#trigger warning: trauma

[tinytoddler]

romanticising my mental illnesses and trauma as a coping mechanism l o l  ⋆౨ৎ˚⟡˖ ࣪ ♡

[lemscipher]

this is my tfs horror au design for henry!! horror au doesnt really narrow it much so ill try to explain:

its a more psychological horror version of tfs i guess? henry is a very strict christian who believes that god is punishing him for his sins with divine power and immortality due to the scar on his hand being shaped like the cross; he believes he is a god to some extent (or rather a vessel to a higher god which in this case is the mindflayer). the animal killings are sacrifices to the mindflayer like in the og show, but instead all of the things/people henry have killed have a cross carved into their heads. virginia and victor are even worse in their aspects, victor resorts to many more unhealthy coping mechanisms not just alcoholism (he does drugs, shoots things when hes angry etc.), virginia is a lot worse, much more abusive and even tries to exorcise henry at one point. henry is traumatised by all of this and it leads to a lot of self hatred and thinking that god hates him, and when hes eventually sent to the lab he thinks brenner is trying to rid him of his divine connection and is a lot more hostile towards him (hes also quite scared as he doesnt want to be drugged and end up like his father), brenner probably splashes henry with holy water or sm idk. if you want more info on this au feel free to lmk!!

pls also any name ideas for this au are appreciated "horror" is really shit 😭😭

credits to @/2ds-sleeping-powder for the bandaid headcanon also

[elmodoescrimes]

MARAUDERAND WHAT I HC THEIR FAMILY LIFE AS (basically what's their familial trauma like):

Jame: Euphemia and Fleamont Potter. What more can I say. Very good childhood. Personally if we have trans James, I like Fleamont and Euphemia being a little wee bit transphobic, but only because they dont really understand, and they wnd up accepting him eventually (think very long tho, like, he comes out to them and 5 years later they start actually accepting him)

Sirsisus: Wallburger and Orion. Abusive both physically and emotionally, ruthless, very manipulative, might go into my flavours of abuse hcs evenyually but like... thats a bit too much to go into right now.

Remlulus: I like the TCoPTP characterization personally. But like, poor. So, Remus' mother died early-is in life, and his dad was just neglectful, and towards the end, when Remus stood up for himself, his dad was a bit abusive. OR Remus' dad was the sort of abusive drunk WHEN Remus' mum died, and then was neglectful/ignored remus.

Pete: Peter has his mom and dad, and it should be happy, but his mum is overinvolved in a super neglectful and controlling way, like, she lowk hates him but also wants control over everything, and his dad doesnt give a shit about him, and instead pays attention to all his siblings instead, because they outshine Pete in every way.

LIL: Lily is totally her parents favourite, and then she goes off to hogwarts and while she's gone (especially around 5th year) Petunia starts to sort of turn lily's parents against her. Petunia and Lily were really close until Lily got her letter, and then Petunia starts to shrink away from everything to do with Lily because she feels abandoned and outshone (see; Peter for what I think Petunia's situation is similar too)

Mary: Muggle-born, but her parents are both dead, so Mary lives with her (slightly bipolar) grandmother by the seaside. Her grandma is a BADASS, but I like the idea of Mary's nan dying when Mary's like 20 (Ignore voldemort, he doesn't exist in my world) so the dealing with greif is fun for Mary.

MARLEN: HAS ALL OF THE SIBLING!! ALL OF THEM!!! AND A SINGLE MOTHER OR FATHER WHO IS VERY BADASS BUT ALSO LOWK TRADITIONAL AND VERY LIKE "OH SHIT MY DAUGHTER IS GENDER-FUCK AND LESBEAN" AND THEY HAVE A LITTLE ARC AND IT DOES RESULT IN MARL LEAVING HOME BUT COMING BACK FOR FAMILY EVENTS MOSTLY FOR HER SIBLINGS BUT ALSO BECAUSE THEY STILL KINDA LOVE THEIR PARENTS DESPITE THE INTENSE DIFFERENCE IN OPINIONS TAHT THEY ALL COME TO TERMS WITH AND KINDA ACCEPT BUT DONT AGREE ON.

