#i mean. i like horror movies but as far as writing goes i was always more of a slice of life kinda person

[raiiny-bay]

they've come a long way

[idolomantises]

talking abt that one thing in velma thats on my mind a lot for the past few days (that turned into a big incoherent rambling about gay rep in media)

i'm seeing jokes about how the queer representation in mystery inc being so much better than the queer representation in velma and honestly it makes me want to go on a whole tangent about my thoughts on queer representation nowadays vs the more subtle examples decades prior.

There's this weird debate that goes on online about what is "good" queer representation, and one of the most notable and honestly annoying examples is that queer representation has to be so subtle that you could easily miss it/ignore it. i've always hated that take because its a claim mostly said by straight people who are uncomfortable with seeing characters who are openly queer and/or state their identity, but they present it as some sort of push for subtle and nuanced writing. personally i do prefer it when a character just, identifies as how they are without explaining their identity, but that doesn't mean flat out explaining your orientation is inherently bad representation. its why i will always defend the very clunky and awkward high guardian spice scene. it is absolutely poorly directed and written, but that doesn't make it "bad representation". however, I do consider the character who explains that he's trans bad representation because he is flat, uninteresting and very clearly a creator self insert. he doesn't feel like a well rounded character who's also a trans man, but just an incredibly sanitized example of trans representation.

i have many, many issues with helluva boss/hazbin hotel and i do genuinely find some depictions of queer characters just flat out offensive (you can argue with me about how angel dust being written like your average 90s gay stereotype is woke actually because he has trauma, i dont care), but i do admire and appreciate that the series doesn't want to sanitize its queer characters, even if its done poorly. though i could go into a whole rant about how i find it very telling that female characters that are queer are far less sexualized or allowed to be problematic compared to their queer male counterparts.

anyways back to velma. that show does something that i've always found pretty irritating in queer representation which is just this weird lack of faith in its audience. characters can't have a slow burn anymore. internalized thoughts, anger, frustration, longing. you have to immediately know that two characters are gay for each other, even if they're lifelong enemies. its like when modern horror movies open with the gore because they're scared people are going to be bored or leave early. there's no subtlety or chemistry between daphne and velma, they're just lovers because idk, its two girls who hate each other and who doesn't love that.

then i think about how mystery inc handled velma and her sexuality, how she was allowed to be well rounded and nuanced before you slowly realize that "oh, she doesn't like boys". i know her whole thing with shaggy is controversial among fans but i always loved how she does do something pretty unlikable but not immoral. yeah, it is shitty to force shaggy to choose between her and his dog, but i can understand her line of thinking and empathize with her. and i do like how they become friends in the end despite their awkward break up. It's always fun rewatching it and realizing that their incredibly awkward and cringe relationship was meant to be awkward and cringe. it was supposed to be weird and difficult to watch, because those two weren't meant to date each other. you could see how hard velma was trying to make the relationship work despite the fact that you never get the vibe that either character was full invested in it, unlike daphne and fred's relationship.

then you had velma and her relationship with marcie, which started off as sort of a catty rivalry (not full on attempted murder, i mean holy shit hbo velma) that slowly grows to where you're completely convinced that these two did gradually like each other. and i do really enjoy stuff like that, more subtle writing like that. which doesn't just apply to queer rep btw, my favorite ships are relationships that feel understated, something you have to really dig for and pay attention to. its why i consider bubbline the best f/f representation in cartoon. because its subtle, but not too subtle where it feels out of no where when they kiss, and nuanced in ways that enhances the relationship AND characters.

there's a good amount of relationships i see in cartoons where the creator, who is usually queer themselves, often wants to depict queer relationships, but is weirdly adverse to depicting the uglier aspects of that character, and refuses to add subtlety to it. steven universe is a show i've always felt conflicted on its handling of queer representation because on the one hand i appreciate writing lesbians that are messy, traumatized and make constant mistakes. but on the other hand, the show goes out of its way to ignore these issues and/or make excuses for it, making the decision to make these characters messy and complicated genuinely baffling (this is also one of the big issues i have with catradora and stolitz).

it makes me think back to my own work too. i really enjoy making fluffy, easily digestible gay content for my followers and myself because it puts me in a good headspace. But even now and then i like exploring those little nuances too, because i don't really enjoy stories with little conflict. Because of that acknowledgement of how satisfying it is to write fluffy, queer rep, you end up putting yourself in other creator's shoes. you're so used to media that either dehumanizes gay people or tells people that they don't exist that you push yourself to make the most in your face queer rep you can but its at the cost of an interesting and subtle characters. characters that don't really have arcs or places to learn and grow.

With bugtopia i made a joke about how i want some of my queer rep to feel like you're being queerbaited. It's not literal, obviously, but mixed in with characters who are already married and in same gender relationships, i really want to write dynamics that feel subtle enough for a bit of a slow burn. even if you know they're going to end up together, to at least value the characters on their own before centering them on their relationships. queerbaiting is something that deserves all the criticism it can get, but it is embarrassing when queerbaiting feels genuinely more interesting than actual queer rep because queerbaiting has that factor of "maybe they won't get together" that adds that bit of intrigue, vs so many shows that repeatedly hammer in your head "don't worry guys, they're gonna be lesbian lovers".

mystery inc (and many other shows) being forced to keep a relationship obvious while subtle to get through censorship really forced creators to be creative with their storytelling and not center characters around their relationship and identity. but nowadays i think shows like to take the easy way out. for me, i always thought the most impactful example of queer representation in steven universe is "Rose's Scabbard". I genuinely don't enjoy that episode because it's a good example of the show thinking that trauma is an excuse for shitty behavior, but i cant deny that an entire episode of pearl breaking down and finally accepting that she wasn't the center of rose's world. it's the crew being forced to be creative and push through censors to telling a compelling story about a traumatized lesbian slowly realizing that she basically deluded herself into thinking she was someone's savior.

I think it's silly to try to place good queer representation in one box. like subtle queer rep is good, but also queer rep where a character flat out states that their gay. where I think it falls apart is when it either reinforces stereotypes without properly deconstructing or expanding on them, makes the characters so overly kind and non-controversial that the relationship is just boring, or try to make your messy and complicated characters but the narrative refuses to hold them accountable or at least acknowledge that they're doing something wrong. and to clarify on that last part, i'm not asking for some hays code nonsense where every bad person goes to prison and/or promises to stop being a bad person again. i mean the narrative doesnt just fucking sugarcoat their behavior. i don't want to see helluva boss ignore the fact that stolas made blitzo call him out for only using him for sex and then pathetically rush to justify their relationship by giving them a bizarrely sanitized and sweet backstory. and i don't want to see catra literally end the fucking universe and only do something good because she's straight up out of options and the show just decides that that was her redemption and she doesn't need to do anything to atone for what she did (including repeatedly abusing and verbally berating adora).

anyways velma has none of those interesting qualities and i'm pretty sure daphne and velma kissed because the creator is a weird pervert who thinks two girls kissing is hot.

[zorlok-if]

can I ask some of what youve been up to? (if its not overstepping) not just what have you been working on, but what have you been doing that you enjoy? what have you been playing? watching? reading? that sort of thing! glad to hear that youre back and okay ❤️

Sure! I don't feel like that's overstepping. Here you go:

(as far as writing goes) I've mostly been working on Zorlok but I've also done some writing for a sapphic novel idea I've been working on for a while, my other projects like System Processing, Hades' Kitchen, etc., a short interactive poem about misgendering/trans experience, and a couple other random things

What I've enjoyed? Spending a lot of time with my dog, going on long walks, chilling in coffee shops, baking, crafting, long-distance running and lifting, etc.

Playing: Baldur's Gate 3 (may have close to 500 hours in that game, but most of that's from Early Access, don't be too concerned), Octopath Traveler 2, Coral Island, Stardew Valley, Super Smash Bros. (that last one was for work though)

Watching: Jeopardy (always), everything on Dropout but especially Dimension 20, Our Flag Means Death, Youtube video essays, the BG3 cast playing BG3, 80s horror movies, film noir, that's all I can think of right now

Reading: The Locked Tomb series, Legends and Lattes, All Systems Red, The Wicked Bargain (specifically, the audiobook narrated by the Vico Ortiz), The Princess and the Grilled Cheese, Everyone in My Family Has Killed Someone, and dozens of children's books

[chazzielynx]

More Random Listener Headcanons I Wrote Down Part Two

Thanks for the love on the last one guys <3

This one accidentally got very hobby-focused lol

Sunshine is not the best at cooking but they excel at making dessert. Crème Brûlée, Pralines, ice cream, you name it, they can do it. They once made one for Elliott on his birthday and now all he ever wants for his birthday is for them to make him another and he always loves them. He especially loves watching them prepare and make them.

