#/I LOVE HER. I LOVE HER MOTIVES AND HOW THEY ARENT ALWAYS CLEAR

[qbedience]

[n3xii]

why you're an icon (pac)

maybe a year ago i started (but did not finish) a series where I did posts describing why you're an icon. Today I plan on continuing that- this reading will describe why people are drawn to you and what they love most about you. today's muse is Fairouz, also spelled Fayrouz, Fairuz in English. Her name in Lebanese (hopefully pls correct if mistranslated <3) :  فيروز, check out my services if you're interested in a personal reading : services

Fairouz is one of the most famous Lebanese singers and is considered today to be a major icon in the Arab world. Listening to her is my gateway to middle eastern music especially arabic pop in the 60's and 70's. One of my favorite things about her is the way she performed, according to her Wikipedia page she would be known to take a rigid, cold stance while performing. She claimed that the nature of her performances is because she is singing as if she were praying. a user on Pinterest called her the middle eastern lana del rey and i will never recover. anyways, select your pile and I will have a song by the queen for you to listen to.

PILE ONE-

cards: king of cups, queen of wands, 6 of cups, mars in pisces

song: Fayek Ya Hawa

you're a captivating, magnetic person. You have a way of capturing your passion with a almost childlike wonder, you remind people of what it's like to be a kid again and to just love something from the bottom of your heart. You have an ability to channel complex emotions from such a poetic perspective, you have this ability to channel your inner child when it comes to what you're passionate about. you possess a borderline psychic ability to portray emotions especially though creativity, you communicate things in such a way that it just resonates with so many people.

with the mars in Pisces card, this tells me that you are someone dedicated to understanding, empathizing and connecting with people. you have an unlimited range of creativity and a very developed imagination. you have such a way of wanting to help people feel understood, you're strongly motivated to act based on how you feel and as well as how other people feel. this motivation may even be self sacrificing at times. people love that you have a boundless sense of empathy. you dont withhold sympathy for anyone, you have the capability to connect with people regardless of who they are or how far they are from you.

PILE TWO

your cards- mars in leo, the emperor, two of swords

song: Sayyef ya sayf

you carry of confidence that demands power. You make decisions with certainty that regardless of what you do, you will always end up exactly where you need to be. People love that you're not the type to listen to other people, you drown out the voices of people trying to distract you and challenge the inner strength you have.

You have the tendency to take over and lead, and even if you arent aware of it, you influence people around you. the influence you have over the people in your life cannot be understated. you thrive when you are able to direct others. in fact you presence and personality type may be ''overbearing'' for some people, you're just not the type to shy away from expressing yourself and taking the lead. to some that may be perceived as confrontational and overpowering but many people actually love that you weren't born to be a follower.

people like you just know how to get things done. you excel at everything you do and take pride in your work. people love your ''ego'' and confidence. you're not afraid to overshine people. besides, its not your fault that people dim their own light.

PILE THREE

your cards: mars in taurus, page of cups and justice

song: Saalouny el nas

first of all, this pile has a clear foundation of right and wrong and you're willing to stand on that no matter what. people love that you're almost stubborn about what you believe. you're willing to go and fight for it and defend yourself against anyone.

but at the same time, this pile is very emotional and sensitive. your morals come straight from your heart. You're raw and vulnerable and you're willing to protect your heart more than anything else in this world. Sensitivity is seen as a weakness, but for you its your number one strength. its the quality that makes you willing to fend for yourself and other people. I knew someone like this in real life- upon first meeting her you might assume she was intimidating, scary, and even mean. but i watched this girl be brought to tears at the sound of a baby crying, I watched her fight against people who were stealing, I watched her loose her temper over anything that she felt disrespected her and her friends. By no means was she considered weak; she was vulnerable about what upset her, she was vulnerable about her mental health issues, and that made her strong and intimidating to people. it made me respect her more than anyone in my life. if you fucked with her, you were the one who ended up suffering. that's who this pile reminds me of.

I also feel that this pile is strongly motivated by their taste in fashion and luxury, people love your taste and its one of the things they remember about you.

[elmflowers]

Make the PMMN superhero post. Do it

fuckin bet lets go

obvious one: superman/clark kent and madoka kaname

both represent the platonic ideal of hope and both are sort of protected by the plot wherein they will always "win" in the end bc of how they represent hope in the story. what makes it interesting is how they "win", what gets sacrificed along the way (madoka sacrificing her individuality and "humanity" for a greater good and superman being the loneliest being on earth and constantly putting himself in danger and as this icon rather than human, despite clark kent very much being Human)

batman/bruce wayne and homura akemi

other than the clear gay parallels between madohomu and superbat, homura and batman are people who have suffered significant loss and have great love within their hearts, which they use to protect people they love. bruce is strongly motivated by his parent's death + catholic guilt despite being half jew half probably protestant what happened there buddy and homura her catholic guilt upbringing + idolized bestie death combo. both characters are somewhat jaded and not necessarily the pure platonic ideal of hope their bestie personifies, but if you look at them for a little bit, you go, "Oh shit, these bitches are bleeding hearts". also how they interact with their gay partner i mean best friend, wherein batman sees superman as hope and what gives him the ability to keep going because if there's someone as good as him can exist then its worth it, while homura pinpoints madoka as her motivation to keep going, tunneling her vision and essentially being the only reason she still tries to save people and live.

green lantern/hal jordan and sayaka miki

both want to be heroes but are in a system wherein they are exploited using their drive to do good. hal jordan became a poster child for the green lantern corp and basically trapped in this cycle of illusion of choice wherein he supposedly! can quit, but no hes has to keep coming back. he slowly loses touch with his "humanity" (ie his home, his friends, his hobbies, etc) and it gets replaced with his job (literal icon of marx's theory of alienation). sayaka miki wants to be a magical girl because she wants to help other people and save them, she wants to do good and thats in contrast to the fact that being a magical girl does separate her from her "humanity" (her soul got fucking ripped out) and that she does not feel like she will ever be good enough because she is a flawed person (girl youre 13 youre going to have flaws). both are driven to a point wherein their roles are separating them from what they feel as their humanity that they succumb to despair after a final break (for hal jordan his home town coast city being fucking vaporized while he was off world and for sayaka hitomi going out with kyousuke) that makes them realize how fucked everything is and they cant handle it anymore. sayaka becomes oktavia and hal becomes parallax.

john constantine and kyoko sakura

okay im breaking a rule, constantine is a dc character but not necessarily a hero. lol. lmao. anyways

both have fucked up in the past and made a serious mistake that does not allow them to go back to who they were before (constantine in newcastle, kyoko with her wish). they are both jaded people who act tough and seem like they only look out for themselves, but routinely go out of their way to help others because they are inherently good people. theyre both kind of assholes in their own way and also both seriously hotheaded. both are also extremely experienced within their area of expertise.

nightwing/dick grayson and mami tomoe

iconic eldest daughter syndrome kids. pushes a face of happy go lucky vaguely mature and cheerful persona and hides their flaws like theyre going to fucking die if anyone sees that they arent necessarily perfect. incredibly fucked up past. a deep fear that influences a lot of their actions (dick does not want to turn out like bruce did, mami does not want people to leave her as she is a deeply insecure individual). has guilt complexes miles, miles wide. dead parents. both deeply insecure. go eldest daughters!

the jonker from sanic 2 and Cube

just little guys who committed so many crimes

[lunarifie]

Rewatching Ninjago

(With no context other than the episode)

Skybound 3-4

Nya: (holds onto jay because shes scared of the jail prisoners)

Jay: :D

Jay: (falls on his fucking face)

Smooth Jay.

Cole: yeah? Well are these cuffs good enough against my SUPER STRENGTH

Cole (trying his best): just wait, almost got it-

Nya: Theyre not gonna break.

ITS HIM

THE SHITBAG WHO TRIED TO TAKE APART ZANE. FUCK HIM.

Zane: by my observations, that was your own fault by working for a crime boss 🤨

Cant believe Lloyd went to prison at what, 16? 17???

How is the warden not even a little mad that this engineer over here can open all the prison cells with the push of a button????

Nice of them to put all the ninja in one singular cell

Dareth (after failing at one attempt at breaking the ninja out): welp, your on your own!

Its hilarious how some prison-mates have ninja favorites

Like some guy just spit in Coles direction because he’s a Jay fan

Jay: Hey! Its captain Soto! The first captain of the destiny’s bounty!

Captain Soto: And its Jay! The whiny sniveling blue pajama man who says everything obvious.

Honestly though, If wishing for love was something you could do. And something Jay planned on doing. That would end up really fucked up.

Kryptorium is like, the baddest and most secure prison of them all right?

So why tf do all the prisoners have weapons.

This prison is a load of shit

THE GUARDS ARENT EVEN DOING ANYTHING

I remember being so scared as they held Zane down and tried to take his spare parts

This is so disturbing they even opened him up

THANK YOU PIXAL!!!

Lloyd, with a guard holding onto him: We could break out tonight…

The guard: 😮

The guard: lol jk idgaf

The side characters are so unbothered

Nadakhan: I want to return to my home realm. Djinjago.

Ooooo new realm!!!

Wait wait wait

Need to type this down so i dont forget

So, ever since the ninja killed the preeminent and basically making the cursed realm non existent. Due to all the 16 realms being interlocked, djinjago is crumbling into non existence as well?

SO NOW THERES 14 ALIVE REALMS????

Well, that gives nadakhan a motive to hunt the ninja I guess

His plan is to overtake ninjago.

How original.

The ninja escaped!!!!!

The cops are so incompetent.

Kai holding Cole above water as they traverse the sewers 🥺

I love them.

I would also laugh like captain soto if i realized some girl who was gonna fight the djinn looked exactly like his past lover

Hilarious irony

Police chief: I want to find those ninja!!! They could be under our noses for gods sake!

Nya (in a police uniform): im in! Right under their noses… now I need the password to get in.

Jay (also undercover): got it!

Jay (his whiny voice drastically changing to a deep steady one): uhhh whats the password?

Hfjsjbejsntnjw that took me so off guard

Honestly, imagine the amount of ninjago civilians who are still ninja fans and are also ACAB after the police but the ninja in prison. Not to mention how incompetent these cops are 💀

Kai (gets zapped by the junkyard fence): caraful zane! This things electrocuted!

Zane: Yes kai, I think that was abundantly clear by all the ‘danger’ and ‘electricity’ signs 😄

Kai: Hurry up!

Zane: these chains will take me a while. You could keep interrupting me or you could start making yourself USEFUL🙄

Zanes so sassy with Kai

Nadakhan and his ship are in the sky!!!!

Its funny how the ninja are searching for Nadakhan and nadakhan is searching for the ninja but neither can find the other

I remember this episode. Im not ready.

Im crossing my fingers for Jay not to fuck anything up but I already know what happens 😭

Jay: let me! A gentleman- uh i mean uh, a superior! Always pays!

You already fucked up by saying superior 🤨

Jay: (cant find his wallet) oh uh wrong pants…

Nya: (pays for them both)

Aaaand you didnt check if you could even pay beforehand

HFBSJFNSJNRNWJRBEB

THE SMOOTH JAZZ AS NADAKHAN WATCHED NYA TAKE OFF HER HAT AND MUSTACHE DISGUISE IM DYIIING

Nya is speaking fact’s honestly.

Shes trying to convey how she feels about him constantly showcasing that he harbors feelings for her

And hes like “Its because im from a junkyard isnt it 😒”

Like dude i get your insecure but dont come off like that

Nya: (CONTINUES to spit fucking facts about how shes already seen as the ‘girl’ ninja and doesnt wanna be seen as the ninjas ‘girlfriend’)

She let him down so nicely too

she explained why that it wasnt him. It was HER. She cant be tied to ANYONE. It doesn’t have ANYTHING to do with Jay.

Jays apology was actually really nice tho.

Hes forgiven.

I dont blame jay too much. He said ‘I wished I never saw my future’. And its kinda hinted that if he never saw his future he would probably stay friends with Nya and not have a problem with it.

Honestly, if I saw I was fated with someone. Like, LITERAL destiny. I would get a little obsessed too.

Jay. You KNOW Nya looks like Nadakhans lover. Its been CONFIRMED that you guys know this information. So why would he help you get with Nya.

These two are literally in the middle of the street how is nobody seeing a djinn and the blue ninja just waltzing around

Jays wish is actually sorta sweet

“I wish I wasn’t born in a junkyard- I wish I wasnt poor! And I wish, I could give Nya anything she wanted…”

Yeah, it makes me sad that he isnt proud of of where he was raised. But its a sweet thought to want to give Nya only the best.

God. Jays voice sounded so broken when he read the letter, believing Ed and Edna died...

HE LOVES HIS PARENTS SM 😭😭😭

Edna (seeing her son in a police disguise with ketchup on his shirt after breaking out of prison): what's wrong honey? What's all the fuss?

This is it. The part that shattered younger me’s brain.

Ed: Jay... You're adopted.

BOOM.

MIC DROP.

Does Jay EVER return to the fritz donnegan/Cliff Gs mansion after this season? I mean, he inherited it. Did he sell it? Is it just, like, out there?

Jay: that must mean... My real names Jay Gordon?

Nope. Hate it. Youre still Jay walker.

HOW IS JAY THIS LUCKY HFJDJSNFJS

All of Jays wishes have been going his way

Jay wished to not be alone with the djinn, do you know HOW easy it would have been for Nadakhan to trick him

Office lady civilian: So, they finally fixed our office huh :)

(Rockets come shooting from Nadakhans ship)

Office lady: NOT AGAIN

Just another day in ninjago

Nya. There was no reason for you to take off your ninja mask. All that did was show the djinns crew members that you looked like Delara.

Its crazy that some people other than the ninja know spinjitzu

Honestly though, Jay never sought out nadakhan. Hes quite literally being cautious about it too. Making sure nobody is by themselves, that no one says anything about wishes.

