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[caseyssuperawsomegarden]

🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵 HAPPY (late :/) TRANS VISIBILITY DAY!!! 🩵🩷🤍🩷🩵

now NOTICE ME!! /j (im transfem)

[sannirio]

trust me i’ll be good

WC: 1409

dom jeongin x amab sub reader (he/him/boy)

18+ MINORS DNI 「i’m serious」　

cw - non!idol au, dom jeongin, fingering, dumbification, temperature play, sub space, degradation, praise, severe overstimulation, boot kink?

A/N: hey! i’m back! sorry for such a long hiatus but i’m finally here. i don’t have anything interesting to say, i wasn’t kidnapped by san or got into a car accident. but i’m here! i hope you enjoy:)

{p.s} i've discovered im transfem and im now starting the process of transitioning, i might write a few afab fics here and there but ill still focus on amab fics. i love you all <3

“what’s wrong baby? you keep staring at my hands… does my needy little slut want me to use them?” jeongin looked amused, as he usually did when you got this needy. he was sat at his desk per usual, in a classic black waistcoat with matching slacks and a white button up underneath. a silver rolex adorned his left wrist. his sleeves were rolled up as if to say “c’mon you little whore let me show you who owns you.” it wasn’t fair how he teased you you were like this. how else were you supposed to react when this is how he looked. all you wanted to do in this moment was to feel his fingers inside of you.

he moved his foot slightly, giving you the subliminal permission to fall apart on his brand new oxfords. you crawled forward, pushing your aching cock against his shoe. the abrasive leather sent chills down the length of your cock. riding his shoe like a dumb little whore always made jeongin’s mind reel. it took him an army’s worth of strength not to push you up against his desk and use you right there, but the sight of his pretty little pet becoming a brain dead mess over the smallest things was all he needed to keep himself in check. jeongin lifted his foot up slightly, pressing the bridge of his shoe harder against you, forcing a yelp to escape your lips and a flinch to propagate your body. he chuckled at the result of his work “you’re so pathetic.” he was right too, your husband wasn’t doing anything but sitting there in his vintage leather chair watching a slut get all messy for him and here you were acting like a total slut at his foot. you wanted more though and he could tell. with how intently he was watching you cover his shoe in precum there was no way he wouldn’t notice your glazed eyes darting to his hand every few seconds. from the very start he wanted to push his index and ring fingers deep inside you but doing that right away wasn’t fun for him, no, he wanted actually needed to see his poor pathetic slut make a mess all over the floor before he gave you what you really wanted.

in one swift motion jeongin stole his foot out from underneath you mid thrust, purposely denying your sensitive cock the ache relief it craved. in half a second his hand held your chin up forcing you to make eye contact with the man who made you like this. he clicked his tongue and nodded his head towards his lap, signaling you to lay down ass up. you did so, shaking ever so slightly from how pent up you were already. jeongin’s hands ran down your frame making you shiver. “so gorgeous” he muttered under his breath, grasping your hips tightly. a wash of cold air hit your side as he took his hand off your hip. placing his middle and ring finger in his mouth he made his fingers all wet, so he could slide them inside his pretty boy.

laying across his lap you could feel jeongins cock throbbing through his pants, your stomach was right on top of it so every time it flexed, you felt it push into you. he wasn’t going to let you touch it however. he wanted to loosen you up first, after all how were you going to fit that monster in you to begin with. a build up of pressure at your ass brought you back to reality, being cock dumb really does make your mind go blank. “open up hun” jeongin whispered. you whimpered as he slowly pushed his middle finger into you, feeling his knuckles graze your ass before he pulled it out. sliding it in again, you could feel just how much he enjoyed doing this to you. even if his entire hand was cramping he wouldn’t stop until you were begging and crying for him to stop. you felt a second finger slide inside of you (his ring finger.) the feeling making you gasp slightly as he bent his two fingers into a curve. his pace quickened when he heard the pretty sounds he loved so much leave your lips.

