#and their combined fear of rejection and abandonment

[solarmorrigan]

oooh. fic requests! how about 6 - fight or 19 - allergies for steddie?

Hello! I'm sorry it took so long to get to this one, but I hope it's alright! I went with:

6. Fight - Steddie

cw: implied/referenced child abuse, implied/referenced domestic violence, unhealthy relationship dynamics (not between Eddie and Steve)

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The most frustrating thing about fighting with Steve is that he doesn’t fight. Not really.

Sure, he’ll poke and he’ll prod and he’ll snip and he’ll snap; he’ll dole out bitchy, passive aggressive comments and roll his eyes and sigh pointedly, but the moment things get heated, the moment an argument gets real, it’s just–

“Fine. Fine,” Steve snaps, tossing his hands up with an exasperated huff. “You’re right, okay? I’m– I’m sorry.”

And at first, Eddie had always felt so vindicated, so flush with the triumph of winning an argument, that it had taken him a while to realize that it felt– wrong. That Steve—so confident, so sure in his opinions, so willing to stand up to people when he has something to defend—would just give in without a fight– it feels wrong.

So Eddie had tried to pay attention – really pay attention. They don’t fight often, but when an argument inevitably does crop up, Eddie always wins. Rather, Steve always lets him. He never raises his voice, never gets in Eddie’s face, never really even makes counterarguments. He cedes to Eddie’s points and then subsides and it’s– it’s infuriating, because Eddie doesn’t understand.

“Don’t do that,” Eddie growls, tugging a frustrated hand through his hair.

“Don’t– what? Don’t apologize?” Steve asks incredulously.

“No!” Eddie bursts out. “Not if you don’t mean it!”

“Excuse me?” Steve draws back, offended. “What the hell do you want me to do to prove I’m sincere? Get on my knees and fucking grovel?”

“That’s not–” Eddie leaves off with a frustrated noise, trying hard to keep his tone level. “I don’t want to win an argument just because you let me. I don’t want you to apologize just because you think it’s what I want to hear.”

“I’m not letting you win,” Steve says quickly, crossing his arms over his chest.

“You are, though. You do. Every time. You won’t actually engage, you just say I’m right and then clam up and that’s it,” Eddie says.

Steve levels him with a look of disbelief. “So– what, you want me to yell at you? You want me to tell you that you’re wrong?”

“I want–” Eddie pinches the bridge of his nose, taking a second to gather his thoughts. “I want you to feel like you’re allowed to argue with me. I don’t want you to just give in and then resent me or something.”

“I don’t resent you, Eddie,” Steve says with a roll of his eyes.

“No?” Eddie pushes. “How many times have we gone to bed after an argument with me perfectly satisfied, thinking I’ve won, while you’re actually still mad at me?”

“That’s– I don’t…” Steve shifts uncomfortably. “If I’m still mad, that’s my problem. I can just get over it.”

“But that’s exactly what I mean!” Eddie insists. “That shit builds up! And besides, what if you’re the one who’s really right? I might actually be wrong, and you should tell me. Or maybe there’s some kind of, like, compromise we can reach, I don’t know! I don’t want you to be afraid to push back – I don’t want you to be afraid of me.”

“I’m not afraid of you,” Steve says, jaw jutting out stubbornly when Eddie fixes him with a considering look. “I’m not. I’m just– how long before yelling turns into a screaming match? How long before it turns into throwing shit around, or– or shoving each other, or worse?”

“Steve…” Eddie murmurs, the last of his heated frustration draining away, leaving a clammy kind of dismay in its place. “Steve, I would never do any of those things to you.”

“I know,” Steve says, and it sounds like he means it. “I know that. But what if I–”

“No,” Eddie says firmly, because he thinks he understands now – Steve isn’t afraid of him, he’s afraid of himself. Afraid of turning into everything he’d been raised around: the blowout arguments between his parents, his mom’s petty destruction of his dad’s things, his dad’s frustration turned back on Steve, a cycle of violent familial bullshit that Steve is determined to break free from, even if it means saying that he’s wrong every time. Eddie comes forward, grabbing Steve’s hands; he can’t even remember what they’d been arguing about moments before, but he knows he doesn’t care anymore. “You would never do that. I know you, Steve, you are nothing like that.”

Steve looks down at their joined hands, blinking rapidly. “This– you… You’re more important than winning. Than any stupid argument,” he says.

“That’s exactly why we should have stupid arguments,” Eddie says, grinning a little when that gets a choked laugh out of Steve. “I’m serious. Let’s have stupid, petty arguments so they don’t turn into big ones. I swear I’m not going to stay mad if you get on my ass about not doing the dishes.”

Slowly, Steve nods. He doesn’t entirely look like he believes Eddie, but that’s fine. It’s always been like this – Steve unwilling (or unable) to believe that someone will love him if he doesn’t make it easy for them. Eddie’s been breaking that down, bit by bit, and this is no different. This is no chore.

“I’ll still love you even when I’m angry. Even when you’re angry,” Eddie promises. “I just love you, full stop.”

Steve nods again, more certain this time as he looks up to meet Eddie’s eyes. “I love you, too,” he says, because he always, always says it back, which suits Eddie just fine.

He figures if they can agree on that much, every other disagreement will be a breeze.

[temis-de-leon]

Replaced MC AU/AU - V.2 - P.1

Characters: demon brothers, fem!MC and flirty! fem! NES (MC x NES)

Main Masterlist

Replaced MC AU/AU Masterlist (check the other versions and learn more about the NESs!)

Intro (gn!reader)

CW: rejection, abandonment, women flirt hard from my experience but this is mild i think, suggestive but also mild, lession 16 mentioned, MC is not stupid and deserves to vent, no comfort in this one folks, my favouritism is showing

A/N: Jesus Christ guys. On another note, for those who couldn't be tagged: please check if you can fix the problem! I don't mind sending you a private message, but it's easier this way :)

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It was a surprise for Lucifer, somehow, seeing someone like MC so content with someone like NES. When one smiled, the other frowned; sweet and spicy; beauty and brawn. The brothers had naively thought having MC share her room was bound to cause problems, but how wrong they were.

Four months into the second year of the program, the two girls had already merged their closets, creating a unique style with their combined clothing. They’d also decided to use one of the beds for storage, sleeping together in the other. The first time that happened and all of them had to face Belphie’s resentment, Lucifer had feared for NES’s safety and even considered confining his brother in the attic again. Thankfully, and surprisingly, the younger demon had opted for the pettier option: ignoring MC altogether and treating NES like a rotten piece of furniture.

He was probably hoping for MC to feel guilty enough to completely ignore NES and come crawling back to him, but, as different as they were, both humans quickly became two peas in a pod, always walking hand in hand, shoulders brushing while exchanging secrets that no one else was allowed to hear.

Overall, the whole situation had become a recurrent topic in the brothers’ groupchat and, while Lucifer wanted to remain as nonchalant as ever, it was impossible to hide his opinions on the matter.

He wasn’t happy.

None of them were.

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Mammon wanted her gone.

He wanted her gone now.

Who did she think she was, stealing MC’s attention from him and acting like she didn’t know what she was doing? Sitting next to her at every meal, massaging her scalp during movie nights and waking her up at odd hours because she liked ‘those late night talks’ in the kitchen?

What type of talks were ‘those’? MC could have them with Mammon; she didn’t need NES! She had him, after all. Her first man!

“Well, I’m her first woman then” answered NES the time they argued over who was gonna sit next to MC in class.

Who did she think she was?!

“Are you okay, Mammon? You seem upset”

And there she came, the bane of his existence, already dressed up in her RAD uniform and dragging MC by the hand. Both of them looked tired and Mammon realized with primal horror that no noise had come from the kitchen that night.

“Why are you so tired?! MC!”

Her only answer was a yawn, so NES gave herself the right to talk on her behalf; but not before handing MC some food for breakfast, of course. 

Although half of it was burnt, Mammon still hoped MC would like it.

“Oh, we were up for a long while, barely slept at all. Right, MC?”

She nodded, happy under the pampering, but her eyelids were half closed and she didn’t seem to notice she was eating her favorites. 

Mammon stared at them in shock and distraught before sparing a glance at Lucifer, who was too occupied checking his DDD and drinking his coffee to pay attention. Had he really looked at him, though, he would’ve seen a twitch in his brother’s forehead and a stillness in his eyes; he wasn’t reading at all.

“Then maybe MC and I could take a nap after class”

They all looked at Belphie, who had started to show an unusual interest in going to RAD those last few days. He was smiling like a kid in a candy store, already gawking at the idea of spending quality time with MC, or, at least, what he considered quality time.

His expression dropped, however, when MC shared a complicit glance with NES and smiled apologetically.

“I’m sorry Belphie, but I already made plans with NES”

“We’re going to Majolish” added said girl with a sly glint in her eyes “MC saw some clothes and wanted an outside opinion” 

Belphie looked downright offended, but not as much as Mammon felt. What did she mean they were going to Majolish because MC wanted an outside opinion? He was there! He was literally a model!! Hell, even Asmo would've been a better choice!

“I’ll go with you!” he announced, not asking for permission “I’m a professional, you know? You should be thankful I’m even considering wasting my time on some dumb humans!”

The youngest demon rolled his eyes, but NES’s expression briefly flickered and that was almost enough for Mammon. Beside him, at the head of the table, Lucifer sighed. 

“Do what you want, but if you end up third wheeling, that’s on you”

MC laughed, neither confirming nor denying anything. NES watched over the brim of her mug, challenging them with unsaid words.

Mammon wanted her gone.

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Famine woke Beel up, like always, so he went to the kitchen, like always. It’d been MC’s turn to cook that night and he was pretty sure she’d stored some leftovers in the fridge for him. It was nice, being remembered even when she was too occupied with NES to pay them attention anymore. It brought some comfort, as well as a small smile to his face.

But much to his chagrin, the kitchen light was already turned on when he arrived, and his mood soured when he saw what was happening. Beel’s heart dropped and plummeted through his guts, deepening the black hole in his stomach. MC was leaning against the counter, creating some concoction in a bowl, while NES hugged her from behind. Both of them waved at him when he made his presence known, getting no greetings in return.

“Hi, Beel! I left food in the fridge for you!”

He wanted to be happy and thank her for the trouble, but he wasn’t able to think properly, not when NES’s face was snuggled into the fluff of MC’s hoodie, hands sneaking around her waist and disappearing under the material.

What was she doing? Should he stop her? But MC looked so cozy… not uncomfortable at all. His throat closed at the same time his stomach roared loud enough to fill the silence in the kitchen.

“Beel, are you okay?” 

“You seem upset”

MC looked worried, but NES’s words crammed his mind. She’d said the same thing to Mammon that morning wearing the same self-satisfied expression.

Ignoring his needs and his emptiness, Beel turned around and left them alone.

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MC was seething. Her thoughts were a mere blurr and a sting in her throat left her unable to speak her mind the way she wanted to do it.

Was he serious?

Were they serious? Those self-righteous hypocrites! 

“We think it’s for the best, MC” spoke Lucifer like she was a child too slow to get his point.

“She’s playing with you, honey! She’ll hurt you!”

The gall. The audacity. The… ugh!

