#online grad class started today

[jawesomesauce]

[archaeostudies]

6 - 9.7.2024

so its finally cold and rainy in my city so the last four days were all about cozy reading with some warm cup of tea. i've finished Emma and it is so good! its already one of my favorite books! now i'm starting Madame Bovary by Gustave Flaubert.

today was the last meeting of my indigenous history and anthropology reading club (lots of grad students reading and discussing papers lol) and tomorrow i'll have an online class on anthropology (i know, i'm in winter break, but i love winter courses! and this one is about one of my main research topics: indigenous rights on lands and territories)

i promise soon this blog i'll be all about the campus life and lab work and days in the library. i promise.

[astriiformes]

Having one of those weeks where I'm fighting my brain and my brain is winning, and it's hard not to feel a little depressed about it.

I'm excited about my classes this semester but they're definitely going to be more work. And I'm already struggling with motivation and still don't have a lot of good solutions, so it's all too easy to despair. I'm trying to get ahead of it and made an appointment with an academic skills coach at school, but I don't know how much they can help me with when the real problem is my out-of-control ADHD. Not to mention the anxieties it leaves me with about my future.

I still have no idea what I'm going to do after I graduate and it's starting to hit me really hard. I'd like to go to grad school, but I don't know if I can do it, or if I can uproot us from our support system like that, or if it's the right choice for actual employment prospects. But thinking about giving up on it makes me miserable. And my anxiety about all this is starting to bleed into my daily life at school, too, which is only making me feel worse.

Money is not good. I'm definitely overworking myself to try to make up for it, but we are not in a good place financially and I'm starting to beat myself up every time I pay for anything, but especially stuff that's non-essential. I just about made myself cry today thinking about nabbing a ticket for the Mountain Goats concert here this spring because I have friends going and it'd make me happy but is it really worth it?* When it comes down to it, I am just not getting enough financial aid to support two people and have eaten through almost all my savings trying to make it work, which only makes me more stressed about having something better lined up when I graduate. Except I don't think I will. Which is really bad.

*Please do not offer to help me pay for it. I think Dys the OCD demon would physically attack me if someone tried to buy me something frivolous because of a tumblr vent post.

I'm also just... questioning every social interaction I have, online and off. Turning them around in my head over and over and trying to figure out if I misstepped or misspoke or made someone upset, even when there's no real reason to think I did. It's exhausting, and I know it's indicative of larger problems but it's also just making me feel like my current floundering is impacting my relationships, too.

I don't know. I've been feeling weird and sad the last few days and I can't think of any real ways to stop feeling weird and sad, especially when money is tight and I feel like I'm fumbling every social interaction, making good distractions harder to come by. I hope the semester goes okay, but I'm getting pretty worried it won't. And I'm tired of the future being something that makes me feel sad and scared instead of hopeful things will get better.

[asyastudieskorean]

9/20/2023 — Hello, studying world. Today I start my journey of learning Korean with my first university Korean class (online). We didn't have any work on the first day, so all I did was read the syllabus (the most basic, non-informative syllabus I've ever read, ha), set up my new desk space, and updated my student bio on Canvas. I haven't been a college student for about 3 years, so it felt like I accomplished a lot. When the readings and assignments start coming in, I'm sure reality will hit.

I've always wanted to learn Korean, and my goal is to reach a near-fluent level, but I know it'll be hard, especially with my full-time work priorities. Eventually, being able to teach and work in translation is my goal. FYI, Chinese, Thai, and Japanese are on my list, too, but I'll be realistic and focus on one language for the foreseeable future.

Last week, as it so happens, I had to move from my family and childhood home, and I am lacking in the positivity department rn, so I think having a place to chronicle my studies and the progress I make will be good for me. I tend to start a new blog on here when I'm having a hard time, and it helps.

So, the plan is to take two full academic years of Korean (that's 3 quarters per year at my university). That's just how much Korean the school offers. I graduated in 2020 from this same university with a BA in English with a focus on professional and creative writing, and I really enjoyed the overall experience studying here.

I spent a whole lot of time obsessing over grammar, reading new and old literature, trying to understand poetry, and just enjoying the inner peace I felt when writing fiction. It was maybe my most happy time because I had no other real responsibilities or worries besides school. All I did was read and write.

Anyhow, fast forward to now, after pondering different language learning options (which are limited in my area), I decided to take my Korean classes at the university level because the classes will show up on my official university transcripts, and I imagine that will be best when I apply for future Korean-related jobs. I am also hoping that by taking university-level language classes, they will have some sort of superior level of... intensity? accuracy? efficiency? Something like that. Granted, this route isn't the best for my finances, as there is no aid for non-matriculated post-grads, and the cost of a single class is quite ridiculous. But alas, here I am, with an empty wallet and hope in my eyes.

Upon reading the syllabus today, which could basically be summarized as "TBD," I realized the textbook I bought, the textbook I waited over a week for, the one listed on the online course materials list, is, in fact, not the correct textbook.

And, icing on the bitter cake, the correct textbook appears to be a rare Pokémon that isn't available anywhere except the dark corners of eBay, where shipping will take at least 2 weeks. Like how did other students get this? Did they order it two months in advance? Meanwhile, I have my first assignments and readings due Monday.

I quite literally just sent an email to my professor and asked what I should do, so we'll see what she says, but I really wasn't hoping to be that one student, emailing the professor about an issue on day 1.

Since this is my first post here, here also is a tiny bit about me:

My name is Asya ("Asia"), and I'm a 24-year-old English grad based in Washington; no, not the one followed by DC, but the state with a lot of rain and trees. Twilight? Starbucks? Amazon? Yes, that one.

Since graduating in 2020, I've been a freelance editor and writer. I'm taking Korean both for passion and for work purposes, and I really should have started sooner. But I guess we're all on our own timelines.

