#disabled tarot reader

[chicleeblair]

New logo! I made this up of all the images I could find of visible disability in tarot.

Hi! I'm Chelsey. I give in-depth, insightful readings. I'm a queer, disabled woman, and I make a point of being inclusive. Querents can choose their deck from my collection I'll read on most things, with the caveat that I'm not a lawyer, or a doctor (in spite of my Grey's Anatomy obsession). I don't read on dreams/ancestors/guides/angels--they don't hang out with me.

And, know what? I'll be honest. I live in a three-person household on fixed incomes that could get yanked away by a DOGE at any point. I love reading tarot, and every $5 helps, y'know?

I have degrees in English and Children's Literature, and give specialized readings using book-related decks.

Follow me on the socials for thoughts about tarot and disability, sometimes in the same post. bluesky chelseyblair meta chelseyblair89

[dirtyvirgotarot]

PICK-A-CARD: Healing Words For YOU!

I return with more PACs!! This one includes some healing messages and advice. This one speaks inwards, towards your shadow self, or inner child! Whether it's words that may bring you peace, or advice on how to soothe your heart and mind, this is the PAC for you! Choose one or more of these healing stones, and let spirit kiss your boo-boos better! ~~~~~~~~~ Pile 1 (Rose Quartz): Pile 1, you may be mourning the loss of a lover or friends. You may feel like you were not enough for them, or that you have a hard time making new ones. Your self-confidence has taken a blow, but the worst thing you could do is to step back. Manifestation for you is at it's strongest! Don't stop your feelings from letting you go out and have fun. Sometimes, you need to get a little uncomfortable to find something or someone new! Now is the time to put yourself out there, and continue being you. Now is the time to manifest, but you must meet your manifestations in the middle! Sitting around on your booty isn't going to make it happen. Your social life will not just fall into your lap! Take what inspires you, and run with it. believe in yourself. The universe does, and so do I! Manifest. Embrace your energetic side, be the life of the party, and see what happens! Even if 'life of the party' means you dancing with your drink in the corner! Be you, and the right people will gravitate to you like a moth to a flame! 💃 I manifest my life the way I want it to be. Success, abundance and happiness come naturally to me. ~~~~~~~~ Pile 2 (Amethyst): You feel as if something might be wrong, Pile 2. You sense something is off or amiss. You may have been feeling antsy, or anxious for seemingly no reason. You are being called to heed your own inner guidance. Listen to your intuition at this time. Be kind to yourself, nurture your instincts and feelings. Don't call yourself a worrywart. You're not overreacting, and you're not picking up bad signals where you shouldn't be. Listen to your gut, and act on it. If there's nothing physically around you causing these bouts of anxiety and worry, what possibly could be? Reflect using intuition, and if you need to, seek help from a mental health professional. You also may have emotions or feelings that you have been holding in. If you have a person you want to confess feelings to, and if you feel like there might be something mutual between you and this person in your gut, go for it. Don't be afraid! You've been through some rough times, and people may have treated you awfully, even abusively. Listen to your feelings, and nurture them! Honor yourself, Pile 2. You aren't a burden. Your feelings matter. 💗 I am open and aware of messages coming to me, and I trust that they will guide me on my path. ~~~~~~~~ Pile 3 (Moonstone): Pile 3, you are being called to honor your inner child. Honor love, loyalty and all things tender. Open your arms and your heart, it is safe to do so at this time! Even if a situation may typically have you skittish, cautious or even something like being barred by tradition, if you feel the call, let it all go. Gravitate towards what feels right, despite your worries. Use your intuition, of course, and it is more than perfectly okay to be shy, but if your heart truly wants something, seize it! You got this! Embrace every new opportunity with a childlike excitement! You are particularly strong in your intuition. Your connection between you and your inner child may be stronger than most. Now is the time to get together and do things with others. Call a friend you haven't talked to in a while, bake your loved ones some cookies! Embrace nostalgia and sensitivity, even better if it's with someone you love. Hug and nurture your inner child! Don't be afraid to be vulnerable. Laugh, cry, kiss, hug, make love, do what your heart calls for you to do. 🫂 I honor my inner child and feed it all it needs to stay happy, healthy, young and free at heart. ~~~~~~~~ Pile 4 (Topaz):

 Pile 4, you are called to work on your shadow self. You feel like you are crumbling over the weight of your worries, your past. Bitterness, resentment, sadness, grudges, everything. You are having trouble going on with life, you feel as if you are not in control, and can't gain control unless you use force, whether that be with words or actions. You feel as though you can't make sense of the chaos, but that may be because you have been holding off on unpacking your past, or your trauma. You are putting it off out of fear, or unpleasant feelings. You know you won't like what you see, but it is necessary to move forwards and heal. Question your belief systems along the way. What's holding you back? What has created your current situation? It is time to be personally accountable for things you may have done to inflict pain upon others during your own moment of pain. You are more in control than you think, and to help you hone that, do shadow work as well as seeking help from a professional. It's time to stop being miserable. You can take those first steps to healing your shadow self. Things will get better, I promise. 🦋 I only hold positive thoughts. My actions are of pure intent. ~~~~~~~~ I hope these messages were helpful for you all! Please stay strong, and know that you are amazing!! -DV 💜��

[th3-c0g]

(TYPING QUIRK TRANSLATION: One day I’m gonna open tumblr and see our partner posting about what they didn’t expect dating a physically disabled witch.. excited for that)

0ne day I’m g0nna 0pen tumblr and see 0ur partner p0sting about what they didn’t expect dating a physically disabled witch.. excited f0r that

-⚰️🪜

[serepuff]

Had to cancel a tarot reading gig tonight because of the combination of my health not being quite where I'd like it to be yet and the weather being abysmal and I'm training myself to feel better about taking care of my health even if it means a bit of a monetary loss ♡ I'm proud of myself and I'm sure everything will work out for the best as it always does ~

[rat-fck]

.·:¨༺Welcome To My Blog༻¨:·.

