#dude is chronically depressed as fuck

[chrisrin]

hey! question for the court.

who goes through more trauma, john homestuck egbert or jonathan magnus archives sims?

[rosicheeks]

💖

[brockachu]

the sedins and luongo are being inducted into the hhof on their first year of eligibility. first ballot. i’m in tears i’m not kidding. i’ve been down fucking Bad with covid for the past 4 days and today on the first day i can fucking breathe and stay conscious for more than 4 hours at a time the sedins and lu are going into the hhof i’m laughing and crying in my lil armchair i’m So Happy

[cost-of-chaos]

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[cosmicrot]

I think everyone ever who has tried to tone police, belittle, or complain about disabled and chronically ill people talking about our illnesses and pains.... should have to pay us 500 dollars for every dumbass comment they’ve ever made. 

[inkskinned]

i've been in pretty much constant pain for the past 4 months. i have a slipped disc. the mri this weekend finally confirmed what i'd already suspected. mostly, i just put up with it.

i've been in a pretty bad mental space since winter began. my brain is leaking out from between my ears. i just don't care enough to listen to the rabid wet whispering of hope. i'm mostly just bored of being here, the swaddled joyless apathy.

the back pain ebbs and flows, but it's there, so i take care of it. i do my physical therapy. i get in with a specialist. i'm lucky - there's no immediate need for surgery. it's bad, but it could be worse. when i talk about how i did it (it was a very bad sneeze), i usually start laughing. it's funny! i am never comfortable, but hey. i'm young. i'll bounce back, or so they keep saying.

i just found out it's not normal to wake up every night with a category-five panic attack. i'm lucky if i am still able to remember how to spell my name right. i spend my days in a weird blank haze, exhausted, desperate for respite - only to be unable to rest during the night. i say with a laugh - i really hate it when my mental illnesses start working together. i mean, sure. unionize. it's fine. i have lost all sense of myself. there's nowhere that's actually warm in my mind.

i feel bad how often i complain about my back. my friends immediately shush my apology. dude, you slipped a disc. continue complaining.

as a kid, i think i only really admitted to the bad things... twice. for some reason, when he didn't just dismiss it - it made my dad angry. he slammed a door at me. you're fucking ungrateful. what do you have to be sad for?

what an odd delight: the slipped disc gave me the oddest wave of relief. i'm allowed to actually hurt about this thing.

i have chronic conditions which aren't "real" things. i could write a novel on the weird ways people respond to my POTS & the rest of my fun physical acronyms. i am kind of ashamed to admit - i like the way it feels to be able to say well, because of a slipped disc. a slipped disc is a real thing. a slipped disc is serious and painful. there's diagrams and infographics about slipped discs. upon my diagnosis, they immediately offered me narcotics.

i haven't been able to get up out of bed for more than a few hours. i do less and less and less and less. i have started to sit down in the shower. sighing my way from deadline to deadline. this again. in one day and out the other. people tell me i don't really need my meds. i have run out of times saying i have depression, it's become almost transparent. it's so bad my therapist suggested meeting more than once a week, but i don't want to worry her, so i never finish setting up a second meeting. every creative spark in my soul has been entirely ravaged - but that's just capitalism, baby. i don't even take the day off of work. i just show up and do a bad job and get yelled at for it.

it's not real, after all. the pain is just imagined.

[lastwave]

aghj fuck everything ok. i say this as someone who enjoys analyzing jean! hes an interesting little guy. but so so many people refuuuuse to acknowledge just how much privilege jean has over harry as an ablebodied, never-addict, (comparatively) ableminded, and arguably straight dude.

