#but I’m so disheartened fr

[cynical-things]

I wish I never went on the fucking implant ffffffjdjdjdjdnd it fucked my body up so bad and it’s still not better even tho I got that piece of shit taken out 10 months ago

[malmagmafr]

A winter-y veilspun!

[maggi-cube]

I donated a good part of my income this month to ppl’s gfms and I’m still posting online to spread awareness but. Idk. I know the work does not start or end with me but goddamn to see that we’re failing in real time is so.

[elliesbelle]

EATING UP THE LATEST NCTY CHAPTER MISS BELLE YOU’RE SO TALENTED AS ALWAYS I CANT WAIT FOR THE NEXT CHAPTER

awww thank you babes <3

the next chapters have basically been mapped out already :)

[causticsunshine]

hii thank you for your reply abt your WIP! i only started scrolling through your blog after sending that ask, and realised that you’ve been talking (in the tags lol) about being burnt out :( rly sorry to add to that anxiety & ofc i’ll be very excited to read anything you come up with, whenever you come up with it!

hello again and ofc ty for the message! please don’t worry about it; it’s not like you had any malicious intent besides curiosity and it wouldn’t be fair or realistic of me to expect people to just Know when i’m busy or not feeling well or anything like that in the first place either, so no harm, no foul. also i really appreciate your support and understanding, so thank you again for the message and i hope to be in a better state for creating and updating soon 💗💗

[muniimyg]

4: the cold // series m.list

note: reblogging w fic taglist cos the limit is annoying n my posts keep glitching </3 sorry for the long wait! i literally finished c2u and was working on c2u's extras as well as attempting to keep my life together LOL . this jk is literally GETTING INTO IT YUHHH . hope everyone is enjoying the story ,, i'm so excited for the rest ! we're halfway thru :( if u missed aao jk ,, lmk ur fave moment of his as of now huhuhuuuu

taglist request: send a request with the title of this fic “aao” // DO NOT comment here or on the masterlist . it gets confusing and i prefer answering and tagging through asks !!!

🏷️ permanent taglist: @joonsjuice @taetaecatboy @pb-n-juju @miss-rainy-days @firesighgirl @whoa-jo @vantxx95 @pamzn @kakixaku @casspirit0705 @tae165 @defzcl @sopebubbles @leefics @ggukkieland @bebebutbetter @yoongimentita7 @boraength @era-genius @4ksj @vampcharxter @miss-jupiter @floweryjeons @taegijns @jeonqkooks-main @ellesalazar @jkslvsnella @parkinglot-nights @kissyfacekoo

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Picture this. 

Jungkook sent you a text, claiming to be sick. He said:

jungkook (liar) 3:09PM: no fr i get so dizzy standing up lol

jungkook (liar) 3:09PM: deadass i’m wearing like 7 layers and i’m chilly af .. need the warmth of ur arms, baby 🙏🏼

jungkook (liar) 3:10PM: do u think u can come by w some medicine? i’d owe u like… my whole heart

jungkook (liar) 3:10PM: nvm gave that to u already 😘✋🏽

Your natural response to his concerning text messages was to call him. When you called to check up on him, you noted how he coughed at every perfect pause... How his voice was toned groggy with a hint of pathetic. 

Just as pathetic as his lie. 

Does he think you're dumb? Fine. Two can play this game.

The second Jungkook opens the door and is greeted by his friends, grinning goofily with alcohol in their hands—he feels the urge to shut the door at their face. “Ah, for fucks sake—”

“Not so fast!” Hobi squeals as he grabs your wrists and tugs you from the back of the crowd to the front. Offering you to Jungkook, Hobi winks, “I believe this belongs to you.”

Jungkook’s eyes soften at the sight of you.

Lowering his head, he purses his lips for a kiss. You blink at him, letting him stand there like a fool. A few of his friends chuckle at the rejection, but it doesn’t dishearten Jungkook. Instead, he lifts his head and carries on. 

Hey, the kiss was worth a shot. 

With a patient tone, he tries to talk this out. “I thought it was just going to be you coming over...”

Shrugging at him, you answer; “And I thought you were sick.” 

"Well, what can I say? I always feel better whenever you're around." Jungkook chides.

Unimpressed, you tsk at him. “Nice try, buddy.”

Your hunch was right.

Jungkook wasn't sick.

There was no eye bag in sight, no cough to be heard, and with the short amount of time it took him to answer the door; he doesn't seem dizzy at all. If anything, he looks freshly showered and prepared.

For a sick man, his 5PM fit was rather suggestive. He's wearing jeans, and a white wife beater with an off-white button-up unbuttoned. He must know he's hot, right? He wore this on purpose.

"A little dressed up for someone who should be pretending to be sick..." you poke his chest.

Jungkook grins, instantly shrugging his button-up off. "Oh, my bad. Here, I'll undress and—"

"Jungkook!" you gasp as you tug his button-up back on. "Your friends are here! Don't be so shameless—"

"Whose fault is that?" he laughs. "___, was I not clear when I asked for you? You. Not the circus.”

“Hey!” Nam Joon cries from the crowd. “Are you calling me a clown?”

Jungkook lifts his head and shakes it. Smiling at his hero, he assures Nam Joon; “Not you, hyung. I love you.”

