#doubt i'll be on much if at all once we're there though ofc

[fitgothgirl]

weeeee i bought the wifi on the plane so i'm typing this at 30k feet somewhere above mexico right now!

[kalims]

Fairytale anon part 3 haha

Don’t worry about it <3 it’s completely fine , it’s understandable and all on why you wouldn’t be able to do it, but I really appreciate your patience

I’d like to request dorm leaders again, with a trope like “falls first, falls harder”. I just think it would be cute too read,

ofc if you can’t do my request at all it’s all good!

also thank you for giving me a second time to request. It’s really appreciated so much since I love your writing and your literally so kind,😭💞 sorry for putting you through so much trouble

‎˃ ᵕ ˂ . . "let's play a game. say, if we fell in love who do you think would fall first or harder? ha! it's definitely you."

falling first, and falling harder,

today, we are unaware. tonight, you've realized. tomorrow, we're already smitten.

characters. dorm leaders.

includes. gn!reader.

wc. 5.1k for some reason.

cw. crack, actually mc on crack too, fire accidents, angst to comfort (giving), death (not major)

note. ong hi fairytale anon! honestly you're the patient one here t-t so thank you!! <3 I admit this is one of the favorite mc's I've written haha... why the heck is this so long

—ㅤriddle rosehearts ・falls first

"two plus two is equals to six because there is an additional two." you state without any ounce of doubt at all, blankly—yet so confidently.

riddle is stupefied at the relevation that he knows such a stupid person. so he recoils with a weird look on his face. "that's not how it works. there is no deeper meaning." he sighs.

if he had a penny for everytime you'd made his head hurt riddle would be rich.

he hates your sass.

"but what if it does though."

"(name)."

contrary to belief riddle is a pretty perfect guy but among the category of boyfriend material he's in the middle. like, hardstuck. if it was a competition his mother would be rolling in her bed because he won't stand a chance to win.

it's not because of his face or anything. in fact, he's gorgeous. it's about the sensitive attitude he has. seemingly blunt, harsh, and direct words but you know riddle best besides from his friends.

so it's only natural his real self would be slipping off, with you he has the chance to enjoy his life as a normal school boy. without the clutches of his mother who's fully intent on carving his path herself.

his mother would probably drag him by the ear if she hears that he's falling for one of the most stupid people she'd ever meet instead of one of the 'candidates' she reccomends.

it was during a messy time, when he realized.

messes were something riddle didn't exactly like.

and there's a whole lot right in the kitchen of his dorm.

the silence is prominent when he gets hit by a patch of dough that was probably still in the process of getting kneaded and he's sure whoever made the mess was sweating in their boots when he exhaled shortly.

"I have such good aim." you compliment yourself, laughing quietly and the traces of dough in your hands is full evidence that you are the culprit.

for some reason riddle can't bring himself to be angry by your smile.

he puts a palm over his head. "you. (name) it's five in the morning." without much regard to his words you shrug and casually pick up a new set of flour. "so?"

"so? why are you.." he eyes the items on the counter top. "..baking at five am? it's five am."

"who doesn't? hey don't you not know how to bake? I'll finally beat you in something." you joke.

for once riddle is forcefully dragging himself in the middle of something he hates.

he huffs. flicking his hand so that there's an apron magically on his waist. you make an amazed sound at your own apron tying itself around you.

"don't you know one of the basics for safety is an apron? just you wait, I'll be one of the best at this soon enough." riddle huffs. sure there's a routine he strictly follows everyday but it's a rest day, why not spend it timely? with someone he likes.

you're one mess be wouldn't mind getting caught in.

and you, this time you're the one that would fall harder.

you admit it's hard to like riddle first so early with his old, snappy self but given how much he's improved its starting to feel like you're some quarreling married couple at times.

so it just hits you hard.

I'm in love with him.

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—ㅤleona kingscholar ・falls harder

(@ravynous girl, ravy... this for you 🥰)

"leona your little snookie pookie is too broke and is need for some madol to buy food for their pet cat." at some point grim admitted he didn't like to get referred as a cat so you just started doing it just to annoy him.

well he was built like a cat, save for the fact that he can stand on two feet. the rest of the people who were used to the norm of twisted wonderland did think otherwise.

their normal was a monster.

besides the concerning nickname you came up for yourself leona peeks an eye open from his sleep and stares at you blankly. "you don't have a cat."

you grin at him. "you wanna be my kitty then?"

"call me that again and I'll make sure you won't step a foot inside of savanaclaw ever again."

"oh! the horror!" for extra drama points you fall down and clutch your chest, rook would be so proud. "wherever will my grim poop in if not the haven of savanaclaw."

leona makes a disturbed look.

from the start before all the 'disgusting' love started it was friendship and leona can fully vouch the fact that the friendship was not consentual on his end.

you were like a stupid little roach on his fur, unable to shake you off since you're so intent on sticking up to him. and at some point leona didn't even bother to shoo you away when you totally not forcefully forced yourself into his schedule.

his schedule in question is just naps and you actually questioned it.

even ruggie is suprised he hasn't thrown you out of savanaclaw yet when leona has fully the power to do so without being questioned at all so how the hell were you still unscathed after practically insulting leona's whole existence? (which is honestly just being.. honest)

the answer to that is because he's secretly enjoying your presence that's what!

"do you not tend your hair? it looks like an overgrown bush that rolls around in deserts." you squint and poke the mess of strings that leona calls hair.

the man in question pretends not to feel your poke and merely grunts. "quit it. I'm trying to sleep here." he buries his face into the pillow deeper.

"when are you not?" you turn to face the ceiling. not pondering much of the fact that leona let you lay on his bed, with him. despite knowing full well you're probably just gonna disturb his sleep.

there's no answer.

you turn your head, only being able to see the back of leona's head. and the occasional movement alongside his breathing, it convinced you that he was sleeping soundly.

leave it to leona to sleep under five seconds..

"I'm really glad you're with me."

perhaps too drunk in your drowsiness to care about the words you're spouting there isn't much regard you put into thought when your mouth ran off.

and for once leona has never lost the will to sleep so fast.

or perhaps he's actually just distracted by the second flip his heart did.

what a pain. he turns over. hopefully you're true to your words, if you really are then he'd wake up beside you.

unlike riddle you're probably gonna be the one to fall first.

most people would think that leona's whole personality is a blank, boring canvas. just one color but it just seemed so interesting to you that you couldn't help but reach out.

maybe he'd never glance at you, or maybe he wouldn't even care but he's here, like straight out of your dreams you don't know since when you started catching the disease (feels) but imagine your suprise when you wake up and he's practically using you as a humanoid pillow.

oh. you should tease him about this once you wake up again because the sleep is really tempting you from how comfortable you are.

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—ㅤazul ashengrotto ・falls first

if current azul told his past self 'you're gonna be in love' he probably would've started laughing quietly because the idea just seems impossible for him.

but he thinks it's you. "I don't think this looks good." azul sighs for the nth' time, clumsily pulling off the tie and coat you had dragged him to try.

you pout. "why not?" a little iffed by the fact that he doesn't like it or that you pretty much spent your whole allowance. azul however, remains blissfully ignorant.

he squints at you. "it's supposed to be a formal event. my clients would not take me seriously in such—" azul grimaced as he gestures at his reflection in the mirror. "—colorful, and clearly unprofessional attire."

you make a sad face.

"you just have no taste. and I want my thousand madol back."

by the look on his face it's a mixture of horrified and feeling bad. "it's not that I don't like it.."

"whatever. stay in your boring old tie, boomer. might as well do a cosplay of a mafia lord."

