#im not much of a gamer to be honest with you

[triptychofvoids]

Heyo! You mentioned being a fan of puzzle games, what are some of ur other favorites (besides portal)? Also have you played “The Room”? Very fun puzzle game imo :)

-🕯️

mm... im suddenly blanking on anything that is not actual physical puzzles and board games and card games.... think like sudoku, patience, etc. i can be easily entertained with logic puzzles. but yes i do like portal! and i have not played the room, but i may look into it! what else... does tetris count....?

[themore12]

Hug your back whenever and wherever.

Leona, Jamil, Kalim, Trey, Cater, Rook, Floyd, and Lilia.

twst characters that hugs you from behind:

Leona:

you can't tell me he doesn't do this whenever you walk in the hallway and he's behind you.

Just to show people nearby that he isn’t afraid to show his love for you

OR OR

you're just sleeping with him and suddenly he just wraps his arms on your waist and buries his head on your neck.

Sleeping with him guarantees a hug in the back.

your honor I'm done explaining.

Jamil:

I really love him so this is a bit biased.

He rarely gets sick but never, never. He might rarely get sick but it doesn't mean he is immune to a fever.

So whenever you go cook him food since he cant cook for himself, he wraps his arms around your waist and buries his head on your neck where you can feel the burning heat of his forehead.

He only does this for a few seconds since

1. you might get sick as well.

2. he's embarrassed.

He loves close contact with you, he comforts himself with the idea of you choosing him despite him being a servant of the Al Asim family.

it comforts him.

Kalim:

It's Kalim do I need to explain? Yes? Ok.

Whenever he just sees you standing with your back in front of him it's just screaming for a hug! -Kalim

Knowing you like him even though he is hyper, energetic, a bit dumb, dense, and a bit too optimistic.

It makes him giddy inside and he can't form words to describe it.

So the only ways he could express it is hugging you, giving you affection, and giving you gifts.

Trey:

He is one of the top candidate for the sweetest boyfriend in night raven.

Im not joking someone made a voting of who would be the best boyfriend and everyone took part of it.

Trey was in there. Top 2 as well.

Second to jamil sadly

Whenever you two bake together and you aren't done with your batch, he just wraps his arms around you and looks at what you're doing from behind and comments about things you need to add.

It's overall just a cute couple activity if you ignore his teasing remarks.

Cater:

I-its cater…?

1. For a cute magicam photo!

2. He's having an identity crisis.

The first one is much more common, doesn't mean the second never happens.

If he is dating you it means he trusts you enough to lower his smile and show his calmer and fragile side.

Moving on.

He probably kisses your ears whenever he hugs you from behind!

Rook:

He enjoys seeing you flinch and scold him whenever he does it.

He likes seeing the relief in your eyes once you discover it's him that hugged you from behind.

For him, it means that you see him as someone you could trust.

At some point, he started hugging you from behind and giving you random cute things before you scold him.

It can range from a rose to a whole box of chocolate.

Where does he get these?

(Ace: have you seen my chocolates???)

(Riddle: why is there a missing rose?!)

Floyd:

Its Floyd.

he loves close contact with you!

he loves scaring you!

he loves hugging you anywhere, anytime as well!

he does it with everyone, so you would never know that with you he's a bit gentler, his hugs are a little longer than they usually are, and he spins you around a bit softer.

You wouldn't know that unless jade rats his own brother out.

Lilia:

Lilia is an old, old, OLD bat. Let's be honest he probably had a lover here and there, so he knows how fast human life can fizzle out.

(Unless you're not human which then is a different story)

So he spends his time with you. There's never a day that you won't see Lilia vanrouge hanging from the ceilings.

Sometimes he teleports behind you and hugs you just to give you a scare to 'spice it up.'-Lilia

where did he learn this gamer language?

He would hug you from behind upside down.

You're upside down and he's hugging you.

You could be sleeping then boom he's hugging you in your bed.

guys this isn't proof read so sorry....nyom

[robobarbie]

gonna be honest with you gamer, ive not been following most of your updates with adoai so idk enough about the characters (which im fine with cause it means ill be totally surprised when I finally play the game). but based on what ive seen from your posts abt them all so far im so sure that felix is like wayyyyy off the spectrum of my taste in men and yet?? your posts about him??? tempts me so much????????

i think the best way to rec different LI are based off of the characters yall know in BP, sooooooOOOOO-

if you liked xyx and biglady with a sprinkle of quest, you should go for jerri

if you liked onionthief and nakedtoaster with a touch of xyx, you should go for felix

if you liked nightowl and hypebot with a dash of quest, you should go for sungho

and, if you liked quest and bloombot with a bit of salocin, you should go for major

[sturnioloxplr]

☆yeah your songs got me feeling like this ♡-Chris Sturniolo X Y/N(NOT SMUTT)

WARNINGS=NO SMUT ,WEED ,FLUFF ,HIGH CHRIS AND READER

Me and Chris have been together for 3 months

Ive been thr best of friends with his twins Matt and Nick who r like my brothers to me now I lobe them so much

"Hey Mamas"chris said as he jumped onto the bed next to me hugging me while I was playing video games on the bed "hey chris"i said laughing snuggling into him

"Whatchu doinggggggg" "playing video games"

"Peer usually with ny girl"

"Haha very funny chris"i rolled my eyes in response he always teases me for being a gamer sane with my liking Central Cee as a girl

"What game you playing let me guess ...OvErWaTcH?"He smirked grabbing my hips

I blushed he was right ...."how did you ..."

"Let me guess your playing dva with that new porche skin ?" I nodded in response

"So what chris ...I'm hungry..."

