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Something that gets me about Midnight Mass is about John Pruitt’s relationship with religion and himself. Now I’m not going to suggest that he isn’t religious, he absolutely is, but it’s so interesting how, in my opinion, he’s not as devout as he tries to present himself as.
His confession to Mildred that he would have stepped down if she had asked him, how he doesn’t perceive his brief relationship with Mildred as a sin, and that his daughter is not a sin is so interesting. It circles back to him not feeling guilt for killing Joe (which i can analyze because he seemed like he was in shock and basically shut down until Bev came in) how he claims that he was spared of it, how he tried to justify it, and yet he isn’t in denial that most would consider what John did to be a sin, and he knows that, but he states that no, they are not a sin, and its so interesting seeing how… human he is.
Obviously we saw how much he cared for others, but he was first and foremost a priest, helping others and granting them ‘miracles’ but all his walls come down when Mildred was with him, and we already knew he was flawed, but learning the subconscious reason (because I do believe he brought the Angel because he wanted to help others, but it all comes back to the subconscious, in my opinion) why he brought it is… devastating.
He has a fear of death, but, now you may feel free to disagree with me but this is how i interpreted it, it’s not much to do with himself, but with others. Now I do think he is scared of dying, but with how he described himself in episode 3, how Paul Hill talked about John Pruitt seemed so distant, and how it wasnt until the end that he began using first person rather than third person. It’s interesting how his identity is because he does think highly of himself, but also thinks somewhat negatively. He sometimes comes off as superior, and yet his sense of identity is… fractured, and it makes sense, he was deaged, so he lies, lies about his identity, about who he is, and in episode 6 he confesses that he is John Pruitt, but I don’t think its until Mildred is with him that it fully hits him, and that’s when he realizes his subconscious reason on why he did what he did.
His fear of death drives him as well. He doesn’t want Mildred or Sarah to die, and it’s devastating because of what he did results in Sarah dying before him and Mildred dying alongside him. It then reveals that they are so important to him, he lets the church burn, he removes the collar, and he asks Mildred for forgiveness. I don’t interpret it as him losing faith, but him symbolically letting go and being with Mildred.
Just… having John, a character who is a priest, openly admit that he would have left being a priest for Mildred does something to me. If you disagree then please let me know what you disagree with! My interpretation of his character may differ from others, and if I got anything wrong do let me know!
#midnight mass#father john pruitt#father paul hill#john pruitt#paul hill#mildred gunning#sarah gunning#jumbled thoughts
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More of them,, but they’re robot cats this time lol… I’ll draw Moon and Pebbles soon, and some others maybe
I’ll do anything but actually draw them as Iterators apparently
Don't look too close, Ive never drawn such mech heavy designs until now...I don't know what I'm doing. I got a little more confident with NSH but I was absolutely just going blind with Suns. It took me 2 days to figure out how I wanted to start with Suns...
Some background info dump of them for this? Au??? Idk yet lol, under the line if interested
Erhm. Set in a post apocalyptic world, much like how Rain World actually is. Alternative timeline where iterators don't exist?? Failed??? The ancients have not yet ascended?? Maybe??? Idk the details are still blurry to me also 😞. They are in a high security lab facility ground type setting. (Perhaps just an excuse for me to draw apocalyptic higher tech designs????) It is cold outside, some failed iterator structures still produce rain, and occasionally the air may become toxic.
Suns is an offensive/surveillance model meant for fighting and protecting as one can probably tell with his tail blades. It folds back in an attempt to make it less dangerous and also functions as a way to swiftly cut into something if needed. They are the only one of them (excluding Pebbles for special reasons) to be equipped with a mouth hiding sharp teeth and/or lasers for even more attack prowess. They are also still huge. Sorry I run with the huge Suns agenda. He is a tower. Easily wrestles most lizards. I still like the idea of fluffy Suns, so he still has it as a robot cat. Some insulation for the colder outside temperatures, he's outside a lot. Suns is not built to be friendly. Mostly acts and behaves as an unassuming robot early on.
