#no wonder it was taking me forever to write wtf 😭

[heart2beom]

im gonna cry what

[cressthebest]

Crimson Rivers thoughts pt. 8

chapter 14:

1. “"Obviously fish have brains. All living beings have brains," Regulus tells him. "Well, except for you."”

ADKDJKSJSKS i’m sure that’s another moment in which regulus wanted to look to sirius as if to say “are you seeing this shit?”

2. 😭😭😭😭 james why are you still figuring out you might have a knife kink?? i been knew since before the arena. plsssss

3. 😭💀 the rocks in jars story

4. 😧 james killed someone for reg. no hesitation. that’s gonna haunt him forever

5. oh god, the tenderness reg uses with james after james murdered someone. he’s so gentle and worried for him. this is gonna haunt them forever

6. in reference to james committing murder: “He has the disjointed thought that his parents must have seen that, as well as Sirius. The last people in the world who would judge him for it, and he still wonders what they're thinking.”

JESUS THAT IS HEARTBREAKING. the people he cares most about isn’t judging him cause they’ve done the same thing. it just hurts

7. god, and now they’re face to face with death eaters. i can’t do this shit anymore

8. 😟😧 oh no.

“James can safely say he doesn't have a knife kink. Blade kink. Sword kink. Any of that—he doesn't have it. No, it's just Regulus he likes, and anything to do with him. When Mulciber has a sword to his throat, it's not sexy at all.”

9. reg’s threats are so scary

10. knowing reg’s loyalty to kill for sirius is fucking wild. he would murder everyone in that arena if it meant keeping sirius safe. and sirius did the same for reg.

11. 😧 shocked. oh my god. jaw dropped. reg is just hacking at mulciber with a hatchet

12. ✨evan✨☺️🩷

13. whoop there it is. in reg’s mind, he mistakingly referred to james as his boyfriend. it’s downhill from here

14. oh god, james is using his “it was self defense and murder is grotesque and not always clean” speech that he used to give to sirius all the time. i wonder how often he’s had to tell that to himself in this arena

15. GOD NOT THE FUCKING BEAR TRAP- JFC CAN THEY HAVE ONE MOMENT IN THIS ARENA???

chapter 15:

1. reg called james baby ☺️🥰💞

2. “"Sirius, you're going send something to fix him, or so help me, when I get out of here, I'm going to rip all of your hair out right from the scalp until you're fucking bald."” LMAOOO REG IS SO PROTECTIVE OF HIS NOT BOYFREIND THATS GONNA HAVE TO DIE ANYWAYS. and he threatened to make sirius bald 😭😭😭

3. “"I like you," James declares cheerfully, and Evan winks at him.” EVAN AND JAMES FRIENDSHIP EVAN AND JAMES FRIENDSHIP EVAN AND JAMES FRIENDSHIP

4. “Sometimes, healing is harder than being hurt.” godDAMMIT he’s right, and that cuts deep into my soul

5. reg and sirius are so like me fr in hating change. for them it’s the needing stability after a childhood of not having it, and for me, it’s autism.

6. reg is absolutely insane sounding and i’m 2000% on board for it

7. reg is willing to kill because they scarred james’ face but still says he hates every breath james takes. bitch. wtf do you mean you hate him? do you not get it yet?

8. 😐 bitch, yet another self indulgent moment that reg calls a parting gift

9. evan and reg team!! 🐈‍⬛🫱🏻‍🫲🏾🐍

10. comparing james to the sun >>>>>>>>>>

11. reg being the best seeker during hide and seek 👀

12. EVANNNN NOOOO

13. 😧 evan says he’s reg’s friend. shit i’m about to sob at one am as i’m writing this. and reg jsut lost the best friend he never got to have

14. god, reading from sirius’ pov now IS making me sob.

15. LMFAOOO I SHOULD NOT BE LAUGHING OVER THE BURNING TREE

16. shame on me for not realizing that the author of crimson rivers also wrote just lovers. i just realized that. like, while reading authors notes. i feel so fucking stupid rn

[wttcsms]

balancing act fan anon here again 👋🏼 girl…… i will take anything that you got for this fic (i really may be the only feral gojo fan u got in ur fanbase 🥲)

one of my favorite parts abt writing balancing act is the idea that reader is seen as this total girlboss (in the least cringe way, i swear 😭) so she’ll sometimes be described as - or even describes herself - as that annoying antagonistic evil woman in the hallmark movies. you know, the one that the businessman male lead is engaged to but ends up dumping in favor of choosing the sweeter, nice small town girl instead. but a major part of balancing act is emphasizing how in relationships, there's sort of a part we choose to play when we enter them. so, we get a glimpse of this in the first chapter when reader is talking to utahime, and in the narration, it's mentioned that reader cannot believe that utahime's ex boyfriend broke up w her because he considered her to be "shy" and "demure" but it's commented that reader recalls utahime drunkenly choking out gojo during karaoke night when they were in college; there's nothing shy or demure abt that. and so u wonder (but never ask) about how utahime presented herself in that relationship.

some fun scenes + notes that i took for balancing act:

reader and gojo make intense, intimate eye contact and reader gets nervous, dare i say, thrown off balance, and he thinks you're going to say something sweet and you are thinking of saying something nice and genuine to him but what comes out is "you need to get some brown contacts. seriously." and then u walk off and ur like what the actual fuck did i just say that, why did i say that. he's thinking wtf too

reader is kinda ass at cooking, so u go to a convenience store nearby ur apartment but that one closed down (a recurring anecdote LMAO), so u resort to going to a 7/11 that GOJO happens to go to often and you know how there's like a section where u can cook the ramen or food u purchased and ur just sitting there eating, decompressing after work, and out of the corner of ur eye, who do u see? GOJO

cue awkward, accusatory "what are you doing here?!" against his "me? i live like two blocks from here, and i'm here every week, what are you doing here?" and ur like "every week? that is so not the brag you think it is." despite the fact that reader's dinner like 3x a week is instant ramen heated up in a convenience store microwave

and reader is kind of embarrassed bc u feel like this is something lame of u, almost shameful, because again, appearances to u matter. but gojo is fucking loaded and u see the fancy takeout he gets for lunch in the office so ur confused as to why he's eating instant spicy noodles and using the same public microwave you just used, and he's like, well, the food here is really cheap

and ur like "yea cause it's packed w preservatives and chemicals." and hes like "well u seem to be enjoying ur preservatives and chemicals." and ur like "yes. they say u should eat ur skincare. this is cheaper than botox. im gonna be so preserved, i'm going to look this way forever." and now, ur once a week ritual is to sit next to each other and eat instant ramen

blah blah blah, this is abt how there is no performance when it comes to each other; although, maybe it'll be touched on/mentioned that in the beginning stages of you two being in the process of opening up to each other, there is still a level of performance going on (re: reader immediately trying to turn the embarrassment u feel abt herself by "shaming" gojo for doing the same exact thing only to end up enjoying his company and doing said activity together. maybe something abt how u two always exchange this performance (insulting each other) like it's a type of pleasntry; their own little version of a "hi, how are you" type thing)

short scene immediately after is a convo w him and geto, where geto asks whats got him so happy and gojo is like "we're getting botox together."

