#or maybe its just ocd i have no idea

[eldrichfuck666]

why every time i log on tumblr i feel like everyone hates me secretly and hardly can interact because of this stupid feeling like something bad is going to happen or that i shouldn't try to interact with anyone since it's useless and everyone literally hates me with passion already and everything i do and say is wrong and bad and i shouldn't exist?... LIKE I SWEAR every time i'm online i feel just like that for no reason at all... maybe i shouldn't be here at all?.. i hate feeling this way since i barely get any hate and like.. its just the inner feeling and my brain

[ozymoron]

reading posts that come across my dash and sitting for a minute to debate with my mental disorder if not reblogging this will mean a hell portal will open beneath my feet and i will suffer for eternity for my lack of action or if its all good and i can just scroll on by (its usually the hell portal thing)

[t-lostinworlds]

it feels like I just come on here to complain nowadays but LASKLSKSALSKSL I'm just so annoyed

[opens-up-4-nobody]

...

[compulsiveobsessing]

uhhh really bummed (this is a massive understatement) that ocd affects every part of my life. it's just fucking constant. i always forget how much of a toll this takes on me physically and emotionally until it gets particularly bad or a compulsion is taking a ridiculous amount of time and i just. this fucking sucks.

i lose so much time and mental energy to compulsions and intrusive thoughts and experience way too much actual distress on a day-to-day basis. and this is incurable. of course it's a disability and i know that but ohhhhhhhhhh

[not-the-cheese]

one sentence(ish) summaries of every magnus archive episode PART 2

(eps 61-110) thank u for the funny comments and tags on the last part i love u guys

the rest of these may take a while as i've caught up to where i am currently in the podcast but i will finish them like in a month i promise

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61. the thrilling sequel to man does not open coffin: man DOES open coffin.

62. surely this doctor can find an easier way to scam people out of money than putting them in a little book.

63. THE DARK ATE MY BROTHER IN LAW.

64. this is possibly the plot of laura croft tomb raider

65. mmm crumchy

66. what's the opposite of an unboxing video

67. as close to a coffeeshop au as you're going to get from this podcast

68. Doctors hate him! Man REFUSES to die from tuberculosis!

69. your college's psych department has the worst idea ever.

70. reverse death note

71. not even death will stop this woman from taking the british subway

72. man doesn't want to be low key racist in his last moments before getting eaten

73. police versus the second coming of dark jesus

74. lady is haunted by an ad for coffee

75. mike crew says "uh fuck it let's just put this guy on a skyscraper forever"

76. ryan from buzzfeed unsolved breaks into a train yard and suffers consequences

77. you're not a enough of a bitch to be my real mom

78. man gets harassed by his cousin and then exorcises him

79. you know that chase scene in scooby doo with the doors

80. stupid idiot motherfucking jurgen leitner

81. i have been personally victimized by the sequel to the hungry hungry caterpillar

82. pov: elias threatens to cancel you

83. mannequin takes matters into its own hands after people don't like its pitch for a new window display

84. a hoarder put newspaper on my friend's face :(

85. hey there's maybe a little man upon these stairs?

86. man gets got by a squiggly thing in the dark.

87. plumber is so oblivious to spooky happenings around him that it possibly saves his life.

88. guys i think this guy likes to dig

89. lesbian investment banker finds a new, less evil job: arson!

90. guy who turns people's bones starts a gym where he promises not to turn your bones! (he is lying)

91. i was stalked by lightning for 10 years and i all i got were these stupid scars

92. jonah magnus is a bad friend // another day another elias slay

93. ocd is no match for purple fuzz

94. let the bodies drop gently to the floor let the bodies drop gently to the floor

95. im so sorry my brain refuses to remember what the war ones were about but i think one guy got gently kissed on the forehead so that's pretty nice.

96. diversity wins! the not-quite-human delivery men who stole your identity and business are maybe gay?

97. man gets gaslighted by an entire town about a hole

98. 🎶mister sandman bring me a dream, actually don't, please stay far from me 🎶

99. another one bites the dust

100. archival assistants face off against the general public (they lose)

101. jon finally levels up high enough to unlock an eldritch horror's tragic backstory

102. LOCAL MAN MARRIES BUG

103. peppa eats a clown and they cover her in concrete instead of congratulating her.

104. pennywise stole my brother's skin

105. it's world war z baby

106. Something Big Is In Space.

107. man is interrogated about the time he saw thomas the train roasts people alive and also sans is there

108. actor is stalked by mask who liked his monologue so much that it tells its mask friends to come watch.

109. sometimes a family is just a serial killer's daughter and that guy who maybe killed some vampires

110. yeah man those spiders be eating

Part 1 |

[sizzlingsandwichperfection-blog]

Hi, I was diagnosed with OCD at the start of this year but my therapist was very sadly awful at his job.

I told him that I looked up to everything you've managed to do while having OCD, and he told me that I couldn't achieve the same because you're famous and so have perks I can't have and I disagree. I still look up to you. Turtles all the way down gave me words to understand things I was going through years before my diagnosis and your videos helped me when I was at my loneliest.

I hope you're having a nice day if you see this

Hey. I'm sorry you have OCD. It sucks--or at least it sucks for me!

Maybe your therapist was trying to take the pressure off you--to say that doing X or Y in life is not essential to living a good life. (On this front, I agree--most of the people I know who have really good lives and contribute within their families and communities are not famous or rich.)

But if they were trying to say that you can't pursue dreams and ambitions while living with mental illness, then this therapist is clearly in the wrong field. Lots of people, including me, live with serious mental illness while also having a fulfilling life.

Also, the whole idea of therapy is to develop tools and frames that allow you to live better while also understanding that there may be times when you need to accommodate or make space for your illness.

Just to be clear, I've had OCD when I was not famous, and I've had it when I was famous, and I found it to be quite unpleasant both ways.

Thank you for your kind words about turtles all the way down. That's precisely what I hoped the book could do and be for its readers.

