#but it is important to do what we can. be there for ourself. be there for others. love and love and love.

[theambitiouswoman]

Not everything that happens is because of you. How others act and treat you is mostly about their own feelings and thoughts, not about you. Sometimes their actions might make you feel bad because you're not getting the response you wanted, but it's not really about you. It's important to realize that people have their own reasons for how they act. When we don't get the outcome we hoped for from others, we end up causing ourself emotional pain. It's not always about what others do; sometimes, our own expectations can lead to our feelings being hurt. Do not get attached to things that are out of your control.

[poemnic-tarot]

The Next 3 months Forecast - Timeless PAC Reading⛅️🍎

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Pile 1🫧❄️

Energy check : The frog

"Treat yourself like how you want your parent to treat you"

Pile 1 you might feel a bit conflicted between to keep going or stopping or resting for a while. It is conflicting to you because you feel quite burdensome, like you have a lot of things to do and on your plate.You may have a conscious or unconscious high expectation of yourself to get everything done, even-though you don't really feel like it at all. You might feel depleted and in need of a break and it is vital that you do so. We cannot run with an empty fuel or even if we do we won't go far either.

It is time to nourish yourself with self care activities that you might have been putting off. Put down worries and stress for a while and if resting make you feel guilty, it is also the perfect time to examine on the reason why that is. Rest is your birth right, no need to earned it.

Pile 1 if this is your current energy then these are your next 3 months.

(Remember energy is alway shifting and changing depending on our present decisions)

❄️🫧1st Month - 5 of swords🫧❄️

"Freeing yourself was one thing, claiming ownership of that freed self was another" - Toni Morrison

The Artist greatest tortured has alway been the process of creation. It is when we have no idea if what we are currently working on will turn out like we hope for/or expected. That is how life is, a process, a work in progress. Remember that there is no destination to reach. It is indeed the journey that we must focus on.If things are up in the air right now and nothing has been decide yet, it is only because we ourself haven't make that decision. And deciding what to do is part of the process, instead of attaching fear, insecurity, nervousness, certainly uncertainty, around the process of not knowing yet. We can rewrite the story by changing it to anticipation, into excitement and entertaining what life have to offer you. Your life story is yours and you can change the genres at anytime.Is this life a tragedy?, a mystery?, a love story?, an adventure or just a slice of life. Whatever it is, you decide. By changing our perspective we changed our story suddenly.

And there is power in choosing, in giving yourself choices. God like power equivalent. There's a lot of fears attach to giving ourself choices that's why not a lot of people do it. "I don't have a choice" is a common phrase because it is easier to have everything up to fate. This is the time/opportunity to ask yourself what you want your fate to look like?. Freewill is on your side and whatever you decided, that is your fate. We do not know our fate by searching. We know our purpose by already done the deed then we decided that THIS is what we want to do. I want to do this, I choose this =your fate. Fate follow your decision. How many times/area in our life where we can 100 percent said that we choose this ourself?.

We are finally free from the unconscious drive, now it is time to live with intention. And that might feel uncomfortable and even hard but trusting in yourself is key. They say knowing is half the battle, so know thy self. Getting to know who you really are, what you really want to do will help you navigate this time easier.The most important thing is, you don't need to figure out the outcome of your decision or how it's going to turn out. All you need to make sure is that do you want to do this?.

Advice from Whispers Of Love Oracle: 14. Ask for help

'What do you really need? be willing to accept support. There is so much support available to you. You only need to ask for help and you will receive it. Let go of fear and pride as they do not benefit you nor give you what you desire.'

Signs: 555, 1414, fishes, island, blue, water, Pisces, Aquarius

Songs: Is it love by Loreen

You'll find me in the echo of the dark Workin' on the riddle of your heart Lost you in a maze, now let me out Is it love? Is it love? Is it love?

Poem: Will You Fight? by @cant-find-my-name There's no beauty in this pain if incarnation exists I wish to never feel it again Life too hurt to live I have nothing else left to give Put me out of my mystery I demand to be free All these trials and tribulations You think you won't get over them But you did before So what's another one? But they go on and on You realised it won't be done The hardship are endless I have been giving my best That's the circle of life Will you give up now Or will you continue to fight?

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🎐✨2nd Month - The fool ✨🎐

"It's okay that you're not who you thought you would be".

This is the time for experiment, for adventures, of discovering who you decided to be. We are alway learning about ourself so don't be surprise when a new side popped up. Be curious. What identity/story /belief are we so attach to or that we keep telling ourself?. I'm not the type to do that, or I cannot do this because I am not XYZ enough. How about we see ourself as a blank canvas for a change and that the empty space is not to be fear but to be fills with infinite possibilities. To achieve or want something new, firstly we must also become someone we never been before. For example, if you want to be a healthy person who is fit, then become someone who frequent the gym or do workouts. It mean tuning our frequency to match the vibrations of our desire outcome. For the little things and the big ones.

This world is our playground, this world is our oyster, and we are an avatar whose here to learn and have fun and become as many things as possible. Non attachment is key towards outcome, identity or how the story will unfolds. We do not know what will happen but one thing we know for sure is that every new day is a new lesson to learn from.

Embodies the energy of creation/ take inspiration from around you. Everything you go through or witness have a connection towards you one way or the other. Any ideas/creative projects that suddenly strike you is no coincidence, it find you deliberately. Every things that has been created was an idea once and if there's one that has found you, do not be afraid to answer the call. Be curious.

Advice from Whispers Of Love Oracle: Have faith. Trust your faith in this situation.

"When we honestly believe things will work out, our faith will confidently see us through. It can be challenging to move forward when you aren't sure what the outcome will be. Stay present with whatever is in front of you right now. You may have doubts or fear when you take a step forward or make a decision, but faith gives you the courage to continue"

Signs: daisy, dandelion, Sun, tiger, Golden butterfly, golden wings, crocodile, balloon, 33, yellow

Song: Coming back for you by Fireboy DML

Well I pray that the universe Gives you way more than you deserve When the tears fall like shooting stars Remember who you are Just look up to the sky you'll see

Poem: Who You Can Be by @cant-find-my-name

When you stop holding tight To who you thought you were And instead be open to new

Possibilities of you Then you'll see Who you truly are Or can become Weak foundation must be undone Old identity forgotten Mind full of limitations Cannot attract abundance Because you are not open To receive them It's time to wake up and see See the possible version Of Who You Can Be

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🍭🍡3rd month - 2 of wands🍡🍭

"Every next level of your life will demand a different you".

Pile 1, in this time the way forward is open for you. Keep your momentum. You are unstoppable. Your energy is unstoppable. You are a force to be reckon with, take action towards your visions. If you have vision/ideas, a dream reality, this is the time to take action towards it. The need for movement is not from doubt or fears. From now on, 'I want to act with love' and you might learn that the decisions and action after that will be different than the way you operate before. Because when you operate from love, there's a certain confident, an inner knowing and an unshakable faith that everything is going to be alright. Because it has alway been that way.

Everything in this universe is right, nothing is wrong. When you realise that, whatever action you take, will alway be the right one. You will be able to clearly see the Success in your ventures as you move forward. The picture you painted in your head is coming together in real life. This reality is unfolding in a way that you alway know to be true. In a way, deep inside you know that this universe has alway favour you. Everything is working for you, it is time to accept this truth and work for ourself.

There will be a lot of energy within us this month, use this wisely to propel our goals forward, in any area of our life.

Richard L. Evans Quote: “Your direction is more important than your speed.”

When you finally pick a direction walk towards it with head held high. You choosing your own path/way is already success in itself.

Stars Dragons Oracle quote - Find your light and follow it home - until you realised that with every step you are already there.

Advice from Whispers Of Love Oracle: 24. Focus on love. Look for the good in everyone.

"Focusing on the love will change and heal any negativity that is there.How you perceive a situation has a lot to do with how you feel about them."

Signs: Letter JJ, orange, sunset, Dragons, lantern, 2423,

Songs: Rise by League of Legends, Mako, and The Word Alive

Higher and higher you chase it It's deep in your bones, go and take it This is your moment, now is your time, so Prove yourself and RISE, RISE Make 'em remember you RISE Push through hell and RISE, RISE They will remember you RISE

Poem: Confident by @cant-find-my-name

So this is what confident feels like It's no longer undefined It's no longer random burst Unexpected, at the mercy of when it Will emerge Now I can call on it Anytime At the tip of of my fingers At the top of my tongue My body oozes of confident Trust in oneself is the definition To give it my all To not hesitate or keep myself small With my inner strength With all my might I will stand tall In the front line and face it all

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Pile 2🌦🌕

Energy check : The wolf

"I understand if the wound is greater than an apology can cure"

Pile 2 You might be dealing with disappointment right now. If something or someone has turn out differently then you expected, this is an opportunity to let go. We think we might have a great idea of someone and if that person deviate from our view of them, life might suddenly does not make sense. That someone can also be yourself. If things or person actions does not make sense to you, we can only ask ourself if we align with their actions or not. We can't control people but we can control how we response to them. We human are a unique individual but we are not that different from each other. WE all have the same fundamental needs, the need to belong, the need to be loved, the need to fulfils our own desires, the need for stability/security.

What motive/base intention drive you?, and people close to you. The base alway determine the action. And what kind of action are you okay/align with to fulfils that particular need of yours. And what actions simply doesn't.

For you, the end doesn't justify the means. Even if the intention is good but the action to fulfil that needs is hurting you in some way either from others or even yourself, it is okay to acknowledge that that is not the way you want to proceed. Understanding what you can or cannot tolerate is key.

Pile 2 if this is your current energy then these are your next 3 months.

(Remember energy is alway shifting and changing depending on our present decisions)

✉️🪄1st month - 7 of pentacles🪄✉️

"You can try again tomorrow"

Pile 2 You have infinite chances.You might be questioning where is your reward for all the hard work you did?.The real question is, how can I become the things I want?. People might not realise it but even with the desires for material goals or material obtainment is to fulfil a certain need/emotion within us. For example, stable income for the feeling of security, a physical home to fulfils the feeling of belonging. We do not need to wait until obtaining those things to feel that particular emotions. We can cultivate a sense of security within us now. If you seek abundance, embody it, become it because you are what you attract.