SO LIKE. Harry's very chronically ill like. canonically. post polio syndrome, all the shit that comes with hep c (joint pain, organ damage, etc etc), and his use of speed implies chronic fatigue. AND when jean gets to him after the tribunal he has at LEAST one gunshot wound (in some playthroughs he gets shot twice), and we don't even know if Kim GOT the bullet(s) out. jean is ablebodied. he has facial scarring from when he had smallpox(?) but other than that he seems to have made a full recovery while harry never did- harry still has partial paralysis. and even IF jean was in some form chronically ill, still jean feels entitled to make some smarmy comment about disability pension even tho harry has more than earned that shit.

its very easy to see the subtext that jean thinks harry deserves this. he basically outright says it in the "you know what he told me?" line. he took that not as a sign that something was deeply fucking wrong and that harry needed help (which, btw, "i want to get worse" is almost always a cry for help and an indication that someone has completely given up), but jean took it as someone accepting whats coming to them and that harry needed to learn a lesson. which, depending on the playthrough, harry was a major ass, but during the midst of a mental breakdown is NOT the time to address that. and that isn't teaching a lesson.

its exacting revenge jean felt entitled to for "putting up" with him. he thinks hes some martyr- and not even for harry's assholery. to be clear. in the fascist and some moralist playthroughs jean expresses frustration at having to go to sensitivity training. not what harry actually said. which, while speaking volumes abt harry's character, also says a fuck ton about jean's. ALSO, there are several instances where he complains about conservative talking points- "falling marriage rates", "the liberals" (in context of the f slur, not economic liberalism). which leaves one thing for jean to be upset over- harry's addiction, mental illness and disability.

its very very simple! jean thinks that harry deserves bad things because he's an addict, and thinks that harry's a burden because he's both mentally and physically disabled. and its not frustration that comes from a place of love, because otherwise he would have fucking been there. he would have reintroduced himself when he realized harry did for real have total retrograde amnesia. the fact anyone even let harry continue the investigation after finding out abt that is pretty damn heinous.

he doesn't HAVE sympathy for harry and he doesn't care about his well being- jean cares about what harry's presence in his life makes him feel like. Jean likes to pity himself and Harry's existence lets him position himself as some long suffering angel that "so graciously keeps giving harry chances". this is especially apparent in the "sorry i didn't feel like buttering you up, i have clinical depression" line. (sorry WHAT about a man that tries to drown himself in his car by driving it over a roof implies not depressed?).

like. even ignoring all of harry's other shit he had before the bender, retrograde amnesia and functional clinical depression are not comparable. that AND harry probably has a dissociative disorder AND some form of mania its just ??????

jeans very very privileged over harry and exerts it often. hes an asshole. a very interesting asshole! but an asshole nonetheless

[azulserszzp]

MENTAL AND PHYSICAL HEALTH HEAD CANNONS

(so like disorders, conditions or fears)

(the siblings or parents have similar disorders i also gave some of the characters a ton of illness realistically they probably only have 1 or 2 or be checked into a fucking ward dude)

(this will also probably be edited a ton so not everything will appear on reposts)

​im not a psychiatrist so don't take this to serious obviously also they're fictional so yk it wouldn't rlly matter and this is all maybes like they could

azula: bpd borderline personality disorder and is a clinical psychopath she also suffers form severe abandonment issues and victim of child neglect, schizoaffective disorder, antisocial personnality disorder, npd narcissistic personality disorder (she's a probably malignant narcissist), conduct disorder, machiavellian traits along with sadistic traits

usra: depression

zuko: bpd borderline personality disorder and/or chronic depression along with ptsd, severe abandonment issues, victim of child neglect, low self esteem, addictive personality disorder, anger management, his scar having phantom burning/pains, stockholm syndrome-ish (ps: not in a sexual/romantic way it's toward his father so gross), antisocial personnality disorder, insomnia, slight disordered eating

sokka: ocd obsessive compulsive disorder, anxiety, chronic pain form breaking his leg psa: he's still able to walk and fight but he tends to be weaker on that leg or have a slight stunt, low self esteem, public anxiety, stage fright , adhd attention-deficit/hyperactivity disorder (maybe idk)

ty lee: hpd histrionic personality disorder (this features provocative behavior or rapid shifts in emotion)

mai: clinical depression and empathy deficit disorder

ozai: clinical psychopath he also probably has narcissistic personality disorder

aang: anger management issues, ptsd, survivors guilt, slight anxiety and insomnia

katara: survivors guilt and obsessive compulsive disorder ocd

toph: low self esteem

jet: depression, anger management, ptsd, survivors guilt 

[spontaneousspirit]

Working on my tf2 hcs with the differences between RED N BLU teams

So far, I'm still vry surface level, but I'm thinking that like, even tho both sides are made of morally grey ppl, BLU is "less bad" (it seems) and RED is more asshole-y.

