#thoughts as a transman

[davidthephoneguy]

A little (mostly Dialtown) rant of my own

Ok first of all you all need to calm down, I'm goin on this rant despite not currently being in the dialtown fandom but I was back around when the game first came out. I just feel like I gotta ask you to be calm because I know how agressive people can be online with that shield on anonymity. I also do not hate dialtown or Dogman nor do I blame them for said issues that will be stated.

Dialtown as a whole does pretty obviously have a problem about representation of fem/fem presenting characters especially in the fandom side. As a previous rant stated before most fem characters are either glossed over in favour of male/masc presenting ones, such as with the main dateables. It even extends to side characters which feels rather disheartening. Now I get why its mainly the male/masc presenting ones who get attention, I must highlight the fact that I am a Bi-Ace Transman and I tended to focus on Oliver and Randal over Karen so I was part of the problem on that part. So i get the gender serotonin of drawing them but I hope you can also see how it means that for example, Karen is almost completely overlooked. I would see myself in them because of the shared gender, I really do understand why this has been happening. You are not evil for doing this, that is not what this rant is about in the slightest. Like the previous rant before stated the game doesn't pass the Bechdal test (Which if you are unaware is a media test which requires two fem characters to talk to eachother about anything other then a man, already an extremely low bar to pass) which Dialtown does not pass. It's completely valid to have reservations about that as it is an overall problem with media at large. Media at large is still a white straight cis male dominated space and needs more diversity in all ways. Dialtown as a whole is a good game and has a diverse cast which is wonderful and amazing to see. The only issue is how some are highlighted more then others or demonized in a way that lines up with misogyny (Such as with Mingus' behavior being villainized by the fandom while Stabby and Shooty doing the same thing being ok and lighthearted in the eyes of the fandom which from an outside view just looks like misogyny I am sorry folks. If the only factor in if you like or dislike a characters actions is because they are a woman is misogyny even if they're cis or trans, misogyny is just the word for discrimination in this way) Pointing this out doesn't mean an attack on anyone, pointing out an issue is meant to bring attention to said issue so it can be improved or fixed. The previous person who I have been referencing and paraphrasing here (who I am not going to @ as they don't need more direct harassment) was slightly attacked for having a rant, yes everyone is entitled to their opinion but that does not give either side the right to actively attack the other. Please remain diplomatic.

People are allowed to highlight issues, if we don't then they won't ever get fixed. We're meant to stick together and fix things together, not attack eachother. Thats what people like terfs want us to do, they want us to tear eachother apart so that they get what they want, our destruction. We have to stand together with the things we love. My apologies for how long this ended up being but I just had to get it out of my head. Just my thoughts as a transman/voidrabbit on the topic

[decolonize-the-left]

I said this in the comments of one of my posts earlier but it deserves to be seen and have its own post cuz this logic here is completely absent.

White women have an extensive history of weaponizing misogyny to harm MoC.

This is a fact that we can agree on considering Karens and BBQ Becky, yes?

And it never occurred to anybody that the weaponization of their white privilege and role as Victims in the patriarchy should mean that they no longer have a right to talk about misogyny. Right?

By that I mean there wasn't a campaign of Black and brown women commenting, "White women can't talk about misogyny until they stop being racist. Besides what they have to say about their experience as women is no different from my experience. And if anything it's less valuable than what I have to say anyway cuz their views on gender are inherently racist. Listening to white women is a waste of time when you could listen to Black and brown women."

Literally nobody did this, right?

So how are y'all using the same exact logic to say that transmen can't talk about transandrophobia? "Their experiences are different from ours but they shouldn't talk about them cuz we're the ones doing the worthwhile work of dismantling transphobia with our more valuable experiences as the Hated Gender."

Because respectfully if that's the logic we as a queer community are gonna start using then that logic eventually says that the Only people with a right to speak on Anything in Any community Ever... are Black women.

"If Black women were free, it would mean that everyone else would have to be free since our freedom would necessitate the destruction of all the systems of oppression."

Now ask yourself why this campaign against WW doesn't exist. Ask yourself why you stopped at telling transmen to shut up, but didn't follow that logic all the way to it's conclusion.

Now ask yourself if that changes your right to speak on your own experiences with people like you when you ALL could be speaking out of ignorance. What changes? Why or why not?

How do you feel right now?

Do you feel closer to your community? Do you feel spoken for or heard? Do you feel like your experiences matter to the people who it should matter the most to when I say your experiences are less relevant to our movement than someone else's?

Yeah. I didn't think so.