Moon and Suns were the first properly functional/successful projects. They were edited and reconstructed a lot from beginning to now. Maybe they were both originally purposed as therapeutic companions.
The overseers are little drones that fly around. They still project things and are still sometimes unhelpful with directions, follow at your own discretion. The lizards and predators mostly ignore them as well. They do recognize the different drones with time. They've learned to recognize NSH's drones, which sometimes might contain some edible collected material, so they do occasionally try to eat those. And most of the smaller predators try to leave the area if they see Suns' drones.
NSH is closer to a pet model. He is made for reconnaissance and scouting. He is still tiny because I like him tiny, he's adorable. NSH has three pairs of legs for rough terrain traversal, and is a fast little guy. He helps in collecting samples and materials from the outside, marking maps, as well as finding viable safe spots/shelters. He has no mouth but has a component in his chest where he can collect small samples, as well as storage units in his drones to store excess. He has small vials of decontaminate fluid to clean any samples he collects, they have to be refilled occasionally. Also, as mentioned in the art, he can open his neck and chest area and just swallow bigger samples. He can even keep them alive inside him if he wants to. Otherwise, they're killed and turned into power for him to use. Sometimes he finds lizards with cool patterns and tries to swallow them to show Suns, who oftentimes will kill it afterwards.
He was the experimental project for emotive programming alongside Unparalleled Innocence/UI, hence his fully functioning screen as a face. As opposed to Suns, who functions more as a security camera. I think NSH and UI are both similar in the more playful/chaotic personalities, so I decided for them to be created around the same time and put into the same testing. Overtime, UI did not respond very well and was repurposed (She's not gone). Emotive sentience was programmed into NSH first and then tested on Moon. It was generally successful in both cases. NSH really enjoys messing around and can even imitate his fellow iterators faces. It works really well temporarily scaring predators using Suns' color markings lol.
Because NSH and Suns are both outside often, they have solar panel components in their design for extra power. The two of them are very close because of their shared experiences. NSH likes the outside more, Suns has little opinions of it. They worry about NSH because he's so small and curious and occasionally brings back dangerous things.
Suns is a little bit of an outcast here because of his difference in role. He is mostly left to roam and function on his own/not approached as he carries his role. The others are research focused and Suns is more obviously purposed for battle, so there is a little bit of a divide. Not to mention, he technically does not have the programming for emotions that Moon and NSH have. Suns does learn on his own though :D, some of it is learned from NSH too
I will leave it here for now. I will probably talk more about Moon and Pebbles for their own post. And the others as well. I'm still thinking about their designs though.
Erhm hopefully this makes sense somewhat and was at least a fun read.
#rain world#seven red suns#no significant harassment#caterator#rain world au#rw downpour#rw iterator#rw srs#rw nsh#raintarts#they're robot cats#i have some thoughts#jumbled thoughts#but they're thoughts#i dont really know how tech stuff works#hopefully this makes sense#i just like thinking about them#nsh has 6 legs and antennas#is he an insect#hes tiny#hes effectively an insect
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And if I fall and my knees bruise with the blood of others,
will you love me then?
If my calloused fingers touch rotten skin in search of hope,
will you aid me then?
If my beaten palms bring poisoned water to my lips,
will you find me then?
If my ribs break to form a plate my heart lies on,
will you, would you still want me then?
#unfinished#spilled words#words#spilled ink#words words words#writing#literature#spilled thoughts#bibliophile#quotes#aesthetic#excerpts#prose#writings#spilled poetry#poem#writeblr#creative writing#writing community#writers of tumblr#art#jumbled thoughts#thinking#feelings#emotions#dark academia#light academia
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Loki's malice is very rarely geared towards Thor because Thor outranks him. Only under extenuating circumstances he targets Thor. He has no qualms in lives lost as collateral to achieve his goals and this is established early with the dead guards that no one seems to give a fuck about in that scene.