She stared at Asmo baring her teeth, never a threat to them, but a gesture so uncharacteristic of her that it was impossible not to treat the situation seriously. The common room was silent, yet MC was sure every single one of them was able to hear the violent thumping of her heart.

“We’re doing this for you”

“FOR ME?” she screeched at Belphie.

A scream would’ve made her feel better, but she guessed the high pitch got her point across good enough, her anger reaching every corner of the room. The brothers stayed silent, eyes wide open and muscles tense, waiting for her next movement. Not even when she got up from her seat and paced they spoke.

“YOU DO THIS FOR YOU!” 

“MC, lower your voice”

“NO”

Lucifer glared at her, the red in his eyes glowing dangerously. MC wanted to keep going just to spite him, begrudgingly giving up in the end. She was close to crying out of frustration and her throat hurted, so screaming would only hurt her more.

“You were the ones that insisted so much on having another human exchange student” she reminded them, stopping in front of the fireplace and basking in the warmth for some comfort, pointing to the eldest brother with clenched jaws “You said it would improve the program!”

“She’s holding you back, distracting you and using you for her own entertainment!” intervened Satan before Lucifer could speak.

“Oh, because you were so altruistic last year! Treating me with all the respect I deserved! Totally not threatening me all the time or even killing me for selfish reasons! You’d never do that to me, would you?!”

They lowered their gaze, suddenly very embarrassed, and MC felt a part of her healing. Then she saw Levi’s glassy eyes and Beel’s defeated expression. Neither Mammon nor Belphie weren’t even looking at her anymore. And she could live without Belphie’s half-hearted apologies, but not without the brothers under a pact.

“I believe this is enough, MC. Calm down and we’ll talk again in the morning”

Lucifer got up, his voice completely neutral, but his eyes pleading and desperate. He started to close the distance, but she got away, walking towards the door without breaking eye contact.

“You were so on board with this, Lucifer!”

The tears swelled in her eyes. Hot tears breaking her a little more, fuelling her anger. 

“Do you really think I’m not aware of what she’s doing? We share a room, you morons! I've lived with her more than I’ve ever lived with you!” 

There was silence again, four of them looking at her with visible pain and the other three leaning against each other.

Fuck it then.

“It’s all good and awesome when you’re the ones in favor, but when I’m the one having fun, suddenly NES has to go away?! Do you hear yourselves?! I’m so done with you thinking I owe you anything at all, let alone my fucking soul! Half of our pacts weren't even born out of friendship, so hear me out and hear me well! Get your heads out of your asses and for once in your life: LEAVE ME ALONE!”

MC walked away, closing the door at full force and leaving them behind in more ways than one.

How could they ever get over this?

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[yanderecrazysie]

Yandere Profile: Azul Ashengrotto

Since I’m not doing a lot of stories right now, I thought I’d give this new yandere profile I created a try. Might do this often when I’m not writing.

Feel free to use, just credit!

==PERSONALITY==

Love Language: Acts of Service and Gift Giving

Strengths: Intelligent, great at strategizing, persuasive

Weaknesses: Insecure, fear of abandonment, slightly paranoid

==YANDERE TRAITS==

Yandere Type: Stalker: the type that likes to watch for a long time before going “too far”

Triggers: Betrayal, broken loyalty, refusing to rely on him

Obsession Level: Extreme: When he falls, he falls hard

Control Methods: Contracts, manipulation, blackmail

Violence Level: Moderate: He prefers to win psychologically, but will kill if needed

Response to Rejection: Ruthless: He cannot handle rejections because of his deep insecurity

==RELATIONSHIPS==

Rivals: None specifically

Allies: Floyd and Jade

Relationship With You: Your happiness is important, but not necessary. He views you as his most important project.

==AFFECTION==

Pet Names: Angelfish, darling, dearest

Gifts They Give: Extremely expensive items, such as jewlery

Ways They Show Affection: Giving gifts, petting your head while calling you a pet name

==PSYCHOLOGY==

Mental Stability: Extremely unstable: obsession combined with insecurity is a dangerous thing

Delusions: He can just imagine you now: Mrs. Ashengrotto, co-owner of the Mostro Lounge…

Coping Mechanisms: Drowning himself in work

Justifications: He believes he can give you a lavish life quite unlike the one you live now in Ramshackle Dorm.

Morality: Gray: he believes he’s doing the right thing when he takes you far, far away from everything you called home

==TALENTS==

Combat Skills: He’s skilled in magic and probably has been trained in self defense

Manipulation Skills: He’s skilled in writing contracts and getting people to sign them, despite the obvious disadvantage

Acting Ability: He’s masterful, playing the role of a cool, calm, collected businessman when he’s falling apart inside the moment you put the pen to the paper

[enbyfvcker]

[Poke the bear and face the consequences]

𝙒𝙖𝙙𝙚 𝙒𝙞𝙡𝙨𝙤𝙣 𝙭 𝙇𝙤𝙜𝙖𝙣 (𝙬𝙤𝙧𝙨𝙩!𝙬𝙤𝙡𝙫𝙚𝙧𝙞𝙣𝙚)

𝙒𝙤𝙧𝙙 𝙘𝙤𝙪𝙣𝙩: 2,8k

𝙎𝙪𝙢𝙢𝙖𝙧𝙮/𝙥𝙧𝙤𝙢𝙥𝙩: Logan gets enough of Wade's teasing and decides to use other tactics to shut the merc's mouth.

𝙏𝙖𝙜𝙨: Smut, top!Logan, bottom!Wade, dom/sub dynamic, masochism, sadism, brat-taming, oral sex, face fucking, anal fingering, anal sex, orgasm control, orgasm denial, edging, degradation kink, blood, violence (claws are used).

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It's common knowledge that Wade Wilson does not know when to shut up.

People call him the merc with a mouth for a goddamn reason, and it took minutes after meeting Wade to Logan learn that.

It doesn't matter how many times Logan drills his claws into Wade, how many times he breaks his bones or punch him, Wade always says some shit that pissed him off.

The guy did not have a fucking filter, his mouth works faster than his brain and yeah it did got him into a hell lot of trouble but it's not like he ever learns.

Despite the affection for Wade slowly growing in Logan, it did not changed the fact that the merc was fucking infuriating.

Now and then, Logan would drill Wade into their shared apartment's walls or floor with his claws through his organs whenever he'd crack a joke that had Logan growling with rage, and Althea would always shout for them to clean the goddamn blood from the carpet.

Either Wade's a fucking masochist or he just enjoys poking the bear. Or maybe he's just stupid. Maybe a combination of all above.

The thing is: Logan was having none of it. If his methods weren't working, then he'd simply find new ones.

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After Logan moved in, he quickly got bored. Between sitting around in the apartment and spending hours in random bars, there wasn't much to do. So, eventually, he accepted Wade's invitations to join him in his mercenary jobs.

It wasn't really what he was used to. After spending so much time working with the X-men, he couldn't help but have Charles's voice in the back of his head when he'd help kill Wade's targets.

But it's not like he didn't spend the last years in a killing spree without an ounce of a moral compass, so now that he was killing actual bad people, it didn't weight on him so much. Besides, it helped pay the bills, so win-win.

In this job, though, Wade was more mouthy than usual. And that's saying something.

"Gosh, Wolvie, your suit really should come with a boner warning. Didn't know it was my birthday, that cake's outstanding." Wade babbles as Logan slices through a guy, both of them fighting a dozen criminals at the same time. "Wish I was wearing my white pants."

"Do you ever shut the fuck up, bub? Focus on the damn mission and zip it." Logan growls, driving his claws into two guys at once, a cacophony of screams filling the abandoned warehouse they found themselves in.

"Sorry, can't control myself when you're in that heavenly comic-accurate outfit, peanut." He remarks while piercing his katanas through one of them. "Makes me want to put those bj-handles to test."

Logan snarls, but before he could curse at Wade, he grunts when 6 bullets pierce him at once from behind. If his mood wasn't great, then now it just got damn worse. He turns around to see a man desperately pulling the trigger of his now empy pistoll and walking backward in fear as Logan stalks like a fucking predator before using both his claws to cut through the man, an animalistic growl leaving him.

"Oh god, I'm soaking wet right now. Can I be next?" Wade comments as he slices the last one of them, a pile of bodies around the place.

When Logan's victim drops dead, he sighs as his body rejects the bullets, a pained grunt leaving his throat.

"Yeah, any other funny quip and you're right next on the list."

"I'm 'bout to do a fucking stand up act, then, peanut." Wade retorted, gasping when Logan roughly grab him by his collar.

"I'm not in the fucking mood, bub. Quit it." He warns through gritted teeth, and he was almost sure he could see Wade grinning behind his mask.

"Oh, you know me better than that, baby girl." Wade teases, running his finger sensually against Logan's chest and his control barely slips as he just grunts and shoves Wade with force.

"Let's just get the fuck home, already. Contact your guy, say we did the job." Logan walks through the bloody bodies, the merc following right behind him like an excited puppy.

Wade chuckles. "You're so sexist! Who said it was a guy?"

"Isn't it?"

"Yeah, it is, but my point remains."

"Let's just wrap it up, Wade."

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"Honey, I'm home!" Wade shouts when they got in their apartment. They realized Al was out, probably walking mary puppins or at the market or something. The author wasn't feeling much creative to tend to side characters.

Logan sighs with frustration, sliding off the upper part of his suit as soon as he closes the door. He was sweaty from the fight, and he could hear a whisle behind him.

"I swear I can still hear Madonna in my head whenever you take your shirt off. I mean, look at those boobies-"

"Shut. Up." He growls. "I'm not saying it again." He was about to walk to the bathroom to take a shower when Wade made him turn around:

"Alrighty, if you jerk off, can I put a glass on the door and hear it?"

Usually, Logan has a level of tolerance over Wade's idiotic jokes, but they were getting more and more flirtatious, and now it not only pissed him off but it also send a mix of animalistic arousal through him and it confused the shit out of him.

Before he realizes it, he has Wade against the wall.

"Ooh, 𝑘𝑖𝑛𝑘𝑦."

Logan was gritting his teeth and looking at the merc like he was about to gut him right then and there, and Wade actually thought he was going to.

For a while, Logan decided to see Wade's obvious teasing as simply jokes. He was never sure if the merc actually meant the shit he says, but well, nothing ventured, nothing gained.

"Get on your fucking knees." Logan orders in a dark tone, not leaving room for arguments. "𝘕𝘰𝘸."

For a few seconds, Wade was speechless, and as much as Logan loved him silent, he thought maybe he had read it wrong. Maybe it was all jokes, after all.

"What-" The mercs eyes drift down to the raging bulge against his thigh, and god, he may be daydreaming this. "Oh, 𝘨𝘰𝘥, yes daddy." Wade moans, already kneeling in front of Logan.

"Do 𝘯𝘰𝘵 call me that."

"Too late!" He says while making quick work of Logan's belt.

Logan rolled his eyes. "Lose the mask." And Wade did as told, unzipping his mask and throwing it somewhere, he didn't cared. He pulled Logan's pants and boxers down, and Logan stepped out of them, standing completely naked in front of Wade and with a very large erection tall and proud.

"Oh my god. Did you stabbed me in the brain and now I'm hallucinating?"