Earning a few laughs, the moment ends when Jin interrupts and pushes past you. Jungkook places his arm in front of your body, gently moving you against the wall. He shoots Jin a glare but Jin doesn't seem to catch on. He makes one final comment before inviting himself into Jungkook's home; “Stop sucking Joon's dick and let us in!”

As his friends cheer and begin to invade his home, you stand still and laugh at them hustling in. As they make random remarks, Jungkook warns them not to touch certain things in his living room and that his bedroom is off-limits. Walking in, his friends can't help but feel out of place when they spot the homecooked meal Jungkook prepared for you two. The table is all set up. The projector is ready to go in the living room corner, accompanied by the ever so comfy set up of pillows and fuzzy blankets on the couch… The fuzzy blanket on the couch that Taehyung and Hobi have now wrapped themselves in.

Yeah..

Jungkook did not see this coming. He groans at the very sight. His plans were ruined.

Once Jimin gets his little ass inside, you take that as your cue to head in. You duck under Jungkook's arm and just as you think you’re about to get away—he stops you. He takes a step back and swoops his other arm around your waist.

“Not so fast.”

You huff. “Okay. I’ll walk in slow motion—”

“___…” Jungkook says in a warning tone. “Yah, I said I was sick and you show up here with my friends?”

You poke his chest. “I had a feeling you were up to no good. I brought reinforcement.”

For the most part, Jungkook likes to think he has you figured out. Then, you pull shit like this and he is completely tongue-tied.

Jungkook can’t help but applaud your move. It’s petty and nonchalant… It’s well played. Yet, he feels bittersweet at the very realization that you’ve outsmarted him so early on. 

To be fair, his main moves are centered around lies. 

… Is it so wrong that he thought he could at least get one last good lie before facing the truth?

The truth is that he has grown to like you so much he has completely lost control of his words and thoughts. Every time he’s around you—that’s it. That’s the entire moment. That’s his entire world. He doesn’t know how to keep it that way, you know? He hasn’t figured out how to freeze time and just be with you. So, he lies. He lies in an attempt to make the moment last just a second longer. 

He knows he could have you with a simple conversation and his bunny smile. He knows he’s kindhearted and would be a great boyfriend if you let him… He’s just having a hard time navigating through all the feelings. They consume him faster and fiercer than he expected. The only way to keep up is to keep you near, and the only way to keep you near is to keep making excuses. 

Thus, this week’s excuse. 

He huffs at you. "A home-cooked meal, a movie on my projector, and comfy blankets... Means I'm up to no good? Come on, ___. This is ridiculous!"

"You've been so mischievous ever since—"

"It was just the ice skating thing!" Jungkook defends himself.

"It was also the pocky thing—"

His eyes light up. Jungkook’s lips curve into a smirk. "Ah... Thinking about our kiss, huh?"

Now you feel sick.

Was he serious? How does he do this to you? He says everything so bluntly and out of pocket, your tummy has no choice but to flip upside down and feel all the butterflies flutter.

"N-no!" you panic.

"Pucker up and prove me wrong," Jungkook insists, shutting his eyes and pursing his lips at you. "Like you said, I'm not sick. Kissing me won't get you sick—love sick, maybe..."

You cross your arms at him.

"Jungkook."

Opening his eyes one at a time, he puts his hands up and lets you go. He'll admit defeat here. Clearly, you aren't happy with his moves...

He'll try this.

He'll try honesty.

“___," he smiles, attempting to lighten the mood. "Hey, I was trying to—”

“Flirt?” you finish his sentence. “Yeah, sure… Has it ever occurred to you that you can flirt with me without lying?”

His eyes widen. 

“Does it bother you that much?” He asks, feeling like he is completely messed up. “I’m sorry, baby. I thought it was harmless—”

You shake your head, denying his accusation. It was deeper than that. It is the principal and the root of his lying being a habit in your relationship.

“It’s not that it bothers me that much… It's just... Y-you don't have to do all this, you know? I like getting to know you, but it feels like it's impossible. You keep setting up scenarios for yourself to look good in or for me to take care of you in. I'd do it regardless if you're hurt or not. You know that, right?"

"I do," Jungkook agrees. "I just..."

You look at him with sincere eyes. "Jungkook, I'm just not understanding... Why? It’s just weird to me that you were so confident and honest when you confessed. To be honest, I really admire that part of you. B-but now that you’re… That w-we’re…. Uhmm—it's different. You're acting differently. You can flirt with me all you want. It's whatever... But maybe try something else? I'm tired of you lying, Jungkook.”

He gulps.

"You want honesty?" Jungkook begins. "Here it is... I like you too much. Like, so much that I don't know what to do with myself whenever you're around—not to mention it's even worse when you're not. I want your attention. All the time. Everything about me for everything about you."

"Jungkook—"

"Can you wait for me?" He asks you unexpectedly. "Wait for me to get it right... Because I know I can. I will get it right."

When you two join everyone inside, Jungkook’s apartment is filled with so much chaos it’s difficult for him not to A) partake and B) be upset about everyone crashing his date night (by ambush). 

Honestly, Jungkook’s been pretty busy lately. He’s been neglecting his social life as school, work, and you (not that he’s complaining) have been taking over. In a way, he finds it sweet that you ruined his plans with yours. Especially since you came in with all his friends. It was a nice surprise. He will definitely take note of your sneaky ways too. 