I've been on Tumblr for a long, long time, but I've never been part of the studyblr sector. I'm glad to be here. :)

[intriga-hounds]

Max how are you doing today so far? Wanted to check in since this whole thing has been so stressful with Beau :(

i am doing much better now that beau is improving. it sucks not being out there with my parents, but i’ve been calling regularly to check on them. they’ve been through the wringer for sure. i hope beau keeps improving, for my dad’s sake. my dad loves beau so, so much.

for the past week, i have been working on online classes to get more units. the more post-grad units you have as a teacher, the more money you make. i already have a master’s degree, but would essentially need another master’s to get all the units i need. i got into an MA program years ago, but then the program tanked due to low enrollment. so here i am taking courses individually, which is a lot cheaper anyway.

the whole process is really dumb. i first had to apply for my principal’s approval on the courses, then district approval, then wait 20 days before starting, and now i need completed transcripts by the end of the month to get the raise for second semester. it really feels like the district does everything in its power not to pay me.

anyway i’m trying to finish all my work for the three classes by tonight so that i have enough time to get graded and order transcripts. over the past week, i’ve probably written 60 pages of papers and assignments. 😳

beau being in mortal peril has not helped.

[the-bagelbitch]

grad school final essay chronicles (all of them due May 9)

essay 1: research paper on transmasculine embodiment (18pg minimum)

- turned into a paper about how invisibility of transmascs is actually systemic (don’t even get me started on HBIGDA thinking the boob bone is connected to the piss bone)

- 10+ pages in and despite being totally novel research it is looking less like the type of research paper my prof wanted

- prof makes me rewrite it :/

- prof has lots of really stupid rules that I don’t like

- I cut notes into tiny pieces yesterday and make murderboard to connect the ideas and Frankenstein them all into a type of essay the prof wants

- 7 pages in as of today written today when I restarted it

- prof offered to give me moar feedback yesterday but did not reply to my email today :V

- I am still going to write the essay I got 10 pages into. It will be written. It is super fucking important trans history. I am SOOO mentally ill about this essay. it might turn into my thesis

essay 2: amatonormativity, anxiety, campus literature (16pg minimum)

- I’m interested in it but I honestly don’t care all that much

- prof likes my essays so I’m not too worried

- will finish after essay 1 (on page 8 of essay 2)

- I should have picked an easier type of project like syllabus creation

- fun fact this prof has a mugshot online

essay 3: WGS something (8pg min)

- we have prompts

- I have not looked at the prompts

- I didn’t do nearly enough reading for this class

- this will either be really hard or really not hard

project 4: zine on trans friendly housing (is like 30pg or whatever)

- gotta finish gathering data on one state

- gotta put it all in the doc n make it pretti

- so many things to do jeez

currently exploding the state of Iowa with my mind

also have to get grades done before the 14th

gotta grade 2 of the class’ big projects and scan so much shit and organize it and shit

I wish to dissolve into a fine mist

[kabillieu]

Mad at how productive I was today! R took a monster nearly three hour nap (without waking up after 45 minutes and demanding to be held), so I was really able to get some course planning done for the asynchronous online poetry class I'm teaching. I'm very, very grateful for that, actually, because it alleviates some pressure on the oncoming week before I start classes. I have several appointments this week: two doctors visits for my kids tomorrow, a panel for the new grad students I'm helping with on Wednesday, a haircut Thursday, and honestly I will probably put Tom down this week too. So that's something every day except Friday, and Friday I want to treat myself to a little back to school clothes shopping if I can swing it. (It's still CRAZY that I'm acting like scheduling my cat's euthanasia is just one more to-do item on my list for the week. I don't know if I'll be able to do it, truthfully, because although I know Thomas doesn't feel well, he's still here and he's eating and drinking and accepting pets. Maybe I won't do it this next week. Poor buddy. I want to do right by him. I guess Dominic and I will get this figured out eventually, and probably soon, but it's hard of course.)

I also cleaned out and organized R's nursery. We never really put a nursery together for him. He stayed in our bedroom for the first 8ish months, and then we finally put up a crib in the old guest bedroom, but nothing else was in there. Today I moved the rest of his baby stuff into the nursery and tried to put everything away as best I could. It's still not decorated. Poor second baby.

Also went on a long stroller walk with Dominic. Made dinner for us. Did laundry. Vacuumed the house. Cleaned the upstairs bathroom.

I'm exhausted. I would love a day to just. do. nothing. But there's just so much to do, and it has to get done. So I'm doing it.

[animakemecry]

Questionable Decisions

Chapter 1 - 3.4k words

Summary: Being a grad-school student with Connie and Jean as best friends is a lot of fun, but you find yourself in a precarious situation one night after Connie's friends Annie and Mikasa join you and the guys for drinks at the local bar.

Tags: Attack on Titan modern!AU, Attack on Titan college!AU, Annie x reader (kinda), Jean x reader, bisexual!reader, afab!reader

CW: NSFW, masturbation, drinking, alcohol

****Minors DNI****

It’s only 4 p.m. and you’re just barely able to keep your eyes open through your last lecture of the day. Finals week is approaching much more quickly than you anticipated and you’re behind on some major projects, but motivation is dwindling and procrastination keeps taking over. You’re past trying to focus on the lecture, so you pull out your phone to text your best friend Connie.

“I’m about to pass out in class right now, I’m so bored.”

“lol that sucks dude. did you wanna come over after you get out of class?”

“Yeah that sounds good. I need to work on my project proposal, but I can work on it while I’m there.”

“aight bet. idk what time Jean is gonna be back, but we could grab a drink when he gets home if you need a break.”

“A drink sounds pretty damn good right now.”

You zone back into your applied biostatistics class and try your best to focus on the material. You love neuroscience and you don’t regret choosing this major, but after grinding through the first two semesters of your master’s degree it’s taking every ounce of your willpower not to take a gap year. You start thinking about getting drinks with Connie and Jean later and the thought of Connie’s overconfident approach to flirting with girls at the bar makes you smile to yourself. Finally you hear your professor start to wrap up the lecture and you make a beeline for the door.