An interesting example of this is that in T1, he doesn't even verbally threaten Thor when he's trying to get him to fight him. His words to Thor are an unheeded order of "FIGHT ME!" He threatens Jane! And whenever he does antagonize Thor, it's usually with lies or omissions to keep Thor from acquiring more power or coming back. And there's an undercurrent of appeasement in Loki's actions.
He never threatens him directly, and it's interesting to think about in their dynamic. The exception being the wordless slap while inside the Destroyer and he's having a mental breakdown (extenuating circumstances). I'd also note that when Loki slaps him, Loki has acquired power and Thor has lost his, that he soon regains.
#mcu!loki#mcu!thor#mcu!jane#jumbled thoughts#i have to polish these thoughts a lot more. and rewatch the movie in case i forgot something.#but here. have some of my bullshit#thought's on loki's malice#power dynamics
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Oh, how I love Dark... 💖💕💖
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I gave him all my shattered pieces and now I’ll wait to see what he brings them to 🤍
#aesthetic#feelings#inspiration#inspiring quotes#mental health#writer on tumblr#life quotes#jumbled thoughts#relationship quotes#relatable quotes#relatable#spilled words#spilled ink#poetry#life#i miss you
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#love#mental health#heartbreak#quotes#relationships#im bored#looking for friends#new friends#self love#spilled thoughts#my thoughts#jumbled thoughts#emotions#connections#friends needed#internet friends#thoughts
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I don’t know what is going on but my head feels like a jumbled pile of thoughts can I can’t make anything out.
Anyone else have this happen to them.
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Jumbled Thoughts: Romantic Rivals With Spy x Family
"What do you mean you love him!? You may be best girl, the tsundere and the one who spends 90% of your screentime with him but I'm in love... With..." "You want to go get a drink as a consolation prize?" "Yes please." And then I'm going to poison her drink so he can be all mine!
A lot of good, long term romance works have what can easily be identified as the romantic rival, regardless of how actually effective those rivals are. A character essentially designed to be an obstacle between the main couple and true love. There's a lot of forms this can take and luckily, anime has given us two great examples recently with Spy x Family's Yuri and Nightfall... But first let's get a few things out of the way.
Despite my bit at the beginning, a romantic rival actually doesn't need to be a direct competitor. Quintessential Quintuplets' romantic rival is the 5 girls' father and it'd be real creepy if he was actually trying to bang him.
"SIS!"
We'll... We'll get to that. No, instead the point of a romantic rival is simply to be someone who has to lose if the main couple ends up getting together. Their happiness and desires are essentially impossible if the main couple's happiness is achieved. That's why they're a rival since there can only be one winner. The most direct way to do this is with someone else who loves one of the two MCs but it can take on a lot of forms.
Secondly: For them to be a rival, they do actually need and investment in the potential of the two MCs being together. The best rivals are likely going to relish in destroying what might have been just as much as they'll enjoy either capturing the one they love or dooming them to misery. For their role to function though, they can't be unaware of what they're doing. Otherwise, they fall more into cruel twists of fate or comedic interventions depending on the severity of the moment and the tone it's portrayed with. Like Joe from Big Time Rush moving for her work isn't because her agent is a romantic rival, whoever they are doesn't care about the romance going on, it's just business. One that tragically breaks up the head of the band and her.
We did get one hell of a song out of it though. (Yes, I loved this show as a teenager and still think their music slaps incredibly hard. Also, I'm linking this video because it portrays more what happened but I do think the 2020 acoustic version done during lockdown is better.)
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Another thing necessary for the character to be a rival though is that they are inherently a bad option. While one could call all the girls in your typical harem romance rivals to each other, it's better to call them contestants. They all have a real, viable case for taking that spot of best girl/boy, both in the hearts of our MC and of the audience. You are supposed to be okay with any of them getting with the main character. They are simply a competing ensemble.