Bestie does some form of martial arts. When they were still friends, Blake used to volunteer for them to try out moves on him, not in an 'I want to be close' kind of way, he just genuinely loved to see how much strength they had.

Angel likes watching crime series. When they started watching them with David, he kept saying "You get scared by horror movies but not by this?!" And they just chuckled and continued to show him the most morbid episodes.

Cutie loves watching old movies from the fifties or sixties. They like the way they talk and dress. They once bought clothes for an outfit inspired by them and Geordi subsequently lost his mind when he saw them in it: "god, they look hot, damn, I mean, I didn't particularly enjoy those movies but damn, they look incredible" etc.

Doc loves making candles. In all shapes, forms, and smells. They had to explain to Hush how they work and where the wax goes. Now he keeps asking questions about why they don't just use magic to make them, yet is absolutely enchanted by watching them do it "Why are you doing it like this? Why did you choose that scent? What does that sigh mean?".

My Love (Anton's Listener) is not the biggest fan of winter but they loooove ice-skating on lakes. And Anton gladly joins them every time and is surprisingly good at it as well. They typically just hold hands while going in big circles but Anton encourages them to try out new things like spins and jumps.

Seer Obscura (granted, I haven't listened to all of their audios yet so this is purely based on what I know so far…meaning vibes lol). They seem like the type to write poems. Longer narrative ones, similar to old tragic poetry. They told Morgan once, w/o meaning to really, but he was surprised by his own strong curiosity to read one at some point.

Spouse (James' Listener) loved to have speech and debate matches with their friends. Just an evening where they randomly debate different topics over drinks and snacks. James was hesitant to join in at first but he absolutely loves watching his spouse drag their friends through the proverbial mud with their arguments and he sometimes joins in now too.

Treasure loves cemeteries. They learned all kinds of old traditions surrounding how to behave while in a cemetery and love going to different ones to just sit there and draw. They mentioned it in passing to Porter who just raised an eyebrow but secretly felt a strong "damn, that's hot" on the inside that he couldn't really explain.

[murruspins]

Welcome to my blog!

Hello!! Welcome to murruspins :3!

This is a special interest blog, however it also kind of acts like a diary. I write down what I’m thinking or hyperfixating on, same goes with my regular interests! This blog will also have alot of alterhuman content, as it’s a big part of my identity!

About the owner of this blog…

My name is Murruyu! I’m a transfem enby, and would prefer if you used they/it/xe on me aswell as fem + neutral terms! If you don’t respect my pronouns, I���ll simply block you, no biggie! 🤍

My special interests are mcyt (hermitcraft & life series specifically), horror, metal music and bio! When I say bio and horror, I mean all aspects. I love horror games, movies, shows, etc. And I love all biology paths/subtypes! (Eg: wildlife bio, botany, palaeontology, and more!)

I’m the host of a minor bodied DID system, however I won’t get into that much on this blog, as this is my personal blog! However, I will talk about our physical disabilities because they impact my everyday life, and this is a diary blog after all! [I will mainly talk about my EDS and CFS]

As I said before.. I am an alterhuman! More specifically, here is a link to all my kintypes!

This list may be updated/edited in the future, but for now, these are all of my (known) kintypes! Some stronger than others. More specifically, I have a super strong connection to the feline clade, more so than my other kintypes. Obviously, due to being alterhuman, I do not identify as human. I instead identify as my kintypes, I may post about my alter-humanity frequently 🫶

I am ALWAYS looking for moots/friends!! Click here to see my interests + adult mutuals are okay, just no dms!

DNI/BYI

DNI:

• People who hate on ANY of my special interests. No offence, but you’re not welcome here, this is my safe space! [PS: being afraid of horror or animals is not the same as hating on them, if you have a phobia of something that’s completely fine! Just don’t insult my spintrest on my page 🤍]

• Anti alterhuman, Anti Age regression, Anti pet regression

• Endogenic systems, Profic/Proship/Darkship/anything that fits into that category.

• FURBY BLOGS!!!!! Furby centred blogs/Blogs with furbys as their theme/pfp dni. Moots r okay but please add a warning whenever you post them 😭🫶. I’m terrified of those little things.

BYI:

• I’m autistic, I need tonetags! If you’re going to ask anything, I’d appreciate you using tonetags so I can understand you better! :3

• Adults may not ask to be my friends, No offence, just for boundary and comfort reasons, I am a minor after all. Mutuals are fine!

• I generally do not engage in discourse, if that’s something you’d like to know before following! This blog is focused on being diary, alterhuman and interest themed!!

• This is my main blog! If I’m active, it’s probably here. But my side blogs are…

> @liostims , my stim blog

> @lovesicksyndicate , our sys blog

> @faunafeature , my animal info dump blog

> @kiyoscove , my agere blog

> @murrupurrs , my petre blog

… Please keep in mind many of these blogs may be inactive, as this is my main!

Finishing up/Extras…

. . . Emoji games!

How these games work; ask via the ask option, and write an emoji + any other info you’d like, and I’ll answer! Just a small game for fun!

🐾 , info dump about a random animal I’m fixating on at the time! (Please include if you don’t want a specific animal due to a fear, for example: bugs).

🐈 , song of the day! ask and I’ll give you a song that’s been stuck in my mind recently, or just a random song off my playlist!

🐍 , daily check in! I’ll give you a small rant about my day so far, and tell you how I’ve been recently! (I’ll try to keep it positive.)

"(Therian/biology/metal/anything related to my blog) culture is…" asks are also always appreciated!! I love seeing them, and I love interacting with people!!

Blog tags . . . !!

#murru mews 🐾 | my general tag! Diary entries!

#murru hisses 🐍 | vent posts

#murru’s asks : replies to my asks!

#murru’s rants : rants!! Either in response to the emoji games, or just to infodump :]

#murru’s playlist : anything to do with music!

#murru’s toybox : anything to do with my collections!! I collect a lot of things, so this tag will be full of things in my collection :]

#murru’s games : an additional tag, just for my emoji games!

PS: blog creation date.. Jan 30th 2024!

Thank you for reading !

. . . Enjoy your travels, dear friend!

[brokemypen]

Senior Skip Day Pt. 1

Paring: Eddie Munson x reader

Summary: Reader’s got a secret, a guilty one. She wants her best friend, Eddie Munson to take her virginity. What better day to spill her guts than on senior skip day?

Part 2 here

Warnings: Reader is a virgin (obvi), light smut, minors do not interact!! reader masturbates, drug use. I think that’s it! Eddie is a goofy sweetheart in this.

Word Count: 2.3K

A/N: ((This is not my gif, all credit goes to the owner.))

I know we’ve all been feral over Eddie so I wanted to write a two parter. I’m honestly so obsessed with the idea of sweet Eddie being a first. I keep reading a bunch of stories on it, so I imagine ya’ll agree. I loved the feedback on my last fic. It literally means so much to me and makes me want to write more. Enjoy! <3 -P

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You and Eddie had been best friends for the last three years. You remember moving to the town of Hawkins at the fresh age of fifteen. You were kind of a dork then, exactly the type of person Eddie wanted in his close circle.

Although you had kind of outgrown your dorkiness when it came to your sense of fashion and overall confidence, you still loved playing dnd and spending your weekends with Eddie. The two of you would often watch cheesy horror movies or spend some time in the woods, smoking and doing other behaviors that might be frowned upon.

You couldn’t help but admit to yourself now though, as a senior, that during the last three years, you had a growing crush on Eddie. And it was starting to make you really sad that in a few months you’d be graduating and most likely leaving Hawkins. Because truth be told, he was the shining star of this shit town. No matter what they called Eddie, he was the best thing in your life.

He was so kind and generous. On nights that you couldn’t sleep he wouldn’t hesitate to pick you up and drive around with you just to clear your mind. It didn’t matter how tired he was, he was always there for you. 

That’s when the thought came to you one night, when you were racked with anxiety over leaving it all behind. It was a small thought in the inner mix of about a hundred other thoughts, but it seemed to jump out at you the more you thought about it. What if Eddie took your virginity? You sort of laughed as soon as you realized, but really, what if he did?

You were so nervous at the entire idea of sex, which is why you never got very far in any relationship you had. They were always too rough, too pushy, and you always had the gut feeling that it didn’t feel like the right time.