Virgo ☼ Scorpio ☾ Capricorn ↑ 32 ENFJ-T they/them trans/queer/disabled

I love video games, shopping, journaling, reading, horror films, Diet Coke, music, and animals I hate being late, cigarettes, my ED, being called “mean”, fighting, Elon Musk, and planes Some of my favorite musicians include My Chemical Romance, BTS, Fall Out Boy, Mitski, So!YoOn!, and Ashnikko

This blog is about eating disorders, disabilities, anti-government, beautiful things, ugly things, music, video games, tarot cards, films (especially horror), and anything else I see fit to post.

[uraharashopslut]

hello pals!

i am a queer disabled artist that is doing their best to make rent and pay for medical treatment in the capitalistic hellscape that is the united states. i read tarot and also accept commissions for fanart (dm for info on that). this is the link to my website!

even if you can’t offer financial support, i’d greatly appreciate if you could reblog this so it’ll reach as many people as possible. 💕 thank you

[cpunkwitch]

Wrote up the draft and gotta get to my work shift now but here you go

so while the concept of a horror movie themed after tarot cards, the characters in the cards coming to life being the horror seems cool

theres still a way to do it without demonizing tarot and making people afraid to try it.

im going to go over what the trailer for tarot does wrong and what i think would work better for a horror movie or general horror concept based off tarot cards.

theres a lot of misinformation right off the bat. the girl spreading out the cards pulls the line "its kind of an unspoken rule not to use someone else's cards"

which is bullshit. you can absolutely use someone else's cards, you can buy yourself a new deck from the store, but if youre using someone else's cards the only thing you need is their consent to do so because thats just basic respect of someone else's property, not anything supernatural.

she also goes on with telling you to do a twelve spread with the 13th in the center, this is a really spread but the layout varies on the reader. however its not the only spread and not the only way you can read tarot cards.

not to mention the descriptions she gives for the major arcana (and it seems like they only use the major arcana), arent accurate either.

tarot reading is entirely up to interpretation both upright and recersed versions of the cards, sure they give you warnings but thw interpretations she layed out fir each one really didn't sit right with me.

if you want to make a horror movie about tarot cards, heres a better way that hopefully doesn't steer people away from learning and reinforce the idea that tarot is a demonic thing.

have the characters find a deck thats based on unknown pre-existing monsters for each card. include the minor arcana for more scares (suit of swords is a trap, suit of coins lurs them in and reveals its also the suit of pentacles etc)

the original artist of the deck chose to document the monsters through the cards to trap them, someone inherited the cards to be their guardian but being a nieve mc they did a reading and released the monsters during a sleepover or something.

instead of giving out misinformation on how to read tarot the audience will just equate the horrors with that one deck during that storyline. you get me?

if youd like to understand more about how reading tarot words with different spreads feel free to ask

ill try to answer while im at work but replies might take a little while

Would you guys be alright with me ranting about the trailer ads I'm getting for the horror movie tarot?

Completely unrelated to this blog but as a tarot reader (we've been into tarot for a handful of years now and take commissioned readings), the whole thing pisses me off.

I just wanna know if I should move it elsewhere or if you guys wouldn't mind listening /srs /gq

[madamspellmans-met-tet]

🔮 Brooklyn 🔮

Lilia Calderu x disabled!reader

tags: Hurt/Comfort, Angst, Implied/Referenced Su!cide, Disability, Chronic Illness, POTS, Angst with a Happy Ending, Loneliness, Alternate Universe

summary: Lilia Calderu, a bar singer in Brooklyn, NY, took on a tenant who suffers from chronic illness. Unbeknownst to them, their fates are intertwined.

wc: ~ 3k

A/N: veeeeerrryyyy personal this one. I know the audience for this is very specific but it's worth it to me if only one person might feel understood and comforted by this.

TRIGGER WARNING as stated in the tags. Reader discretion advised.

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The door fell into the lock behind Lilia, and a breath that had been stuck in her chest expelled like a dislodged piece of apple she'd been choking on all day. She loved her job; she really did, but she was getting old.

Singing in The Tower, the dive bar around the corner, every night between middle-aged drunks and pool players with terrible aim—they refused to play with her these days because she kept taking them for all they'd got—took its toll on the body of a 75-year-old woman.

Her voice was hoarse. She kept clearing her throat as she locked the front door and went into her apartment on the ground floor of the two-story building she owned. The upper one she'd rented out to a young woman she never saw but whose lovely smile she hadn't been able to get out of her head after the first viewing. She'd taken it as a sign that she was the right choice for a tenant. And so far, she's had no complaints.

She shrugged off her black parka, the cigarette she'd smoked on the way home still perched between her lips, and threw it on the rack, unwrapped her scarf, and kicked off her loafers. The bottle of Single Barrel waited for her together with a crystal-cut glass—one of two she owned—on the drink table next to the sitting room door.