and the whole point of ur relationship and why it’ll work and why it’s just so different is that between the two of you, y'all have both always been performative in ur respective romantic relationships (to a certain extent)

but w gojo, reader is unabashedly and sometimes even embarrassingly yourself, your full self, in front of him and when we finally get to month three of the story, you're trying to seduce him, so u get all dressed up

and gojo knows ur trick and he stays strong but what gets him to snap and give in

is when he sees u in the morning, making coffee, no makeup, messy hair, wearing his shirt

ALSO, u tell gojo he's annoying bc he makes u laugh all the time which makes ur makeup crease around ur smile lines + gojo says softly, hidden by the sounds of ur laughter, "but i like ur smile lines. i like your smile"

gojo can be a sweetiepie, reader just needs to have a breakdown in front of him

i wouldn't say it's angst, i think both need to have their own moment of self reflection to be like ok damn, this is who i am as a person. and again, you're both used to being performative people

you'll have a moment where you're close to each other, and the conversation turns serious and maybe even oddly sweet, and reader's "instincts" just kick in and so u back away, both physically and figuratively, trying to change the subject

and i think an important aspect is that this is out of gojo's comfort zone as well; he can joke around, he can be a (poor) flirt, he teases, and so he's putting himself out there by also engaging in serious convo w you, in being the most open about himself

and so it's v hurtful to see the light at the end of the tunnel, to believe that you can really let him in and that it's worth putting himself out there

and so, rationally, he can only handle being shut out (while also feeling like he's being thrown aside) for so long

so cliche, he's drawing back and now you're the one who has to do the pulling him in while he's somewhat pushing you out

just, moral of the story, u can't expect someone to love u unless you show up with your full self in tow and allow them to know you

and being a #corporategirlboss isn't as much fun as buzzfeed articles will have u believing

and so i think you are v focused on ur looks as well

and u two go on a business trip

and ur luggage goes missing which contains ur makeup bag

and ur like tweaking tf out LMAO

[star-girl69]

DUDEEEEEE. She calls me baby youuuuu ate that harrrrrrrd. Like I had to go back in for seconds and thirds and fourths fr fr. Cause are we even surprised or are we just grateful that you give us mortals a second of your time and talent????

Babe you are so incredibly talented. The way you write is sooooooo amazing its like you just know how to manipulate your words into something that will and has had me in tears in like 2 seconds. Don't even get me started on how you write your characters. Like I don't know how I can fully and most genuinely express the astonishment you leave me in all the time.

I believe that you are one of a kind and a treasure to be cherished. I know that doubting is inevitable but I hope that you know that I'm always gonna be in the obsessed with addie corner no matter what. Like I meant it when I said that there won't be a time when you have no fans. Ever. You will forever be my favourite gorgeous goddess❤️❤️❤️.

-❤️

(I'm sorry I've been so absent school has been actually eating me alive)

(I think about you everyday though and it makes life just that much better)

(I hope you don't think I'm exaggerating😭😭😭😭All of this that I've been feeling without releasing had to be sent in a long ask my bad)

(I missed your little bonuses though, I hope you're doing okay)

(I'm always here for anything you may need, even if its literally just to tell you how amazing you are)

(love you ❤️)

#jealousclarissesupremacy

I WAS WONDERING WHERE YOU WERE I WAS SO WORRIED I SMILED SO HARD WHEN I GOT THIS ASK 🤭🤭

I CANT THAT WHOLE SECOND PARAGRAPH LIKE I CANT LIKE WOWWWW YOU THINK THAT???? ABOUT MEEE??!!!!??!?!?!?!!

TREASURE IS INSANE BTW 🤭 anyways omg. i’m so grateful wtf like i’m sorry i cant come up w something more poetic like you i just love these asks so much i get so happy and idk how to express that other than ilysm and i’m just so happy and so so grateful

also gorgeous goddess… i giggled 🤭🤭🤭

(ITS OKAYYYYY IM GLAD YOUR BACK SCHOOL HAS BEEN COOKING ME TOO 💔💔)

(EVERYDAY??!?!?!?! i think about you everyday too tho….. thinking about that one day you were so active and i got like 5 asks from you… BEST DAY OF MY LIFEEE) (also pls don’t take this as me pressuring you TRUST i am grateful for whatever you give me 🙏🙏)

(STOP. I. LOVE. LONG. ASKS. DONT ANNOY ME BY DOUBTING MY LOVE FOR YOU!!!!!!!)

(idk i’m okay i’ve just been really feeling pressured to write stuff bc the fandom is dying down (guys pls come back) and i am now firmly addicted to the praise and number of notifs i get…. lol. the bonuses have always been weird bc sometimes they come so easily to me like the first one i did was so it goes and i didn’t even have to think about it and then someone said they liked it so i went back and did it to my other fics and started doing it and idk yeah basically what i’m saying is sometimes they’re so easy and other times i have to force myself to come up w something which sucks but people like them so i’m happy to do it!!!!)