Djinn literally did Jays wishes perfect to a T. Why is he screwing Kai over so hard 😭

Kai. you better word your third wish perfectly.

NFNSJFNSJNRR

HIS BULLET WENT STRAIGHT THROUGH GHOST COLE. FIVE TIMES. 💀💀💀

thats literally the funniest way for the realm crystal to break

Kai: I WISH FOR IT ALL TO GO AWAY

Goddammit Kai.

They got Kai trapped in the sword :/

I honestly didnt think he’d get captured

He was the ‘main’ ninja for so long. To take him out this early in the season is new.

Love ninjago for trying new things.

[menalez]

I agree with anti suicide as man-hating is intrinsic to feminism because anger is a natural reaction to your oppression. This emotion is the driving force behind any social justice movement, without it, there would be no motive. So I think its natural for some of these women to get offended by that take because the trauma and consequent anger theyve suffered as a result of patriarchy were guiding forces to awakening to misogyny and accepting radical feminism in their lives. At the end of the day, you can love women as a class, but you do not need to love a woman to fight for her rights. What was that about feminism being for even the most vile woman? Many of these women have had shitty female relatives and friends that they might despise, but their hatred and anger of men and their male supremacy is their driving force to be passionate feminists. Also, i dont understand that ask that said it must be OSA women disagreeing with you— wouldnt OSA actually agree since theyd be the ones more likely to center males in their lives? Wouldnt they be more inclined to say that “man-hating” shouldn’t be the root of feminism? That didnt make much sense to me. Women often talk about their hatred of men because its unacceptable to do so in other spaces. Radical feminism is meant to be a space in which we can vent our frustrations with male supremacy. As for your comment about women who both hate men and women— well, those women arent feminists then. Theyre excluded from radical feminism by virtue of being misogynists so it wouldnt render your argument null. I hope this makes sense. Im trying to be civil

i addressed everything u said in other reblogs and posts but

1. didn’t say anything against man-hating. im literally a man-hater. i just don’t think the basis of one’s feminism being hating men is gonna work. loving women should always come first when it comes to fighting for the rights of women

2. said nothing against having emotions. loving women is an emotion, and it’s a motivating one. didn’t say anything against hating men, once again it just shouldn’t be the root of one’s feminism. nothing wrong with it as a secondary aspect of ur feminism but when it’s all about hating men and women come second then how is that even feminism anymore

3. it honestly feels like a slap in the face how many OSA women saw that im a lesbian and then used that to act like i haven’t been abused, raped, harassed, and oppressed by men. once again, ive said nothing against hating men nor against being angry at ur oppressors and it’s honestly offensive talking to a woman w PTSD as if she doesn’t understand that trauma first hand

4. i literally meant loving women as a class… no one can say there isn’t a single woman they dislike. im constantly talking about my ex and how she abused me like it’s not like im expecting anyone to love every woman otherwise they can’t support women’s rights. but how are you gonna fight for the rights of women when u don’t love women as a class? if u don’t centre that love for women in ur activism for them?

5. u don’t understand that ask saying OSA women are the one disagreeing with me because you didn’t check and see they are in fact OSA women who are angry with me because they were recently hurt by a man and assumed i was saying they aren’t allowed to be angry at men. nowhere did i not all men or justify men or say it’s not ok to hate them.

6. “well those women aren’t feminists then” you guys really can’t read because i literally said that hating men does not a feminist make and a true feminist is centring women and loving women before anything to do with men. that’s it. and after someone repeatedly making it clear her issue is with lesbians and “ssa radfems” and using that as her basis for attacking me, the same exact person u said u agree with here, maybe don’t try to tell me this has nothing to do with homophobia and being OSA

[angelz-dust]

Heyy! Which one of the batboys would fake dating? And how would it be? How would they realize that they're actually in love?

oooh fake dating!! i haven't done this yet

hm... i could see maybe dick, tim, or duke doing this. i can't really see jason or damian doing this for some reason djdjdj

dick

with him, i can only see him doing this one or twice. definitely not long term

richard grayson is definitely the kind of guy you wanna bring home to the family

he's kind, respectful, handsome. he's The Whole Package

he's the one you'd wanna take to a cousin's wedding or a high school reunion

i mean, come on. pulling up with THE richard grayson? gotham's most eligible bachelor? (don't say that around bruce) you win by default.

he wouldn't mind playing into the lie of being with you. he'd find it a little entertaining

fake dating him would be a lot like just being his friend, honestly. he just makes more of an effort to touch you

holding hands, touching the bottom of your back. he'd throw in some lingering glances and sweet smiles for good measure. gotta make it believable

dick's willingness to go along with your charade is not an indication that he likes you, but it's how he goes about it that you should be paying attention to. it almost too believable

he would probably realize he was in love with you when you mentioned going to a party with another person. you know, a person who actually made real romantic advances and not because you asked them to

he would be a little jealous over not being your go to guy anymore

he wouldn't want to be selfish, so he'd sit on this realization for awhile and he'd let your new relationship run its course before confessing his feelings for you

unless you beat him to it

which is fine with him

tim

tim would be the one asking you to do him this solid

poor boy just needs someone he can tolerate to come with him to events and things

they've become increasingly boring and he needed someone to provide him with some mental stimulation or else he was going to off himself

now, he went into this good intentioned. no ulterior motives, he swore

but uh... the gotham gazette had other plans

the two of you were making news as gotham's newest couple

there was no point in denying it, since it didn't really matter. no one with any working brain cells would believe a gazette headline

but the two of you consistently were seen out together at events, which made the headline much more believable and neither of you did anything to disprove it. it wasn't a big concern

things started escalating when tim went on record saying that you were together

"tim, what the hell?"

"what was i supposed to say? that we made an ugly couple?"

"you're supposed to say that we ARENT a couple!"

"oh."

tim wouldn't really have an "aha" moment. he always knew that he loved you. it was just in a deep way now. just... different

the lines of your relationship started blurring over time. it was gradual but pretty obvious to the both of you. you just didn't say anything about it

your romantic relationship may have been going on for a long time in the eyes of the public, but it was solidified during a holiday party, where you found yourselves sharing a kiss on the dance floor

and the gotham gazette found themselves with a nice photo for their front page

duke

he doesn't exactly know how he got caught up in your web of lies, but he's here

it was a spur of the moment decision when you thrusted this ill thought out plan onto him

"please, i'm begging you. just this one time."

"at least buy a guy a drink first."

so you did. you went on a double date with your "friend" and her girlfriend. why you felt so compelled to prove to her that you could pull someone as handsome and kind as duke thomas, you weren't sure. but it felt damn good

duke was as charming as ever, really helping you carry on conversations. you decided that it only went well because of him

the days after the date were a bit off. duke had been giving you the cold shoulder and you weren't exactly sure why

he was ignoring your calls, being curt in his responses to your texts, cancelling on you left and right. you were fed up with his behavior, so you confronted him one day

"what the hell is your problem?"

"i don't have a problem. if i had one, i'd tell you."

"are you sure? because you haven't been doing a whole lot of talking lately. at least, not with me."

seeing duke angry and annoyed made you sad, despite feeling that same way yourself. you didn't like the idea of having done something to him. he was such a good friend to you and you didn't want to lose him

it was when duke confessed his feelings to you that you understood why he was being so cold to you. he liked you and it was like you had just used him

he made it clear that he didn't care if you reciprocated his feelings. he just didn't want to keep pretending anymore

he had been harboring feelings for you for quite some time. actually going on a date with you, even if it was fake, just solidified those feelings for him

he apologized for being mean to you, feeling like an asshole for being mad at you for his own feelings. feelings you didn't even know he had

the two of you didn't talk for awhile, wanting to sort out your own feelings

when you realized that you had felt the same way about him, you came over to his place with a bouquet of flowers, hoping that he was still interested in being with you

"i'm only saying yes because i like the flowers."

"that's the only reason?"

"that, and you look like a kicked puppy."

[frogmentarii]

QUESTIONS FOR OC CREATORS

Haaaa ok so I am doing this cause i saw @fallout-lou-begas steal it from @tarberrymentats and they both looked like they were havin hella fun so i am commandeering this for my own purposes. So lucky for yall its Emi time (art by the dearest @yesjejunus because yall need to see more of her work)

A) Why are you excited about this character?

Because she's an older woman (57) that breaks a lot of moulds and I love to see it. Aside from just enjoying older characters, Emi isn't a sweet old lady and she isn't here to try and mother anyone. Her drives are entirely her own and while she prioratizes herself and her sister before anyone else, its not always due to complete selfishness and just due to growing up in the wastes (I try to keep her character true to a fend for yourself setting as possible). I think Ill go into detail in another question with this, but I went through a lot of concepts and personalities for Emi before settling on someone who was seasoned and very much a product of the wastes. I think after seeing a lot of other couriers I finally figured out what I wanted to do differently, and that sort of helped guide her to become what she is today.

B) What inspired you to create them?

I think my last line there sort of short answers this. I wanted someone different from the other couriers I saw, and wanted to make one that was distinct or even juxtaposed against some tropes. She's a woman in her late 50s that doesnt try and play mom/granny to the companions, she very much has no stake in what happens to the Mojave, she doesnt care about Benny or that he shot her in the head (such is life in the Mojave, but she did have a job to complete so ripperoni him), and a lot of her motivations are selfish or exist to benefit her sister. She doesnt act 'old' in the fact that she isn't a wise caring soul or a grumpy old man, but rather her age is shown through her experience, and this also shapes her personality. She's never had to formally 'grow up' so she can come off as immature and irritating for her own entertainment, but she doesn't have youthful ignorance for how the world works. She knows how to be responsible but she doesnt have to act like it outwardly, even with her Tragic Caregiver Backstory.

C) Did you have trouble figuring out where they fit in their own story?

To a large degree in the beginning, yes, and to specific degrees now, also yes. Writing in general isnt my strong point though I did know what I wanted for her. The main image is there but the details are funky, and Ive been slowly hammering those out as I work along with her and Camila's stories. There's been some huge changes along the way that help push both of them towards an ending I like and that fits them, and even if it takes forever and I never actually write a fic, I'll be happy when she finally feels completed in New Vegas.

Aside from that, she kind of fits in anywhere in regards to AUs. My friend @yesjejunus and I have probably like 40000 fucking aus for our OCs and all of them feel just as organic and their canon stories.

D) Have they always had the same physical appearance, or have you had to edit how they look?

So I know I have an 'original concept Emilia' art on here where she looked like Laura Croft and had aviators but that wasnt even her first concept. I had originally wanted to make a petite southern belle type from Louisiana who used a shot gun and had a mean streak, but as I kept playing with concepts Emi really started to lean other places. Another huge change was her personality. Even when her concept got settled as a sniper from Mexico, she was suppose to be an early 30s caravan guard who was way too sure of herself. While there are reminents of that concept still in her, she has a lot more experience in the wastes and in think-on-your-feet situations to back up her attitude. Another thing she required was dropping her "take me seriously" personality with more goofy "i do what i want cause why not" traits.

E) Are they someone you would get along with? Would they get along with you?

Emi can get along with anyone at a surface level, for a small while, if it will benefit her or she wants to pass time. She really doesn't have interest in folks who arent interesting or beneficial in some way. Since I don't really offer her much, and am a bit of a wet bag, she might yank my chain for her own funsies or she'd have no interest.

And while I did indeed give Emi my go with the flow attitude, I think I wouldn't be able to keep up with her. Emi is very fast paced and doesnt necessarily have regard for those she decides to pick up as drinking buddies for the night. Def dont trust her with my life, and knowing the shit she gets into I'd def want to steer clear of it....like a trainwreck its much better to watch her from a safe distance, lol.

F) What do you feel when you think of your OC (pride, excitement, frustration, etc)?

A lot of affection from a meta standpoint? I've worked with Emi and Cam a lot since creating them, and they've def come a long way since their original concepts. I wouldn't say their story is quite where I want it yet, but I am quite happy with it overall.

That, and Ive met so many awesome writers along the way with Emi. Not all of my friends have posted fic but the amount of world building and having our characters interact and talking OCs ive done with them has placed both Emi and their OCs in a special place for me. Sure her having her own story is fun but I much more prefer the bonds Ive created with people over OCs and I think thats a bit more of a cherished component to character creation for me.

G) What trait of theirs bothers you the most?

Literally? That she likes to be irritating if she feels she can get away with it (or even if she cant). Actually? That she has a very "I shelter you and feed you therefore I make the rules, period." stance on how she takes care of her charge. She lets a lot of shit slide with Camila but things get very Rapunzel-esque at times.

H) What trait do you admire most?

How sure of herself she is. Even if its to a fault, she trusts herself and her judgements. That sort of confidence is something I strive to have haha.

To a lesser degree, and more of a meta point I wanted to make with her, just...her appearance I suppose? To me she's attractive, but she also has a lot of traits that aren't conventionally attractive and that's played a lot into how Ive wanted her to be. Again she's 57 years old. She has age to her body, her skin wrinkles and droops, her tits sag, she has the body of someone who uses chems, and yet despite her age and breaking of beauty standards ive made it a point to show that she is desired or thought of as attractive in non fetish specific circumstances. She herself, while aro, also still has an active sex drive and I really wanted this to be a backseat part of her character, as I feel like fandom in general shafts older women in this department (this also goes for a lot of her non 'old lady' traits I give her too). She still has sexual needs and is still very much sexually active, and she is still found to be a regular sort of attractive and is desired by those she gets involved with.

J) Did you have to manipulate or exclude canon factors to allow them to create their character?

Yes? Ish, to a degree. I didnt have to but I wanted to. I also did a lot of headcanoning with post Mexico for her early life which, afaik is free real estate for lore/nothing super detailed has been given in canon.

Given that she and Camila both shape their stories as individuals, I did have to split up some canon elements to follow two seperate characters, but other than that I really just had to make sure Emilia's story wasnt "boring" in the fact that she again, has no real stake in what happens to Vegas/the Mojave.