Grabbing the bottle by the neck and the glass between her fingers, she settled on the couch, took the cigarette between two fingers, and poured herself a drink. She took a last drag before stubbing it out in the ashtray and trading it for a couple of smoked almonds she tossed into her mouth.

They mixed well with the smooth burn in her throat as she drank, a spicy aftertaste on her tongue, and she picked up the tarot deck she kept on the coffee table. As she set her intention and drew the first card, a thud knocked against the high ceiling, then another. Thud, thud, thud.

-> continue

[cosmic-ghost-hermit]

What Are You Too Hard On Yourself About?

So my camera that I usually take pictures with is not accessible rn so I'm going to be using a different approach to doing pick-a-pile readings. I'm taking inspiration from other tarot readers on tumblr and use aesthetic photos that I find on pinterest and tumblr. let me know if yall like this more than the photo approach!

PILE ONE

Astrology: Virgo, Capricorn, Leo

Cards: The Wheel of Fortune, The Tower, King of Pentacles, En Caul

Song: Queen Of This Shit by Quay Dash

Vibes: ❤️🎂🚗🫖🥊☕️🍎🎲🎸🎹🍒🚑🍅⏰🍉✉️🍓🤍🌶.⚾️🥩🍰

Hello, pile 1! You seem to be hard on yourself for things that aren't even your fault, my friend. I think when you were young a lot of things were blamed on you so now you take responsibility when anything tragic happens. The thing about you is you are the one person that holds together the best in tragedy. It's only after it's all happened that you start feeling like you are to blame. You are not the cause of the wheel turning. Life is a series of up's and down's on the wheel of fortune. I hear you saying things to yourself like "I'm better off not being around" but my friend the wheel would still turn if you weren't. You being in the general vicinity does not make you at fault. You keep the ride on that wheel semi-stable, my dear. Please be kinder to yourself. You are so intelligent and you have the abilities of a seer. You know what to expect from the rollercoaster that life is and you are fantastic at preparing for it. Do not beat yourself up for existing. Do not beat yourself up for making simple mistakes. Accept yourself at every part of life. Love yourself at your best AND your worst.

PILE TWO

Astrology: Pisces, Gemini, Libra

Cards: The Hanged-Man, Page of Swords, Two of Cups, Lady of the Lake

Song: I Wish I Never Met You by Oh Wonder

Vibes: 💙❤️🦋🌹❄️💥🫐🍒💎🧲🧿🪓🌀🧯♿️🧰💦🍄🐳🎒🧢👠🧵🧣🌎

Hi, pile 2! You are hard on yourself for 2 things that work in tandem with each other. You either really struggle to find partners or you struggle to build romantic connections with the sexual partners you find. You have a very pixie-like energy which makes me think this is rooted in ADHD. You get extremely distracted by your interests and your experiences. This makes it difficult for you to find romance with anyone. The people you find connections with don't understand that you need patience and understanding. They don't understand that your ADHD isn't just a disability. Your ADHD is a PART of you and if they can't accept and love your ADHD along with you, they don't even deserve your attention and love anyway. I see that there is trauma connected to you feeling useful. Because you have been rejected for the way your mind works you think all you are good at is sex. You have fallen victim to people-pleasing behaviors all because you are allowing people to shit on an entire facet of your personality. Please stand up for yourself instead of being hard on yourself for how others view you. Their opinions do not matter if they constantly put you into a state of distress and self-hatred. Do not beat yourself up because of other people's ableism. You deserve a lover that understands you and accepts every part of you. When you finally stand up for yourself you will have completed a really tough cycle and your new energy will reward you greatly with a true romantic partner that will most likely be sticking around longer than the others.

PILE THREE

Astrology: Taurus, Sagittarius, Aries

Cards: The Empress, Strength, 8 of Wands, The Rainbow

Song: No Drug Like Me by Carly Rae Jepsen

Vibes: 💛🎺🏅🐝🐱👑👙🍯🥧🥞🧀🌸🍋🍌☀️💫⚡️✨🌻🌼💐🕯💰🛍

Hey there pile 3. Your energy is so light but somehow very rich as well. You have such a lovely energy that people love to be in. This can be a blessing and a curse for you. This is because you aren't too attached to anything or anyone. You are the type of person who people get addicted to but you often leave as quickly as you arrived. You are too hard on yourself about how this makes people feel. You feel as if you have left a string of broken hearts behind you. I see you feeling very guilty because of this. Don't be harsh with yourself about your true nature. You need room to travel from person to person. You aren't the kind of individual to get attached to concepts you experience as temporary. Human connection isn't meant to be permanent for you anyway. You shouldn't try to save feelings by moving away from your authenticity. You are meant to be independent and follow your heart where the wind takes it. Let the broken hearts leave your mind. Let the guilt slide off of you like water off a duck's back. Those people will find new beginnings with people who are meant to settle down. You will forever be a free spirit. If you tried to tie yourself down out of a sense of guilt it wouldn't end well for anyone. Your authenticity should be your main priority, not saving the emotions of people who have paths to walk you can't follow. What they think about you doesn't matter if it's your time to dip again.