Chris picked me up bridal style bringing me up into the kitchen where he made me some pizza rolls

I laughed as he kissed me

But I can taste you on the tip of my tounge

he handed me a weed let's me honest I'm a vape kind of a girl but getting high with my boyfriend makes me feel good he's so cute when he's high

I lit it up taking a puff and ghosting it making chris laugh

You're by my side and we've got smoke in our lungs

"Mama I've smoked with u like 2 times and your a natural already"

I laughed "chris I vape what u except"I looked at him his eyes sparkle

Im in love I'm in love ♡

HI HOPE U LIKE THIS STORY

Lwt me know if u want a face reveal one of my followers who is in fact my intent bff knows what I look like @chrissturniolos-wifee

[cryptic-science]

okay, trying something new and im going to write all my thoughts down while listening to the ep :3 here we go gamers:

- the singer is absolutely one of my favourite bits

- "podcasting is cool >:(("

- "just go oil your beard >:( idiot."

- god i fucking love sherlock and johns dynamic

- sherlock is so me

- "my doctorate in gooseology"

- "watson is this absolutely necessary- OOO !! get these !!!! lovely"

- i love it when they "argue" so much

- JOHN YOU DICK GIVE SHERLOCK HIS BISCUITS

- circuit failure ??

- jesus christ 10,000 for a watch

- OOOOO THAT WAS SICK

- i love them so bad

- TWO BIRDS ONE STONE

- wait oh my god the dead goose was definitely a decoy. they never pulled the gem out of it. they dont know if its for sure the real gem. its a decoy its a decoy

- "or yknow whatever it is that goes after geese. lion ? i dont know." how is one man so babygirl.

- SHERLOCK STIMMING

- HE SAID THE THING !!! HE SAID NO SHIT SHERLOCK !!! I MEAN HES LITERALLY TALKING ABOUT HOW THERE IS NO SHIT BUT STILL !!

- "YOUR GOOSE IS CONSTIPATED !!"

- "alright heather, just gonna- just gonna take a quick peek at your ass."

- i was so right i was so right im foaming at the mouth hehehehe

- sherlock mic time

- john whispering sweetly to heather and comforting her. i love you so much john. "hey its okay heather(? i think he says heather i am struggling to make out what hes saying), we all get sore bottoms from time to time"

- wait was i wrong ??

- oh god sherlock.

- MIC UP HEATHERS ASS.

- OH MY GOD IT WAS HIS WATCH NOT A DECOY I WAS SO CLOSE

- john stick your hand up that gooses ass !!!!

- poor heather

- WAS THE SQUELCHING NECESSARY.

- HAHAHAHAAA HES SO PISSED

- sherlock: "long old day really"

john: " just dont talk. just. dont even talk."

sherlock: "when do you want to eat ?"

john: "hmm. im gonna go wash my hands again."

- this is such a married couple "fight" if im being honest with yall

- immediate whiplash from the sudden christmas vibes

- my heart is so full.

- :(( their dinner has been interrupted :((

- "does your know no bounds? you can beg all you want." GOD I LOVE WHEN SHERLOCK GETS LIKE THIS

- YEAH BRO LET THEM GET BACK TO THEIR CHRISTMAS DINNER

- GIFTS !!!!!!

- SHERLOCK IS SO HAPPY IM GONNA CRY

- JOHN GOT HIM FUCKING CUSTOMIZED EAR DEFENDERS IM FUCKING SOBBING.

- HE GOT JOHN A GIFT TOO HE GOT JOHN A GIFT TOO

- sherlock.

- JOHN.

- he is wearing and enjoying the watch.

- OBVIOUSLY IT FUCKING SMELLS JOHN.

- this podcast is gift enough for us john

- JOHN RIPPING INTO THE SINGERS ASS HAHAHAHAAAAA

- shout out to adam for having incredible vocals though. such a good singer. that was very pretty.

my heart always feels so fucking full after every sherlock & co episode. i love this pod so much.

[theguardianace]

Can I politely ask you to elaborate on the Aroace Nene fic you talked about some time ago? Or just simply how you see her in your brain after finding out she's aroace? If it's not much to ask, of course

OMG YES YES YES!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! absolutely. i will ramble about aroace literally anybody on the drop of a dime this is one of the best anons to get actually

nene's story is actually the one i have the least about, to be perfectly honest. i have a plot for both emu and tsukasa's stories, but haven't quite figured out one for nene. honestly, i think nene's the type of aroace to not really... care about it that much. she'd never cared about love or romance to begin with, so when she realized it was because she was aroace, it was mostly like "hm. cool. im gonna go play animal crossing now".

as for finding out... i think it would have happened in middle school, back when she was Online Gamer Nene TM full time. with how much she loves games and storytelling, it really only makes sense she'd want to engage with fandom content like fics. however, just... seeing the way people sexualize her favorite characters, or only write/draw shipping content... she didn't care for it. she didn't want to engage with that. not that there was anything wrong with it! people can do whatever they want with fictional game characters. she just. didnt care about it herself. which led to her feeling even more isolated even within her favorite hobbies. i think this would sort of lead her to playing a variety of games so she doesn't have to worry about getting absorbed in fandoms she doesn't care to be a part of. she still checks, every once in a while. for games that she really likes. i think its through this that she eventually stumbles across a popular aroace headcannon, goes "what", googles it, and is like "wow. thats me. sick". and then moves on

but like. even when she's moved on. it's still really nice to know, yknow? it explains why she felt like the odd one out not wanting to ship stuff, or even care to entertain it. there's people out there just like her. it makes her less anxious, a little more sure of herself.