three fingers were inside you now, stretching you out. the rhythm jeongin had set was perfect… for him, it kept you right at the edge of an orgasm. every half a second the jolt of pleasure from jeongin hitting your prostate made ripples throughout your poor body. at this point you were crying, tears streaming down your face. why was he being so rough, denying you the sweet release you needed right now. your cock ached so much it hurt, twitching constantly making you flinch every time it even brushed jeongins thigh. he could feel the mess you were making as it had seeped through his slacks. precum ran down his leg making him flex his fingers, a tingly sensation forming in his brain in the process. a simple “fuck”escaped his lips as the beed of precum made its way down his calf.

flexing too much made the ache in your cock ten times worse but you couldn’t help it. with how precise jeongin was, hitting your spot every single thrust, it basically made a pool of pleasure in your stomach, waiting… hoping to flood your body when the time came. “p-p-please c-cum n-n-n-now.” those three words were the only thing you could remember in the entire english language. somehow even a slut like you knew what you wanted, with how clouded your mind was, the average person would surely think you’d simply lost your mind. of course this amused jeongin. though he was aching as well, he wanted to see how his pretty little boy came

over him. “what do we say when we want something dear?” he spoke softly, in a way that was sure to provoke your dumb mind. like you were programmed to say it “please” limped out of your lips, almost like a soft breeze. “what was that baby? i didn’t hear you?” “p-p-please” you whined. the strength it took just to focus on that one word was immense. the pain and pleasure that was in control of your body was almost too much at this point. cock dumb wasn’t even adequate anymore; it was more like just plain slut brain. the “good boy” from jeongin licked your ears forcing you back into that purely blank state. all you could feel now was the relentless build up from his fingers hitting your g spot and jeongins knee pushing itself against your dick. moving back and forth slightly gave way to your build up. his long fingers kept their pace, moving in and out of you at just the right speed. the sound of his hand hitting your ass filled the room along with your moans and whines. his free hand took hold of your hair forcing your head up so he could look you in your beautiful clouded eyes. “be a good boy and cum for me.” he cooed, forcing one last thrust deep inside against your spot. that single push was enough to break down the dam that held back every ounce of build up that was being stored. for how long you’d been at his mercy, your sensitivity was overwhelming. it hurt to cum, but you needed to. it hurt so much but it felt so good. your body contracted as you came, tears streaming down your face like rivers of the word pleasure.

once you’d finished cumming, and your high settled down, jeongin slid your legs down and hoisted your body up, turning you in the process so he could face you. “are you ok my sweet boy?” he spoke so softly, it was angelic. you nodded, your brain was still a little hazy but your senses were coming back one by one. a big kiss was planted on your forehead as he caressed your face. “did i hurt you at all baby?” “no…” you shook your head once again “but i do feel sore.” “ok hun, we’ll have a bath together ok? i’ll be gentle while im cleaning you i know you’re still very sensitive.” giving him a peck on the cheek you wrapped your arms around his neck, giving him the go ahead to sweep you off your feet.

(not edited if there’s a mistake lmk)

sannirio©

inspired by the lyrics of~

[genderqueerdykes]

I’m a trans girl who is older, fat, balding, and kept her deadname, and your posts really make me feel a lot better about myself. I’m so happy to see that there is hope for the world yet. You are so inspirational and your blog always makes me smile.

im soooo glad to hear that, you have no idea ; _ ;

you deserve a chance to be yourself, no matter what. it doesn't matter how you body is shaped, or what you sound like, you are you, and you are the person who defines that. women come in many different shapes and forms- hell, my sister is an AFAB woman and she started balding in her twenties due to high testosterone! bald and balding women are out there and it's time we accept it and realize it's just another form of natural human beauty.

i think that's extremely cool that you kept your deadname, i love when trans ppl keep their deadnames. that's so badass!

i am inspired by all trans people, but i feel the earth shake when i meet the trans women in my local community. i have met many stunning older trans women who are unabashedly themselves, going by their deadnames, big square jaws, no facial reconstruction or hair removal, no breasts, not trying to raise their voices and hell, even "still wearing guy clothes".