These are very broad personalities and there's clear "Good VS Bad" guys, I'm aware, but note that I'm also focusing on the possibility of a more cartoony au, rather than a genuinely deep/sincere one (I will put far more deep lore in the serious one and more thought into the characters)

Spy:

RED: The pompous prick everyone figures he is, super fucking full of himself, still kinda "suave" when he wants to be, but ironically tho he's lowkey greasy/stank. he's much more of a bastard/jerk to other ppl than his BLU counterpart and he just finds it entertaining to be a bitch, usually hanging around the other guys to look cute in a gross middle-aged man-way and be an ass. (Plot twist, it's a front, haha I love a little angst)

BLU:

Engie:

While he's snarky when he finds it necessary (his teammates are being dumb, or it's meant as more of a funny joke than actually being mean), he's much more chill and agreeable, willing to be polite until he gets provoked enough, unlike RED, who is bitchy until you give him reason to be civil. He's more introverted than RED, tending to stay quiet, or completely out of team situations unless they're actually important (ie missions and stuff, like in MTSpy). Lowkey depressed, yes in the angsty way, but he won't act like it, wanting to be taken seriously. (ALSO, unlike RED Spy, he actually fucking washes that mask and cleans his hair lmao)

RED:

He's super laid-back, though often to the extent of laziness. (Dude was the one to invent the Rancho-Relaxer or whatever the taunt is called.) He's rather good at his work when he gets the occasional boost of inspiration/energy/motivation, and his work-"schedule" with his machines is very spontaneous and random, and his workshop is a MESS (organized chaos, but he can barely find shit he needs without rummaging through all his stuff.) He's a bit crude and sarcastic, as well as stubborn as a mule and borderline alcoholic, (rarely getting drunk, but can't go a day without a few beers.) His "son" is Pyro, who gets to be both his henchman and his favorite lil guy ever.

BLU: Also took his Scout (and sometimes even Sniper) under his wing, being the more genuinely caring type of guy. He's more stern/strict/high-strung than RED, but less stubborn and more polite, being a decent, but old-fashioned man. This one is Dell Conagher, ofc, so do be warned, he's actually a bit of a good guy, but he will absolutely fuck your shit up, if need be. He's high-strung, and while he puts in effort to not look it, the chronic anxiety he deals with is a bitch. His work is more organized, he's the kind to frequently work all night, and he has a pristine workshop, which he will only let folks into when he is fully attending to them.

Will reblog with Sniper's addition later, maybe even Pyro and Scout

[disabled-stuck]

i love this blog so much. i need to get back into my au but i have dpdr john, jade with tourettes, rose w/ depression + dave w/ chronic pain in mine. this blog makes me so happy as a disabled person

DPDR JOHN i cant call you anon because youre not on anon but you know. your fucking mind dude.... june to me is sooo fucking dissociative disorder youre so fucking right. favourite ask ever. also jade with tourettes.... sorry im only focusing on the harleyberts theyre important to me. aweosme

[bougiebutchbitch]

The funny part about Kakashi being the fandom bicycle is

Do you think this man has the energy.

Do you think this depressed dog dad obsessed with a terrible porn series gets around.

Do you think this wet, scrungly, balled-up tissue who regularly spends hours talking to a memorial is Konoha's hottest commodity.

Do you think this dude who probably forgets to brush his teeth once a week is just getting it.

And Gai ISN'T?!

Right????? BAFFLING. IMPROBABLE. RIDICULOUS.