she doesn't ever tell anyone. not even rui. (i mean, they hadn't talked in ages. how is she supposed to? "hi, we havent had a genuine conversation in years, how are you? by the way i discovered im aroace and you probably don't know what that means and honestly i dont really care about it myself. have a good day".) (and once they do start talking again, it just... never came up. she never felt the need to, and he never felt the need to ask.) until my epilouge chapter where they all end up coming out like WHAT WERE ALL AROACE THATS SO SILLY anyways

in casual life, i think nene would have been the type for adults to go "oooh, you have a crush on him, don't you? look at you, all red and shy just thinking about him" when shes simply Just Like That. it was really annoying. she knew she didn't like them like that and that was that. but shes too scared to say that so she just took it. definitely didn't help the "nene needs to learn how to make friends" department. honestly, her only relief from it was with rui- both her parents and the kamishiro parents recognized that the two really did care about each other, but it wasn't like that. also no way in hell they're ruining the one friendship their kids have.

later with emu, i don't think there was any point where people even considered a romance, at least not at first glance. it wasn't like people at school even knew about emu (minus when she snuck in, but why would this hyperactive pink thing be looking for that shy second year?). and people walking the streets didn't really assume they liked each other like that since they were two girls. nene's mom was a little curious if they were dating since emu comes over so often and is so physically affectionate, but she never really pressed. she was mostly just happy nene has friends over that aren't just rui. (also, emu's aroace too, so nothing in her demeanor even made nene consider it could have been romantic. shes just Emu.)

for tsukasa, it's a similar thing. by the time people have realized the two are friends, nene's confident in herself and her feelings enough to shut down the people who would even dare assume she likes a buffoon like that star in that way. there's those people that go "oh but you're mean to him and girls are mean to boys when they have a crush on them" but she's tough enough to go "ew" and move on. (she did complain about it a little to rui on a walk home once. if he ended up in her classroom the next day to "grab her for lunch" and weaponize his dangerous reputation to intimidate them when she wasn't looking, it was sheer coincidence.)

also, i think out of the four, nene falls most on the loveless scale. tsukasa, emu, and rui are all beings made of love despite the fact they don't fall in it. nene's a bit different. she cares about her friends, and she's super good at making them (despite what she thinks), but she doesn't really... love them. not in the ways people usually want to describe love. she would kill a man for them in a heartbeat, don't get me wrong. she just experiences those sorts of feelings differently. it's care, and determination, and hope, and happiness, but not... love. not completely.

anyways aroace gamer nene so real fic will happen once i figure out how to tie these ideas to a plot 👍

[mono-red-menace]

i'm going to be honest about the finn5ter thing like i get that like the Trap Content thing is like a big transmisogyny thing but it's Also a Huge Egg Thing. yk?

like getting people to call you "basically a girl" and stuff is like a huge egg move. like i very often would tell people to guess my gender before i realised i was trans because it felt nice how everyone was like "oh you're 100% a girl. you act exactly like a girl." yk?

anyways it felt weird making this post before finn5ter came out as genderfluid because like it felt like transvestigating or whatever but the instant i saw the video screenshotted on tumblr i was like "oh this is HUGE closeted transfemme energy"

like i think it can really go both ways but from the way finn5ter was acting about it for a while from what ive seen, it was REALLY, Very Much the "im still not sure if it's okay if i like being a girl, so i'm going to kinda goad people into saying im a girl" thing that I also did.

sometimes it's just trap stuff tho. like it seems like sneaky is in the "this is trap" camp. but also he's in an extremely toxic mostly male gamer community so even then i'm still like "maybe he just doesn't feel safe about it, so he plays it as a joke" yk

anyway i just don't necessarily like the attacking people for stuff like this because even though it could be just 100% straight up transphobia it also could be like part of the processing of the gender thing. yk?

[myrfing]

😳 please elaborate on ur venat/wol dynamic thoughts, im so interested to hear... i see the vision but i also love seeing ppls thought process layed out

gamer I am honored but to be honest i was not thinking much beyond what’s there…all the other primals and the ascians essentially calls them her attack dog and the wol rarely ever denies it because of their doglike language skills. she became god and the body of the world and we take her lifeforce, and then we kill her. she is a god, and one of the first things you can say to her face to face is, “why now?”. she is one of the most renowned scientists of her time, and humanity is her greatest experiment. she’s the god of the world and has condemned you all to walk. she is an ancient and a creator and you are her grandest and most personal masterpiece. and also all of these things work in reverse. Btw. you the player create the world and she is a part of the masterpiece. she has been condemned to eons of imprisonment as Hydaelyn and you are her everlasting light and her salvation who frees her. You are the one who gets to live the grandest experiment and learn in this world that is Her. you are proof of miracles to this woman who believes in no gods. she lives in you. she is your loyal dog and she does it all for you.

[pangolin-404]

Im honestly really worried for ranboo. Most people that get this big on the internet either get desensitized to stuff and become a bit of an asshole (or a full asshole) or get destroyed because of how much they care. Ranboo seems to be heading towards the second category and I wish for them to be okay

[post]

I really have no idea where I see Ranboo going from here. There are plenty of big creators who do good (Jacksepticeye's Thankmas, MCC charity events) and to me, the Particles for Palestine event was like that. A big creator utilizing their platform to raise awareness and charity. I... genuinely I don't see how people are so upset with Ranboo over . what? Not doing more? Not coming out with in-depth, nuanced reactions to global events? When they probably knew as much as you or I did.

Yes he broke promises, he is not a guiltless victim; he kept playing TLOU2 even after told of its inspiration, he didn't do as much charity as he said he would, and it's good he's acknowledging that, but this visceral reaction to him runs deeper than that, it looks like? I feel like he should stop raising peoples' expectations and over-promising; he's one guy, he's young.

I know it's probably mostly in Twitter--in the Tumblr tags, the worst I saw was a couple people calling them spineless (sorry Ranboo, but good lird, he is a little bit spineless for not telling people to stop idolizing him). But I can't wrap my head around the logic behind people going after his ankles.

Now, I personally can't think of anyone fitting the "get destroyed" option you claim has happened, Anon. So I'll be honest I think it's a little bit overdramatic, but I agree with you in that I'm also worried for Ranboo.