I) Do you prefer to keep them in their canon universe?

Cackles in 'which au will I obsess with today'

For the most part yes, however I love placing her in new things or different stories. She may be 'my courier' but really shes just the frog granny that goes into whatever au I am feeling at the time.

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you said yanli x wen qing, so maybe something during their school days?? When WQ treated JYL for her headache/fatigue and JYL realizes that maybe the Wens arent so bad and also that she could be with someone who is actually nice to her?????????

okay okay, i love them so much, thank you for sending this!!! i’m sorry this took so long, I just had to get the vibes right.

Just to preface this: i’m absolutely ignoring yin iron, the war, etc, this is a happiness ONLY world because they deserve it 🥺🥺

* “How’s your headache?”

Wen Qing asks with little preamble– the minute Yanli sits down, she has a cup pressed gently into her hands, warmth seeping through porcelain to chase away the autumn from her fingers. “Gone,” she says, taking a sip and bracing herself to the inevitably bitter tea. Medicine has never settled quite right on her tongue, always too sour, too biting.

This time, though, the sting never comes. Instead, it tastes sweet, it tastes like early spring, and the surprise comes so swift, she can’t quite stop herself from looking up abruptly. Tidying up her desk, Wen Qing falters, bowl slipping from her fingers, and she clears her throat, looking away. “Wei Wuxian told me you found it bitter last time,” she explains, turning her back to Yanli, but her voice carries her familiar unimpressed tone, “so I added honey.”

Of course. “Thank you,” Yanli hides her smile. How very honorable of Wen Qing to go to such lengths to uphold a presumed debt towards her brother: most people would not think of small acts of kindness nor find them important, even if for Yanli, they’re the ones that most matter. “But I hope you know you owe us nothing.”

Wen Qing turns sharply. In the half-shadow from the curtains, her face is unreadable, but something flickers in her eyes, no answer forthcoming. Instead, she continues adding herbs now to her bowl, a green, fresh smell wafting up from her work, “what of your energy? Have you been feeling any tiredness?”

One could almost mistake her directness for rudeness, or even carelessness, but Yanli, who has known Jiang Cheng from birth and her mother around her father, knows better. When she takes the cup, their fingers brush, gentle as falling snow. When she examines her pulse, Wen Qing is careful not to startle her. When she tells her to rest, Wen Qing offers her lavender.

When she makes tea, Wen Qing adds honey.

No matter how suspicious the rest of the disciples regard the Wens, Yanli has seen Wen Qing kneel by her brother’s bedside, has seen her cry in worry, and has seen her threaten Wei Wuxian with her needles, hiding a smile in her sleeves when everyone’s backs are turned.

Wen Qing walks her back to her room, steps light as lotus petals, voice flowing quiet as a river’s murmur, and all the while, somewhere near her heart, something warm and radiant takes root.

*

“I thought,” a voice pierces the stillness, startling Yanli into nearly dropping her basket, “I told you to rest.”

The trees shade them from the mellow sun and paint Wen Qing in deeper burgundies among the greenery. Yanli smiles. “Apologies, Wen-guniang,” she takes in her stern expression, the little pinch between her eyebrows, and wonders if it would cause offense to reach up and smooth it out. “We didn’t have lectures and the day was so beautiful…”

“So you decided to ignore a doctor’s advice,” Wen Qing narrows her eyes just slightly, glaring at the basket as if deeply offended by it. Inside it, the lychees and apples sit idly, shiny and colorful, “and carrying weight too, I see.”

Yanli tries to hide her laugh into her sleeve, hitches the basket up, too warm, too content, to feel properly guilty. “You could always join me– wouldn’t it be better, then, if I wasn’t wandering off alone?”

Hesitancy crosses her face in an uncharacteristic feat. Wen Qing seems to be debating with herself whether to storm off or not, a thundercloud in the clear weather that is swept away with the wind as quick as summer rain. Her expression settles. She storms forward instead, taking the basket with a gentleness that belied her previous warpath. “You shouldn’t be straining yourself.”

A lychee rolls off to the floor, flattens a path in the grass. Yanli picks it up, says, “I’m not so fragile.”

Wen Qing’s gaze is scorching the side of her face, steady and sunkissing-intense, but Yanli looks resolutely forward, even as they start walking again, even as Wen Qing speaks up, quiet and certain, “no, you’re not,” she walks at her side, sleeves brushing with every breath, “but I’m your doctor. Can you blame me for worrying?”

“Are you?” What? Worried? Her doctor? Yanli ducks away, hoping to hide the heat she feels spreading across her cheeks, and privately startles at her own lack of answers.

Thankfully, Wen Qing doesn’t ask her to elaborate, merely scoffs. “Of course I am your doctor. How many times have you consulted with me?”

Yanli laughs again, picking a lychee off the basket. Vaguely, she wonders if she’s reading this wrong, if they are not friends after all, but Wen Qing has yet to move away, to further the inches between them so their hands wouldn’t brush, so their steps wouldn’t tangle in the grass.

“Maybe we should stop for a moment,” Wen Qing places a hand in her arm, soft and steady, but does not look directly at her. Instead, her eyes slant to a tall cherry tree a few paces off the path, its overreaching branches casting a long shade in the earth.

If she’s being honest, Yanli is beginning to tire. Cloud Recesses is colder than Lotus Pier and the chilled air pierces her chest like pinprick needles. It’s distracting. It melts like snow in the sun when Wen Qing’s hand lowers to cup her elbow, guide her to the shadowy corner. 

They sit, the basket between them, and Yanli takes care not to stare at her for too long– the late afternoon sun illuminates her profile too well, Wen Qing looks too lovely, it pulls at Yanli as if tied together by a string, tight and unrelenting. “Here,” she says, offering the lychee she’s just peeled. Her fingers are sticky with juice, but Wen Qing looks at the fruit, at Yanli, and her heart catches on fire. 

She takes it as if it’s something precious. “Thank you,” comes the response, prim and proper, and just thorny enough to very nearly send Yanli into giggles. Still, their hands brush. Still, her skin burns. 

Still, Yanli picks another lychee.

It’s not yet blooming season for the cherry tree and the leaves cling thoughtfully in their branches, and they sit in the shade, sharing lychees and apples and peaches, time dripping away sugary sweet. 

*

Later, when Wei Wuxian asks her, wide-eyed and sweetly unaware, why like someone at all, Yanli takes pity on him and doesn’t question his motives any further, answers him in the only way she thinks it won’t scare him off from Lan Wangji’s lingering eyes.

For once in his life, he leaves it well enough alone and– she’s glad. How do you explain loving someone so much you overflow with it? How to tell him it grows like ivy over your heart, a blooming thing golden and light, hiding behind your core? A yearning happiness so encompassing you ache with it. It’s wonderful. It’s terrifying.

And all the while, Yanli thinks of fingers sticky with lychee juice, the grass brushing her ankles, honey on tea.

*

The commotion with Jin Zixuan stays with her long after the dust has settled.

Guilt swells in her chest– should she argue further for her engagement? Should she not care more about the abrupt breaking? Jiang Cheng thinks so. He’s still fuming over it, long after even Wei Wuxian has cooled off, long after their father has returned to Yunmeng.

Privately, Yanli thinks the anger is just a smokescreen, that maybe breaking off this engagement is a blessing not just for her, but she will not push, not right now. Knowing her brother, it would do no one any good. Instead, she listens to his angry grumbling and pretends not to notice his looking. Jiang Cheng seems to be always looking, these days, eyes following Jin Zixuan as if a moth to a flame. 

He calls it glaring, of course.

This helps, a little, with the guilt and the embarrassment– her mother will not be happy about any of this, not at all, and gossip will run amok between sects, yes, but if it saves her brother the misery, then how can she regret it?

“Jiang-guniang,” Wen Qing’s voice reaches her before she comes into view, leaning against the railing beside her. She doesn’t dare turn to face her, but she feels the warmth of her hand so close to hers.

“Please,” Yanli says in a moment of boldness, words spilling without her permission and falling down to the garden below them, “are we not past these formalities? Call me Yanli.”

It seems to take Wen Qing aback, forcing her to pause, and Yanli watches her blink, a pink glow to her cheeks. “Well, only if you do the same,” she clears her throat, “Yanli, how have you been?”

Yanli shivers. The sound of her name in Wen Qing’s voice– how can it be so different? The way her lips curve around the vowels– she wants it to live there, safely in her mouth, always. Say it again, she almost asks, never stop, never tell me anything else. Instead, “I’ve been well, no headaches, no more tired than one would expect.”

“I meant,” Wen Qing shifts, their fingers brush in the wooden railing. She shivers again. “About your engagement.”

Oh. Finally, Yanli turns, glancing away to the greenery growing over the rocks to catch the tail-end of what must have been a concerned expression. As with looking directly at the midday sun, Yanli burns. “Then I thank you for your concern,” she nods politely, more muscle memory than any real presence of mind, “but there is no need for it. I’m fine, truly.”

Wen Qing hesitates, brow crinkling, leans forward just slightly, as if not even realizing, “forgive me if I overstep, but you seemed upset, earlier.”

“You could never,” she shakes her head, a small smile blooming unbidden, “I was upset to have caused such a disturbance and I admit, his words stung at the time, but– I think, it might have been for the best.”

Something flickers in Wen Qing’s eyes and Yanli wonders how she could have mistaken her as the sun before: it’s as if clouds have parted and the sky has cleared, and Wen Qing is brighter than ever. A constellation made flesh, light given a soul. 

Yanli wonders–

“In that case,” Wen Qing smiles, and it’s the loveliest thing Yanli’s seen in this life, the kind people would go to war for. She would do anything to see it every day until the end of the world. “Perhaps I asked the wrong person. Surely, Jin-gongzi must be distraught– otherwise, if he’s not, then he must be stupider than I thought.”

This startles a laugh out of her, too used to Wei Wuxian to be properly scandalized with the lack of decorum and delighted with the abrupt rudeness. She should not be so amused, she thinks, or so endeared by it, but as with all things concerning Wen Qing, Yanli is helplessly charmed. “Wen Qing,” she chides for the sake of it, just to say it aloud, savoring the name in her tongue, feeling it echo from her heart.

“It is forbidden to lie in Cloud Recesses, after all,” Wen Qing recites, wry and pleased, her eyes twinkling in the moonlight with mischief. It’s one of those things that she seems to keep very close to her chest, and Yanli swells with happiness at being allowed to witness it so freely. 

You could never overstep, she had meant earlier, anywhere you want, I’ll let the light in for you. Maybe this could go both ways. Hopefully. 

“Are you really not heartbroken?” She asks, growing serious once again, seeming to give her one last chance to request a shoulder to cry on. 

“Yes,” Yanli tries to speak with as much confidence as she can, suddenly desperate for Wen Qing to believe her, “we have been betrothed since we were children but it has never been any more than that.”

A nod. “You do not feel sad,” she catches her eye, solemn and infinitely patient. Kind. Gentleness hiding in plain sight if only one cares to look. “Then how do you feel?”

Has anyone asked Yanli this and meant it in such a way? She doesn’t know. Her heart trashes, swallowed by a riptide. “Free,” she smiles, “awake.”

Wen Qing seems to soften in the light. How is it possible they know each other for less than a year? It feels longer. It feels like she’s known Wen Qing her whole life, has been waiting for her. Whatever lies after death, she’ll know her there too. “I’m glad,” Wen Qing says, reaching to cover Yanli’s hand with hers, thumb brushing circles in a soothing heart-stopping rhythm, “you deserve more than that.”

Maybe it’s selfish of her, maybe she is the one overstepping, maybe she is reading this all wrong. Maybe Wen Qing doesn’t mean herself. But– so far, Yanli has hardly dared to want anything for herself. Can’t she have this? If nothing else, this. Her. 

“A-Qing,” she dares, voice quiet with all the other words she wants to say, and reaches for her, feels the silent tremor that travels underneath her palm. Hope. “A-Qing,” she repeats, and Wen Qing is so beautiful, eyes dark and wide, and Yanli never wants her to look away, never wants to say anything else other than her name. Forever, just them. Just their names in each other’s mouths. “What if I wish for more than I deserve?”

Wen Qing breathes, eyes fluttering shut for a moment. “Impossible. You deserve more than this world could hope to offer,” she glances at the moon high above their heads, then back down at Yanli with fierce certainty, “tell me: whatever it is, it’s yours.”

Please, she begs, her. “What if all I wish for is you?”

The words taste like honey in her tongue, and they slip syrupy sweet from her lips, conquering this secluded garden in the Cloud Recesses for themselves and taking residence between the green. Yanli wants to cry, wants to dive in the lakes of Lotus Pier and stay underwater until no one remembers her existence, wants to–

Wen Qing makes a small, wounded sound, and lurches forward, hands shaking like they never do, and she smells like the herbs she crushes to make into medicine, like lavender, and Yanli loves her. “Then you must surely know,” she tells her, voice like a leaf in the wind, “that it’s always been yours.”

A happiness so encompassing, it aches. Yanli is so in love, it spills into the world like rain. “A-Qing,” she says into her lips, and then Wen Qing answers, a whispered A-Li tucked in between a kiss.

[sepublic]

With what Dana revealed about the Blight parents and they arent what they appear to be in either a good or bad way, do you think she's going to reveal that they arent abusive? Because honestly with the whol thing with Willow and Amity's hair, the fact she never felt close to a parent, that she didnt have a place to go and that she still called a teacher Mom are all red flags. Maybe it will be that not both of them are horrible, maybe Mr Blight is also a victim?

           (TL;DR at the bottom)

           Let me get this clear; Abuse is abuse, intentional or otherwise. That it doesn’t matter if you didn’t realize how much you were hurting your loved one (like Emira and Edric), or if you were doing it ‘for their own good’ (Like Camila and Lilith). Emotional abuse is REAL and nothing can justify that, and after seeing the very elitist, almost disgusted way Mrs. Blight regarded Willow? How she’s so quick to blackmail her own daughter and someone else’s kid, and treats it like it’s all fine, implies to Amity that if she’s upset about the situation then she’s just being a silly little kid?!

