#autpunk

[guiltyidealist]

sorry this is the funniest set of images I've ever made

[gender0bender]

Image description: A halftone black and white design depicting a snarling white dog with text next to it in all caps reading “Enough awareness enough acceptance I’m angry and I want to kill the CEO of Autism Speaks”.

Another halftone black and white design depicting a chuerub statue with black eyes and texts next to it that reads “ One day I’ll stim so hard I break the light barrier become an angel of raw fire and every colour in the multiverse and then I’ll use my godly powers to pull the limbs off everyone who called me a retard like a hurt child torturing flies and then you’ll be sorry then you’ll be sorry “ the phrase “you’ll be sorry” repeats until the border of the design.

Another halftone black and white design depicting a knife with text around it in all caps reading “When will we take revenge for disbled victims of infanticide?” End description.

It’s the last day of April and the last day of Autism “Awareness” month, but (un)fortunately for me every other month of the year is Autism Rage-At-Ableist-Oppression month! You can get these as stickers on my Redbubble

[chronicbitchsyndrome]

the thing that allistics talking about social skills never seem to grasp is that i do not SEE body language or facial expressions. i am not some innocent adorably stupid little darling who's never been taught what a frown means and so now i feel like everyone is hostile to me because i'm not participating in the Necessary And Unbiased social ritual that lets everyone know i'm Safe and a Real Person.

no, i spent 10 years regularly attending social skills courses. as in, weekly at minimum, for a lot of it daily. i still cannot read body language or facial expressions because i LITERALLY CANNOT SEE THEM. i am partially faceblind. my visual processing is ganked to the point that even though i am not blind i need to use IDs to understand images. these are VERY common traits in autism, this isn't a special "just me" thing. if someone makes a face at me, i can't SEE it. sometimes i can tell that some of their facial muscles are moving, but i have no idea what they're doing and very little ability to piece together what the end result looks like as a whole picture. sometimes i can see when someone is leaning away from me, or if their whole body is shaking or something, but anything less whole-body and cartoonish than that is literally invisible to me.

allistic social norms are built around treating me as scary and unsafe for not participating in them, and i LITERALLY CANNOT SEE a good portion of what they're based on. the less physical bits--implications and social context, etc--are 10x harder when you essentially can't speak half the language, and that's not even touching on how those parts can be near impossible on their own if you have a slow processing speed--which i also do. it takes me 30-60 seconds minimum to fully process a spoken sentence and understand what the unspoken and nuanced implications of it could be, and by then i have already been slotted into "unsafe creep" territory by being entirely silent for 45 seconds. and i am considered socially adept and to have very fast processing among my autistic peers. my barriers here are MINOR compared to someone very severely socially impaired.

this is why explaining to autistics the purposes of allistic social rules and nuances and giving us tips on how to navigate them is condescending and cruel as hell. you're dangling in our faces how important and necessary and integral it is to do something we literally CAN'T do and implicitly justifying us being seen as dangerous and socially undesirable for not doing it. and you're framing it as helping because you're "teaching" us. but it's like teaching a colorblind person color theory; maybe once in a while someone will be interested, but it'll always be significantly harder for them to learn than someone who isn't colorblind, and their experience with it will always be profoundly qualitatively different and produce different results, even subtly. and their existence doesn't mean that the REST of colorblind people who don't have that energy and time and investment should just put up with literally every road sign being written in red on green when you could just make signs that are black on white to begin with.

[disabledunitypunk]

What is unitypunk?

Unitypunk is a disabled subculture encompassing other movements like cripplepunk, neuropunk, madpunk, and pluralpunk, as well as other movements like the anti-psych, pro-delusion, and pro-self-diagnosis movements. It's focus is on building a single, disability-justice-focused coalition; a united face against all kinds of ableism

To this end, the movement rejects gatekeeping of terms and talking about experiences based on having the "right" diagnoses or the right "kinds" of diagnoses. It is focused on assuming good faith, on people's similar experiences being shared in turn as a way of saying "I understand, and stand by you", on pulling up chairs rather than building up walls.

This is partly in response to small but vocal minorities within the community who insist that their experiences are entirely unique to their diagnosis or type of disability, and that disabled folks of other kinds are not welcome in their conversations about disability justice. This flies in the face of intersectional anti-ableism, and as I and other physically disabled neurodivergent people have noted, often leaves us unable to talk about a full half of our experiences.

The foundation of unitypunk is that the brain and body are inextricably interconnected - all physical organs that are interdependent on one another - and that while for some the symptoms of physical and psychological disabilities may be entirely separate or different, for others they are impossible to differentiate or functionally the same. The gut is the second brain. The body keeps the score (of trauma). Where in your body do you hold your emotions? The mind-body connection. All commonly used phrases when talking about disability, all illustrating this connection.