Logan doesn't respond, instead gripping Wade's jaw tight and gripping himself at the base of his cock. "Put that damn mouth to good use, will ya, bub." He smirks, not waiting before filling the mercs mouth to the brim with his lenght.

Wade fucking 𝘴𝘮𝘪𝘭𝘦𝘴 with his eyes and suck greedily, hollowing his cheeks and swirling his tongue around Logan's dick, the musky taste of him making his rock hard cock twitch in the confines of his suit.

Logan groans in pleasure, looking down at Wade on his knees and with his mouth full of him and best of all, fucking quiet. It's a goddamn head rush.

"Finally, some fucking peace." He grunts, gripping the back of Wade's bald head and starting to move his hips steadily to fuck into the mercs mouth, reaching deep into his throat until his lips meet his hairy groin and watching with a smirk as Wade gags and his eyes get glossy.

"If I knew this is all it took to shut 'ur sassy mouth, I would've done this ages ago." He thrusts particularly hard, watching with lust as the merc's throat bulges.

"Gonna keep ya on your knees from now on, bub. Using your mouth as my own personal fucktoy whenever you start annoying me too much." He moans, his thrusts getting faster.

Logan notices the tent in Wade's pants and grins, placing one foot on top of it and adding pressure, earning a moan from his mouth that vibrates through Logan's cock and his eyes roll back in pleasure. He could see a wet spot on the mercs pants as he felt Wade's cock throbbing under his feet. He adds a bit more pressure with a wicked smirk.

"Fuck, you look so good like that." His hips grow more erratic, fucking the merc's throat mercilessly as he groans. He pulls out suddenly, Wade gasps for air, his eyes holding a dreamy look. Logan slaps his cock against the merc's face three times, spearing his pre-cum on Wade's cheeks before pushing it back into his mouth, settling a relentless pace.

"Gonna fill your throat, bub. Swallow every drop like the cockslut you are." Oh, he didn't have to say it twice. After a few more thrusts Wade could feel him twitching repeatedly in his mouth before he thrusted deep and stilled, spilling his cum deep into Wade's throat to ensure he wouldn't waste a single drop. He swallowed eagerly, his own dick leaking desperately with pre-cum at the sight in front of him and the lewd animalistic noises leaving Logan's mouth.

When Logan finally pulls out after a few seconds, Wade gasps for air. His lips were puffy, his cheeks flushed, and his eyes glossy filled with lust, and Logan's dazed mind didn't think he could be any more beautiful. He removes his foot from Wade's crotch and runs a hand through his own hair, catching his breath.

"God that was so fucking hot. Fuck, peanut, almost jizzed in my pants just watching you." Wade gasps, making Logan smirk.

"Can't have that, bub. Get up. Now." Wade immediately obeys, and the moment he gets up on his feet, Logan is pressing their lips together in a heated, hungry kiss. Wade lets out a soft moan into his lips, kissing him back with equal fervor.

Logan could taste himself in Wade's tongue and his cock twitched back to life in response. He leads Wade backward to his own room while their lips are connected, closing the door shut the moment they get in. He shoves the merc into his own bed and looms over him with a predatory look.

"Oh, 𝘧𝘶𝘤𝘬." Wade gasps, feeling like he was being fucking hunted by an starving beast.

Logan's hand palms and squeezes Wade's bulge before removing his suit entirely, tossing it somewhere in the room.

Now with Wade's cock free, Logan grasp it in his hand and squeezes tightly, drawing a pathetic whimper from the mercs mouth.

"Now, listen to me carefully, bub. If ya even dare to cum without my permission I'll fucking chop your dick off, understand?" He asked with a dark tone, feeling Wade's scarred cock twitching in his hand, beads of pre-cum leaking from the tip.

"God, yes yes yes, please Wolvie~" Wade babbles, his mind overwhelmed with need.

Satisfied by his response, Logan turns him around and manhandles him into all fours, making him bend over. Spitting in Wade's hole, he rubs his finger against the rim teasingly. He thought about sliding in without preparing Wade first, but he's not that mean. I mean, sure, he stabs him with his claws all the time, but he wants Wade to feel good, wants to control his pleasure.

He slides one finger knuckles deep, feeling his cock throb at the moans that it elicited from Wade.

"𝘔𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦 𝘮𝘰𝘳𝘦, 𝘱𝘭𝘦𝘢𝘴𝘦 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘺..." Logan smirked at the desperate whimpers and obliged him, adding a second finger and scissoring his hole open. He eventually adds a third one and thrusts them deep into Wade, grinning when he hears the gasp and whines that comes from the merc's mouth when his fingers brush against his prostate.

"Fuck- Wolvie... not enough, please, need your cock- Ah!" Wade gasps when he feels a hard smack against his ass. He was begging so prettily and besides Logan still wanting to tease him further he could feel his own cock throbbing with need.

"Desperate little thing, ain't ya?" He pulls his fingers out of Wade, earning a whine from him. He grips his own cock and rubs it against the merc's prepared hole.

"I'm taller than you- Oh fuck 𝘴𝘸𝘦𝘦𝘵 𝘣𝘢𝘣𝘺 𝘫𝘦𝘴𝘶𝘴-" Wade whimpers loudly when Logan roughly pushes inside of him in one brutal thrust, reaching deep until his groin meets Wade's ass.

"Stop talking and just moan for me, bub." Logan grunts as he sets a punishing pace, fucking into Wade hard and fast, knocking the air out of his lungs. "God, you're tight."

Wade could feel Logan's cock so deep inside him and his whimpers were growing louder and louder with each rough thrust against his sweet spot, his cock leaking obscene amounts of pre-cum into the matress.

"Wolvie, feels so good~ fuck, so fucking good please don't stop-" Wade whines, his cock twitching desperately. He feels Logan scratching his back with his nails and the pain mixed with pleasure almost had him cumming right then and there already. "Shit- Logan, fuck- I'm so close, please please..." Just when it was all getting too much he whines out when Logan suddenly slow down his movements, fucking him in a torturing slow pace.

"No no no, please go faster, please, need it-" He's interrupted by his own gasp when Logan slaps his ass again, harder this time.

"Shut up. Take what you're given." He orders, driving into Wade slow and deep, not enough to drive him over the edge.

He keeps it like that until the merc is straight up crying out desperate pleas, alternating between fast and slow whenever Wade gets too close, his neglected cock slapping against his abdomen.

"Ah, fuck... That's it." Logan grunts as he thrusts hard into Wade, pleasured whimpers coming out of the merc's mouth non stop.

"C-Can't hold it- Please Wolvie please I'msosoclose-" Wade begs desperately and cries out loudly when Logan's claws suddenly dig into his shoulder, pressing him on the bed, his blood soaks the sheets as Logan keeps railing into him. The sudden pain sends shockwaves through Wade's brain. "Fuck!"

"Yes, you fucking can." He grunts, driving deep into the merc. But right when Wade was about to tip over, Logan pulled out and cums in his ass cheeks and back, leaving him desperate and needy. He unsheathed his claws from Wade's shoulder, watching as the wounds close in seconds.

"God- You selfish little prick! You're mean-" He curses but gasps when another hard smack is delivered against his skin.

"Watch your fucking mouth or I might just not let you cum at all." Logan warns.

"No no no, I'm sorry. I'm sorry, I'll be good, peanut. Pinky promess."

Logans grins at the desperation in Wade's voice, feeling a rush of power. He turns Wade around, laying him on his back.

Wade was panting, his sensitive cock twitching and leaking against his stomach.

"You look filthy." Logan grunts, his eyes filled with hunger.

"And you look like you're about to eat me alive."

Wade's eyes shine when Logan settles between his legs and a whimper leaves his lips when he takes him into his mouth, the pleasure making the merc's eyes roll back. "Yes, yes, yes... so good, shit-"

He couldn't help but buck his hips up into Logan's mouth, earning a dark glance and hands tight on his hips, Logan using his strength to hold him down. He bobs his head up and down over Wade's cock, sucking eagerly as he watches in awe every little reaction coming from the merc. Not long into his ministrations he could already feel Wade twitching in his mouth and his moans growing more desperate. He keeps it up until Wade was teetering on the edge and pulls his cock out of his mouth with a 'pop', chuckling at the frustration in Wade's whines.

"Already?" He tsks. "Such a pathetic little toy." He smirks and it earns a whimper from Wade.

"Don't bully me! It'll only make it worse..." He cries out, trying to buck his hips up but Logan didn't let him. "Please, this is torture! can't take anymore... Pretty please please please with a cherry on top!"

"Hmm... 𝘕𝘰." Logan grins before diving back and taking Wade's cock back into his mouth, setting a relentless torture as he brings Wade to the precipice and then brings him down again, taking him deep in his throat ans then pulling away just to watch the tears welling in Wade's eyes as he grow more and more desperate, begging and pleading.

When Logan did allowed Wade to cum, though (after what felt like hours) Wade was sure he never came so fucking hard in his entire life. The pleasure was so overwhelming and lasting that he got straight up dazed and nonverbal for minutes, only babbling incoherent words and something to do with "Luv ya, sugar tits" and "Sweet marvel jesus".

As he lies beside the groggy merc, Logan was just happy Wade got fucking quiet for once.

He might do this more often.

[very-normal-abt-this]

I want talk about how much love was nonverbally expressed *after* their last conversation in S2 Finale.

Yes, you heard right. AFTER.

Sure, they ended the conversation completely pissed at each other. Broken hearted. But, like in any solid relationship, they don't hold grudges. Only a few short moments later, all the anger is gone from Aziraphale's face, and the only emotions left are: love, longing, fear, regret. He can barely pay attention to Metatron, because he keeps looking out the window at Crowley. I think I counted 7 times of him turning his head to look. And of course, he is close to changing his mind several times. (BTW, I would *kill* to know what thoughts were going through his mind right before he committed to leaving, right before he said "nothing at all" with that fake smile)

And Crowley. Most humans, when they feel they've been rejected and/or abandoned - they slam the door and they leave in a huff! They don't look back, they get in their car, and drive away as fast they can, possibly with a middle finger pointed in the direction of the offending party. (Unless they're the type of person who would stand by the door, cry and beg them to stay, but obviously that behavior could never be exhibited by Crowley).

But Crowley does not leave. He does not even try to hide in his car. He stands there, intentionally on display, waiting and watching. Why? Because either A) He is not viewing this as a rejection and abandonment, but as a [huge] difference of opinion, so he is not reacting like someone who has just been rejected. Or B) he IS viewing it as rejection, but he loves Aziraphale so much that his main priority is still to make sure that the Angel is safe, regardless of their current relationship status. His love for Aziraphale is literally unconditional. Crowley wants to watch him walk into that elevator with his own eyes, and make sure that he's not doing so under duress. Or there is option C) He is standing there defiantly, to communicate his disapproval and disbelief at what Aziraphale is doing, like "I can't believe you're actually doing this, I have to see this shit with my own eyes to believe it." Or option D) He is hoping to influence Aziraphale to change his mind, because he knows that its incredibly hard for Aziraphale to leave him. Standing there to send a message of "I'm still here. Are you really sure you are okay with being separated?" Or maybe even E) A small part of him wondered if he (Crowley) might change his own mind about going, once he saw Aziraphale actually walking toward the elevator, once he saw that it's actually happening.