           This lady is AWFUL, there’s no room for interpretation. Whyshe’s awful and in what specific ways is interesting… But she’s awful regardless. I’m pretty sure Dana was alluding to the Blight Parents having more nuance than anticipated while still being terrible people, just as Lilith had her reasons for cursing Eda but was still a bad person for never telling the truth, supporting the Emperor’s Coven, mistreating Luz, etc.

           In general, if I had to pull together my current read on the Blight Parents, and combine it with my own personal speculation and ideas…

           Mr. Blight seems like the kind of person who’s at least… straightforward and honest about his abuse. Like he doesn’t bother with the pointless, ‘sweet’ façade, acting like he’s oh-so kind and caring, that this doesn’t REALLY matter… He seems rather blunt with his feelings. Like he doesn’t try to undermine your feelings by gaslighting you into thinking they don’t matter, mostly he’s just saying, “They don’t matter to me.” Which is still, like, AWFUL, but…

           Then we have Mrs. Blight, who seems to be actively smiling at Eda’s misery in the flashback; That or she’s smiling at Lilith, but regardless. She comes across as a lot more willfully sadistic, and more intentional of a gaslighter; Someone who makes you doubt yourself by getting into your head, making you question yourself and if you’re right… Really playing it up like she DOES know best, that you’re just a silly little kid, you’ll learn and grow up eventually… It’s so dismissive and condescending.

Like, Mrs. Blight is the kind of person who when called out bats her eyes and is oh-so innocently like, “Oh, me?” As if she never did anything wrong, that at worstit was some mistake or misunderstanding… That you can still LOVE her, because she totally still loves you and always did! And then you start wondering if you were too harsh with your accusations, if you’re assuming too badly of her, that maybe Mrs. Blight didn’t ACTUALLY mean it, maybe you’re just going too far…!

           …Like let’s be real. They’re BOTH terrible. But something about Mrs. Blight rubs me the wrong way… And it’s even MORE aggravating considering how much she looks like Amity and Emira. I suspect that it’s her way of sugar-coating her abuse, dressing it up in a little bow, that REALLY contributed to the Blight Kids internalizing a lot of toxicity without even realizing it, and thus transmitting it to one another and outsiders as a result, under the impression that they’re not actuallybeing that bad, right? That if they other doubt their harshness, Mrs. Blight’s abuse undermines that doubt by reassuring the kids that they’re totally in the right and that at worst they’re just misunderstanding things!

           In Lilith’s childhood flashback, Mr. Blight doesn’t really seem to be reacting much.

          He seems mostly apathetic, aloof, and chill about the whole thing… Meanwhile, you have Mrs. Blight who very clearly has a much more willfully malicious smile to her about the situation! Though it’s hard to say what him and his wife were reacting to specifically in that moment, as they can be seen glancing at Lilith, who has just been inducted into the Emperor’s Coven…

          But their expressions could also be hold-overs from their reactions to Eda, who they likely looked down upon for being a troublemaker and defying the Emperor’s Coven in that moment, getting cursed. Knowing Mrs. Blight in particular, she was probably smugly vindicated by the moment; Like this commoner dared to spit on the very values and ideals that nobles like her held themselves up to, and was karmically punished by the Isles for this! Meanwhile she’s looking down proudly upon Lilith for actually ‘knowing her place’, for ‘learning to be one of them’, for ascending past her lowly peers and whatnot… You get the idea.

          Given the way Mrs. Blight was smiling at Lilith in that flashback, I have to wonder if in general she approved of Lilith was one of those few ‘humble beginners’ who became acceptable for the Blights to hang around, which coupled with her status as Belos’ head enforcer, led to Amity being her apprentice…

          Though I have to wonder how Mrs. Blight reacted to the Covention Incident and what Amity had to say, especially since she knows firsthand that Lilith and Eda –sort of- had their feuds in the past? I wouldn’t be shocked if she believed Amity about Lilith resorting to the Power Glyph, but still punished her daughter anyway because she’s an abuser…

          So, when you combine this with what we’ve heard from Dana herself, about the Blight Parents appearing in multiple ways that could be ‘good or bad’ for our protagonists, and Mr. Blight being an interesting person to write for…

          …I think it’s likely that Mrs. Blight was born into the family. She’s the one who has power, given how she dictates that Amity have green hair like her… She definitely has the more elitist look to her in childhood, and her VA was specifically mentioned as a guest-star and everything!

          (Getting into some baseless speculation, we know the Abomination Head can’t be the Blight Parents as they were appointed when the Coven System began, when clearly the Blight Parents were kids in its earliest years… Dumb idea, but the Abomination Head’s hair is tied back in a bun, like Mrs. Blight…?)

          So in all likelihood, Mrs. Blight is probably the one who wields the power in the family, and I have to wonder what her husband thought of it when she prioritized making Amity look like her, in the process removing the main visual connection his daughter had with him! Did he have any doubts, did Mrs. Blight have to reassure her husband that it was all in good-nature, that surely he understood as an outsider? Or…

          In Amity’s flashback, Mr. Blight specifically states that Blights only associate with the strongest of witchlings. If he did marry in as a technical outsider, this would obviously be a very conceited thing for him to say, that he considers himself worthy and strong enough to have joined the family… But after seeing his generally aloof expression, slightly unruly hair, and what Dana said? Amidst my observations of Mrs. Blight having the power, and Mr. Blight seeing more like an enforcer what his wife has to say?

           …I have to wonder if Mr. Blight was like, perhaps. The FIRST person that his wife abused and began to take control of. Like, Mrs. Blight WAS interested in him as children because Mr. Blight was genuinely charming and also pretty strong… But somewhere along the way, she used her greater social status to be in charge of him. Maybe Mrs. Blight began dictating how her significant other acted and behaved, to make sure he was ‘worthy’ enough to be a member of the Blight household. And while some of this could’ve been motivated partially by a genuine desire to see him fit in with her, as well as her own conditioning…

           …It’s still kind of an awful way to treat your beloved. Maybe Mrs. Blight intentionally abused and gaslit or him, or maybe Mr. Blight was always used to being in a position taking orders from her, out of a genuine sense of loyalty and love… And one way or the other, that twisted into him only caring what she had to say. That to him, his self-worth hinged entirely on whether or not he matched the Blight standard, if his beloved wife would approve…

           Perhaps Mr. Blight was someone who was also indoctrinated into the Blight family, not allowed to become one of them until he changed who he was? Like his relationship with his wife as kids was similar to Boscha and her friends, just sort of a follower who got roped in… But with a dash of genuine love and you’ve got him unquestioningly carrying out her orders, helping Mrs. Blight abuse their children together because can’t you see your beloved mother knows best???

           Maybe he has experience with what they’ve gone through, albeit from a more sympathetic angle from Mrs. Blight… And regardless, to Mr. Blight, he’s someone who survived the abuse and came out better, stronger for it! He knows it’s a good thing and pays off in the end, those children of theirs just need to understand…!

           Because it’s worth noting that he has brown hair. So to Mr. Blight, his wife may be the world to him in a rather toxic sense… That HER lineage matters more, that SHE graced him and his ‘humbler’ backgrounds… I have to wonder if Mr. Blight purposefully cut off ties with the rest of his family to be with his wife, either because his wife specifically demanded it or simply as a side-effect of absorbing her elitist, classist attitudes over time.

           …Like, what if Mr. Blight dyed his hair green, too?! To match with his wife… Like he’s the one always making concessions for her because SHE is the noble Blight, and he doesn’t even realize or consider how toxic it all is; Because to Mr. Blight, he takes a personal pride in serving his wife, because there really IS a genuine love there… But that real love is unknowingly hindered by Mrs. Blight needing to enforce some elitist hierarchy within the family. To Mr. Blight, he’s just repeating his wife’s mantra, he sees himself as serving his rightful place in the world, no doubt thanks to Belos and his Coven System encouraging such a viewpoint…

           And, like. There’s still some genuine, legitimate trust between these two. I wouldn’t be at all shocked if Mrs. Blight had indoctrinated her husband without either of them realizing this, because they were both kids and this is how she’d always lived! But alas, it’s worrying… That too much of his self-worth is directed towards his wife and neither of them consider this, that Mr. Blight would gladly lay down his life for her because she showed him kindness… But he’s still dependent upon her, and conditioned to be so like many others with the Emperor’s Coven!

           I also have to wonder if Mrs. Blight will be an extreme version of Lilith; Someone who legit thinks she knows best and casually gaslights others into doubting their objections without even thinking about it, without even self-reflecting upon it… Like a part of her is willfully ignorant of the harm she’s causing, or she’s taught herself to be outright dismissive of it in the end; Because surely she knows best, right? Perhaps she’s someone who casually steamrolls over what others have to say because while there’s some genuine love and interests she’s also very elitist and patronizing, and was taught that she’s the one who should be in charge.

           Then there’s my speculation, half-joking, on the idea of Luz being wholly accepted into the Blight Family, because look at this clever human who managed to wound Emperor Belos! Clearly she’s VERY powerful… Not to mention, Luz is very friend-shaped! So we could have Mrs. Blight trying to assimilate Luz into the family, dye her hair green, make Luz hang out with her kids more and more…

          And Mr. Blight is just watching it all, and when Luz expresses doubts he pulls her to the side, explains that he understands and empathizes… But then he tells her to keep going with it, because who wouldn’t want to be where he is now? That obviously it’s worth it in the end to be with your beloved Blight… Not for social status or anything, but simply to serve a higher cause, and someone you love.

           So this could be a very ‘twisted’ form of acceptance, kind of like how Lilith initially loved Eda but more the idea of her up until the season finale… Of the Blight Parents wanting Luz, but wanting a specific version of her that’s fully integrated into the family! I can see them using their influence to cut off Luz’s ties with her other friends and family, to make her more entrenched and dependent upon the Blight household…

          And naturally, Eda and Lilith and the rest, have a lot to say! Amity definitely has reservations, she wanted to keep Luz from her parents for this and other reasons… While Emira and Edric possibly take it in stride, because they don’t quite realize what’s going on, or they’re just too thrilled at having Luz be accepted to consider the implications of what’s happening! Maybe they think it’s okay because they can teach Luz how to still be her own person, or they’re just glad to have her and don’t think much of it, because while those two certainly try, they’re not always self-aware of the toxicity their parents passed on.

          Either way, Luz is inevitably going to have to make a stand and insist on still maintaining her own connections and who she is, Amity will stand up for her… And things will get messy, because I REALLY do not want to see the Blight Parents be angry! Maybe the Twins stick up for Luz and Amity or just stay to the side, because they didn’t really see the issue beforehand? Either they’re neutral and/or they take Amity’s side, there’s no story where they side with their parents!

          And, there’s the possibility that. The Blight Parents just REJECT Luz, immediately! And we’ve already seen plenty of speculation on how THAT will go… Such as the idea of them sabotaging Luz’s enrollment at Hexside, even if Belos himself doesn’t care about persecuting her as of the moment.

          TL;DR Mr. Blight was an outsider and got fully-indoctrinated into the Blight family mentality and dutifully serves his wife. While he’s still a victim of toxicity, that doesn’t change the fact that he’s now complicit in it as well, something the show addresses with characters like Lilith or Amity. Mrs. Blight is elitist and definitely more of the ‘mastermind’ who has the final say in things, but whether or not she’s actively, intentionally spiteful or is just devoid of self-awareness (or both), I can’t say!

[thelaudown]

hyouka poly slowburn so its like: (post-anime)

satoshi and mayaka are dating all through highschool and houtarou and eru are maybe a little more invested than friends would normally be, and step in when they have problems to a degree that regular people would call a boundary issue.

houtarou and mayaka still give each other shit at every opportunity, but theyre much more outwardly friendly than before, and if she ever argues w satoshi houtarou is the first to say that theres no way its her fault. maybe one time it is and he confronts her abt it in a way that forces her to take him seriously. its the respect and codependency for me. 

mayaka and satoshi have functioning eyes and houtarous feelings for eru are completely obvious to them. unfortunately shes a little harder to read, so they never really get further than being very close friends and committing to being together for the foreseeable future, as far as this road will take them - its the same dynamic for the entire friend group, but satoshi starts seriously considering a proposal in third year. 

he and mayaka will be seperated through college - she wants to go to art school, he thinks he might like to be a teacher (specifically of like, textiles or language) and he thinks long distance is too much to ask of her. after a serious conversation she agrees and they take a break through college, but they are tentatively engaged, will be keeping in touch, and want to pick things back up once theyre both in the same location again. 

mayaka and eru flat in college, bringing up mayakas long buried feelings for her, and theyve always been so touchy, and she has a feeling that erus guilty about something? but she doesnt want to get her hopes up. she gets really frustrated and confides in the only person who knows both satoshi and mayaka and isnt involved - HOUTAROU, who attends a less prestigious college than eru but is taking similar business courses (he hasnt forgotten) and is commuting from home. 

hes closer to them than satoshi, but theres still a little distance and they dont meet as often as theyd like, partially bc he doesnt often make the effort - the energy he does have is expended on his classes, bc he has a motivation to do well - if he does, maybe eru will consider him without him even putting himself out there. anyway she still calls him on the phone all the time tho. 

he doesnt really have any advice when mayaka speaks to him, but hes quick to reassure her that satoshi wouldnt be bothered by her feelings - "because its eru". functioning adults refer to each other by their first names. it was a super embarassing transition period but theyre used to it now. 

so mayaka takes the leap and eru admits that while shes never really been one to dwell on romantic feelings, she reciprocates but is concerned abt satoshi - she loves him too, after all, and he and mayaka were/are/will be a great couple. she ends up confessing this to houtarou, filled w apologies and assurances that he neednt worry abt her personal matters, but he doesnt mind listening. anyway it stings (in a sad way, not a bitter one) that she apparently has interest in both mayaka and satoshi but not him, but he REALLY cant blame her. he tells her that he doesnt know how to advise her and she thanks him for listening, and then he does probably the most meddlesome thing hes ever done and calls satoshi and tells him everything. 

