#cw dysphoria venting

[dkettchen]

[diefakeakechi]

"4 Years Without Rain"

here's a vent comic i made using shuake (my muses) to express my bottled and repressed emotions about my first love and experiencing gender dysphoria. while i been taking time to heal and work on myself i uncovered a lot of feelings i never realized i had still in me and reflecting on 16 year old me from the perspective of a 20 year old :) enjoy

[endless-v0id]

I hate being human

I hate not having paws

No tail

No pointy, fluffy ears

No sharp teeth

Just human hands

Human fingers

Human legs

Human face

I don't ever recognize myself in the mirror

Because when I look in the mirror, a human stares back.

[karl-marxs-lil-pogchamp]

goddamn being biologically female really is like a lifetime prison sentence without a chance for parole isn't it

[elliott-the-creature]

man I hate my meat suit so much sometimes. it’s so clumsy, it’s legs get so sore sometimes, it’s lungs can’t handle long strenuous exercise or even a brisk run/jog, it’s senses are both too strong and too weak… it doesn’t even look like how I’m supposed to look. it’s got boobs (no hate to boobs I’m just not supposed to have them (plus trans dysphoria goes brrrr)), it has the wrong ears, it has no fur or feathers or scales, it has the wrong shape and size… ugh.

is this what physical alterhumans think of when they think of their human body (talking specifically about non delusional physical alterhumans (no hate to them, I just don’t experience delusions so I can’t relate to them))?? I’m thinking I may be a physical nonhuman, but I know I have a human body, I just don’t identify with it at all, not on any level shape or form. it’s like having to wear a costume all the time—it’s not who I am, even though it’s how I appear to others. idk though!! physical alterhumans, please help! /nf

[another-delta-lover]

[tw/cw: gender dysphoria, vent]

My brother was playing w/ his friend today. They were playing roblox.

Idk what they were talking about, but I heard my brother say "I don't have any brothers, I got two sisters tho!" :(

He doesn't know my gender identity, but it still hurts. Even more bc his friend's name is the same as my chosen name. Each time he calls his name my eyes shine, thinking someone in my family finally called me by my name, but then I remember. It hurts bad. So so bad. Sometimes I hate being trans bc of stuff like that.

[otter-th3rian]

Why am I not a dog? I hate how my body is so much, I wish I was physically a dog, not just mentally.

I want to run on all four legs with ease, to feel the dirt on my paw pads and the wind on my muzzle.

I want to sniff through the grass, to dig in the dirt to find an old bone, then lay down without a care and simply gnaw on the bone.

I want to have long sharp teeth to rip through the flesh of those who try to hurt my pack. I want to chase off the mountain lions and coyotes who try to hunt them, to track them down and make sure that they have a reason to never come threaten my pack again.

I want to herd the sheep that my owner tells me to herd, I want to watch for his signals, to know when and where to move the sheep. I want the sheep to not fear me, but know I am there to help, to save them from any danger.

I want to be a dog, I want to protect, I want to herd, and I want to have a purpose besides being a 'gifted kid'.

[sillycatt8]

this. it’s not ‘feeling insecure’ it can send me into a panic attack and it will sometimes make me want to harm myself.

[kitotherianposting]

I'm a human and I'm very happy !! ( lying to myself. )

[sage-writes-n-coins-mogai]

Ok now I’m pissed- NOT EVERYTHING IS FOR YOU CUNTS!

Arissomei is for RECOVERING radqueers with atypical dysphoria! You know, people who want to GET THE FUCK AWAY FROM YOU?? You lot have your transrapist and transnazi shit. This ONE THING was for us anti-rqs but NOOOOOOOOO

You pro-grooming pro-animal/corpse raping entitled pricks want to be petty, go against the coiner’s wishes and “RECLAIM” it, but what for??? You just can’t stand people finding ways to explain and express their atypical dysphoria without being racist or ablest and drag ex-radqueers back into your little cult, sorry I mean “fult”.

Honestly it’s disgusting how you think you’re in the right here when your community can’t handle a simple dni because people don’t want to be associated with you! I HATE you and everything the “Radqueer movement” stand for, but at least I have decency to LEAVE YOU CUNTS ALONE.

To all you radqueers who think stealing an anti-rq term THAT WASN’T EVEN DISCRIMINATORY IN THE FIRST PLACE, I hope your immune system finds out about your eyes 🖕🏻

[bloodbitts-blog]

Need to run around, chase my tail. Need to fly into the sky and receive pets. Need to trill and to roar. Need to be called a good dragon and get scritches. Need to be loved as a dragon

[januscorner]

It really sucks being trans sometimes, like I want to dress in pink and where skirts and makeup but the dysphoria stops me and the only way I know to counteract it is a big tight undershirt that is very visible under my clothes and has to be taken off after seven hours

[menacewithawolfcut]

tw: vent, mentions of loneliness and war/armed conflict

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i don’t like being a trans queer refugee sometimes because i don’t think i even remember the last time i felt genuinely and unconditionally loved by someone else or completely safe and accepted and you cannot integrate not within the locals not within your diaspora not within people from other countries or cultures and sometimes when i’m not distracted by anything I just want to go home because losing all the better life opportunities by living in the west and the chance of being killed by a missile seems better than the agonising pain of loneliness but you also know that it wouldn’t actually change anything and maybe it would even make everything worse therapy does not help i need either a lobotomy to violently rearrange my brain or to curl up and disintegrate

[karl-marxs-lil-pogchamp]

Something I don't understand is how other AFAB people can just be so blasé about periods. Like, doesn't it depress you guys? Knowing that you're doomed to suffer silently, dozens of times a year for almost the rest of your life? Just because you were born a certain way? How can people be normal about that? I practically (not quite, but almost) go through a whole dang depressive episode every month, I'm literally going through one now.

How do y'all do it? /gen

[otter-th3rian]

Its angering how we can't even wear a collar. I mean, maybe if I was brave enough to ask my mom, but I'm not, and if I were to go out and buy one she would belittle me and call me weird, but its so frustrating to us that not only are we stuck in a stupid fucking human body, but we can't even wear what we are meant to? Talk about a bullshit species.

[soullessjack]

who else does this 😂