I don't think it's option C because of Crowley's facial expression and body language after Aziraphale gets in the elevator. I don't see any anger, frustration, disgust, or judgment there. All I see is...utter despondency, numbness, melancholy, hopelessness. So, I'm thinking its a combination of reasons A, B, and D. Maybe a little E.

And, I wondered the same about Aziraphale. As he is walking to the elevator, he is not acting as someone who is angry at their significant other. I imagine that a lot of people who feel angry after a fight, and feel their partner is completely in the wrong - they would walk into that elevator without looking back at the offending party. They might put on the happiest face and try to hide all traces of negative emotions, just to "stick it to them." But Aziraphale does look back at Crowley. And, this last nonverbal communication with his partner is also very intentional; he wants Crowley to know that he is looking at him on purpose (just as Crowley's behavior of standing by the Bentley and watching him leave is very intentional). Aziraphale stops and makes eye contact with Crowley, right before he walks into the elevator. Just as Crowley, he is trying to send a message with that pause and look. What message? A) "I can't believe you're not coming with me, I'm hurt and disappointed in you." B) "I want you to know that it's very hard for me to do this, I'm torn about it, and I'm thinking about you." C) "I just found out very bad news and you're in danger." Or option D) "I just found out very bad news and I'm definitely going to need your help. I'll be back."

My opinion is that its a combo of B, C, and D. I do not think its A, based on Aziraphale's behavior and emotions right after Crowley walked out.

So, to summarize the point I am making - despite their deficits in communicating with words, Aziraphale and Crowley continue communicating their feelings nonverbally. They remain committed to each other, even in the face of the biggest rift they've ever experienced in their relationship. Their behavior shows that their first priority in the relationship is not "to be right" or "to win the argument." Their priorities are - taking care of each other. Letting each other know that, "no matter what happens, I am here, and I'm thinking about you."

Thanks for reading! please leave a comment.

[godspeedmajortom]

I’m fascinated by how variations of Sea Power's “Want to Be Free (Remix)” provide a musical theme for death and endings that follows Harry and his foils throughout Disco Elysium.

The first place you hear it is as “The Field Autopsy” while inspecting the Hanged Man’s body. It's barely recognizable as the original song, though. It's sluggish and muddy and bilious. The piano melody has been lowered and sustained to an ominous funereal organ and combined with deep strings. A lilting viola line in the lush layers of the original "Want to Be Free" is isolated here and contrasts with the low organ, rising like the stench off a corpse. If you do the autopsy first thing as Kim suggests, Harry – freshly, grotesquely awakened from his apocalyptic bender – is not in a much better state than a corpse himself.

The music underscores a visceral scene of death and decay, our introduction to the Hanged Man, the first of Harry's foils. Both Harry and Lely are agents of state-sponsored violence as a cop and mercenary, respectively. They bear similar physical scars from the neglect of the systems they grew up in. They both desperately want to escape the horrorshow of their lives, using drugs and dark fantasies to cope with the terrible things they see and do but finding little more than self-destruction in the nihilism. The Bloated Corpse of a Drunk taking the Hanged Man's place in Harry's first night dream makes their connection explicit: you should be dead, Harry. This may as well have been you.

The next place you hear a variant of "Want to Be Free" is in the washerwoman's shack in the fishing village. “Live With Me” is wistful and melancholic. The gentle piano and cooing vocals evoke the wind and waves on the bay, an escape calling outside the salt-rimed shack. But this is a place of death, or at least its potential, as the return of the high viola from "The Field Autopsy" reminds us. This is where Ruby hid when Harry's arrival made her fear for her life, where she contemplated killing herself if things got even worse. This is where Harry can end up if no one vouches for him at the RCM tribunal finale, where his wounds will grow infected without medical care, where there is little left to do but return to drinking and wait to die.

But true to the song title, the shack also offers Harry the possibility of learning to with himself as he emerges from his bender. Here is a mirror free from the damage and trauma of attempting to destroy himself where he can reflect on who he was and who he wants to become. He can choose to keep or let go of his past coping/defense mechanisms like his facial hair and The Expression. He can choose to embrace or reject the self-defeating fantasy of fascism. The shack marks a midpoint of the game, when the hangover has worn off but before the case is closed. So "Live With Me" scores the balance between potential endings: abandonment or acceptance, relapse or recovery, death or life. Harry breathes in the sea air, breathes it back out, and takes another step.

I didn’t realize this until a recent replay, but “Live With Me” also plays when you visit the Working Class Woman to notify her of her husband’s death. Since this is an optional sidequest, I understand why they didn't create original music for it. But they didn't reuse "Rue de Saint-Gislaine", the song for the rest of the Capeside Apartments (including the Smoker on the Balcony's apartment when you talk to the Sunday Friend). The Working Class Husband is another mirror for Harry who has met his end, and "Live With Me" plays to mourn him.

Victor Méjean died from an accident while inebriated, a fate that also could have befallen Harry on a previous drinking binge. The striking thing about Victor's death is how easily he could have been overlooked and forgotten. He died at the end of a pier in a fenced off, abandoned part of town. His wife wasn't concerned about his days-long absence. It's only by virtue of Can Opening and Jamrock Shuffling that Harry will know about or find him. Victor literally and figuratively died slipping through the cracks – of the rotted boardwalk, yes, but also of any sort of social safety net. This is what happens to alcoholics in Revachol. This is what will happen to Harry if he continues drinking and hasn't built his own personal safety net with Kim or Cuno to prevent the RCM from abandoning him. As Harry informs Billie of her husband's death, it's only natural for him to think of his own possible endings, and the soundtrack reflects that.

The final version of the song you hear is “Burn, Baby, Burn” blasting from Sad FM on the boat ride to the Sea Fortress to find the Hanged Man's killer and Harry's last dark reflection: Dros, The Deserter. Dros shares Harry's penchant for clinging to political ideology to give meaning to his life and obsessing over women he can't be with. He lives in bitter isolation, refusing to move beyond the failures of the past, his personal shortcomings and the evils of the world alike. He's emblematic of yet another possible outcome for Harry: not literal death, but despair-induced stagnation that leaves one living like a ghost in the mortal realm.

By the time Harry gets in the boat to the island, his fate at the end of the game is set. The RCM (specifically Jean) has all they need to decide whether to accept or abandon their prodigal lieutenant-yefreitor. Should his former partners leave him, Harry can return to the shack and the circle of drunks who have also given up on life. Or he can return to the island, where he would take Dros' place as the creepy old man haunting the fortress, scaring children, and staring at the mainland with longing and resentment. But even if Harry returns with his unit to Jamrock, simply resuming his old life will not keep him from returning to the depths of despair. The RCM broke him; the RCM will not save him. Neither outcome helps Harry become a person he truly wants to live with.

"Want to be free/It will last forever/Eternally," croons the boombox on the boat. The lyrics echo the self destruction that Harry sought before the game's events: freedom forever from pain, the ultimate release of death. At least that's what the Ancient Reptilian Brain would see in those words. But there's tension in the lyrics as the desire for freedom and exhortations to "burn, baby, burn" repeat. The bridge offers an alternative vision of verdure not consumed by the disco inferno: "And the trees are green and overhanging/Feather-light, free, and everlasting." Perhaps a less moribund future exists for Harry, even if only in the next world, as a new person.

[lilybecca1]

My analysis on Midoriya and why I think he has undiagnosed BPD

Throughout Izuku's childhood, he was always seen as weird, off-putting, an outsider to social norms. Being left out, being seen as "different" is very common amongst people, especially kids, with undiagnosed disorders. So let's jump straight into it. What is BPD and how does it develop? (Contains manga spoilers)

Here are a few summaries amongst many that I have found (also, I'm not a psychologist or a healthcare professional, these are all just based on my own observations):

BPD, short for Borderline Personality Disorder, is a severe mental health condition characterized by a pervasive and challenging pattern of symptoms including emotional dysregulation, unstable self-identity, fear of abandonment, intense and unstable interpersonal relationships, impulsivity, and self-harming behaviors.

People with borderline personality disorder (BPD) experience extreme emotions. Once a powerful emotion is triggered, it is very hard for them to calm down. Because of this, they often have unstable relationships. They also engage in self-destructive behavior.

Researchers think that BPD is caused by a combination of factors, including:

Stressful or traumatic life events (for example, emotional abuse, neglect, often having felt afraid, upset, unsupported or invalidated),

And genetic factors.

Symptoms may include:

A strong fear of abandonment. This includes going to extreme measures so you're not separated or rejected, even if these fears are made up.

A pattern of unstable, intense relationships, such as believing someone is perfect one moment and then suddenly believing the person doesn't care enough or is cruel.

Quick changes in how you see yourself. This includes shifting goals and values, as well as seeing yourself as bad or as if you don't exist.

Periods of stress-related paranoia and loss of contact with reality.

Self-injury

Wide mood swings that last from a few hours to a few days. These mood swings can include periods of being very happy, irritable or anxious, or feeling shame.

Ongoing feelings of emptiness.

Inappropriate, strong anger, such as losing your temper often, being sarcastic or bitter, or physically fighting.

Now, let's get into it.

BPD, like all disorders, isn't the same for every person. Symptoms and the intensity of these symptoms can vary. It can make some people's life and relationships really difficult, but others can go on for years undiagnosed living a completely happy life without even knowing there's anything wrong. Midoriya's case, in my opinion, is the latter. These symptoms don't surface that obviously in him, but I believe, in different circumstances (queue those Villain Deku and traumatized Deku fics) these symptoms and behaviours could actually turn into much bigger problems and affect his life in a much more impactful way. But, in any case, let's analyze these symptoms and how they may have surfaced in him throughout the manga.

Of course, I decided to turn to TikTok as well and watch some actual explanations and experiences from people who actually have been diagnosed with this disorder in order to understand BPD on a more subjective level, not just objective. And what I have found turned out to be very interesting.

People with BPD often develop a very emotionally attached connection with one specific person in their life, which is their "Favorite person". This person can be anything including a friend, family, therapist, partner, etc. This is a person that someone with BPD can become dependent on. They often view them as a person who's perfect and can do nothing wrong. They might overshare, and expect availability from that person at all times. The dependence on this person goes beyond just adoration, because they are idolizing them to the point where it's all consuming. A person with BPD can switch from absolute adoration one moment to absolute hate the next. They might have trouble with boundaries, sometimes even having zero boundaries when it comes to that person. Their life constantly revolves around that person and the favorite person's identity becomes their own, and they can feel literal physical pain when losing that person. You see where I'm getting at?

I believe Midoriya has developed this dependency and attachment towards one particular person, can you guess who?

Yep, Bakugo Katsuki

Midoriya views Kacchan as perfect, as the embodiment of the image of victory. It's like he blindly ignores Katsuki's bad traits and the things he has done to him, and he idealizes him to the point that Katsuki became his symbol of victory. So much so that he himself has absorbed this identity that he built around Katsuki, for example during battles, which we see during the moments he clearly imitates Bakugo and mirrors him. Izuku "ILoveKacchan'sPersonalSpace" Midoriya basically has zero boundaries when it comes to Katsuki, I mean y'all let's not forget he basically stalked him and even knows what body part Katsuki washes first in the shower. Not to mention he gives zero fucks about boundaries when he butts into Bakugo's emotions even though Bakugo has clearly tried setting boundaries for almost their whole time knowing each other. Deku has also overshared with Katsuki(and only Katsuki), when he told him about OFA even though it was literally meant to be the one secret that he should have kept to himself. His life has always revolved around Bakugo to the point he cannot keep himself away from him.