none of those things matter once you take the time to meet any trans woman- societal expectations fade away and you feel, see, hear and quite literally experience the woman before you. i want people to understand that when you take the time to actually, truly, spend time with a trans woman, you really do see nothing but a woman standing before you it's powerful, it's moving, and all it takes is spending just an afternoon with people living outside of society's shit ;) i felt like womanhood was redefined for me in the most liberating way possible after being invited into a big circle of transfem friends and i haven't looked back since. those girls taught me and continue to teach me what womanhood really looks like.

sorry for rambling, but i just wanted to let you know that you really are a valued part of the community even if things are intimidating, and that you deserve to be happy in your skin no matter what. a woman is defined by their soul and their mind, and i'm glad you are being who you are. keep your chin up, you are a blessing just by virtue of being yourself. take care, stay safe, and thank you for such kind words, we really appreciate them < 3

[sakumasmut]

Transfem mugi so true, may I raise you trans masc mugi?

-AFAB producer

I want to ruin him so badly, Tsumugi just desperately rubbing his clit into yours♡loving every second of your bodies being connected, the sound of wet shlicking echoing throughout the room, you can feel how hard he is as he thrusts into you as best as he can, dont kill your pelvic bones, mugi!!

I think he’d have a big, sensitive clit that get stimulated through his boxers, so late at night, he’ll just start grinding in his seat♥︎ feeling ashamed for getting himself off at work but can’t help but love the subtle stimulation

im so sorry

god I love this so bad I’m gonna think abt this for a while. I love the thought of mugi rubbing against his seat at work or humping thin air bc he’s so desperate. 10/10

[transfagsissy]

“you can transition twice” awesome. i read this and feel relief. “theres nothing wrong with wanting to go back” THIS DOES NOOOTTT FEEL LIKE GOING BACK to my assigned gender at birth. Like this is a different gender.a womanman inside a woman inside a man inside a woman inside.a man. I don’t know. I feel like I’m going crazy

"ftmtf" feels wrong "afab transfem" feels right in a weird way but also makes me feel like a crazy person like this is generally regarded as a bullshit identity like what if im somehow secretly just trying to “marginalize myself”. scared itll be perceived that way. there are times “feminine man” feels right but there are also times i find myself longing like hunger pangs for something that feels like womanhood. but i still feel like a gay man all the while. "faggot" feels right. "tranny" feels right also.

anyway i just feel so destabilized. all i know for sure is this does NOT feel like detransitioning AT ALL. nothing in common with like any detrans story ive read. If anything it feels like somehow …doubly trans.

I get intense gender envy but specifically towards femme trans women\maybe it’s about the meticulous carving-out of exactly the woman you want to be. and a (PERCEIVED … by me in my head) license to alter your body (generally femininely, like lip fillerand other cosmetic procedures, getting my shit done feels like it would be a process of my transition of gender presentation like just as much as the testosterone but…this seems impossible to me without feeling like people will think im detransitioning and not take me or my identity seriously as a trans person

like womanhood was something forced on me that i had to choke down and its taken me until recently to realize all the things i love about it and want to reconnect with. but still like in a deeply fundamentally transgender way.

it feels beautiful and transcendent in a certain way it's a shame i'm still so conditioned to feel shame for it all

[frothingatthemaw]

abt the trans stuff : it took me (<- collective "me") ages to realize i was trans, i started questioning in like 7th+8th grade cuz of dysphoria mostly and realizing it was a lot like what the trans ppl in my phone talked abt, and then spent like a year switching pronouns and names and stuff online like. all the time. i really came to terms with it in like 8th grade in a home depot with my dad i remember just being like. oh FUCK im a guy. and walking into a shelf immediately after.

but yeah basically i tested a LOT of names/pronouns online and used a lot of those like. blogs for testing names/prns? idk what theyre called but there were a lot of them in 2017 and u could send asks w facts abt urself and the name/prns u'd like to try and ppl would try them. also writing stuff abt myself in third person and using different pronouns to see what feltmost natural

for me i think it was mostly about like. realizing how much more comfortable for me it was to dress more masc and use he/him and stuff. and also art was really helpful like i would draw out how i wanted to look as an adult "if i was transmasc" vs how i wanted to look if i was cis and i always liked the first one better fkjff.