"what—"

in the spectrum of 'I hate you' but 'you're dear to me' azul would be on the verge of falling off in the middle. given how many situations he's lost plenty of braincells because of your shenanigans he isn't enjoying the tweels clear amusement of this.

but.

you're one of the people azul keeps very close in his inner circle. as much as he despises the twins antics he can admit he'll do the same for them as they did for him in his... overblot moment.

and as for you, he'll do it a thousand times.

between practically losing his mind when he'd get distracted during work because his brain just wants to make him suffer by thinking of you and all his decisions including your personal gain... azul can tell he's pretty fucked.

in the end azul didn't have the heart to not wear your gift.

"you look breathtaking." azul flushes. I picked the right color (aka his favorite). he thinks to himself. secretly glad that you decided to agree to his proposition.

you beam. "why thank you handsome man. it's only natural I wear the clothing you picked out for me graciously."

there's not a lot of times where azul has felt beautiful. in fact, he could count the times he did with one hand. but this time, it feels wholly different.

he feels pretty when you smile at him.

your eyes flicker to his collarbone area, glinting pleasantly at your own very pick sitting atop it. "I see you've chosen to listen to my good advice after all."

it is kind of embarrassing since he's standing out of a crowd with such a bright tie but if azul does say so himself, it's worth it if it meant seeing you look so proud.

azul covers a cough behind his hand. "it would be rude to leave it unworn."

maybe it would be strange but I find it fitting if the two of you fell at just the same time, just as hard cause who wouldn't? the scene itself is straight out of a dream.

and, it's hard to not notice azul's stare when you awkwardly realize that the other is wearing the gift both had given. a better word for it could be enchanted.

after you wouldn't know but just maybe, azul will keep the tie you'd given him tucked in the corner of his safe. away from the eyes of the twins who are probably dying to tease him about it.

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—ㅤkalim al asim ・falls harder

"how in the hell do you set water on fire?!" you scream. frantically patting away the portion of your shirt that had literally got burnt off by the fire, before. you'd hyped yourself up to react well in a situation like this but it's like you're completely stupid now.

perhaps you should've declined when kalim invited you to make curry for jamil.

but he was so cute I couldn't deny. you think in regret.

one thing led to another and you underestimated how horrible kalim was at cooking, you just left to collect a few ingredients you forgot and somehow the boy in question was just in the process of setting his whole dorm on fire.

kalim; since he was the one who had set the fire aflame from the first place, is much in a worse state than you. "ah! my butt is on fire again!"

oh he was panicking like you.

"quick! stop, drop, and roll!"

kalim freezes, drops to the ground but rolls the wrong way.

"THATS THE WRONG WAY—DONT ROLL TO THE CURTAIN ITS GONNA CATCH ON—"

"fire?"

simultaneously,, both you and kalim freeze at an eerily calm voice.

jamil crosses his arms. "what are you doing? and what is going on here?" he sighs, massaging his temple like it's gonna lessen the two headaches he just got.

you answer blankly. "fire."

like a mother duckling scolding their two babies crossing the road without permission jamil ate you both out, listing possibilities that made the situation far more dangerous than it was (which is actually true). the whole time, kalim has this embarrassed, ashamed look on his face as he looks down.

surprisingly enough you had liked kalim immediately after your first meeting, whether it's platonic at first or romantic is entirely up to you. who could you even blame? his demeanor is like a sweet escape from all the evil-ness.

it's like.. being with kalim gives you a chance to feel human again because out of all the problems you've dealt with it's refreshing to have someone genuinely care and give for you when everyone's been taking it all from you.

for kalim, it's just natural for him to take care of everyone he knows. but somehow, he doesn't know why it's different this time. like he'd pick out a diamond out of a deep cave instead to go out his way for you to see how special it is.. (bad comparison?)

you mentally pray for kalim's cooking to succeed.

since mid terms were coming up, you were behind quite a few lessons since you were being taught.. elemental level knowledge, as embarrassing as it is.. well... everyone started there, (or so you try and convince yourself)

you weren't able to help kalim out with his ongoing attempt at making a curry.

so you're confused,,, he isn't carrying a curry right now and he's handing it to the wrong person.

"do you wanna try?"

"...what?"

it's probably idiotic of you to freeze up and stare but midst your confusion it was the only natural response. from what you remember, the food he made was supposed to be for jamil.

not you..

kalim tilts his head. as if asking you why you're so lost. "you don't like it? I thought it was your favorite."

yes.. right, that is your favorite. kalim is holding your favorite dish.

you sweat nervously and ask yourself if he's mistaken something, actually. you do. "no... it is but... I thought you were making curry for jamil?" the inner glutton of you grabs at you childishly. but for your sake, you shove it in a closet or something.

the troubled look on his face clears up. "oh! well.." kalim scratches his head with a nervous laugh, all looking lighthearted. "jamil didn't eat it cause he said it was ominous and somehow bubbling... so I asked him to help make your favorite dish instead."

you bite your lip to keep in the shit eating grin threatening to embarass your whole existence.

you had never felt the urge to bang your head into a wall, crawl into it, close the whole and start squealing on the other side (oddly descriptive) because what the actual hell? that was adorable!!

honestly after all that you can't blame yourself for falling first.

and maybe you'd notice that instead of expensive gifts you just started receiving priceless ones, memories, acts of service. love. who wouldn't love a guy who can buy a whole division but go out his way to learn cooking for you? (technically jamil made your favorite dish but eh... he's learning)

and who wouldn't love, you? nearly everyone in nrc disliked his sunny demeanor cause.. school of villians, pushed him away because of it and you, welcomed it. this time, he won't take something for granted.

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—ㅤvil schoenheit ・falls harder but knew you fell first.

"that—" you screech shrilly, feeling even more pain at the watery prick at your eyes. "—HURTS."

vil sighs but narrows his eyes to focus on your eyebrows which he said to be 'uneven', going as far as fixing it himself. or so he says, 'he's doing you a favor' which he technically is but you had no idea it was this painful!

every strand that was getting picked away felt like a decrease of ten years to your lifespan.

unconsciously and certainly without your consent. your fingers grasp at vil's wrist and he lets you, only actually blinking at the warmth enveloping it but doing nothing else.

he shrugs away the warmth in his chest too.

"the beauty isn't worth the pain." you cry comically, gritting your teeth because.. people do this willingly? actually. does this mean vil does this on a daily basis? does he have high pain tolerance or something?

at your words vil smiles faintly, eyes flashing in nostalgia. "I thought of that before as well, you'll get used to it." he says lightly. pulling away and brushing a thumb over your eyebrow.

there's more?! "no way I'm gonna do this again.."

"beauty doesn't come without a price."

"good thing I'm broke."

vil despises your casual neglect to your appearance. if he isn't around, it's rook that got told to watch over you. in a way you're like a second epel but on a more intense degree since epel already knows how to take care of himself. this time, vil is taking care of you.

which he doesn't know why he's even doing in the first place. he guesses he wants everyone to see their best in themselves, or he's just making excuses to touch or; 'inspect' your face. but he isn't stupid. your crush on him was apparent, the wobbly smile when he gets too close is something he sees a lot.

you never acted on your feelings. stuck around, but never too much. did your constant presence direct such a huge influence in his life that he's starting to notice how he forgets he's not talking to anyone when he reminds you the air about hygiene importance.

vil is beauty.

in terms of words to describe him it's out of this world.

to see him without the usual front he bores; bare, naked. the persona he was afraid everyone would hate is all but standing in front of you. vulnerable, sensitive and lost. much unlike his confident self.

he knows.

the villian of the story will never lose and in the eyes of the world neige is the hero.

vil stills at the creak of his door, ultimately unable to move or wipe away the frustration down his cheeks. as far as he knew, no one dared to enter his room without his consent other than—

"vil?" you call out in a sing-song voice, he always scolded you to not do so lest you reveal much in public. fearing for your safety in denial. you pause at his obviously sad face, and sag your shoulders.

the joking in your face disappears immediately. "you okay?" you thin your lips and hesitantly step forwards until you silently urge vil to move to the side then sit next to him when he does.

you nudge his shoulder then dry his cheeks. later you’ll help him with his routine, you glance at the table. it seems like he was too disheartened to start, for now you'll comfort him.

maybe that's what vil likes about you.

you don’t give him pity, you're still yourself in situations like this.

and, you don't offer any words. knowing full well the most he needs is just your presence beside you.

truth to be told someone as ordinary as you could never afford to get the greatest beauty.

you didn't look at him like a doll in display, nothing greater than genuine appreciation for his beauty.

perhaps what vil needs is to get a taste of sought for someone instead of being sought for.

being appreciative is something vil rarely stumbles upon but there is a slight change to his attitude after the night. he was always the one helping everyone else with the routines and stuff so he stayed silent the whole time you did the routine for him instead.

like a child cluelessly receiving affection for the first time.

that was the first time he ever let someone other than a makeup artist touch his face, and the first time he dreamt of a happy ending.

