#i will never shut up about this im not sorry anymore this is. so important to me

[theokusgallery]

I see it now! I was literally reading and listening about their relationship in your podcast! i really thought that Statice and Nick DESPISE eachother. This AU is interesting, I love it vry vry much. Im not fond of it at first because I can't really Imagine Basil. Basil doing all of that stuff. because he's my favorite character(and I can't really see him being like that). But I eventually learnt to separate them and sees Nick as his own character. Like an actual oc(Still sees him a little bit as Basil if you understand what I mean)( can't wait when Sunny's other friend gets revealed or maybe the parents. *Maybe* they're not that important to the story but the CURIOSITY IS TOO STRONG AND SORRY FOR YAPPING HSJSKAK IT MUST BE TIRING TO ANSWER ANY OF MY QUESTIONS I WON'T DO THAT AGAIN)(Also excuse my grammar also, english is not my first language 😣)

-Anon from the previous previous post.

(the aura I felt after asking that is unimaginable. I used to be so shy to ask anything on people's blog so Im a *bit* proud of my confidence!)

Oh I see !!

Yeah Nick is... more or less an OC, he's got very little to do with Basil now. I refuse to cut of all ties to OMORI/Basil because it's very important to his origins and taking that from him would be taking out a lot of how I personally see him, but, well... He wasn't exactly based off of normal in-game Basil, either, so it makes sense that he's very different. He looks different, acts different, has a different family, age, personality, story, nationality even, different interests... He's like, 70% OC and 30% OMORI AU. Basil is also my favorite character, and that's not how I see him at all either.

I understand why you thought Statice and Nick hated each other — to be fair, there aren't a lot of people who don't hate Nick, lol. Being around him and knowing why he is the way he is makes it easier to love him, though.

[chriss-slut]

Puddin'

~ Dom!Chris X sub!fem!reader ~

Synopsis: Your friends slip up who's your favorite character, but also your fantasy kink.

warning: SMUT!! rough unprotected sex, petnames, degradation kink, daddy kink, cursing, and a lot of stuff that i can't even remeber anymore lol

A/N: this is kinda MY fantasy kink so.. 😀 btw if there's any spelling mistakes, im sorry, i didnt have time to check it :)

I have always been, in some way, a big fan of Harley Quinn (if not obsessed). I discovered her when i was around 12 years old, when Suicide Squad came out. Everything about her inspired me. Whether it was her behavior, intelligence, madness, or eccentricity, deep down, I dreamed of being like her, of being as sexy and alluring.

As I grew older, my passion for her became something I no longer showcased, simply out of fear of being judged by others. I was now 20 years old, and it seemed weird, even boring, to others to see me in the same costume at every dress-up party.

When I met Chris, I never really talked to him about this little obsession I had, mainly out of fear that he would find it strange.

Up until now, everything had been going well between us, and I didn't find it important. He didn't need to know more about this subject.

I was at home with Chris and my two best friends. We had planned to spend the afternoon together so they could meet, especially since our relationship had just become official.

Everything was going well until Julia started talking about what I was trying to keep secret:

"Oh, by the way, are you still coming tomorrow night?" Julia asked me, completely changing the subject while munching on her chips.

"Tomorrow night?" I asked, confused.

"Yeah, to Noah's costume party, like every year, Y/N!" she said in a "duh" tone, rolling her eyes.

"Um... I forgot. Honestly, I don't think so. Chris and I had planned to spend the evening together, so it's going to be difficult for me," I said, trying to find a plausible excuse to avoid further questions.

"What??!" she exclaimed, looking disappointed.

"You can come with him, and that way, you can get to know us a bit more, Chris!" added my other friend Stella, turning to my boyfriend with a big smile, and the others nodded in agreement.

"That would be nice," Chris replied with a shrug.

"See? Come on, you're coming. I don't really plan to give you a choice. We go every year, there's no way you're skipping it this time!" Julia added.

"I don't have a costume anyway, and I'm exhausted right now. It's going to be a no from me, guys, sorry," I said, trying to sound genuinely disappointed.

"You're such a liar. Are you going to make me believe you don't have a costume when you spend all your time dressing up as Harley Quinn at every opportunity?" she said, laughing.

My eye widen and i start blushing a bit. Chris turned to me, and i look at Julia with a face that says "Please, just shut your mouth."

"Oh, because, yes, I suppose you already know, but your girlfriend is completely obsessed with Harley Quinn. It's like she's totally in love with her!" Julia said to Chris, giggling.

"Julia! oh my god!" I said, embarrassed, now trying to hide my face in my hands.

"She's not wrong," Stella added. What a bunch of traitors.

"You never told me about this?" Chris said, confused, while I stood there, dying of embarrassment at the thought that the girls might make things worse.

"What, you mean she never bored you with her Harley Quinn obsession? I'm sure her biggest kink would be sleeping with you dressed as her!" Julia said without any restraint, and this time it was too much for me.

"Julia!! What the fuck is wrong with you!" I said, getting angry.

"Wow, calm down, I was just joking," she said, frowning.

Stella's mouth was wide open, and Chris looked like he didn't know where to put himself.

"You guys should go home. 'm tired, I need to rest," I said to escape the situation.

"What, seriously? You're going to be mad at me for this? Y/N!" I heard Julia shout as I left the room.

I went up to my room and shut the door behind me. My reaction was probably over the top, but I didn't want Chris to know about this. She had no right to humiliate me like that in front of him. I bury my face in my pillow and try to think about something else.

After a few minutes, I heard some knocks on my door.

"Julia, go away! I don't want to talk to you!" I shouted from my bed.

I heard the door open anyway, so I turned around to tell her to leave, but to my surprise, it was Chris.

"I'm not Julia, sorry to break it to you," he said, trying to make me laugh.

"It's not funny," I said, rolling my eyes before sitting up on my bed.

"Can I come in?" he asked.

"You're already inside anyway..." I speak, shrugging

"Are you mad at me or Julia? I don't understand anymore," he said, raising an eyebrow and crossing his arms.

"Sorry," I replied, biting my lip, and he came to sit next to me.

"The girls left and asked me to tell you they really want you to be there tomorrow night," he said, placing his hand on the small of my back, and I sighed.

"Listen, I'd be very happy to go with you. I don't mind. We can always come back together and spend time alone after the party, but I don't want you to fight with your friends because of me," he said, and I turned my head towards him.

"That's not why I fought with them, Chris," I said, looking back at the floor.

"Then what was it about?" he asked.

"It's something stupid. I don't really want to talk about it!" I said, feeling the embarrassment return.

"Come on, tell me. I'm not going to judge you," he said, shaking his head.

"No!" I said, avoiding his gaze.

"Is it because of what she said about your obsession with Harley Quinn?" he asked.

"I'm not obsessed with her!" I said, getting angry.

“And that’s not what I implied. I was just repeating her words!” he responded immediately.

I sighed, realizing it was becoming ridiculous to keep this hidden from him any longer.

“Yes…” I said softly.

“Why did it upset you so much?” he asked.

“Because I was afraid she’d say more, and you’d find it weird!” I sighed.

“Why would I find it weird?” he said, gently rubbing my back.

“I don’t know…” I said, shrugging.

“I don’t find you weird, Y/N. You have every right to be a fan of any fictional character if it makes you happy. I really like Harley Quinn, too. You could have told me; I would have been happy to talk about it with you, baby,” he said, smiling.

My eyes sparkle as i hear him say that and i immediately look at him again. “Really?” I said, looking at him with admiration. I truly have a wonderful boyfriend.

“You know what, why don’t you dress up as Harley Quinn, and I’ll be your Joker? That way, you won’t miss the party, and I get to spend time with you and your friends,” he suggested, standing up.

I smiled at him, leaned to hug him tightly, and nodded.

“And when we get back from the party, I’d be happy to fuck you in your costume to fulfill your kink,” he whispered in my ear, playfully smacking my ass.

“Chris, she made that part up!!” I said, blushing deeply.

“Too bad, I was really down for that part,” he said, laughing.

i laugh too, still embarrassed, and i stand up, going to the bathroom.

_______

it's now the next day, almost 8pm, and I'm with my boyfriend arriving at my place. We just left the mall, where we went to buy a Joker costume to him.

i open my front door and we both run towards my room, since we're kinda late.

"dress up in there while i do it in the bathroom, okay?? i want it to be a surprise for you!" i say sweetly, quickly pecking Chris' lips before heading to the bathroom.

after an hour or so, i knock on the bathroom door so i can have Chris' attention and i shout from inside "Are you done??"

"Uh... I've been done for 20 minutes, Y/N." he says from my bedroom.

I burst out laughing for a bit and then i open the door, making a little pose for Chris, showing my costume.

Chris' jaw drops as soon as i open the door. He stands up and stay froze, staring at me.

i giggle softly and go over him, resting my hands in his chest "What'chu think?" i speak, in a slightly higher-pinched voice, trying to recreate Harley's voice.

Chris' jaw just drops more after hear me, he stays froze for a few more moments until he finally speaks. "wow... you look... wow!"

I giggle "you liked it?"

"Liked it? I just fell in love with you all over again!" he says, now hugging me tightly and lifting me from the ground.

I laugh cute and hug him back, tightly. "I'm so happy you liked it!"

Chris buries is face on the crook of my neck, sucking it softly. "There was no way for me to not like it. you look so hot." he whisper before kissing my neck.

I moan softly and move my hand to caress his hair. "thank you, baby..." i speak before pulling away and look at him. "You talking about me when you look like THAT is crazy!"

He grins at me "thank you, sweetheart! Lets go to that party, then?"

"Yeaaah!!" i yell happily, jumping.

He chuckles at my jump and grabs his stuff. We walk out of my house, going to the party.

After a while, we arrive at Noah's house. A lot of people outside of it, all dress up as various characters and monsters. I lead Chris into the party and after a few seconds, Julia and Stella run up to us.

"HEY, GIIIRL!!" Stella yells, happy to see me, as she hugs me from the side.

"Hey, guys!!" Julia shouts at us both, still a bit scared of me being mad at her.

"Hii!" Chris says at them, waving with a smile.

"Hi, girls! Love your costume!" I speak at Stella. She nods with a smile "Thank you! You look amazing yourself, but I'm used to see it already,"

I laugh softly, not really happy about her comment but i brush it off. "You look good too, Ju!" I speak at Julia.

She smiles at me "Thank you! You too, as always... Can i ask you something?" Julia says, with a soft expression. "Yeah, sure!" i say back.

"Uh... i just wanted to know if you're still mad at me for yesterday... I've been thinking about it all night and, I'm sorry..." She speaks softly.

I smile reassuringly "It's okay... I'm sorry too! I shouldn't have become so mad at you..."

She smiles softy and nods "It's okay, i guess we both screwed up!"

"Yeah, but its alright!" i lean to hug her as she does the same.

Suddenly, Stella speaks, loudly. "So, let's party?!?" We all yell "yess!" and that way, the party begins!

______

After hours, me and Chris are going back to my place, tired from dancing and jumping all night.

I open my front door and Chris holds the door for me to enter, smacking my ass playfully as i pass through him.

"Let's to the room. Now." He speaks in a soft but demanding way, which makes me a bit confused but i obey.

Once we get into my room, Chris closes the door behind him and quickly presses me in it, causing me to gasp softly.

"Remember what i told you yesterday??" Chris speaks, his hands caressing my sides.

"U-uh... y-yeah..?" i speak, slightly nervous, since Chris looks so hot and in a rough mood right now.

He smirks and attacks my lips in a hungry kiss. We both make out for a while. As we're still kissing, he puts his hands under my ass and picks me up from the floor, taking me to bed, where he throws me on.

He crawls on top of me and says, looking down at me "You look so damn hot right now. You have no idea how much i had to control myself to not drag you to a bathroom and fuck you right there." He leans and starts kissing my neck, intensively.

I moan in response and i wrap my arms and legs around him, pulling his body closer to mine.

"Tell me, what do you want me to do with you, Puddin'" Chris whispers, making me freeze for a second. Him calling Joker's nickname to Harley made me see stars... and made me wet.

"i-i want you to fuck me..." i say softly.

"huh? i didn't hear you, baby." he says, now lifting his head to look at me.

"i-i want you to fuck me, Chris. Please!" i whine, already desperate.

Chris smirks at me "Good girl" he says before leaning to kiss me again.

While we kiss, he takes off my Harley Quinn Jacket and toss it to the side. He gives wet kisses down my face to my collarbone, where he stays as he takes off my boots.