And talk about experiencing physical pain when losing the favorite person...remember when Bakugo was kidnapped? Yeah, remember that kinda cringe and second hand embarrassing, absolutely animalistic scream that Midoriya let out? Yeah, well..... And then when he actually lost Katsuki, when he saw his dead body. Izuku lost control of his quirks in the middle of a freaking battle, LITERALLY started choking on Blackwhip and screaming in pain, and Blackwhip turned into a heart pierced by three swords that symbolizes intense and extreme physical and emotional pain. Need I say more? No.

And if you think Midoriya isn't capable of extreme hate too, ahhahaha, you're wrong. He can fr switch from absolutely adoring his Kacchan to planning how he's gonna rip off his legs in his diary. Yeah, I haven't forgotten about that one, Izuku.

So, it's very clear that Bakugo is Midoriya's FP and that he has developed this unhealthy, borderline toxic dependency towards him. But let's break down his character even further.

People with BPD tend to engage in self-harming and dangerous activities impulsively, diving in without thinking, in order to feel something. Well, we can tick that one too. Problem child number 1 is known to do and jump into things impulsively without thinking, even if it causes self-injury. In fact, he sometimes engages these self-destructive behaviours on purpose, like all those times when he broke his own bones over and over again. All this just so he can make Todoroki use his right side. Seriously, Deku. Yes, they are training to be heroes, but noone in the class is as reckless and impulsive as Izuku.

Which actually brings me to my next point, which is people with BPD objectifying themselves for validation, going insane lengths just to prove their own self-worth, never having a clear sense of self and seeing themselves as bad or as if they don't exist. I have talked about this in a previous theory of mine too, which you can read here. Midoriya Izuku does not have a clear sense of self. He mirrors others around him, behaving according to the mood and expectations of others. He has no sense of self, because he has built his identity around wanting to be a hero. To him, he is only worth something if he reaches that goal, that dream. Meaning he has no self worth or identity unless he does as he is expected to do, aka be a hero and put everyone else before himself, sacrificing his own needs, and in worse cases his own well-being. He basically objectifies his own self and turns himself into a simple puppet, a Deku, an empty vessel that can hold OFA and his dream of being a hero. To himself, he is nothing more than an object that's meant to be sacrificed if it's needed.

Now, let's continue with: emotional dysregulation, extreme mood swings, and inappropriate, strong anger, such as losing your temper often, being sarcastic or bitter, or physically fighting.

Well, first let's talk about something that's called "splitting". BPD is a disorder that causes extreme mood swings, making the person go one second from feeling happy and fine, to the next second feeling complete, pure rage. There is a fine line between these two moods, and it's very easy to fall over the edge. For some people, it can happen multiple times a day and could last from minutes to hours to even days, and for others, it can happen very rarely, it depends on how severe the symptoms are for each person. One thing in common though, is that splitting occurs when a specific memory, trauma or emotion gets triggered.

There are different types of splits, one of them being Rage split. Rage splits usually come with sudden outbursts of anger that seemingly come out of nowhere. When it occurs, the person might feel a tightness in their chest, their vision might narrow. They might experience a burning sensation in their chest as if their heart is trying to escape. This overwhelming emotion of anger can cause them to become infuriated with someone or something for no apparent reason. These episodes can cause impulsive actions, inappropriate speech and violent behaviour. It's almost like a cathartic release of emotion, and oftentimes the person doesn't remember the event fully, or only remembers it as a blur.

Now let's compare Midoriya's rage and outbursts and how they could be considered as splitting.

Scenario One: Izuku screaming his ass off saying GIVE ME MY KACCHAN BACK, charging at the obviously overpowered villains with two broken arms. Now, we can all agree that this was pretty out of character for him, and everyone was like Okay wtf. So the threat of losing Katsuki(which also directly correlates to his fear of abandonment) triggered him and made him impulsively and recklessly run towards the villains, even though he was completely defenseless.

Scenario Two: "Monoma, you b*tch". Midoriya literally unlocking a NEW QUIRK cause Monoma was talking shit about his FP, causing violent behaviour from him, getting tunnel vision, being completely OUT of it to the point they had to use Shinso's quirk to make him snap out of the episode. And now, this wasn't just about some rando insulting Bakugo. In my theory I explained how Monoma insulting Bakugo was essentially Monoma insulting Izuku's own values and identity. Because he has absorbed Bakugo's ideals, his values, his desire to win. Monoma talking shit about him felt like he just insulted who Izuku was as a person, as if he jabbed at the very essence of Izuku's dream, of his ideals. THAT was why it triggered him so bad.

Scenario Three: Midoriya vs Shigaraki 1. FP got stabbed, Midoriya immediately saw red and ran straight into the villain's hand without thinking about the consequences. He almost rage quit y'all. He raged so hard he bit the goddamn tendril like a freaking dog. He disassociated so hard he got tunnel vision and his eyes actually lit ablaze. Bruh.

Scenario There'stoomuchtokeepcount: Midoriya vs Shigaraki 2. Aka Deku AFK-ing in the middle of a freaking war and being like I'm out, y'all on your own now, after seeing FP's dead body. Tightness in his chest, unable to breathe, vision narrowed, in fact, completely blocked because of Smokescreen. A burning sensation in his chest as if his heart wanted to escape = Three of Swords. A cathartic release of emotion as his quirks released and gotten out of control. His biggest rage split moment right there.

But, rage isn't the only type of splitting that can occur. Another type is Isolation split.

Isolation splits usually stem from a deep-seated fear of abandonment. You may find yourself feeling unwelcome and unwanted, even in familiar environments such as school. You might have an urge to push people away, and often cut yourself off from others. For some, this means aggressively cutting people out of their lives for no apparent reason, for others, it might be a more subtle withdrawal from social groups and conversations. All the while hoping that someone will notice and ask them how they are doing. It might also include suppressing anger into anxiety, guilt, or self-hatred, identity dysmorphia, self-sabotaging relationships to be in control, stress-related paranoia, loss of contact with reality, and on-going feelings of emptiness.

Reminds me of a certain Vigilante Arc.

Isolation splits usually stem from fear of abandonment. In Izuku's case, why did he leave UA? Well, on the surface level, it was to protect his classmates from harm. But on a deeper level..

During his Vigilante Arc, he felt like he had to carry the burden of OFA all by himself. He felt like this responsibility that he carried made him a burden for others, including Katsuki, his friends, his family, and All Might. He feared that they would also realize this and feel like he's a burden, so he pushed them away, cut himself off, and left before they could leave him behind. Of course, this is not the truth, but this is what he believed. His feelings of anxiety towards the possibility of losing them in the war, his guilt of being a burden, his self-sabotaging is what made him believe that he is unwanted, unwelcome. During splits, the person views everything as either black or white, no in-between. Either all good, or all bad. He wanted to feel in control by leaving them behind for "their sake", almost maniacally insistent on being alone, like in the scene where All Might wanted to check on him and give him some food, but Deku ultimately ended up pushing him away and leaving him on the ground too.

During these episodes, people with BPD cannot logically think the situation through, they don't understand that their intense paranoia and belief that everyone hates them is just the reflection of their own feelings. During this episode, this Vigilante Arc(the episode didn't last for the entire arc, but there were probably higher and lower moments instead) he lost contact with reality and lived in a state of constant paranoia and a feeling of emptiness. He believed it was for the "better", but deep inside, that child inside of him just wanted someone to save him, to pull him back and not let go. Deep down he was just a child who just wanted some reassurance and to be validated. Like in his letter to Katsuki. Although we didn't see the whole letter, there were snippets of "Help me", and "thanks for everything" in it, reflecting Izuku's own feelings of "Please love me" and how even though he said he wanted to be alone, deep down he just wanted Katsuki to save him, to be there by his side.

Lastly, another symptom of BPD that can occur, albeit rarely, is the idolization, devaluation and ghosting of certain people, specifically the Favorite Person. This might just, technically, explain the ending of the manga and Chapter 431. Midoriya subconsciously idolized Katsuki his whole life seeing him as perfect. But as we all know, nobody is perfect. Midoriya had always viewed Kacchan as his image of victory, as someone who cannot lose. Yet, he has. The very person who he believed could never ever lose died on the battlefield. The person who believed was the strongest broke down crying in front of him saying he wants to be on his heels for the rest of his life. And what was Izuku's reaction?

Stop crying, this isn't like you.

Midoriya progressively went through the devaluation of Bakugo Katsuki's character, of his Favorite Person. Now, this is just a theory, because devaluation doesn't necessarily mean anything bad. It just means that he had stopped blindly idolizing Katsuki and realized that he is just a human too.

But in some cases of BPD, devaluation also comes with losing interest. Of finding a new favorite person who they see as their new "idol". Or to put it simply, Uraraka. Now, I don't want to go into more details because I am still very much hurt from Chapter 431, but we have seen an obvious ignorance, almost ghosting from Izuku's side towards Katsuki, something that is completely the opposite of how he would have acted before the war. Instead, he is looking at Ochaco as if she was his hero, and he sees her as a person that he wants to get to know more, to get closer to. Leaving Bakugo behind.

I spy an untreated BPD right there. But how could this disorder have developed in Midoriya? Well, it can be due to either genetics, or a series of traumatic events during childhood, for example emotional abuse, neglect, and going through feelings like being afraid, upset, unsupported or unvalidated.

Well emotional abuse came from the bullying. Neglect came from his father leaving. Being afraid was also because of the bullying and Bakugo. He felt unsupported by his own mother when it came to his dream of becoming a hero after being diagnosed quirkless. And he felt unvalidated his whole life simply because he didn't have a quirk. So yeah. I'm pretty sure these were all reasons that he has developed BPD, although not a severe case. If he actually turned into a villain and never got into UA, I imagine these symptoms could have worsened, making him extremely irritable, prone to snapping and having emotional outbursts and having an even more toxic codependency in his relationships.

I'm not saying that BPD is anything bad, I also have a friend who has BPD and it doesn't make you a bad person, people with BPD just simply experience emotions more intensely than others.

So yeah, I hope you guys enjoyed this analysis, and of course, let me know what you guys think!

[artzysyam]

Writing a snippet for @xysidhequeen AU

Jazz stood in the doorway, watching her brother and his knight cuddled up on the bed. Nox, or Nocturne, Ghost of Sleep and Dreams had managed to give both the King and his Knight some much needed rest. 

She could barely contain her laughter when Danny snuggled closer to Jason's chest while the knight let out a low, rumbling purr, tightening his hold on her brother. Both were in their human forms with almost no ectoplasm intake.

Though Gotham was filled with ambient ectoplasm, both Danny and Jason needed massive amounts of it for their roles as Ghost King and Red Knight. She still remembered their arguments about the Flash Family’s manipulation of time – she was sure that Jason had called them ‘Fucking Speedsters pretending to be Fucking Timelords’ at least once.