idk if any of that helps at all? but yeagh tldr just trying things out and changing names sometimes like multiple times a week. just doing whatever felt best at the time and trying not to worry abt if id still "want to be trans" in a couple years yknow? just taking it one day at a time and also projecting onto fictional characters and writing gay t4t fanficiton about them of course fvjkdfs

hi nik :D this is so sweet of you. thank you so much. i hope you don’t mind if i write stuff about how i’m feeling right now and everything?

like just an hour ago i had a realization that i could be trans in a girl way. i don’t like she/her pronouns but they/he feels right. i’ve wanted to test the name spen like as in spencer but just spen. i like feminine things but in a more nonbinary way. i don’t like the idea of being transfem in a nonbinary but being trans in a literal girl way feels right. but i also don’t want to transition like at all. i want to keep my body the same, i don’t want feminine part for myself. being in an afab body gets that release for me because it’s not my body but i can use it and still have my own. if that makes any goddamn sense?

i’ve not questioned my gender for that long, but all the things i like and want and see and feel make sense to be pointed at being trans in a girl or feminine way. and that’s so confusing and scary to me. so scary. it’s hard to face and say “i’m a girl but i use they/he pronouns and i don’t want to do any bodily transitioning”. how do you combat that fear? how do you come to terms with that inside yourself? how do you say to someone and explain how you’re a girl in a weird messed up confusing and beyond traditional woman way?

this is a lot, i’m sorry. i’m just goddamn confused! and scared!

thank you again so much for this? you didn’t have to do this and you did. thank you for sharing everything with me 💖 i appreciate this a lot. thank you :D

[wearequeer-andwearehere]

hi Aryan. hope today is serving you well.

im in a bit of a dilemma. im afab but i deeply resonate with transfemininity. ive always felt kindof... manish about myself. i never considered myself a girl or a woman. im not feminine at all and my whole body just feels so... idk how to say it without sounding weird or rude or whatever but know i just dont feel very girl at all. but i feel so drawn to femininity, and becauee kf that i sort of relate to transfem people.

i want to explore being feminine in a similar way to them, like i wanna discover my own femininity and transwomen and transfem people have really inspired me to do that for myself.

if i was being 100% honest, i sort of consider myself transfem because of my experience with my body and my gender and all that but i know as an afab person, calling myself transfem will make alot of people yell at me for "coopting the transfem experience" or "being transphobic/insensitive to "actual" transfems/transwomen" but I can't lie about what I know is true about myself...

idk what to do or say. ik youre gonna say i cant call myself transfem because im afab and being transfem is a amab only experience and label, so is there any other way to explain what im going through? thanks

It’s more you *were* AFAB then are—it’s something you were assigned and it happened in the past, doesn’t define you so it doesn’t make sense to use present tense.

And it isn’t a label exclusive to people who were AMAB, there are AFAB intersex people who were raised as male and are transfem.

Adfeminine is the umbrella term for anyone who is transitioning to femininity, whatever form that may take. 

You say you don’t identify as a girl at all, but you’re drawn to femininity, and I’m seeing some mental conflict here—you know you don’t have to be a girl to be feminine, right? Femininity isn’t connected to girlhood and girlhood only—people of all genders can be feminine and exploration of that femininity is not a uniquely transfem experience.

Honestly? I’d suggest getting more involved in the queer community, especially among gender non conforming people, and the queer male community, especially the transmasculine community. There are many ways to explore femininity without it being connected to girlhood or specifically the transfem experience.

I hope I could help you out, feel free to send any further questions you have! 

[intersexfairy]

Reminder that intersex trans experiences can differ from perisex trans experiences, and the way trans perisex people talk about trans identity and experience isn't always the same as or applicable to intersex trans people. This doesn't make intersex trans people's identities or experiences invalid.

Not all transfems/transmascs are born with, develop, or don't develop certain sex traits. Not all afab/amab people are born with, develop, or don't develop certain sex traits. Not all transmascs are afab. Not all transfems are amab. By extension, not all afab people are tme - even if most are. Amab transmascs still experience transandrophobia. There's more than just gender assignment - there's sex assignment too. There's more than just afab/amab - there's uab/axab (unassigned at birth/assigned X at birth) or aiab (assigned intersex at birth).

