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ri-a-rose · 2 years

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So my little sister got engaged which I'm happy about and definitely not a tiny bit jealous

#she and her boyfriend have been dating for a couple of years so its exciting that he proposed #and like this is so selfish and petty but im jealous bc like im the oldest and it just idk #i feel like shes exceeding which is fine thats great im gglad for her that she has more ambition than me #but i just idk my cousin just got married and now my sister and i just feel lonely #she and b are gonna be high school sweethearts and ive literally never had a man look at me with interest #its petty af but both my sisters are prettier than me and have aspirations and goals and i just go to work and complain about shit #and the weddings not til may and my parents are already starting planning or whatever and #im a lump like im not going anywhere in life like have the dumbest goals #buy a house near my parents place so i visit them more often bc i cant take care of myself like a normal human person #im disabled but not really bc i can do things but only the bare minimum so my quality of life is not great unless my mom helps me with #cleaning and food bc im just really dumb and feel like a burden i mean m is in college with a good job and now engaged and j has plans and #a scholarship and will be working lots #meanwhile i complain about having to work 8 hours a day bc i used to work 4 hours and thats much nicer to my body like i didnt realise how #fucking lazy i am til i have to work more than 4 hours not really disabled just lazy and i complain to them about having to work i dont #know why they put up with my dumb ass i mean fuck its not hard to figure out why guys arent interested in me #i mean i want a person someone to like spend life with i yearn to love and be loved #theyre so cute doing lame cute couple things it makes my heart hurt #im done im done venting sorry #tbd #vent

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rainywhispersblog · 4 days

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#actually cptsd #bpd feels #bpd mood #bpd problems #bpd thoughts #bpd vent #actually borderline #actually bpd #borderline personality disorder #depressing shit #living with ptsd #ptsd #im done #sorry for being depressing #alone with my thoughts #this is my life #mental illness #mental health

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lvrei · 2 months

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#bandori #bang dream #minato yukina #yukina minato #UGH this is so rushed #I apologize i really wanted to get something done quick and post it here #the past few days have been so rough sorry for very slow posts :(#im so hesitant to post this #AND MY ARTSTYLE IS SO INCONSISTENT AHHH SO SO SORRY #vent

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bonecuisine · 9 days

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Kung lao doodle

Again

I've never drawn him without his hat before..huh

#im so sorry i got off my posting rampage my mental health has not been good </3 #i tried drawing the other day and when i got the fully COLORED drawing done i hated it so much i deleted the whole canvas and wanted to cry #?????????#thats my small vent(?) i guess #oh mygod #he reminds me of a friends style #IF YOU SEE THIS IM SO SORRY I DIDNT MEAN TO COPY AT ALL😭😭#unrelated rufus tried crawling on my tablet #silly lizard #kung lao #mortal kombat 1 #mk1 #mortal kombat #my art #art #zigs doobles

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prayingfordemise · 6 months

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I just want to rip my hair off, I’m so fucking done

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skunkes · 6 months

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ok posting it here bc im not sure if its going to stay in the doodle page

#delete later #deleting soon bc eyes on me #for those of you who kept asking about Something last year LOLLL #sorry this is too entry level vent comic ykwim i jst needed to get it out #im over it in the sense that like ok yeah whatever #but not in the sense that i came out worse than before. i was already Small. ive been further Smallened #i was a rebound and lied to and discarded...which thank god i was Set Free but wow!#all my personal fears reinforced. it is embarrassing for me to want and need...i get it neow. i was a stepping stone i am an npc #idk that i could do it again! im not sure its worth trying i am too much of a...project.#as i was told from day 1 but still ran directly into it #and i was too much of a coward to leave myself. if it happened again i wouldnt be able to leave then either.#im happy that i dont think it could get much worse than all that for my first experience but it was also exhausting #and weirdly at the same time i dont think i cld ever expect better #its almost been a year since its been Done and the words and treatment linger <3 #this is also why i had to enlist talon as imaginary bf number 2 LOL need extra reinforcement and love #cringe as fuck but it rly will never be as good as whats in my brain...i know that neow. i will spare everyone the trouble #and remove myself from the dating pool (<- implying he was ever even in it)#i dont even hold any ill will toward em bc they were right...its just hurts ykwim