A psychological condition may be physically disabling. Autism can cause significant mobility issues. Anxiety can cause cardiac issues. Something like agoraphobia may cause someone to become as effectively housebound as someone with mobility issues and an inaccessible door. A physical condition may also be psychologically disabling. Absorption issues in the gut, particularly in regards to vitamins D and B12, can wreak havoc on the brain. Thyroid and adrenal/endocrine issues are one of the first things tested when seeking a mental health diagnosis. And of course, chronic illness can cause depression, anxiety, and trauma. Whether direct or indirect, the effects are the same; a complexity to the manifestation of symptoms that cannot be neatly squared away into little boxes.

This movement recognizes that only by recognizing and celebrating the breadth and depth of that complexity will we be able to achieve true disabled community and solidarity. It prioritizes a united front over personal differences. You don't have to like the disabled person next to you, but we all have to put aside any petty squabbles and fight for each other, or go down together. This includes being intersectional and inclusive of all other identities, whether you understand them or not. This means not disparaging or writing off identities, and judging people for their actions, not their labels. It also means, while it's fine to make spaces focused on a specific aspect or kind of disability, that it's important to recognize that real life experiences are messy and won't always respect neat lines being drawn. This is especially true of the experiences of physically disabled neurodivergent people, who are multiply marginalized and deserve to have our experiences heard and respected.

The most important things you can do here are to talk, and to *listen*. This account, this *movement*, is just a starting line. The end goal is total disabled liberation, and the only way we will get there is marching together.

[thefiresofpompeii]

now that i’ve deferred because a uni degree is nothing but an entrance ticket into moderate financial security and not worth utterly obliterating my mental health over i am compiling my own curriculum. all the posts i’ve ever tagged with #ref because they contain essays articles and other texts that i want to read but have never gotten around to, all that goes on the list. around fifty academic articles and book chapters downloaded onto my laptop from jstor while i still have access to it, tailored to fit my personal interests.

rearranging my self-education. little mx autodidact. carving out a passage through the brambles with a freshly sharpened machete. make no mistake, the thorns are piercing and will continue to tear at my exposed limbs, but the pain is worth the fruits of knowledge at the end, real knowledge and not something superimposed from above. i know, i know, undergrads aren’t afforded that freedom of narrowing our study, it’s something earned with time and effort and only fully permitted at a “higher” level of education, but who determines these levels?

it sounds silly and rash, but it’s a long-deliberated decision. the university environment is not right for my weird brain despite my literary inclinations, and i prefer to select my own path towards learning while working a low paying job on the side. perhaps i’ll return in a year’s time after all, matured and mellowed, hardened or roughened with real-life experience and online self-teaching, to pursue liberal arts as the most, well, liberated pathway. maybe not.

maybe if i had gone to one of those colleges where they allow you to pick and choose your own modules for your degree entirely (like one of the people that i most admire on this website did in its time) things would have gone down differently, but alas. let the world keep turning and let everything that serves no purpose any longer decompose and compost into something new .

“what has this got to do with autism?” you may ask, “i’m autistic and i completed a normal bachelors’ degree just fine.” your answer: having been in a place of moderate autistic burnout for years that abruptly turned severe in the past few months, my bodymind has shifted into what is known rather disparagingly under the medical model as “autistic regression” or “regressive autism”: a gradual distancing further and further away from accepted neurotypical standards of moving through and navigating the world around me.

one of the ways in which this unmasking presents itself, apart from the more noticeable characteristics such as outwardly visible stimming and a complete absence of eye contact, is a total inability to focus on, be motivated by and/or engage in any (textual, literary, cinematic etc etc) materials that do not connect at least tangentially or superficially with my special interests (that being ghosts/hauntings, hauntology, folk horror, lovecraftiana/cosmic horror, horror in general, the gothic, neurodiversity, alternative music; narratives/storytelling, folklore/fairytales; queer theory; carceral abolition and liberation; and a few other subjects here unlisted). according to normative capitalist logic of usefulness and productivity, that makes me “severely disabled” by virtue of “restricted interests”. i would say it makes me a interesting person with tall twisted tales to tell, but nevermind that silly nonsense, it’s a mad person speaking.

at this present moment i have no motivation, wish nor desire to continue wasting time and energy attempting to study and remember things that do not connect with the key concepts that my mind is constantly orbiting around. if that makes me incurious or annoying or limited, so be it — this neurological difference affects every aspect of my personality and i do not wish to change it. if the world around us refuses to change, we must either alter it ourselves or construct our own pathways out of the shadows and into the moonlit garden.