But when you thought of the possibility of Eddie being the one to do it, your gut feeling was less of a nausea feeling, and more of a butterfly kind of feeling. You didn’t realize before, but that growing crush on him was both a mental and physical thing. Sure he was attractive to you, the more he grew into himself. But you found your eyes lingering more and more when he was just doing mundane stuff. The way his tongue would stick out when he concentrated on his homework. The way his fingers looked strumming the strings on his guitar. Or, god, when he would shrug his shirt off to work on his car, holy cow.

You knew Eddie would be the one to take his time, he wouldn’t pressure you, and you genuinely believed he would make you feel good, instead of being all for himself, like those other boys were. I mean you knew he obviously wasn’t a virgin, from the cuffs on his wall, to the trojans that laid on his dresser. You also knew that Eddie had a kind heart, a heart that you actually loved and you knew no one else would treat you as amazing as he already did.

You already felt wired as you reached down to your thighs, softly caressing them as you imagined it being Eddie’s hands. You slowly moved them up your body, grazing your hips, your stomach, and your breasts. How amazing his large hands would feel around them, massaging them while he kissed you. With one hand still attached to your breast, you slowly trailed the other one down to your heat, which was already slick, as your brain continued the scenario. 

You imagined his fingers slowly dragging through your folds, softly moving his way up to your clit. You began circling, arching your back at how good it felt, the heat rising through. 

You stayed that way for what felt like hours as you continued imagining his hands on your whole body. How his lips would kiss and suck your neck. You imagined his hard cock against you, how heavy it would feel in your hand. You wondered what he would taste like, how he would sound when he moaned.

You slowly slid a finger inside as your mind then wandered to the idea of him pushing himself inside you, how he would stretch you out. Would he have his lips on you then or would he whisper dirty things into your ear? You knew his strokes would be slow, and so you imitated that, pushing your finger in and out. With the other hand you continued rubbing your clit.

Before you knew it you were thrashing against the mattress as an unbelievably explosive orgasm ripped its way through you. You were still rubbing, working yourself through it when the instant regret crept its way through you as well. You just masturbated to the idea of your best friend. There was literally no way you could ever come back from this.

You stayed up even longer after that, your mind racing with guilt until you looked over, reading the clock at 4 am. But another thought appeared and it was that you clearly liked Eddie. You just had to accept that because you couldn’t keep pretending that you didn’t. 

That also meant you had to confess this to Eddie because he could read you like a book. As soon as he saw your face, he would know something was up. So that’s when you decided you would be telling your best friend that not only did you like him, but that you also wanted him to be the one to take your virginity. 

You got ready for school that morning extra early. You were already wide awake, but also trying to come up with what to say. It wasn’t a debate anymore, you were going to do it. What if he laughed or thought it was stupid? Or even worse, what if it ruined everything. That would destroy you. Anxiety filled you until you were almost brought to tears. You continued to dwell on it until you heard something hit your window.

As you got closer, the sound came again, and you reached over, ripping the curtain open. Your heart almost leaped out of your chest when you saw it was Eddie. He stood down below waving at you to open your window. 

“The hell are you doing, Munson?” You whisper yelled, poking your head out. “It’s too early for you to be here.”

“So?? When has that ever been an issue?” He smiled up at you. 

He then reached in his pocket, pulling out a small baggie of what you assumed was pot. “Wanna skip school today?” He said, waving the bag at you. “Have you lost your mind, Eddie? Put that way.” You looked around, praying no one could see him. He had already been in enough trouble as it was. “Relax, no one's awake yet. Come down.” He pleaded with those big puppy dog eyes of his. “Pleeeaassseee.”

You let out a long sigh. He would stand out there all day if you didn’t go down there. You closed the window and made your way downstairs, being as quiet as you could so you wouldn’t wake your parents up. You shut the door extra carefully for good measure. 

Once you were outside Eddie seemed to be giddy with excitement, almost bouncing up and down as you made your way across the lawn. 

“What’s got you so hyper?” You laughed, putting your hands on his shoulders to get him to relax. “It’s an exciting day y/n!” His wide smile shining, as he put the bag away. “Guess what I did?” He wiggled his eyebrows.

“What could you have possibly done at five in the morning?”

“I’ve been in the works for quite some time actually, spreading the word, putting up fliers around school.” He put his hands on your shoulders. “No one knows it was me.” He bit his lip, smiling even more, if that was possible. “I’m calling it ‘senior skip day’.”

My jaw dropped. “That was you?! That’s literally all anyone can talk about.” You were shocked, but honestly not surprised. 

With the anxious night you had, you had completely forgotten that your entire class was planning on skipping today. And it was a fantastic idea. I mean who could punish an entire group of seventeen and eighteen year olds, when in just a few months they would be graduating. It almost felt like a right of passage. You laughed at his goofy excitement, of course he came up with it? Who else would. It just made you sad you would be the only one to know.

“Alright, Eddie you’ve convinced me. I’m in.” You reached a hand out to shake his, him instantly taking it, dragging you to the van. You didn’t know what the plan was, but you didn’t care. You felt on cloud nine just being with him. Your feet on the dash, the windows were open and he had you cracking up. It felt easy with him, all anxiety out the window. Then you knew it would all be okay. You could tell him anything after all, the worst he could say is no, and realistically if that happened, you felt as if you could let it go.

The two of you decided to do what you always do, which is hang out in the woods. It was a comforting place, full of memories and the best part, you knew no one would catch you there today. Eddie made you laugh talking about all the posers who’d immediately get busted at the mall.

You guys made sure to stop for snacks and made your way to the spot. You perched on your normal place on top of the picnic table. You were turned facing Eddie, watching him roll a perfect joint. It all felt innocent until Eddie licked the paper, and then again to seal it. You felt that familiar flutter in your stomach and remembered the conversation you needed to have.

Your leg was bouncing and you were completely oblivious until Eddie spoke up.

“Are you okay? You’re shaking the whole damn table.” He lit the end of the joint, exhaling the smoke, he held it out to you. 

You accepted it, bringing it to your lips and took a long drag off of it. The smoke filled your lungs, relaxing your body and allowed you to actually think about what you were about to say.

You passed the joint back to him, taking a deep breath before you began.

“We’ll always be best friends right? Like no matter what?” You asked, looking him in the face as you did.

“Yeah, who else is gonna put up with my shit.” He laughed.

“No, like seriously, Eddie.” 

He could see you were serious. He took another drag from the joint and put it out, giving you his full attention.

“What’s on your mind?” He looked concerned. He could tell from your body language that what you were about to say was making you nervous, the bouncing in your leg continuing. “Hey you know you can tell me anything. I’m not going to judge you.”

You took another deep breath, thinking fuck it, there’s no go back, and spilled your guts to him.

“Eddie I’m so scared about the future and us and I’m so scared that what I’m about to say is going to ruin our friendship, but I have to say it.” You were rambling, but Eddie stayed quiet, letting you get it all out. “I don’t want to leave Hawkins a virgin and every guy in this stupid town is the worst. You’re so kind and you mean the absolute world to me and if I’m being honest I feel so safe with you. So safe that I-.” You paused, slowing down to catch your breath. “Eddie, I want it to be you.”

You were staring at the picnic table unable to look him in the eye. It was so quiet you could hear a pin drop, even out here in the brush of the woods. It felt like minutes passed until you raised your eyes towards him. He was looking away, his eyes wide like he was contemplating the universe. He was completely still until he sighed, reaching up to run his hands over his face. 

Eddie collected his thoughts, turning to you. He pursed his lips and his hands made fists. Not like he was mad, though, it looked more like he was trying to concentrate.

“I just want to make it very clear that I meant it when I said I wouldn’t judge you. I know that it took a lot of guts to say that, but I guess I’m just confused as to why?”

“I know it’s stupid and completely out of left field. We can just forget it.” You were defeated. This was a bad idea. “Hey I’m not saying no.” You were looking at the picnic table again, fiddling with a leaf, your head somewhere else when he leaned over to meet your eyes. “Can you look at me?”

You did, he had a smile on his face. And true to his nature he reached over to hold your hand, easing your worries.

“Did you hear me? I’m not saying no. I guess I just want to know-” he paused.  “Like why me? I know you said all the other guys in this town are stupid and I get that, but there’s more. I can see it on your face.”

Your heart was racing. Had you heard him right? 

“Y/n.” He spoke, you being clearly lost in thought.

“Eddie, you're my best friend, but I also have feelings for you.” You sighed, just wanting to get it out. “And I would be lying if I said I wasn’t attracted to you and kinda-kinda thought about us doing it.”

A smile grew on his lips. “When and where?

[enneagramgoodvibes]

Initial thoughts on nope

I’m a major horror fan, and I had such high hopes for this movie that were absolutely met. SPOILERS!

