#rbing with my opinion

[martyrbat]

batman: two-face strikes twice! #2.1 / 2.2

[ID: two comic panels of Batman and Robin. In the first one, Dick Grayson is Robin and jokes, "I always said we could beat crooks with our hands tied behind our backs!" after he and Batman win a fight while still having their arms bounded together. Batman tells him, "Don't break your arm patting yourself on the back, Robin! Two-Face escaped and what's worse is, so did Paul Janus!" In the second panel, Tim Drake is Robin and he says, "I owed him that!" after beating on Two-Face. Batman is smirking behind him and once again says, "Don't break your arm patting yourself on the back..." END ID]

[thevalleyoftriumph]

im beginning to think that i am mentally ill and the internet makes my mental illness Worse

[fleurmatisse]

if u see the hair color poll just know it is driving me crazy it’s not brown hair what are people TALKING about

[kenobihater]

Hello! Sorry if this isn't a topic you want to speak on (so feel free to ignore this) but I have two questions regarding different arguments I've seen about the Hogwarts Legacy bullshit, as there were mixed views from both trans and Jewish people when I went on a blocking spree earlier:

1. I saw a couple of the fans that paid actual money for the game defend their choice with "but Im trans" or "but Im Jewish" or both. Thoughts on that?

2. There have been claims that pirating the game is alright as long as you don't talk about it online, whereas others posed that engaging with the game through piracy is in itself harmful - maybe not to the wider society as a whole, but to Jewish, trans, and other marginalized individuals in that persons life. What is your stance on the matter?

I have some ideas about these myself but seeing as I am neither trans nor Jewish I think it'd be best to ask first and only follow up with a dialogue if that is wanted of me. I know that outsiders can sometimes have more nuanced/better positions than insiders (like with the whole truscum and transmedicalism rot going on about in some trans circles) but. Yeah. Asking predominantly out of curiosity but also because you tend to be aggressively clear and honest about the shit going on with HP and I like that.

I'm fine with answering this, though I will add that I'm not Jewish and so I'm not qualified to speak in depth on the antisemitism present within the game other than to acknowledge that it is very blatant and wrong.

From the perspective of a trans person, I think that even trans people can hold harmful and transphobic stances when it comes to this game bc they're letting their nostalgia blind them. Being a minority does not inherently free you from being wrong and bigoted, even against a group you yourself are part of. Sidenote - considering how this game actually has a trans person in it and to my admittedly limited knowledge it doesn't engage in transphobic rhetoric or tropes like it does with the antisemitism, I'd find it VERY sketch if a trans gentile claimed they could play the game bc they were trans. Like, hello! The antisemitism isn't negated by your transness!!

Onto your second question: I've thought about this myself and I think I've finally decided on my stance, though it's quite rambly. Imho if someone is absolutely 100% going to play the game, I'd prefer that they pirate it, do so behind closed doors, and not speak of it bc there's no such thing as bad publicity. But like... they're knowingly engaging with a game that is steeped in antisemitism and monetarily benefits a transphobe. The simple decision to play that game, even if it doesn't impact their worldview in any way, even if they aren't lining joann's pockets, even if they give it no publicity... they're still making a decision to put their own pleasure and enjoyment over the pleas of Jewish and trans people. That's selfish in my book. Like, if someone hasn't dropped HP I doubt anything I can say will change that, but I just find it sad and exhausting that people will call themselves allies and then refuse to do anything that could possibly challenge or inconvenience them. They post infographs about the rise of antisemitic hatecrimes and reblog "fuck terfs!", but will they actually show up to rallies? Call their legislators to complain about bigoted legislature? Educate themselves? Make room for Jewish and trans voices and be silent when necessary? Consistantly reflect on their own biases and bigoted behaviors and grow as a person? Something tells me that if they can't even refrain from playing a blatantly antisemitic wizard game just bc it reminds them of a book written by a terf they read when they were 12, that that's not very likely.

[kaleidoscopic-quiddity]

not to have npd and autism, but i genuinely don't understand how the opinions of other people have an impact on people's self esteem. like im not saying this in an edgelord-y oh look at me im so cool and stoic way but genuinely why does it matter if other ppl think you're ugly/annoying/etc?? like if you're content with your own personality and/or appearance how does what other people think have any impact on you?

i get that some people treat others like shit when they think they're ugly/annoying/etc and i get how that's an issue, regardless of whether they like or dislike them everyone should be civil and professional to everyone else, but if people just internally feel that they dont like you but otherwise still treat you fairly and decently literally how does what they feel actually matter in any material way? its literally impossible to be liked or respected by everyone, some people just inevitably don't like other people, thats just how people work, and that's literally fine as long as we're all still treating each other decently yknow?

like i don't want to say that letting what others think/feel about you is childish since it obviously isn't, people of all ages seem to be like this, and im pretty sure im the outlier here vis a vi NOT having my self esteem based on what others feel about me, but the idea of ascribing even a spec of value to anyone other than myself's opinion about me is so genuinely incomprehensible to me i can't help but feel that other people are missing out on a super obvious lesson that ive had internalised since i was a kid

is this because im low empathy?? does my npd just make me invulnerable to having my self esteem impacted by anyone other than me? am i just too autistic to be effected by others? is this because im such a consequentialist that i don't care what others think of me as long as they still act civil with me???