Jason brought light into Danny's life, he made her brother live again and their love for one other is so obvious that even the densest sentient beings can see. But... with love comes fear, as she remembered one time where she Jason gazing on his phone, the pictures of him, her and her brother, Sam, Tucker and ghosts who he met and friends with to this day. She observed as Jason leaned his forehead to his phone, silently crying and mumbling a vow to protect them and fight whoever dare to take him from them ever again. Jazz deduced that he had a fear of abandonment and rejection, with his trauma of his death by Joker, combined with his upbringing as the street rat and Wayne family.

No matter how much Jazz and other people in his afterlife, nothing can undo the trauma of Batman failed to save Jason, his upbringing as the second Robin and replacing him with another Robin, seven months after his death.

Meanwhile, her brother, don't like to abuse his power to make Jason fall in love with him, but the two and half years, Jason shows his affection in his own way. Making sure Danny have decent hours of sleep, administrate first aid whenever he roughhousing with other ghosts or each other, cook a grand feast or make a smoothie with ectoplasm mixed in. Jazz want to shake her brother out of his head and see the little things his knight done to show his affection towards her baby brother.

Till then, she stood at the sidelines, watching them cuddling with warm and safety that they're created together.

[avoidant-attachment-culture]

Hello, question. Can someone have a very clear pattern of avoidant attachment without having AvPD? And what's exactly the difference, between the disorder and having, for example, fearful avoidant attachment? Thanks in advance.

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Thank you for asking! :)

Avoidant attachment and avoidant personality disorder are different things. One is based in attachment theory, and the other is one of 10 currently recognised personality disorders in the cluster C category.

Attachment theory is a suggestion with moderate research backing it up and it describes different styles in relationships (platonic, romantic, familial and so forth) that focus on how a person values intimacy, independence and vulnerability. There are 4 proposed attachment styles:

Secure attachment style

This is estimated to be the most common. A person with a secure attachment style will be comfortable being vulnerable with others and asking for help when they need it, but will also be comfortable and capable carrying out tasks alone and being away from others. This is considered the most healthy of the 4 and is often a goal that people seek to achieve.

Anxious attachment style

People with an anxious attachment style often learn in childhood that they are less capable or valuable than others (either through being directly told this or subconsciously picking it up) and therefore they struggle to deal with emotional, financial etc. problems without the help of others. They are extremely uncomfortable being alone, need frequent reassurance and often fear abandonment.

Avoidant attachment style

People with an avoidant attachment style often learn in childhood that others are unreliable, incapable or untrustworthy. They may have had experiences that lead them to believe being vulnerable with others causes them to lose their independence or that others won't listen to them, thus they struggle to do so in adulthood. They are often uncomfortable with emotional topics and intimacy, preferring to deal with problems alone.

Fearful avoidant/Disorganised attachment style

This attachment style has some evidence that links it to childhood abuse although it is not exclusively obtained through such and any attachment style can result from abuse. This is essentially a combination of anxious and avoidant features. People with this attachment style often seek out or want comfort and support because they feel inadequate without it, but report feeling disgusted or scared when it's recieved and may avoid it. They are uncomfortable in vulnerability and without it.

Attachment styles are difficulties. An attachment difficulty is not clinical and requires no diagnosis. Meaning a person can have an avoidant/anxious/disorganised attachment difficulty or style without having a disorder that is diagnosable.

Attachment disorders such as reactive and disinhibited attachment disorder are a seperate diagnosis and topic to attachment styles that are clinically significant, unlike the former.

In short, attachment styles aren't clinical. Nor are they in the DSM to my knowledge.

Avoidant personality disorder

Is a personality disorder categorised by 9 key critea and summarised in the DSM as a "persistent pattern of avoiding social contact, feeling inadequate, and being hypersensitive to criticism and rejection."

Personality disorders by definition affect multiple areas of life such as relationships, occupational functioning and mood stability.

The differences

To start, AvPD is mentioned in the DSM and attachment styles are not. Therefore it's safe to assume that AvPD would be much more severe than an attachment difficulty, affect many more areas of that person's life (rather than just relationships) and cause significant impairment. Whilst attachment styles can be a source of great distress, there are very very few scenarios in which they would, for example, prevent you from going to work or lead to complete social isolation.

Additionally, a person with AvPD could have any attachment style. Its possible to have an anxious attachment or even a secure attachment as people with that disorder would be a wide group. The avoidance may manifest in many different ways or be absent for that aspect of life.

Disorganised attachment style has a heavy correlation with Borderline personality disorder. But a person who has a disorganised attachment style wouldn't be considered to have BPD until they met the other points on the critea, for example, also struggling with unstable mood, impulsivity and identity.

Hope this helps!!

[kkglinka]

The fun part about rwby songs when combined with events in show is that they inform you which character is which member of dorothy gale's crew.

Ruby dreams of her mother('s blood), finding a metaphorical home that no longer exists, leaving her lost and despairing. Yeah. She's dorothy, she's wendy darling, and even alice liddel sometimes. (She's also the huntsman and the wolf)

Weiss sings about mirrors and self reflection, yes, but she asks if a heart can be turned to stone? Her struggles in show revolve around sincere emotional expression and reciprocation, after an upbringing that made those dangerous risks. Ok yeah, the tin man.

Blake claims to run away but she's so bad at it that Sun assumes she's running straight into the fray (again) when she goes home. In reality, she believes that due to years of invalidating gaslighting by Adam. She struggles with trusting her own judgement, trusting her own mind. Y'know, like the scarecrow who jumped into the adult world when only a child himself, concluding he was brainless rather than young and inexperienced. (She's also the royal albatross, but that's a different topic)

That leaves...a whisper to a roar. Yeah, I'm scared, but I'm still standing here, directly contrasted against an outwardly prideful, emotionally dishonest Raven. The one who values strength over expressing love -- because she's not the cowardly lion. (He's the one hiding at home) Yang never struggles with intelligence, or doubting her mind. Those with bad faith try to make her, but she ignores them quite promptly. No, she struggles with ptsd induced fear and anxiety. Fear of emotional rejection and abandonment. And courage? That's being afraid and taking action regardless.

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What brought about this side of then (childhood, curiosity, etc)?

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↬|Gojo|

I could definitely see a lot of reasons for him turning out that way. Maybe as a child he never got to have any friends, he was always isolated. Could explain why he’d be a bit clingy. He had been raised by like a really strict, cold and uncaring family, and was never loved (aside from being a prodigy of course) Insecurity/the need to be in control because he’s constantly looked up to as the “god of sorcery”/“strongest sorcerer”

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Let's not talk about this dude.

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↬|Sukuna|

Considering his status as the King of Curses, it's possible that his origin story involves a tragic event from his childhood (child abuse/ neglect) which shaped his sadistic and evil nature, leading to his obsession and possessiveness towards his s/o. Additionally, his curiosity could be another factor that contributes to his interest in them and wanting to possess them entirely.

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↬|Nanami|

It would most probably be a result of his childhood trauma and insecurities.  Perhaps he grew up with a lack of love and attention, causing him to develop a fear of abandonment and becoming extremely possessive in his relationships. He might also have a deep-seated inferiority complex that drives him to control his s/o in order to satisfy his own ego and gain a sense of power.

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Yuji's yandere personality might develop gradually, influenced by a combination of factors such as childhood experiences, personal insecurities, and a desire for possession. For example, his past traumas, such as losing loved ones or experiencing abandonment, can lead to a fear of loss. This fear drives him to protect his partner at all costs, even if it means resorting to darker methods. It could also stem from a possessive nature and an intense need for control due to fear of being abandoned or rejected. Additionally, his yandere tendencies might be fueled by his strong attachment to his partner.

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Growing up, he have experienced neglect or abandonment which lead him to feel insecure and possessive of his relationships. He might also have a deep-seated paranoia and fear of losing the people he loves, which could lead him to resort to extreme measures to keep them close. Alternatively, he might simply derive a perverse pleasure from dominating and controlling someone he cares about, and might have a warped perception of what love and affection really means.

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A traumatic childhood experience, where his trust was betrayed and he developed an intense fear of losing the people he cares about. Feeling of inferiority and insecurity, which made him want to tightly control his s/o, out of fear of losing them to someone else. An innate and obsessive personality, coupled with a desire for power and control. The influence of his cursed technique, which makes it easy for him to use his commanding voice to manipulate and influence others' behavior, including his s/o.

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[bewitchingbloom]

Couples/throuples questions (any combo of the throuple or all three): 5, 6, 10, 24 please!

Thank you Dujour! These are for this ask game.

5. How do they consciously realize that they like the other character? Does it take them a while? and 6. How do they react to the realization that they like the other character? Is it an “oh my god I’m never going to think about this again” thing, or are they pretty comfortable with it?

Combining these since it makes sense to talk about them together.

Ariadne knows right away that she likes both Daeran and Woljif. It's largely the circumstances that they're in when they first meet that prohibit her from acting on it, particularly with Daeran (Woljif didn't seem quite as ready to go for a fling or whatever might come of her acting on it.) She didn't have much time to think about it, but once things calmed down enough for her to do so, she was very comfortable with her feelings.

Like Ari, Daeran realized right away he liked Ariadne, and despite what he might claim, I think he realized rather quickly he liked her beyond the idea of a casual, one-time hookup. With Woljif it took a bit longer - he thought he was attractive, but running off and leaving them to die during a gargoyle attack did put a bit of a damper on his feelings for a while. It was a slow build after they found Woljif again, first with Daeran merely musing he could understand why Ariadne wanted to be with both of them until finally things came to a head when she was kidnapped in the Abyss and Daeran found himself in a bit of a spiral that made him realize several things all at once. In terms of how comfortable he was…with the physical aspect, very. The emotional, however? That took a while.

Naturally, Woljif was the holdout. He thought Ariadne and Daeran were attractive at first, of course, but he didn't really consider his feelings about the two of them for a long time. It was just a fact - they were beautiful (and probably fucking, he knew what it looked like when two people were into each other), he was a street rat who had more pressing concerns than sex and romance, and that was that. For him, things started to fall into place while he was stuck with the cultists, pretending to be the Crescent of the Abyss, but even then he didn't think he'd ever have a chance to act on it. Once he did have that chance, however…he took to the idea surprisingly well. And quickly.

For all three of them, there was a huge sense of urgency in the early days of their relationship. They were in the middle of a dangerous situation and were well aware that the tides could turn and they'd end up dead, so they really threw themselves into it and all of them caught feelings before they really had time to process it. Very "I was in the middle before I knew I had begun" vibes.

10. What scares them about entering a relationship?

All three of them had vastly different home lives growing up, but they also all had the baggage of being rejected by someone they loved, in some shape or form. Woljif's is most obvious, with his Gran and the thieflings. Daeran had Galfrey, the golden cousin he once worshiped. And Ariadne had Kjelle and Izlara, her former lovers who both betrayed her. So going into their relationship, all three of them are definitely afraid they'll be abandoned again. For all three of them, it's for very similar reasons - that they won't be enough, that the others will grow bored, or tired, or frustrated. The fear dims as time goes on, but, well…things like this don't ever go away completely.