By the time everyone gets hungry, there’s barely any space for anyone to eat. Some friends are sitting on the floor, eating off the coffee table or parts of the couch. Others are eating standing up, and the rest crowd over his tiny kitchen island and dining table. There are a few girls you’ve invited here and just as usual, you all went to the bathroom together. As you all enter back into the scene, there is absolutely no space. 

“___!” Jin calls you over. “Eat with us.”

You look at the girls and exchange laughs. They tease you before pushing to towards the dining table. As you approach, you realize there’s barely space let alone a seat. Without much thought, you gravitate towards Jungkook who is sitting and eating. Squeezing your way through, he notices you and nods towards Hobi. Hobi then responds by handing you a plate of food Jungkook set aside for you. Taking the plate, you thank Hobi. Jungkook then pushes his chair back and just as he’s about to get up from his seat to give to you—

“No, it’s okay. Sit.” You insist. 

“But you don’t have a seat—”

Then, it happens so naturally.

You place your plate on the table next to his and take a seat on his lap. When you do this, all the boys exchange looks but say nothing. Their eyes almost pop out of their head and Hobi even chokes on his food. He tries to hide it and turns away so you don’t think twice about it. They’re all aware of how shy you are and this? This was a big thing for Jungkook that they couldn’t ruin. You were finally coming out of your shell.

Thank god.

Meanwhile, Jungkook feels winded. 

He can’t believe this. 

He can’t believe you.

But given the circumstances… He might just have to. So, he doesn’t say anything. Instead, he smiles at you warmly and tells you that he put all your favourites on your plate. He tells you to eat everything and that he ordered strawberry bingsoo for dessert. 

“I love strawberries!” you gasp. Looking up, you bat your eyelashes and tease him, “yah, you make it too obvious you have a crush on me… You know that?” 

Jungkook squints at you, followed by scrunching his nose. You lean against his forehead and mimic his little stare. 

It takes everything in him to not lean in and kiss you.

Slowly but surely, everyone leaves. The only ones left are you, Jungkook, and the other 6 clowns. Yoongi and Jin went out to start the cars while Joon, Taehyung, Jimin, and Hobi finished up taking the trash out or washing the dishes. 

You and Jungkook are tidying the living room. He thanks you for organizing the little get-together and apologizes again for lying to you about being sick. You tell him it wasn’t that serious—it was just built-up confusion and frustration. Further, you tell him that you don’t want him to see you as someone that he has to jump through hoops to spend time with. You tell him you want it too. You want to spend time with him too. You want to get to know him too. 

You want to fall in love—

"I can do that," Jungkook nods, understanding where you're coming from. Your thoughts are interrupted as he fluffs the final pillow and grabs your hands. He squeezes them and then lets go. "But only if you stop being so oblivious. At least try, you know? It's hard for me too. Like, we're dating and I'm trying to woo you and shit—"

Dating?

Woo you?

Shit.

Your heart skips a beat.

"Wait," you pause. "Jungkook, a-are we dating?”

Just when he opens his mouth to speak, Hobi interrupts. 

“___, let’s go! Jin wants to race Yoongi!” 

Jungkook blinks at Hobi. “You’re not racing when ___’s in the car. Are you mad?”

Hobi lifts his hands. “Shit man, I’m just the messenger!”

Without skipping a beat, Jungkook turns to you with stern eyes. “I’ll drive you home.”

You decline. “You’re already home. Relax, it’s Jin. He’s all talk and no bite.”

“___…”

As a compromise, you promise him; “I’ll ride in Yoongi’s car.”

He thinks about it for a moment. Then, he realizes he has no other practical choice. “Fine. At least if you guys do race, you’ll be in the winning car.”

Hobi coughs. “Yo, what the fuck? I’m riding in Jin’s.”

You laugh and tell Hobi you’ll meet them out the door in a second. Hobi leaves immediately, yelling at Jimin to trade spots with him so he can ride with Yoongi. Once he’s out the door, Jungkook’s apartment falls in silence. 

“.... I better get going,” you breathe. “I’ll see you around?”

Scanning his apartment, you smile at the sight of everything being tidy. Picking up your feet, you head towards the door. Like a sad puppy, Jungkook trails behind you.

As you head out, Jungkook feels an urge in his stomach to make this moment last longer. “Oh... S-sure. See you at the library tomorrow?”

“You hate the library.”

“No, I don’t—”

“It’s also Saturday tomorrow.”

Jungkook blinks at you. “I love spending my Saturdays in the library.”

Giggling at his awful attempt, you remind him, “hey, we just talked about you and your fibs—”

“Sorry, sorry,” Jungkook surrenders. He puts his hands up and tilts his head. Pouting as you put your shoes on, he continues to ramble. “See what I mean? I say the wildest things just to be with you.”

“Yeah, yeah,” you say, plopping back up. Jungkook then helps you put your jacket on and gives you your tote bag. “Whatever you say, liar.”

He rolls his eyes at you. As you open the door, you face him with a silly face. He ruffles your hair as he bids his farewell, “Goodnight. Text me when you get home, baby.” 

Then, just like that, the door shuts and Jungkook is all alone.

As he turns away and finally feels like he can catch his breath after everything that happened between you two tonight, he hears the door knock. Turning back, he reaches for the doorknob, opens the door, and sees you standing there. 

“Did you forget something?”

“Goodnight kiss.”

He draws a blank. 