He doesn't have enough hours in his day to fuck???? He's too busy talking to his dead friends and reading erotica?

And he's like, chronically sleep-deprived. He tried hooking up with a couple of folks back in his ANBU days, but after the third time he fell asleep with a fuckbuddy balls deep, he decided enough was enough.

This disaster of a dog-dad has had sex five times in his life. Maximum. I guarantee it.

Gai on the other hand? Gai fucking UNICYCLED around all of Konoha, because that was more of a challenge. While upside-down, pedalling with his hands.

Sure, he's a busy dude too. He's gotta get in his five-hundred push-ups per day. But there's no reason he can't do those on top of someone... In fact, I bet the only time his partners get a bit uncomfy is when they can hear him muttering reps to himself as he thrusts sdklfjgsdhfgsdfh

Most folks enjoy hanging out with him, or having sex with him, but they find him a bit too much for a one-on-one relationship. Which I imagine Gai is cool with! He strikes me as someone who is very open and genuine and honest about sex - if someone's looking for a bit of fun and he finds them attractive, then why shouldn't they celebrate their youth together? He keeps a clear line of communication and doesn't let any feelings get involved, beyond warm friendship!

In fact, I bet he's accidentally broken several hearts... He'll fuck his partner good and cook for them after, all while telling them a little bit too excitedly about the new training regime he's developing for his students, at top volume. His partner will see him out with a warm fuzzy feeling in their chest, but ringing in their ears. Gai waves cheerily before sprinting off into the distance like a green spandex-clad missile, and his partner tells themselves they're glad this was a one-time thing. Gai's good in bed - but he's so ridiculous. So big and energetic and loud.

...But you bet his partner's going to be squirming around in that same bed all night, unable to stop thinking about him skldfhglsdhfksdjg

[queenlua]

one of the funniest documents released so far in the google antitrust trial is this set of emails between a Google Ads bigwig and a Google Chrome bigwig, in which the Ads bigwig begs Chrome to roll back some-feature-or-another because buh-buh-buh my ads revenue ;_;

and it's interesting in that it's a pretty clear illustration of both (1) google has so much data, they absolutely have to know that search quality is getting worse, presumably in more intimate quantitative detail than us non-data-havers are ever going to have, but (2) that doesn't matter because merely having that information doesn't mean they'll make wise or good decisions with it

which is not an especially novel observation, but—among e.g. older folks, or less-internet-cynicism-poisoned folks, i still sometimes run into people who kind of take it as a weird article of faith that surely The People In Charge of these companies know what they're doing, and if a decision seems kinda dumb or nearsighted, well, clearly they wouldn't just be doing stuff based on vibes or short-termism, they're too smart for that

i hear this among even people who should know way better? like i know this guy whose late career went through some serious Death-of-a-Salesman type shit due to fuckwits in the hospital administration, and... dude's still like "well surely company is doing [x] for a good reason." like. they're doing it for some reason, sure. but i wouldn't jump to assume a good one!

and i mean for some people i think that kind of thing is a desperate article of faith, because the alternative is just sort of depressing—had a chat with an older couple a while ago, where one of them was like, hey, we're getting older and there's not enough doctors, is this AI stuff going to solve that? and i kinda gave my most diplomatic off-the-cuff thoughts of "uhhh i mean it might be a useful diagnostic tool for certain things but i think healthcare's problems are kinda... deeper... than that?", and the other member of the couple was like, that's right, did you know 70% of healthcare spending is for chronic conditions, AI's only going to help for the remaining 30%, and certainly isn't going to help us much. and the other person was like "i know you're right," but looked a lil deflated—clearly she's worried about getting old, and the only damn thing the press is hyping up is AI, and she's world-wise enough to know the alternative is, uh, kinda bad, so. i get it