The walk up the stairs to Connie and Jean’s apartment feels extra long today. Maybe it’s just the mental exhaustion adding to the psychical fatigue. You hang out with Connie so much that he got tired of having to get up to let you in while he’s gaming online with his friend Bertholdt, so he just gave you your own key. You’ve never met Bertholdt since he moved across the country for college with his best friend Reiner, but Connie has told you all about them and how they begged Annie to go with them when they decided to move. You’ve only met Annie a few times, but you have a good sense of her vibe. She’s working on a master’s degree in kinesiology at the same university you attend so you see each other on campus sometimes. She usually seems pretty closed off, but you’ve seen her laughing with her friend Mikasa on campus and it’s like seeing a totally different person.

Once you walk inside the apartment Connie moves over to give you room on the couch and offers to get you a snack, but you’re so behind on your project that you accidentally cut him off to ask if you can use his kitchen table as a desk for a couple hours. You set up your laptop and textbooks and put on your headphones to block out the sounds of disapproval coming from Connie as he plays Overwatch. It felt like an eternity of checking your notes, cross-referencing, and meticulously typing out the appropriate methods when Jean finally walks through the door smiling over at you.

“Hey you.”

You instinctively roll your eyes at him. You know Jean well enough to know that he’s a natural flirt, but you can’t stop the slightest blush from appearing on your cheeks when he directs his flirtatious energy at you. Before you can reply to him Connie blurts out,

“Dude where have you been? I've been getting slaughtered in game without you.” 

“Sorry bro, one of my coworkers had an emergency and I had to cover the last couple of clients he had coming in. You guys wanna go get a drink?”

You immediately close your textbook and push your chair back from the table making Jean laugh.

“That bad huh? First round is on me then.”

“I appreciate it. Sorry you had to work late.”

“Nah it was nothing really. I’m just sorry I kept you waiting.”

“Yeah, you better be.”

Jean pretends he’s hurt by your sarcasm before going to his bedroom to change out of his work clothes. Connie asks if it would be okay if he invites Mikasa and Annie. You see no problem with that, in fact, you get a little excited at the idea of getting to know them both better.

Jean comes back out of his room in joggers and a loose fitting t-shirt with the Vans logo on it. You try to distract yourself from looking at the casual flex of his muscles as he stretches his arms up over his head. Connie decides he’d prefer to walk, so you guys set out for Sina on Tap. You listen to Connie tell Jean all about his plan to find a girlfriend tonight as you hold back the urge to poke fun at him. Once you get inside you see Mikasa and Annie at the bar throwing back a couple of shots and you can’t wait to have one yourself. You know you’ve been in need of a break and a good distraction from school, so you’re hoping you can let loose tonight. Mikasa sees you and the boys and she waves you over to her. Connie gives Annie a little half hug and asks her what they were drinking and then turns to Jean,

“Well Jean, you said first round on you right buddy? That’ll be 3 tequila shots, we’ve gotta catch up to them.”

Jean orders your shots for you and you take it back no problem with a swift bite into the slice of lime on the rim. You feel Annie’s eyes on you and you turn to try and start a conversation with her.

“So what made you want to go into kinesiology?”

“I originally picked it at random cause I thought the pay would be worth it, but at this point I actually find it really interesting. What about you? You’re in neuroscience right?”

“Yeah, I want to work on neurological solutions for hearing loss. I would be devastated if I wasn’t able to listen to music or hear my friend’s voices anymore.”

“Wow, that’s a pretty big goal. That’s cool.”

Annie talked to you for a while longer before Connie challenged her to a match of pool and Mikasa followed them over to the tables. You looked at Jean and joked that Connie pulled two girls instead of his usual zero and he chuckled. You guys just sat and sipped your beers for awhile before Jean asked you,

“So what do you think about Annie?”

“She’s cool, I still don’t really know her, but I feel like we could be friends.”

“Nice. I know that would make Connie happy.”

“I wanted to ask about that, do Connie and Annie have some kind of history? I saw the way he looked at her when we first walked in, and I don’t know if I’ve ever seen him initiate a hug.”

“Annie and Connie? Nah, no chance. She and Reiner were super close and Connie helped her through her depression after he and Bertholdt moved across the country. I know it was her choice to stay here, but I think it really hurt her to be left behind.”

“Damn, I can imagine so. I’m glad she has Connie then, and based on what I’m seeing right now I’m glad he has her too.”

You and Jean both look back over at the pool table where you see Connie attempting trickshots behind his back. You notice the way Mikasa is watching Annie laugh at Connie’s performance, and with some observation you start to understand their dynamic a little bit. You watch Mikasa’s eyes trail down Annie’s body taking in her tight black jeans and her oversized flannel. You see her eyes flit back up to Annie’s smile in an instant with adoration on her face. You turn back to Jean to confirm your suspicions,

“Are Mikasa and Annie…”

Jean cuts you off,

“Dating? I don’t think so. Mikasa has always seemed protective of Annie even though Annie can absolutely take care of herself. I don’t know if the attraction goes both ways though. I’ve never asked.”

You look back over at the scene unfolding in front of you and realize you’re a bit envious of Annie. You wish you had someone that looked at you with the level of care that Mikasa’s face is conveying. It’s been a couple of years since you’ve let anyone get close to you emotionally. Your mind trails off into thoughts about the last relationship you were in. A relationship that left you feeling like domestic life was a cage. It’s not that you wanted to date tons of people or sleep around, but you felt like you were constantly being told how to live your life and truthfully, your ex had some beliefs about traditional gender norms that became a major turn-off. Jean must have noticed that you were staring off into space cause when you snapped back to the present you heard him ask,

“Were you even listening to me?”

“I’m sorry, I got caught in my brain. What did you say?”