“What—”

Jungkook’s heart skips a beat as you tiptoe and reach for the nape of his neck and pull him close. Leaning in, you press your lips against him and kiss him softly. Without hesitating, he kisses you back and chases your lips the second you pull away. 

You pull away too fast for his liking.

“Okay, goodnight—”

He kisses you again, deepening it as much as he can. When you pull away to catch your breath, he sneaks in one last kiss. Then, he kisses your cheeks and turns you around. Before sending you off, he teases you one last time. 

“Go away. I hate you.”

Laughing at his words, you realize that sometimes—they aren’t so bad.

Him and his lies.

You and your reading in between lines.

[nightcolorz]

Have been actually shocked by the takes of Louis and Armand’s relationship dynamic that I have been seeing in which people act like Armand’s subservience is manipulative and evil.

As someone who was also a victim of grooming in my youth (though obvs not like Armand level of traumatic events bc good lord that boy cannot catch a break) I always found Armand to be a really compelling character, and I loved how they were handling the psychological impact of his abuse on his relationships within the show and they all felt very relatable to a degree. I was like mind blown by the way they handled how Louis and Armand’s pasts related to each others and thought it was super clever and it made me go “holy shit” in a way that a tv show hasn’t made me go in a long time. Though I can see where some of the takes are coming from, it has been really disheartening as a victim of grooming to see people dismiss Armand’s behavior when he’s with Louis as purely a form of manipulation on Armand’s part or a fun silly sex thing 😭😭😭

YES ANON FR!!! also very disheartening and genuinely offensive to me how some ppl talk about Armand and his trauma (also am a victim of grooming lol). I’ve talked about this before, but the way ppl r saying with their full chests that Armand is being manipulative in his trauma responses is like actually fucked up, and it’s low key triggering to me 😭. Just bcus armand manipulates ppl doesn’t mean he is *always* manipulating ppl omfg 💀💀 some nuance pls I beg of u.

to me it seems very clear that Armand falls into subservience and behaves as the victim bcus the abuse he experienced was the closest he ever felt to feeling like he understood what he was doing and understood what he was needed for. For a lot of victims of grooming their abuse can cause them to feel safe in those types of abusive dynamics bcus it’s familiar to them, which def seems to be how it is for Armand. Armand feels constantly lost and confused and by being a slave again he returns to a time where he knew what he was, when he had someone there to tell him what he was. And it comes off very clearly to me that Louis sees this in Armand when Armand tells him about his trauma and (as he’s also in a vulnerable position) realizes that he can use Armand’s pattern of submitting to servitude to his advantage. Which!!! That is objectively fucked up im sorry 😭 and I’m tired of being in a fandom where ppl r acting like just bcus Louis is a likeable sympathetic character and Armand does mistreat Louis also, that means Louis isn’t capable of mistreating Armand. Bcus it sounds like when ppl make those excuses that they r saying sexual exploitation like that is ok 😭. Just bcus Armand agrees to and participates in it doesn’t mean Louis isn’t knowingly exploiting the trauma of a vulnerable person 😭 and it doesn’t make it ok. Like we can find it fun and sexy, but the “face down in the coffin” scene was still borderline non con sensual 😭 yknow what I’m saying? You can like Louis as ur fav and discuss how Armand is shitty to him without acting like it’s ok for Louis to pretend to be Armand’s abuser as he orders him around like an animal so he’ll do what he wants. This is an incredibly complex dynamic with two very fucked up characters who hurt and abuse each other out of fear, and some of u can’t handle that nuance 😭.

and I understand not being able to grasp the nuance of Armand’s character, it took me like a year to fully wrap my head around him. He’s got a lot going on and it’s hard to understand why he behaves the way he does, especially if you haven’t experienced sexual trauma or grooming. But just like, y’all have to remember that it can come off as pretty shitty and bad faith to interpret a character like this as always being evil all the time. Ur reducing someone very complex and ur making some borderline offensive (also borderline racist but that’s a different rant) implications

thank u sm for the ask anon ur so right and I relate so hard to ur annoyances ❤️❤️

[ahmedturkfamily]

Dear friends,

I am Ahmed Al-Turk, living with my family in Gaza. I’m reaching out to you with a heavy heart 😔. My blog has been shut down for the third time, simply for sharing about our campaign. This has left me disheartened 💔, as I’ve lost all of my followers who were supporting and sharing our cause.

I am starting over once again and would deeply appreciate your help in spreading our campaign and donating if possible. Here is the link to our campaign: https://www.gofundme.com/f/help-aseel-and-family-leave-gaza-before-its-too-late

Recently, my father suffered severe injuries to his hand and head and urgently needs surgery 🏥. We are currently raising funds to cover his treatment and to help us get out of Gaza until the border opens 🚪. Any donation will help us survive and bring us hope in these trying times 🌟.

Thank you so much for your support 🙏.

Verified by @nabulsi

[crazylittlejester]

This might get venty so def pass over if u want- I apologize in advance😅

Being a Wars fan is definitely exhausting in the lu fandom as a whole, to a degree I’ve never experienced in past fandoms. I’ve been all around, from DC to HP, Undertale to Voltron (shudders), and many, many more. And honestly I can’t remember a time a character was more universally disliked for,, no clear reason? From villains to irritating characters, I’ve never seen this much negativity and, honestly, near bullying of a character. Shipping wars? 10000% yes. But individual character hating? It’s.. extreme.