[bridgetoesoteria]

💌 Love: Feelings and thoughts about you & the connection

OMGGG I hit 50 follows while working on this post. Thank you! I appreciate every one of you 🥰

Y'all already know what it is. Options left to right. Pick a ring! 💍

I'm using multiple decks so cards won't be listed.

See you at your reading. Hope it resonates <3

Pile 1

Off the bat: This relationship could be in a rocky place. I'm seeing a masculine with their brows furrowed like they are stressed or deep in thought. Maybe that is this person's general demeanor. The feminine could have her mind elsewhere or is trying to tune out the masculine.

Feelings for you:

Lots and lots of wands! Temperance is linked to Sagittarius. Maybe this person is a fire sign. Or they just feel quite passionately about you. You know when people say "so and so doesn't play about _____," its like that. When I say passionate, I mean they feel quite strongly. They could be very intense. Some of you may have pulled away because you did not like their energy. I see that they could come back around so be prepared to stand your ground. If they were controlling before, they will continue to be. I say that because I pulled cards I associate with dominance and assertiveness, i.e., the chariot, the king of wands.

For others, you may have gotten into a disagreement with this person. Or you have done something that they are offended by. Some of you may have been super blunt and told them to get their shit together!

Their energy toward you is pretty defensive. However, if you are not talking, I'm not sure that will last forever. (I don't usually give time predictions I am getting 2 weeks). With temperance + the eight of wands, they are being stubborn and delaying communication. I think they will communicate eventually, and should probably do it first. If you reach out first, they could ignore you, intentionally delay responding, or just be immature/petty. They do really want to work it out but they are on edge right now.

Some of you are waiting on this person to choose in some way. The decision could involve work, relocating, or another person. There is so much physical attraction. Like they are ready to take you to poundtown, but its not that kind of reading...

Thoughts on connection:

They could worry and over think a lot. I think they would like for the connection to be healthy. This connection really makes them reflect on what exactly do they want in a partner? What is their ideal connection? They also think about how they show up as a partner.

This person could have had interactions with you that are thought-provoking. They could also be receiving counseling and that is what is leading them to think more about these things. This person could be on some kind of journey; Spiritual journey, health journey, self-discovery journey, etc.

They want to understand where you are coming from. They could be mentally experimenting with the idea of changing certain things and meeting you halfway. They could be a perfectionist or diagnosed with ADHD or OCD. They want your relationship to be perfect. They also think about making breakfast for you and wonder you'd like most.

They think about your communication styles. Maybe they clash. "Is it ever appropriate to blow someone's phone up?" is really standing out to me. They might think they are the "monster" or "villain" in this connection or at this particular time. There are a lot fears and insecurities.

Okay...I have to say this just because it's come up AGAIN. *ahem* some of you may have communicated, in some way, that their sex game is wack.

TL;DR: This person is on the defense. Maybe because of a recent disagreement or an offensive statement. They are planning to come back around, they really want to. They feel very strongly towards you. Beware if they are controlling and domineering. They will come back around with the same energy so be prepared to reassert boundaries. Your connection makes them think so deeply about their ideas around relationships. They overthink a lot. However, they are trying to grow mentally and improve themselves.

Pile 2

Off the bat: Someone may be a stoner. You could get high a lot or when you're together everything feels dreamy. Very heady. You could have met this person overseas or one of you is from a different country. I feel quite nostalgic. So maybe this is an old connection or one that reminds you of a certain era in your life. You could daydream about them a lot. This could be a crush. The masculine may have long hair or blonde hair. Some of you could be LGBT.

Feelings for you:

I think your sacral chakras are very activated by this connection. Now I see why I was getting a heady, intoxicating feeling. Your person is sooo very attracted to you! Like they think you are hot hot. I'm hearing "hot to the touch." I don't know why this is so heavily on their mind. Are you holding back from them? Have you been spending time apart? I keep getting very 18+ flashes in my head. This person seems like the type to actually study the karma sutra.

Some of you may not even know they feel this passionately for you. I'm sure you know they're attracted but do you know they're absolutely feral? I think they try to keep a calm demeanor on the outside. They feel like you have a lot of power over them. Maybe not the connection itself, but you definitely heavily influence this person.

There could be an issue with third parties. I think they feel a bit cursed. Like if things aren't working out, or they met you after they had already settled down with someone else...they are taking it very personally. Its frustrating. They have very deep emotions. They feel things strongly and examine their emotions in solitude. I'm also hearing, "I picked the winning side." So maybe they chose someone else for shallow reasons, or for purely financial reasons. They feel a bit opportunistic like they are waiting to capitalize.

If you are the cheater then this person feels like walking away from you was the right decision. They are defensive toward giving this anymore chances. Maybe this is how they perceive your energy toward them. Some of you may have been the person that experienced a betrayal. You are trying to heal. They are aware of this.

Thoughts on connection:

This person could be veryy avoidant. It is so hard pulling any cards for this part of the reading, so it is likely that they avoid thinking about the connection. Oof after pulling more cards I can see why. I'm using the Ceccoli deck and the knight of pentacles literally says "hate me."

Their thoughts toward you feel very hostile. Or they could view the connection to be hostile. They think you care about yourself than anyone else. In particular, they think that you look good and so you are able to string people along. They feel soo jealous. They feel rejected. They don't want to be just another suitor.

Honestly, I am so taken aback by this energy. I did not see it coming. They are so so mad over you! Honestly, I would stay away from this person. This is the sort of energy where you would have to start from scratch if you ever did decide to give this another go. Or they are realizing they have to move on and start from zero. Like setting up dating app profiles, going on dates, bla bla.

They could be feeling like you know what you're doing. That you target people. Is this a sugar daddy that didn't realize he was a sugar daddy? lol. Either way they think all of your actions are intentional. Maybe this why they feel gloat-y when I pulled their feeling cards. Do they think they are getting revenge?

Take this how it resonates. Reverse roles if needed.