(D)Orca: Has one mother who is very um... Religious. ANd this makes teh lesbianism and transgenderism very difficult for dorks. BUT!! Dorcas' ends up managing the transgenderism because her mother is a leetol bit mentally ill and man hatey because her dad was abusive, and really didn't want a son, BUT THE LESBIANISM IS A SOURCE OF MUCH FIGHTING BETWEEN DORCAS AND HER MOM. And her mom uses the like "oh im mad at u so im not gonna say ur my daughter and start misgendering you now" tactic of abuse a lot.

Egg: Again, walburger and orion, but more on the emotional manipulation side of things. Yippee. His favourite cousin is Narcissa.

barry: CROUCH SR!!! LESSGOOO! Barry's mom is constantly drunk because, Bartemius sr, and so thats fun. Barty sr is deffo a lot more violent with Barry than anyone else, like its very angry and yelly and theres no intended emotional abuse, but its VERY physically abusive.

Evie and pandorf: NEGELECTFUL!!!!! DO NOT GIVE SHITS!!! IGNORED!!! Very like, be perfect, but idgaf about you.

Xeno: I love the malfoy concept, so with that HC he is very ignored and shi, BUT I also love the idea of Xeno having one mother or father who is very hippy and liberal and just lowk found xeno in the desert or some shit and just kept him, and deffo an asexual and maybe aro parent, who is full of conspiracies and shit and Xeno takes that from them.

[coining-system-terms]

I have a question. Can organized abuse include a small group of people (around 5) abusing one person without much communication be OA? Like they all know the others are abusing said person but aren't fully aware of the details, but still enable it and minimizing it so they don't believe they need to escape?

I'll send in another ask in case more details is needed but that way you can skip it if not (pls clarify if so tho cuz we will assume it wasnt received if not clarified)

folks, i literally do not care. i've explained what counts as organised abuse before, i'm not reading your essays.

i do not own the term and i don't want people trauma dumping in my inbox. if you need validation so bad get a therapist.

[ouchyspine]

Tw; gore, trauma, psychosis

I can finally start posting my original art cuz AP season is done!!!

[irlangelsdiary]

Facts about intrafamiliar sexual abuse, COCSA, and CSA.

• COCSA can happen with children of any age, but potential incidents can increase as children enter puberty and adolescence.

• 40% of Children who were sexually abused the perpetrator was older and or more powerful

• 5% of children have been affected by sibling sexual abuse.

• It is one of the lowest disclosed forms of sexual abuse, meaning the statistics around this are likely to be higher.

• More than 90% of abusers are people children know, love and trust.

• 30-40% of victims are abused by a family member.

[arradraws]

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[angelicwh0r3]

I wish I've never been touched without my consent, I feel like I've lost parts of myself that have been touched and I will never win them back

[clothelizard]

Hypersexuality.

I hear a lot of people throw it out there. Ya know saying "omg guys im hypersexual" or something like that. Just using it to describe them being a particularly horny or sexual person. In the same vein as people saying they have ocd because they like to have their phone in a specific spot.

I struggle with hypersexuality. I live with it everyday. It greatly impacts my daily life and ability to consent. It causes me to have horny thoughts when I don't want to. Makes me feel and want sex when I dont actually want it. Makes me imagine sexual scenarios with people I don't want to like some kinda intrusive thought. It makes me feel like I owe people sex. Making me feel bad if i didnt have sex with someone when we hang out, not that i missed out, its that i didnt offer myself to them. That my worth as a human being is dictated by my sexual worth. It attempts to protect me in unwanted sexual scenes by telling me I enjoy it, making me feel horny and aroused. Only to realise months later.. i didn't want it.

Hypersexuality isn't some fun thing. You dont want hypersexuality. Hypersexuality is a mental illness.

[fangs-n-fluff]

I recommend not looking at this if/ when regressed!

This is a little rant for littles & caregivers who struggle with hyper-sexuality, sexual flashbacks, intrusive thoughts, etc!