“I was just talking about how it always seemed like Annie had feelings for Reiner, but nevermind about that. You okay?”

“Yeah, I’m alright, just some memories from the past.”

“You wanna talk about it?”

“Not particularly.”

“Okay… you wanna drink about it?”

You laugh at Jean’s successful attempt to bring you back to earth. He flags the bartender over and orders you a couple more beers and another shot. You both throw your shots back with ease and decide to take your beers over to the pool table to join your friends. To everyone’s amusement Annie is showing Connie the right way to attempt a trickshot from behind the back. She sinks the 10 ball in the side pocket and smirks at Connie. Connie shrugs his shoulders trying to appear unimpressed, but you can see the boyish excitement tugging at the corners of his mouth. You watch as Connie and Annie finish their game with Annie easily pocketing all of the stripes in just a few turns. After she sinks the 8 ball she turns to ask who wants to face the winner and Jean jumps at the opportunity. You watch as Annie meticulously reracks the balls and lines up the cue. You notice the rings on her fingers, gemstones wrapped in delicate wire, dainty enough to appear feminine, but drawing enough attention to her hands to feel a bit sensual. You watch her shoot the breaking shot sinking the 3 ball. The raise of her eyebrows conveying careful consideration of what her next move will be. She sinks the 6, 2, and 5 balls before she just slightly misses her shot on the bright-yellow 1 ball. Jean observes the table with a fervent look in his eyes.

“Damn, you’re not going to make this easy for me.”

“Why would I? Can’t keep up Kirschtein?”

You giggle in admiration of the confidence rolling off of Annie’s tongue. Jean looks over at you with a shocked look of betrayal on his face. He can be so dramatic when he gets competitive. 

“You’re rooting for her now!? I thought we were friends.”

You roll your eyes at him and smirk at Annie.

“Can’t argue with talent, and from what I’ve seen Annie is the most talented player in the room tonight.”

Annie gives you a shy smile and you can’t tell if it’s the low lighting playing tricks on your eyes or if a light blush really did just spread over her freckled cheeks. You realize it must be the latter when you notice Mikasa glaring at you from behind her beer bottle as she takes a long sip. There’s a fluttering in your stomach that you can’t ignore as you realize the guys are looking back and forth between you and Mikasa trying to assess what just happened. Jean breaks the tension by lining up to take his first shot on the table. He sinks the 11 ball and just barely misses the corner pocket with his following shot. Annie lines up her next shot and makes quick work of the 1, and 4 balls before she asks Connie to grab her another beer from the bar. By the time Connie comes back Jean has managed to sink three shots before missing the fourth. He walks around the edge of the table to where you’re standing and leans into your ear to ask you what the hell you’re thinking by flirting with Annie like that. You tell him you didn’t mean for it to come across flirtatiously. Truthfully though, you have always thought Annie was beautiful. You start mulling over all the times you’ve seen her around campus in her doc martins and her layered crystal necklaces. Always listening to music with her bulky headphones on over her sleek blonde hair pulled back in an effortless bun. You feel a tension pooling inside of you and you don’t dare look over at Annie or Mikasa for fear that they might see your thoughts written on your face. This is the first time you’ve ever consciously considered Annie in this way and you get flustered by the flood of thoughts rushing to your head. Connie’s hand on your shoulder startles you enough to shift your focus and you see that he’s gotten you another beer. You must’ve had at least five beers and two shots by now, and you can feel the warmth coming over your body as the alcohol affects your senses. The game wraps up nicely with Annie sinking the 8 ball as effortlessly as breathing, and Jean and Mikasa make their way to close their tabs at the bar. Jean walks back over to you and Connie to ask if you’re ready to go.

“Yeah I’m ready, you didn’t have to pay the full tab though. I thought you were just buying the first round.”

“It’s no problem. You and Connie can split the next one for me.”

“Deal.”

You say bye to Annie and Mikasa taking note of the tension on Mikasa’s face when you address her. You realize this might become an issue, but the alcohol has caught up to you at this point and you decide to pocket that thought for another time. As you walk back to Connie and Jean’s apartment with them you decide you don’t want to call an uber to take you home, so you ask them if it’s okay if you crash on their couch.

“You know you don’t need to ask us. You’re always welcome at our place,” Connie says lightheartedly.

This wouldn’t be the first time you’ve stayed at their place overnight. There have been several instances when you haven’t had the energy to drive home after a late night study session, or haven’t wanted to spend the money on an uber. You’re always grateful that the guys let you stay whenever you need to, and you always keep an extra change of clothes and a toothbrush in your backpack. You walk up the stairs following Connie’s lead and make your way into the apartment. Connie asks you if you’d like to take a shower and offers up his bathroom to you. As much as you would like to feel refreshed before bed you don’t have anything to sleep in except the shirt you’re already wearing.

“I don’t have anything to sleep in if I shower; the only clothes I’ve got in my backpack are jeans and a crop top.”

Jean mocks your unpreparedness and offers you one of his t-shirts for the night. You kindly accept his offer and tell Connie that he can shower first if he wants to. Connie obliges and makes his way down the hall to his room and bathroom. You sit opposite Jean on the couch and he asks you if you want to watch a show while you wait for the shower. He puts on a random episode of Bob’s Burgers and asks if you want anything to drink. While he’s in the kitchen getting you a water bottle your mind starts to linger back on the thought of Annie blushing at your compliment. The thought of her beautiful freckled cheeks blushing just for you forces a sheepish smile to your lips. Before you can catch yourself Jean comes back into the room,

“What are you smiling about?”

“Oh, um, nothing. I think the tequila is making me loopy.”

“Since when are you a lightweight?”

“Since tonight I guess.”

