#you can still reblog if you’re not aspec

[aroacegarlicbreadlover]

Hello

My old introduction message was not very good so I’m gonna do a new one.

Hello. My name is AroaceGarlicBreadLover, I am an INFP aroace, and this is my blog where I will primarily talk about aspec stuff, but possibly other things as well rarely. And even though this blog is primarily intended to be for aspec people, basically anyone is accepted here as long as you don’t discriminate against others. However, I mostly direct all my posts at aspec people (Such as most of my polls being directed at aspec people specifically and having one option for non-aspec people in general), so you may feel a bit left out if you’re not.

I don’t swear, but I have no problem with other people doing it and some of the things I reblog will still have swears probably

I am an introvert, and not very good at being social and talking to people, so i may be a bit awkward to talk to and I’m not very self confident so I often change my mind instantly after posting something and delete it right after so if you see me having posted something and then it’s gone, that’s probably why, and if it’s not deleted then I have most likely edited the post several times (Such as this entire part being something I put in after posting this)

This I tend to write very long messages very often to make sure I convey everything I wanna convey, so sorry about that.

My interests outside of mentioning that I’m aroace every 5 seconds are mostly writing stories, Playing Minecraft (Mostly being in fan-made life series if you know what that is, but it’s pretty niche so I doubt anyone will), and anything related to Undertale/Deltarune (I love UT/DR so much, I am absolutely obsessed with it), including AUs and such, and I’m also interested in just playing other video games as well, but Minecraft, Undertale, and Deltarune are my favorite ones.

I am openly Aroace both irl and online, so basically everyone who knows me pretty well also knows that I’m aroace at this point. I am a minor (Not going to say exactly what age though) and I live in Europe.

I am still quite inexperienced with both being aroace and with tumblr, so if you notice anything I should be doing differently, just tell me.

I’ll try to post at least one non-reblog daily, often more, and if you want to say anything, I have an ask me anything thing that you can use (Please do, I’m already running out of ideas of things to post).

Hope you have a good time here!

[celticcatgirl2]

Gender and sexuality and how they can change over time can be such a funny thing so I had one friend as a kid who at the time had just came out as lesbian (tho now I think they may be transmasc of some sort ot another but I’m not 100% sure so I’m just using they/them) and I was at the time sorta trying to very awkwardly perform straight male identity^tm and like faking stuff I just wasn’t really actually experiencing to feel normal but I was also like not an asshole about gay people. So anywyas they had said soemthing when where hanging out at Barnes & noble and we where looking through calendars and there was one with some scantily clad women on it and this friend was Liek “oh I like that one…don’t judge I have needs you know!!!” And I to both try to I guess show support and also do the middle school performance of “yeah I’m totally doing the normal teenage boy things” was like “nah I get you it’s rhe same here ” even tho it WASN’T at the time like that at all a thing I was actually personally experiencing. Which feels also like an odd story cause now I DO have my own experiences of attraction and aesthic appreciation of women (albeit still probably not quite the same way due to the idiosyncrasies of my aspec stuff) that I could probably connect with more authentically.

I kinda wonder what happened to this person they where pretty cool and talked about like marvel stuff with me in elementary/early middle school we kinda lost contact and I don’t really have a way of getting back in touch r but I wish I did I kinda just in general have fond memories of hanging out as kids and kinda wonder how we might be able to relate now espically if them being trans in some way like I vaugely heard is true…

Heh this was just gonna be a funny story about childhood that’s even funnier with how the people involved’s identity’s changed over time but I I geninuely miss my old friend now….

I Remeber they were into My Chemical Romance and knew all about Umbrella Academy WAY before the Netflix show….they liked the teen titans cartoon and identified with Raven at the time (tho there’s a strong possibility this part may have changed) I hung out at their house and we watched like the 2000s X Men and Elektra movies and also scary movie I’m pretty sure, before they came out as lesbian out parents would tease us about “liking each other” but we where really just friends and it was just needlessly awkward.

At that bookstore some weirdo evangelicals tried to prostiyze to us and I was trying to comfort them after the fact and we ended up laughing at the whole concept.

We had a pretty cool music teacher we both liked allot in our small private K-8 cause liked all the DC Marvel stuff like we did (and in their case I think they knew more about like actual music stuff too lol)

I know this is a long shot I don’t even know if they’re ON tumblr but I’m gonna tag a bunch of relevant terms and see if they’re out there. If you’re NOT this person please reblog and boost this and increase the chances of them finding it…and if you ARE this person idk if you Remeber me but I’m Alex we went to High Point together, you probably changed allot from what I vaugely heard at the end and well I have too perhaps in similar ways I’d love to reconnect with you and catch up and see we’re where both at now. You were a pretty cool friend and I genuinely hope you’re thriving now I know you’ve had allot of difficulties over the years and I genuinely wish the best for you….

[queengenweek]

Queen GenWeek 2023

Attention, Queen enthusiasts across the world: we bring to you Queen GenWeek! We decided it was high time we brought back this event so we can celebrate the enduring friendship between the members of Queen together.

When and where?

The event will take place from Thursday 15 June-Sunday 18 June. You can upload your work on Tumblr using the tag #QueenGenWeek2023 and @queengenweek us. We'll make sure to reblog all contributions with this tag to this blog for an overview! When you post your fanfiction on AO3, please add it to the Queen GenWeek 2023 collection.

What does Gen mean?

Gen, short for “general,” is a term used in fanfic communities to refer to works of fanart that are platonic: they explore bonds of friendship rather than bonds of romance. There may be some form of romance in the background, but the main focus should be on the non-romantic relationship between the characters. Gen fanart celebrates the friendship between characters.

Mind AO3's Gen tag and policies for further instructions.

With help from last year's event post, refer to this amazing resource on asexual/aromantic characters and how to give them substance! This is an ASPEC safe space and consciously inclusive.

Who and what is welcome?

Everyone who wants to celebrate the platonic friendships in and around Queen is welcome! All gen-oriented works of art are welcome, which include but are not limited to:

Fanfiction

Other forms of literature (poetry)

Visual art (traditional or digital)

Moodboards

Playlists

Photo edits

If you prefer so, you can stay anonymous during the event. Both AO3 and Tumblr have options to post anonymously. You can use this quick guide on how to post anonymously on AO3. If you want to upload to Tumblr anonymously, you can DM us, and we will share your contribution on your behalf. You can also submit any questions you have about the event to us with the ask-button or DM function.

Prompts?

To help you get going, we’ve come up with different prompts for each day of the event. You are free to use them, improve them, combine them, mix and match them, or do whatever you feel like with them: creativity is key!