PILE FOUR

Astrology: Scorpio, Cancer, Aquarius

Cards: The Hanged Man, 2 of Pentacles, Ace of Swords, Cosmic Ocean

Song: Greener by Kid Quill

Vibes: 💚🤎🐸🦇🪲🦂🍀🍂🥝🥥🍈🍹🧩🛖✅⚰️♻️🧺🇵🇸🚪🤑🪑💸🕯📗

Hey there, pile 4! You need to be easier on yourself for your indecisiveness, my friend. You are a very interesting combination of compassionate and intelligent. This is what makes it so hard for you to make decisions fast. It's not that you are bad at making decisions. You are smart enough to consider the different paths that could happen when making a decision. You understand that your actions have consequences and you can predict them very accurately. You are also kind enough to consider how those consequences affect the people around you. You are actually REALLY good at making decisions but it takes time to consider all of the possibilities. People have given you a hard time about indecisiveness for a long time but that's because they can't see the gears turning in your head. They don't see that you see every possibility. They can't even fathom the experience because most of the people giving you a hard time are only thinking logically or are only thinking compassionately but you see both perspectives which gives you more intel to contemplate. Be a bit nicer to yourself when you make decisions slowly. The people critiquing you don't even know the half of it.

[chicleeblair]

👩‍🦽‍➡️🏳️‍🌈Inclusive, In-Depth, Insightful Tarot Readings 🩷♀︎

Chelsey Blair Shobbling* the Tarot 

www.chelsey-blair.com <--Book a reading, and pick the deck it's given with!

*Shobbling – (v.) shuh-ob-uhling a portmanteau of “shuffling” and “hobbling” used to describe my gait. Also what occurs when I try to bridge and riffle. 

I am:

A down-to-earth tarot reader

A queer woman with a disability

A person with degrees in literature/writing

Not a lawyer

Not a doctor—in spite of the time I’ve spent with them! (And my Grey's Anatomy obsession.)

My readings are:

Informed by the above

Inclusive

Honest

Insightful

Practical

In-depth

Clear

Prices:

Up to three cards: $5

Literary Three Card (Banned Books Tarot, Literary Tarot): $7

Four-nine cards: $10

Ten and above (Zodiac, Celtic Cross, etc.): $15

Full Life, seventeen card readings $20 (Follow-Up CC $10)

I'll read on anything on this plane. The ancestors/guides/angels/spirits prefer to talk to other readers.

Example Topics:

Relationships

Career/Finances/Education

Family/Friends

Problem-solving

Your goals

Your past, present, and future

Best Actions

Possible Outcomes

I accept Paypal, Zelle, Venmo, and Ko-Fi.

Get started:   

www.chelsey-blair.com

Querents have said:  

"that was one of the best readings I've got!! i found their reading really good and insightful, very kind and straight forward reader, i also think very accurate!! i most certainly recommend, they also gave good advice very grateful for it!!😄☀️"

“The message was very positive and encouraging, but in a way that made sense of the exact situation, opposed to an open ended or easily applicable sugar coated message.”  

"Extremely intuitive, kind, and open. Cards were extremely reflective of my situation and I hardly told her anything. So comforting and I could feel the love from her cards <3 Definitely take the time to book a reading if you are looking for someone to truly understand you!!!"

"Chelsey read for me a while back. It was a clearly structured reading, with a strong explanation of each card, overall synthesis and guidance and explanation of how it all fitted together. It provided food for thought as well as reassurance and I liked the style of the reading. Thank you!"

“Super crazy… the reading left me speechless. “  

“ I love her approach, reading was given with a lot of grace but honest enough without sugarcoating.”  

"I recently had a wonderful reading from [Chelsey]. It was lengthly, informative, and there was the flow from the past, present, and future with advice and observation for moving forward. [Chelsey] was able to grasp very accurate truths about my situation making everything resonate well and really address everything. They connected the cards together so the reading was one big picture, instead of individual messages stuck together. The message was very positive and encouraging, but in a way that made sense of the exact situation, opposed to an open ended or easily applicable sugar coated message. Visual aspects were also used to explain things which added an extra sensory component."

[stardelo]

My cult of the lamb AU, the winged crown! :D (WC au for short). I kinda want to write a fic for it ngl

It’s a swap between the bird siblings and the bishops:

Mystic seller (Arcturus) <—> Narinder

Chemach <—> Leshy

Clauneck <—> Heket

Kudai <—> Kallamar

Haro <—> Shamura

I’m yapping about the story under the cut:

mystic seller experiments with god tears, and with bringing the old gods back from wherever they went (didn’t go to purgatory or afterlife). In the process, somehow chemach is severely injured by mystic’s stuff on accident and goes completely insane (like her personality in the game). The other bird siblings chain Arcturus to the afterlife in fear of mystic’s experiments

It’s prophesised by heket (who has claunecks role of fortune reader) that a lamb will free Arcturus, and the bishops freak out when they hear this. The last lamb killed is Astra.

Arcturus is straight forward about astra’s eventual death in the end after he’s free, telling them straight up at their first meeting how it’ll end. They accept this.