It isn’t simple dislike either. From being made incompetent to being the butt of a joke, Wars is just.. dogpiled. And at first it was funny, but it’s gotten to a point that I can’t read other fics because Wars is just so poorly treated/portrayed that it’s disheartening. From mocking of his figure, to claiming he’s vain or a womanizer (derogatory), and even ignoring his background all together.

I think part of it comes from not knowing his game, so they don’t have a basis of his character. Honestly though that could be easily remedied by watching a few cutscenes or reading the plot synopsis of his game. I also think that some people just,, look at his vainer moments in the comic and say “this is all he is” rather than the additional moments when he displays his skills, or pulling his weight as a co-leader. Some people just see what they wanna see ig.

Overall I always try to not dwell on it because everyone is free to love the characters they love and express that, I just wish that it didn’t come at the cost of one of the characters being so plainly disliked and nearly hated. But I swear I’ve seen Dink get more love than Wars, and all we’ve seen from him is a freaking lizard!!!-

anyway, sorry this was so long, my Wars loving self has been holding this in for awhile and I just hate how short a stick Wars got in the lot. He 1000% deserves more love fr

I’ve seen too many fics where people outright villainize Wars in order to create more angst for other members of the chain and that’s INSANE to me. And Wars content has been seriously hard to find, especially last year, which is part of why I started writing so much Wars stuff 😭 He’s my favorite and I gotta feed the other Wars fans

I genuinely don’t get why some people actively dislike him, like am I biased? Absolutely. but i just dont understand?? is there some reason why people can look at like, Wild, for example, and go “OH MY GOD SO ACTUALLY-“ and go into a super deep beautiful well written character analysis but when it comes to Wars people are just like “womanizer twink” and that’s it?

(to clarify: this is NOT a dig at Wild fans, y’all are valid for liking your blorbo. I’m just using him as an example because I’ve seen a lot of really interesting takes on him, some of which are VERY different from each other. And there’s nothing wrong with that at all! He was just the first Link I thought of who has a lot of fans with a lot of theories and opinions alskljskslm. Y’all keep going crazy for your special guy 🫡)

[kenzireal]

contemplation;

Finally, a piece with some fucking meaning.  As a lot of people have kinda figured out: I’m really not super into the internet as of late. I’m really disheartened and hurt by how social groups, websites, applications, and the general climate has changed since ~2020. And I know I’m not alone in that, nowadays a lot of people clamor for what once was, people are buying dumb phones, going outside, and engaging in life as it was pre-pandemic.  In truth I think that’s what I need to do, but is it really so simple? Is it really so simple to just go “touch grass”? Consider this: growing up I genuinely never felt like I fit in. In school, extra curricular activities, at home, nowhere. The only place I found I “fit in” was online, in a space where people were actually like me. Other outcasts, I guess. Let’s be fr, no one “normal” was sitting up at midnight typing away about twilight princess on Nintendo’s official forums. Later in life I can recognize a LOT of this is due to the fact I was undiagnosed AuDHD.  But, I ask this: where does someone like me go? Where do I go when the place I considered home is no more? This isn’t like a town changing or people growing up, the places I once loved no longer exist on a fundamental level. Forums closed with no archive (thanks Nintendo!), websites shut down, and over saturation to an extreme degree in general “online spaces.” You can’t just “meet people” the same way before. These platforms aren’t for people, they’re for advertising. The answer I’ve found is a sort of mixed one. The one time I felt seen in person was in university, because I was once again surrounded by sickos like me. People who get off to writing long papers about what it means when people do things. I wrote a 64 page ethnography about VRChat in 2018 for my senior year thesis, and I had a chance to just geek out about it with other folklore nerds. I wrote papers about Slenderman, dude. I was finally seen and validated for all the information I had accumulated over the years. This stopped once I graduated with my MA in 2021, and I’ve felt a sort of lingering sense of longing since getting it. But, what if that sense of longing could be encouraged? What if my path does lead to academia, but not in the way I had initially expected? For those who know my personal life to a closer degree (or just watch my streams, lmao) know I’m engaged with my fiancé, Alber, and am gearing up to move countries (again). Finland is great, and what’s even greater is education is free. So, I’ve decided. I’ll be pursuing my doctorate by any means necessary and attempting to find a new home outside of the internet. I’ll be attempting to cement myself within academia, something I tried before but honestly went about so, so wrong. In truth I probably needed a few gap years, and I guess I got them, lmao Anyway, this piece is me trying to visualize the internal struggle going on right now. I feel like I know what has to be done to make myself feel better in life, but it’s hard to do it. How do I admit to myself that the places I once considered home are gone, never coming back in the way I’d want, and I need to focus on finding a new place where I’m comfortable? Well, I guess I just did. Thanks for reading, love y’all Kenzie

[no-see-um-incorrect]

Hi :)

Feel free to ignore this if you're uncomfortable, but I was wondering if you could do plus size Darlin' headcannons?

Most of the time, Darlin' is portrayed as buff or skinny due to them fighting, which is fine, but also kinda disheartening as a plus size person who LOVES and relates to them on a whole other level.

Like I said, please feel free to ignore this if you're uncomfortable, and please don't feel pressured!!

Make sure you're taking care of yourself as well!! Drink lots of water, get good sleep, and eat regularly!

