#life is hard and confusing

[beautifulheartandspirit]

I hate myself I feel the sadness coming

Things will be different this time

I got a my 1st real job. Start march 11.

I hate myself inside

[7amaspayrollmanager]

Alright let's imagine a scene that is all too normal in palestine. A palestinian business owner finds his building covered in graffiti stars of Davids and Hebrew that says "gas the arabs" and "death to arabs"

Now imagine there's a reporter there and asks the palestinian business owner what happens and they say "the jews attacked my business"

Pause. Now your response might be "uncle no. Say israelis not jews" and then this is when he would look at you like youre stupid because the israelis doing this are jewish. They are not the Christians or the druze or the palestinian ones with Israeli citizenship. They are Jewish israelis who believe in their religious supremacy. When you graffiti stars of david all over a palestinian business, car, or the street you seek that conflation. it sends a message, this is jewish land and you're next.

The problem is that these videos circulate in zionist circles. "Watch this video of children in gaza calling for the death of jews" "watch how they say they want to fight and kill jews" those children are referring to Israeli soldiers that come in night and do their raids with the star of David attached to their uniform or the ones that bomb them. It's easy to watch those videos and assume that palestinians are indoctrinating their children on anti semitism or you can realize that those children's only interaction with jewish ppl is through violence and parents cannot protect their children from this. Doesn't matter context is lost

Abby Martin went to Jerusalem and interviewed israelis for 2 hours and she says every israeli was extremely confident to say that this land is for them and that they should push the Arabs out and when she interviewed palestinians they spoke of freedom from occupation and their dreams. That's reality. Not the soundbites.

And yet we have invasive youtubers and interviewers constantly in the street of ramallah or wherever in palestine asking palestinians "do you hate jews?" And in those videos you hear those palestinians say "no we have no problem with jews we have a problem with occupation and we have a problem with zionism." Bc this is how we are trained to respond to this trope. Palestinians are very aware what the world thinks of us and the reality is that many palestinians have internalized it and we grow up reading books on the Holocaust and train ourselves to recognize anti semitic dog whistles so zionists don't get the soundbites they want.

So we say "anti zionism is not anti semitism" and we say "israeli zionists" and we do not say "jewish supremacy" even thought it exists in palestine but "zionist supremacy" and in these carefully worded speech we water down what is happening to us in an effort to not deter people away from solidarity. But it means nothing. The world categorically blames palestinians for rising anti semitism they blame us for jewish insecurity globally.

[astronomodome]

the king's burden

[justshipsandstuff]

He’s just an uncanny baby that’s really bad at direction

[everysongineverykey]

don't hug me i'm scared episode 6 electricity is really something when you're autistic, huh. yellow guy is made fun of all his life by his only friends and laughed at for being "stupid" when all he needed was a change of batteries but no one would listen to him and give him the accommodations he needed and deserved and when he finally did get new batteries and become more clearheaded his friends didn't like him any better. they stopped making fun of him, sure, but they didn't like that he was "smart" all of a sudden, because they'd gotten used to him being "the stupid one". and he looked in the mirror and saw his former self, and his reflection asked him, "have we gone wrong? they seem upset with us" because the truth is even if the way you are now is more comfortable for you, even if it doesn't hurt to think anymore, people will only ever like you if you're the Right Kind of autistic/adhd/traumatized/whatever. have we gone wrong? have we gone wrong? that's what you always ask yourself. "maybe they're not in charge of us anymore." "maybe they never were." and his reflection walks away, as if accepting that the others will think what they will think, and it won't matter, because yellow guy is his own person, no matter how difficult it is for him to articulate his thoughts, and he doesn't need their approval to think. "maybe they never were."

[coquelicoq]

does. does lee jihye still think yoo joonghyuk and kim dokja had a baby together. when she finds out about biyoo is she like master how do you feel about your baby daddy having a baby with someone other than you? do you want to talk about it? master? hey master where are you going?