Narinder’s siblings take the roles of appearing throughout lamb’s crusades (only narinder and Arcturus know of their actual name btw), through helpful insights (shamura), tarot card readings with tea (heket), chaotic relics (leshy and the yellow cat) and forged weapons (kallamar). The siblings disabilities are still present, and for them have been present their whole existence (so not caused by narinder).

narinder is disconnected from his sibs for his selling of godly forged goods (like the skull necklace) in exchange for.. idk. God tears? Devotion? I’ll figure it out eventually. nari and astra become slow friends, eventually morphing into more (basically a situationship). When astra completes their mission after centuries and goes to free Arcturus, narinder lashes out at the,. knowing they’ll be killed (which they’re accepting of, and he’s very pissed about). He prevents them from going through the door, and they have a battle. (Idk what comes after this but eventually Arcturus is freed without lamb needing to die (being satisfied about being in mortal form), and narinder and Astra become enemies)

they both feel betrayed by the other, and both fight and argue. Anyway slowwwlyyyy and eventually it becomes frenemies to friends to loversss because Narilamb gives me serotonin

There’s a lot more lore but like. I’ve been yapping for a while. Thanks for reading lol

[l3xistentialism]

2024 Offering

Hiii 👋🏽 I’m Lex, resident queer, disabled parent & Reader 👁️ with my offering for 2024. I’ve been reading tarot for 12 years now & opening my books back up for the year with 3 updated Readings:

LOVE: an intuitive reading that gets to the root of matters in Love and Relationship. Be mindful that these readings will be focused on the Querent, rather than their significant other, crush, or other 3rd party. COUPLES READINGS ARE AVAILABLE 💕

BIRTH CHART READING: this reading uses tarot/cartomancy to enhance your understanding of your birth chart & astrological placements. You’ll need your birth time & location to get your house placements, however this reading is still available if the birth time is unknown.

SHADOW WORK: a reading with a message from your Shadow Self to help uncover what may be missing or neglected within your spiritual practice. Suppressing or ignoring the Shadow, its energy and impulses rather than practicing Integration can lead to self-sabotage or feeling out of alignment with oneself. This reading serves to open up a dialogue between yourself and the parts of you that have been pushed to the wayside.

All readings are $33 with a delivery method of your choice (Email or Unlisted YT video)

DM me or email l3xreads @ gmail with questions or to book with me

✌🏾

[tarothouselattier]

❗️Important announcement❗️

Hey ya’ll, it’s Taiyisiya here!

I’m pretty sure none of you even know my name, sadly, but am I gonna start acting like an actual person here and not a bot with an account…lol😅

I’ve realised that I kinda lack humanness on my page bc I don’t post my thoughts, etc., and you could only glimps my personality through my tarot readings, which, I appreciate you so so much for reading 🫶🏻🥹 It brings me joy thinking about what I do..well, USED to. But I REALLY am hoping to get back into it.

Even tho I’ve announced a couple months ago I was gonna come back on here as a tarot reader “soon” I have not kept that promise. It is due to my severe mental health issues that disable me from doing even the basic tasks like eating sometimes. My nervous system is in COMPLETE shutdown at the moment and I cannot take another second in a world where I need to walk all over and basically shit on myself as long as I get up on my own two feet and go to university, when in reality, I should be on constant bed rest and therapy every day. Due to my body refusing to work as long as it hears the word “university”, I have decided to quit.

This said, I am going to dedicate my time to finally trying to rest and recover, as well as focus on myself and my mental health.

I REALLY love my blog here, and even tho I haven’t been on here for a really long time, it still brings me joy just thinking about it🥹❤️❤️❤️ I love readi your messages in the comments about how you’ve resonated with my readings and how much they’ve helped you!! I hope to continue doing my work in the future. If you consider supporting me, I’ll be eternally grateful🫶🏻

I really wish to create a sense of community on here, so we could be like family and closely huddled together. Basically, I want to be more personal. Hope you..understand, lol..?😅

Anyways, I’ve created a personal acc @realityrayder, which is basically me shitposting and being more open and casual. I feel like this will add a certain charm to this whole experience, don’t you think?🤪😅😊

So, yeah! Follow me on there if you want!) I’m just gonna be ranting, posting about my thoughts about new tarot content for the future, as well as sharing posts and links about Gaza etc. I really want to help more people in need, I, as a Ukrainian, understand myself and I understand true suffering. Nobody should be going through such horrors.

I wanted to use the power that I have on this platform and the power of our beautiful community to help🫶🏻, but I also wanted to do it separately from this account, because I wanted to take my blog very seriously! And I want my wall to be only about the themes relevant to the blog.

PLEASE consider supporting me and share this post because I love ya’ll so much, and I feel like I’ve been seeing less and less tarot readers on my tl.

I will be opening private, meaning, paid tarot readings in the future. I will make it as wonderful as possible for you, promise ☝️. So, consider buying in the future.

And if you are afraid of getting scammed, if you still have not deducted my character from my blog, GUYS. I literally “swiped” a lipgloss from a store of a cosmetics store chain because I put it in my pocket and forgot about at checkout; after I realised, the next day, I literally went to a different store of this same chain a paid for it💀 It was like..$1.5 dollars. That’s how honest I am. I don’t play about these things. My sister literally said she wouldn’t have bothered, especially not for a price that cheap, but not me.

Anyways, love ya. Staying connected!

[thementalshawty]

My New Beginning (My way out)

(Mentions of disabilities, mental, emotional, physical abuse, S*x abuse, bullying, self harm, suicidal ideation, Domestic violence, be wary before reading).

