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asleepinawell · 2 months

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thinking about her (waterfowl dance)

#is it a bullshit move? maybe #i think i had more trouble with many of her other moves #but damn does it look so cool #i vividly remember when she first used that and i dodged it correctly #(i had absolutely looked up the correct dodge sequence but usually that doesn't help me at all)#i felt like a god for about .01 seconds #pretty sure she killed me with something else right after #eldenringmp #mp #I'm not sure I'm going to make it to her in my replay #the first time through i remember having extreme boss fatigue when i got there #there are 165 bosses in this game #that's too many!!!!#and i was just Tired by that point #i was not in the mood to patiently learn more boss fights #and i was a magic user and she just fucking dodges 99% of magic #so the fight drags on for forever #i really wish i could fight her somehow without going through so much of the game first #honestly the copy paste mini dungeons were a bad idea #they should have had way fewer and given other methods to get big rune gains for leveling and the drops #they just left me annoyed #oh the little gargoyle is above the door again...wao sugoi #aaaaaaahhhhhhhh!!!!!#yeah I'm not finishing it again am i lmao

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mattodore · 8 months

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lovesick

#hi 👋 i have a hospital appointment in two hours that i'm nervous about so here i am in my screenshots folder staring at mattodore #i really shouldn't be typing rn but i'm. a ball of nerves. like actually keep me in your thoughts... like please. jsfdhnkj #also i think i'm gonna start reblogging things untagged here for a little while........... bc like.#i really shouldn't be typing it fucks with my arms so bad..... i say as i'm typing #but ykwim like that's why i've just been avoiding tumblr lmao #um so if you for some reason care abt ppl not tagging reblogs of other people's sims content uh idk what to say bc i'm gonna do it anyway #so expect that from me until i (hopefully) get meds again #also............ i have not started editing theo's bday edit and it's literally tomorrow. Scream .#i finished the poses tho <3 but yeah... we laugh and cry #i want to say i'll just start editing after i get back from the hospital but. well.#it's okay tho bc if i'm late for theo's bday edit that's understandable bc of the Illness but also #matthias's bday edit was like a week late anyway so lmao #also no caption bc idk i can't think #wait nvm listen to this song #river dipping #ts4 #matthias evanoff #theodore doe #a burning house to live in #echthroi

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dawntheduckrb · 5 months

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I'll stop posting wips eventually but it's been five days since I've said anything and I don't want anyone to think I'm dead/dying/stuck in a ditch and withering away, so here's 10% of the reason I disappeared (the duck is stuck in rendering hell) (and my little baby laptop is screaming at me every time I open up this file)

I might still be mostly lurking for a little bit so please be patient with me in the meantime 🙏🙏

#seriously though I'm sorry for just up and disappearing like that #wanna talk to people and interact with them so bad lately but I just can't bring myself to do it #so the best i can manage is blabbing in the tags like always #i don't know wtf is going on but over the past few days I've just felt like i don't deserve to talk to anyone #tried to reblog posts from mutuals several times but something in my head keeps saying;#'yeah they don't actually care for your input at all and you're being a bother for even trying etc etc'#and i know deep down that's probably not true (i hope) but i can't reason it away you know #and i know the best solution to this is to just talk to someone #let it be known that i *did* make an attempt to #i tried texting someone (and succeeded) but i couldn't keep doing it and I'm back at square one (and now feel worse lmao)#i'm not really putting this here for anybody to see it as much as i am for myself #but i know that (hypothetically) this could be seen by a real human so it still kinda feels like I'm reaching out in a way which feels nice #makes me feel less like I'm shriveling up in my own self imposed solitude #so uh hello person who might be reading the tags (there's six of you guys here now which is crazy cause i post nothing but junk here lol)#((but thanks anyway for following and even more thanks for reading this if you did))#i'll make my way around all the posts i missed soon enough don't worry #i'm sorry i'm really not meaning to ignore anybody #i have drafted quite a few posts from moots that i couldn't finish leaving comments on but i have seen them #everyone here is super cool and talented as always <3 whether that be through art or writing or just finding neat posts to share #this wall of text is long enough and i'm very eeby so thank you again for reading this #tldr; not dead and i'll be okay eventually :)#not rb #hey look i didn't post a picture of my dog this time (a crime)#i'll make sure to share one the next time i get a good one