TL;DR: You could have had a very passionate, lusty relationship with this person. Someone feels extremely burned here. For most of you it is this person. They see as a self-absorbed, player. They are super attracted to you, but also very angry and jealous right now. I would keep my distance because they feel very scorned. They could try to avoid thinking about you. Reverse any roles if needed.

Pile 3

Off the bat: I'm tasting cotton candy. Maybe that relates to some memory you made together. I also think this connection could feel very sweet. Maybe you're high school sweethearts. It could also be that you are still in the crush phase or honeymoon phase. Things feel mostly happy.

Feelings for you:

Aww so right away, this person has very tender feelings for you. They feel all warm and gooey on the inside when they think of you. For some, you could be this person's first same-sex crush or relationship. I do think they want to make some kind of offer. They could be considering confessing their feelings or asking you out. They are very attracted to you.

Some of you may not have had sex yet and they are trying to temper their desires. But its not easy. Maybe you want to take your time or you have very conservative values. If they are not getting to communicate with you at all, it is eating them up. They are ready to apologize, make up, or reunited. Whatever it may be. They want to be by your side. I get very simpy vibes and I mean that in the best way possible!

They want to remain optimistic about the connection. They are trying to be brave and build a good connection. Or maybe this what they think of you. Fearless, a trailblazer, good with boundaries. Either way, they want to embody these traits.

Thoughts on Connection:

I really do think this person would have to be "brave" to pursue this connection because that message is coming out again in their thoughts. Maybe they will just have to take a deep breath and make their approach. For others, this may require them coming out of the closet. It doesn't have to be telling the world. Its mainly about telling you.

There are a lot of messages about staying focused and working hard. So they could be hyper focused on putting in effort to make this connection work. They consider the connection itself to be pleasant. They know they can leave their insecurities at the door and drop any facade. You both can be yourselves. This makes them feel so safe.

An example of what all this could look like: You have been spending time together and now you have caught feelings for each other. Maybe for right now your relationship is private. Or their feelings for you are private but they will have to confess them. This could be anxiety inducting. So, taking these actions might not be pleasant, but being with you is. And that's what makes it all worth it.

They are trying to believe that love exists. I think they may actively try to keep their thoughts positive, like challenging negative thoughts when they come up. Maybe they need to have more hope in order to approach you. That its possible to find a good partner. Those people exist. I am also getting that they are struggling like this because of a breakup.

TL;DR: This person gives major simp vibes. They are feeling you for sure! Very very attracted. This relationship could still be in the honeymoon phase or could feel like that. For some this person hasn't even confessed feelings yet. They don't want to keep hiding their feelings from you or hiding the relationship from the world. They are giving themselves mental pep talks! They are trying to be less jaded about love. They are want to do what it takes to make this connection work!

Pile 4

Off the bat: The energy feels very serious. Kind of corporate. A bit stagnant like there isn't much going on in the connection. Someone could be from a small town or from a more traditional part of the country. Maybe a difference in views was an issue.

Feelings for you:

They are fighting their pull towards you. I would not be surprised if they reached out to you soon. If they do, just know that they fought that feeling for as long as they could! Maybe you are matching their energy and they wanted to show you they could wait you out. They could be indulging in vices to distract themselves.

They most definitely feel like "you're mine". They are very possessive over you. They are not going anywhere and they are going to fight off anything threats to the relationship. They find you to be gentle and feminine. Calming. You could remind them of their mother but not in a creepy way. Like say she always knew exactly what to say and they never thought they would find anyone else that could soothe them like that. Maybe you do that for them

If you just reconciled they feel very happy about this. 6 of wands with the tower. They are celebrating. Their pride and ego are off the charts.

Alternatively, this person could have ended the relationship in a dramatic or cruel fashion. They think about how they blew up all the potential that was here. It almost feels like they're gloating. Umm I don't want to go further into this energy because its just hurtful. There's no need to rehash it.

Thoughts on Connection:

As I was looking over the cards (I left them faced down until I finished pulling), I thought "tricky tricky," and in the guidebook, they literally used TRICKY. Idk I thought that was interesting. So this could either be how they think about you or ⚠ these are their actions they are thinking of ⚠

I say this because there are some very player like cards coming out. 3/4 of the oracle cards mention tricks or hidden layers. Since these are their thoughts, this person is aware they are being deceptive. This connection in general could be one where it is wise to trust each other. Maybe you hurt each other.

If you have no history with this person, or this person seems very charming, this is intentional. They could be trying to get into your pants. But in a gross, conquest-y way. Furthermore, the one card that didn't mention tricky energy, talked about being naive and getting caught in a trap...so yeah. No need to belabor the point but this person could be trying to craft the perfect image or relationship to get what they want.

Finally, for some of you, this person is aware they are toxic. They could know it is time to heal. Maybe you even left them because they needed to get it together. They are numb. They are so torn between choosing their vices and choosing to get better. This could be living a party lifestyle vs. getting into rehab. Or being a player vs. going to therapy. I don't think this started with you. If they aren't at rock bottom yet, they are headed there. They know this. They are about to burst so they need to choose. Get better/do better or be consumed by their inner demons.

For some of you, this person feels iced out by you but it is probably by choice. They could change and do better and get you back. Its killing them inside that you are apart, but they have to decide whether are willing to do what it takes to deserve you.

TL;DR: This person feels possessive over you. They also could be vindictive. For example, they may have rejected you in a cruel way. Or they feel you did that. This could be a painful connection for both of you. This person could have a lot of vices that they need to battle. For some, you are dealing with a player who is on a mission. If they are super charming and seem too good to be true, they are. They could be trying to say and do all the right things to get what they want. They could think there are many hidden layers to this connection. There is a lack of trust or they are aware of their deceptive behavior.

This is the final reading from the poll. Which means another poll is otw.