So where to begin……. This is about familial abuse, so this has been something happening my whole life!!! My “mother” is a narcissist. She bullied me and my sister our whole lives, I am the third of 5 kids, she would pit us against each other and watch us fight to laugh and make fun, most of my insecurities stem from her clowning me in front of my brothers, funny enough she is NEVER ALONE, my father he abused us including her but he left and I thought we were better off for it, I wasn’t wrong but little did I know the monsters she’d allow into our lives after, I was getting molested by older brother and my mothers boyfriend before I even got to elementary school, my brother started when I was insanely young, and I still protected him as I didn’t know what tf was happening, her boyfriend started when I was in 4th grade, he wasn’t a drunk or anything just a pedophile, she knew he was because he got caught cheating on her with teenage girls and yet she still kept him around for a decade so wherever we moved he was there and I started to become angry, rage grew inside my soul like a fire that had no intention of burning out, on top of that he was abusive hitting and bruising me and my siblings who all have disabilities, you know my sister as she’s a tarot reader on here so I’m not going into specifics about them, but she would sit and watch and do nothing, she would hide food with him, have us stand in the corner for hours on end while they are food in front of our faces “mmmm that’s good”. She even forced to drink her breast milk in front of him, she despised us having friends, soo when I would have a friend she wouldn’t let me see them or go out or we would move, I’ve never stayed more than 2-3 years in any place my whole entire fuccin life! I don’t know anything but toxicity when it came to relationships, I tried to kill myself multiple times but they failed so I decided to be a burner, I just burned myself, the fire it was the rage inside me felt outside, I decided to tell my mother about the molester from her boyfriend when I was 15, because I told someone in school he told me I had to tell her or he would so I wrote her a letter, he had a gun in the house and put it to his head and said he was going to kill himself (gaslighting), she kicked him out for a day, brought him back then told me that I had to share her with him, so at 15 and with her knowledge of him molesting me, we all moved to California, we drove there, and that was awful, we all fought and he screams how he didn’t care about what he did to me and he was laughing in front of her, i ended up just sweeping that under the rug because i went to focus on my career I had acting classes so my mind was focused but I met a guy from school and he automatically hated him (the boyfriend) he told my mother and automatically I was told to stay away from him, I didn’t I had got arrested the year before so I had community service and he was helping me with that, I told him what happened I thought we were meant to be but he cheated on me with his sister and I found myself in her another Jerry springer bind but I found that out months after we broke up, but he stood up for me and he was the only one on the outside that actually came and defended my honor as sick as he is I will give him credit for that. A year later we’re moving bacc to NYC, before we did though, they got Into a fight (my mother and the boyfriend), pretending to break up, he went to the gas station filled a gas canister wit gas came back to the front door and poured gasoline on himself, obviously not lighting himself on fire because it was an act, he went to jail a week or two later she invited him back into her life, I already knew that it was going to happen because the shit was predictable at that point, Skipping ahead to 17, we moved back to NYC, we came separately, I came on a plane with my mother and the rest of my siblings drove back with him, because obviously she trusted him with children why wouldn’t she? She already knew what he was capable of, she didn’t care 🤷🏽‍♀️, when we got back to NyC she

Promises me that he’s not coming back into our lives that it’s over this time, I told her he’s going to gaslight her she says not gonna work, fast forward to when they all made it to the apartment, she approached me with the sob story I said he would come in with so she said she is letting him stay, I was going to just walk away, but my sister told me that she fought with him on the drive here, she stood up for me, he yelled at my older brothers and her that he did What he did to me cos he truly wanted to and he’s unapologetic for it, the flame it was uncontrollable and I blacked out I went into the room and I kicked him out myself. He yelled bullshit but he left, she hated me for that, so she started to sneak him in secretly then they started hiding food again, leaving us to literally shake, starve and feel sick, we learned how to improvise with what little we had. I was going to school so I didn’t care, speaking of school I was supposed to be on my last year of school, and I couldn’t graduate because my principal explained because I moved so much my credits were all over the place, so she told me I had to repeat a year that was devasting to me because in California I only had a few credits before I could graduate, I got two jobs because I just wanted to save up money to leave, she told my grandma lies oh she has a whole bunch of recruits that she tells constant lies too about us and what we do never the truth because they already feel she’s sick but they do nothing about it, family tho right? My grandma called me and so again we told her the truth and she helped us kick him out for good, (so that’s the end of boyfriend 1…. For now) I was finally 18!! So again I have no friendships nothing ever stuck, but I had two jobs and I was saving up for an apartment, I shouldn’t have done this but I was so proud of myself! I told her (my mother) that I was going to move out, get my own apartment and live on my own, she didn’t like that, she was saying that it was disloyal and what was she going to do without me and she needed help because most of my siblings have a disability, so I stayed, I couldn’t be disloyal when she needed me, that was a big mistake. A year later we are moving BACC to California because she has found A NEW BOYFRIEND, some guy she met over the phone, guess who helped her move back to California though (boyfriend #1), my brother who molested me left to go into the army, don’t worry he’s not in it any longer dishonorable discharge (it was fitting). So anyways the new boyfriend was some white guy who I felt meant no harm the fuccin dude was quiet and softspoken so I paid it no mind, but I was wrong, he was a drunk, not only was a he a drunk, he was a RACIST DRUNK! Did she care???? NOOOOOOO! Everytime I tried to leave she stopped me, til we fought then she would say to leave knowing I had nowhere to go, if I had a friend to go too she would hate that friend, funny thing is most friends that want to take me away from this be friends she introduced me too, she wanted to be friends with them but they wanted to be my friend yes they are younger people, I don’t have those friends anymore because they were very similar to her go figure right ? I thought I should call the cops, call for help, but everyone I reached out too did nothing INCLUDING COPS! So I felt backed into a corner, well I had my sister my little sister my rock, funny fun fact though, her new boyfriend ALSO LIKES LITTLE GIRLS oh and BOYS! He got arrested and she stood up for him, while he was doing that in her home, she would run away and leave us all my siblings in the house with him drunk calling us the N word, kicking doors down and causing mess, I couldn’t leave my siblings who couldn’t understand what was happening behind all I knew is that they were scared and their mother wasn’t there all she did was make excuses for him she told me I should kill myself, that I was a cunt that didn’t deserve her name, ( I don’t have it, I have my dads last name), that I was going to be nothing more than a whore, by this time………………