[nayruwu]

yuu in the beginning of the manga: oh no, mika got turned into a vampire! 😫 i need to find a way to make him be human again!! yuu now: I̷̧̧̢̡̛͕̘̰̭̫̹̩͚͈̖̥̬͈͉͚͔̩̫̮̫̘̪̞͎͍̭͙͎̿̽̎͑̋́̉̇͆̆͌͒̄̈́̈͋͂͂̇͆̆͛̉͋̀́̚͜͝ ̵̧̞̖͛̓͗͂̿͑͋͝͠A̸̢̨̡̗̟̦͙̻̳͎̼̝̞̠̩̜̜̭̩̱̖͎͓̋̈̏͑͆̈͌̎͗̈M̸̧̢̺̟̙̗͓̠̳̘̘̬͍̲̳̖͍̰̬͎͇̩͖̗̭̱͚̾̽͆̉̊̓̕͜͝ͅͅ ̶̧̢̢̱̲̤͕͖͚̤͛̋͊̊̈̾̉̈́̈̊̐̌̓̋̍̃́̊̋̏͛͘͝͝͝M̶̧̝̮̖̜͇̖̥͔̤̘̼̲̗̮̝͇̫͔̤̣̰̻̣͍̠͍̯͔̮̝̜̫̻̬͓̿̊̅̔̈́̋͂̆̅̿̒͜͜͝ͅÌ̵̢̡͈̖̹̥̤͈̺̯̜̬̼̻̱͍̣͉̠͙͚͎̋̀͋̒̿̀̀͗̋͗̃͋̒̽̈́͆̎̀͊͑̇͆̈́͆̈̂̌̐̋̾̐͑̄̓͒̔̃̉̕͜͝͠͠͝K̸̢̛̥̫̺̦̞̭̗͕͙̼͓̹̺̞̜̯̼̜̩͕̘̯̯̪̞̯̼͕̣͇̖̙̳̦̭̆̍̀͗̐́̓̾̑̆̏̄̐̿̏̌̈́̄̄̀͒͑̈̒̈́͗͌̓̌͊̌̇̆̇̚͠ͅÀ̵̡͙̖͉̘̼̗̣̬͉̦̖̰̭̺̯̺͍̞̣̬̫̤͙̫̣̪͇͖̠̈́̓̆͛́͒̿̓̽̈̎̅̑̽̈̽͆̏̄́̒̈́͗̀̂͘̚̕͜͝͝͠ͅE̶̢̨̛̮͉̳̦̰͔̝͔̼̺̠͕̯̤̼̗͇͆̆̆̓́͂̓͒̍͆͒̈́́̐̆̔͒̾̍̌̓̍̔͂̍͑̋̌̄̄͌̈́̎̒̓̃̇͝͝ͅͅͅL̸̢̢̧̹̥̫̹͉͕̮̯̠̯̺͔̠͖̠̫͇̝̭̣̪̬̮͙̰̮̰̟̤̩̿̎̓͐͌͒͋͒̍͘ͅÀ̶̛̻̼̘̥̫̼̪̇̈̓̀̃͐̾͊̌͐̄́̐̈̆̽̎͋́͘͜͝͝

[creatingnikki]

I wanted to tell you I love you. But no words came out. I wanted to write about everything I had been through this year. But the truth didn't spill. I'm containing it all for now. Why? Is it weakness? Self preservation? Confusion? Fear? Anger? I honestly do not know. When it comes to you and when it comes to this year, there is not much I know with objectivity. And I'm trying to not think with my feelings. Feelings are beautiful when felt but disastrous when followed as the north star. Maybe that, that is perhaps the biggest lesson of 2023. My feelings for you led me to abandon my values. Your feelings for me made me be okay with that. Feelings feelings feelings. Most times fickle, many times foul. But that's not even the issue with feelings. Feelings are fleeting. And I want to rely on more fundamental and foundational things. Let my feelings exist to be felt fully. Let my feelings exist to be written about beautifully and truly. Let my feelings exist to remind me I am human, to remind me I am alive. And yet let my lessons, my values, my strategic mind guide my decisions from here on out. Because if it were left up to my feelings? I'd be in your house smoking my third cigarette in between kisses telling each other how much we've missed this. And that is not something I am going to allow anymore. That's my mind looking out for me. That is my soul whispering the path forward. This time I will listen. Let my feelings only feel.

[krystaln78]

I wish I knew what to do with my life, what to do with my heart… I do nothing all day, boredom settles in, I look at the sky so I get to feel even smaller than I already feel and my mind keeps poisoning itself uselessly.

— Sylvia Path, the unabridged journals of Sylvia path

[thetismcave]

A crack crossover I think would be extremely entertaining

Batman: has a ‘no metas in Gotham’ rule and an incredibly strict code against killing

Me, rubbing my hands together, about to drop mono (a twelve year old killer with fuck off strong superpowers) into his area: >:)))

[wistaliia]

studying how to draw cove

[bonefall]

Would Midnight be patient with my fellow discalculia girlies... I love her but am So So Pathologically Bad at math

Midnight teaches advanced algebra to cats, you'll be fine. She'll conjure up a fractal for you, color each part of the equation, show how each part interacts and what it looks like when you change it

She'll take you out to the beach and explain the wind and the tide, compare them to each axis on the formula she showed you, and modify one factor. The wind dies down and the sea becomes as smooth as glass.