Jordan Peele’s comedy and horror always comes from a direction confrontation with the scary thing, the idea that if you force yourself to look at it, you will see the whole picture.

So like there’s this big question in lovecraftian cosmic horror of “how far would you go to know what the horror is?” surrounded by the feeling that the only way you’re ever gonna feel peace is if you can completely see the horror, face to face.

So, I think OJ is the archetype of “yes, I will go all the way to the end, because the purpose of my life has become this need for closure” that (spoilers) kills him

So Em is like the sweet spot in the sense that she made it to the end of the world, she saw that fucker, and she won. She’s the horror movie happy scenario.

I think at the end, she didn’t actually get it on camera. I think when she sees her brother on the horse, that’s like a happy end beautiful shot of what would she’d want to see, and I think the photo after goes with that. It’s as real as the imagined him. EDIT: I am learning that I am the only person who thought OJ died fr oops. I’m fairly certain he dies because I think the only way for his character to get closure was to look into the void and see it completely in all of its horror, even if that means death. This is like a fairly common thing in horror, and Jordan peele’s movies always have a nihilistic undertone to their uplifting ending. I’m sticking my guns, because of what it means for me, but if him surviving is what makes your interpretation feel fulfilled and complete, please 100% go for it. Jordan Peele would be ecstatic to know that we’re debating it.

I loved the monkey subplot. This will go down as (for me!) the scariest arc of the movie. I think that Jordan Peele writes traumatized characters well, and I think he created a scene that would empathetically give US trauma.

Was the monkey gonna tear the kids arm off? Why was the shoe like that? Why did the monkey freak out? This movie captures the way that random violence and trauma can become an obsession that you need to find the source for.

I think Jordan peele put his soul into this. This feels like a deeply emotional personal movie. I think as a horror director (and as us horror fans) there’s an obsession with trying to find the rawest horror, the source of horror, the obsession of horror, and I really feel it in this movie.

Edit: you guys in the comments have way better interpretations I 100% want to rewatch it post reading those

Edit: this post is 2 years old and I watched this movie while going through a mental health episode I didn’t know that he survived I didn’t knowwwwww

[iheartred]

the blackphone x reader

what I think hanging into with them would be like !

m.list !!

cw : platonic relationships for all of these / non gendered(no prns!)

a/n : so I've been quite obsessed with this movie and have decided that I will be writing for it, if you want to request for something specific you can!!

Finney Blake :

Hanging out with him would probably consist of you guys practicing baseball, whether it'd be you throwing the ball and him hitting it or the other way around. You guys would also probably meet up with Robin and just go exploring the neighborhood ☆☆

I also feel like you guys would meet up at a park whenever you guys just don't feel like being at home and bringing your own things so you guys can just sit there and talk about whatever

Robin Arellano :

with him, you guys would probably be sitting inside watching horror movies. Finney would be absolutely horrified but would agree to join just because he wouldn't wanna feel left out

Finney: screaming sobbing and rolling on the sofa

Robin : dude the movie just started

Finney : oh, right

thats how it would go pretty much, but in general you guys have such a blast !!(mainly dissing Finney for being a wimp lol)

Gwen Blake :

Hanging out with Gwen Blake would probably be like a those teen girl movies where they have a sleep over and talk about boys/gossip. Probably more gossip than boy talk, I also feel like Gwen would be very into those dumb scary games where u get paranoid and end up staying up all night. Gwen is an absolute menace and will jump scare you if you ever try to sleep that night

You : Gwenny, my dear friend, what in God's name are you doing

Gwen : standing above you and your other friend as she stares at you menacingly

You : I'm just gonna

Cue you and your other friend running out the room as you get chased by Gwen

Bruce Yamada :

Practicing baseball with this dude is his like go-to. I feel like also going on walks with this guy would be awesome, like he always has something to talk about and would just have a whole conversation with himself if you weren't already there. He would also probably tag you randomly with no warning and start running down the street. Cue screaming from your end because he's so far ahead it's scary.

You : BRUCE.(inhale)YAMADA.(exhale)

Bruce : ignoring you as you very angrily run towards him with every last bit of energy you have left in you

Bruce : yea ???

Then you proceed to drop on the grass infront of him and watch as he panics before you pass out on the floor. Ofcourse your fine, just very exhausted from running like a mile and a half after a guy who's obviously faster than you because he's on the baseball team.

Vance hopper :

It's already a shocker as is that you could even get him to hang out with you. It would probably just be you sitting beside him while he plays his pinball game

You : Dude can we just go to an arcade or something, they have a pinball game there too

Vance : go by yourself if you're so miserable hanging out with me

Ofcourse if you ever want to go somewhere else with this dude you would either have to have the guts to drag him away from his pinball game or ask him another time when he isn't playing it. Though he's a stubborn bastard, I can imagine thats theres never a dull moment with him. This dude doesn't have a curfew or strict parents at all so he goes wherever he wants whenever he wants. Meaning, he'd probably yell at you to go with him somewhere you never know where ofcourse but it's always so fun anyways so it makes up for it

paperboy :

Bike rides ofcourse, I also think he'd be the type to have like a schedule to say when he's free. Like it could be like a Saturday but he'll still have something to do, whether it'd be chores or giving out the daily news papers. Ofcourse you usually help him and you guys do it so well together it's kinda scary. Like you guys are so in-sync while doing these chores it terrifies his parents. When you guys finish he probably puts on some music while you guys do whatever, I can imagine that his parents are usually at work 24/7 giving him freedom over the house till around 6:00pm. He probably goofs off whenever he has absolutely nothing to do

☆ ☆ ☆

[afurioushawk]

Fic authors self rec! When you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. Let’s spread the self-love 💗

Only counting completed works, and not in any particular order:

El Serpiente y El Halcón: My S4 fic I wrote before the season aired and by far the longest fic I’ve ever written. It was a very ambitious fic that had to juggle a lot of storylines and character beats, while also dealing with making Miguel and Hawk a couple. I learned a lot about the structures of writing while working on this one, and it’s probably still the fic I’m most proud of. Plus, I predicted that Hawk would get his mohawk shaved by Robby lol.

The Wheel of Imbalance: This one started because I’d seen so many people use the balance wheel as short-hand for saying characters should be a couple, and I was like, “Okay, but what if the characters hate each other and managed to nail it?” I wanted to examine just how similar Sam and Hawk are in a non-romantic setting. I’m still heartbroken that canon decided to pretend that everything between Sam and Hawk in S3 never happened but at least I got to give it the hyperfocus this rivalry - the best rivalry the show ever had - deserved in this story.

Let’s Try Coronas Instead: Another Miguel/Hawk fic, this one was in many ways actually more difficult than “El Serpiente y El Halcón” because, for a majority of the fic, it’s only about two characters. That turned out to be a lot more difficult to center a story around than I imagined. But it did mean I got to do a long character study of both of them, but especially Miguel. It was just the breather fic I needed to write at the time. We’ll always have Migueli in Mexico.

Three Seconds: The most depressing fic I’ve ever written lol. But this “What if things went really south during the forced haircut” scenario also gave me a chance to write things from multiple POVs: Robby’s, Miguel’s, Sam’s, and Johnny’s. If I did my job right, you feel for every character in this, and you understand why there was no way this fic could have a happy ending. It’s emotionally taxing, but it’s supposed to be.

Uncaged: The fic I wrote for Halloween last year, it was fun writing Hawk going in the opposite direction after his mohawk was shaved, where instead of reverting to his S1 meek self, he instead goes the other way and takes his S3 bastard self up to eleven and goes full hammy slasher villain. I did still try to have a theme about toxic masculinity in there but it was also just a delight to play with horror movie tropes, especially since this one was inspired by Jennifer’s Body.

[sunnydayjackass]

can i please request some nighttime fluff? sometimes being home alone at night sucks

I gotchu boo, the late night lonelys suck

Jack:

Night times with Jack are often filled with lots of soft doting and cuddling. He’s more than happy to cater to your every whim. He’s particularly fond of bubble baths or using bath bombs, he’d run you a warm bath and light plenty of candles for you to relax with. Jack would bashfully ask if he could join you, to help wash your hair or massage your shoulders to help release that tension. “You have so many knots, Sunshine…let me help.” Those large hands of his can work wonders until you’re a boneless mess slumped against him. Jack would keep you propped up against him if you doze off but would be sure to help you out of the tub once the water starts to hit lukewarm. What kind of lover would he be if he let you catch a cold?

If it’s an evening with plenty of energy though, dance parties around the apartment happen often. From fun upbeat songs to slow dances- there’s something especially intimate about the latter. Jack is overjoyed to twirl you, dip you…he may not be the best dancer but he never steps on your toes and is just beaming at you while the pair of you dance about together. It warms Jack’s heart to see you happy and carefree, and that you feel safe enough with him to be vulnerable and or goofy.