satoshi is really cool abt it, and hits him w "lol if theyre dating what if i just take you out to lunch. fairs fair. what do you mean you dont know about my massive crush on you, mr observer didnt pick it up? oh wow okay youre really stupid when it comes to yourself. ill pick you up on friday" and then satoshi calls mayaka and gives her his blessing and assures that he loves them both and wishes them the best and wow they REALLY need to catch up soon. hell bring houtarou and they can compare date notes! and he hangs up. 

satoshi is still kind of a petty guy and he probably only confessed to houtarou bc he was taken off guard, but hes not being inauthentic by any means. this is the new improved satoshi 2.0, who is becoming more comfortable w there being things he doesnt like abt himself and working on them and getting his feelings out constructively, rather than pushing them down and refusing to put himself in situations that might turn out badly. he gets his hopes up again, and is happier for it even when hes let down. 

eru is shocked to hear abt houtarou and satoshi. mayaka isnt. they talk abt it, interspersed w making out, and are shocked to realise that they like both of them - mayaka is ESPECIALLY taken off guard, both by her own feelings and erus, which shed never noticed before. she almost tells eru abt houtarous 3+ years of pining, but stops herself lest things get messy. shes starting to get an idea, but needs to tread lightly. besides, its not like houtarou wld ever like her. theyre barely even friends. it doesnt all add up as evenly as shed like. 

for houtarous part, hes genuinely in wtf mode irt satoshis feelings for him, and hes been in eru chitanda hell for so long that he never considered anything else, but now that he IS.... satoshi isnt so bad. he was always really cute w mayaka, when he wasnt being annoying for fun and profit. sure. okay. so they do some gay double dating through college, but the cross couple pining dont stop. satoshi is absolutely still obsessed w mayaka, but houtarou doesnt mind bc he cant take his eyes off eru whenever they meet up either. 

she still calls him on the phone all the time, and when schoolwork picks up he often finds himself calling her w thoughts or questions. they do some more thought exercises, but they dont need to argue as an excuse, and she barely has to badger him anymore. one day he looks at himself and sees a functioning adult who spends a moderate amount of energy on things that arent necessarily necessary, and wants to sigh, but. hes happy. 

college ends and they all find themselves back in kamiyama - satoshi is student teaching at their old middle school, eru is hard at work for her family, mayaka is working while she works on her manga debut, and houtarou is working while he figures out what he actually wants. 

its clear to all of them that mayaka and satoshi need to have a talk, so they do, and they come up with... poly. its unconventional, but they really are happy, and they really do love each other, and mayaka would love to start wearing her ring again (satoshi never took his off, and she pretended not to notice but she had the biggest lady boner over it). 

so now sometimes eru and houtarou are hanging out while their boyfriend and girlfriend are out on dates being engaged, making up for lost time and considering the practicality of marriage while they both have sidepieces, and houtarou and eru are pining BAD, but neither notices the other and he asks how her business is going and maybe kind of offers his assistance platonically. 

so now THATS happening, and satoshi and mayaka get to talking one day abt how those two should date, shld we do smth? and if they did then the only pieces missing are mayaka/houtarou and satoshi/eru which is a beautiful dream but wld never happen, what do you mean he/she wld love to date you, wait really, oh my god, what, are we doing this, 

and houtarou who has been working himself up to confessing for the past SEVEN YEARS, never gets to bc satoshi and mayaka interrupt while theyre at work and do it for him 

[jvzebel-x]

yoshi:pt8, finale.

my baby girl comes home, &it's like Christmas morning.

i'm sobbing into her fur, holding her in the front seat of the car. it's been three days and two storms; she's covered in ticks, she's lost weight, her paws are shredded, she has a cracked tooth, she has blood on her face that isnt her own. my fighting girl comes home.

she comes home alone.

"they got separated." i cant keep the heartbreak out of my voice. every direction feels like a guilty pitfall: i only got the survivor of the two back, and she came home too injured to walk. how can i be happy? when i look down at my trembling, wet, relieved baby girl, the answer echoes: how can i not?

"i need to go look for Yoshi," my Boy says, and stumbles off into the dawn with a blanket, calling for my infuriating, petulant dog. doing the work i should be doing. when he comes back, i'm holding my girl&sobbing: i couldnt tell you which direction i picked, just that i curled up at the bottom of my guilt-trap and stayed there.

"she's home," my Boy says, and he holds me tight.

"we'll get you fixed up," he says, and he's talking to Roxy.

"i love you," he says, because both she&i need it.

we spend all afternoon cleaning her&soothing her, and when she finally lays down to rest, she twitches constantly and growls in her sleep. whenever i pet her to wake her, she startles, then nuzzles as close to my seat as she can get, falls asleep with her head under my hand.

that night, i have nightmares of losing limbs&losing my mind, of eagles&bears&pumas, of a little tan dog who shakes when bacon fries, alone, waiting for me to sing him to sleep. i hear, "dont be so dramatic" on loop, i hear, "the world isnt ending" echo, i hear, "no one dies of stage one cancer" sneering at me from a corner. pills&measurements&questions about my priorities, my beliefs, my motivation.

"you need to take this seriously," says a voice i cant place, and i'm screaming, i am, i am! isnt this a nightmare about my dog?

"youre so selfish," echoes back at me, and i dont know what to do, so dream me curls up&sobs the same way real me would.

"you lie for attention, you always have," and dream me screams, or real me screams, and i know this voice, this time, and i just want to know what else i could possibly sacrifice in hopes of survival, which parts of myself i have left to give before i am too fractured to be human, anymore.

i wake up drenched in sweat&expectations i didnt realize i still had locked away. i wake up shaking from the cold, &pain seizes every inch of my body. i wake up, &the feeling in my hands&feet have gone, a problem my circulatory issues have made common recently.

a heartbeat passes, two, but my fingers twitch, and pain shoots through my body. i havent lost my hands yet, and even with tears streaming down my face, i'm sure i havent lost my feet yet, either. no, i'm still in the clear... but when i look back to smile, there arent any golden eyes there to meet mine.

when i look down at Roxy, she's awake&twitching, her huge eyes like black holes staring back at me.

"i know, baby," i sigh and run my hand through her fur.

"i cant sleep, either."

♡

i learn love through the next thunderstorm.

"i hope he's safe," i whisper, and God claps back.

"he's so afraid of thunder," i squeeze my eyes shut, but God still claps back.

"i just hope he found someone to keep him safe," and my whole body moves with the sob, but God only claps back.

♡

it's been three months, and i miss him more now than i did when i first started writing these all.

[stingroy]

Who do you think was the mist immoral character of Moral Orel Clay or Censordoll? Do you think there were evil characters in the show or were they just flawed people trying to do what they perceived as the right thing?

THIS POST IS LONG BEWARE

im bias but clay all the way

if ms censordoll was a real person i would despise her, but in the show shes really fun and interesting to watch imo! of course i dont condone book burning and censorship i just think shes a good character to critique and make fun censorship with, plus i love her voice whoever her voice actor is did a great job. to be honest i havent rewatched the episodes where shes a main focal point in a long while so i need to refresh my memory before id be able to really form a strong opinion on her that i would stand by firmly

clay is an abusive addict with no interest in anyone else but himself, he has no agenda other than to get drunk and be miserable. i mean maybe he’s “invested” in teaching orel because he’s his only (legitamate) son but then... nature still happened. clay often talks about how hes distant from his family on purpose and doesnt care about them so i dont think he really gives that much of a shit all in all. i know he had a difficult childhood (yet another episode i need to rewatch (its been years), im on s2e3 so i still have a ways) but it doesnt justify like anything he does. cool motive still murder yknow? clay reminds me a lot of my religious alcoholic estranged father so i DEFINITELY have a personal bone to pick with clay cuz ive been there.

when it comes to whether the townspeople are evil, i feel like that question really lies at the heart of the show, not just for clay and censordoll but almost everyone in moralton (cept for orel of course). i could go into that concept for the next seventeen years so i wont right now but i think between the both of them at least censordoll probably thought she was doing the right thing for the people in her town. not that anything she did was actually right, but organizing all those daily pickets and book burnings must take some effort, right? someone who didnt care at all wouldnt go through the trouble. she seems to like genuinely care about moralton being righteous, even if her idea of righteous media is completely skewed and wrong. i wouldnt call that evil, horribly misguided and incorrect definitely but evil? im not really sure.

again tho its been a while so my opinion might change as i run thru s2 and 3 again, and im really starting to consider that if censordoll was a real person i probably would consider her to be evil but that might be more of a comment on my thought processes and perception of people than censordoll herself... lol

i dont know if clay even thinks he’s doing the right thing by orel truly. i think somewhere deep inside past his addiction there is someone in there trying to do something for orel, trying to keep him on the right path in a weird and terribly unfortunate way. clay has made it clear through his actions that he will not engage with parts of his family that he doesnt care about (cough bloberta and shapey cough), and he seems to always make time for orel. whenever orel needs to talk to him, clay is around to give his lessons and “guidance”. maybe thats just because his lessons are a crucial part of the show, but i think that shows. some effort? some acknowledgement? that he doesnt show to anything else other than drinking.

unfortunately clay is a sick motherfucker. he’s so rooted in his own trauma and addiction that he cant see anything other than his own pain. and i do absolutely sympathize with that, ive dealt with my own traumas and addictions and you lose sight of who you are and what you value. sometimes people can get to the point where they lose everything they love other than the bottle, and then they die and lose that too. its a disease, and its absolutely not someones fault that they have an alcohol problem.

but clay gives into himself. he makes no effort to change his situation, bloberta even brings this up in s1ep10 when theyre arguing about shapey’s breastfeeding. she tells him to quit his stinkin dead end job and stop being such a crybaby and you know what shes mean af but shes right! all clay does is wallow around and drink because hes miserable and stays miserable because he drinks. he numbs everything out instead of changing his life for... convenience? image? fear? probably a combo

my real problem with clay is that he hurts people because he is hurt. thats where my sympathy dies and i no longer really care about his motivations and trauma. i think nature is the clearest example of that, but clay hurts orel throughout the show. like damn he literally beats the kid with a belt in 90% of the episodes. its just not justifiable to me at all.

i will say one more thing that clay does that i think really says something about him. everytime orel does something wrong, clay takes him to his study, beats/spanks him with the belt (we never see it so who knows how severe it is), and then talks to orel. and orel LISTENS. ALWAYS. clay doesnt have to beat orel to punish him, orel has such a strong sense of loyalty and obiedience that his true punishment is his fathers disappointment. orel always listens to what clay says without question, and clay still finds it nessecary to beat him. it makes me think that clay gets something else out of that interaction like vindication, stress relief, or something of that nature. its cruel, and its selfish. its like beating a dog. you dont have to do it to make him listen to you, so why do it? probably for a reason other than discipline.

clay and censordoll are obvs the two people we’re talking about but a lot of people in moralton do bad things for the sake of righteousness and goodness. like i said a bit earlier i really do think that question is The Big Question of the show, and i feel like many people will have varying opinions based on their own morals and life experiences. the intricate motivations and values of each of the characters in moral orel is one of the things that makes the show so great and so interesting that here i am writing a long winded “analysis” on it on tumblr a decade after it was released.

WOW i completely derailed myself and started rambling for seven hours but!!!

tl;dr clay is a bitch and the people of moralton arent inherently evil monsters but i sure do have my problems with them

[ravenaveira]

Just wanna clarify a few things after my long review/rant at the end for KH3 Re:Mind

My comments about the Sokai stuff I stand by, but I wanna be clear because I see Sokai shippers claiming antis complained about the lack of Sokai for it to be a believable relationship and now that Sokai has more moments we’re complaining about them shoving Sokai down our throats.

I cant speak for all antis on this, so I’ll be strictly speaking for myself on this issue and anyone else who feels similar to me. Warning it gets long again so be ready.

Yes Im one of those antis who complained about the lack of Sokai which made it underdeveloped and unbelievable, and yes I am also complaining about them now shoving Sokai down our throats.

Why? because Kingdom hearts is not a romance, and throughout every single game so far romance has taken a severe back seat and handled very subtely. For example Sora’s drawing in the cave of him giving Kairi the Paopu fruit, Riku teasing him about wanting to give one to Kairi, Sora saying hes always with her and promising to come back for her, Roxas calling Kairi ‘the girl he likes’ etc

All these moments were very short, subtle, and to the point. It was not a primary focus nor was it blatantly shoved in your face like

I mean in almost EVERY shot they were together Sora was holding her hand, which isnt something he usually does? keep in mind Sora and Kairi’s feelings have been known to eachother since KH2 and Sora still didnt behave the way he is now. He was always very awkward and uncomfortable/shy when it came to romance.

In KH2 Sora didnt hug Kairi, nor did he hold her hand, it was KAIRI who initiated the hug out of relief and happiness to see Sora again and that hes ok. Sora did not show the same sentiment and treated her like he always has, just casually walking up to her and just nonchalantly saying ‘You are different Kairi, but Im just glad your here’ as if she wasnt kidnapped and being held hostage this entire time. He should have showed the same concern for her as he did for Riku and Kairi for him but he did not, he just said that and then turned away and apologized.

But in KH3 Sora/Nomura pull a complete 180, Sora hugs Kairi to shield her from Terranort with his body instead of pulling out his keyblade and blocking his attack. Him hugging Kairi there was not only stupid, but it doesnt even defend her, Terranort will just kill Kairi AND him now. That was just a forced out of place Sokai moment for the sake of shoving a Sokai moment that was completely unnessecary and could of easily had the same impact by having Sora do the common sense thing and BLOCK with his keyblade like he did for Riku when they were in THE EXACT SAME SITUATION.

See the difference? good, then I need say no more.

