#this shit is fucking hard

[mosscreeper-ao3]

I was correct in my assessment that the James whumptober fic was going to be one of the most challenging things I've ever written.

[pocket-deer-boy]

Check out the character creator for Palworld, it lets you be legitimately fat

[saragrosie]

Sketching while streaming s5...

Jonathan Sims I will learn to draw you (this is my doing. I could draw him however I want and I choose to stick with an image of him in my brain that is difficult for me to draw. Masochism.)

Not s5 Mahtins below I enjoyed drawing cuz hes neat:

(Edit: I yassified Martin in the do not separate cuz I wanted his hair fluffier)

[noonstate]

i need well meaning cis people to stop attemping to steelman trans healthcare conversations because it basically always ends with them just lying about easily checkable things "no minors are getting irreversible treatments" wrong not true "no minors are having surgery" also false, like instead just say the truth: currently some minors (few, but some) are able to access hrt that will have some irreversible changes on their body, some (even fewer) minors are able to access surgery.

the counter to transphobes screaming "these kids are being irreversibly changed" isn't "no children are accessing this care" it's "puberty is also an irreversible change" and "i think under 18s and even under 16s should be able to make medical decisions actually"

"no minors are accessing this care" means that transphobes can easily point to the examples of minors who are accessing that care, which just make us look like liars. sometimes teenagers and children need to make medical choices on their own. i think a 14 y/o should be able to get an abortion. i think trans kids and teens should be able to have the approriate care, which for some will just be like, picking a new name or haircut, and for some, sure, could be surgery.

[illusioncanthurtme--art]

pls pls heard me out...FIDDLESTAN! <3

ok, i got this ask ten days ago, and I've been thinking about it ever since. Because I got two other asks asking for fiddauthor, and I dON'T KNOW HOW TO LET THEM DOWN LIGHTLY BECAUSE I'M A FIDDLESTAN BITCH THROUGH AND THROUGH 😭😭😭😭 I LOVE THEM SO MUCH!!!!!!

Don't get me wrong, fiddauthor is great and makes sense and everything. But listen. Billford and fiddauthor are multidimensional ships, they are good! But FIDDLESTAN!?!? that shit is the WHAT-THE-HECK-A-HEDRON!!!!!!! Even though it's literally 100% speculation, the implications are FUCKING CRAZY!!!!!!!!! I jumped between three ships so far during this gravity falls thing, each time thinking one is better than the other. I've decided that FIDDLESTAN IS KING!!!!!! I'm sorry. I could rant about them forever. I've been listening to nothing but extended versions of disco music for the past week. (YES THEY HAD A CRAZY ROMANTIC FLING IN VEGAS NO I WILL NOT ELABORATE!!!! (yes i will. I will elaborate at some point. it will be like ten pages or text. or I will draw it. idk.))

Here is a sketchbook doodle from like a week ago. I'm gonna post another fiddlestan thing in a few moments, but my style changes like I'm a completely different artist every week without warning, so I'm gonna leave this by itself!

He comes into YOUR house, he steals YOUR identity, and he fucks YOUR research partner!!! Fuck you!!!!!!!!!!

[ohposhers]

troll who isnt allowed caffeine or she'll reenact the Hammy energy drink scene from over the hedge clay prefers tea anyway

[doggiewoggiez]

ok im getting too much hate im done. fuck man. i give up.

[theonewhowails]

cult trait: good die young

[nova-rpv]

a redraw of the first drawing i posted here to celebrate the fact that ive been in tumblr for more than a whole year posting my shit and havent deleted my blog in panic yippee \:D/ (mushy rant in tags)

[emotionaleating]

pls don’t flirt with me i want to be nonchalant so bad but i unfortunately crave connection so intensely that i will give you my entire soul and forgive you over and over until i’ve lost myself completely and feel like i’m drowning

[reloaderror]

on track to deliver on the biweekly thistle

[noname-404s-blog]

[marcholasmoth]

OSRR: 3093

it's nice to not have to avoid my own dashboard.

i spent the day with my sister. she works a lot, and it's a rare day when i can see her and spend time with her, so i took the opportunity to do so today. it was nice. she showed me taskmaster, which is a british tv show where a group of comedians are given very specific and hilarious tasks to complete and whoever does it the best gets the points, and whoever has the most points at the end of an episode wins the things that were brought in for the first task, and whoever has the most points at the end of the season wins. not sure what, but they win.

my friend at work has been trying to get me to watch it so i'm glad my sister made me watch it too.

joel texted me a little bit today, but he's mostly been bored because of the weather. it's kind of throwing a wrench in his plans.

other than that, my day has blessedly been quiet. i didn't have the energy to write, but tomorrow is a snow day, so i'm happy to take tomorrow to finish more things before i'm incapable of doing them. i have to finish my résumé, which is kind of the highest priority thing i have to write, and i'm not getting any help with it, so i determined i'll email my professors about it and see if they can help me with it. it's my most stressful thing and my highest priority, so mostly everything else waits until that's done. and then my next stressor is cover letters, because i have shit to do and a now job to get. i'm a grown-ass adult and i have things to do, but when my brain decides to not cooperate, it shuts me down entirely. which fucking sucks. thanks adhd and autism. >:[

anyway, tomorrow is a snow day. got an email saying the college is closed tomorrow, so i don't work then. maybe i can get some of that writing done. my professors will likely take a hot minute to reply, though, but i can hope, yknow?

and speaking of hoping and jobs and the adhd and autism, it's been a long and difficult process being able to come to terms with the fact that i am, really, disabled. it doesn't really feel like it, and the impostor syndrome is real here, but it's true. it's been true for a long time. i've just been forcing myself to be a certain way to make it seem like i'm normal, that if i pretend i'm normal for long enough i'll actually be normal. that's not the case, so i've learned.

i'm still working on accepting it. it's a label i've been defensive of, i guess, because of the crippling amount of internalized ableism i've been conditioned to have, but it's been so long since i last felt okay that even unmasking in public doesn't give me the relief i need.

it's exhausting. i hurt. im tired. and it occasionally occurs to me that this doesn't happen to "normal people" like this. neurotypicals don't fight every second to appear as they're expected. they just are that way. why am i so tired? why do i always hurt everywhere? why do i constantly feel the need to knock my skull into the nearest vertical surface??? this is not a daily occurrence for neurotypicals.

im learning to accept it for myself. this world is not built for me. it's not built for people like me. i have things i can do and things im good at, yes. i also have things that are out of my control which hang over my head like the sword of damocles. so i need to get a grasp of the things i really can control and find out from others like me what resources there are so i can help myself manage both my expectations and my responses.

fuck. being an adult is hard.

[rinhaler]

@saturnsatnin HAS STOLEN MY WORK

So I wrote this fic for a collab back in early November and this person has decided to steal not only the entire thing, but my requests and drabbles too. I haven’t had a proper look but I am SHAKING with anger. The only thing they changed is the characters involved. I’m not sure if they’ve stolen anyone else’s work, but you know people like this are too lazy and in creative to write their own stuff so please make sure to see if anything of yours has been stolen.

I am FUMING I have no idea what to do in this situation.

[possiblyawesometmblr]

seeing a lot of people focusing on the cute stuff in the update and that's all well and good but hi what the fuck does this mean

[herzspalter]

If you struggle with learning to draw Transformers or other mecha characters: It's all about bullshitting. As long as it looks consistent in itself, it doesn't matter at all if it's not too accurate. It's about having fun, and if you need to cut some corners, go for it! Fuck it!