We must ask ourself why we made importance certain goals in our life. And if our efforts did not show case in obtaining that goals, do we lose something in the process?. There is never a lost in trying and if you have try, you have already gain. Wisdom, lessons, getting to know another side of yourself. Different situations bring out a different you, different outcome bring out a different you. It ask you what do you truly value?, your hard work or the result of it?. Aren't both equally important?. So why do we disregard one when the ending is not what we expected?. If the same way hasn't work for you before, why not try a different way?. What are we trying to achieve here?. Who are we becoming in the process while we pursue our goals? do we feel lighter or heavier?. You have work hard to become who you are today, but strip away the obvious, who are you really?. What is your soul like?. Do you know what your soul feel like?. If the situation seem like it isn't working for you, it time to take back your power and make it work for you.

Advice from Whispers Of Love Oracle: 33. Appreciate this moment. Every situation is an opportunity to grow and find love.

"Challenging circumstances rarely make sense at the time. It is important to face what is happening so you can learn the lessons. Ask the angels to show you what is important in this moment."

Signs: 333, Conch shell, seashells, angels, archangel Ariel, Yellow

Song: Thank God I Do by Lauren Daigle

I've started breathing The weight is lifted here With You, it's easy My head is finally clear There's nothing missing When You are by my side I took the long road But now I realize I'm home with You, I'm home

Poem: Why isn't That Me? by @cant-find-my-name

I look up at the sky And saw people fly My immediate thought was Why isn't that me? What else do I need to feel more free? To feel happy What is the formula for greatness? And why don't I have it? My confident is all but a grand Emulation What do I lack that they don't? How can they spread their wings without care And why don't I dare Going for it too? Is it hard work or talent Or is it bravery or passion? Both which I can't find within me So if I want to be up there too I have to find the success recipe I need to solve this inner Mystery

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🍓🫧2nd month - King of pentacles🫧🍓

"Because we can't see what's ahead, you have to trust that dots will somehow connect in your future"

Pile 2 This is the month to build a strong foundation on what you valued, what you truly believe in. We managed to get this far but we know we can go much farther. This life is a journey and in a way you have "made it". The trust you have in yourself never lead you astray. Your faith in your visions, instinct, your own path will alway lead you home. In a way, you were never lost, you alway know where you are heading to.

This has been a long journey for you but it is a worthwhile one. You have achieved so much, time to acknowledge THAT. You know who you are, you are stable inside yourself, you trust your path like never before. And it is these differences in you that will transformed your outer reality. As above so below, as within so with out. You can clearly see in front of you now, no obstruction, no confusion. You alway know that there's no need to rush, it is not the destination but the journey that is the most exhilarating and satisfying.The fulfilment is in the way there, life is a never ending journey and you cannot wait to invent a new path for yourself to embark on.

Slow and steady win the race. and you know that wherever it is you're suppose to go, you are never late. You are alway on time. And having fun, taking in the view, smelling the roses, on your way there is what define your experiences more than the destination.Life become fulfilling to you now as you seek more experience that feeds you rather than deplete you.

"I don't want to feel better, I want to know better. I should have known that God is not in the meal but in the sharing of the meal. I should have told you that holiness resides in needing each other, in acts of survival made generous."

Julian K. Jarboe ( I saw this post in tumblr and was call to put it here)

Advice from Whispers Of Love Oracle: 28. The union of Hearts. A love connection defies explanation.

"It is important to recognise the significance love has in your life. Shift your attention to the essentials in your relationships. Celebrate the wealth of love present in your life. This card is prompting you to redirect your awareness from your goals and desired outcomes, onto your relationships."

Signs: 111, 88, 28, constellation, Centaurus, open fields, Black knight, shield

Song: At All Costs by Ariana DeBose and Chris Pine

If happiness was a tangible thing It would be you If you'd have told me the feeling you'd bring I'd think it untrue And people search for a wonder like you All of their lives You still amaze me after all this time

Poem: This is Truly Tragic by @poemnic-tarot

Have I been worried about the result? Anxious about the outcome? And in the in between time Missed all the fun? Mind, what a tragedy This is truly tragic I've only lived for fleeting moments That in the big Picture Doesn't contribute to anything Now I get it, I will try not to live in stress Of course I have my worries But now I know when To let it rest

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❄️💫3rd Month - 7 of swords💫❄️

"One can be the master of what one does, but never of what one feels"

Pile 2 in this month you might feel quite independent. It is encourage you to go your own path. Solitute or spending time by yourself might be what you needed. No need to be agreeable with people if you have a different opinion. You learn more by listening, especially listening to what's not being said. If there is a revelation or a certain truth or even a shift in perspective revealing themselves this time we can take our time to come to term with it. No need to react right away, or identify with it. We can observe the behaviours of other to determine if it align with us. Feeling differently than what we should feel doesn't mean we are wrong or that we should conform. Accepting our individuality is key, our uniqueness is what will set us free.

If something is crumbling down let it fall. You cannot save a fake foundation. You know the truth will alway come out, and the truth is never meant to hurt you, but only to set you free. Free from flock mentality or the matrix. When you have seen you cannot unseen. And how ever you feel about it is up to you and yours alone no need to hold back on our feeling or frustration, or anger.

Original path mean designing your own blueprint. If this world seem fake to you suddenly, know that your mind, your belief is what makes your reality. Your belief will set your path, do you believe in freedom?. Because it become yours when you believe in it. You are not trap here, you are on a solo journey. Hang in there, discard the need for things to make sense. YOUR REASON can be different from other people that's why you are leading a different life than other people. You are the truth that this world need, if this world is filled with illusion, you are the real gold among plastic. A truth seeker, a truth speaker. Observe the truth, find it, become it.

Signs: 777, snow, white, crescent moon, Hummingbird, morning glory, sea, blue flowers, lava, magma, a record player

Advice from Whispers Of Love Oracle: 31. Love makes the difference. love helps heal past hurts and provides a sense of security and self - worth.

"Love is strong and can endure anything. if you trust love everything else will fall into place.When there are challenges, it is important to keep your heart open."

Song: Hummingbird by James Blake and Metro Boomin

And hummingbird I know that's our time (that's our time) But stay on Stay on, stay on with me And hummingbird I can never unsee What you've shown me Stay on, stay on with me

Poem: Four Of Wands by @cant-find-my-name

With hopeful seed You planted your needs And wish them well Hoping they grow To abundance more For you to sell But What are flowers? And what are weed? Which shall you keep? Which is which? You cannot tell In Four Of Wands You have built But slowly, reality seeps in Like stained water, dripping into your ideal dreams Your house must sustain Strong concrete standing Firm foundation as storm rolled in It won't be blown apart As you will make sure That you're not building a house of cards

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🌸⚡️Pile 3⚡️🌸

Energy check: The Lion

"This moment will just be another story someday"

"You can try again tomorrow"

Pile 3, you might be feeling sad or nostalgic lately. But there's no specific situation to cause this particular emotion.You might be feeling like you have outgrown your environment and people around you. You feel like you cannot relate to your usual people, things, or even hobby. What you used to vibe with, there isn't the same connection there anymore. You feel like the same things, people , places just doesn't do it for you anymore.

This is because you have gone through a massive transformation. You have ascended spiritually, at first internally, then the outer reality will let you know that it's time to go. You feel like the same thing does not satisfied you anymore. In a way, your soul is seeking something new, a new adventure, a new challenge. You are ready for the next level. You will slowly transition to new things naturally as the same old routine, hobby, places you used to frequent will not quench that thirst of yours.

Yes, it's okay to feel sad, even grieving the past, but also you can celebrate. You made it Pile 3, you have mastered your growth. A new chapter is awaiting you. In fact, you are already on your way there, the feeling of dissatisfaction is the first clue.

Song: The Hills by Rachel

Have you ever noticed That your house don't feel like home? (Home, home) In a room that you've outgrown Scrubbing at the writing on the walls (walls, walls) Everybody's been there So you try your best to leave (leave, leave) I was told the grass is greener But it's just a fantasy, it seems

Pile 3 if this is your current energy then these are your next 3 months.

(Remember energy is alway shifting and changing depending on our present decisions)

🍏✨1st month - 7 of pentacles✨🍏

"Stretching his hand up to reach the stars, too often man forget the flower at his feet."

Pile 3, this is the month of appreciation. You do not need to look far to feel satisfied. We can concentrate on what we don't have yet, who we want to be with, where we want go. Those empty spaces are not a representation of how worthy you are or not. You are worthy as you are, with or without what you seek. Put in effort and focus on what you actually vibe with. Ask yourself what you rather be doing. Work smarter not harder. You know you can do it when you decide to. Trust that whatever you put efforts in it will grow. Just like how you did yourself. Energy flow where attention goes.

You witness the result in yourself, when you poured into your self you notice how much you grow. Everything in life is like a plant, a tree, or a flower. Everything we want to build need focus, attention, efforts and energy, as well as the right environment and nutrient. Whether that is people, project, work or habits. Adjust accordingly, what do you need the most right now. To feel better physically?, rest, to grow a business? consistency. We know what everything need in order to become the beautiful flower we know it would. Give yourself three things this month Pile 3, Time, Patient and faith. When you apply this to your self or the things you want, you have everything. You reap what you sow, anything you focus on and put energy in will eventually grow. No matter how slow, the flower will inevitably bloomed.

Advice from Whispers Of Love Oracle: 30. True Love. this love is once in a life time.

"Unconditional love is easier said than done. maintaining the love in a relationship takes more than good intentions. Positive intentions are a solid first step, but it is better to learn how to nurture your relationship each day."

Signs: 144, 72, 11, letter T, Pig, white snake, fireworks, better late than never, guitar, Elf, Ocean waves, sparrow

Song: On The Ground by Rosé

I worked my whole life Just to get right, just to be like "Look at me, I'm never coming down" I worked my whole life Just to get high, just to realize Everything I need is on the Everything I need is on the ground

Poem: Skills and Hard Work by @cant-find-my-name

Take up the skills and Devoured it Eat it up for breakfast The component you have it The natural talent and hard work Two plus two equals Our passionate love It's not hard at all It's who I am My habit is practice Putting formulas together For my benefit I want to conquered the world Then so be it If I can't make bread from scratch Then Victory? Forget about it

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🐇🌙2nd Month - The Tower🌙🐇

"Biggest lesson: Don't ever think it can't happen to you."