Day 1: Thursday 15 June

Lyric: I'd better go to bed and have an early night

Childhood friends

Growing apart

Cult classic: The Outsiders

Looking back at memories

Day 2: Friday 16 June

Quote: “The group tends to be the most stable family we’ve got.” B.M.

Police encounter

Getting lost in a strange city

Cult classic: Spirited Away

Facing a fear

Day 3: Saturday 17 June

Lyric: Take heart, my friend, we love you/Though it seems like you’re alone

Family/marriage problems

Revealing a secret

Cult classic: The Lord of the Rings

Getting a tattoo together

Day 4: Sunday 18 June

Quote: “Not too bad for four ageing Queens.” F.M.

Best Man speech

Teaching each other instruments

Cult classic: Hangover

House fire

More rules?

If you've participated in fandom events before, you probably know the drill by now. If you still have questions on what to keep in mind when creating and/or consuming, please refer to the detailed additional rules we have set up for PolyWeek this year. In short, mind the following:

Support creators.

Tag your work appropriately.

Do not engage with hateful feedback.

Do not supply negativity.

Do not interact with NSFW/18+ content if you're a minor.

We encourage you all to participate, contribute, consume, and support the event if you feel you want to! It's a safe space for all, no need to feel shy about creating. We wish you all the luck, inspiration and fun in the world and hope to see you there!

Hosted by @carrrothead-vol2, @of-streetlightfancy and @shewas-agaystripper

[whumpwillow]

Re: the whump writer aspec poll you reblogged, I've found it curious myself. Maybe aspec people are drawn to the whump community because we regularly write things involving intimacy - the intimacy of violence, of vulnerability, of trusting a stranger, of healing, of trying to heal another - that aren't related to romance or sexual attraction. It's a story space dominated by relationships that are not traditional romantic or sexual relationships, but there's still closeness, character development, and plot motion. Maybe it just feels more authentic and accessible. Idk I'm aroace and have no idea what goes on anymore but the poll result, as you said, definitely is curious.

I’m just an ace (non aro) that loves romantic stories though actually, but I can see your point through an aro perspective looking at things. Idk the definitive reason we’re all drawn to whump but I sure can get behind the intimacy of violence as a narrative concept, you’re so real for that

[main-character-moment]

On one hand I’m like “as long as you’re not hurting anyone do what you want forever.” Like ship whoever you want. It’s fiction. Just tag it right so people can filter it if they feel the need to.

But in that vein, if someone says “please don’t tag this post as [X]” why would you tag the thing they explicitly asked you not to tag??? It’s not that hard to not include a tag, or even just not reblog if thats somehow too hard.

Like the thing you tag could be a trigger, it could literally be erasing an aspect of someone’s identity (tagging something aspec as ship/tagging something Aromantic as asexual, tagging a queer couple as straight, etc), but it could also just genuinely make the op uncomfortable and why would you go out of your way to make someone uncomfortable. It just seems like an asshole move.

I get that once you post something you can’t control what other people do with it and how they interpret it, but it still feels like you’re trying to be a dick.

[omegasomeone]

An introduction (finally!)

Heya! I wasn’t expecting you in this corner of the internet, how did you get here?

Anyways, I’m Ley! Nice to meet you, how are you doing?

I’m non binary, aromantic, possibly greysexual, autistic and procrastinating on trying to get an ADHD diagnosis (which is kinda ironic)

I use any pronouns! (But mainly fem and neutral ones)

Also I’m somewhere between 18-24 years old (since I don’t tell my exact age, I can forget to change the age on this post and be just as accurate, what a genius I am, right?)

Centres of interest:

Hatsune Miku (every 2 years or so I get extremely into vocaloids for like 1-2 years)

Splatoon Splatoon Splatoon Splatoon Splatoon Splatoon Splatoon Splatoon Splatoon Splatoon Splatoon I fishing love Splatoon

Music in general tbh (if you read this, go check out Cosmo Sheldrake)

The 3DS family of consoles (in fact, I’m writing this post on one right now! jk jk.. unless?)

Pokémon (I’ll be totally honest, I get gender envy from Meowscarada)

Looking at how things work (I can and will learn the entirety of the laws of physics to understand how a dishwasher works)

Toby Fox’s games (Muffet my beloved)

Bugs (ranging from software bugs to bugs with wings to bugging my friends

also I like to write stuff but uhh i dont think im that good at it

Now, for the tags (that I will most definitely remember to put in my posts and never forget):

#Ley’s ramblings for basically anything except things that don’t fall into other tags or reblogs to which I don’t add anything

#Ley’s incredibly unskilled writing for any story, etc. I write and (wrongly) decide is decent enough to post

#Ley’s amateur pics for any picture I take that I decide to post. Prolly the tag I’ll use the least out of the current three

And probably some other ones in the future!

DNI IF:

• you’re an aphobe (this includes but is not limited to: shipping aro characters (unless they are explicitly stated to still date), making ace characters have sex (unless they are explicitly stated to still do), unless you are yourself aspec

• you’re a transphobe (this includes being a truscum)

• you’re an homophobe

• you don’t accept nonhuman identities

• you don’t accept plural people (I’m not plural but that doesn’t mean you can be an asshole about them)

…uhh what else do I have to say? uhh woomy says trans rights

[alien-ally]

I posted 398 times in 2022

That's 398 more posts than 2021!

61 posts created (15%)

337 posts reblogged (85%)

Blogs I reblogged the most:

@shmaroace

@wannabehuntress

@aro-aro-aro-ace-ace-ace

@kissimirrit

I tagged 354 of my posts in 2022

Only 11% of my posts had no tags

#aa mine - 181 posts

#reblog - 112 posts

#aromantic - 94 posts

#aro - 54 posts

#aroace - 34 posts

#aplatonic - 31 posts

#loveless aro - 25 posts

#loveless - 24 posts

#asexual - 23 posts

#ace - 19 posts

Longest Tag: 132 characters

#not at me imagining getting married and leaving home and sharing a bed with an absolute stranger and finding it absolutely repulsive

My Top Posts in 2022:

#5

Signs you are aroace:

- perpetual boredom

- you have an eye for quality

- you struggle to make posts like this

(unreliable source suggests 89% accuracy)

18 notes - Posted July 1, 2022

#4

Perks of interacting with aspecs online:

- You can talk and have fun without being worried of unflattering advances

- There’s an automatic solidarity established 

- +1 new ally attained 

- You can be nice and compliment each other without the worry of it getting mistaken as flirting

- A kinship you rarely (or never) find irl

(feel free to add more >.<)

28 notes - Posted May 8, 2022

#3

Peace

So I see tumblr has been giving me daily prompts as part of the mental health month so thought to post a little entry:

“Out beyond ideas of wrongdoing and rightdoing there is a field. I’ll meet you there. When the soul lies down in that grass the world is too full to talk about”

- Rumi

Peace is that I think. When you’re able to lie down on that metaphorical grass unrestrained. It’s the serenity that comes with knowing that you or someone has got you. Hence, it can be found in crisis too I believe. It’s feeling all the weight disintegrate from your mind loosening the taut braincells. Peace is the small smile that grazes your lips on a nice dewy morning. Peace is knowing you’re on the right path🤍✌🏽

74 notes - Posted May 3, 2022

#2

Koisenu Futari

Finished watching koisenu futari. The moment I saw it on tumblr I knew I had to watch it and to no one's surprise it has been life-changing. Representation wise and story wise it just kept getting better all the way. I had a smile on my face throughout, while different emotions flickered in my eyes.