(i have a friend whose pet theory is that the Greatest Generation was just disproportionately stuffed with competent people in various governmental/regulatory/business-y posts, because the Great Depression fucked up so many careers that you had overqualified people in a lot of roles that were usually more drudgery-y making sure those jobs got done really well... and ergo the children of that generation have a weirdly high opinion of How Well People Are Running Things... which seems like a kinda dodgy theory to me, but i also saw Joe Coulombe tout this theory in his book about Trader Joe's, so, clearly this theory has some kind of memetic force behind it? idk)

anyway that's a lot of off-the-cuff rambling to say: i'm always glad when a trial leaks a bunch of documents to the public so everyone can see The Boring And Kinda Dumb Ways That Rooms Full O' Bigwigs Decide Things haha

[mapsofnonexistentplaces]

Character thang: mithrun! And falin:3 if u want

GRINS just doing mithrun for now might rb this later and add on falin thoughts....

favorite thing about them

honestly just his whole arc being a pretty blatant abuse/depression metaphor combined with like. some of the most realistic disabled writing ive seen in fantasy. like i remember reading dunmeshi for the first time and pogging about seeing a character with ptosis because i NEVER see that shit outside of my own ocs and also some of the stuff discussed about him like. having a weird sense of direction (which is partially bc of dungeon lord business but also iirc he is stated to have weird walking/gesture patterns so!) and not really being aware of his own energy or triggers.... like it hits very close to home for me as a chronically fatigued guy with bad balance and bad eyesight and its just really nice to see someone like me portrayed in like. a way which doesnt exaggerate mithrun's disability as laughable or tragic in a very unsympathetic way. like the way the canaries accommodate him and the way his arc finishes up (+ the little chats he has with marcille....) i think its very sweet very comforting. ive just been very into him recently after like. coming to terms with being abused by an ex and going through the whole rollercoaster of emotions that comes with that. like. ughhh. i saw this thread recently and it keeps swimming around in my mind. its good

least favorite thing about them

i guess like the dude's bigotry but considering other chapters in the adventurer's bibble he seems to be self aware of it? its kind of an unexplored facet of him altogether.... and at the same time i think it informs a lot of like. the inherent supremacist ideas elf culture harbors.

favorite line

brOTP

reiterating what i said when i answered these qs with kabru. i think they both have a very funny dynamic that i wouldnt even necessarily describe as platonic or friendly theyre just very good inverse masks of one another.... makes for entertaining scenes in a way i really respect

also as i mentioned i think him and marcille getting to know one another post-story and talking out dungeon lord feelings is nice....

OTP

i think he has more important things to worry about

nOTP

him and kabru. as i said i think its funnier if theyre just two blokes forced to talk to each other. they wouldve never conversed willingly and that makes so many of their discussions interesting....

random headcanon

i think im just too picky about the anime LOL but im not too fond of the voice hes been given based on the previews. they did that breathy anime twink shit to him. i think he sounds like he smokes 20 cigarettes a day personally

unpopular opinion

i think the fact i dont like yaoi with him in it is unpopular enough i feel. oh uh i also think like. the few scenes where he shows off like. genuine bursts of aggression and violence are really fucking interesting and everyones far too keen on dismissing him as like. A Numb Mindless Boytoy like hey. think about this dude for a second as like an individual please.

song i associate with them

SIGH i have so much to say about this one. thats for another day though

favorite picture of them

sketches here are forever lodged in my mind theyre cutes. i like his shitty little ponytail here LOL

[ghostcasket]

living on your own is hard, you know? especially in the beginning, especially when you’re a student, especially when you have mental health issues, especially when you also have chronic physical health issues. it’s hard and if you’re like me living in a studio, like, actually by yourself, nobody around to hold you accountable—or to gently remind you, hey, you haven’t eaten in a while.

and while for most of us, moving out is an overwhelming gust of relief, i think it’s just as important to acknowledge that sometimes, it’s hard.

if you have barely managed adhd like me, and sometimes the bare minimum of self care seems unattainable—well, you’re on your own. it’s easy to let yourself slip into unhealthy patterns and neglect yourself.

but then, here are some ways my cat pulled me out before i could slip too far.