Tw!!: mentions of age play, very brief mention of csa(?), intrusive thoughts while regressed.

This is sfw, I do not personally understand/ participate in any nsfw/ age play, I am a minor.

The day that more of the Agere community is a bit more accepting to people whose regression isn’t completely and 100 percent “innocent” all the time without getting accused of having an age play kink or “sexualizing” age regression, is the day I rest.

As someone who experiences intrusive and impulsive thoughts that I cannot control, it sucks. I cannot just “stop thinking like that”, the more you try and repress those icky thoughts, the more they frequent. Repressing something is never good.

Also, as someone who’s been through some (brief) sexual experiences when I was little plus, was gifted unrestricted internet access—Sometimes when I happen to be regressed and I remember that or I’m experiencing/ reliving a bad moment—my body gets confused and reacts sometimes. And you know what? That’s okay.

Sometimes our brains can be mean. It sucks, I know. But it’s not your fault. It’s something that happens, it’s natural. You’re not gross for your mind getting confused sometimes and feeling things without wanting to. You’re not gross for reacting how you reacted to past trauma. You’re not gross for your body reacting to something involuntary. You’re not gross for your mind making up something you don’t agree with. You’re not gross if you think of adult things while regressed involuntarily/without wanting to.

Remember lovebug, your regression is yours.

It doesn’t have to fit a specific mold, and you’re not “icky” or “gross” for experiencing something you can’t control.

You still deserve to heal the way you choose to heal, regardless of what other people say.

— Take care of yourself lovelies!

Love you! - 𝐚 𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐝𝐨𝐦 𝐬𝐭𝐫𝐚𝐧𝐠𝐞𝐫

[decayingchronicflames]

I've finally got the courage to share my marble hornets oc children, be ready, if you dare. (Actual tw here! I'll be going over topics that might be sensitive/triggering for some people, like blood and gore, pregnancy, and such, so fair trigger warning!)

Enjoy. (The first one is the jaylex love child)

First off, I've made sub-au' for the main au like a different storyline in these au' that spring off from the main one. But we'll start with canon first. Timelines, storyline, and other important details.

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Storyline: entry #47 (around that time in the timeline), alex was arguing with jay in the parking lot, (alex is trans in this au), all of a sudden, alex pulls jay into a kiss, which quickly turns into making out, which one thing leads to another, then alex leaves the parking lot, going home.

Two weeks later, alex has been nauseous, and sick as hell, alex doesn't want to give anyone else..

This contagion..

So as a precaution, alex took a pregnancy test, since him and jay.. YK. As soon as those results came in, Alex's heart sank. Positive. He was pregnant. With most definitely. JAYS blue eyed demon. Alex was nervous, slightly happy, and pissed off, all at once. Alex didn't wanna tell Jay though. It was gonna be a secret for as long as alex could keep it a secret. Alex didn't want to get rid of it. But he didn't wanna spread that disease to a new generation. He kept it anyway. Hoping for the best.

He'd have to get off testosterone treatment, and eventually stop wearing his binder.

Alex accepted the challenge, plus, he could just put the thing up for adoption or drop it off somewhere safe.

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First month of pregnancy for alex, it was miserable, morning sickness. He couldn't keep anything down whatsoever, and that thing stalking him didn't help at all. He was more paranoid. He didn't want this thing inside him getting hurt.

Alex was protective. Ignoring Jay's calls and texts. Trying to keep everyone away.

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Second month of pregnancy, the morning sickness got better, and now alex was starting to get a bigger appetite. Alex constantly had a hand over his very very unnoticeable bump. Alex wanted to protect this demon growing inside him.

It was his flesh and bone after all.

Alex was pissed though, Jay showed the whole fucking world. Those damn tapes. How could jay do that. Alex felt a sense of betrayal. Jay just exposed those tapes to the world.

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Third month of pregnancy, alex was forming a bump now. He was nearly to the second trimester. Alex bought a gun. To keep himself and the demon growing inside him safe. Alex hadn't thought of any names. Whatsoever.

