#(excluding like online friends but we do all talk all the time)

[heart-bones]

about an hour and a half after getting home from work, I decided I didn't have the spoons to go to the bar and rave thing with new friend but now that it's been *three hours* since I got home, I do kind of wish I HAD gone to bar and rave thing with new friend.

🫠

There will be other times it's just, it's like ??? I'm alone all the time, want connection and to not feel lonely, but then I literally HAVE A CHANCE to not be alone, to be out with a friend, even a new one, and I'd rather stay home. Why am I like this.

[noxtivagus]

IT'S ALREADY WEDNESDAY !?! DAMN 🥺 thursday basically now bcs it's just turned midnight here omg.

[reiniesainyo]

IN BETWEEN. charlie bushnell x reader – 03

03 | ENCHANTED previous | next | masterfile

SYNPOSIS. when a girl's co-star is good to her and now she wants it more than everything in between. (smau)

A/N. i'm going through a rough / stressful period and i find this series and writing it very therapeutic so here we are! this chapter takes place around episode 7 release, i'm not really inclined to write about the filming in between for some reason (unless you'd be interested)

liked by walker.scobell, thelnarchives, and 262,287 others rickriordan With the release of the new PJO series on Disney+, I'm happy to announce that to celebrate I've partnered with some of your favorite authors and close friends of mine to present to you all a new look into the lives of our favorite demigods!

WHAT IT MEANS TO BE A HALF-BLOOD will go online for free this February 20, 2024!

Click the link in bio for more info! PS: A sneak peak from our writers on the other slides

thelnarchive ... WHAT THE??? i have to manifest a chapter for my girl, manifesting a chapter or more please or even just one mention ↳ iamcharliebushnell YOU DIDN'T KNOW EITHER?????

user1 HOLY SHIT HOLY SHIT????

user2 1) more stories about characters and 2) WRITTEN BY OTHER AUTHORS???? WHO COULD BE IN THIS PROJECT ↳ user3 i'm manifesting a story about tahlia and jason as kids oh my god

iamcharliebushnell imagine releasing a whole anthology to celebrate? that's the best author right there

user4 ohhh we're eating so good

walker.scobell another book and there's still not enough percy jackson in this world keep it coming i love your work ↳ aryansimhadri Imo too much percy maybe some more grover ↳ leahsavajeffries wrong there should be more annabeth

dior.n.goodjohn the gc going wild with this news

🃏 @CHILDOFHECATE what are your guys guesses for the stories in what it means to be a half-blood??? 🗨 32 comments 🔁 150 retweets ❤️ 456 likes

user1 a jason and tahlia story about them as kids, just a delve into their childhood

user2 more stuff on luke and rina, as individuals and as a couples- like i totally see a luke perspective on some situations or a conversation they had being in the book ↳ CHILDOFHECATE honestly i think it'd be so cool if they went like contemporary and also gave us maybe a poem or transcript / screenplay of a conversation between luke and rina

user3 stories about annabeth, tahlia, and luke's time before camp maybe fighting monsters together or just trying to survive ↳ user4 watch me cry over this one

user5 i just see a lot of delving into the lives of the original trio and also like the original supporting characters to like tahlia, luke, rina, even rachel

user6 grover's childhood! i really wanna see that or some parts of the story from his perspective

user7 Angst.

liked by iamcharliebushnell, aryansimhadri, and 320,372 others thelnarchives celebrating with the half-bloods

iamcharliebushnell when you're so excited over new lore you go and have dinner to talk about it ↳ thelnarchives this means so much to us

user1 YN IN THE SECOND SLIDE OH SHE'S GOREGOUS

user2 her face card never declines ↳ user3 it even has like benefits and a perfect credit score

dior.n.goodjohn fans first cast second ↳ thelnarchives this show has more more dressed up than my wedding

user4 this cast is so cute it's crazy

walker.scobell the 3rd pic >>> ↳ iamcharliebushnell oh so true ↳ i.am.andrew.alvarez a banger photo ↳ thelnarchives phone hijackers.

user5 the little black dress is doing so good for her, if i saw her in public i would've fainted ↳ user6 i can't believe i live in the same city as this girl like we breathe the same air???

leahsavajeffries i'm sat for the release, we're sat ↳ thelnarchives this is MY superbowl

aryansimhadri i feel excluded out of the 3rd photo ↳ thelnarchives that's okay because you're one of the girls ↳ iamcharliebushnell wait that's not fair

user7 aryan being part of the girls is so real and charlie wanting in is so cute

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for excluding my boyfriend from game night/my discord and not telling him why?

I (31F) have a boyfriend (29M) who I've been with for six months and we're getting serious. I have a discord where I hang out with some online friends thats pretty small (only four or five of us) and we do game night once or twice a week for a specific online game (not an rpg--think starcraft). I love the guys and we've known each other for years. My boyfriend also plays the game and has interacted with them indirectly while I'm on the laptop hanging out.

My boyfriend wants to join game night and is really hurt that I'm not letting him. I feel like my reasons are pretty solid—game night is the only time I talk to my guys and we discuss our personal lives pretty extensively, including our relationships. I want to keep that safe space for male perspectives to myself. I also have talked about our relationship in the discord chats before, and even though most of it is positive, it's still unfiltered. I also have had an experience where an ex of mine was integrated into another friend group, we had a messy breakup, and people felt like they had to choose sides. It was awkward and a huge bummer. I also think it's healthy to have activities you don't do with your partner!

The problem is that all three of those reasons, while imo EXTREMELY valid, are kind of hurtful/bad to explain. "I dont want you to hear what I say about you" and "what if we break up" seems mean. But my alternative is what I've been doing, which is just saying "I really want to keep game night for me and my friends." He also doesn't really have anyone to play the game with on a consistent basis.

I feel like an asshole for excluding him, and maybe I'm being mean, but I don't want to ruin the safe space I have with my friends or make things awkward. AITA?

What are these acronyms?

[faggy--butch]

"I'll also say that this is sometimes supported by the trans man creators, like Jammidoger. It's not just the trans women, it's not just the essayists […]" & "you should feel gender affirmed from the violence done to you because that's just how men are actually".

Thing is, until I found trans men/masc people talking about transmisandry/transandrophobia online, every time I tried interacting with my local trans community, especially with other trans men/masc people, has included them all parroting or agreeing with the above sentiments, and it's why I stopped going to my local support group or interacting with them at all. Hearing those things from some well-known and respected trans women and men in our local community and getting pushback when I wanted to talk about trans masc issues, was just so disappointing.

Which is why I'm happy Jessie made that video and came to the conclusion she did. I left a comment just about my opinion on the matter, that while yes I've felt left out on her videos and wish she included our perspective more often, I also remind myself that she and her co-writer are both trans femme. So I don't take it as intentionally or even unintentionally leaving us out, it's a side effect of people writing what they know, however, that's exactly why I watch her, to get a better perspective for myself of trans women/femme issues.