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—ㅤidia shroud ・falls first

idia hates co-op mode.

this applies to every game that has multi-player mode. most say it makes everything more easier but to him it's just,,, annoying.

this game in particular features direct join and people would start joining his world and taking rewards without permission at all. and he hates thieves! idia wishes that PVP was an option because no one could ever win against him.

the familiar ping of another player joining his realm makes him groan from behind the screen. whoever that was, their character loaded after a long time and when they started moving its like they were on mcdonalds wifi.

idia snickers. L bozo. maybe it was wrong for him to start slandering someone he never met but eh...

he expects an immediate exploration without his permission but the person very, very slowly makes their way towards him. freezing in the air midst their jumping around because of their wifi occasionally till they stop to his face and start jumping crazily.

the secret language... a jump means happiness and you need to jump back.

what is the intentions of this normie.. idia narrows his eyes.

yuurname: hi! can I take something?

no. idia thinks blankly but then again it's rare to have someone come in and ask.

hercules666: k. what do u need?? don't take the mushrooms.

yuurname: I was gonna get the mushrooms but I dont wanna leave empty handed so can I have u instead

the team has been changed.

idia doesn't know whether to combust or cringe.

through online, technically that is where idia first met you. that was wayyy before the two of you found out that you were attending the same school and you were literally online friends (self-proclaimed or whatever idia said) with the shut in dorm leader of ignihyde. joking around and throwing around playful flirting!

idia never intended to friend you in the first place. in fact, he rejected the first friend request then the next ones. your record was sending him about ten requests one day but the daily average was only once a day. other than ortho, idia doesn't have another friend since his old friend pranked him all the time and couldn't even get the ingredients right... in. a. game.

(guess who haha)

since then you always joined him whenever you're on. neglecting your tasks to help him decorate his house, and somehow adding your own touch to some corners of the place. idia doesn't know why he gave you owner permissions to edit his house but he tries to deny that he doesn't like the cute silly little things.

plus you actually have a pet cat like him in the game!

hercules666: how come u started friending a random (idia) obsessively?? yandere behavior tbh

it was true. it was really random of you to start being intent on being his friend after like what? three minutes of being in his realm?

yuurname: Lol I thought ur realm was rlly pretty and u looked rich

you just downright admitted that you were out for his cash but idia can't bring himself to be angry. he fights away the growing flush on his face, no one had ever complimented his builds before!

there's a giddy feeling in idia's chest.

your character teleports to idia's house, and the man in question actually added a bed next to him after you totally did not blackmail him. trudging past your lovely cat, and idia's cat who somehow kept following the other.

despite standing still he can still see you run to him jumping until your avatar is standing in front of him.

you jump frantically in excitement, joy.

cute. idia thinks.

what? he slaps himself and wills his hair to stay blue.

this time he responds with a jump back. unlike the first time you met.

yuurname: also ur avatar looked like sum1 I thought looked cool irl

you may not know hercules666 is idia shroud but he knows you are... you. so hearing that,,, no matter how many times he tries to convince himself that many people have blue hair he can't deny the resemblance to his avatar and himself.

it's him. you think he's cool.

idia excuses himself to scream in his pillow.

idia, is too anxious to even think of meeting up with you in real life. (plus.. he just developed massive feelings overnight and he'll start malfunctioning if he's a radius within you) but what he does like is looking through the school camera during your classes to see your various moods, from anger, annoyance and sadness.

when it's sadness he wants to comfort you but doesn't exactly know how.

during the time he grew balls to tell you through in game chat. you replied casually; yuurname: oh ik that haha I knew u the whole time it was obvious lolol that's why I stayed :)

did you just tell him that idia is cool knowing full well he's idia?!

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—ㅤmalleus draconia ・falls first but just as hard

love is like a fleeting feeling.

people come and go. malleus knows this fact very well, it's only both a curse and blessing that he's exempted from this. no matter how much he wishes, malleus can only witness the ups and downs of his life.

sure. human lives are fleeting but his love will always stay eternal. in a way throughout the years he's learned to let go of lives that are bound to go sooner of later. lilia had taught him it was better to be prepared anyways.

malleus never questioned how many loses it took for lilia to get used to it.

for some reason it's like he forgot how to let go this moment. like his child-like self just came back to cling on a life he can't steer away from death.

"tsunotaro what is your home like?" malleus knows that you're far from home, maybe you just want to reminisce about your loss. but he masks the concern on his face with ease.

malleus smiles in nostalgia. when was he last asked such a question? no person was ever too brave to strike a conversation. "it's beautiful. there is quite a variety of fae. perhaps you'd like to meet them one day?"

you look excited. "wow. very descriptive." you joke. clearly teasing him about the one word he described his home. though malleus doesn't look particularly bothered, instead. he smiles even more.

"why thank you. you always flatter me, child of man."

you deadpan. "totally."

technically in the canon game it's very clear malleus has taken a liking to mc and aside from malleus being blissfully ignorant towards jokes, he's quite lovable. you don't know how everyone else managed the heart to practically ignore his existence but.. he is quite scary so you don't partially blame them. (well this is a school for villians so)

what malleus likes about you is, well. of course the fact that you aren't scared of him. you're quite fascinating to him given how far he's managed to stick to you multiple times and there's no doubt he'll come swooping in to save you from wherever and be the one to care for you when no one bothers to.

to everyone it's like you're already clearly in love with each other because let's face it. who the hell wouldn't if they saw how you're both acting like a literal couple? malleus scares away someone when he's jealous but somehow you thought it was just dragon nature. (which it actually is but come on! he looks like he's willing to lock you up in a tower..)

crowley had granted you permission to leave on a special occasion for some reason.

so of course it came as a suprise. since... it's crowley.

to this day you wonder what the hell possessed him but eh... a break is a break and you're certainly not missing this chance. still, it's curious on why he even gave you one in the first place.. you were certain crowley was gonna work you to the bone.

though you're a little nervous when you took up malleus' offer to travel to briar valley, his home. full of fae who's ancestors probably died because of a human.

yes this is perfectly fine.

other than the wary glances. malleus and the rest of diasomnia that came were very kind to you, patient in explaining their culture (except for sebek but you deemed his derogatory speaking his love languange).

it was very fun. from meeting the little fairies, traversing through various shops, resting at the natural scenery. it was a really nice new experience for you. the food sure was a little strange but it tasted all the way better.

time passed by so fast when you were enjoying yourself and apparently malleus wanted you to meet someone.

but he should've told you that you were gonna meet the queen! if you knew you would've made the effort to look more organized!