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sapphroditewrites · 5 months

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workin on a little gift for the holidays for y'all bc i'm so damn slow with the affair au (which i've weirdly started writing backwards? it's funny how that helps sometimes, but it's helped a lot)

it's not gonna be super polished and spit-shined like i usually try for, but it's something i was hoping to get around to every year, if that doesn't spoil the surprise lol

#it'll def be shorter than usual but then again #every time i say that it's never fucking short so i dont even know why im trying to speak that into existence #it's like i literally cannot shut up even when writing amazing it's a real talent that i have #plus im also trying to finish my hawkeye cracked video so i at least pushed one out this year #LMAO #goddamn well hopefully now that i'm moved out #i can save up for a beefy PC with better processing power for editing #and better storage #bc lemme tell ya an ipad is not great #and i need my mac memory for..... ok fine the sims dont judge me please i have an addiction #which is impressive of me to maintain bc whenever i buy an expansion pack #fucking TD locks my card and i have to call to confirm the purchase #do you have any idea #how humiliating that has been #literally for over a decade #even with the sims 3 #they just. constantly have done that #and i have constantly had to admit that yes #yes i am doing that. yes again. yes it's that much. yeah but this time it has cute hair cuts i like.#or yeah it's tiny home living . how do i explain that like a normal person. i talked w an agent abt the chickens for five minutes.

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xnervouscircus · 9 months

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i am legitimately tearing up oh wow

#yeah okay i'm pretty much full-on crying at this #i guess i just assume my writing is the kind of thing you read once and maybe go “that was all right/amusing/evil/stupid”#and proceed to forget about entirely #nothing fucks me up more than people saying they've reread something of mine #IN A GOOD WAY #but yeah it's weird and wild #god i miss writing fanfic #i haven't written much of anything since covid first hit the US #and there's been no fandoms i've been like. IN enough to write for.#and lmao i have literally never not once in my life felt like i could write a good crowley or aziraphale so nope not ruining them. probably #but man i wish i could maybe write some beauyasha or widomauk #and i would love to finish a wangxian or snowbaz fic HOW HAVE I NEVER FINISHED A WANGXIAN OR SNOWBAZ FIC #no taibanis?? no catradoras???? i am a failure #but getting a comment like this. mm. makes the not-writing anxiety ease off a bit.#it's always there and Judging me for not really writing anymore #and yeah i would love to write again. anything.#but at least i wrote something once upon a time and it made some people happy #that's still pretty fucking cool #hope i can share something new someday that might make other people happy too #michele.txt #idk where all this rambling in the tags came from i'm emotional and i miss writing!!!!!!!!!!

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altruistic-meme · 7 months

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hi! I totally understand if the answer is no but I’m just curious, do you think you will be continuing “(why is there) joy in this poison”? it’s one of my favorite fics, so I’m just wondering if that’s something you’ve decided to abandon or maybe continue

hi darling! sorry this reply is a few days late but i was on vacation :')

i absolutely DO plan on continuing (wit)jitp!!! i am actually working on both chapter 11 and a bonus chapter for it currently :D i know it's been. *cough* a year. since i've updated it but trust me i have been very very aware of the passing time.

alas, life simply decided to hit me over the head with several various hyperfixations and an additional handful of stressful issues (that i am unfortunately still dealing with some of) that meant that most of the time i just didn't have the energy to write at all and the times i did have energy, i was writing for whichever fandom my brain was actively attached to at that moment, which was simply never aftg.

but yeah! YEAH!! (wit)jitp is definitely getting continued. hopefully soon, but that really depends on a handful of factors so i make no promises. but it IS being worked on actively.