She knows about what my brother did to me I didn’t mention that confession because she just skipped right over it. She literally didn’t care and she told me to my face she believed he was only playing with me and I am confusing it all and that I know nothing about it because it happened to her and she the only one who knows pain and my pain doesn’t matter she tried to assault me and again tried to tell family but she already took the narrative so they weren’t trying to hear me out or help, in august of this year, me and my sister left, we went to stay in a motel for a week or two, with the help of my booking agent we didn’t have enough money to stay and the homeless shelters were all full and we’re not answering back, so we had no choice but to go back, we are back and nothing even a week later back to the drunk racist, not eating, starving routine, I wanted to die and I felt like a failure! I couldn’t even get out of bed I felt like I deserved this I got my sister out to end up right back 2 WEEKS LATER?!?!! I fuccin hated myself! He was drunk and again causing ruckus, she came back a morning later and was telling him to leave, he was going to hit her, my brother (diagnosed with MR) was out there with my younger brother (autism) and they were scared and standing up for her and the boyfriend was in their faces what was I supposed to do???? Me and my sister tried to help and she tried to tell us to leave for helping her!!!!! Me and my sister decided to just call the police, they started to fight, and he tried to kill her, the police got him out, and they told her that she was lucky to have her kids here, we cleaned up her room after he broke her whole house apart, I mean EVERYTHING IS TORN APART RN!!!! she decided that she was going to move down to Texas with the molesting brother because he has kids, (oh yeah other fun fact she kept forcing me to have kids she even wanted me to give her my eggs so she can have kids with both of those boyfriends she approached me TWICE ABOUT IT, one she wanted my eggs and the other she wanted me to be pregnant for her!) So now my brother has kids she was like saying she knows I’ll never have kids and I’ll be forever alone, that no one will ever love me, anyways skipping to now my birthday came and left I’m 27 now! The housing program that me and my sister signed up for began to pend and we found a place! We didn’t tell her we found a place and that we were in a program we didn’t even tell her that we went down the city. We ended up getting a random woman come into the house and serve us she was evicting us (my mother) even on the eviction notice it says no fault just cause, she didn’t even tell me, so we have 60 days to leave and vacate her premises! Funny enough yesterday my sister got her APPROVAL NOTICE!!! Mine is still pending but I know that I’m getting approved and if all goes well we will be in our transitional home on SATURDAY! We finally did it, dug our way out, I didn’t think that I could and that I would, I would’ve been opened up to someone if I didn’t believe that it was against the family or that no one would love me like she did, she painted the world as such a unloving place and that this toxicity was normal and for the longest I believed it, but I am waking up now! And I am looking forward to beginning my life AWAY FROM HER! Just me and my rock @silvershiningtarot I AM NOT ASHAMED OF MY STORY, I’m only ashamed I kept quiet for so long, I allowed them to get away with everything and they took control of the narrative but I’m taking my power back! This is the first chapter of my success story! I’m not looking for claps or sympathy or for yky to actually care or anything I just wanted to put my story out there because this shit shouldn’t be in the dark anymore, mothers can be demons, family can be a dark and scary word for people and they’re not family, only relation! And I wanted to make that clear! RELATION DOESN’T MEAN FAMILY

I feel more familial love from you guys on here than I ever did anywhere! My music gave me hope and tarot gave me community

You deserve to know your reader through and through!

Thank you!!! For listening and taking the time for hearing this sad ass story, I hope I didn’t drag your day down! 💋

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October 11, 2024 Book Review „Witch in Darkness: Magick for Tough Times, Bad Days and Moments of Total Catastrophe“ by Kelly-Ann Maddox

The blurb: The long-awaited follow-up to Kelly-Ann Maddox’s bestselling Rebel Witch is here … Witch in Darkness explores loss, fear, grief and pain through the magickal lens Guiding the reader through the concept of the craft as a life-saving, soul-nurturing practice for dark times, this book overflows with inspiration and compassion for witches in difficulty. The raw and honest tone peels back the surface layers of witchcraft’s meaning and power, inviting the reader to use magick, ritual and readings to heal and grow. When disaster strikes, a magickal practitioner has endless tools to help them build strength and hope, and face the seemingly impossible. Witch is Darkness is packed with nourishing wisdom, including advice on:

Embracing an imperfect practice 

Cleansing, grounding and shielding during tough times 

Witching through extremes Identifying high-risk and low-risk practices 

Energy management and low-maintenance magick 

Dealing with loss, grief and despair using witchcraft 

Magick and ritual for conflicts, dramas and relationship breakdowns 

Addressing mental and physical issues from the witchcraft perspective 

The book includes easy-to-follow, step-by-step instructions to make magickal action easier to execute. Discover tarot spread designs, journal prompts, words of power and excellent suggestions for shifting your mindset, alongside a great Q&A segment to clear up confusions and help you get unstuck. Spiritual counsellor and witchcraft mentor Kelly-Ann Maddox has a decade’s experience in the magickal space, offering workshops, one-to-one sessions and hundreds of informative videos on her popular YouTube channel. In this book, she draws on countless conversations with witches from all walks of life, as well as her own life journey through mental health breakdowns, struggles with self-harm and eating disorders, and heart-breaking bereavement.