If it’s dinner time- Jack doesn’t mind cooking, he may not have an expansive repertoire but home cooking is better than takeout in his opinion. Though he won’t stop you from indulging in a treat of takeout if you’ve had a rough day or a particular craving. But if you also like to cook, he’d delight in nights cooking meals together and learning something new either with you or from you. Maybe he was onto something with meals made with love being better. He remembers all your favorite snacks and is happy to snatch them from the shelves if you’re already cozy on the couch- I can see him having a bit of a fondness for those frosted animal cookies. They’re just so cute and the sprinkles? Adorable.

One of his favorite things to do with you in the evenings is movie nights. Nothing is better than having you in his arms and/or lap, the pair of you curled up in a bunch of soft blankets watching movies. It goes without saying he likes the 80’s classics but has a favoritism towards romcoms. He wouldn’t mind horror, it may not be his first pick, but an excuse to cuddle you closer during jump scares is enough for him. Sometimes Jack is that guy who asks plenty of questions but I mean…understand he’s not really seen much so some special effects and how far movies have come is really crazy. Not to mention how much writing has changed from them to now. Delicately shush him with a kiss and he’ll hold his questions until the credits roll.

Of course this man is the king of pillow talk, even if you’re fully clothed and just cuddling in bed with the lights off, maybe some soft music playing or the sound of crickets or rain outside. Jack likes to talk about his feelings, talk about you, talk about anything and everything really- in low sleepy mumbles as though he’s trying to fight off sleep just to spend more time with you. Wrapped up in blankets and pillows, the way you look so sleepy and maybe a little disheveled—it makes his heart melt. Moreso when you cuddle closer and cling to him before falling asleep. There’s plenty of kisses shared between the two of you peppered over your nose and cheeks, a few stolen from your lips and the odd little stray kiss to the back of your ears and neck. Jack is the big spoon, always lol. You can try but more often than not, you end up being little spoon so his warmth and arms can envelope you so perfectly.

Shaun:

Shaun is the kind of guy who’s down for whatever you want to do come night time. If it’s an evening where you want to go out, Shaun will happily oblige and joke about being able to use his scary dog privileges by your side- and frankly it works. Tall, buff, goth guy? The Shaun you know is a sweet lovable guy but damn can he throw a scathing glare if someone is leering at you too long for either of your liking or if someone’s rude to you. He’s probably the guy to offer up a niche bar (arcade bar, axe throwing bar, weird street festival, a hidden speakeasy, ect). He’ll make the night an adventure and ensure the two of you get home safe and sound passed out in bed after a few giggles over the events or newly formed inside jokes. Not that he’d be opposed to going to clubs or anything like that, I think he’s just more the type to want to try new things and fun experiences you can share.

Depending on your mood for the night, Shaun doesn’t mind cooking (or cooking with you if you don’t mind some playful ribbing and shenanigans) but he’s never opposed to take out. Sometimes he’ll even surprise you coming through the door with arms full of bags stuff with cardboard and plastic containers. “I didn’t know which you’d be in the mood for so I hit a couple spots. And hey- then we’ve got leftovers!”. The two of you also steal bites from each other’s plates, sometimes playfully but Shaun also won’t hesitate to hold his fork/spoon out for you to take a bite. Man will go so far as to make stupid airplane noises until you laugh and accept. Of course Moon Pie gets a nibble or two of something that’s safe for her to eat too.

His heart will absolutely melt if you want to watch his films or projects he worked on, he’s super proud of his work and hearing that you are too makes his chest warm with pride. If you like horror movies, a lot of your nights are spent marathoning horror movies or horror shows with commentary from the pair of you. The month of October might as well be a 31 day long holiday for the pair of you- your movie lists of all the classics and activities included. But if scary movies aren’t your jam- Shaun totally understands, they aren’t for everyone and that you still support his craft even if you aren’t one to watch it still means a lot. You find other movies or shows to watch together, he’ll often enjoy comedies or indie films but he’s always interested in your favorites and recommendations as well.

Cuddles and snuggling are frequent and often include Moon Pie nestled with the two of you or nearby. It can be as simple as Shaun’s arm around your shoulders and you slotted into his side or spooning on the couch with some cozy blankets or pajamas. Shaun likes playing with your hair absently while he talks either about his new project he’s working on or asking you about your day/how you’re doing. He takes an interest in your interest and is engaged in your conversations. Anything new gleaned he tucks away to research on his own, ask you more about, or keep an eye out for things of that to bring home to you for little gifts. Sometimes things can get busy with his work so he relishes the time he spends with you and makes sure you know it- that he’s so grateful for your support and your patience. Shaun will admit he wishes he didn’t have to be gone often but you’re always welcome to visit him on set to grab lunch. Or he’ll promise to swing over and visit you at froyo hell if it’ll help your day.

Big spoon or little spoon, doesn’t matter to Shaun he’s just happy to be in the moment with you. No matter what cuddle position your in, he loves to lace your fingers with his and bury his face in your neck or hair and be close to you. You’re home to him.

Ian:

Aside from days off when you schedules shake out favorably, mornings and nights are the time you and Ian get to spend together, unless he’s got something with his budding acting passion. Mornings are usually the two of you getting ready for the day together, albeit in a rush, but evenings you look forward to especially if he has no plans. On the nights he beats you home, or had the day off, you’ll come home to a clean apartment and either takeout or an easy meal made. I don’t fancy Ian as a great cook (till the game says otherwise lol) but he’s got a few staples he knows how to put together. Not that you mind, the fact that dinner is done and ready and the apartment is clean is a sweet gesture all the same. You sit at the table or on the couch, talking about your days; asking how it went, if Ian found any new scripts or parts he wants to audition for or got call backs, he’ll ask you about your day at work, ect. It’s pretty comfortable and domestic considering you guys have been together most of your lives. Not that it feels stale or boring to you- it may be a simple apartment but when you and Ian moved in you made it your home. It’s a comfort to you, he’s a comfort to you.

For date nights, Ian is pretty capable of planning dates. Starlight picnics, catching a play or musical at the local theater (if it’s a shared interest of yours), dinner dates, even dancing if that’s something you really enjoy. He’s not the best at it, a little awkward and shy- but he’s happy to dance with you and sheepishly try. Bashfully blushing as his hands rest on your hips the same way they did when you went to the dance in high school though his hands are certainly bigger and a lot more comfortable now as opposed to then when they’d trembled oh so slightly. If you also have a flair for the arts, if you’re down to catch a play or a musical- Ian is thrilled to go with you. To get dressed up, have a cocktail or two if you drink, he considers himself the luckiest guy on earth to have you on his arm in front of everyone.

But if it’s a night in that you’re looking for, like Jack- Ian enjoys bathing or showering with you. He still blushes from the tips of his ears down to his neck when he sees you bared in front of him, every time somehow feels like the first time as he’ll shyly join you in the warm water. It’ll be a few jokes, maybe singing a few songs together, washing each other’s hair and bodies with a few stolen kisses here and there. Ian will help you out of the shower or tub, quick to wrap a towel around you so you don’t get cold as you both start your nightly skincare routine or even face masks if your so inclined. Ian loves to pamper you, or he tries- he really does. He wants you to feel cherished, how much he loves you and has his entire life. He wouldn’t be where he was or know happiness if not for you. Additionally, I think Ian wouldn’t mind doing mani/pedis with you at night while you guys pick up a show you’ve been watching or start or a movie rental- if it’s his turn to pick it’s usually drama or romance maybe. He likes feeling your hands or feet in his own, painting your nails pretty colors and massaging oils or lotions into your soft skin. Sometimes he’ll even match your nail polish.

Ian is the clingy sort of cuddler with you, he doesn’t mind being the big spoon but LOVES being the little spoon even if you’re smaller than him and you’re more like a cuddly backpack. Ian loves to nestle into you; your hair, your neck, your chest…doesn’t matter what position you’re in—he’s super clingy with his cuddles. A few affectionate squeezes here and there, a mumbled “I love you.” Into your ear or skin. He’s so grateful to you; all the love and support you so wholeheartedly give him There isn’t a thing he doesn’t admire about you and he tries to show it to you often. Doubly when he gets the acceptance letter for a program at a performing arts school out of state. Being away from you is going to be heartbreaking and he isn’t sure he’ll be able to stomach it but with your reassurance and support- he’s determined to make the days left in the apartment worth it and full of love for you.