[fernzwing]

happy pride month cus u gay and stuff /ref

[frozenvanilla]

What 14 years on T looks like

[maxphilippa]

"they're toxic yuri" and it's a transmasc gay man who can't get over his ex and a transfem bisexual demiromantic woman

yeah transmasc gayman taco got into my mind whateverrrr

[bizarreaizen]

me liking a cis guy: ヾ(＾-＾)ノ

me knowing that i'm trans and he only sees me as a girl: (TдT) /gen

[jayjuno]

“trans” is a modern phenomenon

Dear transgender community- "trans" has not always existed. So can you please stop lying about it now?

What has always existed is men and women dressing, behaving, and even living socially as members of the opposite sex, not trans.

What constitutes transgenderism is completely new. There’s no historical precedent for people confused or upset over their biological sex who then try to soothe their negative feelings with body modification and drugs. Before cosmetic surgeries and artificial hormones showed up, there's never been another time in history where people felt they needed cosmetic surgery or drugs in order to be their "authentic selves", a slogan often repeated within the transgender community without thought or contemplation. How can cosmetic surgeries and artificial hormones be authentic when they’re the zenith of artificiality?

Who created all these new words and sayings for transgender people to say anyway? It’s like people came together to start a new religion and decided they needed an exclusive new lexicon to draw folks in. Cisgender is the new Xenu. Elliot Page is the new Tom Cruise. The Eternal Return might be real after all.

Crossdressing has a long rich history that goes back thousands of years, but so-called sex change operations or artificial hormones? Those are a modern phenomenon, and there’s absolutely nothing that’s natural or authentic about them. There’s nothing authentic about cutting off healthy body parts or taking drugs that alter the natural hormones within the human body. There’s no authenticity to taking puberty blockers that cause bone density loss.

Did Joan of Arc need testosterone to be who she was? Did she need body modification or puberty blockers to be her “authentic self”? 

No, she did not.

So please, transgender community- stop it with the nonsense about how transgender people have existed since the beginning of time, because it simply isn’t true. 

[transguydragon]

I am a boy. A guy. A dude. Sometimes I even feel like I am a man.

And I think I’ve come to the conclusion that I don’t wanna be neutral about it. I don’t wanna be a they/them transmasc, or even a he/they transmasc. No, I’m a man.

And maybe it’s just cause I’m a still a fuckin’ baby when it comes to being trans, but I don’t think I wanna reconnect with femininity, and I don’t think I ever will.

I always hated makeup, I hate the feeling of stuff on my face and my fidgeting from ADHD causes me to touch my face a lot so I was always worried I’d absentmindedly smudged it and just didn’t remember cause I zoned out. The only time I really liked my nails painted was when I got acrylics done like short claws for a Halloween costume and then kept doing them like that for a while until Covid started and I stress fidgeted and tore them right off.

Certain skirts and dresses make me feel very uncomfortable and vulnerable. Some of them are ok but very few. My occasional enjoyment of dresses was almost entirely based on the fact that they were objectively flattering for my figure and I could see/understand that (The Doll In The Mirror, as I call it) but I never actually liked them for the internal me.

I like jewelry I guess, but I keep it pretty minimalist or neutral. I’m pretty content to keep wearing the same stuff I’ve been wearing every day for years now. The only new thing I desire jewelry-wise is sword/dagger earrings.

I like sewing as a practical and useful skill. I don’t want to make pretty things. I’d only ever touch lace if it was something I was doing for my roommate. I want to fix holes, clean up seams, and replace buttons.

I liked horses growing up, went to some summer camps, but I was never once a horse girl. That’s something else. I liked horseback riding for the outdoors, for the connection with such a unique animal, for the unmatched feeling of competency and strength derived from being a 5’0” kid hauling a full saddle+blanket+pad set that‘s probably about 1/3 your weight all the way from the barn to your horse and successfully slinging it onto its back, which is several inches above your shoulder, all by yourself. The feeling of ruggedness from learning how to pick a horse’s hooves in the hot summer sun.

And sure I was there with a bunch of other girls, and all the leaders who looked after the stables were women, but I felt different from most of them. With some of the leaders I got a sense that we were more similar, I would later realize that they were giving dyke vibes, and more explicitly, on my last time at that camp learned that our slightly more broody counsellor and the head of the stable staff were lesbians and dating. Even before I knew that, I had wanted to connect with them both more but didn’t know how to approach them. But I was drawn to them. Thinking back on it, I even wonder if maybe our counsellor might’ve ended up being trans? They hated their last name because it sounded really girly/cutesy, and it seemed to me like a lot was going on in their head…

I got off track. What are some other feminine things I either don’t like or have big stipulations on my feeling about them?…

[creative-chaos-apparently]

Happy pride month guys.