"um.. hi."

so you feel kind of shy in front of such a prominent figure. you wave quietly at the beautiful lady who still maintains a certain grace at her golden age. she smiles lightly at your behavior, seemingly amused.

wait aren't you supposed to bow? you think awkwardly, bending forward to showcase your respect.

malleus is beside you, staying silent but quite happy at your interaction with his grandmother.

her voice sends shivers down your spine. it's quiet, yet so booming. she couldn't probably silence a whole room with a single word. "hello, it's not a common sight to see my grandson bringing someone in." she looks happy, bringing her eyes to malleus then to you again.

her eyes crinkle. "more or so a human.. how interesting hehe.." you sweatdrop. were all fae so..? mischievous. she seems not that alike with malleus save for their matching green, emerald eyes.

"what's your name. child of man?"

is this where he got it from?

"(name) your highness."

she looks pleasantly suprised. "oh. I knew you were the one my grandson always talked about.. you should see the letters he's written about you." what. you can't hide the awkward laugh you emit. then realizing you're in the presence of royalty and probably shouldn't be laughing.

you shut up a second later.

malleus doesn't look fazed at all. has he never experienced having his grandparents revealing embarrassing secrets because if you were him you'd crawl into a hole immediately.

calmly, she says; "you must really be dear to him."

"they are."

malleus doesn't even hesitate.

this time. he feels like clinging onto a life again, he'll be with you for as long as he can.

[dira333]

When I say your writing is the thread I'm hanging by...🤌🤌🤌🙏🙏🙏

We got reader confessing and loving Asahi. For your plotbunny, can I request Asahi giving reader some of that same love in return (in his own style, ofc)?

♡ “i’m not going to sit here and pretend like you don’t own my heart, like i haven’t been yours since the moment i saw you.”

I think I would pass away if he said that.

hihihihihihihihihihi - looks like I'm in an Asahi mood tonight, but don't worry, I'll get back to you (aka the Miya Twins I'm actually writing about) I am having so much fun with him!!!!

“I'm not going to sit here and pretend like you don’t own my heart, like I haven’t been yours since the moment I saw you!”

Asahi's face is flushed and even though you'd never point it out to him, there's a little spit flying. He's trying to get a point across, for sure.

Somewhere behind you, Sugawara is snickering into his hand. Kiyoko, Queen that she is, is simply smiling, but her husband looks like he's debating between murdering Asahi or getting him some water - Asahi is his senpai after all.

"I know Baby, I know." You coo, pulling him back down to his seat. "I love you," you whisper into his ear, "but this is a wedding and it's not ours."

Asahi perks up, trying to get another word in, but Kiyoko, calm as usual, glosses over it with nothing but a smile. The audience is left in shambles, stricken by her beauty. Or maybe it's just Ryunnosuke, who's full-on crying.

"We're celebrating love tonight," Nishinoya speaks into the mic and you're once more glad that the best man is also best friends with your partner. Leave it to him to save Asahi's face. Who knew he was such a lightweight?

-

"I can never show my face again!" Asahi cries into the pillow the next morning. You regret cutting him off last night. Had he continued drinking, he might not have remembered getting up and confessing his love to you in the middle of the best man speech.

"It was cute," you try to calm him, carding a hand through his hair. "I don't think anyone minded."

"I ruined their wedding," Asahi doesn't seem to agree.

"I think Ryunnosuke can manage that on his own. Remember? He split his trousers on the dance floor."

Asahi sniffles before turning his face, showing you puffy eyes. You doubt the redness was only caused by crying.

"Promise?" He asks. "No one's going to make fun of me?"

"Well, Sugawara might make some jokes," you point out, cuddling into him, "but he's single, so the joke is on him."

Asahi sniffles one last time before nodding and clearing his throat.

"He is, isn't he? And I've got you."

And isn't that the truth?

[kamidukki]

uGHHHH tumblr is quite glitchy today and i'll resend this ask

anyWAY i remember i saw aknk official posted something a few days ago(?) and announced that episode 3 is almost completed JAJZJANS i'm so ready for the upcoming angst + drama and possible butler being demonized again but ofc i'll be hurt again AAAAAA i remember the pain and worry when haures got captured then it WAS A CLIFFHANGER leaving me quite emotional for a few days waiting for the last update for episode 2 🤣 also im really curious amd want to know more about the butlers' past especially berrien and fennesz 💖

to be honest, berrien is so mysterious and kind of suspicious you dont even know if his actions are really genuine or... not hMMMMMMM ���👁

OH AND- i saw a jp theory a long time ago, it was a comparison between haures holding his hand out to master and berrien holding out his left hand and aND apparently, it has a meaning!

when someone is holding out their right hand to you, it means the person liked you or comfortable with you

however if someone is holding out their left hand to you..... it means they dislike you or distaste.

guess who's holding out their left hand? BERRRIIEIEIEIEENNNNNAJJSWJAJJA the way my heart broke when i saw that theory lol 🤣

i know its just a coincidence i know BUT imagine the gut wrenching angst if berrien dislikes his master all this time JAJZJAJAJAJA i'll cry for real if it becomes true 🤣 berrien is one of my fave 🥺

-zella

Hi, zella!

There's a whole lot to unpack in this ask, so I'm putting the 'aknk' and 'akuneko' tag in this in case someone else also want to give their two cents.

❗⚠ [Spoiler alert, read with caution] ⚠❗

Putting aside Berrien, it'll be such a plot twist if Fennesz get demonized next because everyone (mostly) is predicting butler from either the 3rd floor or the basement to be the center in the next episode's stage 👀 If I remember correctly, Fennesz is currently the one who notices Berrien's different 'aura' when he asked about Haures' demonisation at the end of episode 2...? It would be great if he could play an important role in the future, episode 3 or not, because of that 🤔

I take it this is the announcement you mentioned, right?

I'm so excited about the next episode too. It's going to be distributed throughout the entirety of the year 2023, it seems? I certainly can't wait to be emotionally devastated once again. Episode 2 was really, really great, wasn't it? 😊

Since we're still in the topic of official announcement... I'd like to go off tangent a bit and talk about the third bullet point. It said, if my understanding is correct, the implementation of full voice acting in episode 2 and and episode 2.5 will be the last ones that come free. From there onwards, they will come into two parts, free and paid ones. Seems like we'll need to pay an additional fee if we want to unlock the voice...? I'm not entirely sure about this one actually. Anyone with a better grasp of Japanese feel free to correct.

I mean, I'm happy if Akuneko's doing well financially and the people who contribute to it, illustrators and voice actors alike, are getting paid well. On the other hand, as a money-wise poor af person, I'm anxious I won't be able to buy it... 😭 I doubt it will come cheaply after all

Moving on to Berrien, this is the tweet that speculated the right/left hand gesture, isn't it? I'm putting a link a there just in case someone either hasn't seen it/wants some context.

I think we all will cry if Berrien hates us 😂 but it's such a delicious theory, an unprecedented move from a joseimuke game should it ever come true. I mean, the most loving, kind-looking male cast that genuinely hates and/or betrays the players at a certain point??? If Akuneko does that, hats off for the bravery. I don't know if they will be able to pull such move though, given the risk of losing players is too big.

And, oh, I'll cry with you too, that's for sure 😭 I also love Berrien too muchー if anything , he is the reason I play Akuneko. But then again I live off the angst and the drama... Well, don't we all, though 😂

[moraypower]

So she doesn't know anything about this person (squid?) (kid?) except that they'd race for sweets, but anyways, she's probably got something to do with the ocean, right?

Beach cookies it is! And again, Mary Sue leaves a nice note to go with it:

HI SPEEDY LEGS!!

I MADE MR. HANSUM SOME COOKIES SO I THOUGHT I SHOULD MAKE U SOME TOO! BEST OF LUCK IN UR RACE (ARE U GUYS DOING THAT TOMORROW)!!