A romantic rival is a villain. Even when not explicitly portrayed as one, you're supposed to want them to lose. They VERY rarely are real people besides maybe a sob story but that's not really the point of them. Romantic rivals are meant to elevate something into soap opera levels of drama, not for a nuanced discussion of love. A way to heighten the stakes and force the cutesy, potentially eternal lovey dovey elements of a work into what will be an even more satisfying conclusion.
Or for some EXTREMELY funny jokes. Speaking of, let's get into Spy x Family.
Nightfall versus Yor.
Yuri versus Loid.
Or, er... Well, see, why these two are so useful is that we actually have an incredible romantic rival and one that mostly entirely falls flat on his face in the role and is arguably the worst element of the show to me. As such, let's start with him: Yuri. Yor's baby brother.
He is a member of the secret police, the best at what he does despite such a young age and has a sister complex. Like... 80% of his character is sister complex. 19% more of that is screaming about his sister and then 1% of him makes you remember "RIGHT! This guy actually claims to be a functional human being!" Yuri's inability to actually function as a person is one of his biggest flaws because that single minded obsession makes it hard for him to really have more than a handful of jokes, all of which just increasingly become more stale (at least for me) as the show went on. That's a real shame too because as a rival to Loid, he's actually about as good as you could ask for.
See, while I have problems with Yuri, his failure in this role actually has a lot more to do with Loid than himself. A rival is meant to push the couple out of their comfort zone, potentially make them fuck up and do something that will upset the other, or challenge some aspect of a person's love for their partner. Loid... Doesn't have any of these traits. His whole gimmick is being the man with a thousand faces. To have so many layers, you'll have cried an ocean by the time you get to the core of this onion. That also means he has no comfort zone to push him out of, only fuck ups because of himself and...
Well actually, this is the one way I think Yuri does screw up as a potential rival to Loid. He makes big declarations about whether or not Yor and Loid's love is real but his love isn't real either. He doesn't actually know his sister. He doesn't engage with her genuinely, just like Loid doesn't. He has this nostalgic, permanent image that would take literally seeing his sister kill a loyal citizen to the country in order to even crack. That's not actually more genuine than Loid using her like he does. The only difference is that one will never ask Yor of anything and want to stay by her side while the other will only stay until the job is done. It'd be much more effective, in this role, for Yuri to genuinely know his sister and be able to call things out because of the genuine care versus Loid's artificial care.
Otherwise, what Yuri really does is be a reminder of the world these characters exist in. Someone who genuinely can NEVER find out the secret between the main couple, that they're not married nor actually in love, or else Loid is a dead man and Operation Strix is over. That's because Loid is an enemy of the state so while Yuri would lock him up for the wrong reasons, he is still one of the few people who could actually cause trouble if only he knew the truth. Too bad Yuri has been a spy for like an entire decade less than Loid and so Loid can run circles around him also making this tension somewhat tenuous at best.
He is only a threat in essentially the same way anyone is. In that he cannot know the secret. That is the exact opposite of Nightfall, Yor's rival.
Nightfall is a fellow spy from Loid's agency. She actually was a pupil of Loid's and mistook being told you can't have emotions on a mission to mean she must deaden all emotions. She is also a super spy on a similar level to Loid, making her the idea working partner for him.
But that lack of emotions is also why she can never be Loid's romantic partner. Yor is a bundle of energy and a precious cinnamon roll who wears her heart on her sleeve and couldn't help but be earnest even if she tried not to be. She is exactly the sort of warm, open person that Loid needs to ever make him consider retirement. To peel back the layers so that he can one day be himself instead of one of the many faces that he has. She will only ever love Loid... Not Loid's job or codename: Twilight.