Keep an eye out 👁‍🗨👄👁

~ K

[roe-and-memory]

was thinking about it and realized another Lovely idea for sally !

ocd, right. shes got it. a lot of her intrusive thoughts surround other people, but when her and lightning starr dating nd get married and everything, everything just gets.. so much worse.

every race, all she can think about is him crashing and dying. it’s an impossible thought for her to avoid - i mean, obviously, its an intrusive one - but even after the race is over she Cant shake it. instead, her mind moves onto “what if this is just a hallucination and he really Did crash and die during the race, and im just so grief stricken that i dont realize this isnt real?”

she never brings these thoughts up to him - maybe after he eventually chooses to retire - but she already struggles with the fact they just exist, she couldnt have him being Aware of their existence too.

all race, every race, she sits in the pits with her headphones on and her stomach fills with dread while she watches him drive. she puts her head down, closes her eyes, presses her hand against her heart, and takes deep breaths, and nothing makes them stop. in reality, they just get a hundred times worse as time passes, and she’ll get very physically distressed about it. she taps Her Pattern into anything that makes noise, whether it be the metal of the pit box or just tapping hard into her own skin on her leg, and she Counts. and she does it over and over again because Sometimes it brings her peace knowing that doing this means shes “lessening the chances” of him crashing and getting hurt.

but, like i said, these dont go away easy. after a race, later that night when theyre dozing in the motorhome, she’llmpress her head against his chest and cling to him like a lifeline. sally will fall asleep to the sound of his breathing and his consistent heartbeat, and she Cant bring herself to let go of him.

eventually she does bring these thoughts up to doc, and hes understanding. he tells her theres nothing wrong with it, theyre just Thoughts, and she isnt manifesting anything. it doesnt help much again, but doc wasn’t necessarily trying to tell her its impossible. instead, he picks up on her distress in the pits and teaches her car-lingo so she can understand if lightning is saying somethings wrong with the car. he’ll wrap his arm around her shoulder in that Dad way and promises her nothings gonna happen to him, he’ll be Fine.

imagine when lightning crashes in cars 3 and doc Isnt there to console her.

:3

[bobbydagen24]

it'd be funny if we got to see Bro zone staying with Branch in the Bunker like maybe just as part of a temporary visit for a week so they can all have some family time but Branch actually turns out to be Really difficult for the Brothers to live with.

just because he's so Particular and safety conscious about everything that and he keeps correcting his Bros on where certain things in the Bunker go and what certain times of the day are for which activities and stuff that is and isn't safe to do.

and the Bros all end up getting exhausted by Branch's ways after only a few days and when he's stepped out they all start complaining to each other but in a light hearted way ya know?

just questioning why he's such a killjoy and doing over the top impressions of him complaining about his Bunker items and safety stuff.

even Floyd tho he doesn't want to seem mean joins in on the complaining and making light of how difficult it is to do everything exactly as Branch wants it.

and JD ends up sarcastically Remarking something along the lines of "" ya know thank god we didn't stick around imagine if we'd had to deal with him like this for all those years while he was Growing am I Right? ""

only for the Bros to all look shocked and JD then turns around to see Branch with a Blank expression but clearly trying to stop himself looking upset.

JD nervously tries to explain he was just Joking but Branch says its fine in a calm way very not convincingly trying to sound like he isn't upset by this and he quickly walks off Dropping something from his Hand before anyone else can say anything.

the Bros all see he'd made them his Clunky attempt at a scrapbook card telling them how Glad he was to finally have them back in his life and to fulfil the little Dream he always had as a kid of them all staying in the Bunker together.

anyway it ends the usual way you'd expect the Bros do feel bad and apologise Branch does admit after living alone all that time he's maybe a little too used to things being a certain way so he says he'll try to be less uptight about things.

anyway I just thought it was a cute little idea maybe if there's a third tv show in the future or another Christmas Special something like this could happen it'd be pretty funny and cute seeing Branch wear his Bros out with his somewhat OCD ways lol.

[a-small-batch-of-dragons]

No Promised Feeling of Peace

Hello, hi! Hope you're doing well :D Been reading your fics with Remus in them, and skskskskskak—ANYWAY Intruality (Remus & Patton), if you have a lil spare energy for it? Just ✨them✨(no pressure to write it ofc, had them on the brain for very long frame of time and wanted to share) 💚🩵your local Intruality enjoyer🩵💚- anon

Idk if this has been asked about yet, but...one of the Sides struggling through an OCD spiral? Maybe with a not-so-common type of OCD (like with moral or harm OCD)? Maybe another Side actually knows how to help the other with not feeding the obsession & stuff. No pressure to write this, ofc! Idk if you're comfortable with this topic, but I just wanted to throw this idea out there. I wish you a wonderful timezone, Asbod <3 – anon

Read on Ao3

Warnings: scrupulosity OCD

Pairings: intruality, can be platonic or romantic you decide

Word Count: 1593

Dr. Elna Yadin: Imagine that for your entire life, you've been afraid that if you don't hold up the wall of your home, the building will collapse; so you've never taken your hands off the wall. *** Scrupulosity is a manifestation of OCD focusing on moral/religious concerns. *** Something wakes Remus in the middle of the night. Patton's struggling.

It isn't often that Remus well and truly startles awake, but there are exceptions to every rule. He groans, scrubbing a hand over his eyes, glancing at the glow-in-the-dark clock over the desk area and getting to his feet. Slippers on, teddy bear grabbed, he shuffles out into the hallway and starts the trek down to the Light Sides' bedrooms. As he goes, the mumblings in his ears grow louder and louder, and by the time he's knocking on a pale blue door, he's fully awake.

The mumblings halt for a moment, then resume, followed by a soft click as the door unlocks. Remus steps inside, shutting the door behind him, wincing as he catches sight of a discarded notebook with its cover bent and folded and its pages torn. Across the room, at the edge of the bed, kneels Patton, his hands folded on the sheets and his head bowed below the line of his shoulders.

"Hey, Pat-Pat," he says quietly, going over to sit next to him, "it's bad tonight, huh?"