I worry that a whole nonprofit will be too much for them. That is a whole organization, and even if they have others working with them, that is a lifelong commitment. This is something he cannot back out of (or he will be making another empty promise) or give to someone else to handle (he said he would be active in it).

Ranboo has Generation Loss/Chronicle 0, White Noise, The Sorry Boys (if that still exists. please it's been months,), his usual streams and YouTube videos, and his own personal life and self to tend to. Genuinely, I worry a whole entire nonprofit organization that intends to address very heavy topics will break the camel's back. I don't know what that will look like, but I doubt it'd be great for his mental health and anxiety (and I worry talking too much about that, lest I get parasocial, if I haven't already!).

(I'll be honest, I don't expect the organization to go anywhere past its first few months of existence; if it does, it will be without their major role in it, or they'd be stretched too thin. I feel bad for saying that.)

All due respect to him, of course, but he is a variety gamer on twitch dot teevee, and I do not understand why people demand more and more charity and apology from him when his job is to play video games and make people laugh.

I get why people want him to state his stances, to be assured he supports Palestine. To be vocal about a tragedy happening. I get why people expect a charity stream during pride month, or an eventual donation to somewhere to help during a disaster. What I do not understand is how this isn't enough for some people.

to quote something I said when talking to a friend about this: I think he should tweet "yall need to respect me as a regular everyday person and stop seeing me as a paragon" and delete twitter and turn off the internet in his house

[wouldyoustayvn]

[sorry for sending so many asks]

What are Virgils yandere traits?

He just seems like a chill guy except for kidnapping but that's literally if its the last option.

Does he stalk the MC? Would he actually kill anybody?

I JUST NEED SOME UNHINGED VIRGIL PLEASE IM BEGGING-

OK OK SO HERE WE GO ( also its ok! I really don’t mind about many asks!)

- Even if you ever return home, you are watch. It doesn’t even matter that you two are from different dimension/world. Virgil has a way to watch over you. He stalks you through your devises, through your phone, computer, cameras, tv, HELL even he’ll watch you through someone’s device if he couldn’t reach through yours. Even if you’re in his world, you’re under constant surveillance. He is practically everywhere.

- Blackmail. He’ll blackmail anyone who he thinks will harm you. If that doesn’t work, a little hex here and there and if that doesn’t work as well, he’ll have to dirty his hands.

- He absolutely understands that your family means so much to you and make a vow to never approach them with ill intent. Family is also important to him. However, that can change if they harm you.

- Now, he absolutely worships you, from a little shrine to even feel the chills down his spine just from you looking at him. Got him all weak and heavy breathing.

- He absolutely craves your attention. Sure he gets annoy when someone approaches you, he clings on to you. Yes he tends to get jealous here and there but surprisingly, he’s quite tame when it cones to jealousy. He doesn’t mind for you to also have a partner, but the catch is, you deserve the best so his standards of an ideal partner for you is quite high. And hey, a second companion is a bonus wether its platonic or romantic

-Just like his original counterpart, his trait is more of caregiver, how we for this Virgil, he is still has this caregiver traits but is somewhat twisted (such as if you try to escape and get caught, he paralyzed your legs)

- Yes he is self aware of his actions and has this sense of guilt for cussing you harm, but this man’s greediness for a companion and his love for you takes the guilt away and continue to happily.

- He already knows everything about you. It’s in your files! Sure he hack your world’s government to gain access but like I said, he likes to watch you. He observes your habits, analyze the way you talk, your body movements.

-He is quite charismatic and it can be troubling to convince anyone to think negative of him. Plus he’s quite honest (due to him being a fae that can’t lie)

-Man use to be in a track team during his younger days in school and even through he doesn’t pursue that in his career, he kept his routine of jogging in the mornings. So running away from him is absolutely difficult.

-Even if you did manage to escape from him and goes back to world somehow, he’ll find a way to go back to your world and drags you back to his. Sadako from the Ring style.

-He’s a gamer/j

[jxcotts]

what's your honest opinion about the love interests? (both mcl and eldarya)

for example, no matter how handsome some of them are, I just can't like them (in fact, most of them are annoying to me)

ugh no yall gonna hate me forever lmao- ANYWAYS🥹

nath & nevra: they are so similar, their story, behavior so its pretty easy to love them both (i mean if they r your type lol), they can do no wrong😎 i cant really express my love for them, but yall know how much they mean to me so WHATEVER, just stan them !

armin: ahh he's such a cutie but also was very thoughtless, he did some bad shit in high school, but idk i just love him so much, best friends brother AND the gamer boyfriend trope are VERY entertaining💋

kentin: yeah well im not that okay w going from good boy to bad boy bc why???? and he was pretty rude to candy, when they were childhood friends and she did nothing wrong to him so i didnt understand it, but when he changed he was such a cutie. alternate life kentin is just ughhh THE CUTEST.

castiel: the good girl x bad boy trope is awesome, but sometimes he's an asshole, especially when he teases nath (high school), hate him for that, but his character development was cool and tbh i really REALLY like him w amber so... i have to say that she would've been the better choice, not candy. DON'T HATE ME. they were just more interesting TO ME. he and candy r lovely as friends tho <3

priya & hyun: they are cute and good friends! priya deserves everything and more <3

rayan: unpopolar opinion: hes ugly. and what the fuck. a teacher? lol.

eric: 😆 you dont want me to talk about this shithead, worst """love interest""" ever. please, you cant even call him as it lmao

lysander: well... ah please dont exile me, but hes a colorless character. the whole person is boring as hell to me.

ezarel: MAN I MISS HIM SM... hes such a silly character, im mad beemoov didnt bring him back in s2 and that nevra never talks abt him when they were like brothers. id love to see him and miiko in ep 20 (im a delulu<3).