Thank you for reading!! :)

: when they were teenager, and they first entered the pack  Asher asked them if they were going for the ”chubby muscular mob boss brute look” and to this day they claim that that is the best compliment they’ve ever gotten 

: whenever Sam expresses his love for their overall ✨squish✨ they kind of short circuited 

: One time they had Sam pick what outfit they were going to wear to the club, and they were extremely surprised by what he picked (pleasantly surprised but still surprise)

(for the some of y’all who need visuals. Also side tangent Pinterest is absolute ASS for chubby guy outfits ALSO I picked these images for the outfits not because this is what I think Darlin looks like)

: One time when Sam offered to cook dinner they said “oh no I need to lose a few anyway” and Sam LITERALLY threatened to report them to David (that’s how you know he means business)

(my sister and me fr)

:  they know how to ✨Belly Dance✨  but they don’t do it unless they want to mess with Sam because it awakens something in him that I don’t even think he knew about 

: whenever they’re getting ready, they play the song Body by Megan Thee Stallion 

: they’re kind of used to getting insulted in public. It doesn’t really bother them like at all.  but when they started dating Sam…..he was having none of it. The first time they saw Sam actually visibly angry was when he was about to punt  somebody at a bar after they insulted Darlin

: they always pick Asher or Milo as their workout buddy and before they start, they do affirmations like

“i’m not working out out of hate for my body. I just wanna look more Badass”

(that is another reference to me and my sister)

: they have a lot of confidence in their appearance, and who they are, and they have Asher to thank for that. When they were teenagers, and not as confident. He would hype them up  and be like ”someone call the department you’re under arrest for being illegally THICK!”

: Asher has nicknamed their thighs as ✨Sam’s earmuffs✨

: They taught themselves how to sew because they never have clothes in there size that are their style 

: when they were in their late teens, Christian tried to make a side comment  about their body, and they just turned around and said 

“what’s the matter Chrissy? wish you had someone like me to sit on that rank ass face of yours~”

: they have stretch marks all over their tummy and thighs  so they like to take a sharpie (Sam has offered to buy them body markers) and just follow the pattern of their stretch marks. Things like rainbows, tiger stripes, branches with flowers on them. Cool shit like that. 



In other words, plus-size Darlin is a goblin 

Those are all the ones that I have. Keep in mind these are based off my own experiences as a chubby person. So some of these you may relate to some of these, you may not. 

This is a new way that my brain looks at darlin so I haven’t come up with as many Headcanons, as I would’ve liked to. But that just means that there’s room for more in the future  

But I hope you enjoyed



[dramarising-replacement]

I'm mostly a lurker on FR, just playing the games/activities to get money to gene and decorate my dragons to make myself smile. I run a small hatchery and mainly just interact with my 2 IRL friends who also play. So i'm not terribly involved with the forum community beyond "hey can I be added to X pinglist"

I just discovered this blog and thought it would be fun to scroll through for some petty laughs but ??? holy cow I'm so glad I'm not on the forums more??? From what I've been reading, it sounds like people start proverbial gunfights over the most inconsequential things on a pixel video game site. It's beyond disheartening ^^; Like get a hobby. Mine's playing FR, what's yours? lol

[hana-no-seiiki]

Sounds to me like anon is just jealous that you have bitches and they don't /j Hello hi, I'm the resident lurker but that post made me want to come here and say if you love him and he loves you and he respects you and everything is mutual then who care? It's your relationship, not anyone else's and if he makes you happy that's what's important

Keep being you king <3

Fr tho!!! the latter part i mean 😭

i get the concern and this is the internet after all. But it was disheartening ngl

in anycase, thank you so much!!!! I’m saving this post augh it’s so wholesome my heart is swelling 😔🥰❤️💕💗♥️💓❤️‍🔥

[celestie0]

hiiii ellie 👋🏻

just wanna take a moment to let you know how much your writing means to me :') i'm kinda shy about doing this but fuck it, imma do it so here goes nothing lol.

for starters, i'm relatively new to this platform. i was pulled in of course by none other than satoru x reader smut... but what REALLY dialed me in was your stories.

it started with ihm, i love how you write gojo and i live for the bantering 🤭 the characters feel so real and fleshed out, you impressed me right off the bat.

so after that, i found kickoff and girl, i literally BINGE READ the entire series, staying up until like 3 am LOL. i remember laying on my couch, going through all the emotions. kicking my feet, laughing, feeling pain from the angst 😭 looked at the clock and was like oh shit, tomorrow is gonna suck but WORTH IT 🫠

and the thing is... while yes, the smut was amazing (guuuurl especially when i'm ovulating, you have fed us good 😩🤚🏻), it wasn't the main thing driving me to your stories. what really hooked me in was the way you write and how you are able to bring so much emotion to these characters. also, you are reeeeeally good at building up their relationships 😮‍💨

i've said this before but i just want to reiterate that you are the person that encouraged me to start writing on this platform. you seem like overall just a really freaking chill person too, i've always loved your vibes (also we're west coast twins i'm in socal 🫶🏻)

anyways, after starting to write i see how much hard work and effort goes into having this hobby. it really disheartens me to hear about the crap some people say, those people are really selfish and inconsiderate.

you have NO obligation to do this yet here you are, sharing your passion with us, and we are blessed for it 😇

anyways, this kind of became a side tangent... but i guess i just want you to know that the people that are sending rude shit to you and nici are on my list 😤

you are a queen, i hope you are enjoying your trip, and staying healthy. sending you lots of love 💛

hi my love omg i’m so sorry it took me so long to respond to this ask i wanted to have some proper time to respond but i read it when you sent it n it made my whole day seriously!! 🥺💕 you are so so kind