(tbh i’ll probably go back and add a bonus to she calls me baby bc i have just a little teeny bit of ocd and it will bother me but also i’m trying to let the little things go but idk we’ll see how strong i am 😭😭)

(sorry i will stop ranting now) (shoutout to anyone who actually reads that incoherent ramble)

(i need to be told how amazing i am 24/7 so that will be hard 😔) (BUT I APPRECIATE YOU SAYING THAT)

(LOVE YOU TOOOOO 💋💋💋)

#iagreesobad

[someonewhogotanaccount]

STRAWBERRIES AREN'T FRUITS😭😭😭 but srsly tysm kitkat <3333 i'll see all the fireworks, the same ones that you see and that makes me feel like the world is actually very small. I'm not a grandmother 😔but I'll take a cool grandmother. i am hnored to be your friend <3

thank you so much and happy new years eve I hope we're friends forever and even if we're not, I'll remember you forever

How you just send me a text that’s longer than mine 😂😭. And don’t think you’ll come around the grandma-thing (wouldn’t it be funny if, after years, we find out that you, the grandma, were actually younger than me the whole time? ;). I'm happy that you like my little message and the last bit is so sweet hxjskxjkqkdlnod. I’ll remember you forever too because it’s burned into my brain now that

Strawberries. Are. Not. BIRTHDAYCAKES!!!

Yeah. I know. It’s such a mind blowing, world ripping new fact I discovered. (Wtf am I writing here. KitCat, you ruin the wonderful moment of friendship, please stop.) Anyway, I wish you a wondeful, happy birthday, little Moonie (I'm still taller than you haha (KitCat, I said stop ruining the moment!) ;). May the night sky burn for you and may the stars compete with the colorful fireworks! 🎇🌌🎆

[shrinkthisviolet]

fic authors self rec! when you get this, reply with your favorite five fics that you've written, then pass on to at least five other writers. let’s spread the self-love 💗 -ambi

ps. i just realized i’m not following you???? sorry 😭

Not a problem at all! Glad you're following me now 💗

This ask was also sent in by @dearestpartnerofgreatness @phoomwhoosh @goldheartedchaoticdisaster and @northerngoshawk! Thank you all, sorry my July's been hectic af 😅

So, my 5 favorite self-written fics (in no particular order):

1. so many walls up (i can't break through) - the first fic of the s1 arc of the Morgan AU! My first multichap in the AU too...which I don't usually write a lot of, so that made it extra special. It's also where we see the beginnings of Barry & Morgan, aka one of my favorite relationships in this whole AU (and if you love them too, take comfort in knowing that there's gonna be a lot more of them to come). And some insight into Morgan & Thawne's complicated father-daughter dynamic...which is the relationship referred to in the title. And Morgan herself is so wonderful and I love her...which goes hand in hand with me wanting to give her the biggest, tightest hug 💞

2. one tries to fly away (and the other watches close) - also part of the Morgan Wells AU, and also expanding on Morgan & Thawne as a relationship. It was a nice change to step into Eowells's head and see how he feels about Morgan...we spend so much time in her shoes that I think it's important to show that Eowells does indeed love Morgan, he just doesn't know how to love her in a healthy way, so he ends up hurting her. Love can be complicated like that.

3. i hate to look at your face (and know that you're feeling different) - so this is pretty recent, but I love it! I love Izumi & Zuko, and I've always wanted to write something about them, but...the ATLA muse these days is fickle, so I wasn't sure where to start. But I figured "ooh what's more angsty than Izumi finding out about her dad's scar at 13?" and I'm proud of the results 💞 having a deadline helped too

4. come in, the water is(n't) fine - this is one I think I'll be proud of for a while. It was my first go at Sith Luke, but during the Sequels era from the POV of Rey. I've always wanted more from Rey & Luke than what we got in the movies, and this was my chance to sorta explore that...albeit with some differences. I think the backstory was the trickiest part to get right here - it's an AU but I didn't wanna go full OOC, so I had to figure out how Luke could plausibly fall. And I think I did pretty well! And bonus...I actually didn't hate Kylo Ren in this 😂

5. i hear it calling (i feel it in my soul) - can't make a list like this without a Lucy AU fic ofc! And it had to be this one. This very well might change to my ESB fic (since that movie's my favorite), but for now, it's this one. I really loved writing this, inserting Lucy and changing a few minor things here and there to kick the emotion up a notch (and to erase that brief Luke and Leia romance because...wtf)...and the sibling bonds between the triplets were so wonderful to write too! And Lucy herself is so dear to me ofc 💞

...also I'm cheating and adding a 6th because I feel like it:

6. main gehra tamas tu sunehra savera (main tera) - the Maiko/Hasaisha fic! Can't make this list without that too...this fic will forever be one of my proudest ones. Maiko is such a dear ship to me, and Hasaisha were so cute in Ms. Marvel...and I gave myself a challenge that I didn't know if I could meet, but I wanted to try. And I'm so glad I did, because I think it's one of the best things I've ever written.

[hyunjinspark]

first of all, tysm jade for blessing us with 40k of your beautiful writing, u deserve all the forehead kisses 🫶🏼🫶🏼 also reading this whilst listening to the playlist >>>

3racha are absolute sweethearts i adore them !!!! it’s so interesting seeing a glimpse of hyunjin’s life in seoul, even if it’s not under the best circumstances

“you’re a lot of things hyunjin but i know you’re not selfish” every word that comes out of this man’s mouth make me wanna punch him more. honestly fuck him. can’t begin to imagine how difficult it was for hyunjin to even consider going home, given the love he has for the others + the group’s rising fame. knowing the emotional toll ect makes it so much more heartbreaking when he said he feels like the most selfish person in the world

“i didn’t come here to make people fall in love with me” “i assume that’s quite impossible” okay but did he lie ? “you didn’t let anything happen in seoul maybe it’s time you did in daejon” HAN JISUNG HAVE I MENTIONED THAT I LOVE YOU

“the purple cans had now been lined up before the blue, blending so seamlessly and so beautifully” “whoever did this had an eye for detail and beauty, two of hyunjin’s favourite things” i can’t remember who exactly, but someone said yn’s soulmate would probably spend their time rearranging paint with her. this section is so cute bc it really does show how similar they are + i’m literally giggling and kicking my feet that the purple paint, something that no one else gave a shit about, was one of their first ‘bonding’ moments. idk but after seeing their relationship develop/seeing how many things they have in common, it just makes me so happy reading about the purple paint through hyunjin’s pov and knowing that it meant a lot to him too 🥹

“…someone might know him. right now he wondered if you did” HWANG HYUNJIN RIGHT NOW THE ONLY THING IM WONDERING IS IF YOU REMEMBER HER FROM THAT SUMMER

