#recovery from addiction

[lucky-strike-14]

I'm [counts fingers; doublechecks calendar] TEN MONTHS SOBER TODAY ♥️🐦🙏

[i-am-deeply-poem]

“Wanting And Not Having”

Wayward boy of a man

Emotionally inexpressible experience, unrelatable and hard to understand

Learning the hard way that the hand that takes

Is the one stuck to his wrist, stapled by the consistent mistakes

Not the ones he curses himself for, quietly, diligently honing his craft

The true crime is self incarceration, a situation common but equally as daft

Passivity praises bad habits, struggling to cope

Splitting axe handles with logs, snuffing, stuffing dope

Fantasy of unreality, embraced wholeheartedly unknown

Because he made his own head hell instead of a home

He doesn’t realize he is being guided by the spirit of The Most High

In reality he doesn’t need the drugs or other addictions to get by

But all the same he gives in, is miserable, and wonders why

He’d sooner blame it on God, rather than introspect

He’d repress the bad memories, than retrospect

He’d sooner make himself forget, than recollect

The past is the key to the present darkness

But he’d rather just build walls and act heartless

Because he’s been hurt, and he’s hurt in return

But how much longer before he acknowledges it, and begins to learn?

He actively resists the constants in the change

And in his own head he is far beyond mild, quite deranged

And as a result sometimes to other people it appears he acts strange

He can’t love

He can’t love himself

But he wants to “love” somebody else

He cannot

He cannot

He cannot

He cannot

Can’t

Can’t

Can’t

Can’t

Can’t

He is all to well aware of what he can’t do on the macro scale

But he ignores the micro every time without fail

He refuses to grow, even having had God show him his blatant flaw

Because resolution is by no means mandatory requirement, demanded by law

He would rather be forced, than force himself

Because he wants to love somebody else

Before learning to love the person in the mirror

He lets it go, lets it get foggy, forgets, memory unclear

He cannot stand that man, he cannot understand

The potential, the actualization for which he would seek

Lies within the man, reflected before him, that he called a freak

The walls are closing in without moving

Because he’s already growing

He won’t realize until he feels choked out

But he’s learning what the source of the neurosis is about

He’s learning how to seek after God

And the sensation of peace is objectively odd

The disease is as strong as the day before

Even dreaming of relapse, he wakes up wanting more

He’s embarrassed, because he knows all too well

That using leads to more using, straight down to hell

He’s there at this very moment, slamming his fists against the prison wall

Clamoring to catch the attention of someone out in the hall

But he put himself there, no one can get him out

He remains stationary plagued by doubt

He put down the substances, but the nature of his addiction is only made more clear

His addiction is to self hatred, and he keeps it close, like a friend he holds dear

He is fractured, a broken mirror of the mirror man

Because he grapples with principalities he still cannot understand

Everything is in its right place, but he’s so damn impatient

He can’t stand to wait for it

[steviebee77]

Let's Meet Jesus: There is Freedom in Christ

THIS BLOG SITE HAS gone through several changes over time, some related to content and categories, some to its appearance. Under the NEW title LET’S MEET JESUS: There is Freedom in Christ you will find a shorter list of categories: RECOVERY, SPIRITUALITY, and PSYCHOLOGY. Silas, my 4-legged sidekick, will be helping me reach out, so expect cat pics galore! Although I will be taking a break from…

[dognonsense]

Advice if you love/care about an addict but they're not ready for abstinence. This is meeting people where they're at- the most important part of harm reduction

[jonboy982851]

What’s up everyone?? I’m new to this app and just sayin what’s up to everybody. I’m also still somewhat new to the Kalamazoo, Michigan area and hate no knowing people so if you’re from that area and you see my profile hit me up. I’m always tryin to meet new people, guys and girls both, it don’t matter to me! I don’t mean that to mean I swing both ways either lol, i just mean I’m down to be friends with whoever. I’m also an avid musician and looking for a band(s) to preferably play drums for, but I can also sing, play bass and play guitar and am able to sing and together. So yeah, hmu if anyone out there sees this!

[ididoktoday]

How we get better: a decidedly nonlinear and varied process

Maybe that suffering will slough off us like a crispy sunburn, peeling away gradually in its own time, protesting a timeline faster than its own intention. But slough it will.

Maybe that suffering will cling to us until the last second it’s allowed, like a sucking leech, our humors leaking messily and causing a real scene, relief and vulnerability entwined to tease apart later. But we’ll have time and headspace to do that work.

Maybe that suffering will be ripped off us like a warm blanket on an early winter morning, snatched away by a guiding figure who knows that what we need is more important than what we want, a figure who sighs down with love at our shivering legs. That figure knows a warm future for us that our eyes are not yet mature enough to see.