It’s a horrible cover up for your real thoughts, but it’ll do for now. Connie comes back into the living room shortly after and tells you that his bathroom is all yours. You ask Jean to get you one of his t-shirts like he said, and he tells you to go pick one out for yourself. You go into his room and open his closet door to look for the softest shirt you can find. It’s a black shirt with the Guns and Roses logo on it. You walk back into the living room and ask him if that one is okay. He says it’s fine, so you walk down the hall to Connie’s bathroom to take your shower. Once you step in under the hot water you realize how wet you are. You can’t believe the thought of Annie got you this aroused, after all you barely know her. Your hand dances around your clit for a moment while thinking of her. You feel a need growing inside of you and you slowly slip two of your fingers inside your slit hoping you can take care of yourself before going back out into the living room. You move your fingers in and out of yourself at just the right pace and feel the pressure in your body building. You curl your fingers up into the spot that will send you over the edge. You come thinking about Annie’s cute little face underneath your pussy. After riding out your orgasm, you realize you’ve been in the shower longer than need be, so you wash yourself off quickly and hop out of the shower as fast as possible to avoid suspicion. You wrap yourself up in a towel and brush your teeth. You feel the warmth left over from your orgasm in your legs and it makes your pussy start to ache with need. You know you can’t do anything about it since you’ve already been in the bathroom much longer than you should’ve been, so you decide you’ll take care of it once the guys are asleep. You throw on Jean’s t-shirt and pause a moment to take in the distinct smell of him that lingers on it. You’ve never noticed Jean’s natural scent before, but now that you’re enveloped in his t-shirt you can’t help but take it all in. When you walk back into the living room Jean and Connie are both gone. You hear Jean’s shower running and assume Connie went to bed. You see the folded blankets they left for you, and you go to work making the couch into a bed. Once you’ve laid down you realize how warm your body is. You can’t tell if it’s because of the alcohol, the arousal, or both. You start to move your hand towards your clit when you hear Jean’s shower turn off. A few minutes later he comes into the living room to ask you if you need anything else for the night. You tell him you’re all set, and he tells you goodnight. Once he closes his door you let your hands wander to your breasts, pinching your nipples and massaging them with greed. One of your hands instinctively travels down to your clit where you start rubbing small circles making yourself squirm underneath your own touch. You inch your fingers further down into the pool of warmth forming between your legs. You’re so wet it’s almost embarrassing. You start fucking your pussy with your fingers, doing your best to suppress a moan as your back arches up from the couch. Your free hand is groping your breasts as you feel yourself spasming around your fingers. You move your free hand to your clit and start rubbing it delicately to avoid overstimulation. Your body is on fire with an aching need as you slam your eyes shut imagining Annie kissing down your body and sucking on your breasts. Your fingers are curling inside you and your body is spasming in response numbing all your senses. You open your eyes and freeze when you see Jean staring at you by his bedroom door, shocked.

chapter 2

[stardustedknuckles]

I think...I'm gonna do it. I'm gonna take an online course to learn to teach English abroad and go do it. Rest under a cut cuz I got rambly and excited.

I always wanted to be a teacher, but not here in America and certainly not in Oklahoma. I've seen how teachers are treated, I don't have it in me to do grad school right now or even a teaching certificate (because again, nothing I would want to teach here would require less than grad school) and best of all, a lot of what I'd be teaching involves grammar around the middle school level. Even though I'd be teaching it likely to young learners (to start) little kids through middle school is exactly what I want to teach (or college. see: grad school). I love language arts and I love working with kids, and I have wanted to try and make a life in another country since before I even understood how fucked I was in this one. I could work in Europe and not have to worry about whether I look feminine enough or fit in with the staff or kiss up to the principal enough, I could work to stay in one place and get on with an actual school and eventually live there for real - the idea of going to a different country every year seems exhausting and not great for long-term savings. I'm ready to dig into a career that will take care of me in a place that will take care of me.

And I think that starts with this course. I thought eight years ago that I would be happy if I could find a way to make tutoring a full-time job, and I don't feel much differently today. I'm good at explaining things and I want to do that. I want to be every cool language teacher I ever had, especially for people who struggle with it. Tutoring Spanish was the highlight of my college experience. I didn't get to take a college English grammar course until senior year as an elective and I loved it. This is as close as I can get to the middle school version of me who was deeply saddened when English and Language Arts stopped being two different classes.

It just sounds too good to be true, but I have been thinking on it and looking into it for months now. I even have a place to stay in Sweden while I'm looking for work, because somehow the connections I made in the fucking beauyasha fandom have allowed the stars to align in this way. If I think about that too long I'll just start crying lol. I wasn't sure how I was going to pay for anything past the course until I remembered - once I have that certification, I can teach English online for supplemental income and keep the job I have. That's huge, and realizing that was what allowed me to say okay, this is real and we can do it. My credit card won't like it but we can do it. The alternative is getting a second job and that's not realistic in small town Oklahoma, and also I think it might kill me to try. I don't want to put myself through so many paces trying to do this that I am too burnt out (again) to enjoy succeeding.

Thanks for listening. I just needed to actualize it and make it real to myself. I've done the research, it's not a scam, it's a real thing people do, and I am more than good enough and excited enough to do it well. I'm not great at wanting things and even worse at imagining having them, so this is a pretty big deal.

[trishacollins]

The Golf Cart Bandit

Guys I have to tell you about the love of my life, the apple of my eye, the highlight of my week - to the singular person keeping me afloat in this chaotic world. Let me tell you all about the Golf Cart Bandit.

So I started Grad School a few weeks ago. It’s been stressful, as one might imagine. It’s entirely online and we’re all forever away from the campus. However, because we are technically students we still get alert for anything going on on Campus.

It’s a pretty straight forward system, they send out a “Danger DANGER Danger” email, it makes a loud annoying noise. If you have a phone line attached to your email, it texts and possibly calls you too. I don’t have that option, so I get these alerts by email.

We’re seven weeks in to class, which means at the campus they are seven weeks in to living with each other.