"mmh, you're so hot, babygirl~" he mumbles as he kisses me.

i moan softly in response, my hands now trying to take his jacket off, which he helps me with.

After a while kissing, he's now in just his jeans as i still have almost the full costume on.

He grabs my jaw tightly and speaks, firmly "you gonna do justice to your costume and act like a little slut f'me?"

I look up at him with puppy eyes and nod. He smirks and whispers "Good girl~" He moves two of his fingers that was on my jaw and slide it into my mouth, pressing it on my tongue.

"Fuck, you look so good like this... oh, imma fuck you so so good today~" He speaks, in a sensual tone.

I moan against his fingers, swirling my tongue around it.

He then takes his fingers off my mouth with a bop and attacks my lips again, then going down to my neck as his hands go under my shirt, caressing my chest over my bra. He lifts my shirt and move his hands to my back, unbuckling my bra and taking it off, without taking off my Harley Quinn shirt.

He then leans and suck my nipples, which makes me moan "mmh Chris...please, i need you..."

Chris lets out a soft chuckle and grabs my jaw again, harshly, making me look at him "I'm the one in control, got it?" he says in a demanding tone. i just nod, looking up at him.

He nods back and start kissing and sucking my breasts again, now going down my stomach, until he reaches my red and blue tight shorts.

"i gotta take this off, it drove me crazy all night." he speaks, now pulling it down, letting me in my fishnet tights, my thongs and my Harley shirt. He looks down at me and bite his lip. Chris caress my thighs and spreads them, softly passing his hand in my clothed pussy, making me whimper. "Chris, Please..."

"Did you not hear me when i said i was in control??" he speaks in a serious tone "I'll do whatever i want with you, understand?"

I sigh softly and nod. "Good." he speaks before slapping my inner thigh hardly, earning a loud moan from me.

"God, you're so good to spank!" he says, slapping my other inner thigh hardly, i moan loud again.

"Turn around f'me, ma" he speaks to me and i immediately do it. He smirk down, looking at my ass, half covered with my square tights and he spanks my ass, strongly. i cry loud, burying my face in my pillow.

He grabs a fist of my hair and pull my head back, for me to look at him. "Don't wanna mess that make up yet, do ya?" i shake my head, whining from the pain in my scalp. He throws my head on the pillow again, now with my head to the side. He slaps my ass again, and again, and again, making me whine in pain, but also in pleasure.

The last time he slaps my ass, he spanks between my ass cheeks, making me moan loud. He lets out a soft chuckle from my reaction and says "Looks like someone likes to be spanked, isn't that truth?" i whine in response and he slaps the same place again, now gripping my hair again. "answer me. with words." he speaks firmly and demanding. "y-yeah, i do... i-... i l-like it..." i speak, whiny. He lets go of my hair and whispers in my ear "you're so pathetic, aren't you? Look at you, looking like a real whore f'me"

He slaps my ass again and turns me around one more time. He digs his fingers in my square tights, right between my legs, and he stretch it out, ripping it over my pussy. He looks at my sexy thong and he looks at me with a smirk. "is this for me?" I nod softly. He slaps my clothed pussy, making me whine loud, with a smirk. "Be ready, i think you'll need to~" he says to me, before ripping my thong and tossing it to the side.

Seeing him ripping my clothes always make me more turned on, seeing his arms muscles flex gives me butterflies.

He slides his finger through my wet slit and he says "so wet for me. such a little slut for liking me treating you like this." He pushes one finger in my hole, making me moan a bit. He keeps with it in, not moving, and he looks at me. "Look at you... I'd take a photo of you just to show everyone how much of a slut you are... looking so good just for me."

Suddenly, Chris pulls his finger out and slam three fingers into me, making me moan. He starts fingering me roughly, hardly and fast.

"O-oh Chris! fuck!" i moan, leaning my head back from the intense pleasure.

He, then, stops again, making me moan frustrated. "All fours. Now." he speaks demanding and i do it, my ass now almost at his face.

Chris slaps my ass and caress my wet cunt. "so beautiful like this, puddin'... so perfect~"

I whine softly in response and he stands up, unbelting his pants. He grabs his belt and hit the bed hardly with it. "If you do something i didn't tell you to, you'll pay for it. Got it?" i nod frantically.

He pulls down his pants and take them off, tossing it to the pile of clothes on the floor. He grips my hips and pull me to the edge of the bed, so he can fuck me while standing up. He grabs both my ponytails and pull my head back. "You gonne be a good girl and not cum for me until i say it, alright? Don't leave this position and don't scream too loud until i let you, alright?" He speaks in a firm and demanding tone.

"Yeah..." i speak softly. "Yeah, what?" Chris says, pulling even more my hair. "Y-yes, daddy..." i whine. Chris slaps my ass and throw my head forward "Good girl~".

Chris rubs his clother hard dick against my wet pussy, making me moan softly. "You're so wet you're making my boxers soaked. slut!" He pulls his boxers down and slams into me, making me scream loud. He lean over my back and slaps his hand on my mouth, pulling it back harshly. "What didn't you understand about not. screaming.?" I whimper, squeezing my eyes shut, and speak against his mouth "i'm sorry..."

Chris lets out a breathy mockingly laugh and takes his hand off my mouth, my head falling down harshly. "fucking pathetic." Chris mutters, now pulling slowly out of me. i whine at the sensation and then moan loud, trying hard not to scream, when he slams into me again.

Chris moves one hand to under my shirt, squeezing my breast, and the other to my hip, now starting to thrust in and out of my cunt.

I moan as he fucks me, slowly. "Chris, please..."

Chris stops middle-way and says demanding "First off, I'm not giving you want you want. second, you're not calling me that."

I whine softly "S-sorry, daddy..." Chris slaps my ass again and start thrusting into me again, still slowly.

After a while, i give up on moaning and i stay quiet. My head down with my eyes squeezed shut. Chris notices that and start going faster, hitting my g-point every time he pushes into me. i moan and i lean down to rest on my elbows, my back arched and my ass higher.

Chris slaps my ass again and groans lowly. "mmh, baby~ why are you so hot and perfect? looking like a real slut like this, while your pussy clenches around me. fuck!" He starts punding harder, slapping my ass a few more times.

I moan deep, trying to not be loud though. Chris keeps pounding into me until my cunt starts clenching too much around his cock. He stops and speaks "You ain't cummin' now, bitch. You know what happens if you do." and starts fucking me hard again. i start moaning louder, trying my hardest to not cum. I whine "p-puddin'... p-please... i-i can't..."

Chris slaps my ass the hardest he can and says, roughly "No. You're not cummin, Y/N. Or should i call you..." he leans over me, putting his mouth right behing my ear "Harley?".

I can feel the knot in my stomach almost exploding ad he whispers that to me. I can't believe I'm finally realizing this fantasy.

He feels my pussy clenching more around him as he says that and he laughs, smacking my ass again. "oh, you liked it, dont you? you want me to call you Harley? Is that it?"

i nod frantically, barely able to speak at this point. "Words." Chris says roughly, pouding into me roughly.

"o-oh.. y-yeah, d-daddy! p-please, c-call me t-that! o-oh, fuck, its so g-good! p-please!" i whine slightly loud, tears forming in my eyes already.

Chris smirks and start fucking me harder and faster. "fuck, ma! s-such a fucking slut! such a whore f'me!" he says, groaning. I'm so glad i told Chris i liked being degrated! I'm wetter than i was supposed to.

i keep moaning loudly "d-daddy, please! i-i need to cum! p-please lemme cum!" i whine.

Suddenly, Chris pulls out and turn me around, so we're now in missionary.

Chris slams into me again and puts his hand around my neck, hard enough to hurt but not for me to be breathless. "If you gonna cum, I'll see you cum. Gotta see that pretty face with that pretty make up all messed up." He puts his hand on my face and slides it down, messing even more my Harley Quinn makeup.

He, then, slides two fingers into my mouth the deepest he can, fucking my mouth as he fucks my cunt. He starts pounding roughly again, making me scream against him fingers, also gagging a bit.

My eyes starts rolling back with tears, just as my back arching and hips jerking up, feeling myself really close to the edge.

"Look at you. All fucked up like a whore. You really became Harley Quinn, didn't you? That hot bitch. I bet you wanna fuck every guy of the city, don'chu? fuck, puddin'. you're so fucking beautiful." Chris speaks between groans as he pounds into me. i start moaning even louder as i feel myself not being able to hold my orgasm anymore. My cunt clenching around Chris' cock just makes him groan and moan more.

"Cum. Cum f'me, Harley. C'mon, babygirl, cum for daddy~" Chris whispers in my ear. That gives me the final push and i finally cum in his cock. Not a simple orgasm, though. All of this roleplay and dirty talk made me cum hard and squirt all over Chris, which makes him cum inside of me and collapse on top of me.

We both panting hard and shaking. We stay there for a while and then Chris pulls out, laying next to me.

"You did so good f'me, Harl..." He speaks softly, caressing my cheek

"y-you too, puddin'..." i say softly, still panting.

Chris leans and kissed my lips, a long peck. When he pulls away, he looks down at me, admiring me. "Why didn't you tell me this before? This was the best sex I've done in my life..."

i smile softly at him and speak softly, now turning to face him, "I'm sorry for that... if i get another kink, I'll promise to tell ya!"

i hope you liked it! pls comment what you think, I'd appreciate it! :) xoxo

[luvjunie]

i need a miles 42 x plus size reader any plot can work 😭

— headcanons. miles with a plus size reader

a/n: i really really hope i did these justice anon im so sorry if i didn’t! for my plus size lovies 🫶🏽

• He is in loveee with your body. Infatuated with every curve, every roll, every stretch mark. Everything that comes with you. He literally compliments you until you get tired of it, and you know it’s genuine just off how he looks at you.

• Encourages you to wear the clothes that you’ve been too scared to go out in. The ones that have been sitting in your closet for ages because you claim “they’re not for your body type”.

• He thinks that’s absolute bullshit and got mad when you told him that. Not at you, but at the fact that you genuinely believed something like that were true. He never lets you talk badly about yourself.

“Fuck you mean they’re not for your body type?” “That’s bullshit, ma. don’t let me hear that again. You look good in everything.”

• For the first few months of your relationship you refused to sit on his lap. He didn’t press you about it because he didn’t want to make you uncomfortable, but eventually he caught on to what you were doing. And now he doesn’t ask you anymore, he just grabs your arm and pulls you into it.

“Stop it, baby. Don’t get up, I want you here.”

• Has bought a few oversized hoodies specifically so when you go through his closet you can find one that doesn’t just “fit” but is baggy on you, too. He didn’t understand why that was important at first, because you fit his other hoodies just fine, but when he asked, you got a little flustered and told him it was just a girl thing, and that it was stupid so he shouldn’t worry about it. He thought the opposite, though, because if something mattered to you it mattered to him. He went out and bought some the next day.

• Loves to go shopping with you so you have a second opinion in the dressing room. Often times you’re quick to shut down a potential purchase, because for some reason you just don’t see what he does when you look in the mirror.

“Baby, do you like this or does it look weird on me?” “Mhmm, definitely get that one.”

“What about these?” “Lord have mercy I’m bout to—“. “Miles!” “My bad. That was gon’ be a yes, by the way.”

• Will get up and make your plate for you at a family party just in case you’re anxious about doing it yourself or worried about potential looks you might (you won’t) get.

“What you want mama, chicken or pork?” “….” “If you don’t choose I’ll give you both.” “Umm, chicken, please.” “You want rice?” “No, I’m alright.” “Alright, so yes to rice then. You want some pasta, too?” “Miles, I think I have enough on my plate. I don’t wanna take too much…” “Nah, mami. My family not like that. You gotta try everything or they’re gonna try and feed you themselves.”