“maybe hyunjin would make a point to only show for art on the days that you were there” i’m clawing at the walls as we speak 😭 glad to know he was smitten from day one

“one day hyunjin could convince himself that it was the watercolours he really went back for instead of you” YOURE TELLING ME THEY BOTH FELL THIS HARD ON DAY ONE ??? IM ACTUALLY UNWELL WTF WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS ???? if i find out that hyunjin actually remembers her from that summer there’s no way i will survive. like,,,.. that would legitimately be the end of me

“hyunjin turned away immediately not wanting to see a potential kiss” jade i’m not even a quarter through but the number of times i’ve had to physically move away from the screen so i can keep intact whatever shred of sanity i have left is unreal. and i’m not even exaggerating bc how am i meant to live my life knowing that they both had the same reaction at the thought of the other person kissing someone else ? yn walking out with the watercolours and hyunjin overthinking if he should offer to walk her home, they’re the definition of soulmates 🥲

“lover. it sparkled every time the light reflected off it, and it was so transient. with every little movement hyunjin made, the word would disappear and reappear” pls have some respect for my sanity 😐 TAYLOR WROTE LOVER FOR THEM !!! it’s true she told me herself, taking this as a sign that they’ll always be this close forever and ever 🙏🏽✨💫

“you wish hyunjin could let himself love you. but some wishes were impossible” i see that during the time you’ve been away, you’ve perfected the angst so it crushes your soul…..,,.

“took up all the space in your hands just like he did in your heart” this is fine :) i am completely normal about this :))) i think i need to stop commenting on every line that makes me want to eat glass, both for the sake of my mental health and also bc otherwise i’ll be here all night 😭

“no farewell kisses i might throw up” “you were eyefucking each other while you ate the cherry slushie so you’ve ruined slushies for me forever” lee minho is a menace to society and i love him for that

“hyunjin had been holding it the rest of the evening which meant it would smell like him, and maybe you should keep it in your bed for that reason” I- MY GIRL IS INSANE BUT ALSO,,,,, UNDERSTANDABLE AJDHSJKSK

“why would hyunjin ever choose to stay with you? everyone was stopping you from being with him at this point and maybe you shouldn’t fight it” i need yn to get that internship and move to the city with hyunjin, she deserves a BREAK !

“you still didn’t know what love was and you’d never experienced it like that but this was obviously it. how could it not be” 🥲🥲 AND WHEN SHE DRAWS SOMETHING RELATED TO LOVE BC SHE NOW KNOWS WHAT IT FEELS LIKE 😭

i’m not even going to mention the mirror selfie….. but also like,,,.. thank u for that image. thinking many thoughts 🫠

“you can be grateful for something and still call it out for its bullshit” LOUDER YN ❗️❗️

“want me to send it to you” HWANG HYUNJIN IS A MENACE

“you say goodbye to all your friends like that” “no just you” wow i’ve missed hyunyn calling me single in every language 😍

YEONJUN !!!!! CHOI YEONJUN I WOULD MOVE MOUNTAINS FOR U JUST SAY THE WORD !! i’m so scared for the confrontation between him and hana, yeonjun my love you deserve the world

“he wouldn’t risk all of the important things in life just for someone like me” OMG YN YOURE IMPORTANT TO HIM TOO 😭😭 PLS GET THAT THROUGH YOUR HEAD THAT MAN WOULD DO ANYTHING FOR U

every chapter i think to myself there’s no way i can hate hana more but every time she proves me wrong 😐 girl acting like they were engaged when in reality she asked him out mainly to get over yeonjun…. PLS GIVE MY GIRL YN A BREAK 😭 that scene was so tense and well written. even though yn hates confrontation, you could feel all the things she’s been stifling for so long slowly start reaching its breaking point. i’m anticipating the day she says fuck it and goes off on hana

“when you’re hurt i literally cannot function” why would you write this i have problems at home 😐

“you’re staring at me” “you look like you belong in that painting” 🤭🥰🫠

“you weren’t sure about drowning in moonlight but you definitely were drowning in him” you have no idea how much i’ve missed your incredible writing 😭😭💗

“i changed you tangibly even if only temporarily” jade this entire section is so beautiful and thought provoking. i need to find a way to inject the words into my bloodstream

“you dragged his fingers up your thighs” ALFBAKJDNELSJDK THE SCREECH I LET OUT WAS NOT HUMAN YN IS BOLD

“i think the way that you think is beautiful” “i think the same about you” and i think the same about YOU. your writing is just so comforting and beautiful and it feels like a warm hug. sometimes i’m still thinking about a certain sentence you wrote even days later bc it changed the way i think about something. not even exaggerating but you truly have a gift, thank you for sharing it with us ❤️

“it makes your chest wrench and gut hurt but you still like it” me when i read slwy

“if someone goes through your sketchbook it’s almost like picking a the parts of your brain…” see this is exactly what i meant !! this paragraph is going to live rent free in my mind for the next two weeks

“i’ve already done every everything on here” “you’re right but you haven’t done it with me” i’m convinced this man stepped straight out of a romance novel there’s no way someone can be this perfect

HE CALLED HER BABY 🤭🤭

ahhhh okay the purple motif makes me so happy for some reason !! the paint, the balloons, hyunjin’s scrunchie and now yn’s blanket !! it’s so cute 🥰

“i could never be tired of you or anything that you do” dude where’s the love of my life 😔

“what do i have to do? just sit and look pretty” “you wouldn’t have to try too hard” STOP HOW ARE THEY SO ADORABLE 🥹

hwang hyunjin you are literally the sweetest person in the world how can a person be this perfect HE HAS A LIST OF THINGS THAT MAKE HER HAPPY NO ONE FUCKING TOUCH ME IM SO UPSET RN 😭😭 “making you happy is what makes me the happiest” “you’ll be the main thing on it” i’m this 🤏 close to launching myself into the sun

“i’m sorry that you have to eventually fall in love with someone else because i can never be yours” this entire chapter is just me switching between smiling so wide and then holding back tears two lines later

“you were the worse friend in the world to hana” yn my love you got it the wrong way round. manifesting yn going off on hana and yongbok for treating her like their doormat 🔮✨💫🙏🏽