This is only one of many situations where they would shoehorn in a Sokai moment that was completely out of place, didnt make any sense, or just forced in trying way too hard to convince you how much Sora cares for Kairi and how much they love and want to be together forever etc etc

Another example being when everybody ‘dies’ in the keyblade graveyard being swept away by heartless. Sora only loses his mind and breaks down emotionally after Kairi is the last one swept away, he then says the most inconsiderate line he could have ever said.

He says this while RIKU IS RIGHT THERE BESIDE HIM, even if you were arguing he was just speaking figuratively thats still no excuse, he was NOT alone but at that moment he just completely disregarded Riku as if his presence there was the same as being alone.

Not only that but seconds later he does one of the most out of character things for him.

Sora just WATCHES Riku risk his life holding back the heartless to protect him and Sora just WATCHES him fighting off this huge horde of heartless BY HIMSELF and not ONCE does Sora make ANY attempt to get up and help Riku despite knowing his life is at risk trying to hold them back alone.

Even if you wanna argue Sora was in shock, when has that ever stopped him before!? when have you EVER known Sora to just sit back and watch his friends put their lives in danger and NOT help them?

What makes this worse is thats not even the first time he does it, he sits back and watches AGAIN as Axel gets bodied right infront of him just to have him exhausted next to Kairi because you know, Sora’s never fought strong opponents and gotten right back up to protect his friends before.

Remember Terranort? Sora was overpowered by him and still made the effort to run over and hug Kairi to shield her from his attack, but Axel and Riku? nah just gonna chill and watch. This is BEYOND out of character for Sora.

When Axel told Sora to hurry and save Kairi, who was being held hostage by the organization and was in danger, Sora refused to leave him and stayed behind to help him fight. Sora chose helping Axel over Kairi, he put saving his enemy before his own friend/love interest.

When Neku betrayed him, Sora still helped and protected him when he was in danger

When Riku stole his keyblade and Donald and Goofy followed him and left Sora behind, yes Sora was discouraged but when he saw Beasts determination to save Belle no matter what, it encouraged Sora to do the same for the people he cared about

I could go on but you get my point, Sora saw Riku risking his life, literally dying and he did NOTHING, try to justify that all you want but that was incredibly out of character and was obviously put there to show how losing Kairi broke him.

I know your probably gonna argue it wasnt just Kairi it was everybody, and to that I say this, if it wasnt just about Kairi why didnt Sora snap when Ven and Axel got bodied? he froze for a few seconds but then snapped out of it thanks to Riku. After that everybody gets swept away, but the game made sure to put EXTRA emphasis, slow motion and all, to Kairi and Sora reaching out to eachother and then Kairi being swept away by the tide.

THATS when he snaps, if it truly werent just about Kairi they wouldnt have made sure to put emphasis on her being swept away, EVERYONE would have gotten the same treatment if it were truly their deaths also that made Sora fall apart. Im not saying he wasnt upset or heartbroken over them, Im pointing out how they made sure to single out Kairi as the most DEVASTATING loss out of all of them.

Yet again, he has Riku one of his closest bonds if not the closest right beside him yet he doesnt even acknowledge him? he says hes alone even though Rikus right there? you cannot justify that as anything other than downplaying Riku to boost Kairi up.

You do not see the other trios treated this way, every trio has equal focus for ALL of them and even the romantic hints for some of them [Roxas/Xion, Terra/Aqua, technically Namine/Repliku] have all been treated equally and did not feel forced or out of place but very natural and they still made sure to focus on the friendship bond between them overall.

Axel doesnt get played down in importance to Roxas just to boost Xion up, their friendship and bond with eachother are equally important to one another despite whatever ‘romance’ there might be. Same applies to Terra and Aqua, Ven is not played down in importance to them. As for Namine and Repliku they arent a trio but their romance was still handled well and it didnt overshadow their platonic bond or attempt to play down the real Riku or vice versa to boost the other, Namine was equally important to both of them.

So balancing romance and friendship CAN be done in their trio, but for some reason Nomura insists on pitting one against the other and playing down one over the other, in Sokai’s case thats Riku, which is an insult to his and Sora’s bond. The same way Sokai shippers felt the over-focus on Sorikus bond was a disservice to Sora and Kairi’s bond, its the same issue.

But lets get back to Re:mind because besides a few bad moments, overall KH3 was atleast passable with the Sokai nonsense. Then comes Re:Mind and oh boy...the damage control was strong in this one.

Again as I said earlier the Sokai moments in this game were very forced and out of place and in many ways out of character for Sora.

For starters the excessive hand holding, why? to convince us their a thing? but Sora suggests otherwise

Even after all the excessive hand holding, the hugs, the forced moments etc, in the end Sora still calls Kairi a friend. After aaaaall the forced Sokai bs they shoved down our throats Sora still friendzones her, which is it Nomura? you either want them together or you dont, stop playing games and pick a side already.

Dont get me wrong Im glad he hasnt made it official yet but after all this its like enough is enough, either follow through or cut this shit out and go back to being subtle like before.

Another huge insult was Sora constantly saying how his journey started with Kairi, since when? I remember Sora losing Kairi AND Riku that day not just her. I recall Sora not going back to Destiny Islands with Kairi BECAUSE he wanted to continue his journey to find Riku, but apparently in Re:mind it was just all about Kairi, nothing about his journey involved Riku no it was only Kairi that was his main motivation, gtf outta here man.

You can say something over and over but that doesnt make it true, Sora’s journey started with BOTH of them, lets stop playing down Riku’s importance to once again boost Kairi up.

That hug when Sora finally reunited with Kairi after restoring her was so obviously trying to make up for all the years of people complaining about Sora’s lack of reaction to Kairi in KH2 in comparison to Riku, so having him hold her for several seconds floating in the sky should rectify that right? you believe he cares about her now right? fuck off man. If your gonna do damage control than atleast dont make it so obvious that thats what your doing because then it comes off disingenuous, forced, and fake.

But my biggest issue is the ending where they really shoehorned Sokai where it didnt belong, literally stalking everyone else with the exception of returning Namines heart and Sora helping to reunite Chirithy with Ventus. But in Twilight town, why were Sora and Kairi there? they werent with Roxas but just sitting above them

Why were they at Mickeys castle? again their just in the background sight seeing.

These scenes were completely unnessecary and completely out of place and made the ending WORSE rather than better. Why? because these are Sora’s final hours ALIVE whether you argue only for a day or a couple days, in all of these ending scenes only one thing matters to Sora and thats Kairi.

Before we assumed everything that was shown all happened the same exact day and we didnt see Sora with any of them. But now we have confirmation Sora WAS there yet he only spent his last remaining time with Kairi in the background while quietly stalking everyone else? even if he didnt spend time with anyone else, he should have spent his last remaining time with Kairi AND Riku, after all hes his best friend and would like to spend what little time he may have with Sora too but we dont see any of that. Hell this contradicts Soras own danm words to Chirithy prior to this.

Instead of just shoehorning a bunch of Sokai in the background why not show the three of them FINALLY all together again like the old days? this is wtf Im talking about. We saw ALL the other trios together but the Destiny trio? hell naw fuck Riku lets have Sora spend all his remaining time with Kairi, thats the only one who REALLY matters here. After being separated from eachother constantly, now they finally have the chance to be together again and spend time together as friends and they DONT.

Instead Sora decides to take Kairi around the worlds hes visited, something he said he wanted to do with Riku as well, and just spend all his remaining time with her, even though in the base game before the final battle Sora was concerned why Riku was all alone and not spending time with them together. But here? nah fuck Riku. I remembered how important it is to share moments with friends only applied to Kairi.

So personally idc that theres more Sokai moments, my problem is the execution. It doesnt feel genuine, it feels forced and awkward and just doing damage control to pander to the rabid fanbase thats been screaming for this type of content for years, well congrats, you got it.

My problem is Kingdom Hearts was never about romance, it was always subtle and not shoved in your face, it felt natural and not forced and like there was atleast SOME heart behind it, but this? just felt hollow and forced.

Just stop, Im glad in the end Kairi just sleeps for a whole year and probably still will be sleeping when the next game comes out and the focus will shift to Riku and his search for Sora along with the other keyblade wielders doing their part as well.

So Im thankful it seems like we’re done with this crap and getting back to what ACTUALLY matters and what people really wanna see from this series.

Notice how nothing in either of my posts had to do with Soriku as a couple but about their bond as friends, enough said.

So dont try to twist this into just being about pairings because its not, its about what this series has always been about being forgotten for the sake of a fucking trash ship that nobody cares about besides rabid shippers and Sora’s bonds with his other friends being completely thrown out the fucking window to shorehorn in a bunch of unnessecary Sokai moments as a desperate attempt to convince people that these two love eachother which at this point if you have to try so hard to CONVINCE people of your pairing its obvious your doing a very shitty job at it.

Im done, this is my last long post about this for a while but I really needed to get that all out there since nobody else seems to be calling it out for what it is. My anger and frustration is still very fresh and it shows so I really need to stop talking about it because at this point? Re:Mind just ReMinded me why the Destiny trio is the worst out of them all, it is the most unbalanced and quite frankly feels more like Riku is a third wheel at this point and not even a part of the trio anymore. Before Kairi, it was always Sora and RIku yet hes the one whos being pushed aside and forgotten about in all this. That pisses me off.

So Im done with this topic, I need to cool off for the next couple of years till the next game comes out where hopefully Kairi stays asleep the entire time and NOT ruin another game.

[mylovelysanshine]

for you; choi jongho

just for you, he would do anything no matter what.

g: fantasy, action, fluff, angst??

inspired by stray kids' i am you and monsta x's fighter.

[1]

jongho!

jongho perks up, looking at your figure making your way towards his direction. he blinks as you stopped your tracks, standing infront of him.

what?

you huffed, rolling your eyes before pinching his ear hard.

what? what?! look at you! didnt i told you to stop fighting?! why are you so stubborn?!

you said, frustration coming off from you as you continued pulling his ear.

y-y/n!! jongho screams in pain, hands trying to pull off yours from his ear and you decided to let go before placing your hands on your hips. you looked at him, raising one of your eyebrows; asking him the reason behind his actions as you wait for him patiently.

jongho closed his eyes and sighed, he has nothing to hide from you because you know that he's lying if he tries to so he decided to answer. instead of ignoring like he used to.

...they were talking bad about you again and i dont like that

your face softens, listening to his words attentively before sitting down infront of him. you cupped his face gently, as if its fragile. he slowly opened his eyes, embracing the beautiful gaze of yours as your breathe tickled his face. his heart started to race after realising how close the both of you are.

jongho, you know you should ignore them. i always told you that! they're not worth our time! im used to this, its alright!

you took a deep breathe, calming yourself down before continuing but got cut off by someone's voice.

choi jongho!

both of you looked at the direction where the owner's voice was, seeing jongho's mother angrily walking towards the both of you. yanking your hands away from him, pulling his arm up.

where have you been?! didnt i told you not to hang out with this weird girl?!

seeing his mother screaming at your best friend makes you scared; because you're seeing red aura covering her whole body.

red.

danger.

evil.

jongho rolled his eyes internally before looking at you, seeing your face turns into fear. curiousity got him but his mother pulled him away before he was about to question you, leaving you alone.

jongho slammed the door shut, anger building off him. he got an arguement with his mother because of you, because of how weird and dangerous you are, thinking you are someone evil when you're not.

he didnt understand why people dispised you, even your parents. they called you names, described you as a whole different person and neglected you whenever you try to make friends or helping them when they were in need.

because someone like you,

whose heart like yours is never the same as anyone else in this world

heart so kind that its so unreal

so unreal that people whose heart is not like yours, decided to hate you for being kind

and you deserve to be protected and loved from this cruel world at any cost and jongho is willing to do that for you.

so, jongho decided to go out and went to find you, ignoring his mother's questions to him.

you're in the forest.

the forest that the king forbids anyone to go to because of rumours of a dangerous monster in the forest that will attack you either in the day or night

but your feet brought you here unknowningly.

you looked around, looking for ways to get out from this place until your eyes landed on a mysterious cave. curiousity got you as you took little steps towards the cave, harsh cold wind touching your skin even though the weather is hot. voices could be heard from the cave but it wasnt clear for you to understand and before you could fully stepped in, someone pulled you by your arm.

the stranger spun your body around, shouting at you are you out of your mind?! you're going to die if you go in there!

you tilted your head, a surprised look on your face you care?

what do you mean? the stranger furrowed his eyebrows, confused over your question

you..you took a step forward, making the stranger pull his arms away from you and taking a step back ...care about me?

he looked at you, observing your facial expression; genuine happiness glowing out on your face, also not to mention how cute you are. he shook his thoughts off and coughed a little, not wanting to think too much about it.

...yeah? and what about it?

you squeled, jumping up and down someone finally cares about me! im going to tell jongho about this!

the stranger didnt say anything, staring at you as he was weirded out by your sudden attitude. you stopped, realising that you were too hyper infront of a stranger who doesnt know you.

well...uhm...im y/n! sorry about that, this is my first time knowing that someone cares about me other than my best friend.. you confessed, looking down as you were feeling embarrassed to tell someone about your feelings when you know the people whom you talked to didnt care about you. his expression softened when he heard that from you, why would people ignore you like that? but then he realised that you are y/n he's talking to, the most talked about and hated in this village.

it was silent for a moment before you break it.

hey san?

yeah? san replied before looking at you with his wide eyes wait, how do you know my name?

you laughed and san feels like he's listening to a beautiful melody everyone knows you! you're a prince, san you replied, smiling widely as your dimple popped out, making his heart beat faster than usual.

o-oh.. that's all he could say

you smiled and san swore he could see the galaxy around you so san, what are you doing here?

the both of you talked for a long time, not knowing that the day has already passed but it didnt matter for the both of you. the both of you shared your stories to eachother, your hobbies and many more and it feels like you have a new best friend.

you also learned that san doesnt like his father, you didnt know why but he told you to protect yourself if you ever see him.

run, hide if you ever see him. do not interact with him that was all he said to you about his father and you didnt even question it

then, the both of you decided to seperate your own ways since it was getting late until someone calls your name.

oh? jongho? jongho! you ran to him with glee, jumping at jongho a few meters away from him and giving him a hug but both san and jongho saw is that you were flying.

what are you doing here? you asked, smiling happily and are you okay?

i was trying to find you..and yes, im fine he reassured as he hugs back, smiling at you as messes up your hair before his eyes landed on san, quickly releasing the hug and bows to him prince san!

