he has constant coffee breath.

Well DUH HE IS A COFFEIN ADDICT. don't bully him :(

[grandparomeaskblog]

You know what. I'm kinda sad the internet is starting to get useless. I grew up in a world without it. If it had came like 5 years earlier in my life it could have saved me a lot of trouble and speed the progress of recovery of a troubled youth. It would have given me tons of info to start with. But I remember I made it out just fine anyway. And the hard work you always have to do yourself. A therapist never gives you a quick fix. You have to come to your own conclusions or it doesn't work.

Finding people to talk to who were of my sexuality meant sending in ads in magazines and meeting up to have a coffee in a busy place. It was SO scary and at times dangerous. And I think it would have been easier with the internets dating apps... But it's also cute in a way. It was real. Going out takes more effort than swiping. I made some good friends that still hold to this day. And I remember myself. It's hard to find friendship that runs SO DEEP online.

I wanted to study art. There was no study for me with some sort of scolarship. Nothing at all. If youtube had been there and online lessons, I could have started right away! Instead I had to work a hell job and another and another 40 hours a week. To scrape just enough money on my bank account to pay evening lessons at a private school. 7 years! Seven years of poverty I endured for what could have been 1 year on Youtube, maybe? I will never know for sure. But I did work with some of the most succeeding artists in my field. And I remember myself: Because I had no options I trained under the hardest teachers and exactly those proved to learned me so, so much. I'm so glad I got to train under artists who in their training still got beaten with sticks when their proportions were off. 😅 I was not beat with sticks but mannn it was hard.

I'm sad I didn't know cosplay existed. I only once saw a picture of a girl dressed as a character I liked in some game magazine. And I thought to myself: ohh how cool must it be to dress up like that. And so I made some clothes for myself. With a needle and some cut up clothes from my wardrobe i just started making things. It looked bad, broke fast and didn't sit right but I made it myself. If I had internet I could have seen tutorials. But then I remember, because I did not I do things MY way. And it works to have your own style. I feel confident in my skills. I try things out and try something else when it doesnt work out. I'm not afraid to fail like a lot of starting cosplayers. I don't feel like a failure when a project is a disaster it's all fun to me.

With internet I would have known about conventions in other parts of the country, maybe. I could have made friends of my age who did things that I liked. I would not have felt so alone. But then I remember. Because I didn't I learned to make friends with people from all ages, and all likes/dislikes, and all colors, and all come-offs,... and I don't think I would have become so including if there had been the internet. Simply because humans flock together naturally.

This morning I was sad because I remember ten years ago it would have been easy to look up something on the internet and given information that i could rely on. It made me sad because I wanted to show something to my child. I wanted to tell her the internet can help. But I'm just a old person that says... "Oh mommy remembers there was a icecream shop here a long time ago" and what use does that do? "The internet used to be super handy. Now it's just fun... or is it really? Actually it can be dangerous, and..." hmn "You know what. How about we go to a library and get a book about swans instead, because the internet used to know, and know it doesn't. but thats ok. The internet got ill. People forget too sometimes. We'll get a book about swans. A book is easier to check it's sources. Mom will show you how. And we'll go to a museum. There we can see more and touch things and try things. That's better than asking the internet. And you know what's great?! Maybe you'll make new friends and talk to people you are not sure if you agree with and that'll start you thinking for yourself better. Anddd we can get icecream. The internet can never get you icecream. Ok let's go"

[whimsy-writing-tangents]

Learning French #1

Hi everyone, I did something silly and started studying french at uni level without knowing any french. Hehehe.... Anyway, right now I've survived the first exam but I have to survive the other ones so I am going to log my learning progress here so that I can review stuff.

I'm going to essentially try to focus on my weak areas and maybe someone else out there is also struggeling, and this will help.

Okay first on the agenda:

Verbs that you speak with:

Expressing having done something:

Aka when you speak, You usually start a sentence like this: I have studied today. = J'ai étudié aujourd'hui.

You use the past form called "Passé composé" in this instance which is usually equal to when you in english say "I have + (verb) this". So you can say, I have called mom today = J'ai appelé maman aujourd'hui.

The Passé composé form of the verb is usually constructed with the verb AVOIR which is to have and a nonchanging form of the verb in passé composé form.

So the passé composé of chantir (to sing) is chanté with present for of AVOIR like this.