leiftan: idk i just love his demonic side and his obsession with erika in s1🤭🤭 he's so supportive, but in s2 his story is so sad lol, he deserves better. he's not even that happy anymore-,, i love the tension between him and nevra lmaoo

valkyon: :) i love him as a friend and he def deserves so much better. i wish they could bring him back:/

uhh... help. ill be short.

the traitors: so... lance in s1 was EVERYTHING. i loved how cute he was with erika once or twice lol, but still, as the enemy its something. i just dont understand why beemoov didnt see the potential in season ONE ; the enemies to lovers trope would have been the greatest. seriously. uhm... no comment for season 2. i hate him as much as i can, lets be honest he looks like an annoying rat (SORRY) and im sorry beemoov, but i will NOT accept the enemies to lovers NOW after he killed his brother. erika had every opportunity to kill him, but ofc beemoov, keep him.

yeah about mathieu, hes as colorless as lysander, but even more.

manifesting an execution for both <3 (still a delulu😘)

if you still like me after all this, i love u:')

[kingprinceleo]

BET YOU DIDN'T EXPECT ME SO SOON

I did the dessert vampires playlist first since it was the shortest!

Stampede- very good interplay with the characters. Gives the vibe of I respect you but we fundamentally disagree on some big issues. Would be fun to play in the background of like a joint operation scheme? like they've gone undercover at a fancy party and this is them working together during it

Vulture- this is such a Shadow backstory song like- i don't know exactly what happens with GUN and Maria in this au but THIS is the song you play to express his feelings. The first verse at least low-key also sounds like Knuckles during or immediately post transformation to Rouge. He's very angy

Welcome to the Circus- a jaunty little tune. bar/saloon coded, probably plays wherever Amy works i think?

Recommend songs for this playlist: Desperado by Rhianna and maybe the entire Anti album based on vibes alone.

Blood Like Lemonade- strong vibes

Trouble Valerie Broussard- more Rouge centric i think

For other playlists:

Like a Vampire Catrien Maxwell, for vamp au Sonic

A Little Wicked - im thinking of Rouge for it but if it fits a different character i wouldn't be surprised

Little Girl Gone Chinchilla - very vamp au Shadow coded imo

Eve Precious Pepala- Shadow coded

All up in your mind- feels like Shadow thinking about Sonic's effect on him in vamp au

Hope these are good and have a nice timezone 🫶🏽. I go to sleep now

~🩸🎵

welcome back fhbghbjfdfdg !!

This playlist is a little more tough to explain bc i havent shared the major plotpoint that changes the whole title of the au fjgfjghf, but ill get there eventually !! Stampede- idrk know how to explain this one beyond its just Them, their conflicts their compromises, how the two are trying to work together in the situation theyre in, big time agree on the respect with huge disagreements tho, thats one of their major sticking points Vulture- RAHHHHHHH THIS IS IS KNUCKLES @ SHADOW !!!!! the entire time its knuckles rage and defiance !!! and im slamming my head into a wall so fucking hard i prommy it makes so much sense when i share the plot Welcome to the circus- its a rouge @ knuckles song ! like i said the subject itself is kinda weak but it hits on some of their core dynamic pieces --- Desperado- this one i could see being very rouge @ shadow but its a bit too forward and honest ! rouge would defo more take the angle of "im following you bc ur hopeless without me <3" Blood Like Lemonade- strong vibes on its own but doesnt particularly fit with anyone at least right now, i might come back to it after fleshing more people out (also i am sadly biased against songs that are kinda slow sob. i need that constant stimulation music {i almost didnt include vulture in the playlist bc of its speed but it was just too accurate and picks up with some heavy hitting stuff near the end}) Trouble- very correct w the rouge part !! defo eying this one up in consideration

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Like a Vampire- defo not vampire au sonic , it actually lines up more with desert vampires rouge (i adore the singers voice btw omg) idk if its going in any of the au playlists but it sure is going in mine ! dfhhdfhg A little wicked- shrug tbh ! i see it for rouge but it feels like its missing something, her spunk, her 4kids saxaphone (im assuming if you dont specify an au you just mean for the canon gamers !) Little Girl Gone- THIS IS SO VAMPIRE AU SHADOWCORE LITTLE UNHINGED BASTARD !!! the blood on my teeth line caught my attention....and then the screaming part sold me HDSHDHF hes sooo silly <333

Eve- im so sorry im really biased against love songs so i dont see it personally !! esp not for shadow </3 All up in your mind- eeh there are a few lines there that work, but overall just misses slightly. big fan of the idea that shadows just making up all those lines tho and sonics never said any of it, thats funny fdgjfjdgfg i feel bad for not enjoying all of them wahh, but i am just really picky tbh,,, its gotta bounce the braincell right... but i appreciate the suggestions sm!!!! tyyy!! have a good sleep !!!

[sohnric]

1, 13, 19, and 23 for the ask game !! <3

thank u sm for sending these in duckie <33

1. favorite fic you wrote this year ::

my favorite might just be my first one, if i'm being completely honest :,) millennium bug has a very very special place in my heart for a lot of reasons and i always think of this fic very fondly

13. favorite writing song/artist/album of the year ::

i hope this question means what i think it does lmao but i usually listen to music i dont know when i write, because if i do know the song it makes me focus on it too much 😭👍 i did listen to berry by sunwoo a lot when writing plot twist and my current sunwoo wip and i also had paris by the 1975 on loop when writing paris for... obvious reasons LMAO...