Intersex gender and/or sex assignment can be complicated - it can contradict, be incongruent, and change throughout our lives. Assignment from doctors can be different from assignment by our parents. We may be unassigned, in sex and/or gender. Hell, perisex people can be unassigned in sex and/or gender too, if that's what their parents choose.

"Assigned gender at birth" and the body parts we start with are not the only parameters for intersex trans people in terms of how we determine our identities and what to call the adverse & trans experiences we go through.

Trans intersex people may be a small group to you, a group you don't understand, a group whose experiences you never thought about... A group who you cant always use the ideas and language you normally use to describe trans experience for...

But that's not our fault. We didn't choose to not be included. The language just didn't include us - the words for most of these kinds of experiences simply don't exist yet. And I'm not saying to throw away any of the terms related to what im talking about - afab, amab, tme, tma.

These terms are useful - the concept of assigned gender vs. gender/identity is important. The concepts of transfeminity, transmasculinity, transneutrality, etc. are important. The concept of transmisogyny is important. The point is that intersex transness is important too

I'm saying to expand how you think of these things to fit the experiences of people who belong in conversations about transness, transfemininity, transmasculinity, transmisogyny, etc., whether you understand their identity and expreriences or not. The only way you'll ever begin to understand those of us who don't fit inside "normative" trans experience is to listen.

If you've ever seen and agreed with the analogy about not understanding LGBTQ+ identities that goes like "I dont understand French but shit that's still a language," try applying it here too. And well, if you can't. That's a you problem, not a problem with us.

TL;DR: The associations you have with the types of transness and the corresponding transphobia & agab, are not applicable to every trans person. Intersex trans experience can and does break those "rules", and we're not subverting them by existing as we are. The rules just don't include some of us, and we don't have the language we need yet. Trust us to know who we are, and expand your idea of transness to include us.

Transmeds & Exclusionists DNI. Perisex people are encouraged to reblog this.

[heartslobbf]

cis people will be like ‘oh you use he/him. so you’re a man? so you’re a man?’ and it’s like.. on one hand im like glad that people understand men can be feminine, but im not a man, fem or otherwise. idk. i think despite the infographics cis people repost, they do not understand there are categories outside of ‘man’ and ‘woman’. they’ve coopted both afab/amab and transmasc/transfem as synonyms for each other and man and woman. which is shit for all trans people but god im so sick of being misgendered and afforded zero respect for just…… being ambiguous in my gender. ambiguity is the thing that gives me the most euphoria, and i am constantly denied it. why, i’m asked a lot, do you present like this? because fuck off? it’s none of your business? again with the disability thing, abled and cis people don’t understand the relationship i have to my body, and how negatively shaped that can be by their perceptions. they want to fix that lack of understanding, sometimes in a well-intentioned capacity, but like….. i don’t need it. i need respect even in the absence of understanding. that’s literally it. it is not hard <3

[nothorses]

Why is it that (ime) every single time I see people use "cafab" and especially if they say it "cafabs" or refer directly to "cafab trans people" there's like, at least a small majority chance they're somewhere on the spectrum of "actually I just fucking hate trans men" and also sometimes enby ppl but I notice it in regards to transmascs more. To me it instills the same gross feelings as most dogwhistles lol.

Sry, sidenote about the cafab thing. Just wanted to say that those are useful terms with good faith meanings but jesus most of the time when I see people use cafab specifically, when not used as a self identifier, it feels so often like the person is spitting it at me lol.

(To clarify, I think “CAFAB” specifically is for intersex folks- the “Coervicely” on the front there was added, iirc, to touch on the medical abuse associated with this process for many intersex children. I’m assuming you’re using it as a synonym for “AFAB”, so I’m gonna use that instead.)

This is super valid, tbh. I don’t personally have gripes with the term for the most part- it’s a label that should be highly optional to apply to yourself, and it helps us talk about differences in trans experiences in general. I kinda watched it come around and evolve, too, as an alternative to stuff like “born [gender]”, “biologically [gender]”, or “[gender]-bodied”, and as a way to move trans theory away from the whole “gender vs. sex” idea.