J'ai chanté = I have danced. Tu a chanté = You have danced. Il/Elle chanté = He/She has danced. Nous avon chanté = We have danced. Vous avez chanté = You(plural) have danced. Ils/Elles ont chanté = They have danced. Here you can see the verb chantir actually dosent change based on person. But the verb avoir does thats connected to it. ______________________________________

Common Verbs:

Other sentences that one use is for example: - I did this/X - I worked a lot. - Can you do X? - I want ice-cream. There is many verbs we use when speaking in english. Primary did (to do), can (to can/able to), going (to go), and want (to want). These verbs are; To do = FAIRE To can = POUVOIR To go = ALLER To want = VOULOIR The issue with many of this verbs is that they mostly have irregular verb conjugation. Which means they don't follow the common pattern with many verbs for example like PARLER (to speak): - Je parle -- parl + e - Tu parles -- parl + es - Il/Elle parle -- parl + e - Nous parlons -- parl + ons - Vous parlez -- parl + ez - Ils/Elles parlent -- parl + ent (some verbs also use ont instead of ent as common spelling) The redux "parl" is combined with the common conjugated form of the present, which is very often: (e, es, e, ons, ez, ent/ont) The issue with the previously mentioned verbs is that they dont have common spelling. In french grammar they catagorize verbs in 1st (premier), 2nd (deuxieme) and 3rd (troisieme) category. And FAIRE is and irregular -re verb which is usually in the 3rd category. TO BE (être) and TO HAVE(avoir) is also verbs that are so irregular they are in the 3rd category. FAIRE: (to do, also works as to make in french) - Je fais = I do (X wrong, faise) [ fai + s ] - Tu fais = You do (X wrong, faises) [ fai + s ] - Il/Elle fait = He/She do (X wrong, faise) [ fai + t ] - Nous faisons = We do (Standard, faisons) [ fai + sons ] - Vous faites = You do (X wrong, faisez) [ fai + tes ] - Ils font = They do (X wrong, faisont) [ f + ont ] I added wrong (inside here), which would be what would happen if you were to follow standard spelling but it dosen't. It even changes its redux at "Ils" where fai becomes f to account for the + ont. POUVOIR: To can/be able to - Je peux -- peu + x - Tu peux -- peu + x - Il/Elle peut -- peu + t - Nous pouvons -- pouv + ons - Vous pouvez -- pouv + ez - Ils/Elles -- peuv + ent Here you can see the redux (the start stem) of the verb changes several times, and 1-3 person uses x and t for its bending, which is not regular. ALLER: To go - Je vais -- va + is - Tu vas -- va + s - Il/Elle va -- va - Nous allons -- all + ons - Vous allez -- all + ez - Ils/Elles vont -- v + ont VOULOIR: To want - Je veux -- veu + x - Tu veux -- veu + x - Il/Elle -- veu + t - Nous voulons -- voul + ons - Vous voulez -- voul + ez - Ils/Elles -- veul + ent

I'm not going to lie, I keep confusing the difference between aller and vouloir when people are speaking, because my hearing ear is not very good. This is one of the things I am going to try to work on probably in the next text because I can't currently understand a lot of what people are saying because of the sound in my head getting mixed up. Please comment and correct me if you find any mistakes, I am very new to french only (2-3 months) so I don't know if there is any mistakes yet.

[systematic-breakdown]

part of the reason i dont think minors should be self diagnosing themselves with OSDDID and especially shouldnt be making system accounts when they havent been diagnosed, or havent gone to a therapist/psychologist, or at least gotten medically recognized is because it is very very easy to lock themselves into that mindset without considering other possibilities. some symptoms of OSDDID can be explained by puberty. some are also symptoms of a different disorder. if you arent willing to put your biases and desires aside, and if you arent willing to do ACTUAL research, you shouldnt be self diagnosing and you certainly shouldnt be immersing yourself in a community that is rampant with misinformation that feeds into your need for validation and acceptance

as much as the DSM sucks and shouldnt have the final say in what is and isnt medically valid, it's still a diagnostic manual. there are a certain number of symptoms that you have to have in order to qualify for one disorder over a different disorder and that is for good reason. the ICD has a similar setup, but with less of a focus on insurance and more of a focus on classification for treatment. its considered good practice to use both, as well as reference research articles and studies. self diagnosis should not be "this is what i have, i dont take criticism", self diagnosis should not be "this is my experience and this is what i think i have so that must be what it is", self diagnosis should not be "i looked up this thing, read through 1 obscure post, and decided i must have it because i found the post relatable". self diagnosis shouldnt even be a tentative label. we need to put more of an emphasis on symptoms, symptom presentation, and what therapeutic practices would help when self diagnosing instead of only validating the label.