Every. Single. Week. We get one of these alerts saying a golf cart has been stolen. The grad students are finding deep hilarity in this. The email alerts are getting more and more unhinged, reminding people to take the keys out of the golf carts or hit the kill switch on the engine. Incidentally, I am learning a lot about golf carts myself!

One presumes that the person or persons responsible for these small crimes are freshmen who just can’t behave. But the grad students are living for it. If we could, we would send these individuals flowers. An eatable beer arrangement. God only knows. This chaos is the delight of our week, because of course, they’re golf carts. They drive them around a bit and ditch them before they get caught.

We would very much like both the perpetrators and the security on campus to wear gopros and live-stream these incidents for the hilarity of it. Sadly, they don’t know how much entertainment we are getting out of this.

Which brings us to today’s small crime. Apparently the memo has finally gotten out about the golf carts. They’ve become too defended. So today. TODAY our intrepid heroes stole an e-scooter.

I am a lay abiding citizen, but we all just about died laughing when we got the notif.

[purplesurveys]

1577

During the last week, has anything caused you to shake with laughter? Other than inside jokes between me and my sister, not so much.

Do you own any check patterned shirts? I don’t; not my style.

What about shirts with stripes on them? I have a couple, but I’ve largely outgrown the style so I don’t wear those pieces as often anymore. But I still keep them just in case I feel like pulling them out.

Has anyone you know started a new job recently? Do they seem to enjoy it? My sister! She was able to score a job two weeks out of grad; I’m so proud of her. Agency life too and we’re pretty much on the same track since she entered into an ad agency.

During the last week, have you met, or been introduced to anyone new? Yeah quite a number of people. We had a face-to-face event for one of my accounts last Thursday and there were lots of new faces from our co-agencies and guests who attended.

^If so, what was your first impression of that person? They were all wonderful people, very very friendly.

The last time you went shopping, did you pick up any bargains? Not really.

Do you own any bags or purses in your favourite colour? Yes, I have a pink purse I’ll pull out every once in a while.

Have you seen a butterfly at any time recently? Nopes.

Describe your most comfortable pair of shoes. My sneakers from Onitsuka Tiger. I LOVE that pair; it’s my go-to when I know I have a hectic day ahead that will have tons of walking and running around. Never failed me.

Are there any authors that are particularly dominant on your bookshelf? No, I’m not so much a repeat customer of certain authors – but me not being a frequent reader is also definitely a bigger factor in this haha.

The last aroma you smelled - was it pleasant or unpleasant? Pretty good; it was my coffee.

Are there any ornaments in the room you're in? What do they look like? I just have this giant white dreamcatcher next to my bed.

Have you seen any photographs or videos that made you smile today? Thanks to Disney+ I’ve finally been able to rewatch Fresh Off the Boat today, which I was never able to follow after the first, like, 4 episodes. Show is still as funny as I found it back in high school.

Do you know anyone named Aidan? Tell me a little about that person. I don’t think I do, no.

Is anyone you know into vintage or retro styles of clothing? Yes, a former co-worker we’ll call LA.

Have you drank any fruit flavoured beverages today? No.

What carbonated beverages do you have in your fridge at the moment? Just beer.

Which item in your fridge are you most looking forward to consuming? Don’t think there’s anything in there I’m particularly excited about.

Has anyone you know got into a new relationship lately? No new relationships in my circle so far, but there is one major milestone that just passed! My favorite cousin proposed to his partner last night :)

Did you ever have a woodwork class in school? We don’t have such a class here.

If so, did you ever make anything that you were proud of? --

If you menstruate, do you experience much PMS prior to it? I get really melancholic in the days leading up to it and also develop a long, long list of cravings, but I wouldn’t say my PMS is terrible. I know plenty of others who have a more difficult time.

Is there any food in your house that has purple packaging? Nothing that we have stock of. I just have the packaging of my BTS Snickers bars and BTS Meal saved in my room lol.

Do you know anyone else with the same first name as you? How many people? I just know two other people.

What colour are the cushions on your living room couch? Grey.

Approximately how much time have you spent online so far today? The entire day.

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[inkofamethyst]

April 26, 2024

I impulse bought two indie patterns from etsy and I'm actually so excited to try them omg. Like the images in the reviews look SO GOOD and I'm kind of hoping that I can eventually modify it for a basic block because I've had so little luck making one on my own. But before that, I'm just excited to have a springy, summery midi dress. Also hoping that I can make the bust area fitted enough to forgo a bra without sacrificing comfort. A big ask, but perhaps possible.

I feel so bad for my CS prof. Basically no one shows up to class anymore. Maybe 10-20 percent the past two weeks? Which I understand that people are getting busy and that the lectures are available online and that the lack of a final exam/homework that tests the content of the last two weeks does not incentivize getting on a bus to get to the engineering school from the main campus, but ughhhh it's just so awkward.

Investing is only fun while stock market go up. I lost something like 5% of my portfolio in just two weeks which kind of hurt a little because that's a significant portion of what I've put in there the last few months! I know, I know, it's all about time in the market, not short-term fluctuations. And I've been doing well with not peeking and just leaving well enough alone. It's just that I was excited to hit a milestone, but my balance dipped right before I hit it.

Excited to bring my uke up this summer! For fingerpicking and learning new chords and brushing up on other things I'd learned previously. Lots of new songs to try since I started listening to my daylist. Wonder if I could fit my sewing machine into a carryon...

Oh oh also! Severance was really really really good! Excellent, even! Combines some of my favorite elements from shows like Stranger Things (I've only seen s1 tho lol), Lost, Pantheon... a thoroughly entertaining work that can also be overanalyzed to my liking. Big fan of science fiction that's a little unsettling. Big big fan of scifi that asks what it means to be human and who/what is deserving of human rights.

Today I'm thankful for students who are infinitely braver than me. Students across all fifty states. At my undergrad institution and my current institution. I am so proud of them.