Within 4 hours, they tackled so many of the jabs aro/ace and loveless people get, it got sort of overwhelming. And the fact that they did it without being insensitive towards any of the downplayed identities. Without using the ‘we can still feel xxx love' or 'we can still form xxx relationships’ to validate aspecs. Cause no matter where you lie on the ace/aro/apl spectrums, you shouldn't have to be redeemed. The variety of interpersonal relationships portrayed was just chef’s kiss. The entire scene of Sakuko in the aspec club. How one pair of people only called each other when they needed help and still referred to each other as family. Seeing that made me incredibly happy, as an aplatonic that desires some form of a comradeship. Reminded me once again that it’s okay to work out something out of the norm, as long as it’s comfortable for me and those involved.

Personally, as someone with zero allies in real life, I've depended solely on myself for reassurance. So it gets exhausting. Terribly so. Figuring out that you greatly differ from the majority at a young age and battling the perpetual estrangement that follows. Realizing that apart from my family and a few friends no one might ever get to see certain sides of me. Only to get heart broken by my parents who may never truly understand me. For all the times I felt hopeless, every night I spend scrolling through tumblr and aven forums unable to fall asleep. All the instances I thought of coming out to my brother and parents, except dint because I was waiting to reach an age at which my words would hold more credibility. Dealing with the incessant triggers strewn around carelessly. For every single time I felt compelled to justify my experiences and orientations, my right to know myself, when my touch-aversion and lovelessness felt like a disability. The sheer horror and befuddlement that crept up to me while watching the news, finding out about the monstrosities that happened to young girls , children and women. None of it comes from trauma, but without me knowing, at some point, being this way became my trauma. All of it has been portrayed awesomely by this show. It reminded me that although it may seem that way for now, I'm not alone and will eventually find more people like me.

I enjoyed all the characters in the story cause despite their initial bad responses towards their beliefs getting challenged, they were willing to learn. Willing to accept even if they dint necessarily understand. Some even eager to learn more (spoiler: Kazu). But most importantly watching this made of realize just how many tropes could come up if we experimented with aroace characters. We only get crumbs of representation but just IMAGINE the countless plotlines and relationship dynamics we could come up with for aspec characters!!! Including the fake dating trope, lovers to realizing you're aspec to becoming allies trope and so much more. There is so much waiting to be explored. I'm tired of watching people marvelling about love. Now can we please explore lovelessness? I tell you IT'S JUST AS EXTENSIVE as the mighty love itself.

This is probably my hundredth time editing this post. I just can’t finish expressing what I feel about this. Each time feels as though I’m missing out on something. The ending was the most best and perfect ending to ever exist. In the end, home is just somewhere you can return to, someone you can split chores with, someone that motivates you to try out intense recipes (cause when you get to share the food you make is when you reach true content of a successful recipe), someone to help you with your vegetable garden and house maintenance. Someone you can go shopping with. It’s literally anything you want it to be. A family (subject to change) is what you want it to be.

The many times the words aromantic and asexual was shown on screen was simply immaculate. Each and every word uttered by Takahashi deserves a separate frame. From his dream of building a vegetable kingdom to his eccentric udon making tactics. Plus yes, his love for crabs. Can't miss out on that. Sakuko's amiability, love for long coats and Kazu's neverending absorptivity topped off by Maya's affection for pandas.

I give this show an absolute 10/10. Someone is saying we should replace 'sending love' with 'sending cabbages' among aroaces omg that sounds amazing.😭 Underrated vegetable cabbage supremacists please gather around immediately

Okay I'm finishing off, as for my last words: Yeah. People who can't fall in love exist. I'm one of them. But that's not the point. The point is

See the full post

89 notes - Posted April 9, 2022

My #1 post of 2022

So I'd changed schools this year (junior in highschool), and just a few days ago i overheard a couple of my classmates talking about the lbtqia+ community and asked them if they knew what the 'a' in the acronym stood for, the first answer was asexual, to which i proceeded to tell em it stood for aromantic, agender and some other a-specs, from how they were so eager to learn i went 'wanna know a fun fact?' and came out to them as aroace (later greyapl as well). They told me that now that they know, it kind of made sense lolol. And today in the break while i was reading my book they came up to me asked how their favorite aroace was doing :/ and what my fav flag was

Today again, in the bus i asked another one of my classmates if she knew what the 'a' in the acronym stood for, first answer was agender, i was totally blown away, went woahhhh and proceeded to say what else it stood for. Then. . . she said at one point she thought she was aro. At that point i was enchanted, I Am Aromantic! i told her. we talked about it for a bit, when i discovered and identified with the terms etc. until my stop came. I told her how important that conversation was for me cause I'd never spoken about it to people irl, much less even meet people who knew the terms. She said she was touched. I said, no I am touched.

If those two interactions dint light up my entire car ride (yeah someone has to pick me from the bus stop, school bus sucks ); back home, rest of the day, coming weekend, next week and possibly this entire month. One of them is bi and another bi questioning (the one who questioned being aro). For once, perhaps the first time, to be myself, even if i wasn't trying to be anything else, to have people know, perceive me for what i am, i dint know what sort of weight it had on my shoulders until it was lifted away. Awesome people exist, just met some the past couple weeks and now will always remember these encounters as my first major coming out (i had already to my friends but this one felt different). I was overcome with so much elation, relief, happiness, joy, satisfaction, bliss, peace i wanted to scream it out. So here it is, it's not that hopeless after all

528 notes - Posted August 6, 2022

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[collectoroflovelythings]

Curious, I haven’t really seen any real trend among aspec people and the ship tropes they do like, however I think I kinda seen a trend in what they dislike. So in the tags tell me if you’re aspec (ace and/or aro) and if you dislike soulmates, and I mean the most straightforward romantic non subverted kind (but if there are versions you like feel free to elaborate)