But there were also lots of trans men and masc people in the comments who said a lot more about what our issues are and the harm it does to exclude us, how we do face similar or even the same kind of violence for the same reasons as trans women and femme people, and that often, her exclusion of us in her videos (especially the Barbie one) is adding onto the already exhaustive history of transandrophobia from within the trans community. While I've not changed or added to my comment, in the face of those others, it felt lacking, but I'm also really kinda exhausted at this point, since I've been fighting against biphobia from both cishet and other queer people most of my life now, so in the face of transandrophobia, I just have no more fight in me and have resorted to elevating the voices of others who do.

Sorry for the rant, you don't have to respond, I guess I just wanted to say thank you for getting a ball rolling and here's hoping it goes farther than other attempts before this.

Hey! I think I actually saw your comment, I thought about it a lot too which is is cool that it's bringing me full circle here but I do also agree in part that because they are trans femmes their thoughts and opinions are bound to be almost exclusively from their perspective. I do also watch for that perspective in part as well, but I feel that bigger trans creators who talk about trans topics, need to remember that there isn't just that one kind.

They have the opportunity to make a difference, to give others a voice, a voice which severely lacking in these spaces. I'm not going to wholesale blame them for perpetuating transandrophobia or anything, but if you're making a video on trans experiences and then leave out a crucial part of that experience, or at worse, uncritically repeat those same ideas as a bigger creator with lots of followers, it can have a serious negative impact on members of that groups and reinforces it, transandrophobia. This reminds me of the video that Abigail Thorne did called Beauty, Food, Mind. A lot of that video is her talking about how fatphobia affects HER, a thin beautiful actress, and doesn't really even mention much of fat struggles, or get fat perspectives, and she gained a lot of criticism within the fat youtube community for it because she had an opportunity and the didn't take it, making fatphobia only about thin people instead. I will be honest, I haven't had much of an irl queer community, I have my friends and I have gone out and interacted, but I'm disabled, and poor. I don't have the chance to go to any sort of community events or anything other than maybe a drag show every now and again especially here were I live now, I moved and am back in my home state, so it does make me nervous to even seek out and find a local community. online it's easier to brush off that kind of thing, not being considered or being talked down to or ignored, and tbh gaslit, but in real life? In my own home area, in my real domain?

I'm not sure I'd know how to cope with that rn, especially because I too have had some, let's just say not great experiences with in few irl trans people semi community type groups.

Lots of people are hurting and they take it out on each other, so I feel like I have to put on a persona, or be more femme to even be taken seriously and that sucks. So yeah, it's a breath of fresh air to be able to talk about transandrophobia online with other men and I'm happy happy happy we have this, but It is disappointing and I think it shows historically why trans men have tended to keep to ourselves.

[sereneres]

hug? ³˙⁵

kim minji x 6th member!reader / 2k

summary. — you and minji have a much-needed talk (after some more unnecessary yet necessary drama) while the girls eavesdrop, as per usual.

warnings. — only a little less dramatic / a lot more comforting

it has never been this bad before.

that was something newjeans – excluding the two members that were currently fighting – agreed on.

after the two of you had walked back into the practice room and started heading to the ground floor where your manager was waiting, you had split off, minji going to hanni and danielle while you went to haerin and hyein. you had put up a happy front, smiling at the younger girls and reassuring them that everything was fine.

“are you okay, yn-unnie?” hyein asked worriedly, her brows furrowed. “you don’t look too good.”

“i’m okay, hyein, don’t worry. i’m just a little tired, that’s all.” you smiled, rubbing the younger girl’s shoulder reassuringly.

the two girls glanced at each other, both concerned by the way you acted but not wanting to say anything that would make you upset.

“manager-unnie should be here soon to pick us up.” haerin said after a moment of uncomfortable silence. “and then we can go to the restaurant hyein’s friend recommended to her.”

“okay.”

“speaking of which, i hope it’s not too pricey.” hyein murmured, biting her lip. “we don’t necessarily eat a lot, but if it’s expensive…”

“don’t worry, hyein. minji-unnie or yn-unnie will pay for us, though they’ll probably fight over the bill first.” haerin said before nudging you. “right, yn-unnie?”

“who knows.” you say, your gaze shifting from the two girls to minji, who was walking beside hanni and danielle as she moodily stared at her phone. “maybe we won’t fight about it this time after all.”

you would rather argue with minji about who would pay the bill than not talk to her at all.

if your manager noticed anything off between you and minji – and just the group synergy in general – she didn’t say anything of it, instead choosing to stay quiet and occasionally steal glances at you and your members.

perhaps uncomfortable with the silence, or maybe she just wanted to talk, hanni spoke up.

“so, what restaurant did your friend recommend you hyein?” she asked, turning in her seat to face the younger girl.

“huh?” hyein blinked, clearly having not been expecting for someone to speak to her. “oh, uh, i think it’s mainly a chinese restaurant? they have a lot of korean foods ok the menu, though, if you aren’t into chinese.”

“chinese food sounds great.” in the corner of your eye, you can see minji giving you a stink eye from where she was sitting behind you. “do they have an online menu? maybe we can see what they have and order right away.”

“let me check.”

as hyein searched for an online copy of the restaurant’s menu, hanni brought up the topic of foods she didn’t and did like, which prompted danielle to join the conversation, then hyein found the menu, and just like that, half of the six members of newjeans, who had been silent, were now talking about food.

the other half were either listening (haerin), preoccupied with thinking about other things (you), or just moodily staring out the window (minji).

“are you and minji alright?” your manager suddenly asked, her voice low so as to not be heard by your other members. taken by surprise, you turn to look at her, your brow raised. “excuse me?”

“minji keeps glaring at you.” she continued as the car slowed to a stop as the light turns red. “normally, i wouldn’t have said anything, but seeing as its both you and minji…” she trailed off, shrugging.

“we’re fine.” with how unconvincing you sounded to your own ears, you weren’t too surprised when you received a very unconvinced look from your manager.

“we’re just in the middle of a disagreement, unnie.” you say reassuringly, patting the woman’s shoulder. “we’ll be okay, i promise.”

“remember, yn.” she murmured, eyes fixed to the road as the light turned green. “it isn’t just you and minji in this group. if a scandal arises because of this, you may bring the whole group down.”

you sigh, resting your head on your hand. “i know, unnie. trust me, i know.”

lunch was a quiet affair. by the time you got there, everyone had quieted down again, too hungry to continue talking about food. meanwhile, minji had stopped glaring at you, although now she refused to look at you whatsoever.