[allalrightagain]

oh. just got the no pfp update and. yeah no i don't like this.

def feels like an attempt to focus on more original "content" vs reblogs which is so disheartening compared to the userbase we have and are gaining

[skenpiel]

I didn't even realize you were OP lmao, sorry for the spam

GIPERHGREHGAOGRHES dont worry man lmfao

[arsenicflame]

lighthouse quilt fabrics round one: the greens

hello all welcome to another edition of nyx using democracy to make decisions in their sewing projects, today you will be helping me finalise my colour options for the quilt! this is gonna be by far the easiest round, i only have 3/4 colours here and im pretty confident in my choices!

here are some pictures of the painting in various lightings for your reference:

and this is my particular plan, with all my labelling- ive split the three green sections into two colour sections (16 and 17)

and the fabrics! i tried to make this as colour accurate as possible but theres probably some slight variation!

i pulled the 'official' colours of these fabrics but personally id say by image is a bit closer (at least for the actual pieces i have): One, Two, Three

there is also an option to find a different colour fabric (i believe there is a very bright green fabric in the scrap bin- its approximately this colour:)

the poll lists the lighter colour first (16) and the darker colour second (17), and the fabrics as numbered (top to bottom)

[mortysmith]

i will srsly block people if they look like they might be a rckrty i actually cant stomach it even slightly

[imaginethathaikyuu]

i love reblogging fics and writing whatever the hell i want in the tags thats the thing about me

[shivunin]

The struggle (promising myself no writing prompt posts this week but wanting the entertainment of answering questions anyways) is real

[rose-of-the-valley]

just bc ive seen a few going around recently, if im not reblogging any "reblog if you support [queer ppl, etc]" or "rb if you hate [terfs, etc]" posts it's not bc i don't agree with the point being made

as a Tumblr Veteran i was here when those posts that were like "rb if you support gay people!!!" with 40 rainbow-themed supernatural gifs were around, and have learned that most of the time those posts don't actually serve the purpose of reminding your followers that you're queer-friendly or whatever, but get passed around bc people feel obligated to lest they be accused of being homophobic or something

it's just reblog bait and ime is more a reminder of the fact that a lot of people don't agree because if more people did there wouldnt be a need to have those posts in the first place. most of your followers aren't even going to know that those posts showed up on your dash in the first place but the posts often have a guilt-trip quality to them that i dislike

that said, if you ever do want explicit confirmation of my support/distaste for various things, my dms are open and my asks have anon on. ive just been here too long to feel like reblog bait is the way to go about it

[harvsbian]

tbh like. as an artist. i really do not give a shit if u like and dont rb. like it does not matter to me at all

[sillypilled-friendcel]

more love for trans girls on t (tgirls if you will) becuz im soo excited for that 2 be me

[chloeangelic]

addressing the drama (with receipts)

I wanted to have my ducks in a row before speaking out instead of just responding; I’m not doing this to change anyone’s opinions - it’s really not possible change someone’s perception of me even if it’s based on falsehoods - but I need to do this so I know I’ve said and shown what needs to be shown, and people can do with it what they please. 

To the readers and writers who have blocked me, unfollowed me, and mutuals who have stopped talking to me over this - I’m really, really sad you didn’t come to me first and give me the opportunity to explain what was going on. I understand if you wanted to distance yourself from drama but I also need you to understand that this was not discourse-drama I willingly got myself into. This was a month of frequent harassment and slander that eventually turned into bullying by a group of people using false info, hiding behind side blogs and anons, and I hoped it would blow over but it never seemed to stop. With anons turned off for most of the last two months, people have gone to my friends’ inboxes instead to harass them about me (and insult them in the process), and I can’t do this anymore.

I feel so alienated and disliked in this community that I can’t go on the dash without feeling like I shouldn’t interact with anyone out of fear that they’ll get uncomfortable seeing me in their notifs. People keep saying they want the community to get better and then they jump on the bandwagon of vague posting and RBing without taking a second to verify the claims, clearly not realizing how much hurt it causes to perpetuate it. If you’re reading this, I  hope your name isn't the next one they pull out of the hat when they want someone new to push off the platform. 

Explanations, timelines and receipts below. 

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For anyone waiting for an explanation regarding the posts and anons about me that have circulated for weeks, or waiting for receipts proving or disproving that I’m a mean girl who spends my time talking shit, here you go. I am so beyond hurt, I don’t even know what to say. I’m floored, I’m so disappointed in this community and I’m so sad. In the last two weeks, I stayed up until 4am one night receiving screenshots of posts and anons about me, I cried, I tried to understand why this has happened to me, and I have sat here day after day with no answers. 