#rip i haven't even posted any writing to ao3 since FEBRUARY WHAT #jeez :(#but YEAH #i'm working on (wit)jitp as well as maybe another aftg fic #and i've got another project PLUS my capri and yr fics so i HAVE done some writing #but i've just not had as much energy or time or brain to write as much as i wish i did #i am however going to do my absolute damndest to finish this fic bc there is SO SO MUCH still to go #and its such a big and important project for me so #aftg and capri are my backup fixations btw bc i can literally just trigger my fixation by rereading them sdkfgskhg #and when i feel my attention leaving whatever had it then i turn to one of these #capri was simply what i turned to last time so it got triggered sooner than aftg #but #ohhhh i've also gotta finish my aftg touch thing....#i should work on that....#but yeah again i was on a short vacation which was hella fun and i am literally not gonna be able to talk tomorrow probably skhfkshf #my voice is very soft rn #both my sister and i spoke more over the last 3 days than we had in like. the whole month.#but well thats what two 18hr days in a car together will do to you lmao #sucks bc i have to talk kinda loud at work but my coworkers will be fine #askers #(wit)jitp #anon #shh ac

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bonetrousledbones · 2 years

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god idk how but i feel like going on hiatus from atbb Officially has like. awoken something in me this is the most i’ve drawn in one month in like a While

#trousled rambles #blast i'm going to bed right after posting this okay shhhhhhhhhhhhhh you're awake too #ANYWAY . yall may have noticed i am going insane recently #idk maybe its just something to do with not really having that hanging over my head anymore?? like i can just doodle shit without guilt #but even tho i STILL gotta finish reading this god damn book (only 5 chapters to go tho!!!!) i've been able to get myself to actually-#-just like. mindlessly doodle again and just have FUN with it instead of worrying about everything i havent done yet #i guess i just never realized how much of a toll trying to be consistent on that blog was. but like Damn #still dont know if i'm gonna fully convert it into a fic or not yet but i DO think i'm gonna try finishing up some of the backstory fics 1st #reread them all recently and i wanna. fix em lmao #anyway yeah thats all byeeeeeeeeee godmoth yknow the drill ✌

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pandaspwnz · 1 year

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I had a really lovely day today 😊

#Documenting for the future #It's really nice to have for when inevitably at some point I'll be having a bad time - to leave some evidence of being here!#on this day things weren't so bad! Things can be good again #Aside from the psychiatrist appointment which got turned into a fun time with my mom and where I got a nice dress from the thrift store I #then this evening went to paint ceramics with some of my new friends. We were also there yesterday but I didn't have time to finish mine so #I needed to come back and they wanted to as well #So that was a good time and I'm satisfied with what I managed to finish in the time limit #And then for the first time in like 8 years I went out to town! At night! Like a proper grown up!#we went to a gay bar - also the first time I went there - and it was really lovely and then after when it got too loud we went to a #restaurant/pub and then finally went our separate ways home and after I came home I cuddled my dog and relaxed and ate some preps #So yeah it was a nice day #And I barely had any pain at all #😊#I am exhausted now though but that's okay. If I'm wiped out tomorrow it was worth it #My post #preps is autocorrected oreos btw lmao

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airbenderedacted · 2 years

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got everything done that i needed to today but not as much as i wanted to :’D

#translation: i went to bed stupid late last night got to work late today - only had 1 lil thing left to do that was due tonight #did it! have one last big VERY IMPORTANT assignment due on friday that oh shoot i should get started on #since i got the bigass pile of work i had due on sunday done a with a really nice chunk of time to spare!!! wowie!!!!#i took forever to actually get.. gOING on working on that today. just. ahaoauasghhgbhhs.#and then after finishing that 1 whole introductory powerpoint slide i went to take a shower. got out relatively quick-ish...#and then oh shit oh fuck spent the next ummmm 3 hours doing Nothing hHGHGF #granted i only had like maybe an hour or so (AT BEST) of Meds Working time left but still ahgsfdbnmbn #i always tell myself... i'll go take a shower and i Won't Be Like That when i get back. and then nUUHHGUH lol.. f #anyway nothing sucky but hoooo boyyy i feel way too like. calm? good? y'know when you finish a ton of stuff #and it went WAY better than expected.... and the NEXT STUFF you have to face you feel very um #well off? on? like yeah i'm gonna tackle that no prob it's all gonna be good BUT AT THE SAME TIME #IT'S LIKE. IT'S NOT THAT IT FEELS LIKE A FALSE SENSE OF SECURITY PER SAY. MORE LIKE #ME @ MYSELF ''DO NOT GET COMFORTABLE DO NOT GET FUCKING COMFORTABLE YOU ASSHOLE THHAT';S HOW YOU PISS TIME AWAY-''#lmao #anyway. hii #😊 it's almost 2 AM now what teh fvuck #i need to finish eating and go to bed in a min.. i'm. i feel like i very much do want. would like the sleep yeah #do not stay up stupid late watching netflix like last not dO NOT STAY UIP LATE BC NETFLIX AGAIN