[purerehua]

im so sorry i could find any kind of a request rules thing anywhere so feel free tk just ignore this if need be but could you write for gunwook where him and reader nearly break up but it has a happy ending💘💘

inlove with a ghost

pairing ⇆ zb1 park gunwook x reader

genre ⇆ angst ; hurt with comfort ; non-idol au ; near breakup

wc ⇆ 1.3k

cw ⇆ i'm not that good at angst read at own risk, cursing, wook is not rlly a good bf oops, but he could be!!

two hours.

two hours have passed since gunwook promised he was on his way, and fifteen more minutes since you've sent three follow up messages asking where he is. you are currently debating washing your face and changing back into sweatpants as it seems like your boyfriend had no intention of showing up.

the initial plan was for gunwook to pick you up at your place around four, you two would walk around, and decide on a place to eat afterward. and this will be the first time you'd see him in person after two long weeks of his busy schedule taking up most of his time.

that is if he even shows up.

you're giving him another five minutes. another five minutes and you swear if he isnt here by then you're changing into sweats and taking a nap.

a minute goes by, another,, another,,, another,,,,

four minutes should've been enough.

in a huff you dejectedly slip off your nice shoes that you happened to clean just for today, the purse that you literally never wear on a normal occasion, and the hairclips you dug through your accessory drawer to find. you throw all three somewhere around the room hapzardly, not wanting to see the evidence of your efforts to look presentable for the date anymore.

ten minutes have passed since then, and true to the internal promise you made to yourself, there you lay. face first on your bed, softly sobbing into the pillow.

a click alerts you and causes you to sit up, and you find gunwook at the entrance to your room holding your shoes, hairclips, and purse.

"y/n?"

silence.

you turn away from him, then a beat passes and you feel the bed dip under his weight and the sheets rustle quietly.

"y/n." he tries again, softer this time. and you can basically hear the apology in the way he says your name.

"don't say sorry gunwook, i know you are." you mumble quietly.

gunwook apparently has nothing to say to that as he doesn't respond, and if you weren't so hurt right now you'd get up to get a look at his face. wanting to see what emotions would plague it. would his eyebrows pinch together? would the corners of his lips tremble downwards ever so slightly?

you sigh as you speak the next words. "i think we should call it."

"...what do you mean? call what?"

"this. our relationship."

you finally situate yourself to face him properly, and you were so spot on with his facial expression you scared yourself with how well you knew him.

"what? y/n i—"

a breath. he takes a breath, to calm himself you'd guess.

"y/n. don't say things like that, okay? i'm so so sorry. i'll make it up to you i swear."

"thirteen."

"what?"

"thirteen times, you've done this."

gunwook finally understands and mutters under his breath, cursing at himself and squeezing his eyes shut before groaning.

"shit, y/n. i didn't know."

"thirteen times i've asked to see you and you were either late or bailed on me. gunwook i'm your partner. i shouldn't need to have to make appointments just to see you!"

"y/n, i'm busy... you know that. it's not that you're not important but i try!"

"i know you're busy! and i know you try. but you can't expect me to be okay with all of this nothing you're giving me."

he's taken aback and it shows. nothing? that can't be true. he might not be the best at prioritizing you but he certainly doesn't give you nothing. right?

you shift due to the bed not being occupied by gunwook anymore, and you watch him stand with his hands on his hips like a father about to scold you. you would laugh if you weren't on the verge of bursting into sobs.

"that's not true. no, i can't— why would you say that? i text you every morning, and i try to keep you updated with what i'm doing and you know. i'm trying here okay? please just..."

you stand, directly placing yourself infront of gunwook and taking his hands.

"gunwook, i love you. you know that but, i can't be in a relationship that stands still."

"y/n stop, don't speak like that."

tears sit at the edge of his eyes, threatening to spill and yours start doing the same.

"i know you have alot of things on your plate, okay? i know how badly you want to keep me and all of those things at the same time, but i know you can't manage it."

you squeeze his hands, and gunwook's bleary and tear-soaked eyes find yours again before you continue to speak.

"this is already affecting the both of us, and i know you don't want to choose so i will do it for you. we need to break up."

"no no no y/n, stop."

his eyes flutter shut again and it's your turn to be taken aback when gunwook starts lowering himself to the ground. you grab his arms, anticipating that he would fall but you're mistaken as his knees hit the wooden floor with a thud and his hands release yours in favor of gripping at the sides of your sweats.

"i can't. 'm sorry but i can not let you go. i'll do better i swear just— let me try again. don't do this to us."

his words come out shakey and stuttered, he loses his breath multiple times inbetween words and the mere idea of him hurting like this makes you hold back gasps of your own as hot tears spill down the curve of your cheeks.

"gunwook..."

you can't, it hurts too much to be with someone who's basically never there. to be inlove with a ghost.

"please." and a tear gathers itself at the corner of his lip.

he's begging, he's placed himself below you physically and emotionally. you can feel his desperation from the grip he has on your sweats. you can't bear to watch it and at the same time you can't look away, unable to shake the conflicting thoughts of what ifs from your head.

"i promise y/n, i promise."

"don't give me empty promises gunwook, you know i hate that."

"they're not empty. i promise, with my whole being i'll be better. just don't leave me."

you continue to stare at him, absentmindedly chewing on your lip anxiously. you were already tired, this was making you even more tired, you just wanted to end things and move on and be done with it and be free from all the feelings you were feeling and—

"y/n."

your thoughts are cut short by a call of your name, and as your eyes come back into focus you realize gunwook has let go of your sweats in order to grab your hand.

he brings your pointer to his lips slowly, and his places a delicate kiss on it, and you melt on the spot. his kisses are so small. if you closed your eyes you could pass it off as breeze passing by, as though he wasn't actually there and it was your mind playing tricks on you. but he was there, with your own two eyes you could see the equal parts of affection and regret he placed on your fingertips. it hurt so bad but you needed it, you needed this. for him to be there, infront of you, loving you.

you could give him another chance as long as he loved you like this again.

"okay."

"okay?" gunwook squeezes your hand, which lingers just by his chin he lowers it from his lips.

"i'll stay. but we have to talk about this, properly. okay?"

he stands up, startled but hopeful.

"yes, of course. i'm sorry y/n."

"i know."

his lips quirk sadly at that, but atleast he knows this isn't the end for you.

atleast he knows that he's still yours, and he'll strive hard to keep it that way.

a/n ⇆ this is long overdue i'm afraid :( just been having no motivation also school likes to keep me busy so. anyway here!! i don't know if i'll be posting consistently again but i'll do my best... just like gunwook!!

[upsidedownmvnson]

crash landed

A/N: i want to branch out on this blog and write for other fandoms too, so im dipping my toes in my baby poe dameron's pool

summary: you and poe are stranded on an unknown planet after a dicy shootout. and your injuries are getting worse by the minute.

warnings: probably inaccurate star wars stuff, graphic descriptions of injuries (maybe), broken bones,

"poe?" you whispered, shaky voice barely cutting through the loud wind noises rattling the loose metal of a broken starfighter.

he grunts, barely looking away from the twisted metal he's trying to bend back in shape with pure will. it's been hours, and with no working comms, and no working beacon.. it was time to start considering alternate escape routes.

"ugh - if it would just-" he grunts again, pounding his fist once against it, the sound lost beneath the other crashing titanium pieces.

"poe..." you said, again, holding onto your shoulder. it was starting to really hurt, and you could barely move your arm, you were sure it was broken, and with the adrenaline of a crash landing fading, it was really starting to be a problem.

he looked at you, lips tight and tense, none of the usual spark in his eyes. his mouth softens into a light frown when he sees you cradling your injury.

"if we don't leave soon i dont know how far i'll be able to go," you say, raising your voice to be heard over the weather.

"we don't even know where we are!" he shouts back, frustrated and angry.

"i know but..."

"how am i supposed to get you out of this!?"

but he softens even more when your lip quivers, and he knows he's being cold - but look at what he's done. he's hurt you. he's gotten you lost on some outskirt planet with no way out, and no medical supplies. he's just proven about himself what he always feared might be true ... he can't protect you.

"I'm sorry!" he shouts, he looks around, and harshly scratches his thumb on his temple. "you're right! we have to move."

"take the comlink! i'll try to fix it when we get ..." you squint, "somewhere."

he grabs it, although he doesn't believe you can fix it. it doesn't even look like scrap metal anymore. totally crushed during the crash landing. if he had just jumped instead of trying to outmaneuver, this wouldn't have happened. he could have gotten you to safety but he was so sure that they wouldn't see his flip coming, but they did... and managed to target the gun you'd been using at the back of the ship, causing a small explosion and sending you against the side of the ship and then when you weren't answering he...

he lost all control and crashed the ship. he was the best pilot the resistance had, and he crashed with the most precious thing in his life depending on him. he was a failure.

when he climbs back down from the trashed fighter, he puts his hand on the small of your back and guides you forward. you were disappointed when he let you go. usually, he'd find any excuse to keep his hands on you, but now he dropped his touch as soon as you'd started walking with him.

you walked quietly, holding the ripped fabric on the shoulder of your suit closed with your good arm and kept the other as snug to your chest as you could. you felt like you were trying to hold yourself together.

you knew this was your fault. if you had just made the shot... you guys wouldn't be in this mess. and the man you were in love with - and arguably the most important pilot in the resistance - wouldn't be stranded in this nowhere place. and you wouldn't be a limping burden. you try your best to hide it. to walk normally and disguise your wincing.

"i'm sorry," you say finally, unable to stand one more moment of uncomfortable silence. you'd never struggled to talk to poe before, normally you can't get him to shut up. "I should've been able to hit the fuel tank, i knew where it was and i missed the-"

"this wasn't your fault," he cut you off, eyebrows scrunched in confusion. "none of this is your fault, it's mine."

you could barely hear him, and you were about you respond when both of you were taken by complete surprise as you yelped, your ankle giving way under you with a sickening crunch. poe heard it over the wind, and caught you before you could completely hit the ground.

you cried, trying to say something about the pain but all that came out were a few strangled syllables.

"hey, hey, hey, it's okay! i've got you!" but he's panicking. he can't support you with your arm in that condition, and he can't get you up because of the leg. he's sick. he can't breathe thinking of what's he caused. he picks you up, cradling you as close to his chest as he can as he frantically looks around for anything, anything.

a cave in the face of a rockside is all he can see, and he escapes to it's safety, at least able to get you out of the wind for a minute while he thinks. he sets you down as gently as he can, his heart shattering with each deep sob you release.

he looks around, as if help will just appear in the cave. and he stands up, watching you curl into yourself.

"poe, i'm so sorry." you sob, not noticing his confused expression as you hide your face in your arm, words coming out choked and pathetic you say, "look at what i've done."

"you can't -" he pauses, "you didn't do anything wrong, this mess is my fault."

he wants to stop and comfort you, but he doesn't have time. he has to save you, he has to save. you. he's freaking out. he's failed you, the mission, leia, all because he assumed he was better than some first order pilot.

"i have to find you some help," he says, crouching down close to you and moving some hair out of your face. the blotchy, red cheeks, and swollen eyes that hold nothing but pain behind them, made an unexpected tear fall from poe's eye, but he catches it on the back of his hand before you can see. "why can't wait these injuries out, okay?" you nod sullenly, unable to force out anymore words. "do you have your blaster? hm? can you look at me?" he asks, and you do. "i'm going to run okay? i'm going to find you some help."

poe runs for an hour, but aside from the weather finally yielding, he finds nothing. he nearly gets lost on his way back, but finds you sitting up against the hard rock wall, blaster disassembled around you, as you fiddle with the small broken comlink.

"you're sitting."

"i'm totally numb," you whisper, and you're both quiet. you both know that's not a good thing. "i don't know if it worked... but i tried to send out a signal. the transmitter looked functional enough, but the mic was broken beyond... I..." you trail off. "i hope they find you."

"us," he corrects harsher than he means to. "they're going to find us."

you smile. "you should go."

"what????"

"you can come back for me later but -"

"-no-"

"-we shouldn't both rot in this-"

"-stop saying this crap, seriously-"

"hellhole, and you're too important to lose and-"

"stop!" he shouts, crouching down to look in your eye, passion and frustration covered his face, "you're too important, don't you get that!? don't you get anything? i can't lose you too." poe's resolve falls faster than it rose, and he's sobbing before you've even really processed what he's said. "i won't survive it. if i lose you. i won't survive."

"poe?"

"i love you, you idiot."

but then you passed out. and poe is screaming your name, tapping gentle slaps on your cheek to wake you, but it's not working. he's worried you hit your head.

"what do i do!?" he's looking around, but there's nothing. he knows there's nothing. "what do i do!?"

but he hears something outside that sounds like yelling. and he doesn't care if its first order, pirates, or whatever, he doesn't care. he'd surrender himself to save you. he's only got a half broke blaster, but he's got the spark he needs to save you.

he hides behind a tree when he sees figures, waiting to ambush the first person and steal their weapon, but when he grabs them, it's finn looking out of breath and terrified.