With the current political climate, the themes of THG feels especially... relevant. Uncomfortably relevant. Power, revolution, mass movement, conversation, connection over division. I feel and have felt frustrated for months. For years, sure, but my frustrations have built especially quickly over the last several months. It has come to a head with the most recent big federal bill being passed. It's not that I don't believe that there is a threat of "foreign adversaries maliciously using my data", but I also try to be anti-sinophobic, because sometimes ""China!!!1!"" just comes off as a lazy scapegoat, kinda propaganda-y (not that I dismiss how the tiktok algorithm can also be propagandized for its own purposes). I am not immune to propaganda, but I can try to critically consider why someone might want me to see one narrative over another. That was a tangent. Just overthinking about my game :/ Maybe I should've done some zombie thing (but even The Last of Us has underlying political themes, so).

I am also thankful for kindhearted strangers. I need to more regularly meet and converse with strangers. Unfortunately, I have granny tendencies and get tired early. I was supposed to go to a grad student party tonight. Did not happen. Maybe some other time.

Anyway, bonk the police.

[unogeeks234]

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[kassiemari]

H I M

Hellowish HAHAHA I'm back bitches 

Hay of course i'm here to give you some nonsense something to read to HAHAHA

First of all, Happy Valentine's Day Everyone !!!! Did you have a good day today? I hope you are well and good, have your special someone greeted you already? Or did he/she give you something to surprise you? Are you surprise either HAHAHA

Well I am too, not greeted, not something to surprise me but still I'm surprised on myself, HAY NAKU i'll elaborate everything so that I can breath already, this writing releases my unreleased thoughts that i want others to know but i can't say to them. 

If you remember I first reopened my writing chenes here last 2022, and if as I remember I started doing online chatting, my last was Nikolas I think? But I stopped chatting with him why? He's married and has 2 kids (the nerve HAHAHA), after that I have another 2 guys to talk to until I met Sami.

Sami, the one im talking to up to present AHAHA. He's from London though, 32 that time, studying and super sweet. By the way his birthday is coming 25th of February na uyyy. We first met at online dating app (my coworkers influenced HAHAHA) on 2022 of May, his consistency on messaging me everyday makes my attention divert to him, i'm not interested in the first time because i have currently have someone to talk to on whatsapp too but his persistent and consistent messages makes me stopped talking to Ricky and talk to him instead, in fairness to Sami AHAAHAH were still talking.

Sami is very sweet on our conversations he's the one who always have a topic to talk to, asking you always’

How's your day?

What did you do today?

Did you eat? What did you eat?

What happened? 

How's everyone at home

How they're doing at work

Like something like that always, that is something new to me, no ones asking me that (it feels good pala that someone asked you), he's my rant person na since 2022, hes listens to my all problem that day, all my encountered situations, family problem, what frustrates me, he always listens and give some good words to cool down my mood from grumpy to okay mood.

I guess not all we meet is can be what we imagined they will be, (disclaimer we not meet in person just video HAHAHA, every weekends and we have 8 hrs different time) why we video call on weekends because i don't have work that day that we can talk up to 2-3 hours i guess, like when saturday morning here in philippines, its friday evening there, so he's done at his part time job and classes, then on the 2023 everything changes HAHAHA that's what a relationship feels like? It started a week before his birthday. He seldom messaged me it was unusual. It takes 8 hrs to reply. So I ask and message him and I received explanation but in the next day, the overthinking inner self (maybe he’s with someone HAHAHA) I pass by that explanation and continue with him but it continues the same scenario on his birthday Ive greeted him but he replied on the next day again, after that I lie low on him i didnt reply quickly too and now he notice and ask me if we have a problem or i was mad on him ba? You know what? I've said all the differences that I notice in the past weeks. Oh he said sorry naman so don't worry we're okay naman after that HAHAHA HAROWT!!

Then, he greeted on the 1st year of being continue talking, but were not the same as 2022 everyday and every hour he always message but i guess that changes too because on June or July I discovered that he graduated at his study na on Feb but he didnt say about it. I asked for the grad pic though but he said in his friend daw (oooohkay) i didn't pursue the grad pic because he said he was gonna ask for it for his friend. I said it was okay (but inner self im screaming maybe on his new girl na or new special someone na). 

We seldom talk na and the updates are not consistent anymore but he has a message everyday but you know the feeling when something changes. Then i decided to stop na I didn't reply to his messages for the straight 3 days but i've seen all his message, then one day when he bombed me messages and call i've replied and said all the feeling those days that i felt neglected, he says sorry though and we continue again what we started (HAYS WAKE UP GIRL, HE HAS NO PLAN HAHAHAHA) that what i've always thought but i'm still hoping.

Actually, we have 3 or 4 that i've decided to stop but still forgive him HAY NAKU, i stop sending everyday pictures (selfies and updates) that he was asking everyday, and he seldom sending too AHAHAH ANG GAGONG YUN, but the feeling that he has someone there that was near him bothered me and never neglect on my mind (is its weird? Or i didn't trust him) he always said naman he's just busy with work and no time for that, that only me that he was interested in (HUWAW ANG SWEET NG GAGO) HAHAHA 

Hay naku this writing is like im narrating all my ‘journey’ with him (not literally journey) but guess what 3 or 4 times he said he want to meet me in person and goes here in philippines he ask for me to check if theres possible flight to booked to but scared inner me said to him ‘don't rush we can meet soon, just done what you need there’ HAHAHAH (OH AYAN GAGA OVERTHINK KA NGAYON AHAHAHA).

Until now I still overthink that thought that he was with someone there but i give up on always wanting to break up with him, (ooops i forgot to tell we were official na on june 2022 HAHAHA) HAROWT!!!! But you know he always messages naman but the excitement was not there anymore it's just me maybe on him too, i stopped accepting video calls too since last year i've always reasoned that i was late waking up but i'm awake when he message in the morning.