[tenpintsof-sundrop]

I only just recently read Burn The Witch and i loved it so much. It’s wild to me (but also not really) that people paid the most attention to the smut chapter than anything else when to me, my favourite thing about that series was the gritty, darker parts of it.

That is something that personally I love so much about your writing, I love it when it gets gruesome and hard to read because it draws me in even more. Since I’m a huge angst/whump reader might give me a bias but it goes without saying that you are really fucking good at writing fics with horror/angst elements.

It baffles me when people get butt hurt about how a fic ends or how a characters acts in a fic because like- if you don’t like it then just…don’t read it? Go find another fic and just leave it at that? Better yet, just go back to reading or watching the source material… People’s urge to just tear down other people for the select reason being that they don’t like it is so insane to me. Is it hurting anyone? Nope, okay then move on with your day. It’s as simple as that!!

this message literally makes me so happy omg.

I love writing angst and whump and horror so much. I love it. it is something I love writing even more that smut (and the reason most of my fics are smut is because I enjoy writing it) - but I find that I am almost afraid to write it, because I am afraid of my fics being too dark and too depressing. like the things I want to write are like those 'top ten most disturbing horror movies' - those movies that people watch just for shock value that they have to turn off half way through

I love writing visceral, descriptive horror. I love writing gut wrenching angst. but I am always afraid of going too far with it (even if I put warnings on it).

also friendly reminder that my requests for TWD are open (idk if you watch the show and you're familiar with the characters? I don't remember if you have mentioned that before) - but this would be a great opportunity for you to request something really angsty and whumpy for that fandom (especially because TWD is such a great backdrop for writing angst).

writing Burn The Witch was one of the most eye-opening experiences I had as an artist, because writing the scenes of emotional angst and physical torture were some of the most fun I had, and a time where I stretched my legs creatively where I had been static for a long time (writing simple smut fics in a kind of routine?) - and it really reawakened me as an artist. it made me realize that I can write stories beyond simple smut (and you can see that in so many stories I have written since then) - but I was disheartening for me to post that story and see people only pay attention to the smut chapter when the parts I was post brought of was every single chapter after it.

anyway - thank you so so much for this message. it really means a lot to me. and this will probably inspire me to pay more attention to my angsty ideas in the future <3

[2n2n]

ch 104

DBS IS OUT!! for the lovely HD scans times. The immediacy of MangaUP is so nice for the day-of... but for posts, its nice to have scans. Also, isn't it always good to have as many translations as possible... I think sooo

FESTIVAL!!!

this is so unromantic it is funny ... it is like Kou really does forget about the severity/importance/imperative of offering Mitsuba a reason to live ... once he's not in the immediate situation... classic Kou ... really funny to see it come to be like this ...

its moe... ah... somehow this feels like an appropriate retconning for Hanako (he's been drawn at least enjoying a horror movie, before, but WAY back)... he shares a lot of traits with iro-sensei honestly, and... iro-sensei is incredibly weak about horror, used to post about this, things like having immediate nightmares after a scary movie, trembling like a mess... having nightmares just from the cockroach in Wall-E... having a nightmare about a crazy MILF (???????) chasing them and Aida-sensei... it is 'write what you know' as they say...

Mitsuba really rules lately... so funny... get his ass....

this is so funny, Mitsuba the shit-stirrer, just encouraging everything from all directions, relationship drama go. So funny. Encourage Nene-chan to confess to Hanako. Encourage Kou to date Nene-chan. Lol. Mitsuba truly rules as of late. I am a fan. Feels like Mitsuba's agenda is still to not be so involved in stuff firsthand, kinda fun... suicidal swag. You really oughtn't be alone with No. 7 though, boy...

it needs must be remarked. major 'my husband' moment. Ah I love it when Nene-chan really feels like ... onee-san lol... your, older girlfriend.. babysitter...?? he is so regressed for the festival...

at last the ikemen juice stand comes to pass... well I like how much Hanako hates it....

I enjoy how much Mitsuba and Hanako do not get along lol... the vibes are still bad

the hideous techniques... same as it ever was...

extortion...

bad. no-good.

I like seeing Mitsuba's mom again, actually... I rarely like parent situations, but Iro-sensei's writing is very good haha ... the chapter with her talking to Kou and Nene, it really sticks in my mind as very good writing! Very subtle, very tastefully hinting at what it means to be 'Mitsuba' or not, the different sides of thought Nene-chan and Kou are on, without communicating that directly.

hm

hm....

hm.

I like this application of shijima-san's 'illusions' and 'paper' ... it suits a festival very much. As a diversion, I likee... I'm glad it's not actually a kaii-of-the-week situation, genuinely just something illusionary in nature, not meaningfully destructive, to tie up the Minamoto, annoying to deal with 100 papercuts heh. What a useful power for the Broadcast Club to have! hooray

So this must be what Natsuhiko was meaning, when he said he 'might still be around' after Sakura ended the whole world... ~~~ I suppose we won't know until it happens~

I wonder if it's a special bloodline thing, or more idiosyncratic... The far shore be like, ptooooey, nastay gross spit this out, blehh bad blood .... I love this for him, though! His inability to be noticed must be a help in such a position... hah. Maybe it's not suspicious to be immortal, if nobody can even remember who you are...

ain't no strings to hold him down...

goes to show why he behaves pretty fearlessly, and why he's trusted with so many intense risky tasks....!

so interesting!

Still don't really know for how long he's been unkillable, if he's permanently stuck at this age, or what.... still don't know how he met Sakura!

I do not like or trust this horrible cursed clock, or the Clockkeepers, so I'm happy to see it immediately being ka-chunk'd..... diiieeee die die die die....

somehow satisfying. After seeing Amane so haunted by it....toiling away... the deception the Clockkeepers rely on, extortion....manipulation... mmmm! I'm excited to get into it~

Guess right now, I'm on your side, Natsuhiko!

[scarletwitching]

Do you have any opinions/meta on the portrayal of Doctor Doom's dictatorship in Marvel comics? As someone who is somewhat knowledgeable on the horrors of dictatorship, it always makes my skin crawl when writers unironically portray Latveria as this "benevolent dictatorship utopia" without bothering to put in the two seconds of thought/research that would immediately lead to the conclusion of why that is a wildly offensive, irresponsible, nonsensical, and logically unattainable concept to promote

I have to preface this by saying that I prefer the nice, likeable version of every character. Even characters I have no particular interest in, whatever the softer version of them is, that's how I think they should be written. I'm not saying this is a good thing or some kind of moral judgment. It's a matter of taste. Like, I can't handle Harry Potter because it's so mean, both in terms of the books themselves and a lot of the characters. People are always like, "Give us a Marauders show," and I'm like, why on Earth would anyone want to watch a television show about high school bullies? Are people okay?

Which is weird because I love Emma Frost. But I don't want Emma to be a villain. I don't know how to explain it. I guess I just prefer for characters to be well-intentioned. Characters can be prickly. They can have conflict, but when a character feels malicious, I lose interest in them.* I find it so much more compelling when characters are clashing but nobody is being cruel or monstrous, they just have their own viewpoint. So, on a purely character level, I do prefer for Doom to have good sides to him.

All that said, man, politics in superhero comics is tricky. It's a minefield. To play Devil's Advocate for the people writing these stories you dislike, what they're trying to convey is that the superhero perspective is not the only one, which is a sentiment I appreciate. I like when we admit that other people in this world do not have the views or experiences of the average superhero. I think that, theoretically, that complexity is a positive, but I don't think it's handled with much nuance or consistency within the stories themselves.

Where does Latveria fit on a left-right spectrum? What countries are they allied with? Who do they trade with? What are the internal politics? What real life country, past or present, is the best comparison point? Whomst can say. This is part of why politics in superhero comics is tricky. Because they don't really get into details. They just make broad gesturings at real life things and then the next writer contradicts that, and it all depends on what real world thing is trendy to reference. When you are Genosha, sometimes, you are South Africa, and sometimes, you are Yugoslavia. So it goes.

The flip side of all of this is, of course, that Doom is Roma, and the people who created him did not understand the sociopolitical implications of the character they created. What does it mean to be a "nationalist" when you are a Roma man from Eastern Europe? Sometimes, as a writer, you don't know that much about other cultures, and you write something with weird implications that you aren't aware of, and one day, it's 60 years later and that shit's still canon and we all just have to deal with it.

Like with a lot of dilemmas of superhero characterization, there's really no perfect answer because, no matter what angle you come at it from, there is the possibility of finding something questionable about it. If you get too far into trying to depict Latveria as a realistic dictatorship, there is weirdness/uncomfortable stuff on that end too.