We are birthed in all sorts of ways. Let us treat each other as gently as newborns.

[remyhadly]

Yknow sometimes I wonder about what would have happened if wilson was the medical proxy during house's infarction. Because I can't imagine a single reality where wilson would let house die for the sake of his leg(it was said multiple times that he would have died without the surgery). So will he also choose the middle ground? Or will he go straight for amputation? How would that affect their friendship from then on? Would he be as mad at wilson as he was at stacy? Because I feel like one of the reasons why wilson doesn't get any blame from house is because he had no involvement in the decision. I would genuinely love to see an AU where this played out

[thedreadvampy]

I was talking to a friend who I THOUGHT had an adult ADHD diagnosis about the whole 'maybe Ruth has ADHD???' question and they were like

'oh yeah trying to get an NHS diagnosis is a total bust lol you should do what I did, get a month's worth of ADHD meds from [rich mutual friend with a lot of hookups] and see if it helps!'

and at first I was like ok yeah makes sense that's probably a good chunk of the diagnostic process anyway if we're being real

and then like 5 minutes later I was like oh. hey. are there maybe multiple possible reasons you would answer in the affirmative to 'did taking a daily dose of off-label amphetamines make you feel more energetic and productive?'

so I do think maybe medical supervision might be useful to help differentiate between 'this is treating ADHD, which I have' and 'WHEN I TAKE AMPHETAMINES GET SO MUCH DONE BUT I THINK I COULD UP THE DOSAGE AND GET EVEN MORE DONE.'

[alluralater]

hey everyone, i won’t be as active for a while. got home last night super late after being on the road for 20 some odd hours. dealing with some family things and as an older sister, my priority of taking care of my siblings comes first before anything else. being on here is amazing for me but i don’t think i’ll have much time for it. reminder to please treat those in your life who are battling addiction with patience and care. i lost my older brother (sweetest person i’ve ever known and he remained that way up until his last night) to suicide and alcoholism, trauma and ptsd, depression and his feelings of hopelessness. talk with the people you care about. another of my siblings is dealing with the same and i refuse to let it escalate to such a terrifying end twice in less than a fucking year. remind the people you care about that there are beautiful things to live for. show them kindness and love. there is all kinds of misinformation out there but know this, you can make a difference for someone. don’t let them suffer in silence.

[lucky-strike-14]

The rehab I went to hosts an open AA meeting every Friday, & while I'm still kind of wary of AA, thanks to a not-great experience with it a previous time I got sober, I'm really excited to be going there tomorrow to get my one year coin. I love that place so much. It saved my life, literally, but it also awakened something in me that I'm grateful for every single day. I truly never felt as alive as I did my last few weeks there & the first couple months after. I wish I'd been able to hold onto the glow longer, but I also know I can find it again, if I follow the right path 🐦🪷❤️🙏

[cvrdncvts]

GUYS!!! IM ELEVEN WHOLE DAYS CLEAN!!! I HAVWNT GONE THIS LONG IN YEARS!

[emiliefitch]

I personally do not for a moment believe lottie is a villain AND I don't think she's entirely innocent in travis's death. and not in like the-button-got-stuck way but I think maybe, just maybe, it was for the hungry thing that came back in all of them. A sacrifice is a sacrifice is a sacrifice.

[kishavo]

just a heads up to my recent new followers! i'm a recovering drug addict and i talk about it sometimes. if this scares you off that's ok.

tw: drug talk, face reveal

i don't have a proper mirror to snort off of so i use my driver's license to cut lines because it's important that i look myself in the eye every time i use

i'm trying out something new by boxing my feelings up and embracing all of myself, good and bad

i am who i am, fuck it, here's my face, here's my shame

is it a relapse if i still haven't touched my drug of choice, but i'm doing everything else with impunity? idk. relapse is subjective, recovery isn't linear, blah blah blah.

but the feeling is coming back, y'know? i'm slipping

getting high feels like coming home

maybe i should put my recovery coins away. i don't think i deserve them anymore

i'm not sad. or angry. a little paranoid bc i'm keeping secrets again, but that's all. i don't even hate myself

i think maybe i'm just having a hard time recognizing myself. growing up i kind of knew this was going to happen, but now i'm here and i'm lost :/

[thedomesticanthropologist]

BG3 Characters Supporting Your Sobriety: Day 2

Lae'zel: "Pathetic substances have no power over a strong mind. You're proving your strength each day. Continue on this path, and you'll conquer any challenge."

Congrats on making it 2 days sober!

[aribcofer]

ari b. cofer, excerpt from substack