"Remember how far you've come instead of how far you've to go"

Pile 3, in this month you must remember that everything is going according to plan. It might not seem so but we have to accept that we are not all knowing. All we can focus on is trust in the process. Notice how every time we ask/pray for something we get the opposite?. For example, you wish for true authentic love, the universe will reveal where that is not present.Maybe even magnify it to you where true love isn't.A big red arrow pointing to show you that what you pray for is alway there, but we must transformed it into exactly what we ask for.

Keep calm and continue what you're doing. If the ground you're standing on is crumbling, let it fall. You asked for this.There's a quote that goes something like this"people witness The violent it take to change but no one knows the violent it takes to stay the same" Choose your hard. Nothing is wrong. Everything is right within this universe. What you're witnessing is transformation. The cocoon is transforming into a butterfly. But in between that, how violent, chaotic is the change?. Transformation is not pretty, it might even look like destruction. No matter what's it look like this month, remember that the transformation is alway in your favour.Keep that in mind. When the planet moves, it move in your favour, it moves for your greatest good. The process of transformation is not for the feint of heart, it require trust and calmness and the ability to breathe as illusion breaks.

'Demolish the fortress of yourself so that your truth may flow free from the ruins.' explanation of the Tower card from Tarot of Stars eternal.

Advice from Whispers Of Love Oracle: 15.Practice Compassion. See things from a fresh perspective. Love and compassion always bring positive outcomes.

Signs: Red, purple, Mars, Fire signs, blue tit, blue feather, blue crystal cluster, forget me not, blue rose

Song: We Are The Champions by Queen

I've taken my bows And my curtain calls You brought me fame and fortune And everything that goes with it I thank you all But it's been no bed of roses No pleasure cruise I consider it a challenge before The human race And I ain't gonna lose

Poem: Peace Will Find You Somehow by @cant-find-my-name

If you're scare of things going wrong Then, you're scare of living Cause life will almost alway goes wrong Darling, Your lesson here is to learn To be okay with chaos Cause it will happen Or happening There is no stopping Peace cannot be found when all is all Peace can be found now Even in the midst of War During bloodshed and Violence All around If you take a deep breath Plant both feet on the ground Even then Peace will find you somehowQuote from Pinterest:

☘️🌾3rd Month - 6 of cups🌾🍀

Pile 3, this is an intense time for you. Where you feel everything so deeply, you might notice that every senses is intensify.Your taste buds, scent of smell, especially your emotions. When you're happy it's so high and when you're low it's so low. This might feel like a rollercoaster time period. Pleasure and pain goes hand in hand, you could say one cannot exist without the other. But we do not have to be at the mercy of pleasure or pains. They do not or should not define our life experiences. Everything in this UNIVERSE is neutral. You are the one defining your experience as pleasure or pain or even both. It's doesn't have to be either or, it can be either and.

What experiences do you categorise as painful and which are defined to you as pleasurable?. It possible to have both in one day, if you define today as painful you have already limited it capacity. To define is limit. Remember you can have both in one, if this day start as not so good, the rest can change to better. You are the one who define your experience not the other way around.

You can either see the experiences you had as a mistake, or a lesson to learn or grows from. There is no mistake or accident in this universe, everyone you meet or everything you've been through is to shape you to who you are. Ask yourself who you want to become, and see every experience after that as a lessons to help you transform into that person. Reconnect to joy not pain.

Advice from Whispers Of Love Oracle: 3.Back to what you love. Re-evaluate your desires.

"You are meant to live a life of happiness. Bliss, love, relationship and wealth are your fate. you can change your mind at any time and do something you have always longed to. when you do something you love, you reconnect to your bliss."

Signs: 33, scorpion, dove, Video games, Playground, tree roots, 66

Song: You say by Lauren Daigle

I keep fighting voices in my mind that say I'm not enough Every single lie that tells me I will never measure up Am I more than just the sum of every high and every low Remind me once again just who I am because I need to know Ooh-oh You say I am loved when I can't feel a thing You say I am strong when I think I am weak And you say I am held when I am falling short And when I don't belong, oh You say I am Yours And I believe (I) Oh, I believe (I) What You say of me (I) I believe

Poem: Turn It Around by @cant-find-my-name

Turn it around You have it the ability Trust it you do Turn Negative into Positive If that is too much Turn it neutral Nothing is against you It is all a projection Or your bias assumption As well as Misplace subjection In the grand schemes of things You are fine, you are doing alright Maybe you expect too much, Maybe you were expecting fireworks and parade To indicate Victory But small wins count The fact that you are here today Is proof enough for you to seeQuote from Pinterest:

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🫑Pile 4🐁🌽

Energy check - The Bear, Whale

"Getting no message is also a message" Pile 4 you just ended a big cycle recently and it was tiring. It was a long arduous journey. You might feel like you just run a marathon or the equivalent. Maybe in the outer reality it seem like you haven't done much but, energetically, you have just transmuted a big, big cycle. Well done. Great job.

When you decided that you deserve something better, instead of keeping yourself small, you want to not only survive but thrive. The inner work come first. And the inner work was the hardest part.You passed the hardest part, take a rest and give your self a pat on the back. You might think there's still things you want to do to build to try and you will.Look how far you have come. But we must acknowledge all that we did first before we can move on.

You have an inner knowing inside you that you want to follow, you know your purpose and you are eager to start. Preparation is key. Just like before running a marathon you must first train your stamina, your body, have a consistent routine, adjust habit accordingly, and whatever else you need in order to start your race and move forward in that direction.What small little foundation that need to be done in order for you to run a marathon? to start running?.

Song: Rise by Katy perry

I won't just survive Oh, you will see me thrive Can't write my story I'm beyond the archetype I won't just conform No matter how you shake my core 'Cause my roots, they run deep, oh

Pile 4 if this is your current energy then these are your next 3 months.

(Remember energy is alway shifting and changing depending on our present decisions)

🍥🪶1st month - The fool🪶🍥

Pile 4, this is a big month for you. This is where your journey start. You might feel magic in the air. Literal electric charge in the atmosphere. Luck is on your side. This is a favourable time for you to embark on the path that you alway dream of. Everyone have that thing on their mind, secret desires or wishes that seem impossible every time we think about it ( for example, moving to another country, change job) Do you have something like that in your heart?. This month is when we face it, surrender to it calling. We are finally answering and asking our desires what does it want us to do?. Give me the first step and I'll take it.Start your preparation to stay ready (for example, moving to another country, research the visa, law, and documentation etc,) What else should we do except follow our soul?.

Fear, doubts, is a natural part of life but they will be taking a backseat while you are literally flowing, walking on air, walking on water as you call it. Your intuition is quite strong and it's important to let it lead you at this time. Nothing have to make sense. We don't have to know everything, just the next step is enough. We don't have to know where we're going, that's part of the fun. You had ended a big cycle recently and if you were wondering, when will the next one start?because it starting to feel stale in the old chapter.

This is the time of a new chapter for you and it might seem like everything is up in the air, but that usually how everything start. Let the positive energy and the dawn enveloped you. Feel the sun on your skin and bask in your New world.Every new path is a path back home and home is where your heart is.

Advice from Whispers Of Love Oracle: 3. Back to what you love. Evaluate your desires.

"You can change what you are doing at any time. You do not have to feel stuck. Go back to what you know and, more importantly to what you love."

Signs: Pink, Green,1010. Dove, golden energy, roses, sun

Song: The Last Of The Real Ones by Fall Out Boy

I was just an only child of the universe And then I found you And then I found you You are the sun and I am just the planets Spinning around you Spinning around you You were too good to be true Gold plated But what's inside you But what's inside you I know this whole damn city thinks it needs you But not as much as I do As much as I do, yeah

Poem: Divine’s Call by @cant-find-my-name

Heavy rain calls for Lightning

But it’s hard to predict when the strike

Will come

You hardly would miss the Rumblings

The electric energy as charged as the sun

You know we will intervene

For the greatest good of all

It’s time to step out into this world

Instead of keeping yourself

Small

You know you can conquered earth

Ocean, Heavens

You did it many times before

And each time

Your name will never be mistaken

As nothing but

The Divine’s Call

Quote from Pinterest:

🌸🌕2nd month - 7 of Cups🌕🌸

“It was never a question of biology of nature or nurture. I know now that we heal up through being loved and through loving others”

Pile 4, Watch out for this month. There might be a lot of distraction. A lot of people or even tasks that might asked for your attention and it is important to be extra discerning this month. For we might find that the month has passed by and you might feel like you haven't got anything you want done.Things that you resonate with. If you want to finish a project, a book, a new hobbies/skills be mindful of how much time and energy you're putting in. Because if you find that the progress is slow, we must be realistic and ask ourself did we poured that much energy in it? if not then we might want to do more of it.

There might be a lot of options coming to you this month but the most important thing to keep in mind is, to choose the option that is the most rejuvenating, healing, the option that pour into you or return your energy. Whether that is people, project, jobs, friends, events etc. There is only one rule for you, do I feel drained or rejuvenate with this?. What would a person who love themselves do? Ask yourself this question again and again no matter what situation you are in, because the answer to it is the clarity you're looking for to avoid confusion. If you feeling extra muddy and blurry on your choices this month, do not make any important decision. Give your self time and patient and never pressure yourself to quickly choose, Because you have time alway.

If anything or anyone doesn't give you time and pressure you to choose quickly or threaten that it will be gone, whether it is a job, person etc. Do we want to associate with something that does not give us time to think about it? because what meant for you will never pass you by. Pile 4, what is yours will only wait for you.

Advice from Whispers Of Love Oracle: 15. Practice compassion. see things from a fresh perspective.

"Walking in someone else's shoes can bring us to a tender understanding that may always bring positive outcomes."

Signs: blue tit, crystal Geode, squirrel, Wind chimes, ocean waves

Song: LIMBO by Keshi

I've just been goin' through motions, back and forth like a ocean I am a fraud, I am the shit, hoping that nobody notice Bang chest in the morning, head down in the night Drink less if I wanted, strike up with a light And square up, I'm the mightiest Myself in the fight, hurt twice, but I tried it No advice for this shit, might die for this shit Do I feel alive, feel alive, feel alive?