[nerdfighterwhatevernumbers]

did any other aspecs, like, really internalize issues that exclusionists spewed out at them? 

like, my first identity was aromantic heterosexual. there were literally whole blogs that specifically said ‘this blog is for lesbians, but bisexuals and asexuals can reblog, heterosexual aromantics can’t’. People would openly talk about how every identity but aromantic heterosexual was valid and the split attraction model was homophobic.

i already was the least queer person i knew, and people who weren’t already my friend who were more queer than me always seemed to agree i was either not queer or on thin ice. I wasn’t allowed to join my college’s lgbt club cuz the (cishet) faculty advisor said no allies were allowed.

things like that made me feel like i needed to be really accommodating and deferent to ‘definite’ queer people, because online and irl i was being rejected and i felt like maybe i WAS being homophobic by caring about my issues or by not agreeing when they said i wasn’t queer enough, because look, i totally wasn’t, Real Gays said so. Look, this popular bisexual blogger of color said I’m not really lgbt and this popular coming out blog said aspecs can’t really ‘come out’ and people listen to them and I don’t want to be an interloper who thinks i’m more oppressed than them, right? I need to know my place so I’m not hurting them by trying to find a community, because everyone says our communities are full of homophobes, and what do we need a community for anyway if we’re not systemically oppressed like these people keep saying we’re not? Why should I have a support system if my support system is homophobic or unnecessary according to these Real Gays?

And then when I changed to ID as more queer I still didn’t think that was enough because I still didn’t want a relationship so very little was materially different and everyone told me already I wasn’t enough, and idk, there’s something about having all that going on as you’re trying to figure out how you fit into an cishet world that also doesn’t want you that makes you hate yourself

[spacegaynsfw]

FYI: I'm probably going to be either moving this blog to a new account, or stepping back from it a little bit because my very cool 2-week termination had to do with my hard kink blog, and I don't wanna get termed again! You know how it is. I'll keep y'all in the loop ofc!

About me:

I’m Max, or Tori, or somethin' idk man names are wack

I’m an nb butch lesbian and use they/it/he pronouns (no real preference, mix it up tho!)

Very submissive, pls don't ask me to dom you

I’m definitely aspec but I have pretty much no details. Attraction is weird

I started testosterone in early June 2022! Still ID as a lesbian. Gender is Wack™️

Don’t interact if: You’re a TERF/radfem/transmed/truscum/”gender critical,” you’re a minor, or you’re just generally a dickhead. Thanks.

You MUST have your age (or age range, 20s, etc.) in your bio/pinned to follow me. I will block you if you don’t. I will not message you for your age. I will also probably make an annoying public post tagging you and asking you to fix it. Consider yourself warned.

Cishet people and men can follow if you want to I guess but like? I am a big lesbian so this content isn’t really for you. I reserve the right to block anyone for any reason.

Generally speaking I do not give a flying fuck what you’re into if you follow me. (Yes, that means “problematic” kinks!) I’ll just block you if you make me uncomfortable. Simple as that. That said, if you follow me and I catch you interacting with something I’ve reblogged that specifically asks you not to interact with it, I’ll kick your ass. (ie men reblogging “men dni” posts.)

My kinks!

Absolute fave kinks: orgasm denial, edging, anal, piss & omorashi, humiliation/degradation

Other things I’m into: bondage, consensual exhibition/voyeurism & free use, cnc, gangbangs, fisting (even though I haven’t gotten there yet), body writing, objectification, forced orgasm/overstimulation, breeding (without pregnancy!!!), a wide range of pain play, squirting (even though to my knowledge this is not something I can do), monsterfucking (particularly tentacles & knots), oviposition/alien pregnancy

Soft limits: Drinking piss, enema play (timing has to be so right, I am so mess-averse wrt butt stuff), anything that might risk getting caught by a non-consenting party, food in orifices other than the mouth, and tickling.

Firm limits/almost definitely no: pet play, blood, diapers

Hard limits: feet, scat, vomit, race play, toilet play (ie licking the toilet or putting my head in toilet water or anything like that), some irl public stuff (depends on context & risk lol), cutting.

I have a hard kink blog which you’re welcome to follow, but read this post first.

If you have questions or want to talk, please send me an ask or message me! I’m not always the best at keeping a conversation going but I’ll do my best <3

[puppypaw-wc]

okay, new pinned post! i'm keeping the old one up (it can be found here) so people can still look at it if they want! (8/21/21 edit: i revamped this and didn’t bother saving the old version so yee. i don’t think i changed a lot though-)

anyways, hi, i'm puppy! i'm 14 and therefore am a minor, but with that aside, i currently identify as a polydemiromantic polyamorous asexual bigender (agender and rhythmheavengender) pronoun hoarder (my main pronouns are she/her, they/them and kit/kit, but you can see 'em all on my pronouny)! obviously that's all up to change since i'm young and have changed identities a good amount, but that's currently how i identify.

while i don’t have a diagnosis, i’m pretty sure i’m autistic and/or have adhd, and i hyperfixate a lot. currently my biggest hyperfixations are rhythm heaven and pokemon, but i have some others that occasionally pop up (warriors was a big one for a while, i still like it but you know how spins (special interests)/hyperfixations are,,, i also honestly got discouraged from the current discourse. i mostly like the characters and potential honestly, the books are trash-). i also have side-blogs for most of my interests and honestly i’m more active on those; my main two currently are @puppys-rhythm-heaven (for,,, well, rhythm heaven, if you couldn’t tell from the url (/lh)) and @veevee-volley (for pokemon).

so u h yeah, that's me. i have more stuff on my blog pages so make sure to check those out (currently they’re a wip and my dni and byf are under the cut)!