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nerves-nebula · 24 days

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its so frustrating seeing people adopt terms meant to expand or break out of the binary and just make another binary with it. afab and amab were supposed to be terms (coined by trans women i think) criticizing the way we assigned shit at birth, they don't indicate anything about your body just what people at birth assumed about it!! trans masculine and trans feminine are meant to include nonbinary ppl who align with those terms but can have a wide variety of presentation that gets them read as all kinds of shit but from the posts people make you'd think they're just fancy ways of saying trans man and trans woman.

so many people think of race as like. an additional stat block or something you can tack on for more Oppression Points and not a crucial piece when it comes to understanding how and why the gender binary exists the way it does. any theory of gender is worse than useless without an in depth acknowledgment of race and i'm overr ittt I'M SOOOO OVERR ITT I CAN'T STAND THISSSSSSSS SOMEONE GET ME OUT OF THIS WHITE HELL HOLE AAAAA

#nnstuff #vent #OK OK SORRY IM DONE

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rileys-battlecats · 20 days

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i really gotta get better about listening to my own brain and needs when i'm making things. i've been working on a video and i'm almost finished (yippee!!), but drawing this One Specific Frame was giving me trouble. i could have just brute-forced my way through it and finalized the initial sketch, since it was relatively good enough. but instead i left it and took a day off from working on the project, let myself recharge, and came back to the sketch with fresh eyes today. and what do you know, my redrawn sketch today is WAY better! now, i can finalize that frame and be genuinely proud of it, instead of just powering through on something i was less than happy with.

i hadn't done any other art stuff that day when i couldn't get my sketches to look right, so letting myself stop and have a break from the project felt sort of "unearned" i guess. but it's just. what i needed! and the break did what i needed it to do; i was able to come back later and make something i could be proud of.

anyway i guess this is me saying that, if you're like me and have this weird morality-complex about letting yourself rest, it's ok to take breaks, even if you feel like you haven't "earned" one yet :)

#rye.txt #growing up i got very accustomed to ignoring my own needs and just 'powering through' when i wanted/needed to get something done #which worked out relatively ok for me in school (banging my head against a wall until my brain absorbed information leading to exhaustion)#but now that im doing work that is ostensibly for my own enjoyment #i have a hard time divorcing myself from that mindset #i feel guilty if im not constantly working #which is. not great! so im trying to unlearn that #trying to let myself think 'ok my brain isn't brain-ing right now. so i should stop and rest/do something else'#my actual job is Very Emotionally Draining so sometimes i just. can't find the energy to work on my art #which sucks!! cause i love making art!! and then i think to myself 'maybe making art will make you feel better'#but then when i try it's like scraping the bottom of a dry well. trying to find water #when what i need to do is rest and let the water well up from the ground itself #but resting is HARD when you tie your self-worth to how much you can work #ough ok this got a little vent-y sorry guys #I don't want to let myself fall into the 'content creation' mindset. cause I don't think i make 'content' i make ART #and art isn't something you can just pump out mindlessly #good art. art that i can be PROUD of. that takes time and intent and energy. and I can't make that if im just scraping the bottom of a well #vent in tags #this whole post is just 'riley vs the concept that taking breaks is a moral failing'

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soap-ify · 5 months

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#the depression is kicking in again (it never left) its so over for me AGAIN #oh my god #i am so tired i can't get anything done and my moods have been horribly unstable lately #i just wanna be normal and happy??#anyways... i'll get the reqs done soon i swear :(#i am just going to assume that this is happening because my period is soon...#i really do use this place as some venting diary sometimes IM SORRY :(#i'm just gonna sleep #ruru rambles

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otrtbs · 11 months

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“you can just take guns to music concerts in the united states” some of these bitches need to never speak again and i’m so serious about that.

#SORRY??#if you think we’re pulling up to harry styles strapped #and you’re using that to back up some asinine argument ur making…every word that comes out of your mouth after that….#is laughable.#i swear to GOD.#no one is asking u 2 know the intricacies of state/federal laws in the usa i promise #but maybe be a little bit more informed before u speak on smth like gun violence like that. just a thought.#sorry but touchy subject!#the place i live in is devastated by the mass proliferation of firearms and ensuing violence #communities and CHILDREN and incalculable loss. and to see that being used for jokes or snarky comments or put downs??? it makes me irate #AND SPREADING INCORRECT INFORMATION TO MAKE THOSE SNARKY COMMENTS AT THAT!#vent post #so sorry im done now

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fenrishion · 5 months

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growing older is weird once you start becoming more emotionally mature than your parents and start realizing how emotionally instable they are and that none of these fuckers should be allowed to have kids in the first place