Poem: Blue Or Red? by @cant-find-my-name

Feeling lost but I know I am guided I don't hold the map I followed the stars The constellations showed me the path Only I can see I choose to go my own way And the journey is lonely And vicious Many times, I've thought to maybe Stop And let the conventional normalcy Control me Like everyone else Being different made you a target Everyone chooses Blue But I said Red Now they can all see My choice in all it's glory They all went for ordinary But I decided to create my own Fate

Quote from Pinterest:

🎏🪄3rd Month - Ace of Wands🪄🎏

"You don't notice your progress in life because you are always raising the bar"

Pile 4, Fist of all for this month please recognised that you have done a lot, You have come so far and this need to be recognised especially this month, by you. You might feel inspired to start a new project, new hobby or even a new chapter in life. One of the reason might be because you have clear out a lot of old energy, whether that is old relationship, friendship, past wounds, etc. You did so much to be at a place of non attachment. A blank/clean slate, you might feel like nothing is holding you back anymore, you might find that it's easier to go for or do the things you've alway wanted. And you are right. You can use this fearless/bold energy to birth that creative project, or book that ticket of yours. Whatever it is follow your courage and inspired action for it will lead you to the answer you might not know you seek.

In the past you might have asked yourself what am I doing this for?, why do I keep going? or why am I fighting so hard for my dream? These might be your question in the past that will be reveal to you this month. You will know why you chose what you've chosen. This is what you were seeking without knowing. This is what you were waiting for, your signs, your signal, your path. And when you encounter it you will not miss it or mistaken it for anything. Whether that is a person, a career, a life purpose, or even where you will live. And this meeting will set fire to your soul and ignited your passion once more. Which will propel you towards a new, long, but promising future/chapter. Please look out for it but do not seek it, it will find you especially when you feel inspired to act suddenly. Let your soul take the lead this month and watch it surprise you. Watch out for an important person, partnership, soul family this month, wink wink.

Advice from Whispers Of Love Oracle: 27 Spiritual Connection. A relationship has a connection that goes beyond this lifetime.

"Everything happens for a reason. Some people come into your life to help you learn a lesson and they will make a real impact on your life. Whether it be with a lover, a primary partner or in a relationship for growth, a spiritual connection is important to you now."

Signs: Wands, Red, green, 444, 27, Saturn, crown chakra, Purple

Song: Taylor Swift - Begin Again

And you throw your head back laughing Like a little kid I think it's strange that you think I'm funny, 'cause He never did I've been spending the last eight months Thinking all love ever does Is break and burn, and end But on a Wednesday in a cafe I watched it begin again

Poem: Song Bird by @cant-find-my-name

Song Bird you grew your wings

And strengthen your voice

Now your words glided ears

Like gentle melody

Of glowing river and easy breeze

The beat rhyme with the rhythm of the hearts

Everyone will hear your songs

But they might not understand it right away

And that's okay

No need to adjust the tune or

Filter it down

No need to be scare if

You are too loud

This volcanic sound

Will echoes around

And reaches the vibration

To the ones

That needed to know and get your lyrics

They would not question it

So Songbird

Sing your song

And speak your words

Eventually

Every creatures will sing along

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Can you do the sully kids x reader? The reader plays violin.

sully kids x avatar reader

The gift of music

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There was once a life you had lived before you had came to Pandora, giving up your old life for something new. Like anyone else when you arrived on pandora you had brought some stuff with you, that was very personal and special. The stuff you had brought were apart of your life while growing up on earth, and you didn't dare leave them behind when you left your old home for your new home. Even after you had started your new life here you still took care and use of these old items from your life as human. These items had only been seen by Jake and navi but the children had never saw what was in the box, or they might not seen that box at all as you kept in special place in the family home.

lo'ak " I hate being stuck inside all day during rainy days" the sully children were suck inside today as it was raining in the forest, so that meant no adventure outside and being stuck at home all day.

neteyam " it not safe to be out there lo'ak"

lo'ak "I know that but why do mom, mama, and dad get to be outside and not us"

tuk " I'm with lo'ak it not fun being home all day when there nothing else to do, and I miss mama"

kiri " she will be home later she with uncle norm and their friends, repair the humans homes"

tuk " aww why couldn't we go with her and help"

lo'ak " dad said it we can't help this time as it adult work no fair he not even there"

neteyam " dad didn't say it like that"

lo'ak " well it felt like he said it that why"

neteyam " well we can find something to do here that will be fun and keep us all entertained"

kiri " you are bored as well are you big brother"

neteyam " yes I did all could"

y/n " kids I'm home" you soon had arrived from after getting done with helping the scientists and humans.

neteyam " mom welcome home let me take your stuff" neteyam had taken from of your stuff and place them away.

y/n " thank you kiddo well it raining hard out there I'm happy I was able to get home"

tuk " were you able to get your work done mama"

y/n " yes we got everything done so far so what have you kids been up to"

lo'ak " nothing much trying to keep ourself busy"

y/n " why do I feel like there more to that statement of your my son" you are looking at the kids it seems like they were trying to come up, with something else to say to you.

neteyam " we are looking for something"

y/n " what this something my boy you can tell me"

spider " well when I got here they seem to get done voting something, about looking for something in the house they couldn't find"

y/n " what this something"

tuk " well mama I saw you with this unknown boy and you were taking some stuff out of them and looking at it, but I couldn't see what was being looked at mama"

y/n " umm well why don't I show you" you soon walked over to the box taking off the stuff that was on the lid, and soon place the box in the middle.

neteyam " wait let me close the door it getting cold in here" neteyam soon raced to close the curtain door, and he soon joined everyone in the circle.

y/n " well it time for me to show you what has been in this box my children and nephew" the kids were listening to everything that you were saying you soon unlatched the hook on the box, and open the lid.

y/n " well children the team in here are stuff from earth that were very important to be and hold memories of be growing up, on earth from a baby to an young adult"

neteyam " so from the day you were born day to the day you left and came here"

y/n " yes my boy" you soon started placing all the stuff on the mat as the kids were looking with them at awe, they were so amazed by these things they had seen.

tuk " wait mama what is this thing" tuk soon pointed to you violin a instrument you had learned to play, at such a young age and to become your hobby as well.

y/n " this is a violin a musical instrument"

kiri " did you play it mama"

y/n " yes when I was younger and adult I played it and I love it"

neteyam " does dad and mom know"

y/n " yes I played a song for you mom once she really loved hearing the song, I played some songs when you were all small but I doubt you remember it"

lo'ak " mama can you play us a song please" you had smiled towards the kids as your soon grabbed your violin, the kids were looking at you as you are getting ready to play for them.

y/n " it been a while so I hope I'm not that bad"

kiri " you will be good mama"

y/n " thanks you honey" you soon looked at the kid one more time as they look joyful for you to play with them, you soon started playing a song that got their attention. It was such a beautiful song as the kids had all their eyes on you. You soon ended the song and looked at the kids they were looking amazed at you.

y/n " so how was that kids"

tuk " that was amazing mama"

kiri " it was beautiful"

y/n " thank you kids I'm happy you love it"

neteyam " how long have you been playing the violin the right name right"

y/n " yes that is the right name and I have been playing since I was very young"

netyeam " wow that amazing mama"

y/n " thank you"

spider " you are so talent aunt y/n"

y/n " thank you honey" soon the curtain door had open getting everyone attention, it was neytiri and Jake. They had smiles on their faces it seems like they had been listening to the music going on in the home.

neytiri " so you started playing the violin again have you love"

y/n " yes I have it seems like you two were listening in"

Jake " yes we were we had been waiting outside and were about ti say something, but heard you playing and I fall more in love with you" The kids has sighed at Jake flirting comment towards you while, neytiri rolled her eyes at him.

Jake " oh come on don't hate me"

y/n " it okay Jake it love it"

neytiri " it pity love"

y/n " stop it both of you"

tuk " mama can you play us another song please"

y/n " sure honey" Jake and neytiri smile as they place their thing away, they soon sat down on the mat and looked at their wife and children.

neytiri " yes play us another song belove we will love to hear more" you soon smile towards everyone was you are getting ready, to play another son for everyone as well eyes are on you. The kids had asked you to tell them more about your past and you had agreed, Jake and neytiri love hearing you play on your violin and show the kids all your amazing talents as well.

[weatherman667]

Final Thoughts on RWBY - Jaune and Pyrrha

Let's be 100% honest with ourself. Pyrrha is Hermione, and Jaune is Ron Weasley.

Hermione was created to show us how magic works. Ron was created to show us how magic does not work. The same holds true with Pyrrha and Jaune. And, in the process, it turns out that Pyrrha is one of the only people in the setting that actually knows how Aura works. Most Aura users seem to learn how to turn it on. They then use it without thinking about. Ruby and Nora learn to use it to move their giant weapons, but seem completely ignorant to the fact that they can... use it to attack people without their weapons.

Yang uses it for brute strength,

Which we see no one else doing.

Now, for Jaune and Pyrrha's place in the story. A lot of people talk about who Jaune, but Jaune isn't.

Ruby isn't the protagonist. RWBY is. And because of this, JNPR is the deuteragonist. By Volume 4, JNR got bumped up to full heroes in their own right.

The Ship of Theseus, and all that.

Wait, what happened to Pyrrha? Well, she's too good. The simple fact is that if Pyrrha has been alive, she would have solved most of the problems on her own. Even the social problems, and all of the main characters love Pyrrha so much that her disapproval would probably stop most of the post-Haven bullshit. Seriously, she probably couldn't have talked Ironwood into unclenching his iron fist.

She had to die.

She had to die against an enemy the rest of the main cast could not beat.

She had to die against an enemy that cheats at the fight.

As for Jaune? Well, he's the only character the legitimately grows throughout the story. Everyone else keeps falling back into their old sins. This is because Jaune HAS to grow, because without Pyrrha, he literally would not have survived the landing into the Emerald Forest.

He's also the only person in the entire story that is actually trying to stop all of the idiotic bullshit that CRWBY was intent to force upon them. Ladybug terrorists, Yang mewling at the absence of her abusive girlfriend, Atlas literally falling to the ground.

Hell, his absence was so impactful that Ruby and Weiss had nervous breakdowns.

Let's be honest, though, seeing the Rusted Knight was almost as impactful as seeing adult Enzo Matrix. The Paper Pleasers were also delightful. Weiss finally pulled the stick out of her ass, and found herself strangely happy about it. And then what happened? Ruby unloads on Jaune.

Oh, dear God, I made the mistake of skimming through Vol 9 to see if Ruby learns to eschew her protagonist-centred morality. Instead, Ruby learned the important lesson that she's perfect the way she is, and the right path for the future is the path of selfishness.