DNI (do not interact):

anti-lgbtq+ (includes homophobes, biphobes/anyone who’s anti-mspec, aphobes (including aspec inclusionists, fictosexuals and animesexuals are valid), transphobes/transmeds/truscum/terfs/radfems, and anything else i can’t think of);

honestly overall if you’re a bigot please fuck off. that includes racists (anti-blm/anti-acab), sexists and ableists. i don’t know why you’d be here if you’re an ableist other than to be mean but please fuck off.

think pronouns = gender. let people use the pronouns they like!

nsfw blogs. you’re probably cool but i’m a minor and ace so i’d rather not see that-

pedophiles/(no)maps/pears/whatever they’re calling themselves. kindly fuck off

anti-kin

i probably missed something that’s standard dni criteria, honestly just ask before following if you think you might not be able to interact

BYF (before you follow):

i’m a minor so please don’t send me gross stuff,,, honestly don’t do that in general but especially not to minors-

i keysmash a lot. it is a good way to express ~emotions~

i use tone indicators and while i can generally somewhat tell peoples’ tone, they’re still helpful;

i mainly use /j (joking), /hj (half-joking), /lh (light-hearted) and /s (sarcasm)!

i’m bad at interacting with people so if you reply to/reblog one of my posts with something i could definitely reply to and i don’t reply, don’t take offense, i definitely saw it, my brain just doesn’t cooperate sometimes (this is mainly the case for my sideblogs, i get embarrassed over my interests sometimes and i don’t know why-)

i ramble in the tags. most of the time i get off-topic. this also mostly happens when rhythm heaven is involved, i really fucking love rhythm heaven-

[arsenic-more-like-arsonic]

hi there. name is arsenic, any pronouns, protector and anger holder of a mixed origin system so fuck off if you’re endophobic

this blog is gonna be a mix of anger/ragecore and some mlm stuff bc i am, in fact, very gay. speaking of, i identify with both the achillean flag and the ocean gay flag so if you have problems with either of those then fuck right off. i don’t care about your bull

i’m generally an angry person (duh) so if i come off as an asshole it’s probably not personal. but, on the off chance that it is, you’ll know.

if you’re an exclusionist in any way (aspec/plurality/etc) get off this blog. no racists, queerphobes, islamophobes, terfs, cluster b demonizers, you know the gist. basically anybody who believes good faith identities are harmful, don’t you dare touch this blog. it’s my blog and i get to choose who interacts.

also, wlw/wlnb/nblw/nblnb/etc are allowed to interact. this is partially a mlm blog, yes, but any orientation can interact. i don't care who you're attracted to, as long as you're a decent person (that means don't derail my posts)

askbox, submissions and dms are open if you need anything, just don’t be an ass

tags:

tw [trigger]: for any triggers that i need to tag. i won’t tag general angercore reblogs since this is obv an anger blog and you shouldn’t be here if it bothers you, but original posts will still be tagged for search purposes

the arsonist speaks: for when i have Thoughts

the arsonist screams: for angercore/ragecore posts

the arsonist yearns: for lovecore posts

misc: for miscellaneous posts

will also tag for certain aspects of things (fire, blood, etc) for search purposes, and if you need something tagged to filter it let me know

[aropinions]

So What Is Exclusionism, Anyway?

As I've looked through inclusionist circles, I've come to a startling realization that most of them have an extremely skewed understanding of what exclusionism is (along with its various offshoots, subtypes, and related beliefs). They equate it to hatred of whatever group is being excluded, and they don't think people part of the excluded group could ever support exclusionism.

So, I've decided to write a long post to clear up some of those misconceptions. This post is mainly targeted to inclusionists and people wondering where they stand on the inclus/exclus sides of various types of discourse, but if you're exclusionist already, please feel free to reblog or boost it. <3 Thanks in advance for reading!

I'll start by introducing myself. Hi, I'm Ivy, or at least that's what I go by on here. I am a heterosexual, aromantic female. I am neurodivergent (ADHD, so forgive me if I ramble or write in a scatterbrained way) and have several other mental illnesses that I don't wish to talk about online. I do not have gender dysphoria, but I do not "feel feminine," and my personality has been described as rather masculine. In fact, many people in the inclusionist trans community have tried to convince me that I'm nonbinary because I don't feel a strong connection to a female gender, and I'll talk about that more later in this post.

I'm going to put all my relevant discourse opinions on the table right now. (In the next paragraph, I'm going to explain what all these labels actually mean and why they don't automatically make someone a horrible person.) Contrary to popular belief, I am not a trans-exclusionary radical feminist (TERF), an aphobe, a transphobe, or a bigot. I am ace-exclusionist, aro-exclusionist, trans-exclusionist, transmedicalist, pro-LGB, and gender-critical.

Now here's the fun part. Bear with me -- we're about to debunk the myths about these opinions, explain each term's real definition, and talk about some of the reasoning behind the beliefs.

Exclusionism, as a blanket term, is the belief that gatekeeping is necessary to make any group or community meaningful and safe. Various types of exclusionists fight against the lumping together of various marginalized identities or groups, because they believe that letting different types of people into spaces meant for more specific groups will detract from the safety and functionality of those spaces. They do not hate the groups they are excluding, and they typically want to exclude both ways. For example, ace exclusionists don't want allosexual LGBT let into ace spaces any more than they want asexuals let into LGBT spaces. Many exclusionists in LGBT discourse support the exclusion of groups that they themselves are part of, because in addition to the idea that it's harmful to the main LGBT community to lump them into it, they also think their group deserves its own recognition as a separate thing from the LGBT community. Exclusionism is not hatred.

Time to get into more specific terms. Let's start pretty simple, with truscum and transmeds. Someone who is truscum believes that people must have dysphoria to be trans. Someone who is transmedicalist believes that gender dysphoria is a mental disorder, and that transness is a medical condition synonymous with gender dysphoria. All transmeds are truscum, but not all truscum are transmeds. Most truscums and transmeds are against MOGAI, neopronouns, gender microlabels (e.g. genderflux or demiboy), and xenogenders. Most truscums believe in nonbinary people. There are some transmeds who don't believe nonbinary dysphoria is real, but they're not the majority.

The direct opposite of truscum and transmed is "tucute," which denotes a belief that dysphoria is not required to be transgender and gender identity is completely unrelated to biological sex or medical disorders/conditions. Tucutes also generally support MOGAI, xenogenders, neurogenders, microlabels, and neopronouns.

Next, we have bio-essentialism. Bio-essentialism is the belief that oppression is based on biological sex, not gender identity, and that identifying as a different gender than your birth sex doesn't automatically mean you are oppressed. This doesn't necessarily mean bio-essentialists believe that gender doesn't exist or that you can't identify as whatever you want, just that your social oppression is based off your biological sex. Not all bio-essentialists are truscum or transmeds, but most are. Bio-essentialists prominently use the terms "male" and "female" to describe biological sex rather than gender identity, and non-radical ones will use "man" and "woman" as blanket terms that include transmen and transwomen while maintaining "male" and "female" as words for biological sex only.

Then, we have the big bad term, TERF. I've seen a lot of people misuse the TERF label, so I'm going to try to clarify its actual meaning. The acronym stands for "trans-exclusionary radical feminist." It's important to break that down into two main parts -- TE and RF -- because trans-exclusionists are often called TERFs when most of them don't fit the "RF" part of the acronym at all.