“what do you think, unnie?” you blink, turning your head to see hyein to your left, looking at you while she ate. “does it taste good?”

“it tastes okay.” you answer, looking back at your plate to see it still somewhat full. from across the table, minji scoffs before mumbling something incoherent, her brows furrowed as she glared at her plate.

“minji,” you called, exasperated. “if you want to say something to me, say it to my face, not to your food.”

the girl looked up at you for the first time since you had entered the restaurant, her eyes wide with surprise. from her reaction alone, it was obvious that she must not have expected you to outright confront her.

“you–”

“guys, let’s not do this here.” danielle interrupted, frowning. “we’re in public and we’re eating. if you guys want to argue, then do it later. not now.”

“…”

one look around the table made it clear to both you and minji that the rest of your members agreed with the girl’s statement, so you both went back to your plates, minji aggressively eating her food while you nibbled on yours.

“unnie, i don’t like this.” hyein murmured to hanni, who patted her on her shoulder in an attempt to comfort the girl.

“i know, hyein-ah, but it’ll be over soon.” she glances at minji, who was still eating her food aggressively, her eyes narrowing. “i’ll make sure of it.”

“minji, why are you so upset with yn?” hanni asked, having burst into the older’s room several seconds prior to her question. “she hasn’t done anything wrong.”

“you think i don’t know that?” minji snapped, irritation clear on her features. “i know she hasn’t done anything wrong, but we both– no, we all know that she’s been overworking herself. that itself is the problem.”

“what i don’t get is why you’re so hung up on this.” hanni said, brows furrowing. “when haerin started practicing late at night to practice her footwork, all you did was encourage her to try her best and to not come home too late.”

“that’s different.” the older girl said as she frowned.

“or what about the time hyein keep re-recording that one part of ‘ditto’?” the aussie continued, slowly growing more and more frustrated by the korean. “she literally lost her voice because she overused it, but all you did was–”

“yn isn’t like them.” minji interrupted. “when the others need help, they’ll ask someone for help without another thought. when yn needs help, she doesn’t ask for it.”

“then why pick a fight?” hanni asked, her expression softening. “why argue when you could’ve just helped her?”

“she’s stubborn, you and i both know that. if i offer her my help, she’d just refuse it outright.” minji sighed, shaking her head. “i figured that if i picked a fight with her, maybe she would understand where i was coming from, but–”

“your emotions got the best of you.” hanni finished, and minji nodded, a sheepish look on her face.

“well, it doesn’t look like yn is upset at you whatsoever.” the former said, crossing her arms. “she’s just tired of it all.”

minji snorted, rolling her eyes. “of course she is – she hasn’t slept for more than five hours since our comeback was announced.”

“actually, i have been sleeping for more than five hours, believe it or not.”

upon hearing your voice, the two girls froze, eyes widening as they both turned to look at the door to see you leaning against the door frame, an amused look on your face.

“i came here to talk to you, minji-unnie,” you said, walking towards the two surprised girls, “but it looks like hanni-unnie got to you first.”

“how-how long have you been standing there?” minji stammered, hastily standing up from her seat on the floor. “and why didn’t you say anything earlier?”

“i got here around the time hanni-unnie started ranting about the times the others have overworked themselves during our past debut’s and comebacks.” you say, looking at the aussie, who stared back at you with wide eyes. “by the way, hanni-unnie, minji-unnie did a lot more for us behind the scenes, you just weren’t there to see it.”

“i-i-”

“hanni, get out.” minji ordered, having gotten over her shock upon realizing that you had been eavesdropping on them. “i need to talk to yn.”

her eyes still wide, the younger girl wordlessly left the room, leaving the two of you alone. silently, minji gestured for you to sit on her bed and sat beside you once you did.

“i’m sorry, unnie.” you say after a bout of silence, looking down into your lap. “i shouldn't have said all those things.”

the older girl snorts. “we hardly said anything offensive to each other, yn. all we did was bicker like children.”

“still. i should have just accepted what you said.” you murmured, biting your lip. “i didn’t want to burden you guys by asking for help, but i ended up burdening you anyway by making you worry about me, so i’m sorry, minji-unnie. i already apologized to the others as well.”

“there is no need to apologize, yn.” the girl said gently, placing a comforting hand on yours. “you will never be a burden to us, no matter what you do. besides, the others and i would never think of you like that.”

“and i also have to apologize for the way i picked a fight with you for no real reason.” she continued. “it wasn’t something i should’ve done, and it was definitely not right of me to do it.”

“it’s okay, unnie.” you smile as you look up at the older girl, who’s eyes widen when she notices that your eyes are slightly teary. “you had good intentions.”

“don’t cry, yn.” minji said firmly as she began to tear up herself. “if you cry than we’ll both cry and–”

“ah shit–”

both you and minji flinch as the door abruptly opens and then blinked owlishly at the pile of girls on the floor, with a certain aussie at the bottom of it and hyein on top of it.

“i told you this was a bad idea.” haerin mumbled, her words muffled by the plush carpet her face was pushed into.

“no, you said that the door would probably collapse if we pushed against it too hard.” hyein said, frowning. “you didn’t say it would be a bad idea.”

“it was implied.”

“i’m so happy you two made up!” danielle smiled, bounding over the two of you happily. how she had gotten out of the pile when she was stuck under haerin and hyein, you had no idea. “did you guys hug yet?”

(ah yes, the hug-after-a-fight tradition. danielle had been the one to introduce it when hyein and hanni had argued over potato chips, and it had stuck ever since.)

“ah, no. not yet.” minji said, still baffled by the sudden intrusion of the four girls. “were… did you guys hear everything we said?”

“not really.” haerin squirmed, managing to slide hyein off of her and onto the floor. “you and yn-unnie kept mumbling, so we missed out on a majority of your convo.”

“you two should hug!” danielle chimed in, reclaiming your attention. “hug! hug! hug!” she turned to the rest of your members, looking at them pointedly.

taking the hint, hanni was the first to start chanting along with danielle, even pumping her fist despite still being on the floor. “hug! hug! hug!”

“hug. hug. hug.” haerin joined in, languidly pumping her own fist.

“hug, hug, hug!” hyein said excitedly, pumping her fist excitedly in contrast to haerin’s lackluster fist pumping.

“hug?” minji asked, turning to you and smiling, shyly opening her arms for you to walk into.

“hug.” you respond, smiling back at her as you walked into her arms.