…….. i want you to know that phone sex scene was the hottest thing i’ve ever read and that you’re officially invited to my funeral

nooo yeonjun my poor baby 😭 hana doesn’t deserve him AT ALL also lix being vvvv cryptic wonder what he has to say 👀 but if it’s anything like the conversation between her and hana, best believe i’ll find a way to transport myself to daejon. defending yn in your asks isn’t enough i need a gun

JADE ILY BUT WHAT WAS THAT CLIFFHANGER ????? HYUNJIN GOING BACK TO SEOUL ❔😭💔

ahhh okay this took wayyy longer to read than expected but i’m not complaining i’ve missed slwy so much 😭 thank you for yet another masterpiece !!! this is my favourite chapter so far (but this will likely change when u outdo yourself with the next update ofc) the little loopholes hyunyn find are so cute but also heartbreaking 🥲 i’m vvv excited for them doing activities from the bucket list it’s so cute hyunjin is so endearing 😭💗 but anyway thank you again for another beautiful chapter ily 💗✨

- 🎐

hi my love. i look forward to your reviews and thoughts so much. you always make me laugh and i love seeing you quote your favorite bits. its so satisfying to see you do that, so thank you again for providing me with this 🥺

ill answer under the cut, since its pretty long already ~

im so glad you like the glimpse of hyun’s life, before we go full frontal into his world i wanted yo incorporate parts of it while hes still in daejon, so we see where hes coming from. the context of this scene definitely puts the whole selfish statement into a new perspective 😖

it was yeonjun who said that to yn! he definitely knew what he was talking about ! soulmate behaviour fr fr.

the parallel/ of turning away before hyun can see a kiss/ making you lose your mind has me giggling.

taylor did write it for them, thank you for informing me so glad i know. the ost of slwy. 😚

SHE MAY INDEED draw something about love,,, im so taken aback that you remember all the little details from previous chapters, you make me so proud hahah.

the mirror selfie i would say is very 🤳 similar to this one picture, just a different outfit ^^

and please do inject that pool section into your bloodstream, its one of my favorite conversations to write as well ;-; the fact that you think about parts of my story well after the chapter has me screaming. thank you for appreciating it so much.

all of your little reactions make me laugh so much. i love how destructive you are please like its concerning and endearing in the best way 😅

please stay excited ! i cant wait to share the next part with you.

[tenjiiku]

hello! coming from your ao3 and i just recently read the first snow + how long does it take to fall in love? and wow 🥺🥺 can i just say thank you for writing such a vulnerable character study and story on rin i feel like i’ve seen him in such a realistic depiction of his adulthood and everything about it was just wonderful! you have such an eloquent writing style and the way you describe homesickness and the scene between rin and his parents made me cry 🥲! i’m studying abroad right now away from home/my parents and it just felt so raw and overwhelming and real 😭!!!!!!!!! i was squealing over every interaction between rin + the reader and thoroughly enjoyed basking in their awkwardness DJSKDKS.

thank you for writing your blog is a hidden GEM. sorry for being so rambly 😅 this is probably all over the place but i really just had to blurt this all out.

have a wonderful day/night!

Hi. Oh god thank you,,,? Lol wtf this is the sweetest thing don’t apologise! I’m so glad my writing resonated with you in such a way wth T_T

I spew out words to prevent myself from imploding so I never expected it to have this effect on others lol. I really hope you are spending time with friends abroad and staying in touch with your parents! I know it really helped me when I was out of the country by myself for a bit :) (Baking bread also helps if you have the time tbh…)

Thank you. I was having a bad day and this really lightened my mood. I will think abt this forever

[marieskey]

Well I had started writing but I didn't save bc u was on the phone oh well. Sex was fire I'm not waking up horny this time. Lol. I can't masturbate anymore. Okay well I can but I won't cum. He broke me lmao. We can literally never actually be together but he want me. He gave me a foot/leg massage. He had been offering because my foot was hurting. He put my socks back on so nicely with thought and care. Last time I was there, he fixed my blanket. That too was with thought and care lol. I found the draft! But I'm just going to stay here. He thought I wanted him to cum in me, but less talk about it. I said you're trying to feel me up before I go. And he said you want me to fill you up are you on Birthcontrol? Do you want kids, no you dont want kids bc you take take of kids? Then at one point he says yeah let the kids know. (at that point in like wtf) I what do you think I just said to you????

He was like to cum inside you. I said no I don't want kids has nothing to do with me taking care of kids all day. No you can not cum in me. If you fuck around and get me pregnant I'd be pissed. I did not say I don't want to be attached to you forever. Stopped myself. From that point on I repeatedly said you cannot cum inside me. CANNOT cum inside me. Bc listen no.

Before we actually started fucking there was a conversation about how he was always going to fuck, given the massage and food. The massage made me so wet he could fucked right then. A whole episode happened before he fucked. He was very indirect about the anal. I honestly thought he was going to say he wanted me to peg him. Which is why people need to just go head and tell me. Well before the big reveal I told him he could fuck me however wanted to fuck me. Minus the ass that was true. He bit my neck and nipples. He also choked me lightly. He put his fingers in my mouth for me. I personally think that is stupid but I sucked on them. I'm legit not horny. He stuck it in pretty much everytime I wanted him to. I told him how much I wanted him. 🙄🙄🙄🙄 asked him if he's missed me 😂😂😂 he said yeah. It had been too long. Keep telling me how good my pussy was. Think that was bc I told him he doesn't cum. Which is both good and bad. Like if he's not coming he's not getting me pregnant. But if how much fun is he having if he's not coming. Think his nut has been more intense than it usually is bc he like me more than he'd like to admit. I like him too. He's the only person. I would layup with after sex. Everyone wants me to stay 😭😭😭😭 doing a horrible job at “get that dick and go” but I don't really call him so there's that 😭😭😭. But really everyone has wanted me to stay I've always left. This nigga implies he wants me to stay I stay. Although in my defence the one time he said he wanted me to stay I left. That was mostly bc of my doctors appointment tho. I guess next time I'm not going to pretend I'm not staying when I am.