Trans-exclusionism (TE) means that you believe transgender issues/discourse/activism should be separated from LGB issues/discourse/activism because they are fundamentally different. L, G and B all have one thing in common: being attracted to people of the same sex as you. T is about someone's gender, not their sexual orientation, so trans-exclusionists believe that the LGB and the T should not be lumped into the same community. It doesn't mean they think trans people deserve less respect or are not real. Most trans-exclusionists are also truscum or transmedicalist, but not all are. Many trans-exclusionists who are also feminists are gender-critical, but not all are. Pro-LGB is a synonym of trans-exclusionist, but in my experience, people who describe themselves as "pro-LGB" are more likely to also be gender-critical than those who identify themselves as "trans-exclusionist."

Radical feminism (RF) is a subset of feminism that -- in addition to general feminist beliefs -- is anti-porn, anti-kink, against the makeup industry, and very often openly misandrist. Radical feminists are not always trans-exclusionist, and trans-exclusionists are not always radical feminists (in fact, most aren't). Most radfems are anti-capitalist, and all are against pink capitalism and rainbow capitalism (the commercialization of feminist ideas, gay rights, etc.) Most radfems are truscum or transmedicalist, but not all are.

All TERFs are also gender-critical. "Gender-critical" people are bio-essentialist, but they go a step further to say that gender identity is a meaningless term, and that biological sex is the sole basis of oppression. However, one can be gender-critical and still support trans people if one is a transmedicalist. GC transmeds believe that trans people are still oppressed in society according to their biological sex, not their gender identity, but that social/physical transitioning is acceptable as a treatment for the mental disorder known as gender dysphoria.

Neither trans-exclusionism nor radical feminism is inherently transphobic or hateful toward transgender people. To differentiate a regular trans-exclusionist from a TERF, ask yourself if the person fits the radfem beliefs outlined above. If not, they aren't a TERF.

Now that all of that is covered, we can talk about the last couple types of exclusionism I want to touch on -- asexual exclusionism and aromantic exclusionism. These almost always come together as a package called aro/ace-exclusionism or aspec-exclusionism, but it is technically possible to be ace-exclusionist and not aro-exclusionist (or vice versa), though I've never personally met someone with such beliefs. Aspec-exclusionists believe that aspec people should not be included in the LGBT community because the lack of sexual or romantic attraction is a completely separate struggle and involves separate experiences than having attractions that exist, but are not heterosexual. Some more extreme aro/ace exclusionists strongly gatekeep aromanticism and asexuality. These ones don't believe in microlabels on the "aro spectrum" or "ace spectrum" such as demisexual or grayromantic. They maintain the belief that if someone has sexual attraction (regardless of whether they actually pursue people sexually) then they are not asexual, and if someone feels romantic attraction at all (even if they don't pursue romantic relationships) they are not aromantic.

Aro/ace-exclusionists, regardless of their beliefs on aromantic and asexual spectrums or microlabels, are not inherently aphobic. They only want aromanticism and asexuality to be separated from the rest of the LGB or LGBT community, and treated as their own distinct identities.

I hope this post was informative, and if anyone has feedback on anything I should edit, they should let me know in replies. Regardless of your beliefs, if you actually read this whole post or even just scrolled to the bottom, I'd like to offer a sincere thanks for bearing with me thus far. If you are an inclusionist or otherwise disagree with the things in the post, but you read it anyway, I have a lot of respect for your willingness to hear opinions other than yours rather than blindly blocking out everything you disagree with.

No matter who you are, I hope you have a great day. <3

[littlefoxwithbighat]

Dear tumblr.

I'm tired.

I'm asexual and arospec. (Also queer not that that should matter to this post) . That's a fact, for now at least.

Some of you who are not that (aspec) probably think you know what that's like. You don't.

When I first realised I was asexual I was about 14. I didn't come out. I just thought "OK, this explains why I feel differently to other people about crushes and sex and life. This explains why I don't get certain jokes and certain norms and certain things." I was alone. There were some forums on AVEN that helped and later some reddit communities. But the fact was there was nobody else who understood the world like me in the entire world, or that I'd met. If I said that I never a bit of a freak, I'd be lying.

And I'd also be lying if I said I didn't realise that my friends were going to grow up and realise the world differently to me, because if you're not acespec you have no idea how much of mundane things are impacted by not feeling sexual attraction. And let me tell you IT'S NOT just that you don't have sex, and the next person who says that is getting thrown into a wall. It fundementally shapes the way you interact with the world.

I was nearly 15 when I heard aromantic, and simultaneously when I wondered, "is that me?" And it COULDN'T be me! It could never be me! Becuse if I was aromantic to any degree then I was even worse. Asexual was fine by me because at least I could still live a normal life. Aromantic was WRONG. Aromantic was broken. Aromantic was ultimately hopeless, because if I couldn't love then what was wrong with me and what could I give to society?

I stayed in hardcore denial for a while and then eventually accepted it. And I still remember it, becuase I was home alone, and I said aloud "I don't want to be aromantic. Please don't let me be aromantic." And I very almost, for the first time in ages, cried.

I have to make up crushes to fit in. I have to make up feelings to fit in. I have to pretend to understand and grapple with what I don't. I have to live with knowing that I am different and odd and broken. An entire section of the "fundemental human experience," of FEELINGS is shut of from me. My friends are going to grow up and get married. I don't know if I can do that. My family will expect l me to. All adults in my life are, or will be. What do I say? Where will I be in the future. I will have to make up for it somehow because I can't give anything to society with a family or husband I will never have, I will never be fulfilled with it. Being academically successful is important, getting a job in the future is terrifyingly crucial. Because if I cannot succeed and I cannot love then what the hell is the point of me.

And I know nobody else like me in the entire world.

I am falling through it and there is nowhere to fall and nowhere to land. I am asexual and arospec and I am alone.

There are almost no aro communities online.

Often I look to the LGBTQ+ community. And every time it is a huge gamble. But I am looking at it like a dying man looks at water in the desert becuse in so many ways it looks so good. People here get it. People here are way more like me. And its BIG and its full and its right there. And everytime I step towards it I am bombarded by people telling me and people like me I am too privilidged, too self-obsessed, too wrong, not real enough, not there enough, not anything enough to fit in.

I am too broken and different for heteroallo society and too privileged and too lacking in attraction for the LGBTQ society and there is nobody for me.

Both sides tell me I'm faking my identity. I wonder if I am. I question myself constantly. How do I prove what isnt there? I can't.

Sometimes people say find your own society! Make your own place! Like I haven't tried. Everytime I look to aro and ace spaces online, it's like looking at a tiny fragmented battlefield where almost everyone is dead. Everyone, everyplace has been ravaged by trolls and exclusionsists and aphobes. I CANNOT GO TO ASPEC COMMUNITIES BECAUSE THEY BARELY EXIST.