"Smoothness for the-waves you-see?" She waits for you to nod, never rushing you along, even the most casual questions are genuine, "Excellent! For this is example of maths I-teach. Nature it-will-happen. Simpleness it-being. You-will-understand."

[lunian]

still so strange discovering my gender, so many times I think "that's what any women can like/do/prefer/feel too, you are not something different actually" but then getting back to "yes but no, I like it bc I feel like something different.. more than woman, more than man... it's neither, it's both, it's something third, its something i want to be but who i still havent found yet, but its there and its waiting to be born" and I still don't know what I mean by that

but its coming up to be someone cool, I hope

[spacedlexi]

people dont talk enough about how heartbreaking the marlon betrayal mustve been for clem too,,

this dude saves the life of her and her kid. takes them in has them patched up gives them their first hot meal in who knows how long. gives them a safe place to stay. possibly permanently. confides in her that hes trying to be a good leader but feels like and fears that hes failing. asks her to help him take care of the rest of the group. helps her get over her fear of dogs by asking her to trust him. and things go well. she feels safe. like this place could really finally be the home shes been looking for

but as soon as she finds out what happened to the twins. that marlon planned on giving up her and aj too. she immediately becomes a liability to him and he attempts to kill her for it. locks her in the basement to die by walker. then tries to turn the group against her so he can shoot her instead when the first method fails. and he nearly succeeds

then a majority of the group turn against clem the minute aj kills marlon. ignoring marlons mistakes but condemning aj for his. like clem wasnt betrayed by marlon in the exact same way he betrayed the twins. like she literally wasnt almost killed twice? and how long had he been considering giving her up? was it always some contingency he planned? did he truly want to keep them around and things only changed when he feared the raiders had returned? she'll never know

[silverskye13]

Man why is writing so hard today? I literally sat down at my computer and typed for a solid hour and a half and it was utter garbage. But the more I looked at it the less I could figure out how to fix it! So I pulled up PS and decided to draw instead but every image just flew out of my head I couldn't do it and really I should be writing and man my eyes hurt. My whole face hurts kinda, actually, but my eyes really hurt and it's so hard to focus and it shouldn't be this hard and-- Jesus Christ it's 1am and I only got 3 hours of sleep last night.

[jabberwockprince]

apparently it's way easier to plan scenes and plotpoints for a fanfic if i draw them first, so here we are <3 featuring me rambling abt this scene under the cut!!

i was specifically thinking about Haym and Rikki's entire relationship?

especially very early on, right when Rikki is properly assigned as Neon J's apprentice and whatnot. this was meant to be the moment Rikki realizes they're not coping very well with leaving Ban behind in Beachside Archipelago, and how they're actually gravitating towards Haym because of how similar he feels to Ban - yknow. being the same model and all

cause Rikki has some serious issues with needing absolute control over every aspect of their life. and right now, they're stuck with a job they don't exactly care for, trying desperately to suck up to Neon J so he'll actually promote Rikki to a DECENT job designing security bots for Vinyl City, not BABYSITTING 1010

(which isn't even babysitting, moreso than being monitored 24/7 in a localized space where they can't be shady since Neon J doesnt. trust them. at all. for various valid reasons)

so witnessing Haym pull some stupid but well-meaning stunt to force Rikki show off how good they are at fixing and repairing shit makes Rikki go????

A LITTLE FERAL????

BECAUSE THEY UNCONSCIOUSLY PROJECT ALL THEIR UNRESOLVED FEELINGS ABOUT BAN ONTO HAYM

but they only realize this when their body shuts down and cannot act the way they would've wanted, seeing Haym entirely fucking wrecked being very similar to how they found Ban when they first met makes them spiral a little

Haym doesn't even KNOW he's not the original Yellow model, he has his suspicions but is overall kept in the dark. befriending Rikki is something he does entirely out of genuine curiosity, motherfucker has no clue he's in the middle of a 4 year long unresolved break-up between two losers who are constantly pining after each other both romantically and platonically

im thinkingggg Haym might be seeking out Rikki's presence mostly because he's noticed that they treat him slightly different than the others. not necessarily better, just different enough to get him curious. so the need to build an identity away from 1010 as a group/unit and his inherent curiosity just gets him into this mess