there are 2 constants i can always count on, day in day out, no matter how chaotic or disorganised i am, how out of routine; his feeding times. morning and evening, he has to have food. this little creature is everything to me. it’s my job to keep him safe and happy and healthy.

and then, as i pour kibble into his little bowl, i might remember i also haven’t eaten in a—wow, it’s seven p.m. already—so while i’m up, i might as well throw some leftovers in the microwave or grab a slice or 2 of dry bread. i’m in the kitchen anyway. giacomo absolutely scarfs down his dinner and i watch him.

he’s a kitten, still. he wants to play all of the time and when he doesn’t he’s sleeping but oh my god he loves my feet. he’s bitey. i absolutely cannot get too lost in my own head when he wants to play. i have to be careful to emerge with all of my fingers still attached to my hand. fucking ow, dude, what’s wrong with you.

his litterbox needs to be maintained regularly, too. i can’t let it get disgusting because a clean littlerbox makes for a happy cat, so i have my little poop baggies that i deposit by the door and then when i go to school i can take them down to the trash, but if i’m going to the trash anyway i might as well grab my own human trash too and throw that out as well, and then that’s one more task crossed off the list.

speaking of litter—that shit runs out fast. i don’t know how big you guys’ bags of cat litter are, but i can get around 3 uses out of a 10L bag, and then i have to go to the store to buy more. and, you know, i’m at the store anyway, so i may as well grab some essentials that i know i’ve run out of—pasta, tomatoes, cream cheese, bread—and then i have enough to eat for the next few days again. and i’m outside, too, at least while i walk to the store, which is a 2 minute walk and that’s doable even on a bad day, and 2 minutes outside is better than no minutes outside.

my little man needs to be safe and happy and healthy. i have to be at least some degree of functional to be able to provide that for him. and as thanks, he bites my toes and jumps at me in the face and shoves his cold little wet nose in my ears like they hide forbidden kitty treats and whines until i cuddle him and climbs in my lap and naps there, purring so loud i can feel it reverberate in my whole body.

and it’s just, he needs me, you know? so i have to be at least a little bit okay. and because he doesn’t allow me to actually deeply spiral into the throes of depression et al, it’s easier to pull myself out again.

i wasn’t sure for a while if he’d be allowed to move in with me, and then when i got the green light i found out that his adoption fee would be a lot higher than expected and i couldn’t afford it, but one clandestine extraction mission later (shoutout to Quinn, you’re a real one) (nobody cancel me, i did not actually steal him from a shelter) and he was napping on my lap like he’d never known any different.

so i just can’t help but feel like this was kind of meant to be, you know?

and i’m really grateful. like, really, really grateful.

so even on days where i can’t do anything—when it feels genuinely impossible—you can count on me to drag my ass to his food bowl when he screams at me that it’s dinner time. and maybe i’ll grab a slice of bread on the way.

(the toe biter in question, giacomo poopy)

(feel free to add your own toe biters to this post. this is a Creature Appreciation Post)

[directorphobos]

I don’t wanna be clocked as the “I’m better than you disabled type” for saying this, so please don’t go there. But I feel like people do have a problem with getting way too comfortable in their misery over the years here and I hope people see what I mean one day. Back when I was miserable myself and didn’t have the resources I do now, I used to get angry at those who said I’m capable of “doing more” or related but after receiving the help I’ve needed I’ve come to realize its a kind of fucked how normalized its been in these spaces to just.. use specific experiences or illnesses as a scapegoat? For a lack of better words. I used to do it but again, it’s normalized here I guess.. we’re capable of so much more and I’m growing more and more tired of the “I’m x so I can’t do x” thing..