Patton barely pauses, just nodding. Remus reaches over to grab the notebook and puts it within reach, slowly placing it where Patton can see it with his head bowed. There's a slightly choked noise as he sets it down, before Patton raises his head and Remus lets out a soft noise at his red nose and tear-stained cheeks.

"Remus," and shit, he sounds like he's been crying for hours too, "I don't know what to do. Nothing's working."

"You tried all your exercises already?"

He nods miserably. "They're not working. It's just getting worse. It won't stop."

"I'm sorry they're not helping, Pat-Pat. Has this been going on for a long time today?"

"N-no. No, I was—everything was fine and then I tried to go to bed and it—and it just started right away when I was—when I was thinking about what we're going to do about the script and it—and it—"

"Breathe, little unicorn," Remus says softly, tsking when he sees Patton go to bite his knuckles, "hey, uh-uh, here, I brought your friend."

Patton takes the teddy bear and bites one of its ears, several breaths wheezing in and out of his partially open mouth. Remus just sits next to him, quietly reminding him to keep breathing every once in a while until he slumps against the side of the bed. He reaches out and ruffles his hair.

"How come…nevermind."

"How come what? How come what," he asks again, purposefully making his voice more sing-songy to make Patton giggle, "come on, tell me, how come what?"

"…this is gonna sound bad."

"Cool. I don't care, tell me anyway."

"I just—Logan is so good at helping the others with stuff like this. Why can't…why can't he help me?" He sets his chin on the bear's head and makes the most adorable pout. "It's like I'm always able to come up with something else, like Virgil but worse—n-not that Virgil is bad!"

"I know what you meant, little unicorn. You're asking why Logic can't help you with your brain spicy the way it can help the others, right?"

"Yeah."

Remus shuffles closer, folding his arms and resting his chin on top so his face makes the little squishy pout like Patton's. "Do you want me to tell you a secret?"

"What secret?"

"The one about how Lolo helps people and why it doesn't work for you."

"Wait, you know why?"

"Yeah, I know why, that's why I help you and Lolo doesn't." Remus leans close enough to boop their noses together before he sits back. "You wanna know?"

"Yeah, I wanna know!"

"Logic is really useful for things happening in the present. Like: A is happening and B is happening, so C is true. Or A is happening and B is true so C must also happen. It's a very focused-on-the-now-with-info-you-have approach. Which is good for Virgil, especially, because his uncertainty is a lot of 'what if' and 'did we do this' sort of things." Remus knocks their heads together again. "But with you, your stuff is almost always in the future. And that means it lives in the Imagination, kinda in between Virgil and me and Roro. And so yeah, no shit you can always come up with stuff, the entire point of Lolo's approach is certainty and control and that really doesn't work for your brain spicy."

"O-oh." Patton fiddles with the bear's ear. "Is that why Logan had that conversation with me about encouraging it?"

"Yeah. I think one of the sites we looked at said it too, the thing about how if you give that, like, reassurance that you're right, or that you're in control, or that you can be certain about something, it actually feeds into it because it makes the distress when that isn't true way worse."

"…I think I knew that, somewhere, it's just…" He sighs. "You guys are so much better at talking about this stuff than I am."

"That's not your fault, Pat-Pat. Feelings are hard, emotions are messy. Sometimes you just gotta let 'em be."

"But that's hard."

"I know, but as you're very fond of reminding us, nothing worth doing is always easy."

"I don't think that's exactly what I said."

"It's close enough, though, right?"

"Yeah, it's close enough." Silence falls again. The fan turns around the room and a gust of wind flutters the edge of Patton's hair. "Remus?"

"Mhm?"

"Do you think that the script thing will turn out fine?"

He lifts one shoulder and lets it drop. "I dunno."

"You don't know?"

"Nope. Can't know, won't know, nothing to do but let things happen and then figure it out." When Patton makes a quiet, distressed noise, he flops his cheek over to lie on his arm. "You wanna know what I do know, though?"

"What's that?"

"No matter what happens, I'm gonna be here to support you. And so are the others. Even though none of us know how it's gonna go, we're gonna be there for each other. 'Cause that's how we do shit around here, yeah?"

Patton nods. He glances at the notebook and, after a long moment's hesitation, he picks it up with trembling fingers. "Will you—I wanna try one of the exercises again. Will you…stay here while I do it?"

"Yeah, little unicorn. I'll sit right here while you do it, okay?"

"Okay."

He closes his eyes as the sound of scribbling fills the room. Deep in his chest, he can feel Patton's distress start to build, swirling around and around as he works through the exercise. His breath catches a few times and he has to remind himself not to reach out, not yet, not yet, Patton has to go through the whole thing first, and he just keeps breathing. He hears the quiet rustle of Patton tightening his grip on the teddy bear and the force it takes to keep his focus on the exercise, not to give into the compulsion, to let the distress exist and refuse to engage with it. It's difficult, undoubtedly, but his little unicorn is capable of it and he's never been more proud.

When it's over, or when the swirl of distress no longer swirls as much nor is as distressed, Patton lets the notebook fall to the floor with a shaky sigh and slumps against Remus's elbow. That isn't a comfortable position at the best of times, so he lets his arm wrap around Patton's shoulders and squeeze him close enough to kiss his temple. Patton lets out a sleepy little hum and nuzzles his face into the teddy bear.

"You feel any better?"

"Yeah. I think so."

"You think you can try and sleep?"

"Can…can you stay for a little bit? Just a bit longer?"

Remus smiles, kissing his forehead. "Yeah, you wanna cuddle?"

"I was thinking we could listen to the new podcast episode. Just to kind of…" He waves his hands. "De-all of that."

"Sure, Pat-Pat. We gotta cuddle though."

Patton giggles and climbs up into the bed. Remus puts the notebook on the nightstand and crawls over him, pressing more kisses to his face and shoulders until Patton's giggling more than sniffling. They settle against the pillows and Patton offers him an earbud. The podcast into music starts playing as Patton snuggles into his chest with a sigh.

"Hey, Remus?"

"Yeah?"

"Thank you for coming."