But there’s definitely a tone some folks will use it with when they toss it around, and I think a lot of sensitivity to it comes from the whole “AFAB privilege” conversations from a few years back. The idea is that being AFAB is actually a privileged position, as long as you’re not cis, which is just... mind-bogglingly detached from reality. The implication that AFAB trans people are privileged over cis women is fully unhinged. 

And to be absolutely clear- neither AFAB nor AMAB trans people are privileged over one another. Lateral aggression is a serious issue, but this “AFAB privilege” idea is linked to the whole “women become men to escape misogyny” narrative that TERFs have propagated as justification for the abuse, harassment, and sexual assault of transmascs for years.

The “AFAB privilege” stuff died out pretty quickly, and didn’t get very big to begin with, but the essential ideas have kind of lingered in a lot of trans theory for a while anyway. I think folks keep trying to present the same idea in different words as time goes on, and imo, it has a lot to do with the popular idea that transmascs in general are The Perfect Opposite of transfems. Everywhere they’re oppressed, we must be privileged; which of course just isn’t how trans oppression works.

I get the exact same vibe you’re talking about when folks call us “AFABs”, anon. I try not to jump to conclusions about it, but you can usually tell from tone and context what they mean when they say it, and I think it’s pretty okay to trust your gut a little.

[intersapphic]

im the anon who asked about using transfem, im not actually sure if i would be able to side with transmisogyny? a lot of things terfs say do seem to impact me but from what i heard transmisogyny is a more systematic thing (like not letting transfem people into women's shelters, which most likely would not impact me personally). please correct me if im wrong though. also, im transitioning femininely if that helps at all, i forgot to add that in my last ask

It really does depend, because what terfs day does impact all intersex people, and I do know how hurtful and unimaginable it can be but I think you just need to ask yourself if you hold power over transfem people.

I can’t tell you whether or not you can use transfem because afab/raised as a woman does not tell me a lot. There’s amab intersex people who were raised as women by their families, there’s so many different bodies and situations and experiences that I just cannot tell you. If you mean you have hyperandrogenism and you were afab and raised as a woman and taking measures to appear more physically feminine, I would say no because that’s what transfem people have said.

I was assigned female at birth, raised as a boy until puberty, and I’m taking HRT and getting electrolysis done, but I’m still not affected by transmisogyny. Any transmisogyny that I do experience is misdirected or comes as a result of actual TMA people being targeted.

I’m not saying this is your experience because I have no idea at all, you could identify as transfem and I wouldn’t have a say in it, but it’s not a conclusion that sounds like you’re going to come to overnight. This is really all I can say especially because I do not know you.

[kinkymagnus]

a lil psa real quick

ok imma be real pretty much all my content from now on is probably gonna be trans magnus? it’s weird, i just can’t picture him as cis now. at all. and it shouldn’t be the default anyway, you know? but seriously, now that i’ve got the confidence to talk about trans magnus content, specifically with malec smut, it’s like i can’t go back dlkfgjdgflkh 

there will still be some already partially written stuff that was cis magnus when i started it and it’s too late to change without rewriting most if not all of it, but like, for the most part, it’s probably gonna be mostly afab trans magnus. i might dabble into amab trans magnus (not transfem so much as nb and stuff?) but we’ll see how that goes, idk. 

also i’d like to address i’ve gotten like... a lot of messages (well i say a LOT, it’s really only a few but it really feels like a lot, you know?) being... concerned?

i think some of it really was an honest concern about having their dysphoria triggered by explicit trans magnus content. like some of it was totally not malicious. but some of it also felt like this sort of condescending feeling. like should you really be writing this? isn’t it harmful? maybe you should stop. like, me writing about trans magnus and like, sex with a trans man who’s comfortable in his body, is... bad. like i can see how it might be dysphoric for some people but to me it feels... idk, empowering? but i understand not everyone sees it that way. but asking me if i’m triggered by it, like i should be, and asking me to write less of it, that kind of thing, is like.... no?