Alex wondered what the sex of the demon inside his womb was, Alex didn't care either way. He debated whether he was going to raise it or not. He nearly and could've shot Jay and.. maybe jessica. If that damn psychopath wearing a mask didn't intervene.

Alex had to get rid of the disease, that's how all the suffering could stop, peace would happen. They'd all be happy again. Be safe. Be away from that thing.

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Fourth month of pregnancy, he was starting to show decently now, and he had extreme cravings, and he'd cried missing amy and rocky.. and Jay sometimes. Wishing things were happier. He wasn't all alone. He had this thing inside him that kept him company, right?

Plus he was gonna be a dad. He hoped that it wouldn't look identical to jay.

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Fifth month of pregnancy.

Alex no longer had glasses, because of that damn guy in the hood. He has lost a lot of energy with the thing inside of him starting to move. He nearly killed jessica. But that hooded man ruined it. Those damn psychopaths keep ruining all of these plans.

Atleast the baby hasn't been harmed.

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Sixth month of pregnancy, he was in slight agony, the baby was kicking up a storm. Specifically when he'd relax in bed, or when he'd tried hunting down Jay and tim.

He wanted- NEEDED. Jay and tim dead. To stop the disease. Alex needed to die too. But he knew he had to atleast. Carry this baby to term. And then get it out of his body.

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Seventh month of pregnancy, he was in the third trimester. He didn't know if morning sickness was worse then a tiny human being kicking your organs around and also your spine/ribcage.

Alex was getting sick of this tiny human. So sick of it. He thought the baby was boy. So he started calling it, a he, now.

Alex's stupid chest was getting swollen, alex hated that they got bigger.

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He made it to the eighth month of pregnancy, and he killed Jay, he shot him, Jay was gone. He felt only a tiny tiny bit guilty, but he thought Jay deserved. Exposing things that didn't need to get let out, endangering people, shoving that stupid ass camera in everyone's face.

He was done. Done with all this shit. Now he needed to find tim. He was the last one. And then himself.

The baby deserved a chance. A big chance.

Alex thought of a name if he was actually a boy like he thought.

August kralie. That's what he wanted to name it if it was a boy like alex thought.

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Ninth month of pregnancy, alex was heavily pregnant, walking around Benedict hall, with the operator right on his tail. He finally found tim, he had already burned tims house down.

He tried choking tim, tim gained control of the situation, and he- stabbed alex. Alex tried fighting back. He couldn't. Tim was too strong. Too strong.

The baby was the only thing on Alex's mind, alex didn't matter anymore, only the baby. He needed the baby alive.

When tim finally stopped. And got up. Alex told tim what tim needed to do.

He saw guilt in Tim's eyes, he read it immediately. Tim was shaking a little.

"It's jays, isn't it?" Tim asked, alex nodded, continuing to gasp.

-

Tim cut alex open. Very brutally. Alex was on the edge of death. Tim pulled out the screaming infant. It was a girl. Tim was covered in a bunch of different fluids.

Alex gave Tim a look, a look that said what Alex wanted Tim to do.

Alex wanted her with someone safe, that's all Alex wanted now. Nothing else mattered in that moment. Just her.

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Now onto what the baby is like as she grows older in Tim's care.

Identical to jay as a baby minus the face. And tim names her judith.

Tim raises her like his own.

When she's a toddler and until she's six, she's a total blond (alex and Jay were blondes at that age).

Then her hair grows darker. She wears Alex and Jay's old clothes.

And tim is constantly reminded of them. But he reminds himself.. she's not them. Not at all.

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The operator comes into her life as she gets into her pre-teens and teens. And it makes her whole life into a mess. And she truly learns about her parents.

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HOLY SHIT I SPENT SO MUCH TIME ON THIS, OH MY GODDDDD. anyway. Now I finished. If you wanna hear about possible siblings she'd have if her parents survived or different au' in this au. Then just tell me then.

I'll post them anyway. Enjoy the jaylex love child for now.

(Her full name is judith timothy merrick-kralie btw)

[milfglupshitto]

god that scene was so psychologically chilling. as a jealous little girl who grew up into a jealous man that hit just a bit too close to home