"Anytime, little unicorn, anytime."

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[ruthlesslistener]

All this talk of breeding kink has resolved not one but TWO things in my brain.

First was cementing why it's kink. As far as I can tell there's not an easy line between kink and non-kink and it seems more related to what society counts as "normal" or not. Which in that view I kept thinking, well wouldn't reproduction be the most "normal" as it's the "point" (evolutionarily) of sex, and humans do in fact keep reproducing? Which just led to my brain spinning in circles on how arbitrary such definitions are.

And well. Okay I actually didn't resolve the arbitrary aspect, but it does make more sense how it would play out ask kink if the sorta fantasy aspect of breeding is disconnected to actual want for that.

Which led me to my second revelation of why I often (not always) find breeding kink stuff so disappointing. As someone who wants kids/pregnancy XDDDD And all I could think was "why don't you want to follow through" in such works. The worst offenders being tagged breeding and then not even....mentioning such a thing at all...(okay maybe that's just a tagging/bad writing problem).

Anyway I just enjoyed reading your thoughts. Made me think.

Yeah this sort of discussion really is deeply fascinating- its part of the reason why I'm so interested in sex from a scientific perspective, but it makes talking about it hard because of societal limitations (ie, rn I'm worried I'll be called a pedophile for exposing minors to discussions about sex, but since I'm just discussing it in a non-arousing context + clearly don't want to fuck kids I'mma file that away as my OCD being cruel to me). Thing is, it really is fascinating how it makes our brains tick! There's all sorts of papers by sexologists out there that talk about how its like a completely separate part of your brain from your logic center or something similar (been a while since I read any of those papers, so don't take this at face value), which is why you can have people like me who are repulsed by the idea of getting pregnant for various reasons but have a breeding kink. You're very literally not you when you're horny! The reason why I was musing about breeding kinks potentially being an evolutionary 'trick' to get people to have more kids is because it's one of the most common ones out there, despite lots of people not wanting to get pregnant- because its disconnected from the logic system and is way closer to 'instinct' than most other of our desires

The way I define 'kink' myself is some aspect integrated into sex that makes it a whole lot more arousing to an individual, but is not necessarily a commonality across individuals (and is separate from a fetish because its typically sexual in nature, whereas fetishes oftentimes don't seem to be tied to sex at all). Like, for example, people who are attracted to penises are, across the board, probably going to become aroused by seeing an erect dick, and watching people having sex is arousing even if you yourself are not attracted to either person in the picture. That's not a kink. But stuff like breeding, cuckholding, etc are, because while they're common as a source of arousal, they're not shared by everyone in the population. Though I do think that what you mentioned about there being a blurry line defined by societal rules def. does play a factor into it, because a lot of the super popular/common kinks are directly linked to what is seen as 'taboo', like nonmonogamy or public sex (I believe there's been extensive research on why rape kinks among afab people are so common, for example, and it's because society looks down on female sexuality so much that it's a way of uncoupling the person's shame at being horny from the actual scenario that arouses them- they cannot be 'impure' if they had no agency in what happened to them. Which is probably why someone like me, who thinks arousal is the stupidest thing to shame someone for, doesn't see the appeal at all. But that's a direct tie between social expectations and kink). Idk, the psychology of it is really fucking cool and I highly recommend checking out papers written on it sometime!!

As for why some fics get tagged as breeding kink without any mention of breeding itself- my guess is that because its so widespread of a kink that people's opinions on what constitutes it ranges anywhere from 'not stopping until the person is confirmed pregnant and then some' to 'unprotected PIV sex'. The former of which is what the definition should be imo, the latter which is the way more boring and vanilla option that you probably ran into

[coltrainbat]

MASTERLIST

✨Masterlist ✨

READ ME BEFORE YOU REQUEST

Please note I don’t write anything that is illegal or borderline inappropriate. This includes sibling smut, adult baby kink (I dont even know what its called), teacherxstudent relationships and anything else I deem off. I also havent been to high school for many years so even if it’s innocent fluff I do not write HS AUs. If you’re unsure just ask! Can even be anon and if you don’t get a reply to your request then it’s a no. I’m fine with Daddy kink and most sex stuff as long as it doesn't cross lines into over infantilising, acting like an actual baby. 

As much as I’d love to sit in my bed all day and write fics... I have a big girl job and answer my requests in order I receive them (lol OCD tings) and I cant start one until the other is done (again sorry OCD tings). So please note there is a 3 week ish turn around for requests at max. And sometimes if I get a good idea I’ll write my own first cause I have to get it out of my head. But if you want updates feel free to message me or I’ll post an update if I get caught up in life! 

I’m always up for a chat and am pretty active on here so you’re welcome to talk to me about whatever, ask questions or just chat! Please note it’s an 18+ account and if you don’t specify that I won’t reply. 

Ty x

Clover ☘️

Dividers from the brilliant @firefly-graphics 💕

Gifs and images are not mine! 

KEY:

☁️ - Fluff 🔥 - Smut/NSFW 🌤 - Platonic 

🌧  - Tear Jerker / Sad

🌪 - Angst

SERIES: 

COMING SOON: Third Times A Charm | A Chris Evans X RDJ Sister!Reader (description here)

Take Me Home | Nick Vaughan X Reader:

Part 1 -  Meet Cute ☁️

Yes, No, Maybe | Chris Evans X Curvy!Reader:

Part 1 - Chris meets you and has to have you. ☁️🌪

Part 2 - your first date. ☁️

Part 3 (Virgin!Reader) - Chris takes your virginity 🔥☁️

Bubba | Dad!Chris Evans X Pregant/Mom!Reader):

Part 1 - You tell Chris he’s going to be a dad for the first time. ☁️🌧

Part 2 - Protective!DadChris ☁️

IMAGINES/ONE SHOTS & HEADCANONS:

Chris Evans

You’re Mine (Curvy!Reader) - You’re Chris’s FWB and you wonder if you’re the only one 🔥☁️