I’m diagnosed with various things, some expected some new, I’ve been through heaps of traumatizing both irl and online situations resulting in the cptsd, chronic depression, BPD, some sort of dissociative disorder etc all being treated. What gets me though, is I see people experience way more mild things that they end up intensely identify with and blaming it or a few bad experiences on every negative trait they have, and don’t try and change anything. A lot of the time leading to misdiagnosing themselves as well with something serious, and yeah, I get mad about it. I get that people don’t all experience things the same but the same awwrghwk729191

The more I see this sort of thing taken happen between mutuals/acquaintances etc after I provide my insight the more (unreasonably?) angry I get? Because in my mind I guess people should know better but at the same time they haven’t been “enlightened” like I have so to speak. I’ve helped a couple of people, but some are so, so stuck in the “I’m this so I can’t do that or be expected to” thing and I only see this mindset in people who are very stuck on social media. I do not see this in people who are more “offline” or focus more on projects/friends/etc who have been through a lot like I have as well.

And just like. Dude.

[CW experience dump of unpleasantness];

If I can go through 13ish years of back to back domestic violence, witnessing my parent trying to kill themself multiple times, being woken up to screaming at 1am almost every day for months at one point, see people get beat, get beaten myself, have someone try to run me/family over twice, have a sibling die, endure s/a and on top of that be sent through multiple manipulators online after thinking I was through it all; I’m sure others with more “mild” problems in comparison they’ve ever went through can pull out of the “I’m so constantly drained and I can’t do xyz thing,” like I have, with work. But they have to really want it, when I get angry is when I see someone perfectly capable of using those resources and they don’t, but instead sink more into the “I can’t to blah” mindset.

I guess yeah there’s no hiding that this is a direct nod towards something that happened to me/someone recently, but nothing would change even if I dumped my feelings which I’ve done way too much of and itd always amount to nothing sooo instead I’ll just dump about what I see it all relating to in online phenomena. I’ll never be satisfied with how a friendship fell apart because of [the everything], and I could explain my pov further but I don’t want to get anymore specific than I am + I’m all around very certain it all culminates to this sort of thing. Out of all the worries I have recently reflecting on this is the only upsetting thing I’ve really been through recently besides random works issues and I think this will plague me for a long, long time. Wegh

Ty for the like attention span of idk 3 peanuts of my 50-ish followers who would read this post 🏓

[sevendeadlyyamis]

More YTTD headcannons this time for other characters:

I had a lot of fun with Sara, so why not do it with the rest of the participants?

TW for death, parental abandonment, angst, eating disorders, smoking, and abuse

Also spoilers for Chapter 2-1,

Keiji:

He’s Bisexual with a preference for men

Despite his relationship with the police force, he does enjoy cop shows such as Law & Order, Criminal Minds, and Castle.

I like to think he did have a slight, albeit brief crush on Megumi before, you know.

If he didn’t become a detective, his other career choice would’ve been a personal trainer or coach. (Hence why he is so jacked)

Keiji started experiencing depression in his high school years. He still has it, he’s just better at masking it.

The reason he’s a parental figure to Gin and Sara is to give them the dad he never had.

He developed a drug habit after leaving the police force, though he’s trying to stay clean now. (This was mostly influenced by Japan’s disdain for drugs and how he’s trying to break away from his former life as a cop)

Sou:

Demiromantic Gay Demiboy

He struggles with anorexia but he’s trying to recover for Kanna’s sake. (The dude’s 108 pounds at 5’6, that’s a little concerning)

Has an awful sleep schedule

As well as a chronic internet addiction (Take it from someone like me)

He does not like showing skin (Unless your name is Keiji Shinogi and he is fucking with you)

An absolute coding prodigy (He started when he was 10 and the rest is history)

Has a collection of 8 scarves

Reko:

Given how she’s afraid of ghosts, I think she’s superstitious ( 4 is death, etc.)

The reason why she’s afraid of ghosts was due to a childhood incident that involved her seemingly coming into contact with the spirit of a deceased friend

Identifies as a Trans Lesbian (First raise a daughter, then a son)

Both she and Alice were high school dropouts and ran away from their parents because of their strict and controlling lifestyle.

Moreover, her bandmates were under similar circumstances, which is how they initially bonded.

She was the one to come up with the band name Samurai Yaiba

Absolutely loves death metal

Had angers issues before her brother was imprisoned.