..so this is jongho she was talking about huh san thought before smiling at him please dont bow! im just a normal person like you

but you're a prince and im just a villager, prince san

but we're both humans, arent we? those are just unnessecary stupid names san said, coming up to jongho as he extend his arm call me san

before the three of you could say another word, heavy rain started to fall out of a sudden.

its raining! quick! into the cave! you shouted as the rain got heavier and heavier

but its dangerous! both san and jongho said at the same time

we have no choice, you idiots! come on!

and so, the three of you ran into the cave, having no choice but to wait in there until the rain stopped. the three of you stepped in, echoes of your footsteps welcoming you three. the three of you are drenched but that didnt worry you, you were worried about how the three of you are able to go back home. not to mention that you were glad that san didnt wear anything fancy today, since the rain has started out of the sudden. you looked around in the cave, seeing nothing but darkness

until you saw a ball of light.

you gasped as your eyes widen. your legs dragging you to the light, leaving the boys alone.

h-hey! y/n! where are you going?! jongho panicked, running up to you as san follows from behind.

...the light! can you see it? you asked, turning around to look at the both of them. they nodded, they can see the light too but why and how is it here? is there someone else in this cave?

questions filled in both their minds for a moment until they got the answer, looking up and looking at eachother.

they forgot that there is a monster in this cave.

you were walking furthur from them, walking towards the light. before they could stopped you, your hands touched the light, making the cave rumble.

it went for a minute and the three of you didnt say a word after it stopped

until a voice came

what kind of a human, who dares to step into my cave?

a/n: hello!!! im back with a new fic!!!hehe i've been wanting to finish this first part of 'For You' !! like a few weeks after i finished 'Lonely' but i was so busy with school and life:,) and i was having no motivation at that time;;;; but i hope that with this new fic, my lovely atiny readers are enjoying this and wants to know more about the story!!! this is my first time doing a fantasy au so please bear with me!!

and sorry if there's any english errors:/ english is confusing zhshjz

[unicyclehippo]

Gosh, you’re so inspiring. I’ve been reading your work and following your blog for a while now. You’ve been helping keep me on track for NaNoWriMo with your posts too haha. I was wondering, do you have any tips for writing dialogue? I’ve done research on how to write it and reread my fav books for inspiration but I always feel my characters are so bland at the end? And then the thought of that is so overwhelming lol. Thank you for listening either way. :)

oh hell Yeah nano buddy !!!

uhh dialogue is wildly difficult for me, i find not-dialogue to be so much easier ! that being said, it’s smth im keen to develop so the two things i usually keep in mind is:

a) people very rarely talk to what they actually want to say.

we have secrets & tact & habits & rituals & messy incomplete knowledge & in jokes with people close to us & history & all of that & people say a lot of stuff by bringing up things they “just thought of” or by inching sideways toward a topic or by making pointed digs about someone being untrustworthy/an asshole/etc but never actually saying too much about what they did (rmbr the time they slashed your brothers bicycle tire? - gd, who does that to a nine year old? - he’s genuinely a horrible horrible man).

& b) this isn’t advice on writing dialogue per se, it’s just smth i keep in mind: listen to people around you. eavesdrop. go to a cafe & listen to two friends talk, or people on a date, or someone skype calling their mum. listen to urself when u talk - what are u leaving out? what are u talking around? why do u do it?

humans arent perfect or even necessarily good at talking. a lot of people don’t talk perfectly. a lot of people don’t talk in the same way & especially it is dependant on who we are talking to & in what context. we um & ah & forget words & drop words we don’t need & make jokes & over describe things we really like or that we think the other person would like. maybe they have a stutter or are very shy or it’s not their first language, etc

//

so take this conversation:

“hey, you awake?”

“no.”

“hm. didn’t realise you were a sleep talker.”

(yawn) “runs in the family.”

“... you know rachael, from the store?”

“... i do know rachael from the store. she’s very pretty.”

“oh yes, i definitely would talk about how pretty another woman is in my marriage bed, that’s what i always think really makes my wife happy. all i was gonna say is that she’s a sleepwalker.”

“know that from personal experience, do you?”

“jesus fuckin—she told me it stopped when her husband of nine years whom she loves very much sleeps in the same bed with her every night but it still happens every time he goes away on trips. and yknow they got a kid,”

“just got one outta the store.”

“picked up a brand spankin’ new laddy.”

“for the low low price of seventeen ninety five you too can have a bouncing baby boy. they eat, shit, and sleep and with new features appearing randomly on the daily like crawling frighteningly fast and babbling like they’re talking to someone but there’s no one there and it makes you think your place is haunted, you’ll never know what happens next!”

“no two babies are the same! this one comes pre-installed with a sensitivity to bees, nature’s hardest worker, and enjoys mischief mayhem and smearing his mushy food all over the walls.”

(laugh) “ok what about their bundle of poopy joy? rachael’s, I mean”

“Hmm? oh yeah, hes just learned to walk, yknow, and he’s started to sleep walk too. they’ve found him all over the place. bathroom. staircase. now that actually runs in the family.”

“Huh. cool, I guess?”

“...are you going back to sleep?”

“i was going to try but i guess it depends on if you’re gonna let me. ... anna?”

“yeah. yeah, go to sleep. sorry.”

“are you going to sleep?”

“of course, yeah.” (a Look.) “im fine, love. it’s not like last time. i just...there are a lot of thoughts in my head right now.”

“you? an over thinker? never would’ve guessed.”

“well i try to dumb myself down for you, y’see”

“you do an incredible job of it.”

“cheers.”

“like, a real bang up job”

“you can stop at any time”

“sometimes i think oh boy this lady has nothing in her head at all”

“you are such an asshole” (laugh) “go to sleep”

“you gonna join me?”

“i think I’m gonna go to the study, actually. read through a boring case and try to fall asleep on the couch, okay?”

“...okay. i love you”

//

so forgive me bc it’s early & i don’t actually have a story for this but the subtext of the conversation is that she has insomnia maybe or she’s too anxious to sleep & her wife is trying to sleep & trying to help her to sleep. but there’s no point in talking about things like “have u tried counting sheep” etc bc this is clearly (hopefully) smth that has happened before & they already know those things don’t work. gentle teasing in place of advice to let her wife know that she knows what is going on, to let her know that it’s okay. because she doesn’t know how to rly help her or what to do

so yeah hopefully this was fun to read & maybe helped? it’s by no means perfect advice, just some stuff i have heard & that i use for my own stories. i also find it helps sometimes if im stuck in a scene to write a stripped down version where they aren’t talking around their problem or secret & see what they might want to say. it helps for getting character motivation clear in ur head so it comes through in the proper dialogue. for the previous convo it might be smth like:

“I can’t sleep”

“What do you need?”

“I don’t know”

“I can’t help you and I’m sorry. I love you”

“I know. I’m going to go somewhere else to not sleep so I don’t disturb you”

//

anyway! have fun nano buddy!! may your dialogue flow easily ! may your characters not fight Too Much as you set them on the page !

[fatrainbowmermaidunicorn]

Girl Back Home (Jimin x You x Jungkook) // Chapter 7

A/N: I would like to thank my first ever tumblr friend @chelseaxliclican for giving me the motivation to continue writing this series. Seriously, I lost my way and all hope to continue and is thinking to just scrap this series but her faith in my ability to continue (and her excitement to when I will update) sparks my inspiration. Thankyou, (for the inspiration and for listenning when I talk about Kookie non stop) I will write a dozen min yoongi stories for you soon <3 

MASTERLIST

"Well, well, well, if it isnt the loving couple," Jungkook's voice which is filled with undeterred sarcasm breaks the silence as he watched the two eats their breakfast at the beachside cafe. Y/N is startled when she sees Jungkook. She didnt expect to see him, especially not here in Busan. Jimin had woken her up with a kiss today, a kiss she didnt expect nor she feel comfortable with, telling her to get ready and that he had planned a special day for her. He brought her to this beach side cafe for breakfast, knowing how much she loves the waffles here. A place where the two of them came often when they were teenagers in love back then, feeding each other and laughing, eating their breakfast with the sweet sound of crashing waves.

But that was then. And this is now. Y/N doesnt know what is her feelings for Jimin anymore. And as they ate in silence, a stark contrast from their usual dates during their teenage years, Y/N's mind drifted back to the man she is sure she loves, and really miss. Although Jungkook had hurt her so badly during their last encounter, Y/N cant help what she is feeling for him. She loves him. She loves Jeon Jungkook. And its going to take a lot more than just hurtful words and bimbo girls clinging onto his arms to stop her from feeling this way.

Still, she needs to talk to him first. To sort out everything that had happened between them. And just as if the stars are listening to her, he is standing right here, in front of her.

"Jungkook?" Her eyes widen. "I'm not dreaming am I?" She whispered more to herself, causing Jimin to furrowed his brows. Does she loves this brat that much? How can she reacts this way when Jimin is right here with her? "Wh.. what are you doing here?" She asks, confused.

"Hmm, you look surprised to see me. I'm guessing you lovable husband didnt tell you then," Jungkook spat out the words husband, sending chills straight to Y/N's bones.

"What is he talking about Jimin?" She turns to her husband who is now poking his pancakes, trying to avert her gaze. "Jimin?"

"He came by last night," was Jimin short answer, cold and silently cursing the younger man.

"And you didnt tell me?"

"You were tired sweetheart. I didnt want to wake you up," Jimin looks at her, trying to explain. Jungkook scoffed at Jimin's terms of endearment and rolled his eyes.

"Yeah Y/N. I guess you were too tired last night to notice I came around. I heard you had a rather busy night," Y/N looks confused at what Jungkook is implying but decides to ignores him. What busy nighy is he talking about anyway? She have more important things to deal with. Like making Jungkook finally talk to her.

"You came last night? I... I swear, I didnt know," Y/N looks at Jimin who is looking at Jungkook with gritted teeth. Jungkook came here to see her? Did he finally comes to his senses and wanted to talk now? Y/N felt a sudden burst of happiness and stood up to reach his hand. Jungkook flinched.

"Dont touch me," he spat. "You are really just a little whore arent you?" He looks at Jimin. "Cant you even control your wife?" Y/N is surprised. What is going on? What is he acting this way? Again? She felt her heart starts to ache again. Is she wrong? Did Jungkook not come here to see her? To discuss things? Why is here then?

"Watch it Jungkook," Jimin warned.

"Whatever. I'm out of here," he starts to walks out to the exit that leads to the beach. Y/N immediately rushed out after him, chasing him on the hot sands. Jungkook had came all the way here, he must have a reason for it and she'll be damned if she didnt hear what he wanted to say.

"Jungkook! Please wait!" Jungkook ignores her and picks up his pace but Y/N starts ro run to catch up with him. She grabbed his arms and spun him around, halting him from walking further away from her.

"Jungkook, talk to me!" She begged. "Please..."

"I have nothing to say to you. Now let go," he growled as he shakes his hand but she tighten her grip.

"No! You came all the way here. You must have a reason!  You must have something to say. Please Jungkook, please talk to me. I need you to talk to me. I know we can work things out. Please Jungkook,"

"Dont touch me!" He yelled in frustration. Looking at the beautiful face that he miss so much, his heart is telling him to just ler go of his pride and hug her and kiss her and tell her he is sorry, that he loves her, and he wants her, but Jimin's words last night kept interfering with his decision, clouding his mind. "I did came here to sort things out but apparently you already did that, didnt you?" Jungkook glanced at Jimin who is standing at the cafe worriedly looking at their direction, with full hatred in his eyes, "with him," he huffed. "You know Y/N, I thought I was wrong to accused you for using me like that. But its only been a week and you are already back with Jimin! No wait, not just back with him, but under him too!" He snickered. "There's really nothing stopping you huh?! Now that I'm out of the picture, you can have your darling Jiminie back,"

Y/N's mouth dropped open in confusion. What is he saying right now? She didnt understand any of it. What made him thinks that she is back together with Jimin? "What are you talking about?" Jungkook just shrugged and starts to walk away but Y/N grabbed her again. "Jungkook, answer me! What are you talking about?"

"You know very well what I'm talking about. Or do you seriously already cant remember with whom you spend the night with last night?"

"What?" Y/N was shocked, finally understanding what Jungkook ks thinking about. What did he see when he came over last night? "Jungkook, I didn-. Jimin and me didnt-" she tried to explained but was cut off.

"Just save it Y/N. Girls like you will never change. I have had enough. Coming here is a mistake!" He turns around and starts to walk away again.

"Jungkook, you have to listen to me!" He shrugged her off and walked away. Y/N is desparate as she stumbled around on the hot sand trying to catch up with Jungkook. "Jungkook please!" But he didnt listen and continue to walk even faster, Y/N finally not able to catch up with him anymore.

"Jeon Jungkook! If you walked away from me now than its over," she calls out after him, desperation clear in her voice as she sobbed, tryimg anything to just make Jungkook stop and listen to her for once. "I'm going to give up on you... on us, forever!"

Jungkook stop and turned back to look at her upon listening to her word, giving Y/N a sense of hope, until he smirked, crashing everything Y/N is hoping for.

"There was never an us Y/N. I have already given up on you a long time ago. Have a great life with Jimin," his words sounded so cold, so heartless, void of emotions that Y/N didnt know if its really the same Jeon Jungkook she fell in love with. With his departing words, Y/N lost all strength in her and collapsed on the sand, luckily Jimin is already running towards her when he saw how agressive Jungkook is shrugging her off earlier and immediately took her crumpled form in his arms and hold her tight in his embraced, letting her cry on his chest.

