#i matter

[enii]

Small tasks

[yourlovelyspace]

And that's why I love you so much 💝

[safe-haven-safe-place]

[daydreaming-dreamers]

I can not keep compromising my mental health for everyone else. I can not help everyone and that is okay. I have to take care of me so I can actually be useful and happy.

[serenityquest]

[euesworld]

[twiishaa]

my friday after school routine 💗

because i thought it would be fun to share !!

return home from school (17:30-18:00)

do a quick workout- rn i’m doing a workout inspired by kazuha from lesserafim!!

take a shower; wash my hair (products used: the body shop’s ginger shampoo + conditioner, dove jasmine body wash, neutrogena’s face wash with salicylic acid)

put on a face mask, curl bangs while still wet !! (for like, 15-20 minutes)

apply moisturiser + lip balm (products used: the body shop’s vitamin e moisture day cream, nivea cherry shine lip balm)

have a small snack before studying!! i have iced coffee and fruits, usually grapes/strawberries cos they’re my favourite!!

study!! i don’t get to do much on fridays because washing my hair takes SO long it’s not even funny but i try to get what i can done!! if i don’t have anything to do i try and practise the piano or the song i’m learning at the time on my bass guitar :))

eat dinner with my family!! i find my family time is very important, so i tend to have my dinner while watching an anime/movie together!!

i go upstairs and wind down by going on my phone for a little bit, and then turning it off and just listen to music while tidying my room up a little!!

brush teeth + skincare!! i usually take this time to braid my hair so it doesn’t get in the way + so it stays neater while i sleep. this is my favourite part of my day <3 (products i use: revolution sally hughes butterclean cleansing balm, garnier micellar water with rose water, garnier rose water cleansing milk face wash, garnier botanical toner with rose water, revolution sally hughes 2% salicylic acid serum, the body shop vitamin e moisture day cream, nivea cherry shine lip balm)

sleep!! sleep is important (by now, it’s usually 22:00 - 22:30)

[adventuresyettobehad]

you cut me out like a cancer. but i wasn’t one.

[ritzcrackee]

when It's Getting Bad Again so u fill a jar with paper stars instead of going to therapy

[sweeetnothingss]

hi, I hope this message finds you well 💌

and if you aren't at your best, that's okay too. I'm sending you a warm hug, some delicious cookies and a comforting blanket to wrap yourself with while you watch that show again.

if you are a little bit like me, you spend your hours doubting your worth, making pointers in your head, of the things, your habits, your words and your actions, that make you unlovable. you doubt yourself so much that you think atleast ten times before talking to a friend or a stranger and still end up saying the "wrong" thing. and you regret every word that comes out of your mouth. "no, this is dumb, what did i do, I shouldn't be allowed to talk to anyone, I'm so dumb." you replay every word of the conversation you have. and cry. and disappear.

if you relate to this, i am so sorry. i know it's difficult to say nice things to ourselves. having faith and believing in "you deserve people who are good to you. you deserve happiness." is hard work for us.

here are some reminders for you. i want you to read these words and I want you to trust me when I say:

you are enough. your existence is not a mistake. no, you didn't say the wrong thing. it's okay. your friends don't hate you. they don't look down upon you. the hateful and mean words that you have to hear from the people around you, are never true. please try not to let their words get the best of you. you are not unworthy of love because people make you feel unwelcomed. you are allowed to make mistakes. your mistakes don't define you. you're not your thoughts. no one hates you. you don't have to give an explanation to anyone. there's nothing you need to prove. you are adorable. just as you are. you deserve care and attention. love and affection don't need to be earned. what you think matters. you matter. the unkind words thrown your way aren't true. you are not a burden. don't be scared of loosing people. it's okay to be imperfect and making mistakes is natural. it happens with everyone. it's not your fault. it's okay to mess up or be wrong sometimes. what's important is what you learn. rest. they won't abandon you. you don't deserve the harshness you're met with on a daily basis. you are not weak. being in touch with your feelings and emotions doesn't make you "too sensitive" and weak. it's okay. you can cry. let it out. you didn't give birth to the hate growing within other people. you haven't disappointed anyone. your choices, your interests and the quirks that make you "you" are amazing. really. I love you. you're beautiful. you'll find love. your existence isn't embarrassing or annoying. your presence is appreciated here. i want to hear your jokes. especially the lame ones. you don't ruin everyone's mood. you shouldn't doubt your own value if people make you feel left out. I'm sorry. you can say no if you don't want to do something. the world won't fall apart. they won't dislike you. don't be bothered about the people who dislike you. and I'm sorry that some people find it really difficult to accept a no. I'm super proud of you for trying. always. i want to hear your stories. I want to hear the details of your day. i want to hear you. i want to see the light in your eyes when you talk about the things that you love. you still have time to develop new skills. pick up your old hobbies. try new things. you are talented. you are not boring. you are loved. you are loved. you are loved. you are not alone. you belong here. YOU ARE NOT DUMB. you are not invisible. even if you wish to be, or feel like you are, i want to let you know that I see you and i appreciate you. don't be so hard on yourself, please?

[allyatticus]

Jigsaw

[enii]

Slowly, learning to love myself💕

[littlebitoflexii]

Listen…..all I’m saying is…..

“I’m tired of arguing. I’ll just do it.

(IM SO FUCKING TIRED OF BEING UNDER APPRECIATED AND OVERWHELMED. IM DROWNING AND IVE BEEN SCREAMING FOR HELP WITH NO REPLY. IVE LOST MYSELF AND IVE LET MYSELF GO.

IM. FUCKING. TIRED.) “

[goth-sanrio-princess]

Positive affirmations ✨

[cissy-side-thoughts]

Virtue of Patience

I am a Patient person.

I have stood by your family’s side for at the past 7 years. I have endured the pain, and the hurt, and the ignoring, and the struggle, and the disregarding that you have always thrown at me. I have remained calm and neutral towards you majority/ if not all of the time.

You have made my frustrated. You have made me angry. You have made me sad, and lonely, and vengeful, yet I remain Patient.

I am Patient due to what I have been through in your family’s account. Due to my experience with all of you, I have grown to be a more tolerant, time testing individual.

I am a Patient person.

~~~

Discussing Strengths Challenge

[learning-to-love-me-forever]

Urgh. So bored of self-loathing!

I mean I know I’m awesome. I know I’m cute. I know I’m funny. I know I’m intelligent.

So why don’t I love myself? I love all of these traits in other people!

Anyone tried meditation to get out of your own head for a while?