There are barely any jokes, any memes, any love, any listening, any faces, any anything. There is no intertwined sense of communitity, no constants. We don't have terms to describe ourselves like the lesbian community, or the gay community. We have a few words for under-umbrella identifies like demi-sexual/romantic, and the words sex-favourable/neutral/repulsed, all of which have been dragged through hell with discourse.

And it's probably one of the worst on tumblr (and twitter) by the way. The only people here, are people questioning, in posts that get a few notes and that's it.

I cannot joke about my identity online without facing backlash. I can't talk about my struggles being aspec online without facing backlash. If any aspec brings up problems they are hated on or ignored. If any aspec tries to bring the community together, exclusionists find it and ruin it. If you are even open about being aspec online, you get comments with various levels of hidden hate and innapropriete videos and remarks, even if you're a minor.

Pride, I realise is the only solution we have to a society and to an inner conscious that makes you hate yourself.

All terms I used to describe myself are buried. People do not know what asexual or aromantic means in the larger world. Despite it being more than 1% of the population. The long history of my people is erased.

I am tired. I am alone. And I am scared for the baby aces and aros that are going to come here alone, looking for love and a place and find none.

Allo(ros) reblog this please. And actually read it don't just scroll past it.

[overcaffeinated-aro]

hi! I’m thistle, a trans+nonbinary aro ace, they/them only. I’m Queer and I will not tag it as a slur. I’m also white, autistic, trans misogyny exempt, and I live in the US. I’m 25, and at this time I’m not comfortable with those under 16 following me.

I studied fine art for four years (I hope to do so again) and I especially enjoy printmaking, oil painting, comics/graphic novels as an artistic medium, and zines! color theory is a special interest of mine. none of my art or zines are posted here unfortunately, but perhaps someday!

I’m sex-positive and sex-favorable. I occasionally post suggestive or explicit things, and I tag for sex mentions (under #sex ment) if you’re under 18 please block #nsft, as that’s the 18+ tag I use! I also occasionally tag things as #sex ed for things ppl under 18 should know, but can still be blocked if you prefer

I’m not in any fandoms, as most fandoms center shipping and I’m uninterested in shipping as a concept or culture. however I occasionally post about certain media, and usually tag for them. lmk if you want something specific tagged

I write image descriptions! (as spoons allow) lmk if there’s a mistake in anything I’ve written, and I’ll correct it. if you’re looking to write ID’s yourself, search for ‘#image description resources’

I will not tolerate exclusionism of any kind, including any aspec identities/micro identities/pan exclusion. I will answer questions on queer identities and qprs but I block for bad faith arguments. if you want to debate the validity of my identities or relationships this blog is not for you and I’ll block on sight

I will also block for: racism, antisemitism, ableism, fatphobia, transphobia, misogyny, trans misogyny, bootlicking, etc. if I reblog something that slipped under my radar please lmk!

I'm on cohost now! give me a follow if ya want

[risingphoenix761]

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My Top Posts in 2021

#5

Aspec pride Rowena, courtesy of @slytherkins . She's fabulous. ❤

49 notes • Posted 2021-06-02 22:27:13 GMT

#4

See if I don't make this cake at some point

51 notes • Posted 2021-06-21 17:04:15 GMT

#3

Today is a good day to remember that fandom, no matter who you ship, stan, adore, despise, thirst over, love to hate, make art of, or write fic for, is fiction. Take what joy you will from it, cry over it when you must, theorize and debate until the sun comes up, but at the end of the day, we're all discussing imaginary people, and it's not worth bullying anyone over or getting bent out of shape for.

52 notes • Posted 2021-09-22 03:29:56 GMT

#2

Tag Game

💕Name three fictional characters you’re in love with that are NOT associated with your blog 💕

Tagged by @peridottea91 :D

1. Rick O'Connell

2. Gabriel Van Helsing

3. George

Tagging: @rhyatt-deauxtreve @genevievedarcygrangerwriting @flames-bring-a-ton-of-ash

68 notes • Posted 2021-10-03 19:10:19 GMT

#1

Going Up

Summary: "One aspect of humanity it was taking time to get used to was how bloody slowly they had to move."

Pairing: Dean x Crowley

Word count: 1,863

Tags/warnings: Show-level shenanigans. Bickering. Innuendo. Post-cure Crowley. @spnquotebingo ("I don't sweat under any circumstances") Belated fills for Rare Ship Bingo and Dean Bingo. 

A/N: Thanks to @slytherkins for looking this over and @firefly-in-darkness the fancy divider. Gif credit to @slashersivi . Incidentally, you can blame Slytherkins and @demonologist-in-denim for their combined influence in putting this in my head in the first place. It's finally finished!

One aspect of humanity it was taking time to get used to was how bloody slowly they had to move. He had gotten used to the ability to blink himself anywhere on the planet, and now every form of transportation left to Crowley seemed to move at half the speed of eternity. Admittedly, things were a lot faster nowadays than they were in Fergus MacLeod's lifetime, but they were still a downgrade from his time as a demon.

The adrenaline rush that came with taking out a monster, one of the better parts of hunting, was as close as he could get to vanishing from one place and rematerializing in another. Before they got to that point, though, it was a long slog of research, followed by an even longer road trip to the case itself, which left Crowley plenty of time to decide how much he disliked driving.

"You know, we could fly and be there in less than half the time," he remarked as he stowed his duffel in the trunk of the Impala on the morning of their second day on the road.

"Or," Dean replied before he slammed the trunk shut on their luggage and the arsenal hidden underneath, "we could not fly and not worry about getting half our gear through security."

Fair point.

"We'd make better progress on literally any major highway," he argued hours later as they moved along some podunk back road lined on either side with fields and one-traffic-light towns.

"I make better progress when I'm not staring at the same set of tail lights for hours on end," Dean argued back.

Fine, so maybe the scenery was a little better than what the interstate offered...sometimes. It still ate up more of his existence than he cared for. It was insulting, really, to go from teleporting from one side of the globe to the other, to needing to stop and gas up before crossing certain states only to pull over for the night halfway through the journey.

"Would it really kill you to get on a plane once in a while?" he asked after their journey finally saw them parking outside a high-rise in a reasonably sized city. Their first interview was with a wealthy heiress whose father robbed his own bank two days after he dropped dead of a heart attack, and according to the address in Dean's hand, she lived on the top floor.

"I don't trust planes," Dean groused. "I trust my Baby, and she's never let me down."

"Trains, then? Something, Dean. Think of it. Time, efficiency, fossil fuel and emissions, save even more than the innocent public."

"Don't listen to him, sweetheart," Dean said over his shoulder as they walked away from the car. "He's just cranky that he can't pick the music."