Morning sex is fire. I've been missing out not staying the night. 😭😭 so do I really like the nigga or do I like the morning sex. One could argue both. For some odd reason I don't feel the need to recount every detail of the encounter. It was good. Ima go back. I even slept a bit this time. Although I wonder about the cleanliness of the sheets/pillow. He ate me until I tapped out. I came thought he was done so I went to move. He looked up and said I'm not done. His roommate probably hears me coming. I'm really glad I haven't seen him since Jeff and I started having sex. I can't. The good news is I can probably still watch Physical 100. We didn't finish the episode. 🤣

Last thoughts, I'm glad I never fucked him in college. I would not have been able to handle it. He would have fucked me like that 10 years ago and I would've been dickmatized it would've been awful. I have less feelings for him in that way. Like I wanted to be his girlfriend. Today, he could get me pregnant and i’d be like we not together. I asked him while he was fucking me, legs in the air he's thrusting inside me, if he'd care if I was fucking someone else. He didn't answer, asked me if I wanted him go care. (wtf kind of answer is that). Had asked me if I care if he was fucking someone else. Told him were not together just fucking but he'd have to use a condom. He said okay🤷‍♂️ that's truly the extent of my care. He cannot fuck me raw and be fucking someone else. We barely kiss as it is, but we probably wouldn't do that much. Bc he'd probably eat her ass and pussy too so id be good. He shouldn't be fucking me raw but here we are toying with being parents lol. There was a point, when he was fucking, that u considered letting him fuck me in the ass. Only for two seconds tho. Snapped out of that quick. 😂

[hotpinkboots]

mettaton x reader cuddles lots of cuddles and extra fluffy, please I'm dying for him 😭 i can't find anything Abt him

~Mettaton x Reader Fluff Headcanons~

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I've been waiting for some MTT fluff for so long, all I get are shy readers and stuff, thank you :D! I DID ALL OF HIS FORMS. IT'S A LONG ONE.

Enjoy~

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Hapstablook (Ghostie)

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~haha no touchies your hand goes straight through

~They giggle when you try touching them. I headcanon ghosties can feel some sort of tingly tickle feeling when they're 'touched'

~They blow kisses at you!! Mwah mwah! Kisses from a little pink marshmallow!

~Marshmallow is self-conscious, please shower them with affection and compliments

~You can ever so SLIGHTLY feel their hair (I just like pink ghostie with a small fluff poof over eye) if you concentrate. It's very soft.

~They'll leave you little love letters in your purse for you to find later. Hapstablook always gets embarrassed about it if you bring it up. Maybe write them a love letter, instead of directly bringing it up! It'll be a cute little unspoken act of affection you two to share.

~Omg...don't get me started on if you compliment their SINGING, of all things...They'll be very nervous about it. It's rare that you'll catch Hapsta singing, they do it when nobody else is around. Whatever you do, don't start clapping and cheering immediately, unless you want them to fly under a table and be stuck there for the rest of the day

~Just bring it up later- that's the best thing to do. You can't just start talking to them while they're in the zone. Talk about it tomorrow.

~When you DO bring it up??? Omg flustered 100. Hapstablook's cheeks flare up, and they can't comprehend what the heck to do. I mean, you heard them singing?? They're mortified!

~Aaaaaand, that all melts away when you tell them how wonderful and beautiful their voice is. After some reassurance, they feel pretty good about themself Maybe they'll even sing for you if you ask them.

~Can't touch each other, so the struggle is real. You just wanna hug and squish 'em, and they WANT to be hugged and squished by you, but neither of you can.

~So, there is definitely a lot of "I could smooch you, darling--! If you'd let me, that is...."(self-conscious ghost :c), "You're so adorable, I want to hug you!", and, "I wish I could just hold your hand!"

~Hapstablook gets this certain look when they want your affection. They'll sulk a little, maybe look at you longingly...Doesn't take you long to realize they just want a "Hi" or something.

~Guide to a happy ghost:

~Give your ghost time and affection

~Catch the kiss they blew to you, and blow them a kiss back

~Make your ghost feel appreciated,

~And they'll do the same to you!

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Mettaton (Easy Bake Oven)

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don't tell him I called him an easy bake oven...

~he's a madlad, may he have mercy on you

~Just freaking picks you up and swings you around

~WEEEE

~I don't know why people act like he's 4 feet tall, when this man is like 6 - 11 (big gap I know, there's no specific height, just going off what I found) feet tall. Like wtf here comes a big ass microwave in a dress hide unless you wanna be ran over

~He likes to put you on top of him, so he can roll around with you sitting like you're on a throne.

~for the love of God hold on tight

~Mettaton will purposely go extremely fast to make you feel like you'll fall off, and either comes to an abrupt stop to throw you, goes even faster and catches you when you fall, or, of he's feeling nice, will slow to a stop and let you get off.

~He never realizes how freakishly huge and tall he is?? like *drops human* "OH I KNOCKED THEM OU-"

~But, all this is what makes him so loveable and goofy. He teases you because he likes you, obviously. Have you ever heard of somebody teasing another person when they hate them? Me neither.

~There is a fine line between bullying and teasing, and he will forever walk across it.

~Mettaton never legitimately wants to hurt your feelings, or seem mean- He's being goofy. If you tell him he's hurting your feelings, he feels terrible.

~"WHAT?? DARLING, HOW LONG HAVE YOU FELT THAT WAY?! WHY DIDN'T YOU TELL ME BEFORE?"

~DO NOT LET HIM GET TO CLOSE TO YOUR FEET HE WILL RUN THEM OVER AND IT WILL HURT IMMENSELY

~Also, he might laugh about it. Just don't let him run over your feet. Ooo Ouchie Mama

~His screen turns into a bright pink (no no not red, PINK) heart when you kiss him.

~If you go to kiss each pixel on his screen, he won't know what to do. Metta can't decide if he wants to squeal, pose dramatically, hug you, flirt with you, or fall over because you made him so flustered he short circuited.

~so he does all of the above, in that order. Why choose only one when you can do it all?

~He LOVES holding your hand. Mettaton can't play footsie, kiss you, or let you run your fingers through his hair in this form! So Mettaton settles for something just as sweet and romantic.

~he cries over the fact he has four fingers ok don't laugh at him

~ok maybe just a little bit

~You always tune in to watch his shows so he has one more viewer

~HE GIVES THE BEST SHOULDER MASSAGES. HANDS DOWN.

~He talks sweetly to you, asking about your day, talking about himself and his day, just dumb little things that make love so ridiculous and endearing

~You HAVE to try all the food at the Burger Emporium. Mettaton absolutely NEEDS to make sure you approve of it.