symptoms overlap heavily across disorders. voices are not inherently plural. dissociation is not inherently plural. brain fog, amnesia (including emotional repression!), feeling unlike yourself, wanting to change how you look, among other things are not inherently plural. heavy mood swings are normal when you're under 30, intense and flighty mood swings are not & are not inherently plural. it's so easy to mistake inner voices or intrusive thoughts for being plural. wanting to feel accepted, validated, less lonely, or less socially isolated is ok and you don't have to be plural or fake plurality until you "create a system" to remedy that.

all anyone wants is to feel like they belong. all anyone wants is to know what and who they are. putting themselves and others in boxes feels good because, as long as you understand what it is, it cant hurt you. but thats not how people work. we are constantly changing, constantly evolving, constantly progressing, and we spend 20+ years trying to develop and learn who we are. give yourself time. give yourself space. you are growing and that is ok. you dont have to label yourself and you dont have to force yourself to fit in somewhere just because you dont feel like you fit in anywhere else.

i know therapy is inaccessible and it is truly disgusting how psychological help has been made a privilege, but there are resources out there that you can use. please get off tumblr, get off instagram, get off twitter, get off tik tok, get off your social media. be honest and help you help yourself.

[pumpkinsy0]

hcs for when curly or pony ghost each other?

(going off of your post with the anon and their situationship / i feel for you anon! remember there’s always someone better out there)

previous anon i promise u got ppl rooting for u in ur corner i pinkie promise🗣️🗣️🗣️

•them ghosting each other genuinely isnt like THAT rare, it happens here n there and its not bc they got into a bad argument, its just bc they can have genuinely busy lives. curly focusing in the #streets and pony focusing on his fucked up lil life + school

•curlys the kinda guy whos like “y r u crying about me not talking to u, do u see what im doing u shouldve expected that😒😒” he doesn’t feel like he should explain himself, just somethin that comes w curlys lifestyle as is getting arrested. pony doesnt see his ghosting as THAT big an issue, he says curly would b fine without him, they got their own lives to live

•pony ghost curly way more, at least curly would make an attempt to swing by at ponys place to see him if he could, pony would just kinda drop curly till he had the time again. if curlys not looking for him, ponys not talking to him, keep up w what he’s doing YEA but beyond that??? not much happenin.

•its not that pony sees curly as a distraction and thats y he dropped him, pony doesnt gaf about distractions that much, its just that he knows that hes choosing to spend time w curly so puts him on the backburner, he doesnt see it as a MAIN priority (and yes!!! curly hates this very much!!! curlys like a cat who needs a lot of attention while ur in ur damn exam week, its exactly that)

•i could see curly also being pushed by tim and other gang members to not hang out w pony as much to focus on the gang, DOES curly like that??? no but i think tims always told curly to always have a backup plan if the whole “finding someone to elope w” dont work out and the gang is just that soooo curly internalized this thinking

•if they R mad at each other and thats y theyre ghosting each other and somehow end up at the same place, i PROMISE u they dont gaf that the other person is there, they arent leaving just bc the other is. curly would stare at pony but not bc he wants to patch things up just yet, hes doing it out of anger, when pony looks back he turns right back around, go die in a hole man

•if its internet ghosting, theyre both standing 10 toes down in it, only for one day to pop up in the others inbox like “heyyyyyyy”

•curlys the dickhead to sneak diss pony publicly and hopes pony sees it (pony will always somehow get someone to send it to him, mostly bc someone will ss it and send it going “what happened”, nosey bastards

•curlys friends (and angela icl) would probably encourage curly to get w someone else while ghosting but curlys turned off from relationships during arguments w pony he aint in no mood to cheat😒, he focuses on his own stuff

•pony arguing w curly while hes away at college during his exam week at college WHILE hes studying is rlly frying me, curly would message what he has to say one final time, and block pony so he cant say anything back, rest of the week ponys over everything its just all going to hell

•if pony blocked curly tho, curlys using every troll/back up account he has on every app and messaging pony

•part of y pony can hold his own is bc curlys been arrested and gone for months at a time, ponys experienced worse from THAT than a few days of not talking from him, curly can hold his own bc hes naturally petty but also bc of angela whos been in this situation countless times