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[romancerepulsed]

disclaimer: i am american and i can only speak for how it is here, but regardless this post is about online spaces

i have to say it. "romance negativity" is not a thing and you all look like clowns for saying it and placing it right next to sex negativity. sex negativity exists within a large system oppression. its a set of beliefs an individual can have, yes, but those beliefs in and of themselves are nothing without their institutional support. sex negativity, though it hurts queer people the most, negatively affects every person who desires to interact with sexuality in any way. sex negativity is major websites and apps banning porn for the sake of profit. sex negativity is restricting abortion access. sex negativity is absitence-only education. sex negativity is the criminalization of sex work. sex negativity is rape culture.

romance negativity does not exist in this way. the most romance negativity could possibly harm you is it hurting your feelings a bit when an aromantic person expresses their frustrations with amatonormativity. our institutions actively push for romance and partnering. our whole society is structured around it. all of our entertainment is infested with it. there is no significant cultural push to devalue romance the same way there is for sex, and thats why the discussion of the evil repulsed aros who hate romance and hate you for experiencing it is so fucking stupid to me. like, every romance repulsed aro i know is so painstakingly polite and supportive to the alloromantics and romance favorable aros around us. we are constantly gritting our teeth and working through it, because thats what we have always had to do.

ive also seen posts complaining that romance repulsed aros make the community feel unsafe for romance favorable aros, which... i have not seen any of the rumored aro elitism this implies at all. im sure there are some guys out there who exclude romance favorable aros, and they absolutely suck ass. but this is not a widespread problem at all. and i need you to put yourselves in the shoes of a romance repulsed aromantic person right now. someone who has just found the language for what theyve been struggling with all their lives, and theyre excited to find a community for people like them, a community thats supposed to be free from the talons of amatonormativity, only to find out most of the people there are still talking about their partners, their crushes, the romantic things they wanna do with their friends, etc. its isolating. this isnt to say aromanticism isnt a spectrum or that people shouldnt talk about their experiences as romance favorable aros, im just trying to get you to understand *why* repulsed aros can seem so irritable or aggressive at times.

so im sorry that romance repulsed aros expressing their frustration with the very fabric of society being against them hurt your feelings. but i think maybe thats just something youre gonna have to deal with. if you need tips on sucking it up then maybe ask a romance repulsed aro, we're used to it 👍

[taekooktimeline]

July 22, 2023 - Jungkook goes live in London! He’s seen wearing the Chanel Coco Rush ring again, prominently displayed on his left pinky. Throughout the live, he plays with, and displays it. Jungkook didn’t wear this ring during performances, indicating he’s been protective of it as he’s traveled from Seoul - NYC - London for “Seven” promotions, but he’s made sure to wear it during his off time. And as he isn’t one to wear much jewelry, if any, in his personal time, we know this is a special and significant ring for him. 

Also, as an aside, I absolutely loved how honest and savage he was during this live:

pointing out his promotions felt limited (6:16, 15:31)

acknowledging he’ll make mistakes because he’s human (as we all will) (7:19-9:53)

friend zoning ARMY (not all inclusive times, but some instances were at 10:29, 20:16, 34:55, 36:46, 1:00:26, 1:04:52, 1:05:38)

chastising those throwing a fit about the explicit version of “Seven” (21:52), reminding them of his age and that this is his life (24:07)

wanting to not care what the company thinks (36:18)

he’s happy today, complete with two adorable winks (36:38, 37:17)

People who like him and say good things, he wants to care for them and be good to them (38:01), then thanks those who say nonsense (antis) for giving him attention, and that he’s “going to live life like this” (38:12)

He says the company will be monitoring this live, and with a smile says they’ll be scared about what he’s talking about (49:44)

He reiterates he likes doing lives, and says, “What do you want me to do? I’m me. I want to do it.” He also asks, “So what?” (50:34). This reminded me of BTS’ October 24, 2021 PTD online concert, when Jk shouted “so what” to his haters and walked back to hold hands with an injured Taehyung (recap https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline2021/666303546243825664/october-24-2021) 

Also, I know it will never happen but I’d love to get a drink with him, as he proposed we should all do one day (47:49). He’s so mature, wise, fun and thoughtful. He’d be a lot of fun to drink with and talk to. 

The below is a montage of some of the moments he showed off his ring throughout his live (personal side note - I bought the Delixir bracelet!)

Playing with the ring as he discusses how his facial hair doesn’t grow for 3-4 days after he shaves -

Timestamp 21:27

Playing with the ring, spinning it around and pulling it up and down his pinky, as he discusses the clean and explicit versions of “Seven” -

timestamps 22:15, 23:53, 24:07, 24:24

Cracking his knuckles, the ring prominently seen -

Timestamp 24:50

Fiddling with his ring as he discusses that he’s older, and this is his life -

Timestamp 27:01

Jungkook mentions he enjoys live shows. While IG is used for communication and to show “your color” he enjoys communicating like this, wanting to talk honestly with us.

He then reads off the comment, “Do everything you want to do.”

With what I interpret to sound like an exasperated groan, he tells us he can’t do everything he wants. He mentions in his July 30, 2023, live that he’s a public figure and singer (so naturally he has to exclude sharing things for privacy and security purposes). We also know hes under a contract and that Korea is more conservative, etc (what I’m trying to say is between his career and being in the spotlight, the contract he’s under and the country he lives in, it’s not so easy for him to just do whatever he wants, and he’s acknowledging as much.)

It’s interesting that he then mentions, “While being loved by someone.” Not being able to do everything he wants, then mentioning being loved by someone seem to connect in his mind.

This whole segment is fascinating in itself because he mentions doing this job (singer / performer) while interacting with each other (the person loved), and while he’s happy with his job, he can’t do everything he wants. It’s not possible. There’s a clear linkage between the two subjects.

As he discusses this topic, he starts to play with his ring while looking down.

I interpret this final part to mean he’s going to lighten up on restricting his relationship vs job (and I think it makes sense to consider it in this light because in this live alone he mentions wanting to be honest, continues to display and play with his Coco Crush ring and in general Taekook have been quite loud and clear about their closeness, particularly since solo era started).

He then lightens it up by saying if he messes up, we can have friendly banter between us.

Timestamp starts at 33:40

He waves his hand back and forth, drawing the viewer’s attention to it, then displays his hand so the ring is prominent. He then discusses how he wants honesty and a casual, chill vibe between us and him (friends).

Timestamp 34:55

Complaining about the lighting as his ring is clearly displayed -

Timestamp 39:41

Showing off his ring as he messes with the lighting, discusses what he wrote in his notes and then excuses himself for the restroom.

Timestamp 39:53, 40:25

When he comes back, he tells us he loves us, and shows off his ring some more🥰

Timestamp 44:25

Playing with the ring again as he talks about receiving love from us, after discussing the equipment he uses for 4 minutes a day on his skin -

Timestamp 45:52

He then leans into the camera and says his skin isn’t that good, flashing his ring as he talks about it.

Timestamp 46:08

Showing it off as he says he’s about to sneeze, then talks about his cold -

Timestamp 46:23

He says he hasn’t talked to the company, but wants to get a drink with us. He taps himself, saying we need time to talk, ring visible.

