#likely incomplete

[ahb-writes]

Extinct languages of the Mediterranean region.

[garpond]

[pharriagehill]

thesis statement of my blog

[shadowtraveled]

"mithrun is the only real monsterfucker in dungeon meshi" is objectively the funniest bit you can get out of his everything, but in all seriousness i think his attraction to his love interest is deliberately overstated—and that makes sense, because romantic jealousy is a classic and digestible motive, which is explicitly what kabru was aiming for in condensing mithrun's backstory, and also because until chapter 94, mithrun wasn't willing to admit to the true nature of his desires.

but because romantic envy is both classic and digestible, it probably isn’t a unique enough or complicated enough desire to tempt a demon’s appetite. mithrun’s wish, as far as we can figure from kabru’s reduced retelling, was to have a life in which he had never become one of the canaries, and that carries like 3857 implications and desires within it. that’s delicious. his love interest acts as sort of a red herring to his motivation for making it, though. (side note: i'm saying "love interest" here because, keeping in mind that i barely speak japanese on a good day anymore, "想い人" is something i'd usually take as just kind of an old-fashioned and romantic way to refer to a lover, but in context i wonder if both the connotation of yearning and the vagueness are intentional, and i think this phrasing gets those aspects of it more effectively. anyway.)

mithrun considered his love interest to be untrustworthy. there was a minute where i thought that comment might be about a similar-looking elf (yugin, one of his squad members), but comparing the two…

the "sketchy" arrow is definitely referring to the elf we know as his love interest—the bangs go toward her right, she only has the one forehead ornament, and, most notably, her ears aren't notched.

every time she’s given a full-body depiction in his dungeon, she’s drawn as a chimera, with the body of a snake from the waist down. (side note: the “what if a dungeon has chimeras before reaching level 4?”/“then the dungeon lord is unstable” exchange just being mithrun grilling his past self alive is so funny. he’s so. but anyway) there are a couple things about this.

first, the snake part of the chimera appears to be modeled after some species of coral snake mimic

which, in the biology-for-fun manga, i… doubt is a coincidence, especially with the added context of the “untrustworthy” comment. the dungeon’s conjured illusion of mithrun’s love interest was a harmless copycat of a venomous original. for whatever reason, he felt this person was a threat and made up a "safe" version of her to be in a relationship with, and while it’s definitely possible to be attracted to or even love someone you find to be toxic and/or intimidating, when you take that into consideration alongside the configuration of her body, you get some interesting implications.

which brings us to our second point: if we assume that mithrun was not in fact fucking a snake, then sexual attraction, at least, was so far removed from his idea of a relationship with this person that he did not even bother to keep her dungeon copy human enough to maintain the illusion of the option of a sexual relationship. this is somewhat echoed in the depictions of their interactions, which also imply a frankly unexpected romantic distance. she kisses his cheek and he doesn't seem to react; she's at the edge of a narrow bed with only one set of pillows, on top of his blankets while he's underneath them.

the kiss is particularly interesting because it seems to contrast the text. kabru's narration tells us this was everything mithrun could have asked for, but mithrun is there looking unreadable to pensive, likely because this is right before the panel that makes it clear things in the dungeon are beginning to go wrong.

walking through this backwards for a minute, we have the physical barrier of his bedding and the spatial separation inherent in a bed made for one person, the emotional barrier of his mounting anxiety getting in the way of his ability to enjoy the affection he sought, and... the snake, which historically carries the connotation of temptation, yes, but also mistrust, barring physical intimacy. okay. ok. if a dungeon reflects the mentality of its lord, all of this might suggest that mithrun was not able to have any real desire for a relationship with this person. his unwillingness to be vulnerable or let another person in was insurmountable. but in that case, why was she such a focal point that she remained to the end, after his dungeon had stopped creating iterations of his friends to come and visit him? why would he get so upset over her meeting with his brother that he became lord of a dungeon about it?

well. mithrun's brother was also interested in her, probably genuinely. and mithrun had to win.

you have an older brother who your parents completely ignore, probably in part because he is chronically ill/disabled and almost definitely in part because he received a ton of recessive traits that resulted in rumors that he was an illegitimate child. you are aware, most likely because those same parents fucking told you, that you actually are an illegitimate child. but they keep you around because you had the good fortune of looking just like your mother. what can that possibly teach you but that you, like your brother, are disposable?