Review

In my opinion, this is a much needed book for the witchcraft community. There are a few witchcraft books available about witching with chronic illnesses or disabilities, or how to deal with grief and loss from a pagan or witchcraft perspective. All of these have been published quite recently.

But this book is not limited to these topics, the author writes about several more, like dysfunctional or toxic relationships, addictions and how to support yourself and others when you do activism for social justice or other causes. In most of the chapters, there are ideas for ritual and spells, writing prompts, words of power and also several ideas for readings of Tarot or Oracle cards. The author encourages readers to tweak and adapt spells as they see fit. I have tried this with one of the spells and it went well. I also had ideas how to adapt another one and I surely will revisit this book from time to time.

Kelly-Ann Maddox writes, “You do not serve the craft; it is the craft that serves you” (p. 333). In my understanding, this opens up lots of new possibilities when thinking about doing witchcraft even if you are down in the dumps so to speak, or feel scared or helpless or are stressed-out. Kelly-Ann explains about what low-risk and high-risk witchcraft activities are and gives suggestions which to pursue in different situations and which better not.

She writes, „Witchcraft is a collection of tools for surviving and thriving. It is not a judgemental overseer that ascertains your worthiness to access it based on how much you seem to have your life together“ (p. 334) and „witchcraft is a resource, not a test“ (p. 334)

On a personal note, over the past years, I have quite often felt in a spiritual slump for weeks and felt like witchcraft was not longer easily available for me. I wish this book would already have been available back then.

The author has a unique and a bit eclectic witchcraft style, she doesn’t follow a specific tradition. If you want to learn about how to deal with your problem following a magickal tradition, this book is not a good choice I guess. For me, as a very eclectic witch, it’s really interesting.

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marvel headcanons

weirdly specific headcanons for my favorite characters,

some traits may not align with canon or popular fan opinions. these are just my opinions, to each their own !!

!! TW: s/h , ptsd , disability , neurodivergence , anxiety , depression , alcohol

Gwen Stacy :

lesbian + non-binary

she/they

has a secret spider-girlfriend

obsessed with pop-tarts and tries them in every universe

spends her free time at the animal shelter petting dogs, the workers from many universes know her since they come by so often, and they always welcome her.

won’t admit it but secretly wants to be an english teacher when she grows up

Peter Parker :

trans ftm + bisexual

he/him

his parents are rich lawyers who travel a lot, so he’s always lived with his Aunt, May. doesn’t have contact with his birth parents

has social anxiety and a severe anxiety disorder

has a soft spot for dalmations

in the process of filing for a psychiatric service dog for his panic attacks

has adhd

Wanda Maximoff :

bisexual with a female preference

has a wife !!!

massive swiftie

has two twins and an adopted daughter

disability mom, billy has angelman syndrome and tommy has autism and epilepsy

in therapy to work on her trauma trigger responses ie. controllingness

has suffered with severe depression

loves loves loves dogs (has two goldendoodles, snowflake and rocky)

Yelena Belova :

queer woman

convert jew, found herself in the religion and found a community through a support group for, and run by, woman in her synagogue.

absolutely in love with Kate Bishop

very protective over kate and shows her off to everyone

has a ptsd service dog named sasha, who helps with her flashbacks

has struggled with s/h, but is in therapy and getting better

has a very sexual relationship with kate and everyone in the compound steers clear of the hallway where kate and yelena’s rooms are

Kate Bishop :

pansexual + demigirl

madly in love with Yelena Belova

super innocent but would do unholy things for her girlfriend

hates all dogs. except her dog, pizza-dog-lucky. lucky is different.

slight mommy issues

bottom asf , and a massive brat

super snarky but easily gets her feelings hurt

was homeschooled her whole life, and she never lost that childish energy

thinks her girlfriend’s protectiveness is cute, but loves to push against it to see yelena get all hot and bothered

always spends the holiday season with clint’s family (partially bec she loves them and partially to save on heating bills in the colder months)

spam posts every detail of her life on insta stories + makes mini-vlog reels 24/7

Natasha Romanoff :

demiromantic + unlabeled

hates labels, she likes who she likes end of story.

has a massive soft spot for cats, and has 3 of her own, Tumeric, Spots, and Dart.

has a massive unrequited crush on wanda

she’s labeled as the “bed-hopper” by her friends for her string of serial hookups after she left the redroom, but she wants nothing more than to settle down with a wife and even more cats.

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big mommy issues and that usually comes across in her relationships, as she seeks out (sometimes older) people with nurturing qualities.

battled alcoholism during the dark days in the blip from losing her sister, but she has an amazing therapist and is now sober

Kamala Khan :

bisexual

she/they

really into tarot

best friends with America Chaves and has a small gay crush on her

constantly gets in trouble with teachers for being too loud and talking in class

has inattentive adhd and always forgets to take her meds

has a very popular carol danvers x fem reader fanfic on A03 that she hides from her parents but she always neglects her homework to make sure she updates regularly for her readers

loves tacos

has sensory issues and gets sensory overload breakdowns due to sound and this can trigger her powers to go haywire while she’s overstimulated

her family puts a lot of pressure on marriage but she just wants to live in a house with america and spend the rest of their lives together reading fanfic and rewatching avengers movies

she kissed america once and they never talked about it again, though they both have hinted at wanting to do it again.