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unproduciblesmackdown · 2 years

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yo what the fuck lmfao not the tiny little actor kid playing eddie in the it movies voicing alberto a la luca. zero recognition like kind of could deepfake it in my head litchrelly i mean like those actor children being quite small & then even recording something a few years later like alright yeah voice just dropped a ways already but i definitely had to stare intently at the [looking that up] textual confirmation. absolutely zero resonance at the time a whole like month ago lol go figure. congrats on the bisexuality too he/they king

#quick looked up some video from That Time and even the [a couple years later for the sequel no postproduction editing] like still no #would not have recognized his [a couple years after That] voice at all. in that i did not. not that i ever really recognize VA's out here #but there's like Just enough that's distinctive there that i'm surprised i didn't in a real like What? No. Cmon lol way rather than oh huh..#really did have to jeffpardy theme intently look it up like i just figure it would've been recognizable for sure #and now yeah sure i mean a) i believe that i'm not being scammed abt their film credits lmfao & b) it's like okay ig i can hear it Knowingly #what's the italian equivalent of a la.#''sul'' apparently but i don't really mean A La i guess. so how about via lol #they grow up so fast when they're like thirteen exactly and then vs idk being what. sixteen seventeen #this kid was like deluxe tiny did they commit to everyone being the same age / true to being like twelve thirteen w/e....#i also am just saying ''exactly'' for flair idk anything evidently. who are you people. i knew even back in the day like right that's one of #the strangers but if he did some VA a few years later i sure wouldn't recognize it i suppose lmao #it's remarkable enough when i recognize someone via Face And Voice so yknow #i mean any given Film it's like what Aren't the odds some actor is flying under the radar completely that i have seen/heard elsewhere. & yet #just really threw me for a loop like did not have a flicker of recognition for any of their dialogue but would've expected to evidently lmao #meanwhile i do feel the [hmm i wanna draw the dinosaur fish designs] again lmao maybe after i finish wrangling this one shot #take a lil break....it's fast easy & free & the shapiness makes it v like. Refreshment shake it out sketch material lol #thanks for the ichthyosauresque design choices. behind the scenes earnest voiceover of concept art like the entire pussy was utilized #in a One Hundred Percent Of Your Brain running gag kind of way. they say if you could use one hundred percent of your pussy....#the opposite of no nut november. and that's a flawless segue conclusion #this bewildered me forward in time what do you mean it's 7 till 7. f #eta wow yeah clips from the filme like his voice is sooo much higher no wonder i didn't have a clue lmao #and even like what. three or four years later i think like Voice Acting recordings are gonna sound different w/mic sensitivity / proximity #less of the Low Frequencies getting dispersed by distance and what all. but i can hear it especially at some points lol holistically...

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bibiana112 · 2 years

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It's like 3:00 we got home before midnight but were already tired and sleeby and I swear I act so tipsy when all I had was regular ass tea just because of what the mix of tired and overstimulated does to my brain

#u think I'm exaggerating but the reason I'm only unwinding now despite getting home relatively early #is cause me and my roomie just sat on the floor talking shit and stuff for hours #and in the middle of that #at some point #I was cry laughing for absolutely no reason after being so unable to string words together that I just repeat dour synonyms #it made it sound like I was having an existential crisis but I'm just tired but my mouth keeps trying to say things 😭#roomie was like oh but I wish I could talk more I'm running out of energy and all I can communicate is via laugh #and I'm like I wish I could just shut up actually #I wish I wasn't the kind of person you know is doing bad because they're not swinging a thousand thoughts at u or in their head too much #Wish I had the sense to stop prattling if I can't communicate well but if I like the person and am enjoying their company I just. continue #oh no I'm having self recognition through the blorbo at this hour cause I just realized I headcanoned that about Aoi too oh nO #that makes sense fuck I never realized I did that until now #honestly it was embarrassing and roomie was like pfft what? no it's not I'm just awkward and indeed an jour later they cry laughed too #it's not like we were telling good jokes or anything like our brains were just melting so yeah how do I plan on finishing this #I liked the food kind of want to go there again for the gyoza ngl but not at night again there's too many people drinking and no sweets #we finished the meals and wanted dessert but everything had just closed :(#we got all dressed up and shit and not a single picture came out alright lmao #oh also I missed the two people that came with! they're so fun and we hadn't seen each other since y'know rona started #so it was really nice to catch up with them hopefully I'll be classmates w the two again if my transfer fcking goes through alright #Void fala aí