"Well, while we're on the subject…" Crowley muttered.

"If I'm going anywhere," Dean insisted, "my Baby is taking me. And no commentary from the peanut gallery about going faster is going to convince me otherwise."

Crowley rolled his eyes. "Fine, then. When we're done with this case, I'm taking a cab to the airport."

"You know what? You do that. You enjoy the delays, and the crowded terminals, and the bad food, and the kids that keep kicking your seat or the lady in front of you reclining back into your personal space or the guy snoring and farting next to you, and Baby and I are going to enjoy the open road, just the two of us. And you know what?"

Crowley turned to Dean, eyebrows raised expectantly.

Dean drew out the answer far longer than was necessary, clearly relishing the fantasy in his head. "I'm...going...to love it."

"Honestly, Dean, I worry you'd love it too much," Crowley replied. "And rather than tag along as a third wheel, I'd rather fly home and leave the two of you to your…" He paused for consideration, then finished. "Fascinating affair."

Dean's brow furrowed for a moment, then he rolled his eyes with a grimace. "You know, I'm not even gonna ask…"

Crowley smiled and they entered the building. It was everything he expected it to be on the inside: sleek and pretentious without an iota of elegance.

"I suppose you want to take the stairs," he remarked as they crossed the lobby, "given your commitment to the path slowest traveled by."

"Actually…" Dean thought it over, then gave a pleasant smile. "We should take the elevator. Why go slower than we have to every time?"

Crowley raised his eyebrows in surprised amusement. "Oh, indeed? Without the slightest fuss? I didn't expect such character development." They reached the elevator and he signaled it, then stepped inside the car and stood aside to let Dean on.

Dean made to follow as Crowley hit the button for the top floor, then ducked back out. Crowley did a double take, then started forward. "Dean! What the hell are you--"

"Race you to the top, smart ass," Dean replied with a sly grin as the door slid closed and the elevator began to move.

Crowley threw his hands in the air, exasperated, then leaned back against the wall of the car. What, was he going to take another elevator?

Bloody Winchesters.

A soft ding sounded and the car shuddered to a halt, called to a stop on the second floor. The door opened and he stood aside to let the newcomer in, but the hallway revealed itself to be empty. Crowley glanced out just in case, and there was no sign of anyone at all.

The door slid shut again and the sudden motion of the car nearly threw him off balance as it resumed its journey up, but he recovered and returned to his place against the wall. He should have known by now that taking shots at Dean's precious car was a surefire way to ruffle his feathers, but was Crowley to blame if Squirrel made the business of feather ruffling so bloody easy? And was it too much to ask that they shave some time off their commute once in a while? He was prepared to argue his case again, but that damned fool had jumped ship at the last possible moment.

He snapped out of his reverie as the elevator stopped again. He heaved a sigh and let his head fall back against the wall and the door opened, but there was no sound of anyone getting into the car. He lifted his head and frowned slightly, in search of whoever called the elevator, but there was only silence.

His eyes narrowed and the elevator began to move. A glance at the readout above the door told him he was on the third floor out of fifteen, and he would already be nearly to the top if it wasn't for--

The elevator stopped at the fourth floor. 

"Oh, for the love of--" He broke off with a huff of annoyance, folded his arms, and tapped his foot. A sneaking suspicion introduced itself in his mind, and it was a stupid, childish, ridiculous idea, but so very Dean…

When the elevator stopped at five, he leaned out far enough to listen, but there was no sign of the bowlegged menace. At six, he could almost hear retreating footsteps in the distance. At seven, he distinctly made out labored breathing and heavy footfalls, and it became more and more obvious. Dean was running the stairs and calling the elevator on every floor.

At the ninth floor, he leaned against the wall beside the call button and bent nearly double as he gasped for breath by the time the elevator stopped. Crowley slid his hands into his pockets and raised an eyebrow at him. "Can I give you a lift?"

Dean didn't seem to have the air to answer.

"I don't know how long it's been since you ran stairs, Squirrel, but if you pass out halfway to this interview, I'm going to leave you here and talk to Little Miss Heiress on my own, then maybe pick you up on the way back down."

A dismissive wave was the only reply.

Crowley put out a hand to hold the door open. "Dean," he said sharply, "get in the bloody lift."

Dean rolled his eyes, but got onto the elevator.

"Stubborn arse," Crowley muttered. They made the rest of the trip to the top floor uninterrupted, leaving precious little time for Dean to catch his breath and plenty of time for Crowley to roll his eyes and shake his head at the absurdity of it all. They paused outside the heiress' door and Crowley smoothed his hands over the wrinkles in Dean's jacket, straightened his tie, and gave him a pat on the cheek. "Given the varying states you continually put yourself in, you clean up rather nicely," he remarked. "Have I ever told you that?"

Dean blushed slightly and knocked on the door.

"It's remarkable, you know," Crowley said as they left a quarter hour later. "You ran nine flights of stairs and winded yourself so severely you nearly lost consciousness, but you didn't even break a sweat."

"I don't sweat under any circumstances," Dean scoffed as he called the elevator.

"Is that so?" The elevator arrived and they stepped on, and Crowley added, "I seem to recall you were a bit hot under the collar a few nights ago when, in quite the role reversal, I wasn't moving fast enough for you." He glanced sideways just in time to see Dean shift awkwardly and swallow hard, and he grinned to himself. "How long did I keep you on the hook? I'm afraid I lost track of time, I was so entranced by the way you whimpered, squirmed, and begged--"

"I don't beg, either," Dean cut in gruffly.

"Not in so many words, darling, but trust me, there wasn't a single, glorious inch of you that wasn't desperate for that sweet release I just wouldn't let you have. From the way your toes curled, to the tension in every muscle, to the twitch and throb of your swollen, needy, much-abused co--"

Dean grabbed him by his lapels and forced him back against the wall. He leaned in until there was only a scant inch between their faces, and Crowley could smell the morning's coffee on his breath. "You know, you've been running your mouth an awful lot the last few days," he said, low and serious, "and I'm getting kinda tired of it."

Crowley looked from those plump, perfect lips to those Disney princess eyes, and down to the fists clutching his jacket. "And manhandling me in a lift is your solution? Come on, Dean, you know I'll enjoy it too much."

"Not hardly," Dean replied. "I'm thinking we should finish this hunt, get you somewhere I can go as slow as I damn well please, and we see how long it takes until you're begging for it."

Crowley smiled. "Well. You certainly know how to get a girl's attention, don't you. But you forgot one thing."

"Yeah? What's that?"

He leaned to the side and hit the emergency stop button. "Patience isn't one of my virtues."

94 notes • Posted 2021-03-08 18:46:33 GMT

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