CAN U LET MR. HANSUM WIN ONCE IF I BRIBE U WITH THESE SWEETS, I THINK THAT'D MAKE HIM HAPPY TOO!

OOPS BUT I SHOULDN'T BE BRIBING U WITH A GIFT. WELL MAYBE I'LL MAKE U MORE COOKIES IF U AGREE WITH ME THO

HAPPY VALENTINE'S! P.S. THE SAND IS TWO TYPES OF SUGAR AND FEELS LIKE REAL SAND IN UR MOUTH! BUT IT'S SWEET OFC LOLOL

Mary Sue

Reading the note over and over again, Frye couldn't stop giggling to herself, raising one eyebrow in a mixture of contempt and amusement.

Bribery? This girl really thought that she'd go for bribery?! That was almost insulting, if it weren't for the fact that for a single moment, it was genuinely pretty tempting. Free sweets were free sweets, after all. But the eel tamer quickly dismissed the thought, deciding that no matter what, she'd always be able to get her hands on more treats with ease anyways, and she had a reputation to keep here! She couldn't just let Break win, no way!

Though, the beach theming of these cookies felt... somewhat passive aggressive, too. Still, Frye guessed she couldn't blame her for not knowing anything beyond it being the place where her ancestors had first come from, since they had never actually spoken much to each other. So she wouldn't hold it against her... at least, not too much.

"Heheheh... Of course we're still doing that race tomorrow. If he wants to take all the chocolates then there's no doubt about that! And if Break is really as good and handsome as you say he is, he should be able to win it for himself without me rigging the race pretty easily, right? But he won't. No way is he better than me! I'm the eel deal!"

One of the cookies was waved around in one hand as she spoke for emphasis, before promptly being bitten into for a final dramatic flair once the mini speech was done.

"...wow, these are actually pretty good! Thanks!"

[madraleen]

Attack on Titan - Season 3 A predictably long commentary and an unnecessarily long pre-analysis of s4.

(*full manga spoilers. so many spoilers. ending spoilers. all the spoilers.)

-hmmm the op is on point and also very melancholy

-he iS SO EXTRA, eren is, even when his duty is cleaning he's all RAWR CLEANING ARGH KYAAA

-i love how aot is sometimes "we interrupt your regular slaughter and depression for a levi-loves-cleaning infomercial"

-i understand it's a 2019 production and therefore by default improved, but everything looks so much richer and detailed and i just HOW DO I SOAK IT ALL IN

-what i'm getting from the levi vs kenny sequences is that someone on the animation team really REALLY loves levi. as they should ofc

-i love the moment in the op when child eren bumps into teen eren, i love it. and i love all the eren-mikasa-armin moments.

-i suppose it'll never not hurt seeing eren in chains

-completely unrelated, but i want everyone to remember that paradis went from thinking they were the last of humanity to having to deal with an entire world of nations that are 100% set on exterminating them. and they have four years to adjust to this shocking change of mindset, and to history and politics that's been known to everyone else for hundreds of years, and deal with it accordingly. they are not equipped for this. they don't have the knowledge, experience or background to know how to handle this.

-in the manga i started squabbling with eren at this point, during his 'i should just die' arc, but the VA is so good that i just can't get irritated

-the worst girl in the world <3

-also the way the VA acts eren's "EAT ME!" breakdown in the cave reminds me so so much of ch.139 eren that it makes me smile. like, ah yes. i see it. i understand. my crybaby baby.

-HAHAHA, Historia "Sure, I'll be the queen," haaaa. took a step back from having levi terrorize her, did you now.

-keith shadis to eren: "the fire you lit in your heart will no doubt burn you to ashes outside the walls." what a fine day to cry over aot again.

-YOU CAN SEE SPECKS OF DUST FLOATING IN THE SUNLIGHT IN THE BACKGROUND WHAT! WHAT!!

-i enjoy eren and jean's bickering so much omg.

-i think i'll always have a soft spot for the night before shiganshina chapter bc of the manga. it was such a relief to read it at that point.

-MIKASA AND ARMIN SMILING IN THE BACKGROUND AS EREN AND JEAN BEAT EACH OTHER UP STOP I LOVE THEM

-eren to armin and mikasa: "but would it kill you guys to look out for me better?" i love that. i love that he just says that, that their bond is so deep that looking out for each other is their baseline.

-technically eren did see the world with armin... technically :')

-susume :') :'( . dude, the s3 animation is so well-made though

-ARMIN AND HIS BOOK MADE EREN REALIZE HE WASN'T FREE, ARMIN IS EREN'S VILLAIN ORIGIN STORY PART 2! (/joke)

-it's kinda amazing how mikasa and armin are both the people who know eren the best, AND how they are completely blindsided because of it. which makes sense - yes, they didn't question eren's depression, but they also didn't have eren's facts; they assumed he was in a state similar to theirs. they did live together day in day out after all, why would they assume eren was experiencing something entirely different than what they were, especially when he's never hidden things from them before?

-IT'S SO DAMN SATISFYING SEEING THEM FLY!

-ERWIN KILLS IT IN SHIGANSHINA ASFJDF

-i'm pumping my fist again with this op

-i randomly heard hiroshi kamiya's actual voice, and my genuine reaction was "???". how... how does he do levi's voice, h...

-i am once again flabbergasted that armin didn't put eren in his place through facts and logic on their time-skip fight. armin is literally like STOP THE PRESSES, WE'RE NEGOTIATING WITH BERTOLT FIRST in shiganshina, this isn't a post-colossus thing, it's just armin, and eren knows this full well. and yet once again it comes down to how blindsided armin and mikasa were. it’s almost like they trust eren so much that his words give them actual pause, like “is he right?”

-i know technically mikasa is beyblade number too, but i think the parallel is armin=erwin and jean=levi rn. bc jean tells armin, "i'm all right at reading situations, but i don't have the faintest idea how we can get out of this. we're still ultimately relying on you for a plan" and i think that's a very levi thing. only, levi would add piss and shit remarks for good measure.

-i can see why people call the shiganshina part of the anime peak and i haven't even reached the injection part yet.

-"GIVE UP ON YOUR DREAM AND DIE"

-daisuke ono kills it this season. he's magnificent.

-floch: "why am i alive?" me: to torture us post-time skip.

-dude this is so good, the animation and the VAs are killing it. also armin just sacrificed everything for eren, and legit post-time skip eren said 'hold my beer. you'll sacrifice your life for me? i'll give my life AND everyone else's too to save you, specifically (and a few other people)."

-aaah, eren knew armin first, then got to know mikasa, he's wearing The Scarf(TM), okay.

-levi's distress hits hard. dude THE VAs ARE KILLING IT.

-floch's right on the money though. the thing that defeats the titans *is* a demon of sorts, and he did survive to help do just that

-i love being reminded of eren's breakdowns and his expression during the breakdowns and i love how yuki kaji acts them out, they are exactly ch.139 eren (and this means a lot to me)

-double date in the basement~~~ (i'm sorry, idk what i'm saying, i'm sorry)

-yeah, basically, it’s all about the fact that nothing can stop violence. king fritz tried to stop violence through enforced/fake peace - didn’t work. talking it out wouldn’t work, deterrents wouldn’t work. eren tried to stop violence through violence - didn’t work (he secured his own goals for a time, but violence didn’t stop).

-why is aot so good? :')

-eren is such a good friend to armin, ffs (yes, yes, s4. i don't believe his friendship or the depth of it changed at all though, i don’t think anyone questions that.)

-eren is lifting armin up by telling him how there are infinite possibilities and freedom outside the walls, only to flashback to faye and such and realize there's no freedom to give to armin or to anyone outside the walls, there's only the world that wants their demise. armin is eren's villain origin story part 3. this has become a pattern, and third time's the charm.