"poe! maker, we couldn't-"

"come on!" poe shouts, ignoring his friend, letting go of the fistful of shirt he had, and taking off full tilt back to where you were. finn was hot on his trail, silent. while chewie ran not far behind, roaring in worry. no one liked the crazed look in poe's eye, especially when they knew it was bad sign you weren't with him.

when they're back to you, poe first checks your pulse, his own nearly stopping with anxiety. but however shallow, it was there, you were still there.

poe scoops you up, holds you close to his chest for a second, whispering a secret plea for you to stay with him, and let chewie take you in his arms, begging him in broken words to be gentle with you.

and then poe just sobbed as they rushed back to the ship.

you didn't wake up for a full month. poe ran defensive missions, or short trips. but he couldn't stay focused long enough for anything longer.

when he returns from a simple fetch & return for leia, he's greeted by rey and rose waiting in the hanger, chatting excitedly. at first poe is annoyed, as he takes his helmet off and shakes his hair out. how could your friends find a way to stand around and chat and smile... but when they look at him with wide grins, he hesitates to feel hope. they've said nothing but his heart is racing. he thinks it may beat clear out of his chest,

"someone wants to see you," rose singsongs, laughing as poe throws his helmet on the floor and takes off down the hallway, following his usual path straight from the hanger to the medbay.

he stops in the doorway, panting as he takes in the sight of you smiling with finn, who was sitting on the chair closest to you. he gets up when he sees poe, says goodbye, and leaves, patting his friend on the shoulder as he passes.

"you're awake," he says, taking finn's seat, and scooching it even closer to you. he gathers up your hand in both of his, and leans forward to press his forehead against the back of your hand. "please, forgive me."

"forgive you? for what?"

he scoffs, leaning back but maintaining a secure grip on your hands. "well, for nearly killing you, mostly."

"poe, i missed the shot. i had the shot and i missed it, it's my fault."

"no," he says, sternly, in a commanding voice you don't even recognize, and you listen, watching him with kind eyes. he could live in them, melt into them, stay there forever. "you saved us. you made a beacon out of a gun and a broken comlink. you're a genius, you're... you're so..." he grunts in frustration when the words get lost. "i almost lost you..." he whispers, kissing the back of your hand. he leans his forehead back onto your hand, whispering again and again how sorry he was. 

you smiled sadly at him. he looked thin, had bags under his eyes. you doubted he has been sleeping, finn said he'd spent every night by your side, curled up uncomfortably on the metal chair.

"nah," you chuckle, "i always was gunna come back to you."

"and how do you know that, hm?"

you grin, winking, "because i love you, you idiot."

[weirdly-specific-but-ok]

Hi, 👋 I’m currently in a writer’s block but also trying to note down some writing exercises to get me into the groove again. Do you have any exercise tips for writers?

PS: I just heard a cover of My Immortal (original song by Evanescence) and immediately thought of Good Omens. My brain is also connecting every song with Good Omens. Help!😅

Anyways, I hope you have a fantastic day/night whenever you’ll answer this!😊

HELLO ANON MAGGOT HELLO IT'S THE NIGHT AND I'M ON BLACK COFFEE AND YOU HAVE PICKED THE RIGHT PERSON TO ASK I'VE BEEN INHALING BOOKS ON WRITING FOR ALMOST AS LONG AS I'VE ACTUALLY BEEN WRITING.

OKAY NOW LISTEN YOUR LIL EARS UP. I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU SOME EXERCISES, AND THEN I'M GOING TO GIVE YOU ADVICE FOR WRITER'S BLOCK. GOT IT? KAY LET'S GO WRITERS.

FIRST, WRITING EXERCISES.

NOTICING. NOTICING, NOTICING, NOTICING. LOOK AROUND YOU AT THE THINGS YOU SEE, THE PEOPLE YOU KNOW, THE TEXTURES YOU FEEL, THE SOUNDS YOU HEAR, EVERYTHING. AND THEN WRITE THEM DOWN. JUST KEEP DESCRIBING. YOUR BRAIN MAY NOT BE ABLE TO COME UP WITH FRESH MATERIAL RIGHT NOW, BUT IT CAN DESCRIBE THINGS. A BONUS, THIS WILL REALLY HELP THE QUALITY OF YOUR DESCRIPTIONS, SINCE YOU'LL BE ABLE TO PICK INTERESTING DETAILS AND KNOW WHAT TO LEAVE OUT.

STREAM OF CONSCIOUSNESS WRITING. THIS MAY BE A BIT HARDER, BUT JUST START WRITING ABOUT WHATEVER COMES TO YOUR HEADS. ANY THOUGHTS, PUT IT DOWN. DON'T BOTHER ABOUT THINGS LIKE PUNCTUATION OR GRAMMAR OR SENSE. JUST KEEP WRITING WHATEVER ARRIVES. IF THIS GETS HARD, YOU CAN MAYBE FIND A PROMPTING WORD TO GET YOU GOING. A BONUS, THIS WILL TRAIN YOUR WRITING TO BE MORE SPONTANEOUS AND NATURAL RATHER THAN ARTIFICIAL OR MANUFACTURED.

WRITE WITH A PURPOSE. PICK ANY INCIDENT FROM YOUR LIFE, SOMEONE ELSE'S, ANY INCIDENT WILL DO AS LONG AS YOU HAVE ENOUGH DETAILS OR CAN COME UP WITH THEM. NOW WRITE THAT INCIDENT DOWN THE WAY YOU WOULD DESCRIBE A SCENE IN A BOOK, BUT WITH A CATCH: FIRST THINK ABOUT WHAT YOU'RE TRYING TO CONVEY. FOR EXAMPLE, IF THE SCENE IS JUST YOU BURNING BREAKFAST WAFFLES, COME UP WITH DIFFERENT PURPOSES. FIRST WRITE IT WITH THE PURPOSE OF CONVEYING YOUR CLUMSINESS TO THE READER. THEN REWRITE IT WITH THE PURPOSE OF DEFENDING YOURSELF AND BLAMING THE FAULTY STOVE. THEN REWRITE IT WITH THE PURPOSE OF CREATING A SENSE OF FEAR AND AN ATMOSPHERE OF HORROR. THEN REWRITE IT AS A COMEDY. A BONUS, THIS HELPS YOU FOCUS YOUR SCENES AND KNOW WHAT DETAILS TO GIVE ABOUT AN EVENT TO SERVE THE SCENE'S PURPOSE IN THE STORY.

OKAY I'VE GONE ON A LOT IDK MAYBE Y'ALL WANT ME TO SHARE MORE WRITING EXERCISES? SOME I'VE LEARNED AND SOME I COME UP WITH IT'S ALL WILD. IDK LET ME KNOW IF THAT'S SOMETHING YOU WANT. I NEVER SHUT UP ABOUT WRITING ONCE I START.

AS FOR YOUR WRITER'S BLOCK:

LEARN MORE. ROBERT MCKEE SAID IN HIS STORY THAT WRITER'S BLOCK IS MORE A LACK OF INFORMATION ABOUT YOUR STORY AND YOUR WORLD. DO MORE RESEARCH ABOUT YOUR WORLD, CHARACTERS, STORYLINE, ETC. TAKE THIS WITH A PINCH OF SALT I DON'T WANT YOU TO GO DOWN A RABBITHOLE OF RESEARCH AND NOT WRITE.

REVIST THE STORY AND PREMISE. ASK YOURSELF WHY YOU HAVE WRITER'S BLOCK. COULD IT BE BECAUSE THE STORY NO LONGER AFFECTS YOU AS DEEPLY OR IT ISN'T AS IMPORTANT TO YOU ANYMORE? ARE THERE THINGS YOU NEED TO TWEAK SO WRITING IT IS SOMETHING YOU CARE MORE ABOUT? THIS ISN'T ALWAYS THE CASE BUT STILL. IF YOU DON'T CARE ABOUT YOUR STORY IT'S UNREASONABLE TO EXPECT ANYONE ELSE TO.

WRITE SCENES OUT OF ORDER. OKAY, THIS IS HOW I FINISHED THE FIRST DRAFT OF MY DEBUT NOVEL. I JUST WROTE WHATEVER SCENE I FELT LIKE WRITING AT THE TIME. DURING THE SECOND DRAFT I REWROTE THE ENTIRE THING IN ORDER. BUT THIS WAY I KNEW I CARED ABOUT THE SCENE I WAS WRITING AND IT WAS AUTHENTIC. JUST SOMETHING THAT MIGHT HELP.

THERE ARE MORE BUT IG THIS POST IS GETTING LONG I HOPE THIS HELPED ANON MAGGOT GOOD LUCK WITH YOUR WRITING!!!!!!! IM SORRY THIS IS IN CAPS LOCK IT COULDN'T BE HELPED. HAVE A LOVELY DAY AND MAY YOU WRITE MANY WORDS.

PS: ALSO MY IMMORTAL JUST REMINDS ME OF @patoslover'S CURSED MY IMMORTAL X GOOD OMENS FIC NOW HELP

[ackermanbitch]

Teenage Dirtbag (Peter Parker x Fem!Reader) Part 6.5?

a/n: so this is honestly just filler (which is why it's so SHORT) before the part of the fic that takes place during the beginning of homecoming. i dont see the point in writing for the rest of civil war when realistically this is as far as reader would be involved. also not using (y/n) bc i dont like it anymore :D

warnings: arguing?? but it's kind of funny, reader being very much tony's daughter and repressing very real and important emotions

pt1, pt2, pt3, pt4, pt5

word count: 730 (augh its so short im sorry, next chapter will be the normal length dw )

"Ross wants you in juvie, and honestly, I can't totally blame him! You were assisting war criminals. War. Criminals."

The teen groaned, pinching the bridge of her nose and trying to lean as far away from the boy sitting next to her, wondering why the hell he chose to sit right there when there was an entire private plane for him to roam. "Why didn't you have this conversation with me before I left?" She whispered angrily, adjusting the phone in her hand to speak directly into the microphone.

Regardless of where Peter sat, he would've heard Tony's yapping through the phone in response to being interrupted during a lecture.

"Oh I'm sorry my scolding doesn't line up with your schedule young lady, but this is the only time I could fit in to talk to you, what between all the meetings I'm having in an attempt to keep you out of jail!"

"Can't you, I don't know- tell them I happened to be going for a-... a nice stroll? Walked into the crossfire by mis-" She stumbled over her words, eyes darting to Peter who snorted at her idea before she even finished. He quickly cleared his throat, head turning away so quickly she thought he might've pulled something.

Tony brought his palm up to his forehead, some measly attempt to soothe his growing migraine, "This is not a joke, we're talking about you potentially doing prison time-"

"I've hardly done anything deserving a real charge Dad, they just think I'm going to do something and I obviously won't, seeing as my team of 'war criminals' are in fucking Alcatraz-"

"One, you need to watch your damn language and two, you think I don't know that? Of course I think these allegations are a load of bullshit, it doesn't make it any easier to shut them down." Tony sighed, checking the time on his phone before bringing it back to his ear. "Listen, I have to go, call me when you land and don't let Happy fall asleep. Can't have you two teenagers unsupervised on my private plane."

She glanced at Happy's snoring figure on the other side of the jet, "Yeah, sure, he's wide awake. Love you, bye." She deadpanned, hanging up before Tony could finish reciprocating the sentiment.

She may have forced a mask of indifference, even carelessness, when faced with the consequences but behind all that, her brain felt like a fucking circus. A circus with multiple tornado sirens going off, fires and mass hysteria. Oh, and every clown wore her face. Her stupid, 'rebel against dad' at any chance, war criminal assisting face. She'd rather end up in prison than have to face her dad again. What if he never forgives her for this, what if he never moves on, what if this isn't like every other time she's done something stupid, this could change the course of her li-

"You're not.. actually gonna go to jail, right?" Peter interrupted her raging thoughts, giving her quite the worried stare.

She sighed, fiddling with her phone, "No, he would never let that happen. Not with his troupe of lawyers. I'll get let off with a 'hefty warning'," She emphasized with air quotes, "AKA forty torturous minutes of Cap telling me how I need to make better choices. Though he's stuck in the clink right now so I don't know."

She tried to hide the slight shake to her voice, how it sounded more like she was convincing herself rather than explaining it like it was the most obvious thing in the world.

"Don't tell Mr. Stark I said this but uh- Y'know, he's Captain America, he'll probably break out of there in no time."