HAHAH i’m so glad you had fun binging kickoff!! that’s a lot to read in one sitting xD hope it didn’t ruin your sleep schedule TOO much skdhfksdjh

thank u sm for your kind words about my writing :”’’’) i spend a manic amt of time daydreaming about my stories n wondering ab my characters n i think i try to value character development n personalities the most so to hear that you are really feeling the emotion to my stories and characters means the world to me fr, and for you to appreciate it like aaaaaa i swear it’s what keeps me going n writing n i want to thank you for help keeping my passion alive <3 ALSO SO GLAD TO HEAR THAT ABOUT THE BUILDING RELATIONSHIPS THING BCI WORRY AB THAT A LOT SO ITS REALLY REASSURING HAHA

yaaaay fellow writer <3 i think it’s so cool how writers kinda domino off one another n we blossom into writers of our own it’s truly amazing feeling to know i inspired someone to write as well!! AND OMG SAME I AM ALSO IN SOCAL!! AAA

ugh yeah. i feel like you don’t really know how difficult it is to write until you start doing it yourself haha. i have gained SUCH large respect for my fave fanfic writers over the past year that i’ve been writing because i realize the dedication it takes, esp something done for free. i do wish some people were nicer, but alas that’s the reality i suppose. AW THANKS FOR LOOKING OUT FOR US <33

you are just SUCH an angel and i can feel the immaculate vibes from you through the screen. ty again sm for this message my love omg :’’) i really needed it. sending you SO much love as well <333

[tomicaleto]

Wait you’re from Argentina, I’m so sorry about your election :( I read somewhere that this was just a primary, but ppl are acting like the fascist won the whole thing! Who is this fucker and are you all going to be okay?

Hi Anon, yeah I'm from Argentina 🙃

The thing with these elections are that, while they are a primary election, they also give you an idea of what to kinda expect for the general elections. These results are disheartening to say the least.

Here are some snippets from Milei's (the man that came out first in the primaries) wikipedia article in English, so you can have an idea of his ideals and politics and why he's like, the worst from right-wing politics in Argentina

"Politically and economically, Milei is a right-wing libertarian,[4][5][6] and he is supportive of the Austrian School of economics. Milei considers himself to be a short-term minarchist or liberal-libertarian [es; fr] but philosophically an anarcho-capitalist.[7][8] He believes that Argentina is a tax hell and advocates for a fast reduction in government spending in order to balance the budget."

"Several of Milei's political positions have caused controversy,[13] such as his opposition to abortion even in cases of rape,[14] the rejection of sexual education in schools,[15] scepticism about COVID-19 vaccines,[13] support for the freely possession of firearms by the civilian population,[16][17] promotion of the far-right Cultural Marxism conspiracy theory,[18] and climate change denial.[19] Due to those controversies, as well as his far-right political positions and radical conservative economic and social policies,[13][20] his primaries win has been considered an upset, and he has been characterized as a far-right populist.[10][11][12]"

"He has been described as far right by several Argentine and Spanish-language publications, including elDiario.es,[43] El País,[44] El Mundo,[45] Perfil,[46] Télam,[47] and Tiempo Argentino.[48] Milei is a follower of the ex-Brazilian president Jair Bolsonaro and the ex-United States president Donald Trump.[49] He is also close to the Spanish far-right party Vox,[50] as well as the former conservative Chilean presidential candidate José Antonio Kast.[51]"

"Theoretically an anarcho-capitalist, Milei considers himself a minarchist or liberal-libertaire.[62] An economic liberal and fiscal conservative, he often referred to Carlos Menem, the president of Argentina from 1989 to 1999, and his economy minister Domingo Cavallo.[63]"

Full article here

But that's not the end of the problem.

The thing is that following him are Juntos por el cambio (another right-wing coalition, don't let the centre-right part trick you) and Unión por la Patria, the coalition born from the one that managed to get Alberto Fernández to be our current president.

As far as my understanding goes, with the current percentage of votes, neither candidate can win on the first round, which will lead to a ballotage, that is, the two candidates with the most votes will go for a second round. That's where the speculations born from these primary elections come into play. If, by some miracle, Sergio Massa (Unión por la Patria's candidate), the "lesser evil", wins, while generally speaking some things (like some rights hard won) will remain, it doesn't mean the ginormous debt that we've been dragging since Mauricio Macri's presidency will suddenly disappear or that the politics involved in trying to fix that will magically work just because Massa won.

If he doesn't win first round, which is the more likely thing, there are high probabilities that Milei's coalition and Juntos por el Cambio will call their voters to vote for the one that goes to the ballotage and against Unión por la Patria. So the right gets the government.

As you see, the political field is at best a mess, at worst, a big fucking mess. And I'm not even entering in our current economic crisis, and how the price of the dollar gets higher every day and how that affects the society. Or how the politics are less about actual solutions and proposals and more about emotionality and punishing the coalition you dislike the most.

I'm perhaps not the best at expressing myself when talking about these topics, at least not in English. I'm sure there are other Argentinean blogs that will explain this better than me but I will say. That even if Milei wins and doesn't burn the country to the ground with his outlandish economical plans, he still is against a lot of basic human rights that were hard won in this country. And even if he doesn't win but Juntos por el Cambio does, their politics are, perhaps not equally bad, but close to his. And Massa is not a saint of my devotion either, he's the main candidate because the peronist coalition is in as much crisis as the country is.