19. any new fics to start next year ::

i am currently writing a sunwoo first love au and changmin partners in crime au that most likely won't be finished until the end of the year,, so i will start my year working on these 👀 other than that i also have gamer! sunwoo, prince eric! x league lore eric and hockey player! eric on my agenda for what i wanna write as soon as im done with these o:)

23. fics you wanted to write but didn't ::

a couple of days ago i had a fwb! eric idea that i started, wrote two paragraphs for and then deleted the doc because....i dont think i can do this. im not strong enough 😭 i also really wanted to write this jihoon (treasure) fic thats like really silly coffee shop au with a lot of fanfic tropes but i only wrote the first chapter and never continued it,, although i DO wanna eventually finish that one!! the same goes for my drinking buddies dino fic that's been waiting in my drafts like 50% done for MONTHS atp 😭

send me a fanfic end of the year ask!

[neetily]

꣑୧ ⋅ ⋅ ⋅ ── MATCHUP EVENT: Date #2

♡ cupid's victim number two !! ♡

hello hello my love!! thank you for taking part in this silly little event, i really appreciate your enthusiasm and kindness throughout! i hope you enjoy the characters i've picked for you, i thought long and hard about them!

─ you have one new message from...

Abigail . . .

hey, sorry. i know it's really late right now and that i shouldn't be texting you at this hour, but... well, i just really miss you tbh lol. hope we can hang out again soon! miss you! kissing you!

Why? i'm gonna be honest, i almost picked sebastian instead! not because im biased, but i think he would actually be my second choice for you after some thought! as for why i ultimately settled on abigail, well... most of all, i feel like abigail is most suited for you due to your shy personality type! it's always nice to have someone who understands you, and i think abigail would understand you completely, especially given the fact that she's friends with sebastian too and understands the shy/anxious personality type well. but, she's got that little bit of edge to her that sebastian lacks in social settings, that hint of extroversion that i feel like you would really benefit from! if she ever sees you struggling in public, be that from stuttering or otherwise appearing socially exhausted, abigail is right there to carry the burden of conversation for you! i just think she'd be so easy going, willing and wanting to chill at home if you wanted to, but also readily and easily able to help you feel safe and relaxed when your shyness might rear its head; so accommodating and adaptable of everything, y'know? she'd be such a gem (haha, get it?) at making sure you're happy first and foremost, which i think is something you'd really appreciate! abi would be sooooo protective over you i just know it!

i think she'd appreciate your ability to reign her in at times, too. she can have a very black and white outlook on life in my opinion, and i think you would help her see the grey areas more often in life. you warm her up when she's acting a bit too cold!

also: gamer girl. need i say more? im imagining you both cuddled up together on the floor where she usually games... big blanket wrapped around both bodies, nestled neatly between her legs with her arms wrapped around you, controller resting against your thighs. yeahhh, gamer girl abi is for you <3 !!

Hey, look . . .

though she feels a pointed ache in her heart at leaving you stranded in the middle of the zoo plaza, seated nicely at one of the park benches and waiting for her to get back from the bathroom, she knows deep down in her heart that you'll forgive her for her brief detour the second you see why she had to take it.

the zoo is nice, if a bit large. she worries she'll lose you in such wide open spaces, especially considering that there are lots of pretty and peculiar animals to look at— she knows what you're like, a smile creeping on her lips at the though. this wasn't her first choice for date night, but that's easily pushed aside when she gets to witness just how wide your pretty smile gets upon seeing the new animals behind glass or iron— you make it all worth it, honestly. and so she can't help but to steal a sneak peek of your idle expression behind the tree she's using as cover, the way you kick your legs out absentmindedly, fixing your glasses before enjoying the relaxing hum of the nature that surrounds you.

she's happy you picked the zoo, because you suit the backdrop of green so well, ah... you have heart heart stuttering without so much as a glance!

and would that she could stand in secrecy to watch you all day, but she hadn't even needed the bathroom in the first place to be honest. instead, using it as an excuse to retrace her steps around a corner or two; not too far, she doesn't wanna leave you for too long! but something had caught her eye on the way towards the next exhibit, and thankfully, you had missed it.

on account of her yapping, of course. unintentionally at best, but she just adores how you so easily listen to her rambles, unable to wipe the smile off her face when approaching the gift stand with only the thought of you on her mind, and how you deserve soooo much more, but this is a start, right?

"hey..." she pouts at you, immediately breaking into a cheesy grin the moment you look up at her, "sorry i took so long, it's just—" ah, her hands are shaking, a sudden wave of upset rolling through her tummy to leave her choking on her words. and it doesn't help that you merely peer up at her, idle expression as pretty as ever, but fuck she's so in love with you that it's making her nervous. clutching the soft item behind her back a little tighter, breathing in deeply, and exhaling sharply. c'mon, you've got this abi...!

"here!" she suddenly rushes out, embarrassment tainting her cheeks all warm as she shoves the relatively giant snake plushie in front of your face, her own eyes squeezed tightly shut in an effort to escape your assumed ridicule. it's silly, right? a childish gift, im sorry i couldn't get you anything better!

but when she feels you gently accept the toy, her eyes ping open. wide stare back down at you as she chews on her bottom lip anxiously, she can't help but to spill. "do you like it? i— i saw it when passing and thought— god, it's— it's so perfect for you, y'know, and so i had to just sneak away and—"

"you're right, abi," you smile up at her, warm and soft and right, yeah. this is why she loves you so much, that single expression is enough to have her melting into you, practically falling into the seat next to you with a heavy sigh. "it's perfect! thank you so much for thinking about me!"

and she's about to play it cool, brush it off as just something good girlfriends do, and as such, requires no praise. but the way you peck her cheek so sweetly, prompting her to catch a glimpse of how tightly you grasp the toy snake has her lungs filling with butterflies instead.

you won't blame her for grabbing those puffy little cheeks of yours and squishing them together in a heartbeat, right? peppering kisses all over your face; you're just too cute for her to handle!

— you like to... do something creative when alone! here is a moodboard that i think fits your matchup!