And the black-washed Alice in Wonderland robbed us of a future Alice Huntress. She could fight with a flamingo croquet mallet/grenade launcher! Nora would love that!

Moving on. Jaune's place in RWBY is not being good enough. And that's what fans want to see. It's easy to save the world if you have showy teleportation powers, and can do a pirouette with a sniper rifle/scythe as you behead Grimm, but having fear you have to overcome, prudence to stop you from entering fights you cannot overcome, and to have to learn how Aura works, rather than just having it work for you, adds conflict. It keeps the story interesting. It keeps you invested.

There's the reason why the man who named The Hero's Journey later called i the Monomyth, because pretty much every culture on Holy Terra has a similar story.

But, luckily for us, CRWBY kept forgetting he existed, so he was allowed to actually develop properly as a character.

An for Pyrrha? She's literally and figuratively an angel. She's literally and figuratively too good for this world.

And I love how Ruby acts like she was betrayed by Atlas, when she literally joined a terrorist group to stop Atlas from rebuilding important infrastructure.

[totally-not-here-for-the-smut]

So, @arcanavoid made me thinking about Lucio in their post

WELL THEN LETS TALK ABOUT LUCIO YOU BITCHES

Pleas keep in mind that I'm right now very drunk and I'm not a native speaker and the autocorrect for this phone can only do so much Also I'm in a different time zone so if you see this at, like 10 in the morning or whatever, no worries bc now is definitely night here and I also program my posts I have not a drinking problem thats why I cant hold my f-ing liquor

WELL THEN MY DEAR LUCIO and

WHY

as a person who is very close to people with serious mental illness, like i legit live with them

I THINK LUCIO'S ROUTE IS SO GREAT

Let's start with an assumption: we're all assholes. Somewhere in our life, maybe in the past, or present, or future, we are huge AH. It's not like we're evil and condemned to hell, it's just that as humans we're small, petty and miserable so we behave badly and are very selfish when big difficulties challenge us. Like, sometimes we manage to scramble enough willpower and common sense to act decently as we're afraid and suffering, but lots of times we don't and make shitty things. So here's my first point:

1. We all are a Lucio sometimes. Or often.

Like, way more than we want to admit. We're afraid, we're too full of ourselves, and we behave in petty ways. We're mean towards strangers, we feel happy in humiliating them and showing the world how better than anyone else we are. We need something bc we live in a world that doesn't grant basic human rights (food, shelter, health, safety and human connection), so we strain to get those things, sometimes at others' expenses. Then we tell ourself that those people deserved our scorn and malice because they're bad, and we tell us such lies because facing the guilt of what we've done is painful and complex.

We need to show ourselves we're better, so enjoy picking at others' mistakes without caring who they are in a whole (this is super easy on the internet). All this while low key ignoring what bad we're more or less responsible for.

And we are. Like, if you ever did buy something on sites like shein, you are actually exploiting poor people who are basically slaves. And you're keeping a blind eye on it.

But you know what? You're not evil for this. We're weak sometimes, we're tired, we have little time and really don't have the lucidity to think whether this stupid chicken breast is full of hormones and antibiotics or not. We're humans and we're small. Often we're sad, afraid and tired and we need a malicious self esteem bost.

Often, we're Lucio.

2. A flaming piece of trash can change. And doesn't need others' forgiveness to do so.

Did you notice how everyone is so eager to show of other people are wrong and bad and evil? That's because they, and we as well, need reassurance about how we're the hero of the story.

That's because we can't tolerate being the flaming piece of trash, because the the flaming piece of trash can't change and everyone hates them.

This idea is stupid.

It doesn't matter how low you fell. How many people you hurt, how many times you made the same stupid mistake or how many people deeply despise you. You still can change.

That's why is

So

Important

To have a Lucio route where it's shown he can choose to be better, no matter how deeply wrong his past deeds were.

The moment we understand this concept is the one our guilt becomes less heavy and we start being less judging of others. Granted.

This doesn't mean you're entitled to people's forgiveness - but the fact that YOU are willing to forgive yourself means that you can really change and forgive others. If some people won't forgive you, it will be fine, no need to hate them: you can always find new people to gift your better self to.

This is what happens to Lucio. Will Asra ever truly forgive him for making him and orphan and killing you? No. But this doesn't mean that Lucio will be a villain forever. He will be still able to change, become a good man and gift his goodness to the MC.

As MC says to Julian: you can always come back.

3. What it takes to change

Now, I'm in general rly humble when talking about mental health bc I'm no doctor nor therapist. But living with people who went through hell and managed to survive (and knowing people who sadly didn't), made me able to figure a couple of things. So, brace yourself. I'm about to give you the ultimate recipe of healing.

It takes two things:

Compassion and Accountability

When all is said and done, this things are the two main things it takes to change and heal. Compassion for believing you can change and deserve happiness, seeing the world through other people's eyes and accountability to motivate you into stop being a dick and owning the shit you did (so yeah, maybe you should stop blaming your parents for who you are, sry, but it doesn't serves your cause).

and there's one and only one way to get them:

Positive human connections.

That's it. When you go to the bone to it, that's how one can change, heal and survive.

It's reduced to the very bone, simple idea: the whole process is much more complicated and it's ok if you get lost in it. But at the very root, this is it.

And this is WHY Lucio's route it's so great:

MC shows compassion, because they don't recall him doing anything bad to them.

MC helps him being accountable. They doesn't shelter Lucio from his guilt, never.

MC believes in them but NEVER puts up with their shit

MC doesn't believe his lies and doesn't lie to them either. No games: they talk through everything, they're kind but firm and true.

MC helps him accept other people's scorn towards him

I love this route because it's the one where the MC is the most clever. There's a murder mistery? Let's ask the ghost of the murdered one who did it. Everyone is mad at him? Let them be. Not bc "he deserves it", but bc people are entitled to be mad at him and to their idea about him. He has troubles with his mother? Don't get between them. Listen, understand, let them unravel their shit. Ghosts are mad at him? Sit with him, but don't do his emotional weightlifting. Mc puts Lucio in front of his deeds and holds his hand as he deals with them.

Folks: THIS is how it's done irl.

4. No dumb justification & the danger of privilege

There are a lot of shows about "why villains are like this" that paint them as a poor misunderstood saint who was mistreated by their parents. Like in Once Upon a Time or the Disney Villain's Live actions. I hate that stuff because they distort the plot to make the villain a misunderstood anti heroe who was a victim all along, so he's justified.

Guess what: they're not. If you actions are evil there's no justification. No retelling of your story: you made very bad choice and were an AH and that's it.

This is what happens with Lucio: in his route his story doesn't gets to be retold. It's an honest story about how Lucio, the villain, can choose to be the better man and benefit from it. It's a story about the inherent dangers of Privilege:

Lucio's story shows how dangerous privilege can be: he wasn't hold accountable for his actions while he was alive, bc he was pretty, powerful and rich. He loses his privilege, he gets his ass kicked, he find motivations to change in his desire to be loved. I know irl folks who got to adulthood without having to face how shitty they were bc of social privilege. It literally kept them from changing, healing and be happy. So beware, folks. Your privilege might be harming you in the first place, and the day you will face who you truly are without it WILL come. The later, the worst.

So, this is why I love Lucio's route. It's relatable and helps us to find the courage to face our demons, knowing that we can change. Knowing that we can forgive ourselves and accept others' scorn. It WILL be hard, it WILL be painful, there WILL be consequences, but eventually it will be worth the hassle.

So, long live the goatman, for he can change. And so do we.

[multiplicity-positivity]

To our followers:

It has never been a goal of ours to police other people’s lived experience, much less their online experience. However, this is a shift we feel is necessary for us to make.

It is with a heavy heart that we are adding to our DNI followers and fans of @/sophieinwonderland.

Why?

This has everything to do with racism within the plural community. We have seen many conversations circling recently about tulpamancy terminology, its harm, and how it directly negatively affects marginalized groups (specifically Asian/Tibetan Buddhists).

As a white system, we believe it is crucial to center the voices of affected marginalized groups when discussing issues that directly concern them. Because of this, a few members of our system have compiled a list of testimonies from Buddhist POC involving their thoughts on tulpamancy language. We’d encourage everyone to check out that document, which we will link below:

The fact of the matter is, Sophie of @/sophieinwonderland has ignored, brushed off, or flat out denied the concerns and struggles of Buddhist POC regarding their language being appropriated. She has fearmongered to warp this issue into one that centers tulpas as those being discriminated against, rather than the racial and religious minorities whose culture has been stolen.

We cannot stand for this. As a white system aiming to unlearn racial biases and push for antiracism in our spaces, we feel it is imperative to bring this issue to light on our positivity blog and adjust our DNI accordingly.

We are more than happy to answer questions for anyone who is still confused or has concerns. And we will include a small FAQ below a cut to answer questions we anticipate may arise.

Thank you so much for reading, everyone! Of course, we cannot ensure that 100% of our interactions are coming from people who don’t support this user. However, we can rely on the basic human decency and respect of others and trust that they will respect our wishes on this matter. You are welcome to unfollow us, block us, do what you have to do. But we will not budge on this matter until the voices of Buddhist people of color have been acknowledged and recognized!

FAQ regarding this change:

Q) Can tulpa systems still interact?

A) Yes! Our biggest issue is with this particular user’s unwillingness to listen to racial and religious minorities concerning issues that directly affect them. While we are moving away from tulpamancy language ourself, we understand it may take some time for others to make this change for themselves!

Q) What terminology can be used instead of tulpamancy that is not cultural appropriation?

A) Thoughtform, parogenic/paromate, paro/paromancy, willogenic/willomate!

Q) I don’t want to have to choose between y’all and Sophie! What can I do?

A) In this situation, we politely ask you to choose anyway. And if that is too difficult a choice to make, we can make it for you and ask you to go ahead and unfollow us.

Q) What about (x user) who is a pro-tulpa Buddhist Asian/Tibetan?

A) Currently, we have resources from 8-9 individuals expressing concerns over tulpamancy language. If we can hear from a similar number of actual Asian/Tibetan Buddhists stating otherwise, we will happily reconsider our stance. It’s important to listen to people of color when they say something hurts them.

[mysticmellowlove]

Some women believe the hottest profession a man can have is architecture. Some believe it’s a doctor. Some believe it’s being a house husband…. I believe the hottest job a guy can have is being your assistant.