Now I'm still waiting for him to stop messaging me so I can move on. Do I? I've already fallen since October 2022 because that the 1st replied to him that you know you know (love back?) HAHAHAHAHHAHA. I have scenarios in my mind when he confesses to stop na (I HAVE SO MANY THOUGHTS HAHAHA), i'm tired asking for a break because at the end of the day i've always forgiven so i'm just waiting for him to get tired of messaging me.

 Will we get tired of this setup? When will he be?

You have so many things know about me na 

So i'll stop there na, i'll just update you soon? On What's happening? HAHAHAH

Hopefully it's a good thing (STILL HOPING GIRL)

XOXO AHAHAHAHAH

Remember to be beautiful always and always be kind 

Lovelots

Kassie Mari

[spikeisawesome456]

what happened this weeek bro????

Well, funny you should ask that, my friend! Completely unprompted and everything! 😅

Ahhh. But BOY has this week been a chore. The last two days especially. I'll put this in a read more to prevent dash clutter, because this is a LOT. -.-

Anyway. For context, I am currently getting my master's degree in Educational Counseling, to hopefully become a school counselor. My college is completely online, which is helpful in some ways, unhelpful in others. I am also an after school teacher at an elementary school, a job I've had for almost 5 years now.

So, on Monday the 3rd, almost two weeks ago, my very last grad class started. My program has us doing one class a month, instead of five classes a semester or something, so this is my only class for this month (and the next, since this is a research class/my thesis class, and is logically a bit longer).

However, instead of hearing from my new professor on the 3rd, we had radio silence for a week. This was very frustrating, since I have quite a few questions about my research project that I came up with in my last class in December (yes, my last class ended in December, I guess they didn't have this class until April for some reason. I've been doing my internship the last 3 months though, so I was fine with it), but I decided to overlook it and do the assignments, which were just to submit the assignments from the last research class I took in December, which was easy.

Then, this Monday the 10th, I finally heard from my professor. She sent everyone a few emails at 3 am (??? Why 3 am I have no idea. I bet she finally checked her email, went "OH SHOOT I HAVE CLASS" and frantically send the emails), one of which said our first zoom class was that day at 5pm. Problem is, I work until 6:00 every week day, and I didn't have nearly enough time to ask for the hour off. Plus, I was a bit pissed at my prof for not giving enough warning. I sent an email asking if she would record the class, as well as asking her my main question I had. She replied back saying that she wanted to meet up with me privately, which I said that I was amenable to, telling her my availability. She then... emailed me back (calling me KAREN, when I had said my name is KATIE VERY CLEARLY IN MY CLOSER AND MY EMAIL IS LITERALLY MY FULL NAME) saying I didn't answer her????? When I very obviously did???

Well. Whatever, it was weird, but we eventually decided to meet Friday (today) at noon. I confirmed it, she didn't, but I just hoped she'd make the meeting.

Which... she did not. I sent her an email this morning at 7:00 asking for confirmation, and she never responded??? At all??? Like... dude??????? Finally, at noon, I decided to call it a wash and went to lunch with my parents. I had left my internship early for the meeting, too, and I was honestly super pissed.

But you want to know the kicker?? The real kick in the nuts????? When I finally got to lunch and sat down at 12:50... I opened my email for funsies and saw that she had finally emailed me... AT 12:15, SAYING THAT SHE WAS WAITING IN THE CLASS ZOOM LINK THAT SHE SENT THE CLASS. THAT SHE NEVER TOLD ME WE WERE SUPPOSED TO MEET IN. WHAT THE HELL.

I was SO DONE at this point I wanted to scream. I have since emailed the director of the whole program, her boss, and hopefully the director will get back to me... soon. But I have a feeling I will be stuck with this moron, for my most important class. And the worst thing is, I STILL DON'T HAVE AN ANSWER TO MY QUESTION, MEANING I DON'T KNOW IF I'M WASTING MY TIME DOING THIS WEEK'S HOMEWORK. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. Ugh.

Anyway. If you thought THAT was bad, I also found out that I'm apparently not enrolled in my second internship class, despite the fact I'm at the exact same location, with the exact same counselor as my supervisor (I have a new internship class every 200 hours apparently, needing 600 hours total). No one told me I needed to apply for each class, either. But regardless, I now have to apply to the next class, even though I just finished my last 200 hours and am now starting my next 200, but I don't even know if they will count because my school is incompetent. And on top of that, the person who is reviewing my application has no idea how to insert my birth day and SSN into the credential website to see if I am clear to work at a school. I'm just... so freaking done with this school, I HATE THEM SO MUCH AHHHHH.

AND THEN, ON TOP OF ALL THAT... At work yesterday, there was legit a NAKED MAN IN THE WINDOW OF THE HOUSE OVERLOOKING THE AREA WE HAVE THE KIDS PLAY IN EVERY DAY. AND TWO STUDENTS SAW HIM, ONE A KINDERGARTEN GIRL. AND SHE SAID SHE SAW EVERYTHING. This poor little girl... I looked to confirm there was indeed a naked man, and while I was able to look away fast enough to not see anything untoward (and the window was slightly blurred at least), I was able to confirm that he was, at least, not wearing a shirt or pants. Whether he had underwear on, I don't know, but it was still very disturbing, especially because he's been watching us for a few months now... I thought it was just some guy looking over his fence curiously at the kids outside, but now, I don't know. He definitely knew we were out there, since I am fairly certain I saw his face. My supervisor is handling this one, but I still am very creeped out by this.

Anyway, there is more, but I'm tired just writing this. I want to sleep for days, but I don't even get to rest this weekend, since I have homework THAT I DON'T KNOW WILL EVEN MATTER SINCE I DON'T KNOW IF I CAN DO MY RESEARCH, but whatever. WHATEVER. At least the work isn't hard. It's just coming up with my questionnaire for the kids to answer. But still!!!

So, that's how my week has been going. How's yours?? :-) :-) :-)