All Worth It (Curvy!Reader) - You and Chris go public with your relationship. ☁️

Chris Evans Alphabet (Curvy!Reader) - smut implied but mainly fluff. ☁️

Chris Evans Alphabet NSFW - 🔥

What A Girl Wants - You’re a str!pper and Chris wants you for the night. 🔥

Happiest Man Alive - You’re a florist and Chris proposes at the Oscars ☁️

No One Disrespects Chris’s Girl - A journalist insults you to Chris’s face. 🌪

Best Birthday Ever (Curvy!Reader) - You usually dread your birthday but Chris has a surprise in stall. ☁️

Bed. Now. - Finals week has hit but Chris wants you to sleep. ☁️

Boston Boy Documentary - Your segment in Chris’s documentary. ☁️

Can’t Believe They’re Real - Chris is an ass guy but with tits like yours he cant help be obsessed.  🔥

Favourite Pillows - Chris’s favourite pillows are conveniently on your chest. ☁️

My Angel (Model!Reader) - You’re a Victoria Secret Angel ☁️

Because I Want You - Your bestie, Chris gets a bit jealous...  ☁️🌪

Cookie - Baking cookies doesnt go as planned.  ☁️🔥

High On You - You and Chris enjoy a joint together. ☁️

I’m in Chwarge (Blurb) - No one tells you whhat to do besides Chris ☁️🔥

Tik Tok Leggings - You could say Chris likes your new leggings… 🔥☁️

Eat Shit Ransom - You’ve got a huge crush on Ransom 🌪☁️

Pork or Pasta? - You meet Chris for the first time but arent so sure about him... 🌪☁️

Mint Condition - Captain America Roleplay  🔥

Sexiest Girl Alive (Curvy!Reader) - You get hate for your body and Chris comes to your defence. 🌪☁️

Headcanon!Chris Evans - Chris start to cheer his gf up. How? With stupid cheesy pick up lines ☁️

Steve Rogers 

I’m The Captain Now - Taking Steve’s virginity 🔥

Off to College - You & Steve send your little girl off to College ☁️🌧

Family Matters - Steve’s sister dies 🌧🌤 

Roped Up - Steve ties you up 🔥

Soxs - You get Steve a cat to help with his nightmares. ☁️

Prettiest Girl In The World (PreSerum!Steve X Plussize!Reader) - Steve thinks you’re the best even if you don’t. 🔥☁️🌧

Get A Life - Shortsized!Reader working for Bruce Banner as a lab assistant and Steve has a total crush on her. ☁️

Frank Adler 

Disneyland - You and Frank take Mary to Disney ☁️

Put It On My Tab - Frank introduces Female Bartender!Reader and introduces her to his niece. ☁️

Andy Barber

What To Wear (Curvy!Reader) - Andy helps you find a shirt that fits for your date night. ☁️

Sparks Fly - Soulmate AU ☁️

You’re Sick (Blurb) ☁️

Our Home - Laurie shows up unannounced. 🌪☁️

Knock Knock - You surprise Andy at work. 🔥

Lloyd Hansen

You’re Not Sorry - You act like a brat but Lloyd is going to make you pay for it. 🔥🌪

Ari Levinson

I’ll Take Care of You - Ari is married to your sister but he has you on on his mind. 🔥

Neighbours - You get very friendly with your neighbour, Ari.  🔥

Ransom Drysdale

Good Bunny - Ransom wants to explore the hole God can’t see... 🔥

Liam Hemsworth

Nostalgia - You and Liam reunite but its a little different now. ☁️🌪

[beelsbignaturals]

🦂DEMON FORMS: ASMODEUS 💄

AN: Unfortunately, the concept of hypnosis is a major theme for my OCD so I can't really write him as creepy as I want to. Alas, I tried. Fucked up Asmo supremacy. also I was tryna keep this sfw in terms of *spicy* content bc thats for a different post hehehe. As always, feel free to check out my obey me world building tag for more demon headcanons and since con is over I can work on requests!

Inspiration for this part: literally everyone who has ever drawn Asmo with a scorpion tail like he DESERVES also @noecoded bc they have the BEST Asmo art ever. Also @princessasmosprincess has been such a major help in writing this! ily Michi 😘 thank u for letting me pick ur brain bby

TWs: Bugs (scorpions), mind manipulation, alcohol (part 4), vauge reference to nsfw stuff (part 3), demons being demons, body horror? Maybe?

● Level 1.5. you know, in the Percy Jackson books, how Aphrodite appears as whatever you think is most beautiful? Asmo is kinda like that. Not fully, but if you are more attracted to say, dark hair, he will have darker hair. (Cute note: if you fall in love with him for realsies, this stops happening, and you just see. Him.) Like Belphie, he is alot more… mental with how he freaks people out. Even without hypnotism, if he asks you to do something, you feel like you want to agree. Only Asmo can make you think taking out the garbage when it's his turn is YOUR idea. He glows under blacklights because… scorpion. His teeth look normal from a distance, but up close, you can see how sharp they are. His eyes shift through every possible color, changing each time he blinks. His pupils are heart shaped. He gets cold really easily and will make it everyone's problem.

"MC! I'm going to freeze to death, please, save me!" The overly dramatic Avatar of Lust drapes himself across your lap, intent of using you as a personal space heater. Nights in the Devildom just get so cold! His poor, beautiful heart can't handle the subzero temperatures! And of course the last argument between Levi and Mammon managed to complete destroy the heating system. So it's your solemn duty as Asmo's favorite human (don't tell Solomon) to keep him warm!

● Level 2. His nails get longer and sharper, and even when talking, it sounds like he's singing. If he actually starts singing, you will find yourself dancing or lulled into a false sense of security depending on the song. He actually caused the dancing plague this way! He is capable of using his carapace as a sort of natural corset, controlling each segment to give himself the desired silhouette. Somehow, Asmo is wonderful at knowing exactly what you desire. Not just in a sexual way, he can figure out your ambitions after one conversation. If he decides to talk to you, everything else will kind of...fade away. How can you focus on anything when his eyes fade from pink to purple to blue... What were you talking about again?