Having a househusband is a cute idea, I mean really coming home to a clean house and a husband waiting to serve you. Butttttt…. What if you are a business women? I mean an international business women. Multiple businesses, seminars, meetings, global affairs- the list goes on.

We are making moves, this world has too many problems we have to solve. We can’t even see ourself just working one 9-5 job and coming home. Work is life. We have extreme ocean waste to solve and air pollution and toxic chemicals in food. How are we going to spend time with our husband? Alas! He is our own personal assistant. That means he gets to travel with us wherever we go whenever we go. We need him 🥺 he has all of our schedules.

It works out perfectly because he never wanted to be away from us and work is life but life isn’t worth living if he isn’t there with us. We depend on each other for multiple reasons. Isn’t such a cute idea though? Like a literal work god and her assistant husband. Everyone sees this tall intimidating looking motherfucker at her seminars holding a tablet with her busy schedule to the side of the stage and most people don’t even realize that’s he’s her husband. Everyone just thought he carried her Lattes. Little do they know that he has been her only lover for forever and all her minutes are basically consumed by him. She loves it! She gets to work and never has to be away from her little Pookie bear ❤️

Xoxo, 🍪

note; cookie i see you~ this is so cute and soft and perfect! just a lil something something on top of this wonderful little drabble.

You sighed as you finally slumped into the couch of the hotel your husband had booked for you. The front door clicked shut as he came into the room, looking over at your still work-tense figure. He had a simple smile on his face, a content look as he wandered over and knelt down to get your heels off your feet.

A sigh of relief left you as you finally tucked your legs underneath you, your head pressed against the plush cushion as you watched him bumble around calmly. He set down his satchel, holding all of your files and important notes, and his tablet before he too basically jumped onto the couch next to you.

A bubbly laugh left you as he laid his weight on your side, his stubble tickling your shoulder as he sighed out contently.

"Today was a massive success right?" He grinned as he tilted his head up to look at you. warmth filled you as you looked down at him, a smile on your face. He had been so accepting and hardworking. You knew he was a little concerned at the start of your relationship. You were such a busy person and he was so connected to his home country but love had a funny way of making things work.

Now you two travelled the world. You were a renowned awareness worker and he was your dedicated assistant. Without him, you'd be lost. He had all your schedules, meetings, details and factsheets. He managed your finances and ensured you two always had a place to crash at the end of the day. He also did vacations and tailoring, he was a one-man show and you loved him so dearly for it.

You turned your body so he was lying on your stomach and caressed his face, holding his cheeks between your hands. Dipping forward you gave him a chaste kiss on his mouth, relaxing into him as you two were finally alone.

"I'd say so." You whispered as he sighed into you. You loved your work but this was your favourite part of the day. Spending time with your loving husband, nothing could beat it.

[amysubmits]

I dont know what to realistically expect when its time for me and my Daddy to have our first intercourse. Lately in our sexting and having playtime over text and calls, as we are currently in a ldr, its been all about him.. I am worried that it will be like that as well when its time. it will be my first time having sex, and me reading alot of erotica and romance and intimacy in fiction books and novels doesn't help that I want it to be as perfect as I read about, but I know its unrealistic.. I have asked him multiple times in the many months we have dated what's it gonna be like or what are we gonna do when its time for sex and he always said that he will take good care of me and we will do it all depending on me and how I am feeling and that its different when we are sexting and playing over the phone and how it will really be, that sometimes he gets rougher just to get things going and exciting over the phone but when its time it wont be like that because he knows that I am a virgin and that I am inexperienced.. I hope you understand how I feel and please advice me..

Hey Anon :)

I don't mean to suggest that I assume most people lose their virginity as minors because that certainly isn't the case. I was an adult myself, actually. At the same time, because it's not uncommon for people to experience this as minors, when I get anonymous messages referencing virginity I always feel the need to say that I am hoping and assuming you are at least 18, and if not you shouldn't be on my blog.

With that out of the way...

I think your worries are really understandable to me given how you're facing the unknown, and given the nature of your sexting themes. It's awesome that you've raised those questions/concerns to your Daddy multiple times! Communicating things like that are so important but can be so easy to shy away from doing as a new sub so I'm so glad to hear that you did that! And it sounds like he tried to reassure you that he won't push for anything that is too much for you or you aren't enjoying in the moment, which, in my opinion, is exactly what should be the case.

I think the #1 priority should be making this an enjoyable, non-scary experience for you. I can imagine being in your shoes and wanting to be this "perfect sub" based on your understanding of the 'perfect sub' from erotica and stuff, as well as wanting to make some of your sexting experiences a reality. I can understand the instinct to put that pressure on yourself. However, I'd really encourage you to try to be aware of you putting that pressure only ourself, and trying to resist it. Honestly, I think a lot of subs if they were to write out what "perfect sub" or "ideal sub" would be like...their description would not be the healthiest view of what a sub is. Many of us, even when we logically know otherwise, still hold onto some parts of your brains that think that we'd be a "better sub" if we had the least amount of limits possible, or if we needed as little as possible from our doms and were able to make everything about their pleasure. But those are really toxic ideas if taken seriously so it's really important to resist those - at any/every phase of D/s in my opinion, but especially when you're new to sex. Even as a sub with a few years of experience, I still find myself needing to be more vocal about how things feel, or do more guiding when I am trying something new to me. I think it's healthiest for me to do that, though - so we try to prioritize being healthy over being as subbie as possible.

Right now, your partner can't possibly know what feels good to your body during sex because you have no experience with that yourself, so you don't really know your own body in that way...so he can't either. And with that being the case, the best way to explore your body and learn what does and doesn't feel good to you, is to let you do a lot of guiding the situation in your early experiences. How fast, how deep, what position or angle, etc should all be based on what feels best to you, in my opinion. So that will likely look like starting really slow, and then you letting him know if you want deeper or faster or slower or if the angle is uncomfortable or painful at all, etc.

Frankly, it may not feel super submissive if you find that you feel the most submissive when you're in a passive role. You'll be leading the situation somewhat....but submitting isn't all about being passive. Cautiously exploring your body together while giving him information about how it's feeling for you, is going to give him lots of great information that he can someday use to lead your sexual interactions more himself. So, I think you could still very much see the experience as an act of submission as you'd be serving your Daddy and your relationship really well by doing that. To me, this route would be the most ideal.

At minimum though, I'd suggest trying to come up with specific boundaries that you have for this first experience. I assume that part of your fear of not knowing what to expect comes from fears that X, Y or Z will happen. Based on what your ask said, I'd think some of your fears might be that the interact would be too focused on his pleasure and not enough on your own, and another might be that you'd worry he'll be really rough like he's been in your sexting. If those assumptions are accurate, I'd share those specific concerns with him and set roughness as a limit. With PIV being the goal, he may need some time focused on him as far as a handjob or blowjob to get him hard. But if that is the case, you could still agree to something like...the situation will be as focused on you as reasonably possible, and agreeing to some sort of check-in related to whether you've had enough time specifically focused on you. And if you have any other specific concerns or fears, should be set as limits if at all possible. I say 'if at all possible' because if your fear is something like...being afraid that you won't be able to orgasm, then that isn't necessarily something you can set as a hard limit as your body just may not cooperate. But if your fears are things like...you're worried about being tied down during sex, or you're worried about a certain position or something, those are things you can (and in my opinion should) set as limits for your first experience.

In a nutshell, I think it'd be really tough for this first experience to be "too selfish" on your side. I'd encourage you to see being vocal about your preferences, goals, fears, dislikes, etc so that you guys can customize this as closely as possible to making it go as well as possible for you. If you want to someday submit to his wishes and preferences in bed, that's awesome, but I don't think the first few times you have sex should be about that. You have to learn your body first and understand your body a little bit yourself before you can really give control of your body over to anyone else.

I'll also add that while it's understandable to hope your first time is amazing, I'd try to adjust that expectation a little bit. I'm not at all saying it's not possible that your first time will be great, because for some people it absolutely is. And I don't think you should have too much fear that it'll go terribly, because as long as you both respect each other and communicate (as it sounds like you guys do!), it shouldn't go terribly. But, there is a lot of gray area between 'great' and 'awful'. My guess is that most people's first time is more in the neutral or slightly positive area. But when you think about your first time doing anything else...it's kinda understood that the first time won't be your best experience ever with most things. The first time with most things is a learning experience and if that's what your first time with sex primarily is...that's still a really good thing that can lead you to the "fireworks and rainbows" feeling sexual experiences you want to have later on.

I hope something in here helped. Sorry this is so long. Best of luck to you.

[venusvxen]

On The Multiverse and Manifestation

I remember watching Dr. Strange Multiverse of Madness a few months ago and America Chavez said something like “I’m the only version of myself in the universe because when I close my eyes and try to dream I can’t”. That line was something I found interesting because I applied it to manifestation but wasn’t able to make a lot of strides with that knowledge because i was still very 3D reliant at the time.

A few weeks ago, I watched this really cool documentary on youtube about the different levels of the Universe and all the theories about different worlds. It said something about the level 1 multiverse and how everything you can possibly conceive to happen in the universe HAS to happen by force somewhere in the universe.

Now this was what got me thinking and I found it interesting how even scientists really teeter the line of spiritual law without knowing it. This knowledge has helped me have a bit more confidence in my new assumed states because of this:

Whenever we assume a new state. A state that’s grander than what we’ve ever lived in our lives, we may think that we’re kidding ourselves. We have to read up on a bunch of success stories of people doing the impossible to even get the confidence to test and trust the law and then eventually trust ourselves.

I think this is because we think we’re creating something new as opposed to experiencing something that already is.

We drill the whole creation is finished line in our heads but when we’re manifesting that seems “impossible” like wealth, fame, big cars, big houses… this may seem futile because we feel like…. we are simply just creating something and there’s no way it could possibly push out.

But like America said,, the only reason you’re even able to conceive of yourself in this different state is because there is a version of you in the multiverse living it right now. If not your imagination would deny you and you would have to stay within the rigid lines that set the boundaries of your CR. The only reason you’re able to dream a new dream is because somewhere in the multiverse there is a version of you who is living this. You’re not creating them, you’re simply just channeling them.

I’ve been thinking a lot lately about feelings when manifesting and I feel like emotions really are a channel from one version of you to another. I asked myself why am i able to feel this intense rush of euphoria when I think about my new state? It’s because I’m channeling the version of myself that already has it. I’m BEING that person in imagination, transporting myself to that line of reality and experiencing what they would feel.