She slowly turned her head to look at him, slowly letting a smile break out across her face. "Yeah, maybe. He's pretty crazy. Suuuch a rebellious guy, very anti-government."

Peter shrugged with a hopeful smile, "I don't know, this whole thing started over him not wanting to sign a peace treaty, that seems extremely anti-government."

"I guess you're right Parker, as always." She grinned, ignoring his flushed cheeks at her compliment and letting her eyes drift to Happy.

"You got a marker?"

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taglist: @preciousbabypeter @lily-sinclair-2006 @b-barnes04 @ink-stained-eyes

[missjanjie]

100 Prompts #4

im so obsessed with seeing my other hundred prompt list being used so much, seeing what different people do with the same sentences is so cool! so, here’s another one! please send me a number + ship (au/trope where applicable)

“There is something profoundly wrong with you. I like it.” 

“It’s okay to be wrong sometimes.”

“Pretty sure that’s illegal.”

“A candlelit dinner? Okay, what did you do?”

“Don’t fucking start with me.”

“Well, I’m pretty sure I’m not dying, at least.” 

“I chose you. I’ll always choose you.”

“That kid is too cute to be yours.”

“What the hell happened here?”

“It doesn’t have to be like this.”

“I don’t need to be saved.”

“Just shut up and listen.”

“It’s nice to feel wanted for once.”

“I could be perfect for you.” 

“You have to stop working so hard.”

“I’m on the verge of breaking down!” 

“Only you could make me swoon at something so corny.”

“I just wanna sleep.” 

“Can you ever forgive me?”

“Things are gonna get better, I promise.”

“You’re such a lightweight, it’s adorable.”

“This thing has been following me everywhere.”

“That can’t be healthy.”

“Where am I? Why are we naked?” 

“I made this for you.” 

“Oh my god, I’ve been so stupid.”

“That shouldn’t be arousing, and yet…”

“You didn’t really think I’d forget, did you?”

“Please don’t leave.”

“I can’t believe you actually did that.”

“Oh, you’re drunk drunk.”

“I wasn’t staring at your ass! I mean… I was, but I was trying to be subtle.”

“You don’t know me as well as you think you do.”

“At least you’re pretty.”

“When did that happen?”

“You sure know how to keep me on my toes.”

“There’s something I should’ve told you.”

“You’re too good to be in a place like this.”

“I don’t know who I am anymore.”

“That face won’t work on me, babe.” 

“You did all of this for me?” 

“I’m not saying making out would help, but it couldn’t hurt.” 

“You are exhausting sometimes.” 

“You little brat.”

“I want to be there so you don’t have to be brave.”

“What’s in it for me?”

“I am giving you one chance to explain yourself.”

“Wow, I’ve never been anywhere so fancy.”

“C’mon, live a little.”

“I have to go.”

“I can’t look at you, it’s like staring into the sun.”

“Don’t touch me!”

“Pack a bag, let’s get out of here.”

“I don’t belong here.”

“Sorry, I think I’m lost.”

“I’m in love with you.”

“Damn, when did you get hot?”

“I miss what we used to be.”

“You don’t have to say you love me.”

“I didn’t know where else to go.”

“No one's gonna hurt you while I’m around.”

“You’re a mess, come inside.”

“I thought I knew what falling in love felt like before I met you.”

“It’s all coming back to me now.”

“I just… I couldn’t do it.” 

“Listen, I love Britney Spears as much as the next person, but we have to put a curfew on your singing along.” 

“I don’t have anything figured out.” 

“Take a chance on me.” 

“How long have you been there?”

“I think I’m finally ready for love.” 

“Maybe in another life, we would’ve been perfect together.”

“I can’t explain all the things you make me feel.”

“You look familiar.”

“I hate how lonely I’ve become.”

“Come a little closer, baby.” 

“I’ll wait for you, I always do.”

“There is a completely normal explanation for this, I swear.” 

“It’s too early for this shit.” 

“I don’t wanna talk.” 

“You’re the most important thing in my life.” 

“What are you staring at?”

“By the way, you were my first.”

“You knew I loved you.”

“I realized I was trying to make my life into a movie, but the story continues after the happy ending.” 

“So all of this meant nothing to you?” 

“I plead the fifth.”

“You have no idea how badly I need you.” 

“I didn’t think it would get this bad.” 

“Hey. Turn around.” 

“Um, sorry about your friend.”

“Can I make it up to you?”

“This just doesn’t feel right.”

“I just want a fairytale ending after everything I’ve been through.” 

“Take care of yourself.”

“Could you relax for like, five minutes? For once?” 

“I… wow, you look incredible.” 

“Let’s go back to my place.” 

“I’m not high enough for this.” 

“Why do you hate me?” 

“Fuck this, I’m out.”

[yanderespamton78]

INTRO POST :O

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(important bits are highlighted if you dont wanna read all of it)

hi!! I go by Charlie or Stick online and I use she/it/he (in order of preference but you can use either :> pls dont use they.) I am a MINOR‼️‼️‼️ but I dont really mind people over the age of 18 interacting with me just keep that in mind lol (im not gonna specify my actual age)

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Sweet Tooth

The Amazing Digital Circus

Portal (GlaDOS (wifey/j))

Smiling friends

A Good Girls Guide To Murder (THE BOOKS NOT THE SERIES BECAUSE THE SERIES IS FUCKING SHIT)

Sherlock & Co

Bive. Not Regretevator idk anything about regretevator. just Bive. my beloved babygirl

DDLC

^^ disclaimer i rarely post about most of the things on there its usually a general/undertale deltarune blog with the occasional other fandom post the list is just all the things you can ask me about and i wont shut up

I dont really mind people venting to me, but keep in mind i am just a little lad and also I'm really bad at sympathising with people so theres a good chance that my responses will end up being too informational or if they arent itll take me a while.

sorry if i ever come off as rude, sometimes i kinda take jokes too far. if i ever make you upset or uncomfortable just lmk and ill stop what im doing. i NEVER want to upset people

ok well i think thats it, bye!!

[likesunsetorange]

I’m a e2l fan so I want anything you could give us about it like characters likes /dislikes ? Small snippet (sorry Im so excited for this fic I’m asking for alot :,(no pressure though <3)

love you hope you’re doing good

hiii! you're so sweet, ily2! i'm mostly good! a little stressed bc school but i'm keeping it pushing haha

and you're not asking for a lot!! i've actually been talking a lot about this au with a few of my moots lately so i've been itching to share about it so honestly go crazy with asking about it!!! since i haven't gotten as many asks about this au i guess i'll make this ask kind of long and just kind of dump some of the stuff from my notes into it? and i have a tiny snippet i can share too!

so i'll just go on a long ass tangent below lol

okay, so first thing about this au, the one thing i really want to emphasize (without spoiling) is the whole thing about this au is that their breakup reason is important, but also that nobody in particular is at fault. sometimes life just happens, and things happen, and sometimes you just need to take a step back and re-evaluate yourself, your goals, and what you really want! it's about coming back together and choosing that person in the end because you realize not being with them is worse than whatever drove y'all apart!

tbh a lot of this au is partially inspired by my own breakup & how the experience of me getting over it! i was in my early 20s for the first time being single after being in a relationship since i was a teenager and i was like woah wtf idk how to be single/without a partner. so that's a big focus of that! learning how to find yourself and realign your goals and all that!

but we can get into the characters now!

eren:

definitely is a bit more obvious about missing mikasa, but tries to act like he doesnt (he has her highlight still up lol, not doing a good job at it)

mostly just works a lot while they're not together

after they breakup, mikasa moves out of their apartment, so he's stuck seeing all their stuff all the time

the first time they see each other its messy, they get into a big fight lol, they aren't allowed to hang out together lol

but he realizes pretty fast that he regrets the breakup, but he sees that mikasa seems to be doing okay, so he wouldn't wanna intrude on that

he gets armin in the breakup basically (mostly bc he sees armin more, but armin still talks to mikasa, just not as much as he does to eren obvi)

he picks up some of mikasa's hobbies bc he misses her so much lol he's down horrendous

at the very least does miss mikasa at least as a friend

mikasa

after their breakup, because she's kind of trying to spite eren, she starts going out a lot to cope—her "hot girl era" essentially lol

she definitely starts prioritizing herself a lot more, and spends more time with her friends and figuring out what she wants outside of eren

but she definitely misses eren, she's just better at hiding it lol

she partially thinks he just doesn't want anything to do with her anymore (a lot of this is just them being fucking idiots lol), and she basically doesn't try to stalk him or see what he's up to bc she doesn't wanna know out of her own peace of mind

she has very bad flight anxiety so when they fly to italy, she lowkey kind of hopes that eren doesn't change his flight (he does bc he has to do something not even to be petty), and she has a very terrible flight experience and all she wishes is that eren were there

and here's a little snippet! this takes place the day after they break up!! sorry for rambling LOl but hope you enjoyed my little tangent! :)

“Damn, Mikasa,” Gabi called out from behind her, only causing Mikasa to turn around. “We didn’t know you went out on weeknights.” 

Gabi, one of the college freshmen who worked at the gallery, had a tendency to say whatever was on her mind, never bothering to filter herself. Even if Mikasa had grown rather close to her since she started working at the gallery in August, sometimes she wished Gabi would just shut up.

Mikasa scoffed, confused as to what even prompted her to say that. “What are you talking about, Gabi? And don’t cuss so loud, especially where guests can hear you.”

“Your eyes, they’re all red. Not to mention how bad your bags are,” she said, pointing to her eyes. “Seems like someone was a victim of Sunday Funday.”

Mikasa lifted a finger to touch her eye—still puffy, but from tears, rather than drinking.

“Gabi, you’re not supposed to say stuff like that—it’s rude,” Falco chimed in.

“Hey, it’s not my fault she can’t handle her alcohol,” she shrugged, turning back toward Mikasa. “It’s okay, Mikasa, the prettiest girls are always the biggest lightweights. But anyway, are you feeling okay? Does our favorite party girl need some Tylenol? A Liquid IV, maybe? Even a Gatorade?”

Was she supposed to answer honestly? Tell them that she had spent the entirety of her night crying because she and her boyfriend had broken up. That she was sure that the cops almost got called by their neighbors from how loud they were yelling at one another? That Sasha couldn’t even understand her when she called, telling her she needed somewhere to stay because she stormed out of their apartment, not even giving Eren the chance to finish his sentence, somewhere after one of them had uttered the words, “We shouldn’t be together anymore?”

She had been doing so well, pushing the thoughts to the back of her head, trying to get through the entirety of her shift without thinking about everything—about him. She only had an hour left in her shift, but all of her efforts had been to no avail.

It was as if the wind had been knocked out of her, she suddenly lost the ability to breathe, and she felt all the blood drain from her face.

We aren’t together. We aren’t together. We aren’t together. The words playing in her mind on loop.

“Hey, Mikasa. Are you okay?” Falco asked, his eyes flooding with concern as he looked over Mikasa’s current state.

“I think I’m gonna be sick,” she said quickly, before running off to the bathroom.

But maybe just this once, Mikasa was lucky for Gabi’s inability to shut her mouth—at least being hungover was a good enough cover for sobbing her eyes out in the bathroom.

[furiousgoldfish]

I found your blog last year and I have been reflecting a lot on your posts, when it comes to my own memories.

it was last year that triggered me to remember some things that I'd disassociated completely on purpose. and even accepting those led to a landslide of remembering many more other incidents. I live with my parents and I can usually convince myself that we are fine as a family.

but I'm not able to do that anymore. I keep thinking and remembering and questioning all of their behavior. but they don't really do that anymore. my mother still yells at me occasionally but my brother doesn't hit me and my father doesn't yell at me or taunt me like he did when I was a kid. my brain often tells me that I shouldn't get so sensitive over the past but what im feeling is simply horrible and doesn't go away. does it still count? even if we have a better relationship now?

It counts, yeah. These are all things that happened, and they have affected you permanently. You'll never be able to have a family that didn't hurt you in the past, in fact, they still do hurt you, just to a lesser extent. You're having to actively dissociate from certain memories just to be able to still live with these people. You learn from the past, the experiences they've put you thru have taught you that they're not safe, that you can't relax, that you have to always be careful and monitor what they do to you, that you always have to be ready to absorb more abuse.

Usually families stop the worst types of abuse when the child is a bit older and capable of telling, capable of reporting it, recognizing it, memorizing it, and holding them accountable. It's not because these people 'changed' or 'want a better relationship', they realize now that some acts of abuse would have consequences for them, so they only do the ones they can get away with – that being yelling and more subtle type of abuse that you can't so easily recognize and prove.