Timestamp 49:06

Another good view of the ring as Jk wishes ARMY to not get sick and to be happy.

Timestamp 54:13, 59:55

Casually saying goodbye to us, as friends -

Timestamp 1:04:52

Final shots because I love how proud he is of this ring -

Timestamp 1:05:29

Saying he’s really going to go -

Timestamp 1:06:36

His happy expression 😭

Various snippets of Jk playing with the ring - https://twitter.com/yourstrulytkk/status/1682534497948954624?s=46&t=StSwHjW0_Domk_lHUFMaCg https://twitter.com/jiravalee/status/1682529528734965760?s=46&t=StSwHjW0_Domk_lHUFMaCg https://twitter.com/diortetae/status/1682528983722909696?s=46&t=StSwHjW0_Domk_lHUFMaCg

Collage in HD!

CTTO for the collage https://twitter.com/koovarbie/status/1682539172970610694?s=46&t=StSwHjW0_Domk_lHUFMaCg

As noted in my initial recap on July 12, 2023, this is the same ring Tae and Wooga wear.

July 12, 2023 recap (extensive coverage of Jk wearing the ring leaving Seoul for NYC) - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline/722673545301409792/july-12-2023 

July 18, 2023 recap (when Jk wore the ring leaving NYC for London) - https://www.tumblr.com/taekooktimeline/723241376210403328/july-18-2023

[monty-glasses-roxy]

We lowkey talked about this before but I feel this deserves its own moment. So, Prototype Freddy, the headless guy, right?

What if Cassie and the others get him all fixed into a whole Freddy again (I like the idea that his repaired self mirrors Glamrock Freddy's like earring on the other ear and chest bolt facing the other way,) so he becomes their friends too.

And most of them at least, especially Roxy I think, not only welcome him with open arms but straight up treat him as 'their' Freddy AKA totally replacing Glamrock Freddy-- which only further isolates and excludes him when "choosing Gregory over them" already did that too.

I feel like that'd sting for Glamrock Freddy especially with Chica if they being longtime friends or family for being older mascots is a thing.

Also sting in a different way if Roxy and Prototype Freddy actually end up with a far better affinity than she and Glamrock Freddy ever did.

And to rub more salt, eventually Cassie finds Bonnie as well and they try to fix him as much as possible until it's st least enough for him to come online. Then when it's time to catch up with old friends or meet new ones, they have Prototype Freddy there instead of Glamrock Freddy.

I don't think Cassie would do any of this to purposely target Glamrock Freddy but I kinda feel like Roxy would be bitter enough to. After all he "chose that brat he calls a son Gregory and CONTINUES choosing him over them all despite everything he's done to them, so if that's the bed he chose to make then he's going to have to lie in it."

Oooooo this is fun

Imma start by thinking that if Roxy never liked Freddy before, then she probably wouldn't welcome a repaired Freddy into the group very quickly. That whole dynamic would be pretty interesting though, like Roxy could be getting between him and the others every chance she gets to try and make sure he doesn't hurt them again... It might be appreciated at first, I mean this guy looks almost exactly like him and talks with the same mannerisms as him, it's gotta be a bit difficult seeing him around again. Presuming everyone's fixed up, then yeah I can see Roxy going the over protective route until she's outright told to stop. Roxy's a security node/guard dog with nothing to guard anymore, and several very hurt friends to watch out for, she just fell naturally into this without even noticing :(

But that just makes the turnaround more fun, right? Despite everything, Prototype Freddy is a good guy! He could listen to her, try helping her out with whatever it is she's up to, find it funny when she starts a golf club sword fight with Monty, be nothing but protective of all of them, be so damn respectful of her boundaries she starts to feel bad for yelling at him about it... and gradually, she stops watching him like a hawk, waiting for an excuse to kick his shit in. At some point, these two are hanging out and getting along perfectly well it's crazy to her how similar he is to the old Freddy but so different in every way that matters. They're friends now! She wishes this Freddy was the Freddy they'd had from the very beginning! Things would have been so different with this guy and it pisses her off sometimes!

And oh god yeah it'd sting so fucking bad for the others, especially Chica and Monty that the old Freddy chose Gregory over them. He basically sacrificed them and for what? It's such a betrayal, and since they and Sunny and Moon were all friends with him, I can see at least a few of them forgetting this isn't the same Freddy every now and then. He says something they don't expect and they flinch as the truth hits them all over again... that's gotta hurt. Were they not worth anything to him? How could they do this to them?

That's fun...

But yeeessss bringing Bonnie back in a situation like this (though without the prototype Freddy) is something that I have happen in my Meteors AU and it's gold. How do you handle waking up after maybe a year has passed to discover your almost boyfriend set a rabid child on all your friends and family, then ditched them when they needed him the most? How is he supposed to take that? Denial? A desperate spiral into camera footage and questioning, searching for answers? For any kind of evidence that they all might be mistaken? That this was all just one big misunderstanding? His Freddy wouldn't do that... He wouldn't! He's sure of it!

And this Prototype isn't Freddy! Why is he here?! Did everyone just replace him?! This is some Fazbear Entertainment levels of bullshit!! His Freddy was worth more than that!! How could they do exactly what Fazbear would have done and just swap him out for a new one?! What's wrong with them?!

The pain is so good for this oh my god I love it

I like to think that once the reality of what Freddy did sinks in, Bonnie grows to hate him. It hurts to hate him, but he's so fucking betrayed by what he's done, how can he not hate him? He can't still love him! He can't! (He does) It's not fair!

And Freddy would be devastated by all of this holy shit. Seeing everyone with the Prototype, happier with the Prototype, and feeling like everyone moved on and replaced him. Even Bonnie. Heartbreaking.

And yeah you're so right. Cassie wouldn't have done any of this to target Freddy, but Roxy would have for sure. Maybe the idea that this would upset Freddy if he ever sees it is what convinces her to give Prototype Freddy a chance? A kind of "I'm going to pretend to be your friend on the off chance Freddy sees and feels like shit for it" turning into her genuinely valuing his company kind of thing. Maybe he kinda figured that's what her plan was originally and decided to just go along with it and let her do her thing, being genuinely surprised himself to end up friends with her? Lotta ways you can play that!

I love this Prototype Freddy is neat!!

[yurianonikki]

21|07|24| yulia’s diary

‧₊˚ ☁️⋅♡𓂃 ࣪ ִֶָ☾.╰┈➤. entry 1; into the new world,

˚˖𓍢ִ໋🌷͙֒✧˚.🎀༘⋆╰┈➤. today's mood; content - happy?> a bit bored, but motivated. confused.