Part of why our (read: USian) culture's current fixation on nostalgia is troublesome is that it is much more complicated to "fix" old canons than people think and often, it is impossible. We're stuck with all our movies being about characters created 60+ years, and they come with that baggage. A lot of times, it is the concept of the character where the problems lie, and the degree to which you can ever remedy that is... Well, it doesn't usually work 100%. And you can create other problems by trying to get rid of the old ones. Which is what you're complaining about, right? So, my tl;dr Doom take is that there is always going to be this weirdness to the character because of the nature of superhero comics. I get where you're coming from, but I also get the opposite argument. A true centrist, wow.

*Except, of course, for Zaladane, the only good supervillain ever created.

[ilovewhiteroses]

You cast a spell on me - Part 4.

Pairing: The Corinthian x Female Witch Reader Genre: Angst, Romance, little Fluff and Smut Warnings: horror and adult themes Rating: 18+ Notes: - I was listening to the Sandman Soundtrack by David Buckley while I was writing and it was quite an emotional rollercoaster           - Reader's dream scene was inspired by my dear friend, @thecorilove86​‘s Corinthian fanart (https://www.tumblr.com/thecorilove86/704070510011662336/im-really-tryin-not-to-be-completely-lame)

A pleasant feeling goes through your body. You see The Corinthian. You move closer to him and kiss him. You feel naked and wet. You look down and you are sitting in a tub full of blood and eyeballs…

Sweating, you woke up from your nightmare, your heart was beating fast. You have had terrible dreams before, but never one that was both horrifying... and beautiful. You always believed that dreams and nightmares had meanings, and there was a reason for this one too. Corinthian. He was with you, which is understandable, because he himself is a nightmare. Weird. You have known each other for a while, yet you have only just dreamed about him for the first time. You had an unpleasant, inexplicable feeling that you wanted to push away, and then you tried to go back to sleep.

The next day you went shopping with Cole. He will attend a charity event and asked you to help him find a nice suit, in return you asked him to go shopping with you and carry the bags. "Thanks Cole for coming with me. I can never reach the high shelves.” you said. "A gentleman helps where he can. And thanks to your help, I will be the most handsome guy at the event!” Cole said laughing. You knew that looking good is important to him because he wanted to flirt with the rich ladies.

On the way home you saw Corinthian in the distance with a handsome young man. They stopped at a front door, presumably where the guy lives. There they started kissing and then went inside. The sight made your heart ache, and you felt a punch in your stomach, but you were perfectly aware that he was sleeping with other people as well. Even though you knew every inch of each other's bodies, you were not a couple.

After you and Cole got home, he helped you unpack and left. Thoughts started racing through your head. Corinthian is not your boyfriend, so why should you care what he does when you are not together? What you have between you is something like friends with benefits. Still, you did not like it when you saw him with the guy.

Jealousy. You also felt this in addition to your aching heart. You realized it must be because you have feelings for him.

"This is stupid. It’s true that he has behaved like a gentleman with me so far and he is fantastic in bed, but… he is a nightmare with teeth eyes for Christ sake! Which woman in their right mind would want to be in a relationship with a guy like that?" you tried to convince yourself. "If he can be with others, then I can also meet new people!" you said and started to prepare your dinner and then tried to get to bed on time. Tomorrow you have a meeting with your publisher at her office and you tried not to think about what Corinthian is doing with that man…

At 10 o'clock the next morning, you went to the book publisher headquarters, where your publisher's office is located. She told you that even though your current book, "You Attract What You Loathe" is still being written, a film studio heard about the story and liked it so much that they already want to buy the movie rights. You told her that you would only give the rights to the best studio and the best director and that you want to participate in the filming process as executive producer. When you were done, you got into the elevator. "Can you hold it, please?" you heard a nice man's voice while the doors were closing. You did as he asked, and a tall, dark-haired, handsome man stepped in. "Thank you. I see you're a writer too, judging by your laptop bag." said the man smiling. "I'm a writer too." "Really?" you asked curiously "Yes. My name is Jack Warner and I write crime fiction.” After you got out of the elevator, you left the building and went to your car together. You learned that Jack writes crime novels because his father was a cop and he has always been interested in what is in the mind of a killer. When you arrived to your car, Jack told you that he likes you and asked you out for dinner, to which you said yes. The dinner went well, Jack told you, among other things, that he had read some of your books and that he really liked the fantasy theme. You were able to pay attention to him the whole time, you did not think about Corinthian not once. Why would you even? He is probably fucking someone, you thought to yourself... Jack took you home at the end of the night, you kissed him on his cheek as goodbye. He was very nice to you and deep down you could not wait to see him again.

A few days later, in the evening, the doorbell rang. You could not imagine who it could be, because you were not expecting anyone. You went out and saw Corinthian. "Hi!" you said to him surprised. "Hi." he said in a nonchalant tone. You let him in and he literally stormed into your apartment. "What's all the fuss about?" you asked as you closed the gate and went after Corinthian. You crossed your arms in front of you, you did not know what was wrong with him. "Sorry to break in like that, but....I drove by a few days ago and....Who was that guy?" he asked, running his fingers through his hair. "What?" "I saw you talking to a guy and you gave him a kiss." he said disapprovingly. Was he stalking you? He seemed nervous. You realized that he was obviously jealous. "Oh, that? I'm sorry, but this is none of your business. If you don’t mind, I'd rather not tell you his name, I don't want him to get killed." you said slightly mockingly. "You really think I would be capable of killing him?" he asked, stepping closer to you. "As a matter of fact, yes! And anyway, I don't understand why you're making a scene, because I recently saw you with a guy. You were kissing on the street! And I also know that when we don't see each other, you sleep with a lot of other people!” you said almost irritated. Corinthian scratched his head nervously, apparently searching for words. "You want to know the truth? Fine, I'll tell you. Yes, I sleep with so many people because that's my nature. I only fuck them once and I'm always in control because it gives me power. And I kill them and consume their eyes because I want to know what it feels like to be human and see their lives through their eyes.” Your heart nearly broke for a moment when Corinthian said that. "And you are the first that I slept with more than once. I thought that you, being also a non-human, a witch, would understand me. You're special and I don’t like the thought of another man being near you!" You could not believe your ears. "Wait, what? So you think it's okay for you to go around having sex with everyone, but you're upset with me wanting to date a nice guy?" you pointed at yourself as you asked him indignantly. "Y/N, that's not what I meant," Corinthian said while frowning. "Then how? What do you want?" you wanted to grab him by the collar. "I don't know, I don't fucking know!" he snapped, "My feelings are complicated. I've never felt anything like this before, and I didn't even know I was capable of it." he said tensely. You were both furious. You thought it would be better if you stopped now, so that it would not turn into an even bigger dispute. "I think it would be better if we both think over what we want." you said, in a slightly calmer tone, hoping that he would calm down soon as well. Corinthian took a deep breath. "You're right…I need to clear my head." he said quietly. He then walked up to you, kissed you and left. You just stood there. Tears rolled down your face.

Since that night, you felt awful. You could barely sleep or eat, you did not even feel like writing, and you did not want to clean at all, so you said a magic spell that instantly made your home tidy and clean. I wish I could change my feelings this easily, you thought to yourself. All you could think about was Corinthian and the last time you saw him. Although you resented him at first, you realized that you missed him. You went on late-night car drives, called your mom, hung out with your friends to somehow take your mind off of him. You told Jack that if that was his intention, you were not ready for a relationship right now, luckily he was understanding and accepted that. You checked your phone to see if Corinthian texted or called you, but nothing. You drove by his house several times, hoping to see him. Then you realized that maybe it was better to forget him.