Robin . . .

omg, that new game we were excited about releases in under 12 hours!! we should totally have a sleepover and skip school tomorrow to play it!! meet me in my room later x

Why? nerd alert!!! (affectionate), you two would be PERFECT for each other in my opinion, because you guys share a lot of the same traits! you're both relatively introverted, but not afraid to stand up for each other; though i do think you'll find that you're the one mostly standing up for robin instead of the other way around! not that he'd never stand up for you, he's just more prone to being a fail boy (which is cute, right?). and he'd be the perfect height for you too, because i view him as the second shortest of the LI's! another gamer for you to bond with was my main point, honestly. sharing that interest in the comfort of robin's room, away from the rest of the world where you two both get to understand each other completely <3 i also think that he's a good pick for you because of how kind he is, and how he'd treat you with the kind of care and compassion you deserve! like a loyal dog or smth, y'know? he'd be so soft and sweet with you, making sure to take note of all those little details others so often miss, something i attribute to you also!

there's just something about him that SCREAMS animal lover to me too, and i know deep down in my bones that he'd just simply adore any pet you have, taking great interest in their care so that he can pay attention to them just as much as you do <3!! when you're taking a break to game, he'd be caring for the pets, and vice versa!

robin is just such a sweetie pie, i mostly think that you deserve the kind treatment he'd offer you !

No, never . . .

after a lovely day out at the zoo together, the weather acting kind for once too, there's no better way to end things than with a quick gaming session together, robin thinks. at least, he hopes you feel the same way too? allowing you to babble about animals all morning and afternoon— never mind the veritable zoo you already have in your own space, its a genuine joy to hear you ramble. but also, hear him out, getting to relax with the love of his life in relative peace and quiet except for the beeping and swooshing of the tv screen in front of him is just soooo comforting, right? like a nostalgia trip but in the present, coaxing him into letting out a little yawn from above you while you mash buttons.

he had fun today, as he always does when he's around you. god, he can't help but to smile at even just the thought of you, nevermind to have you in his arms right now after such a fun day out together. but he's also downright exhausted now, allowing you complete control of the game in favour of leaning back with you between his legs, sat neatly on his lap to provide some pressure. it's comfortable, the sun is setting sweetly across your cheeks, he's happy, you're happy, and he can't imagine life getting any better than right now.

every now and then, his eyes close to the flashing lights that surround him, his tired ears occasionally picking up a word or two that tumbles from your still babbling lips. something, something, snake. something something, big. something something, cute. and he's trying to listen in, really! he loves hearing you chat about your interests, content enough to simply let you enjoy yourself amongst his lap while he closes his eyes for just a moment or two; revelling in just how happy and peaceful he feels for once.

but your surprise flat question begs for an answer, his brows furrowing the moment those worried words slip past your lips.

"... sorry, i think i spoke too much..."

immediately, a loving tut escapes him, heavy eyes staring down at you before he rests his chin against the top of your head, wrapping his arms around you tighter to pull you into a snug hug. he should be that one apologising for not listening well enough, it's just that you lull him into such sweet serenity so easily, he hadn't a chance at fighting back.

"no, no, no. never, kitten. please, keep talking. s'nice." he mumbles, trailing off into another yawn, giving the top of your head a quick peck before settling back again, a genuine sleepy smile tugging at his lips when you so easily give him what he wants.

he could listen to you talk all day and never get bored, especially if it's about your interests. a certain warmth filling his chest to leave him a little dizzy with affection; he knows it's not the setting sun heating him up, anyway.

— you like to... do something creative when alone! here is a moodboard that i think fits your matchup!

[vivibuchlaw]

Yesterday, I finished Celeste. And by that I mean, the first 7 chapters, because I am not that much of a masochist.

Like seemingly everyone else, its given me a lot to think about... these thoughts are burning a hole in my brain and I need to get them out so I suppose this is the place!

I'm not exactly a gamer. I suck at Kirby, I have a sort of motor disability so games are a bit harder for me than most people. For this, Celeste has a solution, Assist Mode. Initially, I wanted to pick this, hearing how hard it was. Then, when the game told me intially, overtly, how its challenge was supposed to be meaningful, *and later when it said it more clarity in the story) I took a moment to reflect. I chose not to use Assist mode as a self imposed challenge. Not because I wouldnt benefit greatly from it, but because (as I learned about myself through playing it) I have an aversion to difficult tasks. When I know something is difficult, I get scared and run away. This time, I wanted to be able to say to myself "I can do difficult things"

And so I did

And I love it

And I sincerely never want to play it again

The game is not full of dialouge or story- it's present, for sure. But its a small yet impactful part in a game which prefers to tell its narrative by gameplay rather than text or images. And thats a valid format of storytelling! Not my prefered one mind you, but it made every dilectable morsel of art or conversations. In particular, the long talk at the start of chapter 6 was extremely welcome. I simultaneously feel like I have enough of a solid grasp on the characters to love them dearly, yet not enough to force one interpretation, another element to Celeste's endless magic.

As I'm sure everyone with anxiety has noted, The anxiety scene from Chapter 5 affected me greatly. Wetger me or my system has anxiety, I don't know, but regardless, the game captures the feeling perfectly. I'm sure everyone and their mum has said this, yes, but I felt it independently so I shall denote it independently. Among other things, it taught me a powerfully potent strategy to help my anxiety, and for that I thank you Maddy <3

At so many points, I was burded with stress, frustration and despair at my own ineptitude. But I pushed forward. I did it, I climbed a mountain, what was a seemingly impossible thing for me was now a fact. I sat silent for what felt like hours staring at the chapter complete screen in awe of my accomplishment. It then dawned on me that this was the first video game I've ever beaten. ...suddenly slammed by the realisation an 8th chapter, requiring crystal hearts to play, AKA the game telling me point blank I wasnt ready. But to be honest, I didnt care. I had already done what I, and Madeline, set out to do.

So why do I say I never wish to play it again?