That feeling you have is correct, these people did hurt you, and are expecting you to just be okay with it and forget it, and the pressure is so big, that you're here wondering if even thinking about it makes you 'too sensitive', even though it was so bad you actively had to suppress memories of it in order to keep living with those people.

It's fairly common to have this type of situation, where day-to-day, you can convince yourself it's all normal, but inside you're festering with painful and traumatic memories, and these go neglected, unacknowledged, and you're supposed to be okay with the fact that nobody cares about what they put you thru, they only want you to shut up about it and act like it didn't happen. They're supposed to care what your experience of childhood was. They're supposed to provide you with love, safety, connection, care and happiness. Not only they failed, but they put you in a state where you have to watch your own reactions and your own feelings, not to show how badly they traumatized you, and you're forced to blame yourself and find things on yourself that you can blame (likely it's them who suggested you were 'too sensitive' in the first place.

I'm so sorry anon, I know this must be hard. It's ultimately up to you how far you want to think on this, and if you want or can do anything about it. It's okay to just forget it until you're ready to deal with it, we often need to do this in order to function. Maybe you didn't want an answer that would make things more chaotic and painful for you right now, and if that's the case, please disregard it. Only know that you are not too sensitive, that your experience matters, and that feeling the way you do is normal considering the situation. Your feelings are important too, and you're right to say them and to want to talk about it. I can't promise that the horrible feeling will go away, but one day you will be able to figure out why it's there, and how to deal with it.

[secretly-tword-obsessed]

omg okay so when i saw that you write for big mouth and human resources i about lost my shit. so im a huge jatthew fan and id really like a lee jay drabble where matthew gives jay cheer up tkls bcuz he's sad about his family OR lee pete the logic rock headcanons.

ofc you can chose not to but yk💓 ill write them if you wont 😩

Hey! Sorry I'm so late to this - if you like it I'll keep making these in quicker time.

Again, so sorry it took so long, I have periods where I do and don't have time for this witting because of school, but I'm free for the next few weeks (yay!)

Sooo I think I'll do Pete HC's, especially because he interacts with Caleb so much in this new season, meaning I can weave him in there somewhere.

Pete is made of rock, so him being ticklish is like, impossible

(bows, leaves)

Hah! Oh so you thought! (re-enters)

So even though he's so rough and strong we all know that he's a softie. We also know that he's muscly, and that muscles make you more ticklish.

Rochelle found out that he was ticklish actually before they were dating by seeing him get tickled by Emmy before hours. Ofc when Pete saw Rochelle he was visibly embarassed and was pathetically trying to sound like a strong guy and said that he was faking laughing for Emmy's satisfaction to shut her up.

"Come on, surely there is an ounce of logic in your love bug brain. You know that I couldn't possibly be ticklish, I'm a rock and i can't even feel temperature. What was I supposed to do when Emmy started annoying me?"

Rochelle smirked - "well, ok, if that's the case than I still don't think Emmy is satisfied, so maybe you should 'fake' some more"

So yeah whenever someone asks if Pete's ticklish or doubts it when he says he isn't he always brings up logic to conclude that he couldn't possibly be ticklish

This also happened with Connie once because yk she's so randomly curious about the weirdest shit so she walks up to him one day and goes - "so, you know how your made of rock right? Does that mean you can't be ticklish?" And his heart STOPPED for a moment.

Also it has happened with Caleb ofc. Once Pete and Maury were in a meeting to create a list of notes on what touches would be acceptable for a potential partner, and they both wondered weather tickling would be ok so they asked Caleb in person. He said that it would be fine but first asked Pete if he would be ok with it. Ofc Pete pulled off his whole "i'm a rock so your question makes no sense" thing and ofc Caleb didn't fall for it and told him that, very many times, he had observed Pete getting itchy, which means that he was just as likely to be ticklish and even more so because he was sensitive. Maury smirked at Pete and Pete felt like throwing Caleb out the window (but never ACTUALLY considered it because he never would - he's a nonviolent rock).

Oh wait I haven't gotten to him ACTUALLY being tickled yet much so he is sometimes tickled by Emmy when she is pressuring him to say something (Emmy can always tell when there is something up).

ALSO I think Caleb tickled him once but on accident. Like he was poking and prodding Pete because he likes the texture of rocks and Pete just clenched his teeth and took it. Until he couldn't take it anymore and started giggling, squirming out of Caleb's grip with a "stawwp ittt" (fic idea?!)

Now, for the most important thing, spots...

Belly - 8/10. Lots of giggles

Neck - Not much

Sides - Bro will SCREAM, especially on the sides of his belly. 10/10

Underarms - pretty bad, some light chuckling. 4/10

That's all I can think of rn, thankyou for reading! Until next time gigglers (:

[hotsugarbyglassanimals]

this is untagged sorry

The hardest thing for me to grapple with post emotional abuse is coming to terms with how much of it was likely done on purpose, the fact that it WAS actually abuse, and how much it is affecting me years later cause ive never properly addressed it w/ real guidance.

I dont even know how to explain that it’s not even just a matter of like. oh i’m mad/sad this person treated me like shit it’s more like the way I was treated seeps into how I interact with people to this day! but if I like . talk about it i may have to deal w/ assholes who think i couldn’t get over a high school ex or something. god forbid they live through someone completely eroding their sense of self. I can’t even explain how that feels, but it made me suicidal. It felt like I’d only stop feeling like I belonged to her (not with her, TO her) if I were dead. (thankfully it went away). it’s not even about Her as a modern day person, but the construct of her that exists in the past. I never have nightmares where she looks how she actually looks nowadays, it’s only ever how she looked as a teen. When I get triggered because there’s someone who looks like her, it’s the same way. It’s the past version of her that haunts me.

Not to mention how warped my view of sexuality got. I became too eager to sexually please people, im lucky that im in a healthy relationship where im not exploited anymore. I started off associating affection heavily with performing sexual acts… My body doesn’t react to stimulus that used to turn me on. I have a time limit during sex until I’m just not able to continue, regardless of what happened. Idk if it was dysphoria before top surgery but anything involving my chest would make me tear up because of what she did to me. I bend down and pick things up in such a specific way because of how she used to see me as a sex object. She didn’t respect my dysphoria. She touched my chest through my binder or would stick her hands under it, because her pleasure was more important than my comfort.

I put up such a facade of stoicism and strength after breaking up with her because any hint of vulnerability with her had me treated as an inconvenience. I was such a confident and self assured person before I dated her, a defense mechanism for how much I was outcasted by others sure, but I didn’t let people try to get me down. But I slowly let her sand the edges off of me because I felt I would lose her if I didn’t. I was someone who wasn’t afraid of telling people when something was wrong or when I was bothered, but with her I accepted it. I felt resigned to it. She’d lash me into submission.

I always thought maybe she was like that cause she was just an emotionally immature teenager who didn’t know better. But I don’t think so anymore. She admitted to me that she was being demanding and cruel (“pestering”) because she wanted sexual pleasure from me but was so mad that I didn’t have time to invite her over. She lied to my face about respecting whatever decision I made irt leaving her out of my life or letting her back in… Only to guilt trip and try to manipulate me into letting her back in, not taking no for an answer until I told her to back off and blocked her. Most people with shit exes just complain about how much they sucked. I saw her when she was working once years later, froze in a panic, and ran away out of desperation. Her sending me a message to reconnect with me after we broke up while I was working through trauma sent a chill up my spine. that’s not normal.

I won’t ever know her train of thought when we dated. and she would never give me an honest account of that. she may not have calculatedly went “i’ll act like this to make them do that” but she expressed her feelings with the expectation that I’d change my behavior to please her, then lashed out when it didn’t work. I thought she just didn’t want us to argue when we disagreed with something… but getting your partner to shut up about a topic you disagree with them on, then essentially saying fuck you to them when they bring it up again later is… Bad. and I really do mean Shut Up. She’d tell me to drop a conversation at any sign of a disagreement, and I thought this was reasonable because we agreed we wouldn’t talk about religion (she was a christian at the time, i was an atheist and still am one) but it didn’t stop at that.

I have a difficult time processing all of it. I still have a hard time believing she acted the way she did as a conscious choice, especially because of our ages at the time (14-16). I don’t even really know what a reasonable expectation would be for someone to act at that age, because I don’t even remember what it was like. genuinely. When I look back at it all, it feels like there were a few years where someone else was in my body instead of me. I don’t quite remember my thought processes. I remember how I felt, I just don’t feel like my decisions were my own. Just a poor child who I watched go through all of that.

This way longer than I thought it was going to be and I don’t even feel like I scratched the surface of how I’m feeling right now. I just feel damaged and it has nothing to do with her, who she is as a person, right now and more to do with the fact that I feel like a plate that was thrown at a wall, shattered, and somewhat glued back together. I have cracks all over me and it’d be ridiculous to act like I don’t. I’m not a “broken” person per say but I’ve been changed

[ashplayz]

Steven Universe characters x reader angstish

How the different Steven Universe characters would react to finding out their S/o (significant other) felt pressured into the relationship in the beginning because at first they didn't feel the same.

Amethyst:

Amethyst walked up to y/ns house looking for her y/n had promised to spend the day with her because she had been too busy lately Amethyst walked up onto her porch. Her front door was open, her screen was shut, that's when she heard her name.

Y/n was talking to her friends "so you've really never told Amethyst about this..? " one of your friends asked you "well.. No I don't really think it's important now that was a long time ago.. " you said "but you felt pressured into something you didn't want to do. " another friend retorted "Look, that was over a year ago.. And I really do love amethyst now…  even if it didn't start out that way.. " you said.

Amethyst's eyes widened 'what.. ' she thought as panic took over her 'she didn't… she didn't want this… ? ' she thought as tears filled her eyes.

"Now if you'll excuse me I promised amethyst we could hang out today" you said standing up before walking to your door you opened the screen and you froze upon seeing amethyst tears in her eyes.. "Amethyst!" You said wide eyed. But Amethyst ran off you chased after her "Amethyst wait!!" You called behind her.

Amethyst ran to the beach with you not far behind when you tripped and fell down into some shards of glass from a broken beer bottle "OW!! " you cried out amethyst quickly turned around tears at the corners of her eyes "Y/N!!" She cried out running over to you tears started falling upon seeing the blood "y y/n..i..im s sorry.. " she barely managed to choke out  "amethyst.." You said gently. rising to your feet "I'm okay really" you tried to reassure her "B but I but.. You.. '' Amethyst tried saying.

You sighed "Amethyst.. I think that we should sit down and just talk.. " you said with a calm smile you then led amethyst to sit on a rock you're feet in the water. "Amethyst I have to admit that at the start of this.. Of.. Us I wasn't so sure that this.. Was what I wanted but I.. " you started saying and then sighed. "I didn't want to ruin what we had and I did truly care about you so very much I didn't want you to get hurt.. So I just went along with it but now looking back I am so glad I did.. Amethyst I might not have necessarily been in love with you then.. But I am now and I'm not just saying that to make you feel better I really do love you. " You said Amethyst stayed quiet for a moment..

"Why didn't you ever tell me this..? " she asked, averting her gaze "Because I didn't think it mattered anymore because I don't feel that way about it now" you responded it was quiet for a moment "I'm really sorry.. I should have realized how you were feeling.. " Amethyst said "Hey.. That was over a year ago.. And I am so happy to be together with you I promise.. " you said pulling her into a hug. She immediately hugged you back tightly, still sniffling slightly.

Garnet:

Garnet was walking to y/n's place of work the big donut as she did every day just to check in also She was well aware of how this made y/n's day.. Maybe even hers too although it's not like they don't spend enough time together.

When Garnet entered the big donut she saw Lars standing behind the counter on his phone but no sign of Sadie or y/n Garnet walked up to the counter Lars barely looked up from his phone "what would you like?"  He asked, referring to food "Y/n." Garnet replied Emotionlessly. Lars put his phone down then "She's in the back room talking with Sadie about 'something important' " Lars said then Garnet simply just walked by him to the back room "Hey! You can't just go back there!" Lars called after her but made no attempt to stop her.