*As I typed this I just had a new epiphany lol*

Think of it as this visual

You’re merging with this new version of yourself. Because consciousness is a void and is not limited to the states it occupies and is everything and nothing at once, that version of you is essentially lending you (your inner man) their thoughts, their feelings, all of it to feel and occupy. You’re fusing with this version of yourself and being them everytime you re enter the state… The more we re enter the state the more it becomes natural.. The more the divide between Them and Us becomes blurred and we become One..

The only reason we’re able to feel what this version of ourself would feel if we had the money, fame, love, house, or car… is because a version of us in the multiverse exists with all of that waiting for our occupancy and our emotions/feeling/acceptance is a bridge between us and them.

Think of feelings as the umbilical chord. A little thread between mother and child except it’s a chord that ties the you of your present reality to the you of another one…

What’s important to remember is that all of this already exist. All of it. We wouldn’t be able to conceive of any of it if it didn’t. Science already agrees on the multiverse theory. We wouldn’t be able to shift states and feel something new if there was only One version of us in the entire multiverse. We’re not creating anything. I hope that gets rid of some resistance the way it did for me. The super cool awesome state of self i choose to repeatedly occupy is not something i’ve made up. it’s not a figment of my imagination. it’s me choosing to be a version of myself that already exists.

In short, your desire was true as soon as you conceived it because there is a living breathing version of you somewhere in the multiverse who is experiencing it. it’s not some make believe conception of self you’re creating by yourself and have to wait for years to be see finalized.

The 3D and the lack of presence of your desire in the 3d isn’t what decides if a state is real or not because there is a REAL version of YOU somewhere out there genuinely experiencing it. A version of you that has a heartbeat and all. Your desire is not something you’re creating with play dough it already IS. This is something that has helped me even when I felt like giving up at times or felt like I was kidding myself. Sometimes saying “the 4d is the only reality” isn’t helpful enough and I understand that completely. We can never see different versions of ourselves with our own eyes we can only feel their emotions and eventually become them if we like the states they come with enough.

Now if the emotions and the intensity of our emotions/acceptance dictates when something will push out you may ask why your desire isn’t here yet and honestly… idk.. That’s something I ask myself as well too I won’t lie. Because I feel the emotions of my state with such intensity yet I don’t see evidence in my 3D. I choose to persist despite that. Not in trying but in being. If i’m honestly lately 3D validation hasn’t been on my mind that much because I remind myself the only goal is to transform within and feel the emotions of the new self within. Everything else will figure itself out eventually, I choose to have faith in that even if it seems futile at times.

I also want to touch on states as Edward talked about them.

All of these different versions of ourselves are ours . They don’t belong to anyone else but Us.

Putting one state on a pedestal above another is what causes you to feel like you have to do more work to attain one when in reality they’re all states and they’re all yours. I cant articulate the “they’re all yours” part enough because it’s all different versions of yourself. Why would you shun yourself from accepting certain parts of yourself? Why would you let anyone tell you you have to work for the good states when they’re all You and exist on the same plane… that’s just being too invested in the 3D world because when you come back to self (4D) you realize that you get to be greedy and bounce between states. Seriously you have ownership over all of them. It’s like someone trying to take away a toy you have or tell you you can’t play with something you bought with your own money… that doesn’t make sense? It’s yours…. I bought it?? It’s mine??

This was a lot but I hope this made some sense. bye now

[dreaminginthedeepsouth]

Edinburgh Scotland 1920

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“People say “what can I do”……

All the important changes happen from within ourself, not out there…

So my recommendations might be simple. Begin by cultivating a sense of awe and wonder, rather than clever, clever knowingness about the extraordinarily complex and beautiful cosmos, which it is a pure gift that we have been given a life in.

Think about what we are to do with it and in order to do that well, have compassion to others and all the living world, not a sense of aggressive embattlement against forces that we quite probably misunderstand.

And to begin to adopt a sense of the little that we know….in other words a kind of, not willing ignorance, but the beginning of true knowing which is when we recognise how little that we know….that is the first step towards true knowledge.

For this to happen , we need to understand ourself anew….know thyself….we need every insight we can get into what we are doing to ourself, to life itself and to our inexpressively beautiful and complex world.

I hope I may have here offered one such insight however small.

The work is great, but we are capable of greater things than we know.“

~ Dr Iain McGilchrist, 'Darwin Lectures 2024'

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“The reciprocal truth of the observer changing what is observed is that what is observed changes the observer. This was a view espoused by Goethe, and not just in the obvious ways you might imagine. According to him, we literally grow faculties. He held that an object properly contemplated generates in the beholder the faculty proper to its own perception: ‘Every new object, well contemplated and clearly seen, opens up a new organ within us’. Contemplation of the world in a spirit of openness and humility fundamentally enlarges our being, where dogma and complacency simply narrow it.

Equally it enables the greater reality of the cosmos – whatever it may be – to fulfil itself through us.”

~ Iain McGilchrist, 'The Matter with Things: Our Brains, Our Delusions, and the Unmaking of the World'

[Thanks Ian Sanders]

[theambitiouswoman]

Hi sweetheart <3

I’m having a bit of a mental dilemma at the moment...when I was a kid, I thought conformity was key and really let my shyness sit in the forefront for most of my life, thinking that was what my family and society wanted from me.

But now that I'm in my early 20's and have to make a career decision I can't push this feeling down any further. I know now that I'm meant to live my life more publicly and really go for things creatively and in the entertainment field. It feels completely undeniable that I really do LOVE the spotlight, and the right place for me is in entertainment - though I'm too embarrassed to act on it. How do I become comfortable with truly being seen...whilst also feeling my loved ones judging me for it? 

Sending all my love xoxo

Hi babygirl 💞

It is great that you've realized your passion! It seems like you are ready to embrace it, but are worried about how your loved ones will react because they might have different ideas? Embracing your true self and pursuing your dreams is a brave step. The key is to first accept and love yourself for who you are and what you want.

Talk to your loved ones honestly about your dreams and why they make you happy. They may come to understand and support your dreams, especially when they see your dedication and happiness. You may feel guilty for disappointing them. You may still have some doubts because it goes against everything you were taught to believe. Self doubt, family expectations, fear of judgement, risks.. are all normal feelings when we are venturing into something new and different and really creating a life for ourself. Like I said, pursuing your dreams takes courage and we will always have these mental hurdles to overcome on the way. But we have to want things so much, that our fear doesn't matter.

Getting comfortable with being seen, especially in careers like entertainment, can take time. Start by accepting and liking yourself for who you are, including your desire for attention. Try to replace negative thoughts with positive ones. Build up your confidence by practicing and learning more about what you love to do. You can begin with smaller audiences and gradually work your way up. It's important to remember that everyone starts off as a beginner and everyone makes mistakes. Just put yourself out there. Do not be afraid to be your authentic self. You can't live your life for other people.

Follow your heart <3

[ghost-rule0]

"You are important to me Vash"

warning. This hasn't been proveread at all since I am on lunch break rn and wanted to write down some dynamic ideas for my upcoming Vash x Reader fanfic.

Enjoy!

Leaning back in the comforting plush of the backseat they exhaled. The otheres where out trying to find a hotel that was still open at this time while Vash and Y/N had to stay back. For one Vash was basically grounded so that Maryl could make sure he doesnt accidently attract more trouble than they already had while Y/N was a walking disaster, similar size as the human typhon himself.

The group had picked them up not long ago as the (h/c)nette was cluelessly walking around the dunes, covered in dirt and dried blood. Funny enough Meryl had almost ran them over, thinking it was a walking corpse just in time before roberto took over the wheel.

The situation was comedically similar to the moment they had picked up Wolfwood some weeks prior but the funerul palor worker just ignored their presence by completly oversleeping the encounter. The blond gunslinger on the other hand was uncomfortably and nervously sitting beside the practically half dead person beside him.

Asking time and time again if they were ok or if they needed anything. Y/N found it adorable that the stranger was so concered for themselves telling him its just a scratch while Meryl was screaming at them that they was practically dying on their backseet as the reporter slammed on the gas, racing to the next town to get them medical assistance.

Back to the current time it had passed a week since that accident and Y/N had to still wear mutiple layers of Bandages all over their body. Leaving a hurt stranger and Vash the walking danger attraction Stampede in the same car might have been not the best idea but for the sake of Merlys dying nerves it was the best option they had.

Over the past week Vash and Y/N seemingly got along very well making the silence between them almost comforting more than arkward. Both of them tho had deep shadows under their eyes, showing neither of them had a good sleep in a while.

"When did you last sleep Vash..." the bored voice of the walking mummie broke the silence as the blond man looked at them in confusion. "Yesterday? This morning? What do you mean...". His opposite hummed at the question before asking one more "I mean a good eight hours of sleep. Not your naps you take in the car". The man pressed his lips in a flat line as he starred outside. "Dont worry about that. Its more important that I am awake in case something happens"

"Why do you think that?" they replied, pressing further as the gunslinger started to drown in his thoughts. "To....to protect you all? Why else...?"

The answer didn't seem to satisfie Y/N as they turned to him. "Thats not a valid answer. We can look after ourselfs so you don't need to sacrifice your health over that"

The walking plant chuckled "don't think about it I really don't need so much sleep. As long as you all are ok I am fine too-"

Silence. This time not comfortable to as the blond nervously chuckled at the suddenly quiete mummie beside him.

"Vash" they spoke up, starring at him. "Y-yes?" he nervously looked at them, expecting some sort of scolding as he was used to from Meryl for not sleeping enough.

"Your well beeing is important to me. You are important"

The human typhon himself just starred blanky at his hands. Subconsciously fidgeting with his fingers as he didn't know how to answer.

It had been a long since he was told something like that. Last time probebly by Rem back when he and his brother were still young.

He didn't even react when his companion sighed and softly pulled his head on their shoulder, softly playing with his hair.

"How about we take turns, and you sleep first as I look out for danger ok? Let someone else protect you for once blondie..."

He didn't really react, just nodded as his mind was still clouded with questions. But his eyes just slowly closed as the sleep deprivation he was on started pull him in, knocking him out almost imidiently.

Y/N carefully took off his glasses and put them away so they wouldn't break from accidently laying in them as they grinned and leaned against the window. Thinking to themselves.