If you think I’m being melodramatic, try losing a quarter of your mutuals and having a bunch of people block you when you’ve had either no interaction with them or they’ve all been positive, and see how that feels, on top of constant rumors about you being a terrible person when you know you’ve barely had any negative interactions with anyone on the platform. I can’t be on tumblr any longer without exonerating myself and putting it out there that all of this has been one gigantic mess based on lies about me, seemingly compounded by grievances people have against Gracie (some one whose personal conversations have nothing to do with me). Either I do this, or I log out forever and only post on ao3, cause I feel like the fucking grim reaper here. Posts about me being an awful person are still circulating, despite the original post being deleted and the follow up stating that the OP has talked to me and they have apologized.

I’m not naming names in this. I will be using person A/B/C/D to make it less confusing. I’ve removed identifying information from the screenshots because even though I’m hurt by these people, I know that they will get dogpiled and harassed if I identify them, and I want it all to stop. Several have apologized to me and I have accepted. 

Sometime in December, rumors started circulating that there was a “big/elite writers discord” where they talked shit about small writers (I’m not in any discords specifically for writers and I have never heard of such a server). At about the same time, person A - someone who was very active in my own, now-deleted discord server, started frequently vagueposting about me, calling me a mean girl and, intentionally or not, made it seem like I was part of this “elite group of writers”. This is someone who I have never had a negative interaction with and who seemingly out of nowhere decided that I call myself elite and I’m a terrible person. 

Person B had some grievances with myself, Iris, and Gracie it seemed, so they went to person C and accused us of talking shit in our voice chats. I assume person A and B have talked about me at some point and validated each other’s claims, but I can't know that for sure. Person B messaged me from a burner account and apologized, then seemingly deleted the account after I responded.

Gracie frequently posted about us three chatting, and although I understand this might have felt alienating to some, many writers are open about having group chats with each other. All we did was write, edit, and Gracie sometimes made memes. We talked about non-fic stuff often, and when Gracie had an issue with other writers and she was upset, we talked about it. That’s what friends do. She knows that I believe those situations were handled poorly. One of those situations came to light recently - I had a very pleasant conversation with the writer involved, and we are still in touch.

I have spoken to person C, who posted the most “popular” smear post about me and some of my friends. They retracted their statements and profusely apologized to us, admitting it was based on stuff they heard from person B, showing me screenshots of the conversation. However, their original posts are still circulating through reblogs despite being deleted from their account. 

Person D also posted about me and my friends, however their post was sort of ridiculous, accusing me of spending more time replying to anons than writing. I found this funny, but the way they slut shamed my friend was absolutely not humorous, and dragging a random writer in to criticize them was a strange attempt at adding fuel to the fire. 

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And for the receipts, 

I blocked person A after seeing a handful of vague posts clearly about me, and after they interacted with every single rude anon posted about me that I saw. I think that’s reasonable, no? I’m not gonna post screenshots of their posts cause I honestly just don’t want to look at them again, they make me feel kind of sick if I'm honest, but if anyone doesn’t believe me, they are welcome to DM me and I will send. 

Person B messaged me, admitted to partaking in this mess, and apologized. This is part of a LONG message:

Person C apologized over message and called me on discord. We had a conversation clearing things up, they deleted their posts and wrote a public apology. 

If you need any proof that person B’s claims were, in fact, baseless, look at this exchange between person B and person C after person C had cleared things up with me.

Person D honestly just creeps me out, cause what the fuck is this? Fine if you don’t like me based on my writing or my persona on here but… Why the witch hunt? 

ETA: Person C asked person D to take down their post and they never responded. This was sent prior to that, I know the full context, I just thought this specific part was worth sharing to show how vile some people allow themselves to be behind burner accounts.

What kind of behavior is this? This was from a sideblog, and I don't know what their main account is. It creeps me the fuck out knowing this person is lurking somewhere in the community.

I have hated every moment of this. None of this has been fun for me. This has completely fucked up my motivation to write and my enjoyment of it, it has made me anxious, it has messed with my self esteem, and it has made me want to log out of Tumblr and not come back. 

Please, I beg, if you have an issue with me, just come to me and I promise I will have a conversation with you. You can’t tell people’s tone over anon and I don’t think that’s a good way to have a conversation, especially one about something that should be solved in private, so they remain off, but my DM’s are open. 

I'm so sick of seeing vagueposts and trying to decipher if they're about me. Having to do that a bunch of times messes with your head.

I'm not sure what to do moving forward, but I needed to say my piece. I don't want to talk about this again, I want to put this behind me. I seriously hope this doesn't wreck my last remaining want to share my writing on here.

Thanks again to everywhere who has supported me in my DMs and comments, you mean the world to me 🤍🤍🤍 And if you found yourself duped by all this but change your opinion on me now or eventually, I won't hold a grudge, and I'm happy to speak again and pick up where we left off.