๋࣭⭑╰┈➤ i dont know if moving was a good decision. im having regrets, lots of regrets i guess, i left everything i knew behind in what feels like a split second decision. everything i became used to over the past nearly 11 years was gone in just a few weeks. everything i learned at school, pointless. i cant use that information for anything because i dont study the same subjects anymore. i do miss my small citizenship class, and my much larger and chaotic health&social care class. music just isn't as entertaining. but at least i get to do history still??? i mean theres only 1 person in music who i talk to - and she used to have a crush on my boyfriend 😬. my friends who i knew (but lowkey hated 🤫) were gone. speaking of friends, i cut contact with nearly everyone i knew before moving; lots of my online friends are gone completely and we havn't spoken in weeks - months even, and i dont talk to anyone i knew irl except for my boyfriend. its easy when you move so far away you never have to come in contact with those people - unless your unlucky enough to still see them in the city centre when youre walking home from school or hanging out with your new friends and/or bf - some people try to keep in contact some dont care, or at least dont show that they care. but maybe it was good for me. i mean i did lots of things i regretted there, so many embarassing things related to me, i had so many enemies for no reason really? im not sure why i was so disliked; i know that my old friend group from 3 years ago still talk shit about me and make up lies but im curious how bad it is to have made so many people dislike me... the only closure i got was that one of the girls told me now ex-bestfriend that shes ''sorry for being rude''. rude? rude. seriously. thats it. you think you were rude. but thats a story for a different time. in a way i do miss my best friends but i also dont know how to feel. i never felt comfortable around them to be myself, i always felt like an outcast even though we were supposed to be a group. the biggest difference between us was our ethnicities, they were bulgarians and i was polish. there wasnt many polish kids at my old school. i mean there were the twins who were very weird and apparently groped another student AT SCHOOL?... definately not. there was ro**** who was the girl who said ''sorry for being rude'', mm nope. there was ga******* who started to hated me because of my relationship with my current bf, again definately not. je*****, ga******'s cousin and ro****'s friend, absouluetly not. theyr all weird and have a weird story connecting them to me but its too long to look back on today. at least at my new school there tons of polish kids who im friends with and i finally feel welcomed. even tho i tend to be quiet because ive only known them a few weeks they dont exclude me like my old friends; they do quite the opposite actually and it feels nice. the only down side is they all known and are possibly friends with ga****** because she sort of goes to our school sort of doesnt? again her story will be another entry. and also theyre friends with her best friend na***** who dispises me because of ga******'s weird issues. 😐 but im staying strong. ignoring them. not letting them affect me. thats what im gonna convince myself at least.

๋࣭⭑╰┈➤ its summer break now finally. 6 long weeks of term ugh 😮‍💨. i have so much spare time to do anything i want. yesterday i was really motivated to learn coding, but i dont think it will go anywhere, even the super simple stuff is complicated for me. i am NOT. a maths-y person. ive started to become more active on my blogs, hence why im writing this, a big dream of mine as a kid was to be a writer 🫠, this is nice and easy and stress free<3 ive been wanting to learn guitar now properly since starting music at school because its a big part of our final grade but also just to have something as a hobby. i dont think ive ever had a real hobby and it makes me a bit embarassed, like im super boring and dont do anything besides sit on my phone and play games and just fuck around on instagram being messy. photography is also something i wanna get into but a good quality camera is expensive (im aware i dont need expensive equipment for photography but you gotta admit it makes your work nicer), guitars are also expensive tho, doubt i will get one anytime soon considering our renovations, my mothers financial and mental problems and my sister not working too. hughhh, though i have been thinking of getting a summer job. 1) for money 2) my mum said if i do something over summer she will get me a cat 🐈 3) i wont feel like im wasting my days away being a bum like my boyfriend likes to call it>:( so when my mother is free ill bring it up to her, as well as starting pilates at home again. i first started back in the beginning of may and i was doing really good; i felt better, my body looked good, and i felt like i had a hobby. but by the end of school i completely stopped doing it because i was so drained physically and mentally. i mean imagine making up at 5am every day and only getting home 12 hours later, sometimes even as late as 19:00. i also have been feeling insecure in my body, as if im gonna gain weight and look just gross. even though my bf reassures me i look great and still look great even after not working out i just have a feeling in the back of my mind hes just saying that to make me happy, not because he means it. on a happier note, ive started watching more animes; death note specifically. 1) to make my boyfriend happy, he begs me to watch it like at least 5 times a week 2) i had the most random urge to start watching death note whilst having no prior interest and very little knowledge. so far im liking it tho, currently at episode 26, and if you havent guessed already my favourite character is misa;3 also getting back into snsd has been refreshing🪩

๋࣭⭑╰┈➤ im not sure when ill update this next, probably soon as i have a lot of time to do so, or whenever i get a random thought and have no where else to share it to🌝

🎧ྀི 사랑해 널 이 느낌 이대로, 그려왔던 헤매임의 끝

[lovvecherrymotion]

Hello!! Can I ask for a personal opinion...? I hope you won't mind too much, I really like your posts and didn't know who else to ask :') It's a really amazing fandom here and I love everyone like real friends, even if I haven't met anyone. Some time ago I shared few personal posts which was just me grumbling about life, and got unfollowed by a mutual I really looked up to :") Then few months later it happened again with another mutual. I know not to take it personally but now every time I post anything, especially if it's personal stories, all I think is that people hate seeing it and I should just shut up deactivate completely. I still follow them and I see them making real friends with others, so it kind of stabs me twice I guess.. And even months later I keep questioning what did I do wrong? Am I that annoying, even online where people can just scroll past? I know it's not that serious and I shouldn't care and no one cares either, but it's been eating me up. Actually I don't think there's anything that can be done, sorry to use your ask box to gush out xD I really wanted to be on anon so no one else can unfollow me :') (also I don't think you know them and we don't speak but I love seeing you on my dash). Yeah I don't know what this was either, also sorry to jump you up with this from an early morning xD (You can delete it too I promise it's completely fine, I don't want to make anyone uncomfortable)

hi, anon! i'm finally sitting down and chilling for a couple of hours until my next flight, so i can answer

i think we've all felt that way at one point or another. hell, whenever i make a personal post or vent about something i'm always really scared i'm annoying others. i think it'd be really hurtful if i wrote a personal post and had a mutual/friend unfollow me over it and i'd be overthinking it a lot. while i'm a big believer in curating your online space and i don't think unfollowing/blocking has to be *that* personal, i can't recall ever unfollowing a mutual or a friend because they were venting about their problems. once again, people are free to do whatever and they don't have to justify themselves, but it just sounds really shitty. tbh we're not always in the mood to deal with other people's problems, but if it's just a post you can scroll past, you can... just do that

that being said, i don't think it's a you problem. i mean, obviously i don't know who you are, but just from this ask you seem very sweet. i do think joblr is a very nice place, with very nice people, but it can be hard to get a conversation/friendship started, especially if it seems like everyone else is somehow able to make friends and you're not. suddenly it feels like a big thing you're excluded from and while everyone else is having fun you're left wondering if you can be a part of it. i've felt that way - and i still do sometimes ngl. but i can promise you there's plenty of us around here who love to talk to others and make friends. ofc you don't always click with everyone, but i'm sure there are other joblr users who'd love to befriend you 💜