After a few weeks, you started to feel better, and your life went back to normal. You made good progress with your book too. However, one day you had a strange feeling. You knew that there was usually a reason why you get that feeling. You felt like you had to go to the beach. You have not been there since your quarrel with Corinthian. You went to Venice Beach with taxi. The weather was unusually cloudy, as if nature was projecting your feelings. There were not many people on the beach and the waves were breaking dramatically. You stood near the water and looked into the distance. Your instincts told you something was coming. Or someone. You looked to the side and saw Corinthian. The sight of him filled you with joy and sorrow at the same time. "Hi Y/N. I knew you'd be here." He said kindly. So that is why you had to come here. You felt that he would be here too. "What do you want?" you asked timidly. He sighed. "First of all, I want to apologize for my behaviour the last time we met. Second, I want you to come to my place. There are a few things I want to tell you." Your stomach suddenly lurched, but you agreed to go with him. As you walked to his car, you wanted to reach out for his hand, but you did not dare. You arrived at his house. You went to the large balcony, candles were burning next to the infinity pool, which you did not understand. Corinthian offered you a seat on the outdoor sofa. "What would you like to say?" you asked him. Even though his body radiated warmth, you were afraid of what was he going to tell you. "Look" he said, took your hands and looked into your eyes. "I've been thinking a lot since we last saw each other. You must think I've fucked and killed a lot in that time. That's not entirely true. It only happened a few times, but when I did them, I didn't feel the thrill that they used to give me. I felt an emptiness inside. As if something was missing. YOU. All day long I just lay in my bed, wandered around the house or walked aimlessly in the city. And I thought of you all the time. You know, I've been enjoying life in the Waking World for a long time, but deep down I've always been lonely. Who am I and where I came from no one would understand. Then that night I met you. I told you that I went up to you at the bar because I felt that you were different from other people. To be honest, I toyed with the idea of what would it be like if I tried to kill you, but I realized that there was no point and anyway, it's been a long time since I've felt that good. I let myself go with the flow and when we had sex, I didn't want to control like I usually do. I really enjoyed it and I wanted it to be good for you too. I wanted to experience this feeling again and again with you. It's true that I had other sex partners alongside you, but they didn't mean anything, they only brought quick satisfaction. Moreover, after them, for the first time in my life, I always felt guilt. I thought, what if I stopped hunting for meaningless enjoyment and tried to be with you... After all, that's what it means to be human, isn't it? To find someone who understands you and who can maybe love you...despite these." Corinthian said, then took off his sunglasses and placed them on the outdoor table. You knew what was behind the dark lenses, yet you were not horrified. Instead of his eyes, he actually had teeth that looked at you sadly. You started to cry at his words and gesture, Corinthian gently wiped away your tears "God…I didn't know you felt this way about me." you said through tears "I really mean it. It's an unusual feeling for me too and I'm afraid, which is ridiculous. A nightmare who is scared of the tender feelings he has for a beautiful, kind witch?" He asked. "I'm scared too, believe me...But I want you to know that I feel the same way about you. My mind told me that there would be nothing more between us, but in my heart I wanted to be with you." Corinthian caressed your face, then held it in his palms and looked deep into your eyes. The fear of losing him was over. You became a part of his life and he became a part of yours. A nightmare. A nightmare with feelings. Your foreheads touched and then you kissed each other. He stood up and took out his phone. He pressed a button and the song "Lady In Red" by Chris de Burgh started playing from the speakers. "I'd like you to dance with me." Corinthian said simply and easily, holding out his hand to you. "Can you be romantic?" you asked smiling then you took his hand and he pulled you close. "A little romance never hurt anyone." Corinthian said with a sweet smile. Now you understood the role of the candles: they were needed along with the music for the romantic mood. Your heart melted. Slowly, hugging each other, you danced like this for a while to the emotional melody. You placed your hand on his chest and looked into his eyes. You could feel his soft heartbeat. "I want you." Corinthian whispered. He kissed you then picked you up and carried you into the bedroom in his arms. As you were going upstairs, you said a spell that caused the candles to float and follow you, then nicely surround the bed to create an intimate atmosphere. You and Corinthian laid down on the bed and started kissing, then gently took off each other's clothes as if you were fragile. He slowly kissed all over your body, and then you kissed his. The previous wild, passionate romps has now been replaced by slow, romantic love making. He was on top and you wrapped your arms around him. Soft sighs filled the room. Corinthian buried his face in your neck and you were flooded with emotions. You feverishly embraced each other, you soared higher and higher together, and in the moment of pleasure, your fingers intertwined and you crossed the border of sanity together. You don't know what the future will bring, only that he alone matters. And your love...

[stagefoureddiediaz]

I've been really enjoying the 911 costume meta you put together every week and it's been super interesting! I've even caught myself watching other stuff and noticing costume that's sort of foregrounded and wondering what kind of significance it has.

And I'm curious about your process! How much of the sort of "language" of meanings are generally agreed upon in costuming vs put together by the show's costumers - like is checks signifying change a universal thing or something that developed over seasons? And I feel like you must have a spreadsheet with everyone's costumes (or an incredible memory), I'm always impressed by the recall to prior episodes (not a skill I have lol). (Sorry if you've answered these before! I only found your meta breakdowns this season)

Antislice, lovely having you in my inbox!

I'm so so sorry that this has taken me an age to get round to answering, especially as its such a good ask, but I am happy that you've started noticing costume related things in other shows!

So each show/ piece of media will create its own themes etc that it plays on - 911 is doing this with check and stripes more generally and then Buck being in white is a more character specific meaning. The thing with check is that it is by nature a pattern that has lots of crossings in it - that makes it a perfect metaphor for change - for being at a crossroads as it were, so its one that tends to get used more frequently and as a result is becoming a specific language in its own right. Thats how many of these costume languages and meanings develop - they either deliberately or inadvertently get used in one or two things to convey a message and then spiral from there into a specific meaning that becomes a trope in its own right. its like a costume version of knowing the person who goes off alone in a horror movie is going to die!

As for colours - there is a lot more in this - the meanings of different colours is something that has been around since before film existed - its been around for centuries, it is worth noting that different cultures apply different meanings to colours - red for example has a different meaning in Chinese culture than it does in western culture - so its always important to keep that in mind when watching something regardless of where it comes from - because a good designer will make use of these differences if they are dressing someone from a different background. When I did my degree in costume design, we had specific lectures and seminars on colour theory and in analysing its use in various media (they were my favourite classes 😎) because it is important to understand so that you can better tell the story you're trying to tell.

Much colour theory is known by your subconscious and most people go through life completely unaware that colour is affecting decisions they make - its something advertisers use to their advantage!

I like to think I have an incredible memory 😂 and I kind of do - it remembers most things (usually it recalls a costume but cant remember exactly which episode it appeared in!), but you're right - I do have a spreadsheet (well I have one for each main and one for guest cast!) with all the costumes listed - its a full costume plot andis based on the plots I used to create when I worked in the industry! It has time stamps, reference pictures and is colour coded for type of costume and if its connected to a theme - its a bit geeky of me but I love doing it!

The first thing I do before I start writing my meta is a rewatch where I fill out all costume details for the episode and add the reference pictures! Maybe I'll share it with everyone during the summer hiatus, but then again maybe that would be one step too far!!!

I hope this answers your questions and sorry again that I didn't get to it sooner! 💜💜💜

[vertigovampires]

So small update I have a total of 10 pages of the book so far and a working title about 13 more pages to go before first chapter is finished honestly super proud had to put writing on pulse while I went to my adventure game but I’m back and on top of keeping the pages flowing here a little snippet of one of my favorite parts in the prologue!!

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I knelt down clawing at stones and digging through the hot ash that burned my hands, my vision started to blur was the heat that intense that it stung my eyes, or was just crying.

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It’s not much but thought a little teaser would be fun to share as I work on this. So I wanted to give a little bit of context on where the book that I’m working on, is inspired from and how much information I can dive into this .

So about two-ish years ago my partner and I started doing a talk PG not game canon but while we were playing curse of strahd table top over two years, I built a whole world, history names of different parts, and a world map along with multiple characters, side characters, and among other things A shit ton of lore. I have enough information that I feel like I can write a decent fanfiction. I used to be a big fan fiction reader but always felt like the books kind of felt quick unrealistic to an extent to a point where it felt rushed there’s nothing wrong with that but I wanted to write some thing that was a slow burn. Kind of like Dracula minus in journal entries because let’s be honest that’s really hard to get through especially in this day and age.

I’m pulling from some old fashion, vampiric tropes along with trying to write fantasy for the minority without shoving it in everyone’s faces in a sense what I mean is the protagonist I based off of my own background of my own heritage I think that’s the only time I’m gonna actually mention it because I don’t want it to be some quick grab for people More of a Hey we’re here there’s a short description in the beginning of the book of the protagonist also known as Annalise looks like along with the cast of people who are all mixed about. I’m doing my best to base Strahd and other people who already written as they are. I will not be changing anything about them their luxe I may slightly pull from Romanian history and clothing accuracy, but nothing more.

Apart from that, I’ve always enjoyed fantasy in horror along with D&D and RPG tabletop games.

And pulling a lot of inspiration from many books, movies in DND. I want to do my best but I’m not expecting it to be perfect as this is my first time writing some thing this long I do have dyslexia, so I am asking a couple people to help me correct grammar and spelling. I’m currently using text to speech whilst typing this out on my phone.

It’s a big block to read if you read it through. Thanks so much I’ll be dropping more updates as time goes on.🖤🖤🖤⚔️⚔️⚔️🦇🦇🦇

Love y’all hope you stick with me while I work on this🖤