Asmo thought the house was empty, that it was safe for him to sing without consequence. Unfortunately, you came home early, which led to the awkward incident where you began dancing the moment you walked inside. At first, you thought you were hit by some curse, screaming in surprise as your body moves on its own. Hearing your shrieks, Asmo rushes downstairs, fussing over you. Luckily, you weren't under his spell long, so when he stopped singing, you stopped dancing. He was very apologetic after that.

● Level 3. He grows several extra limbs on his sides. They are small little insect legs that are basically useless. He likes to annoy his brothers by tickling them with his weird lil bug arms. But otherwise, Asmo is EXTREMELY self conscious about them because bugs aren't stereotypically cute. He can keep his wings bc they are cute. BUT HE ALSO HAS A SCORPION TAIL. The stinger is heart-shaped. It's adorable. It also has venom capable of making you so horny you die! Which is... slightly less adorable.

It was quite the sight, seeing Asmo, shirtless with several small arachnid limbs, covered in a hard exoskeleton as he chases Satan around the house, claiming he needs to be less grumpy. Satan threw a pillow at his brother, causing you to laugh. Bad move. Now Asmo has locked his eyes on his next target. You.

● Level 4. You know how so many Greek monsters are giant creatures with the face of a beautiful woman? That's Asmo. He has the body of a scorpion-if a scorpion was the size of a horse - and face so gorgeous, you might cry or go blind. He sings so sweetly to lure in prey. Basically, he's a siren-scorpion monster from hell! He usually won't take this form because, honestly, he thinks it's ugly. So for the most part you are only going to see a scorpion with Asmo's face scuttling around if he is feeling particularly emotional. Like when he gets a little bit too tipsy and his insecurities plague his mind.

It was rare Asmo would get properly drunk. At least the type of drunk where he is miserable. Usually it's a very... drunk girl in the club bathroom who just LOOOVES your shoes and wants to know who did your eyelash extensions 🥺 sort of energy. So hearing straight up wailing from his room after a long night at the Fall was...unexpected. What was even more surprising, was what you found when you opened his door to try and comfort the demon. A large scorpion with the head of the Avatar of Lust, standing in front of a broken mirror with mascara streaming down his face. You only hesitate a moment before making your presence known. Asmo starts to cry more, sobbing about how terrible he feels having you see him like this. In the form that he considers the definition of ugly. You are quick to reassure him, naming each thing you find beautiful about his more demonic looking self. Like the way his armored body catches the light, reflecting rainbows across each segment. Or how his stinger is heart shaped. Or the fact that even without proper hands, his hair and makeup is still flawless. Aside from minor damage due to his tears. Soon enough, you have a giant scorpion sleeping on your lap like an overgrown cat. You decide not to mention it in the morning.

[willialwaysbehere4]

I decided id stay up & draw the prototype design for my batman forever self insert that ive been cooking up for maybe a week or 2 now. The colors are probably a,little off it's ok (edit like 3 days later i fixed them). Ramblings under the cut mostly cus its 4am and i dont wanna forget my ideas

I went w ocd for her ? bad phrasing. She has ocd (basically the same as mine or at least with the same subtypes& compulsions) and since batman forever revolves around psych stuff and theres already did (twoface and also bruce Im pretty sure??) schizophrenia(?) (chase? i think) + bpd (Edward.) i figured it'd work w/o getting too muddied w everything else or looking like i just slapped a label on her

I did name my batman oc caterwaul (well. "kate"erwaul) ok i couldn't think of anything else but i wanted the c.e. initials for samesies also I don't think cain eulogy straight up wouldve worked and i know there's literally an E Nygma but idk. A little too outlandish.

Ftr i headcanon edward to be bi (with a preference for men but he isn't all that picky in regards to gender) but im kinda making that a "teehee guys look at my selfship cope" thing here. They probably maybe could've gotten together and lived happy ever after and no riddler and blahblah but cait just never bothered by assumption RIP i'm not sure her feelings would be reciprocated anyawy just in general

Some traits i'd give her..i don't really know shes kinda just me but with better socialization. She's pretty friendly overall and probably enjoys going to the company parties and chatting it up w her other coworkers but she also likes to keep to herself at times. she's probably a very private person all things considered. Something like a "you've been friends with this person for years but you don't know a thing about them" sorta deal

Also speaking of that i think she would've been employed maybe about a month or two after edward but the time schematics get a little wonky there since actual websites weren't even a thing until 94 and he'd been working there for 2yrs by then so i don't know what she wouldve been working as.. probably just got her job shifted around but stayed in the same department>?

If she were in the movie i think she'd just be a supporting character that appears for like 5 minutes after the whole "you were supposed to understand" scene. probably comforting edward or something. Not the scene directly after that where he's fake crying but like a bonus one scrunched between it where they're having a heartfelt moment Or something. You'd only see her the one time though and itd be an uncredited role

[honeytonedhottie]

hi! i was wondering if you have any ideas on HOW to dominantly apply the loa. i know it’s just having attention on it but how can we really make ourselves believe it/feel fulfilled? i get the idea that it needs to be a dominant part of my thoughts, maybe it’s just my ocd that makes this so confusing, but how can we make sure it’s something we’re thinking of the right way before we make it consistent enough to be dominant? just imagine it every once in a while, or?

thank u for the lovely question anonie <3

so to dominantly apply the law your 100% right, it needs to be a dominant part of ur thoughts. therefore the concept of mental diets can be introduced.

all u need to do to manifest is to just use ur mind, ur thoughts, so whenever u think something make sure it aligns with ur desire. correct the thoughts that dont align and when u come across a limiting belief or something unfavorable just let that thought pass. its random.

manifesting is all about being conscious and intentional of our thoughts so practice consciousness of ur thoughts <33 dont feel pressured to think about it all the time every second 24/7 bcuz it's supposed to be NATURAL.