'I am such a good liar' before falling asleep themselves. Both finally getting a good rest for the first time in a while.

Extra:

Roberto let his ciggerette fall down into the sand before he stepped on it. He, Wolfwood and Meryl finally had found a hotel that still had enough rooms avoidable for the group so he was assigned to get the walking distaster duo out of the car. But as he saw trough the window that both insomaniacs were knocked out cold he decided to just smoke a cigarette, waiting if they would wake up before putting a blanket over the two and walking back to the in. Smiling faintly to himself as he shot the two a last glance.

[pluralcultureis]

This *will* turn into a vent BUT

Plural Culture is haveing some TONE(S) OF VOICE as a severe triggers.

Hyper Empathic Autistic Plural Culture is hyperfixating on voice and language as a child so you don't get in trouble when you don't understand people's tone. To the point you understood it too well and created a trigger for yourself.

Tone-Triggered- Plural Culture is now having a low empathy Autistic partner system who will accidentally trigger you with their tone and having to delve DEEP into your truama to figure out how you learned tone but most of it just being (re-)traumatizing or emotion baced so you can't help them understand with it

Hyper empathy x Hypo Empathy partner system culture is finding it nearly impossible to take your ps at face value because of truama but also them finding it near impossible to understand you because you are collectively so emotion baced.

Tone-Triggered Plural Culture is DESPERATELY WISHING that you could just "get over" your tone truama, but not being able to, then wishing the autism community didn't harp so fully on wanting "nerotypicals" (I put Nerotypicals in "" bc istg the whole Autistic community forgets hyper emapth autistics exist, or that there are litterally other disorders that understand tone) to just "take them at their word" but rather for people to figure out a logical way to explain tone and it's importance because NO MATTER HOW LOW YOUR EMPATHY YOU STILL CONVAY ANGER AND IT CAN LITERALLY SEND PEOPLE INTO FULL BLOWN INTERNAL MELTDOWNS AND FLASHBACKS - but everyone is so FULLY CONVINCED that they just need to "get rid of tone" but that's not how it fucking works-

Just because you aren't aware of it doesn't mean that it just goes away.

Plural Culture is just wondering if we need to cut ourselfs off from literally everyone because no matter what we do or how hard we try the tone trigger dosent go away and is instead the easiest way to shut us down and make us have a melt down and flashbacks without us haveing much to any say in it..... we just want to be healthy and normal, to just be safe but FUCKING "TONE" makes us remember how unsafe we used to be??? Wtf???? We are just so done with our own triggers at this point-

Oh and lastly plural Culture is being so completely fed up with your own damn triggers

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[pumpkzsafeplace]

bear and babbles 🧸ྀི⋆˚✿˖°

welcome to the third episode of bear and babbles!! we're both happy that everyone is liking the segment so much!! daddy gets a little nervous talking- so i'm glad everyone is loving it so much! <3 ૮ ˶ᵔ ᵕ ᵔ˶ ა.

key code │ 🧸 - daddy │ 🍼 - pumpkin.

what is bear & babbles!

bear & babbles is a cute thing that we decided to create to help talk about agere in a safe environment! we will be answering questions (both me & daddy!) and answering some emails!!

i think it'll be fun to see both point of views too, from a little (and someone who struggles with mental health) + a caregiver whose been in the role for a while now.

all emails will be addressed anonymously, please don't include real names!

today's email: bad news

this segment is dealing all about dealing with bad news & how to not let it affect us as much as it does!

˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗

🍼 : bad news is such an icky thing to get back.

for me it's so easy to blame myself for the bad news i reiceve, like it's my own personal faliure that something didn't go right. it used to affect a lot of my meltdowns too (both autistic & bpd)- which then made things extra icky :<

i think one of the hardest things i've learned in that sometimes bad things just happen. it's no ones fault, it's not bad karma coming to haunt me, it's not repercussions for a bad choice i made years ago.

sometimes you're just dealt a bad set of cards.

& now i like to use those times to learn and grow a little, build up my confidence a little so that i'm not punshing myself as soon as bad news get's announced. even going to the extreme of patting myself on the back and telling me i did the best i could at the time.

something that helped me a lot (especially when it came to school & exams) was reminding myself that plan A doesn't always have to go right, that's why there are plan's B, C, D, E - and as many as it takes for me to land back in the right direction.

i will get to the end one way or another, i just need to take a different path is all.

for example, i failed my math's & biology exam back and school and was nearly denied from college, i thought that despite my hard hours studying, it was already decided for me that i wasn't going to make it to university.

& yet, here i am with a bachlors degree in a smart field. i got there in the end! i just had a longer way to go than most & u know what, that was fine too, because sometimes the slow and steady approach is what we need sometimes to mentally prepare us for the next chapter of our lives.

🧸 : I think bad news needs to happen sometimes to get us where we need to be. We need to experience new things, and we can't do that if we're given access to everything we wanted. Not only would it make us less determined, but it would lessen our chances of fighting for what we believe we're worth.

Though geting the news is never fun.

I think having people around that support you and can be a shoulder to lean on when things get tough is super important. Both me and Pumpkin have helped each other through some of our toughest battles, and I know I wouldn't have carried on pushing if it wasn't for her.

We're also not as weak as we think we are.

We're a lot stronger than we give ourself credit for. And if you're dealing with some bad news right now, just know that this feeling won't last forever. You will bounce back, and might even grow and learn something from the experience.

You can make it in this world, and I wish you the very best of luck for reaching your end goal.

˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗˗ˏˋ ꒰ ♡ ꒱ ˎˊ˗

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[anameistoohard]

could we ask you how y’all came to terms with continuing hrt after discovering your a system? cause it’s really hard for us and i think i might be the only one who wants to continue hrt and that’s really hard because i couldn’t imagine being off it but i can also feel it hurting a lot of the others in here

(minor tw for si)

"When you can compromise, compromise. When you can't compromise, do the thing that causes the least amount of harm."

That has been our moto throughout this journey. It's important to understand this doesn't mean "cause harm to the least amount of people" though. After all, ten people getting nicked on the arm is still less harm than one person getting stabbed in the heart, imo anyway.

What constitutes the least harm is subjective. It's different for every person and every system. For us, stopping hrt, knowing we could never be on it again, that would be life-threateningly harmful. We were suicidal for about a third of our life. The idea of one day starting hrt was our only respite.

Our guys get dysphoria from it though. They need a solution too. They deserve as much compassion and respect as the rest of us. However, because we went through our natal puberty, it's a lot easier for them to be perceived the way they want to be.

Hrt has pushed peoples perception of us to somewhere in the middle. Sometimes people gender us male, sometimes female, and sometimes people are confused and don't know how to perceive us.

Staying in the middle is kind of our ideal, our compromise. Just maybe with a bit more control. That way we can dress fem, maybe start trying to wear makeup, and ultimately get perceived as a woman (and see ourself that way too). But then, when we want, we can wear a binder (still need to get one) and masc clothes and get perceived as a man. Functionally-gender-fluid if you will :p

I don't think we will ever be fully rid of dysphoria, but I have high hopes that we'll be able to make it tolerable for everyone in our system.

I hope y'all can find your compromise 💜

-Taylor (she/her)

[thebirdarts]

The Death of Family

blood stains, innocent blood stains harder. The blood of those you love stains forever. For prompt 6 of @owlcatober , family [click for better quality and notes are under the cut]

this did not happen but also this is what actually happened, the true version of events, not whatever cold and callous series of events actually took place in the mansion on that night.

this is the metaphorical representation of what happened.

her best friend dying in her arms, white dress getting stained by the blood. fingers intertwined the same way as when they practiced dancing. she dies with a smile on her lips and muras eyes are heavy with grief, taking in every detail as the blood pours out from the gash marring her friends beauty. something in her shatters at the same time as the woman in her arms heart stops beating. something shatters so badly that all is left is glass dust, impossible to put back together. in the warped light the blood looks pink and the shadows on her dress seem akin to the bloodstains on her friends. the only thing unstained, the last gift, a wreath of pure white flowers.

What is left after you kill the only person you let in your heart, other than to become a monster.

so this is entirely for the symbolism. mura wouldnt have her classic hairstyle yet [hell i didnt colour in hair or eyes because muras current ones are dyes/changed] and they both would be younger and given shes using gonna use the body to set up someone she would not have time for a melodramatic finger-entwined kinda embrace.

but the drama!!!!

the parallels to the pieta are intentional [but hey what dead body cradled in someones arms cant be related to it]

her friend is the sacrificial lamb for muras permanent decent into villainy. with her friend gone she has no reason to care for others beyond her own survival.

in many ways this moment is more important that mura overtaking her father, this moment seals her on her trajectory. in many ways this froze mura in time, and planted the largest crack in the wall of her image of her fathers excellence.

ive mentioned it before but the only way for mura to be happy and anywhere near normal, would be someone interfering before this point. as soon as her friends heart stopped beating shes locked in her path and beliefs.

it has a roundabout connection to the prompt, it damages her relationship with her father, and also regardless of the label, her kinship with her freind is a powerfull bond, and their extend lifetimes meaning that the growth they shared was not over years but decades, makes her so important to mura, and in some ways family.

an alternate title would be 'death of innocence' or rather the death of muras last shred of compassion and love.

the two fracture points are mura and her friends hearts. i will use the shattered glass motif till i overuse it.

also yes the braid around muras bun thing in the future is a replacement for the wreath of flowers her friend gave her. heartless my ass. for somone who wants nothing more than to forget what happened she sure doesnt let herself forget.

anyway! girlbesties!!! dont we all kill each other and parts of ourself just for the approval of greater forces!!! betray and scar each other in ways that will last forever!!! whats a friend but a sacrifice waiting to happen!!

notes on the piece over, this is now a personal update:

so this was delayed cause i overexerted myself, unfortunately this means my weekend to relax and do some more prompts is now spent testing the limits of how many painkillers i can take. im mostly annoyed, but hey! still have plenty of jojos to watch /read, and ds9 & the expanse are up next on my watch-list so its fine that i cant move any muscle connected to my shoulders without crying in pain! please ignore the pile of corsework i have to do!

this isnt at a level of quality that i would like it to be, but i am happy with it. no artist ever is fully satisfied with their work, its just this time there is a larger distance than normal.

these notes have been long! thank you for reading so far! i hope your weekend is going well!