(also thanks for the very kind words! i'm sorry if this is a bit rambly but it's been a long week lol)

[bengiyo]

Moonlight Chicken Ep 4 Stray Thoughts

Yesterday, we delved deeper into the demolition plotline and considered the global impacts of gentrification and how they can turn people against each other as Wen and Gaipa are connected to the process. We met Jim's landlord, and I joined Li Ming in expressing disdain for him. Wen came clean about his role with the company, but not his relationship with Alan. Li Ming is failing school and wants to work abroad, but he's also falling for Heart in an adorable way. Finally, Alan appeared for all of ten seconds, and I was thrilled to see First.

Ah, yes, starting with the most endearing boys. Something terrible is going to happen this episode if they're trying to suck me in.

Okay, Fourth and Gemini are just too adorable. I'm so curious about the training they've been through in the last three years.

Chapter 4: The Midnight of Lifetime

Lol, the next scene, Aof? He said, "Let me use the overwhelming cuteness of Li Ming and Heart as direct comparison for how cold things are between Alan and Wen."

There's so much in this breakfast scene. Alan and Wen still share an apartment, and so have to talk about domestic concerns. They aren't together anymore, but I feel like Alan is still invested in the social cachet of their appearance as a couple. Alan can quickly pay a bill online, and some of their household items look like goods we might use in the West.

Gong is so correct.

I know Jim is worried, but he should respect his nephew's privacy.

Earth and Fourth played that fight so well. These two characters are both aching and so tired.

Important Chin Tickle Update: Gemini did it to Fourth when Heart was trying to cheer up Li Ming.

Ah, yes. The gays wrestling over a hose. A staple trope.

I love that Gemini has gotten to play cheesy and romantic twice. Putting his crush in a cute shirt that says "Touch me if you can" is sending me.

Crying over this birthday cake scene, because it takes a village, you know? Sometimes families have troubles, and it's their friends and neighbors who need to nudge them just enough to help them see each other properly.

Wen ain't shit for doing a surprise birthday party and excluding Gaipa.

Important Chin Tickle Update: Jim did it to Wen.

"When you decide on something for him, you think he's too young. But when you expect him to do something, you think he's old enough." Where is Wen from, because it takes other people a long time to learn this?

I like a personal shirt for Jim as a gift. Anything to fancy might have offended him. And of course, we can use it to make him take off his shirt.

Beam really did a number on Jim. I like that he won't touch Wen now that feelings are involved.

If I had a man hitting on me that pushed me to watch my favorite romantic movie that I can't seem to enjoy anymore, I would fold, especially if I was asked to describe it because the disk failed.

I need to know what Alan did that made Wen sneer like that. Also, I want to see what First and Mix look like when they're not at odds with each other.

First is a special actor, his physicality as Yok, Akk, and Alan have all been distinct. Alan seems to default to the seme stance.

Poor Gaipa. He's sweet, but it's just not what Jim wants.

You could see envy radiating off Alan when he recognized Jim, and then you saw him calculating because Jim didn't recognize him at all.

Gaipa and his mom seem to be doing okay, based on the house and clothes.

Add Gaipa's mom to the list of good parents. Saying she doesn't regret him being gay, but would regret if he didn't love anyone, and then demanding he get a boyfriend for her sake. She also asserts that parents always know. Oh, gay boys and their moms.

I don't think there are a lot of Christians in Thailand, but the Jesuits are just so persistent.

The teens are on the loose! Begin the gay date montage!

It's very sweet of Li Ming to bring Heart somewhere he can connect to other people.

Suddenly Ford. You better sing, boy!

The final sequences with the narration were lovely. First does a good job playing up Alan's increasing anger. There's just so much to love in the last couple of minutes about the complexity of life.

Um, what is this preview? Heart better not be hurt!

[am-i-the-asshole-official]

AITA for saying I don't give a shit about calorie counts?

Before I even start this, I'm going to say - if you actively have an eating disorder, please don't vote on this one. I used to have one and I know how badly ED screws with your reasoning regarding weight and food, even with other people. Onto the dilemma.

I (22M) and my friend (31F) are both on "diets" - in quotes because its a lifestyle change, but idk about her. I've drastically changed my diet, exercise, and general lifestyle for health reasons.

My friend also wanted to start dieting at the same time, and as far as I know, she just wants to lose weight. She has a healthy weight goal in mind and her methods of losing weight are healthy, basically the same as me - better foods and more exercise. Recently we talked about our goals because we both lost several pounds, and she asked me what my goal weight was. I told her I didn't have one, I might later but right now my only focus is making sure my body is in good health. She seemed to agree and the conversation moved on.

Another thing is, I recently learned that I LOVE to cook. I've been adding more veggies and spices into my diet as well - swapping french fries with marinated air-fried carrots, veggie dumplings, shredding cabbage for noodles, making my own stir fry sauce and blends, etc.

I cook for us sometimes, because I often make more than I need and I want to share my cooking with others. But she keeps asking my how many calories are in stuff. I tell her what's in the recipe and how it's made, but I honestly have no clue how many calories are in anything I make. I can tell her pretty much anything else, like it's rich in whatever vitamin, it's low cholesterol, it's a great source of iron, I used healthier alternative instead of whatever... but that's not the info she's looking for. And since a lot of my cooking is experimental, I can't look it up online. I've never noticed this to be an issue before, but I'm a bit clueless so it's possible she showed signs of being bothered by this and I just didn't notice.

It all came to a head the other day when we had dinner after our usual workout. I was charting the exercises I did that day. She asked me if I was tracking calories for the meal and started talking about her calorie tracker app. I listened to her spiel about empty calories and tracking food. When she asked if I was going to downloaded it, I laughed and said "I don't give two shits about counting calories. As long as the food is good for me I don't care." I said it light-hearted and joking bc I don't want her to think it's bad to count calories - it's just not what I'm going to do. But she got quiet and later texted me that it hurts. I explained that she can count calories if she wants, and I don't care if she does or doesn't, but it's not for me. She doesn't know about my eating disorder history and I'd rather not tell her, since that's another reason I don't count calories - I don't want to fall back on starving myself since I KNOW that's not healthy, so it's easier for me to just exclude calories from the picture entirely. Should I tell her why I don't count calories? Could I have told her that I don't care about calories in a nicer way? AITA?