~and if you don't he'll say "DO IT AGAIN BUT BETTER"

~please help Burgerpants

~You and MTT have 100% acted out that one scene from Dirty Dancing. You run up and jump into his arms, while he sings "III'VE HAD, THE TIME OF MY LIIIIFE, AND I, OWE IT ALL TO YOU WOOOAH OHHH"

~But you also have to watch Alphys' crappy anime sometimes. Mettaton isn't going through that alone, man, he needs someone to make dramatic hand motions at to show he hates every second of the horrible agony

~"YOU BETTER PRETEND TO LIKE IT FOR ALPHYS"

~"Please I don't want to watch this alone with her save me sweetheart save me WHERE ARE YOU GOING DON'T LEAVE ME YOUR PRINCE IS IN DISTRESS HELP ME PLE-"

~His love language is all fun, games, and teasing. Mettaton is very energetic, bubbly and excited, he just wants to do everything with you! He's giggly and ornery, and very goofy. Mettaton wants to show you a good time (*do you want to have a bad time), and make sure you're happy and as cheery as he is.

~P.S. Mettaton will literally collapse against you while posing dramatically, and acting out some Shakespeare play. Move before he knocks you over

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Mettaton EX

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~Omg he's so cuddly wtf please

~Yes he's a horny brat who flirts constantly but he just wants to HUG YOU

~DHFHFFHFHHD

~Mettaton LIVES for your blush and flustered expression, so flirting is huge for him

~Like, he just smiles and it's enough to make you swoon

~He is used to being the one to flirt and be the first to kiss you. Catch him off guard by throwing out a little pick up line and kissing his hand.

~Pretends to be smooth and smug about it, but you can hear his fans going full speed, and he's got a silly little half smile

~BUT DON'T STOP KEEP GOING WHY'D YOU STOP FLIRTING????

~And thus the flirting war begins

~One does a pick-up line, the other does the same, and back and fourth for an hour until somebody breaks

~(it's usually you who breaks)

~BUT, if you can use good enough flirtatious comments, you can make him giggle and shoo you away playfully

~He tries saying things like "Ooh, I can tell you rehearsed~". that's cheating don't let him win >:o

~and then when you actually leave he's like "NO NO WAIT KEEP GOING"

~Totally starts dancing with you and singing out of nowhere

~Mettaton dramatically cries at legitimately every single movie

~THEN HE JUST LIKE FALLS OFF THE COUCH AND POSES DRAMATICALLY ON THE FLOOR

~and then he gets up because ew the floor

~"WAAAAAAAAAAA HE JUST WANTED TO BE WITH HER BUT HE COULDN'T BECAUSE THEIR FAMILIES ARE ENEMIES AND IT WAS FORBIDDEN FOR THEM TO BE TOGETHER AND THEN THEY D I E D"

~Mettaton gets so jealous of the movies and music you like though- like calm down your songs and movies are amazing too

~"...What are you watching? It looks terrible, darling. You should watch one of MY movies instead. I can make you a movie you'll like."

~"What are you listening to?? I bet it's one of my songs. How cute of you-...Oh."

~He just wants your attention

~Give it to him

~Mettaton is super needy and dramatic- Not because of self confidence. Oh hell no, he's MADE of ego. Mettaton just wants you to think he's as great as he knows he is.

~The only two things Mettaton is self-conscious about are the other side of his face and his hands, believe it or not.

~His hands look unfinished under the gloves, even though they're complete, and the other side of his face....well, we know what that looks like

~He would just like, die. On the spot. If you ever saw his hands without gloves, and moved his hair to see his unfinished face.

~You'll have to get him extremely comfortable, so he lets you play around with his soft hair.

~AND THEN OMG YOU START KISSING THE SIDE OF HIS FACE THAT'S USUALLY COVERED

~And if you somehow get him to take his gloves off, and you start kissing each mechanical knuckle? HE'S SO IN LOVE WTF AAA

~That flusters him the most.

~Luckily, those are the only two things Mettaton would ever be self conscious about.

~I don't know how but he has broken into your house and posed hotly on your kitchen counter before

~He had to entertain himself SOMEHOW, doesn't he? Teasing you is his favorite hobby

~Mettaton loves showing you off and flaunting you around.

~HE WANTS YOU IN EVERY MAGAZINE WITH HIM

~Another thing that intensely flusters him and makes him feel extremely adored (which he loves obviously), if when you're being very sincere and serious about complimenting and loving him.

~Mettaton loves to flirt and be sexy, but if you were to ever hold his face and just say a simple, "I love you", he'd melt into your hands and just stare at you so lovingly.

~Likes being close to you. Always. All the time, he wants to be touching you.

~Holding hands, wrapping his arm around your waist or shoulders, or even just brushing his arm against yours, he wants to touch you and be near you.

~CONSTANT COMPLIMENTS, KISSING, POSING, AND BEING PICKED UP

~He hugs you so hard sometimes, it feels like being squeezed by a metal snake. Owie :( He means well Lol

~Goofy, silly and egotistical as always. But this form has even more ways to show affection than the others!

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Mettaton NEO

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This one is a little bit less fluffy due to human murdering robot mode lol

~Mk, so you're a human, right?

~Cool, have fun being Alphys' test subject

~She wants to see how NEO reacts to different things

~AND SINCE HE'S MEANT TO KILL HUMANS, IT'S TERRIFYING TO BE IN HIS PRESENCE

~It isn't often you'll see MTT NEO, and when you do see him, Alphys is always there to make sure nothing goes wrong. You know, to make sure you don't die :D

~100% flirts with you to try to get you to come closer. The closer you are, the better chance he has at hitting his target ;)

~Stands behind you with his freaking arm canon against your head while massaging your shoulder with the other hand

~Wants to scare you but turn you on at the same time

~WILL OFFER YOU TO SIT ON HIS LAP

~Who are you to say no?

~Mettaton NEO is a bit yandere-ish

~Wants to murder you, wants to make out with you

~He's got this scary look in his eye, but a sly smile. he knows what he's doing smh

~His thoughts are basically "SEDUCE SEDUCE MURDER MURDER KILL KILL KISS KISS"

~Yeah, you won't see much of him- and it's better that way, too. Despite his chilling and sexy nature, he will try killing you, unfortunately. Killer robot

~Alphys has everything under control, though. You aren't in any real danger if she's there to make sure the tests go smoothly.