[cishetlessfashion]

Heres my battle dress so far! It's a concept I've wanted to bring into reality for a long time and I'm very happy with the results

[ikaroony]

I googled fish-based alternatives to cuss words and there weren’t any, so here’s my list:

holy [f*ck/sh*t/etc] - holy mackerel

omg - oh my gar

oh sh*t - oh sharks

d*mn - dab

G**d*mn - ghost shark

d*ck - dace

motherf*cker - mudsucker

a**hole - algae eater

c*nt - cusk

f*ck - frogfish

f*cking - flying *(as in flying fish)*

f*cking - flipping (when not combined with a fish)

sk*nk - skate

sl*t - slimy scuplin

wh*re - weever

[c*ck/d*ck]sucker - sharksucker

sh*thead - sheepshead

b*astard - basslett

also, for insults saying “you [negative adjective] [descriptive adjective] [any fish species]” also works:

you dirty little pupfish

you disgusting incoherent goldfish

you nasty blonde minnow-lover

you stupid short-sided pufferfish

you dim-witted pale marlin

hope this helps!! please reblog with more :3

[loboautism]

On multiple occasions I’ve either stolen or hidden books about eugenics or ABA therapy from therapists and ex friends parents; doing gods work smh

[clichetragedy]

disability aids accentuate our beauty— not take away from it.

you're just as beautiful with your glasses on or your hearing aid or your cane/crutches or your prosthetic or your wheelchair or with your service dog or your noise-cancelling headphones or your aac device. you're just as beautiful when you're using your aids as you are without them.

(and honestly? i think disabled people are more beautiful when using their aids. because when we use our aids, we're living our lives just a little bit fuller. we're seeing a little more, hearing a little more, staying outside or hanging out with friends a little longer than we could without. 💚)

needing aids doesn't inherently mean you absolutely can't do anything without them— it can mean they make your life a little easier and help you live your life to the fullest capacity you can. needing aids is NOTHING to feel guilty or ashamed of.

happy disability pride month!

[mj-irl]

I created an Autpunk design years ago and recently got a message where someone was looking for something similar for ADHD so I went ahead and made it

Available on Redbubble ‘ADHD Punk’

Sadly the person messaged on anonymous so I can’t directly reply to them. Hopefully they find it!!

[tucuteboything]

If your "punk" label promotes exclusionism, it's not punk. Likewise if you use a punk label and you're exclus, you're not punk.

<3

[thepatchpack]

[chronicbitchsyndrome]

i think some linguistic drift has happened with the word "stim" to include "motions i can't not make" and this has gotten kinda frustrating bc it coincides with a general awareness in the disabled blogosphere that stimming is also something autistics choose to do to self-regulate

so there'll be posts that include stuff abt what stims are acceptable vs what are breaking public boundaries, or like advice on how to choose stims that are acceptable around others, or stuff like that, but then simultaneously some things referred to as stims are involuntary and those things get seen as voluntary within disabled spaces and we reproduce a lot of ableist stuff wrt trying to control peoples bodies as a result?

like ive seen head-banging during meltdowns/overloads referred to as a self-injurious stim, frex, but thats definitely not a thing most autistics who do it can choose whether or not they're doing. on a smaller scale, like, i have a lot of involuntary movements due to bad brain-body wiring, and some of them will b things referred to as stims by other autistics (hand wringing, frex, or like, finger tapping, or my legs jerking/bouncing, or just like where im putting my fingers and how they move, idk how to describe it), and sometimes they will be done on someone elses body if we're cuddling or hugging or sitting next to each other, and thats not rlly controllable bc i cant control that im doing them to begin with (although ofc im happy to move to a different chair or the other side of the room or whatever if you ask).

(im aware that these are definitionally not tics bc ive been told by people who tic that tics are specifically not regulatory in nature, and cannot be used for self-regulation, whereas a lot of autistics have a more in-between experience of involuntary movements that still regulate our bodies, but we can't like, choose to do them when we're doing bad, and they also happen when we don't need regulation and they're not serving any purpose)

anyway im wondering if theres vocabulary for involuntary movements that might be self-regulatory in nature but can't be stopped or started at will like a stim can? bc i think we'd really benefit from using that more specific vocabulary.

[disabledunitypunk]

Blogs that focus on disability justice and are safe for all people that use any -punk terms, feel free to like, reblog, comment, send an ask, or otherwise interact with this post and we will happily follow and platform you!

[thefiresofpompeii]

people will get mad at me for “armchair diagnosing” real life (or dead) musicians as autistic. but autism isn’t a pathology, it’s a neurotype, so i can do what i want and will anyway. my list (argue with the wall) (based off lyrics, biographies, interviews, vibes) is in no particular order as follows:

will toledo thom yorke aurora gerard way courtney love (is prof. diagnosed so i didn’t even need to put her here but apparently some people don’t believe it) bjork richard d. james colin meloy (has a diagnosed son which just confirms it for me) adrianne lenker katiejane garside kat bjelland connie converse mc ride yeule kimya dawson david tibet emilie autumn adrian borland tom waits michael gira townes van zandt IAMX eminem (controversial) henry rollins kurt cobain (controversial) lydia lunch julien baker conor oberst blixa bargeld fiona apple (HIGHLY controversial) nico poly styrene amanda palmer (contentious. could be) sidney gish lauren tate marina diamandis (controversial) jeff mangum jay clayton i could go on and on and have missed so many i will hit myself for not having remembered later. you get my point

people like david byrne gary numan and grimes aren’t listed here because they’ve openly spoken about it before and some have been diagnosed so it doesn’t count

[scottyskindaintoit]

Progress on my new vest.

Still a lot to do, still too many blank patches... But I'm glad the studs are finished.