#it's for hrt reasons

[shrews-things]

Soooo tired so so so sooo miserably tired,,,, can I be a bug under a snug flat rock please

[sualne]

have some trans swan lake barbies

[chrissy-kaos]

I’m not well.. 😭

[rusty25]

what nobody tells you when you start transitioning is that testosterone causes cognitive regression. i've been on t for almost 5 months now and during that time i lost friends, hell i lost my best friend, made mistakes at work and i am on the worst terms ever with my mom. these things were all preventable if only i had acted a bit more maturely. but i didn't bc currently i possess the risk assessment of a 15 yo child. i thought things would be okay but they weren't. and this is all too familiar cuz the last time i was plotting and scheming like this and was failing miserably at it was 6 years ago. puberty sucked for the first time around for me and it sucks just as much rn

[queerism1969]

[ranticore]

when i start getting back to writing i always kinda circle round to the messages people have sent me indicating that my characters or writing helped in their decision to transition and honestly I've already won at art in that case. everything else is just a victory lap. and it also helps remind me to keep going!

[pucket]

personal project wherein i document my voice changes on testosterone by recording an audiobook House of Leaves

[2009isitanyways]

i'm gonna need one of those fucking anticoagulant mushrooms bc i think a blood vessel is occluding in my brain.

[astronomodome]

Was thinking about the hermit mad science brigade today (as one does) and I have come to the conclusion that cub doc and zedaph would all manufacture hrt for a low price BUT it gets popular enough that they all have to add on stuff so people will buy theirs instead of the others’. Doc’s hrt gives you sickass goat horns, zedaph’s makes you bioluminescent but it also has like a 2% chance of turning you bright purple, cub’s just fully transitions you instantly but it also makes you evil (he markets this as a plus) (because it is a plus)

[nightside101]

I drew my horrible favorite boy again :) view full size for texture. If you want.

[conceptofjoy]

afab transfem & on testosterone hal. your art has opened my eyes to a gender i have never thought of before. you have me questioning everything . im insane im feral help me

I LOVE TALKING ABOUT HAL'S GENDER here's link 2 post abt on T hal. she's a complicated character and her connection (or lack of, with her non existent body) with dirk is fascinating. its kind of hard to say that she's afab in the way that... OK HEAR ME OUT, i think being assigned x at birth is different than being assigned x by narrative.

dirk was ambn but also afab within earth's societal standards. this can tie in with dirk's internalized homophobia and the disconnect he has with being into guys but also not wanting to be referred to as gay. anyways about hal, she didn't appear into the story as anything BUT glasses, and only was assigned male (dirk) by the narrative. her struggle with gaining her own autonomy is sooo very trans allegorical.

the reason why i thought hal would have gone on T, lies in how the option was presented to her straight out of the session. partially because she wanted to look different than dirk but its mostly that she has internalized beliefs of still needing to be an ambn guy (dirk). puberty was a fuckin STRUGGLEEEE for her because of getting tossed on earth c as a bodily 13 yr old. while the last programmed memory she has of a body was of said 13 yr old body, the disconnect she has when she sees her peers compared to herself is staggering, making her feel temporally left behind. "ok everything will be better once i become red dirk again... why does that fill me with dread."

i think she'd enjoy being on T even after the gender revelation because of the idea that she's able to alter her body however she sees fit. she'd do some body mods too if roxy wouldn't keep stopping her lol (she does it eventually). i think she might have some difficulty with understanding what being a girl means because of the strider-serket gender extremes curse, but she'll get there eventually.

[thegreatyin]

the adventures of the neath's most annoying definitely-totally-a-bat-and-not-the-scoundrel-in-a-robe continue (cards. their name is mr cards. or so they insist.)

this time: coworker antics. tune in next week on dragon ball Z where we'll be killing all of them with hammers

[puppygirlgirldick]

new pharmacist: "name?"

me: "uh, ${deadname} ${lastname}"

new pharmacist: "you look like you're having a rough day"

me: "nah i just, don't like giving that name."

new pharmacist, knowingly: "ah. yeah you don't look like a ${deadname}, i expected a much cooler name!"

i think i just got got told i look like a tranny (complimentary), and now my day is going amazingly.

[vriedi]

hubris

[bitchfitch]

being a writer is fun because sometimes you notice a trend in the stories/themes/characters that you work with, and then make a connection between them and your life and or self.

And then you magically know what you're talking about in therapy next week.

[luetta]

does anyone else, when they look at a pretty person or sneak a glance at a friend when they’re not looking, get a sort of painful twinge in their chest? like the fleeting realisation that your hungry, but it’s in your heart instead? wanting something with more than want, but not knowing why, or how, or what.

imagining their touch, the softest most delicate touch, lasting just a moment. how much it’d make you jump, send lightning through you. and how much you crave it regardless. it’s something you haven’t really had the chance to experience before.

it makes your face run cold with tingles, too. and liquid mercury pouring down your back. and your cheeks burn and your hands feel so … physical. you’re so acutely aware of where and how your hands lie.

when you look at them and think “i just want to feel something positive. i wish you could give me that”