-is it too bad that whenever i see birds i think of them as little erens

-yuki kaji. in the ocean scene. Perfection.

~~~

-Okay, so, to contextualize. Eren’s goals: 1) to exterminate all the Titans, 2) to be free, 3) a long life and happiness for his friends, even at the cost of his life. So at this point, in the sea sequence, Eren has seen glimpses of future events and knows that he will do the Rumbling. He does not know the concept of Mikasa’s Choice yet, just a few events out of context that will lead to the end of the Titans, which will lead to freedom. He hasn’t decided to do it, doesn’t know how he’s led to do it. He keeps this a secret. He tries to find alternatives, and low-key wants an out by letting Mikasa choose for him when he asks her what she is to him. But in the end there’s no alternative. It’s unclear when he realizes that he’ll be stopped on his 80%, but either way he means to or expects to be stopped at some point, because he wants to make his friends heroes from the get-go. He would go through with the 100% if left to his own devices because he wants to do it on a personal level, but he also knows it’s wrong and feels regret for the individual people that he considered enemies but now has gotten to know as people, despite the fact that it’ll give him what he wants (seen even post-Marley, when he tells his depressed self in the mirror to fight, seen in his reaction to Hange which I never saw as anything but despair- although screw you, Eren, don’t treat them like that); and the fact that he wants to make his friends heroes takes precedence.

From hereon, he presumably continues to receive memories, and his head gets progressively messed up because he’s lived parts of the past and future while living in the present.

Noteworthy is that Eren did not push away his friends pre-Marley. Before that, he was with them, albeit depressed, subdued and withdrawn; he lived and worked and traveled with them and made sure to make explicit how much he cares for them. His sudden leave must have blindsided them, but they still think that Eren is fully aligned with them. The major shift occurs after he comes back from Marley, where the world has specifically singled out him, Eren Yeager, as the biggest threat to humanity - not Paradis, Eren himself. Thus, Eren must become a completely separate entity from his ~precious friends, 1) to prevent them from becoming accomplices, prevent them from being dragged into his messes like they’ve done his whole life, bc they're supposed to be the heroes in all this, 2) to prevent them from stopping him too soon, 3) to convince them to fight him.

Another interesting thing is, Eren only fights with Armin and Mikasa once. When reading, I constantly perceived his stance as a personal offense on behalf of Armin and Mikasa, but technically, their personal fight only occurs once - after that, they’re just on opposing sides, it’s not personal. Considering he didn’t want to fight them and that he was very aware he was lying through his teeth, he purposely didn’t engage with them any more than he could bear, because I assume it wasn’t easy to fight them. But we’ll see how that plays out in s4, ‘cause my manga panels memories are hazy bc those arcs destroyed me.

So. In order for Eren to somewhat keep his sanity amidst overlapping timelines, a massacre that he dearly wants and deeply regrets, pushing away his closest people, wanting to make them heroes but not knowing if they’ll survive in the first place, becoming a mass murderer and the villain of the entire world, he regresses into a child form, where things are simpler. 

And the reason I’m basically summarizing s4 here is to remind myself what to actually look out for before I get wrapped up in the tragedy of it all all over again :’D

[theinfinitedivides]

omg thank you for calling my ask "a love letter to ktl" that made me so happy 🥹

loved all the points you made and i'm really hoping they touch more on won overcoming his trauma as well. it seems like we're gonna learn more about his mom soon based off of the preview for ep 11 - sarang might give won the push to ask the ahjussi at the entrance (who worked at king hotel for 30 years) if he remembers her.

totally begging that they don't give them a breakup arc right along with you btw, i'll take any other angst arc please 😭 they're too precious, i don't think they can handle losing each other when they can barely stand being apart for a few minutes. also really hoping hwaran and won's dad don't interfere with their relationship, though i doubt won would let that affect them if it does happen.

on another note, i wonder if we'll get more on sarang's backstory too like how her parents, especially her mom, passed away. her love for king hotel stemmed from her memories with her mom, so i'm curious to see if there's more to that.

also, those lyrics fit the swimming pool scene so well (the translation was perfect dw). i can't tell you how many times i've watched that scene over and over, it's just so natural and intimate. the way won almost breathes out more than says "i missed you." after that first kiss in the pool? it was like he could finally breathe again after having sarang in his arms and seeing her face up close and clear. you can literally feel how much they missed each other and craved each other's touch even though they were together all day. god. them!!!

can the weekend please come faster 😭

me whenever those two do literally anything at all:

my standards are up by God themself at this point. they are holding the marker in their hand and i am kindly asking them to send it back down to earth for me bc would you look at that how tf am i supposed to function otherwise

now as for your points: i definitely believe we're going to see more of that ahjussi, bc the minute Sang Sik mentioned that he's the longest working employee at the hotel i saw the lightbulbs go off in Won's head. he might kill Sang Sik when they get home after the fun he had bossing him around (that and the way he had to suffer seeing the back of Sa Rang for most of the time there, more on that later) but he'll make it by the skin of his teeth out of Won's office for that information alone, sksksksk

and that brings me something that i forgot to bring up in the answer to your last ask with regards to Won's trauma—he's very touchy when it comes to the subject of his mother. we saw it during his interactions with Hwa Ran where she tells him to be careful otherwise he might end up like her (iirc he left the house and ran out to the overlook[? is that the word? i feel like i might know where that is bc of Heart Signal 4 and filming locations but don't mind me i could be wrong] over Seoul right after that), we saw it in the interview when Sa Rang brought up the revised questions about his mother (hello again ep 3 panic attack and lashing out at her afterwards), and we saw it again when he lied (!!!) to Sa Rang during the dinner that he wasn't curious about what had happened to her anymore. (we know it was a lie bc of his body language and how he [once again] got up and left the room) he is the definition of 'i never bothered looking for my mother / i am angry on behalf of my mother', and, by extension, is not very good at hiding his emotions whenever that subject is brought up, so i think whatever new information we do get in ep 11 will be very crucial to whatever happens to him at that anniversary dinner (if he gets the info beforehand ofc). in contrast, Sa Rang's memories of her mother seem to be much happier, despite the obvious grief of her death—it appears that she knows what happened to her mother (although we don't yet), she doesn't hesitate to talk about her and the dreams that she had to work at King Hotel, and it's very obvious that she is the driving force behind most, if not all, of what she does.

what i expect to see from a typical k-drama cliché is that her mother and Won's mother have some sort of connection, bc it's either the main couple are long lost childhood besties or someone's parents f*cked somebody else's parents over or the parents just had something going on and never told the kids. how they execute that (whether they met briefly in the hotel or whether they knew each other otherwise), or if they never execute that at all and skip the trope, is what i'm looking forward to, and i'm very curious as to what happens.

now, as much as i do not want them to come within fifteen feet of this ride-or-die couple that is SaWon Hwa Ran and CEO Gu are both going to be a problem. that's all but guaranteed—remember when they had that argument in the house and he said 'there is no such thing as love for people like us'? the premise that they've been setting up for us is that there is a 99.9% chance that Won's father will not take it lying down if he finds out his son 1. has a girlfriend (who is not of his status per say) and 2. it's the best talent of the hotel. and that's sad, in a way, that he's become so indifferent to anything but his own success that he cannot fathom that someone would take all of their resources to go save one person (cliff side heli trip *cough*). Hwa Ran reflects this kind of mentality too, when she says that only those who fight for themselves with everything on the line win, unlike those who fight for others in order to protect them (that's the same scene where he tells her he didn't want to fight, i went back and checked), and she won't blink twice at meddling with either of them if it means she's back in the running for successor. (when Oumou Sangaré said in Mogoya that 'people today / they're not loyal / humanity / i'm concerned about them' she meant it, these folks out here with the Korean version of Succession rn) but remember that these are two Gu siblings, never mind the half, and so if she makes a move it's unlikely that Won will back down either.