like... no. i clearly don’t feel bad about it? i write it the way i write it because i enjoy it, and if you don’t like it, don’t read it. and if you can’t enjoy it because it does trigger your dysphoria then i’m truly sorry, but you don’t have to read it. i do tag it, and it’s not on me to stop writing it, or write it differently. 

not to mention some outright hate, although thankfully very little, with things like “magnus is cis not trans in canon” and “magnus wouldn’t [x] you freak stop projecting” and “this is homophobic because alec is gay” and etc. there isn’t a lot of that, but even if i haven’t gotten a lot of it, i know it’s sadly not a very uncommon sentiment. 

anyway, this is a warning/psa/whatever now: i’m going to be writing mostly trans magnus content from now on. particularly nsfw stuff. i’ll probably answer asks and fill prompts with that in mind, too. so if you don’t like it... i guess you either gotta unfollow me or put up with it? im sorry fghfgh

[genderqueerdykes]

Is it odd for me (a probably perisex afab person) to relate to transfem experiences?

Like, I didn’t have a gender growing up because I wasn’t aware of it (i mean i was but I didnt really understand the depth) so I’ve always felt bigender in that sense but in my childhood i was also just agender. Gender didn’t exist for me yet.

Now that I’m older, and even though I identify as butch, transmasc/transexual man, and bigender, I feel like Im transitioning into femininity. I feel like I have the chance to define “womanhood” for me in a very genderqueer way.

Is that odd? Or like, not good faith?

that sounds like good faith to me! it sounds like you're having a transfemasc/transmascfem experience! or you can simply call it a transsexual experience, or a bigender experience, either way- but if the term transfemasc or transmascfem sounds appropriate to you, this definitely sounds like it falls under those experiences

the thing with transness is often times it's multilayered, and sometimes you have to transition into one part of your gender before you can transition into another. i had to transition into a man and heavily masculinize myself before i felt comfortable embracing my nonbinary & fem gender. it was impossible for me to embrace femininity before my testosterone transition because my body and voice just didn't reflect the type of feminine person that i am

i think you are having a very good faith and badass trans experience, i think for you, like many of us, you needed to make one change before you could make another. sometimes it's safer this way, sometimes it's just how the cards fall, either way, i'm glad you're finding yourself out, you sound like you've had a very similar experience with your journey of self discovery to mine! take care, i love hearing stories like this, have a wonderful day, i'm really glad to hear you're growing into yourself and becoming the most authentic version of you possible. that's the best thing you could possibly do for yourself <3

[kinkymagnus]

hey so this might be weird so feel free not to answer but i was wondering if you had any advice on how to deal with dysphoria (particularly top) im on my period and really struggling lately 💞

not weird at all!! i’ve been pretty busy so i’m sorry it took a while to answer but i totally get it !!!! 

ok also u didn’t specifiy if ur transmasc, transfem, or neither, but i only have personal experience with like, AFAB transmasc/nb sort of shit, so i’m gonna give advice for that and if ur not that then send another ask and i’ll...try my best?

- ok uh sports bras + baggy hoodies if that’s possible for you and you can’t get a binder i know that’s probably super basic but it helped a lot before i got a binder

- if possible get like. “guy” deodorant/shampoo/body wash. personally i like old spice. it’s pretty easy to wave it off as “i like the scent” and if it’s safe be like “yeah having ‘guy’ shampoo and ‘girl’ shampoo is dumb anyway, i’d rather smell like old spice then generic vanilla” or whatever. and honestly it’s so validating i fucking love old spice so much okay 

- listen to music, especially music that makes you feel Good. gender euphoria shit. i know i kind of like singing along to sinister kid by the black keys because it’s like “AND THAT’S ME. AND THAT’S ME. THE BOY WITH THE BROKEN HALO” which is dumb but i love it 

- cuddle with a cat and/or dog and/or furry animal of your choice. that’s more a general cheer up thing but it’s nice

- if it’s possible, talk to other trans people!!! having trans friends is the best ok and they Get It in ways other people don’t 

ok im sorry i dont have a lot of good tips but this is the best i got lkfghjflgkhj any followers wanna contribute?