Immediately we have the reason why these two contrast and why you will never root for Nightfall. Nightfall loves Twilight. Loves the image and ideal of Loid as this unstoppable super spy who she could essentially conquer the world with. Who she could help alleviate the woes of before they both get back to work. She'd be devoted but to all the wrong needs of Twilight. We even know she has the skills with which to do it, something Yor very clearly lacks as putting her in the kitchen is a surefire way to attempt mass genocide.
Not to say Yor is incapable of challenging Nightfall in a more practical way like how Loid entirely destroys Yuri. Yor is still superhuman in her physical capabilities which is why despite how clumsy and dumb she can be, she's still a very capable assassin. It's just that being an assassin is essentially all she's good at, besides empathy that is. Yor's care runs deep, just like how deep the tennis ball she sent into God only knows where is or the ball she played with Anya with when she did her own signature shot. Since Nightfall can't convince Loid to drop Yor due to her wifely duties, she does only have this and one other tactic to use against Yor and here she fails ENTIRELY.
The other one she's a lot better at. See, in her eyes, Yor is a bad wife. Yuri thinks the same about Loid but as a bad husband. Unfortunately for our cinnamon roll, she does not have Loid's confidence or the homely skills to back that up and so questions about her capabilities, especially with a smooth motherfucker like Twilight, shake her to her core. Luckily, she has the empathy and care that helps with Anya and makes her not just a good wife but what is even more important here: A good mom.
Here is where we get Yuri's last failing. See, a good romantic rival should be like any good villain. They oppose not only the couple but the whole premise and theme of the show. Yuri and Nightfall both do actually attack the themes to some extent by asking for stagnation and pulling the two back to their past where they will be trapped in the violence they have known all their lives. This is attacking the Spy part of the title. Only one of them actually says anything about the Family part of it though.
The most disappointing moment of the entire series for me was when Yuri finally interacted with Anya, Loid and Yor's adopted daughter, and hated her. Now, admittedly, his goal of arresting and killing Loid would pretty much certainly mean Anya's death too since she was adopted by Loid. Best case scenario for Anya if Yuri wins is going back to the orphanage but... That's the same case for if the operation that brought these three together fails in anyway. He adds nothing new with this that the base premise of this being a sham family doesn't already add.
Meanwhile, Nightfall knows from go about the operation and her opposition to Yor is specifically so that she can take the place of Loid's wife for the operation. This introduces two new elements that very, VERY few other characters can so directly. The first is that if Nightfall wins, it dooms Anya. Her desire to keep Loid as Twilight, rather than as himself, means that the warmth that Yor and Anya are forcing out of him will likely shrivel back up and die so that when the operation fails, Anya will go back to an orphanage and the family will end.
You also might have noticed that I said WHEN the operation fails, not if. While we haven't gotten it in the anime directly, we know a lot of Loid's methods for getting Anya to succeed fail and Anya at least likes Loid enough to try. Yor has made monumentally better strides in getting Anya to listen, be better and try harder than Loid ever has because, well... Anya is six. She doesn't need a cold, calculating spy, she needs parents and Yor's earnest and honesty makes her a great parent who is constantly trying to do the best for her child. From the brief glimpses we get of what Nightfall would try to employ as a parent, we have good reason to assume she'd fail just as hard as Loid has and so either Anya would run away, happy to be away from a family that no longer has Yor's warmth and has a slowly deadening Loid, or she'd be sent away once the stress and pain of that environment crushed her.
It is a unique threat that quite only someone from Loid's agency can present and it's a much more interesting reason to hate Nightfall and want to see her fail than Yuri just hating Anya regardless because he sees her as an extension of the sister stealer. It makes her a genuine villain that the regular populace can't replicate. It also allows her more dynamism as she'll do whatever she has to to gain the place of Loid's wife, even act kind to Anya, until finally she no longer needs to. She's a spy after all and this is her mission.