ending with the swimming pool scene again bc (like you) i've gone back and kept watching and you're right—there is this intimacy about it that feels about as natural as breathing. i mentioned in the tags of one of my KTL reblogs (and OG posts i think) that Won's love language is probably touch (acts of service as well but we're focusing on the touch rn), and the acting choices that Junho makes here amplifies that almost immediately. (hand,,,,,,,, on shoulder,,,,,,,, in the deleted take for that scene,,,,,,,, unwell. unwell i say) something something saying he missed seeing her face oh God he missed seeing her face something something to love another person is to see the face of God something something 'as if i just saw you / 'cross Second Avenue / wading in waist-high water' something something 'tujh mein rab dikhta hai... / dil de dil vich vasdi' — 'i see God in you... / she (the lover) resides in my heart'—

*screeches* if i'm alive after the weekend to live blog anything then that's a miracle, so anon pray that it comes faster so we all survive it <333

[kindahoping4forever]

at this point i'm starting to doubt if taylor is even a real person, bc who the hell works that much? and she's like, having fun while doing it. how. but yeah red IS the ultimate autumn album and tbh it feels wrong for it to drop in any month that's not october ✋🏻😔

one thing that answers all of your questions: woman has finally gone insane and by her own doing 🥴 lmao no but really, she's so obsessed with the tiniest details, which i don't blame her at all bc i'm also like that, but that transformed this fandom into arguably the craziest one out there 😩 i know it's all in good fun and that she is a smart woman who always has a plan, even though we don't know it yet, but god why would you mislead us like that if you're not dropping 1989 (tv) soon 😭 that's just cruel, honestly

but i really have to believe she'll be dropping something soon & this is all part of the plan, bc why else would she announce such a highly anticipated album 5 months before? 😩 i mean i know she did that with lover, but i was hoping she would keep the same announcement style as the one for fearless (tv) 😔 but hey i do feel you about this whole circus of marketing she has & fans keep feeding 🤭

look i've been listening to red (the piracy's version ofc) all day & i cannot pick the one i'm most excited to hear 😩 this album just means so much to me, i might truly combust when i hear her version of it ✋🏻 and ma'am your trinity !!! that's some a+ taste right there !!! and i'm here just ignoring the fact that we'll get a 2021 version of 'i almost do' bc that song is the most personal one for me out of the album but i refuse to acknowledge that 😌

also i'm sorry i'm rambling too much, my mind is just going off today 😩 i'll blame taylor for that but pls feel free to ignore me lmao

(okay but have you stop to think that the standard version of red is already over one hour long. with 16 songs. and now we're getting 30 songs. one of them is 10 minutes long. what made her ever think we're ready for that 😭)

Ok truly tho, Fearless (TV) was already almost 2 hours and none of those songs were nearly as long as some of the tracks on OG Red! How many discs is it going to be? How many vinyls?? 😩😩 Honestly her clues recently were so all over the place and while they overwhelming seemed 1989 related there were also a ton that could've been interpreted as Red or even Speak Now so yes she's either gone mad and has no one to blame but herself (😌) or I wonder if it's possible she doesn't stick to a traditional release structure? This is full clown mode (I'm still a Woodvale truther tbh 🤡) but there's so many iconic songs to choose from with these next few albums (1989 had what, 6 singles? Red has 3 commercial hits and ATW), maybe she fills the time between now and Nov. with a few single drops to tease the projects? A 1989 single could drop sometime soon (or maybe even a Speak Now track, why not, July 9th is a Friday after all 😌) and maybe she'll announce all these albums at once but Red is ultimately the one that's coming out first? (She clearly said in the statement "the next album I'll be releasing" but that doesn't mean she can't release songs off other albums. 🤡 Also, she straight up lied and said Lover wasn't called Lover at one point so tell me why I'm supposed to believe anything she says 😌)

And omg yes, "I Almost Do" 2021 is gonna hit so hard 😭😭😭 I've been a Taylor fan since Fearless but I think it took until Red for me to realize that the thing that strikes me most about her music is that she writes the way my brain thinks, if that makes sense. Like idk if it's because we're Sagittarius sisters or we just process our emotions similarly but listening to Red for the first time, there were moments where I was floored because not only was she describing things exactly the way I would in my memory but she was also describing feelings that I recognized, that I knew I'd had but never knew how to put into words. I'd never had an experience with an artist like that before and that's why Red (and "I Almost Do" in particular!) will always be so so special to me 🥺

[rosepetalcharm]

all the asks with Kurama ofc!!

AAAAAAA I'M SO SORRY I GOT BACK TO THIS SO LATE  !! Thinking about some of these question just got me Feeling so much.. and I got distracted.. Anyway! Here are the remaining asks! I already answered Fern, Sunflower and Rose here, so the rest of them are here! Thank you so much for the ask!!🥺🥺💜💛💜💛

Palm Tree: What’s your and your f/o’s favourite place in the world?

Any place would fit as long as we're together, being in each other's presence is certainly more our favourite thing than any particular place. Though we do have a couple of places we prefer being together, like the secluded private garden hidden away in the forest surrounding the castle grounds in Ethines, or the little meadow that can be found a little ways away from his place,  Or perhaps the secret room we found while exploring the school grounds that all 13 of turned into a sort of private room for us whenever we needed to rest away from any chaos or if we just needed the space. The others use it more often than we do

Azalea: What’s something about you that you didn’t want your f/o to know?

At first, it was me, just me. I didn't know if he'd like to know anything about me if I'm going to be honest, or if he'd even like me.. I was so terrified he wouldn't like me at all, for any reason (pathetic I know) I was most afriad of him knowing about.. my past mostly.. my thoughts and feelings and just everything about me.. It still terrifies me that I'll be too much or annoy him somehow and I.. don't know how I'd handle that really.. It's..yeah..

Lotus: What does your f/o dream about?

Hmm.. The only dreams that I know of are the nightmares he gets, from all the times he's almost died, one of the rest of us almost died, or something that scared him so much.. and I only know about these because I was lucky enough to be there to comfort him after he has one. He hasn't told me much about any other dreams he has..

Darling what’s wrong? Why are you looking away? Your face is red, do you have a fever?! Kurama, look at me!

Lily: What means most in the world to your f/o?

The safety and happiness of the ones he loves, no question.

Sage Brush: What’s something your f/o doesn’t know, but they want to?

Hmm.. Well, recently he's been wanting to know what I'm planning to do for my birthday, even though it's still a few months away at this point.. Though I honestly don't have any idea what to do at the moment. (I haven't told him yet though, I will once the date's closer)

Dandelion: How far would your f/o travel? (For anything, including you?)

He woud travel quite far for the people and things he cares about, there's no doubt there.

"Not even the entirety of Existance itself would be too far to traverse if it's for you, my Princess.. I would go even farther if it was required of me."

Ehem.*blushing intensely* Does.. does that answer that question..?  ..Goodness darling you're unbelievable..

Ivy: Is your f/o interested in history?

I would say he has a slight interest in history, though he isn't interested in history for its own sake. He's more interested in it for how it can be useful to him.

Magnolia: How do you and your f/o compare in strength?

Well, Kurama and I would certainly be considered equals in mental strength, and I would say that he's stronger than I am emotionally (though that isn't saying much). Physically, as a Skyborn and as one of the best fighters in our group of 13? I outclass him there, our sparring matches are fun because I usually limit my abilities and think of creative ways to use them (I always win in the end, of course)

"I do love sparring with you like that, you always get this wonderful gleam in your eye when you manage to pull off a move you've been practicing for weeks. I get quite distracted by it.. It’s entrancing watching you dance across the battlefield like that.."

*Blushes even more somehow, wraps my wings around me and hides* Don’t you start again, my love.. my heart is already racing..