We got our democracy back just 40 years ago, after the worst and most bloody dictatorship in this country. And now the people are voting for the man that is pushing for the same kind of politics the dictators, Carlos Menem in the 90s and Mauricio Macri in 2015 were vouching for.

I'm not sure what the future has prepared for us (nothing too good as you can see) but at the very least I can say that Argentina is resilient, I can only hope for the best and if that doesn't happen, we'll have to do our best to survive.

[imdonnalynn]

A little bit about me…

Far as online is concerned, I would be recognized as a muse-stricken fanfiction writer. I started writing fan fiction 23 years ago on fanfiction.net. The first work posted online was Party with the Old Fly-Boys, fandom was JAG and the ship was Harm/Mac, that was September of 2000. And it went from there… Over time, I wrote 100 pieces of work for 26 fandoms ranging from books, television and movies and 27 different ships’. Since, my works have been purged (found only on my inactive LiveJournal) because they no longer reflect me as a writer. For years I’ve been trying to get back on the saddle, but my muse only goes as far as the ideas. Soon as I try to transcribe to paper or type it, I draw a major blank. Writer’s block for the last two decades has been disheartening. I still try, leaving things in my drafts and such but I usually just end up deleting it all and starting completely over. Amazing how one can feel like they’re on top of the moon writing to not being able to muster even a drabble.

Outside of writing? I’m a full-time mom to 2 autistic sons. Wife to a marine veteran, Semper Fi and thank a veteran or active member for their service they will appreciate it. And to top that already full plate I am a full-time daughter to my mothers. If I’m not taking care of something to do with them then I’m dealing with the horde of animals, we have. 9 dogs and 18 cats we have strays coming in all the time. I basically run a rescue all on my own and with my own money (but not a legit rescue just FEELS like I’m running a rescue).

What do I love?

Yellowstone I don't know that I will finish watching this series after all the behind-the-scenes drama with Sheridan and Costner. I just don't think they can pull off a decent ending to a train wreck without Costner coming back. 1923 I can’t wait for season 2, I’m beginning to lean toward Spencer and Alex being the grandparents of John Dutton III in Yellowstone. Shame this series has the been the best of the Yellowstone Universe thus far. Outlander I'm going to finish the series out however it finishes but I'm drained with it. The way they have structured their last three or four seasons has been a rollercoaster, slow then rushed and it's took a lot of the joy out of watching. Reacher Season 3 still has Neagley coming back to do her usual bonding with Reacher so I will continue to tune in every season. Though I will say I liked the writing and pace in season 1 better than season 2. The Terminal List Looking forward to where this goes next season and I'm definitely looking forward to the spin-off for Taylor Kitsch. Stranger Things I resisted watching this show simply because everyone loved it and I didn't want to admit it was good. It is good, it's great even and I can't wait for the final chapter of this awesome constructed series. Reminds me how well the Babylon 5 series was. Marvel Cinematic Universe I have been a fan of the Marvel Cinematic Universe since The Avengers. Since that moment I have been an avid MCU fan. I am not a comic fan or expert, the extent of my comic knowledge comes from the many other experts I have watched online talking about these incredible complex stories.

Who do I love?

Beth Dutton from Yellowstone. I relate to her in so many ways, like her no bullshit attitude and utter dying devotion to family. Where we differ, I don’t smoke cigarettes, I don’t drink alcohol anymore, and I would LOVE to own Yellowstone Dutton Ranch GLADLY. She hates it and would have no qualm selling it once her father passes but while he is alive, she will defend it to her last breath. Beth doesn’t let anyone scare her, she won’t let anyone get that satisfaction from her ever again since her mother died and since she lost the ability to have children. (side note: Beth has a shit ton of trauma from her childhood that contributes to her erratic often childish behavior when she lashes out, but I still love her it's what makes her the most human of them.)

Wanda Maximoff from the Marvel Cinematic Universe. Most particularly in Doctor Strange in the Multiverse of Madness, and before you say anything let me explain. I have two sons, like Wanda did, and a husband, like Wanda did. And I imagine what it would be like to lose my husband and my children...the grief that would consume me would no doubt turn me evil, and I'm not using the word lightly. If I were in Wanda's position in Multiverse of Madness with that grief and guilt and the Darkhold in my possession anyone who stood in my way would be fucked, like the Illuminati. The only thing that would be able to stop me would be my boys, just like Wanda. And like Wanda, when she realized what she had become and how her own boys perceived her...it was enough to turn her away from the dark path and truly LOVE her sons...which is what I would hope I would do because I would only hope their love would be enough to bring me back from that place.

I CAN'T WAIT TO SEE WANDA AND HER FULL REDEMPTION ARC COME TO PASS!!

SHE IS NOT DEAD.

SHE WILL GET HER OWN SOLO MOVIE BET IT WILL BE ANNOUNCED AT SAN DIEGO COMIC-CON! (update 8/6/24 - there was no announcement of anything related to Scarlet Witch at San Diego Comic-Con)

Why did I write and post this?

I managed to actually write it out fairly quick, so you damn right I’m posting it! May not be a story but its about me so I guess in a way it is a story.

Requests for stories and Asks welcome!