24. What would their partner do that would really turn them on, perhaps unintentionally?

The one thing I can specifically think of is I headcanon Daeran as having a bit of an oral fixation, and he definitely notices like Ariadne tapping a pen to her lips, or the sugar crumbs left around the corner of Woljif's mouth. He is also incorrigible once he notices and they usually have to stop what their doing to at least kiss him to get him to focus on something else.

Also, Ariadne loves both of their hair. She often touches it or runs her fingers through it, when they're kissing or even just lounging around. Especially in Daeran's case she likes to muss it as much as possible; depending on his mood, he'll fix it, or leave it if he's feeling particularly vexatious towards whoever's company he's in next.

With Woljif, his is a bit more intangible…he likes it when Ariadne and Daeran either praise him and his skill, or they do something around him that he admires them for. So, for Ariadne, listening to her prattle on about potions can actually get him a bit hot and bothers, especially because she's taught him a thing or two about it. And there's very few things he enjoys more than watching Daeran give someone a verbal dressing down.

[alex-truly]

(Welcome to Escrea.) "The balance among it all." (PART 1: The Fundamentals)

Three Main factions:

*REMINDER: Not all "Virtues"/bulletpoints/direct (asexual) children will be completely related to the "associated" faction!!!* *( abc = VIRTUE DEAD/MISSING)*

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(Each mini faction/virtues has it's each respectable deity, while each faction is assigned to each kingdom based on what deity they praise/pray to the most)

EX: Kingdom of ______ (praises "virtue of light") b/c light is of Lumen's faction = Kingdom ______ is under Lumen's faction (and so on)

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(Emotion) Tenebris:

Death

Yang

Contracts

Darkness

Moon

Nighttime (& Sleep)

Instinct

Honesty

Song & Harmony

Charity

Truth

Elation

Chastity

Religion

Diligence

Humility

Kindness

Patience

Temperance

Beauty

Loyalty

Underworld & Death

Humanity

Memories & Fate

Shadow

Astronomy

Reality

Creation

Wisdom

Wealth

Manhood/Masculinity

Peace/Tranquility

Abundance/"The hunt"

Time

Knowledge

(ETC)

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(The Elements) Lumen:

Life

Yin

Secrecy

Holiness

Light

Sun

Daytime

Healing

Love/Marriage/Desire

Friendship/Family

Wind

Clouds

Sky

Ascension

Thunder

Lightning

Heavens

Divinity

Aether

Arts (all forms, minus song)

Good luck

Strength

Astral/Celestial/Stars

Exploration

Nature

Animals

Freedom

Sea/Ocean

Magic

Fire

Womanhood/Fertility

Feminism

Law & Justice

(ETC)

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(Chaos) Eclipsis:

Purgatory

Chaos/Destruction

Violence/Bloodlust

Eclipse(s)

War

Brutality

Noon time

Trauma

Arcane (no not the show)

Pain

Trickery

Grief/Sorrow/Misery

Abandonment

Sin

Delusion

Impulse

Malice

Bad luck

Greed

Gluttony

Sloth

Envy

Pride

Lust

Wrath

Descension

Fear

Deception

Forbidden Love

Secrecy

Addiction

Gambling

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(Places/Times to receive) Blessings

Lumen:

Prayer

Rituals

Shrines

Churches

Cathedrals

Travelling

Daytime

Tenebris:

Prayer

Rituals

Shrines

Temples

Meditation

Nighttime

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More loreee :D! (PART 1)

BLESSINGSSS (short section :>):

When someone/something is given a blessing from Lumen, they are considered "A blessed one" within the community. Since Lumen is considered one of the younger first pillars of reality, they often give out more blessings to people unlike Tenebris (though getting a direct blessing from Tenebris or Lumen is almost very uncommon *exceptions are to be discussed in another post*).

Usually blessings from "virtues" from each respectable umbrella faction (Tenebris & Lux) are more commonly known (mainly among the royal/heirs/etc (if gov then usually common among the ones who are related to priests and etc of the virtue)) since the "virtues" are more active, considerably younger than Tenebris and Lumen combined. Because of this, getting a blessing from a "virtue" is easier to obtain usually through showing what resonates with the "virtue" the most and is thus given a mark or some other kind of way of showing that "Hey, I'm a blessed one of (virtue here)." which can be taken in either good or bad regard depending on what virtue's blessing you get. The public usually believes that the messengers of Lumen come in the form of birds & angel-like animals, while the messengers of Tenebris are monsters & mythical creatures, while direct messengers are the "chosen ones" (explanation in part 2!). The public claims the messengers of Eclipsis being any other "ugly" or "evil" creature, while the direct messengers being the "cursed ones".

When it comes to Eclipsis people usually don't ask/want blessings (or rather curses seen in the eyes of the community) from any of the "virtues" from them, yet all the same stuff still applies of getting marks (or other) from one of the "virtues" or from Eclipsis themselves (usually Eclipsis gives out direct blessings to those they see as "worthy", abandoned, etc from the other virtues and/or Tenebris & Lumen thus being "thrown away to them as a result. Those who do get a curse directly from them do often see them as a parental figure or etc since most that get the "curse" are seen as outcasts and rejected from almost every society/kingdom/gov.). Those who do get claimed by the "virtues" of Eclipsis or Eclipsis themselves are seen as "A blessed one" but rather "A cursed/forsaken one" since Eclipsis is seen and portrayed as a negative in general, thus no need to ask for a "blessing"/"curse" from any of Eclipsis's "virtues" and etc. Those who usually get "claimed" by the "virtues" of Eclipsis & Eclipsis usually 9 times out of 10 disappear from society/go in hiding for their own safety, or in some cases join underground factions/societies that are ran by those who did get claimed by them (sometimes become a (big-ish) found family situation depending on size of faction). Since these factions are underground, they usually don't reach out to society/come out of hiding unless to secretly offer any newly "claimed" people/etc to join their local (sometimes nomad) factions for their safety. Some criminal organizations are conspiracized by the public for where their members are "a cursed one" and the leader (sometimes are theorized) to be one of the virtues running the organization in effect.

[graveslikeandrews]

my original character, andrew's female twin. 22 years old. nicknamed brat, tragic poet &. little owl.

habitually cloistered between amethyst four walls to just mumble after disputes under trembling lips, alma's resigned to grow up like the indifferent fleeting phantom, vehemently engrossed in literature to not squander on hearkening to mind-draining gossips. apt to understand what's suspiciously brewing around &. obey rules, her behavior's judged exemplary, never willing to upset renee in fear of olden physical disciplines or engaging in helping andrew in mature tasks. frequently under the exigency of recording occurences through writings or drawings, art's her unique instrument of liberty, hoping to dodge exhausting quarrels in this problematic family.

her authentic stance's often difficult to identify. between enduring the parental guidances that rely on utilizing harshness to fix errors &. mimicking andrew's ordinary way of behaving, alma finally contemplates the possibility to ghost teenagers of her age &. never lied about refraining from connecting with "ambling shallownesses yearning for elusive desires". the flower's not dismissing the worrying condition of roots, thorny &. yet fragile. unapologetic in terms of imparting perspectives, alma dwells like a grudge-holding soul with ominous hints of resentment through verbal exchanges, mainly at dinner with renée, acknowledging how the "key communication" is poorly hollow, determined to vigilantly march outdoors to reject humane approach.

this increasing withdrawal encouraged by parental neglectfulness for years doesn't allow her to not glimpse ashley's outbursts, desperately roaring to not lose brotherly affectionate touches until everything's ripped like coloured pages or old gifts thrown on ground as meaningless souvenirs, forcing alma to operate with prudence &. tameness to reassure the youngest graves that everything's alright, proving that sisterhood's not ruined &. comforting the female offspring's the main responsibility. during the pandemic that leads to ensuring survival by targeting anyone for nourishments, alma's the uneasy witnesser, observing how to pick up flabbergasting techniques to eat half-cooked meats, but andrew's bond with alma remains intact.

twins speak a language nobody around understands. a lucid description of their unshakeable relationship, permitting andrew to express with no filters what he's scheming to prosper after this taxing mess &. offering genuine consolations with uplifting kisses. their similarities in habits &. interests never go unnoticed, both obtaining english degree with the possibility to work as lawyers. but over again, tragedies follow like shadows. experiencing brusque revelations that overturn the lingering normalcy, their intimate gestures keep haunting her while feeling powerless to oppose such abnormalities — andy &. leyley is the grotesque mixture of toxic ingredients of fellowship without addressing the root causes, hailing v*olence to not break the promise of forever, ditching away limits to not face abandonment. in burial endings, alma's swooping in numerous denials to not confront her remaining family members, even participating in youthful exuberance to hide crushing worries, still loving them despite off-putting humdrum routine &. focusing on poems or literature. in decay endings, tragedy's quick to explore alma's uniform bashfulness &. the lento folly by refusing to accept her siblings' dalliance, not willing to interrupt their disputes &. just helping with paying bills or groceries while feeling suffocated by the rampant misfeasances. ashley's demanding side &. andrew's rawness combined with the incessant flare-ups over little misunderstandings worsened alma's psyche, either acting like the phantom who barely offers support or drowning in quietude to... pray instead of tolerating ashley's faithful companion alias three-eyed rouge demon greedy for orchestrated sacr*fices. if one's d*ad like seen in the games as canon ending, alma turns into the maddening damsel fraught with overbearing lachrymosity, letting andrew k*ll her with a gun to escape torments or drowning in the river in the woods near their house, directly exposing her inability to prosper without her siblings.

[artsyannierose]

Rose, as you asked, I'd like to ramble on Sonamy's narrative potential in the movies.

1) To start, doomed by the narrative. This is my main bet for the context of their dynamic - as twitter say, we need more tragic Sonamy. Amy's character has a lot to do with "fate" and she's in love with the boy who is the personification of freedom, combine that with the whole time travel thing, timelines, dealing with choices and the great meta commentary that this would give - after all, there's a certain tragic aspect to the fact that it's always chasing the universe thing and always being left behind. Not only that, Amy is a firm believer in the idea of Fate. So, I see her easily accepting something like a future where everything ends well, but she ends up dying and the chaos that would unfold from there. Why doesn't Sonic care about fate and see his new best friend/person he fell in love with accept her own death like that? Nah, he wouldn't take it lightly. Especially with the existing trauma of losing loved ones. Bonus points if Amy doesn't like her "destiny" very much but accepts it because it would preserve lives, especially Sonic's and the Wachowskis' in general, in the best sacrificial sheep style. Extra bonuses if she comes from a lonely life and the sacrifice would be between her and Soni. And Amy chooses to carry the burden because she thinks no one would miss her anyway.

2) Sonamy will start with a beef - so no, no love at first sight or anything like that. Both for Sonic to parallel Metal's animosity towards Amy and both start from common points, but to symbolize his rejection of vulnerability, dealing with the past and strong feelings in general that she represents. And he warms up to her because Amy gets along with his entire family and that moves him. Referring to how unlike Metal, Sonic is anchored in humanity and love. Bonus points if he starts to like her because Tails warmed up to Amy.

3)Sonic and Amy will have very complementary personalities, which allows them to become best friends - as they are in the comics - but due to the trauma on both sides, they don't realize that they are also falling in love. And everyone knows they like each other... except them.