it's utterly unsurprising that mithrun, under these circumstances, developed a pathological need to be better than everyone around him. people don't keep you otherwise. i'd argue this is also why he says he looked down on everyone he knew while milsiril claims his dungeon reeked of feelings of inferiority—he sought out people's worst traits and prioritized them in his mind to protect his already extremely fragile sense of self-worth, and all the while he tried to be as likable and high-performing as he possibly could be. his parents disposed of him anyway, but even then he tried to keep up the performance. he was kind to everyone. he never once lost to a dungeon.

when he saw his "love interest" meeting up with his brother, what he saw was himself being replaced by a person his parents had always treated as worthless, and if that was what they thought of the child they'd kept, what value could anyone possibly see in the bastard they'd given away to die? mithrun and kabru tell the story like he wanted to win this unnamed elf's heart, but it was never about being with her. it was about cementing his worth, proving that he didn't deserve to be thrown away.

and so it's particularly cruel that his demon discarded him, too. but maybe it's also particularly gentle that, in the end, there was someone who refused to even consider giving up on him.

kui laid it out in three panels better than i could hope to.

yeah. it's love. you wanted to be loved, even when the only way you were able to understand it was through the desire to be wanted, and you wanted that so badly that the idea of being consumed felt like the promise of finally mattering to someone.

[pcktknife]

miku design i dont think i ever posted

[1alchemistart]

have a ms chimken

[charbies]

linktober day 13 - link

[crow-quet]

*You tell a joke about two kids who played in a muddy flower garden.

*...

*You tell a joke about a kid who slept in the soil.

[thepeacefulgarden]

[egberts]

do you see

[yangjeongin]

HYUNJIN | "ATE" TRAILER MAKING FILM

[regular-gnome]

6. I'm The Collector

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[sunshinepixels]

Some shots of Bachelor Hall

Bachelor Hall is a co-ed dormitory for first year students at Sim State University. The dorm stands at three stories tall and houses 22 students. The top two floors consists of 5 shared traditional style dorm rooms and 1 single. Each resident floor has 2 communal bathrooms, a lounge, a laundry room, and a multitude of study rooms. Apply to live in Bachelor Hall today!

[gomzdrawfr]

I really like this one particular look

i know it's a very highschool basketball skateboard dude kind of vibe but yeah

[reichurine]

(The tiny me cares a lot)

based of this song

i hope kakavasha gets to rest for his day

[usercowboy]

okay so @canondiaz made this post and i have to talk about it because teen wolf was MYYYY SHOOWWWWW for like ten years or something. and i have been sayinggg ryan guzman should’ve been on it. his name would’ve been jonathan “jonny” alvarez (anything that can be turned into a nickname with a hispanic last name) and he’d be a born wolf that would come in s2. derek’s building his pack and this born beta wolf moves into town with his human in-the-know mom (who bonds with melissa probably) and no siblings because no one has any fucking siblings in this show except the hales. and he aligns himself with derek because they’re both hot and mysterious (also scott is annoying) and stiles who is essentially hale pack if you really think about it way more than he is scott’s pack in the early seasons (trust me i have like 20 pages written on this like #trust that is a hale pack member pls see the vision) is constantly arguing with him bc he doesn’t trust the hale pack on principle despite constantly helping and protecting them and working alongside them and he’d be the only one who calls jonathan jonny alvarez by his last name and they’d be shipped to hell and back and the ship wars between #stalvarez and #sterek would be INSANE and ofc people would ship the three of them together which then becomes insaner when surprise it is revealed that’s derek’s long lost cousin (idea credits to @exhuastedpigeon ur so genius) and so the stalverek ship dies a little but also becomes considerably more insane because halecest and he’d leave in s4 to go help derek because they become closer after the cousin reveal and stiles mourns the loss of him for half of s5 and in 5x01 when stiles says “i’ve given a lot of benefit to a lot of people” and scott goes “like derek?” he’d also say “like jonny?” and stiles would get heated and go “don’t bring alvarez into this” because they became genuine besties in s4 and scott would smile at him sadly because in the beautiful world where ryan guzman is in teen wolf stiles is more canonically bi coded but still no canon cuz of queerbait but they’d flip flop between laying it heavy on stalvarez and sterek and it’d like queerbaiting SQUARED which would be kind of delicious if you’re an insane girl like me. and then anyway he comes back in s6 and lydia is like “jonny! please nobody remembers stiles” and alvarez is like “what?” and lydia goes “oh my god, you remember him, too?” and his jaw tenses a little and he doesn’t look at her and he goes “how could i forget?” because they saved each other’s lives more times than either of them can even count and this of course sparks 10 billion fics with lesbian bamf lydia and stalvarez endgame and it’d be beautiful and i can’t believe it isn’t real