The door to the back room was slightly open so Garnet could hear what they were saying "I still think that you should tell Garnet about this" Sadie said to you "I just don't think that it's important anymore.. It was so long ago and besides it doesn't really matter now" you said "Doesn't matter? Y/n of course your feelings matter even if you aren't feeling them in the present the point is you were feeling them" Sadie said "I just.. Don't want to upset her.. She… she doesn't have to know that I was feeling.. Pressured into this relationship that I didn't feel the same way.. Because that was so long ago! And I really do love her now even if that wasn't always the case.. " you said.

Garnet completely froze in that moment, eyes wide. If she had a heart it would be beating out of her chest. She couldn't do anything in that moment and Ruby and sapphire had completely shut down as well.. "Now we should get back to work. But.. Thanks for listening though.. " You said to Sadie "Anytime" Sadie replied with a smile but once you opened the door all the way you froze your eyes Widening filled with dread.. "Garnet! " you said with a nervous smile you opened your mouth to say something else but nothing came out "I think you two should go talk some things out. " Sadie said calmly you turned to her "I can't just leave my shift isn't over for another few hours" you tried to argue "You can have the rest of the day off" Sadie said "Aw! What!?" Lars wined from the counter "Oh can it Lars!" Sadie called out.

Next thing you knew you were starting outside of the big donut Garnet in front of you you couldn't read her expression but it definitely wasn't her usual stodic look. again you opened your mouth to speak but no words came out. You sighed heavily rubbing your face in frustration before pulling it together "I think we should uh.. Talk about.. Something.. Let's.. Go sit somewhere and just… Talk" you suggested but Garnet showed no signs of replying you quickly turned in the direction of the beach and started walking Garnet followed behind you.. Something that she doesn't do she always walks beside you or in a dangerous situation in front of you.. Now Garnet's thoughts were on overdrive Ruby and sapphire were both panicking and going back and forth 'did you know about this!?' Ruby questioned 'No of course not i.. I.. I don't know how I didn't see this coming.. ' sapphire said.

It took a lot for Garnet not to unfuse in that instance, soon enough y/n came to a stop in the sand facing the ocean before sitting down and out stretching her hand for Garnet to take. Garnet hesitantly took it, barely holding it before sitting down next to her at a respectful distance. Y/n sighed then looking out onto the sea.. "Garnet.. " she started to say squeezing her hand "there…  is something I should.. Need to.. Tell you" you said calmly turning to face her you were thankful that she had her glasses on.. At that moment.. "Garnet the truth is when we.. First.. Started our relationship I wasn't… entirely sure of my feelings.." You started.

"I did really enjoy being around you and I felt.. Drawn to you in a way that I can't really explain.. But I wasn't… I wasn't in love with you." You said quickly "But.. When you.. When you confessed I panicked. I didn't know what to do.. And then you unfused and I met Ruby and sapphire. I thought that I should just go along with it. You were so.. Sincere and I just… I never even thought you would be interested in someone like me.. I didn't.. Want to ruin the relationship we had.. But I'm glad I did what I did! I'm glad we're together now! I love this I love us I love you even if it didn't start out that way.. " you finally finished after going on a rant for about a minute.

"Y/n why didn't you.. I.. I am so sorry i.. I should have realized that was how you were feeling." She said before turning into a blinding light you shut your eyes until she unfused you opened them to find Ruby and sapphire standing in front of you Ruby looked panicked and scared "Why didn't you tell me!? Us! Why didn't you say anything!?" Ruby asked quickly, fighting back tears, you sighed "Guys listen, that was a really long time ago and that isn't how i'm feeling in the present it doesn't even matter-" You tried saying "Of course it matters!" Sapphire spoke up sounding like she wanted to cry "I've seen into the future when it's like none of this happened but how you're feeling in the present is what's important! It is valid even if that was a long time ago you still felt that way and I.. We are so sorry for that we never wanted you to feel pressured in any way" sapphire said, moving the hair from her eye to reveal how sad she was over this realization..

"I just wish you had told us!" Ruby said before hugging you tightly you tears in the corners of her eyes. After a moment you hugged her back opening one arm to allow sapphire to join the hug. You guys sat like that for a while in silence when you spoke "I do love you guys.. I do love Garnet so very much.. And I truly mean that. Half a second later the light was back and they fused again. Garnet didn't have her glasses on, you saw the tears in her sofend eyes.. She gave you a sweet smile " And I we. Love you more than you could even imagine.

Pearl:

Pearl had a bad habit of breaking into your house without really breaking anything. You usually kept a window or door unlocked for her. She usually came at night time and snuggled with you in your bed you never seemed to mind. But she hadn't seen you in a while and you didn't answer your phone when she tried to call you so she headed over to your house to check up on you but when she arrived she saw you were talking with some friends of yours she didn't want to be nosey but she heard her name.

"Are you really not going to tell Pearl about this?" Your friend asked you "Are you nuts you know how she'll take it… Besides, that doesn't even matter now.. I don't feel.. Pressured anymore I actually really like pearl" you said "But you felt pressured into it in the beginning of the relationship. Even if that isn't the case now it was still how you were feeling." Your friend said.

Pearl felt her whole world shatter in that moment 'pressured?' as the realization hit her like a truck she entirely disregarded the part where you said you didn't feel that way anymore she wasn't able to hear anything else after that her eyes were wide and filled with tears that threatened to spill and before she knew it her legs were carrying her back to the temple at a quick speed. Tears streaming down her face.

'I.. This is all wrong! No no.. She.. She felt like she had to be with me.. I I wasn't that pushy, was I..' Pearl thought internally her thoughts were going so fast.. She ran into the temple not caring that the others saw her with waterfalls coming from her eyes, not caring that Steven had called out to ask if she was okay. She just ran into her room before anyone could stop her.

You were making your way to the home of the crystal gems you were expecting your girlfriend to just randomly be in your house as per usual but she didn't show you realized she had tried to call you this morning but you had missed it so you tried to call her back but it went straight to voicemail 'God her voicemail sounds dorky' you thought to yourself with a smile. You made your way up to the crystal gems porch and before you could knock on the door Garnet opened it "Oh! Hey Garnet what's up?" You said happily she didn't respond then Steven ran up to you as you came in "Somethings seriously wrong with pearl!" Steven said worldly your smile fell then "What's wrong with her?" You asked a slight squeeze of panic going over you "She ran through here this morning crying her eyes out and then just ran into her room" Amethyst said, surprisingly actually looking up from what she was doing.

You bit your lip you figured that pearl might be having another 'bad day' thinking about rose.. Although usually when she gets like that she comes crying to you. Tho you never minded at all. You gave the crystal gems a slight nod. You were thankful that you had brought the pearl ring she gave you in order to open her door in case of an emergency. You entered her room only to be met by a heart quenching sob you looked on top of a waterfall to see her hunched over Silhouette. '.... Wow she's really upset' you thought. You didn't think for a moment that you could possibly be the reason for that..

Dating pearl you started to always be prepared to get wet because her room was basically a water park you had waterproof shorts under your pants and a waterproof sports bra as well so your clothes don't get drenched you put your shirt and pants in a dry spot before crawling through the running water to get to your girlfriend. Once you finally reached the top of her watery pedestal you moved towards her. She hadn't realized you were there yet but she jumped back a bit once you sat on your knees beside her. "Y Y/n!? W what are you.. Doing here!?" She questioned looking almost ..scared tears were still streaming down her pale cheeks "P. What.. What's going on?" You questioned very confused "You.. You shouldn't be here you.. You said that you.. Didn't want this relationship to begin with!" Pearl said your eyes widened at the realization that she was eavesdropping this morning..

After being too shocked to speak you sighed and looked down "Pearl.. I might have felt a bit.. Pressured.. In the beginning of this but pearl I.. I don't feel that way about it now" you said she looked at you like you were some complicated equation she was trying to solve "pearl I.." You started saying as you grabbed her hand causing her to stiffen up.. "Pearl I love you even if it took a while for me to feel that way I really do love you" you said "But you didn't! You didn't feel that way before" she said, using her free hand to wipe her tears. "You're right I didn't.. I just… you seemed so.. Lost.. And I knew what that was like. I didn't want you to fall apart because of me so I just… went along with it.. And now looking back I'm glad I did.." You said with a small smile she then buried her face into your neck wrapping her arms tightly around you.

"I couldn't bear losing you.." She said, still slightly crying. "You won't" you replied simply' hugging her back.

Peridot:

Peridot was waiting for you to show up today as she sat in the barn bored out of her mind but no signs of you.. So she got up and walked over to your house that wasn't very far away. She made her way onto your porch when she heard you talking with some people. One of your windows was open so she decided to listen to what was being said.

"You never told Peridot that you felt.. Pressured into the relationship with her?" One of the people that Peridot assumed to be your friends asked. "Well no… that was… the first few months into the relationship at best and I really don't feel like that anymore I really don't know why I ever felt intimidated by her. She's adorable!" You said

'Pressured..? Intimidated??' Peridot thought to herself not really entirely sure of her emotions at that moment she just walked back to the barn while her thoughts formulated she had been so sure she was doing this 'relationship thing' right. She remembered when Steven made her watch a movie with him about a Duchess named Emily and being engaged to a duke named MalikI but Emily never loved MalikI but he didn't realize that because he was in love with her but Emily was in love with a peasant named Jacob who swept her away on a horse in the end.

'Am I like Maliki?? Did she feel like Emily?? Who's Jacob then?? I… I thought I was like Jacob to her.. ' Peridot's thoughts were very jumbled up at that moment and didn't make much sense.. Not even to her she had been so confident in this relationship. How did she never see how you really felt about this..

It had not been very long since you and your friends talked about 'things' when you made your way over to the barn to find your adorable and tiny girlfriend. It felt good to get it off your chest to someone that in the beginning you felt really unsure about the relationship with perry and truthfully a bit pressured into it but that entirely changed now that you knew her honestly you had never met a gem before so meeting Peridot was a bit intimidating to you crazy right? You could easily pick her up and sling her over your shoulder if you wanted. But you now actually think you might be in love with this tiny little gem.

Peridot was pacing back and forth as she tried to find a solution to this 'problem' but couldn't think of anything and it was stressing her out. That's when Steven approached her and asked her what had happened so Peridot sat down with him and told him everything she heard. Steven thought for a moment "You know mabey Emily got to know Maliki a bit more in this scenario and mabey she realized that she does really like him even if she didn't at first. Love isn't instant, it takes time and patience" Steven told her "I feel like I should be.. Apologizing for making her feel like she had to be in this relationship I'll admit I might have been a little to.. Straightforward about it.." Peridot said

"Well if you're going to apologize maybe you should get her a present to show her that you really care about how she's feeling" Steven suggested Peridot thought for a moment "Like what? Should I make her something??" Peridot asked "Well if you wanted to keep it simple you could always buy a stuffed animal from the store you know how she likes them. My dad can drive us there!" Steven said "yeah she does really like those soft cloth toy things.. Okay! Good idea Steven, let's go buy an apology gift!" Peridot said quickly standing up.

Y/n entered the barn but no signs of her little Peridot anyware "Peri! Hon where are you??" Y/n called out but with no reply but she did find a poster for the movie 'forbidden love' to see that names were written above Maliki and Emily y/n was written over Emily and Peridots name was over maliki this left you confused why would Peridot see herself as Maliki he was a selfish prick that paid no regards to Emily's feelings…  truthfully you really didn't like that movie you thought it was too sappy and predictable altho Peridot seemed so engaged in it.. That's something you love about her so much how she puts all of her attention into something so simple.

After a few minutes of sitting in the barn waiting for Peridot to return you heard a car pull in and then running footsteps coming towards the barn you got up and went to go check it out only to have a Peridot literally ram into you "Peri! There you are, is everything alright?" You asked actually worried that's when you saw the Squshmello bear she was holding she gave you an incredibly awkward smile and then unsherd you to sit down on something. "I um.. I have something important to say!" Peridot p said, straightening her back and clearing her throat "Oh! But umm first this.. This is for you" she said, shoving the Squshmello bear into your face. You took it and gave her a look.

"Peri, why are you giving me a stuffed animal? Did you break something of mine again?" You asked her really just teasing "n No! I didn't break anything this time! I just wanted to get you something I thought you would like" Peridot rambled "well I do like it I'm just wondering who you stole it from" you said before laughing "I I didn't steal it from anyone! Steven 'helped me' pay for it but.. But that's not the point! I need to say something important!" Peridot said getting flustered now you laughed "I'm just kidding Peridot go on say whatever you need to say." You said once you stopped laughing. She took a deep breath before speaking.