Also, before anyone suggests it - she does NOT have an eating disorder. Idk why she counts calories, but she shares a lot about her life with me, and she eats plenty and eats well, and doesn't exercise excessively, just enough to stay healthy for what she wants to do.

What are these acronyms?

[the-fiction-witch]

I found out from the fic you posted that there’s an English remake of het huis anubis!? I had no idea that the Dutch show me and all the other kids in the Netherlands and Belgium watched was so successful that they made other versions of it in other countries

I looked up your version of the show and I saw you only got 191? The original Dutch version has 404 episodes and the spin-off series has another 173 episodes excluding crossovers

We also had 3 movies, 7 books, several music albums, a spin-off series, 3 or 4 theatre shows/musicals, several board games, a nintendo ds game and 1 amusement park ride in the Netherlands and Belgium, did they remake any of those into English too?

Could you please tell me where I can watch the English version? I’m really curious to see how it is compared to the original. I’m honestly really excited about this because the character in your fic Jerome reminds me so much of his Dutch counterpart Jeroen, who I had a massive crush on, so it’s really cool to be able to read a fic about him or a version of him

I think I have a link where you can watch the original show, the movies and the spin-off series for free with English subtitles, if you want to watch more of the show I can send it to you?

AHhhh! Hello! Yes Hi!

I got really excited when I saw this!

But yes house of Anubis is a remake of the Dutch show it was made by Nickelodeon in 2011, the show was... I wanna say medium popular in the UK I know it aired in the US as well but I can't speak for the US.

At least for me this show was a huge part of my childhood It came out in 2011 which fun fact I was 12 then and I was a NERD, for history especially I was a big history nerd and this is basically was tripped me into my second egyptology focus but yeah It came for me at kinda just the right time, in just the right way and I have fond memories of sitting down after school to watch this show.

It got I think 3 seasons and then a movie here, but we got nothing like the massive stuff you listed there we got nothing like that, we barely even got any merch or anything of it, I am very jealous.

The funny thing was I never had a thing for Jerome when I first watched it I remember kinda thinking he was a bit of a dick not revisiting it as an adult its like... bring me my cocky little fluffy chaos boy!

And I've been wanting to do more characters for a while now and I was already doing Lancel stuff lately cause I kinda just stumbled on the memory of him in my mind, and had like a heart attack when I learnt Lancel and Jerome are plaid by the same actor which sent me, of course, running to IMDB to see what else I can watch.

As for watching the English version, I said it is steaming on Paramount Plus, on YouTube Premium, Amazon Prime and Apple TV if that helps. I'm rewatching it with friends and we have the physical media so I'm not sure if there are any downloads or stuff online I'm sure there likely is if you go digging.

Ohh I'd love to see the original show and stuff thank you so much!

And thank you so much for talking with me about it! I was kinda worried no one would have a clue what this was.

[crimeronan]

in a weird place with my illness currently wherein i feel fundamentally alienated from the majority of the online spoonie community because the things happening to my body are so far beyond the scope of chronic fatigue and/or general joint pain that it's like. mindboggling. like we are living fundamentally separate lives like there is very little overlap in our fears or experiences, even when we have some shared symptoms. and at the same time i am fundamentally excluded from online Very Serious Disease (TM) communities because i do not have cancer or a terminal diagnosis and my organ damage has not been quantified yet (even tho several medical professionals have agreed it for sure exists in some form) so i'm not really sick.

i'm just so tired. there's, like..... there are tiers of Feeling Sick when you're chronically ill, and from what i've seen online most spoonies are at a tier of "coping day to day, strategizing," and then people talk about the tier of "if you suddenly unequivocally know that you're going to die extremely soon, you HAVE to go to the hospital, because you are probably right"

there's a middle tier that's more along the lines of "i am not going to die tomorrow but i am going to die. i am helpless and if i don't get help from a doctor i am going to die and i am getting slowly worse because my body is eating itself and/or shutting down because i am going to die. i am in desperate need of immediate medication that i cannot get because i have to wait to see a specialist prescriber and my body will continue to slowly shut down in the meantime and i will continue to slowly die but it will be so slow that nobody will really care"

like where do i go with that what do i do with that. what am i supposed to do about the five-year survival rate for vasculitis being 78% and most of the deaths being people who couldn't see a doctor in time to get the medicine they need. while i'm waiting to see a doctor to get the medicine i need and i'm feeling things get worse and worse. i don't have any community that's going through the same thing because i'm not sick enough but i'm also way way way too sick simultaneously.

i dunno i dunno i dunno. i'm overtired which means that my emotions are fried and people are talking about disability pride month starting tomorrow and that just made me cry because some of my physical issues are so common/widespread that i Should have a community but i just. don't. i don't have a community that's specifically Mine i'm just alone out here or at least that's how it feels. like don't get me wrong i have my family and friends and support network i'm not ALONE alone and all of that is wonderful i just. feel very alone. as far as the current experience goes.

[genderqueerdykes]

also wanted to say i really appreciate all the talking u do about asexual and aromantic inclusion in the queer community, growing up on the internet i gravitated towards a lot of exclusionist spaces bc i didn't really know any better (not meant as an excuse, being an adult now i see the error in my ways) and didn't realize how harmful it was to exclude these people when they're really just like any other lgbt person. hearing you talk about how being part of the queer community just gives them a voice and a platform and all the work you do to destigmatize ace/aro folks is honestly so awesome and you're doing amazing. i'm sure you're opening a lot of people's eyes. i hope u only ever get the cold side of the pillow when u go to bed xoxo

hi there!

thank you so much for sending this ask, i really mean it. a lot of people are so mean about aspec, arospec and acespec people and i spent a lot of time in those spaces, as well for a while, because they were hard to avoid. a lot of the predominant online queer spaces for several years competely shunned aro and ace people and the prevailing mentality was that could never be a form of queerness. it wasd hard to experience and i'm sorry you were affected by it, too

it means a lot to me, because i came out as aromantic in 2015, after a friend of mine came out as asexual. it hurt because nobody saw that my identity was just as legitimate as my friend's. nobody saw that i naturally just don't experience romantic attraction and have romantic desires like those who do. nobody understood that i wasn't just saying things to sound different. nobody understood that i wasn't being 'predatory' because i don't feel romantic attraction, but want to date people

there are parts of the queer community that wish to exclude others. there are those that want to make it the LGB community. there are those that want to push asexual and romantic people outside of their own spaces outside of the greater community. i'm not here for it, i don't stand for cannibalizing and chasing out our own. we are family, and we are stronger together

thanks for sending such a sweet message to let me know i'm on the right track. it means a lot. take care of yourself, i hope you have a wonderful week, if you need any help feel free to stop by any time