#overthinking life

[maxthesillyy]

[p0nur4k]

[alienssstufff]

scargh

[highlysuspiciousstew]

[elytrianicarus]

rough concept for a hare pearl design, just a normal lass

[milesia]

[itsemobunny]

Me di cuenta que soy una persona muy pasajera en la vida de todos, cumplo un ciclo y automáticamente me dejan de lado. ¿Alguien algún día me va a elegir como algo permanente? Tengo sentimientos saben.

[beautifulhigh]

Another day, another thought, I guess this is my life now.

So last night I was reading this article in which Matthew talks about making the film and the staging of the Paris sex scene. And it struck me how much work and attention to detail was given to this moment:

Which yes, others have talked about what is placed around the room but I'd like to present exhibits B and C:

The other times we see them in bed together, Alex is on Henry's right. Protocol or his good side? (Both?) Because that's your place when you're with a Royal.

But in Paris they're the other way around. Henry is on Alex's right. That's his place. That's where he belongs. In this moment he's not Prince Henry, he's Henry Fox. He's just this guy who is in love with this other guy.

At the DNC hotel they're mired in politics. In Kensington Palace they're in the monarchy. But in Paris? They're just them. Not so much Firstprince as... some other pormanteau. Helex? Alry? Anyway. They're them in Paris and it's as close to neutral ground as they can get and I find it interesting that Henry is on Alex's right when every other instance in his life he has people on his right. He never gets to be the person on the right. He never gets to defer to someone who isn't in some line of succession.

But with Alex? He does. He defers to him (and no this is not a comment about sexual positions) and he isn't pushed into the circumstance and rules of a situation he was born into without any choice or say in the matter. He can just be himself without the need to maintain an image or a sense of duty or adhere to some archiac institution. He's on someone's right.

(He's also put Alex on his non-good side. He's showing that part of himself to this man because he loves and he trusts him and he knows he is safe to do so. That's something else I'm feral over.)

And given how much attention was paid to the staging of Paris you will not be able to convince me that this wasn't deliberate. Matthew López himself could come into my Tumblr inbox and deny it and I wouldn't believe him.

[overwhelming-thoughtss]

there is something so comforting about sadness. about throwing things on your bedroom floor and not picking them up. about binging reality tv in the dark for 14 hours straight. about lying in your bed and not moving while the world continues to turn around you. overwhelming and heavy depression is comforting because it’s familiar. it allows you to sink into yourself and rot there for as long as you want. thats the vicious cycle with depression, it takes everything to not give into the comfort and familiarity that comes with it.

[hellenhighwater]

huge shoutout to rejection sensitive dysphoria and the attorney who mentioned that I'd misspelled "forfeiture" in my notes, ensuring that I will literally never misspell that word ever again. Thanks, it's just what I needed. I would have rather been shot, but this works also.

[p0nur4k]

[what-iz-life]

Don’t force, don’t beg, and don’t chase. If they can’t see your value, they’re not for you – move on.

[chemdisaster]

it's not the fall that scares joel, it's the impact.

you can see it in the way he waterbuckets everywhere, in the feral craze that's so natural to fall into the moment the streak in his hair goes red. he loves the ride, loves being out of control, revels in the freefall and the wind rushing through his ears. the landing is a different story entirely, and it will shatter him, break all his bones into a million tiny bits every single time, but while he's falling? it's the easiest thing in the world to pretend that he and all the rest of them can keep coasting on the high of excitement forever.

it's what sets him apart from some of the other players - his ability to not think of something until it's right in front of him. that is why he can keep getting burnt and get back up and try again with new resolve, why he can keep loving and growing as a person, unbound by the memory of what lies in the previous seasons' ashes. the impact will come, it always does - but as long as there's a whisper of a chance that he can land, the thought of being broken anew will never make him shy away from the cliff's edge. where others have sworn off true closeness forever, he has tasted the pain of an ending, but continues to refuse to let that fear tie him down and cause him to be anything but what he is. because until the loss smacked him in the face, the underlying danger present in loving someone never meant a thing.

joel is scared of the impact, but never the fall. because falling, the ground never seemed farther away.

[nachdenkchaos]

Hoffnung ist der Grund, weshalb man nicht loslassen will

[milesia]

lol

[monakisu]

why is this kusuo's idea of flirting 😭😭😭 he's lucky he's always the one being pursued, not the pursuer...