"I'm sorry. I'll admit I put you on the spot when I told you I liked you and that I made you feel pressured into saying yes.." Peridot said before hugging herself looking guilty you however were shocked "Peri what brought this on?" You simply asked your green girlfriend she looked at her feet. "I might have overheard your conversation you had with your friends this morning." She said then you finally understood whare this was coming from. You stood up "oh peri." You started with a gentle tone before walking over to her.

You knelt down to her level. "Peri, that was a long time ago and I really really.. Really like you.. Quite a bit now" you said before opening your arms for a hug which she gladly accepted and knocked you over in the process making you laugh.

Lapis lazuli:

Lapis was home from her flight early due to a big storm coming in typically when there was a storm like that you two would sit in for the night cuddled up watching movies but when she entered the house she didn't see you she was about to call out to you when she heard people talking.. And she instantly became anxious..

"So you really aren't going to tell lapis the way you were feeling?" Asked one of the people you were talking to. "No.. That doesn't really even matter now because I don't feel that way about it anymore besides I know she'll take it really hard… and I don't want to upset her. Our relationship is complicated enough as it is… W well it's not like I'm complaining I love our relationship I love lapis I really do" you said. "... But you didn't always but you went along with it because you felt like you had to.. "one of the people said.

Lapis didn't understand what anyone was talking about.. She felt extremely anxious and confused.. And that's when realization hit her.. 'She didn't want this to begin with.. She didn't love me.. ' lapis thought to herself as her chest started rising and falling rapidly.. As she started to panic she knew very well what it felt like to be trapped and she didn't want anyone else to feel that way.. Especially not you… and especially not because of her..

Lapis felt her chest grow incredibly heavy as tears quickly filled her eyes clouding her vision she took off and the next thing she knew she was in the air flying away from the house she called her home not knowing where she was going..

After about a half hour of flying she felt incredibly guilty she shouldn't be feeling so hurt by this right..? After all you did say that you did love her now.. And you were the one who wasn't happy in the beginning. She came to the conclusion that she was wrong reacting the way she was about this. It was as you had said before your guyses relationship was complicated enough as it is. She decided that it was better to just talk to you like a normal person instead of running away from the best thing that's ever happened to her..

The storm had started rolling in at this point rain was falling although water never bothered her anyways.. She made her way back home and by the time she got there she was almost knocked over in a hug by none other than her sweet girlfriend "Lapis!! I was so worried I didn't know where you were! Or if you got caught out in the storm!!" You said clearly panicked and your panic for her caused her to panic.

"Hey hey hey! I'm okay I'm here, I'm here!" She said hugging you back tightly. She buried her face into your neck and you two just stayed there for a moment and that's when you felt the wetness forming on your shirt.. She was crying.. "Lapis..?" You asked in a low worried voice "I'm sorry if I ever made you feel trapped or like you owed me anything I never want you to feel that way.." Lapis said, hugging you tighter.

You sighed giving her a gentle reassuring squeeze "I don't know what happened.. But I want you to know that I love you I truly do and I'll always be here to show you that" you said with a smile "I love you more." Lapis said 1"heh.. I really doubt that" you simply replied.

Jasper:

Jasper returned home earlier than she had anticipated and planned to just sit with you and watch tv while eating snacks as she Typically would. That's when she heard unfamiliar voices as she entered your home.

"Man so you really felt forced into this relationship ship with Jasper huh.. " one of the voice's said "W Well I wouldn't call it forced.. I mean it's not like she threatened me into anything.. B but.. I'll admit I did feel a bit.. Pressured into this at first.. " you said. Jasper felt like she had been slapped in the face in that moment although she Supposed that she deserved to be slapped by you in that moment.. You weren't wrong.. She was really pushy going into this she knew she scared you but at that time she just wanted to be as close to you as possible looking back on it now made her cringe.

"But I don't feel that way about her.. About us.. Anymore if I did I would've kicked her out a long time ago but I really really love Jasper.. And even if she doesn't always show it.. I know she loves me as well" you said in her defense although Jasper didn't think you meant that.. Jasper in that moment felt so small which was a weird feeling for her usually whenever she felt that way she would cuddle into you burying her face into your neck holding you close but in that moment she couldn't do that.. Jasper simply turned around and walked back out of your house to go for a long walk to let her thoughts marinate and wait for your 'company' to leave

By the time she made her way back into your home the sun was setting and she smelled food cooking in the kitchen. She followed the smell into the kitchen and Sure enough you were there cooking dinner you must of herd her enter the room because you spun around on your heel to face her and once your eyes landed on her your face lit up with the biggest smile and in that moment Jasper felt her Insecurities about this whole thing fade away and she smiled as well "Jasper! You're back, I was starting to worry!" You said running up and hugging her.. She didn't push you off or try to shrug you off of her or grumble anything under her breath as she normally would. Instead she picked you up which surprised you enough that you yelped.

She had a big smile upon doing this and buried her face into your neck and you started to giggle "what's this about?" You questioned teasingly expecting her to get irritated and grumble a 'nothing' in reply and make up some excuse however she didn't what she said in return shocked you a lot..

"I just.. Really.. Love you.. So much.. For a human.. Because.. You're my human.. " she said it sounded like she was struggling to get the words out but you knew she must have really meant it. You found yourself holding back happy tears not wanting to start crying right now  "and you're my Jasper I love you too!" You said incredibly happy as you gave her a tight hug.

Bismuth:

Bismuth had been at the forge for some time now she was working on a Katana for you because you loved Katanas you owned a few that you used only really for decoration you didn't need another Katana but she wanted to do something nice for you because she loves you she was working on making this one unique to you and about after lunch time she finally finished after testing it's durability she put it's sheve on and excitedly made her way back home but when she arrived she saw you sat in the living room talking to your friends she had came in through the back door wanting to surprise you. She didn't want to eavesdrop on your conversation but it was difficult not to.

"I mean it's not like I feel that way about it anymore" you said bismuth wondered what you guys could be talking about "But you were feeling pressured in the beginning and that's never a good thing she was being too pushy" one of your friends said "She can't have known that's how I was feeling and she doesn't have to.. Its been quite some time since I've felt that way in this relationship." You said. Bismuth completely froze she knew you had to be talking about her in that moment she wanted to Disappear drawing attention to herself was the one thing she didn't want to do in that moment but the shock caused her to drop the Katana and it made a really loud sound she wanted to run away but her feet betrayed her the talking in the living room stopped.

Next thing that happened was you running into the kitchen with a Katana in your hand to defend against any unwanted visitors you're friends behind you. You looked shocked to see her but you simply just smiled "Bissy my god you scared me! I thought someone had broken in. What was that sound? Are you okay??" You questioned as you approached her after putting down your Katana. But to your shock she backed up. You froze confused for a moment and then cringing at the realization that she had heard your conversation. You asked your friends to go which they did but now the atmosphere was really thick in the room.. Silence..

"Bissy hey I'm sorry-" you started saying "No no don't apologize for the way you feel I should have realized that you felt that way i.. I'm sorry I.. I-" bismuth grew more and more upset by the second you didn't move as you tried to think of something to say to fix this.. Bismuth kept rambling on with apologies and blaming herself you tried calling out to her to get her to stop but to no avail.. That's when she said something that shot ice through your heart "I should let you go.. I.. I.. Mean if you don't want this you shouldn't feel pressured to-" she said, shrinking back "Bismuth!!" You yelled this finally got her attention tears were falling from her eyes.

That's when you practically tackled her in a hug about to cry yourself "No! Please no! Please don't leave me!!" You cried out panicked she grew completely stiff in your imbarce not wanting to make a mistake "b but y you said-" she started stammering out "It was a long time ago!!" You said tears now falling from your eyes, this Terrified bismuth.. "I'll admit! I did feel a little bit pressured in the beginning! But I don't anymore! I love you bismuth! I really do! Please don't leave me!!" You said through your tears on the verge of a panic attack bismuth freaked out.

"Hey hey! Hey! I'm not going anywhere! u unless you want me too I'm here I AM here I'm not going anywhere please stop crying!" She said, trying to hold it together for your sake, hugging you tightly, "I love you so very much, I truly do.." Bismuth said. After a while of you two trying to calm each other down she suddenly remembered. "Ohhh Heyy I made you something at the forge today." She said,

Sardonyx:

Sardonyx was walking to your house.. considering your feelings of uneasiness towards pearl and garnet although you did have a feeling of trust towards Sardonyx but she/they thought today would be a good time for you to get to know them better separately. However when she got to your house she saw you outside talking to some friends you didn't notice sardonyx approaching..

"Are you sure that you don't feel like that about it anymore.??" One of your friends asked.. "Yes I am certain I don't… that was a long time ago.." You said then "But. Let's be real here.. From what you've told us is Sardonyx is like four people and you did say you didn't didn't feel comfortable around them to begin with" you're friend said sardonyx froze up her previously cool smile had fallen and all her eyes widened as she felt the panic from pearl rize drastically as anger flared from Ruby.. Sardonyx couldn't stay fussed due to all of the different intense emotions at once..

Garnet also unfused because Ruby and sapphire were dealing with big emotions Ruby was incredibly angry towards herself.. Thankfully sardonyx had stopped at a fair distance to not be in your line of sight. Pearl felt incredibly shattered in that moment.. Ruby was pacing angrily while pearl was the equivalent of a broken record.. And sapphire tried to defuse the situation although she was also pretty emotional.

Ruby jesterd to sapphire "Why did we ever add in another person..this what we have with just us it has bent but it's never been broken.. But adding in another person? This was never going to work!!" She doesn't even feel comfortable around Garnet or pearl for that matter and Sardonyx clearly makes her uncomfortable as well!" Ruby cried out sapphire was clearly upset..

Ruby turned to pearl feeling a sense of anger towards her.. Sardonyx was a greatly charismatic individual and considering pearls eagerness for love for a relationship she Tended to be a charismatic type of pushy..as sardonyx.. "Why did you ever think it was okay to be so pushy with her!?" Ruby said full of anger, sapphire put her hand on Ruby's shoulder "you can't expect her to understand that she was being too pushy..considering her.. Past relationships being unstable.." Sapphire said simply pearl felt really hurt but she knew it was true..

Y/n just so happened to walk up in that moment looking concerned considering the last time she saw Garnet and pearl not getting along ended in disaster.. Ruby and sapphire fused trying to keep it together.. You approached them "O oh! H hey! Y/n!" Pearl said with a smile despite the tears in her eye's after a moment of consideration.. Y/n sighed "listen.. We.. Should maybe talk… about.. Things.." You said then "yeah.." We should, Garnet said calmly..

After about an hour of you guys sitting in your house together just talking about your feelings you Reassured them that you did really really like pearl and garnet and sardonyx in an ood friend sort of way but that you didn't see them as anything more or anything less.. They would never.. Except anything more..

[kikai-sentai-zenkaiger]

tangent time but it's so frustrating how whenever tokusatsu is acknowledged or referenced in any other media it's always like. either it's obviously making fun of it, it's claiming to be "tokusatsu inspired" but only actually takes anything from more popular parodies (something like the ginyu force from DBZ), or it's not about actual toku heroes but people who like them or are inspired by them. the third option is cool and atleast shows toku heroes in a positive light but im at a point where I seriously cannot stand the other two. I'm sorry but I fucking hate the super sentai parody team from OKKO it's so obvious that the creators of that show think super sentai is fucking stupid and they just wanted to make fun of it in their cartoon. and like yea haha very funny but as someone who considers that series (super sentai, i've never watched okko) very important to them it gets old fast. i've never actually watched OKKO but I guarantee you atleast one of those sentai girls does a jojos bizarre adventure pose at some point, I just know they do. idk. it's not that amusing anymore it's just really lame and boring and I kinda hate it. "I drew my OCs/faves as a sentai team" no you didn't you drew them as the ginyu force. "my favorite show has a tokusatsu episode" it's not a toku episode it's a voltron and power rangers robot chicken parody episode. "there's a team of guys who are inspired by super sentai in this game" well im not very interested in the 25th cartoon episode/video game level to come out this week that's power rangers parody made by someone who's only watched one episode of MMPR and the animaniacs power rangers parody. sorry for the tangent and sorry for going #meanmode but I like toku a lot I really do and between "fans" not being able to do anything but complain about how bad every kamen rider that isn't their favorite is and every piece of media ever having to take the time to dunk on it I just get a little tired of it. not everything has to be a parody bro. be genuine for once in your life. shut up.