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godhasforsnakenme · 27 days

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BOOK REVIEW 📖

This is the one for February – I was reminded of this book half way through the month and decided to reread it again because I couldn't remember how it ended; plus a short mystery is always nice to read (side note: this ended up as an ebook read bc I couldn't remember where in my storage boxes I have my copy – it's in storage because it's a paperback edition and old and I don't want it to die on me yet lol)

#ben picks up reading again #dania rambles about shit #hewehewhehehewhehw I've forgotten to upload these for the last two months LMAO #not to worry I am at least still reading :D #alrighty this is for the most part spoiler free (execpt where indicated)#it is a very entertaining mystery that feels like a game of cluedo and you really enjoy how everything comes together at different points #so much that it has you going back to see how the hell you missed a detail and going AHA #but yeah counts as a reread but it was so long ago and I'd forgotten practically everything about it that its like a new read #which is a bonus bc I like figuring out mysteries in books and going along with stuff to see if I'm right at the end #not to much analysis in this review like the last book as I feel it didn't need it #each character is pretty likeable with some unlikable moments sprinkled in #also I really love how the POV switches and flows easily between each of them which is what makes this book so easy to follow along with #insight on when i first read it #i was in fifth grade and we had a reading club sort of thing that our teacher picked us for #like a greatbooks fishbowl sort of thing instead of just our regular reading/comm arts time in class #i think it was the last one's we read for that year because I don't remember any after it #anyway we had to staple the last couple of chapters together so we wouldn't be able to know the ending nor the stuff leading up to it #that way we could play along and try to solve it ourselves #we had a betting pool sort of thing going with candy to see who could guess correctly #just a box full of sticky notes with whatever theories we wanted to include with the bet #and a whole wall with those large paper pad sheets that teacher's would have for their easels in order for us to connect the dots on things #yeah we went into it #kind of wondering if we ever got to the end or if something came up that we couldn't finish the book like i sort of remember #our tutor missing a couple of weeks and then state testing and then it was just the end of the year and we were turning in the books to her #anyway just more admin lore

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bloomingbluebell · 29 days

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is there a way to explain to my "no excuse for laziness" family how executive dysfunction works? how autism and ADHD works? how they're not quirks or funny but often quite painful and distressing? (genuine questions)

i'm going to start crying if i have to talk with mom about my future one more time

(more of the rant in the tags. sorry)

#and yeah for the record we do have autistic/ADHD people #my mom is the kind of person who watched some tiktoks and went 'i think i have ADHD lmao'#and my aunt is the kind of person who thinks there's no such thing as an inability and that 'we're all a little autistic'#🙄 give me a break #i told my mom that i refuse to work fast food or retail ever again #(my exception is a quiet place like a small bookstore. not indigo)#and she worked fast food for over a decade and is like 'well i'd go back if i had to'#that's nice mom but i'm not you by a LONG SHOT #like. sorry but i was in so much mental and physical pain working customer/food service #and you think that you know when you actually don't know and don't even want to try and understand #honestly even if things DONT go according to plan as of yesterday i'm still gonna set a goal for myself #to get out of the house by next summer #because honestly fuck this shit i'm so mad and i grow more and more mad with each passing day #like yeah you respect my sensory difficulties but do you respect me when i can't do much more than lie on the couch on my phone?#you respect the fact that i'm autistic and have ADHD but do you understand what that means for me as the person with those disorders?#and not what people online who know AuDHDers say?#do you understand that there are in fact things i am unable to do and things that i used to be able to do but no longer can?#i'm so fed up and frustrated. legit started looking at apartments and jobs yesterday #(context: aunt is going to try and move to the US to be closer to her partner next year and mom and i can't stay in the house ourselves)#(so mom asked what my plans are and i told her it really depended on the next few months)#(but honestly i don't want to get that job. i want to finish my associate's and leave. i'm done.)#(and i want to move out of this house filled with people who respect me but refuse to try and understand it from my perspective)#vent #actually autistic #actually adhd