#sorry i treat tumblr like a vent blog but. delete this later i promise #fr tho i feel like im at my limit this year #when your first reaction as a parent when you've done something wrong isn't to apologize but say “its not a big deal”#and wonder why your children dont come to you with their problems at all and remain at a cordial distance #or constantly berate them about their spending despite them telling you it's only a certain portion of their income #or complain that their partner is spoiling them with gifts then idk man??? like what do i tell rin to do #stop buying stuff for me? lol

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zaynes-left-chesticle · 4 months

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Okay I just read Zayne's "Still in Dark" anecdote, and now I'm crying and also my jaW IS ON THE GROUND, WHAT IN THE FUC-

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enjoy the tags, I just needed to vent....

And I'm scared 🤣

#hoooooly shit when i tell you i was confused about the timeline before ... ash.exe has officially stopped responding #semi spoiler alert/ me venting.... youve been warned #ARE WE NOT REAL IN HIS DIMENSION? Are we just pulling a freaking spongebob and showing up in his dreams?#im scared somebody hold me. im freaking crying cuz that was so sad but also SERIOUSLY WTFFFF IS GOING ON #love and deepspace #okay im done screaming im sorry #but seriously.... there is so much happening i dont know whats real and what isnt.#i wanted to think Tower of Secrets was just AU but now with the whole growing jasmine parallel and Linkon City being years in the past....?#ffs i need some theories cuz im just sending myself down a rabbit hole trying to decide what's going on #like what? am i just popping up in zaynes dreams to save him from loneliness while he helps me save the universe from getting access to my #and pops up in Raf's life to rescue him after losing everything while he also magically helps me save the universe from the aether's power #and Xai/Lumiere who's what... like 300+ years old somehow knows who i am?#WHO AM I? some dimension-jumping dream-hopping timeline-skipping superhuman with the core strength of 10000 suns and i don't even remember?#i need to read the rest of Xai's lore....#anyways welcome to the end of the tags. i hope you had fun. if you made it this far.... i am so sorry 🤣

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kingprinceleo · 4 months

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Maybe doing another or a new hobby can help ! Maybe baking could help, even if u are not really good at it from the get go, is a fun thing to try out

i really should try to get into other hobbies but its very hard!! i have really bad perfectionism habits and immediately drop things im not instantly good at jfdgn and the Horrors make it hard for me to squeeze dopamine out of anything </3 tbh if anyone has suggestions for like, cheap things to do im listening fdbhjghjb

#i feel bad for complaining so often but man. there is not much good in my life rn #like im truly sorry that i keep biden blasting my blog with 2012 emo ranting #i just got nothin !!! to do!!! to think about!!#i cant even really generate art ideas anymore bc im becoming so far removed from a human person that my mind is just blank all the damn tim #shitty sketch of tails lifting a log to look at bugs is the most creative thing ive done in weeks #i really had to work for that idea #god im just. im numb im tired i want to die #i dont know how to be a person anymore and i feel like im losing my mind #cw vent #cw suicidal thoughts

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prayingfordemise · 6 months

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Maybe once I leave, you can be happy again/find happiness again. I know you’ll be just fine without me

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camelspit · 8 months

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something something gisela would be taken more seriously as a villain if she were male

#idk man.#i feel. like.#shes the kind of villain people would love. if she were male.#faulty insane scientist or whatever #and she would just be taken more seriously!#take the keefe situation for instance.#cassius is always labeled as the worse parent but. reverse the roles for a moment #if she was the male and cassius was the female do you really think it would be that way #idk man #i feel like even shannons done her a bit dirty #shes given gisela this master plan but no real motive #like. at least fintan has one.#idk i feel like the same thing goes for vespera #numb person freed from prison after thousands of years and likes to torture people for science?#and yet. almost no content for her.#and she. got crushed by a rock. and we never did get the backstory #like why did she go numb shannon? shannon?#maybe im looking to deep into it but #maybe im also just fucking sick of male characters getting the attention all the time #lmao sorry guys </3 guess this kinda turned into a vent post #my bad #kotlc

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ivys-head-is-spinning · 10 days

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why the fuck can’t my family have one good day? Why do they always have to fight and get mad at me for everything. I’m so done.

#sorry for the vent #haha ANOTHER ivy shit post #Why are they like this #i wish I could move out #I love them but it’s hard to live with them #I feel bad being upset with them #Idk #im done man

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