*He chuckles, and hugs me* Alright..~ For now at least.

Tulip: Are you and your f/o distant from other couples/your friends/everyone?

No we aren't, we get along quite well with our friends and family, though we do seem unapproachable to people who haven't interacted with us before (though I'm told I seem far more intimidating and unapproachable than he does, expectedly). My sisters have and do adore him, Kenna has even considered him to be an older brother figure for years before we were even.. together..like this. The thirteen of us care very deeply for one another after all.

Again I'm so sorry I posted this so late T_T  And thank you so much again for the ask darling!!💜💜💜💜💜

[loveyourlovelysoul]

me and "my" manipulator

The story of how I slowly realized what went wrong with this guy, so that hopefully it won't happen again. And Idk, maybe this can be of help to you too.

So yes, I had an experience with a manipulator. I am sure I had/have others but I am still in the process of understanding/recognizing many of these so for now I'll simply talk about this guy, cause it's probably been the "awakening relationship" for me. There's this very accurate description of manipulation on wikipedia that is worth a read, in case you feel the need to know more and check if you've (ever) been in such a situation too: at times it's so hard to understand and acknowledge that we're being manipulated we might be never aware of that, or simply find out later on by chance (when it's too late).

BTW I'd like to know about your experience, if so, and if it's not too much to bear with ofc. Mine is gonna be long.

It happened around 4 years ago, ig. We met online, through Instagram. I like knowing people and making friends (that's my maximum goal online tbh), so I didn't see that as a bad thing (I also made some very good online friends from all over the world, so I never see that as a red flag from the start. Not to mention, I have my boundaries anyway).

TBH I didn't really liked how fast and pushy he was: he wanted to meet and go somewhere away from the city to take photos (I love photography and he is passionate about it too), but that's a big no for me: let's meet first where there are other people. I don't like being alone with someone I don't know. Plus, I prefer to take it slow: let's chat online a little before meeting irl. It has already happened to me with someone else that after a while, something happened and the offline meeting got cancelled (luckily, most of the times, I'd say), so... We moved on whatsapp. Yeah I gave him my number. I know we shoudn't do these kind of things, but aren't we putting it online anyway whenever we sign somewhere? Plus, back to the beautiful friends I made online: they all have my number too (not to mention that giving your number to someone irl can be any safer - but this makes for another story).

He used to write me as often as he could, telling me how his ex-girlfriend blocked him everywhere for no reason (I know the truth now, and I even wonder if she has ever been his gf), telling me how many things we had in common (I doubt it now), keeping me informed about his every move, even when he was at the club with his friends or going somewhere with them (I mean... go there and enjoy?? Leave me alone?? We're not even dating, hello?? - Red flag ig, but I didn't pay attention to it: I thought he was just a little bit weird but liked talking with me?? Wrong, though. He wanted to make me feel appreciated and more important than anyone, nice plan).

He wanted to meet one sunday but honestly I wasn't feeling good and my grandma too, and we were home alone, so I asked him to postpone and he got mildly angry (first BIG red flag that made me think: if he doesn't support you or understand you but feels like you're playing with him, leave). I had to promise it was real, I wasn't playing him, I kinda had to... beg?? Gosh, if I rethink about it... I feel so embarassed. But yeah, experiences like this make you more aware of how wrong some things are, once you re-think them over with a clearer mind. So I only have to forgive myself for having done that.

We went on chatting online, he seemed funny and kinda smart (things I like in a guy). Long story short, I decided to finally meet him irl: half I was growing tired of him asking me out and half I had to meet also with another guy (not a manipulator, but someone I had already been talking with and out of nowhere asked me the same thing: "let's go somewhere in the countryside to take photos" - what was going on even?? Maybe it was a sign to move things and see the reality of what was going on. Anyway I wanted to be fair and give both the same amount of time and chance, in my city center though).

I met him in my hometown (he lives nearby), and he parked his car in a parking lot without paying for it, so we basically sat on a bench in front of his car all the time cause he feared police finding out. If I had known his plan, I would have payed for the parking lot (and even a bottle of water or whatever he would have had): it was summer and, for how cool was the air under the trees, I was in deep need of some water to drink. Luckily, we stayed there talking about random stuff for only around 40 minutes. He mentioned many times how I wasn't as shy as I claimed to be and as he thought, but maybe I wasn't feeling as attracted to him: something inside wasn't just right (my guts were screaming "NO"). He tried to touch me and be close, kissed me on my cheeks once I told him I had to go.

It felt okay until the next day, when he started writing me "So how was it?". I was like WTH? What did we do? We spoke for 40 minutes and barely touched... It honestly made me laugh. So I kept being vague "Yeah it was... okay ig?" and tried to move on from the subject but he didn't seem to want that: it felt like he needed some precise words from me, but I couldn't give him them cause it was impossible on my view. I think this is exactly when things started to crumbling down. Probably also cause of how insecure he was/is about his look and his body and he felt judged by me on that (despite I didn't say a word about it, not even to my friends. That wasn't the real "problem" for me).

He started hating on me from that moment on, saying that I had changed from before the meeting (maybe it was half true but I mean, he wasn't helping with such an aggressive behaviour; I swear I kept trying to be friendly, but he didn't want that, he didn't want friends). Things then seemed to calm down for a while and go back to "normal" (he kept messaging me very often about everything and I kept replying him as usual), until I went away on holiday. He then accused me of being selfish and tried to make me feel guilty for being on holiday (maybe cause I didn't invite him): he kept messaging me because he was bored and alone (his friends were on holidays too with their gfs), and I really didn't want to talk with him constantly but enjoy my time there. He had me promise him to go places together (still with the excuse of taking photos), and once I told him "But you have a car and you can go wherever you want already" he got even more mad and upset with me.

One night we had another round of messages in which he said something but it was getting late: I knew he used to go to bed earlier than me, he told me one of the first times we were messaging because he had to wake up at 6 to go to work, and I was perfectly fine with that. Remembering this, I told him "Okay fine, let's continue tomorrow" and he started telling me I didn't want to talk about problems, and when I tried to explain it was for him and tried to put it on a fun note (it was really getting unbearable), he got even angrier and didn't understand my try. The following day he was at work but kept messaging me anyway. We kept "arguing": he kept accusing me of random stuff all done by him, while I was trying to make him aware about what really was going on, showing him his messages to have him shut up and understand it was him, but no ofc: in his mind, it was me. It was me not being his good puppy. At a certain point I really had enough and said "Okay, enough. Let's stop this. Stop writing me, stop. Don't talk to me anymore". He kept saying stuff and called me names, ofc he only wanted a response but I didn't give him: it would only have prolonged the agony for me. So I stood my ground, bit my tongue (I knew replying would have been useless too), and stopped reading his messages until he finally stopped sending. At that point he could have said whatever and I could have never been able to stop him, no matter what I would have said. I knew he was the wrong one and I didn't do anything, and that was enough for me. I even asked for an objective confirmation (I sent the screenshots) to a friend and she agreed with me: it was him making everything up.

He tried again to contact me again some months later on Instagram (I think he believes I blocked him), but I didn't read nor answer. He then tried to talk with me once more because I manage a page that reposts pictures of my area: I decided (with a big effort) to be a decent human being and answer with the basic human interaction "hello, yes, no". And that's all he will get from me (and only related to that page). I want to be clear and it's better to be clear with this type of people. They never give up, they never accept a defeat. But he will have to this time. I don't want to deal with him again anymore.