4)We'll have Tom/Maddie, Sonic/Amy parallels. In fact, Tom might say that Amy reminds him a lot of Maddie and everything.

5)Amy will be the one to address Sonic's tendency to run and leave everyone behind and how damaging that is. She is the final key to the group working together, being the glue. Especially since I believe that only she can get through to him in this. And we'll have a visual representation of this fact with Sonic running super fast - with the whole time distortion scene - but since Amy has the power of time manipulation, she can get to him anyway and have the heart-to-heart talk he needs.

6)It makes me tingle like a chihuahua, but the fact that Sonic's worst fears (in the movies) are easily handled by Amy just by existing and that's what will get him. Is he a mess? No problem, she knows that. Is he afraid of her getting hurt? She's not, she knows how to defend herself and will make it very clear. The most touching thing? His fear of abandonment and people getting hurt because of him is too much to handle. Amy is known in the games for always knowing where Sonic is, and it's almost like a power of hers, and in the movies it's such fantastic symbolism.

Sonic doesn't need to fear being alone because Amy always knows where he's going to be, inevitably. Not only that, she's the love personified of the franchise. She wants to be close to him because she loves him. Sonic will never be too much for her. Above all, he won't be a danger. She's a hero. She wants to fight by his side. She's there. Amy will always be there.

6)Sonic will be emotionally shaken after the third movie, it will get worse with Metal Sonic, culminating in a scene where he tries to reach out to the robot only to be rejected and lead to his darkest hour. And then, ohoho, Sonic will be helped by AMY! Who will offer him a hand this time.

7)Sonic will help Amy overcome the ideas of predestined destiny and that she can choose whatever she wants for herself.

8)Amy will have a connection to the Time Stones like Sonic has to the Chaos Emeralds.

9)Amy and Sonic will have several distinct parallels. It's the same scenario - rather than the opposite like Shadow and Sonic - but different in itself. For example, he and she would grow up on Earth, but Sonic would be all about freedom and running around and getting attached to the Wachowskis, while Amy is limited to the New York area but has more freedom but doesn't get attached to any humans. Or they both had a family back on Mobius, but while Longclaw was loving, Amy's was harsher and maybe even really mean.

10)There will be a parallel to the fact that Sonic lives in a cabe with Amy living in a tree house and how that shows how similar and different they are.

They both live in the forests and not only that, I think Amy has her own collection of things related to pop culture but these are just more Amy things: mangas of magical girls instead of comics (Sakura Card-Capture/Sailor Moon vibes), rom-com movies, musicals (especially from Brodoway), a player with white girl music, flowers, etc. Both take advantage of this place to have anonymity and explore the surroundings.

However, Sonic lives in a cave because he needs to hide from others, to stay hidden. Amy lives in a treehouse because she needs high ground to prevent attacks. Her mission would be to fight Metal Sonic, so she would need a less vulnerable place that would allow a good view. Trees are also places full of birds - an animal that recurs in her story - and would illustrate how close she is to animal life, perhaps living near a nest. It would also show how little self-preservation Amy would have, being in an exposed place and that she values the mission above her own safety.

11)Sonic will be horrified to see her getting along so well with Tails and Knuckles while being... Impressed. It's about how she accepts Tails immediately and vixe-versa and earns Knuckles' respect with a handshake. And yes, Amy would have traits in common with her siblings and that would make them all get along.

12) I think Amy has a symbolism with the moon. The moon was whole and then it broke, just like (I theorize) that Amy lived well until her past was changed and destroyed when Ivo went back in time and ended up in her home - Little Planet. But not only her, Shadow has it with the stars and I think Sonic would be the Earth.

Yes, Earth and Moon. How both are connected and one always influences the other. I'm that corny.

That's it! Have a good day!

you know i have always loved the clash with sonic and amy’s core ideals

amy fully believes in fate and thing like that, while sonic believes in making his own future

this may be a personal preference, but i kind of like the idea of Sonic indirectly encouraging to be more open to the idea of controlling her fate rather than being controlled by fate if ykwim

i really want movie sonamy to have an amy who’s too quick to sacrifice herself and Sonic is like “TF IS WRONG WITH YOU PLS STOP”

the kind of “my only purpose” mindset because of the (supposed) environment in which she grew up in

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i’ve already expressed how much i want sonamy to have beef at first it’s always extremely amusing

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I think that’s a very in-line concept with the games, given how Amy is presented as the only other individual with the same desire for adventure that Sonic has, its very much a core part of her character as much as it is for Sonic

So I really hope that reflects in their movie counterparts—i hope that their kindred spirits who find solace in each other in terms of their emotional states and what they’ve gone through individually, and now they have each other to face the world with <3

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absolute yes on the tom and maddie/sonic and amy parallels no disputes there i already see it honestly

tom and maddie feel like a toned down, more normal version of a married sonamy

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THIS 6TH POINT YOU’VE MADE STOP I LOVE IT. SO MUCH. THANK YOU FOR BRINGING THIS INTO THE LIGHT EVERY SONAMY FAN READ THIS

AMY CURING SONIC’S FEARS. BEING HIS ENCOURAGEMENT. HIS PARTNER. going insane

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i really hope they get parallels in the movie, whoever decided to make sonic and shadow foils in the 3rd movie deserves a raise 🙌

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THE EARTH AND MOON PARALLELS HELLOOOO

THATS SUCH A GOOD IDEA HOW HAS NO ONE THOUGHT OF THIS YET

The way the moon is dependent on the Earth but so manybthings on Earth wouldn’t be possible without the moon, the way the moon pushes and pulls the tides on earth even from so far away, how they always will be stuck together no matter what

genius

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sry i dont have much to say but THANK YOU FOR THIS I LOVED IT SMSMSMMMMM MOVIE SONAAAMMMMYYYYYYYY

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This could be the most volatile geopolitical moment in the Indo-Pacific since World War II. Extreme uncertainty surrounding the Trump administration’s policies is prompting U.S. allies and partners alike to explore the possibility of relying less on the United States and pivoting more toward China. U.S. President Donald Trump’s 90-day pause of the steep tariffs he placed on friend and foe alike is unlikely to have quelled regional concerns. But U.S. policy alone is not enough to produce a shift; Beijing will also have to capitalize on the emerging geopolitical inflection point if it wants to ensure a long-lasting shift toward a China-centric region.

Take Vietnam, the ultimate strategic hedger in the Indo-Pacific. It has been careful to balance relations with China and the United States, both of which it treats as a “comprehensive strategic partner”—the highest level of partnership Hanoi can offer. This month, Vietnam welcomed Chinese President Xi Jinping in Hanoi, where both sides pledged to elevate their partnership even higher. This was a deliberate message to the United States from Vietnam, which had just been hit with a 46 percent tariff rate, that the country has other options.

And Xi played the role of spoiler to a tee: Taking a clear swipe at Trump’s tariffs, he urged Vietnam to resist “unilateral bullying.” Xi also warned that “there are no winners in trade wars and tariff wars, and protectionism has no way out.” Rather than point out the irony of a Chinese leader lecturing about protectionism, Trump merely responded that China was probably trying to “screw” the United States. Xi went on to Malaysia and Cambodia—facing U.S. tariffs of 24 and 49 percent, respectively—to make a similar argument.

Traditional U.S. allies in Northeast Asia are putting out feelers to China, too. Envoys from Japan and South Korea concluded a meeting with their Chinese counterparts to discuss economic and trade cooperation in late March—the first such engagement in five years. Beijing’s state media later proclaimed the three countries had agreed to cooperate to blunt U.S. tariffs; Tokyo and Seoul disputed Beijing’s characterization of the talks. Acting South Korean President Han Duck-soo pledged that Seoul would not follow through with China and preferred bilateral negotiations with the United States. Japan had been doing the same, although last week Japanese Prime Minister Shigeru Ishiba hedged his bets by sending a letter to Xi requesting trade negotiations.

While China’s ability to restart joint talks with Japan and South Korea may be the start of something new, the reality is that anti-China sentiment and suspicion of Beijing continue to run high among Japanese and South Koreans. Public antipathy recently jumped to what may be an all-time high, according to polling data. Additionally, both allies have been critical enablers of Washington’s Indo-Pacific strategy to counter China and North Korea. It would take a lot of additional changes in U.S. policy for them to begin relying more on China.

In South Asia, there has been much talk about a potential detente between India and China since October, when the two sides agreed to a return to the status quo ante on their Himalayan border after several years of a military standoff. Recently, Indian Prime Minister Narendra Modi lauded “extremely strong” Sino-Indian ties. Although the U.S.-India partnership is historically strong—with Modi one of the first foreign leaders to visit Trump in February at the White House—Trump’s moves remain unpredictable. Modi may therefore be seeking to hedge with China to avoid being strategically abandoned should the U.S.-China relationship suddenly improve.

Finally, in Oceania, the combination of the Trump administration’s dismantling of U.S. foreign aid and rejection of climate change—both of which are high on the agenda of Pacific island nations—appears to have convinced them to begin preferring China instead of the United States as a key strategic partner. Even before the April 2 tariffs shock, Pacific Islands Forum Secretary-General Baron Waqa argued that Pacific island nations must work together to find “other alternatives for cooperation” than partnering with Washington. After the tariffs announcement, Papua New Guinean Prime Minister James Marape parroted Beijing’s talking points, saying that “if the U.S. market becomes more difficult due to this tariff, we will simply redirect our goods to markets where there is mutual respect [my emphasis] and no artificial barriers.” Dating back to at least the first Trump administration, Washington has been successfully outcompeting Beijing in the region, but China now sees a clear strategic opening.

One quick win for Beijing would be distributing much-needed aid. According to public congressional testimony by the head of U.S. Africa Command, China is already “trying to replicate” scrapped U.S. Agency for International Development (USAID) programs in Africa. So far, the new Chinese programs have been less effective than USAID’s, but that is unlikely to stop China from trying to do the same for the Pacific islands.

Regardless of Beijing’s level of success, the sudden removal of USAID programs will naturally facilitate China’s charm offensive. Following the devasting earthquake in Myanmar last month, for example, China was among the first countries to send rescue teams, whereas U.S. teams showed up late and in small numbers. Rather than worrying about Washington losing influence to China, U.S. Secretary of State Marco Rubio encouraged Beijing to do more: “China is a very rich country. … There are a lot of other countries in the world, and everyone should pitch in.”

Recent shifts in how U.S. allies and partners are dealing with China should be worrisome, but it is still early days. For one, there is much lingering goodwill toward the United States. According to a recent poll of Southeast Asians’ views of whether they prefer the United States or China as a strategic partner, Washington not only leads Beijing but actually saw a slight uptick in its standing compared with last year’s survey. The poll took place before the April 2 tariff shock, but the United States is at least starting from a position of strength.

Much will depend on how the Trump administration calibrates its approach and Beijing handles its newfound influence. If Washington, for example, engages in more assertive behavior—as when Trump this month suggested that he may ask countries to choose between China and the United States—then partners will likely explore their options with Beijing. If China continues to bully its weaker neighbors, as it has done for decades in the South China Sea, it could limit any potential shift away from the United States. Most importantly, Washington could reverse any tilt toward Beijing by engaging allies and partners in ways that provide economic benefits and make the Indo-Pacific safer from threats such as China.