"Its okay sweetheart. Everything is going to be okay," he shushed her.

"Jimin...it hurts. It hurts so bad," she sobbed. Jimin felt his heart ache to see his own wife crying over another man, but he kept quiet and pats her hair to comfort her. "Jimin... what did I ever do to make Jungkook hates me so much? He said he loves me, but why does he always do this," she keeps on sobbing. Jimin doesnt know how to answer her broken question and just keeps on rubbing her back. A oart of him died to see the love of his life this broken, but another part of him is happy that Jungkook just threw away his chances with her.

"Jimin..."

"Yes baby?"

"Why did Jungkook just assumed we were sleeping together? Just because we are still married doesnt mean I'm that kind of a woman. Why... why does he thinks so lowly of me. What did I ever do to make him thinks that about me?" she wails between sobs, the question came out as a choke after a long silent. Jimin gulped and looked away as his mind drifted back to his conversation with the younger man last night. He is pretty sure what he said last night was what caused Jungkook to assumed such things. Jimin thought back about what happened after their kiss yesterday.

"Hey, look at me," Jimin raised her face, making her look straight at him. "I love you Y/N. You are my wife, my everything. Nothing else matters. No one else matters. Its you and me, just like before," Jimin whispered those words so softly to her, making her sobbed ever more. Those words are what she had missed so much, the words that she has been waiting to hear from him all these years. Jimin looks at his wife, and with every tear that rolled down her cheeks, his heart breaks a little more. I will make it up to you Y/N. I promise. He promised himself and leans closer, capturing her soft lips with his, and for the first time since they meet again, Y/N let herself  drowned in him.

Y/N savoured the feel of his soft lips as it moves against hers, every feeling and emotions she once felt towards her husband came back. She feels Jimin starts to carressed her cheeks and move lower to the strap of her dress as he finally calls out her name.

"Y/N..."

Y/N immediately snapped back to reality, remembering that she is kissing her husband who left her for years without any communication, her husband who is publicly engaged to another girl, her husband who broke her heart, her husband who sabotage her relationship with someone she actually love. Y/N immediately pushed him away.

"Y/N... what's wrong?" Jimin asks, eyes wide and confused.

"I cant do this. This is wrong,"

"Y/N, I'm your husband and I love you. There no other thing more right than being with me," he plead.

"No, I cant do this. You broke me Jimin. I dont love you. I cant love you. Not anymore,"

"Y/N... please,"

"I cant. I'm sorry," she start to tear up.

"Why wont you give me a chance?" Jimin plead, holding both of her hands tight. "Its because of him isnt it? That fucking maknae brat?" Jimin sneered his name.

"Dont call him that..." Y/N's voice is soft, tears starts to collect in her eyes.

"You cant love him Y/N. Not after everything he did and say to you," Jimin kneeled in front of her seatrd form. "I love you. I love you so much Y/N. I know you think you loves him now, but I will show you. You belong to me and I belong to you. You are mine, and we are going to be happy again. I will never ever let you go," his voice filled with a warning and determination, making her shiver as he got up and leave the house.

Jimin didnt come back until late at night, when she has already fallen asleep. He made himself comfortable on the sofa, stripping off his dirty clothes, leaving him only in his boxers and coveres himself in a blanket. As he toss and turns, trying to fall asleep, someone knock on the door, and that's when he came face to face with Jungkook.

Jimin sighed as the memories flooded his mind. He didnt do anything with Y/N last night although he tries hard to make Jungkook believes otherwise. He just wanted to riled the young man up and to make him stay away from his wife. He cant believe Jungkook's love for Y/N is that weak, believing everything he said in a blink of an eye, without a single doubt. But he also didnt think that he could be this immature, breaking Y/N's heart again when its clear she is willingly giving him one final chance to redeem himself.

"I dont know why Y/N. I dont know why he acts that way. I guess... it is just who he is. I guess he dont really love you like he claimed he did," Jimin speaks softly against her hair. "Its better you know now sweetheart. Now you can move on from him. You finally see him as who he truly is. But I'm here Y/N. Remember that, I'm always here for you. You wont be alone anymore."

I'm sorry for doing this Y/N. I know you love Jungkook and I know what he did hurts you. I'm sorry for lying to him, making him act and say those things to you. But its just something I have to do because I love you. I dont want to lose you again. I wont ever let you go ever again. Jimin thought to himself as he held her tight.

"I'm done Jimin. I'm done crying over him," Y/N suddenly interrupts his thoughts. "He walks out on us, and its time for me to give up. I'm tired of fighting alone anymore. I'm not fighting for something that clearly doesnt want to be fought for," her weak words muffled through his thin shirt.

"Okay Y/N. Whatever you need to do, I will be here with you every step of the way. I promise. I will be here for you. I'm never leaving you again," he said softly and kissed her forehead.

/////

Days after Jungkook's visit went better for Jimin. Y/N doesnt talk about the younger man anymore and although he knows she is still far from forgiving him or taking him back, at least Y/N is acknowledging his presence in the house now. She even invites him to her morning walks with Cusco sometimes, and although she dont talk to him much, Jimin just enjoys the way she rans around the sandy beach with her dog, the wind sweeping her hair as she smile looking at the beautiful sky. Jimin had never felt happier and he wonders why did he ever left her in the first place.

But every moment has its ends and soon enough Jimin has to return to Seoul due to his schedule, and of course, dealing with Hara. Jimin had a thought to bring Y/N back with him but he knows she will never in a million years agree to that. She is still broken and she still hasnt forgiven him, and its fine. He will give her all the time she needs. Jimin's mind drifted back to Hara.He planned to tell it to her straight ahead, like ripping off a band aid. He thought he loves Hara before but he was wrong. Hara is just a victim in his stupidity and now he has to break her heart. He knows it will kill her, Hara loves him too much, but Jimin is willing to break a million heart as long as it means that he will get Y/N back. He knows now, what he felt with Hara is infatuation, and lust, but not love. Never love. Love is what he felt everytime when he looks at Y/N. He smile at the thought.

I cant wait until we will be happy together again Y/N. I will bring you to Seoul and I will buy you a big house with a large yard just so Cusco and our kids can play around one day. I will announce it to the world that I belong to you and I love you and we will live happily together forever.

"I have to go back to Seoul,"

"Okay," Y/N answered, void of emotions.

"Will you be okay? I promise I will be back the minute my schedule premits me. And I will call you everyday and-"

"You dont have to Jimin," she cut him off. "We are no longer lovers. We are just husband and wife on papers, nothing more. I dont need you to do all that, so stop acting like you care. I'm used to being alone. Just do whatever you need to do. You dont even need to come back," she answered as she continues to clean the kitchen, not even bothering to turn and look at him. Jimin shifted his weight on his foot nervously.

"I love you. I know you still dont believe me. But I love you. I will be back before you know it," he kissed her forehead, making her flinched before he makes his exit.

/////

"Hara... please dont cry. I'm sorry. I really am sorry,"

"You went missing for weeks, never replying to my texts and calls and suddenly you came back and tell me you want to break our engagement and you are telling me not to cry?! You are a fucking asshole Jimin!" Hara yelled at him. Jimin gulped and lowered his gaze. There's nothing he can say anyway. He knows he is in the wrong. "Why Jimin? At least tell me why! Dont lie to me,"

"There's... there's someone else..."

/////

Jungkook lay on his bed staring at the ceiling, which is something he has been doing a lot lately since he came back from Busan. What happened during his visit there keeps on replaying in his mind and it haunts his dream. Jimin's words, the way Y/N begged him not to go, to listen to her, the way she cried and fell on the hot sand. Everything is still a vivid memory to him.

Why must it be Y/N? Of all the people he could have fallen in love with, why Y/N? What does she have and did to make him fall so madly in love with her? He has a new girlfriend now, the same one that littered the newspaper headlines, the same one that cling to his arms when he met Y/N at the lobby, but all he can think about is Y/N. He had a peaceful few weeks since then, locking himself in his room, clearing his mind, but now everything has gone to shit.

Because yesterday, Park Jimin returned home.

With that cocky smirked plastered on his face whenever he sees him.

Jungkook huffed and gets out of bed. He needs something to distract his mind. Maybe some leftovers, his stomach is growling anyway. As he softly opens his door, he heard Taehyung and Jimin conversing in the living room. Those two were inseparable. Always talking ablut everything. What Jimin knows, Taehyung will know too, and vice versa. And right now they are talking about the love of his life, Y/N.

Jungkook tip toed back into his room and closes back his door, softly to avoid any sound and leave it a little ajar to listen in their conversation.

"What happened in Busan Chim? You were gone for so long? And what's up with yesterday?" Taehyung's voice breaks the silence.

"I went to see Hara yesterday... to break things off," Jimin replied softly, sounding a little sad.

"Wow. You really are serious about wanting Y/N back huh?" Taehyung's question was met with a brief silence, which Jungkook assumed is Jimin giving him a death glare before continuing.

"Of course I am. I told you I love her Tae. She is my wife afterall," Jimin sighed. Why does he sound sad? Didnt he and Y/N got back together?

"Okay hold up. Before we go into Y/N, how did Hara takes it?"

"It was horrible. She was crying and screaming and begging. I feel so bad Tae. I mean... I care about her. And its not even her fault," Jimin really sounded sad and regretful, Jungkook almost felt sorry for him. Almost. "I even said something I shouldnt said to her,"

"And why would you do that Chim? You know Hara sincerely loves you,"

"I lost my cool okay? Hara threaten to make Y/N pay for what she did to our relationship. I cant let her just say things about my wife Tae," Jimin defended himself. Jungkook feels his blood boil. He likes Hara. She's a good noona. For as long as he knows her as Jimin's fiancee, he has no qualms with her but threatening Y/N? Over his dead body if he will ever let her touch Y/N! Jungkook huffed.

"Okay... that's insane. But I think she might just be saying things. I mean... she is heart broken Chim,"

"Yeah... I know. But I will deal with her later,"

"So..." Taehyung started off. "Are you and Y/N back together now?" Jungkook held his breath, waiting for Jimin to answer the question that he himself wanted to know.

"She loves Jungkook," was Jimin's quiet answer. Jungkook felt his heart almost burst. What? What is he talking about? They slept together didnt they? Arent they back together?

"What?" Taehyung exclaimed. "Eloborate please," Jungkook thank the Gods for Taehyung's bluntness.

"She loves Jungkook Tae. She told me herself. Even after everything that asshole did to her, she still loves him,"

"So the weeks you spend with her back at home, nothing happened?"

"I kissed her once and she kissed me back," Jungkook felt his heart clenched with jealousy at the answer. So he was right? Something did happen between them that night. "But then she pushed me away and that's when she told me she loves Jungkook and she cant do this with me anymore. I would have convinced her better if the asshole didnt show up later that night,"

"Chim, you know I love you but can you stop calling Kookie an asshole? I love you both and it makes me sad to see the two of you fighting," Jungkook smile at his hyung's words. He can imagined how Taehyung must be pouting right now. Jimin laughs.

"Fine Tae. No more calling him names in front of you," he chuckle. "I love him too you know," Jimin's voice soften. "He's like my little brother and I miss him. But it is what it is. The situation we are in... its complicated. I need to get Y/N back first Tae. And I'm pretty positive Jungkook hates me too right now,"

"Okay, okay, I understand," Taehyung gives his agreement, a little sad that his two favorite friend arent going to reconcile soon. "But really, nothing happened?"

"Nope. Nothing. Just that one kiss," Jimin confirmed, shaking his head. "But I really love her though. I really want her back," his voice soft.

Jungkook closes his door, feeling like he has heard enough. His heart is beating like crazy. Nothing else happened? Y/N pushed Jimin away after kissing him the day he came? Does that means.... they didnt sleep together like he thought they did?

"You know very well what I'm talking about. Or do you seriously already cant remember with whom you spend the night with last night?"

"What?" Y/N was shocked, finally understanding what Jungkook ks thinking about. What did he see when he came over last night? "Jungkook, I didn-. Jimin and me didnt-" she tried to explained but was cut off.

"Just save it Y/N. Girls like you will never change. I have had enough. Coming here is a mistake!" He turns around and starts to walk away again.

"Jungkook, you have to listen to me!" He shrugged her off and walked away. Y/N is desparate as she stumbled around on the hot sand trying to catch up with Jungkook. "Jungkook please!" But he didnt listen and continue to walk even faster, Y/N finally not able to catch up with him anymore.

Did Y/N really tried to tell him that he didnt do anything with Jimin that night? Did he really screwed up again this time?Jungkook slide down the door, suddenly feeling weak after realizing his grave mistake. He came to make up with her, to win his love back, but apparently, he only made it worse.

"Jeon Jungkook! If you walked away from me now then its over," she calls out after him, desperation clear in her voice as she sobbed. "I'm going to give up on you... on us, forever!"

Why did Jimin lie? Why did he believe him? What has Jimin made him do? But then again, is it really Jimin's fault or its just him who never really give Y/N a chance to trust her love for him enough?

But most importantly, what has he done?

Jungkook keeps asking himself as those last words from Y/N keeps repeating in his head.

"I'm going to give up on you... on us, forever!"

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In the corner of a dark room, illuminated by only the soft light from the table lamp, Hara wipe the tears from her swollen eyes, her fingers fiddling with the diamond ring that is snugly placed on her finger. Her engagement ring.

"So this is her..." she whispered softly. "The bitch that takes my Jiminie away from me?" Hara ran her long tappered nail on the pile of photographs scattered on the table. "Isnt she Jungkookie's girlfriend?" She wondered alone. "I cant lose my Jimin. I just cant. I cant!" She starts to wail again, almost losing her mind at the thought. "I will make her pay,"

Her bedroom door open, revealing someone that she has never met before. "And I will help you Hara,"