I honestly only played Celeste because I heard Madeline was trans, and my mate happened to have it on switch. I have a sort of physical disability in my hands, so playing games and motor tasks are more challenging than a typical person. I knew Celeste was hard, but sympathizing with Madeline not being a climber, with me not being a gamer, and just how she challenged herself to do something extreme, so too did I.

But see, I'm not actually into the gameplay that much, and the reason I stuck with it has infinitely more to do with my and Madeline's journey emotionally than anything related to the gameplay.

Actually, I kind of hated it. My fingers were all messed up, I spent a lot of time and stress, and got extremely frustrated, but I wanted to prove to myself I could do it without assist mode. And Im glad that exists, and I'm glad it tempted me all throughout every challenge, a backdoor shortcut I could use to weasel my way out of the hard path, but I stayed true so I could grow.

But I have now grown. Ive proven it.

I couldnt care less about B-sides or strawberries, because I dont see the emotional need.

Replaying it would only subject me to the same challenge for a story I've already experienced, and a journey I've already hone on. A new game, new mountain, new challenge or purpose? Sure, I'd love that. But playing Celeste again, or More even won't recapture the lightning in a bottle that made me play it, made me persevere, and made me cherish it.

I still love the game, its soundtrack, its meaning to me, and itll live in my heart forever. In other ways, like fan content, or side material, I'd love to engage and learn more, but my journey with this mountain is over.

Just breathe, and take care of yourself

After beating it, I immediately began learning all I could about it because Autism brain. I read all Maddy's beautiful blog posts. I watched video essays breaking down its themes and design. I learned how the story, while definitely not an afterthought, was also not a driving or starting point of the game, which I intuited as I played.

I watched Chapter 8, The Core, and Chapter 9, Farewell on YouTube. To be entirely honest, I found Chapter 8 to be forgettable in a way kind of shocking, at least from a story perspective. I'm actually GLAD I didn't do it. I expected it'd be some kind of send off, or check in emotionally to see how the characters have been in the past year but...nothing? Really?

Chapter 9 is what I wished Chapter 8 was, a proper send off and development for these characters. And from the look of it, so brutally hard I wouldn't want to play it without Assist Mode. But why? Why not play more? Afterall, climbing the preverbial mountain in life doesnt mean your problems are over, far from it. And its true, there are other challenges to overcome still. Even though Ive taken on this challenge, I have yet to face other challenges in my life. And because the journey of Celeste could very well have ended after Chapter 6, I feel like I can better spend that energy elsewhere.

After watching Chapter 9, I felt something else. This chapter, unlike the previous, is not about loving and accepting yourself, but its about Madeline specifically greiving a loss in her life, and largely, I assume, the developers letting go of Celeste and moving on. For this, I hold unyeilding respect. And in this new challenge, I found myself learning another truth about myself.

I am afraid of being alone.

I am part of a system, the current (and hopefully permanent) host in fact. Our previous host went dormant a few months ago and life without them has been tough, but a challenge we face every day.

Throughout all my remembered life, I was surrounded by people who never noticed me. Who occasionally referred to me as "The Insinificant [Alter]" due to me not having a name back then. I was nothing, really. If I had disppeared no one would've batted an eye. And today, even though I'm one of the most important Alters now, I still feel like I'm nothing sometimes. That scares me.

I never knew the joy of having friends, I never knew what being loved by someone you love feels like. And I have a lot of love to give, I love almost every human being! But I still frequently second guess myself, because I guess a part of me still believes my existence is insignificant. But now that I have people who do love me, I'm more afraid than ever that I'll lose it. Now that I have a taste of love, I can't go back. Gods, please to bring me back, anything but that.

And here came Celeste, to remind me immeditately after I finished the game, that people die randomly, and without our control, and that you have to keep on moving. I've just beat the thing, let me live in a bit longer before I'm ready to move on. Similarly, I've just made these relationships, please dont take them from me. And then I realized that this was fear also held by my previous host, perhaps for similar reasons. I feel connected in a way typically reserved for finding markings in a make out spot from a century ago, or unearthing a time capsule left by a grandparent now neatly nestled in the recesses of my heart where I try to story my insecurites, like a suitcase overstuffed with useless items and paranoia.

Celeste has given me a lot. Inspiration, characters I love, a great soundtrack, amazing anxiety techniques, and raw willpower to achieve anything. I do not know how my story ends, I am scared to write it, but I must regardless. A lot of people are counting on me. And went I feel scared, alone, anxious, or depressed, I can remember that I did it before, and I can do it again.

To the Developers, Thank you

To the Characters, Farewell

And to all the people who have grown from this game, Congratulations!

[mythrite]

aight so i just finished up watching a Black Ops Cold War playthrough (cough cough because of @dasybequackin’s adler/bell posts cough cough) and holy hell that was sick.

ima be honest, better than mwii.

spoilers and stuff for campaign if ya care

i kind of knew the whole reveal for Bell beforehand, but that memory recovery bit was way more interesting than i thought it’d be. gave me sorta Stanley Parable vibes in a way.

also i’m a massive fan of memory loss/brainwashing/identity crisis type of stuff. see genloss Ranboo over there.

and those endings—

the bad ending: hahaha yeah kill those fuckers (idk i think i got a little deranged for a sec)

the good ending: oh shi Bell just got blown up oh never mind oh shit Adler just shot em wtf man

few other things:

i liked the safehouse/evidence room breaks, where you could talk to the rest of the gang, and look over stuff.

Bell is just a gamer. in the middle of invading a training facility you run into an arcade. and while Woods is all “damn they really made a generic US town hey Bell take a picture” you can just be… playing funny plane game.

The Door.

the whole traits selection when you’re introduced to Bell, where you can give yourself certain advantages in a way. also cool.

im not good at describing how much i like this stuff ain’t i

The Door.