[lbhslefttiddie]

i will be the first to say that my financial planning and money savvy are, generally speaking, garbage in a toilet, however something i have good ideas and i do feel like the Needs/Shoulds/Wants/OneDays list was an especially enlightened one for me specifically.

i think maybe its the ADHD but i have a lot of trouble sometimes with like. defining what is a need, in terms of time. i am CONSTANTLY talking myself into and out of believing that xyz expense is Necessary Right Now, and fucking myself because i forgot more immediate financial needs. ive heard of making lists for needs vs wants, and i did that, but there was SO MUCH that i felt it didn't account for, and nuances it didnt provide for, and eventually i got the idea of expanding the list

simply put the categories are:

NEEDS: IMMEDIATE needs. due to an ongoing pedantic argument with myself ive had to specifically clarify that "need" extends to things necessary to the upkeep of a lifestyle in accordance with the bottom three tiers in the hierarchy of needs (otherwise i will start trying to negotiate on if i "need" to go to work/take a shower/have a working phone plan, if i will not Immediately Drop Dead without them)

SHOULDS: simply put, these are things that are probably GOING to become needs, eventually, but probably not before the next paycheck. otherwise my stupid ass will be convincing myself to waste 40% of my monthly budget on shoes that i will not be needing for another half a year at BEST. i need a working phone, yes, and one day maybe my current one could stop working, yes, and with my general luck with technology and how upsetting it was when my phone and computer both had a stroke and died within a month of each other not so long ago thats a big point of anxiety for me, yes. but thats probably not going to happen within the first two years of me buying it from new, even if its not a very GOOD device.

(sometimes Shoulds can get pushed back into Wants or OneDays, if im lucky and can afford it before it becomes a need, and instead want to turn it into a special treat (EG: buy a new phone that Works may become Buy A New Phone That Is Good And I Like)

WANTS: things that i would like to buy but are not and probably will not ever be necessary, and arent a huge financial investment. these are things that could be a kind of treat. for some reason it helps my brain to have specific categories for things i could buy within the year at longest and...

ONEDAYS: things that i would probably have to consciously put money aside for in order to buy. Can range from like. expensive technology to like. a kimono co-ord. my brain wants me to make sure i have a List With The Things I Want, for expression purposes and also because i have the very real fear of potentially forgetting important wants when im actually in a place to get them. however, studies have shown that it is confusing and stressful and bad for my finances to list things like "VR headset" and "entirely new bed frame made to my exact specifications" next to things like "pierogies from the farmers market :]". these are things that COULD be a treat, but only if i just like won a medal or disarmed a bomb or something

[radfemfessing]

I really need to get this off my chest but i feel like its a bit stupid. I had a radblr account during the pandemic years and I got a lot of followers and reblogs. I wasn't "radblr famous" or anything and I tried to stay out of the main radblr specific controversies. But I got a lot of engagement. I have abandoned the account a long time a ago and since than, I have used blogs like this one to share some of my views. Often times, my anon confessions/posts they get a lot of approval. In real life, friends tend to contact me so I can explain political stuff to them. I have read a lot of theory and I studied at university for a few years. I joined a feminist political group in my city this year and plan on being more active there. People, especially other women, listen to me and what I say resonates with them or sparks conversations and discussions. I am good at this. But my confession is: I hate it. I really, really hate it. I would be happy if I never heard anything about radical feminism or activism or politics ever again. I know that's not entirely possible and just hearing about horrible politics without doing anything myself would make me miserable as well. So I keep doing what I am doing and just try to minimise the time I spend on these things. I don't hate radical feminism by itself or radical feminists. I just hate that this is the only thing I am good at and the only thing people appreciate about me. I really like reading fiction and I love video games. I like birds and nature. I have a huge interest in historic agriculture for some reason. Years ago, I was a huge nerd for a fantasy series and tried to make content online about it. I tried getting to know people in other communities, I tried making content online about the things I love and I tried to talk about these things with people I know in real life. I tried joining some local groups. But what I have to say about the things I love doesn't resonate with anyone. I have a friend I go birdwatching with but thats it. I enjoy my hobbies a lot, dont get me wrong. But I enjoy them alone and nothing I say or do changes that. But when I talk about or do radical feminist and political stuff, I have comparably a lot of success. I feel like I have an obligation to use that somehow. To create a feminist group in real life or to put more effort again into what I post online and try to make a change that way. This may sound arrogant but I am sure I could rush to the top of that feminist group if I wanted to. But I really dont want to and it makes me feel guilty. This one thing I am good at and i hate doing it

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