Is actually quite fascinated with goth core and astronomy

She never got so to properly say goodbye to Alice when he died.

Nao:

Her favourite forms of art are painting, sketching, and photography

Identifies as a sapphic (She isn’t sure if she’s Bisexual or a Lesbian)

Has a massive sweet tooth (Good thing she has a fast metabolism)

Due to having anxiety, she owns lot of stuffed animals and frequently wraps herself in blankets

She hates sunlight

Has a soft spot for Saniro

Her childhood was a very lonely one, which is why she latches onto people quite easily.

Additionally, the closest thing she had to a friend was her tutor Professor Mishima.

The reason she fell for Reko because she was strong and determined, yet soft spoken and caring.

Gin:

Huge FNAF fan ( Much to the chagrin of Sara)

Enjoys watching animal documentaries

He created the cat cape he wears.

Always dreamed of having a big sister to protect him.

Has trypophobia (Fear of needles)

Surprisingly tolerant of jump scares

Mew chan was a birthday present given to him by his mother

Has heavy allergies (Which is why he always dons a mask)

Hopes to become a veterinarian when he grows up.

Kai:

Abromantic Asexual Non-Binary ( Goes by he/they)

Had no idea about Rio’s existence.

Skilled in kendo and taekwondo

Tried faking his death in order to hide from Gashu so he could live among the Chidouins. It did not work.

Uses Lorieal for his hair.

Knew several Indian recipes

During his youth, he was often served mediocre meals by his father, who only saw him as a killing machine. Once he betrayed him, he was welcomed into the Chidouin household, and the first meal they made for him was Eggs Benedict. This act of kindness is why he holds the dish so dear to his heart along with being a passionate cook.

Kanna:

She’s a passionate gardener

Her favourite fruit is watermelon

Has claustrophobia

Her bucket hat was a keepsake from Joe when the two of them were children( Though she doesn’t remember it)

The reason she stuck with Sou because he was the closest thing to an older brother figure after Kugie’s death.

Tends to downplay her accomplishments

Kanna once tried offering Sou her pudding so he wouldn't starve.

Is currently questioning her sexuality, though she's tip toeing on being Asexual.

Mishima:

Gay Asexual (Have you seen him with Keiji?)

He never actually married

Him suddenly getting grey hair in his early 30s was due to the chronic stress during college and his time as a teacher.

Owns a guinea pig named Lain (After the protagonist of the anime of the same name)

Likewise, he's a massive science fiction fan

Q-taro:

Loves Jojo's Bizarre Adventure

Furthermore, the name Q-taro is just a nickname based on Jotaro Kujo's, though his actual name is Quinn Taro.

He's half-Japanese, half-American.

Q-taro never fully forgave himself for letting down the children at the orphanage, thus coming to the conclusion that he can never be seen as an inspiration.

He hates it when people compare him to Ronald McDonald

He enjoys working out with Alice and Keiji.

Alice:

He's Transgender and Pansexual (First raise a daughter, then a son)

He used the funds of the Yabusame sibling concerts and stored them on a secret bank account so his band could be financially stable early on in their careers.

Moreover, Alice is a surprisingly competent accountant and bookkeeper

He unironically watches reality TV and his sister hates it.

He always dreamed of touring Canada with the rest of Samurai Yaiba.

During his time in prison, he took up a hobby of arts and crafts.

He really likes sandals.

In the Reko Death route, he gave Nao a doll he crafted of his sister to make sure she remembers her.

Joe:

Identifies as a Panromantic Asexual

Has a small munsterlander puppy named Lightning

Was diagnosed with ADHD as a child

Has a stash of Shonen Jump Manga (His favourite is One Piece)

In fact, he really loves Nintendo, and owns several of their gaming consoles (N64, GBC, GBA, Gamecube, Wii, DS, 3DS, WiiU, even the NES)

Though Mario and Pokémon are the properties he treasures the most.

Likewise, he and Ryoko met at a gaming convention in Chiba.

The dog keychain he owned came from a Gacha Machine