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mochinon-yah · 2 months

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I just wanted to post this so i could say that i'm quite busy with irl stuff, so bear with me for now because i'm going to come back here with a bang hehe

#reli-rambles #well the 'bang' part is probably not surprising LMAO #i have smth to make for someone here but oh god am i so late 😃#in any case it's gonna be smth interesting #to that person at least!#I CAN ONLY HOPE THEY LIKE IT 🛐🛐🛐#anyway #i'm going to be off again!!!#<3 #note to navi if ur reading this: no i did not forget about ur bday gift... I HAVE A FUN IDES FOR THAT SO JUST WAIT YEAH?#AND OH GOD I ALMOST FORGOT TO ANSWER VIVI'S ASK #uhhhhhh #😃😃😃😃#i'm just gonna be offline for now heheh #i'l answer everything and finish every whatever stuff i'm planning when i'm free from stuff <3

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autistic-shaiapouf · 1 year

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Thinking about the fact that there are people with the audacity to tell a retail cashier "I don't like your attitude :/"

#she tried to use a coupon on a self check out machine that glitched out; coupon didn't show up at the register #so i just reduced the price of something else she had to get the same effect #and she's like ''but where's the coupon'' so i explained it again and then she asked for a manager #and I'm like maam. i am telling you exactly what i did. and she's like well i dont like how you said it :/#her assumptions were completely wrong btw;; my coworker who finished the transaction was like ''yeah i think she was. confused?''#but like. you wanna tell a retail worker you dont like their attitude. miss in some places that's gonna make it worse actually #my manager mentioned i have overwhelmingly positive customer service reviews lmao #he was like ''wait did i tell you about the negative one you got'' and it was a woman calling me lazy bc #i requested she put her shopping basket and not leave it on the counter at the register. literally incredible #he said he'd pass on some of the more insane reviews and also that they have no real effect on me #what is in the air..#hoatm rants

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amisonist · 3 months

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fuck it transition timeline

I was originally gonna wait until July to do this because that'll mark 3 years on E but I feel like now's a good time all things considered

With that out of the way lets start from the beginning AKA freshman year (AKA 2018)

This was on my way to band camp which is why you can see my trombone in the background (random fact: that was the only year I got to do marching band and our show was "the music of harry potter". yeah irony's a bitch ain't she?)

Graduation picture featuring the bestest boi Jinn :3

This pic is from 2020 because I switched to online and finished high school early out of spite (I was 16 here if you were wondering)

Now then this is from 2021 and was taken only about a week before I started hrt when I was 17

The lake in the background is Lake Superior in case you were wondering. Me and my mother were all the way up on the Keweenaw Peninsula for my family's 4th of July party held at the family farm

Moving on from that I started HRT on July 22 2021 (the appointment was at 9:30 am and I took my first dose at 7:42 pm yes I kept track)

This was taken like a half hour after my first dose (I actually don't really like this pic that much but I'm including it because it is important)

Fast forward from that a year to 2022 when I was 18 and here are a few pics of me around then one of which again featuring best boi Jinn

(it was windy out that day and he tried to bite me immediately after this lmao)

I've never been particularly good at taking selfies lmao

That brings us to now. I've been on hrt for about 2.5 years now if my math is correct. I'm pretty much living full time as a woman, started laser hair removal a couple months ago (next apt is actually tomorrow lol), and I'm working on getting my legal name and gender changed. It's been a long ride thus far and I don't really plan on stopping anytime soon so yeah here ya go

So that's it! At least thus far lol

also fuck photomatt 🚗🔨💥

#Trans #Transgender #transition timeline #queer #lesbian #long post #I might have gotten a little bit carried away there lol #🚗🔨💥#idgaf if this is cheesy or whatever #I kinda like how it turned out #took too long to gather all these together #I like never take pics of myself #my camera roll is just 4000 memes

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