There's one other element here though I want to give a shout out for that is actually easy to overlook for romantic rivals: I want Yor, Twilight and Nightfall to be in a polycule. For Loid and Nightfall to finally have a real conversation and fix the lesson that has poisoned Nightfall so thoroughly. For Yor's kindness to help Nightfall see herself as a real person and not a slave to her image of Twilight. Hell, I even do want to see Nightfall be able to help shore up Yor's skill weaknesses and give Loid someone who can 100% understand his worldview, even as they both fight against keeping up those barriers. Nightfall is mostly a joke, mostly played for comedy but her genuine care for Loid, and how much it devastates her to fail, makes her into a more complex, sympathetic villain who you don't want to see be splattered on the pavement.
I... Well, I won't say Yuri is such a bad character that I want him literally dead but if he got shipped over to this world's version of America for the rest of his life, I would not miss his presence. He is a creep, a man child and quite frankly the best ending for him is probably to literally never be able to see his sister again so as to grow up as a person. Even that implies I even care enough to want to see him grow though as two seasons in, I don't really care. He has ONE truly great sequence that shows his potential and even it shows his critical flaw as a romantic rival: It has literally nothing to do with Loid or Yor. He is only an interesting character outside of the context of those two.
And for a narrative role who's whole job is to complicate and add excitement to the context of the main couple, that makes him a complete failure. So for as great as yuri is in most contexts, make sure you don't write the character Yuri if you're trying to make a good romantic rival. Not unless you wish for night to fall on your story and leave it in the dark.
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It's kind of fun how much romance anime I've watched in the like past six months. It's still only three series, Kaguya, Quintessential Quintuplets, and Spy x Family (the last of which is SO many genres) but it did help me have some actual examples when I finally sat down and wrote this. Also, I'm currently poking at theoretically going back to my roots and writing a harem story, though also keeping it PG-13 like my current stylings so honestly, have any anime recommendations for me?
Also, this is probably another Jumbled Thoughts post that goes too much into the example, even if highlighting how Nightfall is a good contrast to Yor is so important to understanding what a good romantic rival looks like.
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studying a niche academic field is somehow simultaneously the most fascinating yet deeply frustrating experience i’ve ever had
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HELLO WHAT ARE YOU THOIGHTS ON SALTBURN ( MAINLY THE QUEERNESS OF IT ALL)
Helloo!!
Personally I adored Saltburn, and hope to rewatch it in the coming days (amen to friends letting me use their streaming accounts).
I think the queer lens was an interesting aspect of this film, and there has been an engaging discourse surrounding whether or not it follows through on foreshadowed queer engagement.
The key themes of Saltburn (desire, becoming, wealth) and the ways in which they are explored throughout the narrative undoubtedly holds a queer essence at its core, with Oliver Quick's 'becoming' at the forefront of this. Particularly in regards to his obsessive nature and increasing hunger as he augments a deeper and arguably more sexual connection with Felix and the extended Catton family.
I think to assume that Oliver was calculated and precise in his ascension to become a figurative 'King' of Saltburn's estate is to undermine Emerald Fennel's storytelling as well as the stellar performance of Barry Keoghan (who in all the interviews I have read/viewed presents a wonderfully fleshed out understanding of the character, which flows into his embodiment). In many ways this is the same as his apparent queerness. It is clumsy and unsure, yet carnal and intrinsic. It is calculated until faced with a moment of animalistic desire, at which point Oliver becomes governed by his urges. He is presented to the audience as an individual with complex desires and motivations - as well as an unreliable narrator. Hence, I believe it to be slightly foolish when people attempt to discount the nature of his relationship with Felix due to his statement: "I wasn't in love with him"... Sir, you defiled his grave.
While Oliver's personal identity as a queer person is ostensible, the themes present and the means he exploits (ie. Farleigh handjob, submission to Felix's desire to 'save' people) in order to make his way up the 'food chain' (or perhaps 'the divine right of Kings' is more fitting) are undoubtedly that following a queer framework; elucidating the ways by which man can be driven to depravity by his desperate search for something to conquer/ someone's life to indulge in. As well as I think the themes of consumption as closeness which does not sound dissimilar to the examples of 'queer yearning' I see so often (and often find myself also expressing) on this site.