I have to confess that for over 12 or more months now (until very recently a few weeks ago) I believed that Orville Peck was a trans man and was on the best testosterone available to human medicine. The mask he wears did nothing to dissuade me from this.

And @thevintageducky encouraged this, fully believing I was joking.

For likely over a year I lived in a world where Orville Peck was transgender because of a dream I had where he had top surgery scars in a music video and where his deadname was Susanne or something. It was not until I saw him shirtless in an instagram post that I learned otherwise.

Anyway. 😭

[honeyandbloodpoetry]

Hunger and sex are the same thing.

[muu-kun]

It is my day of birth. I'm also unsurprisingly going over selfies to compare them for testosterone changes. The more I see, the more I know I ought to come out to friends and family, but.. Hard pass lmao.

[goldeneclipsee]

ughhhh why is gender so hard to figure out. my body is like boom gender dsyorphia but won’t tell me noone about my identity

(I accidentally made an entire vent in the tags lmao)

[jo-dracona]

I went to a summer camp that was focused on horseback riding through the mountains of kananaskis when I was younger.

And what a beautiful experience that was. Gorgeous mountains and calming lakes, splashing around the base of a small waterfall with new friends. Sitting by that lake and having my mind go quiet all on it’s own for the first time in my life as I focus on the sound of the birds around me.

Clear skies and trail songs and simple but satisfying meals after long days in the sun. Even in the cold rain it’s incredible.

And the horses, incredible animals. So full of personality, and many of them so sweetly patient with us kids. Patient as we learned to get them to lift their hooves for picking, as we struggled to get their buckets of grain feed hooked up for them to eat before a ride. Patient as we learned how to hoist their big heavy saddles onto their backs, blankets and pads and all, when their shoulders lied above our own. I always revelled in that feeling of sheer strength and competence, to get that big construction of leather and metal all the way up there.

And I loved the smell of the barn, with all the saddles on their posts, the blankets placed on top to air out between rides. It smelled like effort and wood and leather and I loved it. When I couldn’t go take out the hay to the feeders with the others because I started to get hives from it, I volunteered to sweep the barn. I was in there for what felt like eternity, practically meditating. Quietly getting to know every odd nook and crevice of this rugged place, surrounded by that handsome air.

And the next day I went back into that barn with satisfaction, proudly hoisted up my horse’s saddle and marched over to his post, ready for another day on trail. But instead we did some movement exercises before we left, to work on control and critique the way we hold our reins.

They had us walk our horse forward into a small circle of pylons, turn them around in a tight circle and then walk back out and stop. This was harder than it sounds based on the other campers’ attempts, though all of them did really well on their second go around. But I calmly got up in the saddle, took the reins, and guided my horse in a tight circle without bumping a single pylon or having him step outside them. We nailed it. I kept it cool, but I was soooo… I was so proud of myself and my horse. I felt so skilled and confident in a way I never had before.

And the rugged jeans I wore and all the plaid I brought along. I was not the only one in plaid by far, but I did not wear as many tights as everyone else. And I loved to put on my boots, the ones with just enough heel for the stirrups. And I loved doing up the straps of the saddle as carefully but efficiently as I could.

I loved the mountain views and the beauty and joy of the freshwater, I loved feeling rugged, I loved feeling competent and worked, I loved the smell of the summer air and the sweat and leather and wood of the barn. I loved to get the dust out of my horse’s coat in the morning with that big thick brush with hard smooth strokes and a flick.

That camp made me feel more like a man than I knew. I wish I could’ve revelled in it the way I would now. I wish I had volunteered to chop the wood like I had wanted. But I did always carry the most logs back to our campfire, and filled with pride when I looked at the light red marks on my forearms from the scraping bark.

Now, if only I liked hats.

[cryptidscries]

trans man slouching so bad i start looking like this

[altamira-a]

Some thoughts on transitioning

I'm done with seeing transitioning as something normal. This is not just 'something I'm doing.' This is a Spiritual experience and I sure as hell am going to treat it that way.

My vocal training will be an important daily ritual. By doing so I am getting closer to my true self, after all.

My binder? My platformers? They are not something to be taken as the mundane. They are not a 'costume'. They are bringing me closer to what I know I am.

Since religion is not present in my life, This is how I will connect to the spiritual. Through myself. Making myself what I truly am. Self discovery is one of the most spiritual processes after all, I don't see any reason as to why transitioning isn't part of that.

[satoumafuyuss]

Last of my current backlog of things yay finally caught up!!

These are some proseka ocs ive been working on!

From left to right

Aoto Usui (He/Him), Koto Narai (She/Her), Ema Ooshibi (He/Him) and Toshiya Shimota (He/Him)

I might post more info about them later when I have a chance to but for now, enjoy their designs~ lol