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[buffymilkovich]

... (takes a deep breath before creating chaos in your inbox)

I just caught up with since we're alone and...

KENNY AND NESS (@lethargicmick)!! you guys are so frickin' AMAZING do you know that??!!

Like it is now most definitely my fav in the enemies to lovers department and College AU department. I regret not starting to read this earlier.

I had some thoughts I'd like to share since I'm too shy to come out and do it on ao3. Most of them are lines from the fic that i loved the most but whatever

First off whoever (or maybe the both of you?) come up with the different variations of Mickey's 'Jesus Christ' is a comedic GENIUS like 'jesus christ and his disciples" 😂😂😂 it never fails to send me laughing off the floor.

"Mickey wondered if there would ever come a day when Gallagher could say something that didn’t take him by surprise and cause Mickey to question his entire existence" - this just made me go 🥰🥰 you like him, you blind idiot.

Ben and Aria are sweethearts and honestly, I'm just like them when my friend(s) is too blind to see that they have a crush on a person.

The Community for Coffee Sluts <- uhmm is there a sign-up sheet??? where do I join??

Since we’re alone, and Aria’s not here being her adorable nosy self - 👀👀 I see what you guys did here 😏. And yeah I agree Aria is the most adorablest nosiest person and we love her for it.

Chapter 15-16 killed me. I've never cried sm in my entire life before 😭😭. I'm still sad over it

No, it's fine. Missing a practice isn’t the end of the world. Was just trying to scare you so you wouldn’t do it again - WTF @!$?!* I was FUMING when I read this. I knew Petrovich wasn't a good person but I was sort of rooting for him (We were all rooting for you)

All I want to do is wrap them up in blanket burritos give them lil forehead kisses and tell them everything is going to be alright.

He fucking missed him - Yea you do 🥺🥺🥺

But the more he looked at it, the more the text message just seemed off. - lmao literally me every time I get a text

Ian knew that something was off, just by the way mickey sounded on the phone and then came to give him company 😭🥺

I literally love this fic sm you guys!!

ok that's it for now. Trust me there's soo much more but I don't think Tumblr could handle it so I'm leaving that for another day. Also is nelkins gonna be ok? (I knew there was something between them but I just thought my vibez were off)

AJ??!?!?!??!?!?!?!?!??!

jesus christ and his disciples was all @lethargicmick she is the master of writing mickey's dramatic ass lines/rants jandownd

there is definitely a movement for 'petrovich can suck ass and die' (of which we are wholeheartedly included) i will add u to the mailing list

"wrap them up in blanket burritos give them lil forehead kisses" literally me every minute of every day for swa ian and mickey they are so clueless and precious and i just want them to be okay 🥺🥺🥺🥺

AJ this was just the most amazing message to receive i can't thank you enough for taking time out of your day to just spread positivity and support like you deserve only the best things today and forever!!! 🥰🥰🥰🥰 thank u so much for reading and i hope u enjoy the rest!! 🥺🥺

(p.s. nelkins are on thin ice...hopefully they'll pull through 😮‍💨)

[jayflrt]

literally screaming at the top of my lungs right now I AM IN LOVE WITH YOUR WORKS YOU NEVER FAIL TO MAKE ME SOSJWKDSKSJ

the a-list was so GOOD WTF. i said this when the teaser initially came out but ive never watched gossip girl but im wholly in love with this fic. maybe its partly cause its jay and partly because its You who wrote it. I've actually been reading this since it came out and putting off finishing it bc i didn't want the fic to end but omg even the ending was so good (before the fic came out, i probably read the teaser like 8 times bc its also so good)

im not even joking when i say i would literally leave mid-fic and go on like tiktok or something and then come back JUST to prolong the reading time (also bc the smut scenes had me blushing and screaming)

i believe the teaser of the a-list was the stepping stone for me following you and being one of your regulars because the synopsis and excerpt was so interesting so ive been here a while and i can confidently say you are one of, if not, my fav writer on this app and for enhypen works. you've did it again!! you said before that you would pride yourself on your realism and characterisation and i agree!! youre amazing when it comes to building plot and relationships and angst and everything in between and you are so good at making the story flow and evoking emotions from us readers that we don't usually experience when reading these fics. so thank you !!! for being here and doing what you love and blessing us with these amazingly written fics and smaus and your wonderful presence as well! i truly enjoyed the a-list so much alice!!

oh. my. god. 😭😭😭💖💖💖

it’s all under the cut ;D

IDK WHERE TO START LIKE DID YOU RLLY JUST WRITE OUT ALL THIS FOR ME DID U RLLY JUST SAY ALL THIS ABOUT MY FIC 😭💗 y’all want me to cry so bad you know the effect y’all have on me 😔😔 i’m just so soft for each and Every word of this ask LIKE HELLO DONT MIND IF I SCREENSHOT AND KEEP THIS FOREVER :(( 🌷🌷🌷

omg i just added the note in the fic but i wish i mentioned that you don’t have to watch gossip girl to understand what’s going on in the fic :’)) it’s in the same universe but doesn’t follow the same story !! BUT AHH I DO REMEMBER THAT YOU CHECKED OUT THE PREVIEW :’)) also 8 times 😭💕 once again i am so sorry i took so long to come out with the full fic LMAOAOA

AND PLS IM SO HONORED YOU TRIED TO EXTEND THE READING TIME :’)) i know exactly how that feels omfg like that hollow feeling when you finish a fic but want to go back to the world the author sent you in and see more interactions between the characters 😩 ALSO PLS THE SMUT WAS SO SELF INDULGENT 🥴 BUT IM VERY GLAD YOU LIKED IT <33

omg this ask is just the sweetest thing ever 😔😔💘💘 i always smile when i see you in my ask box and this is the best thing about writing fics bc through them i can meet good friends like you :’)) AND PLS I LOVE THAT YOU DROP BY REGULARLY BC I LOVEE ANSWERING YOUR ASKS 🥰🥰 ALSO SOBBING AT THAT WHOLE LAST PART it makes me so happy that you feel that way and that my writing expresses that :(( and that’s such a “mission accomplished” for me rn bc i do want to convey emotions through my fics and hearing you say that it was effective is just making me so 💘💞💖💗💓💕💝 but thank you thank you thank you so much for reading and i hope you have a wonderful day/night :’) take careee ♡