Anyway -
(Thanks for asking me abt this!!! I'm sorry this isn't proofread or really fleshed out beyond the thoughts that have been marinating in my skull since I left the cinema but I could ramble for an age. hope this wasn't too higgledy-piggledy! <3 xx)
#saltburn#oliver quick#felix catton#jumbled thoughts#i dont even know what I'm saying at this point#im going to do a rewatch with my brother and get back to it after I've had time to figure out the direction of my thoughts#ask
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What's on my mind?
Poets can make death so beautiful. The melancholic feel of mourning is captured so beautiful. Drunken life of the alcoholic that drowns his sorrows with bourbon. Bitterness of the whiskey balances the bitterness of his sorry life. The black cat that peers over the ledge of the weeping window watches the spirit’s waltz. A phantom sight that’s hard to fathom in the human eye. The sight is one of many is ghastly. Ladies dancing in unison around the tall flames; the chants of hymns and echoes of laughs. The worry is all over now. She’s here to protect us. With a pluck of Apollos lyre, the prophet of Delphi is awake. The voices and saints flood the mind of Joan, creating new heights from Lorraine. Her fight strong; her fate horrid. The moon is up and bright. Fall of snow Persephone is back in underworld, painstakingly reunited with Hades.
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Word Stew.
Take a poem Mix it up
Spread the thoughts Into their cups
Some are separate Some the same
If it doesn't feel right Jumble the words again
#new poets society#poets on tumblr#original poetry#new poets on tumblr#original poem#new poets corner#original poets on tumblr#new poets community#new poetry#poets on life#short poem#short poetry#jumbled thoughts#word vomit#word art#thoughts#life#poets on poetry#poems and poetry#poetry
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The good days make me forget. I forget that in the constant background of my mind I have a running radio. A staticky radio that plays ads and songs containing updates of my body. Forget that I’m in an area where the station can’t quite reach but only until the antenna is readjusted. Forget that I am not in control of that antenna but that the wind moves it as it pleases.
Bad days make me remember and readjust that antenna so that I can hear. The radio that was static on the good days? Is fully tuned in with blaring volume. It plays back to back songs that I have heard over and over again to the point that I don’t need to look up the lyrics. It’s the Greatest Hits with no ad breaks!
I wish that most of my days weren’t stuck listening to the songs with a broken sound dial and hands over my ears. Some days I wish someone would unplug the radio. Some days I wish someone could hear the same station I do. But most days I wish someone could help me move the antenna to forever take peace in the silence of static.
#chronic illness#chronic pain#jumbled thoughts#chronically ill#analogy#it’s an analogy for chronic illness#K’s words#health
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What do you think of the new earrings I got? Perfectly eye-catching, in my opinion!
~ᗯIᒪ
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I wrote a chocolate dinner. What do you eat when you not full? I like it not! he replied he tried to wipe tears. Achieving you dream requires plans. I like it not!!
Who are you? Who are you? 🔍 the reader?
Is this a disaster?? Depression Statistics Are Complicated…
“you are stupid”, I drew a line, I improve it, you didnot. Air transport… Details not available… I don't care what said… He wrote that he not eaten! Well packed and ready, I like it not! He answered, “friend, I will no send you here.” You no eat even meat! 😮💨
my name is- Hide it!! Hide bloog! I didn't hang up yet phone 😱😰🫦
I in control of my life, but not. Details not available still. don't cry… I love everything! Visit your friends. Write a report situation the else talk to loved your ones. 🌉
I was lost in a sea of bites and waves. General articles and articles publications. Parents are furious afternoon losing their bags. I am very tired… I mean it! After this! 🎈 I have been working on this program for a long time. Air transport? It's all lies. Play with your middle finger. 🔫
-riyona
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